#Taeyeon and Jonghyun sounded so lovely together

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CUKpopToday :: Jonghyun - Lonely (Feat. 태연) M/V Reaction

[damselofblueroses]

Bambi, Chapter 1

You are my Bambi, girl, I am your candy, tell me what are you waiting for?

Summary: As an archaeologist who works on the Ancient Greece, you were on the verge of excavations’ session. While you have been preparing your team, you learned that your institute decided on your team has to work with another team as they wanted the outcome as a collaboration. The head of other team was your biggest rival, a scumbag in your eyes: Byun Baekhyun.

You two were supposed to work together for three months, in a Greek Island, Chios.

Could you manage to not kill Byun Baekhyun for three months?

Content: AU, heavily Greek mythology, enemies to friends.

Warnings: Well, the story contains NSFW/Smut, please minors do not continue.

Note: This story will be four or five chapters if I will not change my mind in the meantime. It is inspired by my major; however, I do not have a complete knowledge on archaeology, I am a historian. If I will make a technical mistake, please let me know. I am willing to receive any kind of feedback; you are more than welcomed to drop a message.

Chapter One: UN Village

June, Incheon Airport

Along the curves of the hill

Rolling, rolling, rolling hills

As we climb there’s a broken streetlight

When I see one, I turn off the lights under it

Baekhyun was nothing but ready for the excavation.

You were more than ready for the session.

Both of you, were nothing but two leaders who hated each other equally.

You were eyeing each other with saying no words since your teams came together in the airport. Before this particular moment of departure, you refused to meet with Byun Baekhyun, putting aside meeting with him, you refused even dropping an e-mail in order to let Sunkyungwan Team about Sejong Team. You were clear and strict as fuck, even though two teams had to work together for three months, you had zero intention to get accustomed with the other team leader.

The weather was sunny, nice and warm, however because of you and Baekhyun, your team members were feeling like they were trapped in a fucking blizzard during the coldest winter.

You were aware of your team members had positive opinions of that scoundrel, especially the girls, as you had your first-handed experiences because of your stupid classmates, Byun Baekhyun was very famous of his abilities to cast a spell on women. The problem was he was also famous as a serial dater, serial killer type of men.

A bastard, nothing more nothing less.

“Indy,” one of your team members, Minseok, called you. Although, calling you as Indy was also a habit of Minseok, it was also an obligation for the others, you insisted on calling you by your nickname or your name, instead of calling you as sunbae. You did not like the hierarchical titles. “Should we move into the control point?”

“Yeah, if you are ready.” you replied, grabbing your luggage and the rest.

“I guess we have to alert Sunkyungwan people since we will fly together.” Hyesun pointed out, your eyebrows knitted.

“I guess,” you recall her words. “They also have this information, so we do not have to alert anyone, we are not their babysitters.”

Hyesun’s cheeks were blushing after you kindly scolded her, but she was clever enough to hold her tongue. Your dislike towards Sunkyungwan was not a secret as you used every opportunity to show it. You led your team to the kiosks, counting the heads automatically. You had six here, you were going to have ten more when you arrive to Chios whose coming from all around European universities. With thirteen Sunkyungwan students, the excavation was going to shelter almost forty members. It was going to be massive, you had to admit. You never had more than twenty students in the field till now, but you were going to lead an extraordinary team as Junmyeon craved into your brain’s folds with his hammer of words.

You wished to be with Junmyeon right now, you were more tense than usual. Junmyeon could put you in more stable mood, however you even did not think to name him while the executives were asking your possible candidates. He would kill you merciless, you knew it very well.

Eh, at least you got Sehun, Junmyeon’s brother in your team, he had a lot of similarities with Junmyeon even though he could be noisier than anyone you know, however you accepted him as your dongsaeng, as his precious noona and role model, you also knew how to put him in an order. Then you had Minseok, the eternal field-partner of yours. He was older than you, although he was engaged in a Ph.D. programme in abroad, he willingly accepted your invitation. You had four seniors, Shinhye, Yixing, Jongdae and Hyesun.

To your dismay, two of the seniors who you really could want in your team, Chanyeol and Kyungsoo were in that bastard’s team. You were of the fact that they were immensely close to each other, but you wished to have them in your team as their abilities were precious.

Especially Doh Kyungsoo.

You missed that fucking bastard who preferred to be with Baekhyun.

Life, you inhaled. It was not going exactly in the way you could ask.

“On your foot, soldiers.” you called your team around you. “Do you collect all the materials you will be in need of?”

“Yeah.” Jongdae cutely pointed to his tiniest bag. “I am ready to excavate.”

“Exactly you will need every tool you have.” Shinhye smacked her husband’s shoulder. Yeah, you had a married couple in your team, although you were a year younger them, you always regarded yourself as their big sister, if not a mother. “You are going to work too much, Dae. I have sleepless nights because of the burden on your shoulders.”

You could not help but burst into laughs after the look Jongdae gave to his wife. Those idiots, they were so lovely and instead of their endless scolding sessions, they were incredibly fond of each other.

Sometimes you wonder, how having your significant other by your side would be?

You slightly shook your head, quickly climbing out of this deep cliff.

“Let’s go!” you exclaimed, jumping to the air. “Sejong is ready for the session!”

Baekhyun was watching you with a disgusted expression.

“Move on, Baekhyun.” Chanyeol pushed his body to forward. “We will miss the flight, Goddamnit.”

“Give him couple of minutes.” Kyungsoo chuckled. “He is fucking the girl with his eyes, frankly, he is doing it unapologetically.”

“Which girl?” Chanyeol’s eyes widened. “Do you mean, that girl? You c-

“Of course, I am not.” Baekhyun interrupted Chanyeol, staring at Kyungsoo. “She can go and fuck herself.”

“Well,” Kyungsoo stood up, placing his book into the bag. “I guess, you are going to be one to fuck her, but maybe I am wrong.”

“In her dreams.” Baekhyun laughed. “If she can manage to dream something like this, but I do not think so. That little freak can put even the nuns into a shame.”

“She is beautiful to be honest.” Chanyeol said with no different intention but observing your features carefully. “Okey maybe not the hottest girl in the town, but she is pretty, and I heard she is very clever.”

“She is.” Kyungsoo approved. “But she kicked Baekhyun’s ass twice, so he cannot endure her presence.”

“She never,” Baekhyun grunted lowly. “Kick me or my proverbial parts!”

“Did someone talk about kicking some asses?” Jongin appeared out of nowhere. “I am in.”

“Shut up, Jongin.” Baekhyun rolled his eyes. “Let’s pick the team.”

The smile on Kyungsoo’s face irritated Baekhyun, he wanted to erase that fucking grin so bad, punching his face but Baekhyun had to hold his manners as the team leader. If they would be in their flat, he could already beat the shit out of Kyungsoo, at least he would try.

Baekhyun hated the fact that Kyungsoo had the exact past with you and him. Three of you entered the department together, instead Kyungsoo went to another university to pursue his master, in the end he testified every moment between you and Baekhyun.

That’s why he was smiling since he learned you were going to be the other team leader.

Baekhyun was aware of the close relationship between you and Kyungsoo, one of his best friends.

Quickly Baekhyun led his team to the control point, close to your team. He was avoiding from this step, however as the leader, presenting his fucking team to your team was his responsibility. When they arrived, he took a deep breath.

“Good morning to all.” his blood started to boil when you turned to him with a displeased face expression. Your eyebrows were knitted, your fucking lips formed as a thick line, your dislike was palpable and Baekhyun knew his own face was mirroring your feelings. “I hope you are fine, could you let me present my team to you?”

Baekhyun wanted nothing but cut the shit off.

“Good morning.” you answered between your teeth. Your voice sounded extremely creepy. “Yeah, go for it.”

You do not make a favour to me, bloody woman, Baekhyun thought but he put all his efforts to control his words.

“My name is Byun Baekhyun, I am going to lead Sunkyungwan Team this year.” he looked at your team members, quickly memorized their faces. “I really look forward to work with you, I wish a good session for us. They are my members, Park Chanyeol, Doh Kyungsoo, Kim Jongin, Kim Danbi, Lee Taemin, Lee Donghae, Kim Jonghyun, Kim Kibum, Lee Seungjo, Kang Seulgi, Im Yoona, Kim Taeyeon and Kwon Yuri.”

“You are like a troop, huh?” one of your girls smiled after Baekhyun finished his presentation.

“More or less.” Baekhyun smiled back to her. What a surprise to him was the transformation of your face. You warmly smiled to the members and bowed to each of them.

Baekhyun raised his left eyebrow, but he could not avert his eyes from your smiling face.

It was pleasant like a spring day and when you smile your eyes were shining.

“Thank you.” he heard your voice. “My team is not big as yours, Park Shinhye, Kim Jongdae, Zhang Yixing, Oh Sehun, Kim Minseok and Song Hyesun.”

“You forget yourself.” Minseok slapped his forehead and rolled his eyes. “Indy is going to lead Sejong Team as she has been leading us for the last two years, you can put your faith on her, she is the greatest.”

“Indy?” Jongin repeated your nickname with a surprised face. “Are you foreigner?”

“Do I look like?” you laughed and prevented yourself from flinching his forehead. He was such a cute kid. “That’s how my team call me.”

“Ah.” Jongin blushed and you could not control yourself anymore.

“But if you want, you can also call me as Indy.” you grinned like a Cheshire cat. “Everything must be equal for the teams since we are going to live together during a whole summer.”

“I would like to.” Jongin bowed to you.

“So do we need to add sunbae when we call you?” Kyungsoo asked.

“Have you ever called me as a sunbae, Doh Kyungsoo?” you coldly replied. “Did Sunkyungwan change your behaviours?”

“Gardens of roses turn to garths of thorns in a second.” Kyungsoo murmured but he was smiling to you, then he opened his arms, catching you off guard because you knew that Kyungsoo was not a huge fan of hugs. “Will you salute me as a good friend, or will I start calling you as sunbae?”

“Shut the fuck up, Doh.” you inhaled, but actually you were happy to see your still-working-on friendship. You moved to hug him, he held you tightly and lifted you to the air, then turned around himself, made you laugh like a 5-year-old girl.

Baekhyun did not like what was happening before his eyes. Kyungsoo had to be with Baekhyun, not hugging you for his fucking dear life, or lifting and turning you around like you were very dear to him. He hated sharing his friends with you, he already lost Junmyeon, he wanted to keep Kyungsoo and Chanyeol to himself. You should be fucking away from them, they were Baekhyun’s and only Baekhyun’s friends.

And there was another fragile issue that Baekhyun had been keeping in the deepest point of his heart and mind, like the palace of Nyx in the darkest part of Tartarus. Extremely delicate, horrendous, and even atrocious.

Baekhyun was aware of a strange presence was lying down beneath his hatred, dislike and continuous loathe towards you, there was a layer of curiosity, something could feed different layers and causing an earthquake in his life. Baekhyun knew that you were his biggest rival, but you became his rival by your talents and intelligence. He knew this and this piece of realization doubled his hate towards you.

The funny part was the things he did not realize. Baekhyun was full of confidence, he was capable of performing even miracles, however he never perceive the fact that you were also a miracle.

“So, what we are going to do?” Chanyeol asked to everyone with a huge, happy smile. Baekhyun fended himself off moaning, happy virus Chanyeol already sensed the chance of levitating the mood between the teams and playing along with it. “Are we boarding?”

“Yeah, let’s go.” one of your boys, Sehun, came close to Chanyeol. Baekhyun and you immediately glared them, noticing the chemistry between these two. Both of you wished to keep the teams apart from each other in order to reduce the obliged interactions between the leaders, but it seemed not possible even from the beginning. Baekhyun was cursing between his lips, you were swearing at the executive board in your mind.

“Indy,” Shinhye whispered to you. “Are you okey? You look like wanting to kill one of us.”

“Not you.” you answered without thinking, then registered to your words. “Ignore me, Shinhye, I am a little bit tense right now.”

“We got your back.” she blinked at you and held Jongdae’s hand. “Let’s start the adventure!”

What an adventure, you thought but silently joined them. Kyungsoo also was walking next to you.

“Why the heck you went to Sunkyungwan?” you spilled the bean. “I always believed you would stay in Sejong.”

“Yeah, that was my intention.” Kyungsoo was plain as always. “However, Sunkyungwan gives me more opportunities to secure my career, Indy.”

“I know.” you had to admit. Sejong was not generous as Sunkyungwan. “Sorry for my selfish words.”

“No worries.” he beamed. “It happens all the time, but I am really happy to work with you again.”

“Old but gold days, huh?”

“Well, it was not purely gold,” Kyungsoo followed the flows and ebbs. “Do you remember when we were almost expelled from the university?”

“Is there a way to forget those days?” you immediately took a look on Baekhyun. It was his fault, obviously. “We were shitting in our pants instead of the one who put us in that situation.”

“Come on,” Kyungsoo chuckled. “It was not only his fault, Indy, our hands were also crimson red.”

“Let me recall the memory, Doh,” you pinched his hand, he playfully pushed your fingers. “Excuse me if I am wrong, however that scumbag was the one who challenged you to confiscate the coin, because of your involvement into the incident, I had no choice but dragging your ass out of shit.”

“They caught two of us in the crime field.” Kyungsoo burst into laughs. “Professor Lee went ballistic and scolded us like we just killed a person cold heartedly.”

“And you could not see the reason behind it?” You were cutting Kyungsoo’s body with your eyes. “If someone tries to steal a coin from the excavation house during the session, I will kill them for sure. We were so lucky, the one who caught us was Professor Lee.”

“I heard you are strictest when it comes to excavation.” Kyungsoo assured you. “But try to not kill us.”

“The only one I am going to take down,” you shivered with the memory, Kyungsoo was already regretful to remind it to you. Well, maybe not so much because he wanted you and Baekhyun to realize the potential relationship you could have, and the easiest way in order to put you two in touch was making you angry. “That bastard if he will behave like the old days. We are not children anymore.”

“Have you ever been a kid?”

“Fuck off, Kyungsoo.”

“You did not change even a bit, Indy.” Kyungsoo made his statement. Obviously, you were going to keep this to yourself, taking his silent approval made you were more than happy. “You are still a pain in the ass.”

“And you are still a good boy.” you grinned, watching his lips formed around silent laughs. “Such a cute puppy for me, let me see your wagging tail.”

“I am sorry to interrupt your flirting session,” Kyungsoo turned to Baekhyun’s deadpanned face. “However, we have to move.”

“When you come across to a pretty girl,” Kyungsoo did not miss the chance of returning the favour. “You have to flirt with her. Wasn’t it your advice?”

“Yeah.” Baekhyun looked at you, then turned to Kyungsoo.

You knew what was going to happen.

“He said pretty girls,” you tucked the words in Baekhyun’s mouth before he could open his fucking damn mouth. “To my dismay, I have never been pretty to correspond the standards of Byun Baekhyun the Magnificent. I am crying for the lack of beauty almost every night, I mean living without Byun Baekhyun’s interests… Such a misery.”

Kyungsoo bit his lower lip in order to hold his laugh, Baekhyun’s fists were clenching but you did not stop there.

"Ah I almost forget to ask for the name of that little village, Baekhyun.” you directly looked at his eyes since ages. “Where the girl you desperately wanted to bless with your attention left you? UN Village?”

You immediately spin on your tiptoes, then slipped towards to Sehun, leaving two of them behind of you, refusing to look at back. In the meantime, Baekhyun was throwing daggers to your back, grinding his teeth, his jaw was extremely tensed. Before Kyungsoo could stop him, he swiftly came to your side, you felt his breath on your neck.

You shivered.

You fucking shivered and Baekhyun noticed that.

“You are playing with the fire, as always.” he whispered to your ear before someone could notice what he was doing. “Did you forget who was burning with fire, baby girl?”

He quickly disappeared and started to make such a fuss in order to gather his team members around himself. You were frozen, after years, you were frozen, you missed the little smile on the corner of Baekhyun’s mouth.

You were on the verge of screaming because of the frustration you had felt. You forced yourself to proceed, walked into the plane, helped your team in order to set their belongings and place into their seats, then you retreated your own seat. It was comfortable and you could easily snatch a blanket. Your wish became true, even quicker than you expected because Sehun, your wonderful Sehun, already brought a soft blanket for you. You smiled at him, actually forgiving him for building bonds with Chanyeol since they changed their seats in order to sit next to each other and weaved your legs around the fabric.

Your brain was in autopilot, you were lost in the horrible memories. You did not want to recall them, you buried them into the cemetery of your memory. You wished nothing but never remember that day.

The day in that village.

Baekhyun was mad at himself.

His face was clouded, for the first time he was silent and sitting on the farthest seat in the plane. He really wanted to be alone, and since being vocal about his feeling was so natural for him, he told his need to the team. They willingly let him to do what he wanted, as a result, he was looking out of window, hell if a person could see something out of a plane’s window, and he was cursing himself.

He knew it was going to be a chess play. Between you and him.

It has been always like the chess.

There was a bond between you and Baekhyun, even thought you two always refused it, you also were aware of that bond. You equally hated each other and if there was a thing which could make you happier than seeing each other’s downfalls, that was the opportunity of being the one who digs the other’s grave by their hands.

He was sure on he was going to be the one who sets your body on fire, then finishes you. He was sure on he was going to be the victor, the one and only champion.

When he kills you, erases your name for all eternity, when he condemns you with demnatio memoriae, he will calmly breathe again.

You were a pain in the ass, even when you were not around of Baekhyun, you had a place in his mind since that fucking day he met you. Your presence was like a tree, how much he could try, he could neither find your roots in his mind nor cut them all.

You were his enemy; he was going to treat you as you deserved.

There would be no turning back.

But…

He was mad at himself.

He made a wrong move while he was trying to disturb you, shake your cage in order to give you a lesson.

He also remembered.

The day in that fucking village.

[kidnamedfinger]

Hi! Me again! So, part of it is how Kpop "vocal soup" is done, and how they're trained! Sms a little bit of an outlier in the sense like all the big 4 they tend to have one or two "special" tones per group-but even then those are kind of interchangable u less you're a fan or have a good ear. I hope it becomes more clear what I mean and I only used groups I'm a fan of so hopefully it comes across as respectful but clinical lol. NCT in general has strong vocalists but the same principle still applies and my biggest !! In that not really mattering is how SM has most of the boys separated when they're recording/how many cuts there are in the BTS videos showing that they're still being coached/guided on camera not really off the cuff bc sm/Kpop, and who gets what lines. I just watched the universe recordings and I think it's a good example. My English also sucks and this is super long lmao!

Kpop runs off "vocal soup". Tara's CEO,brave brothers, and the guy who did shinees earlier work have all used the term at some point (I'm only 23 but Ive been here for a while lol) and I think you can still find proof of it when you go through old blog forums. Vocal soup is the idea of keeping tones generally indistinguishable from each other so you can swap vocalists out/ghost vocal. Like obviously if you know let's say 127 for example you can hear the difference between Jungwoo and Haechan and even Doyoung. But if you weren't a fan and compared Xiumin and Suho from exo it'd be REALLY easy for sm to "vocal soup" them-and I'm almost sure like in every group they have. A good example of that in NCT is probably the rappers and the mid range/high range vocalists like Jaemin/Jeno,Kun/Ten. Exos a good concrete example of that at the top of my head but this is for every group. You can hear that Chen and Kyungsoo have really different tones from each other, but if you put Kyungsoo and Baekhyun together or Xiumin, the difference is in how high they get, or Sehun/Kai-theres a difference in overall range and fans can spot the difference because we're so indindated with songs but the GP/casual listeners aren't. And in the studio it's common to "vocal soup" and mix those voices together-their actual tones aren't all that different. Each singer follows an archetype-Jonghyun/Chen/Taeil/Haechan maybe goes here? , Winter/Taeyeon/Wendy ect. It's why shows like that guess where x singer is behind the door! Out of six ppl with similar voices is even capable of happening-the actual vocal tone is trained (and why in other countries for the most part-its omg who could this voice be*I'm speaking in generalities a little). It's why it's such a big deal when they have singers with *special voices*. Taeil might have the higher pop vocal range sm loves but they can't train out Haechans tone-and to a lesser extent Jungwoo,thats why they're always getting similar sort of parts in song structures. It's why YG has a Bom/Rose archetype in each of his girl groups. I'm positive that the new yggg will follow the same pattern of one very unique voice and singing style-Bom sings everything stacatto which Kpop fans call bad singing lol, And rose is purposely breathy even when she belts. SNSD is also a good example-in the chorus all the girls are supposedly singing-but Jessica barley ever actually had chorus linea-its usually Seohyun because she has the Sm bright voice sound-and whoever else. But they'd make all the girls mime out-and vocal later it to make it sound more full. Like idk if you know who Girls Day is or Secret of 4minute. Take their lead and main vocals, just from group to group-and the tones are virtually indistinguishable. Kpop groups are purposely built that way-and the big thing that differentiates kpop choruses is usually how many vocals they have layered into the chorus-but that sound of how many people you think you can hear-might not actually be happening at all.

Usually-and what I think is also happening to Nct-is that they generally have an idea of who's gonna sing what a couple years into their debut,maybe even as early on as the first 2 or 3 cbs/repeating song structure. Jungwoo/Haechan/Jessica/Sunny/Rose are usually always gonna get the "emphasize" parts of songs-the prechorus/bridge/adlibs usually versus the main verse just because of their tones-same sort of thing for rappers in non heavy rap groups (where it's reversed). But the first couple years a kpop group is placed together they have everyone run through the whole song regardless of vocal ability, or all the rappers try the raps parts (but rappers also sing so they probably get both-and depending on the grouo-the rappers ARE the special voices/"umph"-or just other Archetypes that can be switched out from one a other. Jarmin raps like yangyang raps like Jeno raps like hendery ect) and all the vocalists try the vocal parts. And then the producers cut and paste who does what. As it becomes more clear and with guidance from the CEO/directors usually the producers tend to have a template for who does what-and part of that is also following the direction of we need so and so to have more lines so they get more screentime/build in a dance break for the dancers please/rappers need lines if it's not a rap group ect ect. Everything is super decided-theres no way it's as lazze faire as sm has it in those videos, everything is being cut and pasted and probably reworked AGAIN after whoever it is approves it. And that's not the producers, at Sm it's directly lsm and his board for every come back.

(And it's not just kpop that does this-pop singers get vocal souped a lot, a lot of the famous pop girls and indie pop singers are being either ghost vocaled (jlos whole career lol) or vocal souped by unnamed singers/producers mastering and remixing the demos into their songs so it's a more standard pop voice).

They have the NCT boys separated when they're recording because it takes HOURS to record even simple small parts usually, the videos arent just short, they're SUUUUPER condensed. Its most likely the 3-4th time any of them are ever hearing the song-if sm/whatever company is even showing the group the song before the studio-and just because they're being directed to record it doesn't mean it's going to be released. Mark alluded to having recorded child ages ago-and other songs too. As if it's your last was a 2ne1 song that's on camera being played out of YG years ago-and bp had a recording of it from debut but didn't release it until later. When sm is doing the BTS videos they're leaving out the parts that weren't chosen, like in my guess probably making Haechan and Jungwoo sing the same lines over and over and then having whoever wasn't chosen for x come back and record-or most likely making the boys sing every part they can and then when the producers have decided this person goes here here and here-getting them to come back and either reshoot for sms camera(cynical interpretation) or coming back and redoing lines that they were chosen for/switched, they can easily just play Haechan listening to Jungwoos parts because they probably have Jungwoo singing every feasible part they could think of. (This isn't to you but to loop fans in general, Ive seen people be mean to Aespa lol, All of those BTS videos are still Sm edited, and ultimately fanservice/pr).

A big reason for the vocal soup technique is because if someone's voice stands out-not just in their group but in general-its harder to replace. I like skz but that one dude leaving is a good example as to why-nothing really changed in their sound with him gone. All they had to do was make their vocalists go in their upper range, and they can recreate the tone almost exactly. Even kpop rappers tend to have the same tone. And I'm only saying kpop bc we're talking Abt nçt but the same thing works for western music-theres a very "bright" sort of tone for female sopranos in musicals-and they're taught to sing a certain way with their vowels ect. You don't really WANT a super unique vocal tone because you're onstage acting out a role-and hopefully get other roles-even if youre a technically skilled singer it won't matter if your voice detracts from the production. Most pop singers if they're female are mezzo sopranos-the most common female vocal range, and they're taught to enunciate and sing a certain way by genre. A RnB is her depending on the decade is going to enunciate differently in the 90s to now. A non poo example is probably paramore-Hayley has a soprano voice which is VERY high but she usually sings her lower notes in the chorus bc that's more accessible/more of that early rock sound they were going for-and she purposely enunciates a certain way to get her voice to break because it's rock music. It's not the Os and As like Beyonce/Adele, it's her Cs and Hs where she usually purposely causes a voice break-or on the pop rock end why all those dudes like the Wonder Years/Bowling for Soup even years apart all have the same vocal affect. It's how theyre forming the words and probably on some level trained their voices to mimic those tones.

Tldr: Pop vocal soup!!!!

omg thank you so much for returning and telling me all of this! its kind of breaking my mind haha

i have 2 thoughts mainly coming from this, the first is that i NEVER would have guessed how ... relevant? jungwoo actually is in the production process. i never rly found jungwoos tone remarkable i thought he was just naturally breathy/he reminded me of xiumin in that sense. which i agree i am suho biased but he and xiumin were very similar to me too when i was getting into exo and he just simply isn't top 3 vocalists in exo even though he isnt bad. i wonder if this is connected to how yeri doesn't get a lot of individual lines/is relegated to the rap parts but does a lot of the hidden/grounding vocal parts?

forgot my 2nd thought lol im still a lil high but another thought that comes is that dichotomy between unique and non unique tones. i first noticed this with seulgi (unique) and wendy (non unique), i concede wendy is prob better technically but seulgis voice has more character (and i didnt use to like her voice at first). id never heard of the vocal soup thing but it makes so much sense, especially when sometimes it is a better biz decision to cram a bunch of randoms/mediocre singers in a group as opposed to cutting a lot of ppl

so basically im feeling like this means sm/kpop (sm being the frontier of modern kpop in so many ways) is MORE processed than we all thought it was. i wondered how it could be possible/effective for companies to micromanage comebacks so deeply as they do, when often they will end up getting criticized on the same minute level. i guess sm/etc. see a profit incentive to accept it when some of their decisions are poorly received. there are some things abt the kpop life that we will never know but again its the same with hollywood and the us music industry etc. etc.

[emeraldbabygirl]

Gonna brag about Infinite. They, imo are the best group as far as vocals and just everything. When I listen to Infinite I always get all these emotional feelings and they do such a wonderful job of showing emotions through their voices. My fav example of this is Man In Love you can just..ugh they..ugh I can’t describe it. The flow of their vocals, the way they harmonize like, yes idols sing together or in sync but it’s not a beautiful harmony of sound like Infinite. When I listen to Man In Love or Paradise or 60 Seconds, the version where all the members sings with Sunggkyu you can clearly hear they emotions in their voices like they’ve fallen in love, gotten married, got devorced, lost a loved one you can hear it all in their voices. Infinite is the best male vocalist group like they just are and they are legends and icons and I cannot put words together but you can feel it when you listen to an Infinite song. Sunggkyu himself is a powerhouse of vocals and you’ve got Sungjong’s dainty lil voice that blends to perfectly it’s just perfect. Infinite is the best or one of the best and most talented groups vocal wise. Like, I can’t think rn of any other groups as a whole but Taeyang and Daesung and Sunyoul also have incredible vocal talents that you can hear the emotions in their voices.

Sure there’s plenty of male idols that had great vocals but really no one can sing like Infinite can. And as far as female groups Girls Generation is def one of my tops as far as vocals I mean Miss Queen Taeyeon over here. And maybe it’s just because I feel like the first and second and third?? (because I don’t know exact generations) can do it better than any of the groups nowadays. I’m not saying the idols of today can’t or don’t know how to sing or they can’t hit high notes or blend their voices together but it’s just not the same as the older groups. Those groups just have it. Maybe some people don’t understand, maybe I’m the only one that feels this way but it’s just not the same with these new groups. Also Shinee. Like specifically Taemin and Jonghyun amazing vocals. I really adore Taemin. I think I just have like favoritism towards older groups because those are the groups I got into first and they will always be special to me so I will always say they are better than the newer idols. Also also Infinite’s mvs and the sounds of Infinite you can really tell like..like when the song came out?? Like MBLAQ and Infinite has those iconic 2010 boxed set aesthetic with the black and grey backdrops and the strong lighting and you can really tell when listening to Infinte and MBLAQ how old the songs are. Idk there’s just something I truly love about the 2010 dark/edgy boxy set it’s just. Ugh like Shinee has songs that perfectly describe that aesthetic and U-Kiss and MBLAQ and Infinite too and I just love it ugh the nostalgia :,)

Anyweee Infinite had the best vocals as an entire group imo please hold your fire.

[reddoll123]

Hey, so here's my lil' mini review of Key's first mini album Bad Love after listening to the whole thing twice:

Bad Love: I love the synthwave beat in this!! The prechorus, the chorus, and the Oh-oh-oh-oh's at the end are my fav parts too. For some reason, the actual verses didn't grab me as much though but during the 2nd listen, I was like Okayyy~ Like the 2nd listen made me appreciate this song so much more.

Yellow Tape: Loved this one right away! Also, random but I listened to this while I was outside so the sirens at the beginning made me think that an ambulance was actually coming down the street lol. "Breathe in, breathe out" is def gonna be stuck in my head now too lol. And with that lil' hook, the ambulance, and the car crashing sound at the end, I def wanna see the lyrics for this song in particular.

Hate that...: Listened to this one when it first came out and I still love it ^^. Key's and Taeyeon's voices blend very well together and I just really dig the overall chill vibe of the song.

Helium: The falsettos! The beat!! Instantly, I imagined Jonghyun singing this, like just imagine if there was a duet of their voices for a song like this TvT. Anyways, love this one a lot! Top top fav right away!

Saturday Night: Dunno why but with this song, I feel like the beat's almost... lacking something? Like it's missing that punch (drunk, love lol) for me but it's still a decent song, and I did vibe a bit more with the last chorus at least. (Also who's Zachary and Stacey? Lmao. Were those names there just to fit the flow of the song?)

Eighteen (End Of My World): Once the chorus hit, I started vibing with this one. And I definitely want to read the lyrics for this one as well. Immediately, this made me think of his other song This Life that's also an album-ender. Anyways, it's a nice song especially towards the end when it gets more chant-like. And it's the perfect song to end this mini album imo.

Honestly, it was so hard to choose my top top favs between Yellow Tape, Hate that..., and Helium but after listening to the album twice, I've come to a decision lol.

My favs in order: Yellow Tape, Helium, Hate that..., Bad Love, Eighteen (End Of My World), Saturday Night.

TL;DR: All in all, it's a pretty good first mini album from him. Though I don't think every song's a bop this time and would probably just skip the last two, he still did very well and I really dug his vocals on the first 4 songs. And I'd still def recommend giving this mini-album a listen!

[onewfantaesy]

i updated the au masterlist page

but here have a post w everything that wasn’t included previously bc this is where i made it lmao have fun

step idol au: bandific au. taemin’s mom is dating yunho from dbsk. taemin’s step-dad is yunho from dbsk.

step teacher au: yunboa. taemin’s dad is dating his history teacher. taemin’s dad ends up marrying his history teacher.

kidnap au: taemin played hooky and stole a pair of jeans with key and they got arrested and taemin found out he was kidnapped. yunho is his father. he’s 11 and his life just got turned upside down.

genius au: lil baby taemin is a Genius and he’s like 8 and is a freshman in high school along with his big brother onew. minkey are their friends. kai is taemin’s best friend.

beacon street au: ontae high school au. taemin lives on beacon street and works at the beacon street diner. onew forces his friends minho and key to go to the diner with him and be regulars. taemin’s a shipyard kid, and that’s like, important.

crossing guard au: old man onew is a crossing guard and taemin and kai are kindergarteners and he loves watching over them and making sure they cross the street safely.

forest god au: taemin died when he was 12 but got turned into a god by the all-father. he’s now god of the forest. he really loves the baby deer and the bunnies.

blankie au: girl!minho and key. taemin is their lil baby boy. taemin is obsessed w his blankie

tween vamp au: taemin got turned into a vampire when he was 11. key was his teacher, and also a vampire. onew is key’s?? partner??? they take this poor abandoned little vamp boy in bc taemin literally would have died if they hadn’t.

thighs au: i think it’s girl!taemin and minho??? they hooked up on tinder and minho tried to give her shit for not shaving her thighs and taeyeon was just like “listen bitch first of all-”

lil booger au: taemin is the much younger brother on jonghyun and jinki. minkey are their parents.

sad ghost au: bandifc. taemin got ran over by a van in like rdd era and his ghost haunted the sm building for like 2 years before he finally passed on. it was really depressing. he relived his death over and over and over again. he didn’t know he was dead.

sneak au: bandfic. taemin sneaks out. like all the time. he gets caught by paparazzi. he gets shit on for it. he continued to sneak out.

citadel of onews au: rick and morty au but with shinee.

divorced au: heechul and jessica are divorced. taemin is their son. heechul moves back in with them. taemin is annoyed. taemin also has anemia and just wants to sleep at his auntie krystal’s house bc his dad pisses him off.

mini mommy au: jongtaeng and baby taemin.

ot5 hogwarts au: exactly what it sounds like. i think ontae are brothers. 

secret adoption au: lunew?? taemin is their son but taemin didn’t know that until lmao he was like 11. he only found out because his grandparents that he thought were his parents started treating him like shit. lunew were pissed that their baby was being treated like that when they didn’t even want to give him up in the first place.

secret boyfriends au: taekai high school au. no one knows they’re dating. chanyeol finds out bc he’s on the football team with kai and sees the texts. taemin gets bullied. big brother onew helps him get back at chanyeol and his stupid goons. taekai eventually let everyone know they’re boyfriends and they’re cute af.

super hero au: ontae brothers where they can both astral manipulate and shit. taemin decided to join super villain key. onew and his group of boring ass good guys always try to save taemin. taemin just is the literal definition of shrug emoji but with super powers.

twin college au: college au where taemin finds out he has a twin sister solely bc housing fucked up and put him and a girl in the same campus apartment. taeyeon didn’t know she was adopted.

uncle yunho au: taemin parents are abusive af and yunho is his uncle/godfather who saves him. taemin gets kidnapped after he moves in with yunho. it was traumatic. taemin almost died. key was the only one at school who treated him normally afterwards.

dozen au: bandfic where taemin is literally one of twelve children. he hates it. i was watching cheaper by the dozen and it just sort of wrote itself honestly.

tarzan au: taemin is found by onkey in the jungle. he was living with gorillas. he was like 5.

boy next door au: taemin is jongkey’s little neighbor. he likes to walk through their kitchen door and put his drawings on their fridge and play with their dogs.

doomsday au: bandfic where shinee’s managers and a tv station make shinee think they’re stranded on an island in the middle of the apocalypse. they kind of go a little crazy. a helicopter with a camera crew has to come down and be like “HAHA IT WAS A HIDDEN CAMERA!!!” taemin flips the fuck out. he’s very sunburned.

bullied au: bandfic but taemin’s been systematically bullied since like debut. no one knew until the bullies made a public apology during ace promotions. taemin had a panic attack when people found out the shit they did to him.

bow au: 2min. baby key. minho puts bows in key’s baby hair and taemin thinks it’s stupid.

graham cracker au: taemin, jonghyun, key, and minho ride their bikes down meadow street so the wizard at the end of the cul de sac will give them chocolate graham crackers. onew is that wizard.

middle school au: taemin is gwiboon’s much younger brother and she’s married to jinki and they have a small son minho. jinki is taemin’s middle school teacher. taemin’s parents are bad parents.

whale shark au: mermaid au but taemin’s bonded with a whale shark. jongyu are marine biologists that love watching taemin and his whale shark migrate.

lost prince au: taemin is the prince, and he’s three and he’s lost, and jongho find him but don’t realize he’s the prince.

tinder jongtae au: college-ish au where jongtae match on tinder and Spend The Night Together but then taemin’s older brother jinki just “taemin why the fuck is your snapchat bitmoji at my coworker’s house gdi taemin my friends have sent me screenshots of ur tinder DON’T FUCK MY COWORKER”

soulmate au: jongtae are soulmates and when a soulmate writes on their arm, the other can see it. taemin is in high school and writes all his homework on his hands. jonghyun is in college and thinks it’s annoying af.

europa au: space au where jongkey are aliens on europa, one of jupiter’s moons, and taemin is their adopted son.

finals au: bandfic but it’s just taemin acting stupid at the library during finals with his friends and the videos of them doing stupid shit go viral before people even realize it’s SHINee’s taemin in them

royalty au: jinki is the crown prince, and taemin is the king’s bastard son. he’s also half-elf.

i’m going to school au: just scenerios of what taemin might have been like when he was on that “i’m going to school” show with gain.

new school au: heechul is taemin’s dad, and taemin’s twin brother kai and their mother died in a car accident and now taemin goes to a new school because he was Traumatized

fourth grade au: ot5 are all in the same class and they find out they were all born on the same day (May 25th) and they bond over being geminis

st hedwig au: taemin lives in an orphanage called St. Hedwig’s and his teacher Jinki and his partner Minho end up adopting him

amish au: taemin was amish before he became an idol.

futon au: college au where boyfriends taekai just always spend the night on onkey’s futon bc taemin’s roommate doesn’t like it when taemin’s boyfriend sleeps over but kai goes to a different university

mermaid au: key, taemin, and minho are mermaids. taemin’s warrior parents died in a shark attack when he was a baby so key became his caretaker. jongyu are humans that they talk to a lot

711 au: college au where taemin works at 7-11 and he gets robbed at gunpoint and it’s traumatizing but he gets out of a midterm so shrug emoji. he and amber work together. shindong is a shit manager.

chill au: college au ontae netflix and chill. roommate kai. taemin gets chapped lips.

ballerino au: taemin gets bullied in high school bc he takes ballet but he’s a good ballerino who’s going places

vampire au: taemin got turned into a vampire when he was five and onew is his master and just ot5 being vampires but taemin is stuck in the body of a child also he pretty much always also acts like a child but “I’M A HUNDRED YEARS OLD LET ME HAVE WINE”

age gap au: taemin is like way younger than his big brother key and onew is their dad and jongkey are dating

senior boys au: jonghyun, key, and minho are seniors in high school. onew is their calculus teacher. taemin is onew’s son who’s a freshman. at one point, taemin accidentally sends jonghyun nudes. it was a big deal. taekai might be a thing in this au? i can’t really remember

bard au: taemin and the rest of ot5 are bards from dragon age & they operate in orlais, mainly val royeaux. jongtae have an intense rivalry. also taemin’s half-elf.

bard inquisitor au: literally bard au but taemin also becomes the inquisitor from dragon age inquisition. people freak out bc he’s orlesian lmao.

child star au: key is taemin’s dad and taemin became a child star when he was on a sitcom when he was like 3. taemin was a bit of a shit in his teenage years. the spotlight can do that to a kid.

arcade au: onew works at the local arcade and taemin takes full advantage of his big brother working there. taemin and his lil nerd friends - kai and ravi - hang out there all the time. key is the bully, bc where there’s a nerd in an arcade there’s a bully. i think i wrote this after watching stranger things lmao

exec board au: college au where ot5 are on the exec board for a club. taemin is a freshman who Does Not Take Thing Seriously. he’s fundraising chair. him and his friends sell weird shit at the food tents but make so much money that key can’t stand it.

college bro au: college au taekai riding together on their skateboards or some shit idk

musclehead au: college au taemin works at the rec center at fuckass o’clock. jonghyun is a stupid musclehead that dirties his perfectly clean mirrors.

boarding school au: taemin’s mom remarries and he gets sent to some snooty boarding school that his step-dad’s family has always gone to. he meets his step-brother, jinki, for the firs time when they meet at school. shit gets weird. taemin lies about his biological dad.

kidnapping au: taemin is jinki’s very much younger baby brother, and taemin was kidnapped when he was almost five years old. jinki becomes a cop and becomes obsessed with finding taemin, and he does, five years later, when a little boy is sitting in the station because his parents just got arrested.

kidnapping au 2: bandfic au. taemin is jinki’s little brother, only he didn’t know that because he was kidnapped when he was a toddler.

morning news au: taemin in onho’s little boy. he’s very cute. he reads the newspaper in the morning even though he can’t read yet.

reblog my shit thank u

[notursweeting]

Jonghyun-ah Part 2

Part 1,2 & 3

Like smudging watercolor

You gave out all your color Fading and fading

- Don't  Let Me Go; SHINee

Jonghyun-ah, I remember the last time we met clearly in my head. The words we exchanged, everything now seems like a sign I ignored. A huge lightened up sign saying “don’t leave him” that I ignored.

It was the last day of your concert and I came to see you. You were amazing but that day, sitting among hundreds of your loving fans, waving the aqua blue lightstick, I felt like something was off and I couldn’t figure out why.

During the last few songs, you looked really sad, I guess it was because it was the last day of your concert but you looked really sad. Like you wouldn’t see any of them again. Like this was your last time performing. 

I figured your seasonal depression kicked in, and the last few minutes all I wanted to do was run on stage and give you a hug.

Soon enough, I followed Minho & Taeyeon back stage to see you. We waited for you and when I saw a glimpse of your stunning body making your way towards us, I couldn’t contain my joy and didn’t even bother to try.

“You did well!” I ran over to you arms outstretched for a hug. Your expression was slightly dark, almost like something was bothering you. But as soon as you looked up to see me running towards you, you smiled your usual big bright smile and accepted me in your arms. 

“It was hard.” You mumbled into my hair, only audible for me to hear. My heart dropped, I was right, your seasonal depression had kicked in.

The four of us chatted awhile before it was time to say goodbye. We exchanged hugs again and you once again gave me a message only I could hear.

“Can you come over tonight?” You whispered into my hair, squeezing my hands tight. I nodded and mumbled a “See you later.”

This was a code we had between each other. A code for help.

We’ve known each other for years now, I’ve always known you as the cheerful, bright Kim Jonghyun. You were the epitome of sunshine. But we were never close. Around 5 years ago, I was in a dark place. There was no reason for me to live, no family, no hope. If it wasn’t for the phone call you coincidentally made when I was about to jump off the bridge, I wouldn’t be here. You had call me to send your condolences to me for my family’s tragic passing. You heard the news a bit later than any of our friends and immidiately called me. The timing was perfect, as if it was fate and you talked me out from taking my own life away. For the next few days, you never missed calling to check on me, and that’s how we grow close.

Our sadness brought us close. We spent a lot of time consoling each other, talking about the things we thought only we could understand. You made me feel like I wasn’t alone, you were the light in my darkness. You still are the light in my darkness. But you were busy shining for us, the light in you started to fade. I should have known, I’m sorry Jonghyun-ah.

Now that it’s drenched with tears,

My obvious mistakes can be seen no longer.

- Skeleton Flower ; Kim Jonghyun

I arrived to your house first before you did, your mum letting me in. I greeted her and chatted with her awhile before she excused herself to go to bed. I’ve been here a lot of times to the point where our weird friendship we have between us could be understood by your mother. I heard you unlocked the door and you entered with the same troubled expression you had earlier, not expecting me to be there. 

“Hey babe.” I greeted you with a teasing grin, switching of the television.

You smiled in return, "I’m not your babe.“

I switched off the television and got up from the couch, arranging the cushions as I go, "Whatever you say, babe.”

I heard you groan in annoyance jokingly like you’ve always did when I called you babe as you followed me into your room. “I’m going to take a shower”

Your dog, Ru who was previously sound asleep woke up as I sat down ot the edge of your bed. I just nodded and watched as you walk all over your room getting things done.

“Also~ You should change.” You said cheerfully as you rummaged your drawer for a tshirt and sweatpants for me. 

“Thank you.” I said, grinning at you as you picked up your towel to take a shower.

You looked extremely exhausted. But when our eyes met, you chuckled, “Your grin is creepy stop it." 

You told me once again that you were going to take a shower and left me in your room for the guest bathroom outside despite having a seperate bathroom inside. You’ve always respected my privacy, you’ve never once made me uncomfortable.

When you entered the room with you hair semi-wet from the shower in fresh pyjamas; those funny looking pink house pants that you love too much, I was already settled in bed, Ru on me sleeping like a rock.

"Are you asleep?” You asked as I felt the bed move as you climbed in bed beside me. 

I opened my eyes and looked at you, “Nope. But this little buddy here is." 

You chuckled and got under the sheets, I could feel your warmth as you moved closer to me. 

"That’s not fair. Are you here to see me or Ru?” You pretended to sulk and pouted.

“Hmm.. You’ve always been mean to me..” I teased pretending to be deep in thought.

“Yes yes I know.” You said passively making me laugh at your tone.

I stopped patting Ru and turned to face you, “Jonghyunnie.”

“Nae~” You say in a high tone.

I smiled, “You can quit the act now.”

You were still smiling, but you nodded and mumbled, “It’s hard." 

"It’s really really hard for me.” You said louder.

“You know what he told me? It was up to me to change. But I don’t know how.” You said in a quiet tone, avoiding my eye.

“I’m too blame right? I can’t even fix myself. What am I doing in this world. I’m a waste of space.” You continued. Everytime you did this, it broke my heart. Everytime these words fell out of your mouth, I could hear my heart breaking. But Jonghyun-ah, your heart was far more broken than mine. I’m sorry.

“Jonghyu–” I tried stopping you from saying those sad things. I was selfish Jonghyun-ah, I was tired of seeing you sad, being no help to you at all.

“It’s been too long, they told me to try harder. How long do I have too hold on? Why can’t I do it?”

“Jonghyun. You tried your best, I know that.” The words of comfort fell out of my mouth like a routine. I bet you think I didn’t meant it, but you really did well Jonghyun-ah. I meant everything I said.

“They said I didn’t. I didn’t try hard enough. If I tried harder, I could fix myself.” You said, your eyes filled with pain and hurt. I wanted to stop it, I really did. 

“Who did? You tried your best everyday and I watched you fight it everyday. They don’t understand how hard it is. How strong you are.” I said softly, running my fingers over your cheek, wiping away your tears.

“I don’t fight it enough. There are days I can’t even get out of the room.” You said, blaming yourself again.

“That’s okay. It’s fine to have days like that, Jonghyunnie.” I replied. I should have said it like I meant it. Perhaps at that time it sounded forced to you, like I was saying it out of a routine.

“But I’m not strong enough.” You said quietly, almost like you were talking to yourself.

“Yes you are. You made it this far. You wrote beautiful music while dealing with it too. Remember how I dealt with it? I stayed at home for months.” I was selfish Jonghyun-ah, comapring my situation to your’s. If only I could turn back time and do a better job. I’m sorry.

“But you fought it off. You’re happy now.” You pointed out.

I smiled and sighed, “I wouldn’t be here if you didn’t call me and stop me. I’m happy because of you. A lot of people is happy because of you. See, you’re basically a superhero. The world needs you, Kim Jonghyun.”

“It was a coincidence.” You said. Your tone was sharp, not agreeing with everything I had said.

“It was fate. But the one who made the choice to come visit me almost everyday, checked on me every night was you.” I corrected you. 

“If someone else was in my shoes, they would do the same too.”

“No. They wouldn’t. Only you would. The world needs you Jonghyun.” Indeed we do need you, Jonghyun-ah. But we didn’t realize what you needed.

“If I keep holding on, will it get better?” You questioned.

I put on my brightest smile trying to convince you, “Eung. It will." 

"It’s really difficult for me. It’s really really difficult.” You bursted in tears. I remember pulling you into a hug, hugging you tight hoping I could put all your broken pieces back together. We stayed like that for awhile, in each others arms as you cried and I caressed your hair. I mumbled it’s okay over and over again hoping it’ll help. After awhile, you pulled away from me, your tears not visable. It was replaced by that smile of your’s, that sweet smile but I could tell it was forced. 

“Where do you think is a good place to get a tattoo?” You asked out of the blue.   “Hmm?” I hummed, puzzled at your sudden question.

“It’s just three English letters.” You added, tucking stray hair behind my ears.

“What? Dumb?” I joked trying to play along with you who was trying to lighten up the mood.

“Dumb is 4 letters.” You rolled your eyes.

I fake gasped dramatically, “JONGHYUN ISN’T STUPID ANYMORE”

“I was never stu–" 

"HIS ENGLISH HAS IMPROVED”

“YES YES I’M NOT GOOD AT ENGLISH AS YOU ARE! TELL THE WORLD” You shouted back, bursting into laughter at the end at how ridiculous we were being.

I wasn’t done, I was so happy to see you laughing again, “JONGHYUN IS BAD–”

“It’s 3 am you’ll wake my mum up.” You laughed, putting your palm on my lips to shut me up. 

I pushed away your hand, “Didn’t stop you from shouting." 

You paused thinking of a comeback and replied, "That’s because I’m handsome" 

I faked a disgusted face, "That has nothing to do with this." 

"So you admit I’m handsome?” You questioned, grinning try to tease me. 

That grin you had caught me offguard,“Noooo– i mean. You’re okay…I guess?”

You raised your eyebrow at my answer to tease me. I groaned and gave in, “OKAY FINE I ADMIT IT”

You chuckled in victory and smiled smugly at me. I rolled my eyes and pulled you closer. For some reason, that night I felt extra clingy with you. Like I was going to lose you. I reached out for your hand and pointed at held your pinky finger and traced it with my own, “Here?”

“Hmm?” You hummed looking at me.

“The tattoo. Here looks fine. What is it really? Dog? Cat? Fat? Mat?” I guessed, frowning tracing those letters on the side of your pinky finger.

“Yeah dumbass I’m getting fat tattooed permanently on my body.” You said sarcastically, you were so close to me it was almost like you were talking directly into my ear. The rest of the world and I learned later on that the word you wanted to get was ‘Bye.’

Indeed, I’m a dumbass. Why couldn’t I figure that out? I’m sorry Jonghyun-ah. I’m really sorry. I couldn’t stop you, I’m sorry.

I remembered listening to you talk about everything I missed ever since I last called you a month ago. I remember you repeatedly say it’s hard for you in our long conversation that night. I remember saying “Jonghyun-ah, it’s okay. I’ll be here every step of the way.” over and over again. I remember you saying that you felt like a burden and blamed yourself repeatedly. 

But I didn’t take it seriously. That wasn’t my first time seeing you like that. I’ve spent countless nights like that with you for the past 5 years. On some nights, I was the one crying and you were the one doing the comforting. I didn’t think you would’ve done it. I didn’t think you’d leave me.

At some point, you fell asleep talking. I took it as a good sign. You used to depend on sleeping pills to sleep.

“I love you, Jonghyun.” I whispered brushing your hair away from your eyes. You weren’t awake obviously, already in dreamland. 

I remembered smiling in that moment looking at your peaceful face sleeping. I thought you were getting better, it felt like you were getting better. But I didn’t ask you. You weren’t getting better, Jonghyun-ah. I should’ve known better, I’m sorry.

That morning, like usually, you greeted me with a happy “Good morning sleepyhead.” And offered me a cup of coffee.

I smiled sleepily and thanked you. You grinned in respond and told me you’ll wait for me outside. But my heart felt heavy, you still looked haggered. I brushed it away saying that it must be the lack of sleep you get yesterday.

I joined you in the living room after I washed up. Your mother was there too. I remembered smiling when you joked around with your mother before she left the house to run an errand. I miss my mother but seeing you two made me feel happy.

“Are you staying for lunch?” You asked sitting beside me. Your eyes looked hopeful, but I couldn’t stay.

I pouted and shook my head, “I have to pack for my business meeting in Jeju tomorrow.”

“Oh.” You exclaimed, clearly disappointed. My heart broke at your reaction but I needed to rest as well.

“Can’t you wait? For just two hours? I have to leave in two hours too.” You proposed, the glint of hope in your eyes shining again.

I didn’t have the heart to say no, but I needed the time, “I’m sorry. I promise I’ll hang out with you for two whole days after my work settles down okay?”

Usually you’d reply happily and joke around with me but that day, you just hid your disappointment with a smile. Once again, you look so tired. I wanted to transfer all the energy I have to you, to see the cheerful Jonghyun I know again.

“Are you leaving now?” You asked me again, closing the gap in between us. I looked at your sad eyes and gave in, “In half an hour." 

Your reaction was priceless. For a second there, you look like the normal you. That grin you showed me washed away all my worries I had that day. I shouldn’t have wash away my worries. I’m sorry Jonghyun-ah. I don’t remember what we talked about that morning but I remembered it being all sweet and cotton candy. I really thought you were better, Jonghyun-ah. I want to go back to that morning and stop time.

"I’ll see you after Christmas!” I say cheerly as I jumped on you for another hug as the dreaded parting arrived. Somehow I felt heavy to leave you that morning. My heart had always felt heavy leaving you the day after our late hangouts, but that day it felt heavier than usual. I should have listened to my guts.

You stumbled backwards a little and chuckled, “That’s a long time to go.”

You hugged me tight and we stood there in the middle of the living room for a few seconds in silence.

You looked extremely sad that morning. Like you didn’t want to see me leave. Almost as if you wanted me to stay longer. You knew that was the last time I’ll see you, didn’t you?

“Don’t be silly it’s only a few weeks to go!” I protested, feeling slightly uncomfortable as my stomach started to hurt for no reason. I felt like something bad was going to happen but I brushed it off.

“Promise me we’ll go to that new cafe I told you about after Christmas.” I added, pouting as I showed my pinky to you.

I remember it clearly Jonghyun-ah, the way you chuckled and pinched my cheeks, ignoring my outstretched pinky and replied, “We’ll see, little one." 

I was honestly hurt you ignored my request to make a promise, but I pushed that aside and decided to tease you instead, "Why am I little when I’m only 5 cms shorter than you.”

“THEN STOP WEARING HEELS.” You complained dramatically like you usually would. You were laughing but your laugh was empty. There was something sad about it but I brushed it away again. 

I laughed and punched you playfully, “Oh god I’m going to miss you Jjong-ah." 

"I’ll miss you too. A lot.” You said it like you meant it. The look in your eyes made it difficult for me to leave.

I tried brushing all those feelings away, fake laughing, “Ahh why are you so emotional?! It’s not like I’m going away for that long!" 

"Okay then. I won’t miss you at all. AT ALL.” You said, a hint of smile creeping o your face. 

“That’s a bit mean. I’ll accept you missing me then.” I grinned, twisting my own words.

“You’re a loser.” You said rolling your eyes.

I smiled and ruffled your hair, “Well this loser loves you. Dress warm, take care of Ru and your mum.”

You chuckled and did the same to me in return, “Okay. You take care of yourself. Don’t get into trouble." 

"Eung. If you need me at all just call me okay.” I reminded you. You were there in front of me, but it felt like you weren’t present. That sadness overpowering your eyes.

“I don’t want to bother you with work.” You said. It sounded so sad, as if you felt like a burden in my life. I didn’t know how to react. I didn’t want to leave you. I shouldn’t have.

“Just do it! Bye~ I’ll see you in 2 weeks!” I remember pinching your arms before walking away from you. I was only 5 steps away when you called me, “Yah!”

“What?” I said, frowning as you grabbed both my hands and stood in front of me.

“Be happy.” You said smiling, your hand slowly moving up my arm and settled on my shoulders. You were staring straight in my eyes, meaning every word you say.

I felt myself getting teary as I pulled you in for a hug. “You too. I love you Jonghyunnie.”

“Take care, I love you even more.” You mumbled into my hair, holding me tighter. It wasn’t my first time hearing those words from you, but that time it felt different. I couldn’t see your face but I knew that you were sad, the way you said it was different. Unconciously, I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks. 

“Ah. Why are you making me teary? Bye Jjong.” I said being the first to pull away from the hug. I quickly wiped my tears away, hoping you didn’t notice. Why did my heart feel so heavy to leave you that day?

“Goodbye. Remember I love you.” You said and waved goodbye to me, smiling. But the way you looked at me was different, it was as if you were trying to memorize my expressions, every single part of my face.

I laughed and rolled my eyes at your mushiness, thinking that you were joking. I waved at you one last time and walked away from you. 

That was the biggest mistake of my life. If only I stayed and got a few more hours with you. I’ll trade everything to go back in time to you Jonghyun. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.

[park-j1m1n-bts]

Top 50 - 11 Songs of 2017

Ok so I did this last year and I really enjoyed doing it and looking back this year at all the songs I listened to in the past! So here goes :)

As always, I love my boy groups/male singers so just a little disclaimer because this list will definitely show that trend! 

50. EXO - DIAMOND 

This is such an interesting song and the chorus really caught me off guard (in a good way) deffo one of my faves from the boys’ new album.

49. RED VELVET - RED FLAVOR

This song really surprised me! I'm not someone who enjoys ‘cute’ songs and when I first heard this I didn't like it but my god it is so catchy!! I found myself humming along to it aaaalll the time. Therefore I had to add it to this list. 

48. BRAVE GIRLS - ROLLIN

I love brave girls, they are so sexy yet so fresh at the same time! I loved this song straightaway and the dance with the stools is so different but it is just great!

47. SEVENTEEN (PERFORMANCE UNIT) - LILILI YABBAY

I liiiive for the performance unit! (Dino is my bias sooo ;) ) The bridge of this song is brilliant, the higher pitch of it is such a contrast to the rest of the song, I just can’t get enough of it!!!

46. VICTON - EYEZ EYEZ

Although it still had an element of cuteness, this darker concept was so unexpected of the Victon boys! It really suited them!

45. HENRY - I’ M GOOD

This is such a chill summer vibe song!! Added to my driving playlist straightaway!

44. JONGHYUN (FEAT TAEYEON) - LONELY

What a beautifully talented and kind man, may he now rest in peace. This song was breath taking and his vocals as well as taeyeon’s are truly magical and I hope this song gets even more recognition!

43. NCT 127 - GOOD THING

What a tune!!!! I'm surprised this song is only number 43 because I had this on repeat all day when the album was released! You just can’t help but move to it!

42. MYTEEN - AMAZING

I think this song is a bit of a love/hate song - I love it! Myteen are a rookie boy group and this is their debut song and I have heard a lot of negative comments about it but the bridge and the chorus are so flipping catchy, you’ll deffo be singing it after hearing it!

41. G-DRAGON - UNTITLED 2014

Woah I did not expect this from G-Dragon! I’ll be honest, personally I'm not a massive fan of g-dragon’s rapping style but his voice!!?? damn it gave me chills! This is a super beautiful song.

40. TAEYANG - WAKE ME UP 

I love love love taeyang’s voice and paired with this song.... just wow. I think it was produced really well, how the first verse was very stripped back but then at the chorus the clap of the beat came in. It just really made his voice stand out 

39. IN2IT - AMAZING

Such a summer song with a very addictive tune “u-who who u- who who” ahhh so cute I love it 

38. SUNMI - GASHINA

Yaaasss slay girl! such an empowering song and I love the mix between cute and fierce 

37. HALO - HERE I AM

Halo are super underrated! I can’t understand why though because this song is super catchy! Please check them out, you won't regret it!

36. WANNA ONE - BURN IT UP 

This song is freaking amazing! especially Woojin’s breakdown at the end of the song! His voice is so deep I love it 

35. CLC - HOBGOBLIN

This concept was brilliant!! I couldn’t believe it was CLC but those girls pulled it off so well! what a great comeback

34. B.I.G. - 123

Another really underrated boy group! This is such an upbeat and happy song! super duper catchy!!!

33. JBJ - FANTASY

I love this song so much! I really wanted to put it higher but there was just too many good songs last year! The first line just grabs you “you’re not a daydreamer” looooove!!

32. SEVENTEEN (VOCAL UNIT) - HABIT

Pure talent! solo, each boy is amazing but when they sing together for the chorus.... woah just gives me shivers!

31. UNIT BLACK - STEAL YOUR HEART

I never follow these sort of survival shows however listening to this song I became hooked, especially on Park Doha ....but where did he go? like most of the members of unit black went into In2it but not Doha?? anyway this song aaaahhh its great!!! needs way more recognition

30. THE ROSE - SORRY

woah. This band has become my new favourite (sorry cnblue I still love you) As a debut song, Sorry was amazing! their talent is no joke

29. STRAY KIDS - HELLEVATOR

2017 was clearly the year for boy groups! so many debuted and 80% of them I swear made it to my top 50 its just amazing! I love becoming obsessed with new groups! this song blew up when it came out, everyone was just so shocked that the boys produced the song and choreo themselves! 

28. B.A.P. - WAKE ME UP

I love when B.A.P do this darker concept, I think it really suits them! The message it portrays is really important and this with the great song made it a great comeback for the boys.

27. UP10TION - GOING CRAZY

Now i’ll be honest Up10tion songs can be hit or miss with me so when they came back with this song I was sceptical but my god I LOVE it soooo much! the contrast between the high voices of the singers and the deep voices of the rappers is really great

26. MICRODOT (FEAT. SANCHEZ) - NEW DAY

I only discovered microdot recently whilst on Spotify and I instantly downloaded his whole album! it was really difficult not to put like every song on here! This one I love because I really like when songs have a softer chorus but then rap verses. 

25. HOTSHOT - JELLY

Hotshot ma boyyyysss! I cant explain just how long I waited for this comeback! and they did not disappoint! It was a shame Sungwoon wasn't involved but he is doing great in wanna one so congrats to him :)

24. MICRODOT (FEAT DONELL LEWIS) - YOU NEED LOVE

I only put in two songs from the album so I think I did well! I don’t know if this is cheating though because this song is in English but I just had to add it!! it brings such a cool vibe

23. EXO - POWER 

Honestly it took me a while to get into this song.... but the more I heard it the more the tune got stuck in my head! I love the beat and the performance is soo great

22. BLOCK B - SHALL WE DANCE

I love Block B’s vibes! They never go suit and follow other groups concepts and I think that's great! this song is a prime example, its just so different and distinguishable. I can’t help but dance alone to it 

21. CNBLUE - BETWEEN US 

What a brilliant song!! correct me if I'm wrong but I don't think they had a win with this song? .... whaaaaat?!? I don’t understand! they need more recognition

20. SF9 - EASY LOVE 

My favourite sf9 song!!! I love it when the rappers come in each time, the beat just changes! waaaa its just great

19. KARD - RUMOR

Deffo my fave kard song by farrrrr! J.Seph shook the world when he started singing! my boy DID THAT!! such a feel good summer song! 

18. BTS -DNA

yes, I know what you’re thinking “has an Army really just put BTS’s comeback song 18th on her list” but trust me guys I tried really hard to do this list objectively and not just put BTS’s whole album right at the top. Don't get me wrong though DNA was AMAZING I remember hearing it for the first time and I ran around my uni flat screaming and getting everyone to come listen to this BOP. They smash it every time.

17.. SEO IN GUK - BETTER TOGETHER 

I love this mans voice! All his songs just grab me, you can’t help but just sway to this beautiful song!!! please please listen to it!!!! 

16. BTS - BEST OF ME 

When my baby came in straight away with his beautiful voice I legit fell of my chair! I love how this song starts of so calm and this the well known sound of the chain smokers comes in and then..... suga singing like tf!? yessss come thruuuu with the vocals ugh I love him.

15. PENTAGON - LIKE THIS 

I’ve been seriously loving Pentagon recently! and I really wanted to put this song higher on my list but as you will see later on wayyyy tooo many good songs I just couldn’t. Their vocals (and visuals *cough*) are no joke! please stan them

14. MONSTA X - SHINE FOREVER 

Sooo hard not to put all their songs on here! 2017 was their year!! so many good songs, they are always so catchy and just wake me up

13. BTS - GO GO 

What a fun song oh my god! only BTS could make the performance of Go Go cool! I love how much fun they seem to have singing this song.

12. IKON - BLING BLING

Now, real talk! if this song does not hype you up and get you moving then there is something seriously wrong with you! I listen to this to help me get up in the morning, when I'm exercising or whenever I feeling blughhhh. only ikon could pull of this concept

11. BTS - NOT TODAY

I don't think I will ever get bored of this song! everything about I just love and I'm am kinda sad it just missed my top 10 but like I said I didn't want my top 10 to be boring and for BTS to dominate the whole list! nevertheless a brilliant brilliant song

so there is my top kpop songs 50 though to 11. I will do my top 10 in a separate post because otherwise it will be way too long and boring! I hope you guys enjoy and check out any you haven't listened to... you wont regret it 

[moonbearlisa]

10 Songs I can’t stop listening rn tag

I’ve been tagged by @daddywheein

1. SObeR by Suzy

I am füCKING addicted to this song

Also kind of a mood rn

2.Love Scenario by iKon

Another addictive song

And GOD Donghyuk Who GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO BE THAT HANDSOME?

3.Heroine by Sunmi

Okay let’s say all this songs are so addictive

A queen

Also a mood (almost all the songs I love in some moment of life are bc they’re a mood af lmao)

I love that part of the song tbh (gif)

4.Hush by Mixnine girls

How could I not find any gif of this presentation

this performance was one of the best on Mixnine so I’m pretty disapionted

Anyway a bop

5.Hand in hand by Mixnine boys

For me the BEST performance ever

Can we talk about how HANDSOME DOES SEEHYOON LOOKS

And GOD Seehyoon and Hyunsoo voices really drive me carzy

This song is THE song

6.Bad Boy by Red Velvet

The outfits, the vocals, the choreography everything is on point

I love this girls so much

7.Bboom Bboom by Momoland

GrEEEEaT!

A bop

Give it to yoUR NuunununNUNUNU NUBIT

8.Lonely by Jonghyun ft. Taeyeon

Mood af lately

I really like how Tae and Jong’s voices sound together

9.Love and Hate by Moonbyul

My queen

That friking dance

I play it religiously every day

Also kind of a mood(?

I just love the song and Moonbyulyi so much

10.Idgaf by Dua Lipa

Guess what? Also a mood (kind of, I’m confused with my feelings sorry)

But I love this queen

——————BONUS———————

And lets just add Hilton’s musical by Lin-Manuel Miranda ‘cause its such a blessing and the only way I learn history lmao

[topconfessions]

[2/2] just wanted to add a disclaimer about my recent ask about jonghyun. I still love shinee even after hes gone. They did a rlly good job on Story of Light. I do catch myself thinking how jjong would sound rlly good in some parts of the songs but they did so well regardless. I’ve seen shawols fight about bringing him up on YouTube saying that other shawols are associating sadness w/ shinee now. Not trying to be negative or anything I can’t help how I feel 😞

And yes I 100% agree with you. Shinee is strong and carrying on well in their music without him. I'm truly happy about it because I dont feel Jonghyun would want shinee to come to an end because he's gone. For a split second I really thought Shinee was over back then when his death was still fresh those first 3 months. But they were allowed to grieve respectfully then came together in a beautiful way.

I think we have to stop excluding Johnghyun and associating Jong with sadness. He was a family member to shinee. They loved him and would probably think of him often when recording. We can't ignore even the fact that no offense but Jong was the strongest voice aside from Key and Onew. Losing the best voice will have an impact in the music.

Shinee music is still great. It's missing that powerhouse highlight in its tone that added that extra color. Key seems to have stepped up as well Onew staying steady.

I hate to say this

Nut it's like if Chao never left AOA and passed away or if Taeyeon from SNSD passed away when they were still active. That's a huge blow to the vocal line up and path of the music.

I think Jonghyun should be celebrated still and positivity should be added when mentioning him. But it's okay to express grief. Some memories don't go away with time. He's a permanent part of Shinee and shouldn't be ignored. I miss him but think he would be overjoyed with their direction. Thats what mattered most.

Plus with all respect...Jonghyun treated music as his life despite wanting to be a poet as his true dream. He really cared on and off stage. So I know he would be pleased to see them carry on and not disband.

[onkeywritings]

May I Flirt With You?

Rating: G

Warnings: N/A

“You dropped something.”

“What?”

“Your standards.”

Jinki gapes at the stranger and Jonghyun huffs and stands a little straighter. Then the words really register and Jinki bursts out in laughter, only causing Jonghyun to look even more hurt.

“You’re the worst best friend ever!” Jonghyun says and Jinki promises to buy him another Strawberry Daiquiri. Jonghyun sulks until Jinki promises to buy him one more.

The stranger has gone and Jinki can’t find him in the darkness of the club. The pick-up line (Jinki assumes it’s a pick-up line anyway) stays with him throughout the night as they get drunk.

Jonghyun is drunk before Jinki but that’s nothing new and Jinki watches him on the dance floor, disappearing in between taller people only to show himself again.

When they leave the club, they’re both drunk. Jinki is giggling in the night. He thinks he heard the lyrics as ‘farts farts farts’ before they left and for some reason, that’s hilarious to him and he can’t stop repeating it. Jonghyun is getting tired, slowly sobering up in the night air and he’s going to have a hangover before they arrive home. Jinki is blissfully unaware of Jonghyun’s misery, however, and he continues his giggling as he staggers home with Jonghyun at his side.

It’s 12 PM when Jinki wakes up the next morning. He’s tired and fatigued but doesn’t have a headache. He doesn’t feel nauseous either. That’s something he can’t say about Jonghyun, though.

“Shut up,” Jonghyun says as he cradles his head in his hands. Jinki just pats his hair a little in sympathy before he goes to find a glass of water for both of them. They spend the afternoon eating fast food and pitying themselves but it’s the best cure for a hangover.

“Meet my girlfriend!” Jonghyun says and looks fondly at a tall woman by his side. She smiles a little and bows politely to say hello to Jinki. Jinki just lifts his hand in a wave from where he’s sitting on the couch. Jonghyun frowns but both the girl and Jinki ignore him.

“You must be Minjung?” Jinki asks and the girl nods. Her dark hair falls into her eyes and she fumbles a little with the short bob-cut before she gives up. Jonghyun gently removes the hair and fixes it behind her ears.

“Yeah and I’m guessing you’re the worst best friend, Jinki?”

Jinki snorts and almost chokes on the sip of coke he has just taken.

“Fuck you Jonghyun,” he says when he’s done coughing. Jonghyun just smirks a little.

From: Minjung

Hey Jinki. Jonghyun says he wants to invite you to our housewarming but he doesn’t have the guts to do it so I’m doing it for him. Songijeong-ro 6-gil 105. You have to be here.

From: Jonghyunnie

Don’t come to our housewarming, you ungrateful, single gremlin.

From: Jonghyunnie

Thanks for helping with the furniture btw.

From: Jonghyunnie

Minjung says you’re allowed only if you bring beer

From: Jonghyunnie

and a bottle of champagne

To: Jonghyunnie

Fuck off.

Jinki doesn’t know a lot of people when he steps inside Jonghyun and Minjung’s new shared home. Most of them, he guesses, are Minjung’s friends. Jonghyun doesn’t have a large social circle but it has never been a problem for him. Jinki is handed a beer and he introduces himself to a few of the people there. Jonghyun’s sister is there as well so Jinki clings to her. At least she’s a known face.

“Were do you hide your wings?” an unknown voice suddenly asks behind him, so close to his ear that Jinki can feel the hot breath on his skin. But when he turns around, all he sees is a back dressed in a black shirt disappearing into a group of people. Sodam laughs beside him.

“What a cheesy pick-up line,” she says and drinks from her beer. Jinki shrugs a little.

“Guess he wasn’t too curious since he didn’t stay around to get an answer.”

He forgets the stranger as the evening goes on and he gets more to drink.

From: Jonghyunnie

Vogue just called, they want to put you on the cover

To: Jonghyunnie

Wtf?

From: Jonghyunnie

That wasn’t me!!!!!

To: Jonghyunnie

Sure

From: Jonghyunnie

!!!!!

From: Jonghyunnie

I would never. Kibum did it.

To: Jonghyunnie

Sure

Jinki cracks his neck and walks down the hallway. He’s on his way to class, bag slung over his shoulder when he bumps into another man. The other man is taller than Jinki, slightly so. He has black hair that looks fluffy and feline eyes with an intensity Jinki has never seen before. His face is sharp yet soft and his cheeks show dimples as he smiles. His style is impeccable and Jinki feels like less as he stands in front of him.

“Are you okay?” the stranger asks and Jinki feels like his legs are unstable beneath him. He stammers his yes and avoids looking at the other man now that he is done drinking in his looks. The stranger is gorgeous, possibly the most handsome man Jinki has ever seen. He beats Jonghyun by a thousand miles and most people acknowledge that Jonghyun is very good-looking. This guy is definitely other-worldly. He has to be.

“Good. Are you going that way?”

The stranger points down the hallway, towards the science classes and Jinki nods a little.

“Yes, I’m… I am…”

Jinki scolds himself internally for stumbling over his words again. This is stupid. He should be better than that but then the stranger smiles and Jinki feels like melting in a puddle on the floor again.

“Oh. Nice! Enjoy your classes then.”

With those words the stranger steps around Jinki and takes a few steps away in the opposite direction of where Jinki has to go. Jinki turns around on his spot and looks at the stranger’s back disappearing down the hallway.

“I’m Jinki!” he says after him and then regrets. Stupid Jinki, stupid. The stranger turns around and sends him a smile that has Jinki’s heart beating faster than it should, however.

“Hello Jinki.”

Then he disappears around a corner and Jinki has to fight against sinking to the floor.

Minjung laughs.

“You crush on people easier than Jonghyun!” she says and Jonghyun frowns and crosses his arms over his chest offended. Minjung pulls at his hand until he releases it and she can link their fingers. She doesn’t take back her words, though. Jinki sighs a little and leans over the table in defeat.

“I knoooow.” 

Jinki wasn’t supposed to crush on a stranger bumping into him. Jinki has been single for years, to the point of everyone believing he was asexual because of his lack of romantic relationships. Even Jinki had started thinking he was asexual. 

Well, that is until he met the stranger in the hallway because now he knows he is definitely not asexual. He wants to see the stranger again, he wants to meet him again. 

Another girl joins them at their table and steals Minjung’s apple. Minjung steals Jonghyun’s banana instead of taking the apple back from her best friend.

“What’s with him?” Taeyeon asks and nods towards Jinki. Jinki just groans.

“He’s in love,” Jonghyun says and Jinki sits up straight in his seat.

“Oooooh,” Taeyeon says and smiles. “So you’re not ace, huh?”

Jinki just frowns at her and steals the apple from her.

“You must be the reason for global warming because you’re hot,” a stranger says and Jinki turns around to stand face to face with the man.

“Actually it’s primarily because of too much carbon dioxide in the atmosphere,” he says.

When he recognises the man and the words he has just spewed in his tipsy state, he blushes tomato-red and wants to hide. In front of him stands the other-worldly stranger that he bumped into two weeks ago. Except right now they’re at a party, they’re probably both drunk and Jinki just answered his pick-up line with science. Jinki hasn’t been this embarrassed since he went to kindergarten.

The stranger widens his eyes and then starts laughing.

“I didn’t think you would respond,” he says when he finishes laughing. Jinki wants to sink into the floorboards and disappear. “My name’s Kibum.”

Jinki takes a deep breath and tries not to think about what he looks like.

“Jinki,” he says and hopes he does well. Kibum sends him another smile that has his knees weak.

“I know.”

The grass is wet with dew but the night sky is clear and the stars are calming him. Jinki has found plenty of constellations but he still hasn’t found his favourite and he can’t go inside before he finds it. He doesn’t notice the person laying down beside him in the summer evening until the other person moves closer and they’re suddenly touching.

Jinki turns his head and stares into the most beautiful brown eyes. He hadn’t notice how beautiful Kibum’s eyes are before now. Now they’re transfixing him, making it impossible to look away.

“Your lips look so lonely…Would they like to meet mine?” Kibum asks in a whisper and Jinki smiles a little.

“Fuck yes,” he answers before he presses his lips to Kibum’s. Jinki is way too drunk.

“You know I saw you and Jonghyun in the nightclub 6 months ago,” Kibum says. Jinki raises an eyebrow and continues playing with Kibum’s fingers on his stomach. “I thought you were together and Jonghyun really is below you.”

Jinki blinks a little.

“Wait, did you tell me I dropped my standards then? Was it because of Jonghyun?”

The pink blush on Kibum’s cheeks gives him away. Jinki laughs.

“It was also me that asked about your wings at Jonghyun and Minjung’s housewarming,” Kibum says in a shy voice. Jinki lets go of Kibum’s hand and turns around in his embrace so he can look directly at Kibum.

“You never stayed around to get my answer,” he says and Kibum shrugs a little.

“I was shy. My friends told me that it would definitely work with that pick-up line but oh my god, it sounded horrible when I said it out loud.”

Jinki chuckles.

“So for how long did you think I was hot?”

Kibum scoffs.

“That will stay my secret. I’m glad your personality is just as perfect as your appearance, though.”

They lie in silence, just looking at each other. Jinki loves Kibum. He’s confident and cheeky. He’s shy and embarrassed. He’s a walking contradiction but he’s perfect in every possible way. Everything he does is beautiful because it is exactly what makes him Kibum.

“You know, my lips won’t just kiss themselves…” Kibum says after a few minutes of silence and Jinki shakes his head fondly before he closes the distance between them and lets his lips meet Kibum’s.

[shin-yan]

Story Op.2 first impressions

Lonely: beautiful song, Jonghyun's and Taeyeon's vocals go so well together i absolutely love it

1000: well this song already made me cry and it still does, I miss JjongD

멍하니 있어 (Just Chill): this song's lyrics are amongst my all time faves, i love them so much, this song is one of my fave Jjong songs

Love is so nice: while this has always been one of my less favourite songs it still sounds amazing and has everything i would expect and love in a Jjong song, 10/10 it's just not my style

눈싸움 (Blinking game): for some reason i was expecting this to be a fast song?? idk why??? but holy shit i love this

Elevator: if you want to make me cry within less than ten seconds just play this song and watch the tears fall as soon as the first note comes on

놓아줘 (Let me out): uhm??? i am ??? deceased??? wtf this is so good???? im cryin jonghyun how did u create this masterpiece???? holy shit bye

벽난로 (Fireplace): this is absolutely stunning, I love it, I haven't slept in 30hrs so idk how to express my feelings abt it but it's a great song

Warm Winter: I refuse to call this anything else. also one of my favourite songs lyrics wise, but also i love the sound of it, when it was first released on bn i listened to it for two weeks straight that's how much i loved it back then and that's still how much i love it now

that cockroach song: can't find it, am too tired to look for it, already my fave tho 'even cockroaches have lovers but not me ahhhh so saaaaaaaaaaaaaad' yeah sa

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Jonghyun - ‘Story Op. 2′ Album Review

Jonghyun has finally come back with the second part of his ‘Story’ series! After hearing that ballad queen Taeyeon would be joining him in his newest title track, I became really interested to see how their combined voices would turn out. Thus, I’m super excited to get started on my review right away! **warning: super long and in-depth**

Rating: ★★★★★

Lonely (ft. Taeyeon)

The instrumentals that started off the song was nice and simple. Really enjoyed that. Also loved the difference between Jonghyun’s heavier voice and Taeyeon’s light tone. The song is so clean and easy to listen to. However, I think it is super hard to create a song that is both an “easy listen” and “unforgettable.” Unfortunately for me, there wasn’t a specific part of this track that really stood out or grabbed my attention right away. I wish that at the breakdown at 3:20, the chords built up to a key change. I think that would have made the song so much more memorable in my mind.

1000

What a sweet song! I love love love the super simple guitar accompaniment with his stripped down voice. A classic combination. I feel like this is going to be a common theme throughout this album and I’m not mad about it! The chorus is amazing by the way. Also the part where the guitar gets a little harder and he sings, “항상 난 숫자나 뭐 날짜 같은 거 / 생일 기념일 그런 건 신경 안 쓴다고 했지만“ IS MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE. Ugh his tone is beautiful.

멍하니 있어 (Just Chill)

I really like the wavy sound he’s going for in this one. If I could use one word to describe this song, it would be “mellow.” The funky xylophone-like instrumentals with the finger snaps and his vocal color literally symbolize mellowness. Dig it.

Love Is So Nice

Oh this Song Is So Nice! Lovin’ the chorus and his tone when he drags out the ‘o’ in ‘so-o-o-o nice.’ You know exactly what I’m talking about. Back-up vocal Jonghyun is a beautiful addition to this song as well (aka when he sings/whispers 깜깜한 내 방에 하얀 하얀 너의 두 다리). Wow I really enjoy this track a lot. The more I listen to it, the more I find aspects of the song that I love: like that beautiful, random high note. The lyrics are SO suggestive though OMG I had no idea until I was actually paying attention to the words.

눈싸움 (Blinking Game)

His voice. It’s literally honey. I could totally see him serenading everyone at a classy bar in the ‘60s or something? Like with his hair gelled and pushed back, holding one of those large microphones... I don’t know I think I might be going crazy. I love it.

엘리베이터 (Elevator)

Oh! Was not expecting those high notes, but I’m totally feelin’ the vibes of this song! Can Jonghyun always be accompanied by an orchestra? These two sounds put together literally create a masterpiece. Also, the chorus. Wow.

놓아줘 (Let Me Out)

YESSSSSS I have been living my entire life for this song. I was expecting another song like the previous ones in his tracklist so far with the super calm intro, but then when the surprise BASS comes in... SNATCHED my weave. Speechless. It kind of reminds me of Radioactive from Imagine Dragons, which I love, so I’m so so so so happy with this song. I have been listening to this album on repeat, but I seem to come back to this track the most. Hm... I wonder why... earth shattering high notes, hype bass, emotional vocals... Oh yeah, that’s why.

벽난로 (Fireplace)

Slowin’ down a little after the hype previous track, but Jonghyun won’t let me REST. He has a great voice, let me just put that fact out there. wHAT when he counts from one to four in that whispery voice... you can’t just DO that boy!!

따뜻한 겨울 (Our Season)

The cutest song! This is a perfect listen for the spring time since it’s more light-hearted. Really liking the lone synth accompanying Jonghyun in the chorus. It’s simple and clean, but effective. But can we talk about the OUTRO. His higher pitch KILLS me. It sounds so GOOD. Just in love with this song overall.

Jonghyun has decided to continue the trend with his ‘Story’ albums by creating more lovely slower ballad songs! My favorite song off of the album is probably Let Me Out, though. Gotta say I am SO glad that I took a chance with his b-sides after not caring so much for the title track. ‘Story Op. 2′ is PERFECTION.

Rating: ★★★★★

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Gone with the wind - Woweeee this has just jumped up the list to become one of my favorite Gfriend Songs!! Yuju never holds back with her vocals and the chorus is super duper catchy, 10/10

Love in Color - All I can say is Taeyeon is a blessing to this world

Hands on Me - What can I say except yes Taeyeon I will put my hands on you,,, im kidding but this is a bop and it’s gone straight onto my playlist

Up and Down - ITS 12:25am AND IM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SCREAM AT HOW GOOD THIS IS

Bae - Once again, the queen never disappoints with another bop, hold onto your wigs

Paradise - How have I never heard this before it’s so fast and then the chorus is sexy asf and i’m trying so hard not to break out into spontaneous dance but play yhis at my funeral please and thank you

Underwater - Heize is criminally underrated, and this song just enforces that. The girl has never released a bad song, please give her a listen if you never have before (my personal fave is jenga)

Nighty Night - I’ve never listened to any of Neiah’s music before, but I really love that deeper tone to her voice, i will definitely be listening to more of her

No way - a solid bop, i just really love her voice so much idk what it is about it WE STAN

Moon - Now this is one i’ve heard before. It is one of my favourite songs, and Jonghyuns vocals never seize to amaze me, I hope he’s okay and i miss him a lot 💕

Only One You Need - This song is actually brilliant. Kim Jonghyun only released amazing music, and that kind of musical talent is sorely missed.

Move - It wasn’t on spotify and i don’t have time rn to find it anywhere else lmao

Let Me Know - It’s not my favourite BTS song but i really enjoyed the rapping throughout the song and it really suited Taehyung’s deep voice

Hold me tight - Super vocals near the end like wow. It really suits all their voices I think, I really enjoyed the song

Stay - This song deserves so much more attention, it is brilliant, and the MV is beautiful. I love it sosososoosos much please go listen to it if you haven’t heard it before

Really - I mean another undeniable bop from our queens, the raps and vocals just go so well together, I personally think that Teddy is a genius producer, everything he produces is amazing

Hello - It’s such a winner sounding song?? If that makes any sense. Like you could tell t was a winner song if you had never heard it before, it’s their signature song

Really Really - This song is tied first as my favourite Winner song along with Love Me Love Me, ITS SOO GOOD

If I were you - I’m not much of a 2ne1 song so i don’t really know much about them, but I really like the raw and rough side of some of the vocals, and the tempo and flow of the song is really nice and it gives a bit of a retroey vibe (i’m inventing words now). I really like it though!

Goodbye - This song is one i listen to when i’m depressed hahaha. It’s really good though, and the emotion in the song is undeniable, 10/10

Ugly - This isn’t my favourite song, i’ll have to admit. It’s catchy, but it’s just not my cup of tea!

-Thanks for all the great recs!-

Gfriend: Gone with the wind Taeyeon: Love in Color, Hands on Me Taeyeon and Hyoyeon: Up and down Hyolyn: Bae, Paradise Heize: Underwater Nieah: No Way, Nighty night Jonghyun: Moon, Only One You Need Bts: Move (이사), Let me Know, Hold Me Tight Blackpink: Stay, Really Winner: Hello, Really really 2ne1: If I were you, Goodbye, Ugly. sorry I got excited because I have no one to fangirl with and these are just some of my faves

hold on i’ve heard barely any of these i’m gonna listen to them all give me a few minutes

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12 Of The Best Solo Tracks By SHINee's Jonghyun

April 8th marks the birthday of the recent Kim Jonghyun of SHINee. It would have been his 28th birthday (international age) if he were still alive today. Unfortunately, Jonghyun passed away on December 18th, 2017 after a long battle with depression. Although the talented artist is gone from this world, his legacy and art still remain behind as a testimony to one of the greatest modern songwriters and vocalists in Korea. Although the list of his best songs could honestly be endless, we have narrowed it down to 12 of our favorites tracks and performances. These are just some of the songs that made Jonghyun respected as both a soloist and songwriter/lyricist. Instead of being sad on this day, let's celebrate what an amazing artist Jonghyun was and how many lives he touched through his own solo music and art. Happy birthday, Jonghyun! We miss you so much and are so grateful for these amazing songs you left for us.

12) "Crazy (Guilty Pleasure)" featuring Iron

This amazing song was the first single off his debut mini-album in 2015. Starting off his solo career, he showed that he was fully capable of providing great music with his own color and style. Although some critics were wary of both the start of a solo career, as well as this song, he proved them wrong when fans fell in love with the track, as well as all the others from the album, entitled Base. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yIDkbbdOoE

11) "End of a Day"

A track that truly allowed people to glimpse into the heart of Jonghyun, "End of a Day" was a beautiful ballad that focused on Jonghyun's pristine vocals as he delivered the bittersweet lyrics with simplicity and style. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wGP-gfCWXYI

10) "Déjà-Boo" featuring Zion.T

A sexy, seductive funk track, "Déjà-Boo" was a triumph for Jonghyun. It clearly showed the depth of his versatility and that he refused to play it safe by producing typical pop tracks that would appeal to the mass audience. Instead, he created his own sound and stayed true to himself as an innovative artist. Ultimately, it would prove a wise decision as it ended up bringing Jonghyun such success and respect as a solo artist from both music critics and fans. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TcvDR5xz97g

9) "Hallelujah"

Jonghyun's voice was so powerful and majestic that sometimes the best songs were the simplest. "Hallelujah" certainly proved that idea to be true when they kept the accompaniment to a minimum and let his voice shine over a religious-inspired choir with their soft, backup vocals. The lyrics talk about being so overwhelmed with the beauty and heart of the person you love that you stand in awe and simply thank God. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hNqlFPlNErE

8) "Love Is So Nice"

Sometimes flowery words and phrases just don't cut it when it comes to love. When words fail, simple sincerity is always best. That's the way Jonghyun went about when describing love in this song. The time spent together, the look in each other's eyes— he summed it up with perfect simplicity by saying that love was just so nice. The song itself also let fans appreciate the great vocal control that Jonghyun had in his upper register. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFQD1PPbFt8

7) "Lonely" featuring Taeyeon

A song that touched many people and allowed them a deeper view into Jonghyun's soul, this track featured his best friend Taeyeon of SNSD. The song tells the story of two people who feel lonely and sad, despite being together. Since they don't want to burden each other with their struggles, they just keep their feelings hidden inside, thus resulting in an even greater loneliness. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NpTpEsE9G8c

6) "She Is"

"She Is" has a unique sound that could truly only have come from Jonghyun himself. It's a funky, upbeat, R&B track with fun synth sounds and plenty of vocal improvisation and "ohh" and "aah" sounds for which Jonghyun became famous for spreading throughout both his songs and those of SHINee. Catchy and colorful, both the song and MV showed fans Jonghyun's brighter side. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmNhfjzmMrU

5) "Let Me Out"

This powerful ballad left a lasting impression on fans, especially after Jonghyun's unfortunate death. The desperation of the lyrics cry out for help, asking anyone to just notice him and help bring him out of the exhausting struggle. The melody and the sound of the song bounce back and forth— from soft to strong, slower to faster— echoing something of the frantic mindset that can come with such internal thoughts. At his highest, soaring notes, heavy voice effects are used to give it an almost otherworldly sound. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TFK_T3yhzk0

4) "Elevator"

A stunning masterpiece, this is one of my favorites on the list. Throughout the lyrics, you will see the depths of Jonghyun's heart and weariness fully revealed. Believe me, it's not for the faint of heart when you look back on these lyrics and know how he must have suffered. The song tells the story of Jonghyun catching a glimpse of himself in the mirrored doors of an elevator and barely recognizing himself and who he has become. What follows is a conversation with himself and his reflection, asking his reflection not to hide things, asking him how often he has cried lately, and simply letting him know he's not alone by telling the reflection hello. Heartbreaking and beautiful, Jonghyun expressed what we have all felt at one time. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OwDwmtj0RU

3) "Y Si Fuera Ella (Hyeya)"

This is hands down my all time favorite song by Jonghyun. Originally sung by famous Spanish singer Alejandro Sanz, Jonghyun reached out to ask permission to cover the song and write Korean lyrics for it. When permission was given, Jonghyun proceeded to write stunning lyrics that kept the feelings of the original while still adding his own style and vibe. What followed was an impeccable vocal performance filled with such raw emotion that it almost hurts to hear it. The lyrics are from the view of someone begging their lover not to leave them. They try to take responsibility for everything— asking forgiveness for being too needy and promising to give them more space. At the same time, however, they continue to lament the fact that their lover is leaving and confessing that they cannot live without them. The already beautiful song becomes truly stunning with the overwhelming intensity of Jonghyun's feelings as he delivers a perfect performance of heartbreak. (*Please note that this stage performance deals with despair and death. As such, it may be triggering to some readers. For a lyrics video only, click here.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDb02isPFc0

2) "Before Our Spring"

What made Jonghyun so special as an artist is that he wasn't afraid to dive into his emotions. As deeply as he felt depression and heartbreak, he also felt hope and love. In "Before Our Spring," he tells about observing the person he loves from a distance and hoping for better times in the future although they are apart now. He sings sweetly and idealistically of a blossoming spring with love, but in the next moment, he confesses that he is too scared to approach the person and be heartbroken. Rather, he is more content to watch the person from a distance and just be satisfied in knowing the one he loves is ok. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9ea5VDQfXg

1) "Shinin'"

When someone makes the decision to commit suicide, it's unfortunate that many people will always equate that person with tragedy and sadness. Jonghyun was such a multi-dimensional person and artist, however, and couldn't be explained solely by his slower tracks or heartbreaking tunes. He also can't be boxed in just by his funkier R&B songs. At the end of it all, this is the song by which he wanted to be remembered. I am firmly convinced that Jonghyun's decision to end his life had been made well before his final album and concert. In my mind, this was further solidified when I listened to "Shinin'" and the rest of his posthumous album, Poet|Artist. It is impossible to ignore the subtle messages and the words he chose to leave behind. Despite the circumstances of his passing, I sincerely believe he was asking people to remember the brighter, happier side that he always showed onstage. In "Shinin'," we hear about Jonghyun falling in love and being fascinated by someone. As such, he promises to always be with them and asks them to do the same. I find it no accident that this is the song he chose for the title track of what would become his final album. Colorful, beautiful, catchy, hopeful, and endearing, this song wasn't just by Jonghyun... it was Jonghyun. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J41qe-TM1DY Jonghyun, we continue to miss you so much! We pray that you are at peace and have found some rest at least. We will always remember you as the brilliant, talented artist that you were in life. Although we are celebrating the life of Jonghyun, we would like to make it clear that we firmly believe that suicide is NEVER the answer for any person on this earth. If you or someone you know is feeling suicidal, please contact the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. You can also visit HERE to chat with someone online. For overseas fans, you can find a list of international resources by clicking HERE. What is your favorite Jonghyun song? Let us know by leaving a comment below! lee1086 is the co-founder and director of What The Kpop. When not writing or editing articles, she is watching Kpop music videos or Kdramas. She is a huge fan of Super Junior and the perfection known as Eunsihae. When not obsessing over the flawlessness of Donghae or trying to decide if her SHINee bias is Taemin or Key, she is playing the piano, loving on her dog, watching every fancam of Kai ever known to man, and hanging out with her family and friends. She is multi-fandom to the core and misses Jonghyun every single day. Media: SMTOWN Read the full article

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Music asks, personalized list

1. A Song you’re ashamed of liking I’m not exactly ashamed but I like High School Musical songs lmao 2. Favourite lyrics N.O. by BTS 3. Favourite band/artist BTS  4. Top 5 Favourite songs at this moment 1. Mic Drop BTS 2. HangSang J-hope 3. Bling Bling Ikon 4. A friend like me Genie (Aladdin) 5. Friends Anne-Marie and Marshmallo 5. Latest song that made you smile Daydream by Hoseok 6. An overrated band People works really hard to get what they have so I don’t think I can judge that sorry :( 7. An overrated song Uhm… in this case I’d say Twice TT they are not really my style but they have better songs (like Ooh Aah) (yet again its just my opinion no offense) 8. Latest song that made you cry lol idk I don’t really cry with songs, movies and such. But Before our spring by Jonghyun truly stayed me 9. Artist/band that saved your life BANG TAN FUCKING SONYEONDAN 10. If you could see any band/artist live, who would it be BTS 11. What song/album/band/artist always brings back memories for you Disney songs in general 12. saddest song you know omg there are so many - Untitled by G-Dragon, Selene 6.23 by SHINee, Born Singer by BTS, Divine by SNSD. SO FUCKING MANY :’D 13. Favourite song to sing in the shower OMG this may sound rlly wired but I don’t really sing in the shower 😂 But when I do I sing Under the sea (the little mermaid) 14. If you played an instrument in grade school, what was it I played several, piano, violin, flute and others that I can’t remember lmao 15. What song would you like to have your first dance to at your wedding bitch please, Pink Panters sundtrack lmao 16. 5 Songs to have sex to OKAY SHIT umm anything hiphopish with flow and stuff its good to me lmao 17. One band you’d have get back together/bring back from the dead probably Sister and 2ne1 18. You’re forced to listen to only one album for the rest of your life, what album is it Wings YNWA by BTS or Love Yourself: Her by BTS 19. A song that gets you through shit  sorry but I don’t  20. A song to shut everything out the cyphers 21. A song that’s a joke between you and your friends Avecrem commercial its from Spain, the lyrics say ‘Avecrem~ shoot shoop’ and since we’re assholes we changed it to ‘Avecrem~ Shook Shook’ 22. A song to jam out to at 4am BANG BANG BANG 23. A song that punches you in the gut every single time Born Singer by BTS 24. A song that calms you down Taeyeons Rain (actually any of her songs or IUs) 25. A song that makes you feel alive Fire by BTS 26. If you could get any lyrics tattooed, which would you choose omg ‘It has to be now or never’ like a motto I rather regret doing it than not doing it  27. What band/artist would you get your children addicted to at an early age B T S 28. Can you play any instruments, if so, which Rn Piano… not too well tho 29. If you could be a member of any band for one show, who would it be … BTS 30. CDs or Vinyls lmao…??? CDs??? 31. 5 songs to play at your funeral BANG BANG BANG, Fire (bts), I am the best (2ne1), Hang Sang (Hobi), Crown (Camila Cabello) 32. What are some song titles that you love  33. If your life ended today, what song would you choose to represent it mm... I don’t think a song can represent your whole life but Mic Drop is pretty much with what I feel represented ??? idk 35. A heart wrenching song Born Singer by BTS 36. A band/artist you’re proud of BTS 37. A song that has a lot of meaning to you N.O. by BTS 38. A song that reminds you of school Silver Spoon by BTS 39. A song not sung in your native language LMAO HELLO?  40. An instrumental song RM life instrumental 41. A classical song Canon by Pachelbel 42. A song with no percussion Sad but True by  Metallica 43. Something you’ve heard performed live Uh... what? 44. Something you’d give ANYTHING to hear performed live B T S 45. A song from a band/artist that’s from your town/city/state/province Lmao its a Catalan band called ‘Els Catarres’ and they had a popular song called ‘Jenifer’ so yeah that. 46. A song made suddenly precious because of a special someone Time of my life from Dirty Dancing 47. A song made suddenly painful because of someone special None 48. A song that demands lip syncing and a makeshift microphone Lol Love on top by Beyonce 😂 49. A song from a band/artist you met/know I don’t know any irl 50. A song that you would rock at karaoke BTS Mic drop (Steve Aoki remix) or Colours of the wind by Pocahontas 51. A song you can’t help but dance to Any BTS song 52. A song that makes you want to dance on a table  Any BTS song 53. Your 10 song striper playlist lol nope too much work 54. Favourite Disney song I’ll make a man out of you Mulan 55. A song that starts with the first letter of your name Crown by Camila Cabello 56. A song from an artist still alive WTF are these questions? Gashina by Sunmi 57. A song from an artist who’s dead Thriller by Michael Jackson 58. A song you love by an artist/band you hate  I don’t hate any artists, if they are not of my liking I simply don’t listen to them so... 59. A song you love with a colour in the title Yellow submarine ?? 60. A song you love with a number in the title Whalien 52 by bts 61. A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about ??? none  62. A song that needs to be played LOUD BTS MIC DROP AND BIG BANGS BANG BANG BANG 63. A song that makes you think about life Demi Lovatos Skyscraper 65. A song that you think everyone should listen to I mean the classics should be known lmao Rolling Stones, Beatles, U2, Bon Jovi, Michael Jackson, Madonna ... 66. A song that makes you want to fall in love At Last by Etta James 67. A song that makes you think about ‘him/her’ I dont have a Him/her so none 68. A song that you remember from your childhood Any Disney song tbh 69. A song that reminds you of you idk 😂😂😂  70. Okay what’s the real answer to number 1 bitch whaaat???

Im so sorry for this but I tag @yoongsyeol and @hiiraxth :)) btw a huge ass part of the answers are just BTS wtf?