#St. Jude Manila

[jopetkasi]

the almost 2 months i stayed in Bohol helped clear my head from the self-inflicted problems I subjected myself. like what I said, I slept well, ate well and found myself absorbed in the silence the place afforded me.

But then we have work and much as I want to work remotely, my dad is my employer and I needed to be seen at the warehouse, hence the trip back to manila.

first thing i did was to restock my pantry with unhealthy essentials e.g. ice cream, soda and button mushrooms which I usually simmer in olive oil and oyster sauce and viola, ulam! i also made a detour and got myself a bottle of prosecco, a pack of cold cuts on sale and a box of blue cheese....i don't want to explain but when you get to my age, you will know lol.

i settled down to work and it feels good to be eating home-cooked meals again. ang mom made sure that lunch was sent so I don't end up ordering grab food. in the afternoon I went to see my doctor for my annual flu shot. dinagdagan na din nya ng pneumonia vaccine. sige turok lang ng turok.

after my doctor's appointment, i went to St. Jude, this time not asking for anything but to give thanks that I am getting back to the normal grind of things. until I got a call from Chris asking to eat and accompany him to check on mattresses.

it was free food. i went for the freebie. i even demanded he treat me to a plate of churros which he happily obliged.

back in my unit...

Chris: bakit sya lumipad ng bohol?

me: bakasyon lang.

Chris: nag sex kayo?

me: hindi. and if we ever did, why does it matter to you? wala naman tayo relasyon diba?

He sat close to me and started kissing my neck.

me: alam mo ba when you left me hanging i was so disoriented, frustrated even to the point I had phone sex with a friend? at my age, phone sex, Chris! Things twenty-something people do. I felt bad after.

at that point, he sat straight and gave me that bewildering look.

chris: you don't understand, jopet. i wasn't ready. masyado kang dominante. by the book ka palagi.

me: you should not have given me signals in the first place. You see, we do not exist in those sloppy BL movies where everything is cheesy. this is real life, dude.

chris: so how are we now? who are we now?

me: you do what makes you happy. i will do mine.

chris: i want to spend the night with you.

me: just don't say "i love you" when you orgasm....

chris: lol.

me: there's a spare towel and shorts in my cabinet. help yourself. you smell bad.

and that is how my evening went. it was a good, non-commital, consensual sex that got my toes curling in delight.

much as we wanted a threepeat but at our age, going for a second is already a feat. a third is stretching ourselves thin.

and i woke up the next day feeling good.....

[batangantukin]

College to Board Exam

Di to mala-MMK na journey haha gusto ko lang sya ishare😆.

ChE wasn't really my 1st choice before college. Gusto ko sana eh Foodtech kaso sabi ng parents, ChE na lang daw. As a masunurin na anak, tinake ko ang ChE. Syempre sa college, bagong environment, new friends, classmates saka prof so need natin magadjust at magadapt. During my 1st year, nakaadjust naman ako so far, satisfying naman yung grades ko nung 1st sem. Nung 2nd sem naman, unfortunately bumagsak ako sa Physics 1. First disappointment ko sya nung college kasi di ko rin inexpect na babagsak ako don. Even my friends, nagulat na bumagsak ako don haha (alam nyo yan guys😏😆). But this failure didn't stop me from pursuing ChE. Luckily, naretake ko sya during my summer class so regular pa rin ang person.

2nd year was the deciding year for us. Nandon na kasi yung ibang majors ng ChE. At that time, I somehow like the chemistry subjects especially orgchem. Not to brag or anything, but somehow natutuwa ako aralin sya kahit mahirap. As for analytical chemistry, nagustuhan ko rin kaso ayon dito ako nagdoubt sa sarili ko if gusto ko ituloy ang ChE. I remember na nagbreakdown ako kasi bumagsak ako sa isang test sa Achem, nagaral kasi ako non pero ayon I didn't meet my expectations so ayon. Tanda ko na sinabi ko sa parents ko na gusto ko na magshift sa BS Chem, only if bumagsak ako sa kahit anong subject nung 2nd year. Luckily, I passed all of my subjects so tuloy ang ChE.

3rd year wasn't the best year kasi don nagstart ang pandemic so nagshift sa online class. Online class is not for me kasi di talaga ako matuto pero I don't have any choice. Fast forward tayo sa 4th year and thesis days. During our thesis, nagstruggle kami sa experiment due to some problems. For the compre part, I failed so delay talaga ako ng isang sem. During that time, tanggap ko na delay talaga ako kasi nga di pa tapos ang thesis tas bagsak pa sa compre. So niretake ko yung compre, while finishing our thesis. I passed naman yung compre and nadefend namin yung thesis (duration nung thesis ay almost 2 years ata😆).

During review naman, I wasn't able to finish my backlogs kasi nagstart yung review ng Dec eh nagfafinals pa kami non saka nagdedefense. Nung lumipat na me sa Manila for the f2f review, as usual nagadjust at tinatamad. Pinipilit ko sarili ko magreview kasi nga mahal ang gastos sa Manila. During the duration of the review, most of the time natutulog ako, naglalaro emel, nagala at nainom😆. Sorry na kaagad pero wala talaga napasok sa utak ko pag tamad na tamad na ako magreview. Nung last 2 months of the review, ayon medyo nagseryoso na ng slight pero tulog at emel is life pa rin.

Fast forward, preboards sa review center so ayon I didn't pass sa any subjects merong mga almost 70% na pero yung day 2 ko talaga di man lang nag 50% hahaha. Pero sabi nga samin, di naman preboards magdedetermine if papasa kami or not.

Side story, nagsisimba pala ako sa St Jude every Thursday. At that time kasi, si Lord kinakapitan ko kasi super stressful ang review.

Before the day of our board exam, graduation day namin so super hassle kasi after grad, kumain lang ako with parents tas deretso na sa Manila. The night before nung board exam, nagrereview pa rin ng slight, recall ng formulas ganon. Actually, every night ganon ang ginagawa namin. I wasn't really confident with my answers kasi more than 30% ay puro hula especially nung day 2. Day 1 kasi ang weird kasi di ako kinakabahan pero wahhh thankful ako na sya naghila sakin netong boards. For day 2, di sya yung ineexpect ko kasi akala ko puro problem solving pero hnng daming concepts. As for day 3 naman, di ko alam kahit may mga analgeom eh ayaw ko non so forda hula na ulit.

Nung hintayan ng results, nagoff ako ng notifs kasi ayaw ko makita yung results kasi kinakabahan ako hahaha. Nung lumabas sya, I was eating my dinner sa kwarto ko tapos out of habit pinindot ko yung messenger tas nakita ko may nagcocongrats sakin so chineck ko yung site, I passed🥹🥲. I ran out tas pumunta me sa kusina kasi nandon ang parents tas ayon I said to my dad while crying, "Dade, may engineer na kayo!"

[mint-moon25]

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[kristinemaebsnapshots]

The go-to church of the students who will take examination. There’s a belief that if you are able to consecutively pray here for 9 days prior your exams, you will pass. But don’t just pray, do your best and have faith in Him. If it doesn’t go your way, be thankful. It’s means that He’s going to redirect you in accordance to His will and with His grace, you will receive what is truly meant for you. 🙏💙🙏 📍St. Jude Manila 4.25.2019 | 📸 @kristinemaeb

[judebautista]

On the Shoulders of Great Women and Men Part 1

From left: Mayette Yuching, Flora O. Go and SPAS Principal Vilma P. Quijano. SPAS@47 Tribute to SPAS Pioneers, Feb 16, 2023. Photo by Jude Bautista Written by Jude Thaddeus Bautista February 16, 2023, there was a small gathering at St Peter the Apostle Church in Paco. Manila. The event was a tribute to 5 women pioneers who were instrumental in raising of funds for St Peter the Apostle School…

[whooolaanmo]

Happy Feast Day St. Jude Thaddeus

Nakasimba ako at nakapag offer ng prutas at itlog sa National Shrine of St. Jude sa Manila kasi noon magboboard exam yung dati ko jowa/exgf na si Erika di niya kasi magagawa yon kasi Iglesia ni Cristo sya, nung nakilala ko kasi siya nag failed na sya sa 1st take, so ayon ako na Katoliko paniwala na makakatulong si St. Jude kaya ginawa ko para sa kanya, so at that time na kami pumasa na nga siya, hirap na hirap din kasi talaga siya ilan breakdown negativity kasi iniisip non kaya ako support support lang.

Sabi niya ( Erika ) nga dati ang lakas mo ata sa taas pinasa agad ni St. Jude kay God dasal mo.

Sabi ko naman dati nag aral ka rin naman kasi at naniwala ka na kaya mo.

Kaya sa mga may desperate situation at nawawalan ng pag asa dasal simba lang. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Oct. 28, 2022 03:18 pm

[zellevillanueva]

Long post ahead pero bear with me, minsan lang hehe.

I knew this phase of my life would make a huge difference to my future but I never expected it to be so different on what I imagined it to be.

First week palang ng review, me and my dorm mates already cried because we were too overwhelmed kasi bakit ganon, graduate kana pero there are things na first time palang na we’ve heard off? We would literally sleep for like a good 3-5 hours a day kasi after review school, diretso coffee shop na kami to review. Grabe kung saan saan talaga ako inaabot ng breakdown, sa jeep, sa bus, sa sb, sa St. Jude pero grabe iniyak ko sa tim hortons sa sm san lazaro hahahaha. Gusto ko bumalik para thanksgiving na, saksi sa lahat ng hirap namin hahaha.

Kaso ayun, 7 days left before the boards, postponed due to lockdown bc of covid. Grabe frustrations non pero somehow, I was happy kasi I felt like I wasn’t ready yet, kulang pa. 5 months later, na sched na ulit ng august. So ayun, prepare ulit, review kaso for the second time, postponed ulit. So nung naresched na siya ng january, november non, I didn’t take my review that seriously, I studied but I wasn’t in a rush to finish my review materials. Ang daming nag backout non, nagpa resched sa prc kasi ayaw pa nila mag take pero ang mindset ko that time, no matter when I would take, I know i’ll only feel the same. It’s because you can never feel to be fully prepared, kahit matapos mo review materials mo, i think you can never get to the point na you’ll be too confident. So sabi ko, take na ako no matter what the outcome would be, also, I was too frustrated nadin kasi I want it to end na kasi i’m too tired of waiting and I felt like sobrang delayed na. Taking the exam during this pandemic is already a struggle. We had to comply to added requirements to be able to take the exam. Also, while preparing for the boards, you’re also preparing your mental health kasi tbh, yun yung pinaka kalaban mo. Every now and then, nawawalan ako ng gana. I even took a study break ng 2 weeks nung malapit na boards because I was tooooo tired and nawalan talaga ako will to do anything.

Still, I pushed through with it, wala talaga akong kaba habang nagrereview pero nung papunta na ako manila to take the exam, doon na grabe yung anxiety. It’s harder kasi you can’t talk to anyone about that kasi we all felt that way and we don’t want to make our feelings worst. Simba muna kami sa St. Jude day before the exam, dala na namin noa and everything para mapa bless kay father pero turns out, di na pala nag bbless nung nagsimula lockdown pero nung nakita kami ni father, tinawag niya kami tapos nag bless siya ng gamit namin for the exam huhu.

First day ng exam, wala akong tulog. I even resorted to taking an antihistamine the night before para makatulog kasi ayoko maging sabog sa exam. Papuntang school, iniisip ko na mga ritwal na gagawin ko for good luck. We’re told to wear red underwear (which I did) tapos when you enter the room, right foot first daw dapat para always right hahaha. Baon ko non mcdo, red ribbon and kitkat, also for goodluck din kasi red daw and also, yun daw lagi food ng mga topnotcher hahahaha.

First subject, clinical chemistry. Fudge sobrang dali, i even told myself na kung same difficulty for all the subjects, I feel like i can top the boards hahahaha little did i know. Sabi ko shet pamigay na exam, kailangan na ata nila talaga ng medtech ah? Kaso ayun, second subj, Microbiology and parasitology, nawalan ako ng gana to continue. Sobrang hirap!! Well, it’s not, mali lang kami ng focus kaya kami nahirapan, napa lalim review namin, di kami nag focus sa basics kaya hirap na hirap kami. Sabi ko Lord, miracle nalang magpapa pasa sakin sa micro-para. Hindi ako nakakain lunch non sa sobrang down ko kaya third subject, Clinical microscopy, sobrang sabog ko. Alam mo yung natapos mo yung exam ng hindi mo na napansin. Umuwi ako non ng lugmok talaga. Pag uwi ko tumawag na ako kay mommy tsaka sa bf ko, breakdown malala na ako kasi I knew i failed that second subject.

Second day, di na ako masyado nagreview the night before and nakatulog nadin ako. First subj, Hematology, nadalian ako pero yun kasi favorite subject ko college palang tsaka sobrang confident ko sa hema ewan ko ba. Second subj huhu ISBB, weakest ko pero keri lang, third subj, huhu alay, histo/mtlaws, di mahirap, pakabait ka lang. Tamang all of the above pag may all of the above. Nakalimutan ko pa sipain chair ko pag after exam, another ritual para daw di kana bumalik don, meaning, para di kana mag retake ng exam haha. Pag uwi, lugmok ako kasi sabi ko huhu, di ko nagawa ritual, diretso kami St. Jude, grabe hagulhol talaga ako eh sobrang solemn non kasi puro examinees din nandon that time pero I put before God na talaga everything, sabi ko Lord na bahala kasi I know I did my best.

Grabe yung agony while waiting for the result, grabe anxiety talaga, overthink ka pano kung di ako pumasa? Ano plano ko? Take naba ulit ako? Pero babawiin ko yung thought na yon and I prayed harder, novena to St. Jude everyday because it calms me. Di nakatulong yung pati results eh delayed. Sabi nga nila, yung batch namin is one of the strongest batch na nag take, postponed exam and postponed results, naging mga manhid na daw kami haha. Tapos Feb 8, 2021, quarter to 10pm, di ko na hinihintay results tapos biglang ang daming nag chat sakin ng congratulations. At first di ako naniwala kasi ang daming times na nila ako pnrank. Hanggang sa tinawagan ko na friend ko, sabi niya legit!!!! Kita ko na name mo!! RMT na tayo!!!! Iyak na ako ng iyak that time, tinawagan nadin ako ng bf ko tapos naiyak din siya huhuhu sabi niya grabe, kitang kita ko hirap mo, tapos na love, RMT kana. Huhuhuhu tapos tatakbo mommy ko sa kwarto kasi nga lakas ng iyak ko, akala niya ano nangyari sakin tapos sabi ko mommy!!!! Pasado na ako huhu.

Overall, other than the license, I gained more. Sobrang nag strengthen faith ko, I learned to fully trust the Lord sa plans niya for me, no matter how uncharted or different that what I have planned. I feel like it matured me, dun ko naisip hirap ng parents ko and everyone around me na support through and through talaga. Another thing, kahit mahirap, yung bond sa friends ko naging tighter talaga, they pick up my pieces na nasshatter and put me back up stronger.

Lord, i knew it was you.

[lovecinder]

it almost took me a year and a half to move on you know? Looking back, i cant imagine i will feel this happiness and contentment that i've been longing since Lander and I broke up two years ago. I thought the emptiness inside me will stay with me forever and that is okay.

I remember praying at St. Jude Chruch at Mendiola Manila, begging and crying to take away the pain that i had been carrying. I remember begging Him to just kill me cause i cant, i just cant go on with my life anymore. I can see myself jumping at the apartment complex that i had been living for almost 6 months that time. I thought killing myself is the best option. It will take away the anxiety and fear that i had in taking the Nursing board exam, it will take away the pain Lander had cause me and most importantly, it will take away the disappointment my parents will give me once i fail them.

I never thought that i will come this far you know? I'm living my parents dream for me. I passed the board exam, i moved on and now after a year and a half, i met the man of my dreams. Funny how two years ago, i'm just imagining this. I never thought that He will answer my prayer. I thought when i passed the board exam, that is the end of it. Hindi pa pala. Nag u-umpisa palang sya and i'm glad that i didnt lose hope.

[itscarlawthac]

PLE Adventure

This is a blog entry to help PLE takers studying for the boards.

It is in the mindset. That powerful thinking that you will pass and so does your whole batch. I was very lucky to pass the PLE September 2019 together with my batchmates. We got that elusive 100%, we were ranked 1st together with Cebu Institute of Medicine and Ateneo School of Medicine and Public Health. It was that idea of “No One Being Left Behind” and that mantra at the beginning of your review, will help each one of you. You will pull each other up, push each other to their limits and together you will all emerge victorious because you were in it to win it, TOGETHER.

First things first. How will you go about the studying process? Of course, you need a plan. My plan was of course is getting a slot from Topnotch Medical Review coz everyone is saying that they are the best. They have the highest percentile of passers. Plus, my boyfriend also suggested that to me. Knowing how he does not like studying and yet he passed, speaks volumes haha so choose well. You may opt to study on your own (I have batchmates who did), go with your medical school’s review (we had a refresher but I did not go) or other review centers (UST and Cracking the Boards). But for me, why risk it? This is not the NMAT where I could risk getting a low score (I studied by myself). This is it. It is now or never. Failure is not an option for me. I have been very lucky for every major examination I took (MaSci entrance exam, UPCAT, ACET, USTET, DLSUET, PLM CAT, NMAT) I have always passed. And for this exam, I could not rely on luck alone. I need a solid strategy and Topnotch did strategize well for all of us.

I enrolled in Topnotch and realized that there are a lot of good teachers out there. Different strategies being used in different medical schools. Different materials for studying. Different learning styles and teaching styles. I was amazed. My 2 day surgery lecture by Dr. Loubomir Antonio was enough to cram all 2 years of medschool surgery! The Anatomy lectures of Dr. Vibar were so helpful and organized! Biochemistry became easier and understandable because of THE Ronibats! And my favorite was Ian De Vera’s pedia lecture. The teachers were so good and they imported only the best from different schools. Listen and don’t take the lectures for granted even if you hear poor reviews from other classes! Attend and show up! They are high yield!

I rented a condo at San Juan together with 3 roomies from UERM (recommended by my college friend). They were so dedicated in studying so I was motivated! We did not chat much but instead focused on studying. I think that also helped because less distraction. I walk for 5 minutes to go to the lecture proper. We start at around 8am per session and usually finish by 7pm or depending on the schedule. The schedule was very flexible so you cannot really plot a definite plan. 

MY ROUTINE (Lecture Days): Wake up at 5am, fast shower, fast breakfast + prepare food for class, walk to the lecture place (arrive an hour before so that I can get good seats) then take morning coffee courtesy of topnotch, LECTURE, go home/grocery, dinner, answer 1 chapter of Robbins Pathology (3 hours), re-read lecture for the day til around 2am x repeat til cramming fest. aka PEARLS.

MY ROUTINE (Rest Days): Wake up at 10am, shower, STUDY, eat while STUDYING, sleep at 4am then repeat. Just read and read and read. That is all that is asked of you during these months. You focus and study so that you won’t be that person who won’t be happy at the wee hours of the morning when they release the list of passers. You study so you will have a face to show to your alma mater. So that you can attend the Thanksgiving mass. So that you can have your face placed in a tarpaulin. You study, and you study hard and smart.

Quality Time: Sometimes, I do go on study dates because my boyfriend would surprise me by coming all the way from Manila during weekdays! We go to Rob Mag or to the nearby cafe to study. He would then bring me back to the condo and he will be on duty the next day. That’s how we maintained our relationship for almost 2 months. He was preparing for his Residency In Service Exam while I prepare for the boards. *see my IG stories for my board dates hihi* My parents were very supportive as well. They visited me every week and we would go to different churches (Sta Clara, St Jude, Manaoag) and eat at Rob Mag or SM Sta Mesa whenever I need unwinding aka near breakdown. Because I swear there were moments where I would literally just cry and sulk. They would go to my condo ASAP whenever this would happen and for that I am very thankful to have the most supportive parents and boyfriend. Whenever I am in LP, my bestie would also join me to study. 

My resources: Topnotch reviewers (read it around 2-3x first reading for highlighting and fast reading, 2nd during the lecture, third reading for focused review), Robbins Review of Pathology (answer then check the rationale at the back), USMLE (to fully grasp the correlation between the anatomy, physiology, pathology, pharmacology per system it is discussed in such a way that you would understand it better), IM Platinum (fast checking), Surgery Platinum, Legal Med Question Bank (during mini breaks), FM Platinum, PLM OB transes (best transes!).

At about a week before the actual exam, I went home to Las Pinas to focus so everyday I would go out and study at the nearby Starbs (which is my go to place here in LP). I would start at 10am until 8pm then continue cramming at home. By this time I am already reading the Pearls Handout and Q&As. My clerkship group would hold Q&A nights where anyone would ask questions and anyone could answer. It was our way to support each other and to check on what we might have missed that seemed important to others.

Topnotch would also coach you on how to properly answer the questions plus feed you and give you motivation. They won’t give you leakages but they promise to take care of you so that you won’t think of anything else but to study. 

Board Exam things to bring: your Notice of Admission, Mongol pencils, Stabilo/Staedtler eraser, Ballpoint pen, snacks aka empanada and candies and water, reviewers (for peace of mind when you check answers haha I know it’s not healthy but well...), clear envelope (1 big, 1 small -- trust me!), fan, paracetamol.

So there you have it, my sort of guide and story telling of my boards experience. If you want to ask me for specifics, you can message me here! Remember that this is the last hurdle before you reach your dreams (although residency is so tough!). Pass the boards and you will have the freedom to do as you desire. May it be pursuing residency, work as Doctor to the Barrio, go moonlighting, or starting a family, when you get that MD after your name for real, you can be anyone you want.

That’s it for now. I’ll go on duty in a few hours. Keep safe. Wear masks.

[tangian]

8.25-26.19

Examination room for two days (ST. JUDE COLLEGE).. May time na sa first day kahit sobrang dali ng PIPE ay hindi ko tinatake for granted dahil alam ko talaga na babawi niyan either Math o Machine Design. Pagkatapos ng first day (PIPE) kailangan ng konting pahinga tapos resbak sa FLASHING OF POSSIBLE QUESTIONS for Math at PIPE next day.

Lucky na ang bait ng mga nagbabantay sa amin. Talagang sinusulit ang oras. Lagi isa ako sa nahuhuli magpasa kasi one time lang naman mageexam. Gawin ang best para may lumabas na answer.  Lalo na sa Machine Design. Halos isa't kalahating oras yata akong natataranta. Wala yata sa kalahati ang nasagot ko na alam kong tama. Tapos halos puro Flywheel naglabasan na alam kong kahinaan ko.   The day I knew I fcked up when nasa harapan ko na nung Flashing yung mga possible problems kaso hindi ko masyado tinandaan yung "sagot" dahil alam ko sa sarili kong alam kong sagutan. Pero nung nasa exam na... Ayun kala ko nga ay babagsak na pero did some magic sa exam.

Tapos sobrang swerte na sa harapan ng examination area ko ay merong Chapel ni St. Jude.. Dahil sa madali nanaman ang math, heto na, nung lunch time ay imbis na magcram sa formulas sa MD dahil panigurado heto na ang mahirap ay umattend nalang sa mass.

This scenario... Sa labas ng Manila Grand Hotel, Rainy night at paalis na sa hotel. Tapos na ang sa wakas ang exam! Madaming sobrang down na at may umiiyak na (kahit nung exam) tapos ewan sobrang gaan sa pakiramdam ko nun. Kinakabahan, oo, pero alam ko ginawa ko lahat lahat lahat sa 5 oras  sa Machine Design.  

[hatdogjes]

My name is Jesnazar L. Colon. I was born on january 9, 2002 in Manila. My birthday is a fiest of the black nazarene, my name was based on my birthday. I live in #31 Phase V St Jude, Marrieta Romeo Village Brgy. Sta lucia,Pasig city. My father's name is Danilo Colon and My mother's name is Daisy maria Laput. I have three siblings and i am the smallest but not youngest. I am currently studying in as grade 12 HUMSS student at San Sebastian Recoletos Manila. I've decided to go in manila to experience new environtment and meet new people. It was really tough when i'm in manila and my expectation didn't disappointed me. Life in being independent was very challenging and i really need to conquer and adjust in fear.

Things that i like in my life. I really love my family and i miss them, they are the one who encourage me to not surrender. I like to spend my time with friend which made my life fun. This is the part of my life that help me to grow more and i need to learn more and realize what is my purpose in this world. I tried to escape many times in my weakness but i can't because i know i lacked something. I know that i can conquer and face it someday.

Maybe this is my time to fulfill my dreams and make my family proud of me. Hoping that every struggle would be a lesson to me. I need new perspective in my life to become a better person. Leaving past would be a good idea and correct in right time.

[an-excerpt]

12/31/19

Looking back to 2019

January & February

It is filled with adventure and thrill because I explored different places without asking my parents' consent tho. I went to ek and moa with my college friends.

March

I also explored some parts of manila and also enrolled to my review classes for boards.

April - September

I still have classes that time. May was our retreat and it was held in baguio but we didn't have enough free time to explore the city during our last day. Also in this phase, so many what ifs are disturbing my inner peace. Those nights wherein I cried my heart out thinking that what if I will not graduate from 5th year and after that I don't know what my next step will be. Those nights full of regrets that I should have given all my best in studying so that I have not failed my accrev. It also made me think if I really wanted to continue this journey, to become a cpa. I was also exhausted emotionally, physically and mentally that I just gone with the flow. I felt like I lost the fire inside me to continue. After some time, I regained the fire, I was motivated and inspired to fight again. I studied my heart out to pass the exam given as our "second chance".

I was feeling positive to study for the review season which also started this May. Tbh the first part of my review season, I was a lil bit excited because I can feel how to be independent because I was all alone in my dorm, my dorm mates were going home every weekends. I felt like I was in a kdrama and it was fun because I don't have to deal with other people but as weeks passed by, I felt so lonely. I felt the exhaustion of travelling back and forth to the province and such. I felt tired and lazy to study. Tbh I was demotivated to study, I lacked the work and just depended on prayer alone. At first, my thinking was that, I'll pass the boards no matter what, but as the day of the cpale went closer, the doubt was slowly getting bigger.

I also happened to attend my first fangirling event for this year which is Dylan Wang's fm brought by Bench. It was really so fun and I felt that I am alive! I think I was born to be a fangirl lol.

Dorm moments and bonding with dorm mates, those things made our bonds stronger with some of my college friends. Being with them to that phase in my life, really is a big part. Those adulting chika, walwal and foodtrip -- simple things that I really cherish.

October

CPALE season, that 2 weeks was like a torture, including the waiting for the results. I kept thinking positive and claiming that I'll passed but every end of the day, I saw myself going to St. Jude and crying. My heart was so heavy. I kept praying and surrending everything to Him. Crying out to Him, I felt like the heavy burden in my heart was lifted. While waiting for the results, I claimed and at the same time thought that I did not passed but the thinking that I failed weighing the most. Those relatives asking me about the results made me teary eyes every time.

Results day, if I remembered it right I was anxious all day. The results were out at night, every notifications I got from PRC in twitter made my heart skipped a beat. When the time had come I was really nervous, i searched first for all my friend's name but only some of them made it. Then I searched for my name and found none. I didn't cry maybe because I cried everything whenever I went to St. Jude every after the exam day. I felt bad but seeing that almost of my college friends were in the same boat as mine, I felt comforted. Sorry, I know I'm mean. I also told my parents about it that night because I don't want to prolonged the disappointment the next day. Thinking that tomorrow will be another day; new hope for things to be better. Some of my friends were sending comforting messages and that made me teary eyes for a bit but after that I felt numb. I don't know what to do with my life. I felt lost. I felt empty. I think I also got to "tampo" with Daddy G because I knew I never failed to pray to Him every day, it was only later that I finally accepted that maybe it was really my fault. I was so lazy and demotivated. I only relied to prayers and not doing my part. I'm so sorry Daddy G 😭.

End part of October, I felt alive. I attended a fan meet. I happened to see Cha Eun Woo and became an Aroha. I think being a fangirl is really my calling lol.

November & December

November 1st and it is our fam's tradition to go to cemetery to visit our deceased loved ones. I didn't go there because my relatives from Manila were there and I thought I was not ready to face them.

I attended IU's con named Love, Poem. Hearing IU's singing live is just my goal but when I left the premises of Araneta, I became a certified Ma-aena. That 4 hours concert is really a daebak! ✨

I went to Elyu this December and I think it made me breathe for some time. I was a bit exhausted. I felt like I was being left behind because wearing bikini is not my cup of tea. I lacked confidence of my body.

These two months is filled disappointments, pressure, self pity, self doubts and so much more. I felt like I was a total failure. I envied those batchmates who are already hired and working as a corporate slave. I attended some interviews but unfortunately I was not hired. I was also judged by some of my relatives saying that maybe I was too picky for my first job. Yes, I declined a job offer because the salary is below the minimum and it does not offer to help me grow as a professional. I do believe that I can have more and I can do more that's why. It also made me think those what if I didn't pursue this course instead I took engineering, which I really wanted; maybe I am now an engineer. I felt lost after that boards season.

2019 is really a year of lessons, experiences and survival. It is just a 365 days but it gave plot twists which gave a mark in my being. It reminded me that I am living and living doesn't only mean that you are always at a top; living also means that you can be at the bottom. I am grateful for all the people who never left my side, who gave their never-ending support and love, who believes in me and who keeps me sane. Surviving this 2019 through He's help is already a gift.

Thank you Daddy G for guiding me throughout this year's journey despite those times that I almost turned my back to You. I'm deeply sorry if it took some time for me to realize that You just answered my prayers with "not yet" and not a stern "no". I am now trusting Your own timing. 💙

[katrinaborbe-blog]

 The students are finally done with their tour, they are thankful for their Arts Appreciation Professor and to their Parents for this wonderful tour and for giving them a chance to know more about our manila’s main tourist attraction 

                                       CREDITS AND REFERENCES

CHURCHES

· Quiapo – Borbe, Ana Katrina Y          

Myrna Cacho (2017) Brief history of the Black Nazarene and Quiapo church

·    2     Manila Cathedral - Borbe, Ana Katrina Y

Jericho Paul C. Santos (2019) Manila Cathedral: History and Architecture

·    3.     Parish of Our Lady of the Abandoned- Floro, Karl

 Jhaypee Guia (2012) Parish of our lady of the abandoned: Diocesan Shrine and Parish of our lady of the  abandoned

·     4.    San Agustin – Hannah Dela Cruz

  Chan, Peter.  (2011) the-history-of-the-san-agustin-church

·     5.    Minor Bassilica of San Lorenzo Luiz – Bernardo, Gerald P

Jane Dacumos (2019) Minor Basilica of San Lorenzo Ruiz: Minor Basilica of St. Lorenzo Ruiz-Binondo Church

·     6.    St Jude- Dela Cruz, Hannah

Chicago, IL (2019)  St. Jude League

STATUES   

Rizal Monument- Borbe, Ana Katrina Y

Dennis Villegas (2011) The story of the Rizal Monument

·     2. Andres Bonifacio- Dela Cruz, Hannah

 (2012)  Andres Bonifacio and the Katipunan

·     3. Lapu Lapu- Bernardo, Gerald P

Cris Evert Lato-Ruffolo and Morexette Marie Erram (2018) Lapu Lapu: Rizal Park’s 40-Ft statue called Lapu Lapu

·     4. Filipino Comfort Women- Floro, Karl

Dominique Mosbergen (2017) Filipino comfort Women: The Harrowing Story Of Filipina Women Enslaved In Japan's Wartime Rape Camps

      5. Gabriela Silang Monument – Floro, Karl

Jane Dacumos (2012) Gabriela Silang Monument: The gabriela silang monument in makati

·     6. People Power Monument – Bernardo, Gerald P

Jerome Albert S. Dela Cruz (2015) People Power Monument: EDSA People Power Monument

[talkaboute]

i lighted 3 candles for my prayer intentions today. the other 2 was because i can't remember if i missed to mention anything. #JustToBeSure (at National Shrine of St Jude Thaddeus Manila) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClB5AYFPojs/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[judebautista]

On the Shoulders of Great Women and Men Part 1

From left: Mayette Yuching, Flora O. Go and SPAS Principal Vilma P. Quijano. SPAS@47 Tribute to SPAS Pioneers, Feb 16, 2023. Photo by Jude Bautista Written by Jude Thaddeus Bautista February 16, 2023, there was a small gathering at St Peter the Apostle Church in Paco. Manila. The event was a tribute to 5 women pioneers who were instrumental in raising of funds for St Peter the Apostle School…

[talktokuyaian]

St. Jude Thaddeus, pray for us! Happy Feast Day! #talktokuyaian #selfcare (at National Shrine of St Jude Thaddeus Manila) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkPOIK3S_bC/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=