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Hi, I've read your fanfic I Drank with the Devil.I'm wondering how you think the development of your fanfic changed sinceyou've seen Daredevil Born Again, do you think the original idea will remain or will many things change?
Thank you! ♥ (And thank you for reminding me I need to post the next chapter. lol)
So... my fic was something I came up with in 2019 (after watching DD S3 and Avengers: Endgame). I did a lot of planning around that time. And believe it or not, the MCU has already tried to step on my toes about what's in my outline. Especially certain parts of the Hawkeye TV series. (We agree a Fisk/Ronin encounter occurred during The Snap, at least. I think we disagree on everything about it. Haha.) When that happened, I thought back and forth over whether I should keep what I have planned or change it to conform with larger MCU canon. I decided to just keep on with my original plot.
In a perfect world, I would have the whole fic out before Born Again premieres, but I've suffered some writer's block and real life hurdles... so, eh, it is what it is.
So no, I'm not going to let Born Again affect what I have for my fic. (That's not the plan anyway. What do I do if they write something too good to pass up???) It's going to be full steam ahead as is, with a decent chance it contradicts their vision. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#Anonymous#Ask#FiskMatt#Thank you for asking about it#That is something I've struggled with#Since I like to play with canon when I can so a fic feels more genuine and realistic#Who knows maybe I'll get struck with such passion and inspiration I manage to crank out 29 chapters before March#That'd be nice#Well I have the next one done#And the one after is very nearly done#I'd say moooost chapters have something in them#There are only 5 chapters I don't have anything on
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Just your average male living space.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen qing#lan wangji#A-Yuan#wei wuxian#(***Content warning for me talking about unhygienic living conditions in the tags today***).#The worst part of drawing this comic is that I've seen so much worse. This is a livable space.#I've helped out friends and family who were struggling and let me just say...I have seen some pretty dysfunctional living spaces.#Hell I've *lived* in some very dysfunctional living spaces.#Hording dishes under the bed was always something that grossed me out but it's unfortunately something I've seen people do way too often.#The horror everyone has upon walking into WWX's 'living' set up is so consistently 'Mate how are you living like this?'#It's honestly so integral to me that WWX's 'just left home for the first time' house/room be a depression/dysfunction pit.#You can learn a lot about someon's state of mind from how they keep their living space...and this guy is oozing 'deep depression'.#I don't think he's eaten anything but foods that classify as a struggle meal in a year.#Everyone is trying to stage an intervention but he just isn't in a good enough place to help himself.#By the way: I want to steer away from shaming people who have messy homes/rooms because life *does* hit hard sometimes.#My love language is coming into your home to do your dishes and do some housework. Don't apologize for the mess king.#Nothing could top some of the places I've had to help my older siblings out of.#I'd be okay with my flatmate having a severed limb and a blood pool at this point.#As long as he lets me take out the dishes from under the bed - We're good! My standards are so low at this point.
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#danika doodles#I've been trying to improve my painting skills recently#I've always struggled with values so I'm slowly learning how to achieve something that's a little more rooted in realism#Gotta keep my brain active by learning something new :D#ace attorney
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#star wars#the bad batch#tbb#hunter#omega#I have been struggling with art sm for the past year#but the past few days have been a rare 'actually I miss drawing' period#the second one with omega is from early last year and I've been so put off by it- feel like it needs something extra#but rn I feel like I'm capable of posting it and not hate myself over it lol#sketchndoodles
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do you have any ghostsoap favorite fics, perhaps?
boy do I....
I should preface this by saying that I'm pretty...particular with what types of fics I enjoy reading (I only like certain character interpretations/tropes/writing styles, etc) so bear with me...
These are all mostly canon-compliant, non-AUs, ones that I regard highly~
Seasons--by StinglessWasp: This is pretty much my go-to fic rec for anyone into CoD and ghostsoap in general. It showcases everything I love about these characters, in a setting that feels as authentic to the games as possible, while also exploring the depth and sincerity hidden under the surface. So well-written and paced--the dialogue and military references all contribute to that 'feels like a mission out of the game' experience. Plus, I just love this interpretation of our boys--the humor, the inner struggles, the intimacy--Wasp 100% *gets* these characters and it's a joy to read <3
Except You, You Can Stay--by Iravaid: While this one isn't *technically* ghostsoap until the last chapter, in my opinion, it's required reading for anyone who gives a shit about Simon Riley. This is *the* character study--an intimate dissection of Ghost's past that seems so realistic and grounded, you forget how ludicrous those comics really are. Ira takes such care in treating these heavy topics with delicacy and effectiveness. Each chapter has you going 'oh wow, this is even better than the last', but as a whole--it's a stunning, fleshed-out glimpse into Simon as the character he was always meant to be. And the final chapter which eases you into his relationship with Johnny is so authentic and sweet, it just makes perfect sense that they should be together, and that this poor poor man deserves some goddamn love <3
bleeding in the house of god--by revolvermonkcelot: This is a really great 'missing scene' fic, a perfect opportunity to explore the in-between moments that the game so carelessly chooses to gloss over. I can't praise Monk's writing enough--it's slick and crisp and very tasty; the imagery just jumps off the page and you can practically feel the sweat. Plus, the dialogue exchanges between our two boys are so well-timed and in-character--love all the slang and British references~ This whole fic reads like an addition to their mission flirting, and I'm all for it! You can truly tell this author has such deep understanding and experience with this franchise (winkwinkwink, this is a joke) Read it--it's good!
The Dead are all Living--by Kabbal: This fic blew me away when I first read it. It's such a unique take on the retirement trope, I just adore this interpretation of Simon as an aging recluse while he builds his home. I tend to lean towards more subtle, grounded characterizations of Mr Riley, and this really fits the bill. All of these glimpses and fragments into his post-military life contribute to an overarching love story; the scenes with Johnny are so poignant, it's like you're pining alongside them both. I love how not-perfect they are; flawed and difficult and real. There are some moments and lines that just....struck something in me so deeply. I'm sure I'll still be thinking about it for a long long time <3
Portrait of Taction--by a_platypus: Another Simon-centric fic that I absolutely love. The character voice in this is off the charts, I can hear him so vividly in all of his inner dialogue and stunted attempts at conversation. Simon is so endearingly dense in this fic, you're just waiting for him to finally get his act together, but the clumsy, oblivious steps he takes in his relationship with Soap are truly a treat to read. I love this version of Johnny too--confident and considerate, but still hopelessly crushing on his superior. It's comedic, well-written, and the paragraphs describing Soap's journal give some of the best insights into his character I've seen <3
come on, haunt me--by flyby2: This was a really good long fic that I took my time savoring. What could have been a typical 'on leave' fic instead took time to develop a unique spin on the backstories as well as throwing our boys into some wholesome encounters. Both Soap and Ghost felt very true to character, and I appreciate the exploration of PTSD and the subsequent struggles that come along with...all that. There was a really nice balance in having their romance spread across the chapters, and I can promise a very sweet, happy conclusion <3
in the mess of it all--by flowersferns: A lovely one-shot that exhibits some of my favorite aspects of these two characters. I'm a sucker for 'one of them is hurt, the other is freaking out, they are both idiots in love, etc'. There are some really great dialogue and character moments in this, plus the overall prose hits hard. Love this take on their romance--the mutual trust, the familiarity of their bond. And just the general theme of impermanence--the inevitability of what this relationship means for them--two soldiers, willing and ready to sacrifice their lives at a moment's notice, still clinging to each other because...god...that's all they have---big fan of this :'D <3
Lapsus--by Lisbetadair: Another really great one-shot and 'missing scene' fic. The authenticity in the writing is spot-on--it's like you can feel Soap's pain right off the bat. I love how smoothly the banter flows between the two, and the attention to detail and references all help lend to that 'hardened military man' exterior. Ghost smelling like flowers because of a face wipe is such a delightful addition, plus the scene where Soap is, ah, donald-ducking it in just a t-shirt with his jewels out is such a funny mental image, I still think of it fondly from time to time. It's funny, it's surprisingly cute, it's very in-character. Stick around for some awkward but adorable cuddles <3
I'm sure I have more to recommend, but these are the ones I can personally endorse for now~
#asks#fic rec#I've never actually done a fic rec list like this before...#a small glimpse into my nightly routine of browsing the ao3 trenches for something remotely readable 🫡#funny how most of these are Ghost centric...#I'm *very* particular on how I prefer Soap to be portrayed and wooo boy...is it a struggle 😔
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I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.
It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.
#mental health#mental health advocacy#like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage...#...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them...#...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent...#...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us...#...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long...#...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL#the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate#be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough#recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage'#i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself#and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was#i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want#don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please#and just... give yourself space
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I see you
#genshin impact#genshin fanart#scaramouche#genshin scaramouche#stuff and things#userpharawee#I've been struggling with my art a lot again these past few weeks#it's so frustrating ughhh so manny scrapped wips and stuff that went straight to the bin. nothing to share at all#I hate it#so I needed to do something a little different I think#and I've been playing genshin a lot lately so this was only a matter of time lol#not sure if I like it but at least it's ... something ig
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The Curator. Her name is Gloria Beatrix. [Achromatic Loop AU]
She can summon close-ranged weapons [preferably daggers] using her blood as an offering to the tattoo of three crows on her skin. The Crows will give her a fraction of its power in return.
The tattoo can move anywhere on her body but is usually seen on her neck or chest.
She doesn't physically show up in the story until way later in the timeline.
#tsp achromatic loop au#I struggled to make her look different from my other Curator [White] from the Blank Scripts AU#I don't want to repeat what happened to my Narrators [Black and Grey]. Those two old guys are like twins.#but wowzers look at that#limitations to power#I never thought I'd see the day#I've already thought of too many upsides to my characters powers ahh I want to think about its downsides and limitations too#Magma has helped me out a lot in fighting art block#something about how low quality it can be is really nice idk#i like it. It feels like MSpaint for some reason#tsp au#tsp#tspud#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#the stanley parable#tsp curator#curator tsp#my drawing museum
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winged insect—funeral pyre
#sleep token#vessel#vessel sleep token#sleep token vessel#sleep token fanart#take me back to eden#tmbte#artists on tumblr#i haven't drawn since june#i struggle with my art so much it slowly destroys me#but i finally enjoyed drawing something#tmbte lives rent free in my head forever#the first time i listened to that song i broke down on the bus#in the last two years people tried to drag me down so hard#and i almost did go down#i lost each and every friend i had#(friend break ups are so brutal jesus)#but rn i think i finally stepped on the path of healing#and i try to do what i love again#so maybe this is me biting back in anger#but hey i wouldn't have seen sleep token if i'm with them still#SO the budapest ritual??#that i've seen with my own two eyeballs??#and heard with my own two ears??#and felt in my very bones??#broke me snapped me in half folded me up and then put me back together#(sorry for the rambly tags have a vessel and a bug <3)
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HELLO!! big fan of your animatics!! How do you make them and do you have any tips for inspiration, planning, and what software do you use?
Thank you! I'm glad you like them!
I think the realization that revolutionized the way I think about storyboarding the most is that you HAVE to let your imagination drive. I start off every animatic with super loose, super messy, barely legible sketches, with wrong anatomy, janky movement, etc. Instead of focusing on making it look good, I can just focus on setting it up for its potential, and starting my motivation at the highest point it can be. I never let my first draft take more than a few hours over the course of like 2 days max, or else the drive dissipates.
If I start a board right away with the cleanest, most beautiful art I can muster, I'll kill my own motivation, like "Oh god, in my head, I imagined a huge spinning 3D camera shot here, with a bunch of dancing characters. That last panel alone took me like 30 minutes to draw, I don't wanna do this! I'll draw a simpler, flatter scene instead." and then it ends up looking nothing like how I imagined, and I get demotivated before abandoning the project. But if I start with super messy lines, just barely enough to get the idea out onto a screen where I can watch it, the excitement and imagination will drive, like "Wow, this shot with a huge spinning 3D camera and all these complicated characters looks SO COOL! It's gonna take a lot of work, but look how interesting it looks already! I can't give up on this!"
For reference, this was puppet boy's first draft!
Storyboarding is a bit different from a lot of other visual art mediums because it takes a LOOOOT more work before it starts feeling rewarding. Learning to manage your own motivation is a huge part of building the skill that I feel a lot of people don't mention.
But when it comes to learning how to finalize it, study up on your storyboarding rules! Learn about perspective, anatomy, screen direction, and learn to draw FAST (that's a big one). Draw out shots from your favourite movies, study their composition and take note of their camera/character movement, and how it aligns with the shots sandwiching them. Learn from other artists (I recommend Toniko Pantoja, he's a very experienced board artist who makes a lot of videos abt improving your boards and what it's like to work in the industry), and PRACTISE! Your first piece of art, whenever you try anything new, is going to SUCK. You're gonna think its bad. That's just how art goes. But the next time you do it, you'll always, always, improve, even if just a little, even if you can't see it for yourself.
The biggest thing to keep telling yourself when making storyboards is DON'T GIVE UP YET. YOU'RE SO CLOSE TO MAKING SOMETHING COOL. And then you have to keep telling yourself that over, and over, and over, and over, through all the sighs, and the frustrated rage-quitting, and the exhausted temporary give-ups, and then eventually, those animatics you keep building in your head get to be real! And it feels incredible.
#I have been feeling very sentimental over storyboarding recently for some reason#I feel like I've been struggling to get to a point where it feels 'easy' for years and I've only just now cracked the code#honestly I think making puppet boy was a load-bearing task in my journey as an artist as silly as that may sound#because I've never made anything like it even though I've been dreaming of making something like it for years#and now that I've made it I know I CAN make stuff like this#so making more just feels easy#teehee I love animation and I love art#I love storyboarding and I love my job and I am so incredibly lucky to get to do this every day#I'm so thankful for all the opportunities I've been given to get to do this and I'm even more thankful people like what I make#feeling hashtag sappy#thank you for the ask!#maybe I'll make a full video talking much more in depth abt storyboarding someday#because I definitely have a lot more to say#mailbox
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Actually, the bars aren't so bad anymore.
Think you can fix him? Read about his care instructions over at Tiger Tiger)
#Tiger Tiger#ludovica bonnaire#rakkatak ann#I thought I liked him (in a way he has a great design and is an effective antagonist) and *then* he licked the spit.#Now I need to create a lab to study him in. My god. He gives me hives. I need to see more of him NOW.#Something is wrong with him and it fascinates me.#He is everything I like in an antagonist. A little bit stupid and unintentionally funny while being a genuine threat.#I call him rat man they way I want to see him skitter around on the floor.#Call him rat man the way he might need a little cheerio snack and some enrichment.#I am so...so tired and I am struggling to keep the jokes train going.#Please continue to read Tiger Tiger! Every new reader fuels my energy gauge.#Sorry I've been missing so many days of posting. I'll try to make up with some extra posts this week!
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Mission Report [12/27/20XX]
Brief: Nuclear activity has been detected in the ruins of research facility "Tartarus" indicating the presence of a working reactor. Investigate for possible asset retrieval and/or risk of the radioactive contamination spreading.
This is the 7th and 8th drones sent down. As per General ███████ of the Marine Corps, they will be the last for the foreseeable future if the drones end up mysteriously taken offline like all the others.
Fortunately, the Drone 8 managed to get clear footage of the unknown creature that's been taking the drones out (though, it was shut down not too long after by a sudden loss of its battery.)
It is theorized this creature is the escaped subject of Project ██████ once housed in the facility. It is unknown how it survived the explosion from 50 years ago.
Memo from General ███████ : "Change of plans. The higher-ups want that thing neutralized and captured alive--at all costs."
It's been so long. I'm so out of practice when it comes to painting!!
Design Notes | [SPEEDPAINT]
#sonic#sonic fanart#shadow the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog fanart#sth#sonic au#my art#deep sea probe saga#NEW PAINTING YIPPEEEEEE#several things to be said about this one. 1. I've struggled for a long while about the composition of merhog shadow's illust.#2. just the general struggle of drawing let alone doing a painting#3. I actually finished and fully rendered something yahoooooo#this illust isn't actually fully consistent with the design I made but. idc. it was about the Vibes not the accuracy <3#it's not perfect but I think i was able to capture the energy i wanted :]
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heyyy shoutout to the selfshippers who struggle with feeling lovey-dovey about their f/o(s).
maybe you don't think about them very often. maybe you can't imagine being affectionate with them. maybe you don't gush about them, or you find it hard to articulate how you feel about them. maybe you're not very active on your selfship blog, or maybe you don't have one in the first place. maybe you're neurodivergent or somewhere on the ace spectrum. maybe you're just independent.
for any reason at all, your f/o(s) would understand.
they know that affection is only one aspect of the feeling of love, and they would never assume that you "don't actually love" them just because you're less dependent on them. they would try to understand how you express your love in your own unique way, and they would give you all the space you need without crossing your boundaries or forcing anything on you. they would be patient and work with you to make sure both of your needs are met.
(pro/comship please do not interact.)
#self ship#self shipping#self ship positivity#selfship community#selfship#f/o#f/o imagines#i wonder if this even makes sense#idk. ever since i started taking new meds i've been struggling with feeling any attachment towards my f/o#which sounds BAD but it hasn't impacted any of my irl relationships and i think coming back to this community has helped#i think my whole romance drive has tanked. which is unfortunate :(#but i think she'd understand question mark? i dunno i'm just tryin to feel something i guess#oh and also#safeshipping#safeship community#i may be ace
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★ 105 // “Star of the Show”
#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#steel ball run#sbr#johnny joestar#tools used:#clip studio paint#ezgif#I kinda struggled today picking what offering to work on. Ultimately I decided what was best was to do something I wanted.#I've been really into drawing things like neon signs. and just using neon signs in my art in general.#So I thought it would be fun to do something neon!#Nostalgic for the part 3 Jojo prints I was working on that involved neon signs but I lost the files. I really wanna restart them!!#I didn't initially plan to animate this. but I'm so glad I did because holy shit does it elevate this.#It's kinda hypnotic. It's hypnotizing you to love Johnny Joestar. Is it working?#Shoutouts to Ly in my Discord for giving me a tarot reading earlier. I got The Star card. So that somewhat inspired this!!#offerings
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tiny animation detail from this scene I really like: rook glances towards the locations of lucanis and bellara's rooms (and possibly where they're most likely to be found in this moment?) respectively when they deliver this line!
(honestly I expect that lucanis is hanging out somewhere other than the pantry during this to give everyone in this unfolding catastrophe some space, but consider: it's so much funnier if he IS sitting in the pantry hearing this all go down on the other side of the wall like

taash stomps in with thunder and trepidation in their eyes like 'hey. I need vegetables. can we make vegetables happen.' and lucanis already handing them a lettuce and tomato like i gotchu fam this is literally the only thing I know how to do for you in this situation go with the maker and these salad ingredients I resignedly already know you'll just put on a plate with no dressing no spices no nothing. just the most sleep deprived caffeinated to the point of vibrating gently in place awkward-yet-painfully-well-meaning man in the world standing there before his friend about to have one of the most difficult conversations of their life like '...can I offer you a turnip in these trying times' while rye desperately treads social water out in the dining room to buy time. amazing. our lives really all do touch each other. headcanon passionately embraced)
#I love this scene honestly. it highlights all the ways taash and shathann struggle to communicate#(they are both people who are so exactly. themselves. for good or ill)#and has so many good 😬 moments for rook like they're watching a traincrash happen depending on how you play it#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#taash#lucanis dellamorte#jeff berg's 'then why did you leave' still one of my fave deliveries in the whole game btw. so soft yet so intense#I've been thinking about building out some more parental figures for rye growing up aside from renn (whomst still is DAD don't get me wrong#and I'm thinking a reasonably high-level watcher who rye occasionally gets flashbacks to while talking to shathann...#could add some delicious dimensions to it all haha#like the moment the watchers realized their little crypt baby was a mage there was a mage watcher set to keep an eye on them#because poor renn cannot be expected to deal with all of all of that alone. hello. buddy cop platonic co-parents#making rye into the person he is today (a delight (to me and lucanis in particular) and also deeply deeply neurotic)???#I'm onto something here baby. it takes a necropolis to inadvertantly fuck up a child#hello. lucanis popping his head out from the pantry after shathann leaves and saving rye from having to eat a whole slab of ham#by claiming he is also hungry and could throw something together. true love. partnership. rye clutching him like I owe you my life etc.#also a good thing to imagine taash surrounded by people who love and understand them after that scene#just. it's nice.
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george russell had a panic attack after the race in singapore and netflix decided to stick a camera in his face and film it......for some fucking reason
#i know he's currently in hot water with fandom side of things but this is something that needs to be brought up as WTF#as someone who has struggled and does struggle with panic attacks. they're absolutely terrifying.#worst part is that they're completely involuntary. it's just your subconscious and your body forcing you to stop there's NOTHING YOU CAN DO#i've gotten one before climbing a hill on what was otherwise just a sunny hike. if you're prone to them they can just hit at any time.#and obviously there's a lot of shame and embarrassment that comes with having one. especially publicly and these emotions can prolong it#and i just can't (i absolutely can) believe they decided to stick a camera in it#george russell#anti DTS#drive to survive season 7#drive to survive
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