#THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE TAG DARLING!!!!!

[write-it-motherfuckers]

[sugarsnappeases]

kara i wanna know allllll about your reg. tell me EVERYTHING <3

so obvs canonically pretty much the only thing we know about reg is his betrayal of voldemort and the cause etc etc so i like to centre that in most of my thoughts about him……

he joins the death eaters bc he’s a loser w a freakish voldemort obsession who has like three friends and bc he’s lonely and he hates sirius and he wants to spite him by joining the group to which he’s so opposed. he wants to prove sirius wrong and prove himself right and i believe wholeheartedly that, even if he was influenced somewhat by the way he was raised and by the circles he runs in, he joined the death eaters completely of his own volition!!! i’m passionate about this!!! i think it destroys the nuance of his character to say that he was forced to join or that he joined w the intention to betray them all along or whatever . to me, he was fucking gagging to be a death eater and he’s so smug when he’s allowed in. i picture him ranting to barty and evan about ‘the great honour that has been bestowed upon him’ whilst lovingly stroking his dark mark

anyway, then he gets scared. he’s just a boy!!! and he realises he’s in too deep when it’s far too late… to me he just can’t stand the violence of the death eaters. like he’s a blood purist and further than that thinks he personally is superior to pretty much everyone else, on account of his black blood, but he hates that he has to get his hands dirty in order to see his idealised vision of the world (sans mudbloods and blood-traitors) realised…. he’s soft and weak and squeamish and lonely and always so so miserable at all times as a rule. he also tries to hide how scared he is by being a massive bitch. classic.

then he realises that tom has a horcrux (and imo he would figure this out fairly easily after the kreacher thing, bc he’s smart but also bc tom read about them in a book in the HOGWARTS LIBRARY!! so it’s not much of a stretch to say that the same book and probs further, more detailed books would be in the library at grimmauld, likewise in most of the darker pureblood family libraries…. this is another thing i’m passionate about. horcruxes aren’t this big secret. nobody makes them bc nobody’s a fucking idiot like tom is. they’re also warned off properly by their rents. tom doesn’t have this…. ANYWAY) he realises tom has a horcrux and that the guy he’s idolised and basically sold his soul to is fucking bonkers (shameless self promo - i write a bit about this realisation in the regulus letter in my fic ‘where can i put it down?’…. makes me crazy) and he’s scared and alone and he wants out and he does the one brave thing of his life in dying…..

and he doesn’t think it’s a brave thing. he tells himself that sirius was a coward for running away and betraying them and specifically him. he tells himself he’s being brave, braver and better than sirius, when he’s like sticking it out, joining the death eaters, following the role prescribed to him, so when he decides he’s gonna go to the cave it’s like giving up, it’s being a coward, its admitting to himself that he’s never been better than sirius no matter how much he want or tries to be, it’s betraying the cause and everything he’s stood for but he HAS to do it. for sirius and for kreacher and for himself and for the chance that maybe he’s not past saving. he spends his whole life trying to be good but in the sense of behaving and then his death, his first (and last) real rebellion, is the only time that he actively attempts to be good in terms of a moral act even if it has nothing to do w a renouncement of blood purity. and i don’t think he fully realises that when he does it bc it’s all so tangled up in other things. and i’m not saying that he’s like morally reprehensible the rest of the time (he’s just a boyyyy) but the majority of his active choices have been kinda bad ones up to this point even if he’s been like . passively good . and also literally just a child. an angsty teen if you will

his life is marked by inaction and bad decisions and his final act is kinda the antithesis of this and it’s tragic bc he’s not ever going to survive it. and sirius is never gonna know. it makes me miserable. does any of this even make sense lmaooo basically he’s a loser and he misses his brother and he’s so lonely and he loves sirius so much even as he hates him and he’s quiet and he wants so desperately to be a good death eater bc this is everything he’s ever wanted but he just can’t in the end!!! he’s just a boy!!! a boy who would nurse birds with broken wings back to health and cry when they flew away, a boy who would hold his brother’s hand and hang on every word he says and exist almost entirely in sirius’ shadow until said shadow is suddenly gone and he’s left reeling, a boy who’s so so soft and gentle but who hides it all behind layers of barbs and cold remarks, a boy who is desperately desperately sad and scared and GOD I LOVE HIM……

[boxwinebaddie]

uncle neen!!! welcome back omg i was so sad to see u disappear </3 hyh !!! i had a question i asked last time but i was wondering since ur rewriting ur fics, are u planning on posting them on tumblr? or on ao3? pls be kind to urself too<33

good MORNING, lovie!!!!~ <3 c':

( or whatever time it is, where you are at the moment! )

i'm very excited to announce that you are my very FIRST new ask message on my brand new blog!

( teri is my first follower; ly ter. <33 o//3//o )

***long overdue UN ramble-bramble under the cut. xx

i /do/ miss my six hundred bajillion ask memes and am mourning the loss of all my online creations and great joys as a deranged southpark fanfiction author and the legacy i built with my tiny, gay weird hands

( i will go into it another time, but i had a very, very frightening bipolar episode surrounding my blog and my role on here as a writer, friend and mentor to you all, deleted all my things in a horrible panic, was able to recover them...but in the -- what i hope is the *very last* -- after shock of my episode...i got very scared, very sad and deleted both my dearly treasured and beloved, beautifully cult followed by many of you and other ghosts of sp style fanatics past ao3 account**

**( with peppermint on it at 13k likes which...oh my god, please be gentle with me, that was a very, very hard blow and rough realization for me and i am sorry to everyone who loved that fanfiction and wanted to go back and read it for posperity and personal comfort...i miss her too; rest in peace, pep, my first born. my sweet girl. </3 )

...and most tragically of all, i deleted my tumblr blog, with over one hundred pages of carefully curated content surrounding my sp aus, your lovely, insightful and thoughtful questions and inquiries, also typed with your tiny, weird gay hands answered, in turn, with mine, torched the ev. of those memories in the final blast and lost my window into your world through that medium...

...which is literally heartbreaking to me, because more than even my silly fanfictions or my blog, what i loved to do, was talk to all of you and read your wonderful messages each day and remind myself of why i should be here and continue to do what i do. </333 :'''c

BUT! my darlings, as ravenstan would say, 'it's always darkest before crimson dawn', for the very first time in several weeks ( which, i fear, and i was, full of fear and horrible self loathing/dread every waking and nightmarish moment ), last night, i cried for a very, very, very, long time, held myself together in the broken places -- told myself and the girl i was that i loved her and i was going to take care of us and be brave -- and broke the fever ( a little off key like jersey kyle, but very lovely nonetheless; love you tone deaf king. x my sboyf. )

today, i woke up this morning and slept...PEACEFULLY and woke up PERFECTLY HAPPY AND RESTED...

AND SMILED. QUITE. WIDE!!!!~ :D

and that is a baby step, but it is a step in the right direction and also almost wanted to make me weep like a baby again because i literally have not felt happy or like i do not hate myself for like, i shit you not, over like 15-20 days...it was frightening and fucking horrible! SLAY!

nevertheless ( or the most, finally ) i am excited to welcome in a new era/year of change on my blog and within myself; which is an era of peppermint flavored 'hope i'm healing' in a delicious rem(ember) font.

unfortunately, because i nuked my ao3 account, i do not currently one atm, but am in the process of recovering it.

( i'm not condoning any kind of rude/uncivilized behavior bc people are allowed to do anything they want -- but i'd really like to get my user back and would appreciate it a lot if no one used it to create another ao3 account just because it would be confusing for my readers and disheartening to me to not be boxwinebaddie anymore. )

until then, i will be writing/drafting rem(ember) in my messy google docs, am storyboarding everything to the best of my ability ( which is not perfect, but nothing is -- except stan and kyle to each other -- but god loves a trier, which is why he hates me: i prefer hell where it's drier -- that way my girlfail guylinea will not run. xx )

KALE SEITAN! ;)

posting little snippets of it on here for all of you, probably put it here on my tumblr and post it up to ao3 if i can regain my account/one in general ( i am a little worried that because of how long it's been, the loss of all my followers and, what i assume, is a decreased public or tiktok generated interest in sp, it will do poorly; rip </3 )

-- but the point is...that i want to start doing stuff for myself now. and not because i think i should or create unnecessary stress/sadness surrounding my strength or weakness as a writer or person ( or like, beat the living shit out of myself every single day anymore )...

...so i am writing it slowly, carefully, synthesizing all the info i gathered from over a year of answering your questions ( which helped me develop my sp au styles and their worlds into the lovely, seemingly breathing paper machslayed things they are now ), am going to write the fanfiction i always/wanted/ to write ( i’ve always wanted to rewrite RM, but was so busy and overwhelmed with my blog/my irl stuff that i couldn't )

and i'm calling it...

<3

p.s. ( i love you ): i am going to give my grandmother a copy of the first chapter of peppermint for christmas because i wanted to do something special/sentimental for her and secretly push the gay middle school style agenda ( she is actually very woke and thought my uncle might be gay for a while when he was younger, haha xx ), but i want to give them different names, so that on the off chance it gets passed off to my mom, my dad or manages to travel by world of mouth ( my grandma has a tendency to gab, but i love her a lot ) that it can't specifically be traced back to my dead ao3 or my blog.

so if any one has any ideas for silly interesting names i could give my sons, names for other characters or south park in gen. hit me up! <33

thank you for your interest in my work -- and in me, in general. i love you all dearly, i hope you heal ( i know you will ) and smile, pendejos because got a lot coming up on that crimson dawn and a lot of crazy shit coming down on that *jersey i won't say i'm in luh megara vc*

~SCHARLET sLUt~

cheers! mazel! ;) xx

-uncle nina, in her healing era <3

[vanweezer]

garfield who listens to blink-182 for the art ask game 😎

tried to make him bust it down whiteboy style

taking art requests

[jessamine-rose]

hello jess beloved..... made a little thing for phantom pain bc i saw this pose reference and immediately i think of jiejie and dain hehe

jiejie's pov? ;D

.............rin?? (。_°)☆

KSNE39E3VKVNVKNVRIK RIN WHAT THE FCK I THOUGHT THIS WAS GOING TO BE ONE OF OUR USUAL INTERACTIONS HOLD UP WHY IS THERE AN IMAGE OH SHIT IT'S FAN ART RIN WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?? I LOVE IT SO MUCH BUT RIN?? RIN??!!

*clears throat* Thank you so much for your fan art of Phantom Pain!! I rlly appreciate it, and my comments are in the tags <3

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by my beloved no.1 chappell roan stan @cordiallyfuturedwight thanks my darling <33 i can only apologise for the lack of ms roan here... i swear good luck babe has been on repeat i don't know what happened

tagging the usual suspects, apologies if i've already missed yours: @aprylynn @jiminsproof @thvinyl @cosmicdreamgrl @visionsofgideontheninth @hoseeok @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @monismochi <333 and you dear reader

oh and see here for more of my self-proclaimed songs of the summer if you're interested in that kind of thing

[knifearo]

Hi! You said you wanted A spec art so I wanted to share this if that’s okay! It represents my queer joy of when I previously identified as aro this year. Turns out I’m just lesbian but yeah I think it still fits! I tried painting and mixing the colors with the aro ace sunset flag and this is the result.

I hope it’s still okay to share since I’m not aro anymore but am a spec specifically Orchidsexual and grey asexual ✨

wonderful wonderful wonderful thank you for sharing!!! i'm a really big fan of keeping a positive relationship with past labels i think it's really cool that you have like. a physical expression of the joy it brought you at one point. lovely lovely lovely....

[leviiackrman]

DONATION SKETCH No. 13

Thank you sm Astraea!! || Rénee Watts - @captastra || Kofi Donations

Tag list (ask to be added or removed): @risingsh0t @sstewyhosseini @chuckhansen @roofgeese @statichvm @unholymilf @florbelles @confidentandgood @arklay @jinfromyarikawa @shellibisshe @simonxriley @queennymeria @marivenah @faerune @nokstella @noonfaerie @liurnia @indorilnerevarine @jacobseed @jackiesarch @heroofpenamstan

[rhaenyra-the-gracious]

I was tagged by the lovely Nat @nataliajames, to post my monthly recieptify! Thank you!

I tag: @atlantidea @lyngunn @yenneferschaos @margaritalaux-antille @bloodbuzz-ohio @redthreadoffate @thehiddenbaroness @bymine @killianglyndon @chuckhansen  @danaanruhn @nynazenik

[spinecurlingmice]

okay more on hajime's underwear. . in a world where all the fte's are canon for everybody and not just a gameplay thing, do you think everybody on the island made it like. a bet or something. every single person he's became close with on this fucking island gave him their panties as a token of closeness, so like are they waiting for him to reciprocate?? the one person he gives his underwear to is like. the Chosen hajime person and they get to gloat ? do they ask.

[kedsandtubesocks]

fic titles ask game ✨

thank you to the cutest jalapeño @jolapeno for the tag ily forever jo

Rules: Send me an ask with the title of one of my fics below and I'll tell you why I chose it, the song it's from, the line in the fic that inspired it, or maybe share a snip.

trick or treat

the lake

game changer (national league)

soulless creatures

to the darkness

monster mash

son tus miradas

ancient paths

midnight show

no pressure tags: @perotovar @burntheedges @hauntedhowlett @pedgito @saradika

@tonysopranosrobe @lowlights @morallyinept @gasolinerainbowpuddles @almostfoxglove & anyone else who hasn’t don’t this yet pls this is as your tag to join in!! 🎃

[jazzzzzzhands]

Oh I got an ask!! And ohh it feels good to draw again!

It's nice to have an excuse to doodle!

Please I welcome asks of art requests during this time of art block!

(i also miss my Groovy au if someone wants to send me an ask..)

[reiverreturns]

ooooooooo 2, 3, 4, 13, 14 for AO3 wrapped >:)

2. First fic you clicked on this year

Man I WISH I had history on so I knew, but my best guess would be May The Sunrise Bring Hope Where It Once Was Forgotten by deathmallow (Arthur/Sadie, RDR2) which I was definitely re-reading over the winter break. I don't ship the pairing as a rule of thumb but this fic is so good I'll read it again and again. Their Sadie is so wonderful and real to me.

3. First fic you Bookmarked this year

Nachalo by phrenitis (Elizabeth/Philip, The Americans). Just gorgeous, tight, efficient prose that's so in tune with the characters. I loved this one. Man I need to watch The Americans again.

4. First fic you posted this year

Nostos (mostly gen, TGM)! My beloved writing warm up that went off the rails. The only fic I've ever written, copy-proofed, and published in the span of 24 hours.

13. Your personal favorite fic you read this year

oh GOD this question is so hard but I love reccing fics. Here's a couple over multiple fandoms I adored reading this year:

never the same river twice by Contra (Andy/Helen of Troy, The Old Guard) gave me full on body chills when I first read it. Gorgeous premise and a beautiful examination of history, time, and women's place in it. It will give you kassandra feels by proxy though you've been warned.

blue and permanent and the smoke that roams by deerscarer (Anne/Jack/Charles, Black Sails) are fics so good that nothing else for this ship could be written again and I'd still be satisfied because I can revisit these over and over.

The Ministry of Pain by elo_elo (Ghost/OC, Call of Duty) has utterly, utterly stunning prose. I read this fandom blind and having zero interest in character/oc fanfiction and still I cannot get the way it's written out of my mind.

Kings of the Air by FabulaRasa (Ice/Mav, Top Gun) is one of those fandom cornerstone fics that sometimes you think might only be popular because it's been around for ages but this fully earns its stripes and then some. Their characterisation of Mav and Ice is so perfect it's out of this world. I read it three times in two days.

14. Your personal favorite fic you posted this year

So I notoriously find most of everything I write cringe for a long while after I post, but I 100% had the most fun writing Rules of Engagement (Phoenix & Rooster, TGM). It's not the best thing I've ever written, nor the neatest, but their platonic soulmate best friend dynamic is something I was hugely passionate about exploring. It might not make the numbers of my big shippy fics but it's the darling of my heart.

Ao3 wrapped ask game

[userwoodz-archive]

[url + core] | pinterest edition

tagged by my mel @lee-minhoe <3 thanks so much beloved !!

i kind of cheated and used both minchanz and userwoodz and picked my fave nine images from those combined but minchanz is part of my soul okay don’t judge me pls. anyways ngl obsessed with the results pinterest said minchanz? did you mean bickering besties soulmates? and we love to see it.

tagging some lovelies (feel free to ignore ofc!): @rainbowrenjun @caratonce @twiceland @yonglixx @moonsua @strayklds @chanrizard @hyunebear

[ghost-proofbaby]

Hour 19 😍 Steve! Such a bad spy. I did a huge comment on ao3 so I won't repeat here, but I saw you'd replied to someone saying that one of them is going to get outed next chapter and I can't wait. They've been all snuggly and cute and awkward the last few hours and it's time to open a can of worms for more drama. So evil. I love it. I hope it's coffee shop related.

Then Mordor! I'm gonna level with you. I haven't read it yet. BUT. only because I need to go back and re-read the last chapter because I don't have a scooby do what's going on because my memory is real bad. But I'll catch up soon. Willow and Eddie forever. IDST.

Also you do the funniest tags on your posts and asks and I always read all of them so just wanted you to know that 🖤

totally fine on the mordor part because honestly it was a bit of a back to back drop 😭 also we’ve all got lives here. it ain’t going anywhere — take all the time you need, and if you wanna scream about it once/if you do read, i’m always here 🖤

steve really is a bad spy. just imagine how the gang would assign him and robin to go spy on their first date and he blows their cover so eddie just sighs as they’re sitting with their coffee, both deciding the torture should end and they can stop putting on a bit knowing both their friends are near by, and he says “steve. dude. you fucking suck at sneaking around.”

the next few hours are a gentle mix of angst, as well as continuing to let these idiots explore all their awkwardness and cuteness, and i cannot wait 🖤

thank you for reading as always!! and oh my gosh, the fact that you read the tags 😭 you’re such a brave soldier. i’m not responsible for what i put in tags (though i do love dropping a good spoiler in them from time to time). <3

[blindmagdalena]

Hi! I just wanted to say you are one of my all time favorite writers! I'm way too shy to not send this anonymously, but you've inspired me to try my hand at writing too! I'm a digital artist and have never tried writing but reading your imagines, fanfictions and headcanons really inspired me to write something (about the blonde rat man) myself! Should I fail and falter in my noble quest I shall return with many a headcanon and idea to simply send and bother you with. Bestestest regards, anon #286451

omG. that's so fantastic to hear!!! aahh, dearest, thank you! while I totally understand the security of anonymity, I definitely hope I get to see your work (and art mb?? hello? 👀) when you're ready! i'm always happy to talk about our favorite rat bastard.

absolutely never a bother. thank you for brightening my day! 🖤