#THE CLIFFHANGER OF THIS CHAPTER WAS SO EVIL
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TWSB 805í
My Earth, my Moon, my Sun.
(I'll be waiting for you to come and find me again.)
#TWSB SPOILERS#Ga-in admitting that shes someone who cannot live without him.....#when the third wheel strikes back#I JUST WANT CYC TO BE HAPPY đđđ#cedyeschris#Christelle de Sarnez#Ham Ga-in#Jung Yeseo#CĂŠdric Riester#twsb#ěë¨íě
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í늴 ě기ë ěź#MY ART#âtwsb is not a romance novelâ and yet CJC's relationship built on trust reverence love and companionship exists#THEYRE THE SOULMATES TO EVER SOULMATE#UHRGEGGDHDHHH THEY PROMISED TO FIND HIM IN THE OTHER WORLD đđđđđ#YESEO SAID HE'LL BE WAITING..... IM SO UNWELL#THE CLIFFHANGER OF THIS CHAPTER WAS SO EVIL#Yeseo calling Ga-in his continent and earth..... a sparkling jewel that holds all his memories together....#CĂŠdric reverently kissing the back of Yeseo's hand.........#im so devastated my guys#twsb fanart
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Genq how did you manage to make Clipped wings WORSE than Caged lungs. how and why
how do i break it to you that things are very very close to getting way worse
#ask#how: you havent seen ANYTHING yet#why: because 20k words into CL i realized just how long the process of recovery would actually be#and then got the idea for a specific scene and was like OHHHHHOHOHOHO#i actually find some scenes in CL to be way worse than anything in CW (so far) but its a matter of opinion i suppose#anyways cant wait for the narrative to get more linear im excited :)#is this just because i can begin doing chapter cliffhangers and i love that shit? Noooooo (Yes)#i have so many cliffhangers planned for where we went wrong i fucking love being evil
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breaking news: local idiot writer sits down for over four hours and writes nonstop, forgets to eat and do his chores for the day. more at five.
#i am like actually gonna die maybe#but also i had an idea last night for how to bridge the tiny gap problem in tgg chapter 11 so i had to sit down and do it.#and then bridge the other gap. and also entirely rewrite parts of f&m chapter 4#and rewrite the big emotional climax of chapter 11 also. only slightly but there were a few tweaks i wanted made#and that just leaves the evil cliffhanger for the end of chapter 11 and we're done! yayyy#i gotta go get a snack or something i missed lunch while i was busy slamming 6.5k words down
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Gravity falls and star vs the forces of evil
Dipper x janna
Word magic
Okay. I misread this in my email. I got the GF/SvtFoE part. And I almost got the ship. But somehow I got 'Evil!Dipper' instead of just 'Dipper' and I wrote that before re-reading this so uh. Bonus three sentences under the cut, I guess?
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Sometimes, Dipper still couldnât believe it had started as simply as it hadââYou shouldnât be able to do that,â sheâd said from the shadows, nearly causing him to jump out of his skin and successfully causing him to flub the fire spell heâd been trying out on his would-be campfire, leaving his fingertips coated with ashes instead of sparksâbut JannaâŚ.
Janna hadnât laughed at him for believing what he did, hadnât tried to explain it away, and hadnât run when sheâd realized it was truly magic he wielded and not magic tricks; sheâd grinned and asked him to teach her.
She was better at it than he was, and she would rub in that little fact at every opportunity and then some, but the friendly competition helped him improve more than his studying alone ever had, and sheâŚshe made him better in a different way, too, and not just when it came to researchâeven if thatâs all he told Mabel the two of them were doing, though he was well aware from her flat look that she didnât buy it for a second.
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see more fics | crossoversÂ
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Bonus: Janna/Evil!Dipper
Janna wasnât fooling herself; she knew about the part of Dipper that he tried to keep hidden from her and her friends, the part that had Tom frowning at him behind his back, Jackie raising her eyebrows at Janna whenever Dipper wasnât looking, Marco acting even more protective of everyone than usual, and Star hesitating a split second before offering a smile after a not-quite-joking remark on Dipperâs part.
That part, however well or poorly hidden, connected to Dipperâs pastâthough all Janna had managed to ferret out so far was that he had a sister he teasingly called Shooting Starâbut it was also, unquestioningly, related to magic.
Dipper, despite what Star had done, could still do magic, still had a functioning spell book, or a least a journal with spells in it that seemed more reliable than Starâs spells had ever been, and maybe Janna just found the allure of magic intoxicating, maybe she was drawn to him because he was wielding a power no one else could, maybe she had kissed him that first time simply to get a closer look at the book heâd tried to hide from her when sheâd walked in on him without knockingâbut the thrill of this, whatever this was, had her seeking more, and he hadnât turned her away yet.
#gravity falls#star vs the forces of evil#svtfoe#gf#three sentence fic#three sentence fics#janper#occult detectives#my writing#ladylynse#do janna and dipper have a ship name? if so please tell me so I can tag it#also I know it's been almost a week since you sent me these asks#but in my feeble defense I have been devouring the rest of the throne of glass series in my free time#I finally stopped mid chapter in the last book in a part that's less of a cliffhanger than elsewhere#to at least do one of these so you know I'm not dead#(I'm not on my computer in the free time I have is all)#I haven't read the other one yet I might do it now too if I can come up with something half decent
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Oh hey it's one of mandarou's works! Mandarou's dishonor series is one of my favorite fics of all time. Like the first part is a really good modern Bucky, funny with some angst and smut, and then the second fic punches it into the fucking stratosphere.
A Captain America: the First Avenger Timeline for Fic Writers
(Iâm so sorry I erased the original post IâM SO SORRY! You can read this without the visual aids on AO3.)
March 10, 1917 - James Buchanan Barnes is born, and we were all officially fucked.
July 4, 1918 - Steven Grant Rogers is born, and somewhere in Brooklyn Buckyâs mother wept âŚ
June, 1924 - Steveâs mother is bedridden from illness associated with Tuberculosis.
September, 1930 - 12-year old Steve and 13-year old Bucky meet for the first time in Hellâs Kitchen, where Bucky scares off bullies trying to steal Steveâs money. What were they doing in Hellâs Kitchen? No one knows. Steve tells Bucky heâs been living in the orphanage âon 8thâ since his motherâs death. Which is odd since Bucky was apparently at her funeral when theyâre both legal adults in a flashback scene from the Winter Soldier. For the purpose of this timeline, info from the movies will take precedent over info from the various tie-ins. Meaning Sarah Rogers is basically SchrĂśdingerâs Ma for the next 6 years.
Keep reading
#i keep hoping someday she will put up that last chapter or two#the story is mostly done it's not a cliffhanger or anything#riyl:#characters meeting the actors who play them#canon bucky vs evil steve#everyone is cowboys#post zombie apocalypse world with BETRAYAL#god i love that second fic so much#stucky fic recs#mcu fic recs
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Guiding Light | 1.0 | 1.5 | 2.0 | 2.5 | 3.0 | 3.5 | 4.0 | 4.5 | 5.0 | 5.5 | 6.0 | 6.5 | 7.0 | 7.5 | 8.0 | 8.5 | [end]
((Some dialogue is from 'Star Wars; The Secrets of the Sith' by Marc Sumerak))
Also available to read on Ko-fi and AO3
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DUN DUN DUNNN⌠I know this ended with a massive cliffhanger but Iâm already working on chapters for Vol. 2! (Sorry we just get these evil guys scheming and no Obikin kiss or anything at the end⌠but they donât call it âslow burnâ for nothin! đŹ)Â
Iâll be taking a short break before posting new chapters. I just need to work out some Plot Things⢠and finish cleaning up Vol. 1 so I can make it available to purchase as a PDF. If I do ever offer a print version, that will include all 3 volumes I have planned out. (Yes, 3⌠Iâm insane and after numerous attempts cannot get the story to be any shorter đ)Â
My DMs/Asks are always open, so if you have any questions or just wanna chat Obikin then donât hesitate to reach out. Thank you so much for liking and reblogging! Your comments are what keep me motivated to work on this.
Ok luv u byeeeee
#my art#obikin#guiding light#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#sw fanart#star wars fanart#sw tcw#star wars the clone wars#star wars fan comic#star wars comics#force dyad#force bond#count dooku#palpatine#darth tyranus#darth sidious
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đ ŕłâ§ââ sea may rise, sky may fall chapter XI
pairing: lee know x f!reader x han jisung
summary: minho is alive and someone finally gets retribution. it's the start of the rest of their lives
word count: 19k
warnings: violence, blood, evil guy death; drinking; mentions of anxiety and cptsd symptoms (they went through it, okay?); some (unprotected) smut! a happy end <3 yay!
author's note: by all laws of storytelling this chapter is too long, but I could not care less. I wanted some gratuitous sweetness after all the pain. also I thought about splitting this up into another chapter but I figured I tortured you with enough cliffhangers akshdhas so enjoy!! the last official chapter before our epilogue <3 thank you so much for coming on this journey with me. thank you to everyone who commented, who messaged me, who took the time to read <3 thank you for loving my baby <3 it means the world
this series is đ, so minors, please DNI
series masterlist // skzms masterlist
< chapter X - interlude >
You meet Felixâs eyes as Changbin shoves him behind him, out of harms way, and thereâs nothing but sunshine; tears of joy and a brilliant, blinding smile. He nods at you, as if to say this is exactly what I meant, and you have to fight back a sob.
The thought of everyone else having seen you, what they will think, after all these years, Minho, and your secret barely a secret at all â this and the realisation that Jisung said Minho is alive, the feeling of your whole life spinning out of control, it will have to wait. Because Han Yujun is in there, and there are more guards now. Way more. Ten of them against the maybe eight of you. And these ones look more serious, less like young men with no experience to speak of.
Chanâs eyes are locked onto them already, rolling his shoulders as he readies himself for the fight. Hyunjin has found Jisungâs other side as he cocks his gun, squeezes his arm with a smile, mouthing something to him that looks like a thank god youâre okay.
The first guy approaches and Hyunjin lifts his gun, shoots him point-blank. He sinks to the floor right in front of the next one, that Jisung takes care of just as quickly, swiping at his legs and driving his cutlass into his chest when he crumples to the floor. One goes down from the force of your elbow alone, another falls victim to Felixâs blade, who squeals and turns to Changbin excitedly when he realises he got one. Changbin doesnât look proud at all, heâs white as a sheet as he tugs Felix back behind him.
Hyunjin strikes another one down with a practised hand and a toss of his hair and his companion drops his weapon, lifts his hands and hightails it down the path toward the gate. Hyunjin watches him, perplexed, then turns to you and raises an eyebrow in question. You canât help the laugh that bubbles out of you. You shake your head.
âLet him go, heâs not worth it. Heâll probably get intercepted by the captainâs men anyway.â
Chan deals with the next two at once, a cutlass in one hand, his short knife in the other. His knife into the oneâs throat, his cutlass into the chest of the other. He wipes the bloody blade on his pants as he scoffs.
âIf weâd known his men were this shit, we couldâve done this ages ago.â
The last three fall equally easily, and you donât wait for more to come, push forward until you find yourself in the cool, marble foyer. In here, itâs so quiet itâs almost eery, the noise of fighting only a dull din from somewhere seemingly far away. The house seems mostly abandoned. Though you have a feeling Han Yujun is still here, holed up somewhere, clutching onto hope and all his money that heâll somehow make it out of this alive. But you know better. You take a second to survey the scene. A hallway to your right, a sitting room with more doors to your left, a stairway right in front of you.
âHis office is upstairs,â Jisung offers next to you. You look at him with a question in your eyes, and he nods.
âChangbin, take Felix and check the left wing,â you order, âHyunjin, Chan, take the right. Someone else check the basement, and as many of you as possible find all the exits and guard them. Han Yujun canât escape us today. Jisung and I will check upstairs.â
Changbin takes Felixâs hand, mumbles something to him about staying behind him, before he makes his way down the hallway. Hyunjin salutes you quietly, and he and Chan enter the sitting room with their weapons drawn. Two of your crew stay by the front door, the rest of the group disperses.
You look at Jisung, meet his gaze where itâs already locked onto yours. It makes sweet adrenaline rush through your veins. You motion for him to follow you upstairs and hurry up the stairwell, taking two steps at a time.
âIf you think Iâm letting you out of my sight again, youâre dead wrong,â you mumble, and he chuckles behind you, bright and airy and happy, and it makes you stop at the top of the stairs, turn around in shock. Something heavy squeezes your chest because, of course, Minho isnât there, but itâs soothed over by Jisungâs beautiful, radiant smile. And there is hope. You canât help but feel it, despite it all.
âDonât ever let me out of your sight again, please,â Jisung chirps, hurries up to meet you, wraps his muscular arms around your waist and pulls you in, âIâm way too in love with you for that.â
Butterflies, in your stomach, so many that you can barely breathe â in the middle of the biggest fight of your entire life, on the day you started thinking everyone you loved was dead, when you were prepared for this day to be your last. Jisung giggles sweetly, pulls you closer against his strong chest, presses wet hot lips in the shape of a smile against the side of your neck. Heâs the most magical, most insane, most lovable person youâve ever met, and you realise now that youâll never be the same again.
A guard spots you, then, yells, comes barreling down the hallway. Jisung doesnât hesitate. He unfolds himself from you casually, parries two of his opponentâs attacks before he sinks his cutlass into him, and he slumps to the ground.
âWhere were we?â he asks, giddily, eyes sparkling with mischief as he stalks up to you, crowds you against the wall until his breath is on your face.
âJisung, we canât be messing around. Not today,â you breathe, though your eyes are glued to his lips, no doubt betraying every ounce of your blind, desperate want. Damn him.
âThereâs no way we arenât winning today, captain,â he purrs, smiles again, brushes his lips against yours in a breath of a kiss, âthereâs nowhere for him to run. So letâs have some fun.â
And youâre about to give in, let him kiss you breathless in your arch enemyâs house, but fate has a different plan. Five more of Han Yujunâs men come barrelling down the hallway and this time, much to your chagrin, you have to fight in earnest. One of them catches your arm, adds a second cut to the one already there, and it drives tears into your eyes. But you donât stop, wave away Jisungâs concerned look, focus on fighting your way down the hallway and manage to kill the last one right before it forks.
Your breath is coming out in short bursts as you gather your bearings. Your arm aches, your lungs burn. You have the choice now, between left and right. Right leads you down a hallway with few doors, at the end of which thereâs an open glass door that leads out to a French balcony thatâs facing out into the garden, curtains billowing in the wind. The other direction leads deeper into the house, culminating in two heavy oak doors, very similar to the ones in Trottâs house.
âThatâs his office,â Jisung comments with a nod towards the ominous doors. You nod and realise that this is really it. You wonder if youâll still be able to do what needs to be done when it comes down to it, now that Jisung is alive. But you have to. For them.
You look at Jisung, give him a tense smile.
âShall we?â
Jisung smiles, then his face pulls into the pout of determination you know and love so well. He extends his hand, takes yours, and you make your way down the hallway.
Suddenly, a thump sounds behind you, then a curse and a voice that you would recognise anywhere, anytime.
âSungââ
The call of Jisungâs name is cut off. Your heart stops, and for a painful second, you wonder if it will give out.
Youâre frozen where you are, unable to turn around. You canât face it, you canât be wrong. You wouldnât survive it. Youâre distantly aware of Jisungâs worried eyes on you, his gaze flicking between you and âŚ
âY/N?â Minho says, and thereâs no longer any doubt in your mind.
You turn around slowly, your ears ringing as you let your eyes drag over the carpet and up and up, until you see him.
Minho. Itâs undoubtedly him. Breathing. Shaky. Alive. His old, brown leather boots with the big silver buckle. Strong thighs in his black pants. A white v-neck shirt you donât recognise exposing his flushed, heaving chest. Blood on his sleeves, hair swept back like he was in a hurry.
You suck in a breath. One of his eyes is covered with a black eyepatch. But the other one looks at you, the same way he always did. Does.
Your shaky legs move towards him. He doesnât approach you, just stares, his eyebrows lifted in an expression that is almost helpless.
You stop a cautious few feet in front of him, like getting any closer would shatter the mirage. But you can see the little birthmark on his nose, smell the unmistakable smell of him, can almost feel him on your skin. Your heart is thumping against your ribcage like itâs trying to escape.
âYouâre alive,â you mutter, blink, eyes roving all over his face.
He nods, helplessly, his eyes, his eye glued to yours. So soft. So scared.
âT-the gunshot,â you breathe, but your voice gives out. A tremor wracks through your body, and you see Minhoâs hand twitch to reach out, before he drops it again.
âThey shot into the sky. They wanted you to think I was dead.â
You let out something between a laugh and a sob, though there are no tears. You feel wrung dry, empty, soulless. Minho shivers. His hand reaches out, again and this time, he doesnât pull back. He runs a fingertip over the sleeve of your coat. Doesnât look at you when he forces out his next words.
âI heard you scream.â
You blink, watch his eyebrow twitch, his mouth pulls into a grimace of pain. Itâs too much, itâs unbearable. The memory of it, the knowledge of it, the thought of him dead, the weight of every single minute of the last weeks. Now, the fact that heâs here. A flesh and blood reminder of all you thought you lost. Itâs too much, itâs tooâ
âWhat happened to your eye?â you ask, your voice only a ghost of itself. Minho lifts his head until his gaze finds yours again and punches a breath clean out of you with how much love it holds. Though this time, thereâs no more kraken that roars, riots, threatens to burst out of your skin. Thereâs only honeysuckle sweetness and a longing that you donât know how you managed to keep locked away for so long.
âThe guy got me just right, I think his ring cut my retina,â he shrugs, âpretty sure itâs fucked. But Iâve gotten used to it already, doesnât hu-â
âI love you.â
You breathe the words into the space between you, and Minho reels back like he has been punched straight in the chest. His next breath comes out in a stutter. Heâs so beautiful.
âIâve always loved you, I think,â it tumbles out of you, unable to stop now that youâve finally said it.
âY/N âŚâ Minho chokes out. He takes a step forward, cups your face. His hands are shaking. Heâs looking at you, staring into your eyes like heâs searching for something, like he doesnât quite believe your words. You feel half crazed.
âI do, Min,â you choke out, âI do, I love you. I love you so much. Iââ
When he leans in, he doesnât even have to pull you because you meet him halfway. His lips find yours, trembling as he kisses you so desperately, you gasp into his mouth. Your tongue is heavy with emotion when it tangles with his, kissing him like youâre tasting him for the first time. He pulls back only enough to stare down at you, his trembling breath against your lips.
âI love you, too, baby, oh god, I love you so much,â he forces out the words like they hurt. He looks so disbelieving, so sure yet so unsure, like he doesnât know how he has found his way here, and you donât know what to do because heâs alive and breathing and you get another chance, another chance to make it right, another chance you donât fucking deserve.
You pull him back into your lips and, of course, he matches you perfectly, swallows your desperate whine when you shove him backwards, crowd him against the wall. He takes it, pulls you even closer, buries his hand in your hair, then flips you, so your back is against the wall, tilts your head, kisses you deeper. Itâs you and him, itâs just like every other time, except itâs not â because you can finally feel and your poor, broken heart beats to the tune of heâs here, heâs alive, heâs here, heâs alive.
He pulls back when there is no more air, pants against your lips, makes a tortured little sound in the back of his throat as his fingers curl around your neck, dig into the soft skin. Heâs blinking rapidly, his mouth open like he wants to say something, but nothing comes out, only a disbelieving huff.
Someone yells outside, thereâs a gunshot, then another. The sounds rip through the atmosphere around you and Minho and shatter it like glass, a brutal reminder of where you are, what you have yet to do.
You close your eyes again, just for a moment, basking in the way Minhoâs breath fans over your lips, breathing it in greedily. But you canât help but feel like thereâs something missing. Some_one_ missing.
You blink your eyes open and find Jisung where you left him. Heâs staring at you, and he looks awed, but he also looks so, so sad, his arms wrapped around himself almost protectively.
âI can leave if you want,â he croaks out, the sound of it tinny and brittle in the big, empty hallway. He takes an uneven step back, closer to the hallway that leads back to the stairs, like heâs ready to run.
Minho sighs softly, leans against you, his thumb softly running up the side of your neck. You donât need to look at him to understand.
He scoffs at the same time as you reach out your hand.
âWhy the fuck would we want that?â you laugh out.
Jisungâs shoulders fall, he sniffles, and then heâs running up to you, flinging himself into your and Minhoâs arms with all his might, burying his face in Minhoâs chest and pulling you until youâre both pressed against him, until the three of you are all but squeezed together, in the middle of the hallway in Han Yujunâs house. Over Jisungâs mop of brown hair, you meet Minhoâs gaze, and he looks so happy it makes you almost sick with joy. He presses a soft little kiss into Jisungâs hair and Jisung laughs, his shoulders shaking whereâs buried between you.
Then he lifts his head, gives Minho a cheeky look, despite the single tear that runs down the pink apple of his cheek that Minho traces with his eye.
âShe said it to me first, you know. So at least I have that,â he teases, and Minho blinks at him in disbelief before he barks out a laugh, softly removes one of his hands from you to catch Jisungâs chin between his hands.
âI love you, too, even though youâre a pain in my ass.â
Jisung beams, his whole face splitting into a beautiful heart-shaped smile. He nuzzles his chin further into Minhoâs hold, tips his head up happily.
âI love you, too, you grumpy old cat,â he hums, before his expression turns cheeky, âand you wish I would finally be a pain in your ass. Iâll have you know Iâm very good at it.â
The sudden laugh that bubbles out of you feels misshapen and odd, like your body is out of practice â but it warms you from the inside and it feels right. More right than anything you have ever felt in your life.
Minhoâs gaze is fond and so, so soft as he looks from Jisung to you. But when the sound of a scuffle comes from downstairs, his expression hardens into a regretful scowl.
âWe should get this over with,â he hums, blinks at the big doors down the hallway before looking back down at Jisung, then you.
âBe careful, okay? No sudden moves or decisions. We take no risks. If he moves, we pull the trigger.â
Minho waits until Jisung nods, then you. Then he dips down, presses a sweet kiss to Jisungâs lips, then yours. When he pulls back, he momentarily stops, blinks, a quiet kind of disbelief in his pretty eyes. But it disappears as quickly as it came, and he refocuses and steps back.
Jisung unfolds himself from you hesitantly, follows Minhoâs eyes to the doors. He swallows.
âThereâs a gun in the top left drawer of his desk, so donât let him reach it,â Jisung explains. His brows are furrowed in concentration.
âIn a situation like this, he wouldnât be alone. Probably has at least one of his closest guards with him, if not two. And theyâre ruthless, they wonât hesitate to do whatever it takes. So we need to act fast.â Minho nods, and Jisung looks at you.
âWeâll go in first. Minho, keep your gun drawn. Shoot him if you have to. Iâll go for the guard, if thereâs only one, then you canââ
His sentence is interrupted by the faraway crack of a gunshot, the sound of glass shattering, something heavy hitting the floor and a yelp and then the heavy doors at the other end of the hallway fly open and Han Yujun, in all his half-bald, pot-bellied glory nearly falls flat on his face as he rushes out the door â only to be met by the three of you.
Minho moves in the blink of an eye, shoves you half behind him, draws his gun, and Jisung takes the few steps forward needed to block his uncleâs path.
Han Yujun freezes, pales, turns on his heels and makes back for his office and Minho takes off running, closely followed by both you and Jisung.
Han Yujun reaches his office first, tries to rush in and slam the door behind him, but Minho manages to shove his foot in the door just in time. He shoulders it open so hard it sends Han Yujun sprawling on the floor with a scream. Minho is on him within seconds, wrestling him until his face is pressed into the carpet. Yujun puts up a fight, writhes, and resists and spews curses, but Minho is stronger.
âGet off me, you disgusting pirate,â he squeaks, though his voice betrays his fear. He tries to free himself again, and Minho loses his temper. He drives his boot into Han Yujunâs ribs and he howls. Jisung next to you scoffs.
You let your eyes roam around the room, and you donât have to look far for to find the reason for all the noise and Han Yujunâs panicked flight â a man in his guardsâ uniform lies lifeless on the floor in a puddle of his own blood. Thereâs a neat hole in the side of his head. You leave him where he is. Thereâs nothing the living can do for him any more.
âJisung, help me,â Han Yujun wails behind you, and itâs so fake it makes you sick. Thereâs a dull thud and a groan. You donât have to look to know that Jisung put his fist into his face.
âWhy would I help you?!â Jisung growls.
Behind the big, heavy desk, one of the panels of the windows is shattered. Cautiously, you step closer to the window and when you look down into the garden, behind a stone railing, amidst the bright pink English roses, your eyes meet Sungjinâs. Your former Captainâs best marksman. Of course.
You nearly laugh when he shoots you a smirk and a thumbs up.
By the time you turn around, Minho has managed to tie Han Yujunâs hands behind his back and is hoisting him to his feet. Jisung is watching from where heâs leaned against his uncleâs desk, arms crossed over his chest, a sour look on his face. Minho pulls his gun from his holster and digs it into Han Yujunâs back, hard.
âLetâs take a walk,â he growls and meets your eyes, wordlessly asking you to lead the way.
And you do. You leave the room first, followed by Minho, whoâs guiding a bound Yujun with the barrel of his gun. Jisung marks the end of your procession, his hand on his knife, ready to strike any second. The distant sound of fighting all over the carefully kept grounds is still ringing through the eerily empty halls of the house.
Your mind is eerily calm here, right on the precipice of everything youâve ever wanted.
You meet Changbin and Felix as you descend the stairs. Felixâs eyes go wide when he sees you, his glassy gaze locked behind you.
âMinho,â he gasps, and you think there may be tears in his eyes. Changbin is staring up at the three of you with wide eyes, one hand curled against his rapidly rising and falling chest, like heâs trying to hold it together.
You chance a look behind you, find Minho there, giving them a small smile, though his hands never falter on the gun pressed to Jisungâs uncleâs back, even when Hyunjin and Chan come hurrying down the right hallway and Hyunjin goes white as a sheet when he sees Minho.
As calmly as you can, you motion for them to keep calm, to follow you as you push through the front doors, into the blazing afternoon sunlight. You walk through the courtyard, where the water is still trickling down the fountain, down the path, past the azalea bushes until youâre in the front part of the yard.
Thereâs fighting going on all around you, clumps of your and the Captainâs men dotted around, fighting Han Yujunâs guardsmen, though their numbers are small, and they are uncoordinated and clumsy. You see some men from the town fighting among the pirates, wild and uncoordinated in their rage, but encouraged and helped along by the pirates. There must be more fighting around the back of the house, the sounds of which have been ringing in your ears this whole time; knives meeting, guns going off.
But you donât pay any of it any mind. Soon it wonât matter any more.
You allow yourself a moment of melodrama, walk to the centre of the garden calmly, without looking behind you, left or right. But youâre hyperaware of the others behind you, their regular footsteps, and the fighting around you that becomes quieter, the whispering and the people that approach. You can feel their eyes on you when you stop in the centre of the garden, somewhere halfway between the front gate and the courtyard; in perfect view of everyone, both the ones fighting and the gaggle of onlookers that has gathered at the gates, looking in through the tall fences. This feels like a good place for the end of it all.
Hyunjin, Chan, and Felix form a loose circle around you, knives drawn. Jeongin and Seungmin join them. You see your men approach, Minhoâs name falling from some of their lips with desperate sighs of relief. The air is electric with tension, anticipation.
Out of the corner of your eye, you see your old Captain, Sungjin, more of his crew, some you know and some you donât.
Minho lets go of Han Yujun pushes him closer to where youâre waiting, before he comes to stand behind you. His presence right there, only an armâs reach away, soothes you more than you can describe. Jisung makes his way behind you, too, takes the spot on the other side so naturally as if he has always been there.
You feel invincible. You look down at the man below you.
Han Yujun stares at you, tries his best to be intimidating, but he makes a pitiful sight. His thinning hair is badly mussed, exposing his sunburned scalp and the spotty skin of his forehead. His face is pink and flushed and his eyes are small and cold, and they glimmer like a cornered animalâs. His chest heaves with a phlegmy breath. God, he makes you sick.
âHan Yujun,â you finally say. You let the words drop from your lips, calmly, coldly. You have all the time in the world now. âDo you know why youâre here today?â
Han Yujun scoffs, takes his time to look around at his audience, seemingly unfazed that they all stare at him with hatred. The Captainâs face is impassive, though you see it in his eyes. Changbin doesnât even pretend to hide his disdain. Thereâs a cold, vicious smile on his face, more hateful than youâve ever seen him before. But you understand. Han Yujun killed his little sister when she was only a child. Felix by Changbinâs side calmly wraps a hand around his arm.
âA public execution of a government official,â Han Yujun muses, his voice a lot more pompous than you thought he was capable of in a situation like this. He tugs at his restraints, but itâs futile. âYouâll hang for treason!â
He meets your eye, looking much too smug, given that his hands are literally tied behind his back. But you donât bite, just look back at him steadily, coldly, until he starts fidgeting.
âIâm glad you know youâre going to die, that saves us all a lot of time,â you finally say, a deadly sweet smile on your lips.
Apparently not deadly enough because Han Yujun puffs up, takes a step towards you.
âWell, I canât believe that really is your plan. I heard a lot about you, captain Y/N, but I never pegged you for a fool,â he singsongs, as he takes another step closer, staring into your eyes so intensely, with such a repulsive curiosity and self-satisfaction, it makes your fingers twitch at the handle of your knife.
âLetâs get me out of these ties, sit down,â he purrs, takes another step, his breath hitting your face now. Nobody dares to move. Changbin looks like he wants to intervene, tries to tug his arm free, but Felix wonât let him. âMaybe we can come to an agreement.â
You stand your ground, bile rising in your throat as he comes closer and closer, but you refuse to budge. Your shoulders are so tense, you start trembling.
He licks his lips, leans in as if to whisper into your ear, but before he can get any closer, Minho barrels past you.
He plants his boot in the middle of Han Yujunâs chest and shoves him so hard he flies backwards a few feet, crashing into the ground with a pained yell.
âYou donât fucking touch her, you understand?â Minho growls, his eye dark with rage as he stalks towards him. He brings his foot down onto Han Yujunâs throat, presses down until the man is gasping and whimpering. âYou try something else, and you will meet Davy Jones with none of your limbs attached.â
Nobody dares move because his demeanour leaves no doubt that itâs not an idle threat. Minho throws a look back at you, his eye wild but soft, a quiet question if youâre okay, and you nod. Only then does he let up â but not before crushing his foot harder into Han Yujunâs windpipe, making him writhe and gurgle pathetically.
Minho turns and comes back to you, his arm brushing against yours as he returns to his spot behind you. Han Yujun is coughing and gasping on the floor, trying to regain his breath as he sits up, glares up at you. You wait patiently, every second calculated to allow him enough time to feel every second of your victory.
Han Yujun doesnât attempt to get up again. You take a step towards him, your face still schooled into calm, but the hands crossed behind your back are shaking, against your will.
âHan Yujun, after weâre done with you, we will go into your house, and we will collect the evidence of everything you have done. Then we will deliver this to the crown, and they will find you guilty, convict you âof not only corruption, of price gauging, drug and human trafficking, prostitution and more, no â you will also be convicted of high treason, trying to stage a coup against the crown. Posthumously, of course,â you add sweetly, with a dangerous glint to your eyes.
Han Yujunâs eyes shake slightly. All around you, except for the sound of distant fighting, thereâs silence. Your audience is glued to your lips.
âAnd then they will thank us. For sparing them having to dirty their noose with your vile, useless body.â
Han Yujun frowns.
âWhy do you think youâll find evidence of anything?â
Jisung on your left scoffs.
âOh, please,â he laughs. Itâs deadly cold. âI know you keep the records of all your above-board dealings in your office, and everything else under the floorboards in the drawing room. Third plank from the bookcase with the replica of the Victory, if I remember right?â
His uncleâs face swells, red rage rising to his cheeks as he glares at Jisung. Thereâs so much hatred in his gleaming little eyes, it sends a shiver down your spine.
âI knew from the day you were born that you would bring shame upon this family,â Han Yujun spits, âI saw that you were a little sissy when you were five. And then you grew up like this, like a degenerate,â he gives him a disgusted once-over, âand I told your father! I told him youâd never grow up to be a real man, would disappoint his entire bloodline, but he wouldnât hear it.â
Jisungâs breath has gotten ragged, and you feel his intention to move before he even takes a step. You reach your hand out, motioning for him to stay back and to his credit, he does, though the shaky breath he takes in betrays how much it takes him.
âNow look at you. Leading these unwashed, murderous lowlives right to your own family. Do you have any idea how hard we worked to get here? What it took for us to get these positions?â
âI do,â Jisung presses out, his voice trembling with emotion, âI know what it took. Blood. Lies. Deception. Corruption. The destruction of neighbourhoods, the killing and displacing of innocent people. And Appa knew it, too. Itâs why he wanted out. Itâs why he took the risk. Itâs why heâs fucking dead.â
Jisung brushes your hand to the side and takes a step forward. You let him.
âAnd you piece of shit didnât do anything. You let them take him. And Eomma, too. Hell, for all I know you told them where to find them,â Jisung yells, drags his sleeve over his face.
His hand finds his holster, and he pulls his gun, cocks it, points it right at his uncleâs head. His breath is ragged, and his body is trembling, but his hand is awfully still. It doesnât waver from where itâs pointed.
âCaptain,â Jisung, addresses you, calmly. Thereâs something in his voice youâve never heard before.
âPermission to finally put us all out of our misery.â
You let your eyes wander over your audience, your crew, the townspeople, the other crew, familiar and unfamiliar faces, all waiting for the moment this finally ends. Your eyes meet the Captainâs. He holds your gaze.
âCaptain?â Jisung asks again, and this time his voice audibly shakes. His other fist is balled at his side.
You canât let Jisung wait any longer. You let your eyes rest on the back of his head and speak.
âPermission granted.â
A single beat of silence.
Then the gunshot rings clear over the grounds. Han Yujunâs dead body slumps back.
Another beat of silence.
Then the whole yard breaks out into deafening cheers.
Itâs so loud, so sudden, so charged that it makes you flinch. You whip your head up to see men hugging each other, Hyunjin running to Minho to envelop him in a hug, the Captain, still looking at you, as calm as a statue surrounded by his cheering men, though there is a small proud smile on his lips. You nod to him and he nods back. Itâs enough.
The only person who isnât celebrating is Jisung. Heâs still standing there, staring down at his uncle, his hand, thatâs still holding the smoking gun, hanging limply by his side.
You approach him carefully, say his name softly. He barely turns his head. You inch closer, place a careful hand on his back, ever so gently rub it up and down. The muscles underneath your fingertips are so tense, they feel like theyâre ready to snap.
âJisung,â you breathe, low enough for only him to hear, âtalk to me. Do you regret it?â
Jisung huffs out a laugh then, shakes his head, turns his head and meets your gaze with his big, beautiful, shining eyes. Theyâre full of tears. He tries to blink them away, and you wish you could tell him that you meant it when you said you never wanted him to hide them again, that you were ready to love every single one of them.
âGod, no, that felt incredible,â he mumbles, wipes at his nose and sniffles, âI just think itâs so unfair that I will have to spend the rest of my life learning to live with what he has done. To everyone ⌠but also to me.â
You hum, rubbing a thumb over the muscles in Jisungâs back soothingly, sliding your hand down until you can wrap your arm around him. He leans into you readily, folds his arm over your shoulder and pulls you closer.
âThatâs what we all do every single day, so youâll be in great company. But we have each other.â
Jisung blinks at you, then looks around, like heâs finally realising the celebration going on. He looks dazed. You squeeze him harder, and he rests his temple against yours.
You canât help but smile.
âWelcome to the beginning of the rest of your life, Han Jisung.â
Minho watches over Hyunjinâs shoulder, as the captain and Jisung stand over the body of Han Yujun with their arms wound around each other. Hyunjin sobs, a wet, heartbreaking sound, and Minho pulls him closer, soothes his palm over Hyunjinâs narrow back, shushes him quietly.
Then another person wraps himself around his back, then another, and before he knows it, Minho finds himself enveloped by his crew, his friends, squeezing him, some smiling, some sniffling, some laughing and yelling his name in relief.
âFuck, Min,â he hears Changbin mumble from where heâs wedged between Hyunjinâs back and someone elseâs front, his hand coming up to ruffle Minhoâs hair, âyour eye! We really thought they got you.â Minho tries to laugh, but it doesnât come out right, half wedged in his chest that feels like itâs about ready to burst.
âI couldnât let that happen, could I,â he jokes, quietly, âwho else would take care of all of you idiots.â
Hyunjin chokes out something thatâs half sob and half laugh and buries his face in Minhoâs neck. Minho can feel his tears wet his skin.
âGod, I hate you so much,â he whines, âcanât you just be serious for once?!â
Minho smiles softly, meets Changbinâs eyes again. He pats Hyunjinâs hair.
âAw, Jinnie, but I am. Iâll always come back to you. Youâre all I have.â Hyunjin starts sobbing for real then, and Minho thinks he can even see Changbin blink away some tears. There are more sniffles, whoever is wrapped around his back, he thinks itâs Jeongin, squeezes him harder. From somewhere to the side, he catches Seungminâs eye, then his fist in his arm.
âDonât ever do that again,â Seungmin mumbles. Itâs obvious that he tries to be stern, but the tear escaping his eye betrays him. Minho grins at him, reaches out blindly to ruffle his hair.
Changbin laughs quietly, wipes at his eyes, before he claps his hands. He mumbles something to the effect of âletâs not suffocate himâ and the gaggle around Minho slowly thins until thereâs only Hyunjin in his arms, Jeongin plastered over his back. But eventually, even they are pulled away, Hyunjin by Chan, who lets Hyunjin latch onto his arm and hide his splotchy face in his sleeve3, and Jeongin by Seungmin, but not before Seungmin punches Minhoâs shoulder again.
Minho doesnât resist his disappointment when heâs finally free â he allows himself to feel that he couldâve stayed in that embrace for a lot longer.
But heâs also starting to notice the strange pirates loitering around, a tall, older one currently speaking to the captain, Jisung and Felix, who had found his way to them, glued to Jisungâs free side, hands intertwined, like heâs trying to hold on to him now that the captain stepped back. Like Jisung would disappear again otherwise.
Gently, he steps out of the group of his crew, giving them a gentle smile as he makes his way to the captain. She turns around when she hears his footsteps. When her eyes meet his, she blinks, looks a little disoriented for a split second, before her lips pull into a beautiful smile.
âMin,â she exclaims. A pang of love hits him so hard heâs nearly dizzy. Itâs their nickname, what she breathes into his lips when he kisses her, what she exclaims with her unfairly sexy annoyed voice when he does something stupid and petty. But she had never, ever used it in public, in front of their crew, in front of a stranger, in front of everyone. He wouldâve remembered. God, he wouldâve remembered because it wouldâve given him so much hope.
âMay I introduce you to my captain?â
Her captain. She had mentioned him before, in passing, so briefly she may as well havenât. And Minho hadnât pried, had taken all the little pieces she had surrendered to him and built himself his own idea. She had to run, the captain took her in, taught her all she knew, given her her ship. He had imagined him serious, tough. Older, maybe a little brittle. He tries to reconcile this idea with the tall, older man in front of her. Heâs dressed in all black and does look strong, and like he can be tough, but heâs smiling. He also wears the same uncanny expression in his intelligent eyes that the captain gets when sheâs analysing him.
Minho steps forward, stiffly, tries his best to smile at the man, who studies him carefully. He gives a calculated, stiff bow.
âLee Minho,â he offers, âthe captainâs second in command.â
The tall pirate keeps his eyes on him, bores his gaze into Minhoâs and Minho finds himself wishing stupidly, desperately for him to approve of him.
âRecently come back from the dead?â
Minho grimaces, but nods.
âWell,â the strange captain says with a gentle smile, âyour crew filled your shoes well while you were gone.â
Minho blinks, but the stranger just laughs. Itâs not an unkind laugh, but Minho finds himself bristling against his will. Felix throws him a look. He hates to be reminded of what he missed; The stranger, the captainâs former captain, a whole crew she probably knows, a whole lifetime without Minho, and now also two weeks of her, without him, without Jisung. He hates not knowing what happened, hates that she felt whatever she felt, and he wasnât there to hold her through it, take some of it onto himself, anything to ease her pain.
The stranger nods at the captain.
âIâll take my men, and weâll see what we can find of value in this piece of shitâs house.â
â1542,â Jisung says. The strange captain whips around to him, raises an eyebrow.
Jisung shrugs with a lopsided smirk that is so infuriatingly hot it makes Minho want to kiss it off him. Jisung loops a casual arm around the captainâs waist.
âThe combination to the safe in his office. Itâs where he keeps most of his gold. There and in the top drawer of the armoire in the master bedroom. It has a false bottom.â
The man regards Jisung for a second, then bellows out a laugh.
âThank you, Mr Han.â
Jisung grimaces, waves him off.
âPlease, just ⌠Jisung.â
The stranger sticks out his hand to Jisung, who shakes it proudly.
âWell, Jisung, Iâll make sure to buy you a drink in thanks later.â
Then, he turns to the captain.
âBecause Iâm sure there will be a celebration of what you have achieved here today.â
He gives the captain a wink.
âAnyway, you will excuse me.â
The captain nods, bows almost imperceptibly as the stranger walks off, waves to some of his crew to follow him into the house.
As soon as theyâre alone, Felix sighs out and turns to the captain, who finds his gaze almost immediately. He watches quietly as Felix and the captain fall into each otherâs arms, Felix wordlessly hooks his chin over the captainâs shoulder and closes his eyes. He rocks her back and forth soothingly, rubs a palm over her back, and she squeezes him back almost desperately. The stab of jealousy in his chest comes before he can stop it and remind himself that she ⌠loves him. She loves him.
âItâs over now,â Felix whispers to her, and he sounds happy, but he also sounds ⌠tired. Minho meets Jisungâs eyes, catches him also watching Felix and the captain with big, unblinking eyes.
And even when Felix steps back and the captain smiles at him and calls for the crew so they can make their way into the house â itâs like he suddenly canât stop noticing how almost imperceptibly, but undeniably, everyone had changed. The bags under Felixâs eyes, the way he looks a little thinner than he did before as he follows behind the captain, who leads them into the house. Right behind Changbin, unshakeable, strong Changbin, who also looks so incredibly tired. Pale and nervous, an edge to his voice when he tells Felix to stay behind him, to be careful, one hand stretched out protectively in his direction, despite the relative safety of the house now that the rest of Han Yujunâs men are long gone, flown into the woods or to the harbour, or slaughtered by the waiting mob.
Hyunjin behind him is still sniffling, and thereâs no indication of him stopping. Chan walks next to him, deep bags under his own eyes, his hand ready at the small of Hyunjinâs back as if heâs ready to catch him anytime.
Minho walks right behind the captain, Jisung by his side. He canât, doesnât want to allow himself to be any more than a single step behind her at all times. His good eye scans every room, every doorway, every single bend dark corner of the house, laser focused on anything that could possibly go wrong because the mere thought of losing her now ⌠He canât even bear the thought.
I love you, Min. The words play in his head over and over again, her voice so broken, yet so gentle, so full of sunshine and warmth and conviction as she said the words he had told himself he could live without ever hearing. And he told her he loved her, too, of course he did, because there was never a single shred of doubt in his mind about that. But itâs not enough. He hasnât said everything else yet. So many years of his devotion, bottled up in his bruised, stretched out heart, ready to burst forth. Heâs always been ready, but now heâs finally allowed to love her, her who has consumed his entire being, who is the best, kindest, strongest person he has ever met âŚ
She who looks so, so fragile right now. Her voice is still clear and strong and full of authority as she gives her orders, her mind clear and her decisions immediate, but something about her is off. Maybe itâs just because he knows her so well, but her eyes look tired, and he can see how her shirt hangs more loosely on her tense shoulders. Thereâs also a tremor in her hand that wasnât there before, and it drives him crazy. His fingertips burn with the need to touch her, to hold her hand until it stops shaking, to pull her into his arms, to get Jisung within reach again, to touch, and protect and love, God, love them with everything he has because heâs been a fool to ever think he was made for anything else. And he knows itâs safe now, he knows itâs over, but his body didnât seem to get the memo because his body is thrumming with unnamed anxiety that makes him feel sick to his stomach.
He tries to catch Jisungâs eyes, but he slips away from him, the captain ordering him downstairs, to retrieve the papers from the secret stash he talked about. Jisung goes, though clearly unwillingly, flanked by Hyunjin and Chan, and with it goes the last shred of Minhoâs sanity.
And then Minho is alone with the senseless dread buzzing in his veins. He remains stationed by the door, eyes glued to the hallway, ears straining for any sign of danger and deaf to anything else the captain and the crew say. He curses the fact that his eye is fucked, that he didnât turn away when he should have because now heâs completely blind to anything happening on his left side, and itâs risky.
The thought alone makes his heartbeat thud in his ears so loudly that it makes every creak of the old house sound deafeningly loud and yet not loud enough, like heâs constantly one step behind, missing something crucial, like someone could jump out where he canât see them or come barreling down the hallway, gun in hand, and he wouldnât be able to judge how far away they are and fail to stop them and âŚ
He only snaps out of it when theyâre back outside in the setting sun, regrouping on the trampled grass of the now deserted yard, and Felix pulls him aside.
âBreathe,â Felix murmurs, squeezes Minhoâs arm gently, then firmer, when Minho doesnât respond, until Minho finally gulps down a breath of air, tears his eyes away from where he hadnât even realised they were glued to the captain. He meets Felixâs worried gaze.
âShit, sorry,â Minho mumbles, blinks. He tries to take a step back, but Felix doesnât let him. His grip is firm and grounding. âSorry, I donât know why Iâm freaking out now. We won, didnât we âŚâ
Felix chuckles softly. He looks tired again. He rubs Minhoâs arm comfortingly.
"Thereâs no timeline for this kind of stuff, Minho.â
Minho watches the captain a ways off, as she scribbles down the combination to the safe in her office so Jeongin can take the evidence back to the ship and stow it away safely. Felix follows his gaze.
âSheâs okay.â
Minho shakes his head. He wants to shield his concern in something less vulnerable, but he doesnât have the strength to find any fake words, so he just asks.
âWas it bad?â
Felix looks at him, eyes searching his for a few seconds before he sighs.
He tells him about it all, then, as they make their way away from Han Yujunâs house, down the loud, winding streets, filled with locals and children who run from house to house, cheer and celebrate and run to bring them gifts, ones they try to deny but canât because they insist, tears of gratitude in their eyes.
The air of celebration can do nothing to soothe the lancing, aching pain that blooms in Minhoâs chest when Felix finally tells him everything he had been so desperate to hear, though Minho can tell heâs sparing him the most gruesome details. Minho lets him; Heâs more fragile than he cares to admit. Felix tells him how, when they heard the gunshot, the captain had screamed and screamed, that it had felt like she would never stop, before she collapsed into a feverish daze, mumbling and sobbing so hard she could barely walk. Tells him, with reverence, how gently Chan had picked her up, cooed sweet nothings to her as he held her, rocked her back and forth in an effort to stop her from crying. How pale Jeongin had been as he said that she shouldnât be alone, that he could stay with her, but how Seungmin had stepped forward to tell him not to be stupid, that they needed their lookout and their lookout needed rest, and how Felix had volunteered without even thinking, suggesting Jisungâs empty cot in his cabin for her to rest.
Felix paints so vivid a picture, itâs like Minho can see them all walk down the stairs, a quiet procession following Chan, with the captain in his arms, none of them ready to leave each other after what happened. He can picture them waiting outside, consoling each other, can see Chan gently place her on her feet in Felixâs cabin, Jeongin stepping forward, speaking softly, tears in his eyes as he takes her heavy boots and coat off, combs her hair carefully before he guides her into bed. And it hurts him so much it briefly blinds him.
He stumbles, and Felixâs hand shoots out, wraps around his arm immediately.
âMinho? Are you okay?â he asks, concern laced into his deep voice. Minho nods blindly, motions for him to go on.
âAre you sure? Do you really want me to continue?â
Minho nods again.
âI ⌠need to know,â he says, forces his voice to steady and his gaze to meet Felixâs. Because he does. He canât stand not knowing.
So Felix takes Minhoâs hand, and he tells him about how she had calmed down slightly with the smell of Jisung lingering around her, but how Felix had refused to leave her. How he had spent that night with her, and how they had found their way back into Jisungâs cot night after night afterwards, how they cried in each otherâs arms. How the whole crew had made a meticulous plan, swallowing their own pain as best as they could so that even when the captain came to, marched onwards, set her jaw and steeled herself and kept going, on and on to Han Yujunâs demise, she never had to be alone. And God, their pain. Felix just keeps talking, how Changbin wasnât able to keep his food down for three days after it happened until Chan started cutting all his meals so small it was basically mush. How drunk Jeongin got one night, threatening to throw himself off the top until Seungmin, fear of heights be damned, climbed up to him and held him through his tears. How Felix was barely able to keep himself on his feet for long enough to cook for them all, but how every day, there were at least 4 of them that found their way into the kitchen, taking Felixâ every order, helping him chop vegetables and stir potatoes and ensured there would be dinner on the table.
Minhoâs chest feels like itâs ready to burst. Itâs not like he thought the crew didnât care about him but â he knows what heâs like. He knows heâs callous and short-tempered. He says things he doesnât mean and lashes out instead of talking about what bothers him. Most days, he figured, the only reason they kept him around was because he was good with a sword, because he protected them. And he was fine with that.
But now, with Felixâs small hand in his, his tired eyes vouching for the truth of all the pain Minhoâs supposed death had caused â Minho realises that maybe, just maybe, heâs more loved than he thought. And the knowledge threatens to overwhelm him.
And then thereâs the captain, the crew. How closely they all stuck together, cared for each other, picked up the slack whenever one of them couldnât go on any more. He knew they were strong together, but God, despite it all, the captain, the crew â none of them had been truly alone.
Felix looks at him with a soft smile.
âYou wouldâve been proud,â he sighs, and Minho wonders if somewhere along the way he learned how to read minds. âChan and Changbin took turns sleeping at night, so one of the could stand guard at our door, even while we were at sea. Just in case we needed anything. Hyunjin and Chan refused to leave her side, even when the strange captain glared at them when he was trying to talk to her.â
Minho opens his mouth, but no words come. Itâs like he has been wrung dry, and what he does feel is too much, too big for words now. He blinks at Felix with tears beading in his lashes.
âWe really need you, Min,â Felix mumbles, quietly, ânot just the captain needs you, not just Jisung. We all do. It nearly killed us when we thought we lost you.â
Minho chokes out a laugh, and before he can overthink it, he pulls Felix into a hug. Felix yelps in surprise, but he wraps his lithe arms around Minhoâs middle and squeezes hard.
âThanks, Lix,â he mumbles, âfor ⌠for everything.â For taking care of her. For loving him. For loving all of them. For being a part of the crew. All of that and more is what he wants to say, but he canât get it out.
Felix wraps his arm tighter around Minho, nuzzles his nose into his shoulder, and Minho canât help but smile.
âThanks for coming back,â he mumbles back.
Minho pulls back, chuckles awkwardly as he wipes some stray tears away. Felix grins at him.
âWho knew you could be so soft, hm?â
Minho rolls his eyes, cuffs him in the shoulder so hard Felix squeaks, and keeps walking.
âOr I guess I know who knows âŚâ Felix sing-songs, puts a little skip in his step, dodges Minhoâs next playful fist, âtwo people, to be exact.â
Minhoâs blush races up to the tips of his ears embarrassingly quickly.
âShut up âŚâ he mumbles. Itâs looming, but he canât handle thinking about the implications of everyone knowing about them right now.
âItâs okay, Min,â Felix hums, and throws an arm around his shoulders. Theyâre approaching a tavern at the end of the street, golden light streaming through its windows into the already golden light of the waning day, the gaggle of people, men, women, children, that has been following them through town, having only grown, and now weaving together with the crowd already waiting in front of the tavern, waving them in with loud cheers.
Felix nudges his shoulder with his own.
âBefore it all went down, when Jisung disappeared into the captainâs quarters every day ⌠Hyune and I ⌠well, we may have spoken to the crew. Primed them, let them know just how serious things might get between you three.â
Minhoâs ears burn hotter. He wants to hide.
âFor all you knew, it couldâve just been a casual thing. A temporary thing.â
Felix scoffs, raises an eyebrow that makes Minhoâs ears burn hotter.
âAs if anything could ever be casual with you and the captain involved. Everyone can see it every time you look at each other. And then they could see it when you looked at Jisung.â
Minho cringes, tries to shake Felix off again, but he just grins, clearly very pleased with himself.
âDonât worry about it! Hyune and I were able to clear up some questions, get them used to the idea. They were a little weirded out about the idea at first, but now nothing stands in your way.â
âGet them used to the idea of what exactly?â Minho asks, cautiously, his heart beating in his throat. Felix shrugs, casually, almost carelessly, as if nothing could break his mood now.
âWhatever you want it to be. You and the captain, the captain and Jisung, hell, you and Jisung.â
Minho looks at him, and it must be written all over his face because Felix throws his head back and laughs. Minho blushes hard, groans.
âIâm sorry, I shouldnât mess with you after the day youâve had. And with your fucked up eye and all. Yes, Min, also you and the captain and Jisung ⌠all together, the three of you, in whatever arrangement.â
Minho lets out a shaky breath, shaking his head.
âI donât ⌠I donât think I can even think about that right now,â he mumbles, more to himself than to Felix, but Felix just nods, drags him faster towards the tavern.
âThen donât! Letâs just celebrate tonight! Let go, let loose. With the knowledge that theyâre yoursâ â
He stops, gives Minho a look.
âThey are yours, right? Because the captain and Jisung âŚâ
Minho canât help the crooked grin that slips into his lips. Felix squeals, slips his cold hands into Minhoâs.
âGod, Iâm so happy for you. Weâve all been waiting for this day for so long, you have no idea!â
Heâs beaming so wide that the last of Minhoâs resolve melts easily. Felix laughs, turns and tugs Minho closer to the tavern doors.
âAnd all the more reason to celebrate!â he yells before he drags him through the doors.
As soon as they step into the tavern, theyâre welcomed with cheers and drinks on the house by the barkeep, who immediately uncorks a whole barrel of rum and sends the boy for the local band to come and play music. Minho watches as the captain gets whisked away into the crowd of people and is about to follow her when someone slings an arm over his shoulder and drags him to the bar. He loses sight of Felix immediately.
âSheâll be okay by herself for a moment, Minho,â Changbin laughs, rum already heavy on his breath. âLetâs get you a drink and make a toast!â
Hyunjin and Chan are already at the bar, greeting Minho with a chuckle when they see him throwing looks at the captain, and he blushes too deeply. The fact that they know about it all is still ⌠something Minho has to get used to.
Changbin motions to the barkeep, who slides two glasses of rum over to them. Changbin doesnât waste any time, shoves one into Minhoâs hand.
âTo you and Jisung coming back from the dead!â
âWe didnât âŚâ
Chan claps Minho on the back so hard, he nearly chokes on his spit.
âWe thought you were! For two whole weeks! We had to scrape our captain off the floor, too. So for all intents and purposes, for us, you came back from the dead!â
Minho grimaces, feels a prickle of anxiety on the back of his neck and he turns again. The captain is on the other side of the tavern, surrounded by locals and other pirates who are talking to her. Thereâs a drink in her hand and Minho wonders if someone got it for her, if itâs safe.
A man comes up to her, tears in his eyes, stuttering and stumbling over his words as he thanks her. Minho can see her tense shoulders, her helpless hands, the sheer disbelief on her features as she tries to calm him down. When another man comes up to shake her hand, loudly praising her as their saviour, he can see her neck flush harder. The anxiety alleviates a little, and he canât help the small smile that pulls at his lips. She deserves this.
Hyunjin nudges him, draws his attention back to them, and nods at his glass.
He feels himself blush, but ignores it. He raises his glass with an exaggerated, fake sigh.
âAlright then, to me and Jisung coming back from the dead!â
Hyunjin, Chan and Changbin raise their glasses with a cheer.
âWe came back from the dead?â Jisungâs voice comes from behind Minho.
When he turns around, there he is, with Felix, Jeongin and Seungmin in tow, appearing in front of Minho like a vision of honeyed, glistening skin and happiness. The smile on his face is unreal, and Minho wonders, not for the first time, and definitely not the last, how he does it, when Minhoâs heart feels like itâs struggling against the weight of the years every time it beats.
He effortlessly threads his arm into Minhoâs, rests his fingers on his wrist. Minhoâs ears burn hotter, the embarrassment and affection mixing into a dangerous cocktail of feelings.
Hyunjin sighs dramatically and leaves Chanâs side, only to collapse into Jisungâs free side, letting his head drop onto his shoulder.
âYou have no idea what we went through when the captain came back without you. She nearly went out of her mind when she had to leave you behind.â
Jisungâs lips pull into a pout.
âI told her it would be fine âŚâ
Minho scoffs. Pain lances through him. Regret.
âI did, too. She didnât like that.â
He can still hear her sobbing, gasping for breath behind a locked door that he was about to kick down when Changbin found him and dragged him away.
Seungmin sends him a glare.
âYou were being an asshole about it,â he quips, âand you were clearly worried, you were white as a sheet. You were just trying to play it off.â
Jisung scrapes his nails over the sensitive skin of Minhoâs wrist, and Minho shivers.
âAw, were you worried about me? Thatâs so sweet, Minho,â he singsongs, a teasing smile on his lips. Minho glares at him now, though he knows his eyes hold no edge. He long lost the ability to be rough to Jisung.
âDumbass,â he grumbles, nonetheless, "of course I was. Youâre not known for your sense of self-preservation.â
Jisung huffs, but his pout quirks up at the edges. Thereâs a dangerous glint in his eyes.
âWell, thank God I have such a strong pirate to protect me then,â he coos, nudges Minho, flutters his eyelashes up at him, so cutely Minho has to narrow his eyes by force, lest he melt on the spot. There was only one thing that flustered him more than Han Jisung, pettily and pointlessly angry at him, and that was Jisung, so brazenly, saucily flirting with him.
âYou guys are disgustingly cute, even without the captain,â Jeongin sighs, âwhat even happened? How did you manage to find each other before we did?â
Minho sighs.
âItâs a long story.â
He empties his rum in one long drag and motions for the bartender to bring him another. Jisungâs fingers slip in between his, his thumb rubs over the back of his hand. Minho feels love singe him from the inside. He wants so badly.
âWhen they took me, after they made me kneel there and shot into the sky to make you believe I was dead, they dragged me into their hold and who do I see? Jisung, with a split lip, blood caked into his shirt, sulking in one of the cells. He nearly had a heart attack when he saw me, thought he was concussed, and I was a hallucination. And also nearly gave us away by getting too excited.â
âExcited?!â Jisung exclaims, indignant, âI was kidnapped, ready to be shipped back to my uncle to be killed and probably actually concussed because I broke Trottâs nose, and they beat me up, and in you walk, half your face smashed in, covered in blood. You scared the shit out of me!â
Minho canât help the fondness that seeps into his eyes.
âI guess I looked pretty bad âŚâ
âNo offence to your gorgeous face, but you looked awful. I was so worried your eye was going to get infected,â Jisung says, pouting again.
Minho shrugs.
âSo then we spent about a week locked in there, pretending not to know each other whenever someone came to check on us. Though in reality, we spent every waking second plotting our escape for when we were in Han Yujunâs cells. Jisung, once again, saving our asses with his incredible memory and the knowledge of his uncleâs business.â
Jisung straightens, preens under the praise. Thereâs a glint of pride in his eyes.
âMy uncle has always been a cheapskate. I figured pretty much anything could pick the cheap locks on his basement cells, as long as it was long and thin enough. And conveniently enough, the cots we were sleeping on were just old wooden crates, with all sizes of nails hammered into them.â
Minho hums, turns back to their audience.
âBut we knew that if we just escaped, we would likely not make it very far. And we knew it was only a matter of time before you would arrive.â
âHow could you be so sure? Did you know we thought you were dead?â
Minho falters for the briefest moment.
âI figured nothing would stop the captain from completing her lifeâs mission. Especially not just my death.â
âJust your death?â Changbin breathes out in disbelief. Hyunjin is staring at Minho almost angrily and Minho regrets his choice of words immediately. âMinho, the mission was the only thing keeping us going. Without that, who knows what would have happened. Chan and I were so wired, we only slept alternate nights, taking turns to sit guard to sit in front of Felixâs cabin.â
The pain blooms again, and Jisung stiffens next to him.
âFelixâs cabin?â he asks quietly, a nameless worry in his voice.
Minhoâs heart aches.
âThe captain and I ⌠slept in your bed. Every night,â Felix says, quietly, sheepishly, blushing a deep red, more embarrassment than shame.
Minho watches closely as Jisung freezes, blinks â watches his bottom lip quiver as the knowledge sinks in.
âWe couldnât leave her alone, and it was the only thing that calmed her down because seeing Minhoâs things in her own cabin made her break down â and Felix just ⌠refused to leave her after that first night,â Chan explains hastily. Jisungâs bottom lip quivers harder. The revelation that Minhoâs things made her break down aches deep in Minhoâs bones.
With a choked up little sob, Jisung lets go of his arm and throws himself into Felixâs arms, who catches him readily, and wraps him into a tight hug.
âLix,â Jisung howls, squeezes Felix harder, â Lix that is so ⌠how ⌠why ⌠oh my god.â
Felix laughs sadly, rubs a hand over Jisungâs back. When Jisung pulls back, Felix gives Minho a look.
âI didnât know if you were alive. Hope wasnât really ⌠well, I pretended to have it, because the captain didnât have any, and I felt like she needed a reason to keep going, but really ⌠I didnât dare hope, either.â
Changbin sighs, Hyunjinâs face darkens.
âKeeping the captain from doing something stupid was a full-time job,â he mumbles, and for a brief second, Minho feels his world almost spin out of control. He turns again, scans over the crowd until he finds her, animatedly talking to a woman with a child on her hip, the babyâs meaty little fingers wrapped around the captainâs thumb, the captainâs eyes sparkling as she coos at the little thing. As if the captain could feel his gaze on her, she turns, finds him effortlessly. Thereâs a pretty little blush. Her eyelids flutter, ever so slightly. Then she smiles.
A ripple of cheers runs through the tavern, but Minho holds the captainâs gaze for a second, as if to reassure himself that sheâs alive, before he turns back around.
It doesnât take long to identify the reason for the commotion. The tall, strange pirate commanding everyoneâs attention when he walks in surrounded by his crew. The tavern, already full enough to burst, becomes louder and more raucous yet. And it seems that with the pirates, the band arrived, because only a few minutes later, the first notes of a jig sound from somewhere on the other side of the tavern and a cheer runs through the crowd.
The barkeep appears in front of them then, slides another round of rum towards them with a toothy grin.
âFrom the tall fellaâ, over there,â he yells over the noise, âthough I did tell âim it was all free âa charge tonight anyways. But he said it was the principle of thâ thing.â
When Minho lifts his eyes, he meets the strange captainâs eyes. He grins at them, lifts his hat in greeting, and bows lightly to Jisung, who blushes and bows back.
âGuess your advice was good,â Minho laughs, pulls Jisung back into his side, revels in the way he willingly wraps his arm around his waist. He hands Jisung one of the drinks, and they all cheers, loudly, Minho and Jisung raising their glasses over to the stranger and the men of his crew around him.
âSo,â Jeongin asks, once their drinks are emptied, âI still wanna know. How did you end up escaping?â
âWe waited until we heard two of the guards on duty to watch us talk about a privateer ship docking at the harbour,â Minho explains, âthough in hindsight that was probably whoever that is over there. Then I picked the locks, took care of those sorry excuses Han Yujun hired for his guards, got Jisung out, and we split up. Took the fight to them, one by one, until you arrived to back us up.â
âWe arrived at least an hour, if not two, after the other crew,â Seungmin observes, narrows his eyes at Minho, âhow could you have possibly held them off for 2 hours?â
Minho feels his own neck burn up, but the rum in his blood has long made itself known, injecting him with more confidence than he would usually have.
âWell, maybe we didnât leave to fight them immediately âŚâ he hums. He tries hard not to sound too cocky about it, but itâs hard when he can feel Jisung squirm against him, and the memory of him basically jumping him as soon as he unlocked the door is still more than fresh in his memory.
Seungmin stares at him for a beat, then recoils with a disgusted scoff.
âUgh, fucking gross,â he grunts and motions for the bartender to get him another drink. The tips of his ears are bright pink.
âStill risky, though,â Chan comments, seemingly already moved on from Minhoâs dirty revelation, âtiming it like that.â
Minho shrugs.
âYou did take longer than expected and threw us off when talk of the second privateer ship got around in the house, but it was only a matter of time.â
Changbin shakes his head, reaches over and slaps Minho over the back of the head so hard, Minho actually flinches.
âFucking dumbass,â he grumbles, âfucking risking your life like that. Again.â
A happy little laugh bubbles out of Jisungâs chest, before he protectively pulls Minho out of Changbinâs grasp and slaps at Changbinâs hands.
âStop attacking my strong pirate bodyguard!â he squeals, with a fake scowl, âI will not hesitate to kick you in the shin again!â
That pulls a laugh out of all of them, even Changbin, who narrows his eyes, plays along readily.
âWell, the captainâs not here, so this time, I will kick back,â he yells, throws a dramatic fist into the air and Felix nearly falls off his barstool giggling.
Minho feels himself speak before he can stop himself.
âThen Iâd kick you right back, I have sworn to protect this idiot, after all.â
Thereâs a brief moment of silence. Hyunjin stares at him, and Minhoâs heart rockets into his throat, suddenly painfully aware of just how out of character his little joke had just been. But then Hyunjinâs eyes crease up, and he giggles, and the spell is broken. Minho breathes a sigh of relief.
Jisung turns, wraps his arm tighter around Minhoâs waist and looks up at him with a theatrical gasp.
âBut Iâm your idiot, right?â
Minho canât help but roll his eyes.
âIsnât that supposed to be my line, not something you call yourself?â
Jisung pouts, blinks up at him, and heâs so, so gorgeous it makes Minhoâs head spin a little.
âWell, if you wonât do it, I have to take the initiative,â he exclaims and Minho rolls his eyes again, but he lets his hand splay over the small of Jisungâs back, lets his fingers whisper over the sliver of exposed skin there. Jisung stares back at him, eyes softening until Minho thinks he could drown in them.
But theyâre painfully interrupted by Felix, pulling Jisung right out of Minhoâs grasp.
âOkay, enough lovey-dovey shit from you two, my best friend just came back to life, I want to celebrate!â
He drags Jisung towards the middle of the room where people have moved the tables aside to form a haphazard dance floor, and Jisung goes willingly, with an apologetic smile to Minho, who swallows his irritation and just sighs.
He sticks around with the others for a while, has another drink that makes his body hum and his vision fuzzy, listens to Chan tell him about the terrified kitchen staff they had found holed up in Han Yujunâs pantry earlier today, who barely allowed them to help them out the door before they ran, and watches as Jisung and Felix dance, arms thrown over each otherâs shoulders, swaying their hips, pivoting each other away from prying eyes and strange, wandering hands, giggling and laughing.
But his gaze returns again and again to the captain. After watching her float through the room, thanked and congratulated and celebrated over and over again, it seems that she has finally found a moment of rest.
Sheâs by herself, sat in front of an open window, on the back of a heavy wooden bench that doubles as a windowsill. Her posture suggests a calm that Minho has rarely seen in her outside of her own quarters, let alone somewhere as public like as a tavern. Sheâs leaning back against the window frame, head leaning against the thick wood, her eyes lazily roving over the crowd. Thereâs a soft smile on her lips, a glass of rum dangling from her elegant fingers. The tip of her boot sways to the beat of the music.
And heâs struck again just how breathtakingly beautiful she is. And how much sheâs like nobody else he has ever met. He could call it charisma, or confidence, or authority, but it all seems too simple a word for the energy that radiates from her. He has had the privilege to see her in so many forms â at her best, at the helm of the ship, of her crew, her eyes sparkling with determination, a calculated violence and ruthlessness guiding her always skilled, always steady hands. The flip side of it, her other best, when she turns around at the mere sound of one of them getting hurt, defending every single one of her crew like theyâre her own flesh and blood. The same care and love for every single human being when she finds people who are hurt, when she finds new recruits. The way she looks at them and seems to see in them more than anyone else can. Her innate ability to see the best and the worst in people, but most importantly, to see their fears and their potential. Like the day they picked up Felix, and the captain wrapped him in her coat, guided him back to the ship with a soothing hand on his back. Like the day they captured Jisung, and somehow, she saw through everything that set off the alarm bells in Minhoâs head so badly he hated his guts for weeks.
And then the side of her only he got to see. Soft, desperate, needy. Her usually steady hands trembling against his skin, pulling at his wrists to get him closer, whispering about how much she needed him. The words, despite their context, never failing to make him reel. Or when she was underneath him, eyes fluttered shut, body beautifully bared to him and only him, entrusted to him because she knew he would keep her safe, would do anything for her. Her pleasure, his charge. His privilege to give her.
And even the darker moments, the ones he coveted quietly, a sick sort of pride in the knowledge that they were also his to keep. The occasional flickers of doubt, the shadows of fear. The darkness that would cloud her eyes sometimes, seemingly out of nowhere, that made her body unnaturally still, her breathing catch in her throat. The moments she hid from everyone because she thought they would make her less ⌠less what, Minho wonders. Less of a leader? Less trustworthy? Less strong? Less lovable? As if these werenât the moments that solidified for Minho, more than any others, that this was someone he would follow until the ends of the earth. Someone he would break his own heart over again and again and again, if it meant he was able to stay in her orbit. Her magical, addictive orbit, one he could never resist. One, he thinks, he will find himself in in his next life, and the one after that, and the one after that â if something like that exists. Maybe if he ever meets Ryujin again, he can ask her if it does.
Maybe itâs her orbit that draws him over to her now, pushing through the crowd, drawn in by her energy until she spots him, smiles at him, straightens up only enough to stretch an arm towards him.
He lets himself reach for her, too, lets his fingers intertwine with hers, lets himself be pulled closer, onto the back of the bench with her, until he can feel her leg press against his, and heâs right back in her orbit, her energy prickling through his veins and the smell of her hair in his nose.
Slowly, carefully, dancing the same sweet, covert dance they have played so many times before, he lets his leg rest agains hers. And despite it all, despite how many times theyâve done this, despite the three magical words that have so easily dripped from her lips earlier, his heart skips an uneven beat when she leans hers against his. He wonders if he could ever get used to it.
âI canât believe we did it,â she hums, quietly.
He looks over at her, finds her still looking into the crowd of raucous, drunken people, before she turns to him and smiles. âI canât believe we actually did it.â
Minho remembers all the years they spent, all the frustration and the setbacks and the pain when they lost again and again and again. The year they got so close before he eluded them again, when she locked him out of her quarters for an entire week. The time when they only narrowly eluded the coast guard that Han Yujun had sicced on them. The year they didnât elude it, and they had to break Changbin out of jail.
But, his body also unhelpfully reminds him now, with her leg pressed against his, the sound of her voice telling him she loved him still warm and honeyed in his ears, of the year after that, the small victory of uncovering the drug ring that was funnelling roofies into the brothels of Nassau, when she dragged him into the kitchen while everyone was in the common area celebrating and kissed him so hard and demanding he felt his blood rush to his cock in record time before she sank to her knees, right there, where anyone couldâve walked in. He had never gotten over the headrush of it, her readiness to let him have his way with her almost in public. The closest thing to her love he thought he could ever have. But now here he was. He forces his mind out of the gutter, his gaze back to the dancers. He sees Felixâs blonde mop of head jumping around somewhere in the back.
The captain hands him her drink and he takes a sip.
âI always knew we would, eventually,â he offers, tries to get the conversation back on track because he finds he misses her voice already. She sighs.
"I mean, I guess I did, too, but it took so long, and we failed so many times, and then we lost all the evidence and ⌠I just really thought it might never happen.â
She leans forward, rests her chin in her hand, her elbow on her leg.
âI guess I thought that maybe it just wasnât meant to be, you know. That we werenât strong enough, not smart enough, didnât want it enough. That we never stood a chance.â
Minho scoffs, turns back to her, and finds himself so close to her, he can smell the rum on her breath. Desire rushes through him so fast it almost makes him dizzy. Desire and love, though the two have always been intertwined when it comes to her.
âCaptain,â he murmurs, watches her eyelids flutter, gaze dropping down to his lips so briefly he thinks he imagined it, âyou were always strong enough. It was only a matter of time. For fate to finally help us find the last piece of the puzzle. I never doubted it would be you who finally took him down.â
He watches her fluster, her eyes waver, fall down to the floor, her lashes fanning over her cheeks like they do when sheâs asleep. One separates, comes to rest on her cheekbone. He reaches out, brushes it away softly. Her skin under his fingertips drives him crazy.
She smiles at him, briefly leans into his touch, before her attention is drawn back into the room, where the music comes to a stuttering halt and someone stumbles his way through the crowd and onto a chair in the middle of the room. A chuckle runs through the room when he nearly tumbles onto the floor.
Minho nearly laughs out loud when he sees itâs Kim Seungmin. He tries again and this time, Seungmin manages to climb up and stand tall over the crowd. And despite his flushed cheeks and uneven feet, he finds the captain immediately. His voice, too, is surprisingly stable.
âIâm a little bit drunk, and Iâm sure everyone who knows me will never let me live this down for as long as I live, but I have something I wanted to say,â he begins. The room quiets down to listen.
âNot many of you know this, actually, because I have never told the story and because, frankly, nobody has ever asked, but I have been with the captain since the very first day. I met her the day she stumbled onto our former captainâs ship,â he says, with a bow in the direction of where Minho can see the strange pirateâs hat tower over everyone.
Through his own surprise, his confusion as he tries to puzzle out how none of them had ever asked, watches Hyunjinâs mouth fall open on the other side of the room, hears San yell out a âwhat the fuck, Seungmin!â that makes the crowd chuckle. Seungmin just shrugs and lifts his hand, and the room quiets down again. Minhoâs almost impressed with how well he handles the crowd.
âYears later, when she picked me to go with her when our captain gave her her ship, I went willingly. And I still remember the first night on the new ship like it was yesterday. Just her, me, and three other crew mates from the Captainâs crew, sailing into the unknown on a ship that was too big for us to realistically man. The uncertainty. The doubts. But then dawn broke, and she rallied us all into the kitchen, sat us down, brewed us coffee and scrambled some eggs and told us her plan for recruitment, for money, for how she wanted to refurbish the common room we all know and love today, everything, like she hadnât slept at all that night and just figured it out. She told me then, on that very first day, that she wanted me to be her navigator. And mind you, I had never told anyone about my interest in cartography, in navigation, only sneaking books from land, and drawing in my spare time, in whatever corner of the ship I could hide when I wasnât on swabby duties. But the captain had noticed.â
Minho turns to the captain next to him, who is watching Seungmin with rapt attention, a deep blush on her soft cheeks, eyes wide and lips slightly parted. She looks younger than she ever has, and he canât help but wonder if this is how she looked when Seungmin met her. If her face looked very different when she was younger. If she had worn her hair differently back then. Not for the first time, he wishes he couldâve been there. It makes him almost jealous of Seungmin.
âAnd of course I said yes, so I became her navigator and have since sailed our ship over more miles than I can count. I watched her dedication to goodness from the very first day, when we picked up that old drunk in a dinghy that threw up all over the deck, and she wanted to clean it up, but we refused to let her and drew lots instead. I lost.â
Seungmin grimaces, and the captain does, too. A loud laugh runs through the audience.
âI could talk for hours about her. The obvious, like her fighting skills, her intelligence, her courage, her leadership. But also about her staring evil in the face and still choosing the good every time. And her ability to make split second decisions that determine life or death, and coming out on the side of life every time. And you know what? As cheesy as it sounds, I think that is her real power.â
Seungmin sweeps his arms to the side, looks over where Hyunjin, Jeongin, Changbin and Chan are watching him, then back to the captain.
âThe captain is a giver of life. Every single one of us has come from dark places. Have lead lives weâre not proud of, or ones weâd rather not remember. We suffered and fought for our survival, and we thought that was all we were ever going to have. And most of us had accepted our lots, and we wouldâve continued on, surviving, until we couldnât. But the captain found us.
âAnd I truly, do not know how she does it. How she saw me, a lanky, cowardly, moody swabby and picked me to come with her, to give me the honour of being her navigator. And Iâve asked myself for years if it was because she saw something in me that I didnât know was there but ⌠Iâve since come to a different conclusion: Itâs her who brought it out of me. Because I wanted to be worthy of the chance.â
Minho hears the captain scoff, but sheâs smiling. She cups her hands over her mouth and shouts âuntrue! You were always destined to be the best cartographer in the seven seas!â
Hyunjin, Chan and Changbin cheer loudly, the crowd laughs.
Seungmin sighs deeply, waves the captain off with a lighthearted scowl.
âSee, ladies and gentlemen, she does it again. But it does remind me that I should get to the point.â
The chuckles ebb down and Seungmin look serious, throws another look to the group around Hyunjin at the bar, then looks at Minho, and then the captain.
âOur captain is more than just our captain. Yes, she leads us, every single day without fail. But even more importantly, she has given us what many of us thought we would never get to have again â another chance. Safety. Autonomy. Purpose. And most importantly.â
Seungmin takes a deep breath, gives the captain the smallest smile.
âShe has given us a family. She is our family. And we know how hard she works, how much she swallows, hides, how much she sacrifices, in order for us not to think her any less strong â something we could never think of her, by the way â and nothing made this clearer than the last two weeks, when not even the death of two people she loved more than anything could keep her down for longer than a day. When she pushed through all her own pain to guide us through ours. She got up every single morning and kept fighting because she knew how much this victory meant to all of us âŚâ
Seungmin breaks off, and Minho swears he can see tears glimmer in his eyes before he blinks them away. Minho hears the captain sniffle beside him, quiet enough for only him to hear. A single tear runs down her cheek.
âSo âŚâ Seungmin croaks out, clears his throat, âwe did the same. We did what she has done for us all of these years, and we swallowed our pain so we could help her through hers. So we could help each other. Because itâs the least we could do to repay her.â
The captain huffs out a wet laugh next to Minho, tears streaming down her face. Something about it is so much more vulnerable than anything Minho had ever seen, it breaks his heart. Gently, he places a hand on her knee, rubs his thumb soothingly. She shakes her head at Seungmin, but Seungmin doesnât budge.
âNo, captain. Without you, none of us would be here. We would be dead or in jail or destitute or criminals. But you have given us something bigger to strive for. And we did it â we rid this world off its biggest leech!â
A cheer goes through the crowd.
âWith the help of our former captain and his formidable crew that we used to call our own,â he says, with another deep bow in their direction that is answered by loud cheers, âwith the help of our own fearless crew, and âŚâ
Seungmin fixes Minho with fake glare.
â⌠the captainâs ever fearless second in command, who can be a massive ass but is unfortunately also one of the best people Iâve ever met and deserves our thanks for protecting us with everything he has for years âŚâ
Minhoâs heart knocks against his ribcage almost painfully. The captainâs fingers thread between his own softly, and squeeze. Right here, next to her, even the attention doesnât feel so bad.
â⌠and Han Jisung, who is the living proof for anyone that your name is not your legacy, and has chosen us from day one. I hope you continue to be ⌠well, whatever your role is on our ship âŚâ
Another loud giggle through the crowd, interrupted by Jisungâs loud yell
âThatâs kitchen assistant, fighter, and the captainâs concubine to you, Kim Seungmin!â
Seungmin grimaces, shoots him an exasperated glare, but he canât hide the smile on his lips. The captain giggles, blushes, squeezes Minhoâs hand harder.
âWell, then I hope you continue to be ⌠all of that ⌠a part of our crew, a part of our family.â
Then Seungmin turns back to the captain and raises his glass.
âBut none of this would have been possible without you, captain. You have made an indelible mark on this world, today. Hereâs to a long, happy life, without any more sacrifices. We could never respect you less. We are incredibly proud to be your crew,â Seungmin closes, a sense of grandiosity in his voice that makes everyone cheer louder, especially the members of their crew. He climbs off the table awkwardly.
The captain is on her feet before Minho can do so much as blink. She threads through the cheering crowd, and Minho follows her almost blindly, seemingly unable to escape her orbit now that he has been drawn into it. As soon as Seungmin is within her reach, the captain tackles him into a tight hug. It takes him a few seconds to compute the sudden presence of her, but then he wraps his arms around her, pulls her against him and squeezes his eyes shut until a tear does escape him.
âSeungminnie,â the captain mumbles, into Seungminâs shoulders, without looking at him, so quietly Minho can barely hear her, âIâ ⌠in the top drawer of my desk. Thereâs a piece of paper. I wrote my will, just in case I wouldnât make it. But it didnât take me long at all. Because there was only one instruction: The ship should belong to Kim Seungmin. I have always known that.â
The sob that wrenches out of Seungminâs chest is so guttural it makes Minhoâs heart physically ache with it, and he watches as he cradles her closer, as Jeongin and Hyunjin and Changbin and Chan make their way over with more rum, crowd around the two until Seungmin finally pushes himself away from the captain and wipes at his eyes with a huff.
âIf any of you make fun of me for this tomorrow, I will kill you,â he grumbles.
Hyunjin scoffs, shakes his head at Seungmin.
âIdiot, we would never make fun of you for saying out loud what we were all too cowardly to say,â he mumbles, hands Seungmin a drink. Seungmin takes it with a grumble, downs half of it in one big draught. Then Hyunjin turns to the captain with a radiant smile, hands her a glass, too, wipes at her tears and giggles and asks her if sheâs alright.
Out of the corner of his eye, Minho watches as Jeongin quietly abandons his spot next to Chan, makes his way around everyone until he can squeeze in next to Seungmin, his chest pressed against Seungminâs arm; Seungmin looks down at him with wide eyes, and Minho can hear his breath hitch when Jeongin gives him the gentlest smile, reaches up, cradles his face in his hands and tenderly wipes Seungminâs tears away. Itâs the smallest moment, but it feels so achingly private, Minho feels like he shouldnât be watching. And itâs over as soon as it happened, though when Jeongin steps back, takes his place next to Seungmin, Minho thinks he can see Seungmin reach out and intertwine their hands between them. He hopes so. He hopes the two of them will finally let themselves be happy.
He turns from them, gives them their privacy, lets himself get swept up by Hyunjin, whoâs passing out drinks, making toast after toast after toast, to the end of Han Yujun, to their victory, to their captain, to Minho and Jisung, who, along with Felix, has finally found his way back to them, coming âback to lifeâ as he says over and over again. Minho sips his drink slowly. He doesnât want to drink tonight. Frankly, he doesnât know if he can. The high of their victory, the gut-wrenching pain of everything it cost, the storm of confusion and love, so much, uncontrollable love â it already scares the living shit out of him. If he drinks now, who knows what he would do. And, really, what does he need a drink for when he has them, right in front of him, smiling and laughing, flushed and beautiful, looking at each other and touching each other subtly and sweetly and so intimately that it makes Minhoâs entire body burn with need.
But heâs patient. Truly, heâs more patient than he thought he could be, makes small talk and lets everyone congratulate him. Lets Jisung and Felix dance some more. Lets the captain and Hyunjin talk and laugh at the corner of the bar. Lets the captain talk to the tall stranger, her captain, whose encouraging words and heavy hand on her shoulder make her blush and bow. But as the night wears on and the party gets louder and everyone around them gets drunker except for them, as everyone gets swept away into the crowd and leaves the three of them there â Minho sees it in her eyes. Glossy and big and beautiful and dark with desire, shivering when Jisungâs hand, lightly, but possessively laying against her nape, threads up and into her hair and scratches gently at her scalp.
They leave without telling anyone; sneak out the door to the tavern, take off running down the street when they hear someone call for them. Their laughter rings through the balmy night air that still holds the scent of a sunny day, the dust under their feet kicks up as they run and run and run, all the way through town, until their feet hit the sand of the beach and they, breathlessly, climb into one of the dinghies and row out.
Itâs a dizzying contrast, the sudden quiet of the night, with only the water lapping against the sides of the boat, the oars hitting the waves.
Minho rows you out, leaving you and Jisung to sit opposite him. Your body feels light as air, like youâre floating above yourself somewhere, and you allow yourself to sink into Jisungâs arms, lean against his solid chest behind you. From where you are, you have a perfect view of Minho, his raven hair glimmering in the moonlight, the muscles in his shoulders straining against his shirt as he rows, the dark eyepatch obscuring one of his eyes. You canât help but mourn it, deep down. His eyes, his beautiful, glimmering, loving eyes, are one of your favourite things about him. But when he looked at you earlier, you realised that it wonât be so different. All the love, the devotion, his soul; itâs still reflected there for you to see. It mustâve hurt, though, you think, and it may still hurt now, but he doesnât let it show. It makes you wonder just how much pain he has swallowed over the years, how much he has been hiding behind the ever-present furrow of his eyebrows that you have long learned has nothing to do with his actual mood. Or so you thought. You decide you will figure this one out in time.
You lean back, further into Jisungâs warmth, into his pine and musk scent, the one youâve been sleeping in through all the pain, the one you never thought you would smell again. The fact that heâs here is still unbelievable to you, a part of you terrified that you will blink and wake up, in Jisungâs cot with Felix glued to your back, and it was all a dream. Absentmindedly, you let your hands splay over Jisungâs thighs, run them up and down, drawing little patterns against the rough material until his breath hitches, trying to convince yourself that this isnât a dream, that itâs real.
You still are when Jisungâs hand finds your jaw, and he leans in, brushes his nose against yours before his eyes flutter shut and he kisses you. And you know that this canât be a dream.
Itâs the sweetest whisper of a kiss, a brush of his lips against yours, perfect reticence and tenderness, even when he presses closer, a little more insistent this time, and then again and again, until your mouth opens for him and Jisung dips down, licks a moan right off your tongue.
You hear Minhoâs movement stall, hear the lewd, wet sound of Jisungâs spit slick lips sliding against yours, feel Jisungâs hands cradle you closer, his tongue dancing with yours until youâre dizzy with want.
You barely notice when the little dinghy comes to a halt, bumps into the side of your ship, until Jisung pulls back, and youâre hauled up and straight into Minhoâs arms. The gaze in his one good eye is penetrating, yet so tender, and you swear you have never needed him, never wanted him as badly as you want him right now. His gaze flutters to your lips, and yours glue to his. You whisper a hoarse âpleaseâ but he shakes his head, turns you around, ushers you up the stairs.
Your fragile, beaten heart doesnât even have the time to panic, to wonder if something had changed, whether kissing Jisung when Minho was right there was wrong, because as soon as Minho swings his legs over the railing, he finds you, sweeps you up into his arms and kisses you, short and sweet and filthy, before he carries you into the ship, Jisung trailing after you with a dopey smile on his lips.
He carries you through the thick wooden door, down the familiar corridor, the way he has done so many times before when the two of you finally managed to steal a moment away from everyone, and it makes tears pool in your eyes at the same time as a laugh bubbles out of your chest. You bury your face in his neck, card your hand through his hair, drag your lips over the skin of his neck until you crash through the door of your quarters.
Itâs pitch dark, but he doesnât need any light to find the way to your bedroom, to push open the door and gently place you down on the foot of your bed. His hands find your face, and you only realise that youâre still crying when the thumbs he smoothes over your cheekbones come away wet.
Jisung stumbles over to you, toes off his boots hurriedly and crawls onto the bed until heâs behind you. He cards his careful, gentle hands through your hair.
âHey,â Minho whispers. His voice is shaky with worry. âY/N, baby, are you okay?â
But you canât respond, the weight of the world sitting so heavy on your chest you think you might collapse under it, the absence of the kraken like a physical ache.
You shake your head. More tears drip down your face, your mouth screwed shut, desperately trying to keep the sobs in, but it just hurts so much.
âShh ⌠itâs okay, my love. Lean back against Sungie for me, okay? Iâll just light some candles,â Minho hums, softly, and makes to step away, but your hand shoots out in a reaction of senseless panic. Minho doesnât force himself away. He comes back easily, gently, cradles your face back in his hands.
âIâll be right back, baby,â he whispers, presses a soft kiss to your forehead. âJust one second.â
Somehow, you manage to nod, let go of his hand, even when your heart is being torn apart because heâs here, heâs really here, taking care of you again. It makes the emptiness, the exhaustion, the pain of the last two weeks stand in such brutal relief that the sob tears out of your chest so hard it jolts Jisung into action.
He half turns you, pulls you into his lap, cradles you so close you can feel his heartbeat against your cheek and you cry. And he holds you.
Pine and musk and sweat and rum. Big, warm hands. A soft voice humming your name, whispering sweet nothings as Minho moves around the room, lights the candles in the sconces until the room is bathed in warm, golden candlelight, and you realise you havenât seen it like this since the day you lost them.
And then Minho is back. Ever so gently, he pulls your shoes off your feet, manoeuvres you until he can tug your dirty, bloodied jacket off you. Carelessly, he throws it into the corner somewhere and comes to kneel in front of you and Jisung, whoâs still holding you closely to his chest, rocking you back and forth soothingly. Minho reaches out, smoothes your messy hair back from your forehead. His touches so tender and careful more tears collect in your eyes, so many you canât blink them away, and they run down your cheeks, collect in Jisungâs sleeve. You stare at Minho and you see your pain reflected in the devastated expression on his face.
âYouâre here âŚâ you whisper, your voice so brittle you barely recognise it, âtaking care of me and everything ⌠I thought you would never be able to ⌠I thought I lost you. Both of you. I thought I was alone.â
You sob again, try to hide your face in Jisungâs chest, who cradles you closer. His chest convulses and you realise heâs crying, too.
âOoooh no no no no, not you, tooâ Minho whines, scoots closer until he can wrap his arms around both of you. Jisung chuckles quietly behind you, then sniffles. He hugs you closer, rubs his hand up and down your arm. Minhoâs fingers are still soothingly running over your hair.
âEverythingâs okay,â he murmurs, quietly, lets his forehead rest against Jisungâs head in a gesture so surprisingly vulnerable it hits you square in the chest how much everything has changed. But youâre not scared. Not any more.
Jisung nuzzles into Minhoâs touch, turns his head, places a soft kiss into his hair, then ducks down to do the same to you.
âI love you two, you know,â he mumbles, and you look up at him. He looks so nervous it makes your heart ache. âLike, I know I kinda made a joke out of it earlier, but ⌠I really do. And it feels weird to say it now when, for the longest time, I really, really hated myself for it because I thought something was seriously wrong with me. Falling in love with the captain of the pirates who picked me up. Falling in love with a guy who hated my guts. The whole crew on my ass because they thought I wanted to break you up.â
He scoffs, sniffles again and looks down at you.
âLike, how was I going to tell them that I fell in love with you both?! Itâs fucking delusional.â
Minho huffs out a laugh next to him, nudges Jisungâs cheek with his nose.
âNo sense of self-preservation, I told you,â he grumbles, and it makes you laugh for real. Your tears finally stop coming and thereâs something like hope blooming in your chest as you settle into this, the three of you, just ⌠existing together. It feels right.
Jisung pouts at Minho, then at you.
âCaptain, heâs being mean to me again,â he whines, and you chuckle, pull yourself up until you can turn around in his lap, straddling him instead, so you can look at him, stare into his big beautiful eyes.
You thread your hands into his hair loosely, rub at his cheeks until the pout falls from his lips and he canât help the smile.
âMinhoâs like that,â you muse, pointedly ignoring Minhoâs glare, âbut can I tell you a secret? Underneath that gruff exterior, thereâs a heart bigger than anyoneâs Iâve ever met.â
Out of the corner of your eye, you see Minho blink, staring at you. Jisung looks up at you with a wide grin.
âYeah?â he asks, and you nod, smile down at Jisung, wipe a few stray tears from your eyes with the back of your hand before you lean in, press a soft kiss to Jisungâs lips that he reciprocates happily.
âMhmm,â you hum. Your heart feels like itâs ready to burst. âHeâs really strong and fiercely protective of the people he loves. But he also has so much love to give. But he doesnât realise how much everyone loves him, back.â
Minhoâs hand winds around the back of your head, and he pivots your face to him. His gaze is laced with desperation, a vulnerability that youâve never seen.
âYou canât just ⌠you canât just say that âŚâ he mumbles, eyes flickering all over your face, âand not when youâre not even looking at me.â
You smile again. Thereâs a sense of peace in you now. Purpose. Your voice is soft when you speak again.
âHe loves so entirely, so wholeheartedly itâs terrifying, because it makes you wonder what you ever did to deserve it. And âŚâ you breathe in shakily, âbecause you donât know what youâll do if that love is ever taken from you. Because you need him like you need air to breathe, because without him thereâs no warmth. Because nothing could ever compare to how it feels to be loved by him.â
Minho blinks, and three crystalline tears slip down his cheeks. He looks like heâs in pain, and you briefly wonder if you did something wrong, but then he breathes out your name and crashes his lips into yours and your whole body erupts into sparkles of electricity.
Because youâre loved by him again, and you need him like you need air to breathe. Because heâs warm. Because nothing could ever compare to this. To how it feels to be loved by him.
To be slowly, methodically, sweetly undressed by his and Jisungâs hot, calloused hands, Minhoâs lips barely leaving yours for more than a second, until youâre panting and breathless, and he kisses his way down your body and makes you whimper his name into the quiet of the empty ship, your nails digging into Jisungâs arms until he moans.
He makes you cum like that, on his tongue, so hard you see stars, moons, entire galaxies, your body jellied in Jisungâs safe arms, where you remain, slotted back to front, against Jisungâs chest, when Minho lies down, on his side, in front of you, lifts your leg and slides home. Jisungâs hot lips on your shoulder, sucking and biting, rutting his cock against your ass and breathing moans into your ear until youâre half crazed with it, then Minhoâs lips on yours again, then Minhoâs lips on his, Minhoâs hand reaching behind you to tug Jisung closer, until his cock brushes against where Minhoâs drags in and out of you again and again until Jisung is whimpering into Minhoâs lips. You donât know which of them slides a hand between you, presses Jisungâs cock up until the head of it pushes in next to Minho, but it makes the three of you moan out in unison, the sensation so overwhelming, so hot and tight and intimate, so mind-numbingly, dizzyingly beautiful and like everything you never knew you wanted.
And Jisung presses in further, until theyâre both buried in you, Minho fucking in and out of you feverishly, desperately, so deeply, alongside Jisungâs thick, hot cock, rubbing against him so hard it makes Jisung babble stupidly into your ear about how much he loves you, how perfect you are.
And you know itâs love that youâre feeling. The feeling the shivers through your veins, fills your chest, expanding and expanding until every single inch of the emptiness that the kraken used to inhabit is filled with nothing but love. Nothing but them.
Your vision whites out briefly when the tight heat in your abdomen explodes and pleasure zaps through your veins as you cum, and you sob out their names. Jisung moves to pull out, but you manage to reach behind you, to paw at his ass until heâs fucking back into you as far as he can go, and he releases with a devastating moan of your name, making the slide of it hot and filthy and loud. Jisung presses closer, drags Minho closer, too, and it makes Minhoâs hips stutter until he whispers your name, ruts himself in three more times, as deep as he can go, and spills inside of you, his face buried in your neck, his nails raking down Jisungâs back behind you.
You stay that way for a long time, holding each other, until the last of the candles Minho lit burns down.
In the silence, Minho brushes his lips against yours. He takes a deep, shaky breath.
âIâve loved you since the first time I saw you,â he whispers, so quietly you think you may be dreaming, âhow could I not. Youâre everything. Iâve loved you selflessly, and then I loved you selfishly. I was so selfish when I kissed you that one summer night, when it was just us and the stars and everyone else on land, and you were so beautiful, and I thought maybe, just maybe, you could be mine. And I thought you loved me, too, but I saw your fear and I ⌠it was okay, it was enough. I was content to be whatever you needed me to be, as long as you needed me. It was enough.â
He takes a shuddery intake of breath. You can tell heâs not done yet, so you wait. You barely dare to breathe.
âWhen I thought they were going to kill me, my first thought was that they couldnât because then you would be alone. I would crawl my way out of my own grave just to get back to you. Youâre my everything. Youâve been my everything for a very long time. Every fucking second of every day I think about you, about how to keep you safe, how to make you happy. Thatâs all I ever want you to be. Safe and happy. And I couldnât leave, not without you knowing how much I love you. Not without me knowing that you are safe and happy. And Iâm selfish, because I want to be the one to make you happy, I want to be the one to keep you safe. So you see why I couldnât leave you. I love you. Youâre everything to me. The sea may rise, and the sky may fall, and they can try to take me away from you, but I will always come back to you, and I will always love you.â
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And since I just reposted something about Animorphs, here's more required reading - K. A. Applegate's letter to the fans after the series ended. Removing spoilers just in case because you need to go out there and read every one of the 60 or so books.
Dear Animorphs Readers: Quite a number of people seem to be annoyed by the final chapter in the Animorphs story. There are a lot of complaints that [spoilers]. That there was no grand, final fight-to-end-all-fights. That there was no happy celebration. And everyone is mad about the cliffhanger ending. So I thought I'd respond. Animorphs was always a war story. Wars don't end happily. Not ever. Often relationships that were central during war, dissolve during peace. Some people who were brave and fearless in war are unable to handle peace, feel disconnected and confused. Other times people in war make the move to peace very easily. Always people die in wars. And always people are left shattered by the loss of loved ones. That's what happens, so that's what I wrote. [spoilers] That doesn't by any means cover everything that happens in a war, but it's a start. Here's what doesn't happen in war: there are no wondrous, climactic battles that leave the good guys standing tall and the bad guys lying in the dirt. Life isn't a World Wrestling Federation Smackdown. Even the people who win a war, who survive and come out the other side with the conviction that they have done something brave and necessary, don't do a lot of celebrating. There's very little chanting of 'we're number one' among people who've personally experienced war. I'm just a writer, and my main goal was always to entertain. But I've never let Animorphs turn into just another painless video game version of war, and I wasn't going to do it at the end. I've spent 60 books telling a strange, fanciful war story, sometimes very seriously, sometimes more tongue-in-cheek. I've written a lot of action and a lot of humor and a lot of sheer nonsense. But I have also, again and again, challenged readers to think about what they were reading. To think about the right and wrong, not just the who-beat-who. And to tell you the truth I'm a little shocked that so many readers seemed to believe I'd wrap it all up with a lot of high-fiving and backslapping. Wars very often end, sad to say, just as ours did: with a nearly seamless transition to another war. So, you don't like the way our little fictional war came out? You don't like [spoilers]? You don't like that one war simply led to another? Fine. Pretty soon you'll all be of voting age, and of draft age. So when someone proposes a war, remember that even the most necessary wars, even the rare wars where the lines of good and evil are clear and clean, end with a lot of people dead, a lot of people crippled, and a lot of orphans, widows and grieving parents. If you're mad at me because that's what you have to take away from Animorphs, too bad. I couldn't have written it any other way and remained true to the respect I have always felt for Animorphs readers. K.A. Applegate
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Time to be delulu yet completely serious on my bnha 423 opinions.
Good points: The resolution between AFO and Yoichi was satisfactory, love as a reason for evil and evil deeds, the rooftop trio having one final moment full of emotion, the moment of Kurogiri thinking about Tomura and the LOV, Deku having a quirk of his own born out of determination and hard work, Deku as the protagonist of bnha in general, Tomura's last actions and words.
Bad points: Rushed arc conclusions, moments that felt kinda repetitive or lacked the punch given that we've seen/lived them before, not the best compositions we've seen from Horikoshi on the panels, Tomura's arc being rushed to a martyr endingâ for impact???? ( or it ending on another cliffhanger that is gonna turn to be different from what we expected ).
I'll go in depth, so please check under the cut.
GOOD POINTS:
Yoichi and AFO:
The last conversation among these brothers was everything I was expecting. The love was there and it transformed them. It made AFO a monster and Yoichi a ghost.
For me, this time the AFO ending needed to be quick because we've already said goodbye to him too many times. This was supposed to be about AFO's refusal to give up on his brother and the unresolved relationship of those two.
I really liked how Yoichi reminded AFO that he needs to face the consequences of his actions and that he's love won't be able to save them.
Villain love:
Love as a reason for pain and destruction is perhaps one of my favorite tropes. So many stories approach love as this purely morally good feeling, when in the end it is just like any other feeling, you know?
People go to war for love all the time. They kill for love. Die for love. Do unforgivable things for love. Human existence is sooooo complex, why would love be the exception?
Horikoshi has been REALLY careful with the AFO backstory and his motivations. He didn't want an antagonist that felt empty. He made AFO human without redeeming him, okay? Because our ability to sympathize with some of AFO's traits doesn't make him less evil. To put it simply, it means that evil things are also human at heart.
Even those acts that you can't forgive or forget are motivated by something.
Kurogiri and the rooftop trio:
We knew from the beginning they were not the main characters of this manga.
We've gotten their story through glimpses and moments. Their time together had always been somehow rushed. Too many things to say, not enough time and they are on opposite sides of the war after all.
We knew that Kurogiri would go back because we knew he would protect Tomura during the final fight. We knew that he'd help the heroes defeat AFO. We knew he'd have to make his choice and say his goodbyes to his old friends.
Kurogiri, Tomura and the LOV
"He's friends are waiting" along with the image of Spinner asking Kurogiri to bring Tomura back to them was the highlight of this chapter for me. (You all expected it, right?)
Something about the way it reads like a father who wants his son to live because he is being waited for. He has friends who love him and would do anything to protect him, see him safe and sound. Something about the symbolism of Spinner putting Father (aka Kotaro's hand) on Kurogiri's face as he asked for it.
This chapter acknowledged that Kurogiri and Shirakumo share the same character core. They are always the protectors, the ones who would sacrifice themselves to see their charge survive. Similar to how Mic was waiting for Shouta so Shirakumo made sure that Shouta would survive, Kurogiri wants to do the same for Spinner and Tomura.
This alone would require an entire post to elaborate.
Deku's quirk:
The debate between endgame quirkless Deku or endgame OFA user Deku is settle.
I really liked that Deku got a quirk on his own that was born out of his own determination to be a hero. It's a nice representation of all he is as a character and what he stands for. Similarly, I enjoyed a lot the fact that it was short-lived. I'm the type who likes it better when things require a sacrifice or when miracles have their own conditions.
Deku doesn't feel overpowered to me. You get that sense that he really deserves everything he has and that it hasn't been a nonsense gift from the narrative. There's also the human condition, the limitations that keep him grounded.
Bnha and Deku:
Deku defeating AFO 'cause villains and heroes help him, his friends being there for him and being there to cheer for him as he fights, his sensei being there despite the fact that Aizawa at first thought Deku wouldn't make itâ all the details that make bnha what it is.
They were good.
The UA kids really keep the story consistent when it is about them. They don't give up on anyone, they fight for each other, they stay to witness things for themselves. I love them <3
Tomura's last actions and words:
Careful here. Listen to what I'm saying.
If the narrative had pointed out to this ending, this would have been a good way to execute it.
Tomura coming back along with the vestiges to pack one final punch to defeat AFOâ I know many fans that would be moved to tears and would be super excited to see it. Tomura was on point in this chapter, dialoguing with Deku without the hatred in his heart, his face being clearer and almost tender.
He felt defeated, like he had accepted his death already. There's also the connection to Kurogiri and Nana (who defended him) and his words to Spinner, that are meant as a general message to depict how much Tomura values the LOV.
Even the fact that AFO kept him around 'cause a part of him loved / cared about Tomura feels fitting, but I'm not sure if I correctly read the leaks in that part...
Anyway, we got the old trope of the antagonist who used his last moments to help defeat the real villain. It serves as his redemption and the expectation is for the public to feel sorry bad for him.
BAD POINTS
Rushed conclusions:
In my opinion, this chapter was too fast paced and therefore was not as emotional as it should have been.
It doesn't give the feeling that it's fast because the battle is intense. It gives the feeling of too much information packed on one chapter, so nothing really shines on its own. It's way too informative, not enough action narration.
Like I said before, the fatal mistake of a story is to be boring. Art has to provoke you, it has to engage with you, question you, awake things in you. This chapter tho, many things happened at the same time and it grew a bit murky.
Repetitive moments
Again, personal opinion here.
I think certain bnha movies were a mistake. Not because they were bad or boring or whatever, but because Horikoshi wrote parts of bnha real ending into them to the point you'd say "we've already seen that" while reading bnha 423.
Deku and Bakugo teaming up to defeat AFO was so expected. Not as in "the narrative is making sense", but as in "we saw it on heroes rising".
I feel the same with the students all appearing to help Deku fight AFO. That's a typical shonen structure where the friends making space for the protagonist to reach the main villain. It was already happening, so why bring AFO back?? I think the story is over-explaining here, making everything way too obvious. We could have had AFO's resolution with Yoichi before and the students moment after. In truth, it feels like Horikoshi closed some character arcs before he should and left plot holes without explanation, so he needed to reopen to accommodate.
Panel composition:
I admire Horikoshi when it comes to panel composition. He has some amazing panels that make the story really flow, but bnha 423 isn't there.
There are too many elements clustered and empty spaces that don't feel with purpose (in manga, even the blanks must have a purpose). This chapter should have been at least two, so you wouldn't have to rush Bakugo appearing, Yoichi and AFO resolution, Kurogiri saying his goodbye to the rooftop trio and facing AFO for Tomura's sake, Deku remembering where he started and where he is, Tomura last words and the Tomura and Deku resolution...
Those are too many important plot points to illustrate in a hurry.
Also?? The panel of Tomura and Deku punching AFO is so unserious. Totally wrong place to be funny sjbdjdnd why does it even feel like the vestiges are punching air???
" Tomura's ending " :
I'm not the first to say it feels anticlimactic and as if it isn't the ending at all.
The major problem is that through the manga, Horikoshi has focused a lot on Tomura as a character, carefully developing him, giving him tropes that are often reserved for the hero or the main character, making sure we empathize with him, we understand him, hyping up Deku's journey to rescue him.
We got an entire arc from the LOV perspective. This is not the type of one sentence ending you give to an antagonist you spent so much ink and sweat on. The nonchalant way of Tomura accepting his death? The little reaction from Deku? What was the purpose of the manga building up the LOV friendship to the moment where Kurogiri told AFO that Tomura's friends were waiting for him, if you'd make him just disappear on thin air?
This reads absolutely like a bunny within a hat.
That's being optimistic.
If we want to be cynical, maybe this is all there is. I don't find it readable to end the story with Tomura dying. All that effort to save him and it ends in "oh well, he decayed along with AFO"?!
If you think about it, Toga status is unknown because we don't even know where she went or if she's still alive, Touya status is also unknown although we know he wanted to live and that the ice prevented him from further damage, we haven't seen Spinner, we don't know if Kurogiri vanished with that last attack on AFO and now we saw Tomura decaying into the wind.
Yo kill half the surviving LOV would be a bold move that wouldn't follow the narrative. The reward for the hero students should be being able to save their counterpart, so the world can regard them as the greatest heroes 'cause they save the unsalable and blah blah blah.
There's also the fact Tomura hasn't been saved yet. Tenko? Nana and Deku saved him from Kotaro. The crying kid? Saved from AFO by Deku and the vestiges and the others. Tomura? Nop, he's dying/dead. The one person Spinner really wanted to save was Tomura. He didn't know about the crying kid or Tenko. He wanted to save his friend, the "irredeemable" villain, the young man he played videogames with and fought alongside and vowed to follow.
If this is the end, it's incomplete.
So we might hope it is not the end.
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The Feral One ⢠Ch 28
Finnick x Y/N
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This may be the last chapter for a few days as weâre approaching the end of the story rapidly and I havenât finished editing it yet lol. I apologize for leaving it off with a cliffhanger but I want to make sure the end is perfect before posting it. Lifeâs been busy this week so I havenât had the time to finish it the way I want to.
Content Warnings - Injury, death, medical issues, I promise Finnick isnât being stupid this time lol
The next week was full of recovery. You slowly regained your strength and were able to try solid foods again. The doctors polished all your scars off, including the one on your face from your games, at your request. You wanted nothing left to remind you of them.
You started physical therapy, as well as regular sessions with Dr. Aurelius. He allowed Finnick to join you, realizing you felt more comfortable with him nearby. You still had to use a walker to get around, but you were making progress.
A few weeks after the war ended, Coin called all the victors into a meeting. There were barely any left, mostly due to the war.
âIâve called you all here for a very symbolic vote,â she states. You donât like where this is going.
She proceeds to pitch her idea for a hunger games featuring capital children. There are mixed reactions from the remaining victors, with some believing the idea to be fair and others believing it to be cruel. Votes are cast around the room and it finally comes down to Katniss.
âI get to kill Snow,â she tells Coin, who agrees to this proposition.
âThen I vote yes,â she states. âFor Prim.â
You canât even process what this means. Another games? Was Coin out of her mind? You finally realized what you had been denying all along, as long as Coin was in charge, you would never be free.
Finnick brings you back to your shared room after the meeting. You allow his touch but still flinch away at everyone else. Dr. Aurelius had been working with you on that but itâs hard to undo the trauma of many years.
âI just want to go home,â you tell him.
âYou have to stay here for a bit,â he explains. âDistrict 4 doesnât have the resources for your treatment. Once you are better I promise you can go back to 4.â
âWhat about you?â you ask him. âAre you staying?â
He hesitantly shakes his head.
âI have to go to 4 for a few weeks but Iâll come back as soon as I can,â he states. âJohanna will be here with you in the meantime and Iâll call every day.â
âYouâre leaving?â you ask, dumbfounded by his response.
âI promise itâs for a good reason,â he says, squeezing your hand. âI wouldnât be doing this if it wasnât important.â
âWhen do you leave?â you ask.
âIn two weeks,â he responds. âIâll be here for the first bit of your treatment and return before itâs over. Then we will both go back to 4 together. Do you trust me?â
âAlwaysâ
That afternoon Finnick helps you walk out onto the avenue to stand next to the other victors. Snow was finally falling, and you were both alive to witness it.
Standing in front of all the capital people made you uneasy. What did they think of you? Were they going to hurt you?
Youâre lost in your thoughts when suddenly the crowd erupts into chaos. You look up to see Coin lying dead on the podium, an arrow in her heart. A mob of people begins rushing towards Snow, eager to kill him.
Finnick quickly scoops you up and carries you away from the commotion. When he finally sets you down, you ask what happened.
âKatniss killed Coin,â he states. âSnow is dead.â
He has to take you back to your room before you have a breakdown. What evil creature was going to seize power of Panem next? All of this was too much.
You end up collapsing on the floor of your room, shaking uncontrollably.
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Twist of Fate; Chapter Seven
Pairings; LADS OT4 X reader
Word Count; 2,876
Themes; isekai, eventual smut
Rating; 18+ for swearing and some mature context
Notes; you have a slight existential crisis, a kiss (but it doesn't get too intense unfortunately), another Xavier-centric chapter with a small cliffhanger, also a reminder that đ is Xavier! Also, I accidentally posted this so I guess y'all are getting this chapter early đ¤ˇđťââď¸
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I would also like to mention, once more, that the reader isn't aware of anything relating to Sylus. Just his looks, the appearance of his evol, and all of that. Think of her as all of us during Sylus's trailer release! Even though she doesn't know anything, the story will go as it does in the original story. I'm definitely not creative enough to change any of that, but there will be major differences after we finish the final chapter (in-game, chapter eight)!
You have one more day of freedom before you enter the Nest as bait. How will you spend it?
You woke up a bit later than usual, wanting to spend as much time with Estelle in bed as possible before you had to leave her for an unspecified amount of time. You hope she remembers you. After you make yourself something to eat and give Estelle her food, you check up on your flowers. The bluish pink flowers sat in a vase you had made at a pottery class with Zayne. Your thumbprints in the shape of a heart and the vase was glazed in the colour arctic blue, which was a beautiful light blue. The vase was sitting next to the fox Xavier got you and the painting Rafayel made for you.
You decide to lounge around the apartment today, unwilling to go outside and do anything since you knew today would be your last day of freedom. You were honestly worried, after tomorrow you were in the dark on what comes next. Your gaze flitting across the notes you made of the past and near future, hoping to come up with a nice game plan for your next decisions. You could tell the other guys you know about your past lives, but if you don't know everything then what's the point? You knew Rafayel would throw a fit if you didn't remember everything. Zayne doesn't really remember or, at least, you're not sure. Most of Zayne's past life you're in the dark about since you never got his cards. For Rafayel, you know two specific instances of past lives but the bigger one where he was the god of the sea? You only know part of it. You never got those cards either. With Xavier, you know of both lives- one more so than the other. You know he's Lumiere, the man who saved the main character as a child and protected Linkon during the Chronorift Catastrophe..you also know he's quite jealous of himself. Any time Lumiere is mentioned, he gets jealous.
But Sylus? Nope, you know nothing. Besides his looks, that he's the leader of Onychinus, and what his evol looks like. That's all you know. And you think you remember a crow, but you could be mistaken because of meeting Mephi at the animal shelter.
You know you need the aether core at the auction, but you don't recall why. Maybe to help your heart? You don't dare ask because it would look weird if you were intent on finding something, but forgot why you needed it. And after that? You assume winning Sylusâ heart like you have with the others. So he can't be a real bad guy if he's a love interest. You've read theories that the Ever corporation, which is the biggest company in the world- branching from biotech to aerospace to evol energy and even international trade- might be evil or working with Onychinus, but that's the only lead you have. You'll just have to figure it out as you go along.
You put on the TV and laze around with Estelle for most of the day until you step outside to sit on your balcony to watch the sun set.
Your phone buzzes and you look down to check it, seeing a text from Xavier.
đ :âwhatre u doing outside this late?â
A smile tugs at your lips and you tell him that you're watching the sunset to which he doesn't respond. Instead his response comes in the form of a figure hopping down from the floor above you and grabbing onto the concrete wall of the balcony. âWatching it together would be better than watching alone.â He says, reaching out toward you and you grab his hand, tugging him fully onto your balcony.
âYou scared the hell out of me, Xavier.â I say, looking up at the sky. âGive me a warning next time, please?â âI'll try my best.â He smiles, propping his arm up on your shoulder. âAren't you nervous about tomorrow?â
âAhâŚa little bit.â You look down at your feet with a small sigh and decide to sit down in a chair. âI'm nervous, but also anxious, but also I don't know what to expect. I have a plan and I know it'll work, but I'm unsure of where to go from there.â
âWell instead of worrying about it, how about you just go with the flow?â He crouches down next to you since you only had one chair, he rests his chin on your knee as he looks up at you. âDon't stress about what hasn't happened, just focus on right now and you can worry about the future when it comes.â You rest your hand in his hair and smile, tilting your head back to look up at the sky. âYou know, you talk like an old man.â Your thumb brushes against his forehead, âbutâŚI don't mind it.â
âBesides watching the sunset, I know of another way to calm down. Do you want to hear about it?â Xavier asks, his hand reaching up to cup your cheek. His thumb gently brushes against your fully healed scar and your eyes flutter closed for a moment. âHave you tried it with other people and that's how you know it works?â You tease with a raise of your brow. âHow do you know it'll work, huh?â
âWell⌠you won't know unless we try.â He stands back up, resting one hand on the armrest of your chair. His other still on your right cheek as he leans forward to rest his forehead against yours. âMay I?â He asks and you go to nod, but remember before that he told you to speak. âYes,â you say before adding softly under your breath, âplease.â
Xavier's eyes close as he closes the distance between you, his lips gently brushing against yours before fully connecting. He doesn't try to deepen the kiss, leaving it as a soft, yet intimate moment between you both. After a few moments, he breaks from the kiss and leaves a few scattered kisses across your face. His final stop was at your scar, his lips brushing along the scar from the top of your eyebrow all the way to your cheekbone. Your body immediately jerks in surprise at the touch since you realized your scar was rather sensitive. âBetter?â He whispers, going back to resting his forehead against yours. His ears as red as yours probably were.
âThank you.â You say softly, cupping his cheek and you rub your thumb back and forth across his cheekbone. A loud meow coming from behind you both finally breaks the moment and allows Xavier to pull away from you. âIt seems like Estelle was jealous.â He chuckles, picking up the large cat with ease. âIt looks like she's worried about her mommy.â
âShe'll be fine because she'll have her daddy looking after her while I'm gone.â You say nonchalantly, not noticing the blush that spread across Xavier's cheeks or the way he buried his red face into Estelle's fur. âYou really have a way with words.â He chuckles, shaking his head.
âWe missed the sunset!â You realize, quickly standing up as you whine. âDamn it.â
âWe might've missed the sunset but didn't we make a better memory in place of it?â Xavier muses, glancing over at you with a soft smile. âI guess we did.â You reach over to pet Estelle behind the ears and Xavier takes the chance to say, âBe safe tomorrow. Promise me.â
âI can't make any promises, Xav. You know that.â You sigh, hugging both him and Estelle. âBut just know I'll do my best to come back in one piece. I can promise that. I'm not going anywhere any time soon.â You murmur into his chest and rest your forehead against it.
âThat'sâŚâ Xavier lets out a heavy sigh and gives you a forced smile before he nods, âThatâs enough for now.â
D-Day
Finally, it's Hunting day. Your last day of knowing what comes next. You spent most of the night tossing and turning, mulling over what would happen and worrying over getting hurt, but you felt a bit better now. Especially as you changed into your clothes for the day. In the game, the main character showed up at the Nest in her uniform and while that would be the best kind of bait, it seemed impractical. If you're trying to be bait, wouldn't being obvious bait deter people? If you're too on the nose, people might think it's a trap. So instead, you opted to put on a strappy, red ruffled shirt that was tucked into a white skirt. You added a belt and you set your red low heels by the door. You spray some perfume and spend a few minutes getting ready to look your best.
A stylish outfit is a good weapon for a woman. That and your actual weapon in its holster under your skirt. You shrug on an expensive black jacket, one of the only things you own that wasn't in game, to hide your obvious weapon. You weren't sure when the right time would be to leave so you decided to have your last meal. Well, it wouldn't be your last meal but it definitely felt like it. After you ate, you'd leave for the Nest to meet up with Rafayel. Your last message to him being âMeet me at the Nest and show me how to fish.â to which he replied that âthe biggest fish come out at night.â So you assume 10-11pm would be an appropriate time to leave?
You still have time today so what were you going to do?
You took a few more notes on what to expect after and made sure the tiny tranquilizer was in your pocket. The antidote vial sitting on your kitchen island ready to take before you leave. You double, no triple, no quadruple checked that you have everything and spent a few hours anxiously pacing back and forth and petting Estelle. You were never good at waiting, especially when you were anticipating something.
You decide to leave at 10pm, giving you an hour to get to the Nest, which makes sense since you'd be walking. You down the vial, tossing it in the garbage as you head toward the door. You slip your shoes on and lock the door behind you after feeding Estelle for the night.
Honestly with all this walking, you should probably just bite the bullet and learn how to drive since you already have a license in this world. But driving is scary and you have bigger issues to deal with right now so that'll have to come later.
As you walk through Azure Square, you pin your âfamilyâ crest to your jacket, trying to make sure that not all of Jeremiah's hard work went to waste and even though you have your hunter's watch on, it is covered by your jacket sleeves so you assume it'll be fine. A pretty bait is what you're planning to be tonight, no need to go too overboard with it. You enter the Nest and it just looks like your average nightclub. People were standing and drinking, some slightly dancing to some music or talking amongst themselves, not many people were at the bar though, besides the bartender.
As you look around, your vision is blocked by someone stepping in front of you. âHey there,â the manâs eyes glance at your crest as he continues, âActually-â
âIsn't it a bit weird to do business with newcomers?â Rafayel steps into frame, practically shoving the other man out of the way as he fixes his sleeves, not even sparing the man another glance. âCome.â He loops a finger with yours as he pulls you up to the bar. âSoâŚdo you have your bait ready?â He asks, leaning his chin onto his hand.
âMmh, I'll play their game and allow myself to be caught. Act like a clueless little worm on a tackle.â You say, nonchalantly. Not mentioning the N109 Zone since you didn't want to catch others' attention just yet. âYou'll still need to cast your line thoughâŚthat should be easy enough.â Rafayel drums his fingers against the bar counter before he hands the bartender a coin. He picks up an embossed card, sliding the blank side over to you. âGo ahead. Write down what you're looking for.â
You take a deep breath, nodding your head as you grab the black feathered pen that was sitting in a nearby cup. You write down âaether coreâ and the ink disappears a few moments later. Rafayel scoops up the card to hand it to the bartender who nods and disappears into the back. âWho's he going to tell?â You ask, turning your body to face the well dressed artist. âDoesn't matter. If they're interested, you'll know.â He muses, moving his hand over to trace random shapes on the back of your hand.
âRafayel?â He's still silent before he takes your hand, kissing the back of it. âNow, we wait for the fish to bite.â âHow long?â You ask after he lets go of your hand. âHmm..not long. The Nest lives up to its name, you know? An underground intelligence network that's well known to match supply and demand.â As Rafayel finishes his sentence, the bartender comes back with a shot glass. He places it in front of you before stepping away once more.
âAnd this?â You ask before assuming this means a fish has taken a bite so you reach out for it and Rafayel suddenly grabs your wrist. âThink about it first. The glass is black, that means you'll have to pay a high price and if it doesn't go smoothly, you'll be the payment instead.â
âWell, being the payment is better than sitting here and doing nothing.â You shrug, downing the shot in one go. âSince you've made up your mind, I won't stop you.â Rafayel chuckles, placing his hand on top of your head to ruffle your hair. âI hope you find the answers you seek.â He stands up from the barstool and doesn't look back as he walks away, just puts his hand up as he waves.
âAlright, I guess let's look around until the hunting starts.â You murmur to yourself, rising to your feet as you walk around the bar. You notice a board off to the side, a wanted board. You see a head shot of Lumiere who looks obviously like Xavier except with a white mask and an outfit you've never seen before. A small chuckle leaving your lips before you notice how much he's wanted for. â100 million? Geez, what did he do?â You step a bit closer to look at the other wanted posters and you only catch a glimpse of purple hair on another poster before someone runs into you.
âIt's starting, it's starting.â The drunken man excitedly mumbles to himself as he walks further into the crowd.
The lights suddenly shut off and a modified OTTO patrol bot rose up from a podium in the center of the room. The circular robot flies high until a voice booms from it, âThere's a price to pay when a wish is granted! Will you be the hunter or the hunted tonight?â The robotic screen was a deep shade of red, the camera on it shaped like an eye. âHunting day will nowâŚcommence.â
As your gaze lands on the eye, you feel your blood run cold. ThisâŚthis reminded you of the red eye from your nightmares but you couldn't put your finger on how. You decide to play it safe and try to find a place to hide but honestly, where can you hide? You're in an unfamiliar, crowded place so you're not even sure where the bathrooms are and why would you hide if the plan is to be caught in the first place?
Your thoughts are cut short as the voice says one last thing. âNow.â It's red gaze lands on you, effectively spotlighting you to everyone in the crowd. âShit.â You mutter to yourself as a few people in the crowd walk toward you.
âThere she isâŚwe've been looking for you.â One person says and another one chimes in, âThis is the prey.â
You're a tad bit overwhelmed as people close in on you and as you try to dip out of the crowd, you feel your breath leave you as you're hit in the back and your knees hit the ground hard. âHey-â you say, trying to turn toward the person and elbow them in the gut but they grab you by your hair and hold a vial in front of your face. âC-003, a neurotoxin. If you're smart, you won't put up a fight.â
You sigh, head hanging down and your hair covers your face to hide your smile. At least everything still went according to plan. Now what comes next is a complete mystery. Your smile leaves your lips as you feel the butt of a gun hit your head and you fall to the ground.
I'm keeping the extra spaces in this chapter to show a comparison, so just let me know which you prefer and I'll keep doing it for the up-coming chapters! Also, this won't be a cliffhanger for long since I'll also be posting chapter eight today. I decided to spoil y'all đŠˇ
I do want to add that I change up mc's dialogue compared to what she says in-game sometimes because I don't like how it's worded or I don't like specific actions she does (like shaking Mephisto, you'll see). I also make comments on her stupid actions- like her trying to hide in the original chapter or wear her hunter's uniform as if she wants to scream to the Nest, "I'm a hunter!! Please, take me!" Instead of being more low-key and under the radar.
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I've received a few messages asking for my thoughts about the latest OnK chapters, but I'm sorry guys, to be honest, I'm giving this manga as little thought as possible for the time being đ
It seems to me that this handful of chapters will best be read as an ensemble. Right now the pacing is all about Aka misleading the readers just to create cliffhangers and shock value (Aqua wants to kill Kamiki! No actually, Ai wants to save him so Aqua won't kill him! Kamiki is evil! No actually, he's just misguided, Nino is evil! ACTUALLY, Nino is just misguided and Kamiki is evil! Aqua may have finally chosen to live! No actually, Aqua is still planning to die!), and personally, I feel like thinking too hard about any of it before Aka gets to the point isn't really worth it.
He will stop his shenanigans and get somewhere eventually, likely (hopefully) by the end of the volume. So in the meantime, I'm going to take it easy and just let the man get there.
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Onk Chapter 159 review~
(a small comic for starters :) either way, Ai will still kick his butt)
yes, I had been spoiled; yes, and I actually like it, as much as it leaves at a cliffhanger and leaves you in confusion(why is this comic always like this) The way it ends is indeed, quite shocking, isn't it? But I think I understand where it's coming from.
I honestly won't have a clue on just what this story is going to be unless it's not going to be like what I write here; If that's so, then I'll just sit back and just.. let the story run along after this~ I'm pretty confident, for now though!!
The development in this current episode aligns with the interpretation I initially had back when I hopped onto the series, right after 153-154. It feels like I've been reset XD
It's pretty good, right? It's entertaining and well done. There is no need to fuss whether "Kamiki is evil!!" or "He's the final boss!", at least not right now, that'd be determined in the following eps. but for now, I think I have an idea of what it's trying to convey.
He DOES look super evil in that last panel (I keep staring at it for how ridiculous he looks)but let's look into the things that are being discussed for now-
Judging by the reaction he has, Kamiki never stopped loving Ai. The reaction in chapter 154 and the current one can coexist as emotional responses.
But it seems that after Ai died, Kamiki did a lot.
It actually matches really well with the interpretation I made after reading chapter 154 for the first time! I mean this comic I drew. I thought I might have went a bit overboard with it for awhile, for Kamiki's actions after that chapter felt milder than that, but now that 159 is out, it... seems pretty similar.
Sometimes, the first answer you pick on a test is the correct one, right? I laughed...perhaps I should trust my initial feelings about things more...they may tend to be the most accurate.
He has this, "I'm already beyond hope now, I can't be saved" vibe to him. And I saw this coming all along, I kept wondering just what is it that he'd have done. It's been pretty vague except for that case with Yura, right? (To be honest, the one death that bothers me a lot is Gorou's. Did Nino and Ryosuke kill him?? Why did Gorou die?? I really hope Kamiki wasn't involved with that case because that leads to really weird sorts of conclusions... killing the doc that helped deliver his own children;;; I hope it's just Ryosuke and Nino that's played a part there)
Judging by how he reacts to Aqua, he does have paternal love, and Kamikiâs attitude towards his children is consistently kind and gentle. His way of speech is...I've been sent the leaks in another language right..; I can tell. He speaks in a really.. kind and gentle way. Even in that last panel as well. He's so tender with his way of speaking when he talks towards his kids, so much like the lyrics of Mephisto (how the song is like as it ends) I feel like he is, or at least used to be, a sweet person. Talking to his fully grown son like that.
It seems like he genuinely wants to watch his daughter's performance. I feel Kamiki cherishes and cares for Aqua and Ruby. As for whether he would go so far as to harm the children to save Ai... I think the chances of that are low. Aiâs judgment seems correct, and if Kamiki had married Ai and lived with her, he would have been a kind and gentle father to their children.
At the same time, though, he thinks it's too late to save himself now. The attitude he has feels like self-mockery or despair. He's a bit out of vigor, in my opinion(aside from that last panel).
The key is figuring out what exactly the "lies" he told was.
Judging by Aqua's reaction, Kamikiâs involvement in Aiâs death should be minimal. If it werenât, there should be some anger connected to the mention of Aiâs name as Aqua brought it up. For example, "Ai trusted you until the end, she wanted you to help you, but you made her die!" Because it's very natural, right? If Kamiki killed the very person who wanted to help him, it's natural to bring that up as you mention the "help".
But thatâs not the case. Instead, Aqua's reaction is something like, "Iâm supposed to help you, as Ai said, but youâve been telling this 'ugly lie for your own sake' so I canât."
I think that, to evoke this kind of response, Kamiki must have done a lot after Aiâs death, thinking he was doing it for her, but deep down, he knew it was a lie he told himself all along, and Aqua is calling him out on it.
It doesnât seem like Kamiki killed someone with the thought that "no one can outshine Ai" (that would be really stupid;;), but rather, that he made sacrifices because he wanted to save Ai or bring her back to life. In that case, what Aqua is saying here translates to: "Hey, would Ai have wanted that? That was a crazy thing you did for your own sake and pleasure, thinking 'Ai would want to live' or 'Ai would want to reunite with the kids in any way possible.' You know that's NOT what she has ever wanted, but you lied to yourself convincing it would all be okay as long as it came true. That makes you an ugly liar."
If Kamiki did kill someone, Aqua really should report him to the police instead of meeting one-on-one. Report him, for crying out loud! Why doesn't he do that in 155 and why doesn't he try to do it now, either? He just walks up to him and starts a conversation. Didn't he figure things out with Akane earlier? Can't they just turn those pieces of evidence they found to the police if they have them?
So... that's why Iâm not sure if what Kamiki did actually involved killing someone... Maybe Aqua didnât report it or he can't because there wasnât enough evidence? Yura is dead, that's a fact, but well, we know now for sure that Kamiki did not play a part in Ryosuke's death(who cares about him but yeah), and if he isn't the one who's killed Gorou (the one who did it is Ryosuke and Nino is his acquaintance so I think there's low chance?;) Maybe he didn't kill Yura either. He says it's his fault but at this point, I don't think he's the one that's responsible for Ai's death. There is a reason I'm saying this, stay with me for a while, okay? But he's still done something that Aqua deems as a "selfish lie".. I just don't know how severe this guy can get and what he's done but I guess he's done some terrible things...
Moving on, I don't think this character would hurt Ruby or Aqua or anyone else at this point. (Although... who knows; if he feels like he has nothing to lose, he might...) It seems like he intended to end his life to offer as the final tribute, and Aqua came to stop him. (Like, Aqua came to him to "save him" on Ai''s behalf. He didn't say he's come to "punish him" for his misdeeds... so I think it's safe to say Aqua's come to save his butt) It might tie into the supernatural elements that pop up occasionally, like when Kamiki mentioned the "gods" in chapter 147 or talked about no longer needing to offer "sacrifices." There were many intriguing and important things mentioned in that chapter.
It seems like Kamiki thinks heâs done wrong, but he canât stop himself from continuing on the path he was, so he wants his children to kill him or get revenge on him.
Nino is truly crazy... It's unhealthy to be fixated like that on just one single person... I donât want to think too deeply about it because itâs not something I want to empathize with. I donât wish to feel any pity. If I were to analyze it deeply, I could, but this is the kind of dark human psyche I donât want to delve into because it takes energy and I don't feel it's that worth it. It's already been displayed so well in this chapter, and it's creepy and perfect as it is so I don't think it needs further explanation, she's just as I pictured her to be and even.. damp and scarier in eerily realistic ways.
If I were Ai, Iâd grab Nino by the collar and ask, "Nino-chan, Why are you doing this to me? Why are you like this? What did I ever do to deserve this?" what the heck...poor Ai. it's too much. She's scary.
Ryosuke is out of his mind, and what has Ichigo been doing all this time if he knew something?... Perhaps he needed solid evidence and wished to catch her when she took action? But...; I really wish Ichigo did better when Ai was still alive if he knew what was going about with Nino and Ryosuke and Ai......
So, was Kamiki the one who made Ryosuke and Nino "that way"...(as in, hopelessly insane about Ai)?
No, that's not how it's going to go.
Looking at his past, thereâs no big reason or motive for Kamiki to have done something like that and I don't think he could have coerced them to feel that way about Ai, they brought it upon themselves; (Honestly, I'm curious, whatâs the connection between him and Nino and Ryosuke? At this point, I feel like they did not have any particular connection before Ai's death, at this point)
Kamiki clearly recognizes that Ai is just a normal girl who has cruel and selfish sides (this is a strong difference from Nino and Ryosuke). I'm not sure when he formed that idea, but he is at least aware of that, as he's doing whatever he's been doing.
That means, if Kamiki decided to take some extreme actions "for Ai", it wouldnât have been because of some superficial motive like wanting Ai to be perfect or the best idol(Ryosuke and Nino's actions fall here) . Instead, it would have stemmed from a more practical desire, like wanting Ai to come back or get closer to her. For Kamiki, Ai isnât a fantasy; sheâs real. Sheâs a person he loves. Thatâs why the song Mephisto and Fatal suits him. Kamiki doesnât need Ai to be an invincible idol; he just wants the person he loves to be alive.
So, tying it into the theme of this manga, I come to the conclusion that:
It wasnât a single person like Kamiki who made Ryosuke and Nino the way they are, but rather, the publicâs expectations of Ai.
This connects to the story explored in the movie arc, where people expected Ai to be the invincible idol, leading her to lie and conceal her weak self completely.
If my interpretation is correct... this is where the story is heading.
From the start, there was no such thing as an evil mastermind or anything like that. What happened to Ai was always the result of a fanâs twisted desire for their idol to be flawless, and the public's expectation of idols reinforcing such a behavior.
In reality, itâs Ryousuke and Nino who are insane, but the culture or fervor that creates such crazy people isnât entirely absent in this world. That seems to be the point being made.
I mentioned this in a previous post: (it's paraphrased and condensed)
"But more than that, I think the main focus of this work and the message it's trying to give is: "Even celebrities are just people in the end"... Ultimately, that's it."
This is... probably it.
If you look at it that way, Kamiki is someone who was separated from the person he loved due to such malice (if Ai and Kamiki werenât celebrities, they would have stayed together after having the kids and lived happily... What made Kamikiâs life miserable, and brought Ai to believe it'd hurt him less if she broke up with him was the dark side of the entertainment industry. After all, the pain he went through in his entertainment career was too much, and even afterward, they couldnât reunite despite their feelings for each other because Ai was too successful as an idol. I think thatâs why they couldnât be together). In that sense, Kamiki is almost like the biggest victim of the entertainment industry in the story because not only did he suffer from it all his life, he ultimately lost the very person he loved because of it. Ai was an idol, so there was social pressure and expectations that she shouldnât have kids or a boyfriend. Thatâs why they couldnât stay together...
Kamiki, having his life destroyed by the dark side of the entertainment industry, and upon he lost the one person he loved, Ai, ended up doing a lot of things in desperation to bring her back and see her again. Thatâs what's going on about in the songs Fatal and Mephisto.
We havenât seen exactly what he's been doing in the story, but I think the songs fill that narrative. "The gathering of light"... "finding things to fill in what's missing"...
Kamiki just wants to see Ai again. He wants to see her, but he doesnât think Ai would love him or want to meet him, so he wished for her to come back to life, and when that didnât work, he tried to get closer to her himself.
His true feelings were that he loved Ai sincerely and only had eyes for her.
But if what he did involve needing someone elseâs life to achieve that goal (and the songs do suggest that...), thatâs terrifying. Lol
Ai wanted Kamiki to be saved... If there really is a sliver of chance of such things to be a possibility, what he's done should not be that extreme. Kamiki does seem to think he's beyond saving, though.
I made an analysis earlier that he may be lying to appear as evil as he can be to persuade Aqua into believing he should just die there, and that he isn't worth saving... this was before I saw the actual images, but that could be the case too. if he's really planning to give himself away as a sacrifice of some sort or die to bring Ai back/reach her, then I guess it'd make sense for him to appear as menacing and horrible as possible so that his boy wouldn't have to care about him. He IS a liar and he IS a genius actor. He wants to do something for Ai, and I think that still stands. He said he'd do it in 155 - if that means it takes his life to do so, he'd still, definitely go through with it.
Weâll probably find out what he did all along within the next 10 chapters. I also think that the manga now needs to address the stars and the gods;; The idea that Ai became a star was mentioned directly, and Tsukuyomi was also brought up. The stars were beautifully shining during the B-Komachi concert, right? It feels like Ai is giving her blessing. If my guesses about this series is correct, Kamiki should mention stuff along the lines of the supernatural when talking about his motives. I think Kamiki tried to bring Ai back to life. If he hadnât had that hope, I feel he would have followed Ai long ago. He doesnât seem particularly attached to his own life. That means there must have been something that gave him that sort of hope. The songs imply something like it. It's made Kamiki believe Ai could come back to life...
I wonder if Kamiki can be saved. The fact that Aqua even brought the idea of helping the guy may mean there still might be a chance. Otherwise, Aqua would just throw him in jail; thereâd be no point in talking to him like this, even if it's Ai's wish. Impossible things are still impossible.
But itâs true that Kamiki really fell apart after Ai died. Whether heâs just a pitiful guy or a victim who became a perpetrator (the latter seems more likely...sadly), weâll have to wait and see.
To be continued, I guess.
That characterâs life was truly miserable, but if he ruined other peopleâs lives, then he should still be punished for that.
Still, In the end, it seems like everything will turn out as Ai wanted, so Iâm looking forward to seeing how much Aqua can fulfill Aiâs wishes.
It was a good chapter! :)
Come to think of it, in my analysis of Ai (this was written wayy back in June, when ch 152 was fresh) , I wrote something like this:
Ai didn't want to get back together with her ex because she wanted to continue being an idol. She couldn't have a public relationship. But I think she wanted to show her kids to him because she gained a little bit of courage while raising them. That she could show her real self. When you look at a Ai, you can infer she has a lot welled up. They had always hidden themselves, and now they have "secrets" that are not just their own, living, that grow with time. She's always had vicious circle that led to self-hatred from all the lies she'd been creating, which led to anger and stressâŚand it was this close to being let out through the movie. Maybe that's why Aqua believes making movies is for her. It's to fulfill her desire to be freed from the lies.
This might have hit the mark. The reason it has to be a movie is because of this⌠if it was only Kamiki, he could have just been shown the video Ai left, but-
Aquaâs ârevengeâ has to be fulfilled through a movie because Aiâs situation was caused by the publicâs perception of her.
If people had accepted the real Ai as a person, twisted individuals like Ryosuke wouldnât have appeared, and Ai wouldnât have had to lie to the person she so dearly wanted to love. If⌠If only Ai had survived, I think Kamiki could have reunited with her after the movie was released. Because people would have understood and accepted their circumstances. Ai would never have had to die because she had children - for being imperfect and human, as she is.
This is not a story about a psychopathic murderer getting back at his ex-girlfriend or just one crazy fan attacking their idol, it's tackling a much bigger theme than that.
So no, this isn't going to be about Kamiki being the crazy mastermind, quite the contrary. He's the one who's lost his beloved due to a societal belief that idols have to be perfect and flawless. He's the one who desperately wants to get her back after having lost her.
When I think about it, itâs really heartbreaking. Ai and Kamiki could have been happy, for sure. They really could have had it weren't it for this, I feel.
The public isnât always so cold, so I think Ai might have wanted to take that riskâŚ
++ Oh, wow⌠Aqua showed up wearing the exact outfit from the Mephisto video!
Then, if my thoughts are correct, the next chapter, or at least within a few chapters, should reveal more about the Fatal/Mephisto storyline in the series. Those songs arenât Aquaâs, theyâre Kamikiâs.
+++ Didn't mention but Kamiki looks even younger than Aqua in that last panel, he looks kinda adorable in a very freaky way. Ai didn't mention his looks for nothing.. he still has it over the age of thirty...
yeah, I'll believe in him for just a little longer. I really hope the next chapter continues where it left off and just TELL US what he's been up to for once. This chapter is 159 so I guess it'd be the last ep of a volume, Yeah, that'd definitely make people wish to buy the next copy
but I really want answers at this point, stop the taunts.
If Mephisto and Fatal ain't the story of this guy then tbh, nothing would make sense to me about this guy nor the story. Aside from the fact that it matches his characteristics and lores in a perfect sense, it's just a really strong hunch I get. The moment I first heard Fatal, I knew it had to be it. I can't explain how it happens but I just know what it's supposed to imply. So there!
Till next week!
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Batshit Soulmates Part 6
The second one today. I'm trying to get through my backlog because I have almost twenty chapters that are finished and ready to be posted. And that isn't counting the fact that with my daily goal of 400 words a day, I'm definitely going to have more than that the longer it takes for me to post.
This here is my schedule for the next two weeks, but as I said, since I'm always writing, that "return to one chapter a day" on the 11th? That's probably a pipe dream. So I might end up adding a fourth day to my posting schedule so that I can at least put out a chapter a week for each of my WIPs.
We'll see.
For this chapter we have fun times at the Wheelers (heavy sarcasm), that talk and a cliffhanger? Yeah, a cliffhanger.
In Medias Res| Prologue|Pt 1| Pt 2|Pt 3|Pt 4|Pt 5|
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They had been traveling awhile when Eddie decided to get the lay of the land by getting higher.
Which was great in theory until he saw the vast expanse of...shit he didnât even know how to describe it other than evil. And it stretched as far as he could see.
He turned around to get back down when Nancy called out.
âDonât step on the vines!â
Eddie froze. âUh what now?â
âTheyâre connected to the Upside Down,â she said with a huff.
Eddie looked to Steve to translate.
âTheyâre part of a hive mind,â Steve explained. âYou step on a vine and basically youâre stepping on Vecna and basically everything else in this hell hole.â
âShit!â Eddie hissed as he tried to come up with a way to get down without waking up the whole Upside Down to their presence.
âI was thinking that now would probably be a good time to get my guns,â Nancy murmured.
Eddie finally decided that fuck it, he was just going to by pass all the vines jump down.
He landed deftly on his feet and as he pulled up his jeans a little he said, âYou, Nancy Wheeler, have guns at your house? Guns as in plural?â
Robin pointed excitedly at her. âI know, isnât she bad ass?â
âI have a Russian pistol,â Nancy said with a cock of her head, âand a revolver.â
Steve huffed out a laugh. âYou almost shot me with that one.â
Nancy smiled back and with a teasing lilt to her voice replied, âAnd you almost deserved it.â
TWAP!
Steve stepped back with the force of a denim vest being thrown in his face. He looked up at Eddie in shock.
âFor your modesty, dude.â
Steve looked down at the vest in confusion. âWhaââ
Just then there was great big roar and the ground shook. Robin tumbled into Eddie and Steve barely managed to catch Nancy before elbowed him in the side.
Steve and Nancy were able to keep on their feet but Robin and Eddie fell to the ground.
Eddie looked at Robin and then back at where the noise came from.
âGuns are really starting to sound good right now,â Eddie muttered.
Robin looked back at him and nodded. âOh yeah.â
Eddie was rubbing his shin as Robinâs heel had kicked it on her way down but his brain turned off when he saw Steve walk by as he pulled on Eddieâs vest.
Shit. He had miscalculated on that one. He hadnât wanted Nancy Wheeler to ogle his soulmate but he didnât take in the fact on how hot Steve would look wearing his battle vest. He only barely managed to help Robin to her feet before he was hoping forward to catch up with Steve.
His little lizard brain lighting up with, âHot boy! Must follow hot boy now,â as his feet danced around the vines to be by Steveâs side.
And just maybe Steve wanted it too, because as Eddie fell in step next to him, Steve blushed and ducked his head.
Eddie grinned up at him as they made their way through the darken forest of the Upside Down.
****
Eddie kept looking over at Steve, who was looking like he had merely taken a tumble in gym instead of being eaten alive.
And yeah that was hot, it was also worrying as fuck. Eddie was starting to think that maybe Steve wasnât a dick, the dude was just traumatized.
Robin and Nancy walked slower behind them to give them some privacy. Finding your soulmate in the middle of the end of the world, again, sucked.
âHey, I wanted to thank you for saving my ass back there,â Steve said, softly.
Eddie bumped their shoulders together. âYou saved your own ass, man. What you did there was very Ozzy.â
âWho?â Steve asked, confused.
âOzzy Osborn? Black Sabbath?â Eddie prompted. Steveâs confusion only deepened. âHe bit the head off a bat on stage.â
âWha?â Steve said, rearing his head back. âI donât know youâre talking about.â
Eddie smiled faintly. âItâs okay. All I was saying that that was a very metal thing you did back there.â
âAnd metal is...good?â Steve asked, unsure.
Eddie chuckled. âVery.â
âThanks,â Steve said, grateful the dirt and grim of the Upside Down hid his blush.
They walked on for a few moments in silence. âI was so jealous of you, by the way.â
Steve reared back his head. âMe? Why?â
âDustin talks about you all the time, man,â Eddie said. âLike all the time. Never shuts up about you, in fact. The kid worships the ground you walk on. Called you a badass on more than one occasion.â
Steve scoffed. âDustin thinks Iâm badass?â
âOh, yeah,â Eddie said thoughtfully. âI think I just couldnât accept that Steve Harrington was a good dude, you know? Rich parents, popular, good with girls, not a douche? There was no way. It just flies in the face of life, the universe, and everything. Including my very own Munson doctrine.â He twisted the rings on his fingers nervously.
Steve reached out and gently took his hand.
Eddie took a deep breath and let out it slowly. âIâm still jealous because youâre the real deal. Iâm learning that outside DnD, Iâm no hero. I see danger and I turn and run. Or at least thatâs what I discovered about myself this week.â
Steve squeezed his hand. âHey, give yourself a break. There was nothing you could have done about Chrissy, okay?â
Eddie let out a shuddering sigh. âThe truth is that if those two ladies hadnât dived in after you, I would still be up in that boat. I donât know how you managed to get the loyalty of two of the smartest girls in school, especially with one of them being your ex, but holy shit dude. Nancy just dived in no hesitation.â
But before Steve could answer another rumble ripped through the Upside Down.
âJesus!â Steve hissed as Eddie said, âHere we go again!â
They clutched each other as they struggled to remain on their feet. Steve looked up at Eddie and his breath stopped in his chest, tightening like a vice.
They were so close that Steve could taste their mingled breathes. He yearned to just lean forward andâ
Robin tapped his shoulder. âCome on, letâs get to Nancyâs before another quake hits us.â
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When they got to Nancyâs room, their hope for salvation turned to ash like the dust falling from the sky.
âWhat do you mean they donât exist?â Eddie hissed.
Nancy looked like she was going to cry. âThe Upside Down is stuck in 1983. Most likely the day Will vanished and I didnât get my guns until after.â
Even Robin looked disappointed at not being about to see Nancyâs guns.
It truly seemed like all was lost when Steve suddenly stopped.
âHoly shit!â he cried. âCan you hear that?â
Nancy and Robin shared a glance.
âHear what?â Nancy asked.
âDustin!â Steve said happily. âI can hear Dustin! And Lucas! And Max!â He giggled.
âItâs like they in the walls!â
Eddie grimaced. The pain must be really getting to the guy if he was hallucinâ
But then he could hear it too. Steve and Eddie shared a look and they turned, booking it for the door.
They thundered down the stairs and they noticed the golden light glittering around the chandler.
But now the girls could hear the kids too. It sounded like they were in trouble.
All four them were drawn to the light. It was warm and comforting. And god, Eddie couldnât stop touching the light.
âItâs warm,â he muttered.
The other three reached up and touched the glittering glow. Steve and god, how Steve seemed to watch to reach out to him as well.
âDoes anyone know Morse code?â Nancy asked, trying to figure out how to communicate with the right side up.
Steve shook his head and even Robin wasnât clueless.
Eddie licked his lips. âUm...does SOS count?â
Nancy nearly screamed at him, but let Eddie do his thing. They managed to communicate with Dustin, Erica, and Max, who had somehow gotten themselves under house arrest. Or whatever the hell the cops wanted to call keeping children against their will.
They managed to find a way to communicate with them through Hollyâs LiteBrite. And so Dustin rambled at a million miles per hour about gates and murders and Vecna.
âDoes anyone understand what heâs talking about?â Nancy asked.
Everyone shook their heads. So she simply sent back a single question mark.
âHow many times do I have to be right on the money before you guys trust me?â Dustin screamed.
Steve sighed. âJesus Christ, this kid has to get his ego in check.â
Eddie leaned over so that he could talk to Steve around Nancy.
âItâs his tone, right?â Eddie asked.
âYes!â Steve agreed, happy that he had someone who understood what a menace Dustin was at the best of times.
Basically it boiled down to needing to get to the nearest gate. Eddieâs trailer.
âWhich great and all,â Eddie huffed. âBut let me tell you, Forest Hills is no easy walk from here.â
Nancy looked around at them like they were stupid. âThe kids left their bikes here. There should be four of them in the garage.â
Steve rolled his eyes. But they all dutifully followed her out to the garage.
The bikes were tiny. God, are they minuscule. They all climbed onto the bikes and rode all the way to the trailer park.
And if Eddie hung back to watch Steveâs ass all the way there... fuck you, no he didnât. The view didnât hurt, though.
They made it his trailer and they laid down the bikes in front of it. Eddie began to shake. Frozen in fear. He couldnât go back in there. They couldnât make him.
They could find another gaâ
Suddenly there was a warm hand on his shoulder. âI know you donât want to go in there. But we need to get back to the Right Side Up, breathing the shit down here isnât good for you.â
Eddie gulped, but nodded.
âIâll be right beside you,â Steve continued softly. âIf you need to, take my hand.â
Eddie instantly latched on to Steveâs hand as he led the group into the Upside Down version of Eddieâs home.
He stumbled a bit as he saw the great, big, red, pulsating...wound.
âShit!â he whispered, a little awed and a lot scared. âThatâs where she died. Like right where she died.â
Steve squeezed his hand gently. âIâm sorry, Eds. We just need to find a way to contact the kids and get us out of here, okay?â
Eddie looked around at his home and just wanted to cry. Nothing was where it was supposed to be and yet exactly where it was supposed to be. And that really fucked with his head.
Nancy looked up at the gate. âItâs too high. Thereâs no way we can get to it without help.â
Steve and Robin looked around trying to see it there was something that could be used to pry it open from below.
Eddie knew he should help them. He knew where things were kept. But he just couldnât move. All he could do was stare up at that red wound in his ceiling pulsating with a sick twisted form of life.
Just then something poked through it and Eddie screamed. He didnât mean to, but the sound had escaped his mouth before he even knew what it was.
What it was when Steve got him calmed down enough to actually see it, was a shovel.
It didnât make him feel any better, until that curly little mop of hair stuck through the now decent sized hole in the ceiling.
âHenderson!â he cried in relief.
âThere you are!â Dustin called back. âDo you think that you guys can work it open from your end while we work it open from our end?â
âIs everyone okay?â Steve asked.
âYeah, weâre fine,â Dustin said. âLetâs get you guys out of there, okay?â
Between them, they were able to get the Gate open and a mattress set up to catch their fall.
âWhat are those stains?â Robin sneered.
Eddie looked up at them and licked his lips. âI, um... I donât know what they are, honestly.â
Robinâs lip curled. âGross.â
The truth was that Eddie really didnât know. He had gotten it used a couple of years ago when his old mattress fell apart. They could have been there from its previous owner for all he knew.
âSo whoâs going up first?â Steve asked.
âNot you, pretty boy?â Eddie teased.
Steve blushed. âI want to make sure everyone else gets up there okay.â
Robin eyed the sheet rope and then said, âIâll go.â
Steve nodded and watched carefully as Robin scaled the rope. She flipped around and landed on the mattress with a flomf!
Dustin helped her to her feet.
âThat was quite fun actually.â
Back in the Upside Down, Eddie looked at Nancy and Steve, but neither one moved, so he shrugged. âI guess that means Iâm next.â
This was Eddieâs least favorite part of gym, climbing rope ladders. He didnât ever see the point. Though getting detention for pointing out it was part of the military industrial complex was one of his best days in that class, so...
Up he went. It wasnât that he couldnât climb the damn thing, he just loved ranting about having to.
âOkay, Nancy,â Steve said. âYouâre next.â
But she didnât answer. Steve turned to her but she was just standing there. He called out to her again.
âNancy?â
Eddieâs head immediately popped back over the gate. âShit!â
Steve shook her shoulders, but she remained immobile.
No, no, no, no...
Not Nancy!
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If I had to choose one word to describe "Dark Heir," it would be 'OTHERWORLDLY.'
[There will be NO SPOILERS in this Review, only vague hints]
âCritiquing the idea of a classic hero and a reclaiming of the queer villainâ
These words are written under the blurb of the very ARC. Sadly, most people are still missing the point.
Dark Rise is my true love in the form of a book series.Â
As a queer person who grew up sympathizing with villains (who are often queer-coded), this book series undoubtedly serves as a great form of escapism. I feel seen and understood. I found a home here.
Reading Dark Heir was a surreal experience, almost like a sudden storm hitting me all at once. It was like being pulled into a whirlwind. It is everything I could ever wish for!!!
I devoured this book in just TWO DAYS, which is unexpected given my typically SLOW reading pace. It's worth noting that Dark Heir is considerably longer than Dark Rise (with Dark Rise comprising 34 chapters and Dark Heir containing 51). It is also fueled by my eagerness to continue the story after a two-year wait, particularly following that cliffhanger!
Will has always been my favourite character since "Dark Rise," and this sequel only amplifies it. I perceive his struggles with the truth of his identity, as a metaphor for internalized queerphobia. Many queer youth, including myself, have been told that our queerness is evil and abhorrent, leading us to hide and deny our true selves in the pursuit of acceptance from others. Will's yearning for his friends' acceptance, especially from Violet, his best friend.
Many of us would be delighted to see that James has POV chapters in this book! It's great to see his perspective on not only his feelings about Will or Sarcean but also about his family history.
I'm equally excited about introducing the new character, Visander, and I'm thrilled that he can be interpreted as trans. Knowing that CS Pacat identifies as genderqueer/non-binary, I would like to see him writing more trans-coded characters. Visander is a character who fascinates me, as there are times when he can be both lovable and yet totally frustrates me.
Praise Pacat (again), who has been so generous to give us the âSurprise POVsâ which made me scream and jump up and down at 2 a.m.
I seriously love the parts where we got to explore more of the Old World. The twists within them are both surprising and, in a way, expected. I've always held the belief that history was written by the victors, and as a result, the truth about the Dark King and the Betrayer was also lost in time. It was also very gratifying to see that the characters that were once hailed as the paragons of virtue were not so saint-like after all.
I hate classic heroes. I despise them and I won't even try to hide it.
Doubtlessly, the Old World chapters are my favourites. And I yearn to have even more of them in Book 3 because I want to know more details about how Sarcean came to power- and his downfall, and the full truth about his relationship with Anharion! I wouldn't mind the book stretching to 60+ chapters to accommodate it.
Pacat has indeed delivered on his promises to infuse this sequel with even more "on-page gay" content, so readers need not fret about the shortage of romance. They are plentiful, to say the least.
Now, returning to my initial point:
!!!Dark Rise is not a story about escaping an abusive male partner!!!
While numerous stories tackle this theme, and it is worth telling, this is not one of them.
This is a story about queer people reclaiming their identities. It speaks to those who have been vilified, demonized, alienated, and even disowned from a young age by the very individuals who should have shielded themâtheir parents and guardians.
They are continuously taught that their queerness is immoral, abhorrent, and despicable, leading them to believe they must conceal and deny their true selves, often feeling as though they are harbingers of evil and thus destined for condemnation. It sheds light on how queer youths grapple with internalized queerphobia due to an environment that refuses to accept them for who they are.
The accusations hurled at the "villainous figures" within this story mirror the stigma that the bigoted society frequently directs at queer individuals: that weâre lewd, vulgar degenerates, disease-spreaders and a danger to children.Â
Dark Rise and Dark Heir underscores our societyâs twisted morality that the only available paths for queer individuals are either to deny their queerness or face the gravest consequences. In other words: be converted or unalived.
For those of us who have been demonized and alienated by the people who were supposed to protect usâwe are not evil. We do not deserve the abuse directed at us, and it is not our fault. There is nothing wrong with us. We deserve happiness, love, safety, and acceptance.
We should all be unapologetic and unafraid of our true selves, like James.
And oH MY GOD. THAT ENDING!!! You think the prologue was crazy??? You wouldnât LIVE to see that ending.
I have fantasized about *that* final line before, but I thought it was cheesy and that it might be something more like Prince Gambit's "The King! Damianos! He lives!" but it was not like that at all đ¤Łđ¤Łđ¤Ł
It's my dream cheesy line đđđ
#dark rise#dark heir#cs pacat#will kempen#james st clair#sarcean#anharion#violet ballard#cyprian#visander#captive prince#laurent of vere#damianos of akielos#dr theory#mine
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closer | part three
joel x f!reader. non-apocalypse au.
series masterlist | main masterlist | ao3 Â
chapter summary: you try and avoid joel after your awkward kiss the other day, but it doesnât take long for him to reel you right back in. 5.2k words.
warnings: 18+ MDNI, age difference (joel is 42 and reader is 25), inexperienced reader, joel being a menace, more flirting, itâs gonna go DOWN next chapter, reader wears a cropped shirt and jean shorts, reader is described only as having hair
a/n: i hope you are all enjoying this so far! iâm so sorry this chapter definitely ends on a bit of an evil cliffhanger <3
Youâre officially hiding from Joel. You realize youâre a grown woman and should be acting more mature about this, but you canât seem to help the embarrassment that you feel when you even think about seeing him again. You wonder what he must think of you - just some silly girl, afraid of a fucking kiss, thatâs what heâs got to think.Â
Youâve done everything you can think of to stay out of his sight for the last day, although you havenât noticed any activity over at his house this morning, so itâs safe to assume heâs working today.Â
The only interaction youâve had with him was when you thought youâd caught his eye after you came out of your shower yesterday, wrapped in only a towel. You thought better of it, but you couldnât help the little power trip that having him see you naked through your window gave you the last time. So, pretending you donât see him, you drop the towel, parading around your apartment looking for something to wear for the day. You know it was probably too far away for him to see if you made eye contact, but you were careful to not look in his direction too much and give yourself away. Youâd left the house with a smug smile, wanting to gain back a little of the power you felt you lost when youâd embarrassed yourself.
You try to keep yourself busy - starting your day with some shopping thatâs supposed to be for your new apartment in Austin when you find one, but it ends up turning into clothes shopping, or more specifically, underwear shopping. You bite the inside of your lip, holding up different pairs of sexy underwear, tilting your head as you look at them. Sure, you own plenty of pairs already, but youâre feeling the urge to add to your collection, trying to convince yourself it has nothing to do with Joel despite the passing thoughts wondering which color heâd like to see on you. You decide to call Sofia, your best friend from back in Chicago while youâre ambling through the air conditioned stores, trying to stay out of the house as long as possible.Â
âSo, if Iâm hearing you right, youâre telling me that you're embarrassed because you two kissed? Didnât you want to kiss him?â Sofia says into your ear, sounding incredulous.
âUgh, itâs not that. Itâs that I fucking jumped when he tried to put his hand on my ass, like some teenage virgin or something,â you groan.Â
âI think youâre overthinking it,â she tells you, âLike, it sounds like he was understanding, right?â
âI donât know, I think so. I donât know what the hell is wrong with me, I just get crazy when Iâm around him. I wish you could just see him and understand what Iâm talking about.â
âYeah, first of all, I canât believe you havenât taken any sneaky pics of him for me yet - itâs truly offensive as your best friend that you havenât shown me apparently the hottest man alive yet,â Sofia starts, and you laugh. âSecondly, I think you need to just⌠move on from being embarrassed about it. I know that sounds harsh, but seriously, it sounds like heâs into you.â
âI donât know⌠how could he be?â you muse, feeling insecure. Youâve just been unable to see what Joel could find alluring in you when he could have someone more put together, more attractive, less shy around him, the list goes on.Â
âYouâre kidding me⌠youâre young, youâre hot, and did you already forget the part where he kissed you back and tried to grab your ass?â
You laugh. âOkay, you do have a point, Soph.â
âOf course I do. Youâd better get back over there and kiss him again, and donât even think about texting me or calling me again until you do,â she says, and you scoff in fake hurt. âOkay, not that last part, just kiss him, but please update me every 10 seconds because I miss you.â
âYeah, yeah, I miss you too,â you say to her with a chuckle, before you wrap up your conversation, knowing sheâs right, that itâs really not that big of a deal. You just hate how you feel like youâre constantly embarrassing yourself in front of Joel. By now, itâs the early evening, and youâve managed to stay away for most of the day, avoiding both Joel and your own thoughts with some good old retail therapy and talking to Sofia.Â
You take your dinner outside, a grilled cheese and chips, your favorite summer meal since you were a kid, and sit down on a lounge chair. You sit cross legged with your plate and book in front of you, taking in the way the heat of the day has finally turned into that perfect, comfortable evening temperature. You see no sign of Joel, no lights on at his house, and decide to enjoy a few moments of solitude knowing he canât spot you right now. You get completely lost in your reading, one of the few reprieves you have these days, so you fail to notice lights flickering on next door until a loud, rumbling laugh catches your attention.
You feel like a deer in headlights as you peer over at the source of the noise and see Joel emerging out of his back door, someone trailing closely behind him. Heâs wearing what looks like work clothes, although you haven't seen him dress in a whole lot other than t-shirts and jeans, and he has a six pack of beer in one hand. The other man next to him bears some resemblance, the same dark hair and tan skin, although he has a more boy-ish appearance than Joel does, and you assume itâs his brother that heâd mentioned, Tommy.Â
You donât know if you should move, run, or hide - a real classic flight or⌠flight situation. Luckily, it seems like Joel is occupied enough with his brotherâs visit that his eyes havenât made it over in your direction at all. You wonder if thereâs an occasion, or theyâre just having an after work beer, which you somehow find endearing, like everything else he does. They sit down on Joelâs patio table, supposed-Tommy sitting across from Joel, facing your direction. Good, this is good, you think, he doesnât know who you are, so why would you catch his attention? Youâre still trying to decide your next move, but find seeing Joel is a distraction from even that. You decide to try and sneak away without being noticed
âHey,â Joel says, calling your name with a wave as youâre halfway up the stairs to your apartment. You groan internally, and grimace slightly before turning around. Youâve been spotted, and feel you have no choice but to engage now. You make it to the fence line between your yards, realizing youâre still awkwardly holding your empty dinner plate and book, and that combined with seeing Joel, turned around in his chair, looking at you, makes you already want to sprint away.
âHiâŚâ you say, trying to speak up but finding it hard right now.
âThis is my brother, Tommy, the one I was tellinâ you about,â Joel says, and thereâs something different about his voice, but you canât quite place it yet. You furrow your brow, but then relax your face, not wanting to be rude. Tommy gives a little glance at you, and then Joel, as if trying to piece together why weâd been talking about him.
âHowdy,â Tommy says with a wave and a friendly smile. At the least, he seems disarming enough that your nerves are settled a bit.
âYou joininâ us for a beer, or what?â Joel says, and thatâs when you place it. Joelâs is drunk, or at least tipsy. You think they must have had some beers prior to the six pack theyâve just started drinking. Youâre not sure what to do with this information, how to feel about it, but youâre intrigued to see this side of Joel. Tommy, completely unaware of your pain, gives you a hopeful smile, urging you to come over.Â
âUm, yeah, sure,â you say, and the nervous pit thatâs been living in your stomach for days lurches. You want to forget the other day happened, just be normal around Joel, and think that maybe having a drink could be a good start. âHang on,â you add, holding a finger up before you run up to your apartment, discarding your plate and book, and run back out, not before double checking how you look in the mirror. You scowl a little, feeling like you look spent from your recent sleep deprivation.
You join them a few moments later, awkwardly settling yourself down into one of the chairs. Tommy pulls a bundle of keys out of his pocket, using his bottle opener keychain to crack open one of the beers and starts handing it in your direction before suddenly stopping.
âWait. You old enough to drink this?â he asks, eyeing you suspiciously. You laugh, not entirely sure if you should feel flattered by the comment. If anything, it makes you feel even more self conscious about the kiss you and Joel shared, your cheeks warm and buzzing just at the memory.
âOh, yeah, of course. Iâm 25,â you respond, and you can see Joelâs gaze shoot over to you as the number comes out of your mouth. You knew he had to have been wondering your age, and while you assumed he had a likely guess, heâs never asked you directly. Tommy gives over the beer to you with a smile now, asking your name. You tell him and he tries to make casual conversation.
âSo, I see you and my brother have gotten acquainted then. New neighbors?â
âKind of,â you say, and you explain the situation with your parents to him.
Tommy laughs, looking over at Joel. âImagine one of us, doin that with Mom and Dad⌠whew, weâd have gone crazy. Theyâre lucky theyâve got a good daughter like you,â he says kindly, and you decide you rather like Tommy now that youâve met him. He has a welcoming, warm energy that youâre extra appreciative of right now.
Joel chuckles at his brotherâs comment, looking between the both of you. âSheâs an angel, this one,â Joel says, his gaze landing on you again, and giving a small wink. You smirk and humbly bow your head at their comments. Mostly, you need to get out of seeing Joelâs piercing brown eyes looking at you.Â
Tommy continues to ask you questions about your life - your time in college, growing up in San Antonio, what kind of hobbies you have. Heâs a fun conversationalist, and he makes you feel listened to, looking at you with interest at every answer you throw at him. You manage to squeeze in a few questions of your own, but it seems like Tommy is more interested in hearing about you. Joel is mostly sitting back, listening, laughing here and there and throwing in some of his own comments. But every time you look over at him, itâs as if heâs just⌠absorbing you with his eyes, hanging on every word youâre saying about yourself. His stare is intimidating in its own way, and you find yourself equally averting it but unable to keep peeking over at him.
Youâre now about two beers deep and can feel the light, warm feeling of it coursing through you. This isnât so bad, after all, you think - you can totally be normal around Joel after your awkward, embarrassing encounter the other day. Youâre lulled into a sense of security, enjoying this evening with the Miller brothers, watching them bicker here and there and just letting the conversation flow naturally. They both have a little color on their cheeks as they laugh hard at some inside joke and memory, your smile growing just at seeing how hard theyâre laughing - itâs adorable, you think to yourself with a huge grin.
Your parents must have let Benny out in the yard, because he catches Tommyâs attention as he runs over to the fence line and barks at you, probably wondering what the hell youâre doing over there, and not at home with him.
âNow whoâs that cute fella?â Tommy asks you, smiling at Benny wagging his tail and panting by the fence.
âThatâs Benny, my parentsâ dog,â you tell him.
âAhâŚâ Tommy says, looking over at Joel knowingly, then right at you. âSo youâre the reason my brother was late the other day,â he says with a smirk. You are in the middle of sipping your beer, and you immediately choke at Tommyâs words, the bottle falling out of your hands as you cough. It lands on the table with a loud thud, beer going everywhere - on your clothes, on the table, even some spitting out of your mouth as you choke.
âOh shit,â you yell out in between coughs, quickly jumping up and standing back, seeing the beer dripping off of you, a large puddle on the table. Youâre suddenly very aware of just how tipsy you are from the almost two drinks youâve had - you forget how much of a lightweight you are sometimes. âS-sorry,â you say, trying to brush some of the liquid off of your arms and shirt, but you just end up making a bigger mess.
Tommy and Joel jump up with little chuckles, quickly ready to begin cleaning up the mess. âSâalright darlinâ,â Joel says quickly, âBathroomâs inside and down to the left, why donât you go clean yourself up a bit,â he suggests to you, while he and Tommy get to work cleaning the mess with the beach towel he still had outside from the other day when you two got caught in the rain.
You rush off into the house, beer dripping off of you, barely bothering to inspect Joelâs house despite desperately wanting to. The sun has gotten much lower in the sky since you arrived over at Joelâs, so his house is relatively dark, and you search down the hallway clumsily, finding your way to the bathroom. Once the light is on, you blink a few times to adjust, and quickly grab the nearest towel, dabbing your arms dry. Itâs not much use, considering your clothes are pretty well soaked, but you wet the towel and try wiping your shirt down a bit anyway. You take a few extra moments to calm yourself, feeling slightly dizzy from the alcohol and the way Joel has been stealing glances at you all evening. One more deep breath and you decide youâll leave the bathroom, excuse yourself, and head back home to shower and change. Does Tommy know? Your brain is running off with the idea quickly before even having all of the information. Maybe he just meant the part about Joelâs injury, but you canât help but picture that little smirk he had on his face. Fuck, you canât stay, you canât take it anymore, being around Joel like this after knowing what it felt like to kiss him, having Tommy seeming to know about it.
You open the door, steady your feet slightly, and turn down the hallway, and Joel is standing in the shadows, waiting for you. It causes you to jump a little, seeing his broad form just standing, leaning a shoulder against the wall.
âOh, uh, I can grab some more towels, to help clean up,â you offer, unsure of what heâs trying to do right now, but Joel doesnât seem to hear you or care, and he approaches you quickly, crowding his body close to you and you end up with your back against the nearest wall. Joel is standing practically up against you, but his hands are still at his sides. Heâs trying so hard not to touch you, to grab your hips and pull them against his. to cup your face and crash his mouth into yours. Fuck, heâd said to himself that he was going to let you come to him, but he canât help it as his hand twitches towards you.Â
âYouâve been avoidinâ me, pretty girl,'' Joel says, and heâs slurring a little. He didnât seem that drunk to you, maybe just buzzed, enough that heâs coming off slightly different than normal. Hearing him call you âpretty girlâ sends you speechless, as his pet names always seem to do.
âI - I -â you stutter, unsure of how to answer. You have been avoiding him, but donât know how to tell him that, since it seems childish now that youâre faced with it. His large body is pressed so close to yours and you desperately want to lean into it, your mind scrambling completely at the proximity of him.Â
âSâokay, sweet girl,â he slurs, sending another pulse of desire through you with another new pet name. His hands slowly come up and rest on your waist, the feeling of his strong hands wrapped around either side of you sends what feels like a jolt of electricity through you.
âI just canât stay away⌠said I would, but look at you,â he says, letting his tipsy brain spill all his thoughts as he looks down at you, glancing up and down your body and resting his eyes on your face. âJust tell me what you want, âcause I know what I want,â he says teasingly, his voice going lower.Â
âAnd⌠What do you want?â you finally muster the courage to ask him, lifting your eyes to search his face. You find his dark eyes staring back, lustful and heavy lidded. You gulp down the excited, panicky feeling you seem to continuously get around him and feel your stomach churning with desire.
Joel hums low, the sound deep and suggestive, followed by a small chuckle, pressing his forehead to yours delicately. One hand reaches up from your waist and gently touches your arm, and you can tell heâs holding back, practically restraining himself as his breathing quickens along with your own.Â
âYou need me to say it?â Joel asks, âNeed to hear me say what I wanna do to you?â He groans a little, his hands tightening on your hip and your arm where heâs holding them, pulling you a bit closer to him.Â
Your breath catches in your throat a little and you donât know when, but youâve started shaking slightly with anticipation. You feel the familiar aching between your legs once Joelâs body is pressed even closer to yours. You can smell the beer and the musk of him as you lean your head slightly, causing your nose to nudge his as you nod slightly, awaiting his answer. Youâre curious to know exactly what he wants to do to you, and in fine detail.Â
Joel takes a breath in to answer, but a sound from down the hallway towards the kitchen takes you both out of the moment - someone clearing their throat. You gasp and try to leap back from Joel, but the wall is right there, still leaving you at Joelâs mercy. Joel pulls back, but only slightly, as if he doesnât care that Tommy is standing right there, watching all of this.
âJust came for some paper towels, but I see Iâm⌠interrupting something,â Tommy says cooly, and his tone isnât like youâd heard before, itâs much less warm and genial. Heâs upset, you realize, and you think maybe he has every right to be, knowing how young you are compared to his brother.
âI- Iâm so sorry,â you mumble, and to whom youâre apologizing, youâre not even sure. You start to slide out from under Joelâs form, still so dangerously close to you, and his hand falls from your arm, letting you go. âI should, I should goâŚâ you mumble as you brush past him and start rushing towards Tommy to cut through the kitchen to the back door. You stop abruptly, awkwardly near Tommy and without looking him in the eyes, say, âIt was nice meeting you,â before making a beeline for the back door. What the fuck had just happened? you think to yourself over and over as you burst through the door to your apartment, standing with your back against it for several moments to try and collect yourself.
âJesus Christ, Joel, I was joking about her being the reason you were late,â Tommy chides, leaning back against the counter in Joelâs kitchen. âI didnât realize⌠whatever the hell that was⌠was going on.â
Joel sighs, running a hand down his face, his buzz quickly wearing off at his younger brotherâs scolding. âTommy, itâs not anything. Iâm gonna need you to mind your damn business for once in your life,â Joel retorts, feeling frustration rising up quickly in his chest.
âRight, just forget I saw that? Sheâs 25, Joel.â Tommy sets down the beer he was holding on the counter next to him and crosses his arms.
âItâs not that big of a deal, sheâs just sweet on me, I think. I was a little drunk and she was⌠just there,â Joel replies, knowing his argument is weak, falling apart by the minute.
âAnd so youâre just, what? Egging her on for the fun of it? It ainât a game, Joel.â Tommyâs tone is getting more serious, gearing up for an argument with his brother.
âGod damn it, I realize that, Tommy,â Joel says, his voice rising dramatically. Tommy cocks his head, his eyebrows drawn, studying his brother as the realization begins to dawn on him.
âYou donât⌠Joel tell me you donât have feelings for her.â Tommy sighs, rubbing his eyes with his thumb and forefinger.
âYou donât think I know itâs wrong? That I wanna be with someone nearly twenty years younger? Fucking hell, brother, I know it.â
âShitâŚâ Tommy says simply, at a loss for words right now. They stand in an awkward silence, Joel shifting from one leg to another, unsure of where to even go next with this conversation.
âLook, Iâve been trying. To avoid it, that is. Really hard, Iâm tryingâŚâ Joel trails off, and Tommy looks over at him again, a softer look in his eyes now that heâs coming down from his anger.
âButâŚâ Tommy urges him on.
âSeems you already know. Donât know if I can stop seeinâ her,'' Joel shrugs.
âListen, you know Iâve done my fair share of stupid shit in my life so Iâm not one to talk. Sheâs a sweet gal, though, and you shouldnât be fuckinâ around with her like that.â
Joel sighs even more deeply. âI know you arenât gonna believe me when I say this, but⌠I want to treat her right, Tommy. Itâs not a game to me, swear.â
Tommy looks over at his brother skeptically. Sure, he believes his brother, but can Joel really follow through on that? He isnât so sure. âMy advice? Stay away from her,â Tommy says with finality, taking another swig from his beer.Â
âGood thing I didnât ask for your advice,â Joel says quickly, narrowing his eyes at him.Â
âWhy do you care so much, Joel? You donât need to be messing with a young girlâs life, drag her into your shit.â
âFirst off, it seems sheâs interested in me, and she knows sheâs not my age, she ainât stupid. She can make her own decisions.â Joel crosses his arms and stares his brother down.
âAnd secondlyâŚ?â
âSheâs a sweet girl, kind, funny, andâŚbeautiful, of course, but thatâs besides the point, I think. Somethinâ about her⌠I canât explain, Tommy.â
âSo itâs more than just wanting to fuck her?â Tommy says, still suspicious of Joelâs intentions.
âI donât know yet, if Iâm honest,â Joel starts, scratching the back of his neck. âI think so. But we havenâtâŚâ Joel admits before he can stop himself, feeling a little color creep onto his cheeks. Tommy sighs again, his frustration still palpable, but he breaks a little bit.
âJesus, Joel,â Tommy breathes out, pinching the bridge of his nose. âIf youâre not going to listen to me, just be careful, please?â
âI will,â Joel says firmly, and he means it. He doesnât have any intention of hurting you, or messing with your life. He does want to fuck you, very badly, in fact, but heâs pretty sure itâs more than that at this point - he wants to spend time with someone sweet like you, someone who is kind and generous and loving. Heâs found during the conversations this evening that heâs more attracted to you than even he realized, and he knows that Tommy is right, heâs completely fucked up for wanting to be with you like that. He knows deep down that his brotherâs advice is sound, but after seeing you giggling all evening at their jokes, hearing the passion with which you talk about your hobbies and life, getting close enough to breathe in your delicious scent again, he knows heâs absolutely doomed. Thereâs no staying away from you.
Mortified doesnât even begin to cover it. You want nothing more than to hide away forever, and yes, you realize youâre being dramatic, but having Tommy walk in on you and Joel all over each other wasnât how youâd wanted to end your evening. You practically felt like youâd gone home with your tail between your legs, and youâve been moping around for the last hour after youâd showered the beer off and changed into your pajamas. A quiet knock on your door before it opens alerts you, and you look up from your bed to see your mother coming in.
âSorry to bother you, honey,â she starts, stepping tentatively into the room. You sit up on the bed and try to give her your best smile.
âNo, thatâs alright, mom, whatâs up?â you say, your own voice coming out a bit strained sounding to you. She eyes you a little suspiciously, but decides to continue on.
âJust wanted to say hi,â she says, smiling at you, and you realize youâve been so preoccupied with your own shit that youâve barely bothered to check in on them when they are home from work. âAnd Iâd just meant to say thank you the other day for fixing that cabinet. You know it was driving me nuts,â she says, straightening up some pillows and blankets on the couch before sitting down. You pause for a moment, debating on what Joel had said about you taking credit, but it felt⌠awkward to lie about.Â
âActually, it was uh, Joel⌠Miller from next door,â you admit sheepishly, worried about any follow up questions she might have. Youâre not a great liar, and you worry she would see right through you if you tried to hide the way just talking about him makes you giddy, despite the conflict regarding him raging through you right now.
âOh?â she says, urging you to continue with her head tilting. Your momâs eyebrows are raised, and she looks absolutely enraptured by what youâre going to say next. Sheâs a sucker for random acts of kindness, you know.Â
âHe saw me trying to fix the gate, and then asked if there was anything else we needed help with, so⌠yeah. He works as a contractor, I guess, so he knew what he was doing. Unlike me.â Your face lights up a little just talking about him but the room is dimly lit enough you think it might hide it from her.
âWeâll have to thank him. Thatâs awfully nice, isnât it?â your mom says with a smile, suddenly getting up. âLet me make him something, some cookies, oh, or a pie, and you can bring it over,â she rambles mostly to herself, already halfway to the door to put her plan to action. You groan - she is absolutely insane, thinking about making a whole pie at seven thirty in the evening, you think, rolling your eyes. The thought quickly strikes you that it would be a good excuse to see Joel again if you had a reason to go over to his place, and your heart rate picks up a bit. Maybe it would help, you think, if you were able to just try and talk things out with him. You havenât stopped thinking about the question heâd asked you earlier - to tell him what you want.Â
You think you finally have your answer. You know exactly what you want, and youâre pretty sure that youâre feeling brave enough to tell him tonight. Youâre tired of hiding, of feeling too embarrassed to even look at him. You need things to progress one way or another, you decide.
You follow your mom back to the main house, helping her in the kitchen, and about thirty minutes later she has fresh chocolate chip cookies out of the oven and is plating them up with you. Your mother never ceases to amaze you when she gets into a mood like this - sheâs one of the most efficient people youâve ever met. She hands you the cookies with a smile, urging you to go deliver them now.Â
âItâs kind of late, donât you think?â you ask, wanting to make sure you donât seem too eager.
She frowns a little as she glances at the clock. âI donât knowâŚâ she says, and you can see the familiar overthinking anxiety taking over her instantly.
âThatâs alright, mom, I got this. Iâll just run them over right now, I think he stays up kind of late, Iâve seen him out in the yard past eight o'clock before,â you reassure her, half for your own reasons, you think with a hint of guilt.
âOh, good, thank you, honey,â your mom replies, a relieved grin coming over her face. âI just want to make sure we get off to a good start with our neighbors.â You almost laugh, thinking she doesnât have to worry about that too much with the things youâre hoping to do with him.
âIâll probably head back to the apartment and get some sleep after, so weâll talk tomorrow, okay?â you tell her. You want to have an excuse if in case, and the thought alone makes you want to squeal, anything happens that keeps you at Joelâs longer than theyâd expect you to be there.Â
You leave out the back door, quickly rushing up to your apartment to change your clothing and get ready. You put on your favorite cropped tank top, tight around your chest, and itâs in a blue color that you think looks great on you. You choose your shortest pair of jean shorts for the bottom of your ensemble, feeling a little ridiculous putting on as little clothing as possible for him. You rush to your mirror, tousling your hair a bit to make sure it looks in place. You canât believe youâre doing this for whatâs supposed to be a quick visit, but you dab on a bit of makeup - some mascara and a hint of blush, just to give you a fresh look. You take a deep breath and smooth your hair one more time before leaving down the stairs, making your way to the front of Joelâs house. You have to do this before you lose your nerve, you think to yourself, mentally urging your shaking hand forward. You inhale one more time before knocking on the door, feeling your stomach flipping with anticipation as it starts to open.
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