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can't make it all alone
to rose ( @hereghostslive )! it's your tarlos secret santa here with a little gift for you! inspired of course by your prompt of tk suiting up again, and also by an anon request of tk and carlos being trapped in a fire, and also by the prompt 'raspy breathing' from my @anyfandomdarkbingo!
happy, happy holidays and i hope you enjoy!
ao3 | 1.8k | angst, hurt/comfort, big brother tk | title from fairytale of new york by the pogues
TK hates working Christmas Eve. Especially as it now means he has to miss the Reyes Nochebuena family gathering, but working right up to Christmas means he gets to have the whole of Hanukkah off to spend with Jonah. Itâll be his first without either of his parents, and though theyâre still working through the steps to officially adopt, TK wants to make sure that paperwork doesnât get in the way of actually being there for his brother.
Besides, itâll be good to do it all again. Heâs been better lately, and he tries to be home to light his momâs old menorah every night, but itâs been years since heâs celebrated Hanukkah, or any of the high holidays, properly. Not since he was a kid, really, back when he did it all with his mom. He doesnât know what Enzo has done for the last couple of years, heâs not Jewish so maybe Jonah has never experienced Hanukkah that he can remember, but TK feels he needs to do this this year. For himself as much as Jonah. For their mom.
So, heâs suffering through Christmas Eve to have the next eight days with his baby brother. Itâs always a chaotic shift, too many people desperately crowding the malls before they close for the holidays. There are electrical fires, pileups and road rage induced crashes a-plenty. Add that to their usual injuries and accidents, and it turns into the shift from hell.
TK hates it.
Around mid-afternoon, they get called to the mall across town, fire and medical both. Theyâre far from the closest station, so this must be an all hands on deck kind of situation, something which gets confirmed with every new detail that comes through.Â
The mall was packed for a Christmas Eve family activity, as well as the usual last-minute shoppers, when the generators powering both the entire mall and now the additional stage set-up for the choir had overloaded and sparked a fire. The subsequent panic had led to one catastrophe after another, and now they were facing people with crush injuries, burns, screaming children, and god knows how many were still trapped inside in the middle of the fire.
It would have been a nightmare on a normal day, but the holidays always make disasters so much worse.
He and Nancy barely have time to grab their gear before theyâre hustled over to triage where theyâre put under the command of the 122 captain and directed to the green zone, the less injured having been neglected so far in favour of the serious injuries, of which there were far too many.Â
There are only four of them working to help dozens of distressed people, a lot of them children, which is why TK doesnât hear it at first. But as he is just finishing up dressing some minor burns, he hears a childâs cry. And not just anyoneâs.
He just about manages to turn and crouch down before three feet of little brother crashes into him. Jonah buries his face in TKâs neck, snot and tears smearing his uniform, but TK doesnât care about that when his brother is hysterical in his arms.Â
Another paramedic, one he vaguely recognises as being from the 163, approaches with a harried expression on his face.
âI was just treating him when he ran off,â he explains. âWe canât figure out who he belongs to soââ
âMe,â TK interrupts, raising his gaze to meet raised eyebrows and a doubtful twist of the mouth. âHe belongs to me. Heâs my brother. Is he okay?â
âUh.â The paramedic blinks at them, then quickly shakes himself out of his stupor. âYeah, heâs okay. A couple of bruises, but nothing that wonât heal. Iâ Can I leave him with you? I gottaâŠâ He gestures to the mass of people around them and TK nods.
He returns his focus to Jonah and manages to pry him from his death grip on TKâs turnouts. Jonah tries to dive straight back into his hiding spot, but TK gently holds him by the shoulders and keeps him on his own feet.Â
âHey, Jonah?â he says. âCan you look at me, buddy? Thatâs it, thatâs it, youâre okay.â He grabs a wipe from the kit and carefully cleans up Jonahâs face, trying to stop his own panic from swallowing him whole.
Carlos and Jonah were supposed to be spending the day together today, to get used to each other away from TK. Carlos had said they were just going to the park, so how they ended up in the middle of this is a mystery, but the more pressing concern was the fact that Carlos was currently missing. He definitely wasnât in the green zone, and the paramedic had said no one had come to claim Jonah, soâŠ
No. Carlos is okay. He has to be. TK refocuses and smiles at Jonah. âJonah, do you know where Carlos is?â he asks. âCan you tell me?â
But if Jonah does know, heâs clearly beyond words now. He just wipes his arm across his face and reaches for TK again, and who is he to deny his little brother?
If TK could choose, he would find Carlos and take them all straight home, but theyâre still in the middle of an active scene, a fact heâs very quickly reminded of by the IC yelling his name.
âStrand! Gear up,â he commands, marching over.
TK straightens, still holding Jonahâs hand. âCaptain?â
âYou heard me,â he says, no-nonsense. âWeâve got someone trapped in there who needs advanced medical now, and since you used to be Fire, youâre the most qualified weâve got to go in there.â
The captain marches off without giving him time to respond, and TK feels torn in two as Jonah clings ever tighter to his jacket. He wants so badly to be there for his little brother, but Jonah isnât the only one who needs him right now. People need help, and TK swore an oath.
âHey, listen,â he says, turning back to Jonah and holding him by the shoulders. âSomeone needs my help, so I have to go now. But Nancy is right here, you remember Nancy?â
Jonah looks at him with wide eyes, but nods. Heâs spent a little time with the crew over the past few weeks, all part of getting him used to everyone for when the adoption goes through, so heâs at least familiar with all of them. Tk smiles and glances up at Nancy, relieved when she nods in understanding.
âOkay, good. I want you to stay by Nancy, you can help her with the other hurt people, yeah? Iâll be back as soon as I can, I promise.â
TK leans forward to kiss the top of Jonahâs head. His brother clings to him for a few seconds more, before TK is forced to pull away and he hands him off to Nancy. He spares one last look back before jogging off, grabbing a mask and O2 from the rig before following the firefighters into the blaze.
*
Inside feels like theyâve stepped into some sort of Christmas disaster movie. Thereâs a capsized giant tree surrounded by the shattered remains of baubles and lights, a warped version of Jingle Bells is playing from somewhere, and a cardboard cutout of Santa is slowly being consumed by flames.
Heâs led over to where a shop display has collapsed on top of a victim. TK can see why they needed him in here rather than transporting the patient outside; the firefighters are all occupied trying to keep the flames back and the victimâs injuries, even from a distance, look nasty. He spots at least one shard of glass impaling the man dangerously close to his neck, and thereâs melted plastic from the display sticking to his skin.
TK steels himself for an unpleasant rescue, one which he wouldnât be surprised if it turned into a recovery. But when he gets closer, itâs still so much worse than he could have imagined.
Because itâs Carlos.
Carlos, with glass covering his body; Carlos, whose breathing has turned wheezing and raspy, and which worsens by the second.
TK is frozen for a moment as he hovers over his husbandâs body, and that moment is enough for things to go from catastrophic to apocalyptic.
The firefighters yell, and feet stampede past, and all TK can do is throw himself over Carlos as a roar erupts in his ears and heat sears his back.
*
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Theyâre alone. His every nerve ending is screaming in pain and TK coughs as he rolls sideways off of Carlos. His mask has been knocked askew, but it doesnât matter because TK doesnât need it anyway. Heâs fine; heâll be fine.
But thereâs CarlosâŠ
And his kit is gone, so TK reaches up and removes his mask completely, burning air immediately filling his lungs, but he pushes through it to press the mask over Carlosâs face. He doesnât know if it will save him, but TK has to try, even if itâs the last thing he does.
Which it might be.
HeâŠ
But if Carlos has a chance, then TKâŠ
TK is fine.
*
The weight of it all hits him later, when theyâre recovering in the hospital, both of them miraculously alive.Â
Carlos explains to him later: they were on their way back from the park when Jonah had spotted some toy in the window. They werenât going to go in, but when he found out it was going to be a Hanukkah present for TK, Carlos couldnât resist Jonahâs pleading expression. They were on their way to leave when everything happened; Jonah, when he meets them in the hospital, is still clutching the toy in his fist.
His brother looks so scared and TKâs heart twists uncomfortably as he considers how he could have died today. They both could have, and where would Jonah be then?
Carlos was caught up in an accident; those happen every day, and they arenât always able to save everyone, but he was almost shot on the job a few weeks ago. TK was at work today, and he made the choice to try and save Carlos over himself. Itâs a choice heâd make over and over again, and not just to save his husband.
To save anyone who needed it. To save their family from imploding, and causing his own to do so in return.
And it hits him, all of a sudden, that Jonahâs world has already imploded. TK is all he has left, and if TK diesâŠ
He loves his job. But he loves his little brother more, and TK realises suddenly, painfully, that heâs going to need to make a choice, one that isnât really a choice at all.
Jonah, or his job?
He looks over at his brother, who reaches out to be hugged. TK takes him easily into his arms, and something settles heavy in his stomach.
Itâs a decision thatâs already been made for him.
#911 lone star#lone star fic#tarlos#tarlos fic#tk strand#carlos reyes#jonah morgan#tarlos secret santa#fanfiction#my fanfiction#writing#my writing
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@alrightbuckaroo the time has come and this is your @tarlos-santa gift from moi!
I just had a hunch that you just HAD to like bring it on, bc I fudging love it and I believe everyone born in the nineties or early 2000's, with a moderate good taste in movies must love it as well (yes, it's an official stat, trust me bro⊠NOT). Anyways, Merry Christmas/Happy holidays! hope this is worthy of Torrance and Cliff (my take ofc) 𫥠This was for the domestic prompt and I added Lou II because you can't ever go wrong with adding him :) !
#tarlos#911 lone star#tk strand#carlos reyes#911 lonestar#tarlos secret Santa#December is the best month of the year so I enjoyed doing these for you!#yes Im one of those#Also I was very exited you liked bring it on bc I was like YES#people pleaser here#fanart#my art#feliz navidad yayyy
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What begins as a tickle in Carlos's throat quickly develops into the flu, and TK is only too happy to stay in on Christmas Day to take care of his ailing fiancé.
Happy Holidays, friends, but especially to you, @chicgeekgirl89, for I am none other than your Tarlos Secret Santa! I went with your prompt: Either TK or Carlos (or maybe both!) wake/s up sick on Christmas morning. I do truly hope you enjoy this fluffy, cozy holiday sick fic! Also, a huge thank you to @emsprovisions for the banner. And a massive thank you to @tarlos-santa for this incredible event đ
Read it here on AO3!
#tarlossanta24#tarlos secret santa#tarlos#tarlos fanfiction#tk strand/carlos reyes#lana writes something
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Festive Friends- Read on AO3
Rating: T
Words: 8600
This one is for @strandnreyes as part of the @tarlos-santa 2023 exchange! I chose the prompt: AU - Carlos and TK unknowingly have each other for the office secret santa exchange. Up to you if theyâre pining idiots, âenemiesâ, secretly dating, or anything else! Hope you enjoy and have the most festive of holidays!
âGood morning Mr. Reyes.â
Carlos looks up to find the office intern, Mateo, standing cheerily next to his desk, a stack of envelopes in his hand. âGood morning Mateo. And again, you can call me Carlos. Mr. Reyes really isnât necessary.â
âSorry Mr. Reyes, Iâm just not really used to being like, a real adult yet I guess,â Mateo says sheepishly.Â
Carlos keeps a chuckle to himself and doesnât admonish the kid again. âI understand. Whatever you feel comfortable with is fine.â
âCool. Thanks Mr. Reyes. I brought your mail over for you.â
âThank you,â Carlos says, accepting the stack from him.
âCan I get you anything? A coffee? Oh! I think Mr. Strand has some new kind of energizing smoothie or something in the break room. Although, it looked kinda gross to me,â Mateo says.
The thought of that smoothie sends a shiver down Carlosâ spine. He hasnât known Owen Strand for very long, but his health nut tendencies have quickly become too much for Carlosâ taste. âNo, thatâs okay. I donât need anything right now. Besides, your job here is to learn about the business, not fetch everyoneâs coffee.â
âRight. Yes. Learning. I love learning all the things. Hey, are you coming to the office tree lighting on Friday afternoon? I heard theyâre gonna have those little pigs in a blanket.â
Carlosâ eyes dart back to his screen and the half finished email staring at him. âUm, yeah. Iâll be there for a little bit.â
âAwesome!â Mateo seems genuinely thrilled and Carlos once again has to bite back an amused smile. The kid is ninety nine parts enthusiasm and one part overly helpful. âWell Iâll let you get back to it. Lots ofâŠwhat exactly does HR do?â
âEmails,â Carlos says. âLots of emails.â
âRight. Sounds fun. Good luck with that!â
Mateo sends him a parting wave and then disappears around the side of his cubicle.Â
Things have been absolutely crazy at PD and Sons since they merged with 126 Designs a few months ago. Owen Strand had been brought in to manage the merger and insisted on hiring a significant number of new staff. Onboarding the new hires like Mateo has been a ton of work, especially since Owen insisted on being extremely involved in the entire process. Carlos has been in non-stop meetings for weeks and today is the first day he hasnât felt completely overwhelmed in forever.
He flips through the stack of mail, tossing a few random flyers in the recycling, and setting aside the important envelopes to open later. He wrinkles his forehead when he finds a folded up piece of red paper at the bottom of the stack. When he opens it his eyes immediately widen in horror.
What. The. Hell?
âLexi.â He stands up and looks down into the cubicle next to him where his work wife is busy with some kind of design project. âWhy did I just get a paper telling me who my Secret Santa is this year?â
âI signed you up because I knew you wouldnât do it otherwise. Itâs the season of giving and part of that means giving up your Grinchy ways and pretending like youâre interested in getting to know all the new people in the office,â Lexi says without looking up at him.
His jaw drops. âOkay, first of all, Iâm not uninterested in getting to know them. I just havenât had time to get to know them. And secondly, I hate Secret Santa. Nobody ever really knows what to get you, so you end up with all this random crap and candy that you donât want and it all sits in a drawer for three or four years until finally you throw it out.â
She finally stops and turns to look at him. âWow. Okay Uncle Scrooge. First of all,â she echoes him, âitâs not Secret Santa, itâs Festive Friends. Not everybody celebrates Christmas. Get your terminology right. And secondly, itâs not about getting good gifts, itâs about spreading joy for the holiday season. So take the Christmas tree out of your ass and start fa la la-ing with the rest of us.â
âLexi,â he grinds out her name between his teeth and quickly glances around to make sure no one is in earshot. âI got T.K.â
Lexi is the only one in the office who knows what an incredible disaster meeting T.K. Strand has been for his life. A week after the PD Austin and 126 Designs merger the entire office had gone out for drinks. One thing led to another, which led to another, and ultimately ended up with T.K. very naked in Carlosâ bed.Â
Theyâd been incredibly hot and incredibly heavy for a couple weeks after that, sneaking around together, making out in the supply closet, booty calling each other in the dead of night, and Carlos had been so ridiculously happy. T.K. Strand had turned him into a horny freaking teenager.
And then heâd made the mistake of surprising T.K. with dinner. Heâd thought it would be romantic. That it might move them from booty call status into something a little bit more permanent.Â
But T.K. had freaked out, stormed out, and shut Carlos out of his life. Thank god his cubicle is all the way around the corner on the other side of the building. They barely have to see each other except for the occasional awkward brush in the break room or menâs room.
Carlosâ heart has been more broken than heâd like to let on, not to mention his ego is bruised too. The whole thing has made getting to know the other people from 126 Designs like Marjan, Paul, Nancy, and Judd very awkward.. Theyâre T.K.âs friends. And he doesnât want to piss T.K. off anymore than he already has.Â
Of course he has to interact with T.K.âs father, Owen Strand, he is the manager after all, but other than that heâs kept everyone else at an extremely polite and professional distance.
So finding T.K.âs name in his hands is like a punch in the gut.
âGood,â Lexi says, surprising him. âYouâve been pining for him for weeks anyway. Might as well do something about it.â
âLexi, this guy hates my guts,â Carlos says. âHe doesnât want presents from me.â
âIâm sure he doesnât hate you. Youâre Carlos Reyes. No one hates you.â
âPlease switch with me.â
âNo.â
âLexi!â
âNo! I got Paul. I already have ideas. Iâm not switching. Itâs only three gifts, youâll be fine.â
âThree?! I thought Secret Santa was only one gift!â
âGod, do you even read your email? Itâs three gifts in the week leading up to the holiday break. This will be good for you. Now go away. Iâm working.â
Carlos sinks back down into his chair, misery settling in his stomach. This is going to be absolute torture.
He takes another look at T.K.âs scrawl. His writing looks hurried in a way that suggests heâs so excited that he canât be bothered to slow down and shape his letters more carefully. It has that same kind of frenetic, joyful energy that drew Carlos to him in the first place. Now the only energy he exudes toward Carlos is coldness.
Carlos catches himself tracing his fingers over the letters of T.K.âs name and balls them into a fist before forcing himself to read T.K.âs answers to the Festive Friends questionnaire. T.K. has written down that he likes sour candy, Harry Styles, boba, and interesting tea flavors. He doesnât like black licorice, the Mets, or anything with alcohol.Â
Carlos frowns at that. He doesnât remember T.K. mentioning anything about alcohol during their weeks together. But then again, they didnât exactly spend much time talking. Their mouths had been occupied with other things.
It feels unfair to have this scrap of T.K., to get this little glimpse into his life. These are things he doesnât want Carlos to know. He made that clear when he stormed out the door of Carlosâ condo and left nothing behind except Carlosâ fractured heart.Â
He takes a breath and squares his shoulders. Itâs just a stupid office tradition. Theyâre colleagues. Theyâre going to have to become cordial at some point. Maybe this is how he can start to smooth things over. Besides, itâs not like he has to talk to the guy. Thatâs literally the point. To keep it secret.
This is going to be fine.
It is not fine. Itâs not fine because Carlos is the type of person that agonizes over gifts. And in this case, thereâs even more pressure because the gifts have to be perfectly impersonal so they donât say, âYour dick was life changing and I donât think Iâm ever going to recover because now you hate me and I donât really know why.â Heâd much rather they say, âIâm fine and I donât ever think about you and that thing you did with your tongue that one time.â
Ugh.
He arrives Monday morning the week before Christmas with a gift bag in hand, a Yankees baseball cap tucked inside. Itâs a lame gift. Perfectly impersonal. And the rest of his gifts for the week arenât much better. Thereâs a small part of him berating himself for not doing a better job. He could at least try. The guy broke up with him, he didnât murder anyone.
But then he remembers how miserable he was in the days after T.K. had stormed out. Whatever. He didnât sign up for this anyway. T.K. deserves his boring gifts.
The office is quiet as he makes his way to T.K.âs cubicle. Even just the sight of his desk makes Carlosâ heart ache a little. Thereâs a picture pinned to his bulletin board of T.K. with their other co-workers, Marjan, Paul, Judd, Mateo, Nancy, and Tommy all smiling and having fun, clearly out for a night on the town together. Heâd known 126Designs was small and that was part of the reason for the acquisition; to bring on a tightly knit team to help their own, but seeing T.K. so happy with them all doesnât really feel great.
Heâs been so preoccupied by his own shopping that he completely forgot that he is also getting gifts until he steps into his cubicle and sees a bright green bag with little white Christmas trees all over it. He inspects it carefully, relieved to find thereâs no glitter anywhere.Â
He hates glitter.
Thereâs a little card attached to the handle and when he opens it it reads âHope you have a Write Christmas- FF.â It takes him a second to figure out that FF must mean Festive Friend.
He carefully extracts the tissue paper and looks into the bag. Itâs office supplies. Pens, post-its, a new stapler, blue paperclips, and a ball of rubber bands.
The pun on the card makes sense, even if it is as terribly lame as the gifts inside. At least itâs practical. He can always use new pens.
âHey!â Lexi pokes her head in. âOoh whatâd you get?â
He shows her the bag and she nods in approval. âYour Festive Friend knows you like office supplies. Nice.â
âIf youâre expecting a thank you for going behind my back on this, youâre going to be waiting a long time,â Carlos tells her as he sits down and opens up his laptop.
âPretty sure people with that attitude get coal in their stocking,â she tells him, flipping him off before heading to her own cubicle.
Itâs midway through the morning and Carlos is about to make yet another phone call when Owen Strand steps into the middle of the bullpen. âAll right, attention everyone!â he calls.
The ambient sound of typing and low chatter ceases. âThank you,â he says. âI just wanted to remind everyone that we have our first team building activity this afternoon. So if you have anything scheduled this is your last chance to rearrange. Mandatory fun is in store for all!â
Carlos bites back a groan. He is really not into mandatory office fun. Especially when it means heâll be in close proximity to T.K. But heâs also not one to flaunt the rules, so heâs going to have to suck it up and deal.
No one has been allowed in the conference room all morning and when one oâclock rolls around Owen waits at the door with a massive grin on his face. The man is clearly thrilled with whatever heâs cooked up to torture them today.
When Carlos walks through the door he sees why. The tables have been covered in red plastic tablecloths and every two feet or so sits a pile of materials like graham crackers, marshmallows, frosting, and candy. Itâs immediately obvious how they will be team building today.
âAll right everyone!â Owen says when theyâre all assembled. âAs you can probably guess our team building activity for today has taken a turn for the festive. And Iâve taken the liberty of assigning you all a partner to work with. Each team will be assembling a pre-determined part of our gingerbread village. Paul, youâre with Marjan.â
They immediately turn and high five, clearly thrilled.Â
âNancy with Lexi, Judd with Tommy, Mateo with me,â Owen flashes him a smile and Mateo lets out a whoop.
Carlosâ stomach drops. That leaves him withââT.K., youâll be with Carlos.â
Fuck.
âSend one person to grab your pre-assigned building assignment! Remember this is not a competition. Weâre all working together to build our village. Just like it takes a village to run a company.â
Thereâs a brief silence in which everyone internalizes what a dumb, schticky thing Owen has just said and then he claps his hands. âOkay, get to work!â
Everyone claims a spot around the tables. Carlos takes a paper slip from Owen and then looks around to find T.K., who is sitting across the room with his back to Carlos.
Carlos reluctantly walks over and sits in the empty seat next to him, all the while wondering if he can fake sick or claim a family emergency to get out of this. When he finally looks up at his partner he recoils in shock. T.K.âs lip is split and swollen, and thereâs a dark ring of bruising underneath his right eye. âWhat happened to you?â Carlos asks, a surprised reflex releasing the words from his mouth before he can stop them.
The look T.K. sends him immediately reminds him that theyâre not friends anymore. Itâs full of vitriol and misery andâŠCarlos looks a little closer. Pain. Thereâs a rawness there that Carlos doesnât remember seeing before.
âSorry,â he says. âI justâŠthat looks like it hurts.â
âDoesnât feel great,â T.K. agrees, his voice stiff. âWhat are we supposed to be making?â
Carlos looks at the paper. âPolice station.â
âPerfect. Way to read the room Dad. ACAB and all that,â T.K. grouses as he reaches for a pile of graham crackers and immediately begins squeezing icing all over.
âUm,â Carlos hems and T.K. stops.
âWhat?â
âDonât you think maybe we should make a plan first?â
T.K. sighs and dramatically drops his piping bag onto the table. âFine. Do whatever you want.â
âNo IâI didnât meanââ Carlos struggles to find the right words. âItâs fine. Letâs just try and get something standing first. Thatâs the hardest part anyway.â
They spend a couple minutes in silence gluing graham crackers together with icing and using some marshmallows to prop them up until they have something that roughly resembles walls and a roof. âYouâre kind of good at this,â T.K. says.Â
Itâs the closest thing to niceties that theyâve shared in weeks.
âI have a lot of nieces and nephews. Not my first gingerbread house. Although it is my first police station,â Carlos admits.
âCool,â T.K. says, then winces, his lip clearly hurting.
âYou sure you donât want to tell me what happened?â Carlos asks, feeling a little emboldened by T.K.âs compliment.
T.K. shoots him a glare. âYouâre kind of annoying. You know that?â
âSo Iâve been told,â Carlos says, trying to let the jab roll off his back. âBut I know youâre new around here and youâve obviously gotten into some trouble. Sometimes it helps to talk things out.â
He gets silence in return. God what the hell is wrong with this guy? Heâs literally just trying to help. âFine. You donât have to tell me. But you should probably tell someone before whoever gave you that shiner comes back to give you a matching set.â
T.K. goes quiet, fiddling with the icing bag in his hand. When he speaks his voice is soft.âI went to a bar last night.â
âAh. A little drunk and disorderly,â Carlos says, aware that heâs being snarky and not caring in the least. âSo you have an idea of how the inside of this police station should look then.â
âI wasnât drunk,â T.K. says quickly and Carlos remembers his Festive Friends answers. He looks down. âI just went through a really bad break up. Like nuclear bad. And then I relapsed.â He looks around and lowers his voice. âI relapsed with substances.â
Oh.
Carlos sets down the graham cracker in his hands, his full attention now on T.K. as memory slices through him. âI tried to pour us champagne during dinner. Iâm such an idiot Iâm sorryââ
âItâs fine, â T.K. cuts him off quickly, like if he gets interrupted now he wonât ever be able to find the strength to share this again. He fiddles with the peppermint wrapper in his hands. âEver since Iâve gotten here itâs justâŠitâs grey. And I just feel numb all the time. So I went out to a bar looking for trouble. And I found it. Big time. I guess I justâŠI wanted to feel something.â
Heâs pulled in on himself, his body looking vulnerable and wounded. Carlos gets it now. The overenthusiastic sex. His no-strings attached mentality. The complete meltdown during dinner. This is a man who has been hurt, and heâs struggling to find a way to heal. Carlos had unknowingly probed at the wound in his soul and T.K. had lashed out. It makes sense, even if it wasnât fair.
T.K. looks miserable and despite their history all Carlos wants to do is make him feel better. âJudging by that lip, Iâd say mission accomplished,â he says, trying to lighten the moment.
âYouâre really busting my balls right now?â T.K. asks, an unreadable expression on his face.
âNo,â Carlos says. âIâm busting your jingle bells.â He tries and fails to hold back a smile at his incredibly stupid joke.
T.K. blinks at him. âThatâs terrible,â he says, but he is also struggling to keep his face neutral.
âAnd yet youâre smiling,â Carlos says. He feels lighter, like thereâs been an ominous blizzard hanging over him in the weeks since they stopped seeing each other. Now it feels like the snow has finally started to fall and all the ugliness of the bare world in winter is being covered in a fresh layer of soft white powder. Thereâs a sense of hope to it.
âIâm laughing at how stupid it is,â T.K. says.
âWell laugh while you work,â Carlos says, reaching for a bar of Hersheyâs chocolate to put on the roof. âI know your dad said it wasnât a competition, but Marjan and Paul seem to be working on a second story. So Iâm not sure they know that.â
Together they finish the roof, adding on lots of dripping icing as snow and icicles. Carlos carefully starts to add windows while T.K. works on the landscaping.Â
âTommy I donât know why youâre trying to make me do these little details when you know Iâve got fat fingers,â Judd is saying across the way as he and Tommy try to add a steeple to their church.
Marjan and Paulâs apartment building does indeed have two stories and theyâve somehow managed to chisel out actual windows in the graham crackers. Lexi and Nancy are creating a ski chalet that includes a chairlift, and Owen and Mateoâs fire station sports a fire pole made of pretzel rods.
âThere,â T.K. says, plonking a creation down in front of where Carlos has crafted a front door out of Kit Kats.
Carlos raises an eyebrow. âWhat is that?â
âA snowman.â
Ah. Now Carlos sees it. There are two marshmallows stacked on top of each other and T.K. has shoved pretzel sticks in each side for arms. There is a lifesaver on each one and theyâre connected by a thread of Twizzler. âWhatâs on its arms?â he asks.
âHandcuffs,â T.K. says.
âThe snowman is getting arrested?â
âOr getting ready to do something kinky.â
âIn front of a police station?â
âSome people get off on a little exhibitionism. Donât judge Carlos,â T.K. says, a smirk on his face.
Damn it. They should have stayed mortal enemies. Now that theyâre talking again, Carlos feels the urge to drag T.K. into the nearest cubicle and kiss the shit out of him. He didnât need to go to a bar to find trouble. He could have shown up on Carlosâ doorstep and gotten into plenty.
Carlosâ attempt at a police cruiser has them both laughing; the oreo wheels keep falling off the rice krispie body (which T.K. snuck out and stole from the break room and has loudly been declared illegal by half the staff in the room) no matter how much icing he uses to try and stick them on.
âStop eating our building materials,â Carlos admonishes a few minutes later when he goes for another red gum drop and finds theyâre nearly gone.
âWhy? Theyâre delicious. Tis the season for sugar,â T.K. says.
Carlos goes to give him a look and notices a dab of frosting on the corner of his mouth. âYouâve got someââ He mimes brushing it away.
T.K. grabs a tissue and wipes, but misses completely. âNo other side,â Carlos directs without success. âHere just, let me.â
He swipes the tissue from T.K.âs hand and dabs carefully, taking care not to pull on T.K.âs split lip. Their eyes meet and a heat passes between them, setting Carlosâ bones on fire. He clears his throat. âGot it.â
âThanks,â T.K. says quietly.
They spend another half hour decorating before Owen makes them put all the buildings together into a little town while he snaps a picture for the company social media accounts. Itâs actually pretty adorable once assembled and Carlos goes home that night strangely optimistic about what the rest of the week has in store.
Tuesday is business as usual and by the time Wednesday morning rolls around Carlos finds himself excitedly driving into work, his gift for T.K. in the passenger seat. Heâs scrapped all his other gifts and spent the last two days looking for better items. Last night he visited a local tea shop and probably went a little overboard. Theyâd definitely upsold him on a few things and heâd let it happen because Mondayâs gingerbread decorating had put a kernel of hope in his chest andâŠit canât hurt to make sure T.K. likes his gifts, right?
He drops off T.K.âs gift bag and is only mildly disappointed when he walks into his own cubicle to find his desk is empty. It doesnât matter; at least, thatâs what he tells himself. Honestly, heâs not surprised. People are terrible at doing Secret Santa, itâs very likely that his person has forgotten him in the hustle and bustle of the holiday season.
He heads to his desk and gets right to work because theyâre all heading out early to help with a toy drive at the local fire station; another of Owenâs brilliant ideas to encourage office camaraderie. It means he has a lot more to take care of than usual to try and make up for the lost time, and by mid-morning heâs in desperate need of a second coffee.
Heâs about to get up and make one when his phone rings. Itâs Ernie, their security guard from downstairs informing him that thereâs a delivery waiting for him. Confused but intrigued Carlos heads for the elevator.
âHey Ernie, all set for the holidays?â he asks when he reaches the desk on the ground floor.
âJust about. Got a couple more things to pick up today, but then I should be good to go,â Ernie tells him. He nods toward a bag and a coffee cup on the desk. âThatâs for you.â
âThanks.â
Carlos picks up the white paper sack and has to hold back a snort when he sees whatâs written on the side. Hope the holidays donât make you âcronutsâ- FF. He peeks inside and inhales the scent of cronuts from Twiggyâs. Cronuts are a massive weakness of his, and a sip of the coffee tells him itâs made just to his specifications, a little bit of cream, no sugar. Whoever his Festive Friend is, they know him well. His suspicions are definitely leaning more and more toward Lexi.
He gets back in the elevator and when he steps off he nearly runs over T.K. âWhoa, sorry,â he says, holding up the coffee so it doesnât spill all over T.K.âs chest.
âLunch?â T.K. asks, nodding toward the bag.
âA snack from my âFestive Friend,ââ he says. âCronuts from the Twiggyâs.â
âThat place is great. Enjoy,â T.K. says.Â
âDo you want one?â The words are out of his mouth before he can stop himself. God heâs needy. âI um, I got two and I canât eat both. Theyâre really only good fresh, itâs not like I can save oneââ
âSure.â T.K. thankfully interrupts his ramble and the affirmative response sends a jolt of electricity through him.
They step into the break room and T.K. boils some hot water for tea before settling down across from Carlos at one of the high top tables, a kitschy little vase of fake flowers between them.Â
Carlos pulls out the cronuts and puts each one on a paper plate. Theyâre decorated for the season as little Santa bellies, and hopefully theyâre as delicious as he remembers. He slides one toward T.K. before picking up his own and taking a massive bite. He has to hold back a groan. Theyâre freaking amazing.
When he looks up he finds T.K. staring at him with an amused smirk on his face. âSorry,â Carlos says, feeling his cheeks heat. âI um, these are my favorite.â
âSo I can see,â T.K. says, the smirk widening a little. âThe last time I saw that look we were both way more naked.â
Carlos feels his entire face go red at the reminder. He finishes chewing his bite, trying not to let memories of said naked time take over his brain. âSo your dad,â he says. âHeâs really into the holidays huh? Weâve never had so many festive office events.â
âYeah my dad doesnât really do anything by half measures,â T.K. says. âI think he might be overcompensating on the holiday cheer a little bit this year. The move down here was kind of a lot and I havenât exactly been a bundle of joy lately, so heâs trying to fix it with cocoa and faux Christmas wreaths.â
Carlos takes another bite and thinks carefully about his next move. This new dynamic between them still feels tenuous, and he doesnât want to fracture it. But at the same time, he can see the unfiltered hurt in T.K.âs eyes and he longs to help bear the weight of it. âYou mentioned a breakup the other day,â he says quietly. âIs that part of why you came?â
T.K. blows out a breath and looks down at his cronut. âItâs the whole reason we came.â
Carlos watches as he wrestles internally and heâs just about to say that T.K. doesnât have to tell him anything, when T.K. starts to speak again. âI had a boyfriend, in New York. Alex. We were together for likeâŠI donât know, a year I guess? He was the first boyfriend Iâd had since getting sober and I wanted it to work so badly. Like this relationship was proof I finally had my shit together, you know?â
Carlos nods.
âI had this plan, I was going to propose to him. Had a ring, a restaurant, the whole thing. I was basically down on one knee and heâhe told me heâd been cheating on me. With his spin instructor.â
Something hot and violent shoots through Carlos. âThat motherfucker,â he says, before he can stop himself.
T.K. looks up in surprise and lets out a startled laugh.
âSorry,â Carlos says. âThatâs justâŠwow what an asshole.â
âYeah he definitely was,â T.K. says, looking a little more relaxed now, as if Carlosâ angered sympathy has put him more at ease. âFor a long time I think. I can look back on it now and see little moments. We only ever went where he wanted to go for dinner. He was always busy when I asked him to meet my friends. There was stuff I was overlooking because I was trying to prove to everyone else that I was stable.â
âI get that,â Carlos says.
T.K. shifts a little. âI went home after that, found a bottle of pills andâŠtook them until I couldnât feel anymore. My dad had to bust down the door to save my life.â He shrugs. âAnd thatâs how we ended up here. He knew I needed to get away, so he took me as far as he could get.â
He looks up at Carlos. âIâm doing better now. Well, kind of.â He indicates his black eye. âBut thatâs why I freaked out on you that night. It wasnât the champagne or anything you did. You wereâyou were so kind to me Carlos. I just wasnât ready for it. And Iâm really sorry that I walked out on you.â
The urge to reach over and touch him, to hold his hands and soothe away the hurt thatâs painted into the lines of his forehead is overwhelming. But heâs not sure T.K. would be into that so he grips his own thighs instead. âThank you for telling me,â he says. âThat all sounds really difficult. Iâm sorry I ambushed you. And Iâm sorry I wasnât more understanding when I realized you were uncomfortable. I think um, I think my ego took a little bit of a hit,â he says sheepishly.
âOh you think Mr. âI Know It Doesnât Look Like a Lot of Workâ?â T.K. asks with a grin.
âHey, that fish took me like three hours to make,â Carlos teases. âYou missed out.â
T.K. sobers a little and fiddles with his cronut again. âI think I missed out on a lot.â
Carlos opens his mouth to offer a response, but Lexi pokes her head into the break room. âCarlos, your phone is ringing off the hook.â
âComing,â he says, sliding off the stool and picking up his plate with the last couple bites of cronut on it. âAre you going to the toy drive this afternoon?â
âBoss dad said be there so yeah, Iâm going,â T.K. says. âThanks for the cronut.â
âYouâre welcome,â Carlos says and then hustles back to his cubicle, where his phone is indeed ringing off the hook. He shoves the last bite of cronut into his mouth as he sits down, chewing furiously before he picks up. âThis is Carlos.â
An HR crisis means Carlos is the last one to leave the office and arrive at the fire stationâs toy drive. He looks for T.K. as soon as he gets there, but Lexi pulls him over to a table where theyâre taking donations for one of the local food pantries.Â
âSo,â Lexi says as they fill boxes with canned beans and stuffing mix and mac and cheese, âlooks like someoneâs back on Carlos Reyesâ nice list. Although with the way you were looking at him, seems more like youâd prefer he stay on the naughty list.â
âLexi!â Carlos hisses, looking around. âThere are kids here!â
âOh they canât hear me,â she scoffs, handing him a bag of flour. âTheyâre all at the make-an-ornament station.â
Carlos looks over and finds T.K. hunkered down by that very table, laughing and smiling as he helps a couple kids glue pompoms and sequins to colored paper. Itâs adorable and Carlosâ heart melts a little at the sight.
âSee? That look right there. Youâve got it bad. You want him to jingle your baââ
âIâm going to remind you that Iâm your HR rep and you probably shouldnât finish that sentence,â he says quickly.
âFine.â She rolls her eyes. âBut you two did look pretty cozy in the break room earlier. The great branzino war is over I take it?â
âYeah we had a good talk,â Carlos says.
She clears her throat. âYou can say thank you anytime now you know.â
He furrows his brow. âFor what?â
âFor making you do Festive Friends and fixing your broken heart.â
âMy heart was not broken,â he scoffs.
âYou have been acting like youâre in the last ten minutes of a Hallmark movie for weeks. Time to finally realize youâre in love and kiss under the mistletoe,â Lexi tells him.
âJust because weâre friendly now doesnât mean weâre going to kiss.â
âOkay. Sure. Believe whatever you want.â
Thereâs a massive influx then from a church group and thankfully the matter is dropped for the rest of the night.
On Friday Carlos stops at home to change his clothes before heading to a local bar for their holiday party and the big Festive Friends reveal. He puts on a pair of dark jeans and winces when he pulls on the ugly sweater that Owen insisted they all wear. As far as they go, his is pretty tame, albeit with a bit more sparkle and pizazz than he usually goes for. It says Feliz Navidad in tinseled letters with some primary colored pom poms decorating the rest for good measure. It had been part of a family white elephant a few years ago and has sat in the back of his closet since for good reason.Â
He gabs the box he wrapped up for T.K. on the way out the door. Itâs nearly as brightly colored as his sweater. Generally he tries for a more sedate theme in wrapped gifts, but T.K. is so vivacious and colorful that he broke into the stash of wrapping paper he usually saves for his nieces and nephews.
Heâs nervous as he drives and he canât quite put his finger on why. Is it because he wants T.K. to like his gift? Because things between him and T.K. have shifted in a more positive direction and his stupid heart canât quite stop believing that tonight might be like that first night at the honky tonk? Is it because he feels very stupid in this sweater and he really hopes everyone else obeyed Owenâs instructions from the email invite?
Probably all of it.
Ah well. At least if things donât go well there will be liquor around to help drown his sorrows.
Thereâs immediate relief when he walks in through the doors of the bar and sees holiday themed knit-ware all over. âHey Carlos, glad you came,â Owen says, greeting him at the door in a sweater with a massive reindeer head on the front.
âMr. Strand,â Carlos says, giving him a nod.
âCarlos weâve been over this. You can call me Owen,â Owen says, a tinge of good natured exasperation in his tone.Â
âYes, right, sorryâ Carlos says, embarrassed. Didnât he just chide Mateo for the same thing last week? Somehow this seems different. And definitely a weird way to address the man who fathered his most recent hookup.
âGo ahead and grab a drink, thereâs hors dâoeuvres, I highly recommended the stuffed mushrooms, and then when the time feels right make sure you deliver your gift to your Festive Friend,â Owen says brightly. Then he leans close. âI got Judd a new belt. Italian leather, handcrafted, this thing is a masterpiece. He is gonna love it!â
âIâm sure he will,â Carlos agrees.
âOh! Nancy! Come on in!â Owen gives Carlos a pat on the shoulder and moves past him to greet her.
Carlos says hello to Judd and his wife Grace, his eyes searching the room and finally landing on T.K. who is standing at the bar chatting with Mateo. Carlosâ heart flutters at the sight of him even as he tries to figure out what the heck is knitted on the back of his sweater. It appears to be a long, yellow tail, but that canât possibly be right, can it? He takes a breath and then abruptly loses courage and goes to find Lexi instead. âNice earrings,â he says when he gets to her table.
âThanks,â she says, pushing her hair back so he can see them better. âTheyâre from my âFestive Friendâ Marjan.â
âGreat,â Carlos says as he grabs a chip from a bowl on the table. âDid you give Paul your gift?â
âYes, he is thrilled with the crime novels I got him. He hasnât read that author yet so hopefully he likes them.â She gives him a look. âWhy do you still have T.K.âs?â
âI havenât seen him yet,â Carlos says defensively.
âYou mean you saw him and youâre too chicken to go over there because youâre having feelings and donât know what to do with them,â she says bluntly. âAre you going to ask him out when you give it to him?â
âIâI donât know,â Carlos says. âThat seems pushy.â
âYou two were practically making out in that break room.â
âWe were literally sitting three feet apart,â Carlos says dryly.Â
âFine. You were emotionally making out.â
He wrinkles his nose. âThatâs not a thing.â
âI think you should ask him. Itâs Christmas. The season of miracles. And wishes. And Santa shit. This is your chance!â she says enthusiastically.
âHow much have you had to drink?â he asks.
She scoffs. âThis isnât drunkeness. Itâs my Christmas wish that you grow a pair and ask T.K. out.â
âThat is a terrible wish,â Carlos says.Â
âWell it is what it is. You wouldnât want to break a girlâs heart at Christmas would you?â
He opens his mouth to respond but Paul calls Lexiâs name and beckons her toward him. âThatâs my cue,â she says, hopping off her bar stool. âGonna go kick Paulâs ass at darts. Good luck!â
And with that sheâs gone, leaving Carlos alone with his feelings and his gift box. He stares at it for a moment and gives himself a stern pep talk. Itâs a gift. Not a marriage proposal. If T.K. hates it, itâs whatever.Â
âHey Carlos.â
Heâs waited too long. He looks up to find T.K. standing on the other side of the table, a smile on his face. Carlos can now see the front of his sweater. Some kind of lizard smiles at him, clearly the front end of the tail he spotted before. Above it are the words âMerry Crickets.â It is truly the most hideous thing heâs ever laid eyes on, but somehow T.K. makes it look adorable.
âHey,â he replies..
Excellent. Great. Heâs crushing this.
âNice sweater,â T.K. says, taking a sip of the drink in his hand.Â
âThanks. This is some party. Your dad is quite the host.â
T.K. rolls his eyes, but thereâs a fondness to it. âJust be grateful I talked him out of chartering a party bus. And roller skating.â
âYour dad thought our holiday party should be at a roller rink?â
âHe was going with an 80âs holiday theme at first,â T.K. says. âIt took a lot of bargaining to get him down to ugly sweater instead. I think he was an event planner in a former life.â
âHe definitely has a flair for it,â Carlos agrees. He looks down at the present in front of him. He should have gotten a drink before doing this. âSo um, actually, Iâm your Festive Friend. Surprise. This is for you.â
He slides it across the table and T.K.âs eyes immediately light up. âCan I open it now?â he asks eagerly.
He looks like a kid on Christmas morning and itâs so endearing that Carlos can barely breathe. âYeah, yes, itâs all yours.â
T.K. pulls off the bow and rips open the paper, lifting out the soft yellow sweatshirt inside. He doesnât say anything for a moment and Carlos feels a flutter of nerves. âItâsââ
âThe sweatshirt Harry Styles wore in New York last summer,â T.K. says. His tone is almost reverent, his thumbs moving back and forth to stroke the material. âOh my god. I have Harry Stylesâ sweatshirt.â
âIâm pretty sure itâs not the exact one he wore,â Carlos says, feeling sheepish. âBut I know you like him and hoodies so it seemed right.â
âIt must have taken forever for you to find this,â T.K. says.
âOh, no, it wasâŠit was no big deal,â Carlos says, omitting the entire night he spent on instagram combing through Harryâs outfits of the last few years and trying to find them for sale.Â
âThank you Carlos,â T.K. says, sincere gratitude in his voice. âThis is amazing. All your gifts were amazing.â
âI mean, that hat was kind of lame,â Carlos says, still embarrassed that he bought something so generic.
âNo itâs great! Iâm going to wear it the next time I go to an Astros game,â T.K. says, a twinkle of mischief in his eye.
Carlos chuckles. âYeah good luck with that.â
âDid you get your last gift yet?â T.K. asks casually.
Carlos shakes his head. âNot yet.â
âAny guesses who it might be?â
He has no idea. Thereâs no one in the office that knows him well enough to send him cronuts besides Lexi and he knows she had Paul. âNo,â he says. âUsually Iâm pretty good at figuring this kind of thing out, but everyone in the office is so new I havenât really been able to get a read on anyone.â
âMarjan?â
âShe had Lexi.â
âPaul?âÂ
Carlos looks around until he finds him standing in a corner next to a Christmas tree, laughing at something Lexi just said. âI donât think so. Heâs from Chicago, I doubt he would know about Twiggyâs.â
âJudd?â
âSomething tells me he wouldnât know about cronuts either,â Carlos says with a laugh. âI feel like it has to be someone who knows me pretty well, but Lexi is the only oneââ
His eyes land on T.K.âs face and he knows. He can see it in his eyes and he feels stupid he didnât realize it before when T.K. used that false casual tone. âYou?â he asks in surprise. âYouâre my Festive Friend?â
T.K. reaches into his back pocket and pulls out an envelope. âMerry Christmas,â he says as he hands it to Carlos.Â
Still in a little bit of shock Carlos carefully lifts the flap on the envelope to reveal a printed out email inside. âA cooking class?â he asks, looking up to search T.K.âs eyes.Â
T.K. nods, a flicker of nerves flashing over his face. âItâs bruschetta, pasta, and a dessert. A husband and wife team run it out of their home. I thought, I mean you obviously know how to cook, but I thought it might be fun.â
âIt sounds amazing,â Carlos says genuinely. Heâs always wanted to try his hand at homemade pasta.
T.K. nods and takes a breath. âI um, I got you two tickets. You can take whoever you want, but Iââ He runs his hands nervously over his jeans. âI know I fucked things up between us, so I was hoping that maybe this could be kind of a do-over for us. If you want?â
âYes,â Carlos says immediately. Itâs embarrassingly fast and absolutely gives away how badly he wants them to try again, but he doesnât care. âYes I would love a do-over.â
âYeah?â T.K. asks, his eyes full of hope.
âYeah,â Carlos says. A smile plays on his lips and heâs about to thank T.K. for his other gifts when something occurs to him. âYou little shit!â he says incredulously. âYou bought me those cronuts and then sat there and ate one like you had no clue whoâd given them to me!â
T.K. sends him a wicked smile. âI was counting on your holiday generosity,â he says.
âHow did you even know about that bakery?â Carlos asks.
âYou mentioned it,â T.K. says. âI donât know, it was the second or third time we hooked up. I saw a flyer for them on your fridge and you told me how good they were.â
âYou remember that?â Carlos asks in surprise. After their blowup heâd convinced himself that he was just a warm body for T.K. to be with, another notch in his bedpost whoâd meant nothing to him.
T.K. looks at him, his face serious. âI remember all of it Carlos.â
The words make his heart swell and he hysterically wonders if this is how the Grinch felt when he heard the Whoâs singing on Christmas. âI remember too,â he says. âIt was incredible.â
âThat first night, in the honky tonk. Best bathroom hookup of my life,â T.K. tells him.
âOnly bathroom hookup of my life,â Carlos says.
âYeah, I know,â T.K. says with a roll of his eyes.
âHow could you know that?â
âBecause you kept looking around like it was the most unsanitary thing youâd ever seen in your life,â T.K. tells him. âSo I made it my mission to make you forget all about it. Pretty sure I succeeded.â
Carlos flushes as he thinks about T.K.âs mouth and his hands and the way they felt on his body. âYou definitely did.â His gaze drops to T.K.âs lips. âGod, I want to kiss you so badly right now.â
T.K. smirks, clearly please that heâs turned Carlos on in the middle of this bar. âWhatâs stopping you?â
âUm the fact that all of our co-workers are here. And also your dad,â Carlos says with a laugh.
As if on cue Owenâs voice rings out over the crowd. âAll right everyone!â He claps his hands a couple times. âIf I could have everyoneâs attention please! Thank you all for coming to the 126 Designs holiday party. I have a little surprise up my sleeve. Tonight, we are going to be participating in some holiday karaoke!â
A bar employee rolls a karaoke machine in out of nowhere to cheers from the crowd. âDid you know?â Carlos asks.
âNo,â T.K. says. âBut I canât say Iâm surprised.â
âGet on over here!â Owen encourages them. âJudd! Letâs hear a little Deck the Halls buddy!â
âCome on.â
T.K. reaches for Carlosâ hand and pulls him toward a side door. âWait, what about karaoke?â Carlos asks.
âDo you really want to stay here and listen to my dad attempt a version of Santa Claus is Coming to Town?â
Carlos considers this. âActuallyâŠâ
T.K. laughs and tugs him again. âCome on Reyes.â
They step outside into the night, the door closing behind them. Itâs quiet and the air has a slight chill. Nothing that would even hint at a white Christmas, but enough that it feels like the holiday season instead of the dead of summer. A few stars have managed to permeate the light pollution and the moon shines brightly above them.
The side of the restaurant is lit by a single streetlamp, giving them just enough light to see each other, but also the illusion of privacy from anyone else who might be walking by. T.K. leans against the brick of the wall and tugs Carlos toward him, dropping his hand so he can grab his waist, his thumb pressing into the crease between Carlosâ thigh and his hip through his pants. âWell,â T.K. says, the cocky ass smirk on his face that shoots something hot through Carlosâ veins. âGo ahead. Kiss away.â
Carlos looks around in fake concern. âMmm, I donât know. Someone could still see us out here.â
âDonât worry,â T.K. pulls a sprig of mistletoe from his pocket and dangles it over their heads. âI swiped this from inside. Now you have to kiss me. Christmas rules.â
âOh is that right?â Carlos asks with smile, pressing in a little closer, and lifting a hand to run it through T.K.âs hair before sliding it down to cradle the back of his neck.
âDefinitely,â T.K. says.
Carlos doesnât waste another second before leaning in and fitting their lips together. The sparks inside him whirl and dance before bursting into full on flames. It feels like coming home.Â
T.K. opens up and invites him in, their bodies coming flush together, searching for as much contact as possible. Carlos fists one hand into T.K.âs hair, the other landing solidly on his lower back and urging him closer, while T.K.âs roam everywhere, traveling Carlosâ biceps, his chest, his back, his ass, and everything in between.Â
Carlos slots a thigh between T.K.âs legs, pressing into him and T.K.âs head falls back against the wall, eyes closing as he lets out something between a groan and a sigh. Carlos smiles and uses the change in position to press kisses into the sensitive spot just below his ear. âI missed you,â he says in between breaths.
âI missed you too. Am I going to have to report this to HR?â T.K. asks.
Carlos pauses and pulls back, sending T.K. a withering look. âHaha,â he says dryly. âThanks for reminding me that Iâm going to have my hands full with this one in the new year.â
âMy ass is quite a handful,â T.K. says with a smirk. âBut you can handle it. Itâs just a little bit of paperwork. And someone got you really nice pens for the holidays.â
âYeah someone did,â Carlos says, poking him in the side until he squirms. âSpeaking of paperwork, you owe me a thank you note for your gifts.â
T.K. bites his lip. âWhy donât you take me back to your place and Iâll do a little better than a thank you note?â
Fuck. Carlos swallows hard. âWhat about the party? Wonât your dad be upset?â
âIâm spending Christmas day with him. Heâll live.â He slides a finger along the waistband of Carlosâ jeans. âWe can go back in if you really want to though. I do a mean rendition of Jingle Bell Rock. We can stand in there with all of our co-workers and you can try not to think about how good Iâd make you feel if the two of us were in bed together.â
Carlos strokes a thumb across T.K.âs cheek. âAs much as I would like to hear you sing Jingle Bell Rock, I think Iâd rather take you home.â
T.K. gestures toward the street. âThen lead on Festive Friend.â
Itâs the merriest Christmas Carlos has had in a long time.Â
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So I'm two days late with Starbucks, but I'm here. (Does this count toward Seven Sentence Sunday?)
The Reyes family has opened their hearts to him in so many ways. Tonight, TKâs determined to open their home in return, no matter how clueless â or Carlos-less â he might find himself in the process.
Three days of discovering new traditions.
âOkay,â TK says, frowning up at the underside of his favorite jawline, âIâm confused. I thought there were twelve days of Christmas.â
In general, this is a love letter to the mass insanity that is the Mexican holiday season. Specifically, it's a @tarlos-santa gift especially for @sugdenlovesdingle!
esta noche es de alegrĂa (read on AO3)
Itâs technically a three-parter, but could be read as a slice-of-life standalone. Will update again on Saturday, and finish up the Saturday after that.
As always, huge thank you to @ambiguouspenny for all the support in my time of flailing (especially since they were plotting in the process).
Merry Christmas Eve to all those who celebrate!
#tarlos fic#911 lone star fic#tarlos secret santa#my fic#esta noche es de alegrĂa#feliz nochebuena#damn i love writing holiday stories
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Homesick Christmas (Tarlos Secret Santa)
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Summary: Traveling was not Carlos's favorite thing. He much preferred being home. Being with family. But, with Christmas being a bit different this year, TK has suggested a Christmas getaway for the two of them, complete with snow and a Christmas market in the mountains. It should be perfect. Even if it isn't what he really would want for himself. But, maybe, just maybe, TK can make it even better, and prove that home is more than just a place.
Merry Christmas @bonheur-cafe! I hope you enjoy my take on your prompts. I apologize for not reaching out during the challenge to ask for more info. Time got away from me a bit this year. This is honestly the first thing I've written in six months. Much like Carlos, I'm a bit more aware of grief this year after losing someone this summer.
I tried to do a mix of two of the prompts from @tarlos-santa: Scenario 1: Carlos and TK are traveling for the holidays; Carlos' disdain for travel because he gets homesick comes to light. Scenario 2: A warm, comforting meal eaten on a miserably cold day. Some cuddling is also in order. Special thanks to @lire-casander and @marjansmarwani for putting up with me writing for the first time in months and helping, as always.
He sat on the couch looking through his laptop. Clicking through tabs left and right. He had to make things perfect this year. He had to. He just wanted to find the perfect Christmas getaway. They needed it. Now more than ever. Neither of them would say it had been the best year, even with one of the best days of their life happening with the wedding. But, the rest of it⊠They had great hopes for it when it started. After all, they were still riding the high of a new engagement. Excited and ready to take on all that would come. Sure, theyâd had rough years. Between shootings, dunks under ice, losing the firehouseâŠthey didnât think things could get much worse. Even after everything with Gwyn.  But, they were wrong. They couldnât have predicted what they faced over the past year. They didnât expect kidnappings (againâŠ) or Owen to deal with the FBI (maybe that should have been more obviousâŠ) or to lose Gabriel (that one seemed to sting the mostâŠ). His eyes left his laptop and stared across the room at the bookcase. The picture from the rehearsal dinner sat proudly in the middle, for everyone to see. For them to remember the last night they had with the man. It had been perfect. He smiled sadly to himself and sighed once more. He tapped out a nervous rhythm on his keyboard and gazed back down at the tabs in front of him. Vacation spots stared back at him. Everything from resorts boasting great Christmas vibes in various states to beach houses that would offer some privacy to ski lodges that would offer a snowy holiday. Continued on AO3
#tarlos#Tarlos Secret Santa#911 lone star#tk strand#carlos reyes#tarlos fanfic#moviegeek03 fanfiction#911 lone star fic
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helloooo itâs your tarlos secret santa! loving your prompts, i just have one question (for now) - do you want angst or would you rather i avoid? oh and also (sorry apparently i do have more questions) do you want a predominantly tarlos focus or are their other characters/pairings youâd like to see?
helloooooooooo !!!
im good with angst, as long as it ends on a good to bittersweet note.
tarlos-focus, but i love when the other characters are involved too.
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Hello again, this is your Tarlos Secret Santa đ„°
I just wanted to send an ask again to make sure that you got my last one where I asked some questions about your prompts to make sure that I start off in the right direction with them in your gifs, and donât risk following an idea that you may not like!
I completely understand if youâve been busy or something else, I just wanted to make sure that you got the ask otherwise Iâll send a new one!:) if you didnât want to reply to the ask and thus put all your prompts and answers on your blog then Iâm sure you could ask the mods to forward them to me:)
Sending you all the well wishes times double, in case you didnât get them in my previous askâșïž
- Hugs, from Your Secret Santa đ
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Hi! I did reply!!! Itâs here! If you canât see it or need me to answer more questions, please lmk and Iâll send it through the mods!
Thank you for being so considerate and kind. *hugs* đ
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and the silence sets me free
rating: mature
word count: 7k
summary:
Six months after his father's death, Carlos is still struggling and has started to close off from the rest of his family. With Christmas coming up and a family dinner he'd rather avoid, a last minute favor brings him and TK to the ranch. Carlos learns that hiding out here isn't as easy as he thought it would be, and with a little help from his relentless husband, he faces the fears that are holding him back from the holidays.
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This is my secret santa gift for the lovely @eclectic-sassycoweyes!
Thank you @herefortarlos for beta reading, and thank you @tarlos-santa for organizing this event.
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I found a gift that's perfect, and you're more than worth it
Read here on AO3 now! đđ
My Secret Santa fic is for @sugdenlovesdingle I had so much fun creating this for you and I hope you like it! I wish you a happy and peaceful holiday season â€ïž
Prompt and summary: When both TK and Carlos pick out the same Christmas gift for the other without them knowing, lots of holiday fluff follows.
Thank you @tarlos-santa for organizing this whole thing for everyone. An extra huge thanks to @laelipoo for the beta reading and cheering me on and even helping me pick the title. And also thanks to @bonheur-cafe @lemonlyman-dotcom and others in discord for cheering me on to write this too đđđ
#tarlossanta24#tarlossanta#tarlos fanfic#911 lone star fanfiction#i bet you didnt expect it was me Bijou! đ€đ#secret santa fic
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hey cig!! just wanted to pop in and say i read over your secret santa prompts and iâve already got a few ideas! just wondering if you had any absolute must-haves or things youâd love to see beyond whatâs listed? canât wait to get started!
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Hello lovely secret person!!! Oh this made me so excited!!!! I'm so delighted you already have ideas ahhhh!!!!!! Honestly I'm super happy for you to take the prompts as they stand and let your own ideas flourish. I don't want to restrict you any further than I already potentially have, or force you to shoehorn in anything. But IF and only IF it would work based on what you create: I have a thing about Tarlos bickering over who the big and little spoon is going to be, and it would fun for a discussion around that to be included. Basically I love it when they banter and the banter is about how much they adore each other.
Ultimately, please have an absolute blast writing this - I know it's not always easy writing to prompts and there's no pressure or expectation from me for it to be on the longer side or for you to keep going if your heart isn't in it!
For you, my favourite Tarlos kiss:
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Yâall.
I hath been blindsided.
Someday, perhaps I will fully explain how this happened from my side. For now, I need you all to understand just how deeply Tay incepted me. They told me a false recipient. They made up prompts. They picked my brain on my perfect personal version of Vampire!Carlos. They asked me to describe the fabric in the source picture.
I am verklempt. I am undone. I am so, so not okay.
I know the art is beyond gorgeous and wildly distracting â look at Carlosâ skin! â but seriously, go read the fic. Itâs rich and hot and a little achy, and altogether absolutely perfect.
TayTay my love, the world could not have given me a better Santa. I hope you understand that I will be killing you when next we meet.

âTK,â Carlos begs as they walk through their front door. Thereâs a pang of loss as he watches TK shrug out of his suit jacket with his back turned toward him. âI canât read your mind, you have to tell me what I did wrong.â TK lets out a harsh laugh. âBut you can, you literally can read my mind, youâre a fucking vampire, Carlos.â
Starvin' Darlin'
A Gift for one @freneticfloetry for the Tarlos Secret Santa Exchange 2023
Based loosely on the prompt: The boys run into someone Carlos used to hook up with, and jealousy rears its ugly head. (with some supernatural liberties taken.)
#this is the second time tay has done this to me#the first involved several sentimental items i had lost in a flood and a nineteenth century french pencil box#i hate you#(affectionate)#tarlos secret santa#fic rec#fan art#the noises i made#my friends are so talented
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there is so much new fic I legitimately donât know where to start.
this is such a good problem to have.
#itâs gonna be a long night#tarlos secret santa#yâall have the nerve to be talented AND prolific?
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me: I'm going to FINALLY finish this damn fic and I will not rest before it's done
my dog: no rest you said? I can make that happen.
my dog: whining, meeping, groaning, growling, being an absolute MENACE whenever I type more than 3 words in a row and don't pay attention to him
#my tarlos secret santa fic is soooo late#I'm an embarrassment to the fandom#and also bad at planning
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Hi it's your Tarlos Secret Santa checking in.
I just wanted to check a couple of things with you about your prompts to help me out.
For the meet cute how do you feel about an AU meet cute or do you prefer in Canon/ canon adjacent? Also what part of a meet cute specifically are you thinking....I'm kinda struggling a bit to come up with something.
And for the fantasy/fairytale au prompt is there anything in particular you really really don't want. Like specific fantasy shows or movies that are just really no go's?
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so sweet of you to check in with me - I'm sorry it took me a bit to get back to you, it was my dad's 70th birthday yesterday so... lots of RL stuff going on.
Anyway, let's get to your questions:
The meet-cute setting
I'm a big fan of meet-cutes (or even meet-uglies) in general, no matter the setting. I do love the canon world our two boys live in but if there's an AU you've always been meaning to write, I'm only all too eager to read it. If you would force me to decide đ€ mhh, I guess currently, a cute AU with canon undertones would be my first choice. But truly, go in whichever direction you prefer cause I'll love reading it either way.
What part of a meet-cute am thinking
Oh, that's a tough question đ€ I do like those where they meet "in action", either helping/saving each other (like, imagine Carlos saving the paramedics in S2E8 and this is how Tarlos meets) or a third person (for example, if the incident with the bus driver in the season 1 finale would've been their first meeting), but I also love fluffy stuff, like both of them reaching for the last donut on display or whatever. Also very cute: the ones where an animal or a kid is the reason for them meeting for the first time... Buttercup running up to a stranger (Carlos)? Carlos' nephew falling off a tree and a cute stranger helping cause he's a paramedic? Yeah, these kinds of things đ„° But please know that all these examples just came to me right now - you're not obligated to use any of them, they're just here to show you the kind of things I like.
no-no fantasy/fairytales
Honestly, not that I can think of. I love the world of fantasy and fairytales... maybe not the dark undertones and "deeper darker meanings" (yes, I studied those at university, don't make the same mistake) but the general plot of quests that have to be conquered, of being able to overcome struggles so that it all always reaches a happy end, of the couple coming out of any obstacles victoriously - you know, something positive compared to our cruel world đ
I also often love how the couple meets for the first time in most fairytales, so writing a nice meet-cute in a fairytale setting would totally be an option đ
Generally, I just want you to have fun with creating this story - if there's something you feel isn't what you would normally write, don't force yourself just for me. Write anything you like and I'm 100% positive I will love it đ„° just the thought of someone creating something for me is amazing as is.
I hope this helps, if you do need me to be more direct with a prompt, let me know, otherwise I'll see you in a few weeks and can't wait to find out who you are đ„°đ„°đ„°
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Hello it's đ» anon again here!
Thank you for your answers, they were very helpful. I apologize if I'm overthinking this too much, but it seems like the themes you enjoy are some of the same ones I love to write so I am excited to get started on this, and I hope you're having a wonderful day!
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Iâm glad it was helpful! Haha donât ever apologize for overthinking! I was also overthinking my reply to a degree where I almost wished Iâd suggested you leave a little âclarificationâ anon ask just so I could get to you by means of that if I felt on my own read through that some parts were confusing and I felt the need to clarify LOL - point is, I get it!! -Please feel free to send as many asks and overthink as much as you need, that way I can rest assured that I was being clear enoughđ
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Have another đ·(julegris) as I forgot to add one to the last ask!
Iâm so glad youâre feeling that way! Iâm excited that youâre excited! Yay!
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