#Sorry for the abscene

[artzchao]

Sword(ory)

[eclown4hire]

Rinne drinking [Nondescript Beer Company] On a Saturday

[edgedgreatness]

ims are now open, i have made all my sideblogs be attached to one main blog drummerdaines thought you can als contact me on d!scord at localsatan - and i will hopefully gain muse back, sorry for the abscenes from these blogs

[thenumberedloversofdukeellington]

Hark! Good News!

Sorry for my extended abscene but this year has been a whole hot mess of personal, familial, and financial issues.

I do come bearing Good News though...

MOMS FOR LIBERTY ARE LOSING THEIR SCHOOL BOARD POSITIONS LIKE CRAZY.

According to NPR, they're losing elections in Iowa, Virginia, and Pennsylvania. Per the progressive institutional newsletter Mother Jones, they also lost key seats to Democrats in North Carolina and Minnesota.

That's not to say that the quasi-facist organization still isn't weilding power, and that the "parental rights" movement isn't quickly careening into a re-do of the 1980s Satanic Panic. Rural Anderson County, SC, a county where 15.8% of individuals live below the Federal poverty line and most do not have a Bachleor's degree, is currently holding a school board meeting to discuss firing certain school individuals. This frenzy comes after State Rep. Thomas Beach (R-10) posted an open letter to his Facebook page that Anderson District One librarians and teachers are grooming students, and hiding pornographic materials - a serious allegation that lacks substance, but nevertheless is being treated seriously.

At a time when college enrollment has been declining and the teacher shortage is so severe that certain South Carolina students are relying on online coursework, Carolinians need to keep focused. Vote. Not just in your school board elections, but in local, county, and state elections. The choice is clear: Robust literacy programs and quality educators, or shuttered libraries and asynchronous online learning?

[noizeyblog]

Sorry for my abscenes, I've decides to try and convert to a Multimuse blog but also SPRING BREAK, I've been working all month but i'm back for a bit

[da-millerrrrr]

"Papa!" Elena beamed.

Every ounce of rage within Osvald disappeared. His flames extinguished. The room dropped in tempurature at the abscene of a fire burning on five years of hatred.

"Elena," he breathed, "it's me. I-I-I'm so sorry I took so long."

He fell to his knees, arms outstretched and ready to hug Elena as tight as he could.

The tips of her hair and horn weren't black as they once were. It was amazing she could control her anger around Harvey. Perhaps he'd hurt her, forced her to be that way... It didn't matter right now. He could always ask her when they were safe.

Elena walked which turned to a run. She passed Osvald, instead running to Harvey.

"What experiments did you do, papa?" she asked.

Why did she call him that? Why did she smile at the sight of him? Why did she care for him?

"Nothing today, I was just catching up with an old friend," he smiled.

Elena turned to look at Osvald. For the briefest moment, her eyes met his. They were hazy with unfamiliarity. Bright with curiosity.

What did he do to her?

Her face distorted at the sight of his horn and hair. Even for fire resistant kirin hair, his looked half burnt. Strands flew in every direction and refused to behave no matter how much he brushed it.

"His hair is burnt," she muttered.

"Yes, he's crazy. We should leave now, lest he hurt us," Harvey said.

"Of course."

She took her "papa's" hand and walked out of the laboratory with a smile.

All of Osvald's friends had stayed silent. They did not want to interfere in his personal ordeal. But Castti stepped forward, placing a careful hand on his shoulder.

"You should rest. Let's all go back to the inn," she whispered.

For several moments, his voice failed him. All that came out was a choked sob. His tears wetted with cheeks as he felt that fiery rage return.

"Go without me, I want to be alone."

Castti wanted to argue, but she knew him. And she had just watched everything be taken from him. She made for the exit, gesturing for the rest of the group to leave with her.

When their footsteps became too faint to hear, it all came pouring out. His body was set ablaze as he sobbed. His little girl was alive and in the care of Harvey. She didn't know him. Not a single hint of recognition as she looked in his eyes.

"Oh gods, why would he do this!?" Osvald muttered as he made a mess of the room.

He scattered papers across the floor, burning every working surface and chymera he could get his hands on. Nearly everything had been turned to ash.

As he set the final notebook on fire, he fell to the ground. He just wanted to hold Elena. To see her smile, teach her math, watch her explain simple addition, hold her when she cried and laugh with her.

Far too late did he hear a creak. A support beam fell to the ground with a loud crack. An idea struck him.

He set every support beam on fire, watching as they collapsed one by one. Parts of the ceiling gave out without the extra support. Faintly, he heard screams from the floors above. He set the entire city ablaze. Anything to make his emotions bearable.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME PIE

[fairy-selfships]

ohmygod im <33 it's his day!!! jhdfj it's my main f/o's bday and im!!!! jfdhjk!!!!! idk how to describe it but im so happy rn >:3c sorry for the short ramble n also my continued abscene lmaoaoaoao

[mmmmulbery]

Sorry for the unprompted abscene i have been busy w irl stuff and did not get to draw a response to the asks i wanted to!!! Also im literally still trying to figure out how to draw mersault its not going well

[historias-multorum]

Sorry for my abscene yesterday, just didn’t have the spoons to come on line but I’m here today for Munday. If you wanna ask me stuff or come say yo you can!

[naotofuyumines]

crawling from the deeps of hell to say that this blog is still alive sort of somewhat i put a bunch of shit on queue right now sorry for the abscene it probably will happen again im on the ugly bird app these days and this is more of an archive but alas yeah missed you guys here ciaooooooooo

[tsukiutalove]

hwy are you alive? and healthy? and drinking enough water?

Hello my cutie pie 💕

YES! I AM ALIVE! Healthy for the moment and drinking enough water is a problem because I have drinking issues in general (not the alcohol ones, I just never feel thirsty and I always forget to drink), but that’s a different story I suppose 😂

So… 

I am truly sorry, as you may have noticed, I’ve been on a hiatus the past weeks (those who follow my BNHA blog might have seen) I moved back from Japan to my own country and I was super busy. I apologize that I missed making an announcement on this blog! 🙈BUT… I am back and currently working on my blogs appearance and some requests 😊

Thank you so much for all your requests so far and all your kind words! ✨Stay tuned! Lots of love ❤ Lin 

[shereadsandwritesformelanin]

The Baker And Her Actor: part Vii [Needy]

Paring: Chris Evans x Black! Fem reader

Summary: You meet Chris while making a house delivery for the Evans. He can’t get you off his mind and to be honest neither can you.

Wanings: profanity and sexual content, but overall fluff

Notes: I hope you guys enjoy! If you have any request be sure to send them my way! P.s thank you so much for all the support, I’m growing so fast I’m trying to keep up and pump out as much as I can! 😭🤩 Love and appreciate you all!

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[listen to the songs for this chapter/part!]

We get to see more of what our bby boy thinks this chapter!!

T/W: if you struggle with anxiety like me and Chris here is a hotline that actually works, it helps to talk to someone not go through it alone! :)

-

It had been five days since Chris had been gone for the Avengers Endgame press tour. It took a little adjusting for you to get use to his abscene, you’d never had a boyfriend who would be gone for more than nine hours for work. So it was definitely difficult for you.

Luckily Chris suggested you stay at his place with Haneli and watch dodger so you wouldn’t feel so far away from him.

You decided to call your boyfriend considering you hadn’t talked to him since yesterday afternoon mostly his fault because he hadn’t been responding.

Maybe he was just really slammed.

You pick up your phone dailing his number anxious with it ring that passes. “Hey, Goodmorning baby.” You greet through the phone

“Goodmorning.” Chris’s voice was usually hoarse in the morning but this was different almost bored and distant.

“Everything going okay, you’ve been kind of distant with me lately. Wasn’t sure if press was going okay.” You ask trying to discover what the problem dealt was.

“Yeah everything is fine, sorry I’ve just been jet lagged.” Chris explains.

It all made sense, of course he was tired and not just ignoring you for shits and giggles.

“I understand. Dodger is doing amazing you should see him with his sister.” You say switching the tone of the conversation.

“Bet he is.” Chris chuckles somberly.

“Maybe you should get more rest.” You suggests

“Yeah, I think I will. Call me tonight.” Chris speaks

“You can call me.’ You sass. “Catch up later, I miss you.”

“I miss you too.” Chris admits befor hanging up.

Truthfully Chris did really miss you. He missed your smile, your lips, your warmth and optimizium, which he could use right now.

These tours weren’t the highlight of his job as captain America. Same questions different interviews it was truly draining. He could tell you were trying but he just wasn’t in the mood and he didn’t want to take it out on you.

-

Chris’s Point Of View:

I walk off the set of yet another dull interview heading toward my dressing room to be picked up for my next bland interview with Jimmy Fallon.

I feel a light tap on my shoulder turning my head to face the direction the sensation had occurred from.

Scarlett.

“So you gonna tell me why you’ve been all sour faced today?” She teases eyebrow cocked waiting for my response.

“Just tired that’s all.”

“Just tired that’s all.’ She mimics “Cut the bullshit Evans I know you and I know when somethings bothering you.”

“It’s just.’ I sigh sucking in a deep breath “I’ve been seeing this woman and she’s amazing no complaints but it’s just she’s being a little clingy right now and my anxieties getting to me bad Scarlett.” I admit forehead resting in my fingertips

Scarlett places her hand on my back rubbing it sympathetically. “How is she being clingy?” She asks

I reach into my pocket pulling out my cellphone showing her the various missed calls from you and unanswered text messages.

“So your ignoring her?” Scarlett coments.

“Not ignoring I’m just exhausted and need a break.” I confess

“A break from her, or this.” She says motioning to all the cameras and lights that stood behind us.

She was right, I need to differentiate and fast.

“ I don’t know.” Was all I could muster up to say before walking away to my car that was outside.

God don’t do anything stupid Chris.

-

I walk into my hotel room kicking off my shoes and striking into a white tee and my boxers. I head towards the master bedroom slipping in between the sheets before dialing your number to facetime.

“Hey babe.” You say a huge smile plastered on your face. “Look whose here.” Panning to dodger who was on the bed napping as usual.

I can’t help but let a smirk surface on my face. I loved their relationship dodger was just so comfortable he might even love you more than he did his old man.

“Hey bubba!” I say watching dodger immediately perk up and get excited.

“He misses you, so do I.” Y/n states

“I miss you too.” I respond

“Do you.” She whispers almost so low I couldn’t hear her.

“What?” I question in disbelief that you thought that.

“Nothing, I shouldn’t have said that.” You retract

“No maybe you should have if that’s how you’re feeling.” I say practically scrolling you now.

The both of you always talked about never hiding your feelings from each other, always been expressive so things didn’t blow over.

“Chris, I only say this because you’ve been distant I mean I called you how many times this week and how many times did you answer!” Y/n went on.

“I’m busy y/n what did you expect.” I reasoned

“Yeah but you have time to tweet pictures of dodger and your cast. To big time for your girlfriend though.” Y/n snarled

That’s it.

“You know what i get this is difficult for you but it’s difficult for me too! Don’t you think I miss you? Because I do, I really fucking do!’ I thundered.

“Why are you yelling at me?” Y/n quips

“Don’t try and make me bad guy. All I’m saying is I do miss you, but I don’t I just don’t need someone who’s going to be clingy and consumed in my life.” I snap, immediately regretting the words that fell from my mouth.

The phone call went silent. Almost like the two of you were processing what Chris had just said.

“You don’t need someone who cares about you, right. Well enjoy finding someone who doesn’t give a shit about the real you and only wants you because you’re Chris Fucking Evans, Goodbye!” She roars

“Y/n!” I shout but it’s too late you already hung up.

“Damn it!” I shout chucking my phone across the room.

I was boiling. I wasn’t mad at you I hated myself for alllowing my anxiety to control me and say something so stupid like that.

I really fucked up.

-

Y/n’s Point Of View:

You slam my phone down on the night stand, slipping deeper into the covers bundling yourself and your tears up into the comforters.

You let all the tears of anger, fustration, and confusion soak the pillows. Your head stung with every word you replayed in your head.

Chris had never shouted at you, hell he hadn’t even raised his voice at you before. So him going completely psycho not only scared you but broke you.

One thing you know was that you didn’t want to be here any more and you didn’t want to be alone.

“Can I come over?” You sniffle into the phone.

“Yeah of course.”

You leash up the dogs slipping on your shoes and grabbing your bags heading out the door.

What am I doing.

-

You walk up to door and you didn’t even have to knock before the door came swinging open.

Deacon standing behind it.

“Hey.” you whisper voice sore from the yelling and crying you had just participated in. “Hope you don’t mind I brought extra guest.

“No I don’t mind at all.” Deacon speaks shooting you a small smile taking your bags.

Deacon wraps a warm blanket around you, making his way back to stove removing the kettle of boiling water.

“Wanna talk about it?” He asks pouring you a cup of tea

You sigh. “I just, I don’t understand what I did wrong. I mean was I too clingy or was I being a good girlfriend?”

All though it pained Deacon to see you with him, he was glad you were happy for the most part. But this, this made his blood boil.

From the moment you hired him Deacon had always been protective of you, so he definitely wanted to punch Chris straight in the mouth right about now.

“I don’t think you were being clingy, I think if he is gonna have a wonderful girlfriend like you he should know how to balance you and work.” Deacon speaks taking a sip of the tea he’d just prepared

You nod at his statement but instantly shoot back to that day.

That day you found Chris awake at 3 in the morning. Sitting on the kitchen floor, face dull of emotion. The day you had to cradle him and help sooth him. The day he told you he suffers from anxiety.

You knew that’s what was eating him up.

“I don’t want to be to harsh, he has a lot on his plate.” You speak making an excuse for him.

“Y/n.’ Deacon says taking your hand in his. “No matter what he’s going through he shouldn’t treat anyone like that, especially you.” He places his hand on your chin lifting it upwards kissing your temple.

“Goodnight.” His voice rings

“Goodnight.”

Deacon aburptly stops in his tracks turning back toward you. “Hey y/n, just make sure this is what you really want. It’s only going to get more real from here.”

You draw in a deep sigh palming yourself in the face.

Was he right?

-

It had been a solid fourty eight hours since you’ve spoken to Chris, mostly your fault because he’s definitely been reaching out. With every call you hit and send to voicemail, You’re just not ready.

“Everything good girl?” Kiara asks slipping next to you behind the counter.

“Yeah, I’m fine.” You lie

“Okay, well I’m gonna go to the back and check on the chocolate chip cookies.” She says unconvinced that you were actually fine.

Same way you were faking to convince yourself if you are actually fine.

Nope you weren’t.

Snap out of it y/n you’ve got work.

“Next costumer—.” You stammer Chris now standing in front of you giving you those deep ocean eyes hidden underneath his infamous Boston baseball cap.

“I’ll take an original house donut with a side of conversation with my girlfriend please.” Chris speaks attempting to lighten the mood.

You walk over bagging his donut giving it a harsh squeeze before shoving it into the packaging. “Unfortunately we’re out of a side of conversation with your girlfriend.” You sass practically chucking the donut at Chris.

“Not that I was your girlfriend anymore anyways.” you mutter ringing him up.

“What?”

“What?’ Don’t remember what you said to me?” You scrowl

Chris did remember in fact he thought about it every minute. He thought about what he could have said and done better, it drove his anxiety through the roof having you upset with him.

“I’m sorry.”

You scoff. “Yeah.”

“Were you upset?” Chris asks head hung low, you could tell he was really apologetic.

You sigh. “Yes, very.’ You admit “To the point were I went to the last place I thought I’d ever be.”

Chris crosses his arms unsure of what you meant and where this place was. “Where would this place be?”

“Deacons house.” You whisper ashamed to have said that.

“So we have a fight and you run to another mans house?” Chris shouts

He was right. You shouldn’t have gone over there knowing deacons feelings for you and having respect for Chris. Yet and still your pride had gotten in the way and you wouldn’t admit you were wrong, it was his fault we were in this fight anyway.

Right?

“So I ask you about your day and car about you and you shut me out?” You reply getting even louder than he previously was.

You could tell he was holding back, having restraint with his tounge.

At this point the remanding costumers in the bakery were starting to get quiet listening in on the action. Low whispers began as Chris’s cover had been blown.

“I should go, not sure why I even came.” He spat storming out.

Watching him leave sent a familiar pang to your heart almost as strong as the night of your intial fight.

Your eyes swell with tears.

I need a break.

“Kiara!” You croak

She peers out from the back with a sympathetic look on her face, you assumed she’d been listening and heard everything. “It’s okay go I’ve got this.”

You nod thanking her before running off and breaking down, again.

-

The plan was when Chris got back you would return dodger. That never happened because you two were both very stubborn, but it was his dog so the least you could was return dodger.

“Come on bubba, lets go see daddy.” You say leashing dodger up packing him in your car

Gosh saying that didn’t even feel right.

The drive over to Chris’s you thought about the altercation.

You thought about what you said, what he said. And if it was really that big of a fight to hold a grudge.

Maybe you were a bit to harsh on him, maybe.

You pull into his drive way. Taking dodger out of the car, he gave you a spare key but it didn’t feel right to use it considering your current situation.

You ring the doorbell. Bringing back so many memories of when the two of you first laid eyes on one another.

There he was handsome as ever. You melted whenever you looked into those eyes.

Don’t be weak.

You sigh. “I thought I would bring dodger since you haven’t swung by.” You explain avoiding eye contact

The tension was thick.

“Thank you. I appreciate it.” He speaks dryly

“Well I’ll get out of your hair.” You state turning on your heels walking toward your car.

You hear him sigh banging his fist against the door frame, stopping you in your tracks. “Y/n. I don’t want to fight.’ He breaths. “I’m sorry, I fucked up and it was never my intention to treat you like that. You don’t deserve that.”

You were stuck. You didn’t know what to say, so you didn’t.

You walk over to him cupping his face pulling him in crashing your lips onto his.

He’s a lucky man because typically you wouldn’t have done this, it usually would have ended the moment any man raised there voice above a whisper at you.

Your lips moved in a familiar sync. Chris brings you through the door frame shutting the door behind the two of you. He picks you up carrying you to the kitchen table never loosing hold of your lips.

“I’m.”

“Sorry.” You mutter through the messy kiss

“I know.” Chris says lifting your shirt off

“Let’s not fight.” You plead hands running through his hair.

He shoots you a small smile before returning his lips to yours.

“I love you.” Chris says pushing into your slick flods.

“I know.” You moan.

He stops causing you to sigh. You knew what he wanted.

Here I go.

“I love you too dummy.” You tease

“Mmhm.” Chris hums thrusting into you.

The two of you made sweet love all night, forgiving each other through each position. Ending the night with a long shower.

How did you go from not knowing who Chris Evans was to laying in his arms?

-

A/n: Whewwww this took some time to right. I wanted to make sure they made up because per the man of the hour (Chris says he doesn’t like to go to bed angry with a girlfriend) and whats a better way to make up?

Looks like the two are in love, so what’s next? 😏

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[vitaaeternus]

2020....why.....

I cant even explain how deeply her abscene is gonna hit me but i hope she can heal during this break and focus on her own happiness over the approval of others as she deserves. Ive been watching Jenna since 2011 when i was 13.

I deeply respect how she was able to acknowledge her past mistakes, show them in a real light, and take ownership of that. Most people cant face those parts of themselves like that and say “i was wrong”. Her privatizing the offensive videos was such a monumental show of understanding what her mistakes were and how she does not want to cause offence to anyone. She’s apologizing about hurting people, not just brushing it off as “sorry you got offended”.

That being said, i hate how deeply shes taking this and i hope she doesnt take all this blame, most of it not deserved and derived of people only reading a tweet and not knowing the actual situation. Im sad and angry FOR her, and i hope she can finally let go of the hold other peoples reactions to her hold.

I miss you Jenna and i thank you for all the positivity youve broughg into my life

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hii! sorry this is so late, I haven’t been on tumblr. what’s your favourite fanfic trope? what episode do you think is underrated? what glee song do you listen to that you know is definitely a guilty pleasure? if you could make a new glee club, using ten characters we’ve had on glee, (any ten), who would you choose?

Hi! That’s not a problem, I’d forgotten all about it so this is a pleasant surprise lol

Favourite fanfic trope: This is a really hard one. I’m not sure if I have a single overall favourite. For the moment I’m going to say enemies to lovers, but that’s probably because I just finished reading ACITW a couple days ago and I loved it.

Underrated episode: Honestly I have a hard time remembering anything about specific episodes. I feel like all of the episodes I liked are pretty well-liked by others as well.There’s probably something, but I’m drawing a blank. What I’ve learned from getting asks lately is that on my next rewatch I ned to pay attention to what happens in specific episodes lol.

Guilty pleasure Glee song: I don’t really consider any of them a guilty pleasure (in general I try not to think of anything I enjoy as a guilty pleasure, because you shouldn’t feel guilty for enjoying something just because other people might think it’s silly or dumb), but I guess if I had to pick something it might be Let’s Have A Kiki? I could be wrong but I feel like that’s not all that well-liked in general, but honestly I think it’s a jam and I love it. Honourable mention to Gangnam Style. I didn’t want to answer with that because it’s not in my regular rotation of Glee songs, but I do actually kind of like it.

New Glee club, in the order I would choose them:

Mercedes Jones. This woman is a powerhouse and she can sing absolutely anything. Needs no explanation.

Santana Lopez. Amazing voice, and her together with Mercedes is just magic.

Artie Abrams. One of my favourites of the male voices, and I think his voice goes well with the girls’ voices.

Blaine Anderson. He has my favourite voices of the guys, but he’s below Artie because I find Artie’s more unique. He also might only be my favourite because he has so many songs, and therefore more opportunities for good songs, so... I dunno.

Tina Cohen Chang. He voice is just so pretty, and she sounds great with the others already listed. She wasn’t higher up because I don’t find her voice to be as powerful as some of the others, but I definitely think she’s a strong addition to the team.

Kurt Hummel. I love this man with my entire heart and soul. He was immediately first on my list, but the more I thought about it the more it didn’t make sense. While I obviously would want to choose him, I bumped him down the list because there are some songs that his voice just isn’t all that well suited to. I’d definitely make sure he got to use his lower registed more, though.

Harmony. Now we’re venturing out of the New Directions members. Honestly I wish we got more Harmony in the show. She has a great voice, and she seems like Rachel but more bearable (notice the distinct lack of Rachel on this list).

Jean Baptiste. Another choice from outside the New Directions. I just think he seems like a really great performer, has a great voice, out of the box ideas, and bonus points for being Canadian. :)

Roderick Meeks. A very strong male voice and also quite unique. I think he was one of the best singers on the show, and I’m sad he was introduced so late.

Unique Adams. Killer voice. She’s just amazing. No explanation needed, just a very strong vocalist to round out the list.

Notable abscenes: Rachel (good voice but too difficult to work with), Finn (was never a big fan of his voice except for Paradise By The Dashboard Light), Puck (he was on the list until I remembered there were people outside of the New Directions), Quinn (honestly just not a huge fan of her voice), Brittany and Mike (not strong singers and I prioritized singing skill over dancing, though I did really consider including them for the dancing skills; maybe this was a mistake).

[yennefer-stark]

Rehab of a soldier

Part two

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Almost at midnight, I heard a scream wich reached the inside of my bones. Like he experiencing physical pain... I immediately ran to him.

-Hey... It's just me, Yennefer, can I come in?

-Please... --his voice was broken and quiet as he tried to holding back his tears.

-You had a bad dream --I sat down in his bed and swiped away his cold sweat. He didnt know what I wanted, so he sat there, completely frozen; when Buck realized that I mean no harm for him, he closed his eyes and leant into my palm-- Can...can you tell me your dream?

-They wiped me again because I said I knew him, the man on the bridge.

-You were right Bucky, You know who he is. Your childhood best friend. He still remember you even if you doesn't.... Should I go or should I stay?

-Please, stay with me...

-Are you sure?

He doesnt answered, just nodded with his head, so I laid next to him, because there wasnt so much space in his bed. For me, his hug with his metal hand was a surprise. I started to play with his hair. Once again, he froze by a sudden, then again, he relaxed. The next day, I woke up in an empity bed, I walked to the kitchen, where Steve cooked something, the radio quietly played some music.

-Do you met with him?

-Buck? No, I didnt.

-He might went to buy a few thing. I found him yesterday at the museum. He sat at your picture and he said, he remember one single date. July 4, 1918. After 70 years of torture and being frozen constanly, he still remembers.

-My birthday, and trust me, he remember much more than that. What do yo think, why we do this in secret?

-What kind of program he has in his arm? Unknown HYDRA right? When dad was an UNI student he hacked the Pentagon...

-How much time do you need Yennefer?

-Thats on Buck's arm... If something can go wrong, It will go bad sometime for sure. I dont want to be a bad person, but I'd be happy if his robotic arm cant fucntion properly. Do you spoke with Thor?

-No. He doesnt know where Loki went, he still search him.

After a few minute, Bucky come back from shopping, looked at me, than Steve, dead in his track. He arranged his face back to normal, while Steve just wanted to hug him.

-Not now Steve.

-Long time no see Buck.

-Long time ago? I dont remember. ... I think my name is Bucky and we went to italy...? And at another misson I fell from the train...?

At the end, Steve hugged his ex-assassin best friend, who pushed away him.

-Why did you do this?

-We used to greet like this.

-Really? Coz I remember only one date... July 4, 1918. I try to remember things, but after a time, it hurts... And I cant remember much more than that.

He placed the plastig bag in the table, then he went up to his room, he may closed the door with his metal hand, coz Steve an I heard a loud crashing sound.

-If the door is still in It's place it's a luck, that was forceful...

-True, but what I've done?

-You? You did nothing wrong, just your presence is new for him. Yesterday night he was so calm... He leaned into my hand when he figured out that I mean no harm to him.

-He doesnt seemed like a sleepless person, what did you done?

-It's... my secret, but if you forgive me, I have other things to do. Captain.

With a slightly evil grin I turned away from him, and then I went up to Bucky's room. The door wasnt there, just the frame.... The man behind the door's piece was stressed and tense. When he saw me, his eyes radiated pure fear and started to backing away.

-I didnt wanted to destroy the door, I'm sorry. I think something happened with my hand...

-Come on, I can do something with it.

-What can you do with it?

-You'll see, trust me.

I saw the pure terror and complete fear in his eyes as he leaned against the wall. I dont know what HYDRA did with him, but I'm sure they broke him into million pieces and this fact broke me a bit too.

-Before I start this whatever, I will ask you a few question, but I dont know that... You're able to answer the questions...

-What questions?

-How much do you want to be free? How much do you want to know them dead?

-So you say, I will be free and no longer under commands? Finally I can be free from them?

-Yes. I can guarantee that.

-Who are you?

-Lemme say, that you met with my grandparents...

His face was so pale when I said that he met with them. After I implanted the blocker, he experienced a littlebit of pain, coz he didnt used to have opinions and peace, and the program just blocked all of those. I meant the HYDRA-programs...

-You might have nightmares still, but at least, they cannot use you anymore. You're free Buck.

-If I find Rumlov or Pierce... I'll kill them without hesitation.

-Take it easy Buchanan, you have so much time. Will you come with me for breakfast?

-They rarely call me like that.

-I hope that it isnt a problem.

I walked into the kitchen with a smirk on my lips, where the Captain raised one of his eyebrows and asked me with that.

-I think he's super confused, and I'm sure those bastards will come to take him back.

Bucky was still afraid but he walked with more confidence than last night. I know it that he need some time to get used to his new surroundings and that fact he doesnt need to kill anymore. The program blocked all of the HYDRA commands. But still, he looked at Steve like he doesnt know him.

-You said that we used to be very good friends...

-You said to me that you're with me till the end of the line.

-I hope you didnt done anything stupid...

-I can not promise that...

-Steve... Dont lie. Or do I need to tell that you love jumping out from planes without parachute? Or that story when you fall 100 meters when we smoked out the HYDRA from SHIELD?

-You didnt changed a damn thing.

We sat down and ate all our breakfast and after that, Steve washed away the dishes, then went away, coz he had serious things to do, he left heavy silence between me and Bucky. His cerulean-greyish eyes hide the most, almost unbearable pain, his walnut brown hair softly framed his features and it was long as Loki's hair...soulder lenght with a little bit of stubble. Completely different from Loki, but as charming as him... But I dont need to pining on things like that, but still... Months went away sinse we had a really heated argument and at the end, I made him leave. He left me in his trademark scent: cinnamon, mint, pine forest and old book.

-What are you thinking about?

-Nothing. Why you would be interested in my problems?

-Its good to tell your problems to strangers.

-But I know who you are.

-You stil can tell me.

-I dont want it.

-You want me to find out?

-Just ask Steve then, he knows what my problem is... I trained with him in the gym, in fact till this day, buf... I got a friend who doesnt liked this..

-Thats good, coz you can train with Steve.

-No, no. Dont misunderstood the situation. He was the best; in everything, well, almost everything.

-How he looked out?

-Tall, like the door over there, shoulder lenght black hair, and gorgeous green eyes. They were envious of him tho... Our relationship doesnt started so well. It's still hard to talk about but this happened almost a year ago... I mean... Our quarell...

-How...how much time do you two...?

-Almost four years. But if you dont mind, I'm going to my room and do some paperwork.

The truth was that I wanted to cry alone, in my room which was still full of Loki's scent.... That doesnt matter that other metal things were here, the God was way stronger. This was the main cause why I cried, but his abscene... was at such level that I started to cry when I saw green... After a few minutes I heard a quiet knock on my door, so I opened up with cried-out eyes.

-Still doesnt matter what's the problem?

-Yes, coz if I tell you, you will laugh at me...

-Why would I do that?

-Soo... I had a very serious and heated quarell with him, and I made him go away. That was a mistake tho; and I start thinking that he's with another.

-Let it go, but as I see, it's not easy to do. Since there is such a scent in your room?

-Since I met with him. It's his trademark scent.

-My hand...

-Do I need to fix it again? I can paint something if you want. Just say it.

-No. What do YOU need?

-Nothing? I have everything. Family, job, money, adrenalin, stress. --he moved closer, and grabbed my hand with his right. As if he knew what powers I own, he looked right in my eyes.

-I'm traumatised, not blind. Dont think that I wont see what you miss.

He let go of my hand, and left me in my room. I went after him, maybe too fast, coz he frooze in his track, and this was the moment I almost regret my whole life.... I kissed him, thanks to an accident. He may thought that I wanted to do because he hugged me at my waist. When I pulled away, Bucky smiled like Loki used to. Not in the mischievous way, more likely in a happy way.

-I...I didnt wanted ...

-I do. Do you want it again?

-I dont know... I have a boyfriend...

-Who went missing a year ago, let it go, you deserve better.

-But you didnt know.... He's not from earth.

-Then Pierce, Rumlov and Zola too...

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[obesity-is-not-healthy]

So I thought I was having a depression flare up and that's why I was exhausted and binging all week without working out but it turns out I had pharyngitis and legitimately felt sick because I was actually sick. I gained 5 lbs in a week and was thinking I had really just lost control but it turns out my body was so out of whack I wasnt digesting my food properly.

Anyway I'm back guys! Sorry for the abscene but I had with a severe pharynx infection untreated for a week and a half and was still working a 50 hour week so sorry I couldn't keep up.