#TO PLAY THE VICTIM I'LL DRINK ALCOHOL TIL MY FRIENDS COME HOME FOR CHRISTMAS AND I'LL DREAM EACH NIGHT OF SOME VERSION OF YOU THAT I

[snowshinobi]

the title track of Stick Season by Noah Kahan rips my liver out of my body and eats it in front of me. in case anyone else wants to get gutted today

[jessicaslittlelovesickmess]

Stick Season

Pairing: Emily Prentiss x reader, Larissa Weems x reader

Warnings: angst, hints of miscarriage

The team sat drinking in Emily's apartment “Oh and what about that woman you dated! The pretty one” Morgan laughed “Y/n?” She responded confused. “Yeah! What happened to her?” Penelope gasped wide-eyed “Um- she moved away” Emily swallowed.

“She was so pretty” JJ sighed leaning back on the sofa “I still remember her babysitting Henry for me” she smiled “She has talent” JJ tilted her drink. The radio played softly in the background as the group made Emily's ex the main subject "Imagine having to tell people how badly you fumbled" Morgan shook his head.

Penelope hummed along before starting to sing, JJ joined in until Spencer and Morgan hummed too "And I'm terrified of the weather, 'cause I see you when it rains". Emily closed her eyes listening to the music, Hotch and Rossi looked knowingly. This was you.

"Doc told me to travel, but there's COVID on the planes" They all stood to dance not realising the lyrics just yet or maybe they did. "And I love Vermont but it's the season of the sticks" Emily's eyes opened you always wanted to visit Vermont, that's where your mum was from. It had been two years almost since you had broken up "And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed" Emily wanted to laugh.

"And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim" She knew it was partly a dig at her "I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas". You never drank because your dad was an alcoholic "And I'll dream each night of some version of you!!!" Spencer's voice cracked.

"That I might not have, but I did not lose" Emily quickly stood, on a race to the bathroom, closing the door only making the music seem louder. "No, I am no longer funny 'cause I miss the way you laugh. You once called me forever now you still can't call me back."

She had to find you and it wasn't hard she knew you tried to contact her still Emily watched the phone ring through unable to face she had hurt you. Stick season was the name of your song. It came out a year ago but now you were posting some gorgeous blonde on Instagram,

You were finally doing everything you had always planned, you looked happy Larissa had proposed on your anniversary she seemed nice. The more she scrolled Larissa was a principal for what school it didn't say but your following had boosted. You'd made it just like you spoke about.

There was another picture- a few actually that stood out a picture of a dove but you were scared of birds the caption read Joanne Prentiss. Emily didn't know a Joanne and definitely not one with her last name, it was posted a few months after you broke up. Another picture closer to when you had moved out was two plates but only one set of cutlery. It flew over Emily's head, had you been seeing Larissa longer than the internet said?" she wondered still stalking you.

"I hope this pains just passin' through, but I doubt it" Emily slumped against the bathtub watching the last two years of your life in pictures. Everyone made sure to remind her how she let you go but back then it felt best.

You will marry Larissa who helped you gain your shine back and she'll rot at work, you will continue a family while hers will grow without her. You will be happy and that's all she could hope for until she accidently liked a post from when you moved to Vermont.

"Em? Are you okay?" you messaged not long after but Emily couldn't bring herself to say the truth "I'm great, Penelope was on my phone" she frowned. 'Okay, I'm just checking but it's good to hear you're still alive' Two years for this, Emily still lying. It's the alcohol she tried to pass 'Yeah I guess, I heard your song it's...' Emily typed only to delete it 'Yeah, I'm sorry I wasn't there' No Emily.

'I love you- no' 'yeah I guess so, I see you're well' the song was coming to an end "Now your tire tracks and one pair of shoes. And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do" JJ sang loudly. It took a moment for you to respond 'Yeah it took a while, life was tough but it wasn't anything I hadn't gone through before'.

'Can we be friends?' Emily was quick to text 'I'm not sure, you really hurt me but only time will tell. I have to go now Em, Larissa just got home but please take care'.

[melissa-leaf]

from instagram

ps. guys, wtf with these soundtracks you always put in those vids?! I mean...

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

[crowleysgirl56]

Another day, another Aziracrow coded song.

Seriously, I’m utterly convinced every single recording artist in the last 8 months got together and decided “Only songs about Aziraphale and Crowley from now on!”

Have you guys LISTENED to the lyrics of the one? Here’s a few examples:

Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face.

And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains.

Crowley’s idea about a rain storm bringing two people together and how that idea is tainted now.

Then this whole section of the chorus which totally references God:

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas.

This bit which completely tears me apart because he’s thinking about Aziraphale:

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose.

Then the last heartbreaking lines also clearly about Aziraphale:

My other half was you

I hope this pain's just passin' through

But I doubt it.

All I can do is picture Crowley sad, drinking, crying, driving around alone in the Bentley desperate for answers.

In the meantime I’m driving my kids to school and this song is on the radio and they’re asking me “Mum why are you crying?” And all I can think of as a response is “Mummy is still sad over a heartbreaking breakup between two fictional characters that happened 8 months ago darlings”.

What. Is. Wrong. With. Me?!

[kishfish]

Marauders as Stick Season lyrics

Remus: “Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can’t face”

Sirius: “So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad, that I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad”

Peter: “And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim. I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas”

James: “No, I am no longer funny cause I miss the way you laugh”

Regulus: “My other half was you. I hope this pain's just passin' through but I doubt it.”

[drarry-soulmates]

Stick Season by Noah Kahan is such Draco to Harry from start to finish. The beginning (all signs from Harry pointing to Draco x Harry to ultimately him choosing Ginny):

As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined You must have had yourself a change of heart like halfway through the drive Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign Kept on driving straight and left our future to the right Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face

To the middle part:

And it's, half my fault but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll, dream each night of some version of you That I, might not have but I did not lose Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes And I'm split in half but that'll have to do So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad No. I am no longer funny 'cause I miss the way you laugh Oh that'll have to do My other half was you I hope this pain's just passing through

[mushi-and-junior]

album moodboards: Stick Season (2022) // Noah Kahan

and i love vermont, but it's the season of the sticks and i saw your mom, she forgot that i existed and it's half my fault, but i just like to play the victim i'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for christmas

[thelomlisfictional]

YALL STICK SEASON OKLAHOMA VERSION IS SO SO SO TYLER OWENS CODED IT IS AN URGENT PSA

And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains HELLO??

And I love Vermont Oklahoma, but it's the season of the sticks tornadoes

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas idk for this one so I’m gonna ignore this line lol 🫣

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

HELP IT’S BASICALLY PERFECT

[qatsby-art]

🌹🥀A Pride Divided🥀🌹

TLK Next Gen

🌹🥀🌹

So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad

That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad

No, I am no longer funny, 'cause I miss the way you laugh

You once called me forever, now you still can't call me back

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed...

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

Oh, that'll have to do

My other half was you

I hope this pain's just passin' through

But I doubt it...

Stick Season - Gareth 

[mooseonahunt]

Realising my favourite ships are very

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim / I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas / And I'll dream each night of some version of you / That I might not have, but I did not lose

coded and I’m suffering

[lyrics-planet]

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose

Noah Kahan, Stick Season

[my-chaos-radio]

Release: July 8, 2022

Lyrics:

As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined

You must have had yourself a change of heart like

Halfway through the drive

Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign

Kept on drivin' straight and left our future to the right

Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face

And memories are somethin' even smoking weed does not replace

And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains

Doc told me to travel, but there's COVID on the planes

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad

That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad

No, I am no longer funny, 'cause I miss the way you laugh

You once called me forever, now you still can't call me back

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

Oh, that'll have to do

My other half was you

I hope this pain's just passin' through

But I doubt it

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

Have to do

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

Songwriter: Noah Kahan

SongFacts:

"Stick Season" is a song by American singer-songwriter Noah Kahan, released on July 8, 2022 as the lead single from his album Stick Season. Kahan wrote the song himself and co-produced it with Gabe Simon. Although the song was moderately successful upon its release in the United States, it went viral on TikTok in mid-2023 and charted internationally. It reached number one in the United Kingdom, Ireland, the Netherlands and the Flanders region of Belgium, and charted in the top 10 in Australia, Canada and New Zealand and the top 20 in the United States.

Kahan wrote a verse of the song during a "fit of insecurity" and uploaded it to TikTok in 2022. Success was quick, prompting him to finish writing the song, which "ended up taking a long time." Kahan was also concerned about whether a song written "specifically about his home state of Vermont" would appeal to people living elsewhere, but reactions to the finished song were overwhelmingly positive.

The song title refers to a term for fall in New England, the time after Halloween before the winter snows begin, which Kahan described as "a time of transition" and "super depressing" since "it just means winter is coming soon." and he produces something new. “a lot of fear” and “no one really likes it”.

[rattyshipss]

~Stick Season~

'As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined

You must have had yourself a change of heart

Like halfway through the drive'

Stanley waited, waited for you to come visit him after you guys decided to go on a "break", well more like he decided, then you decided to just fully break up.

"Well if you've decided you hate me so much you wanna go on a break why don't we just break up then because that's clearly what you want!"

Things had been rocky before then, but Stanley hasn't seen you since that moment. Sitting in his house everyday after work, knowing it really wasn't just his house, it was your house, the house you both spent everyday in together. Now even Stanley was barely there.

'So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad

That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad'

Stanley's "dad", the monster who raised him, the monster who hurt him and so many others. He'd never truly be able to get over everything that happened, he knew that. He could barely live with himself after it all and he didn't know how you would ever be able to.

He was almost happy you broke up, that way he'd never have to tell you about his past. But you were also the person he could always tell anything to. Things didn't go well the last time around with his ex, but with you he'd tell you a million times if it meant he got to keep you.

'And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks and I

Saw your mom she forgot that I existed and

It's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do'

Fairview wasn't a big town, he was bound to run into you, someone you knew, someone you both knew. And it didn't help that your family had become Stanley's family. Maybe he would just be better off with another new identity, starting over again.

That's what he had to do with his ex, why not a second time. Except this time was different, he knew it was different, he knew he wouldn't be able to just leave.

[purposefully-lost]

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks

And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed

And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim

I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

And I'll dream each night of some version of you

That I might not have, but I did not lose

Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes

And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

[talistheintrovert]

not me listening to Stick Season on repeat and thinking about Jaewon and who he thinks he is and just crying about it

i'm really normal about him okay

So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad No and I'm no longer funny but I miss the way you laugh You once called me forever now you still can't call me back

And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains

And it's half my fault but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have but I did not lose

like. it's not every lyric. but it's ENOUGH.

[dannywintr]

STICK SEASON by NOAH KAHAN

so i thought that if i piled something good on all my bad / that i could cancel out the darkness i inherited from dad / no, i am no longer funny, 'cause i miss the way you laugh / once called me forever, now you still can't call me back / and i love vermont, but it's the season of the sticks / and i saw your mom, she forgot that i existed / and it's half my fault, but i just like to play the victim / i'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for christmas / and i'll dream each night of some version of you / that i might not have, but i did not lose / now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes / and i'm split in half, but that'll have to do