#Suicidal bets! Suicidal bets!

[fragmentedblade]

Damn, the more I see about Aventurine the more intriged I am

[starlightshore]

I'm thinking about how Winning Hat AU Loop will eventually try to restart their life, and I'm making myself laugh. they're such a mess fr

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: sacrifice / self sacrifice / slight suicidal themes / death mention / ]

I personally think that Leo took the wrong lessons from the movie. I definitely think he grew to understand the importance of teamwork and making sure he takes others into account so as to not harm them by proxy of whatever scheme he has cooked up, however based on the ending events I’m not quite certain he fully grasped two things.

The first thing is communication. Oh, he can communicate, and he does, when he deems it necessary. When he’s setting up a plan prior to the action. But this is where the second thing comes in.

The second thing I don’t think Leo truly grasped is “it’s not about you.” It’s so unbearably easy to take that the wrong way, especially when taking the rest of the series into account.

What I believe Leo took from this message is not “it’s not just you, everyone matters and can contribute, can help and be helped” but “put the whole of everyone above yourself” which can both be a good lesson…and a fatal one.

And it is fatal, we see as much in the movie.

Even after the big hope speech, when Leo is “fighting” Krang!Raph, he takes a huge risk. Sure, it worked, and Leo managed to get through to Raph through a well deserved apology, but it could have so easily ended in his death and yet he barely even hesitates to go for it.

And then again, to the big scene at the end, where Leo sacrifices himself not only for the sake of his family, but for the whole world.

To him, that’s the message to take from this. That the lives of everyone, of the greater good, matters…more than him. That the risk to himself is worth it if others can be saved.

Leo learned that gambling with his life as the betting chip is always the best move to make in the end.

And to make matters worse…this thinking is what works.

These risks are ultimately what is needed to save the day, so why would Leo look away from it now? Clearly it’s the right move and everything worked out!

Thing is, Leo did grow from the events of the movie. He learned to take things more seriously and be more mature, he learned to value his team’s input and capabilities enough to rely on them more, and he learned to be less self-centered and realize the turmoil others were going through (especially if that turmoil is a result of his actions.)

But still, he’s grown to accept the gamble of his life as a viable answer to their problems.

Personally, with how Leo has been shown to toy around with the idea of “it’s better me than them” I think this goes beyond sacrifice in the name of love or even sacrifice in the name of responsibility, and pushes over into sacrifice in the name of worth.

[silusvesuius]

nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

[taxolotl]

old habits die hard

[unicornpopcorn14]

Do you ever think that if Dazai one day decided to do things the conventional way, or act the closest thing to what people call normal, how much that'd freak out the people familiar with him?

-> Dazai walking into the PM with no bandages on, wearing a casual outfit fit for his age, to which Chuuya does a double take at, gaping in horror.

At first, Chuuya'd take on their normal bickering, rub his eyes dramatically as if he's seeing things- "Who the fuck are you???" He'd exclaim. But then he'd bombard him with questions, ask if he'd run out of bandages, tell him he has extra rolls in his office-

"You're acting as if being wrapped up in gauze is normal, stupid slug."

"It is for you."

-> Dazai finishing his whole plate of curry, asking for seconds, and Oda would watch him with eyes widened a fraction, his own version of a shocked stare.

He wouldn't say anything, because he's afraid that drawing attention to the action would make Dazai stop doing it. He'd share that with Ango later, though, and Ango wouldn't even believe him.

→ (tw) Dazai not expressing his infatuatation about suicide for an entire week, disappearing for Kunikida to find him in his dorm instead of the usual river.

He's sit with him, ask if he's okay, fumble his words when he touches on the subject. Because how can you approach someone about your concern regarding their lack of suicidal tendencies, lately?

-> Dazai showing up early to the ada, taking his coat off, and immediately working.

The whole agency would hide behind the entrance, watch him with wide eyes as they share questioning looks.

"He- He didn't flop on the couch at all???"

"He didn't even look its way!"

"I mean, that's great, but something just doesn't sit right with me-"

"Is he sick?"

"Even I can't explain what's happening right now."

"Someone do something!"

And ppl often assume that Kunikida would be ecstatic about this, but no, I believe he'd be the most horrified one of all, trying to make sense of things but ending up empty handed. 😭

Fukuzawa would come up to find a swarm at the door, watching something inside that he'd assume to be a spider at first.

"What is going on here?"

"Dazai's working."

Fukuzawa'd rush to confirm, and sure enough.

He'd sigh in resignation, knowing this day would come.

"Get the exorcist."

~

It's endlessly amusing, how Dazai has his own version of conventional that if he were to deviate from, just slightly, panic would ensue through the people he's familiar with.

Even if it leads him to do healthier actions.

Something is wrong, and they need to figure out what, because this isn't the Dazai they know.

[lgbtlunaverse]

Thinking of the Nie disciple that told Nie Mingjue it was Meng Yao who stayed behind to clean up corpses on the battlefield today.

Nie Mingjue didn't just randomly stumble upon poor lil meowyao eating bread in the novel, he was already looking for him to thank and reward him for his work.

That's what makes it so fun that nieyao's first conflict will end up being about someone else taking credit for Meng Yao's work.

And I'm sure that Nie Mingjue's actual opinions on plagiarism are a lot more nuanced, all we really get from him in this scene is "well you shouldn't kill someone over it!" which leaves a lot of room for what punishments he thinks are appropiate. But I bet that it isn't occuring to him in this moment that the only reason he knows Meng Yao at all, the only reason he got such a capable deputy, is that he noticed someone was taking care of the dead and cared enough to want to know their name. And then the Nie disciples didn't lie to him. The disciple he asked could have said "it was me, Zongzhu" to rise in the ranks himself, but he didn't. He went and asked others, who all also could have taken the credit, but they didn't. Someone saw Meng Yao working and decided to be honest about it and that simple decision is the catalyst for Meng Yao becoming Nie Mingjue's deputy.

Meng Yao can't just work hard to get results, others have to acknowledge that work. If they don't, it's as if he didn't do anything at all.

[chrissy-kaos]

Attempt 230682833 not successful…

[dorkfruit]

jodybeth sketch as the love sex n magic album cover bc the song reminds me of them LOL

[hollenka99]

I still love that Bonnie yells at you to shut up and go die when you're trying to talk to them about overhearing the conversation regarding funeral rites, after which time will rewrite itself and you can immediately kill yourself with pineapples if you're feeling hilarious (which I was).

[yourlocal-edgelord]

Duke: hey bruce which robin was the least troublesome?

Bruce looking out the window wistfully for extra dramatic effect: jason

Tim: *years of trauma begin to resurface*

[starlightshore]

Place Your Bets On Winning Hats music video I finished! I worked on it in 2 sessions, two days total. So, some parts are more polished than others. Spoilers for both ISAT and the fic itself

@octonerd's animatic which makes me go insane in the most positive way.

Winning Hat Au is a "what if Loop won the 2hats fight?" and that trainwreck derails from there

The song is People Eater by Sodikken!

content warnings: gore, body horror, murder, death, suicide, song lyrics imply cannibalism but its like, metaphorical

[aftgficrec]

hi i finally caught this open! first of all thanks for doing this :)

can i get fics with neil and wymack? maybe even jean with wymack? like wymack taking care of them?

Wymack just can’t help himself, he has to take care of those kids!  There’s plenty of Wymack & Neil fics to choose from, there’s not so much content focussed on Jean and Wymack though (not yet anyway).  Maybe the rest of the trilogy will inspire writers to show more interactions between Jean and Coach Rhemann. - S

Previous recs:

Wymack & Neil fics in this parental Wymack post here

‘Wish you were here’, ‘See you again’ and ‘Watchful Eyes’ here

‘You Try Until You Can't’ here

‘Badass coach prompt’, ‘#1 Dad David Wymack protecting his foxes’ and ‘Wymack carrying Neil after Evermore’ here

‘Wymack and his kids pt.1’ and ‘pt.2’ here

‘Consequences of Coaching’ here

‘Taking That Step’ here

You might also like…

‘Yes, Coach’ here

Neil & Wymack

with gentle hands and a heavy heart by RainbowObsidian [Rated T, 1217 words, complete, 2024, locked]

Neil wakes up at the airport on New Year’s Eve and calls Wymack to come get him.

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: injuries

hold on (you must be hurting) by ifitmeanslosingyou [Rated T, 1807 words, complete, 2024]

david was tired of his kids having to confess their darkest secrets for the entire world to judge and know and scrutinize first it was the twins during aaron's trial, now it was neil for nathan's it was fucking unfair to have his kids have to relieve their nightmares for the sake of proving they were only trying to save themselves day 15: childhood trauma | painful hug | “i did good right?”

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced murder

though i am bruised, face of contusions (know I’ll keep movin') by ifitmeanslosingyou [Rated M, 1239 words, complete, 2024]

it was dark by the time neil stumbled to the familiar parking lot of wymack's apartment building he wasn't ready to face andrew yet, and he couldn't deal with his teammates concern right now back in may he hadn’t imagined he would be able to walk into a middle aged man's apartment willingly, a place he associated with safety today had been rough enough he needed safety day 22: bleeding through bandages | reopening wounds | “oh, that’s not good”

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: injuries, tw: blood

Festivities by the Dozen by Mercey [Rated G, collection, complete, 2024]

Chapter 3: Scrooge - Neil & Wymack

Some Palmetto shenanigans hehe <3

How to help your mafia traumatized adopted son to heal : An incomplete guide by Lockedoor [Not Rated, 8817 words, incomplete, last updated Nov 2024, locked]

Neil is 16 years-old when his mother dies after being on the run with him for ten years. His father's men catch up to him not long after, and Neil turns to the FBI for help. He is placed on witness protection for the time needed to get the rest of his father's men off the streets. Neil is placed in an orphanage at Millport where he catches the attention of Abby, the orphanage's summer nurse. Proceeds to be adopted by Wymack and Abby. So, I'm writing this fic because my heart aches for Dadmack being the father figure that Neil needs.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: ptsd, tw: nightmares

You woke me up one night, Dripping crimson on the carpet by FoxgloveInSpace [Rated M, 547 words, complete, 2023]

This is a tiny one shot I wrote for @imperfectcourt over on tumblr for their post: Someone who is not depressed.... pls write about if Neil had been able to take that knife to his face..... what if Wymack was out of the room or apartment for some reason and could t stop him... And this is what I delivered. (Title from: Are you really ok? - Sleep Token)

tw: self harm, tw: injuries, tw: blood

for the hopes and the fears and the dreams by AmericanCanada [Rated T, 3199 words, 2023, locked]

Part 2 of (wit)jitp series

In the quiet before the others showed up, Andrew could hear their coach’s furious voice talking in his office. Though as the rest of the team filtered in, the noise eventually drowned him out.   Wymack discovers a Raven on his court before practice and isn't quite sure what to do about it.  - Set during chapter 8 of (why is there) joy in this poison, here is a look at what Wymack and Nathaniel talked about when he showed up at the Foxhole Court -

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: injuries

say you will by mitigates [Rated T, 1145 words, complete, 2022]

Nathan gave him the color of his eyes and his name. While he had come to terms with the auburn hair and his blue eyes, those traits were just more things that Nathan gave him.  David Wymack, however, gave him a father. He stood as a father, he stayed as a father, he cared like a father would- like a father should.

Dog days are over by anonymua [Rated G, 836 words, complete, 2022]

When Neil returns from Evermore he’s in worse shape than canon. Good thing Wymack is experienced in patching his foxes up.

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: injuries, tw: blood

Jean & Wymack:

please i've been on my knees, change the prophecy by perchancetosleep [Rated T, 23940 words, complete, 2024]

He can almost pretend, sitting in a warm house at the tiny kitchen table listening to Elodie talk about her dance lessons, that everything is normal. He can pretend that he can stay, that Elodie and him were never separated, and that everything is normal and he is good and he will get to keep this. But Jean had died in that fucking basement years ago, and he’s getting tired of forcing his body to keep going. Sure, Kevin had found a way out and made it to college and made a life, but he had a father waiting for him on the outside. All Jean has waiting for him at home is a set of guardians that are going to be pissed off that he’s failing chemistry and that he didn’t do his chores and that he’s alive.

tw: panic attacks, tw: ptsd, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: implied/referenced abuse

i swear that i'm a good kid by perchancetosleep [Rated T, 11229 words, complete, 2024]

“Oh, and Jean?” The guidance counselor's voice has him pausing in the doorframe. “Kevin Day has restarted at this school while you were suspended. Both your guardian and his father have requested that you stay away from him. There will be consequences if you do not heed these wishes.” Jean can’t keep the shock off of his face as he stalks out of the office. The last time he had seen Kevin, he was depositing him on Wymack’s doorstep with a poorly bandaged hand, a note he had stolen from Tetsuji’s office, and enough benzos in him to stop him from fighting Jean the whole way there. For about a month after that, Jean held onto hope that Kevin would come back for him, or that he would tell someone about Evermore and they would all get out. That hope has long since died.

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: panic attacks 

I wanna heal by Anonymous [Rated M, 1815 words, complete, 2024]

Jean is healing at Abby's house when an unexpected result of his abuse at Evermore comes to light…

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: dissociation, tw: miscarriage, tw: blood

Jean & Coach Rhemann:

they all say that it gets better (but what if i don't) by perchancetosleep [Rated T, 8873 words, complete, 2024]

“Coach, what’s going on?” Jeremy asks, his voice shaking just a little. This is so out of character for Rhemann, who would never ask anyone to return to help the team. This is Rhemann acting like he has for Jeremy, and how he wants to act for Jean: like a parent that they don’t have. “Is Jean okay?” “He’s never going to ask for it, but I think he really could use a visit,” Coach admits. “He’s having a tough time this year.” Considering that Jean had showed up to USC with more stitches than intact skin, Jeremy fears learning what Rhemann means by “a tough time”. “I’m on the next flight out,” Jeremy says, and then he hangs up the phone.  (Or, Jean and the no good very bad fifth year).

tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: ptsd 

But Melt Your Headaches, Call It Home by FallOutFanfic101 [Rated M, 5179 words, incomplete, last updated June 2023]

Charlie Rhemann always figured having a one-child household was enough for him (especially in this California economy, thank you very much). Until one day, Jean Moreau stepped out of LAX Airport with a face as battered as his bag, and Charlie couldn’t help but take the kid under his wing. In which over his first year with the Trojans, Jean quickly becomes coach’s favorite.

tw: implied/referenced abuse

David Wymack, fierce protector by @wilhelminyard [tumblr, 2024]

david wymack is such a fierce protector. he loves so deeply and so unconditionally it makes me wanna cry.

Wymack is the one to call by @lesbiansfor-blackbeard [tumblr, 2024]

because wymack is the one you call when you're just lost and you don't know what else to do

Every damn day I wake up and wonder how Wymack must have felt by @inadvisablebutinevitable [tumblr, 2024]

Every day. Every damn day I wake up and wonder how Wymack must have felt hearing Jean say, “Kevin never once doubted you’d take him in …  I laughed at him. I’d never taken him for a dreamer.”

What if Wymack met the foxes before? by @sapphoherselz [tumblr, 2024]

hi do you ever wonder if wyamack EVER met the Foxes before their time? I'm talking any age, any time in their lives, especially the ones where they really needed a paternal figure to help them out or get them out of trouble?

Wymack easily lifts Jean by @hyperboleigh91 [tumblr, 2024]

Art

Dadmack with baby jean and baby kevin by @emerdoodls

for the dad who has everything… by @leroiestmortvivelareine

Imagine having to look for your bitch ass kid in an airport by @clementinecloudz

dadmack or smthn by @clementinecloudz

"help me." "let me." by @02511213942

what if they show up to practice in matching jorts art by @ziegenkind094

[hanzajesthanza]

dandelion’s incredible reluctance, and near-fright, to mention kaer morhen by name is somewhat endearing to me. we as the fandom throw around the name so easily, and it’s also home for geralt and ciri, so its name doesn’t carry so much weight.

but in dandelion’s case, it makes sense to fear mentioning it, for it was the site of the massacre… best to not let anyone hear its name… it’s kind of nice to think that dandelion has a degree of self-awareness, when something is as important as this

and also, some part of me just thinks that dandelion with his vivid imagination listened to geralt offhandedly talk about his childhood here or there, and… whatever were mundane facts or sepia-tinted friendly memories for geralt, made dandelion’s expression drop and his innards twist. so he conceives of kaer morhen not just as “the witcher’s keep in the mountains of kaedwen” but “that place where my best friend endured child abuse for eighteen years”

[nirvanaida]

i hope yingdu arc is the timeline hinted at in the vortex/overthink video where cxs hangs himself. i am a sick freak who would like to see maximum suffering please and thank you

[lovelizards]

"I believe I expressly instructed you not to disturb me."

The sheer silken curtains shifted in a fresh breeze from the window, as her servants set about refreshing the room for evening. The garish orange glow of sunset painted her room like the inside of a fire.

With a groan, she pushed herself up and rubbed the headache out of her temples.

"You did, Mistress."

"And so? What in the hell are you all doing in here, then? Do you want to die?"

The younger maids, the new ones, hesitated for a moment and exchanged nervous glances. But her butler - the only human, and the only man she would ever deign to allow in her home - gave her a calm smile.

"The non-human market is being hosted tonight, Mistress. And I believed that you might like to search for something new. Fresh blood has always raised your spirits."

"Hah," she sighed, and fell back on her bed.

Her hair spread out beneath her like dark waves of a river ready to carry her to a watery grave.

And as she stared up into the shifting amber shadows of the silken canopy, she wondered - as she did every sunset - if the light left from the setting sun would be enough to turn her to ashes.

"Raise my spirits?" She repeated, too weary to even bother with skepticism, "Fresh or old, it all tastes the same. Do you imagine there could be such a thing left in this world?"

The maids set the fire in her hearth to crackling as the last of the sunlight slipped away behind the horizon.

"Perhaps, Mistress."

Was it worth going to all that effort for a 'perhaps'?

"I don't want to," she said, draping an arm over her eyes.

She didn't want to get up, to get dressed and put makeup on, to travel all the way to the black market and walk around for hours staring at caged creatures. The smells made her nauseous, and she couldn't stand the sounds of screaming and sobbing.

She was tired of it. Tired of everything.

"I've heard tell that Lord Artur Gerwald will be vending at this particular event, Mistress."

"Hah!" She shot up again, with a fury in her eyes, "That pompous little rat! How dare he show his face again! I ought to go and -!"

She stopped, catching herself, and realising she'd steppd right into a trap by her annoyingly clever butler - whose polite smile she noticed was ever so slightly too pleased.

"Shall I call for a carriage, Mistress?"

Damn it all.

She couldn't stand the idea of going.

But now that she knew the blond Gerwald brat was going to be there, she couldn't stand the idea of leaving him alone, either.

"Fine," she sighed, waving a hand and rolling onto her side, "send Lillith to help me dress in twenty minutes. Leave me until then."

"As you wish, Mistress."

The door closed after him with a click, and Delphine closed her eyes.

It was all so meaningless.

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