#Somewhere Between Life and Death
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Club Furies Premiere: PHYC - Flauzino [PHYC]
Afincado en Ămsterdam, PaĂses Bajos, PHYC es un dinĂĄmico DJ y productor portuguĂ©s muy versado en la cambiante escena techno holandesa. IniciĂł su carrera en Londres, Inglaterra, con actuaciones en el emblemĂĄtico Ministry of Sound, y desde entonces ha llevado su sonido enĂ©rgico a pĂșblicos de todo el mundo, como TurquĂa, Italia y Vietnam. En Ămsterdam, PHYC ha actuado en OT301 y 8sixA, entre otros,âŠ
#Abstract Techno#Amsterdam#CF Premiere#club furies#Club Furies Premiere#Dark Techno#Electronic#Electronic Music#Electronica#Flauzino#Hypnotic Techno#Mental Techno#Netherlands#PHYC#PHYC001#Premiere#Sci-Fi Techno#Somewhere Between Life and Death#techno
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the way to the moon is about holding on (to the promise you don't even remember making, to the person you loved, to the life you never got to live but refuse to give up). it's johnny choosing to be with river time and time again, it's johnny holding on to all the paper rabbits river made even if he didn't know their significance, it's river keep trying to remind johnny of their shared past, it's river giving up her treatment so a place that means the world to her is protected, it's eva and neil trying their hardest to send johnny to the moon, it's eva taking the risk in hopes of making it
the way finding paradise is about letting go (of your mistakes, of the unrealistically perfect life you never lived, of the person who helped you through your darkest times but who now keeps you stuck in the past). it's colin letting go of faye despite being afraid, it's colin keep replacing pages in his book with new ones, it's faye knowing that colin never needed sigmund's help, it's faye telling colin he has to let go of her if he wants to live fully, it's neil and eva trusting faye despite what it means for them, it's neil taking the risk in hopes of making it
#IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEMMMMMMM#god#please#sobbing#THEM#what is impostor factory about?? great question#i need to play it at least 5 more times before i figure thag out#but i think#it's about choices in a way#i think it's in between letting go and holding on#it's all the different lives you could have lived if you chose something else#about the realities elsewhere#and how despite everything. all of them are still you#it's how different choices affect everything. from yourself to others#how ultimately you made a decision. this is your reality#but maybe somewhere else there was a chance for a different life#idk man im rambling#I LOVE THEM TO DEATH U DONT UNDEDSTAND#to the moon#finding paradise#freebird games#eva rosalene#neil watts#colin reeds#river wyles#faye#sigmund corp#i keep writing johnnys fucking name wrong save md#gamer hours#johnny wyles
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the voices won
#parkour civilization#parkciv#seawatt#parkour champion#paper#sketch#wip#xuh art#god above i will try to finish this digitally some time#seawattgaming#ajthebold#seawatt gaming#ok LISTEN. LISTEN. OK. WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT THIS SHIP#WHO CARES ABOUT EVBO /J#NO. FOR REAL. THESE TWO'S RELATIONSHIP DICTATES THE WORLD AND NO ONE TALKS ABOUT IT#HOW COME SEAWATT SETS THE RULES BUT AJ HAS THE CHAMPION BOOTS???#WHAT KIND OF DEAL GOES ON BETWEEN THEM#HOW COME SEAWATT RAN AWAY AT THE END OF MOVIE 1 BUT AJ IS NEVER SHOWN AGAIN. WHEN WE KNOW EVBO SURVIVES THE CHAMPION BATTLE DESPITE LOSING#THE FIRST ROUND. IS THIS THHING ON? DOES ANYONE HEAR ME? IS AJ SOMEWHERE IN THE NOOB LEVEL? HE'D RANK UP UP IMMEDIATELLY ONCE EVBO MADE THE#TRIALS POSSIBLE. DUDE WAS THE CHAMPION. WHERE DID HE GOOOOO. HOW WOULD HE FEEL ABOUT SEAWATT'S DEATH. DID THEY EXPLORE EACH OTHERS BODIES W#O SAID THAT#i just have to fuck myself and get attached to the ship that HAS NOTHING. WE NEVER SEE THEM INTERACT BUT WE KNOW THEY MUST. ugh. f#fuck my stupid baka life
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Memory Run (1995)
#Memory Run#1995#AKA Synapse#Karen Duffy#beyond life#beyond death#beyond redemption#They Gave Her Immortality... Now It's Time For The Payback#LA 2015#In the year 2015 A.D. your mind and body are now the property of The Life Corporation#don't worry there's another tagline#Somewhere between twisted justice and medical science at the moment between life and death#90s#cyberpunk
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#i have discovered lately that being stuck somewhere in between is the worst feeling ever#stuck between a yes or no#stuck between a positive or negative#stuck between giving up and keeping trying#and hardest of all#stuck between life and death#wishing to die but unable to fulfill it#life is unlivable#and I'm not brave enough to end myself#so many murders out there#so many cars on the roads#so many chances of accidents and I'm still here alive and suffering#this way or the other#i just want this to end
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This song is so Izzy / edizzy to me :(
#ik its way more poetic than he usually is but I canât help but picture him alone with his thoughts in the middle of the night rowing to the#republic of pirates and somewhere between the bitterness/anger and the mission to âfixâ blackbeard that the actual grief would surface forâ#a few minutes and the fear of their life together becoming as distant as the stars coming up for him#pile on top of that the way that stars are important in seafaring and suddenly Iâm crying#but idk !! Iâm probably just underestimating his ability to be an absolute ball of fury all the way to the republic even tho Iâm pretty sure#it would take roughly a day based on the passing of time in the show lmfao#edizzy#izzy hands#our flag means death#me talking#Spotify
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looking thru my lilyflower tag and it's like. this is something like my fifth major original story universe and far from something i'd pick up to write soon but also i love these ocs and the horrible little situations i've put them in
#jam posts#what if you went on otherworldy adventures where death couldn't stick as a teenager in a place that operates on dream logic and not physics#and you got PTSD about it#and death did stick for some of your friends but there was no body so how can you be sure?#and now every time you dream for the rest of your life it feels like you could be in that space between worlds again and your dead friends#are alive still somewhere or maybe you visit the space between life and death in your sleep and#most of the people you fought that fight with are too painful to be around but they're also the only people life makes sense with#and some of them are dead and you saw the bodies this time but you'll never know if it was an accident or not. if they forgot that physics#apply now and forgot that injury and death stick.#anyways. and what if there was so much insane homoerotiv tensions in this space ive concocted#lilyflower
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Writing my tav's backstory out has made me realize I gave this man the most fucked up sense of morality ever
#morally grey somewhere between true netural and chaotic netural baddies for win!!!!#right guys?#god he is just. such a mess#i made a mess. a mess of a man#a walking contradiction#a morally grey doesnt care about strangers CLERIC can you believe that?#âoh yeah im a healerâ âcan you help me out of this life or death situation?â ânođâ#he cares about himself his party children and most importantly the Persuit of Knowledge đ§âđ«đâđ#bro became a doctor because he's too tone deaf to be a bard hashtag skill issue đ€#arent clerics supposed to be nice? sympathetic? yknow. fighting for good?#not him#Jonik wants peace in his personal life and knowledge of all things#hes a massive fucking nerd and hes not even nice to boot#well. its not like he's mean? he's just a bit rough around the edges#get to know him and he's much nicer#baldurs gate 3#bg3#bg3 tav#baldurs gate 3 tav#tav#cleric tav#character backstory
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what part of this haunted house are you?
tagged by : @rentemotion tagging : steal it from me !
the stairs. thereâs something eerie about this house, something wholly unfamiliar in the familiar. youâve always been aware of it, of everything just a little too much. youâve seen how this house sinks its teeth into whatever passes through it because you are the passage that connects one to the other. so you know how this ends â when someone believes they can tame a predator, and now you must sit back in and watch as they become the newest prey. you have a good heart, or what is left of it, but you learned the hard way to put yourself first in a place like this. so make no mistake, when the third step from the top creaks it is not without purpose. you are a bridge, at the end of the day, the intermediate between the familiar and then unknown. a staircase goes both up and down, after all.
#ohhh my god. oh my god. this.....#michael as an intermediate michael existing somewhere between life and death the one who simultaneously lives too long and dies too soon#michael who is STUCK by the teeth that already sunk into him .. he Acts As A Passage!!!#i'm so normal about this clearly HDGFHD#â ïŸ: sometimes the only way out is as a carcass â dash games
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uh oh here we go again (yet another rook concept has walked into my brain)
#i don't have a name yet (bc it takes me forever to name characters) but#antivan crow death caller bc there is nothing scarier to me than the concept of an assassin who's a necromancer#esp with the leaked abilities i've read#nothing says crows HAVE to be dual wield rogues even tho that's most common#is very much a bringing death and stealing lifeforce necromancer bc it's the only thing she knows#turning recent kills into temp undead puppets against their bodyguards (also v familiar with poisons bc it's good to have a backup)#but god she would love to learn from emmrich i think his view/brand of necromancy would really shake her entire worldview#thinks she's here to prove herself. turns out she's here to find herself and get free of the crows' abusive system#and like going from prob an orphan to a circle to being taken from the circle at like idk somewhere between 5 and 8#when first leaning to death magic (bc the crows are influential i fully believe they can pay off templars). what a life :(#tbd //
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The hell site is hell howâs everything going over here?
#trying to find somewhere to get my meme fix in between being busy at work and personal life#also somewhere I donât have to see death threats against my coworkers#gamers be normal challenge impossible
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You can ignore this itâs unimportant I just need to get it out there and Iâm complaining about AI lol
A second friend recommended I watch Late Night with the Devil, both of these friends have talked about it being their favorite movie of the year.
But like, I feel so icky even pirating something that used generative AI. đ Like I just know how bad it fucks people and the environment over.
Iâve also seen David Dastmalchian talking about how many people put a lot of love into this movie, and now it isnât getting good attention because of these 3 AI images. And thatâs such a good point too. And it does sound like something that I would love if it wasnât for the fucking AI??
Like Iâm so torn. But I just feel so icky. You know?
#Idk man I donât know if this counts as moral OCD?#I donât have OCD so I donât want to call it that but it feels really heavy#And this is a stupid movie itâs not something literally life or death I know#But this isnât the only thing Iâve had this dilemma about#Like where do we draw the line between âmedia is not going to be unproblematicâ and âthis media needs to be boycotted and actively avoidedâ#Like genuinely I donât know#And it fucks my noggin up#Anyway#This isnât important I just want to talk it out somewhere lol
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So fun fact: I have two distinctly different interpretations the DSMP that I like to think about simultaneously yet independently of each other. Theyâre both based on two of my old fics, so the world building are designed to cater to the prioritized plot points in them.
The first world is what I called Halcyon. This is my first fic in the fandom. Itâs a semi-low fantasy soft magic interpretations that built off of the more commonplace settings that were really popular in early SBI-centric fics. Itâs got that easy suspension of disbelief JRPG feel to it.
The second world is Heroâs Journey, or HJSMP for short. This is my little passion project based on a pre-canon canon compliant AU. Itâs entirely off the rails in terms of character concepts and world building. It feels like a soft magic system but itâs fully fleshed out. The magic system follows its own logic and rules with little regard to our realityâs expectations.
Iâll probably post something in the future with a full comparison of the two.
#personal#this whole thing started as a comparison#between my two contradictory c!Phil headcanons relating to his immortality#the first is Immortal Faux-Avian Philza#which is the version I draw most#where he isnât originally an avian#but he has an enchanted cloth given to him by The Void that turns into wings#he lost two of his canon lives long before joining the SMP#the second version is Reincarnator Philza#Phil actually only has one life#but when he dies instead of respawning and resuming his life#he reincarnates in some years past somewhere else as something else#usually bird related#but the specifics differ#most of the time heâs just some guy#the true death is where he visits Lady Death and stays with her for a bit#this Phil has existed as long as magic itself#dsmp#hjsmp au
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nonbinary in the sense that i'm neither alive nor dead but a third worse thing
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To be aware you might be trans but unwilling to do anything about it is to create endlessly bigger boxes within which to contain yourself. When you are a child, that box might encompass only yourself and your parents. By the time you are a gainfully employed adult, that box will contain multitudes, and the thought of disrupting it will grow ever more unthinkable. So you cease to think of yourself as a person on some level; you think not of what you want but what everybody expects from you. You do your best not to make waves, and you apologize, if only implicitly, for existing. You stop being real and start being a construct, and eventually, you decide the construct is just who you are, and you swaddle yourself up in it, and maybe you die there. There is still time until there isnât.
This reading of TV Glowâs deliberately anticlimactic, noncathartic ending cuts against the transition narrative you typically see in movies and TV, in which a trans person self-accepts, transitions, and lives a happier life. Owen gets trapped in a space where he knows what he must do to live an authentic life but simply refuses to take those steps because, well, burying yourself alive is a terrifying thing to do. The transition narrative posits a trans existence as, effectively, a binary switch between âmanâ and âwomanâ that gets flipped one way or another, but to make our lives so binary is to miss how trans existences possess an inherent liminality.
Humansâ lives unfold in a constant state of becoming until death, but trans people are uniquely keyed in to what this means thanks to the simple fact of our identities. You can get lost in that liminality, too, forever trapped in a midnight realm of your own making, stuck between what you believe is true (I am a nice man with a good family and a good job, and I love my life) and what you know, deep in your most terrified heart of hearts, is real (I am a girl suffocating in a box).
And yet if you want to read the film as being about the dangerous allure of nostalgia, youâre not wrong. I Saw the TV Glow totally supports that interpretation, too! But in tempting you with that reading, the film creates a trap for cis viewers that will be all too familiar to trans viewers. Somewhere in the middle of Maddyâs story about The Pink Opaque being real, you will make a choice between âThis kid has lost it!â and âNo. Go with her, Owen,â and in asking you to make that choice, TV Glow is simulating the act of self-accepting a trans identity.
See, the grimmer read of the filmâs ending truly is a nihilistic one. It leaves no hope, no potential for growth, no exit. Yet you must actively choose to read that ending as nihilistic. If you are cis and the end of I Saw the TV Glow left you with a gnawing sense of dissatisfaction, a weird but hard-to-pin-down feeling that something had broken, and a melancholy bordering on horror â congratulations, this movie gave you contact-high gender dysphoria.
In an infinite number of possible universes, there is at least one where I am still living âas a man,â embracing my fictionality, avoiding looking at how much more raw and real I feel when I âpretendâ to be a woman. I think about that guy sometimes. I hope heâs okay.
Consider, then, my cis reader, that TV Glow is for both you and me, but it is maybe most of all for him. I hope he sees it. I hope he breaks down crying in the bathroom afterward. I hope he, after so many years locked inside himself, hears the promise of more life through the hiss of TV static.
Emily St. James, âI Saw the TV Glowâs Ending Is Full of Hope, If You Want It to Be,â Vulture. June 4, 2024.
#i saw the tv glow#jane schoenbrun#isttvg#isttvg spoilers#i saw the tv glow spoilers#reading#emily st james
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Somewhere between life and death
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