#THOSE ALREADY COST S O M U C H

[crossover-enthusiast]

PELO

YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME PELO

PELO

[parvulous-writings]

Roman Sionis SFW alphabet

Summary: SFW alphabet for Roman Sionis.

Warnings: Violence, murder, explicit language, sexual undertones (I know it’s meant to be SFW, but Sionis makes that almost impossible). This is by no means a healthy relationship. 

Notes: Because I said so :) My requests are currently open! My pinned post (found here) contains both a list of characters I write for, and a masterlist!

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A - Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Roman does not show affection in the conventional, lovey-dovey sense. There will be an occasional kiss or hug, but mostly he shows it through gift-giving. Expensive gift-giving.  Although, there is a less appealing way he tries to show his affection and please you. Should someone bother you in any way, he will suggest you let him take care of them. Should you accept his offer, you won’t see that person again. Even if you decline, you probably won’t see them again.

B - Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend? Where does the friendship start?)

He is one of those brutally honest friends. He would not hide anything or sugar coat his answers to questions. The friendship would most likely start with him critiquing something about your style choices- he’d drag you out to purchase something that isn’t “A fucking eyesore”. 

C - Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Only on occasion, ‘moments of weakness’ as Roman dubs them. When his ego is bruised and he needs some comfort.

D - Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking, cleaning, ect?)

He may want to settle down- I don’t think even he can decide that himself to be honest. He doesn’t cook or clean for himself, and never has done. He has paid people for that sort of thing. 

E - Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

He’d just up and leave, expecting you to get over it. 

F - Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? Do they wanna get married?)

Maybe? He might propose to you for the spectacle, but whether you get round to getting married is still uncertain. He feels like he might be able to commit to you; you are better than past relationship. 

G - Gentle (How gentle are they both physically and emotionally?)

Unless you are having a literal, full on breakdown, he probably won’t be gentle with you. And even then it’s not guaranteed. 

H - Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it, and what are they like?)

His hugs are ultra brief. Almost non-existent. 

I - I Love You (How fast do they say the “love” word?)

No. He’s said it maybe... Once?

J - Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What are they like when jealous?)

This man turns green should someone even breathe in your direction. His jealousy knows no bounds; and he gets angry. So, so angry. His already short temper gets even shorter, and he usually blows his stack. 

K - Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

They are either brief as all hell, or passionate and full of heat. There is no inbetween. Either he’s on the way to a meeting and decides to kiss you goodbye, or he’s horny.

L - Little Ones (How are they around kids?)

Please, unless you want someone to be pressing charges against him for infanticide, do not let Roman near children. 

M - Morning (What are mornings like with them?)

Contrary to what you may believe, mornings are pretty slow and sweet with Roman. Unless he has a meeting. Then he’s up and at ‘em at the crack of dawn. 

N - Nights (How are nights spent with them?)

Again, slow. Usually winding down from very long, stressful days. I can envision the two of you sitting by an electric fire, him sipping at some alcohol that cost god knows how much.

O - Open (When do they open up about themselves?)

Usually in moments of anger or venting. He doesn’t like letting his facade down very often. 

P - Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Error 404 - patience not found. It just doesn’t exist with him. 

Q - Quizzes (How much do they remember about you?)

... He remembers your favourite drink? Not that much, really. 

R - Remember (Favorite memory with you?)

Most of them consist of the looks of wonder you give at the things he gives you or the places he takes you to. 

S - Security (How protective are they?)

If you’d let him, he’d send a personal guard with you every waking moment he isn’t by your side. It isn’t that he doesn’t trust you; it’s everyone else. 

T - Try (How much effort do they put in?)

He’ll try when he knows he’s fucked up :) 

U - Ugly (What are their bad habits?)

Drinking, the killing and face-peeling, losing his temper far too often and far too quickly. 

V - Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Very. Everything is linked to his appearance somehow. And just look at him, he spends at least a couple hours getting ready every day. 

W - Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

It’s unclear. He might do, but then again, he could have anyone he wanted in Gotham. 

X - Xtra (Random HC)

When he does starting putting more effort in to your relationship, he becomes so much more enamoured with you- if that’s possible- and he’ll take you to many theatre shows. He secretly loves them. 

Y - Yuck (Things they don’t like either in general or a partner?)

Basically anything he does. 

Z - Zzz (Sleep habits)

Though he has many late nights, he sleeps like a log when he settles down. 

[blu-joons]

DATING NCT A⇴Z HEADCANON ⇴ Zhong Chenle

A ⇴ AFFECTION

Chenle is always incredibly cuddly when he’s around you, he can’t help but just reach out whenever you’re around him to hold onto. It’s an instinct for him to keep you close and also make you feel special underneath his touch.

B ⇴ BEFORE DATING

The two of you were introduced through Mark at a get together at the dorm one evening. You’d been friends with Mark for quite some time, and he just knew that you’d get on like a house on fire with Chenle. Luckily, the two of you proved him both throughout the night, very quickly becoming inseparable from each other.

C ⇴ CONFESSION

Chenle ended up confessing to you one night over dinner. He’d heard you talk often about a restaurant that you specifically liked, so he made a reservation to make sure that the two of you had the best table in the venue for him to make his confession. He was incredibly nervous beforehand, throughout your day you continued to ask him if something was wrong, only for your questions to be answered once he told you how he felt.

D ⇴ DATES

One of the biggest things he loved to do for you on dates together was cook. He didn’t proclaim to be anything incredible, but he loved to try out recipes and paid close attention to all of the foods that you loved so he could surprise you whenever you came round. Having his own place too meant that he was able to decorate the place beautifully, so it was romantic for the two of you. There were times when he might have had a helping hand with it all, but the thought that went into it was what you appreciated the most from Chenle.

E ⇴ EXPERIENCE

He had no experience of dating before he met you, so he’d often rely on his mum especially when it came to learning how to love. As well as his mum, his aunt would often be on hand to give him plenty of advice and tips on how to impress you. They’d always be sure to leave the apartment whenever you were around so that the two of you could enjoy your own space and Chenle could put all of the tips that he’d received into practice to try and impress you just like the two of them had suggested for him to do.

F ⇴ FIGHTING

If he wants to, Chenle can get incredibly loud to make sure that he’s heard by you if he feels like he’s right. He’s not afraid to raise his voice in an argument if he feels like he’s wronged, but if he begins to see you crumble, then he’ll be able to lower it just as quickly. Arguing isn’t something that occurs often between the two of you, but when it does get serious, you both have a habit of being quite stubborn in your ways and arguing that you’re both right. Sometimes you both just end up agreeing that no solution can be found but that it’s best for you both if you just drop whatever you’re arguing about and agree to disagree.

G ⇴ GETTING TO KNOW HIS FAMILY

You were incredibly anxious to meet his family because you knew just how close Chenle was to them all. When they welcomed you so kindly, it was a huge relief to you, but it still took you a while to settle around them as you knew how successful his family was and wanted to live up to all of their expectations of you.

H ⇴ HOME

His family had already bought Chenle his apartment in Seoul, however when the two of you felt like the time was right to find your own place, they weren’t afraid to invest once again and find the perfect place between the two of you. No matter the cost, they wanted you both to be happy, and if they could help find the place for it, then they would.

I ⇴ “I LOVE YOU”

When Chenle surprised you on your first anniversary with a sweet gift, you couldn’t hold back your feelings anymore and said those three little words. Saying ‘I love you,’ was a big deal for you both, and it took some time for you both to feel ready, but as soon as you said it, Chenle said it too, knowing that there was no better time for it,

J ⇴ JEALOUSY

Just like in fights, if Chenle is feeling jealous then he’s not afraid to get loud and also make himself heard. He can be incredibly protective of you when he wants to be, and if someone wants to overstep the mark, then he’ll make sure they regret it. If you’re oblivious to his jealousy, then he’ll try to get himself more involved in the conversation so that your attention can be shifted to him. Whilst he doesn’t like getting jealous, if he feels like something isn’t right in a situation, he won’t sit back and continue to let it unfold.

K ⇴ KIDS

His family were very open with the two of you from the start of your relationship that they wanted grandchildren which definitely left you feeling anxious. Whilst Chenle was used to their honesty, it was slightly more overwhelming for you. If there was one thing you did agree with his parents on though, it was the fact that children would definitely not be happening for a while as you both still had so many other things that you wanted to experience first.

L ⇴ LAUGHTER

Chenle is well known for his loud laughter and screams whenever he finds something funny, but it’s also one of the first things that attracted you to him when you first met. You loved that he loved to laugh, it was always so infectious and would leave you in fits of giggles too. You struggled to understand at times how one person could make so much noise when they laughed, but it made your heart far too happy to see that he was enjoying himself to ever get in the way of that. Chenle knew that you loved his laughter too, so sometimes he would definitely act on it too to make sure that you were smiling too.

M ⇴ MISSING

Whenever he’s missing you, he’ll rely on some of his older members to try and pick him up and give him the support that he’d often turn to his family for. He’s still young, and so he definitely struggles with not being able to contact you whenever he wants like he usually can. There are a few instances when he purposely won’t answer your call because he feels too overwhelmed about not being able to see you and doesn’t want for you to see him getting upset. Once he’s feeling better though, the other members will encourage him to give you a call just in case you’re worrying about him or needing to speak to him to make yourself feel better too.

N ⇴ NICKNAMES

Chenle loves sweet nicknames for you, he’ll often call you ‘flower,’ or something romantic. He picks up on a lot of nicknames that you hear when you’re out and about and will often end up using them for you as well.

O ⇴ OBSESSION

He’s obsessed with your neck, he loves to bury himself into it whenever he’s feeling shy or nervous, it’s the perfect spot for him in near enough any situation.

P ⇴ PDA

Whenever you’re in public, Chenle will do enough to keep you safe when it comes to affection. His mum often stressed to him how important it was to keep you well protected, so with that advice often in the back of his mind, he’ll usually have his arm around you or at least hold your hand to keep you an armlength away.

Q ⇴ QUESTIONS

He loves to make plans with you in mind, no matter what you do, whether it be a recipe for date night or a time to call when he’s on tour, he’ll always ask what’s good for you and never make the decision all by himself.

R ⇴ RANDOM FACTS

One thing that Chenle loves to do is scrapbook all of the things that you do together. He has a book full of photos, tickets, lists, notes, anything that he can get his hands on that will go a little way to reminding him of you will always end up going in the book. He loves to show it to you every now and then when he feels like he’s added enough into it so the two of you can look back over all of the times that you’ve shared together.

S ⇴ SEX

Chenle is just as noisy in the bedroom as he is in pretty much any other situation with you. He’s not afraid of vocalising how good of a time he’s having, even if it will make you incredibly shy. He definitely tries to take on the role as the more dominant one, but as soon as things start to get too intense, he’ll get too shy too and back out from taking control and allow the two of you to work on a par with each other once again.

T ⇴ TEXTS

You often receive texts from Chenle just so he can see how you are. He does tend to worry, but just a simple text from you when he’s thinking about you will go a long way when it comes to reassuring him that things are fine.

U ⇴ UNIVERSE

In life, Chenle had it all, the family, the lifestyle, the friends, but love evaded him. You were very much the missing piece in his life, the one thing that he had missed on had finally arrived, and how his life was perfect.

V ⇴ VACATION

He never cares where the two of you are in the world when you go on holiday, just as long as he’s with you. You’re usually the one that does all of the planning for your holidays, so the destination will tend to be somewhere that you want to go as a reward for managing to organise a holiday in the middle of Chenle’s busy schedule.

W ⇴ WHINING

If he wants his way enough, then he won’t be afraid to kick up a bit of a fuss and try and get you to look in his direction and listen to what he has to say.

X ⇴ XXXXX

Sweet kisses are definitely Chenle’s game, and just as much as he likes to rest against the crook of your neck, he just as much, loves to press kisses against the crook of your neck too. Long trails will often be placed, leading typically to your jaw or underneath your ear. He’s not someone that enjoys long, passionate kisses, he much prefers to peck you gently and take his time to kiss as much of your body as possible.

Y ⇴ YOU

You were the greatest gift in his life because you were the one that completed it.

Z ⇴ ZZZ

Most nights you end up falling asleep having to listen to Chenle sleep talk. Every morning when you tell him that he’s done it, he’ll wholeheartedly decline that he’d do such a thing, but when you’re exhausted from a lack of sleep, he soon realises what he’s done.

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Masterlist

[millers-planet]

Cal Kestis NSFW Alphabet

A/N: literally what am i doing writing this. i have tests i should be studying for. jfc this took so long to write, too.

warnings: self-explanatory

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Cal definitely wants to just hold you, he wants to talk about anything and everything with you. He’ll plant kisses on your lips and on the top of your head as you fall asleep, if you do. If you want a little bit of space, so be it. But if it was up to him, he’d just lay there for hours and talk to you

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Thighs! I’ve talking about this briefly in my other NSFW headcanon, but he really does love your thighs. He will always have a hand on them, always. He loves being between your thighs, whether that’s his head, hips, or hand.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

He’d prefer to finish inside of you, if he could and if it was possible. It makes less of a mess and being inside of you is the best feeling to him. Whether it’s in your mouth or in your pussy is entirely up to you. He’s a simple man with simple needs.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He’s had fantasies of just watching you get yourself off. Doesn’t matter if it’s having you do it in front of him or if it’s watching you when you’re not aware of him watching. For some reason, this just strikes a nerve in him. Seeing your perfect body in that state from a farther view means everything to him.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Cal isn’t that experienced in this part of the relationships. While he is a quick learner, he hasn’t had any experience, which is what shocks you when you two decide to do it for the first time. He definitely hides his inexperience well. 

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying.)

The classic missionary or you on top of him, riding him. He prefers these because seeing your face as you reach climax is what get’s him off the most. Knowing that he did that, that he’s causing you such pleasure in that very moment. This is him being narcassitic or anything, but he can safely say that he caused this moment by himself, all him. If anything, it gives him reassurance.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Unless someone says something stupid or something stupid happens, he’s fairly relaxed. He’s neither serious or goofy, rather a safe middle-ground. Sometimes if you make a snide remark, he’ll make a funny one in return. 

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Cal keeps himself as groomed as he can, when he can. This being said, sometimes it is a little bit longer, but he never prefers it like this. 

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

He is constantly praising you. Complimenting you, kissing you, running his hands along your body, and just being very physically affection and intimate. I’m like 98% confident he totally has a praising kink.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Before stumbling across you, he wouldn’t masturbate as much, simply because he didn’t have the time, but he definitely did. However, whenever he met you, he made the time to be as intimate as possible with you. Cal will always find an excuse to get you two alone if it’s been awhile and one if you is antsy.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Like I brought up in the other HC, he probably would choke you. Not entirely adding pressure and restricting bloodflow, but resting his hand on your throat, occasionally moving his fingers to readjust his grip and remind you of his presence there. Unless you tell him to add pressure, he wouldn’t do it on his own.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

In private and in a bed. At risk for being caught is a total mood killer for him. When he can get you alone in the Mantis, it’s relieving and the best. When he can just ensure a private time, no interruptions, no one coming in, and nothing in the way.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Seeing you happy and carefree puts him in the mood. Whenever it’s just the two of you, not focusing on the impending doom lurking ahead, it makes him just want to hold you so close and do everything he can with you. It’s quite romantic, really.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Hurting you is something he would never do. Making you bleed, bruising you, etc., is just stuff that would turn him off. Seeing you in pain, even if it was pleasurable, just doesn’t sit right with him. Choking you is already toeing the line.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

He’s always been a selfless person if you catch my drift. Eating you out and feeling your legs shake around his body is something he can never get enough of, either. Cal caught onto this skill quicker than anything else, which really caught you off guard.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

It depends. Cal definitely prefers to just savor the moment, but, if adrenaline is rushing and your both just really asking for it, it could be fast and rough. Most of the time though, it’s slow and sensual, really sweet moments.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Like i said earlier, he prefers for you guys to take your time. However, if Cere and Greez are on their way back or went off to do something, he would be okay with doing a quickie every once in a while.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Cal loves experimenting with you. Trying new styles, maybe some kinky stuff, but usually not that often since you guys don’t really have time to do it that often, anyways. Risks at being caught are also something he tries to avoid at all costs, but we’ve already covered this.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Tbh i feel like he could go quite a few rounds, but most of the time you guys would be lucky to get like two in. Cal always makes you first priority though, making sure that you always finish first if time does get cut short.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

I don’t really have much to say on this other than that he prefers to get you off with his own body, making you finish with another object is something he’d try if you wanted to, but his first choice is to always use his hands, his mouth, his cock, or hell, maybe even having you get off from just riding his thighs. (yup i now firmly believe Cal is into thigh-riding)

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Cal is the BIGGEST little shit. In theory, if you guys had all the time in the galaxy, he’d tease the shit out of you. He’d touch you so gently, dragging kisses out, dragging out movements, and just getting on your last nerve. He would love to just have you melt underneath him when you beg, but since this isn’t really an option, he’ll instead make snide and dirty remarks throughout the day. He’ll barely graze your skin where it’s super sensitive, make kisses last a little longer than they should, and overall making you really desperate for him by the time you two can be alone. 

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

He’s just barely loud enough for you to hear, it’s never loud moans and groans, just quiet little grumbles in the back of his throat. As he gets closer to finishing, he gets a little louder, not by much, but just a little.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Thigh-riding. Yes. yes. yes. If he was being a little shit one night and was in the mood to tease you, he’d force you to get off from riding his thighs alone. Occasionally, he’d bounce it or move it align with your movements, but it’d be mainly up to you. He would just stare at your hips as they moved so perfectly and watching your face change as you slowly got yourself off.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

I don’t really think there’s any special about him in this aspect, he’s quite average. In no way is he lacking though, he’s packing, but just the average amount of packing.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

He could go whenever, but it’s usual after intense missions or after just dying probably. Just whenever he has a lot of adrenaline is what really makes him want to get going.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

If it was a long day, he’d fall asleep a few minutes after. However, if you wanted to stay up, he’d talk your ear off. Like i said earlier, if he’s gonna stay up with you, he’s gonna want to just talk to you about everything. This man is in love wit you, he has so much to say and so little time.

[kikyan]

Stuck With You (Shizuo Ending)

Disclaimer!! I wrote this back in 2018/2019, like literally 2 years after I started writing fanfic so if this sucks yeah. . .that’s why. It’s also not really that inclusive at all so I apologize. This upload is really meant for those who were curious with the fanfic I wrote and I promise I will right a more inclusive fanfiction later on in the future with these characters to make it up!! 

“ Oh? It seems he even has the Dollars searching for you!” 

PART ONE

“ Izaya, please I apologize for anything that I did that caused you to do this, but I need to get back to Shizuo!” 

“ And do what? Apologize for my actions and say everything is fine? You truly are different than other humans (Y/N)! Besides, does Shizu-chan know?” 

“ K-know what?” 

“You can drop the act. I know who you are (Y/N) or should I sa-?!” 

“ Izaya, I won’t ask you again. Please, I apologize for what I said or did but I must return to my fiance.” 

“ I can’t do that (Y/N). You thought you had me fool, no you thought you had the whole world fooled, but unlike Shizu-chan, I know the real you. You are far too unique, too precious to be in the hands of that brute, that damned monster!” 

“ IZAYAAAAAA! GET YOUR ASS OUT HERE AND GIVE ME MY DAMN FIANCE!” 

“ Speak of the Devil, he really did arrive, didn’t he? (Y/N) it’s better if you stay, wait no- I want you to see God punish his worthless creation, than have his Goddess forgive him and the cycle continues!” 

Grabbing her arm, (Y/N) was dragged to the door where Shizuo lay in waiting/ Shizuo’s eyes lit up with hope as (Y/N) arrived, quickly scanning her to ensure that she was not harmed by Izaya. 

“ This is low, even for you Izaya. What the hell do you want anyways?” 

“ I want (Y/N) of course! How rude of you to keep her from society, from me! She is too perfect, in fact, she is perfection! I can’t stand you of all people, a damn monster near her!” 

“ If I am a monster, what the hell does that make you?” 

“ That hurt Shizu-chan, but I’m sure my goddess, (Y/N) would forgive you nonetheless!” 

Grabbing a stop sign Shizuo prepared to swing at Izaya before seeing (Y/N) duck down. 

‘This is too dangerous for (Y/N)! I have to lead him away. . .’ 

“ You see (Y/N)! This monster swung at you! I told you, he would only hurt you! Stay with me, my Goddess!” 

Taking his knife out, he swung it at Shizuo cutting him horizontally across his chest. As Shizuo remained unfazed he swung the sign hitting Izaya as well sending him flying back inside the apartment complex. As Izaya got up and grabbed the knife and (Y/N), before placing the knife under (Y/N)’s throat causing her to panic slightly. 

“ (Y/N)! Izaya you damned bastard! Let her go, that’s low. . .” 

“ It’s fine! Besides, my Goddess is so forgiving, I'm sure she will let this slide! In fact, I feel as if instead of the way I initially thought, it was you Shizuo who used (Y/N)!” 

Shizuo looked down before clenching his fist and looking at Izaya with a crazed expression. 

“ SO WHAT? YOU MESS UP WITH EVERY OTHER PERSON OUT THERE. (Y/N) DOESN’T NEED THAT IN HER LIFE! SHE LOVES ME FOR WHO AND WHAT I AM! SO I AM A MONSTER, SO BE IT! AS LONG AS (Y/N) IS FINE WITH THAT, AS LONG AS SHE ACCEPTS THIS SIDE OF ME, THEN THAT’S ALL I NEED!” 

“ So you’re a leech, a filthy parasite-” 

“ (Y/N) NOW!” 

Izaya was dumbfounded as he turned to see (Y/N) duck down and Izaya was met with Shizuo’s fist. As Izaya grunted in pain, he turned to see (Y/N) looking at him in horror before turning to see Shizuo waltz up with a sturdy bookshelf and smiling at Izaya. 

“ So I guess today is the day I squash this damn cockroach! That has been infesting not only the city but our lives!” 

As Shizuo began to throw the bookshelf at Izaya he proceeded on hitting him repeatedly with immense force, causing Izaya to cough up blood and other fluids. 

“ If you kill me. . . Shizu-chan. . . w-will. . she forgive you. . . ?” 

Showing no sign of stopping, Shizuo proceeded to mercilessly hit Izaya while explaining, “ It doesn’t matter if she forgives me anymore. . . because I don’t plan on letting her go either way!” 

Letting out the last punch Shizuo looked to admire his work, a beaten and bruised Izaya no longer breathing. As Shizuo turned around he was met with (Y/N) looking in horror at the state Izaya was in before looking back up at Shizuo. 

“ WHAT’S WITH THAT EXPRESSION? I THOUGHT YOU WEREN’T SCARED OF ME (Y/N)? WAS THAT A LIE? ARE YOU GOING TO CALL ME A MONSTER AND LEAVE ME LIKE EVERYONE ELS-!?” 

“ No, I won’t. I am sorry Shizuo, I wasn’t able to stop Izaya and you had to get your hands dirty! O-on the bright side. . . well. . . you can start your life violence free now peacefully!” 

“ Honestly. . .how did I. . .eVeR gEt StUcK wItH yOu?” 

After the whole incident, Shizuo was more protective of (Y/N). He rarely let her be by herself so whenever she would want to go anywhere he would go with her or sometimes even ask Celty to go with her as he feared she would get hurt or taken away from him. Currently, Shizuo is working as (Y/N) was at the park with Celty discussing certain things. 

“You’re quite pale. . . is everything alright? Are you feeling okay?” 

“ Of course, my pale complexion is because Shizuo didn’t let me leave for a week until after the whole Izaya incident. I do feel a little sick but that’s what I wanted to talk to you about!” 

“Sick? That doesn’t sound good. How sick are we talking about? If you need to see someone for it, I’m sure Shinra would be glad to see you.”

“ W-well. . . I wouldn’t say I'm that sick it’s just I wanted to know if these are possible symptoms of. . . well, how about I just explain it! I get these sudden food urges and most of the time I tend to throw up certain foods! I think, well what do you think Celty?” 

“Hm. . . You know, Y/N, I think I’ve heard of these exact symptoms before. Is it possible that  you’re pregnant?”

“ W-W-WELL U-UM M-MAYBE B-BUT T-THAT WOULD R-REQUIRE FOR ME A-AND S-SHIZUO I-I! WHAT SHOULD I DO CELTY!” 

“Well, the first thing you should do is to confirm our suspicions. Then, I think you and Shizuo have a big conversation to have.”

“C-c-could you come with me to the store to buy a test? I... I don’t want to go alone. . .” 

“Of course, Y/N. But I think we should walk to a nearby store, I don’t think my motorcycle would be good for the possible baby.”

“ Aww, I wanted to go on your motorcycle. . . okay! So onward this great adventure!” 

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“U-um Celty, I could be reading this wrong but if it’s pink. . . does that mean. . .” 

Celty jumped at (Y/N) as you could see her jumping in glee before taking a picture of the test and rapidly writing on her phone. 

“You did read what pink means, right? I may be wrong. . . But it would appear that you’re pregnant! I’m so happy for you two!”

“ W-W-WELL H-HOW SHOULD I T-TELL SHIZUO?” 

“Don’t freak out! Let me send the photo to Shinra just to confirm our suspicions. Afterward, we can make a plan for how you’ll tell him.”

“ OKAY, HURRY ASK HIM!” 

To: Shinra 

From: Celty

*image of the test* 

Big Emergency: Is the test positive or negative? It looks like Shizuo and Y/N might be expecting.

To: Love of my life

From: Shinra

Hm. . . well, it seems they are expecting! Tell them I congratulate them! Does Shizuo know? 

To: Shinra

From: Celty 

Now that we know, how should Y/N approach this with Shizuo?

To: Love of my life 

From: Shinra 

Leave that to me! Just tell (Y/N) to prepare his favorite meal. I’ll tell Shizuo that he has a surprise at home and to hurry home! I’ll see you soon as I need to help someone right now but take care Celty!

“ So he is going to tell him... .? I hope this goes well! I don’t know what to say or do...Celty want to go shopping with me for ingredients?” 

“Don’t worry, I’m sure it will go great. Both of you love each other and will be great parents if you decide to keep it. Now, let’s go shopping!” 

Soon leaving the store they headed out to purchase the ingredients needed to make Shizuo’s meal and discussed among themselves how to approach the situation. 

~ 

Tom looked down at this phone as he smiled in glee before telling Shizuo that there were no more clients and that they should head home. 

“ Are you sure? I don’t want to leave (Y/N) alone but if you still need me I could stay longer-!?” 

“ You, my friend do not understand, (Y/N) is waiting for you so go home. Besides she has a surprise for you, Shinra told me! Now head home!” 

“ A surprise? Well if you say so, Tom. . . see you tomorrow!” 

“ Also Shizuo, congrats!” 

“ On what?” 

“ Just go home and you’ll see!” 

As Shizuo was walking home he pondered about this so-called surprise as he noticed that Celty’s bike was parked outside their home. As he went inside he looked to see his favorite meal scattered along with the table as both Celty and (Y/N) were cooking and talking. 

“ Oh, Shizuo! Good afternoon! Dinner is almost ready and Shinra is almost here! He said that our close friends should be here today!” 

“ That’s cool but what’s this surprise I keep hearing about?” 

“ Silly it’s not a surprise if I tell you! Wait till Shinra gets here!” 

Soon after Shinra arrived and that’s when they all were in the living room in silence before (Y/N) pulled out the test she had and Celty pulling the message in case of a confirmation. 

“ S-shizuo. . . remember what you told me the day before the incident with Izaya... .?” 

Blushing slightly he nodded before letting his mind run loose, could she be-?! 

“ Well, it seems you might get the chance to be a father and I a mother!” 

Holding the test out for Shizuo to see the pink line indicating that (Y/N) was pregnant, he grabbed it before setting it down and jumping to hold his fiance. 

“ I won’t let you down, I won’t let us down. I promise I'll change to be the best father I can be, I swear (Y/N)!” 

“ Silly, you are already the best person you can be! I’m sure we will be the best of parents!” 

Exchanging a kiss, they all laughed and gathered around the dinner table to consume the food made by both (Y/N) and Celty. (Y/N) was with child, Shizuo’s child and he vowed to protect you both no matter the cost. He didn’t care if you looked at him like a monster in the near future because he wasn’t letting you or the child leave him, after all, it was possible for a monster like him to be happy, but he wasn’t going to let this happiness leave and be destroyed. The child was born healthy, it was a boy named Izaya, ironically. Izaya was gifted with many things such as friends for his kind behavior and kind mother. He never had problems and if he did well they would disappear the next day, like his principal when he chose to falsely accuse him of attacking someone using his father as an excuse. Well, let’s just say he isn’t alive anymore. Any friend that double-crossed him would immediately come back and apologize saying how their mother told them that what they did was wrong. It didn’t matter if Shizuo was a monster because he had (Y/N) and his child was the red string that binds them together. Seriously, how did Shizuo get to be so lucky and get stuck with you? 

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⏤l o v e s t r u c k 

s u m m a r y : you have a quirk called 'animate' and it's very emotions-based, meaning that if you feel a very strong emotion, you're able to animate things and however strong that emotion is, the stronger it is the things you animate. Also, the pupil of your eyes can change shape or colour in accordance - red for anger and blue for saddness. In battle this is useful for animating weapons and such, however, when you fall in love...it's usefulness isn't always straightforward.

a / n : this is my first time writing for bnha characters so i'm really sorry for any inaccuracies in personalities. also, i, unfortunately, have only been able to think of this imgaine concerning bakugou and todoroki. even so, please enjoy the read!

w a r n i n g s : profanity by the obvious culprit

k a t s u k i  b a k u g o u  

❥ it happened when you saw his passion and drive during practice...

❥ You always held a deep admiration for people who knew what they wanted and fought for it no matter what. Those were your parents, pro heroes who fought for the greater good as well as each other, and you, so you wanted to be like them and make them proud.

❥ Not only that but you were also a fanatic about LOVE.

❥ Your parents may have only had you as their only child but the insurmountable amount of love they had for each other would give birth to over a hundred children.

❥ You wouldn't have minded having younger siblings but you knew that your parents, being pro heroes themselves, were already risking too much with having their relationship public as well as their status as parents.

❥ By hearing them always gushing over how wonderful it feels to be in love and to be loved back as well as seeing how they act around each other - still a pair of love-struck teenagers in love - you were eager to meet the love of your life and fight for him

❥ During training or instances when you have to fight, it's that want to love and be loved that also fuels the power behind your animations. This power has only strengthened the instant you found the person you were destined to stand with forever.

❥ Bakugou Katsuki.

❥ The moment you took the time to look at him, really look at him and understand who he was was during tests and hero training.

❥ He's a skilled fighter with passion and drive. Admittedly, he's as explosive as his quirk and as rude as rude can get but you saw through that every time his eyes narrowed into a focused stare whenever he was fighting or studying.

❥ It really shows through how passionate he is about becoming the number one hero and you found yourself falling hard for him every time you saw the fire behind his eyes.

❥ It was just so attractive; your little heart couldn't take it!

❥ The time you really fell for him was during the final exams.  Yes, he was stubborn but only because he was so determined. Yes, it was a struggle and they almost lost all home but he never gave up. He was the perfect one for you.

❥ Although you were worried and scared for them at the time, your heart skipped many beats and you soon found those hearts being animated around you as you watched on, worried but falling deeply in love.

❥ You know very well that he can protect himself but your love for him encouraged you to protect him at all costs, especially when you saw him in such a vulnerable state. He was never like that so you swore to yourself that you had to get stronger so that he'd never have to be in such a state again.

❥ Not only that but you had to get stronger for yourself as well as Bakugou.

❥ You wanted to protect him but also be worthy enough to stand by his side.

❥ It became easier to train after having fallen for Katsuki, actually. Now that you had someone in mind to push you forward, someone to visualise being by your side through tough times the way he would be there for you as well, only helped you grow stronger and stronger.

❥ Over time, it became obvious to everyone, even Bakugou how deeply in love you were with him. Not a day goes by without you losing your focus during class only to stare at your ash-blonde classmate with animated hearts floating around your head and hearts in your eyes.

❥ Because of that, you found your grades slipping and even though you asked super nicely, even offering a shoulder massage, Bakugou refused to tutor you.

❥ "Now get out of my way heart eyes!" he snapped at you as he shoved you to the side

❥ "But darling~" you whined, "how can I ever hope to become the perfect wife for you if I don't have a good enough education?"

❥ "HEY! Who said I would ever be marrying you?! And Stop Calling Me That!"

❥ "Oh! Would you prefer 'honey', instead? Or 'sweetheart'? Or 'love of my life'?" by now he was a blushing mess but he still had a snarl on his face. The pink in his cheeks was a win for you though so even if he continued to refuse, you wouldn't mind.

❥ "I don't prefer any of those shit names! Now Leave Me Alone!"

❥ "Fine," you grumble with a whimper and he almost felt guilty at the sad look that crossed your delicate features, "I'll just ask Midoriya-kun for help instead-"

❥ "My room! Bring your shit! 6 pm! Don't be late!"

❥ "Oh Darling~ I knew you wouldn't say no to me~"

❥ It was amusing really, to everyone except you and Bakugou, to see your interactions with each other. You were too in love to notice anyone's teasing whilst Bakugou kept being pushed over the edge by his supposed 'friends'.

❥ "Friends my ass," he grumbled as they whispered behind him about how hilarious it was to watch you pinning for him.

❥ It wasn't funny! It was serious! You were serious about him and he knows it, you said it yourself.

❥ "Stop overdoing it dumbass," he glares down at your exhausted, panting form. It seems as though you were doing extra training atop his tutoring sessions.

❥ "but..." you looked up at him with a tired smile, "I can't be the perfect wife until I'm strong enough to stand beside you..."

❥ He didn't know what to say except for, "I'd rather have a wife that can cook and have good grades at school than a dead one from fatigue," he helps you up and takes you back to the dorms. He didn't know why the hell he said that but you didn't say anything so he assumed you just didn't hear him in your worn state.

❥ After that day, however, you insisted on cooking every day and finally got your grades up. You almost beat him in scores, actually. It was surprising but it proved how serious you were about your love for him. He almost became soft for you.

❥ "Stop doing so much heart eyes," he growled as he saw you making breakfast in the early morning.

❥ "But I need to become a good wife for you, Darling~" you chirped happily as you poured him some apple juice, "and to do that I have to be a good cook - just like you said!"

❥ "Tch! How are you so sure you'll stay interested? You'll find someone else eventually," Bakugou always saying nonsense thoughtlessly whenever he was around you and it was beginning to get on his nerves. He didn't care about this shit, so why in the hell was he saying it to you?

❥ "Nonsense," you huffed adorably, hands on your waist as you turned to him with a frown after lowering the heat on your heart-shaped cinnamon pancakes, "you're the love of my life, there's no one else on this earth that I would ever want except you Katsuki," you flashed him a close-eyed smile, "You're my one and only, Darling~"

❥ He begins to shout out of habit before turning away so you don't see his blush, "Shut up with that bullshit! Your dumb pancakes are gonna burn!" you didn't see his face did you?

❥  In your perspective, you still had a long way to go before you could ever reach Bakugou's standards and finally stand by his side when in actuality you had unknowingly made him want to stand beside you by just being yourself.

s h o t o  t o d o r o k i

❥ it happened when you saw him smiling for the first time...

❥ The moment you first met Todoroki, you were determined to make him your friend.

❥ No matter how many times he had pushed you away, you were never deterred, in fact, it only fueled your determination in befriending him.

❥ It hurt you to see someone so closed off and without a clue as to how amazing it felt to feel loved and return that love, whether it be romantic or platonic.

❥ You wanted Todoroki to feel that beautiful feeling as well.

❥ All your life, you always had a very loving home with many younger siblings that you adore taking care of. Despite the occasional tantrums that they would act out, they were still the sweetest kids in your eyes and you would do anything for them

❥ Obviously, growing up in such a warm environment made you a very compassionate and empathetic person, even your quirk stemmed off of that which proved to be an advantage in your journey to becoming a hero

❥ The more emotional you were - regardless of if you were extremely happy or angry - that became your source of power in battles, meaning that the things you animated became all the more powerful on the field. The more you wanted to save someone from evil, the stronger you were.

❥ That was the obvious advantage but...that wasn't the case for when you wanted to be subtle about feeling intense emotions like...

❥ falling in love

❥ You didn't expect it with Todoroki, however.

❥ At the end of the day, he was your dear friend through and through. It took a lot of hard work and persistence for him to finally put his trust in you and return your friendship

❥ You didn't want to sabotage all that hard work. He was just beginning to reciprocate your friendly gestures, gestures that you would almost cry over each time because it felt like such a big step for him.

❥ It made you feel such pride when you saw him lose the cold look in his eyes and finally relax when talking with others and engaging in friendly activities

❥ Admittedly, Todoroki was still blunt and clueless to some things but he had all the time in the world to work on that. Having already taken the first step himself, the momentum for his exploration in emotions and opening up to others had begun and you're sure everything will just fall into place after that.

❥ Of course, he still needed some assistance so you had been helping him understand certain emotions and why people would feel a certain way under different circumstances.

❥ It was honestly the cutest thing and you were beyond happy to help satiate his curious mind on various topics he never had a straight answer for.

❥ EXCEPT for studies...he was better than you in that regard most definitely- yep! He's the one that needs to help you if that were the case.

❥ "I don't understand how you could get such a simple question wrong, (Y/N)..." he mused, genuinely dumbfounded at how horribly you failed at answering the practice question.

❥ "Please just help me, Todoroki-kun," you whined, flushing in shame at how horrible you were at English.

❥ "I apologise," he gives a soft bow of his head as you smile and wave off his apology before... "but I really am curious, even a little bit concerned for you,"

❥ "Just help me!"

❥ Not only did you need help in studies, you needed help with hero training. So you trained together. The two of you were dedicated students and always provided great input on ways of improving technique and approaches towards attacks. You made a perfect oblivious pair.

❥ The time your feelings decided to show was when the two of you had just finished sparing and it had been your turn to pay for an icy treat as a reward for such hard work. After making a short stop at the convenience store, you were now on your way back to the dorms happily chatting with ice creams in hand.

❥ "Is it weird to want to become closer to someone..." Todoroki stares at his icicle curiously, "someone that's close to you and is always there for you?" he feels a warmth in his cheeks that he's always having to suppress around you, it was never easy but he always succeeded.

❥ All he had to do was just think about you being in danger and being unable to help. That set his flustered state back to normal right away despite the sinking feeling he felt in his heart.

❥ "It's normal to feel that way," you assure, taking another taste of your ice cream, "there's no shame in that and it's definitely not weird,"

❥ "Oh," you flash him another reassuring glance as his lips tug up into a soft smile, "I'm glad,"

❥ That was when it happened.

❥ The setting sun had framed his smiling figure with a soft glow and you were instantly the victim of his content disposition. You knew he was handsome but...he looked all the more ethereal when he was smiling - smiling in the sunlight.

❥ The glow made his hair look like freshly fallen snow beside polished rubies as his eyes, one grey and one a paralysing blue captured the twinkling essence of the sunshine perfectly. His chiseled jaw cast a shadow across his neck, further defining his proportioned features as his angular nose gave him the desired picture-perfect side profile.

❥ If he didn't resemble the embodiment of perfection then and there, you don't know what did.

❥ As you stood dumbfounded, Todoroki had turned around, having walked several steps ahead of you and was stunned into his own silence.

❥ There you stood, a meter or so behind him with animated red hearts floating around your head, your stare was fixed solely on him as you let your coned ice cream gradually melt under the heated gaze of the sun; it's stickiness attempting to glue your fingers together.

❥ This wasn't the first time he had seen your animate quirk illustrate your emotions. He remembers you explaining that whenever you felt a strong emotion, whether it be happy or sad, you would lose control of your quirk and it would animate whatever it was that you were feeling.

❥ One time, you had ranked really low on an English test and a raincloud animated itself above you before it proceeded to soak you in rain. That day he had let you borrow his blazer to avoid Mineta's perverted staring and offered his tutelage on the subject.

❥ This is new. He wonders what strong emotion you were feeling. Hearts...what did hearts represent? Love...right?

❥ He looks around before his eyes landed on your icecream. Did you love your ice cream so much that you didn't want to eat it and just let it melt in your hand? He frowns. No, that can't be it.

❥ Could it be him?

❥ "(Y/N)..."

❥ if only he smiled more...-no!

❥"(Y/N)?"

❥ That would mean more people would see his soft handsome features and you can't have that! You are the first person he showed that side of himself to so you should be the only one allowed to ever witness it again-right? Or is that too selfish-?

❥ "(Y/N)?!" thankfully, Todoroki was able to successfully snap you out of your daze.

❥ "O-Oh! Sorry Todoroki-kun," you blushed in apology, looking to the side in embarrassment, only to squeal in shock horror when you notice the hearts floating around you. Shouting nonsense in between constant 'I'm sorry's, you waved the hearts away, "I-I'm really truly s-sor-"

❥ If it weren't for Todoroki taking your free hand in his own and tugging you back along the way to the dorms once more, you would have uttered your hundredth apology but, instead, you were left a stuttering and blushing mess, your animated hearts making their comeback floating around your head.

❥ As soon as you're right next to him, he lets go of your hand and pulls you closer by the waist. By now the hearts have begun to float around him and, although you were embarrassed beyond belief with your gaze fixed to the floor, Todoroki smiled even wider before leaning down to gently kiss your temple

❥ "Now, I know you weren't lying to me," this caught your attention albeit you were still a flustered mess of a person, "this feeling is so normal the other person feels the same way too, right?"

❥ You didn't know how to respond to that. Smile or faint from too much blood rushing to your head?

❥ How about both?

n a v i . | bnha mlist

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Wolf!Ateez Reaction to another member hunting down their mate

trigger warning! ⚠️ strong language, suggestive, alcohol, violence, non con themes, non con marking, kidnapping, angst, mentions of rape, sexual harassment (don’t read if you’re uncomfortable with those topics)

a/n: please notice that this is not related to the other wolf!ateez reaction/s; I hope you like it anon 💋 although I changed this request a little bit like I always do 👀 and please, always keep my disclaimer in mind!

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k i m h o n g j o o n g

„alpha, I think they’re coming tonight...“ he concentrated on the papers in front of him and just let out a hm. he knew they would come... the only safe place for his mate was in his arms and the highest priority to keep you safe. as the luna of the pack everyone wanted to protect you.

the one desiring you a rebellious werewolf of a rival pack called choi jong ho. it wasn’t unusual some wolfs tried to steal away mates and especially lunas from other packs if they were said to be gorgeous and in good shape for giving strong pups.

unfortunately you were quite the catch and the still unmated wolf wanted to steal you away from hong joong. the fresher the bond was the higher the chance to complete a mating process with another wolf and hong joong feared for that so much ...

as the night came you were cuddled in hong joong‘s arms in your bed and slowly drifting off to sleep. hong joong tried to steady his breathing to not interrupt you but when howls could be heard he knew it was about to begin. you stirred in your sleep and the young alpha took you bridal style into a secret room under the house. you shot him a questioning look and he hushed you with a sweet kiss.

„stay here my love and don’t make a sound.“

with that he left the house and changed into his wolf to fight off the scum that wanted to take his precious mate. he arrived at the borders where werewolves already lunged at each other and started to fight the intruders. after a while they managed to overpower the rival pack but hong joong noticed something really bad... where was jong ho? pure horror filled his mind when he ran back to his mate as fast as he could but he already was too late...

the attack only intended to distract him so jong ho could get you... he had been so dumb! he plumped to the ground and cried into his hands... his beta put a hand on his shoulder and sighed.

„we will get her back... she’s our luna.“

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p a r k s e o n g h w a

seong hwa usually was a calm boy with good manners. he tried to avoid fights at all costs although he was well skilled but when you and the black wolf went to the annual mate festival of your region a mistake was made.

jung woo young decided to attend the festival, too. a young wolf that once trained with seong hwa back in an advanced camp for skilled fighters. seong hwa and woo young had quite the problematic relationship ship as the younger one loved to get on his nerves all the time. seong hwa didn’t really know why woo young hated him so much... but when he saw him being accompanied by some of his friends entering the area his grip around your waist automatically became stronger.

he tried to avoid the younger like a plague but eventually you had to go to the toilet some time and that’s when woo young took his chance. he ordered his friends to attack seong hwa and distract him so he could get you when you left the restrooms.

„what are you d-“ a cloth has been out over your nose and mouth and you fell unconscious at the scent that drifted off of it.

you awakened in a room handcuffed to a bed still dizzy and your wolf already scared and sick worried for your mate. „where’s seong hwa? where’s our mate, y/n?“

„so you’re awake, love“ a boy came through the door and emerged your form on the bed with confident steps.

„who are you?! and why am I here?“ you struggled and tried to shift but something stopped you from doing so.

„don’t even try. those are magical cuffs. I brought you here because I am going to make you mine.“ he smirked at you and crawled on top of you securing your hands above you with a tight grip. you tried to struggle out but he just laughed at you and neared your neck with his emerged fangs.

„this is going to hurt a little bit, well at least I‘ve heard that...“ you cried out loud when he left a deep dirty mark over your mate‘s one.

„s-seong hwa...”

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j e o n g y u n h o

jeong yun ho had everything... the looks, the popularity and the prettiest girl out of the pack. yeo sang could only scoff at the way he was holding hands with you at his birthday party and having this dumb grin on his face whenever you would say something or someone would compliment the two of you. he was sick of it.

how much he’d like to wipe that smirk off his face... if he just wouldn’t have you... maybe than he wouldn’t be so happy anymore.

„yeo sang? don’t you want your birthday present now?“ he flinched a little bit don’t realizing you were standing in front of him smiling so sweetly. oh how he loved you, you and him were the best friends until mr. lover came.

„do I?“ your eyebrows furrowed at his words not really getting his hostility.

„don’t be like this... come on! I want to show you something!“ you grabbed his hand and left the place with him to bring you two to your old favorite secret spot deep in the forest where a little pond was located. yeo sang couldn’t believe what he saw, you managed to put candles everywhere and prepared something like a picnic but with a bottle of tequila.

„why did you do that?“

„why not? it’s your birthday and I thought we could take a swim again; you know, like back when we were younger... and you looked pretty bored back at the party.“ you shyly fiddled with your fingers thinking it was a bad idea. yeo sang on the other hand found it really cute that you were thinking he didn’t appreciate your afford.

he smiled at you and started to get out of his shirt. you smirked at him and soon you were giggling and playing in the water. why couldn’t every day be like this again... or maybe it could be? after some time the playing turned into something more heated and you soon realized that your wolf wasn’t really into another man touching you at places he shouldn’t... you struggled out of his touch but yeo sang let his inner beast free and dragged you back to the land to crawl over you and leave marks all over your neck and breast while holding you still.

you being paralyzed tried to scream or cry but nothing came out, too shocked at yeo sang’s actions. suddenly yun ho ripped the boy off your body and back to the ground, growling so loud yeo sang changed into his wolf. yun ho felt that something was wrong and knowing where you wanted to bring yeo sang he decided to check and seeing the boy harassing you made his blood boil.

a fight began and yun ho definitely was a lot bigger than yeo sang and used this to win over the other wolf. finally yeo sang stopped and crawled back to a tree licking his wound.

„if you ever lay a finger on her again I won’t hesitate to snap you neck!“

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k a n g y e o s a n g

yeo sang usually has been a very cautious wolf and knew his mate was a beauty around the female wolves. you still being unmarked and not mated with yeo sang, yet, got flirting remarks here and there. his friends told him that there was a boy from the rival pack, where you originally belonged to, that was still after you. his name was jeong yun ho.

to his bad luck at a night out with your and his friends yun ho happened to be in the club, too. yeo sang didn’t know the guy that suddenly went to the dance floor wrapping his arm around your waist and whispering something into your ear. yeo sang trusted you and hoped you would get out of the situation on your own but when he saw you searching for him in the location his wolf told him he had to help you. he should mark his territory and only once not back up.

without realizing he stood up and emerged your forms on the dance floor. the atmosphere changed and people made space for you.

„haha, don’t tell me this is the fool you were leaving me for?“ yun ho placed his chin on the top of your shoulder and smirked provocatively at your mate.

„let go yun ho! he’s my mate!“

„yeah, but he didn’t even try to make this official... maybe he just doesn’t want you as much as me?“

„take your hands off her or I will make you.“

yeo sang’s friends and yun ho’s were gathering behind the boys ready to attack. although yeo sang was quite scared he felt the urge to be brave for you. yun ho let go of you and positioned you behind him.

„tell me, little boy... why didn’t you marked or mated with her yet? you aren’t man enough for her!“

„why do you think I have to rush those kind of things? not everyone’s a dick like you fucking around and thinking a bond can only be made by doing those things. what connects me and y/n is much deeper and I know you are someone who will never understand those kind of things...“

people whistled and howled at yeo sang’s words and girls swooned over the young wolf. yun ho‘s cocky attitude slipped. he wasn’t used to be put down like that only knowing one way to win a fight. before he could take a hold of himself the bodyguards of the club interrupted the scene and everyone went their own way again, you two deciding to leave.

yeo sang drove in silence and you took his one hand to put it into your lap.

„you know, I never knew you thought of our relationship like that... I really like it.“ yeo sang sensed you blushing beside him and his wolf felt proud at your words.

„it’s because I value you as the person I love and we are the only ones who make the rules for our relationship.“

you smiled at him, knowing you couldn’t get a better mate like kang yeo sang.

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c h o i s a n

hong joong knew he had to have you. a white wolf was considered to have best genes to bear strong pups. the first time he saw you he deeply fell in love... just when he planned to confess to you and make you his luna you found your mate, choi san. a dirty omega of your own pack. hong joong had been devastated... but he heard of a way to make you his and he decided he would do anything to get you.

„let go of me!“

„what’s wrong with her, why is she struggling so much? y/n? do you hear me? you’re safe now! kim hong joong kidnapped you but we managed to free you from his pack!“ jong ho didn’t know what was wrong with you but when he saw the look on san‘s face he knew his heart literally broke at the sight his mate acted like that.

„y/n, my love... don’t you recognize me? what did that bastard do to you?!“

„who - who the hell are you?!“

„me...? I am your mate, oh my god, what did they do...“ he stroked you face while they bondaged you to the wall in the dungeon not knowing how to cope with your fighting against them.

„you have to be delusional. I don’t know you and my mate is kim hong joong. now let me go!“

he stopped in his tracks and sadly watched you crying and being scared of his touch. san didn’t know what was going on... seong hwa entered the room overhearing the talking outside.

„I didn’t even know this was possible... but I think y/n’s under a spell. a strong spell to admit, possibly done by a witch.“

„what the fuck? how did they got a witch to do that?“

„I don’t know... but only a witch can heal her. we can rescue her but I won’t need to tell you that it’s going to be hell dangerous.“

„you know I would do anything for my mate!“ they both nodded at san and exchanged looks to leave him a little bit alone with you. you scoffed at the boy pretending to be your mate when he neared your form on the ground.

„don’t worry my love, I will find a way.“ his eyes watered at your bored stare...

hong joong was in his office looking over some notes when his beta opened the door.

„everything‘s going well. they have her but she doesn’t remember san.“ hong joong devilishly smirked at him and dismissed him with a swift wave of his hand.

soon you would be back in his bed and he could complete the marking and mating; a prestigious future awaitening the two of you.

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s o n g m i n g i

it wasn’t a secret the light and the shadow pack always had a big disput, maybe even linked to their contrary names... they always competed against each other; like the girls comparing who had the more prettier ones, the boys fighting against each other or alone the two alphas getting on each others’ nerves whenever there was a chance.

song min gi also participated in those horseplays and his favorite opponent from the rival pack was the beta park seong hwa. they always teased each other, hyping eachother up who could run faster, have more girls, win more fights, kill off more rogues and hunters... it all ended soon when min gi found his mate, y/l/n y/n. you found the antics your pack made silly and were quite shocked when you and min gi turned out to be mates, but he changed for you.

much to the displease of park seong hwa. he was literally bored, hearing from the omegas that min gi found his mate and didn’t want to compete with him anymore...

wolves were really prideful and always in for a strength measurement, it practically was anchored in their nature. as seong hwa was a boy who cared for nothing he decided he wanted his fun back, so he made a plan to kill you. having an angry min gi would mean he would feel the urge to fight against him again.

it was one night when you went for a run in the woods. you still were on your territory but far away from the zivilisation of your pack. seong hwa took his chance and attacked you. he managed to cut deep into your waist with his fangs and licked his blood smeared snout when you tried to limp into the direction of your home. you let out a loud howl in the hope someone heard you.

min gi instantly awakened knowing something was off. he changed into his wolf form and sped into the direction he could make out your scent. he mind-linked the guards who told him they were on their way.

„y/n? where are you?“

turning around another tree there were you. your fury neck between seong hwa‘s canines ready to break it.

„what are you doing you bastard!“ but it already was too late when he lunged forward and seong hwa bit hard into your flesh. you let out a howl, luckily the guards arrived and seong hwa knew he couldn’t win this fight. min gi was about to join the others in hunting the beta but his wolf held him back and urged him to get to you. he changed back into his human form tears already running down his face like a waterfall.

„oh no, my dear y/n...“ you were really lucky seong hwa wasn’t able to break your neck and your genes speeding up the healing process, but you had to be stationed into the pack hospital for over four weeks being put into a artificial coma.

„y/n, I am swearing this time was enough... the alpha said there‘s going to be a war. I promise you no one will ever hurt you again because I am going to kill park seong hwa.“ he took your hand into his kissing the top of it. every day he came to the hospital sitting by your side and speaking to you...

park seong hwa crossed a border and min gi would make sure he would pay for it.

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j u n g w o o y o u n g

although choi san has been from a pack his own wasn’t on good terms so much. the two had been the best friends since one could think of. that’s why woo young wouldn’t have ever thought san would make a move on his own mate...

it was typical night back at your and woo young‘s apartment only san being there this time as all your other friends either canceled or have been too engulfed into the heating session this spring. your waves came occasionally but as you mate took care of you yesterday you were certain this evening nothing would happen.

„oh shit, I forgot the salsa sauce!“ your’s and san‘s gaze drifted off the couch to where woo young was searching in the refrigerator.

„you know there‘s no chance we‘re eating tortillas without salsa.“

„yeah, just start the movie... I am driving to the store and get some. I won’t take too long!“

he took his keys and gave you a last quick peck on your lips to leave, not noticing san‘s eyes focused a little bit too much on the little gesture. after some minutes you playing with your phone and occasionally watching the movie you gasped when you suddenly felt san‘s hand at your slit. just when you wanted to shout at him, smack him or anything out of shock a deep wave of pleasure came over you.

it was risky. female wolves sending off vibes to the male ones in heat... not only the mate could smell the arousing scent but the others, too. that’s why mated pairs usually sticked to each other at those times. what san was doing at this moment was the shittiest thing someone could do, not only betraying his friend like this but taking advantage of your vulnerable state, too.

he smirked at your moaning form you not being able to do anything but melting into his touch... you hated it but your body betrayed you because of the stupid animal in you.

„s - san, please, stop...“

„you don’t mean that. you know, I think I could make you moan my name louder than woo‘s able to.“ your eyes widen at his statement

„w - what do you mean.“ he only increased his pressure on your sensitive spot and neared your ear to tickle it with his hot breath „I mean, the times I slept over... you don’t really think I didn’t hear you?“ you blushed at that. a tear escaped you and you just hoped he would end this nonsense...

„what the actual - “ woo young let the bag fall to the ground and you heard the glass splitter. he lunged forward and grabbed san by his hair to smash him into the wall, a picture crashing down in the process.

„you motherfucker! what do you think you’re doing with my mate?!“ his fist meets san‘s cheek and the boy grins while blood is tickling down his chin

„you’re my bestfriend! you damn know she’s in heat!“

„I am not your bestfriend! I just waited for the chance to destroy you! the alpha told me how your pack uses every chance to discriminate us! and I know to hurt you I have to take what you love the most...“ his gaze drifts to your still shaking form on the couch. woo young follows his gaze and feels his canines grow at the statement. he watches san and just feels anger and betrayal but instead of snapping his neck he let go of him.

„fuck off. if I every see you on our land again I will kill you. and don’t dare to look into her direction ever again!“ with that san leaves the place and you put your face into your hands too ashamed of what happened.

„y/n...“

„don’t! I am disgusting! I couldn’t hold myself back I really tried and fought but I wasn’t strong enough... I am so sorry woo young... I don’t deserve you.“ you hiccuped and cried but woo young managed to get your face into his own hands staring deeply into your eyes.

„it wasn’t your fault, he knew what time it is and took advantage of it... I would never doubt your love and loyalty to me.“ he took you into his arms and let you cry into him. what really hurt the most was the fact the his once best friend hated him from the beginning... he knew you could never hurt him like he did.

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c h o i j o n g h o

„choi jong ho! you didn’t really put a bet on me? I am definitely not going on a date with this guy!“

„of course you won’t go... min gi cheated I just have to prove this...“

„you know what? fuck off, if you’re handling me like I am a damn trophy or something like that I will go on that stupid date and we will see how you’re coping with that!“

„y/n, please wait!“ jong ho tried to stop you but you were already emerging min gi and his friends position right over the fighting field. you knew he came from a rival pack and since the fightings started he glanced over at you from time to time. your wolf tried to stop you and told you it was a dumb idea to anger your mate more than he already was but you knew jong ho lost and a debt had to be paid.

„stop!“

„don’t make a fool out of yourself, jong ho. I could smell y/n‘s arousal back over here when you told her the news!“ his friends snickered behind him and you were embarrassingly blushing at his statement although you were sure none other than your mate himself could make you feel this way.

an idea plopped into jong ho‘s mind. he knew min gi was too much into competitions. „how about a rematch? you can have her for one night but only if you’re able to catch her the first when she’s hiding in the forest.“

your eyes widened at your mate‘s statement. now he really lost all of his brain.

„choi jong h-“

„alright.“ huh? you really didn’t know who was dumber...

but you soon found yourself running into the forest and searching for a good hiding place. min gi and jong ho got themselves ready to hunt you. jong ho mentally smiled to himself, min gi was unmated and didn’t know what your mates scent smelled like... it was the most delicious thing a wolf‘s nose could ever encounter. he definitely would be able to get to you sooner than the dumb boy.

they started to rush through the woods and jong ho luckily already got a good track of your smell and followed the trail to you. and it came how it had to come. jong ho won the battle and min gi was so furious he crashed down a whole tree to get rid off his anger; his friends scolding him off being so dumb to join another competition and losing the date with you.

you were currently cuddled in jong ho‘s lap back in the pack house. he buried his nose into your neck and sighed.

„I am still mad, you know?“ you turned your head to look at him and saw him pouting at you knowing it was your sweet spot for him.

„I am going to be a good mate from now on.“

„no competitions?“

„no competitions anymore, promise.“

„hey, jong ho! the others want you to join us in arm-wrestling-“ jong ho just was about to push you out of his lap when you scoffed at him to which the stopped in his tracks.

„haha, right... no competitions anymore. but for how long?“ you rolled with your eyes laughing out... what a mate you got.

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[semicielo]

Hey can I request a scenario where reader is a pillar who has a crush on Giyuu and basically tells off Shinobu when she finds out she told him no one likes him? And maybe she confesses her crush in the middle of her rant? What would everyone’s reactions be?

Giyuu Tomioka x F! Hashira Reader ; Crushing on Giyuu

⇢A/N: lovely request I think I project myself because my feelings for Giyuu are big

Type: scenario

Genre: fluff

Finally, after a lot of time the pillars were getting together because some issue with involved a boy and a demon.

(Y/n) was walking when she saw Iguro and called him, for (y/n), Iguro was his closest friend since they share a secret together that make them have something in common, their crushes, their “impossible” lovers, (y/n) advised Iguro with Mitsuri and Iguro sometimes was willing to hear (y/n) rambling about Giyuu.

—Oi! Iguro-chan, wait for me.

—no, don’t come closer.

—mm such a meanie, I was waiting you to be in a good mood, since... —she point at him with her finger— you are going to see your beloved Mitsuri-Chan.

—shut up (l/n) —he walked away.

—hey don’t be shy with me we are friends.

—no we are not.

—yes we are, invite Mitsuri-Chan to eat something after the reunion! I’ll tell you something if you promise not being a meanie.

—what?

—Mitsuri-Chan told me she loved the last time you invited her to eat at that cute restaurant in the city.

—Kanroji said that...

—yes, now you own me one~

He “tch” with his mouth, yes he consider her as a friend, despite her annoying obsession with Tomioka.

When they arrive to the reunion and talk about the future of the Tanjirou boy and his sister, (y/n) could feel the tension, her best friend was being a mean with the poor boy and she tried to intervene, but Sanemi cut her off, she was also concerned about Giyuu’s safety, the men was disposed to give his life for Tanjirou and his sister, so she took a side in all the situation.

“I’m agree to keep them alive, we are stronger enough, so I don’t believe this situation will go out of our hands, and if Giyuu-Chan and Urokodaki-San are willing to give their lives, this means something! They thrust in that boy!”

After everyone’s intervention, and some other scene by the boy, Tanjirou and his sister left the scene, now there were the pillars and Oyakata-sama.

Some of them, chatting, (y/n) was observing Giyuu in the distance, “so handsome”.

—(l/n)

—was is it Iguro-Chan, I’m appreciating Giyuu’s handsome face.

—disgusting, tell me what else Kanronji said to you.

—mmm I don’t want to~

(Y/n) was trying to joke his friend, but she heard something.

“I told him no one likes him”

Oh no.

—Shinobu-Chan —(y/n) called— who did you say those words to?

—oh~ I told that to Tomioka-San, after all that’s the true.

—you are being mean, that’s not true, in fact I don’t think anyone dislikes him..

—(l/n) sto-

—no, Iguro-Chan let me finish, Giyuu-Chan did nothing wrong, he did what he had to, put his heart and thrust in that poor kid wish to have his sister back, he acted in a beautiful way, maybe be not according to the rules, but it was according to his heart.

—oh~ you must like Tomioka-San a lot then...

—ha! Of course I like him I-

Iguro tried to interrupt her —just shut up already (l/n).

—no, what was I saying? Oh, Of course I like Giyuu-Chan, how can I not? He is strong, handsome, caring, intelligent, has a great heart, we all saw what he did even if that cost his life, and his beautiful blue eyes... even though his eyes seem sad he has bring no more than happiness to my life —she put her hand on her heart and close her eyes— I’ll give my life too for that men, I love him, I’m-

The thoughts at that moment were mix of emotions.

Iguro was 100% sure (y/n) humiliate herself.

Sanemi thought about how stupid can someone be doing that kind of vulgar rant in front of Oyakata-sama.

Himejima started praying for (y/n) and Giyuu’s love.

Tokito was... distracted.

Mitsuri was happy and blushed “(y/n) so brave, she reveal her fellings so cute”

Shinobu was no surprise, it was evident that (y/n) had a crush on Tomioka, but was expecting for the water pillar reaction.

Rengoku finally broke the silencie

—Amazing! Great speech (y/n)!

—speech what? No no no no...

—my daughter, I wish you more than happiness and a beautiful future with your beloved...

—eh? Okayaka-sama? I said it out loud? Eh? Iguro-Chan am I dreaming this?

—no idiot, I told you to shut up.

—no no no, Giyuu-Chan I’m sorry —she blushed— if I make you uncomfortable... I’m so sorry!

Giyuu had a lot of emotions, he felt scared, happy, but mostly thankful to have someone like (y/n) defending him, is this what people call love?

With his monotonous voice tone he answered.

—no (y/n), you didn’t make me uncomfortable, today you had bring happiness into my life, thank you...

⁺⑅♡ ˖◛Bonus ˖◛⁺⑅♡

—what does that mean? Does he loves me back? Or he just appreciate my feelings but not accept them?

—...

—Iguro-Chan please talk to me! Mitsuri-Chan what do you think?

When the girl ended her food answer that question.

—(y/n) that was beautiful! I’m sure Tomioka loves you too!! I saw a little blush in his face!!

—really?!

—yes!

—aaaw I didn’t notice it! I bet he looked so cute!!

—he was!! (Y/n) try to confess again but on private too see what happens!!

The snake pillar mumbled “I hate you (y/n) and Tomioka, you ruined my plans with Kanroji”

[retvenkos]

“and my soul was inked onto these pages and pressed between these covers.”

tuck everlasting month 2020, day 28

OKAY, BUT MILES TUCK? IN A BOOKSTORE! AU? I LOVE THIS CONCEPT WITH ALL MY HEART...

so miles works at a tiny bookstore

every once in a while he has to fly under the radar and so he just chooses a small town to chill in for a decade, getting the most mundane jobs to keep his anonymity

he chose the bookstore because mae owns it, for one, but also because it reminds him of rose and how much of a reader she used to be

also, he brings his cat so that the bookstore is immediately 10 times better than before

now, you are either visiting family or you’re just trying to get away™ from the life you lived, but the point is that when you walk into that tiny bookstore, miles knows you don’t belong here

perhaps it’s because he’s been around people so long, or perhaps you’re an open book, but he takes one look at you as you walk through the aisles, your fingers skimming over the newly shelved books, and he knows it. perhaps more fully than he knows anything else in this quiet town.

you have dreams and hopes and goal and aspirations

and this town couldn’t help you be anything more than dust and old photographs

so he sees you, and you catch his eye

and miles won’t say anything about it when asked, but deep down he thinks the stars aligned for you to meet that day

he is a romantic at heart, if not a little burned by what this world has proved itself to be

you stayed in the bookstore for an ungodly amount of time, reading for at least two and a half hours before finally making your way to where he sat, working on a novel he was writing

miles had time for such things. he had time to be himself.

he rung up the book you had, and when he saw what it was, he smiled, breathing deeply

“if you finish this book and like it, you can always come back and i can recommend one very similar, but just a bit more sad.”

and you nodded kindly and paid

you came back in only a few days later

apparently you had a lot of time on your hands as well.

and so he asked you about the book, and you talked about your favorite parts, and how vivid the author could write

and he gave you that book he mentioned (it was called time), telling you that he knew the author

and you said you’d have to come back so the two of you could talk about it, then. perhaps he could give you insight

and so you did

you came back again

and again

and again

and again

and you just talked

and you got to know this man named miles tuck and his deep insights on the literature in your world

and you found yourself delaying the day when you would finish reading time - that book he had recommended all those week ago - pulling others off the shelves to read at the same time, reading some of it’s most beautiful chapters over and over again because whoever this author was, they were really quite compelling with how they wrote this world and the next

this earthly plane felt so grounded in reality, so vivid in it’s paradoxical nature and beautiful in it’s strife

and that which lay beyond, that which the narrator longed to see was so ethereal and inviting, like a dream that you could fall into and never see again, but hope to revisit every night before laying down

but when you finished the book, when you found you could exhaust it’s pages no longer, you told miles that it had to be one of the most humbling reads you had ever experienced

and you asked him how the author

and his blushed, then, and told you it was himself

and for a moment you didn’t know what to say

then,

“and you feel all that?”

he nodded

and silence lapsed for just a fraction of a moment

“miles, with words like these... what are you doing in this backwater town?”

and he shrugged as though he couldn’t think of anywhere else to be

“i could ask you the same question.”

and you didn’t quite know why you were here, either, but all you knew was that it was as good a place as any and sometimes settling is the best thing you can do when your hand has already been played and you don’t have anything to show for it.

but miles told you, then, that dreams should live on, no matter the cost 

and you scoffed at his words and told him he needed to follow his own advice before giving it to others

“i don’t have dreams anymore. but you do.”

“then perhaps you need to find some, again.”

and the two of you continue to become steady friends after that, meeting up at the bookstore to talk about life and reading - writing, too, since he’s apparently so gifted

and you become close with him

so close, that if one of you said a word, you could have fallen in love without another thought

but, 

one day, your dreams called again and this slow town wasn’t compliant with what such a dream required

and you felt something hold you back, but miles told you that life isn’t worth living without a dream

and you asked him, then, before leaving forever, if he had finally found one

his features softened and he dipped his head

“yes.”

and part of you couldn’t tell if he was lying, or if it really was the truth

but you left. and your dream lived on in the most vibrant colors

and sometimes, when you were quiet, you would go to your bookshelf and pick up that little novel called time

and you wondered where he was, in this wide, open world

a novel was published, a while after, and it’s dedication was to you

...

[kvngjoong]

yeosang + nsfw a-z

mingi has been requested and will be posted next! i haven’t got any requests for hongjoong, wooyoung and jongho, so let me know if you’d like this for any of them!

A: Aftercare

he’s a sweetheart and will always clean up after himself. since he’s so messy anyway, he tries to make it up to you by spending some time making sure you’re not sticky and always offers to run a bath for you, or at least turn the shower on for you. which also means he would sit on the bathroom floor of the toilet seat as you shower so he can talk to you. then cuddle you afterwards, since he thinks that’s sweet

B: Body part

likes your chest, let’s not play, and is probably a fan of a tit wank every now and then. also likes cumming on your chest the most. so that is pretty self explanatory. for himself, he doesn’t have a favourite part of his body but he likes it when you bite his neck and leave a few marks there, leading down to his shoulder

C: Cum

he cums everywhere. sorry if you thought he was tidy but self control is relinquished and he will make sure he had the least aim possible. he’s still a teenage boy at heart and likes the visuals of seeing you covered in his cum, so he makes sure that happens each and every time. at first it might have been an accident but unless you have any adverse objections to him doing that, it’s gonna stay that way

D: Dirty Secret

one time when yeosang was at yours and you were in the shower, he accidentally got a peek of you through the door and got a hard on because of it. he didn’t want to annoy you since you already told him you were tired, so he tries to sort it out on his own. he knew it was time sensitive so pulled a pair of your panties from your drawer and used them to help him. he didn’t mean to cum all over them, but he did what he did and kept them so that he didn’t have to explain himself. he was a pretty good liar when he told you that he had no idea what happened to them, though

E: Experience

he seems like he would know what he’s doing, and likely has some ideas as to what else he could be doing, but doesn’t actually have all that much experience. his priorities were elsewhere and he never really bothered to experience that much nsfw stuff. so it’s not gonna be awkward or anything, but he will still look to you for what you like/are in to so that he can make it better for you

F: Favourite Position

anything where he’s on top. not particularly in a dominating way, more in a sense that he can look at you and admire you and what he’s done to you. so he has you on your back and maybe a leg over his shoulder, if not both. saying that, he may like to do more unheard of things, so it’s not often you do the exact same thing twice

G: Goofy

as long as he’s not pulling the whole daddy dom act, and he’s not asking you to beg him or whatever, he can take a less serious approach and laugh about whatever is going on (something like, you’re making out and you’re like ‘yeosang wtaf your nipples are really hard?’ and he is just 0.0 and you start laughing and he starts laughing), but as a default he’s on the more serious side

H: Hair

trimmed a little, though not too much manscaping. he seems like he keeps himself tidy so it wouldn’t be, like, a mess or anything down there. maybe the longer you’re together, the more he’ll start to take care (does that make sense?) of himself. he won’t expect anything from you though

I: Intimacy

he can be intimate, but isn’t always in that mindset - in the same way that he can be goofy sometimes he can also be more on the side of damn im gonna fuck you so hard and forgets about the intimacy behind what you’re doing. if he subs, then he will be more intimate. when he doms it’s intimate just afterwards and when you’re laying next to him all fucked out, and he’ll just look over to like damn i love you

J: Jack Off

just like every other guy, to be honest. he doesn’t try to hide anything and he jacks off when he’s turned on and it’s an appropriate situation. but he does like to ask you for help and will often use that as a starting point for foreplay when you’re further into a relationship

K: Kink

he’s a switch, and likes it either way but has a preference to dom. he is into marking, he really likes looking at you after he’s done, completely fucked out with eyes wide as you look at him, his cum on you and bruises on your skin because of him. he really likes the way it looks. he probably doesn’t have that many kinks, especially niche ones, but he’s happy to see what you’re into and try to incorporate it when he can. he would be pretty open about nsfw stuff and talk to you about it whenever, so there’s no issues if you stumble across something you want to try - he’s game, too!

L: Location

he doesn’t really have a preference for a location, which ends up being a godsend because he’s happy to do anything wherever you are. maybe not the public side of things, not that he doesn’t like the risk element of things, but he’s down for kitchen sex, shower sex, bedroom sex, here’s my new apartment sex, a whole heap of things. it would also depend of who is dom and who is sub - if he’s sub then he prefers it to be a bit more of a private affair

M: Motivation

literally, it could be anything to a memory or a picture of you, to something you said… he’s still a boy at heart. but that isn’t to say you’ll know what got him hard - he’ll usually keep that a secret for a while unless you actually beg him to tell you. then it’s something stupid like ‘thigh highs look nice on you’

N: NO

this one time you put something in his butt (with his permission of course) and he didn’t like it. there’s not too much to say about it, he just didn’t like the way that it felt and he whined about it for a while afterwards. he is apprehensive about you using any toys around him in case it happens again and he will use it against you as a guilt tactic sometimes. he doesn’t like things in his butt, alright

O: Oral

of course he likes both receiving and giving. it’s usually a part of any nsfw encounter you both have, and he’s pretty good at eating you out. he knows what he’s doing, at least it appears that way, and he knows how to get what he wants from you. he is a real big fan of you pulling his hair when he eats you out and makes that very clear from how he acts. also likes to pull your hair when he’s receiving and shows his dom side too

P: Pace

average, really. he keeps a medium pace and doesn’t really go too quick until he’s almost cumming. when he’s chasing his high he’ll speed up a lot, and then nose dive to barely moving when he does cum. but when it comes to foreplay, he’ll usually go a bit slower and has a smirk on his face the entire time because he likes when you tell him to go faster (and he never actually will go faster, unless he’s feeling especially nice)

Q: Quickie

enjoys them, especially when he knows that he’s going to be busy for a while. he doesn’t mind a quickie in the morning when his schedule is packed, or when you’re going to be home late, or you have to be somewhere in the morning etc. he is especially a fan of bathroom quickies at parties. it hits different when you’re both a little tipsy in someone else’s bathroom, laughing because he can’t get your top off and two minutes later his hand is over your mouth and he’s fucking you from behind (fuck boy yeosang stands prosperous in this house)

R: Risk

he doesn’t mind taking risks. it really doesn’t bother him that much if someone could walk in and catch him in the act. sure, he’ll be embarrassed, but it will be more awkward for the person who actually walked in. that being said, he doesn’t get turned on by the thought of getting caught (he doesn’t have a thing for exhibitionism) so it won’t motivate him any more than usual

S: Stamina

he’s a performer, so he can go for as long as you need him to. but usually, unless you’re asking him to carry on or go for another round, he won’t go again. maybe once to show you that he can. he would prefer to be doing something else with you

T: Toy

like before, he gets scared of toys being used on him so avoids them at all costs. he will still use them on you though, and knows what to use and when to use them. whilst he prefers not to, he knows that teasing you properly will often require a little assistance. so he will keep some toys to hand for when that happens. unless you’re completely against them, then he will stick to his own skills

U: Unfair

he knows how to tease, but usually it’s when you’ve started doing something rather than him teasing you when you’re in the car home, out with friends, etc. he can draw out any orgasm and he can make you beg at any given opportunity, provided that he’s already established himself as dom in that time. if he’s sub, then he can tease you too, but more in a way that he’ll not do as you say. don’t try to tease him, because he’ll remember it and use it against you next time

V: Volume

yeosang really doesn’t give a shit about making noise. he’s not one of those guys who thinks it makes him any less of a person to moan, and it really shows sometimes. whilst yeosang may seem like a quieter type of guy, he will surprise you a little but not being able to shut up when he’s enjoying himself. on the contrary, he’s not the best dirty talker. he probably gets some second hand embarrassment so decides that he’ll keep it to a minimum (unlike, say, san)

W: Wild Card

so he’s a switch with dom tendencies but he loves to play sub sometimes. when yeosang is sub it’s a whole other level. wooyoung might be a brat but yeosang is a power bottom and he very much enjoys it. he knows what he’s doing, and he uses every time he’s been dom against you. one time he’ll act like you’ve got full control of the situation and he’ll give his best act at being the soft little boy you really wanted to dom, and just as you’re about to make him beg he’ll make you wish you never suggested he start as sub

X: X-Ray

a little on the smaller side, but not to his disadvantage. he is a bit thinner than, say, mingi, but he’s still a good size. nothing to be disappointed with, and it’s perfect for his switch personality too

Y: Yearning

doesn’t have the biggest needs out of everyone, though that’s likely because he suppressed it for a while. when you start dating he won’t show the biggest amount of yearning and will wait for you to initiate something - however, there appears to be a clear correlation between the amount of time you’ve been dating and the more needy he gets. that’s probably because he gets comfortable, though, and doesn’t mind asking more often

Z: ZZZ

yeosang probably doesn’t fall asleep after sex and he probably doesn’t get too tired afterwards. he will like to talk afterwards, watch something, play video games, etc. he has a lot of energy and usually wont use it all up on sex so has room to do something else afterwards. even if it’s having you laying across his chest sleeping whilst he scrolls through instagram, or tries his best to tell you a story as he strokes his fingers through your hair

[btssunnyboy]

— Fluff alphabet for Boyfriend! Taehyung

BTS , NCT , ATEEZ

Just simple headcanons !

Warning - Just fluff!! Also a new fic will be out soon, it’s just that small projects like this keep my attention better ! I’m sorry it’s just harder to focus on writing over 3k words when I try my best to do that in one sitting. Also the alphabet is not mine!!

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A is for Adventure: something they haven’t done but have always wanted to. — I feel like it would be going for a hot air ballon ride. He’d be able to hold you close, as you both gazed at the city below you. And he prolly make a cheesy joke about how you’re more beautiful than the twinkling lights he sees below.

B is for Butterflies: How they act when they’re nervous — He tends to have a habit of keeping his head low, and avoiding the gazes of those around him. But when he got to know you a lot more he take your hand and fiddled with your nails or any jewelry that you were currently wearing.

C is for Crush: what is it like when they have a crush? How do they know/act? — He didn’t know you that well when he first got his crush, so he was distant. In the way that it looked like you were a plague and he wanted to avoid it at all cOst! But then you two were paired up, and that’s when you noticed he slowly opened up a lot more. He was very talk active, and constantly complementing you.

D is for Date: describe an ideal date for them — Maybe an old fashion kind of date. A drive in movie, with the over priced popcorn and pizza. But he just seems like the type who would love to lay out on a blanket in front of a boy screen, and take advantage of the semi - cold weather just to hold you close.

E is for Essential: what is one thing they could NEVER go without — Maybe a small gift you’ve given him. Like a danity ring that you jokingly called a promise ring, and ever since then he never take it off. He says he feels naked and vulnerable without it.

F is for Favorite: a favorite anything- food, place, smell, book, etc. — Probably the sweet or more subtle perfume you sometimes use when you wear his clothes. Or a fruity shampoo for your hair that makes him melt when you’re cuddling close to one another.

G is for Giggle: how they laugh/what makes them laugh — He has two laughs, one is where it’s complete silent, but his entire body is going into a fit. The other one is a small giggle that just plays on repeat, and when that laugh happens his boxy like smile shines on the surface.

H is for Holding Hands: Do they like holding hands? Are their hands warm or cold? Pinky promises? — oh definitely, touching seems like second nature to him, and he loves to do it. And his hands feel like small heaters where ever they are. For you he’d pinky promise till his pinky fell off.

I is for Inside Joke: something they do that everyone thinks is funny but they don’t understand — OH definitely, it’ll probably be one of those one worded type jokes that only make sense if you’re there at the exact moment it happens. Or it’s a small move that indicates something significant.

J is for Jinx: Are they Superstitious? — mAybe it all depends on the situation.

K is for Kiss: how do they kiss? — OH he’s definitely the type of cup your cheeks, and then plant a quick one and leave. Or it’s one where his arm is around your shoulders or waist and he plants one all over your face.

L is for Love Languge: what is their love language? How do they give and how would they like to receive love? — Either loving touches or acts of love or kindness. Buying extraordinary gifts are his go to, but for receiving love he’s the type to hold skinship and such very dearly. A simple hug after a long day seems like it would go a long way.

M is for Meant to be: how/when they know someone is “the one” — Everything is natural in a sense. Like he’ll be thinking of something and you’re already on the same page. Or he notices the little things a lot more than the bigger ones. Like the small moles you have on your hands, or how you’ve decied that his earrings just suits you more. oOo also the fact that he can be himself, and it’s not awkward or weird.

N is for Nickname: a nickname they would have or their favorite thing to be called — Maybe honey or Tae. But I feel like his go to for you would be love or cupcake. Or some cheesy shit like that!

O is for Organization: are they clean or messy? — oh definitely organized. He knows where your hair clips are, third shelf down, all the way to your personal products you have store away.

P is for Pet Peeve: What’s something they absolutely CAN’T stand? — Definitely any fake person. He doesn’t give two shits, and he’ll let it be known through the faces he makes.

Q is for Quiet: What do they do for peace of mind — Walking Tannie with you. The peaceful surrounding and the fresh air just soothe him automatically.

R is for Rainy Day: Do they like rain? What about storms? How would they spend a rainy day? — Light rain is a very good way for him to go to sleep easier. But the thunderstorms paired with booming thunder make it harder to fall asleep.

S is for Soft: Describe their softest feature — His boxy smile. It just appears so softly, and it’s only there when he’s truly enjoying himself.

T is for Telephone: are they a talker or a texter? How often do they use their phone? — More of a talker, just seems more genuine to him. Not much, maybe a few hours a day, but he’d rather be relaxing in person.

U is for Unique: a random quirk they have — Having to hug something to fall asleep. So it’s possible you’re the thing he needs to fall asleep.

V is for Valentine: Are they the type to celebrate or not? — Definitely, with full bouquets of freshly picked flowers, and the dozen of chocolate covered strawberries. If that’s something you’re in to.

W is for Wholesome: something extremely pure about them that makes you just *uwu* — His kindness is through the roof. No matter what he’s doing if you’re in trouble or simply need something it’s done within seconds.

X is for Xenia: How they would entertain a guest/show hospitality — Offer things right off the bat, are you hungry or thirsty! Or is there anything on the tv that you’d enjoy watching!

Z is for Zzz: Sleep habits. Do they cuddle in their sleep? Talk? What do they dream about? — Yes it’s his cuddle habit, of having to hold something to fall asleep. All depends on how stressed he is, if he talks in his sleep!

[devctus]

Through war and triumph [ ALTHEA ‘TEDDY’ HANNA ] rises, at [ 172 / 25 ] years old, serving as [ BARTENDER AT THE GOLDEN LION / UPRISING MEMBER ] residing in [ THE DARK WORLD ]. They are a [ HALF-FAERIE ] that resembles [ FLORENCE PUGH ]. Upon meeting them, they are [ AUDACIOUS ] and [ DEVOTED ]. Don’t be fooled, they can be [ ANARCHIC ] and [ BRASH ]. 

I.

N A M E

Althea Hanna

N I C K N A M E S

Thea, Theo, Teddy

A G E

172 (appears 25)

B I R T H P L A C E

Southland Realm

C U R R E N T   R E S I D E N C E

The Dark World

F A M I LY

Lady Dalia Hanna (mother, deceased)

Lord Rickard Frost (father, estranged)

O C C U P A T I O N

Bartender at The Golden Lion

General Uprising Member

S E X U A L   O R I E N T A T I O N

Bisexual/romantic

II.

E Y E   C O L O R

Green

H A I R   C O L O R

Blonde

H E I G H T

5′4

S C A R S

too many to count

F A C E C L A I M

Florence Pugh

III.

B I O G R A P H Y

tw: substance abuse/implied suicide/parental death

For the life of her, Teddy has never been able to understand why her parents married, or rather, why her father married her mother.  She understood why she married him, he was handsome, he was wealthy, he had a title and she was shit out of luck.  But mystery always surrounded her father, or rather the name she preferred to call him, her sperm donor’s choices.  He was a faerie who had the unfortunate and false belief that faeries were the best of the species, that half-faeries were a waste of fae genetics and to water down faerie blood was disappointing.  But yet, he married a human and fathered a half-faerie child.  

To this day, Teddy can’t wrap her mind around it.  Did he simply like the idea of having a human wife and half faerie daughter as pets?  Was it to prove a point of their inadequacy?  Did he do it as a twisted act of ‘charity’, as if blessing her mother with his seed and Teddy with his genetics was like winning the lottery for them? 

Regardless of his reasonings, it was a recipe for disaster and one fucked up childhood, baked at 450 degrees, thank you very much.  It was one thing to be told that you were nothing, that you were faulty, and not good enough by other people, of which there were many considering the fact that her father surrounded himself with like-minded individuals.  But to hear it from your own family?  Well that was a special brand of brutal.  

While simultaneously being told that she would never be good enough, she was expected to be perfect, to be an ideal as a daughter of a minor lord should be.  Despite her sperm donor’s status as a minor lord, he thought himself much more important than he was, and expected his daughter to mirror that fantasy of status.  She felt like a princess trapped in a tower.  She was taught endless lists of useless skills, like this was the medieval ages and to be entertainment for others was her only worth.

It took her a long time, too long, to realize that it wasn’t her only worth.  She had always had a rebellious streak in her, and would open her mouth widely when told to keep it shut, regardless of the punishment.  Sure it’d keep her quiet for a bit, but eventually she’d be right back at it.  For awhile, these small rebellions were enough for her.  But that changed when she found her mother in the tub.  It wasn’t hard to understand what had happened, and while Teddy to this day still believes it wasn’t purposeful, she knew her mother didn’t want to be here anymore, that she had checked out long ago.  Pills.  Wine.  Guilt.  Shame.  They had killed her, her mother had only had helped them along when she gave up the fight.

And Teddy knew that unless she wanted to end up like her mother, a buried secret, a secret shame, dead, she had to get out.  So she did.  But not without causing a ruckus, spitting on her father’s name to whoever would listen.  She knew that being a shitty husband and sperm donor was not enough to get anyone to do something about the mistreatment, to strip his title, but she thought disgracing him just a little might be enough for her, at least for now.  

She was angry for a very long time, and she seemed to be consumed by the rage and fire and pain and hurt, her only goal to pull the Southland Realm down brick by brick, just like they had done with the Bastille in France (guess being forced to read all those stupid history books came in handy, huh?).  So, was it really a surprise that Teddy ended up in the Dark World?  No, it really wasn’t.  Neither was the fact that she found herself drawn into the uprising.  Well, ‘drawn in’ was deceiving, she was no passive participant, she had not been fooled or bamboozled into joining.  After hearing about them, she had searched them out.  They seemed like her type of people.  Sure, their goal was the legitimization for the dark world, and while it was a cause Teddy believed in, she hoped that when they reached their goal it would lead to the things she wanted.  The end of superiority, of hierarchy between the species, of hierarchy within the species.  Fuck the queens and princes and lords and ladies.  

Eventually, she settled.  A bit.  Or at least in the physical sense, she learned to call the Dark World home, certain members of the uprising family, some more than others.  Like Dom.  If it wasn’t for the fact that Teddy couldn’t literally read her mind, she’d swear that girl was her damn true mate.  Sure her life in the Southland had been shallow and hollow, but even disregarding that, she had never felt a connection as deep as the one she felt for and with Dominique.  She loved her, she’d die for her, she’d kill for her (hell, she already had).  The two had found each other during their own personal hells and decided to burn together. 

It’s been awhile since she found her home amongst what other realms would call the dredges of society, and more than ever she’s willing to fight for it, no matter the cost.

[blog20041994punam]

What is Karmic Lesson Chart in Numerology?

In numerology it is believed that in life we all have certain strengths and certain weaknesses. The Karmic Lessons in numerology are certain weaknesses we have and need to improve on to lead a better life.

How do you calculate your Karmic Lessons?

To calculate your Karmic Lessons in numerology you start with your full birth name, the one on your birth certificate and find the missing numbers among the letters in your name. You may one none, one or several Karmic Lessons. 

A=1                  J=1                S=1 B=2                  K=2              T=2 c=3                   L=3               U=3 D=4                  M=4              V=4 E=5                   N=5               W=5 F=6                    O=6               X=6 G=7                    P=7               Y=7 H=8                    Q=8               Z=8 I=9                      R=9

Above is the chart we refer to assign number to the letters of one’s name. 

For an example I will use Former President Obama’s full birth name as on his birth certificate.

Barack Hussein Obama 

B A R A C K H U S S E I N O B A M A

2 1 9 1 3 2 8 3 1 1 5 9 5 6 2 1 4 1 

The number 1 occurs 6 times

The number 2 occurs 3 times

The number 3 occurs 2 times

The number 4 occurs 1 time

The number 5 occurs 2 times

The number 6 occurs 1 time

The number 7 occurs 0 times

The number 8 occurs 1 time

The number 9 occurs 2 times

As you can see the number 7 Does Not occur within the President’s full birth name therefore Karmic Lesson 7 applies him.

What do the Karmic Lessons Represent?

Karmic Lesson 1

You need to be more independent and make you own decisions. Take more initiative in your life and be stronger. Stand up for your rights and be heard. 

Karmic Lesson 2

Be more patient and sensitive. Learn to be more understanding and more of a team player. Do not jump to conclusions; get the facts before you interact. 

Karmic Lesson 3

You take life far too serious and need to stop being so critical of yourself and those around you. Enjoy life for awhile and stop finding fault within everything. 

Karmic Lesson 4

You lack organization and direction in life. You need to stick to your goals and not give up when things go bad. Good things come with hard work. 

Karmic Lesson 5

You need to start taking chances and begin new experiences in life. You are plain and boring, you need to start having some faith in yourself and try new things .

Karmic Lesson 6

You fear commitment and shy away from responsibility. You are bad at personal relationships and rarely show your true emotions. You must work at overcoming these hang-ups you have as they prevent your from happiness. 

Karmic Lesson 7

You fail to discipline yourself to refine a specific talent. You need to be more critical of yourself without putting yourself down. Do not take things at face value for you need to do greater research before you buy in. 

Karmic Lesson 8

You have a great knack for making money but you need to exercise more caution as this has cost you greatly before. You dislike authority for you are stubborn and feel you already know everything. Know your limitations as you do exceed them from time to time.

 Karmic Lesson 9

You are in need of sensitivity training. You lack compassion and understanding along with a narrow viewpoint. This mindset is holding you back in life.

This is only a brief explanation of the Karmic Lessons in numerology. If you would like to learn more about the Karmic Lessons and your other personal numerology numbers and be provided with a highly detailed interpretation of your numerology numbers than I suggest that you obtain a Free Numerology Report that is available here. Click here to learn more about it.

[cryptically-ambiguous]

Do you have any laws for October?

Thank you for your query, anon. There are, of course, rules for October.

Mind you, October rules tend to have a bit of overlap with the general tips and laws for fall as a whole. Those that I've spoken about already can be found here, and here. This list will also not be covering Hallow's Eve, as that is a post in and of itself.

That being said, October-specific rules and tips are as follows:

A feather stuck upright in the earth is a gift

A feather upside down is a threat

If a pinecone hits you on the head, this is good luck (Provided that you are beneath a pinecone-bearing tree. Otherwise, it is a warning shot.)

Music coming from the earth is not an invitation

Mind your manners

Cats are harbingers

Carry a sprig of rosemary in your back pocket, behind your ear, or beneath your phonecase

Alternatively, carry a clove in your shoe

If you wish to be taken, stand over a puddle for the duration of a storm. Yell your terms to the clouds, and hope that they're accepted. Do not get your shoes wet.

In the event that you do not wish to be taken, don't do that.

Lock your bedroom window on Tuesdays

Bring your plants inside before the frost

If it does not snow where you are, bring them in anyways. They're lonely.

If it snowed already, do not trust the snow

Do not trust it.

Seashells are good luck this month. Hang them by your door

Get a pumpkin spiced latte. I've heard they're popular this season and you deserve nice things

That's not a rule, just a suggestion

Do not carry your wallet in your back pocket

Do not wear a blue backpack

Invest in a good mask

Understand that October is it's own time. It is not a month. It is not a season. It certainly is not a holiday. October is it's own, and it is ever changing. Do not expect consistency.

Find a deck of playing cards and carry them on your person

Do not follow the fox man. Do not listen to his song. If you see him, back away. Keep your eyes on his right hand, and back away slowly. Do not run. Do not look him in the eye. Do not follow his song. Back away.

Go stargazing before it gets too cold

I hope this was helpful to you in some way. As always, feel free to interpret these rules as general guidelines. Of course, that may come at the cost of your own safety but, well, when are any of us ever truly safe.

[bcstmistake]

✧･ﾟ: * &. / 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘦𝘳 ft. @venusljghts​ !

𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐓𝐎 — 𝐆𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐀: sorry i didn’t say goodbye properly, was sorta swept aside when ur folks came. wanted to kiss you goodbye but u know how things are. maybe i can make up for that when u get home and we can talk over things some more. we’ll leave it a few days so u can rest and stuff. sound good? i could sneak in. let me know b 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐓𝐎 — 𝐆𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐀: gi, text me back when you can. worried sick over here. hospital wouldn’t let me in b4. sawyer said u got discharged yesterday. what’s going on with u? 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 — 𝐆𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐀: i’m terminating the pregnancy.

             HE HADN’T HAD MUCH MORE than a few seconds to talk with gianna at the hospital what with her parents having rushed in, pushing him aside with little else than a disapproving, curious frown. maddox had left pretty quickly after that, due to the ‘two visitors at a time’ rule and the general discomfort of it. he’d thought about sealing a farewell kiss to her bruised forehead before opting not to — he knew better, what with her adamance that mr and mrs milani weren’t to know about their relationship ( if you could even call it that ). maddox didn’t want to be in even MORE trouble with her. they’d already been on the verge of capture before; and mad hadn’t seen her for just shy of two months because of that. since his visit to the hospital, it’d been radio s i l e n c e. not only was he still racked with guilt and confusion, to the extent that even joint after joint couldn’t settle his distress, but she’d done her usual trick of disappearing. she LOOKED like magic, ethereal and beyond imagination, and she WAS magic. there, and then not. whereas maddox would usually shrug his shoulders and reach out for the temporary company of another, he couldn’t bring himself to those depths — this was why she’d left him to begin with, whether they had been exclusive or not, and whose to say she hadn’t remembered that? the thought of anybody else made him nauseous at this point. he assumed that was why she’d f l a t l i n e d, perhaps thanks to the shun of her parents or because he’d made it subtly clear that having a child wasn’t on his agenda, and nor was coming forward about what had really happened that night. she’d figure it out herself; she had a concussion, she wasn’t brain dead. he recalled the way her face had distorted into bleary doe eyes and cheeks flushed with a sad type of anger, a small, quivering palm clenched around his phone. that kind of feeling haunts people — maddox knew too well. she wouldn’t forget that, regardless of the accident and no matter how much he hoped that she would. he’d reluctantly admit that he’d found some sick sort of relief in her decision regarding the pregnancy, and immediately was ridden with liability for her to make her choice so rashly after their conversation; he got what he wanted, but at what cost? her absence, namely. that became apparent over time. missed calls, delivered and unread texts, a dial tone that was set to go straight to voicemail.

             SASKIA AND SAWYER HAD BEEN vague ever since, and although they still saw him on occasion ( despite it being weird for the pairing themselves to hang out and get along so well to begin with, sawyer more often than not turning up alone ), it wasn’t the same. conversations of gianna were shunned, and something was up. he knew it. it’d been 94 days since her last text, 98 since he’d last seen her and technically 99 since that night — since he felt he’d lost her, truly, and it a c h e d. god, he ached. despite this, it’d taken only 20 bottles of beer and a line ( or two ) of cocaine for him to turn up at her house. what with having been intoxicated for the accident, he’d walked the streets for what felt like an eternity rather than opting to drive ( to be responsible, of course, except stumbling the hour trek to her house under the influence, nearly getting hit by a car and knocking over the statue of mary and jesus in her front yard in the process, seemed less than so ). he'd rang the doorbell no sooner than it took for the thoughts of regret to come prodding at his numbed state. this was a bad idea. this was SUCH a bad, bad, BAD idea. something in him decided to ring for a second time — impatience, desperation or maybe sheer stupidity. even if he just saw a g l i m p s e of her face, that’d be enough. nobody in town had seen her since the accident, or the revelation of her pregnancy ( which hadn’t been heard of, as far as he knew ); and best believe he’d asked everybody he could. he’d even driven past her house a few times, even if he wasn’t taking that route. yeah, it was borderline creepy but he craved one final look at her, just to reassure himself that she was ok — to settle that ever twisting feeling of l o n g i n g in his gut. maddox just wanted to SEE her, at least one more time. goodbyes had always been a sensitive spot; losing his mom, his dad and his brother in the space of a matter of years, with no forewarning or finality. that had stuck with him. gianna had stuck with him. it’d been made abundantly clear — through her lack of contact and his abysmal sense of understanding, as well as through the way sawyer had interpreted the situation — that he couldn’t, and wouldn’t, have her. not after this. closure seemed like a far away place she'd escaped to; where she resided happily having left him behind. yet, he was still here, wherever here was. it felt like n o w h e r e without her — but maybe it was her doorstep.

[ivory-haired-queens-blog]

I just played ep 3 and you wanna know what things fucking ripped my heart out and fucking stomped on it and tried to shove it back in with scotch tape and glitter glue? SPOILERS, DUH.

*Also this might be the most in-depth and analytical thing I've done so... it's long.

A) When Louis picks up Minnie's crossbow and fucking accidentally shoots that woman and he's like "i..I didn't mean...fuck" or something like that. That fucking voice acting shredded me and I will never be over that. Louis, Louis of all people, the lighthearted jokester that just wants everyone to be happy was forced to shoot a woman in the skull! In one of the most grisly deaths in the season at that! Skybound can throw hands with me for that one. Also when Clem goes to get Aj Louis, even as broken and torn as he is at this point, he still tries to come with her. The best boy honestly.

B) Look, I know Lilly is the villian of this season. I'm fully aware of this. But she obviously still kinda cares about Clementine, as in ep 2 she said, and I quote "this SHOULD be easy." But it's not. It's not easy to shoot clem. But then she just fucking takes Aj? And then tries to strangle Clem on the side of the boat? And then when I mercied her and tried to let her live, she just???fucking kills James??? Like, I already didn't like James (I'm sorry James stans) but he didn't deserve that. And then the bomb goes off and we don't even get to Aj in time??? Like, 👊👊👊 throw hands.

C) When Aj talks about Clem getting bit and how he'd want her to bite him. Like, fucking James just had to say something. This boy is 6, maybe 7 at the absolute latest. He's impressionable, he learns from what he hears. You can't just tell him that walkers are still kinda human. If they had any shred of humanity left, they would not kill people. Especially those close to them, like Lee's brother tried to kill Lee when he was under that lamppost. Just fucking stop I'm crying.

D) LOUIS' STORY. If you did the Violet path and didn't hear Louis', basically he was rich. Like, filthy rich. But the only thing his dad wouldn't buy him was singing lessons. Louis got so mad at what his dad said to him, "You can either be happy or you can be rich," that he wanted to teach his dad a lesson. He started buying things on his dad's credit card that eluded to his dad having an affair (jewelry, hotel rooms, etc.) And when this worked, his parents got the divorce, he came clean. He told his dad "You can either be rich or you can be happy." A week later he was at the school. And just fucking??? How much his character has grown in the 8-9 apocalypse years??I'm so proud of him. Sure, younger Louis was a little shit, but he knows how fucked up what he did was. If you watch the scene, it's so....heartbreaking. like it's his biggest regret, even with all the Marlon shit thrown in. I love Violet with my whole heart, but I fucking love Louis' storyline.

E) VIOLET WHAT THE FUCK??? As I stated before, I love Violet. She's my favorite gay/gal in the whole apocalypse. But what the fuck? Like, you...I get it. I saved Louis instead of you, but wait a fucking minute I made it blatantly obvious that I love Louis (my son) and when you see me in the prison cell you're like "fuck you I'm staying here with my psychotic gf." Like??? I think the writers made a huge character mistake with that because there's no way Violet would have actually done that to me. Also especially after Minnie admits to killing Sophie, which I'll touch on later. Like, her character would NOT do that. Idgaf if she still loved Minnie or not, she'd be fucking pissed.

F) We have to talk about Minnie. Just....ugh. Props to telltale/skybound because holy fuck. That got me. That got me good. She just??? Is completely brainwashed by the delta and lilly? She killed her own sister, and despite me telling her what Tenn told me to she still locked me in the cell? Also she doesn't say one loving thing to Violet, who literally is willing to get herself blown up just to be with her. And when that woman tells her her family is the delta and to forget about Tenn she just fucking accepts it? Like??? Fuck off bitch?

G) Louis' date was the cutest shit

H) I'm sorry but at the party that first bio sounded a fuck ton like Marlon and Idc what anyone else says you cannot convince me that my love Ruby ever did such things.

I) I hate that the story is so compelling that, even after all she's fucking done, I still care about Lilly. I call this "the Kenny effect." We have history, and that matters a lot to me. Even if I don't agree with her ever, I still don't want her to die. (Like with the Kenny/Arvo thing) I see her as family, which is why in s1 I let her stay after she shot carley and in ep 2 of this season I told her we were family. I do care about Lilly, and then she just kills James??? Like, ugh. I wish she would just fucking stop and I could hug her and everything would be fine and Lee isn't actually dead and Christa and Molly and Kenny and everyone's alive and AAHHHHH.

J) The scene where Minnie has clem's knife against clem's chest and is pushing down is so fucking similar to the Kenny/Jane situation is s2. Minnie is Jane and Clem is Kenny, this time all of the kids from the school is clem. Both Minnie and Clem want them to be safe, but they have very different ideas on how they'll be safe. Clem wants to protect them at all costs, and Minnie wants to protect them by getting rid of clem. (Like how Jane wanted to get rid of kenny) I'm crying in the club.

K) James fucking making me walk in the barn full of walkers to touch the wind chime. I was literally so anxious during this and I knew that it's a game but just??? That would have been a pointless death.

L) ABEL. NO! Look I don't like this guy as much as the rest of ya'll, but they way he just breaks down??? I refused to torture him, and I put out his cigarette. He begs to be killed because he doesn't want to turn. This is so visceral and raw that I almost cried when my knife went through his head. Then the screen thing told me I tortured him in front of Aj?? Hello? When did I do that??? I gave him mercy, I gave him peace.

M) Louis toasting to the fact that he thinks he's gonna die at the boat just fucking destroys me.

N) Rosie is the goodest girl and didn't get enough screen time.

O) Louis helping clem up when she gets pulled under water by a walker is cleansing for my soul

P) Omar and Aasim got like 4 lines between them and that's fucking breaking the law

Q) I literally only found 1 collectible where the fuck where they all???

R) I was legitimately going to not kill any of the walkers when James was getting his mask, but I honest to God kept dying over and over so I literally had to kill one of them.

S) the fact that James kept bringing up how much of a heartless bitch I am for not caring about dead people that are walking and killing the living and everyone I've ever cared about.

T) The sheer genuis of the dialogue option that asks James if he knows the names of the walkers and he's confused and clem is just like "Omar, Aasim...Violet." like, he doesn't know the walkers. They're killing machines that he has no attachment to. Clem's friends are alive, and she cares about them deeply. Like fuck off m8.

U) Aj is so broken and confused and scared I don't know how to fix him he's a murderer but he's trying to atone and I just hope to God Lee would actually be proud of Clem and I just wish he was alive and Clem and Aj and him were a family and he could meet the boarding school kids at then Louis would learn about history, something I hc him as never being good at in school, and Louis teaches him how to play the piano and he teaches Violet how to actually map the stars and she teaches him all the fighting skills she's learned and Lee takes a liking to Tenn and makes sure to thank Omar for cooking and appreciates willy and mitch and what they do and supports and learns medicine from ruby and stops Aj from killing Marlon and talks him through the bad shit and helps him atone for his sins and then he meets Rosie and when he sees Lilly again she stops being a hateful cunt and we kill all the delta people and go back to the school and everyone, including mitch and James and Minerva and Sophie is alive and this is getting way to long aahhhh.

V) When Louis is freaking out about the responsibility of planting the bomb, and it gives you to either slap him or kiss him and that's the fucking cutest shit

W) the fact that it never let's me hug Tenn or Willy, nor have a funeral for Mitch. Like I know we were crunched for time, but it would've taken 10 minutes tops.

X) to my knowledge, Tenn and Menerva never see eachother. Maybe she would have changed if she saw him? I don't know...

Y) I don't have the option to cuddle with Rosie and that's an actual crime.

Z) When the kids are talking about all the people they've lost. 34 people. 34. We've lost a lot, don't get me wrong, but I don't think it's 34. It might be close, but some of those people we weren't close to nor knew for very long. Also the fact that they've lost 34 but only have like 5 graves. Wtf?

*) AND THE BIGGEST THING THAT TORE MY HEART INTO PRICES WAS THE LEE SCENE, AND THE DIALOGUE OPTION OF TELLING LEE HE'S NOT REAL AND HE TELLS CLEM THAT IT'S OKAY TO BE A LITTLE NUTS AND THEN THE HUG AND THE "LOOK AT YOU..." FROM LEE AND AAAHHHH I MISS HIM SO FUCKING MUCH.

*Edit: I'm not saying I love Lilly as much as I do Kenny, I could never like her that much, even if she had a change of heart and died protecting clem or Aj. I'm saying "the Kenny effect" because he was being an asshole, however you try to defend him. He wasn't in the right, and harmed an innocent kid (Arvo) just like Lilly does. Cool? Cool.