#Stage4

[touhou-memories]

Lotus Land Story stage 1, stage 3, stage 4 and extra stage midbosses.

[wodeworm]

Lance Stage 4

some old doodles

[this-will-be-what-kills-me]

Today the exhaustion felt like it had seeped into my bones and even to have my eyes open was fighting the greatest war. I did the things I had to do and inbetween I lay in bed and prayed for sleep to take me under, just for a little while.

I wonder if the exhaustion is linked to the sadness. That wasn’t in the self help books or on the Google results when I researched what to expect when your mum is dying. I read all about the changes in breathing, the change in skin tone, changes in eating and drinking and sleeping habits. Change, change, change. I close my eyes and wish it would all stay the same. Even in this moment where she’s the worst she’s ever been and I feel like I’m made up of 50% worry and 50% grief, she’s here.

I’ve poured my heart out on these very notes pages more times than I can count… screamed about my hurt from the rooftops. I cried about everything and now none of it seems worth it. In all that time, I never once doubted my strength or ability to carry mountains on my back. I thought that’s what I was doing. But this has taken me down, day by day, minute by minute. I feel this physically slice through my heart 700 times a day and my legs go so weak that I have to sit down and I never know which will be the time I don’t make it back up again.

I just downloaded The Carpenters because she listened to it when I was growing up and I know even now that it will take me years to press play. But if life is all about those little threads and invisible strings then mum, I want spider strength to tie me to you forever and ever and ever. I want to see your face in real life, I want your smiles and your sarcasm and your sharp tongue to be the reality instead of the waking up in the middle of the night with your sadness haunting my dreams. I want it all to be over so badly that I’ll never stop feeling guilty for wishing time to move faster when you have so little of it left. And if we had a thousand or a million seconds to go, I know it would never be enough.

How am I supposed to ever fall in love or buy a house or get married or have a child without you being a part of it. Who do I call when I can’t call ‘mama’ from my phone. How am I supposed to go on living when you’re not here? Up to now, it’s been 18 months of grieving for someone who still takes breaths. Not once in those 18 months have I felt true joy or happiness, not once have I laughed without thinking of all the jokes you’re going to miss. And mum, I am so, so scared. I’m so terrified that I feel sick so often, I cry when I’m on my own for more than 5 minutes, I never put my phone down when I can help it. TV lost its interest a long time ago, songs that I loved became reminders of the biggest loss I’ll ever know. I’m scared because I know what’s coming and I know that I’ll never be ready. All of this I guess is just to say, that if this pain is the price for getting to love you extra these past 18 months, if this pain is punishment for all those years of conflict, if I have no choice other than to sit here and take it then I want you to know that I’d hurt and bleed and cry for you a billion times over. If there was any way on this earth that I could help you to stay then I’d have already found it. And I love you, I love you, I love you. You are a part of me forever ❤️

[clubstyleeurope]

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[thegreypedaler]

[stlgfour1973]

World's Nets Day...A Poem

[spokephoto]

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[themusictechguyuk]

Yeh it’s the weekend. And another new release. If it has to be RED the the Nord Stage 4 will be on your radar. Technically I think this launched last week! Is NAMM happening soon by any chance? Links to YouTube videos in Linkin.Bio #tmtgcommunity #themusictechguyuk #musictechguyuk #musician #vintagekeyboard #synthesiser #keyboards #musickeyboards #happysaturday #namm #namm2023 #nord #nordstage4 #stage4 https://www.instagram.com/p/CpFDq3htm0n/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[handcsports]

STAGE4 1set¥9900円〜

136,146,151,166

[disjointedprod]

It's been awhile but hey I'm here! Check me out at The Tandoori Grill in Boulder CO Feb 16! I'll also be in Pueblo CO Feb 18 at the Blue Cactus Room, tickets are through eventbrite https://www.eventbrite.com/e/comedy-night-at-the-blue-cactus-room-tickets-519410911017?utm-campaign=social&utm-content=attendeeshare&utm-medium=discovery&utm-term=listing&utm-source=cp&aff=escb

[zuzuelectricbugaloo]

Oooooh I love everything about this!

How about the word Color uses to ground Killer, for him to recognize Color and pull himself out of the dissociation of Stage 4, is not just a word, but a name? Omri.

He would call out to Killer, softly, “Ya Omri.”

Transliteration meaning “My lifetime”, it’s used as the English equivalents of “My life, my darling”. A word from the phrase Tu'burni (تقبرني), meaning “bury me”. An incredible display of adoration, where you hope they put you in the ground before them because they can’t bear to live without you.

Killer, now an object, a tool, whose only purpose is to complete its Personal Objective, would pause hearing the word, its Soul reflecting the word in an echo as it spirals.

The one who kills is another’s very life.

Its Soul steadies.

The knife vanishes in its his grasp.

New directive. Home.

He collapses, sturdy, warm arms cradling him close before he can hit the ground.

The circle slowly elongates, steadying into a heart as it’s pressed against the chest where it’s precious other calls out to it.

Safe/Warm/I’m here/Habibi/‘Azizi/Ruhi/Let go/I’m here

He lets go.

Translations: ‘Azizi — my treasure; strong; powerful

Ruhi — my soul; for lovers, “my soulmate”

Was thinking about this headcanon, then started thinking about 4’s sense of hearing and smell is probably very good—but also maybe it recognizes targets and objectives via sound of their voice.

Such as recognizing a Personal Objective by the sound of their voice, choice of words, tone, etc. Which leans in further to that whole “killer’s soul recording the sounds and voices of his victims” discussion had awhile back. Also into my lil biased headcanon that it’d recognize and respond to a specific nickname that Color gave Killer.

[anewbieartist356]

Tw:bodyhorror,death violence

my brain thinking up a infection au called “rock candy contamination” or “r.c.c”

stage1: sluggishness and exhaustion followed by a craving for pure sugar (usually jellybeans)

If allowed to eat at least 5 pounds of sugar in a matter of 2 days cog/toon will become a stage2

stage2: temporarily blindness and paralysis followed by a random color of sugar crystal slowly growing out of skin/metal

stage3: infected becomes hostile and prone to violence though still retains memories crystals stop growing after reaching 2ft long and 1ft wide

stage4:infected no longer retains memories nor mercy as this stage wants only to spread and eat if seen RUN they are incapable of fast movement due to weight but are very weak to fire

Infected:Featherbedder,marshall,duck shuffler,pacesetter,stenographer,case manager,more

Not infected:Witchhunter (cut off infected part of arm),cole declan,treekiller,firestarter,Ursa major,Carn E.Val,dave brubot,more

dead:ursa minor,octavia,kristine,plutocrat,most of the satellite investors,Derrick man and Derrick hand,multislacker,more

[aiqingdemeimiao]

bonjour ladies~

very slowly dipping my toes back into fandom fun after this beast tore my real life apart

please make sure you force your parents to go to their doctor appointments so you don't end up like me with a dad (who'd had a cough for so so so long but refused to go to a doctor #men) being diagnosed with stage4 lung cancer and then dropping dead literal weeks later bc he'd waited too long for treatment to be an option :/

i've got a LOT of messages etc, so bear with me 💖 still feeling a bit wobbly and sad, can't lie, might disappear a bit longer~

[byuiw]

STAGE4 SOUTHERN MT.

[puyopuyo]

STAGE4 Album: GAME OVER Year: 1994

[babymorte]

just found out my uncle had a heart attack and when at the hospital they found out he has stage4 throat cancer so my nights going fantastic