#THE REASON I WOKE UP BTE

[invaderzimss]

zim walks weird asf

Title of the post, self explanatory.

He walks so odd. I walk like hin when I'm bored

Also his hand thing (where he has both like in a ">" position and the rest of his arms straight) stuck with me I haven't stopped doing it since i noticed it

I LOVE INVADER ZIM

anyways huge rant below not super intresting

[cowboyshit]

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[saturatedsinset]

if you get a chance to see the elite segment from dynamite this week: i gotta know your thoughts on the hangmatt confrontation. like kenny and hangman has been Too Much for me already, but truly matt's audacity to want to get at hangman by himself is off the charts

i'm putting this under a readmore because it got away from me a little bit but! tldr: matt sucks so much because kenny sucks and it's about the cycle of toxicity in friendships

so i woke up to this before i got up for the day proper and it sure was A Way to start my day. anyway i've kind of said a little of this in tags already but i think it's very. funny? something. that matt conceives of friendship in the same terms kenny does, ie as a game of domination over another person. kenny has to feel like he can control the people closest to him and because matt's been in that insular toxic environment for so long (and also because he's the worst) he's internalised that as like. How Friendships Are. we're good wrestlers and we win and we give you purpose, hangman, how could you leave us? for people who don't do those things? like matt's very. kenny being controlling is fine (to him) because it gives him purpose, he knows what he's doing, etc, and he can mostly ignore the Bad Parts of that because he can mostly ameliorate them by just doing what kenny wants - which is why it's so interesting to see when and why the bucks choose to dig their heels in/say no/push back and how they eventually capitulate to what kenny wants, because they always do - and he's a deeply selfish person so he can't conceive of adam. Not seeing things that way. of adam seeking validation/friendship as not dependent on wrestling success. even as adam has difficulty accepting that from the dark order because he's so used to that being The Way Relationships Are.

it's also very funny(?) that matt is very clearly trying to use the same manipulation tactics on hangman that kenny uses on him - @cuil-meleth made that gifset of the parallels in how kenny talks to matt and how matt talks to hangman - but hangman, like, has friends now who don't manipulate him constantly so he can see that it's. maybe bad, actually. to be treated like that. also matt is just much worse at manipulation than kenny is like i think matt's a very straightforward character in that the things that are important to him are 1. his brother 2. kenny 3. winning at the wrestling and that's, like. that's him. where kenny is a better manipulator not because he's necessarily more complex but because he's better at using the things your brain tells you against you. because his brain is always telling him things that aren't, like. true. so matt's trying to replicate the kind of manipulation that works on him - because he'll always choose kenny over almost anything else. maybe even over nick, one day. (i can only hope) - but hangman isn't falling for it because matt's worse at it and also because hangman isn't the same kind of invested.

i think matt's promo voice is also really interesting because like obviously we have the layers of promo as performance, promo not as conversation but as dramatic monologue, but the intonation used is always really interesting to me? so when hangman talks it's very, like. he's performing to a crowd, he's exaggerating his gesture, he's speaking very loudly, there's a Drama to his tone, but he's more. it's more believable to me that he would also say something like this at normal volume in normal conversation. part of that is that hangman's the babyface, he gets to be the voice of reason, the straightforward hard-working man, but part of it is also that matt's promo style is, uh, different. by which i mean. just insanely annoying. on purpose, obviously, but god does he suck. so he's Performing Disgust at hangman for leaving them, for drinking, for hanging out with the dark order, but he's doing it in a way that's even more exaggerated than is strictly necessary to play as a promo. it's heel work to be sure but it's really interesting to look at the contrast there. i'm not sure i had a point. uhh i hate matt jackson

matt approaching hangman alone is fun especially because of that bte ending bit a couple [weeks/months] back where he's like Sadly Watching Hangman Have Fun With The Dark Order and on his way to make amends and clearly now he's abandoned that to just fully commit to being theeeeee worst. the worst. like it's fun that matt feels entitled to approach hangman alone because he clearly thinks he, matt, has some hold over hangman that hangman is doing a very good job of ignoring. obviously it's also fun given the whole hangman/bucks feud around revolution 2020 and the fact that matt very obviously still feels slighted by that (i mean, fair, it's not like hangman wasn't being shitty)

uhhhhhhhh so i sure did have some thoughts. didn't expect to write an essay but here you go

[maryniss]

The Lights Of The City

Fandom: Sk8 The Infinity

Rating: General and Up Audiences

Summary: Kojiro comforts Kaoru after he got rejected.

Characters: 

Nanjo Kojiro | Joe 

Sakurayashiki Kaoru | Cherry Blossom

Relationships:

Nanjo Kojiro | Joe X Sakurayashiki Kaoru | Cherry Blossom

Tags: Fluff And Slight Angst

Music: Hellevator by Stray Kids

Notes: Excuse me im a sucker for this two. bte I should proofread my worls more often, sorry if there are mistakes :)

The city light faded somewhere behind Kaoru. That was what he wanted to do, to leave everything behind now. Ok, he knew he was stupid. He really did.

He was 17. He shouldn’t be crying over such a stupid reason! Who cried after their crush? Who...

He didn’t see the rock in front of him and when it got under the wheels of his skateboard, Kaoru fell on the asphalt. His world spun. The same way it did when he first met Ainosuke. 

Kaoru wasn’t angry at Ainosuke. He was pissed his own choices; how could he fall for someone so heartless? How could he fall for such a liar?

“Because you are special.”

Special, my ass. He didn’t give a fuck about him. That’s why he rejected him like that. And, exactly afterwards, he left. Ainosuke left as he hated the idea of his friend having a crush of him; as he was disgusted, even.

Kaoru turned on his back. The night was warm and the sky was full of stars. He breathed in deeply; tried to calm down. He was annoyed because he didn’t feel like crying.

He was just...empty. He was simply tired. Tired, tired, he hated it...

One tear fell from the corner of his eye. He bit his lip and closed his eyes in frustration.

The tear didn’t reach the ground. Kaoru felt a warm hand wiping it away, and it definitely wasn’t his. Or maybe it was. He really didn’t have control of his body anymore.

He opened his eyes and saw Kojiro standing above him. It was too dark to see his expression. Kaoru would have normally snapped at him or something; but today he didn’t feel like that. He just turned so he wouldn’t have to face his friend. He didn’t want Kojiro to think that he was so stupid.

“La mia ciliegia. It’s ok if you don’t want to talk.”, said Kojiro softly. Kaoru suddenly felt a pair of arms sliding around his torso and turned over.

He would have normally slapped his friend or he would have thrown a sassy remark at him. But, it actually felt nice. Now that he was closer, he could see that Kojiro was smiling. A smile that assured him that everything will be ok. He nuzzled his nose in the soft material of Kojiro’s t-shirt. He took another deep breath.

He felt overwhelmed by Kojiro’s presence. He smelled him, felt him, heard him breath gently. Kaoru dared to hug him back.

It was a beautiful night of summer; their luck. Kojiro didn’t say anything more. Both of them stayed silent as they held on each other. Somewhere behind, them, the lights of the town were shining colorfully. 

“Hey, Koji.” No answer. Kaoru thought that he maybe fell asleep.

“Mhm? What is it?” Kojiro’s voice startled the pink-haired man, even he was speaking so softly. Kojiro’s voice has always been like that; deep, but not scary. Kaoru loved to hear him tell about his new receipts. He also liked when Kojiro called him thing in Italian that he didn’t understand, even if he would never admit that.

“I was wondering...What do you like about me? Why are we friends?”

“Oh. Would you like to know?” Kojiro threw Kaoru a smug grin, but when he saw his friend’s serious face, it faded a little bit.

“Ok, I will tell you, but you have to tell me something you like about me, too.”

Kaoru nodded. His back started to hurt, but he didn’t want to leave Kojiro’s arms. He felt so warm and so safe, so good, and even though he was still tired, there was a calm atmosphere surrounding them. 

“Well, I really like your hair.” And, totally unexpected, Kojiro asked:

“Can i braid it?” Oh-ho, boy, if Kaoru would have felt better, he would have slapped his friend really, really hard.

“Yeah, but only like this.” Kaoru turned again, his back still pressed against Kojiro. The other man laughed.

“Ok, la mia ciliegia it’s your turn now.”

“I love when you call me this Italian things.” Both of them fell silent after this, until Kaoru realized what he had just said.

“UHm, I don’t actually...that wasnt what I... I wanted to say... t-to say that I love your Italian receipts. Yeah, that’s it!”

Kojiro didn’t say anything and Kaoru had to turn to see what was going on. It was a big mistake; he locked eyes with Kojiro and he felt himself blushing.

Looking the other way furiously, Kaoru mumbled:

“I-It’s your turn...”

“Mio caro bambi, you really are have a blushing side.  Wonder if I can awaken it again...?”

“You, know, there so many thing that make you beautiful to me. I love how your eyes shine whenever you skate. I love how you act all tough, but you are actually so soft. I love how you look when you sleep. I love how you are when you are drunk...”

Kaoru didn’t stop him. He fell asleep just like that, with the tender voice of Kojiro praising him and the lights of the city listening to him quietly.

***

The next morning, he woke up in his house. Kojiro was nowhere to be found. But, that was definitely the night Kaoru had started to fall for his friend.