#THEY JUST MAKE ME FEEL THINGS OHGOD

[heatherstyles]

“I am a gentleman. I have been raised to act with honour, but that honour is hanging by a thread that grows more precarious with every moment I spend in your presence. You are the bane of my existence and the object of all my desires”

klaroline edits (nat’s version)

[sometimesthingsgowrongokayy]

oh golly how do you make these things

jayvik tickle hcs because i can

(sparkle sparkle)

separate and then together, a few swears, one tiny suggestive bit on jayce’s

JAYCE

lee!

ohhh boy. jayce my bbaby. okay. so as a decently muscular man, hes gotta be at least a little ticklish.

i think his worst spots are probably the spots you can just latch onto and squeeze- thighs, ribs, knees, even shoulders.

my boy cannot take a massage. he has tried so hard but every single time he’s just a hiccuping snorty mess

speaking of hiccuping snorty mess. i think he has a lot of different laughs. when you get him really going it’s his usual deep belly laughter, loud and proud and so bright you’re gonna need sunglasses

but also i think if you have him for long enough his laugh changes pitch a lot. like it’ll go from low to super high, and he’s all like “hahahAHAHAHHHSGH OHGOD OH GOD OH GOHOHOD” and oough. bbg

if it’s less intense, he’s not really one to giggle, but he definitely hiccups. he scrunches his face all up and jerks around and flinches and snorts and covers his mouth with the back of his hand and.. ghrhrgh.. im going insane guys

i think he’s the kind of guy who doesn’t squirm too much but arches his back a lot. he doesn’t squirm back and forth, but he’s always folding like a lawn chair, forwards and backwards

with his hiccupy/snorty laughter, he’ll go silent for a few seconds, and his shoulders just bounce as his whole body shakes, face absolutely BURNING red

oh yeah and he’s a blusher. bigtime. he gets a little flustered at the fact he can get plucked apart so easily by something as silly as tickling. he doesn’t think its childish, per se, but certainly not something a grown man should be This weak to.

..and yeah, he likes it. he’s embarrassed about it, but won’t necessarily deny it. he kind of has a thing for going all dumb and happy and brainless. just made into a smiley little puddle of jayce

oh and his smile. i know these hcs are already so freaking long but his smilee he is always grinning. even just a poke and he’s already got a big dumb smile. he is literally the sun when being tickled, it’s absurd

i didnt even get into soft tickles yet what

okay so we all know his abs are sensitive. i think he might just die at some gentle fluttery fingers. same with his sides and back

hear me out. behind the knees. oh and biceps. and the underside of his arms in general. and his forearms. none of them are too bad, but he’ll still squirm a little if you just slowly trace your fingers over them

post-season-2(SPOILERS KINDA??) his wrist his mad sensitive from the crystal embedded in there.

all of his scars are sensitive too. i don’t think he has too many, but the ones he does have are Big and also very ticklish <3

all in all i think he’s very sensitive. he’s the type to be flinching and squirming at things that aren’t even supposed to be ticklish, like god this man cannot take a tummy rub. if someone’s hands are on him in a sensual manner he can’t hold back tiny little giggle-huffs.

whenever anyone’s hands are on his bare skin in any soft manner, he’s. he can’t. he is too ticklish to survive on this earth

okay im gonna stop myself there or im gonna be ranting for seven more paragraphs

ler!

this little shit oh my god

okay no i take that back. i feel like he would be a smug cocky little shit, but not always.

im sorry, i have to say it, engineer hands

i have less ler hcs than i do lee hcs for him but i do think he would be absurdly switchy. he’s the type of guy to just poke people at random whenever he’s bored or to prove a point

has a habit of digging. he’ll find a nice meaty spot and just squeeze it lighting fast for about a second and then give you a teensy little break before doing the exact same thing again

he can be a little merciless though. he doesn’t realize just how good he is at tickling, he just thinks everyone who he tickles is mad sensitive

its hilarious though. he’ll be like “How did I never know you were this ticklish?!” and the lee will be like I DIDN’T KNOW EITHER HOW ARE YOU DOING THIS-

his hands are going all over the place, too. if he has a really handsy/squirmy lee, he’ll just keep switching spots every time they go to defend something. arms glue to their sides? okay, he’ll switch to their knees. legs pull up? okay, neck now. shoulders scrunch? ooh, armpits are fun!

he is such a menace and doesn’t even realize it

he’s crazy playful. mostly back in academy days, but if you can get close enough to him as the man of progress, and he has some free time, he’s so freaking playful its wonderful

he thinks its fun, and he likes seeing people’s stress just melt away. he will get a little worried if you tell him to stop, though, and pulls back a little if you do. he doesn’t wanna hurt you or make you uncomfortable.

definitely pokes people a lot but doesn’t actually engage in full attacks all that often. usually he has to be pretty close friends with someone to do that.

he’s very gentle with viktor when he tickles him, sometimes a little too gentle. it’s agony

VIKTOR

lee!

okay im gonna say it now before the thought leaves my brain. ticklish ears

he’s a lot more keen to light tickles as rougher stuff just kinda hurts a lot of the time or gets him really overwhelmed

tbh if you wanna get him bad, tools are probably best bet. rough tickles with hands are a little too much, but get a feather or a pen or a brush and Hoo boy you’ve killed Viktor.

i don’t actually think he’s all that ticklish. like he is but he isn’t? he’s sensitive but not hypersensitive, i guess.

except for his bad spots. i think its more of a thing where he’s not too ticklish in most places but his bad spots get him writhing.

of course i’m obliged to say neck, ears, jaw, back.. the works. i think his stomach has the potential to be sensitive but he’s a little too skin and bones for it to really impact him.

he has a lot of vaguely unusual spots. his wrists and palms are sensitive, i think his scalp is even a little sensitive. he doesn’t like people playing with his hair for that reason

if not for his brace i’d say his back and spine especially would be real bad. without his brace, just tracing a line all the way up his spine has him jerking forward so hard sometimes he falls over. and absolutely spits out any drink he may be drinking. i mean it feels like stars bursting all the way up his back, okay?? so tingly

he’s the type to hold his stomach when laughing really hard, just in general

he’s also a big snorter, but he uhm.. he has a very maniacal laugh. it’s literally just like- a whole villain laugh. absolutely terrifying.

i think he’s a lot less sensitive than jayce in theory, but in practice he’s a lot less used to it and very squirmy

so squirmy. very slippery. i wouldn’t quite say nimble, because of his leg, but- at the very least very good at escaping.

definitely the type to go straight for his ler’s sides to get them off him. he panics and just squeezes. usually it works but sometimes it doesn’t

i think he has the potential to be a giggler. idk though. he wouldn’t have bubbly giggles as much as he would have really breathy, huffy giggles. silent giggles are another big thing

i think he’s very neutral on the whole concept. he has to be in the right mood and it has to be with someone he trusts with his life.

feather-ticklish bastard. trust me on this

ler!

idk about you guys but viktor talking like he’s documenting an experiment while tickling someone? oughhrgrh.

im usually not one for teases but aaugrgghgrgr.

his hands are absurdly nimble, so while he can commonly be overpowered by his lee, he’s still a slippery bastard and somehow manages to slip into all of someone’s worst spots

i’m kinda stealing this hc from someone else, but i think he is very good at predicting/guessing someone’s weak spots. “HOHOW DID YOU KNOW I-“ “oh, i just guessed. not very hard, you know.” gggggraagg

i really can’t explain just how evil he is. those nimble hands of his are all over someone in seconds, spidering and digging into every single spot and switching at lighting speeds.

very good at tickling people, i think. him and jayce are on a pretty even playing field for that

i have such a distinct idea of what ler!viktor would be but for some reason i just cant explain it with words.

TOGETHER

oh these two. these two. i’m.

they are so switchy it’s scary. tickle fights with these two are not tickle fights, they are strategic tickle wars.

viktor tickles jayce out of stress a lot. jayce is definitely the type to get overwhelmed with stress and not tell anyone, literal king of masking, but ofc viktor sees through it in seconds and wrecks him until he admits what’s wrong. and then viktor wrecks him some more so he can forget about it for a little while

they’re always teasing eachother. on energetic days they’re both so playful with eachother, and they’ll be poking eachother around the lab all day until one of them cracks and launches an attack

they wreck eachother just to prove a point sometimes.

jayce has a habit of getting viktor when he’s being too cocky or sassy. viktor has a habit of getting jayce just because he feels like it.

jayce tickles viktor when he’s bored, he’ll pick up a quill and flutter it against the back of viktor’s neck while he’s ranting about something.

they get revenge a lot, but then they get revenge on the revenge, so it’s kind of.. a cycle

they know eachother’s boundaries like the back of their hands, since they’ve known eachother so long they’re very good at knowing exactly when to stop and exactly what to do

they also pick up on eachother’s lee moods.. and ler moods sometimes. let’s just say jayce knows when to run when viktor gets a certain look in his eyes

aftercare with them is sickeningly soft. brushing hair out of faces, gently caressing skin, massaging eachother to get rid of some of the lingering tingles, all of it. they hold hands and press up next to eachother and ghhgh. even if its in a scenario where they aren’t dating, they still do all of this, and if someone questions it they just shrug. just two bros bein dudes, nothing to see here

i feel like these together hcs are so bad im sorry. it’s so early rn and im suffering Hunger. ill probably make more of these in the future if anyone is interested

feel free to shoot me an ask or two about them as well!!

[lunarleonardo]

Alright, I promised myself I'd do this when I finished Love Letter.

Everyone, I present: The Love Letter art I, the author, have created. ohgod im nervo us AAAH

Alright lets start with art I put legitmate effort into

This comes from Mickey Darling's feed my ego. I was gonna do an animation with it but I was really unmotivated at the time QwQ so this is what we get instead. I made it with the base idea of chapter 23 in mind ^^

This one was a scrapped concept for the start of chapter 14. Read left to right.

Here's a few doodles :p

The last one I actually mixed up which eye got injured >_> figuring out my lefts and rights was a CHALLENGE for this entire fic I cant even begin to explain how much I was struggling x"D

ok so apparently you can only add 1 video file per post but i am NOT making another one to show yall all three animations so ive found a workaround

This is Lost Kitten by METRIC. This is the first Love Letter animation I made because I am not normal but also because I got a HUGE inspiration burst xD i hate tweening so much

In Fact (demo) by Gregory and the Hawk. Did this one very shortly after the completion of chapter 23 ^^' not much to say about it i was just feeling emotional

Nails like God by mccafferty . i drew this in ibis paint in the car xd every time i draw shuichi i swear his hair gets bigger

alright thats it I think. Im tired qwq it's time for me to take a break. and by a break i mean working on the TWO projects ive got going on! thats right baby lunar's writing two things at once this could not possibly go badly

[proshiprodent]

Yandere! SCP 049 Headcanons

woah im actually getting to this anyways sorry for the long wait but im here! the reader is apart of the scientific department ^^ also reader is afab but uses they/them

SFW

God does he love you.

Though you guys were both unaware at first

He thought it was just a feeling of friendliness and care

Until he couldn't keep you out of his head. Through all of his research, the thought of you lingered in his head

He then started to feel something different in him.

He felt an urge to protect you from everyone and to never let you go. He only wanted you to look at him, talk to him and for you to only be by him.

For you though, as an ScD, you saw him react differently everytime he saw you.

He would stare at you, like he was in a trance. He would treat you differently from the rest of the scientists.

The way you two began to grow closer was when you interviewed him.

You guys sat there for hours under close watch by the foundation. Talking on and on about eachothers lives and personal things.

You know it was odd to be closer than friends with an SCP, especially as foundation personnel but you felt something for him. Love.

He could tell you felt this by how he analyzed you everytime you guys would talk. He felt ecstatic, absolute joy in your reciprocation.

Sometimes when the foundation had put you in for tests, you two would talk to eachother in his cell. Enjoying eachothers company as you guys talked. He would even show off some of his progress or belongings that he somehow had.

You looked at him as he explained his studies, deep in thought and showing interest to it. "See, the pestilence does not reside in other mammals similar to humans, They've given me orangutans to test on but it's just not the same.." You nodded in agreement as he continued, "Though someday I hope to test on a human with the pestilence. Or any human."

"Would I be on your list of potential tests?" you questioned

"God no! Your beauty must be protected, I must not ruin a person like you..."

NSFW

ohgod-

He tries to be gentle at first. Keyword: tries.

He has a knife kink no fucking doubt and loves to carve hearts into you

What does his penis look like? oh honey you asked the wrong person

So I think its kinda lanky. Definitely sensative. His skin has a greyish tint to it so I think his penis definitely is grey with a bit of red at the top. The red is probably something like #DDCDC9 with the rest of his penis being #DDDDDD and his balls being a little darker at #C4C4C4. I'd say the length is 7.12 inches soft maybe, 8.01in hard (wow im generous). His penis may not be that thick but it makes up in length. Girth is probs 3.10in wide. His semen production is kinda alot. He definitely has a curve about like 4-5 degrees towards him.

He'd tie you up and call you a 'gift from the heavens'

049 writes down your reactions and actions and i will die on this hill.

He loves when you suck him off but refuses to say.

SIZE KINK SIZE KINK if your small he will love you forever

Theres no way he doesnt have a dacryphilia kink

Fucks you for hours and says its for research LMAOO

HE WILL MAKE YOU BEG I WILL DIE HERE

sorry i dont have much im so tired rn 💀

He looked at you as you layed under him, naked and flustered. "Beg for it, love." you looked at him and wimpered "P-Please fuck me 049, please cum inside of me..~" He chuckled at your words and thrusted into you,

"Finally I have you all to me.."

Yes i fucking wrote that paragraph. why? because i can. I apologize (not

[trashyswitch]

Luigi's Secret

Chapter 23: Weegee's Knee-d for Comfort

Luigi slides out of the pipe, but hurts his knees (and his pride) in the process. So Mario takes the time to tend to his physical and psychological needs.

Then Luigi gets an update that rocks his internet world...

HAPPY MAR10 DAY to my long-lost childhood imaginary friend. Mario will always have a special place in my heart.

The boys popped out of the tube and landed in the long grass. Mario naturally popped out first, flying through the air with pure joy on his face and making sure he had his feet ready for the landing. He touched down perfectly onto the grass and slid in an almost heroic fashion before standing up with a proud look on his face. He was finally getting the hang of how to create a good landing! 

“Luigi, did you-” Mario turned around and snickered as he widened his eyes. 

Luigi looked like he had eaten dirt upon landing. His legs flopped onto the ground as he slowly got himself up, covered in a mix of grass stains and dirt. But despite all that, Luigi threw his thumb up in the air and mumbled something like “I’m okay!”.  

Mario couldn’t stop himself from laughing at his brother. He always was, and always will be, the more clumsy out of the two of them. Mario walked up to him and patted his back. “You’ll get there eventually.” Mario told him. 

Luigi sighed as he got up onto his feet. “Ow…” Luigi grumbled as he got up and dusted himself off. 

Mario bit his lip. “Knees?” He asked. 

“Mhm.” He replied. “Imagine being 25 and having bad knees already.” Luigi said with a chuckle, before dropping his smile. “Couldn’t be me…” He started to mumble with slight annoyance. 

Mario tensed his lips, feeling remorse for Luigi. The bad knees were the reason they had decided to strike out on their own. Luigi began to really struggle with catching up, and Spike never bothered to wait for him despite Mario’s protests. Things hit a head when Mario watched Luigi attempt to get up onto his feet after kneeling to fix a sink…and then he fell back down and further damaged his knees. 

Mario readied his hands. “Fall into my arms, Lu.” Mario told him. 

Luigi tilted his head. “Like a trust fall?” He asked. 

“Yeah! Backwards this time. Not forward like last time.” Mario reminded him. 

Luigi nodded and threw his arms out, before falling with his back towards Mario’s hands. Mario caught Luigi perfectly, and picked up his brother bridal-style almost effortlessly. “There.” Mario said. “Reach for the toolkit.” Mario told him. Luigi nodded and picked up the toolkit, carrying it on his lap in Mario’s grip. “Ready!” Luigi cheered. 

“Alright!” Mario carried his brother towards the house. “Off to Neverland!” Mario sang as he jokingly started spinning Luigi in a circle. “OHGOD MARIO!” Luigi yelped and held onto Mario for dear life, terrified of being dropped. “S-STOP!” Luigi begged. “You really think I would drop you?” Mario asked, stopping his spinning.  

“Y-You did once.” Luigi reminded him, resting his head on Mario’s shoulder. 

“Yeah…when I was 9 and an idiot.” Mario told him. “I would never drop you now.” He reminded him. 

Mario started to jump across the different bricks with Luigi still in his arms. Okay…As much as he used to tease Mario about being acrobatic, he had to admit just how impressive Mario can be. Despite getting older, Mario never once lost his athletic skills. 

Mario walked to the door. “Can you open the door for me?” Mario asked. 

Luigi nodded and grabbed out the key. He put the key into the lock, twisted the key and then opened the door with another twist of the doorknob. 

Mario turned Luigi so his feet were first. “Now give it a kick!” Mario ordered. 

Luigi smiled and kicked the door open in spite of his knees. 

“Yeah! Good one, Lu!” Mario reacted, walking into the house. 

Luigi chuckled. “Thanks.” He said, twirling his mustache. 

Mario let Luigi put the toolkit down, before taking his brother to the couch. Mario placed Luigi onto the couch very softly, and placed a pillow behind Luigi’s back and head. “There.” Mario grabbed a blanket from the chair nearby. “Blanket?” Mario asked. 

“Nah, I’m good.” Luigi replied. 

Mario nodded and put the blanket back. He headed to their bedroom, and grabbed a squeeze bottle of ointment specifically for aching joints. He headed back to the kitchen and put a heating pad into the microwave. While it heated up, Mario walked out to the living room with the bottle. “Roll up your pants, Luigi.” Mario told him. Luigi nodded in response and rolled up the right one first. Mario started to open the bottle, but heard his brother clear his throat. Mario looked at Luigi, and saw his arm out. “I can do it.” Luigi told him. 

Mario hummed with a smile and handed him the bottle. “Fine.” He replied. 

“Microwave went off.” Luigi said, pointing to the kitchen. 

“On it.” Mario said, walking to the kitchen. He grabbed the heating pad from the microwave and placed it aside. Luigi put the ointment onto his right knee first. He rubbed it around the front, the side and the back of the knee joint because all of it seemed to be hurting. Luigi rolled up his left leg and put the same ointment onto that knee. On the right knee, Luigi could feel the cooling sensation that came with the ointment. It felt like someone was blowing icy cold air onto his knee. It honestly felt really good and it always did the trick for him. 

After covering his other knee with the ointment, Luigi rubbed the stuff into his own hands before putting the cap on and placing it aside. With that done, Luigi put the heating pad onto both his knees. It was a long one, which meant both knees could be covered in heat at once. Luigi leaned back and closed his eyes, feeling relaxed and content. The heat felt amazing. As much as he hated the knee pain, he loved the feeling of the ointment and the heat. It’s like a massage. You hate feeling the neck and back pain, but you love the feeling of getting those massages. 

*tweak* 

“WaAH-” Luigi jumped, feeling his knee twitch. “What-” 

“This still gets you?” Mario asked, wrapping his middle finger and thumb around the outside of his knee, and tweaking it. 

“YE-Yes. Ihit does.” Luigi admitted. 

Mario chuckled. “Bad timing?” Mario asked. 

Luigi shook his head. “No.” He replied. “But…Still unsure about that tickle spot.” Luigi admitted. 

Mario made the finger movement with his index finger and thumb. “This one?” Mario asked. 

Luigi nodded. “Part of me likes the playfulness, but…” Luigi bit his lip. “The other part of me doesn’t like the feeling.” Luigi admitted awkwardly. 

“Hm…” Mario mumbled. 

“Like, I have good memories of Dad and Uncle Arthur doing it to us when we were kids.” Luigi admitted. 

“But the feeling itself…doesn't feel the same?” Mario asked. 

“Yeah…” Luigi clarified. 

Mario sat down on the other side of the couch. “I get that.” He admitted. “You know I’ve never been a fan of people touching my back.” Mario reminded him. 

Luigi nodded. “Yeah.” 

Mario cleared his throat slightly. “It’s because it’s really sensitive. And not ticklish…just sensitive.” Mario replied. 

“Like…itchy?” Luigi clarified. Mario scrunched up his face, unsure. “...Kkkindaaa?” He thought for a moment. “It doesn’t tickle enough to make me laugh.” Mario explained. “It just tickles enough to make me jump.” 

Luigi nodded and thought for a moment. “So…Yeah. Sensitive should be the right word for that.” Luigi replied. 

Mario nodded. “I know.” 

Luigi scratched the back of his head. “The community sorta uses the words ‘sensitive’ and ‘ticklish’ interchangeably.” Luigi explained. 

“Because the word ‘ticklish’ is too hard to say?” Mario asked with a laugh. Luigi shrugged his shoulders. “P-Pretty much, yeah.” 

Mario giggled. “What mood are you in right now?” Mario asked. 

Luigi began to think for a moment. That’s a…good question. What kind of mood WAS he in right now?! Luigi had no idea! “Uhhhh…” He said to give himself a bit more time. Cause…he was talking about tickle game almost like he was in a switch mood, but…Talking about it honestly made him lean in towards a lee mood. But not a strong enough lee mood that he’ll go insane if he’s not wrecked…but kind of a casual lee mood that he can cover up in a moment’s notice. So… “I think…I’m mostly in a lee mood, but…” He looked at Mario. “But it’s not overwhelming.” He admitted, looking back down. 

“So you want more playfulness than tickles right now?” Mario asked. 

Luigi looked up at Mario with a bright smile. “Y-Yeah, actually!” Luigi admitted. 

Mario giggled and laughed at his brother’s sudden excitement. “Well then! Okay!” He replied. “But I think we should focus on looking after your knees first.” Mario told him. 

Luigi threw the heating pad off and stood up. “I’m fine!” Luigi declared. 

“LuigiWAI-” 

But Luigi gasped and squeezed his eyes shut the moment he felt the achy, weak pain filling his knees again. Too much movement, way too fast. He grunted and slowly brought himself down onto the couch again, grunting and whining as he laid himself down again. “Stupid knees…” Luigi mumbled, clearly ticked off. 

Mario put the heating pad back onto Luigi’s knees again. “Alright. Move over.”  Mario said, scooting Luigi over a little bit. “Hm? Why?” Luigi asked. 

“I’m getting in beside you.” Mario told him, sitting down on the couch super close to his brother. “Duhude. There’s barely any room!” Luigi tried to tell him. “Then move your butt!” Mario reacted, forcing himself in. 

“Ihi literally CAN’T!” Luigi reacted, showing Mario the back of the couch and how much he was currently squished against it. 

Mario stopped moving and wrapped his arm around his brother’s side. “Come here.” He said, before squeezing both of Luigi’s sides. 

“NahAHA! MARIOHOHOhoho!” Luigi laughed, leaning against Mario. 

“Whaaat? I’m right here.” Mario teased, moving to his lower ribs. 

“Ihihi cahahan’t gohohoho anywhehehere!” Luigi told him. 

“But isn’t that what you want? To be stuck in one place, only able to laugh and maybe squirm as you’re destroyed almost mercilessly?” Mario asked. 

“Ihihihihi-”

“You can’t lie to me now, Lu. You made the dreadful mistake of telling me about it earlier.” Mario told him. 

Luigi shook his head. “Ihihi dihihid nohot!” Luigi argued. 

Mario smiled and blew some gentle air onto Luigi’s right ear. 

“Mario-MariodohohOHOHON’T!”  Luigi yelled.

“Who needs fingers when you can use the air?” Mario teased before blowing more air onto his right ear. 

Luigi curled his neck in, attempting to cover up his right ear but to no avail. Plus: when Luigi covered up his right ear, then his left ear became super vulnerable! So naturally, Mario blew some air onto his left ear. This made Luigi burst out laughing and lean his head back against Mario’s right shoulder. “HAHAHAHA- WHYHY THEHEHERE?” Luigi asked. 

“Because if it wasn’t obvious already, your ears are one of my favorite spots to tickle.” Mario told him, tickling his left ear lightly. 

“Hehehehe- Ihihi dihidn’t knohohow.” Luigi admitted. 

“You didn’t?!” Mario stopped. “A reminder that everytime I tickled you, I would target one specific tickle spot.” Mario told him. 

“T-Truhue…” Luigi mumbled. He had to admit…he had a really good point.  

“And let’s not forget your belly button.” Mario teased as he brought his fingers down and poked Luigi’s belly button. “That’s another one of my favorite tickle spots on you.” Mario told him. 

Luigi threw his head back and cackled his heart out, bringing his belly in slightly to try and get his finger away. But Mario’s finger only followed his belly. And with nowhere to go, Luigi just HAD to let it happen! “eeEEHEHEHEHEHEEE! NAAAHAHAHAHAHA! IHIHI- IHIHI’M GOHOHONNA DIHIHIHIEEHEHEHEHEHE!” Luigi shouted. 

Mario quickly stopped his fingers, a worried expression on his face. “Do you need me to stop?” he asked. “Cause this spot tends to kill you.” Mario admitted. 

Luigi’s hysterical laughter quickly began to calm down. “HEHEhehehe…Yeheheah…” He muttered. The man was growing steadily tired from all the tickles…not to mention the long work day they had just worked. But boy…Luigi felt so much better. Even his knees felt like they were getting a lot better! Luigi pulled out his phone and noticed that there was a reply to his message! Wait…was this the message from the other night?! 

[I've been in a ler mood lately, yet my brothers asleep, and I don't want to wake him, so I need an awake person, guess you'll a have to do. -🧢] 

[Aww...that sucks...Well, good thing I normally stay up late! 

*opens arms* Go for it! Destroy me!

~Pocket]

“Did you send that Pocket person another message?” Mario asked beside him. 

Luigi widened his eyes and looked towards Mario. “U-Uh…” He looked at his phone, and back at Mario. “Y…Yeah…” Luigi muttered awkwardly. 

“Let me see.” Mario told him. 

Luigi handed Mario his phone, and watched as Mario read the message and the person’s response. Luigi felt a little bit bad for sending this message late that night. He was desperate at the time, and needed an outlet. But…Now Mario knows about it.  

Mario looked at Luigi. “Was it really that bad that you had to tell them about it?” Mario asked. 

Luigi looked down a little bit and nodded his head. “Y-Yeah…It was.” Luigi admitted. 

Mario chuckled and crossed his arms. “I wanna see how this one goes down.” Mario told him. 

Luigi widened his eyes. “Wait, really?!” He reacted. 

Mario shrugged his shoulders. “Yeah! Show me how you do ler moods online.” Mario told him. 

Luigi nodded. “Okay.” He opened the person’s profile, and clicked the button [Prompts OPEN! & No FNAF plz!!]. It brought up the profile name above the message area, with the words [Ask Anonymously] on the bottom of the message board with a switch to turn it on or off. Luigi turned it on, and clicked off the pop-up that showed up. Then, Luigi thought for a moment. Now what to write…He fiddled with a few things, before slowly coming up with a proper new message. 

[ (Weeg) 

Oh Pocket~

Heheh. *Looks at you evilly*] 

He clicked the [Ask] button before closing his phone. “Then I wait for Pocket to reply.” Luigi told him. “Why did you write that specific sentence in star keys?” Mario asked. 

“Words surrounded by a star key are supposed to be actions.” Luigi pulled up his brother’s contact on his phone. “For example: *hugs you*. *makes you a cup of tea*.” Luigi wrote out.

Mario pulled out his phone and chuckled. “Really?” He asked. 

“I needed a visual explanation.” Luigi admitted. 

Mario thought for a moment. “...*puts a bagel in the toaster*. *hits you with a cardboard roll*.” Mario said out loud. 

Luigi laughed as the messages came in. Luigi sent him something back. 

L: [*dropkicks you to the moon*] 

Mario wheezed and laughed at that one. “Dropkicks me- Luigi!” Mario reacted. 

“Whahat?! It’s funny!” Luigi reacted. 

Mario smirked and quickly typed something back. M: [*Tickles you*]

Luigi widened his eyes and blushed a bit. “Mario whyyyy…” Luigi whined. 

Mario bursted out laughing and elbowed his brother. “You started it.” Mario teased. 

“No I didn’t! You hit me with the cardboard roll first!” Luigi reacted. 

“So that means you’re allowed to dropkick me to the freaking moon?!” Mario asked. 

“Yes!” Luigi replied. 

Mario laughed. “You’re such a dork.” he teased. 

“I know, I know…” Luigi replied. “Oh! You know what’s another great one?” He asked suddenly. 

“What?” Mario asked. 

Luigi typed into his phone, while Mario pulled up his phone to read it. 

L: [*slaps you with a dictionary*]

Mario laughed and sent one back to him. 

M: [*whacks you with a bible*] 

Luigi bursted out in a long fit of cackles with a couple snorts mixed in. “Gohoho- Gohohood one, Mario.” Luigi reacted. 

Mario laughed as well before coming up with another. 

M: [*Turns you into Flat Stanley*] 

Luigi laughed and sent one back. 

L: [*slaps you with a plate of whipped cream*] 

Mario widened his eyes and giggled. “Wow…Pulling out the whipped cream now, are we?” Mario teased. 

Luigi nodded. “You bet.” 

Mario smiled and sent Luigi another action. 

M: [*Whacks you with a frying pan Rapunzel-style*] 

Luigi laughed. “Wooow!” Luigi reacted. 

“And a small reminder: That thing was a cast-iron skillet! Not only is she ridiculously strong, but Flynn Rider should be DEAD!” Mario reminded him. 

Luigi gasped. “I forgot about that…” Luigi muttered. “Okay, okay. One more.” He typed something into the messages, and sent it. 

L: [*Blows up a hospital Joker-style*] 

Mario laughed. “Have it fail for a moment? Then you turn around and wave your arms in confusion, only for it to explode and make you turn around again?” Mario joked. “Yes. Exactly that.” Luigi replied. 

Mario put on his beat joker impression. “Ya wanna know how I got these scars~?” Mario teased. 

Luigi laughed. “Yehehes!” He cheered. 

Mario continued to say every word of dialogue from that movie with almost perfect accuracy. Luigi listened to all of it, loving every second of it. By the end, Luigi was thoroughly impressed that Mario remembered that whole dialogue moment! It was…really cool, actually. It was one of the very things that made Mario an awesome brother. And no matter what happened, nothing would ever be able to change how cool he was. 

[10:46pm] 

“Hello, Super Mario Brothers? Oh, hello! Oh, that’s alright. Would you like to reschedule? Okay. We are free…”

[12:01am]

Luigi pulled the covers off himself, and walked up to Mario’s bed. He was holding his phone in his hand, visibly sad for an unknown reason. He held his phone close to himself, the phone screen still on. He wanted to reach out and touch his brother, but he feared scaring him awake. 

“Mario…” Luigi softly whispered. 

He waited a moment, hoping he would say something, or shift his body slightly. But, he was met with nothing. 

“Maaarioo?” Luigi called in a soft, sing-song voice. 

Mario shifted slightly. Seeing this, Luigi widened his eyes and gently touched his brother’s shoulder. “Maaariooo?” Luigi called. 

Mario groaned softly, slowly opening his eyes. “Hm?” He hummed, confused. 

“S-Sorry to wake you, b-but…” Luigi bit his lip, too tired and awkward in the moment. 

Mario sat up a bit and turned on the lamp. “What’s up?” He asked. 

“S-So…” Luigi sat himself down and showed Mario the post TrashySwitch had put up. 

Mario blinked a few times and adjusted his eyes to the message: 

[Dear Pocket, This is Nico from a friend's account, I'm writing to let you know my old account has been deleted, and this was because I didn't want to post on tumblr anymore, please take care and you were one of the greatest friends here on the platform, goodbye.

-Nico, Tickle Goddess] 

Mario widened his eyes slightly and looked up at Luigi. “You…you mentioned the name ‘Nico’ earlier…” Mario muttered. 

Luigi nodded his head, holding his arms close to himself. “The tumblr profile is gone…” 

Mario softened his expression. “Oh Lu…” He put down the phone and opened his arms. “Come here.” 

Luigi snuggled into his brother’s arms, letting Mario hold him. “I don’t have any other way to get in contact with them…” Luigi admitted. “They’re gone…” Luigi mumbled. 

Mario tightened his hug slightly. “Oh Lu…” Mario closed his eyes. “I don’t know much about them…but…” Mario rubbed his back. “But I can safely assume it’s like you lost a friend…” Mario said. 

Luigi squeezed his eyes shut with a few nods. 

Mario sighed and closed his eyes. “you’re allowed to be upset. Be upset for as long as you need.” He told his brother. 

Luigi let out a shaky breath. “Bye Nico…Please check in soon.” 

This fanfic is dedicated to one of my dearest Tumblr friends, Nico. Thank you so much for all the support and love you've provided me. I'll miss you so much...

[pathfinderswiftpen]

Re: Sharpe's Sword

Having read the book, I can see how the writers incorporated major aspects of it. But I have to say that Cornwell did it better.

Spoilers below

I enjoyed:

Simmerson's return from the villain vault and ambiguous end. Though making him an actual traitor felt too cliché. People can suck and still be loyal.

Weird death room and oddball who oversaw it inclusion from the book

How they adapted the Leroux to tv, even though it was very different. The subplot with Jack was So Good Ouch. And the way Sharpe handled the betrayal was so tactful. And the ACTING in that role! "El muchacho de los ojos tristes" goddamn. And his knowing Leroux and having to pretend ignorance for Honor's Sake? For his life's sake? Good Soup!

Harris. Harris. Spends all night reading. Looks surprised to see dawn. Small "oh shit oh well" face journey. Extinguishing candles. Big fucking same, Harris. I could make an entire post on how alike I feel (and look, fr fr) to Harris (Hey Harris I like your gender, wanna trade? I saw @chiropteracupola 's hc about transfem!Harris and now she lives rent free in my head. Riflewoman Harris can have 85% of my dresses and jewelry. And free access to all of my books of course) BUT ALSO Harris's handling of Simmerson and quoting Candide at him? *Chefs Kiss*

HAGMAN! "Permission to speak sir? Best paper and paraffin oil. For your wound, sir." Excellent callback to ep1. And his singing to all the little kids!

Harper <3 One of the best things in the book is how Harper made Sharpe a new sword, and while it was a bit different this way, he still put in Effort. Plus the priest's trick at the end was a bit funny. If cheap. Plus his face at "Good! You'll serve mass Sunday" (took me a hot second to figure it out but imagining Harper in one of those white robes was a bit amusing). Sharpe and Harper arguing about washing the tunics. LOL but also get over yourselves

Ramona standing up for herself! And Harper's caring about how she'd be treated in Ireland. I just love Ramona (Also one of the very few attractive people in the entire show. I said what I said.)

Unnamed Woman making Simmerson fear for his life and leading him by the literal nose! Goddamn! Weaponize the patronization and infantilization! Sharpe's respecting of her.

Artist dude drawing at dinner. Relate. also a red herring for El mirador, if downplayed

BAGPIPES BAGPIPES BAGPIPES but also dude you have a practice chanter for a fucking reason. The guy with earplugs 🤣

Leroux pulling a Stephen Maturin. His actor did well too, the Complete Switch in pretending to be a Poor Captain vs Defiant Colonel

DUELS!! It was fun watching Fr Whatshisface rip Simmerson to shreds. Also I want to (ohgod I'm aware how this can sound) handle his blade. Spanish fencing swords mwah. Also Sharpe and Leroux visibly getting less abled, Sharpe having to stop in the middle of the charge *hugs* as a disabled person who loves a good charge and fight but just Can't or if I do I nap and feel like shit for hours

Disliked:

Portrayal of women. I don't need to get into it. There's So Much.

Watching duels choreographed for a screen is really painful as a former fencer. "You are both WAY TOO FUCKING CLOSE!! Don't parry that, DISENGAGE!"

I'll be silly and mention the chartreuse jackets XD (I just don't like them)

SO MUCH of the book was ANGST about Sharpe's condition and it did exist here but not as viscerally. Give me Harper as a nursemaid. I'm begging you. I know we've had it but I want more. "There once was a lassie from Lisbon, from Lisbon..."

There was more but life's too short!

Overall I think this one is in the rewatch pile.

P.S. the Priest's singing. My poor ears. Though Sharpe's Tears (ha-ha) I did love that bit.

If you read this far, I am shaking you by the hand and offering to share my tea.

[mrhowells]

Smallville 4x04

There's no way he didn't time that, my dude was deadass waiting at his locker until she walked past so he could annoy her😭😭

AND to show off his jacket, that's adorable🥹

hehehehehe

(Their progression is just so---, from this to "I would love to hear about it." POETIC CINEMA😭)

Clark showing his jacket to everyone stoppppp🥹🥹 Somebody tell him it looks good please

Lex I think you should find a less weird way to make amends, no offense👀 Yeaaahhhh I knew that would be Clark's reaction😬

Let the madness begin

"I finally understand why it never worked with Clark." ohgod "I wasn't devoted to him." OHGOD

Nothing was going to stop Lois from writing that article after they provoked her like that, she's coming for their asses

"Just got my headline." SEEEE (also Lois you're so cool date me pls)

I'm not ready for the next scene

Clark wants to unexist so bad right now😭

LMAOOOOOO Clark I'm so sorry💀💀

"The problem is, I'm not over Lana yet. Sometimes I think I never will be."

I know something that you don't😌😏

"Oh sweetheart. There's somebody out there for you. I know it."

QUEEN MARTHA & I KNOW SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T

I love that Clark is going to her for advice about this stuff😭😭

Lana got like 10 times more adorable this season wtf😭

Clark thinking she came to watch him practice, I hate to tell you this but she's dating your coach bestie💀💀

this is peak comedy actually I'm cackling PLEASEEEE

I'm really feeling Clark's pain this episode for some reason

Clark and Lois teaming up is the content I love and deserve😌😌

no because if she looked at me like that I'd be on one fucking knee immediately LOIS CHILL😭

I'm squealing omg look at themmmmm

I just love the way he says her name don't ask me why

plskasjsks they're comedians

she's so adorable I can't😭😭

Lois being super grossed out, same bestie, same💀

WHY ARE THEY SO FUNNY I'M SCREAMING

Clark I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I really am💀 The way he immediately runs to hide behind Chloe and Lois💀💀💀

"She was attacked by a crazy plumber." The way Clark just moves on from that statement LMAOOOO

"Oh, nice, Clark. You know you only have one thing to do." "Me? You're closer to the door." "Okay, so it's automatically my fault?"

full on married to each other years before they even start dating🤡🤡

His face journeys when she drags him are everything😌

"When you were in the loft, you told me to stay away from your girl. Who were you talking about?"

they know my weakness, they know it so well😭😭

I'm so glad Clark and Chloe are being upfront about how they feel

"But don't worry, I'll visit." "Is that a promise or a threat?" *short pause for eye sex* *shoulder punch to defuse the tension* "See you around, Smallville"

their episode endings are the best bc I'm just smiling like an idiot (trying not to think about the fact that she won't be there for the next 4 episodes or sth😭)

[aannonn]

A lil' thingy

My second post in here.... After literal years xD (technically this would be my third post in here, but since that post is still on draft and never published, then lets just take this one as my second post lol) First things first- [★] I am a writter! '''(Fanfic writter) [★] [★] Will probably do some colorings and show u guys here '''(I don't really know how to do colorings but uh-- Perfection takes practice, right?) [★] [★] Chibi Drawings '''(Once again, I don't know how to draw, but I know how to draw some chibi(? more like square xD) drawings; I can probably show you guys some of my drawings that I made on paper lol) [★] [★] Theories! (I love making theories, even if it's about the most random and irrelevant thing lmao + I especially love making FNaF theories!) [★] [★] Analytics! (I'm really not very good at analyzing things, but I would really love to make a whole analytic post about a character or an story or something like that! Feel free to correct me or to add your own personal thoughts, though!) [★] [★] Respect! (Please be respectful. If you disagree with me on something, then feel free to say your own thoughts about it and maybe even tell me why. However, if you just decide to insult me because of my own personal thought, my own personal view, then do not expect me to even read your message. + Same thing with criticism! If you want to criticize me for something, be it my drawings, my opinion, my analysis, my coloring, etc; So go for it. I will always be open to criticism unless I say I am not. However, If you're going to be rude about it, then don't be surprised if I just ignore your "criticism". Being respectful and open-minded is the key.) [★]

[★] Ships! (I am a multishipper, and I really love to think + write about scenarios with my favorite ships, duos, platonic relationships, etc; Please be respectful if I end up writting for a ship that you may not like. + I do not accept requests asking me to write for romantic pairings. Please do not send me requests about romantic pairings. + You can send me requests about platonic pairings, though! I really love the platonic in relationships!) Alright, now that it's all settled.. Second things now! [❤] Fandoms I am in! (That I may or may not write fic for; Still deciding lol) Jibaku Shounen Hanako Kun (Both Manga and Anime) Mahou Shoujo Site (Anime Only) The Promised NeverLand (Anime Only) Boku no Hero Academia (Anime + The First 4 Seasons Only) Team Fortress 2 (Game + I'm Still Catching Up With The Official Comics) Undertale (Game) OMORI (Game) + (I've Only Played The Sunny Route.. lol) Star vs The Forces Of Evil (Series) Five Nights At Freddy's (Games + Some books) [❤] [❤] Type Of Fics That I Will Write For! Fluff Angsty Wholesome Platonic Romantic Love Triangles Poly Relationships Canon Divergence Alternative Universe SFW [❤] [X] Types Of Fics That I WON'T Write For! NSFW Immortal/Illegal Ships XReader '''(I'm really sorry but- I really dislike the idea of ​​shipping myself with fictional characters- I can try one day, but not right now.) Villainizing A Canonly Good Character '''(Like- You know how people used to villainize Uraraka all the time when she's actually really sweet and kind in canon? So yeah, I really hate when people do that. Just a personal opinion of mine about this kind of thing lol) [X] Aaaand- I think that's basically it? lol Will probably add more or maybe remove others as time went by and I may change my opinion and etc lol For now, It is what it is [lil' edit; hELP I THOUGHT I HAD LOST THIS POST FOREVER BECAUSE IM STILL NEW TO TUMBLR AND SINCE I COULDN'T FIND MY DRAFT THAT IS WHERE I HAD SAVED THIS POST I THOUGHT I HAD LOST THIS POST FOREVER LMAO I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME WRITTING THIS OHGOD] Have a Good Day <3 Have a Good Morning <3 Have a Good Afternoon <3 Have a Good Night! <3

[xoteajays]

4 + 24 for rare pair karube and niragi bc i was going through your posts and saw you shipped them and now i’m curious! -bibaybe

ohgod sorry this is so late, i had it saved in my writing app and forgot about it! [ meme ]

Karube had never given much thought to his soulmate, or even his soul mark for that matter. Laid out across his collarbone, it was easy enough to hide. Annoyingly that meant anybody he hooked up with would end up seeing it. It had killed the mood on more than one occasion.

In this weird game world, it’s the last thing he’s thinking of. So when he cracks a fist into the face of some ‘militant’ douche his first night at the Beach, he bristles against the searing feeling over his collar when their skin connects. He’s deaf to whatever happens next, distracted and massaging his palm into his burning collarbone.

The militant - Niragi - scowls at him, wiping at his bloody nose. He rolls his shoulders back, seemingly uncomfortable, his dark eyes still narrowed as he watches Aguni talk to his new found rival.

Karube feels numb, he doesn’t even hear what Aguni’s saying, doesn’t even know what he agrees to. He just nods and grits his teeth and hopes it's over soon.

It’d be easier to just avoid Niragi. They clearly clashed. And yet, that white-hot feeling in his soul mark drags him like being drawn on a string - or like a rope tied around his waist, dragging him kicking and screaming towards the bastard.

He has to see for himself, to know for sure - even if the thought makes his stomach twist up.

It’s not that complicated to catch Niragi alone. People avoid the guy when they see him coming, sauntering along with that stupid gun posed up on his shoulder. Karube lays in waiting, body tense, fingers flexing at his side. It’s easy enough to grab Niragi, roughly dragging him outside. Nobody ever seemed to go out that way, the lights were even dim and flickering intermittently.

Niragi’s arms flail, he almost drops his gun in the process of being shoved outside. Karube wretches his hands away like Niragi’s burned him - and it feels like he has. Niragi whips around to look at him.

“What the fuck is your deal?” He growls. Karube glowers back, ignores his question in favour of grabbing the fabric of Niragi’s shirt, yanking at it hard enough to tear the first few buttons off. They drop to the ground with soft tinks. Niragi drops his gun to grab at Karube’s wrist. “What are you doing?”

Karube’s teeth grit, his jaw painfully clenched, still silent. He pulls the fabric aside, revealing Niragi’s thin pale collarbone and finding exactly what Karube didn’t want to see: the mark. One that matched Karube’s perfectly.

Niragi's mouth is in a snarl, pulling his shirt back into place over the exposed mark.

“What the fuck?” he repeats. Karube's hands drag through his blonde hair, scratching along his skull.

Finally, he twists back around to face Niragi, yanking on the collar of his shirt to reveal his own mark. Niragi stares, silent for once, no snarky remark falling from his lips.

“Let's not make a thing out of this,” Karube snaps sharply, release the stretched neck of his shirt, “And stay the fuck away from me.”

Turning heel, he starts back into the hotel, his broad shoulders tense and hunched.

“As if I'd want to be around you anyway!” Niragi shouts after him, but it doesn't hit the same, his attempted sharp tone falling flat as Karube storms off without any response to show that he'd heard him at all.

Niragi stays in the garden a while longer, breathing deep and working his jaw, grinding his teeth. The mark etched in his chest is still searingly hot despite the cool night air.

[nochi-quinn]

legend of vox machina watch party episodes 7-9: kareawkward

EPISODE 7

ohGOD my headset clicked on just as they started yelling

they all spontaneously forget how to introduce themselves

"I play Pike! and that's it"

PLEASE HOLD THE WATCH PARTY ISN'T WORKING BC IT THINKS I'M IN A DIFFERENT REGION

jasper the fluff bunny luck dragon!

dagon ;-;

dagon was a conure

matt and marisha are going to kill you both

Please Forgive Me Percy

"think good thoughts. don't make eye contact."

"I have WONDERFUL sketches" "you also have many strange skills."

"I don't want to"

grog strongjaw: kind of a crackhead

Legend of Vox Machina: Put Down Cursed Weapons

cursed weapons: not even once

"FUCK THAT ROCK"

hey kurama check it out I'm a blood fountain

(I have resisted making that joke three times now, I am only so strong)

"if you wanna flirt with someone, stop being mean to her friends"

right, taliesin, a friend

keto grog

"what a DING-DONG"

"I fought for that butthole"

YES they also made me think of Stray

"how often are you gonna see a bear and a jackalope team up?"

"did they complain a lot about it, is what I'm asking"

and then cheech marin happens

"we've all been there before" "allegedy!"

augh tal's mic picking up his drinking noises

two emo boys being emo

"no, I'm alone" "no, I AM"

Dragon Zoom

"dad went out for a gold hoard"

I need the "bleh" noise from naruto abridged put over grog there

"she did [the reverb] herself, just with her voice"

flashbacks to early c1 when laura had to leave early for an audition and sam was making fun of her for where it was

"isn't this fun, watching tv with my frien - oh shit I have a job"

oh, fearne is on sam's shirt

travis how does the lavalier jabbing you in the neck like that not bother you. it's bothering me second-hand

"these are things people have told me about tripping out"

no I hate this

I'm so glad they didn't do this sdlkfjsl

bury it in the new mexico desert

"maybe we'll use it in the future!" "no, no I don't think we will"

I stepped away but I had my headset on so I got to hear "daddy garmelie" and I don't like it

The Nipples Are Implied

Bondage Keyleth

"vax in the knot" is an entirely different part of the fandom

ONE HUNDRED PERCENT thought she was gonna say "hey taliesin speaking of penises"

I was gonna say, taliesin that's you, you're the nerd who went to japan

The Criticalrole

"that's so much worse than in my head, I wanna do it again"

"see….seven characters is a lot to draw"

animators: pls kill someone

the little drama play that just went on in the back row

mica is gonna bully them into singing again

he's definitely never heard that one before

EPISODE 8

look I know he's friends with like two thirds of the cast but also: why

this entire operation is a shambles

oh I stand corrected, that's NOT sam. iphone brandon auman (?) sounds very much like sam

did this man just use "exotic" to describe a human person

edit from the future: a NIGERIAN human person, x2 Please Leave

lmao owlbear is still copyrighted

the fonz!

I also deeply enjoyed the backlight

"she's got issues! you got issues!"

mica saying all the shit I said in my liveblog like eight hours ago

a minor crisis happened in my house but honestly fuck it, I have not been enjoying any of this

imagine: we could have had liam in this watch party

"the scream I scrumpt" s a m e

I appreciate those leaf wipe transitions so much more now

troy baker also did not realize how long it takes to get to the cast, it gets me every time

no no let him leave

"we! are! professionals!"

that! that! that thing I said! god thank you for validating me cast of legend of vox machina

(check my individual episode liveblogs, true believers!)

"how much bernie sanders do we want?"

"EVERYONE in the trickfoot family" he said pointedly into the camera

"thanks for making everything feel worse" truer words

I love all of those

Phantom String

taliesin just casually creating character and world lore mid-game it's fine

EPISODE 9

oh thank god he's gone

matt's not here to sing with the intro, everybody else has to

PALETTE cleanser

I saw chris in the credits, did NOT catch him here

I am upset with myself

grog is canonically a swiftie

"vox machina muppet babies" PRINT IT

oh THAT'S what that was, I thought I was just not remembering something from campaign 1

SHE

Cute Cat Babies

kittenari

"everyone was fantastic this season" as opposed to last season

grgreagrandfather

I'm crying againnnn

animators cried over goop monster, confirmed

cries in digital artist

if a dragon wore pants how would he wear them

"if your skin peels back when you hear it, it's taliesin"

Evil Falcor

"DOES JET FUEL MELT STEEL BEAMS"

does dragon acid melt metal hands

"horrible father" "I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT, LAURA"

"there were so many pigs!" "and now they're bacon"

I have appreciated all of the animation so much this season, the color and the light and the aaahhhh

I like pike's little turn on "wwwwhat do you mean"

someone confirm if the guy in the back is supposed to be pipsqueak from atla

"the saddest cannonball"

the toothpick barricades!!

oh shit that's right the last episodes are in like two days

"using blender" the overwatch porn program?

I have something bouncing around my head about how pike and wilhand let grog learn how to be silly but I haven't been able to words it

sketchy pike and groooog

sketchy grog's little hip jut

it's me I'm questions

"because it's cute" is a completely valid answer

I think I commented on matt's jaw dislocating in my original liveblog lmao

"is this gonna kill the animators??"

Grog For Scale

OH WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED THE BEAR TATTOO

…and what happened to the bear tattoo

I feel like sam needs a nap

like mood but also someone let this man sleep

oh no he broke arthur

mica's leaving. mica's just gonna walk out.

all the herdspeople wear collars to hide where the neck seam meets the body

"just say yes"

The Button Arc

wasn't that a veth thing

ashley trying desperately to keep up with sam

"I don't know what I just saw, it doesn't make much sense"

oh good lord

I've said this before but if I would love to hear Sam sing without being a goober

dflksdjfslk

laura breaks IMMEDIATELY

and made NO attempt to try to bring it back

"that's as close to top gun as life is ever gonna get"

"why am I getting southern. you guys have tainted me."

ooh, phil bourassa! there were ostensibly other names in there, I was just typing and didn't hear them.

[scyphosunny]

vargastober day 6 ! posted ( partially ) on time . what about it . . .

when i got ideas nice and set for the rest of the prompts i knew for a fact it was likely for me to skip days 4 and 5 . mostly because i didn't have any ideas .

though , i did find a piece that worked for denial ! everyone thinks about edgar being gay every time denial is mentioned , which of course is funny and great but i had something else in mind XP there's a lot of denial in the whole story . so i definitely could work with something !

well , i skip day 4 and i was ready to work on day five on saturday .

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤbut ! there was a little detail . i had a birthday party on saturday ! all of my highschool best friends would be there , and i wouldn't miss it for anything !!!!!! i miss my friends . i really do . so , once i finished with day three's piece , i told myself i'd work on denial right after taking a short break , so i could just have it nice and ready to post on saturday , like i did with the first piece i posted .

the thing is ! taking short breaks never works with me ! i don't really remember what happened on friday . . . but i probably watched code lyoko with my sister and then got distracted with literally anything else .

it was 2AM probably , and i decided to start working on it . while the composition wasn't even hard to work with , ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤI STRUGGLE DRAWING 90% OF THE THINGS EXISTENT so i didn't get a sketch i liked :[

not gonna lie , i didn't feel like drawing that day . and knowing myself , pushing myself to draw more than one piece a day never works . i don't have a lot of energy to draw most of the time . at the end of the day , i decided to save the canvas and go to sleep once and for all .

ANNOYING , I COULDN'T EVEN GET A GOODNIGHT TWEET FOR HAWKER !!!!!

woke up the next day , went to my birthday party , had a lot of fun ! danced just dance until i couldn't anymore . won most of the rounds , as usual ! B3 the whole thing about that party was huge for me because that was the party that started my constant suffering last year ! ( ?? ) i remember getting invited to a party on october 2023 , dancing my ass in just dance , going home , working on a small piece for day 1 , and getting sick the next day . had to stay home for a week , then EVERYTHING STARTS HAPPENING AND ohgod

i will NEVER stop talking about october 2023 guys . TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE !

this time , though , i didn't get sick ! ( everyone cheers ) just sore . i might have danced popipo too hard .

i didn't want to miss the day man , so i tried to work with yesterday's sketch and idk , maybe putting some color in it would save it . it usually does .

so i tried and man uh i don't know , i tried to use the sketch as the line and didn't work , it would probably have been better if i used another brush or something , i did re-do edgar's face ! added a bunch of things to try and make it look better , but since i didn't even like the sketch in the first place i wasn't even REALLY trying to fix it . it's like my brain was like " hey you know this isn't going to work , why do you keep adding stuff to it " and meanwhile i was half asleep adding weird colors and random details . i would've tried harder or something but i remember being super sleepy . i would close my eyes for a second , then open them and not remember what i was doing or realized i moved random layers around while i had my eyes closed . IT WAS KINDA FUNNY BUT ALSO KINDA SCARY , i get sleepy while drawing often but not enough for me to actually doze off while sitting .

ngl , maybe if i tried to push myself through while i wasn't sleepy and actually gave myself the time to draw lineart with another brush , mmmaybe , mmmmmmmmmmmaybee ????? i don't know

wake up on day 6 and i didn't want to salvage day five's piece . wwwwhatever , i want to post at least one , ONE ( 1 ) piece on time , please . i usually try to wake up at ten to get everything done and work on these on the afternoon instead of at 3:999999AM for some reason , but it was sunday ! and on sundays my mom goes and buys food to have for breakfast . well she takes a while and we end up having breakfast at 2PM . i didn't want to wait , so i got back to sleep and woke up after 12:30PM .

this was the piece ! hmm . . . looking back at it , DOESN'T EVEN LOOK THAT BAD , WHAT . oh wait , it's probably just the saturation on my pc's screen making it look better . ah , well .

this what i see . SOME NICE SATURATED COLORS MAKE EVERY PIECE 10000X BETTER !!!!!!!

well , woke up pretty late and i spent an eternity roleplaying with my jake character.ai bot , so i didn't start working on the piece until evening . ugh WASTING TIME AS ALWAYS !!!!

i didn't write any notes for fear , ugh . let's see . . .

first of all ! i did this thing to get my ideas organized . i still need to sit down and work on it , get references for every prompt , mark the days i won't be home , mark the ones i'm most likely to skip . . .

i was so excited for butterfly , man . i got the hardest reference ever and honestly my brain was just waiting for me to finish fear and work with butterfly instead . TIME TO FORCE MYSELF TO DO STUFF ONCE AGAIN

( oh well , i did some research to find the original artists of these pieces . the first one seems to be made by @.tech_280 , but i couldn't find their account anywhere ! maybe they changed their username or deleted the account , who knows . . . that and i couldn't find the artist of the second piece . if someone knows , please let me know . . . )

these were the main references i had in mind ! something pixel-ly and saturated . nothing too deep . . . i was thinking . maybe something based on chapter 23 ? the one where nny kills jimmy right in front of edgar and edgar doesn't take it well . i decided to re-read part of the chapter to get a clearer pic of what i wanted to work with , and oh god poor MAN . everything just happened in seconds , and he didn't even have time to process it before he had to go back and talk to johnny . i feel sorry for him

lol it's funny that you could mention any vargas event and i will go and say the exact chapter where it happened . idk , and acquired ability it seems

TIME TO WORK ON THE PIECE ! i started with a small , ugly sketch . i don't like drawing faces facing front . ugh

i trimmed it just enough for it not to look like shit . i'm so bad at expressions , gah . he had his glasses initially , but they didn't look right for some reason . still , i don't think he had his glasses on during this scene . sssoo bye bye glasses . hmm , looking back at it ! i didn't draw the tears on the final version ! ah , well . he didn't cry until he had to puke . god , poor guy

lol here's a screenshot i took yesterday , i drew a hand for him and i didn't remember i had the symmetry ruler on , so now it looks like w . d . gaster is behind him or something

then , time to draw the line ! i knew since the start i wanted to use a binary brush . binary brushes are always fun to work with ! last time i made a drawing using a binary brush , i had to go back to sai2 because i didn't know if csp already had binary brushes . told brusk about it and she found some for me !

still , i didn't like them :// they had this annoying thing where . . . uh , i don't know how to describe it . here have a gif

idk what that's called but i didn't like it . also , they had pressure . i know for a fact that i could just go and move some stuff in the settings for it to look better but i wasn't feeling like it ( and idk how to do it either i am stupid i'm sorry .

alright , back to sai2 it seems ! i enjoy working with sai2 . takes me back to the old days ( ?? ) i dislike the lack of a liquify tool , though . . . so useful !! literally my best friend on csp . mi más real .

lol for some reason i thought it didn't look BINARY ENOUGH so i was so close to do the whole thing in MSPAINT like srs but mspaint doesn't have layers and i need layers to work on something . my pieces usually have between 50 to 300 layers depending on how elaborate the piece and the coloring are . . .

went for sai2 though . of course . i liked it better than the sketch already , which was a relief . . . I DIDN'T WANT TO FAIL AGAIN

details like the freckles and the nose were hard to get right . . . they're usually low opacity or blurry and i couldn't really do that with a binary brush . . . so the freckles are just sitting on his face awkwardly lol

for the background i just scribbled it like that one basil pic i took as a reference . as you can see , the sketch originally had some harsh shadows on the side of edgar's face . the version i exported first had these shadows but i removed them because they kinda looked like bangs ?? my boy had a whole emo fringe if you squinted hard enough . it looks good in the sketch but didn't like it on the actual thing .

i had to export and go back to the file to add details like , four times ! removing some shadows , the slash on his neck from when jimmy tried to stab him but he dodged , adding more scribbles , making a white outline , adding blood on his face . . . .

then i got the pic on csp just to add some gradients , and i brusk mentioned that it would be cool if i added screentones for the shadows !! and i was like oh my GOD you're right . i forgot screentones even EXISTED what the fuck . so , added some screentones too .

ooh , and i wanted to do that thing zarla used to do a loooong ago of adding a bunch of text on her drawings !

this one , for example . . . i wanted to take a screenshot of her whole devart page but idk what tumblr thinks of gore so

so i tried ! i got some dialogues of chapter 23 , this part right after mmy gets killed and scri is trying to get edgar to TALK TO HIM or do something idk

i got all the text , then added it to the piece ! i didn't know if i liked it , to be honest . . . i just chose the font i use for everything right now but i didn't know if i wanted to use their actual fonts for it . meh , i left it as it was . . .

then , i added some chromatic aberration and it was ready !

og ver + something i edited like half an hour ago

took four hours ! which is a short time for me . i like the result , though i'm kinda worried people might not like my art anymore thanks to the lack of warm colors and stuff but HEY THESE PROMPTS ARE MAINLY HORROR THEMED OKAY WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ???????????

nyne said it gave the vibes my computer gave old , it seems

( excuse to show how my pc looks . MY CSP SHORTCUT EVAPORATED WHILE I WAS WRITING THIS and i had it with the cl icon and everything :CCC

( don't ask about tomato way please

russlan said it looked like if hawker tried to draw in my style . i do see it lulz

and , hawker made a really interesting comment about it !

if you think about it , you can't actually read if the words there say " i couldn't save him " OOOORRR " i SHOULDN'T save him " , and if you think about it that way it just makes the whole thing so much more interesting . edgar knows that mmy is a piece of shit and he kind of DESERVES TO DIE . but he doesn't want to let another person die thanks to his inaction , so he wants to save him even if he KNOWS HE SHOULDN'T . it could also be both edgar and scriabin's thoughts ! edgar wants to save him , while scriabin knows that he shouldn't . hawkie was so excited by this thing and it was kinda cute lol . this is where i pretend that this was always the intention of it oohh yyyess i definitely thought of that myself yyes y

i woke up earlier to write this entry since i spent the night watching tiktoks and didn't write a thing lol , i spent so long with this one because i kept getting distracted . agh

i should work on today's prompt now ! i have a huge idea for this one but it's uh kinda similiar to what i drew for fear . so now i'm actually wondering if i should search for another reference because i don't want to keep doing the same things . GAH I ADDED THIS PROMPT LITERALLY JUST AS A TREAT FOR MYSELF , WHERE ARE ALL OF MY DIARYVERSE IDEAS . CAN I GET THEM BACK

that should be all ! hopefully i'll have a pretty piece to post at night . X33

[soft-toyfriend]

What is your FAVORITE thing that makes you embarrassed to admit to

oh fucking christ you’re coming in hard straight away huh ! ummmm so many ngl I still get so shy 😭

probably the plushification, especially when combined with um… other kinks. it feels so much more casual to tell someone ur into being murdered or violently torturing someone than it is to say oh yea I’m a sweet little stuffed toy pet lmaoooo

that and forced littleness and petplay, having “big” privileges being taken away and being made to go into that headspace (with reassurance that it’s not going to be taken away or become a problem or held against me) ESPECIALLY when mixed with kidnapping and abduction and manipulation stuff, I’m gonna put this under a cut cuz I rambled lmaooo fuck

things like not being allowed to do things myself because I’m too little / just a pet, picking outfits and dressing me, sweetly talking down to me and correcting things I say, doing things like only letting me use kids cutlery partly so I can’t stab them either at first and generally dumbing me down so deep into subspace so I’m forced to ask and rely on them for help, needing to ask to use the bathroom (unless they’ve decided thats a big privilege too, pets only go outside / use training pads or telling me that I don’t need to go yet until I can’t hold it or if they’ve decided I’m too little and need to use diapers or pull-ups and my accident was proof of that and well I’m so little of course they need to change me ohgod um) uH god especially being made to admit the things I want, things I’ve always longed for but would never necessarily allow myself and having that be treated as gifts. being spoiled and having my excitement and gratitude and happiness, and in turn obedience and love, be their reward

also forced cuddles and enforced “nap time” / resting in my little cage decorated all cozy and cute 🥺 especially if that cage started out just basic and harsh with just a pillow and my blanket and stuffies brought from home, being told that you know I’ll love it over time and I earn things like getting to decorate it and getting a proper pet bed and with time getting to decorate my whole room by being good and obedient and brainwashing me deeper until I really do love it and love everything you do for me and how right you were that the world can be so scary sometimes but you help me so much and everything is so much safer when I let you look after me

anyway uh anyone else like fucken. oviposition or whatever. something normal.

[brittlebonesguy]

time for season 8

NOOOO!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! lex is BACK???????? what, to haunt me? i thought i wouldnever see him again. and fucking TOM>??sexist, pervert tom? this has ruined my day. at least i know thisis the season boston rob meets his wife (amber) so that'll be fun at least. but i have a feeling this season is a stinker. ohgod and that "i'll do anything for you just to look at me" rob from the amazon season. kill me. "no body trusts anybody" boston rob says with his soon to be wife standing 2 feet away. i'm really only rooting for rupert. maybe amber, we'll see. sue you're gonna get brain parasites please. alicia is so right though, its day two who made amber and rob be in charge, richard is obnoxious shii ann say it louder! i want a season long combat between shii ann and richard, that would be funny. colby's face dropping the moment he sees jerri lol. he knows shes gonna hit on him again come merge. bye tina! sad it was you and not ethan

colby.....what does him being gay have to do with it. oh big tom how i loathe you. i actually don't want rudy voted out thanks. damn. okay bye old man. now that shii ann isnt surrounded by the worst filth possible i am liking her more. richard is crazy what was that? biting a shark back? i don't even care if sue is annoying. an enemy of tom is a friend of mine. sue, you are the love of my life. never leave. amazon rob really is just so pathetic. ah yes the classic jerri fight where she says the other person is controlling while also being controlling. she makes points but girl please. yes shii ann colby and lex are incredibly sexist and honestly please never speak to them again.

jenna we're doing this again? why did you come back. this whole thing of her leaving is so dramatic. of course tom would think that amazon rob is smarter than alicia... come on......NO ONE wants tom out? be serious. anyway bye amazon rob

this is colby's worst nightmare: jerri getting put on the same tribe as him. richard being naked on the balance beam think was.....definitely something and definitely gross. fuck YES boston rob winning against the show off with colby. jokes on you robby, i never though colby was tough. i agree that richard should go, however i feel like colby's motivation is homophobic, so actually i think he should stay. yes jerri, reject that alliance/vote. i love this shii ann and kathy alliance. FUCK YES bring jerry in the mix. richard, shii ann, kathy, and jerri? never thought i'd say this but dream alliance right there. kathy.....kathy please....don't ruin this for me. BOOOOOOOOO!!!!! i still have to deal with COLBY????? fuck you guys for getting my hopes up

yeah obviously doing a blinsdside would result in upset feelings kathy but sometimes you need to do them anyway. annoying. who gives a FUCK about LEX???? i forgot about how bug boston rob's ego is. i want shii ann to have a villian arc, and her origin story was colby making a snide comment at her. for sue's sake im glad richards gone because it was really fucked up. the victim blaming that happens with this show is crazy. i'm glad alicia is on her side. yeah im sure you're not sitting back because you suck or anything, ethan. lex they girls already had no compulsion to keep ethan and colby around, please stop patting yourself on the back. everyone being too callous about the whole situation is crazy. i agee with jenna in the splitting of the food. i take back everything i said, fuck kathy. its just the amount of "oh i know the guy and he would NEVER" blah blah.... and im sorry if something violates and humiliates you that much, then sometimes emotions come out, kathy. and its not pretty because its not suppose to be.

idk the jerri hate isn't sitting right with me... oh yay kathy got chosen to be safe...joy🙄. ethan's "some of us are heros and some of us are goats...and i'm a goat" has a completely different meaning now. colby not be annoying challenge failed. the way every cell, fiber, sinew, ligament, joint, nerve, and bone in my body LOATHES tom...if i have to see one more quirky music scene of him acting like a fucking idiot im beating jeff probst with my bare hands. actually lex there was an opportunity to get colby out last tribal, but that was jerri's idea so obvi we'll pretend that didn't happen because a woman came up with the idea. i love how petty jerri is. and yeah shii ann really should set aside her hatred for jerri and get out colby, which she won't because why would she make a move ever. she always talks about doing it but in the end she's just a floater. ethan is so dramatic no one gives a shit. "im sorry jerri to speak for you" "yeah please don't" that...is so funny. THE EVIL IS DEFEATED!!! fuck off colby NEVER come back. thank you shii ann, i take back what i said before and i hope you kick ass the rest of the season. also in defense of jerri, i have actually come around on her. she was right about the jerky, she was right about getting colby out. shes just RIGHT, not the most likable and a little annoying, but men get away with that shit all the time. case in point: ethan.

the men on the other tribe being so mad every time they lose to boston rob is so funny. idk....people making fun of rupert makes me sad. rupert's opinions about boston rob are so correct. i agree. serves boston rob right to miss horribly at the challenge. jerri don't feel too bad no one would have made those shots anyway. sometimes ethan is just so serial killer, i can see why him and lex are friends. why do the women of survivor always do this. they just trust mean implicitly. it makes no sense. "i just trust him, i don't know how to explain it" 🙄 bye ethan!! dont come back. i'm really liking shii ann as well. she's setting aside her personal opinions and seeing the bigger picture, which a lot of players don't do.

the ghandia slide of that book thing......distasteful. and now lex wolf whistling about a woman he doesn't even know. okay i know amber wins this season so im interested to see how she makes it out of this. because no way lex is like oh for sure rob i'll save your gf for a MAYBE alliance. again with this jerri hate. why can't we just vote out lex? i'm also SO SICK of lex being "in charge" and then telling people that thye're being voted out instead of just doing a blind side like hes the godfather or smth. i'll miss you jerri. why on earth does everyone think boston rob will keep his word? he literally doesn't. .......i hate tom. it's always rupert and the girlies. he refuses to play survivor unless he's got two women by his side. i wish men weren't the way they are tho.

exactly lex of course rob was gonna go back on his word. kathy......wtf. don't do that idiot. HA. thanks kathyyyyy. THE OTHER EVIL HAS BEEN DEFEATED!!!! as much as i hate him, i think lex is gonna make a funny juror.

god YES please get out big tom. ......cool rob is safe...😒 that foot shot of alicia was FOUL like back the fuck up. danm kath, i wish that worked out. shii ann is definitely going next. pagonging in an all stars season is so weak. please stir it up shii ann. i hope she gets immunity because.....its getting less interesting. when its just a majority alliance taking over and then going cannibal. i hope this challenge is a wake up call for alicia. and also i relate to her. i too would be emotional. jenna.....is annoying me. oh what a shock you're gonan give shii ann the bowl of rice, as if i didn't call that. rob is also really getting on my nerves. oh? only shii ann is obnoxious jenna? just herno one else here? miss oh im soooooo sorry alicia let me hug you even though we aren't friends and you don't want to be touched or talked to. alicia.....please just betray rob. fuck YES! shii ann got her first immunity. serves the tribe right for ousting her the way they are. its so rude. and the fact that not a single person will talk to her about game play at all is strange and telling. even though straying away from rob and aligning with shii ann is the better option for literally everyone but amber. "don't get too cocky sweetheart." honestly all of you can go fuck yourselves. 👆🏻you've been telling shii ann for days that shes leaving the first chance you guys get and are shocked when she doesn't really like you guys and tries like hell to win immunity, which everyone said "i'd be SHOCKED if she won that" assholes. she was gloating, alicia, because you guys say that she can't win anything and also SHE WAS GOING HOME TONIGHT. like....use your fucking brain. wow very original getting rid of alicia. can rob just leave already.

rupert didn't care about you not catching to fish jenna, he's upset because no one helped him gut and clean them, which all 120lbs of you could have handled. i will miss you shii ann. truly. and the truck curse still prevails. i......do not know how amber wins. and rob wins again 🙄. this game play.. consider me....bored. YYYYYYEEEEEESSSSSS!!!!!! the final evil has been defeated. go fuck yourself tom if you EVER come back im personally castrating jeff probst.

jenna saying that she's taking fate into her hands by voting out rupert so they don't go to rocks when her literal only two options are vote the way shes being told or go to rocks. ........ i dislike you. oh rupert i wish you had won that immunity 🫤. jenna acting like she's gonna go to rocks....like we all know you're gonna write ruperts name and go to final three (which is as far as you'll go btw). thanks for nothing jenna. no closer to a million than if you actually let it up to chance. and the final immunity goes to rob😐. this romance is so barf. kathy.....that was brutal. i hope rob feels awful after that. "since you're so interchangeable" jenna pleasekjadkjasnkjsbf. tom just sounds fucking drunk all the time. they were absolutely ruthless. rob and amber look SO upset about it too.

cbs is just letting their star host hang out of a helicopter with harness? bold. rob dominated jeff 🤨. okay then. congrats amber! i don't care for your husband. the "you suck" in the audience while lex was talking was me actually. the booing for jerri is a little much jesus. and yet colby gets nothing but cheers? i know sexism when i see it. no seriously lex is being the biggest hypocrite there is. assholes. all the booing made jerri leave. justice for my girl. JENNA AND ETHAN??? girl.....say sike. youre dating him??????? oh so they get to go on a cruise after being voted off huh? thats pretty nice. the audience voting for another winner and i think kathy saying "its rupert!" very true. colby is a contender? 😐that the fuck were some of those sexiest survivors? ROBB??? the man who just finally understood what empathy was? the fuck. AND TOM IS A CONTENDER FOR THE MONEY???? thankfully rupert won because i would have flipped if it was any of the others. all in all this season was kind of disappointing considering it was all stars. it had its juicy moments but it got bogged down by all the people i don't like so I'm gonna give it....5.8 out of 10

[neverdying-d-e-a-d]

ohgod wjat was that.

hey why do i actively try to burn away and forget my past?

why dont i make an appointment with a therapist already?

i mean

i cant now

what if someone hears me?

...

i n s t i

tu t i o n

a l i z e d

what's that mean?

oh rock music, we're really in it now

okay, its not cool to make portraits of sadness and to self victimize

i dont feel like a victim

i feel like i deserve it all

what

do i mean anything that i write?

i really hope that i don't

or do

eugh

so confusing i'm about to cry

at what point does depression start to become going insane?

is it the same?

eugh..

i mean isnt it insane to want to kill someone? suicidal thoughts?

....

whaaatever.

i have enough love for myself and more

i just wanna talk about the war

._.

it's fucked up

feels redundant to say

but i think im allowed to say obvious things

im allowed to say whatever i want, as long as i think im a good person. right?

sometimes i wish i had parents that taught me to really use my brain

get the thoughts straight

okay

your name is [____ __________]

you feel

uhhh awe shit.

you feel

you feel confused

how are you feeling?

im feeling great.

okay.

your name is [_ _]

you feel

something is wrong

in your head

in the world

in the world

or

no, in your head

or

no, nothings wrong, there is no good or bad or

no, yes there is, you know good from bad.

or, no thats not true wisdom

or, no, thats common knowledge

true wisdom is foolish

or

i always end up knowing nothing

or

um

no, yeah.

your name is ()

you know nothing

you feel light and slightly confused and you feel like if you articulate it well enough you can understand it, you feel convinced

you feel shame remembering that guy feel up your thighs

you feel turned on

noooo you dont. dont kid yourself.

you feel turned on at the idea of you feeling turned on.

you feel basically only real attraction towards yourself

and some men

and

dont tell me youre afraid of women now, too? just because it was a girl what made you so weird as a kid?

point is.

that guy. you liked using him. you wanna hurt him. i honestly dont feel bad about that but i feel like i should

okay, i do

hes a person

so cute too.

but what a rotten little boy

god, its always the lonely emo boys

three times now

ive gotta get scarier, scare them off

no, that. eugh. only attracts them

other boys like boobed people who are non threatening

but those boys...

um

when was the last time you gave one of those boys a real chance? haha.

.

.

.

am i the problem?

sure, why not

....

i dont wanna talk to boys. women. i like women. boys

men and women are basically the same to me i just fear violence and well

....

im not crazy for feeling unsafe around men, am i?

....

i really wish i could ask someone who knows about this

like say, a therapist

eughhh.

im dying

writing is making me feel worse i should go to bed

i dont wanna have a bad dream

but

its okay to do things that scare you

but

it feels different to be in the middle of it all but

but

but

but i live in america

because

because

because my grandfather's editing team are dead

guns bought that ticket

and now im a privileged white british scumbag

living with black mold

maybe thats whats making me feel like this honestly

god i just wanna move somewhere clean

somewhere clean

will this poetry will make me sound insane because it's not beautiful

not worth it to care honestly

i still dont feel better

nono, lets try

im feeling better slowly

yes slowly

quicker now im finally feeling good

no.

im gonna take allergy medication and drop out of college and die on the street

im not really afraid

i dont deserve anything more or less

... right?

[hellfiremunsonn]

you look so pretty i didn't even notice the size difference for a second. Like, mine aren't that noticeable, but I guess cause my nips don't line up on a horizontal line it has to be mentioned?

Yeah, I was pretty sure these men weren't shit but also...like it felt good to be flirted with? To be seen as desirable? I have never really been in a "relationship" always the let's not label it or the "oh im talking to a guy who showed interest in me and- oh he's married well im blocking you now" (which the married thing has happened more than once, making me feel bad. Like, if they were in an open marriage or poly or whatever, I wouldn't care. But its like im like "isnt that...your wife?" And they get upset i find out like obviously you don't want her to know).

I know my friend didn't mean anything by her comment, so I'm not really mad at her. I think its moreso the guy who said it was a handful (I am a b, maybe c cup depending on the bra (usually its the band) but I think that because I have broad shoulders and a big rib cage, I am big boned i guess cause I am tall, they expect more??)

It just really fucked me up cause I was sitting here and I thought okay he was a piece of shit, and so I started scrolling through Tumblr and reading fanfiction because why not escape reality for a second, and it ended up being smut and I was like ah....my body doesnt...do that normally. And then it made me spiral thinking about every fic I've read (for example, Steve or Eddie) and how its all similar, and then I was like shit maybe I am weird? Like I get i shouldn't let fictional stuff bother me, cause it is fictional, but then I am like hm the men irl suck so why wouldn't it translate (I am not making it make sense like the characters would be fine I think but its like the fics all have similar anatomy i dont have making it seem as though it is normal, and the guys irl suck so they probably also expect that idk im gonna stop this sentence now).

I think the thing that truly bothers me is the fact that, if I am getting close enough to you to feel comfortable topless, because typically I am not, then that means I'm vulnerable and you really just basically stab me. You basically get me in a vulnerable state and go straight for the jugular

Ohgod, yeah I used to never take my top off or my bra off cause I was like nOPE YOU CAN'T SEE MY BOOBS!!!!!

Now I don't care as much because I've thankfully had more positive reactions?

And with fan fic, I try to write sex for reader how I enjoy sex? Which too be fair isn't much because I haven't had a lot of GOOD sex. I've had good moments in sex but never the whole thing. So I don't include a lot of nipple play or stimulation, because I personally don't get much pleasure from it, but I know my partners have so I let them do their thing, thus briefly adding it into fics just cause a mouth on a tit is a common occurrence for the most part.

I also always make sure to get reader to cum from clit stimulation because most vagina havers cannot cum from penetration alone. And I also add it hurting at first, because for me OFTEN times it's really uncomfortable at first, and sometimes it has felt like I'm losing my virginity all over again.

ANOTHER THING. This helps me when reading fics, but (Y/N) isn't me but she is me... Like she's a version of myself I have created to fit these fics, but it's not me me, she's her own character but she is MINE. if that makes sense? Like I have no interest in anal or anal play, but like (Y/N) ??? she'll do anything, and I love her for that.

ALSO, My titties literally get stuck in my armpits when I lay down and I have to pull them out before I get comfy. They be doing what they want I swear.

MEN ARE SHIT

But also voicing your insecurities, and just laying them out on the table sometimes helps! It's something I started to do unconsciously, but I would basically point out these things before someone else could do it, and do it maliciously. Like if I did my eyelashes wonky, I'd point it out right away, or maybe if my ass looked extra flat, or my hair was greasy. Because all our lumps and bumps and ridges, and dips, hairy, smooth, discoloured bits are all part of us, and make us each our own person.

idk where I was really going with this again, I kinda just started typing. But I hope you at least find the tiniest bit of comfort from talking it out with me.

[wulfhalls]

I really hope we get a birth para… since Daemon was standing off from everything last ep, I really really want to see him right w Rhae.. holding her hand, completely involved. Valyrian affirmations. If they have her leaning back against him I may die. Like, imagine!

I'm certainly fucking imagining it rn