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ttgrobinissues · 1 month ago
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"What's Opera Titans" is a very fun episode, but if you happened to read my account's name... you know why i'm bringing it up
This whole segment of Robin having a dream about the past, when he was still Batman's sidekick, is more than just a silly dream when you take more things into consideration and are an expert yapper like me, so let's check it out.
First, this is a dream, so we have to be very careful since clearly not everything here is 100% true nor something that has happened before. After all dreams are mostly things we desire or thought about a lot.
With that in mind, isn't it interesting how Robin seems so out of character in the dream?
As we saw in "Sidekick", "Thanksgiving", and small parts of other episodes, Robin is terrorized of Batman. He is willing to do many things to not possibly piss Batman off, and is shown to get very anxious when it comes to Batman punishing him or just getting upset because of his own clumsiness.
It is true that, if we believe "Christmas Crusades" is a reflection of Robin and Batman's past relationship (and not just a parody without any deeper meaning), Dick isn't scared of him all the time. In fact, he idolizes Batman a lot and never complaints about anything, even if Bruce hurts him in any sort of way.
But regardless of Robin being or not like this in the past, he would never do something he knows would get him in trouble.
But in this dream, he purposefully goes and does the thing he's told not to do that would get him in trouble.
This is why I believe he is dreaming about something that never happened, but he wishes had.
He's dreaming about a Batman that's good with him, patting his head and not punishing him for his actions. He's dreaming about a reality where he doesn't have to be constantly scared to screw things up, something Robin really wishes could exist, but can only dream about.
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Now, with the ooc thing out of the way, I would like to point out other things I noticed too that could not be as important as the latter but are still worth mentioning.
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Dick doing acrobatics is an obvious reference to how he used to do them in the circus. He looks very calm doing them here compared to the excitement and happiness he was feeling with everything else, which I say is because it reminds him of the few happy times he had in the circus before his parents passed away, or it could also be because doing acrobatics reminds him of them in a way.
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And lastly, this frame of Batman giving the look to Robin is oddly similar to the other look he gives Robin in "Manor and Mannerisms", with the difference that the dream one is more silly while the one from the real world is more threating and intimidating. This one's not as deep as the other things I talked about, but I found it to be an interesting coincidence.
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kolomo · 4 months ago
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thank you for tagging me, @ruanbaijie ♡
1. why did you choose your url? my gaming blog is @picopond, which is a pond in botw/totk, and i thought 'kolomo', a lake in the games, would match it nicely:) 'lakekolomo' was a bit of a mouthful, though.
2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. nope! the gaming blog is its own log in. i don't like the side blog feature all that much...
3. how long have you been on tumblr? 2011 or 2012, i think.
4. do you have a queue tag? nah, my blog runs on a queue so no need for a tag.
5. why did you start your blog in the first place? ummm, i just saw people on twitter using it back in 2011/2012, so that's when i made my first blog. i deleted it maybe a year or two ago and created this one for a bit of a fresh start.
6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? ei-chan very special to me
7. why did you choose your header? i was gifing snf and just thought that shot was neat. i've actually been meaning to update it... idk what to, tho.
8. what’s your post with the most notes?this one. that's cool! (oh my god and this one on the gaming blog...)
9. how many mutuals do you have? idk i don't track that stuff
10. how many followers do you have? 904, but i need to go through a cull the most recent bots.....
11. how many people do you follow?198
12. have you ever made a shitpost? yeh anything with gojo in it is a shitpost i hate that man
13. how often do you use tumblr each day? tbh depends if im bored at work or if there's a particular piece of media im really into and wanna see posts of. sometimes i can go a few days or a week without checking this hellsite.
14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? lmfao yeah. simblr was a rough place to be.
15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts i ignore them on purpose and hope they curse me.
16. do you like tag games? yeah!! i always read the answers of the ones i get tagged in and then immediately forget to do it myself lol!!!
17. do you like ask games? yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i like talking shit!! except im probs gonna turn my ask off...
18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? literally all of them and that's not even a joke lol
19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope!
20. the last song i listened to: a tear in space (airlock) - glass animals
21. currently watching: yatagarasu, spice and wolf, no longer allowed in another world, oshi no ko, suicide squad isekai, twilight out of focus, and senpai is an otokonoko. non-anime is just drag race all stars, and i've been binge watching linus tech tips. you'll figure out why.
22. sweet/savoury/spicy? all three sorry!! cant pick!!
23. relationship status: single. i was on hinge for like two months and then i deleted it lol.
24. current obsession: building a pc!!!!!!!!!! tho researching what parts to get isn't that enjoyable lmfao so it's a painful obsession.
25. nine songs/albums i've been listening to:
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the rise and fall of a midwest princess - chappell roan i love you so f***ing much - glass animals loom - imagine dragons
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hit me hard and soft - billie eilish intellectual property 2 - waterparks stampede: vol. 1 - orville peck
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(and some songs:) hind's hall - macklemore the lovecats - the cure the great pretender - freddie mercury
i tried tagging people but the post editor was being really difficult so... if you see this, you can do it if you want!!!!
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chudleycanonficfest · 3 years ago
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Family Tradition
Day 19, Story #1 is by @bavalon18
Title: Family Tradition
Author: bavalon18/Edie K. 
Pairing: Weasley family vibes
Prompt: "Siblings: The only enemy you can't live without" -Anonymous
Rating: Teen but only for language
Summary: The Weasley siblings engage in a long running debate. Set 2 years post War. 
  Thank you to adenei for the notes and help in rounding out this dialogue heavy piece! 
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“I hope you’ve all saved room for pudding,” Molly Weasley said to her large family that was gathered around the table. Sunday dinner at the Burrow was a regular occurrence but this week it was a particularly full table with even Charlie in town. And now that the dishes were scrubbing themselves in the kitchen sink, it was time to enjoy the sweet end of their meal. 
  “I’ve been waiting all week,” Percy said eagerly but as Molly lowered the two large cast iron pans she had been levitating onto the long table, the smile left his face. 
  “Mum! Where’s the chocolate?” Ron blurted. 
  “Ron, don’t be rude!” chastised Hermione. 
  “I'm not! Last Sunday, Mum said she felt like she had baked everything recently and was out of ideas. I said we hadn’t had chocolate in a long time and Percy mentioned her Double Devil Food and Mum agreed and that's what we were to get,” Ron said. 
  “Oh, I know dear,” Molly said, now beginning to serve. “But when I was babysitting for Victorie on Wednesday, Bill mentioned he was craving berry cobbler so I thought it’d be nice, what with berries in season.”
  “Oh,” said George knowingly, “Bill wanted it.”
  “Make your own bloody cobbler,” Ron snapped at his oldest brother. 
  “Make your own chocolate cake,” Bill fired back. 
  “Boys,” sighed Arthur, setting down his fork. 
  “It was at least two to one for chocolate cake,” pointed out Percy. 
  “Except Bill’s the favorite so his vote counts for three,” said George. 
  “I was home for two whole hours before this bloody ‘who’s the favorite’ fight broke out,” said Charlie, taking a plate of cobbler from his mother. “Might be a record.”
  “I don’t have favorites!” Molly said, clearly offended. 
  “Yes you do! It’s Bill and then Ginny,” said Percy. 
  “Must we do this every time?” asked Fleur, rolling her eyes. 
  “Me?” said Ginny. “Get out of here.”
  “Yeah,” agreed George. “Everyone knows Ginny’s Dad’s favorite.”
  “Ginny’s Mum’s second favorite because she’s the girl,” Ron said.
  “That’s quite sexist, Mum,” quipped George, digging into the cobbler on his plate. 
  “Yes, that sounds right,” Percy nodded. 
  “There is no way I’m the favorite over Ron,” Bill argued. 
  “Ron is the one that got away with everything,” George agreed. 
  Ron’s mouth dropped open as he stared at George from across the table. “You have to be joking.”
  “George is right. You stole Dad’s car TWICE and the second time you crashed it and lost it. And what happened to you?” Percy asked, using his fingers to tick off each of his points. 
  “The first time was justified - I was rescuing Harry from his shit relatives and I wasn’t alone,” Ron explained, glaring at George. 
  “Language,” scolded Molly. “There are children.”
  “Rescuing the Chosen One. Can’t expect us to face consequences for that,” George added. 
  “And the second time, Mum humiliated me with a howler in the Great Hall!” 
  “Wait. Are you saying when you stole that flying car, took it to Hogwarts and lost it, all you got was fucking Howler?!” Charlie shouted. Fleur made a face at the pieces of dessert Charlie had flung across the table in his outrage. 
  “Language!” snapped Molly for the second time. 
  “He left school and went to the Ministry to fight Death Eaters and she didn’t say anything during his fifth year!” Bill added. 
  “Yet when Fred and I left school, we got our arses chewed,” agreed George. 
  “I feel like those two events were different,” Hermione said, quirking her eyebrow and George shrugged with a grin. 
  “Ron was gravely injured,” Molly said. “It was hardly the time for punishment. 
  “Ginny was there as well,” said Arthur. “But we were hardly in the mood to dole out consequences.”  
  “How is Ginny the only girl and the youngest and Ron still gets away with more than her?” Charlie pondered. 
  “No way,” said Ron. 
  “After the war, Mum and Dad let Hermione share his bed the whole summer,” Bill raises his eyebrows in a suggestive manner at Ron, causing Hermione to flush. 
  “Well, it’s not like she hadn’t already shared the tent with him and Harry for a year,” Fleur reminded her husband. 
  “Except Harry wasn’t in Ron’s room with them!” said Ginny. “Harry was sleeping in Percy’s old room!”
  “Oh, was he sleeping in Percy’s room all summer?,” asked Ron, his tone mocking. Ginny, checked that her mother was distracted with serving before raising a middle finger in his direction. 
  Bill turned to his mother, hands gesticulating wildly. “You wouldn’t let my fiancée and I share a room the week before our wedding because you wanted me to ‘set a good example.’ What was the point if you changed your mind nine months later?” 
  “Bill, you’ll find that you learn new lessons with each child.”
  “This is bullshit.”
  “Language!” Molly chided again. 
  “Ron gets away with the most because he’s the one that found Mum’s actual favorite,” pointed out George. 
  “That’s exactly why! She doesn’t want to upset Harry.”
  “Please don’t drag me into this again,” Harry pleaded, who until that point had been quietly observing the sibling bickering. 
  “I certainly like Harry better than the rest of you right now! He’s not testing my patience!” said Molly, hands on her hips. 
  “You’re all in your twenties and thirties,” said Arthur, exasperated. “You should know by now we don’t have favorites. I can’t wait for your own kids to get you back with this ridiculous squabbling.”
  “I’m sorry Ron, I didn’t realize the change in pudding would bother you so much. I’ll make you a cake and drop it at your place tomorrow. Now, let me get the ice cream,” Molly said, walking back to the kitchen. 
  “What the hell? Where’s mine? I was the one that asked for cake?” asked Percy, mouth open in disbelief. 
  “Percy, welcome to the bottom,” said George.
  “We should get t-shirts,” Charlie suggested, raising his glass in salute. 
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ttylfedora · 4 years ago
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The Rookiest Rookie that ever Rookied- Part Two
Oh god I feel so bad for Cole!!
Characters belong to the completely wonderful @lumosinlove
Cw, food
Enjoy!! 💚
“Right, mon fils, you remember the plan?” Pascal had sat Louis and Marc down at the dining room table and had his serious dad face on. The boys knew this face meant business and sat up straighter, as though they were in a proper business meeting.
“Oui, papa.” Louis answered. Marc nodded in agreement, both of them determined not to let their father down. After all, this was the difference between whether or not they could go out for ice cream at the weekend. All of the shots were riding on this!
“Repeat it back to me.” Dumo instructed.
“Which part?” Marc questioned, still getting his little brain around all of the instructions his father had given him.
“All of it, this is serious business. The two of you are embarking on a journey that can only be ruled as the greatest journey known to man. You two have a legacy to fill, mon fils, a legacy!” Dumo exclaimed dramatically, his arms out as though he was introducing a show on the West End.
“Ce n'est pas si dramatique, papa.” Louis rolled his eyes, and his father gasped.
“Say that again and you are grounded.” Pascal locked his eyes on Louis’. The famous Dumais pranks were a serious business and should be treated as such.
“There is a lot riding on this,” Dumo reasoned, “do you want ice cream or not?”
“I guess.” Louis huffed. “Alright, so we only answer to each other’s names.”
“Make sure all the clocks show a different time.” Marc continued “Can you help us get the higher clocks?” he asked his dad. Dumo nodded.
“Make sure the robot spider is under the couch.” Louis chimed in.
“Ask him where babies come from.” Marc giggled. “Where do they come from papa?” he asked curiously.
“Non, non, ask Cole. He’ll tell you.” Dumo wiggled his finger in front of his younger son's face.
“Okay, okay.”
“Parfait, right, he’ll be back in,” he checked his watch,”half an hour from hanging out with Leo. Let’s get this started, shall we mes fils?” Dumo rubbed his hands together and giggled, leading his children into the kitchen to get started on the clocks.
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“Right, we shouldn’t be gone for long but if anything goes wrong, just call us straight away. We’ll be back by dinner time.” Celeste fussed. Her husband was already out in the car with Adele and Katie, ready to take them both to basketball practice.
“I will, promise.” Cole smiled. It was the first time they trusted him to look after any of their kids so he can understand why they were airing on the side of caution. “We’ll have lots of fun.” He smiled over to the two boys who were currently sat watching something on the television. Celeste thanked him again and left, shutting the door softly behind her.
Babysitting was a piece of cake. He could do this.
“Right boys, what’s the plan for today.” He clapped his hands and rubbed them together, sitting down on the couch that was adjacent to the two brothers. Marc’s eyes lit up.
“Can we make a cake?” he asked, practically jumping up from his spot on the couch.
“We certainly can, what flavour?”
Marc thought for a moment. “Chocolate.” he smiled.
“Sounds good to me, buddy, lead the way.” He reached over and grabbed the remote off of the coffee table in the centre of the room and switched the television off, following them into the kitchen.
“Right, let me see what we have here,” Cole started, going through all of the cupboards to round up the ingredients for the cake.
“Louis, can you grab me the eggs please.” He said over his shoulder as he went to retrieve the milk and butter from the fridge.
“No, no, no, Marc wait-“ Cole was cut off by the eggs Marc was attempting to hold in one hand dropping to the floor and smashing everywhere. He froze with his arms out mid step, and just sighed, laughing slightly. “Oh dear.” Marc looked up at him.
“Sorry Cole.”
“It’s okay buddy, how about you go and change your trousers and socks so that you’re not walking around all day with egg on them and we’ll throw them in the wash. It’s no big deal.” he smiled, grabbing a wet paper towel to start to clean the egg yolk off of the floor. Marc nodded and ran to his room. As he cleaned up, Louis gathered all of the ingredients onto the side, and grabbed more eggs from the basket.
By the time the floor was clean, Marc had come back down in a fresh pair of jeans and socks and popped his dirty ones into the washing machine for his mother to deal with later.
“Perfect, right, Marc, you’re in charge of weighing things, okay?” He looked at Marc but Louis nodded, sitting up on the bar stool in front of the weighing scales.
“Okay.” Louis smiled. Cole widened his eyes slightly but shook it off. Maybe he misspoke?
“Marc, you’re going to help me mix everything up, okay?”
“But I thought I was weighing the ingredients?” Louis asked, confused.
“Yeah, I was talking to your brother?” Cole said, though it came out more of a question. He placed his hand on his hip and scratched his head.
The boys just shrug and carry on anyway, allowing Cole to guide them through the recipe, one his mother swears by back at home. He was hoping it lived up to Celeste’s baking but he doubted his skills were that good. It was the least he could offer her for all the amazing meals she had cooked for him so far. She insisted that it was nothing but when one is so far away from home, having another mother cook a full homemade meal brought immense amounts of comfort to him.
They carried on working around each other, occasionally turning up the radio when a good song comes on, laughing and throwing flour and sugar over each other. Cole was an only child, but if he wasn’t, this is how he would want to spend his weekends with them. He supposed he wasn’t any more; his chosen family adding to the numbers ten-fold and he was beyond grateful for it.
Once all of the ingredients had been mixed, he asked Louis, well who he was sure was Louis, to help him pour the cake mix into the cake moulds. He started doubting himself as Marc, well who he was sure was Marc, came to help him. Once he had placed the moulds into the oven, which he noted had the wrong time displayed, he sent the kids through to the sitting room as he set the timer on his phone. His thumb hovered over the message app icon, wondering whether or not admitting defeat was wise. He quickly changed his mind as he thought up a better idea, opened the app and clocked on Leo’s name instead.
‘Hey man, I have a really embarrassing question but you CANNOT tell Dumo, okay?’
‘Oh god, this is gonna be good.’
‘Leo, PROMISE ME.’
‘Jeez man, okay, i promise!!’
‘Which of Dumo’s boys are older? Louis or Marc? Because i think ive been calling them by the wrong names.’
‘OH MY GOD HAHAHAHAHAHA COLE!!!!!!!!! PLEASE TELL ME YOURE JOKING’
‘Leo…’
‘Oh my god you arent joking.’
‘Please?’
‘Marc is the older one. Oh my god that is actually hilarious. Logan’s wetting himself.’
‘I’m never hearing the end of this.’
Cole put his phone away in his pocket, feeling incredibly embarrassed. Had he been calling these kids by the wrong name for the past month? It would seem so. He filled himself a glass of water and walked into the sitting room, sitting down on the couch next to Marc, no, Louis, the younger one.
“How long until the cake’s ready?” the older one asked.
“About twenty minutes now buddy. What are we watching?” he asked, gesturing to the television.
“Minecraft videos,” the youngest answered, smiling. Cole shook his head, clearly realising he had lost his touch with kids. Wasn’t Minecraft big, what, four years ago now? He pulled his phone out of his pocket and started aimlessly scrolling through Instagram, liking and commenting on a few of the posts until the youngest sibling piped up again.
“Cole?” he asked, an inquisitive look on his face.
“Mhm?” Cole replied, taking a sip of his water.
“Where do babies come from?”
Cole promptly spat his water back out looking at the youngest with wide eyes, stuttering slightly in shock. How was he meant to answer that?!
“I- well- have you not asked your dad this?” he stuttered, this was not what he expected to be answering today, to a nine year old nonetheless.
“Non, I just thought of it” the younger one shook his head.
“Oh, well, I mean, when two adults want to have a baby, they do a special hug, I guess?” Cole replied cautiously.
“So maman, and papa did a special hug for me, Louis, Katie and Adele?”
Cole just stared at him, mouth trying and failing to come up with a response to that. The last thing he even wanted to think about was Dumo’s sex life, no matter how many times the Lions’ sex lives were brought up in the locker room.
Thankfully, the timer for the cake went off, giving him the perfect excuse to exit the conversation. He set the cake on the side to cool, making a start on the icing. The boys decided to stay in the sitting room, engrossed in the video they were watching. He glanced up at the clock on the wall. Surely it wasn’t still early afternoon? He checked the time on the oven and it matched, as did the one on the radio, and the fridge, and everything else in the kitchen apart from his phone.
“Boys, what time is it?” he shouted through to them.
“The tv says it’s 3pm!” Marc, Louis, the older one shouted back. He ran his hands over his face and checked his phone, noting that the time read ‘17:30’. He just rested his head in his hands with his elbows against the counter; he evidently did not get enough sleep last night. He quickly decorated the cake to return his thought process to something concrete and set it aside, joining the boys in front of the television quickly after.
He couldn’t have been sat down for more than five minutes when the biggest fuck off spider he had ever seen crawled out from under the couch, right next to his foot. Like any normal, self-respecting 19 year old man, he screamed and jumped up onto the couch.
Both boys were in hysterics.
“Cole, we got you so good!” The younger of the two was currently beside himself on the other couch, tears streaming from his eyes as he held up a little remote; evidently the remote for the spider.
“You two are taking after your father it seems.” Cole laughed nervously. He was well aware of the notorious Pascal Dumais prank streak and it seemed. They pressed play on the tv until Celeste, Dumo, Adele and Katie came home. He was grateful only in the sense that he was completely and utterly exhausted from today.
“Aaahhhh, you boys made a cake!” Celeste mused, walking into the kitchen to have a look at it, “it will be perfect for after dinner.”
“Did you have a good day, mes garçons?” he asked. Both boys nodded, understanding that their father was asking if they did everything he asked of them.
“It seems your boys take after you, Dumo. Got me pretty good with a spider under the couch there.” Cole laughed from his position on the couch.
Dumo let out one of the biggest dad laughs known to man. “Incroyable! I’m proud of you both!” Both of his sons looked at him and began laughing with him, but followed their mother and sisters into the kitchen.
“I hope they weren’t too much trouble?” Dumo asked, hanging his coat up and turning to Cole.
“No, not at all. It was a fun day, a long day but a fun one. Really set me through my paces there. For a hot second i thought it was one of your tasks.” he laughed as he stood up.
Dumo froze.
“My children are a task to you?” he looked Cole straight in the eyes and cocked an eyebrow. Cole stared at him wide eyed and started stuttering, attempting to form and answer. Pascal laughed and clapped him on the shoulder. “I’m only joking, kid. You should have seen your face!”
“Haha, yeah, I’m just going to run to the toilet real quick and I’ll join you for dinner. Won’t be long!” He left, looking quite flustered as PAscal made his way into the kitchen. His wife was leant against the counter with her arms crossed and a slightly amused expression on her face.
“You are a cruel man, mon roi. A cruel cruel man.” she shook her head and turned back around as she continued to prepare dinner.
He stalked over and placed a kiss on her head.
“It’s called character building, ma reine.” he smiled. “And I am nowhere near done just yet.”
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aerynwrites · 5 years ago
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Husband - Javier Peña x Reader
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Author’s Note: Ugh I LOVE Perdo Pascal, and his role in Narcos has me WEAK. so here is a little one-shot? fic? idk what you would call this lol. But here you go, I hope you all enjoy this little request I got! Love to hear from you all as always! (Sorry for any grammatical errors, I’m writing and posting this in between classes so I didn’t quite have time to like triple check lol)
Request? Yes! based off this request: How about a one-shot where Agent Pena or Agent Whiskey (your choice) takes injured reader/partner (who is secretly in love with him) to hospital.  He lies and tells them he is her husband so that he can stay with her.  When she wakes up, the nurse says something like, "Your husband went to get coffee, but he held your hand all night and kept telling you how much he loves you."  (Requested by anon)
Word count: 3.2k
Warnings: blood, violence, fluff.
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While you had been an agent for the Drug Enforcement Agency for almost 10 years now, you were completely caught off guard for what awaited you at your assignment in Columbia. Not only was there bribery, treason, and just down right morally questionable circumstances, there was also Javier Peña. When you were assigned to move to Columbia to help the DEA take down Escobar, you had met Steve Murphy the minute you stepped foot into the country. He was kind enough to escort you back to the Embassy and give you the official tour, as he called it. Everything had been going well, but then Javier Peña showed up and, as his presence usually entails, he dampened the mood.
“Another rook?” he said, hands on his hips as he looked you up and down, eyes filled with disapproval.
Murphy let out a sigh and pinched the bridge of his nose in frustration, “Javier, meet (Y/N) (L/N), Senior DEA agent.” He said pointedly.
You squinted your eyes at the man in front of you, completely turned off by his hostile and frankly rude demeanor, and you opened your mouth to speak, but Javier cut you off.
“Well she’s not a senior agent down here Murphy,” he looked from Steve to you, “And I don’t need another person to babysit and translate for. One is enough,” he all but hissed.
You took a threatening step forward ignoring Murphy’s hand on your upper arm, “I’ll have you know Agent Pen͂a,” you emphasized these words, your Spanish accent shining through as you said his name, “I grew up in New Mexico, and my parents are from south America, so I think I can handle myself just fine. With or without your help.”
Your words were dripping in venom, and Javier had to keep the surprised look on his face at the revelation of your background as well as the fluttering of his heart as your accent slipped through. Not that he fond that attractive or anything…just surprised. Yeah, just surprised.
Javier hadn’t moved in in, hands still on his hips as he let out a sigh, “Whatever. I’m just going to go ahead and assume you’re all in on this operation,” he relents, “We have a lead on the whereabouts of some Narcos connected to Escobar, we have a possible safe house location.”
You didn’t waste a second before you were grabbing your holster and leather jacket and brushing past the two men towards the door, “Well what are we waiting for, let’s go!” you called.
Your eagerness to dive into your work had Javier and Steve casting a glance at one another before shrugging and following you out the door.
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That was forever ago. At least it felt like it was as you fell from the second floor of one of Escobar’s known homes and plummeted to the ground. It had been several months, almost a year since you had joined the hunt for Escobar in Columbia, and you all had made considerable progress. Despite several setbacks with M-19, the police, and even Escobar himself, you all were closing in. And along with your continued search for Escobar came the inevitable close relationships with your partners. You had grown to see Steve as somewhat of a brother to you, weekly dinners with him and Connie becoming a regular occurrence. They helped ease the pain and homesickness you felt being away from your friends and family for so long. It also provided an environment in which you all could just relax and forget about the days work, opting instead for wine, local food, and beer, a familiarity you had missed since moving. However, your relationship with Javier was nothing but confusing. He had slowly but surely accepted you as his partner, acknowledging your capability in the field and fearlessness when it came to doing more questionable parts of the job. However, that was as far as it seemed to go, which was difficult for you because you had grown to feel more for the man than just a platonic relationship. As horrible as it seemed to you, the feeling of love and adoration slowly crept its way into your heart the more you were around the hardened DEA agent. You had been hard pressed to reject his more intimate advances one evening when you all were at your apartment eating pizza and just relaxing after a hard day’s work. He had flashed you one of those toothy charming grins, and less than subtly suggested what he wanted. However, you, not wanting to get trapped in a meaningless friend with benefits relationship, turned him down. No matter how much it pained you, and he never asked again. However, he seemed to distance himself more after that, and it frustrated and saddened you. Was that all he saw you as? A conquest to take, and once he found out you weren’t giving it up you were worthless to him?
For some reason that night, the night with the pizza and hasty rejection, was the only thing playing through your head as you fell through the air and hit the ground with a painful thud. The Wind was knocked from your lungs and you knew instantly you had broken several ribs as you could not draw in a full breath. You and Javier had climbed the stairs to the second story of the house and when checking the last room a left behind Narco had burst from the closet with in, and before you could react he had fired a shot directly into your shoulder before roughly shoving you through the open balcony doors. You vaguely registered a panicked shout of your name followed by another gunshot before you tumbled over the railing and to the ground below.
Which is where you were now.
Blood pooling around your neck and shoulders as you lie gasping for breath on the warm dusty ground of the backwater property of Escobar’s mansion. Your head was throbbing painfully along with your chest and leg. You couldn’t even think properly to try and figure out what had been injured in the fall. You just kept struggling to breath as tears slipped from your eyes, both from the pain and the now ever-present fear of death. You hear two sets of rapid footsteps approaching you and opened your eyes to see the faces of Javier and Steve hovering over you, expressions of panic and fear creasing their features.
“Jesus Christ,” Steve muttered as he knelt down, “What happened?” he demanded from Javier.
“Steve just shut the fuck up and get help over here now!” he exclaimed.
Steve just nodded and ran off to make a call as well as request help from the police there with you all. Javier knelt next to you and pulled your hand in his own, brushing your hair back in a comforting manner, causing you to close your eyes at the small distraction from the pain.
“Hey, look at me,” Javier gripped your hand tighter, and you opened your eyes to look at him, “Don’t go to sleep,” at this point he had started to remove his button up shirt, leaving him in only a white undershirt, and pressed it firmly to the still bleeding wound in your shoulder.
You let out a cry of pain as more tear’s escapade your eyes, the pain was excruciating and your eyes were getting almost too heavy to keep open, but you did.
You looked over to Javier who was now trying to asses your other injuries, “I’m sorry,” you mumble, “I should’ve been paying attention.”
At your words Javier snaps his gaze back towards you his heart clenching as the words left your mouth. You just got thrown out of a window and were currently bleeding out, and you were the one apologizing? He just shook his head and returned his hand to the side of your face, brushing the tears away with his thumb.
“You don’t have anything to be sorry for. You just stay awake – stay alive,” he insisted.
If you weren’t half unconscious, you would have sworn you heard desperation and a slight fear in his voice as he said those words. But before you could dwell anymore on the fact, Steve ran back over to the two of you.
“Come on Peña, we have to move. Medical help is no where to be found, so our best bet is just driving her there ourselves.”
“Fuck,” the man above you muttered before looking down at you apologetically, “I’m sorry (Y/n), but we have to move you.”
Those were the last words you heard before you felt him slide two arms underneath you and life you from the ground. You didn’t even let out a cry of pain before darkness consumed your vision.
* * *
“Hey! We need help! We need help right now!” Javier called out to the staff as him and Steve burst through the doors of the hospital, your unconscious form still held firmly in his grasp.
The next few moments were a whirlwind of commotion as the nurses and doctors jumped into action, quickly moving you onto a gurney and rolling you into the back after listening to what happened from Javier. He watched, for once feeling completely helpless, as he watched you be wheeled past the doors and into emergency surgery. Both him and Steve sat in the waiting room anxiously waiting to hear something about your condition. Javier could hardly keep himself in his seat as he switched from sitting to pacing, then sitting again, then standing and asking the nurse if there was any word, then sitting again. It was making Steve even more anxious.
“Will you sit the hell down?” Steve finally blurts, “Please? God, you’re making me more anxious pacing around like that,” he finished, leaning his elbows on his knees and letting out a sigh.
Javier turned on Steve ready to make a snarky remark but stopped himself short when he saw how awful Steve looked. He was being selfish. He wasn’t the only one who cared about you, he knew very well the sibling-like bond you and Steve shared and felt himself deflate slightly as he plopped in the chair next to his partner, running a hand over his face.
“I’m sorry, I just- “he stopped himself, taking a deep breath, “I’m just worried about her.”
“And you think I’m not?” Steve shot back, “She’s not just your partner you know.”
Javier let his hand fall from his face and onto the armrest of the chair, “I know that, it’s just that I- “he stopped himself, pursing his lips to keep the words from coming out. He wasn’t sure he was ready to reveal those feeling yet.
“You what?” Steve pressed.
Javier opened his mouth to respond but the entrance of the doctor stopped him short.
“(Y/N) (L/N)?” the doctor called out your name, which prompted both Steve and Javier to jump from their seats.
“Is she okay?” Steve asked frantically.
The doctor gave them both a kind smile and tucked a clipboard under his arm, “She is going to be just fine,” both men let out sighs of relief and wait for the doctor to continue, “She had three broken ribs, but they didn’t puncture her lungs so it will just be uncomfortable to move and breath for a few weeks. However, the gunshot wound to her shoulder and her broken tibia will keep her out of commission for at least a few months. That means no field work agents, I mean it.” The doctor look pointedly at both men.
“Can we go see her?” both of them asked simultaneously.
The doctor adjusted his glasses and looked down at his watch a frown tugging at his lips, “Well unless either of you are immediate family, I can’t allow that. Visiting hours ended four hours ago.”
Before Steve could say anything, Javier took a step forward, “I’m her husband! Just married last week,” he smiled, hoping his usual charm will help him out in this situation.
“You’re her what?” Steve’s shocked words caused the doctor to give the men a suspicious look.
Javier just reaches an arm around Steve and pats his back more roughly than needed, a fake smile plastered on his face, “I know, I can hardly believe it myself,” Javier’s voice drips with faux happiness, as he squeezes his partners shoulder begging him to play along.
Before Steve or the Doctor can say anything else, Javier is walking towards the door and holding it open, “If you don’t mind, I’d like to see my wife now.”
The doctor gives one more cautious glance to both men before leading Javier back to your room. His eyes immediately fall to your sleeping form and he feels a lump form in his throat and his heart clench at the sight of you. He doesn’t even hear what the doctor says as he takes in your form. White bandages wrapped around your shoulder peak out from under the baby blue hospital gown as well as the sling that rests over your arm. He also notices your right leg is casted from just below your knee all the way down to your foot and is elevated on some pillows. By the time he has pulled a chair up to the side of you bed and holds your hand in his, the doctor is gone.
* * *
The dryness of your mouth is the first thing you notice when you wake up. followed quickly by the beeping of a machine and the shuffling of papers. You open your eyes more and take note of the dimly lit hospital room and your newly bandaged wounds and casted leg.
“Good Morning, sweetheart,” a feminine voice meets your ears.
Your eyes move to find the source of the sound and are met with a short petite nurse in green scrubs standing at the end of your bed flipping through papers on a clipboard. You open your mouth to respond but it’s so dry you can hardly get any words out. The nurse, who had looked at you briefly, seemed to notice your predicament and quickly poured some water in a little paper cup before handing it to you. You swallow the entire cup in two gulps, and sigh in relief as you lay back into the pillow, the movement flaring pain up the side of your neck.
“You are one lucky woman,” the nurse says as she takes the cup from your hands.
you close your eyes and try to adjust yourself to sit up more, “Yeah, I’m just glad it wasn’t any worse. Because trust me, I’ve had worse.” You chuckle dryly.
You glance around the room and are immediately aware of the absence of your partners, and you frown slightly. Had they not stayed? You felt your heart clench at the thought of your own friend not staying to make sure you were okay.
“Was there anyone that came in with me?” you ask, “Two men, a tall blonde and then a shorter brunette?”
The nurse’s eyes seem to light up at the mention of your partners and a large smile comes across her face…what was her deal?
“Oh yes! Your partner Steve said he was going back to fill out some reports and then your husband just left to get some coffee.”
Your eyes widen, and if you had still been drinking water you would have surely choked, “My husband?”
Her smile widens as she looks at you, pulling the clipboard to her chest, “Oh yes, he was a nervous wreck waiting to hear word from the doctor on your condition. And since he was let in the room, he hasn’t left your side,” she notes, and she leans in slightly to whisper her next words, “He really love you, you know. When I would come in to check your vitals and such he would constantly be whispering of how much he loved you and how he couldn’t lose you…” she lets out a forlorn sighs, “It’s endearing really, I wish my husband was like that.”
You couldn’t do anything but stare at the nurse as you soaked in the news, she just told you. but before your mind could catch up and respond, Javier walked back into the room, coffee in hand and the nurse excused herself, sending you a wink on the way out. Javier met your eyes and his own widened at seeing you awake. But he tried to keep his composure as he walked over to the side of the bed and sat in the chair still resting there.
“How are you feeling?” he asks, genuine concern in his voice.
You rest back into the pillows, not sure what to say. Because physically you felt okay, most likely thanks to the pain medication, but emotionally you were confused. Confused at what the nurse told, confused if she was telling the truth. So, you just shrug, choosing not to answer.
Javier doesn’t seem to like that answer because his hand falls to yours and he runs his thumb over your knuckles, “Are you in pain? Do I need to get the nurse back- “
“No. No Javier I’m fine, I just- “you paused not sure how to continue.
Javier sets his coffee down and leans back in his seat now, hand withdrawing from your own, “It’s just…. what?” he asks, a curious expression settling on his face.
You pick at the hospital blanket absentmindedly, not prepared to talk about this subject but knowing that it needs to be discussed.
“The nurse told me some things,” you begin, “Some things you said while I was out. Some rather…intimate things.” You finish finally, looking to the man sitting next to you.
He seems to freeze in his place, mouth dropping open as if saying ‘oh’, before it snaps shut and he seems to be at a loss for words. Which, for him, was very unusual.
“Did you mean them?” you ask quietly, not sure if you want to know his answer.
He’s quite for a moment, and you’re sure he’s about to reject you. tell you they meant nothing and that he was just afraid of his partner dying. So, your mouth starts to move before you can stop it.
“Never mind, that was a dumb question. I know you were probably just worried about me dying. I was so stupid to think that you could like me back. I know that’s not your style and- “
“(Y/N)- “
“in this line of work its never a good idea to- “
“(Y/N)- “
“get into relationships and I’m sorry if I-“
“(Y/N)!” Javier’s raised voice stops your rambling, “Stop. Just listen to me.”
You snap your mouth shut, lips pressing into a thin line as you wait for him to tell you off. But you unclench your jaw when you feel his warm hand gran onto your slightly cool one. You look up at him again and are shook by the soft and almost loving look he gives you as a small smile tugs at his lips.
“I was terrified when I saw you go over that balcony,” he admitted, “And I was even more scared when you passed out in my arms. I was so scared you were going to die in this hospital and I would never get to tell you how I felt,” as he stops speaking he brings your hand to his lips and kissed the back of it softly before placing his other free hand over yours encasing it in both of his still very warm hands.
You felt tears burn at the back of your eyes at the meaning of his words, you were so sure you had pushed him away and that he could never feel the same way as you. so, to here this, it was a lot.
You squeezed his hand gently as you looked at him, “You remember that night you brought over Pizza and beer?” he nodded, “And you tried to get into my pants?” you let out a little chuckle as he groaned and rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly but nods again.
“I thought I pushed you away,” you admitted, “I thought that you had only gotten close to me so you could add me to your list or whatever.”
“No (Y/N), that’s not what happened, I thought I had pushed things too far,” he explains, “I thought you wouldn’t want to be around me again because of that. I though its ruined things.”
You shook your head and squeezed his hand again, “Well, that’s good to know,” you smile, “Because when you quite hanging around me after that was when I realized…” you paused.
“Realized what?” Javier asked, heart pummeling against his chest at the words he expected to come from your mouth.
“That I love you, more than just a friend or partner,” you finally admit, eyes dropping from his own to look at your still intertwined hands.
Javier didn’t say anything at first, and when he pulled his hands from yours, your heart fell to your stomach. Did he not feel the same? But before you could voice your concern his hands came to the sides of your face as he leaned down to place a heated and desperate kiss to your lips. You kissed back instantly and, out of instinct, went to reach your hand up to card through his hair, but a sharp pain in your injured shoulder caused you to let out a gasp of pain.
“shit,” Javier pulled away instantly and looked over you worriedly, “Did I hurt you?”
You let out a pained chuckle as you rested back against your pillows, “No, I just got a little too excited, and I don’t think my shoulder appreciated it.”
Javier gave you a mischievous smile before leaning closer to you, “I can kiss it better.”
Before you could respond he placed a tender kiss to the bandages over your injured shoulder, then a soft kiss just below your ear, then finally a much gentler meaningful kiss to your lips. You responded and you both stayed like that for a moment before he pulled away and sat back in his chair, your hand held in his securely.
“Did it work?”
You smile and nod, “Yes, I think it did, husband.”
He let out a loud laugh at your little joke and scooted his chair closer to your bed, resting his hand near your head and stroked your hair affectionately.
“I think I could get used to that,” he whispers.
You smile and kiss him one more time before nodding, “Me too.”
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Can’t Go Back Part 19
A/N: Sorry this one is a few days late. I was having issues with it. I couldnt get it to flow and it had to be reworked a few times. No smut in this one. It also wasn't working for me. There will be smut in the next Present chapter. The next chapter will be posted on Friday as usual. As always, feedback is appreciated and much love. -Em
Monty and I were still dancing around each other a little, but things were getting easier. Our life had fallen back into a comfortable routine. The date night we indulged in last week seemed like it hit the reset button on our relationship again. Our alarm went off on Tuesday morning and we both groaned in protest. It was so warm in bed. “Remind me again why we can’t just cut school and lay here all day?”
“Because we need to go learn things. Helps with the whole graduation thing we are supposed to do this year.” I could feel Monty peppering my neck with soft kisses. “It’s not going to work, Casanova.”
“Shhh. Let me try.” He shushed me.
“No. We don’t have time.” I sighed. I really don’t want to get up. How was I a morning person before?
“I think we do.” Oh yeah.  I didn’t have someone waking me up with cuddles and kisses. Nd begging to stay in bed.
“We do not.” I sighed again. Monty sighed. He let go of me and I rolled out of bed. I could feel his eyes on my ass, and I shook my hips a little. He ignored me.
After a hot shower, separately lest we run late for another joyous day at Liberty High, we enjoyed coffee and breakfast together. I smiled to myself while I ate. I was just thankful that we were getting back to normal again. I hated fighting with him. We both knew that it would happen. Especially since we are both stubborn and have an inexplicable need to be right. We were prepared for the little tiffs that would come along. We were prepared for the big fights that were sure to come. Forever is a long time, after all. There were just some things you couldn’t prepare for. Our current struggle was one of those things. But we were getting through it.
Monty startled me when he placed a full cup of coffee beside me. “Thank you.”
“I promised I would never leave your morning coffee empty, remember?”
“I remember.” I smiled fondly and took a sip. He placed his bowl-we had moved up from sticking his hand directly in the box, thank God-in the dishwasher. Scott texted me while I was packing up my backpack.
Can we talk before lunch?
Yeah, sure. About what?
Monty.
Is everything okay? I looked up from my phone at my husband. He was shoving his physics textbook into his bag. It didn’t seem like anything was wrong.
Nothing’s wrong exactly.
What do you mean? He didn’t reply. There was still no answer when Monty and I got to school. Scott wouldn’t look at me when we stopped to chat with our friends. What the hell?
Scott met me outside of my class. “Hey.”
“Hey.” We walked to an empty alcove outside, chatting about nothing in particular. He sat down on the bench and motioned for me to join him.
“I want to keep this short because I’m hungry. We need to talk about Monty.”
“What about him?”
“Now, I know I said I would stay out of your marriage unless I was invited.”
“Yes. You did?”
“And I’m glad everything is working out between you two now.”
“Yeah.” I was beginning to get nervous.
“I also swore to myself I would take zero interest in your private life.”
“That sounds like bullshit. But okay.” He didn’t say anything. He looked at me seriously. Oh. “You mean, our private life.”
“Yeah.”
“So, why do we need to talk Scott?”
“You need to have sex with your husband.” He stated.
“Oh. Okay. I’ll get right on that. Shall we text you updates before, during, and after?”
“Addison. I’m serious.”
“If you are going to lecture me on ‘needs’ Scott….”
“No, nothing like that. He’s just really fucking annoying.”
“Really?”
“Yes. Don’t worry, we don’t talk details. All I need to know about that is that its consensual. But he’s getting kind of cranky.”
“Not with me.” I shrugged.
“Yeah. Because he loves you and he just got out of your bad books.”
“You think that would stop him from being cranky with me? Are we talking about the same Montgomery de la Cruz here? Have you met your best friend?”
“Yes. I think, given the situation, that it would. He likes you. He doesn’t exactly like many other people. I’m not sure if you’ve noticed.”
“Maybe once or twice.” I shrugged.
“Will you just think about it?”
“Yeah, I’ll think about it.”
“Great. And no. I don’t need updates. Or want them.” We stood up and started walking to the cafeteria.
“Hey Scott?”
“Yeah Addy?”
“Thank you. For being so supportive during this whole mess. I don’t think many other people would be.”
“You’re my friends. It’s what I’m here for. And you feed me at least once a week. I wasn’t about to start missing out on that.” He grinned at me. I laughed and pushed him gently.
“Let me check with my wife.” Monty was saying as Scott and I sat down at lunch.
“Check with me about what?”
“I was just asking Monty if he was down to come to my place for a party later this week.” Bryce said.
Monty gave me a look. “And so, I said I would check with you.” Ah yes. The old checking with the wife line.
“When this week?”
“Friday. Are you his daytimer?”
“Friday?” I thought for a second. “You have a doctor’s appointment at four and physio at seven. It seems I am.”
“Sorry man.” Monty shrugged.
“It’s one appointment. I’m sure you’d be fine to miss them. Or you could swing by after.” I rolled my eyes.
“Do you want your friend’s knee to be permanently fucked? No? Then he can’t go.” Bryce didn’t answer. Thinking the matter had been decided and was no longer up for discussion, I settled in to eat my lunch.
“You could just come anyway. How would she know?” I heard him whisper to Monty.
“Considering we live together I think I would notice if he wasn’t home.” I whisper said back. “We share a bed.” I left the implication of what happened the last time he wasn’t home in our bed, but rather out with Bryce, be.
“Fine.” Bryce pouted.
I caught up with Monty after lunch and he walked me to class. His arm was thrown over my shoulder, possessively, more often than not now that we were getting back on the road to happy, healthy marriage land. “Check with your wife, huh?”
“Yeah. Don’t want to hurt his feelings.”
“You know I’m okay with you going, right?”
“I know. But I would rather spend my Friday night with you. I don’t actually have a doctor’s appointment I forgot about, do I?”
“No. You’re free for the night.”
“Good.”
“How has your knee been doing, by the way?”
“It’s been okay. Not like I’m doing anything to stress the ligament too much.” I smirked softly. “I mean, I can’t play ball. I’m not even supposed to be working out that much.” Right. That’s what you meant.
“That’s true. What are we doing instead of Bryce’s?”
“I was thinking pizza? Maybe make it ourselves?”
“Hey guys. Wait up!” Scott called after us. We stopped and turned around. Scoot was tailed by Anders.
“Hey.”
“Doctor’s appointments?” Scott smirked.  
“Sure.” Monty nodded.
“You really don’t want to go on Friday, do you?”
“No. I have much better plans.” He squeezed me softly.
“He really does.” I nodded.
“What are your plans?” Anders asked.
“No pants pizza night.”
“What?”
“No pants pizza.” I repeated.
“What’s that?”
“We make or order pizza. And then we sit on the couch. And eat it. Without pants on.” I explained slowly.
“No pants pizza.” Monty shrugged. Scott quickly quirked his brow at me. I made no indication of noticing. The warning bell rang so we went our separate ways.
In class, I took my seat next to Alex and Zach. Alex had come around to Monty and I after we all had dinner. Zach was still pretty stand-offish. The Zach issue had been pushed to the side. We had bigger things to worry about recently. And trying to figure out what was going on in Zach Dempsey’s head was always a tossup. The boy was far from an open book. “Hey Addy.” Alex greeted.
“Hey guys.”
“Hey.” My phone vibrated in my pocket. I pulled it out to look. It was a reminder about Monty’s physio appointment tomorrow night. He texted me right away. I didn’t forget about this one.
“How are things?” I asked.
“They go.” Zach replied. Why the hell is he so cranky. It’s been two months. Over two. Everyone else has moved on. Why can’t you?
“They’re good. I started working out with Caleb and Tony.”
“That’s great Alex.”
“Yeah. Girls aren’t really that into scrawny guys.”
“That’s not true.”
“Says the girl married to an Adonis.”
“Semantics.” I shrugged.
“You’re a catch Alex.” Zach added.
“Thanks Zach.” His smile seemed a little brighter at the compliment. Huh. That could be interesting. We chatted a little more before class started. We were watching a video in class and our teacher hadn’t come back with the TV yet.
“Hey, did you guys want to get a burger or something from Rosie’s tomorrow night? Monty has physio so it would just be us.”
“I’m always down for some junk food.” Alex laughed.
“Zach?”
“Sure. I mean,” he paused, “I could eat.”
“Great. Say five thirty?”
“Works for me. I can give you a ride Alex.” Zach offered.
After school, I waited for Monty. He had a test in physics and Mr. Brown was still a hardass about people leaving after they were done. He made everyone wait until every test was handed in. That being said, he always gave everyone five extra minutes at the end of class to finish. For daytime classes, he gave the class notes to excuse lates in their next class.
“Hey Casanova.” I called as Monty left.
“Hey Bookworm.” He leaned in to kiss me when he reached me.
“How was your test?”
“It was okay. My brain hurts.” We walked hand in hand to the Jeep. He hadn’t let me drive since he got cleared by Dr. Marcus. I miss driving it.
“Awe. I’m sorry. Can I drive?”
“No. My car. I drive.” Oh. Okay maybe Scott is right. Maybe he is a little cranky. That’s okay.
“Okay.” I smiled. I climbed in the passenger seat and buckled up.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to sound that harsh.”
“No, I know. It’s okay. I just thought I’d offer since you look drained from that test.”
“I appreciate the offer, really. I’m good though.”
“Okay.” He leaned over and kissed me again before we drove home.
Inside, I grabbed a snack and refilled my water bottle. I grabbed a couple bags of fruit snacks for Monty too. We worked on homework quietly for a couple of hours. Justin called as I was finishing up. “Homework help?” he asked in lieu of a greeting.
“Shoot.”
“The discussion questions from my English class make no sense.”
“What are the questions?”
“What’s going on?” Monty asked me quietly. I pulled the phone away from my ear and covered the mic.
“English discussion questions.”
“I have them here.” He handed me the sheet. I looked over it carefully. I had uncovered the mic while reading.
“These are kind of dumb. Is this what you do in regular English?”
“Yeah.” My boys responded together.
“Huh. At least you get to read fun books. City of Bones is good. Okay then. Uh let me see.”
“The movie was still bad.”
“Shh. I’m helping Justin.” I grinned.
“Sorry.”
“Okay. Valentine’s rebellion.” I thought for a moment and then discussed it with Justin. “If you just write down what I say, your teacher will know you had someone else do it. So, work through it on your own now.”
“Thanks Addy. You’re the best.”
“I know. Night Justin.” After we hung up, I remembered the plans I made with Alex and Zach. “I’m going to Rosie’s with Alex and Zach tomorrow while you’re at physio.”
“Sounds good.”
“Okay.” I grinned at him.
With our homework finished, we spent the rest of the evening cuddling on the couch. There was something Monty wanted to watch on tv. I had lost interest in it pretty quickly, so I got up and grabbed a book. Laying back down on the couch, I rested my head in his lap. He absentmindedly stroked my hair. Scott’s words played over in my mind. I thought about it for a little while but decided a Tuesday evening probably wasn’t the best time to potentially spend all night having sex. We have school in the morning after all. When we were getting ready for bed though, instead of putting a pair of shorts and one of my old gym shirts on, I walked over to Monty’s dresser and pulled out one of his shirts. I swam in it. I changed my underwear. He whistled to himself when he left the bathroom. I smiled to myself. The seed is planted. Monty pulled me a little closer than usual when we got in bed.
I met Zach and Alex at Rosie’s for dinner. I had run home to change first because it was warmer than I expected it to be today. I didn’t feel right going to dinner in my gym shirt, even if it was at the local diner. Since it was quiet, being the middle of the week, our waitress was at our table almost before we sat down. Melinda had been our waitress here since Zach and I were kids. She was a kind old lady. She knew everyone’s orders by heart. As such, we didn’t have to give our drink order. She did let us look at the menu “just for fun”.
“How’re things with you guys?” I asked when our drinks arrived. I took a few sips of my Cherry Coke float and stirred it to mix it up.
“Things are good. The team is looking pretty good this year. School prospects are looking good.” Zach said.
“Monty was saying that they’re shaping up pretty well. And you Alex?”
“Good. Jess and I are friends again. Tony says I’m getting stronger.”
“That’s great Alex.” I smiled.
“How are things with you Addy?”
“They’re good. I’m done with college applications for now.”
“Early admission?” Zach asked.
“Yeah. If I don’t get in anywhere, then I’ll apply for regular admission somewhere.”
Melinda was eyeing us from the counter, so we looked at the menu quickly. We decided to split a couple baskets of fries, some chicken strips, and each get a burger. I got a chicken sandwich. The boys both got cheeseburgers. After our drinks were refilled, we got back to talking. “How’s Monty doing?” Alex asked. Zach’s face pinched slightly. Seriously what the hell is his deal?
“He’s doing okay. Stubborn. But that isn’t a surprise to anyone.”
“Is he ever not stubborn?” Well, sometimes. During sex.
“I don’t think you want to know. And he would have to kill the three of us if I told you.”
“Oh? Are you trying to tell us that he’s fun?” Zach asked.
“He likes to make me smile. So sometimes he does stuff to make that happen. And that’s all you’re getting out of me.”
“And his knee?”
“You know. It’s a process. Some days are better than others. I think it bugs him more than he lets on, but I don’t want to push. Physio is helping and Dr. Marcus says he should be able to do some lower body workouts if things keep progressing well.”
“That’s good. Tell him to stop by practice sometime?”
“I’ll try. I think there’s only so many practices he can go to and just watch.”
“I get that. The invitation is open though.”
“I’ll let him know.”
Our food arrived. The three of us took a break from catching up, to savour the food. “How’s married life?” Alex asked.
“Oh, you know.” The boys looked at me, expectantly. “It’s mostly a lot of asking each other what we want for dinner. Every night. For the rest of our lives.”
“That doesn’t sound so bad.” Zach smiled.
“That isn’t. It’s agreeing on something that’s the hard part. I married a guy who would be content eating chicken nuggets and fruit snacks for dinner every night. Trying to get him to eat a vegetable is an almost insurmountable battle.”
“Is it that bad?”
“Can you blame him?” Alex asked.
“It feels like it is sometimes. And not really. But would eating some carrots really hurt him?”
“Yes.” My friends said in unison.
“Boys.” I rolled my eyes and laughed. “It’ll only get worse when we have kids and they’re at eating regular food age. Because they’ll need to be included in the decision.”
“And how can you make them eat vegetables when their dad doesn’t?” Alex laughed.
“Exactly!” I exclaimed, pointing a chicken strip at him. The three of us laughed.
“How are things with you guys… otherwise?” Zach asked, hesitantly.
“They’re,” I paused, “getting better. We’ve talked a lot in the last few weeks. I think we are back on the same page. It’s a work in progress.”
“That’s good. Things seemed pretty….” He didn’t finish his sentence.
“I know. And they were. We are working on it though.”
“It was pretty funny watching him shut Bryce down at lunch.”
“What happened?” Alex asked.
“He played the ‘let me ask my wife’ card.”
“Oof. And I’m guessing that went over Bryce’s head?”
“What do you think?”
“Of course, it did.” He grinned and shook his head.
We talked for another hour or so. Melinda brought us another basket of fries on the house. Around seven, Monty texted me. I grabbed a couple of pints of Haagen Dazs at the store.
Okay. I’ll see you at home. I love you.
I love you too. The three of us called it a night around eight. We bid each other good night and promised to text each other when we got home.
I’m on my way home. Do we need anything else before I get home?
No, I grabbed a couple of things. I’ll get your ice cream out. Drive safe Bookworm.
Okay. Thank you. I will. See you soon Casanova.
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suupernovalight · 4 years ago
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Behind The Fame
Semi x Reader
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25- Love Struck
Side note: I wanna thank everyone for reading this whole fanfic, it rlly means a lot💕 if your interested in more, I’m currently planning to post a new fanfic with Ushijima on 1/19, please be tuned for that. Without furthermore, enjoy the last chapter
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It’s been a month since the whole concert and kissing thing. You and Semi are officially dating after many days of both his band and your group nagging you. But that isn’t the reason why you decided to date him. You are dating him because you love him.
(F-ing cheesy af, I’m so sorry)
It’s been for the better too. While dating Semi, he’s gotten more caring for you. He also always tells you the truth now... unlike his college self. He’s a changed man.
Currently, you two were at a fancy resturant just hanging out and eating. Though you can’t do that peacefully because you and him have some stalkers. The funny part is, Semi doesn’t even know that people are watching him.
“So uh... how’s the food?” You awkwardly said while fiddling with your fingers. You knew damn well that Mirai and Seika were making fun of you right now.
“Y/n, why do you seem so distressed? Anything wrong?” Semi asked while putting his hand on yours.
You tensed up at the contact and looked into Semi’s eyes. They looked caring and soft. It felt like only you two were at the restaurant.
“Nothing” you said smiling. “Let’s continue our date shall we?”
Semi nodded and ate while talking to you. Mirai, Seika, Kawanishi, and Shirabu were both laughing at how their friends acted.
A Year Later
A whole year has gone by. You and Semi were moved in together in a nice house. The house wasn’t far from both of your guys studios so that wasn’t a problem.
So much stuff has happened. You and Semi’s relationship was out on social media after keeping it a secret somehow. The fans didn’t seem to hate it as well so that’s a plus. Another thing that happened is that the album with Semi’s band and your group has almost everyone hearing it. It made worldwide!
Currently, you were performing for your fans live. In the past 12 months, you and your girls have been grinding to get some new songs out. It’s all paying off too.
You, Mirai, and Seika were preforming your guys last song. You knew Semi was watching on the tv so you had to look your very best. When that was done, you and the girls walked off the stage and went to the meet and greets.
“Nice job Ladies” your manager said giving you guys high-fives. “The fans loved it”
“They sure do, did you hear them cheering before we went on?” Mirai laughed.
“Holy shit they were loud, but in a good way” Seika said.
“Alright, enough talking, you guys got a meet and greet... don’t want to keep the fans waiting” manager-chan winked.
You and the girls nodded and quickly walked to your guys seats for the whole meet.
After a long rest of the day of meet and greets, you went home. That was your original plan. Actually you went to the convience store to buy some stuff for you and Semi.
“Hey Eita, tonight we are going to have pizza okay?” You asked him over the phone.
“Oh yeah, I’m just getting home from the studio. I’ll see you then?” Semi said back.
“Mhm, bye bye” you said hanging up. “Pizza it is.”
While grabbing the pizza, your phone rang.
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You giggled to yourself and went to go pay for your groceries. After paying, you walked outside completely unaware of what was coming.
You felt water pour over you. You looked up to see clouds covering the blue sky and rain pouring down.
“Fuck.” You mumbled while gripping your groceries and walking through the rain.
Every step you took had a splash sound. You knew you should have got your personal limo to pick you up. Though you didn’t have to because someone was waiting for you.
“Y/n!!!” Someone yelled while running up to you. They had a red umbrella with them.
“Eita...?” You said trying to catch them running. The rain made it hard to see.
“Correct, why are you outside walking through the rain?” He asked while putting the umbrella over both you and him.
“I don’t know actually, wait why did you come?” You asked him. “Not that I don’t want you here, I love the comfort.”
Semi blushed a bit and rubbed his cheek. “Oh uh, I wanted to check up on you. I knew it was gonna rain, that’s why I’m prepared” he laughed.
“Of course” you said kissing his cheek. “Thank you for this Eita” you said as you walked with him.
“No problem”
After a moment of silence of walking, Semi glanced over at you with soft eyes. He let you wear his jacket as he wiped the water on your face. You looked beautiful.
“What’s that look for?” You asked while catching him staring at you.
Semi just smiled and hugged you. “I love you...
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....And that isn’t a lie”
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srhlsx · 5 years ago
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CHAPTER 20
master | ch. 19 | ch. 21
That morning, you were nervous. You had made a point to go to school early to fit in some solo practice since you knew group practice would be grueling this afternoon. You tried to convince yourself that you weren’t going to school early to avoid interacting with Iwaizumi on the walk to school, in the hallways, or at your locker. That’d be silly. But...
You hadn’t gotten over what you had confessed to him. You had decided for once in your life you were not going to hold back your feelings and in a moment of post coital bliss you spoke them into the universe. You were sure of the building feelings, having thought you were in love before but realizing how different it could actually be when the person was good. You just wished… that you hadn’t done it.
You were sitting in your seat for the first class of the day when Iwaizumi sat down in his chair behind you harshly, making his desk hit the back of your chair. The jolt surprised you and made you jump since you had been so immersed in your textbook and checking your homework that you hadn’t even noticed him walking in.
“Where were you?” He asked. Iwaizumi didn’t lean in to talk to you, opting instead for a normal volume of voice as he unpacked his materials.
You paused but didn’t turn around to face him when you answered. “Wanted to get some practice in,” You said to your textbook. You heard him pause behind you, obviously noticing the way you wouldn’t look at him.
“You’re avoiding me.” He stated, voice having lowered to barely a whisper.
It made you tense and pause what you were doing, your eyes only focusing on one single word printed on the book in front of you - chloroplast, chloroplast, chloroplast - “I um, really need to finish this up before class starts.” You shook your head and mumbled the response to him, definitively ending the conversation.
Iwaizumi didn’t try to push it any more. He stared at the back of your head for a few moments longer until the teacher at the front of the room demanded everyone’s attention. Bristling slightly, Iwaizumi chewed at his cheek in thought until he tasted blood. With you sitting in front of him, there was no way he was going to focus on class anyways so he let his mind wander to thoughts about what could be going on with you.
You couldn’t breathe properly. You were so focused on making sure that your focus was on the teacher and not the boy sitting behind you that you had forgotten the most basic of human needs - air. You sucked in a deep breath, hoping the air filling up your lungs would help alleviate the pain in your heart, and let it out in a heavy sigh - catching the attention of your instructor and the rest of the class.
“Something the matter, Miss (Y/n)?” Your teacher turned around partially from where they had been writing on the board, looking at you over their glasses.
“Uh, no ma’am.” You stuttered, embarrassed and looking back down at your notes. “Sorry.”
The older woman turned back to her lecture and the attention turned away from you, but your breathing wasn’t back to normal. You began to transition to your next subject, clearing your desk of previous materials and making room for what was needed now. You felt a light tap on your arm and looked down to see a hand holding a hard candy out to you. You looked at the hand skeptically, knowing it belonged to Iwaizumi.
“Here,” He mumbled, nudging the candy at you again. “I know you like the distraction when you’re stressed, so just take it.”
You snatched the candy out of his hand without a word and unwrapped it, quickly popping it into your mouth. The artificial flavor you immediately recognized as your favorite and the fiddling with the hard candy in your mouth was a welcome distraction, you actually felt yourself relax just a tiny bit. You were still uncomfortable and your chest still ached very deep down inside, but you felt like you could breathe again and that was an improvement.
“Thank you,” You mumbled around the candy, still not turning around and focusing on the new lesson instead.
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When the bell for lunch rang, Iwaizumi was hopeful that this weird slump you were in had passed and that you’d turn around and ask him what his lunch plans were, like you always did. That didn’t happen. Instead, you bolted up in your seat, grabbing your packed lunch that had been sitting at your feet, and swiftly exited the room before he even got a chance to say anything.
He didn’t know how long he sat there, a slightly befuddled look on his face, until Oikawa came looking for him. “Iwa~” He greeted, sitting down in your chair. “Where is-”
“Something’s up,” Iwaizumi interrupted. “With (y/n), she won’t even look at me.”
Oikawa narrowed his eyes at his friend in thought, having no idea what had happened between parting ways with Iwaizumi days earlier and this moment. “I’ll go look for her,” He said, getting up and leaving his friend to sit alone.
Something told Oikawa to go to the dance studio. He’d been a few times, meeting you there after practices to try and sneak a few glances into your club life. What he found this time was a little more of a sad sight than he was actually expecting. You sat in the middle of the studio floor with your lunch in front of you, lights off, alone. You saw him reflected in the many mirrors that were on the walls so it wasn’t a surprise when he spoke up.
“I thought I’d find you here,” He came strutting into the space and took a seat next to you, picking up a piece of your lunch and popping it in his mouth.
You smiled sadly at your food, not looking up at Oikawa as you spoke. “Yeah, I just kind of… needed a different setting.”
“Something bothering you?” He pushed.
“Well, I do have to break up with my boyfriend soon.” You attempted to joke, finally looking up at his concerned face. 
“About that,” He started, trailing off and turning to mess with the food in your lunch. “What do you say we keep going?” He looked up at your confused face before continuing. “Well, it’d be a little suspicious and heartless if you dumped me right after such a devastating loss.”
“I am the ice queen though,” You mumbled with a sarcastic tone into your sandwich before taking a bite. “Wouldn’t be too off brand.”
“You know that nickname is bullshit,” He said, his tone strict when he saw the unconvinced look you shot at him. “But I was also hoping because I haven’t really decided what I’m going to do after graduation, and if we ‘break up’ now, they’re going to be all over me (y/n), more than before.”
You mulled over the proposition as you chewed on your food. You had gotten this far already, what were a few more weeks or months at this point in the whole ordeal. You looked at him, his chocolate eyes pleading you to agree, and you nodded your head. “Yeah,” You said after swallowing. “Yeah, let’s keep it going.”
He let out a sigh of relief and did his best to tackle you in a hug from where you were both sitting. It knocked you over and you let out what felt like your first genuine laugh in days. “Get off me you freak,” You laughed, shoving him off. He rolled over and laid down next to you.
“I really appreciate it, (y/n).” He said to the ceiling, resting his hands behind his head. “Especially with everything with Iwa, I’m grateful you guys are my friends.”
You completely froze. Your eyes were wide and unblinking as you too stared at the ceiling, not daring to move or even take a breath. He knew. He knew and he was okay with it? 
“It’s fine, (y/n)~” He laughed, one of his genuine laughs. “I figured it out a little while back, Iwa kind of confirmed it the other night. I’m happy for you guys, for real. Two of my favorite people.”
The tension still hung in the air but it wasn’t as bad as it had been a moment before. You felt the blush fade away from your face and an unknown weight lift from your chest and shoulders. This heavy secret you’d been carrying around was now known to the one person you’d been most worried about finding out. It wasn’t ideal, you were sure that Oikawa would’ve felt betrayed but you felt confident that he was honest when he said it was fine and he was happy - Oikawa Tooru was many things, but he was not a liar.
“I told him I was in love with him.” You whispered, breaking up the silence that had built between you for a few minutes. You scrunched up your eyes tightly in hopes that the burning tears would just go away when you thought of what had happened between you and Iwaizumi. “He didn’t… say anything.”
“Iwa has never been good with feelings,” Oikawa said quietly. He turned his head to face you, the feeling of him playing with a loose piece of your hair made you turn to look at him as well. He studied the strands intently, a soft smile on his face before his eyes turned to yours. “Do you ever think it could’ve been us, (y/n)? For real?”
Your heart broke in that moment. He didn’t look sad but was genuinely asking the question and looking for an answer.
Maybe. 
If you had stopped yourself that night after the party, things wouldn’t have gone where they did. If you hadn’t shared those lingering glances, searching for each other when you knew you shouldn’t be. If you hadn’t cried to him and had him hold you when you needed it most. Maybe things would’ve been different and instead of falling in love with his best friend, you might’ve fallen in love with the boy you were fake dating. But that’s not what happened, and you couldn’t change things now.
“I don’t know, Tooru.”
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msbarrows · 4 years ago
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Cataracts - What Surgery Is Like
As previously mentioned, I’d developed cataracts and am now going through surgery for them, and have elected to document a bit about what it’s all like from my viewpoint. Mostly because I think it’d make a nice reference for anyone wanting to write with some degree of accuracy about what it’s like from the inside.
This post contains a description of the surgical process involved and what that actually feels like, I’m trying not to be overly graphic but I’m also not elliding over any of the grosser bits (thankfully and surprisingly very little).
First off, a descriptiong of the preliminaries. This started for me with my vision going blurry over the last couple of years, and finally getting around to visiting my old optomitrist when I happened to be in Toronto over last Christmas (as my one up north just retired a couple years ago, and I hadn’t replaced her yet). Of the several potential causes for the vision loss I was experiecing, what I had turned out to be cataracts, of the variety that occurs at the back of the lens and therefor doesn’t cause easily-visible clouding. Which I actually said “Oh, thank god!” to when the optomitrist told me, since they are the absolute easiest thing to fix, while some of the other options (detached retina, or diabetes-related macular degradation, to name a couple) are much less so. Then he gave me a reference to an opthamologist. Thanks to COVID-19, it was this fall before I was finally able to actually get to the clinic and see her.
From my point of view, the process then went pretty quickly. Note that I was at an eye institute that specializes in cataract treatment; everything is contained in one building (a nicely renovated Victorian brick house in the Annex area of Toronto). So all tests and surgery are done on premises.
First appointment there, they did the same sort of vision tests my optomitrist generally does, plus some extra inner-eye photography to get a good look at what was going on. This was done by two different people, one doing the eye-chart related tests and a different one doing the photography. Then I met briefly with my doctor, who looked over my questionnaire (which included questions like whether near, mid, or distance vision was most important to me, and was there a focal distance I particularly needed to be glasses free for, etc.), and that I didn’t need nor have interest in a lens replacement that wasn’t covered under our provincial health care.
A week later I returned for them to perform eye measurement tests, which are used as a basis for manufacturing the replacement lens. They measure the size and shape of the eye, and mostly just involved staring into various machines while photos are taken. The weirdest one, which they did last, involved dripping numbing drops into my eyes, and then lightly pressing a small sensor to multiple places both directly on the eyeballs and then on the closed lids. Something to do with viscosity I’d assume.
And now for a description of the general surgical process, which you can also find summarized (or in more detail) at a number of medical web sites. In my case, it was a pretty basic surgery being performed; the opthamologist needed to make a small slit in the outer layer of my eye, used a tiny probe to break down the lens using ultrasound waves, vacuum out the broken down lens, then use a largish needle to insert a folded plastic lens into the eye, where it would unfold within the capsular space and could be tweaked as needed into the correct position. The cut in the eye is tiny enough that it usually doesn’t even need stitching, apparently.
I was asked to arrive at a specific time, and had to start applying dilating drops to my eyes an hour, half-hour, and five minutes before leaving for the clinic. No nail polish or facial makeup. Preferable wearing comfortable pants and a loosely short-sleeved button front shirt without any undershirt or long underwear beneath it (which turns out to be a “just in case things go crazily sideways” measure; they didn’t actually need to access anything on my torso).
The first step after I arrived at the clinic was being dressed in PPE - one of their own disposable masks to be sure I was wearing a good enough one (that wasn’t coated in whatever mine had picked up outside), a hair cap, a long-sleeved thigh-length blue plasticized robe (it had thumb holes to prevent the sleeves from slipping), and booties over my shoes.
Then I was taken to their surgical floor, where a nurse began a series of eye drops. These included more dilation, an antispectic, and an antibiotic, that I can remember - multiple drops of all. She also gave me a teeny tiny pill to place under my tongue and let dissolved, which contained a small dose of a relaxant/anti-anxiety med (Sorry, she told me the name of it at the time but it’s dropped out of my memory). I didn’t notice any particular change in my mood, but then I’d been counting slow deep breaths since arriving (4 seconds in, 4 seconds out...) to help keep myself relaxed and give myself something to focus on that wasn’t omfg I’m going to be awake during this! Because yeah, not having a clue what it was going to be like was stressful. Nurse also took my blood pressure to be sure I was fine in that regards, and put a sticker on the gown to remind the doctor that it was my right eye being done that day.
After a brief wait, I was moved into one of the surgical theatres, where there was a dentist chair they sat me in, then connected a blood pressure cuff, fingertip monitor (hence the no nail polish rule) and sensors on the backs of both hands and one ankle (I’m assuming those were measuring a mix of blood oxygenation and heartbeat, with the ankle one making sure my feet were still getting blood when I was spending the surgery in what ended up as a tipped-over-backwards with head lowest position). They then rinsed my eye and the orbital area with bactine (very yellow vision while that happens), then patted the area around the eye dry.
The doctor sat at my head, and applied a medical drape with a pre-cut adhesive-edged opening over my eye, then peeled off a translucent applique that was over the hole. Then they applied medical clamps that held my eyelids in the open position (which thanks to the numbing drops, I didn’t feel at all). A brightly lighted microscope was then positioned over the eye, and I was told to stay as still as possible and stare at the red dot in the lighted area. The doctor then did the surgery as described above. From my point of view, there was very little to feel; occasional dull pressure, some random coldness that I believe was the eye being irrigated. I could hear the occasional very quiet noise the probe made as the lens was sucked away, but mostly it was just staring at the red light as well as I could while my vision distorted oddly and I continue counting breaths. Within what felt like no more than 5-10 minutes (if that), it was all over with.
They had me continue to lie there for a couple minutes while they peeled off the drape, wiped the eye area clean, and removed all the sensors, then a brief rest before having me sit up.
I blinked once or twice, and... DAMN! Sudden near-perfect vision in an eye that hasn’t seen clearly without help since I was in single digit ages. And the saturation. The detail.
Now, my left eye of course still has a cataract (it gets treated next week). I’d been telling people for a while that basically all my right eye was seeing was blur, so my left eye was doing most of the seeing, and I thought my left eye wasn’t anywhere near as bad as my right. With my right eye now seeing perfectly, I could now alternate opening eyes from side to side, and see just how badly (and irregularly) blurred and yellowed the left lens actually is. To which I can only saw, WTF, how was I even seeing anything at all!?
Then they had me sit for a while in the waiting area, where the doctor came and double-checked I was fine, and gave me a kit in a plastic bag of a card that identifies that I have an interocular lens (and info about it), a prescription for two different eye drops (antibiotic and anti-inflamatory) which was enough for both this eye and the eye getting operated on next week, and a shield to wear at night for the first five nights, to be sure I don’t accidentally rub it or put pressure on it.
Then I put on sunglasses (because hugely dilated eye) and walked out.
Side note - they won’t do your operation unless you have a ride home arranged; because that tiny pill means you’re in a slightly altered state, among other reasons. Good thing it was my brother and not, say, a taxi, since among other things it took us three drugstores to find one that actually had both kinds of eyedrops in stock, yay super fun.
Also, remember me talking about the starburst rays I was seeing around lights due to cataracts? While my eye was still dilated (which lasted until after midnight) I was seeing what I can only describe as ‘Ferris wheels’ - a burst of  rays expanding out like the spokes of a wheel, and ending in an uneven ring of dots of bright light, each wheel matching the colour of the light causing it. Looked wild at night. Thankfully that effect has now gone away.
Had a follow-up appointment this morning where they did an eye chart and the rebounce test where they puff air at your cornea, and the opthamologist says the vision in that eye tested as 20/20 (WOOO! Finally something good with that number). I can see sharply and clearly for blocks from the mid-range on out. Sadly when I try to use my computer, tablet, etc (near-range and close vision) the eye can’t focus down far enough; some of that may improve over the next month or two as the eye continues healing, and adapting to the lens. In the meantime my sister suggested I try a pair of her reading glasses and, yay, that worked. I am now planning that after my follow-up appointment for next week’s surgery on the left eye, I’ll run around and pick up 2-3 pairs of reading glasses of various strengths (which I will get will depend on what seems to work best with arm’s length and close-in viewing), to carry me through until I go back to an optomitrist in a month or three, and get my vision evaluated to see if I need actual prescription reading and/or far distance glasses.
In the meantime, apart from computer/tablet use, I am glasses free. I can’t even remember ever having such sharp, clear, and saturated vision (since I’ve been in glasses for such a long time). You know the “oh, trees are made of leaves!” effect? I am getting that with every single thing I look at. Oh, that’s how much grey is in my hair? Weird, I never noticed this wall was textured before. Oh geez, that text over there is so small and yet I AM READING IT. I mean, even with glasses I probably was never able to read that from this distance! Etc ad infinitum.
It’s just so, so nice.
And that’s with just one eye finished. I am now really looking forward to next week’s surgery. Stress? What stress!?
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bow-woahh · 5 years ago
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Spop Fic recs (Catradora)
(finally)
Hello Catradora trash can's today I finally give you what I've been promising for MONTHS - a fanfic rec list. Because, if you didn't already know, I read A LOT of Catradora fanfic, probably too much and although I'm definitely not the best judge of...anything, I really wanted to make this post, so here it is, weeks late.
(it's a long one though)
I’ve written my full opinions n shit on like the first 10 multi chapters and one shots because there’s a lot lol, and some I remember better than others (tbf I've re read all of them at this point), but yeahhh. For the others, I’ll describe it in less detail and a bit more jokily lol.
I'm sorry I haven't just linked all the fics bit I just want this to be out of my drafts loll, and I can assure you most of these are pretty easy to find, I apologise for the laziness though haha
Also I’ve tried to find the all the authors tumblr or other social media, but I couldn’t for all of them which sucks, so if you happen to be the author and I left you out, please comment :)
Anyway, Y'ALL NEED TO GET ON MY LEVEL SOOO WITHOUT FURTHER ADO HERE YOU GO:
(here's a key first)
Key:
(o) = ongoing
(f) = finished
[G]=General
[T] =Teen and up Audiences
[M]=Mature
[E]=Explicit
Multi-chapters:
1. Upper West Side by ceruleanstorm (o) 100,000+ words
@princessofgayskull
[Modern AU] [T]
This fic is so amazing!! It goes so deep into their psychology and past and damn is it hilarious at time. Also, I love the premise of it - Catra is a Uber driver and Adora ends up as her passenger. It's a fairly slowburn as it goes deep into the two girls' lives and really gives time for the relationship to develop naturally and that is honestly really appreciated because it makes the good moments between the two even better and more rewarding if I'm honest. A lot of angst though. All the other characters we know and love are also written amazingly in it too, and are made equally important. All in all, I love this fic and everything about it!
As of writing it has fairly infrequent updates, but each chapter is 10-20k+ words and has 9/12 chapters so...there’s a lot.
2. For my Sake by doublepasse (f) 100,000+ words
@doublepasse-writes
[Canon Compliant][E]
The story and world building is just - WOAH. This one is quite the slowburn but boy is it worth it. It's set a couple months to a year after season one, where Catra finally captures Adora but the tables turn very quickly when capturing her nearly results in her death, which Catra (unsurprisingly) didn’t want. The story has some BIG plot twists and is definitely one of the best canon universe Catradora fics I’ve ever read and the ending was very satisfying, but also open ended, BECAUSE there’s a part 2 coming and I couldn’t be more excited!
(Also, there is one chapter with nsfw content in it, but it has a sfw version)
3. Skinny Love by Maychup (o) 89,000+ words
@maychup
[Canon Compliant][M]
Another amazing fic that takes place in the canon universe that has such great world building, and is very plot heavy. It takes place days after the S1 finale and goes from there basically. The premise of it is similar to many fics and one shots you’ve probably read - sleeping with the enemy. From the first chapter it seemed like it could have easily been a five chapter easy redemption fic but nooooooo, it goes a lot LOT deeper. I feel like this fic did such a great job on character development, Catra’s specifically, she grows so much throughout the fic. She is also such a mother to all her Horde pals in this and I love that haha.
At the time of writing, it’s still ongoing, and boy am I excited to see where it goes. It’s also super angsty and has a fair-ish amount of smut so be warned!
4. The Heiress and The thief by Fuhadeza (f) 58,000+ words
@fuhadeza
[Regency AU][M]
As it says in the fic summary, it is literally the She-Ra regency AU I never knew I wanted likeeee, it’s so good! Premise - Adora is taken by Lady Brightmoon, leaving her boarding school, and her best friend behind, Catra, and everything is fine until her old friend face resurfaces. This one had me screaming at times (most of them did, but this especially). It was a really enjoyable read and I honestly loved the way the author dealt with love and the way Adora dealt with her feelings and just ahhh- read it.
5. Faded with feelings by yesimgay (f) 24,000+ words
[Roomates AU][T]
This fic. I read this a WHILEEE ago but to this day this is one of my favourite fan-fics ever like it’s hilarious, and fluffy and unproblematic and sometimes you need that tbh. Everything you need to know is established in the first chapter but the way it is done feels so natural, as if it’s just Adora‘s or Catra’s thoughts and I love it. Also the premise is GREAT - Catra has ADHD and smokes weed to help with it, and Adora accidentally takes an edible, which is when shenanigans start to ensue.
6. Dream of Me by DBsean (f) 18,000+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
Although it is on the shorter side with only five chapters, this was another fic that was so so good in quality and premise. For whatever reason, Catra and Adora start sharing dreams, enabling them to share moments together that they (unfortunately) can't have in real life, due to them being on opposite sides of the war, and in turn - enemies. The angst in this fic literally KILLED ME, and the characters dialogue is so good as well! I also recommend you check out some of the authors other fics, they're all great!
7. we've been making shades of purple out of red and blue by darklady21(o) 19,000+ words
[Roomates AU][M]
Another Roomates AU, bUT instead of being best friends, the two barely know each other, or interact at all...GREAT RIGHT?!? Honestly though, I think the author did a great job in making it not seem too rushed, especially in the setup and establishing how although they know each other, they DONT know each other, so the first couple chapters are basically that stage where they are learning more about each other and leaving stupid post it notes around the house, and it just feels so natural and great! Updates aren’t super regular, but there’s already nine chapters (as of writing) so definitely check it out, as well as their other works too!
8. Razorback by Starr_Reborn(o) 22,000+ words
[Canon Divergence AU][M]
Apparently, the author wrote this with the intent of it being fluffy. From the title you can tell that is NOT the case. At all. This one HURTS. This is very very angsty, and also has some themes of rape in it, so if that kinda thing triggers you I might wanna skip out on this one. It is a really good fic though and stands out from a lot of the others because of the way it is written. Chapters aren’t usually longer that 1000 words and the writing style is quite disjointed at times, and it a lot of the time a stream of consciousness. At times it can even be a little confusing or hard to follow, but I find it makes it even more interesting, and also means it will probably be a fic I come back to once completed. It is genuinely so unpredictable, I have no clue where it’s going, but I really love it for that!
9. Sunflower by TechnoSkittles (f) 6000+ words
@technoskittles
[High School AU][G]
Oh, BOY. Oh boyyy. This fic - it's 8 chapters and only 6000 words yet the story is just- Ahhh READ IT. It's so good! And like the author in general is so amazing at writing like check out all their works (especially their latest one shot omg I loved it). Anyway, read this, it's not too long, it's cute and also genuinely surprising, the ending was not something I saw coming AT ALL, so YEAH!
10. I like me better when I'm with you by lesbians_harold(f) 22,000+ words
@lesbians-harold
[High School AU][T]
Just a nice, fun, fluffy high school, friends to lovers AU. Catra moves to Adora’s school senior year and the twos friendship is quickly rekindled, after a rocky start albeit. Adora is a big ol’ jock and Catra draws which is a headcanon I LOVE. It’s written so well, and the characters are also written well too! It is a lil angsty at times, but not to worry - but it does pay off, I assure you.
11. I thought we were best friends by vanilla107 (o) 45,000+ words
@vanilla107
[University AU][T]
Breakups. Lots of breakups, and angst. This one will mend your heart then hurt you. BE SCARED. But go read it. I mean it. It's good!
12. Dirty Dancing by LilLegalLoli94 (o) 9000+ words
@lillegalloli94
[Dancing AU][M]
Basically lots of (sexual) tension after years of not seeing each other because Adora moved to Brightmoon Dance Academy. It's good. Real good.
13. Back to Black by eveynull (f) 6000+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
(Post War) Gays go and visit their past, staring angst, and featuring your favourite co-star - fluff!
14. how things are supposed to be by maggiesbombshell (o) 11,000+ words
@yeunslegacy
[High School AU][M]
A jolly slowburn that will hurt your soul because (internalised) homophobia and gay.
15. Some things you don't see coming by Trashibesensei (o) 20,000+ words
[High School AU][T]
Adora being a big ol' jock, and Catra being a big ol' gay. I’m not even gonna explain it, you have to find that out yourself.
16. A quarter after three by Maychup (o) 11,000+ words
@maychup
[Youtuber AU][M]
Adora's gay panic settles in when she bumps into her childhood bestie, Catra, live streaming in the streets of LA. My favourite part of this fic has to be the YouTube comments she gets. This one will make you laugh. And go AWWW CUTE.
17. A Song to My Heart by DemiRebel (f) 8000+ words
[Neighbors AU][G]
The cute girl next door keeps singing loud, and it sounds BELLE, so what else would you do other than creepily listen?? 10/10 for premise.
18. Occupied by Nny11 4000+ words
@nny11writes
[Modern AU][T]
The most hilarious soulmate AU I've read tbh. One word - bathrooms.
19. Whispering Dreams by dragonesdepapel (f) 7400+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
Adora finds a wounded and sick gay so obviously, she helps her out, much to her protesting. This fic will honestly make you go through the five stages of grief. Big ol' oof.
20. Why you SHOULD bring in your untrained cat to the rebellion by locuas (f) 6800+ words
[Canon Divergence AU][G]
This fic is a literal joke. But it will probably be the best crack you will ever read, so. READ IT.
ALSO HERES A LIL SELF PWOMO OF MY MULTI CHAP:
What drove her insane, 13,000+ words (f)
One shots:
1. hang tight (all you) by TechnoSkittles 9000+ words
@technoskittles
[High School AU][T]
This is a fic that will break your heart and mend it. It's about Adora coming to terms with her sexuality throughout high school in a pretty unsupportive environment, added onto the fact she has a crush on her best friend. It's paced so well, nothing feels rushed and although it's only 9000 words, it manages to flesh out characters that aren't even in the show, and it obviously does a great job with the topic at hand - sexuality and homophobia. Like it honestly touched my heart, reading it I genuinely wanted to cry. I loved everything about it, from the moment it started to the last line. It's just written in a way that is probably relatable to so many people who are or have struggled with coming to terms with themselves, and shows how for some it's really not an easy thing. It's also written beautifully, and I PROMISE you won't regret reading this! Definitely check out some more of their works too, they're all great reads!
2. you're my favorite song (and it's stuck in my head) by artemiswords 16,000+ words
@artemisbye 
[High School AU][T]
A belle valentine's day fan fic which I just,, ahhhhh this is some of the best 16k words I've ever read, it's so nice and fluffy! Premise - Catra has to take the bus to school, and ends up sitting next to this cute girl on the bus, Adora, and listening to TayTay (Swift), sharing earphones with this complete stranger. Obviously, Catra develops a crush, but she is sure Adora is straight. It's written so well, and is such an enjoyable read, with so many great moments and dialogue. Music is a very prevalent theme (which you can tell from the name tbh) in it, and the amount of song references in it also make it feel so fleshed out in a way, like their both just teenagers with somewhat questionable music taste. Just all the exchanges they have are great, especially the ones over text and social media, there were so many funny moments too. DEFO, recommend if you wanna read something nice and lighthearted!
3. The Interlude That Never Ends by FMLClexa 2000+ words
Twitter: catrxs
[Historical AU] [M]
Angst. Quite angsty. But also fairly fluffy, it has a good balance. And the writing style is just so - it gets your heart wrenching despite being fairly short, and is also very poetic, and I don't know about you, but I love things like that! The fic is a historical/soulmates AU where they are bound to fall in love, no matter the period they're reincarnated in. It's one of the most creative fic ideas I've ever read, and the concept is executed so well, which makes it even better. And it's, so so damn sweet ahh, read it read it READ IT!
4.  is there a knife in your bed or are you just happy to see me? by ceruleanstorm 6000+ words
@princessofgayskull
[Canon Universe][T]
This fic was everythinggg, it is so cute, like it’s basically 6k words of fluff! Also, if you didn’t already notice, the title (and the fic) heavily references the fact Adora keeps a knife under her bed (I DIED when that happened in s2).  Set post war, Catra sneaks away from her post to visit an overworked and stressed Adora in Bright Moon and cuteness ensues. I honestly just love everything about this fic, we need more fluffy and funny fics like this! The dynamic the two have in this is perfect and the dialogue and general writing style of it is great! And Adora’s internal dialogue in this honest to god had me dead. Needless to say this is one of my fav Canon Universe one shots.
5.Girl’s Become Lovers (Who Turn Into Mothers) by A_Zap 2000+ words
@azapofinspiration
[Canon Universe][G]
This has to be one of the cutest, well written, fic I’ve read! Catra brings home the only survivors from a tragedy her and Scorpia stumbled upon, but one thing Adora doesn’t expect is for them to be children. The,, emotions in this are so raw and powerful. Even though they obviously have these new little people in their life though, their problems don’t just go away, they still have their own issues, and have to deal with them while looking after these kids. In general they handle mental health so well, and Shadow Weavers lasting effect on Catra SHOWS and it shows hard. Honestly, it made me want to cry at some parts and the ending was EVERYTHING, so reAd IT.
6. baby, i'm a house on fire (and i wanna keep burning) by wittchers 7000+
@huremsultan
[Medival AU]
A really fun fic to read, with a very original premise: after the Horde defeats the kingdom Bright Moon, Hordak is crowned, Queen Angella was killed, and Princess Glimmer is missing, which leaves Lady Adora forced into an arranged marriage with Lord Catra, to keep her people happy. Obviously, being an arranged marriage, with her enemy, she ain’t too happy about it, nor is Catra. But they have to put up with it, and each other. Honestly, like the development of their relationships is sooo good, and there is the perfect balance e of angst and fluff (if you can call it that?) so don’t worry it won’t kill you! Like ahh, the emotions in this - so well described with so little words. And the ending is great, in general it’s great!
7. Adora Casts: Zone of Truth by Hemogobbler 2000+ words
@hemogobbler69
[Canon Universe][T]
Literally just 2000 words of utter cuteness and hilarious dialogue haha. Premise - Catra has just defected recently, and is still warming up to Adora, is still slightly shut off from her. So, to try remedy this, she gets a truth serum from Madame Razz, and slips it into their food, leading to them talking honestly about their feelings for the first time in a while. I just love it so much because I feel like this is genuinely something Adora would do, and also something I’d probably do in her situation - Catra opening up is a rare occurrence! Also, as I said, their are some really funny, laugh out loud moments, which out of context are so weird, yet somehow manage to make a lot of sense. Anyway, if you just had a bad day, I think this fic would definitely lift your spirits.
8. bloom by kimah 4000+ words
Twitter: whitehotmoons
[Modern AU][G]
A post break up fan fic where Catra's therapist suggests Catra write down her feelings, which leads her to write the things she hates about Adora, and their interactions they've had since their break up. The way it's written is so... angsty but like, not? I'm bad at this. Literally, reading this I really felt Catra's pain, and I just wanted to give her a hug at times. Adora too. The small details the author outs into the characters makes the characters all that more realisitic too, and I love it! Seriously though, the angst, will, get, you.
9. I do adore by thankskelley 6000+ words
Twitter: cosmicsporks
[Modern AU][G]
A Catradora fake dating AU. Is there anything more you need in life? Catra and Adora are are roomates, and one day, Adora bursts in, saying she finally came out to her parents, and also that her parent had assumed they are dating... leading her to ask if Catra could pretend to be her girlfriend for while. What could possibly go wrong? Hmm?? I've always loved the whole fake dating premise (to all the boyss) and with characters like Adora and Catra, (especially Catra like she is a TEASE) I always thought it'd be great. Who doesn't love oblivious gays? Their dynamic in this is also great, especially all the flirting and teasing. BUT, of course, it also a bit angsty too. I can promise you you'll love it!
10. Chocolate and Roses vs. Heartache by Trashibesensei 9000+ words
[High School AU][T]
Another high school AU...I know I have a problem leave me alone. This time, if you couldn’t tell by the title, there’s some heartache involved, because: this Valentines Day, Adora doesn’t spend it with her best friend (now ex bestie) Catra. Even despite her popularity that she now has due to being the star player of Bright Moon’s soccer team, she can’t shake of how much she yearns for her old friend. Somehow, even with all the angst, it is still sO fucking FUNNY, the way Mermista was written was great, and she had some of THE best lines. But yeah, it’s so pure and just - Catra needs a hug, Adora needs a hug, they need to hug EACH other tbh! It had a very nice and hopeful message, and also kinda surprised me with the end.
11. someone you like by caela 5000+ words
[High School AU][T]
As a gen z, or x, or whatever the fuck I am, I always appreciate a fic where the characters say stupid shit over Instagram to their crushes which results it getting a date to prom. Although I can assure you that would never happen to me. But this So FUCKING cute and funny so READ.
12. this is what it's like when we collide (this is how you bring me back to life) by azul (7daysoftorture) 5000+ words
@bluelipgloss
[Canon Universe][G]
This galaxy brain fic is amazing and that’s ThE TEA. Catra gets a wish stone from Hordak and we all knowww, WHO she (subconsciously) craves - Adora, which obviously leads to hell breaking loose, because, disaster gays. Anyway read this it’s great and made me feel forget about the cruel world we live in.
13. Five Times Catra was a Cat and One Time the Cat was Catra by sunscreams 2400+ words
@catradoramma
[Canon Universe][T]
A BELLE, well written 5 + 1 which is just pure fluff (some hurt/comfort too) and Catra being Catra (so a loveable pain in the ass) after joining Adora in Bright Moon.
14. Vital Signs by SereneKarma 2000+ words
@serene-karma
[Modern AU][G]
Like a dumbass Catra breaks her leg and gets put in hospital, but hey - it’s okay as long as she’s got a cute nurse to look after her! It’s pretty funny just based on the concept alone so read ThIs BiSh.
15. You put the cracks into my moral code by Littleamethystc 3000+ words
@littleamethystc
[Gang AU][T]
Catra is a hotshot mafia member, Glimmer and Bow are the PoPo, and Adora is underestimated as HELL. It’s also pretty funny, like the whole concept is just perfect, so check it out!
16. The Best Gift I Could Ever Ask For by blueninjasharpshooter 1500+ words
[Modern AU][G]
Just a short n sweet fic of Adora celebrating her birthday which she forgot, and also Adora has a pocket knife in her boot, which is so accurate lmaooo. As well as having the most accurate character portrayals, AWWWWwwwww, was my reaction to the end of this fic, so read it to find out wHY.
17. but i still don’t wish death on ‘em (i just reflect on ‘em) by ayushi_writes 1500+ words
@ayushipop
[Canon Universe][G]
(Post S1) A year after the battle of Bright Moon, Adora and Catra are standing on a cliff, and Catra finally has a chance to end it all. But WilL she?!?!  Let’s just say, Catradora are the queens of promises.
18. Whiskey and Eggnog by briony8969 3500+ words
@briony8969
[Modern Christmas AU][G]
A cute Christmas fic where a nervous Adora goes home for the first time in months with her new friends from college, scared of what they’ll think but more scared of a certain SOMEONE she hasn’t spoken to in months. So basically: sexual tension gAlore.
19. She's a Regular by BaronVonChop 1500+ words
@baronvonchop
[Coffee Shop AU][G]
Adora is gay. Catra is gay. Catra works at a coffee shop (badly), and Adora goes to said coffee shop soo much, that it gets on her friends nerves, coz she very obviously likes to flirt with a Catra. It’s funny too. That’s it. That’s the fic and I love it.
20. Hand in Hand, We Make Our Way to The End by thethirdphiladelphiavireo 6500+ words
[Canon Universe - Soulmate AU][T]
Catra and Adora figure out they are soulmates after years of not knowing what it meant, but OBVIOUSLY, cannot communicate like mature humans, because - same.
21. How Do You Tell A Girl You Really Like Her Eyes? by Gay_Panic 1000+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
(Pre Canon)Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, a very gay, very wholesome, very nice first kiss fic. They are very gay for each other in this one, they don’t even care if KYLE catches them kissing.
22. Tender Moments by yesimgay 1500+ words
[Canon Universe][G]
(Post-war) Catra still feels guilty about everything she did to Adora in the past, so instead of sleeping at the foot of the bed as usual , she decides to sleep next to Adora...So there’s fluff, lots of fluff, and it is very tender.
23. Perfectly intertwined by dragonesdepapel 2000+ words
[Canon Universe][G]
On Catra’s first official day in Bright Moon, Adora drags her to a festival and they do cute things and it’s cute, and you should defo read it.
24. a girl without freckles is like a sky without stars by dear_universe 900+ words
@catralovesgirls
[Canon Universe][G]
More bed sharing because I CANNOT help myself, I love fics like these! Catra can’t sleep without Adora on her first night at the rebellion, so, she knocks on Adora’s door and things go from there.
25. Something to remember you by by DBsean 3000+ words
[Canon Universe][G]
Adora sneaks back into the fright zone in attempt to retrieve something, when Catra catches her. It’s cute af. Despite the circumstances.
26. Skiffs & Ships by mysteryinc 900+ words
[Canon Universe][G]
(Pre-show) Just two gals being pals who missed each other a fuck ton while on separate missions. It’s pretty cute.
27. Starstruck by InvisiblePinkToast 2500+ words
@invisible-pink-toast
[Canon Universe][G]
(Pre-show) A lil bit of angst, and nightmares, and a little bit of fluff, Stargazing and bed sharing - what more could you need?
28. a truth so loud you can't ignore by adverbialstarlight 2500+ words
@adverbialstarlight
[High School AU][T]
Catra ignores the growing feelings she has for her best friend, until the truth is so loud she can’t ignore it (see what I did there?) But for real tho this fic really gave me angst that hurt my soul then fluff that healed it, so we StAN.
29. Horde kids are just Like That by gerti 1500+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
(Canon Divergence) What would happen if when Adora defected the Horde, her and  Catra where still girlfriends? Read this to find out because it’s FUCKING hilarious lmaoooo, like it’s so absurd but somehow still makes perfect sense.
30. The First Step by oldmountainsoul 2900+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
(Post S1) Apologies which end in getting shoved out off trees are now exclusively for the Catradora fandom only.
31. (You’re My) Haven by giraffewrites 400+ words
@giraffewrites
[Canon Universe - Pre Canon][G]
(Pre-Canon) Adora only kisses Catra when she thinks she’s asleep, but my girl Catra ain’t playing no more so one night she just goes in for the KILL, Aka, cute dorks just being cute dorks.
32. Beyond the Screen by SereneKarma 5000+ words
@serene-karma
[Youtuber AU][G]
If you can't tell I really like YouTuber AU's. Catra being the angsty gal she is starts a YouTube channel to rant about her old best friend who practically vanished when she was 15, and her viewers (who definitely have no life) end up finding her.
33. come on, sugar, don't you leave early by thesqian 1500+ words
Twitter: @crnkgmeplys
[Modern AU][G]
Two gays at a gay wedding, who clearly have some shit going on, but it’s okay because gay weddings always bring gays together. I said gay a lot in that sentence. Read the fic, it’s short n sweet and cute, so you can’t go wrong!
34. but we could never stay away (from each other) by adorassword 1500+ words
[Canon Universe][T]
Catra and Adora have a nice, not so nice chit chat on Adora’s balcony late at night, - these two need LOVE, and I needed a hug after reading this coz damn. Damn.
35. bad ideas by ranpoandpoe 1000+ words
[University AU][T]
How we all wish thinking about your crush at 2am would go. That’s the only context I’m giving, so READ IT.
Also, here are some of my fav one shots I’ve written:
Two Sides Of The Same Coin 1000+ words
[Gang AU][T]
If I was perfect 2500+ words
[Modern AU][T]
And check out my Catradora week series, however my fav is:
damn you, unrequited love 7000+ words
[Modern/Sixth Form AU][T]
Here are some more series packed with fics that I’ve really enjoyed too!
Catradora Oneshots by clicheusername5678 @hey-adora
Catradora Tumblr Prompts BY sunscreams @catradoramma
if I grind my teeth at night, would you hear it? By poetroe
in the bottom of a coffee cup  + pieces by inkwelled (their stuff is great)
Twitter: adorascatrq
Anyway, I hope you guys appreciate this, it took quite a while lol. I had a lot of fun making it, and I hope you check out some of the fics on the list (maybe all if you're a crazy mf)
Until next time (:
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shelter; adam page [two]
Notes: 
Originally posted on my main, and literally no one asked for this. I haven’t written a third part but.. I plan to keep this one going and so, it’s getting transferred to this blog. I swear, soon.. Soon I’ll write a third chapter to it. Hell,maybe even sooner than you think. ;P. 
Summary: 
It’s only been one night / day so far and already the tension -and awkward flirty close moments of lingering sexual tension, is so thick you can cut through it with a knife. A trip to the grocery store and lots of flirty bantering back and forth.
Pairing:
Adam Hangman Page x OFC, Birdie McGregor
Warning:
alcohol tw possible. mentions of sheltering in place / covid-19, kind of a slow burn to it and kind of not.
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                             CHAPTER TWO : WHATS THE HARM
Having totally forgotten about Adam’s arrival back at the house the night before, I got up when I heard my alarm going off nearby. Yawning, I stretched my arms up and rubbed my eyes upon lowering them. For a few seconds I was scratching my head at the fact that I’d fallen asleep in the living room, but I ultimately shrugged it off, standing and quietly padding across the hallway and into the kitchen.
What I needed was caffeine.
And food, if the growling of my stomach was anything to go by.
I rummaged through the fridge, gathering ingredients for pancakes, eggs and bacon. I placed it all on the counter nearby, and I was digging out a mixing bowl when I thought I heard the door to Adam’s bedroom close and footsteps coming towards the kitchen. It hit me then, Adam had come home the night before.
And naturally, around the time he made it into the kitchen, I was remembering the soft press of rough lips against my forehead last night and I could feel my body heating up at the memory. I took a deep breath and tried like hell to get myself together.
Music… Music would take away the silence and drive out any possible tension that might be heavy between the two of us; again, we are practically strangers who just happen to be sharing a house.
But of course, the first song to play when I fired up the SiriusXM app on my cell phone?
An inherently sexual one from the bluegrass and folk station I’d been listening to the night before while grading the last of the actual papers I had to grade and making an online lesson plan for the new week approaching.
I think I played it off pretty well, humming along as I found my electric mixer, plugging it in, focusing intently on mixing the batter for chocolate chip pancakes. I didn’t dare look up though. I could just feel him in the room with me, watching me.
The song ended and the batter started to get smoother and I cut off the mixer, sitting it to the side, taking one of the attachments to lick clean. When I turned around to grab something, I found myself body to body with Adam and I gulped.
All I could do was try -and fail at not staring. He eyed me and chuckled softly. “You’re up early.” I finally managed to mutter. Adam shrugged and I caught him eyeing the other attachment that was still hooked to the mixer, sitting on top of the counter. I gave a soft laugh and turned a little, detaching it and holding it out to him.
He took it and I bit my lip as I watched his tongue trailing slowly over the curved bits of the attachment. After he’d licked it clean, he held it out, this soft sort of little smirk on his face as he did so. “Everythin’ okay, darlin?”
“I.. yeah. Yeah, everything is totally fine.” I tangled my fingers in my hair, dragging them through as I held his gaze. Adam chuckled and spoke up calmly. “Your bacon is burnin, woman.”
“What? No… Well fuck.” I groaned as I shook my head. Adam hurried over to the stove, grabbing the skillet and wrinkling his nose at the smell of burnt bacon while laughing. He made his way to the garbage, hurriedly tossing the burnt bacon down into the trash. All I could really do was stand there and laugh at myself.
And shake my head about it, of course.
I swear, sometimes this man can bring out my true inner awkwardness without so much as anything more than a smile.
My alarm started to go off again and I groaned as soon as I realized that meant it was 8:30 and time for me to get upstairs to my room, to my laptop. Because I had a classroom of students waiting for me on Zoom.
I opened the cabinets, rummaging around for the brightly colored Fiestaware plates I’d picked up a few months ago, taking a turquoise one and an orange one out, sitting them on the counter top. Adam was standing at the stove, apparently, he’d decided he just couldn’t eat breakfast without meat of some kind, so he was making sausage. Despite my trying not to, I found myself just sort of watching him. Thinking about how much more relaxed it was than I’d anticipated the night before when he got in. I’d been fearing there would be this overwhelming awkward tension between us, given how little we actually know about each other.
It was nice to discover that I was potentially wrong about the situation.
Adam happened to look up and over at me, catching me in mid stare. I quickly diverted my eyes, focusing on the growing pile of bacon on a navy blue plate sitting nearby and reaching out to take one. He reached out at the same time and our hands brushed and we both just sort of stared at each other for a second or two before Adam broke it in half, holding out one piece to me, sticking the other piece into his mouth and chewing it up.
“I make you nervous or somethin’, darlin?” Adam finally asked the question after the silence became too much for him.
… oh you have no idea, sir… and i’m watching your rodeos now and… every single time you tug at those jeans before you get onto your bull to ride, it does something to me… the thought came, but I shook my head quickly, taking another bite of the half of bacon he’d given me a second ago. “What makes you think that?”
“I don’t know, you just seem tense or something.” Adam muttered it quietly, glancing down at the countertop as if he were already assuming the worst. He looked up and over at me and I bit my lip, taking a sip of the coffee I’d just poured myself.
… really? I thought I was handling this pretty well, all things considered… I mulled it over as I finished eating the strip of bacon and finally, I sighed. “Probably just stress from everything going on right now. You definitely do not make me nervous. You’re probably about as scary as a box of kittens if I have to be honest, Mr. Page.”
“We’ve been livin here together for a while now. You can call me Adam.” he chuckled quietly, stepping a little closer and shaking his head as he stared down at me.
“Sorry, it’s just force of habit?” I apologized, shrugging as I studied him intently, smiling in the hopes it would reassure him.
I mean… Technically, I’m being honest. It’s not him that makes me nervous and flustered, it’s the way he makes me feel whenever we’re around each other. So technically, I reminded myself a second time, my nervous feelings have nothing at all to do with him.
“It’s okay.” Adam gave this gentle and teasing sort of smirk as he held out another piece of bacon to me. I took it, grateful to have something to shovel into my mouth and take my mind off of exactly what feelings his sudden closeness and presence  did stir up in me.
Definitely longing. Attraction. So many emotions I couldn’t quite put my fingers on just yet. I reached for some syrup to put on my pancakes and as I turned to do it, I found myself body to body with Adam in the middle of the kitchen. I gulped when I felt one of his hands brush against my hip and he bit his lip, nodding to the counter. “Somethin you need?”
“The maple syrup.” I managed to get it out, even as I felt his hand brush right against my skin again. If I were a lot bolder, I’d almost assume he was flirting with me. As soon as the thought crossed my mind, I shoved it right back out.
Because there’s no way he’s flirting right now. Nope. Not at all.
His laughter got my attention and as soon as I realized that I’d missed my pancakes and drizzled maple syrup haphazardly over my plate instead, I felt my cheeks heating. Cutting into the stack and dipping them in the syrup, I met his gaze boldly. “Bold of you to assume I didn’t do that on purpose, Mr… I mean Adam.”  I corrected myself quickly, remembering that me calling him Mr. Page apparently didn’t sit well with him.
He shrugged and took a bite of his own stack of pancakes and then a sip of orange juice, groaning as soon as he’d swallowed the juice down. “Is this real oranges?”
“Mhm. That’s how my grams always did it. Hand squeezed. Tastes better than a crapload of sugar, I think.”
“It really does.” Adam muttered through a mouthful.
“Shit. I need to finish this and get upstairs. I may be home but I’m still workin..” I muttered, mostly to myself. Adam nodded and took a few bites of his food, asking the question, “Think you might wanna help me out later? Gonna go check the cows.”
“Of course! Hey… if things get weird like I figure they will, dumbasses panic buying all the things.. Couldn’t hurt to think about a garden or something.” I threw out the suggestion, half expecting him to think I was crazy or in panic mode.
Panic mode he wouldn’t be entirely wrong about because I have been freaking out a little.. No, I’ve been freaking out a lot since this virus hit. Either way, I was more than a little surprised when he reached out, fluffing at my hair and nodding thoughtfully while giving me one of those bright grins of his. “It’s not a bad idea, actually. I can go to town later, pick up some things.”
“You don’t have to..” I trailed off and Adam shrugged, chuckling. “I’m here, might as well do somethin’ useful.”
I gave a nod and raked out my food into the compost bucket, sitting my dish in the sink. Adam did the same and after a few seconds, he spoke up again. “Thanks.”
“For what, exactly?” I raised a brow as I asked the question. All I do here is literally what he asks me to do and tries to pay me for. I dragged my fingers through my hair, taking another sip of coffee while I waited on him to answer my question.
“Not bailin out and going back to the city when all this shit broke.” Adam smiled at me and I nodded, shrugging. Honestly, I moved out here to escape the city. To clear my head.
To live that simpler life I enjoyed as a kid at my grandparents house over summer break.
And maybe, my mind saw fit to remind me, you sticking around has everything to do with a certain bull rider, hmm? - but of course, since I’m not willing to admit that and risk making things extremely awkward, I shoved that thought right out of my head.
“Like I said. It’s not a big deal. I wanted to get outta the city, there’s really nothing there for me.” - it wasn’t a lie either, all I left behind was a tiny and crappy apartment, a string of failed and bad relationships and teaching a group of kids who were so used to hearing they’d never amount to shit that they were preconditioned to not even attempting to learn and try to get themselves out of their situations. It was disheartening on a good day, downright depressing on a bad one. I sighed and gave him a smile.
“Hey.. If you really want to go into town and look into getting seeds and stuff, wait until I’m done with this Zoom class? I’d like to go too.”
Adam smiled, nodding. “Aren’t you late for your own class,ma’am?” he teased as he held my gaze and leaned in a little closer. When he trailed his thumb over the corner of my mouth I gave a soft giggle and he explained quietly, “You, umm.. Syrup.” and I thanked him for getting it, going silent for a second or two.
“Yeah, but I’m pretty sure a good half of them aren’t even up and functional yet. It’ll surprise me if anyone’s even signed into the classroom and waiting.” I gave a soft laugh and grabbed the rest of my coffee and Adam leaned out of the kitchen to holler down the hall after me jokingly, “Hey, teach! You might consider puttin on pants before you start your lesson, right?”
I looked down and palmed my face, biting my lip. “Fuck.”
Maybe he was right. Maybe I was really tense around him. I stopped at the top of the stairs, leaning against the hallway wall to really think about it. Now that we’re all sheltering in place I’m going to have to find some way to work around all the feelings this man stirs up in me. Otherwise, I’m going to lose my damn mind.
“Okay, tomorrow we’re going to start on time.” I was smiling as I signed off of Zoom, giving one last wave goodbye to the students who’d actually signed on to be in class. We’d mostly talked about how hard things were around our little rural area because of the shelter in place. Then we’d gone over a history lesson and done a little english.
I stood and stretched, turning to peek through the curtains out of my bedroom window. And I bit my lip as soon as I realized that the noise I’d been hearing earlier was apparently Adam, who’d gotten bored from the looks of it, and was going over a section of land with the tractor, breaking up dirt.
I gave a soft laugh, pressing my hand against the window and shaking my head. “I meant a little garden, sir.” I mumbled quietly as I made myself step away from the window and focused on throwing on some of my older jeans and one of my favorite old plaid shirts. I was tugging on my boots at the front door of the house when Adam walked in, sweaty and grimy. I wrinkled my nose at him and he chuckled. “First a beer, then shower. I know, darlin. Looks bad.”
“You’re a little burnt on your shoulders actually. How long have you been out there?”
“Long enough to get everything disked up and ready. Now all we gotta do is go into town and buy seeds and stuff.”
“Yeah, about that.. To clarify, I said garden.”
“And? That’s what I did, woman.”
“That’s a field, sir.” I gestured to the window, to the plot of land he’d just spent an entire half day plowing and preparing to plant. It was… definitely much bigger than your typical ‘garden’ plot. Not bigger than my grandparents, but they were also farmers too, and they liked to take produce down to market and sell it 2 to 3 times a year.
Adam was just a semi pro bull rider who rodeoed most of the year and raised cattle and horses or broke horses the rest.
“Not out here, it ain’t. I got the land, might as well put it to use, right?” Adam dragged his fingers through his hair, giving that lazy grin that was notorious for making my stomach flutter ever-so-slightly. “Sides.. Maybe if I can get it growin now and this thing lasts as long as people are talkin about, I can give the stuff we don’t use to some of the neighbors down the road or somethin.”
“Yeah, true.” I agreed and bit my lip, shaking myself out of deep thought when I remembered that he’d mentioned something to drink. I started to walk towards the kitchen where he’d vanished to but almost as soon as I hit the doorway, he was leaning in it lazily, staring down at me.
And me, being lost in the blue of his eyes, well.. I couldn’t do anything but stare right back. I cleared my throat and muttered quietly, “I was gonna grab a glass of tea.”
Adam stepped aside, but not quickly enough because we wound up brushing against each other in the doorframe. And again, I felt his hand lingering at my side subtly.
“I still say I make ya nervous, darlin.” Adam spoke up from where he stood as I poured my glass of tea after reaching the fridge. I gave a soft laugh, shrugging it off and I looked up, meeting his gaze. “I still argue you’re wrong, Adam.”
Adam coughed, but I heard him clearly say Bullshit as he did so. I gave a shrug and a teasing look as I took another sip of my tea. “Whether you believe me or not, Adam, that’s on you.”
He chuckled and took a few more quick sips of his long neck bottle before clearing his throat. “Should probably get showered so we can get goin. Curfew and all.”
“Yeah, this is true.” I answered, sitting down the glass I’d been drinking from and looking up at him.
“Days just seem to bleed into each other right now, ya know?” Adam mused and I nodded in agreement. They certainly did. Each one passing slower than the last. He’d only been here a day and a half. I’d been dealing with this part of it for almost four. I had the strong feeling that by the third day, the poor guy was going to be going stir-crazy.
And hopefully, just because we were now having to do the actual  cohabitating part of our arrangement, with him here now, things would  be just a little easier than I’d originally seen this whole thing going, when I thought Adam wouldn’t be coming back home until his usual and expected end of rodeo season.
Then again, I found myself thinking, literally no one ever saw any of this coming. And maybe I should just make the best of the situation, stop making it awkward, stop being so tense around Adam. This arrangement we had going did not have to be awkward at all.. Putting my own…. Attraction to the man aside, we could definitely be friends, there was no harm in that. I got it set firmly in my mind that rather than continuing to dwell on just how attracted to Adam I was, I was simply going to try for co-existing and hopefully, if I was lucky, making friends with him.
Given my luck in more recent years, -all of it bad, that was probably the far better thing to do.
Even as I made the decision, I got the distinct feeling that just trying to be friends was… Going to be a little more challenging than I thought.
Still, I thought to myself as I put the empty glass into the sink to wash later, I could at least try. That would definitely make this whole shelter in place scenario so much easier for both of us.
Adam was showering so I sat down at the dining table after going through the pantry and the fridge and the cabinets to see what we’d need to get us through for a few weeks. I’d just finished making my list when I heard him chuckle from behind me.
“Oh how cute, she’s makin a list.” Adam teased and I glanced up at him, poking out my tongue. “So I can get in, get what I know is needed and get out.”
“Where’s the fun in that though, hm?” Adam questioned, blue eyes fixed on me and gazing deep into my own. Almost as if he were definitely trying to distract me, which of course, it did work. I grumbled and tore the sheet of paper free from the magnetized notepad I usually kept on the door of the fridge and held it out. “Either way, fun or not, it is all stuff we’re going to need. So, if you don’t mind, hang onto that?” I asked, pretending to pout when he took the list and eyed it as if he were going to crumple it only to slip it in the pocket of faded blue jeans.
“I make no promises,darlin. If I see junk food, I’m buyin junk food.” Adam waved his hands and I couldn’t help but smile at it because it was just… Cute? Okay, that sounds so frickin cheesy… But it’s true? He looked cute. As if he were a kid, trying to tell his mother he hadn’t done something that his mother probably knew full well he had.
I eyed him and shook my head, laughing. “Okay, alright. It’d be nice to have a pint of ice cream later.” I grabbed my keys from the key rack on the iron ‘home’ key rack hanging beside the door and I turned to him, tossing them. “You’ve been staring at my car since I moved in. I know you want to drive it.”
He pretended to scoff for a second or two, but he quickly grabbed the keys from my hand, giving me that boyish smirk and sending my heart race again. “It’s just because I want to find out if Dodge really is a good company.. Ya know, being a Ford or Chevrolet guy myself for so long.”
“You do realize that Ford stands for Found On Road Dead, right?”
“Hey, hey.. No need in bein mean, darlin. Besides, your little sports car is probably just fast and not built to last.” Adam was stepping closer, staring down at me, biting his lip. If I were a lot more self assured, I’d almost want to say he was staring at my lips like… No, he didn’t want to kiss me.
He probably sees women who are so much prettier on the daily when he’s out being a rodeo star. He probably takes them back to his hotel, I found myself thinking next, having to clear my throat abruptly just to clear my mind and get the focus back on our outing. Adam’s hand lightly squeezed my side and he chuckled to himself, shaking his head.
“What?”
“It’s nothin. C’mon, let’s go get this done.” Adam was reaching out over my shoulder to push the front door open and when he brushed against me as he leaned in a little to do so, I looked up at him. “I warn you, it’s an absolute madhouse in town. And if you think we’re getting toilet paper or anything? Likely not.”
“Why toilet paper?” Adam questioned, a brow raised as he shook his head and muttered about some people and their overwhelming lack of common sense. I sighed and shrugged, making my way to my Challenger, standing by the passenger door as I tapped my foot and waited on him. When he finally got to the car, he eyed me. “You’re not in?”
“You have the key. City girl here, remember? I never just leave my car or the house unlocked… Speaking of… You did lock up the place… Right?”
“Darlin, we are in the middle of nowhere.” Adam pointed out, gazing at me before turning to look back at the front door to the house after he’d aimed my key fob at the car to unlock it. “Sides.. I can’t exactly lock up the barn and stables, all the valuable stuff is in there.”
“Doesn’t matter, Adam. The door needs to be locked. You never know what could happen.” I pointed it out mildly, going on to tell him that 3 times in a month my old apartment had actually been broken into before I left the city to move out here. He eyed me in concern and I quickly reassured with a shrug, “I wasn’t home for any of them, thankfully. Does piss me off knowing that given all the bigger scale crime though, actually doing something about it would’ve done nothing in the end.”
“You didn’t report it?” Adam gaped at me, shocked when I admitted that I hadn’t tried to actually get anything done about it. I almost wanted to cringe, thinking back about it because it was one of those things, ya know? Where you suck at defending yourself for the most part and getting fucked over becomes the norm. You just kind of let it ride, go with it and hope for the best down the road. If you’re wondering, yes. I did this a lot. And yeah, on occasion I do still do it. It’s just.. Easier… Not to be a troublemaker or make waves.
I opened my mouth and closed it again, giving a defeated sigh. Nothing I could say to explain it would make this any more logical, I could just see it in his eyes. He was genuinely confused as to why I didn’t try to report it.
“It’s not really friendly there like it is around here, okay? Besides, the cops have a lot more important things to worry about, like the actual murders and robberies that happen all the time.” I explained it away, but I felt it boiling at my gut all over again, the anger I’d felt all three occasions to coming back, discovering that a few possessions and some money were gone. The pathetic excuse and my lack of action was also still eating at me and this had taken place a year ago.
Adam cleared his throat and dug around, finding his house key as he muttered, “I’ll go lock the door. Can’t hurt.” and I gave him a relieved look, getting into the passenger side of the car. He hurried back down the brick front steps and got into the driver seat, taking off down the long dirt driveway. As we drove into town, I squirmed in my seat a little.
One, I’m not used to being a passenger in my car. Like at all. Two, I was starting to feel that thick tension creeping back in. The air seemed like it hung heavy with words not said. It was starting to get to me, so I guess that’s why I reached out, turning down the volume on the radio. Adam seemed to be off in his own mind too, because when I finally thought of something to say, “Looks like it’s gonna rain soon.” he muttered a quiet and thoughtful, “Probably so.” and swore under his breath because he’d just spent over half the day plowing up the ground and the rain might mess all that up now. I couldn’t help but give a quiet laugh.
“Just curious, darlin… Ain’t you got… Like… family or a man back in the city?” the question came totally out of the blue and when I glanced over, he was doing it again, giving me that look all over again.
“I don’t, actually. My parents and I aren’t exactly on speaking terms. As far as a relationship, haven’t really… Been in one of those for almost two years now. I..” I paused, biting my lip and taking a deep breath, “got burned really bad in the last one.”
Adam nodded, muttered quietly, “Me too.. On the relationship thing, I mean. Parents are livin in some retirement community out in Colorado. My dad’s idea.” Adam shrugged and reached out, turning the volume up just a little, leaving me to kind of sit there and puzzle out what he’d just admitted.
Okay, in what world is a hunky semi-pro bull rider not involved with at least one person? And he certainly seemed like a nice enough guy from the little we’d interacted since I moved into his house… It definitely made me wonder and it only further drove home the fact that maybe getting to know the man I’m cohabitating with isn’t a bad idea at all.
I mean… we should know a lot more about each other than we already do.
The local supermarket came into view and Adam pulled my car into one of the closer spots to the door, sitting there for a few seconds as if he wanted to say something else. When he finally did break the silence, it was to gently repeat something he’d said earlier in the morning.
“Ya know.. We’re stuck together in this. Wouldn’t hurt to get more comfortable around each other, I’d think.”
“No, it definitely wouldn’t.”
He smiled at me and then raised slightly in his seat, digging out my list, holding it out to me. “Your list, darlin.”
“Tease all you want, but when you’re back at the house and we actually have everything we need to last a while, you’ll see the reasoning there.” I laughed softly, taking the slip of paper from his hand. For a second or two, our fingertips brushed and I bit my lip. He did the same before answering with a shrug, “Won’t matter if I wanted a candy bar or somethin and we don’t have that.”
“You’ll get your junk, sir. Are we going in or are we just gonna sit out here and talk about it all night, cowboy?” I teased, almost wanting to cringe at the flirtatious tone in my voice while also praying to hell that Adam didn’t actually… Read that much into things, because it hadn’t really been intentional. My breath caught in my throat when he eyed me a second or two, this soft and laughing smirk on his face as he got out. I got out too, shutting the door behind me and Adam locked the car, extending his arm. I grabbed a cart and bit my lip when I felt his chest ever so slightly brushing into my back.
He chuckled softly next to my ear. “I still say I make you nervous.” he dared to say it and I bit down on my lip harder, taking a deep breath, turning slightly to look over my shoulder at him, my head shaking and a teasing grin on my face.
I mean… If he’s gonna tease me, why not, right?
“I do believe someone is ignoring social distancing protocols, sir.” I stepped from beneath the way he had his arms on either side of me, his hands on the cart handle and slunk over to the potatoes, grabbing a 5 lb. bag and returning with it, putting it into the cart, flashing him yet another little smile and laughing.
Adam chuckled, grabbing for a bag of apples near the fruits and vegetables, putting them into the cart. “Cute diversion. But I’m still goin by what I said earlier at the house. For some reason, I make you real nervous.”
“Nope.” I’d turned away, busying myself with buying ketchup, mustard and mayonnaise and when I turned back with the three bottles, I found myself body to bod with him again and he was staring down at me thoughtfully, reaching for two of the three bottles in my hand to sit them into the cart. He didn’t break his gaze a single time and I found my breath catching.
Something my grandma said to me once about her and Grandpa came rushing back to me and I mulled it over before quickly shoving it right out of my head.
I barely know Adam. This is just me, being awkward as fuck because I have always been awkward as fuck around men I’m attracted to. It has to be… Right?
But gazing up at him as he gazed right back, I suddenly wasn’t as confident in that as I’ve been up to this point. I mean… I keep feeling like he’s flirting with me. Like he feels truly comfortable around me and this is the real Adam… Not the Adam I’m used to seeing after a winning round at whatever rodeo he happens to be riding in on television when I watch. He’s not cocky, not intense.. He’s just.. A genuinely sweet and good guy. Funny, down to earth and charming.
I tried to get a grip of myself as he started to laugh quietly and reached out, taking the paper from my hand. “Maybe if each of us takes half…” he suggested and I swallowed hard, shaking my head, giving him a smile. “No, no. No. Today’s just been… Weird. I’m used to being alone when I do this. But this is fine, I’m having a good time. And for the last time, no… you do not make me nervous. Not even a little.” I said it in a rush and he chuckled, shrugging as he grabbed a jar of pickles and put them into the cart.
“Whatever you say, darlin. What’s next then?”
“Uh… You’re gonna love this. The mandatory junk food and quick meals.” I joked gently, making him laugh as he pointed out, “You do realize I can cook, right?”
“Yeah, but you’re in and out of hotels at least 100 plus days a year, so…”
“And yet, you nearly burnt down the kitchen just this morning.”
“Bite me.”
“Where, darlin?” Adam joked, again with that grin that I couldn’t tell whether he was being a tease or whether he was… Really flirting with me… Like he was into me.
Then again, I’ve never been good at deciphering cues or hints, to begin with. So, I don’t dare get my hopes up that high.
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yourfavlistenstovocaloid · 5 years ago
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I review my blog’s statistics for this year but I actually haven’t had this blog for 365 days yet and this also isn’t a review of statistics it’s actually me rambling
As I am writing this, it is 5:05 P.M. on the 1st of January. I have set this to queue in a little less than 3 hours, which is at 8 P.M. on this same day. I know for a fact that it is the 2nd of January in some timezones, but I can’t rewind time to write this earlier. There is a candle to the right of me that is supposed to crackle like a fireplace but it’s just going “snjfhsnebfsefmgawejyfg” and I lost my earbuds so I can’t drown it out. I don’t know why I told you that last part.
I started this blog on the 18th of October 2019 on an impulse. For some reason, my brain went ‘is there a your fav listens to vocaloid blog’ so I entered the url and there was none, but instead of checking other possible urls like a normal person, I made this. (Later, I checked, and yes this is the only one.)
The first post I made was this post right here before starting to set everything up. Once I had the flag ready, the (very basic) rules set out, and the explanation put up, I opened submissions.
The first vocaloid post I made was Hatsune Miku listens, which also stayed my top post for (nearly) this entire year, coincidentally.
I can’t say for sure what was the first ask I got that I don’t know the person who sent it was, but I know I didn’t really start getting strangers sending asks until late November to early December.
Earthworm Len was the first post I made that I saw someone I had never talked to that reblog. I have had many strangers reblog my posts in the past, but never before have I seen it on my activity page from someone I wasn’t friends with. That was a huge shock and it made me pretty happy.
Qbby was the first post I queue’d on here. Right now, I have a queue that posts something every 8 hours, so that is 4 a day. I change it depending on how many asks I get in a day. 
And now, for today’s statistics.
I get more and more asks by the day- I usually get around 3 per day now, which is a huge upgrade from the one a week I was getting when I first started.
I made 1 new friend through this, which is 1 more friend than I thought I would make. 
I have 104 posts (this is my 105th). 85 are vocaloid posts and 19 aren’t, if I counted correctly. Happy 20th not vocaloid post?
My follower count is...
Oh.
Perfect timing.
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69 followers. 41 of which were in December only.
The amount of things I do that ‘your fav’ blogs are supposed to do is at... two! (I made that number up but it’s true, I have no idea what I’m doing)
I somehow have over 1,000 notes? I can’t see exactly how many, but in this past month it’s been 1,103. That’s probably pretty close to how many I have in total.
My top post in total is you. No, I don’t mean that in a cheesy way or anything, I mean that ‘You listen to Vocaloid!’ has 223 notes, which is OVER TRIPLE my second most popular post, the previously mentioned Hatsune Miku (which is tied with Earthworm Len right now). It took less than a day for it to get past Miku and it is still growing, even now.
The amount of my posts that others have reblogged that I have searched for on their blogs so I could simply read their tags? (I worded that terribly but it doesn’t matter because nobody is going to want to read this) All of them. Every. Single. One. That’s right, I’ve seen all of you people thanking me for making your posts, saying a simple ‘haha yeah’, or just a blank area where the tags should be. I have one thing to say to you people: 
Thank you for submitting. Thank you for laughing. Thank you for enjoying this blog.
If you got this far, thank you for reading this ramble. Sorry for stalking your reblogs, pretend I didn’t say that because I love reading them. If you... for some reason read this, happy new year, or happy 2nd of January, or happy middle of May. I don’t know when you will be reading this.
Uh. bye
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KoL Prompt: 26 - “Whisky is a perfectly acceptable alternative to turkey”
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Gold was beginning to wish he hadn’t agreed to come out for a drink.  Granny’s bar had been reasonably quiet when he and Dorothy had arrived, but now the dinner service was in full swing, and the raucous laughter and clatter of cutlery against plates was making him flinch.  Jefferson suggested that they get a booth, which cut a little of the noise, and ordered burgers and fries for the two of them, slapping the large padded envelope he had brought on the table next to him.  Gold wasn’t hungry, but he didn’t say anything about the burger, figuring that Jefferson wouldn’t listen, and Dorothy would probably eat it if no one else did.
He wished that he could stop stressing out over what she might find out; he told himself that it was likely that Belle both had a boyfriend and was happy with him.  After all, who would ever treat her poorly, if they were lucky enough to be with her?  Her boyfriend would be intelligent and funny and outgoing, easily making friends and with a good career.  He was probably the outdoors type, which was why he looked tanned. The two of them no doubt went hiking or skiing together.  She would have met him at college, and they would go on to get married and settle in a pretty little suburban house and have three kids who they would take upcountry at the weekends.  She’d be happy.
Jefferson was rattling on about some new procedure he’d been reading about, but Gold was only listening with half an ear as he constructed the perfect life for Belle inside his head.  Eventually Jefferson sighed, clicking his fingers in front of Gold’s eyes and making him jump.
“You’re not even listening, are you?” he said, sounding both irritated and amused.
“Sorry,” said Gold, and Jefferson shook his head.
“Fine, I’ll stop with the work talk,” he said.  “Thought it might pull you out of yourself for awhile.  You done with that drink?”
Gold nodded, pushing his glass across the table and reaching into his pocket for some cash.
“Next round’s on me.”
“Fine, but you’d better eat something when the food gets here,” warned Jefferson.  “I’m not carrying you home, okay?”
“Don’t fuss,” sighed Gold.
“Yeah, you can say that, but I still remember Glinda’s birthday party.  I’m not doing duets with you when you’re drunk: you can’t hold a high note and it cramps my karaoke style.”
Gold chuckled.
“I promise to pace myself,” he said.  “Are you working Christmas Day?”
“Nah, Whale said he’d cover,” said Jefferson.  “I covered last year, and it’s nice to spend the whole day with Grace.  You could always come over, you know.  Have Christmas dinner.”
“I’m working,” said Gold.
“After your shift, then,” said Jefferson.  “I don’t like thinking of you alone with a bottle of whisky on Christmas Day.”
“Whisky is a perfectly acceptable alternative to turkey,” said Gold absently.
“As a doctor I can assure you that isn’t the case.”
“Well, maybe I’ll come over for a drink, then,” he said, sitting back.  “It’ll probably be late, though.”
“There’ll be plenty of leftovers, don’t worry.”
“Thank you,” said Gold, and meant it.  “I suppose you’re off work on New Year’s Eve, too?”
“I’m gonna be in this place, waiting to see out the year with a bang,” confirmed Jefferson.  “You working?”
“As always.”
“Next year you should let someone else take over for once.”
“You volunteering?” asked Gold, with a grin, and Jefferson pulled a face.
“Oh, God no!”
“Thought not.”
The diner door opened with a blast of cold air, and they both looked around as Dorothy hurried over, shrugging out of her coat and pulling her hat from her head.
“Right,” she said briskly, fixing Gold with a beady eye.  “It’s as I thought.  You’re a fucking moron and the guy she’s with is just a friend.  Engaged to someone else, as it happens.  So would you pull your pretty head out of your ass and ask the poor girl out before she dies of old age?”
Gold felt his heart clench, but he tried to keep his emotions in check, reaching for his glass before realising it was empty and letting his fingertips dance awkwardly on the table top.  He licked his lips.
“She’s - she’s single?” he asked, and Dorothy rolled her eyes.
“I’d like to ask what gave you the impression that she wasn’t, but we all know low self-esteem’s a fucking drag, so just trust me on this one, okay?  She’s single.  Very single and very in love with you and very eager to say yes if you just fucking ask her.”
“Right,” he said, his voice echoing strangely in his head.  “Right.  Okay.  I - I’ll give it some thought.”
“I swear by all the gods…” she sighed, sinking into the seat opposite.  “Fine.  I’ve done my bit, it’s up to you now, you big dork.  Is that my drink?”
“I ordered a couple of burgers, as well,” said Jefferson.
“Good, I’m starving.”
She took a slurp of her drink, and Jefferson waved a hand to get Ruby’s attention.  She blushed a little as she came over, and Dorothy became very interested in her drink.  Gold rolled his eyes.
“Can we get another round?” asked Jefferson.  “And maybe an extra portion of fries?”
“Sure thing!” chirped Ruby.
She jotted down the order before trotting off, and Gold eyed Dorothy.
“You know, for someone who talks a lot of shit to me about asking people out, you’re really no better,” he said, and she frowned.
“Shut up.  I’m - preparing myself.”
“To do what?” asked Jefferson.  “Perfect the art of telepathy and ask her out that way?”
“Don’t you start on me,” she said, wagging a finger.  “I don’t see you dating anyone.”
He shrugged at that.
“Too busy being a dad,” he said.  “If Grace suddenly turns around and decides she wants another parent, I’ll be back on the market.  Besides, I haven’t had anything more serious than a one-nighter in years, and I’m way too pretty to get hurt.”
“Why am I taking relationship advice from you two idiots?” remarked Gold.
“Because we care,” said Dorothy.  “And we want to see you coming into work happy.”
“With that post-coital glow I just know Belle wants to give you,” added Jefferson.  “And that you’re just dying to give her.”
Gold frowned at him.
“I’m stressing out enough about my Secret Santa present, without worrying about something that will probably never happen, thank you.”
“Well, you could always give her one of these,” announced Jefferson, patting the padded envelope in front of him.
“What’s in there?”
“Our calendars, what do you think?”  Jefferson beamed as Gold groaned.  “I got some advance copies.  They’re shipping the rest next week.  I’m on the front cover!  Take a look!”
He opened up the envelope, sliding out three of the calendars and handing them over.  Jefferson’s picture graced the front, a pose which had him looking off into the distance as he prepared a syringe, one knee up on the edge of a gurney, the leg bent enough that it hid his genitals.  His belly was pulled taut, his muscles well-defined, and Gold could understand why he’d made the cover.
“Well, you look good,” he admitted.  “Perhaps they didn’t bother adding my picture in.  No doubt it would spoil the aesthetic.”
“Au contraire, Dr December,” said Jefferson.  “You look awesome.”
Gold began flipping through the calendar, grinning as he saw Miss Blanchard, photographed with a jug of water obscuring one breast and a small pot plant hiding the other, a thoughtful expression on her face.  Next was Graham, toned and perfect, one hand on the frame of a saline drip and another holding a patient’s chart in front of his groin.  Dorothy’s picture had her with her back to the camera, looking back over her shoulder with a glint in her eye and a grin on her face as she held up a blood pressure cuff.
“I look hella cute,” she observed.
“Okay, here are your dri— oh!”  Ruby’s eyes went wide as she saw the calendar, and she blushed fiercely, pushing the tray of drinks onto the table.  “Um - your order.”
“Thanks,” said Gold, and smiled at her.  “Charity calendars for the hospital, Miss Lucas.  Perhaps you’d like to buy one.”
“I - uh - sure,” she said lamely.  “I’d love to.  It’s - it’s for a good cause, right?”
“Nurse Gale is looking particularly fine, wouldn’t you agree?”
“Yeah,” she said, blushing harder as Dorothy buried her head in the calendar. “I’ll - um - just get your food.”
She rushed off quickly, dark hair swishing.
“I hate you,” said Dorothy, from behind the calendar.
“No you don’t.”
Gold turned the page, grinning as he saw Leroy with nothing but his security guard’s hat protecting his modesty.  The man was seriously hairy.  He turned the page again, revealing the month of May, and his heart skipped a beat. The picture was taken from above, and Belle was lying on the hospital gurney on her front, resting on her elbows.  She was completely naked, her feet kicked up behind her and crossed at the ankles.  Dark curls tumbled over her pale shoulders, and there was a medical textbook open in front of her, a copy of Gray’s Anatomy.  She was looking up at the camera through thick dark lashes, smiling slightly, a hint of promise in her expression, and he swallowed hard as his gaze travelled up the page, along the groove of her spine and over the perfect curves of her buttocks.  The sight of her made his heart thump.
“I’m guessing it’s gonna be May at your place for the rest of the year,” observed Dorothy snidely, and he sucked in a breath, flipping the page and seeing nothing.
“Holy crap, Gold, where have you been hiding that ass?” asked Jefferson.
Gold sighed, flipping through the rest of the calendar until he reached December.  Looking the picture over critically, he supposed it could have been worse.  He was standing with his back to the camera, only his nose and the edge of one cheekbone visible as he studied the chart in his hand, the other grasping the handle of his cane.  He supposed his butt wasn’t bad, considering.  It wasn’t exactly something he had ever looked at.
“I don’t say this often, but that is one biteable butt,” added Jefferson.  “Damn those loose scrubs!”
“For fuck’s sake,” he muttered, as Dorothy and Jefferson chuckled.
“Just think, pretty soon everyone in Storybrooke’s gonna see that ass,” said Dorothy.  “Pretty sure you’ll get some new admirers.  Zelena’s probably gonna paper her walls with Dr December.”
“Thanks, that’s not at all terrifying.”
“Here are your burgers, and one extra fries,” announced Ruby, sliding plates onto the table.  “Oh, nice ass, Dr Gold.”
Gold frowned as Dorothy and Jefferson snickered.
“Told you,” said Dorothy.
“Miss Lucas, are you single?” asked Gold suddenly, and Ruby looked confused.
“I - uh - yeah, why?”
“Oh good,” he said lightly.  “Because Dorothy here is also single and would very much like to buy you a drink.  In fact why don’t I buy you both a drink and you can go and sit in a quiet corner somewhere and get to know each other? There’s some mistletoe over by the bar, I believe it’s an excellent ice-breaker when people want to kiss each other.”
Ruby’s mouth had fallen open a little and a shade of red was spreading up her cheeks.  Dorothy rounded on Gold with a look of fury in her eyes.
“Oh, so you can’t say ‘hi’ to Belle without freaking out like a big wuss, but the chance to embarrass me and all of a sudden you can’t stop flapping your mouth?”
“Oh my God, does he like Belle?” asked Ruby, wide-eyed.
“It’s - it’s not like that…” began Gold.
“Yes it is,” said Jefferson and Dorothy, and Ruby sighed in relief.
“Thank God, I was ready to ask you out for her myself,” she said.  “She likes you, okay?  More than likes you, if you must know.  Just ask her out and stop being a dork about it.”
She wandered off, still blushing, and Gold glared at her back.
“There,” said Dorothy, sounding satisfied.  “You heard the woman.”
“Fine!” he snapped.  “I’ll do it, if only to shut you up!”
“Never gonna happen, but okay.”
Gold flipped the calendar closed, cutting off the view of his rear end and reaching for his drink.  He was going to do it.  He was going to ask her out.  It was time.
“So it’s a no on the calendar for a Secret Santa present?” asked Jefferson. “Pity, that would have been easy.”
“She’ll already have ordered one,” he said grumpily.  “I need to get her something more - her.  Unique.”
“Well, that’s easy,” said Jefferson.  “Just think about what she likes, and what would make her happy.  Then try and condense that into something that costs around thirty bucks.  Piece of cake.”
“Easy for you to say,” said Gold absently, and tapped his fingers on the table top.  Something that would make her happy.  I wonder…
A thought occurred to him, and he sat up straight as it took form.  It might take some effort, and it wouldn’t technically cost anything beyond the calling-in of a favour, but if he could make it work, it would be perfect.  He grinned as he thought about it, reaching out for one of the fries.  Perhaps the festive season wouldn’t be so bad after all.
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inveesible · 6 years ago
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sorry it took so long @derelict-blade , and sorry if it's not what you expected >///<
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- the date on this thing says "October, 13, 2287", and all the clues lead me to believe that... the prototype 0078-yh...
- one of the functions of this thing is a journal on which I can write and save in a flash drive similar to a mini-disk (who uses mini-disks anymore?).I've decided to take note of everything that may help me understand what happened and to sort things out; if it's true that it's been 270 years since the day of my test on myself... no, I don't want to think about "that" question, now it's of no use to me.
- I managed to get out of this "vault", finally, only to come back with my tail between my legs. The scenery presented to me outside makes me believe that, at some point, during my hibernation, that atomic war finally happened.The state of the surrounding vegetation suggests that at least 50 years have passed.
- I think I killed all the giant cockroaches that infested the vault and I was able to make some terminals work, at least those are still intact... The hacking was so outdated that it was literally the last card I played. I found the diary of one of the scientists who worked here, and with it the confirmation of a nuclear strike occurred in date October 23, 2077; so they brought me here with the prototype between 2017 and 2077 and they used us to develop other cryopods, in which they locked twelve people against their will... those people survived the bombs just to be imprisoned here, maybe forever… or at least until the reactor stops working.
- I've had enough for today, I'll try to sleep and continue tomorrow. It's so cold here, but it could be me...
- 10/16: I decided to try to explore the surroundings once more, at the first giant spider that I meet I'll shoot myself straight in the head. I brought with me the gun I found, 22 bullets, no, 21... I’ll keep one for myself.
- before I left I checked the vital signs of the twelve hibernates, they are fine, as long as you can feel fine in a cryogenic induced coma... I promised (to who?) that every once in a while I'll be back to check on their conditions. now let's see how I handle this shit…
- I stopped almost immediately, at a gas station (?) a few steps from the vault. From the hillside you could see a hamlet, very small, maybe ten houses, but for now I prefer to avoid - I was going to write "population centres". I… I'm too scared of who or what I could find there, but here I was lucky, I met a dog, an healthy and friendly-looking German Shepherd... REGULAR SIZE. Good boy.
- from here you can see what looks like a water supply, and if it’s telling the truth, we are (meaning the dog and I) near Concord, meaning, we are not too far from Cambridge... I wonder if it wouldn't be better to… all I had was there... I need to see with my own eyes that... now...
- a few hours after leaving the gas station (??) it started raining, the dog and I (yes, he’s following me, and I must admit that I feel safer now), we found a shelter in an abandoned tool shed. I set up a bed and I locked myself in, now I want to take advantage of this time available to learn how to use this... wrist-computer (?); "pip-boy 3000" is says here, yeah there's no way I'm saying that...
- 10/17: I fell asleep while "playing" with this minicomputer, I were fooled by the puppy's body heat, or maybe it was his smell… but if it keeps away the beasts then it's worth it. I had breakfast with some canned water, I found old boxes of processed food that I don't trust to eat, I keep them aside for when I have no other choice... that could be a matter of hours, since I have not eaten in four days... oh right, 269 years, 10 months and 6 days, thanks a lot brain.
- the dog (I wonder if I should give him a name) hunted down a couple of birds to feed himself, I got a good look at them, he's so lucky he’s not a fussy.
- The dog is much smarter than many people I've met, he helped me find some medicines and A RIFLE! 38 caliber, telescopic sight, silencer, and 34 cartridges in a hip bag. Now I'm less afraid of meeting a giant spider... or nearly... He also brought me a can of Cram, regardless of the expiration date, I never liked it, but if I want to keep going with this experiment I'll have to come to terms with it, sooner or later.
- 10/18: I had to stop my entries because, like an idiot, I attracted a dogs pack with that goddamned Cram and... I had to... I've never shot anything alive before yesterday... I had never killed voluntarily... but those dogs were... I've never seen them so aggressive, they looked like those birds with which the dog (the friendly one) feeds occasionally, spot baldness, purulent sores, I managed not to get bit by the skin of your teeth. Who knows from what kind of bacterial mutant disease they were infected... they were five and... I shot three of them in the head after the dog (the friendly one) broke the first two's necks... then we had to run, I feared that the shots could have attracted something, or someone, even worse. Now we are safely locked in a wrecked bus, I cried for an hour and slept for another.
- it's an oddly beautiful full moon night, I can see the silhouettes of the buildings in Cambridge, if I leave at the first lights I could get to my old apartment by nightfall, if it works for everyone…
- in order to get my shit together I made an inventory of my "equipment": the clothes I'm currently wearing - a scarf (now in the bag) - my glasses - other sunglasses (now in the bag) - my pager (broken) - wallet - money ($ 518 in cash, $ 11 and 57 cents in change) - my I.D. did not survive the freezing, the data is illegible - 10mm gun - 17 ammo of the abovementioned gun - caliber 38 sniper rifle - 34 cartridges of the abovementioned rifle - 6 units of canned water - 1 unit of half eaten Cram (it sucks, but edible) - 2 units of Pork n’ Beans – 2 units of Fancy Lads Snack Cakes – a blue jumpsuit, new, too big for me (now in the bag).
- the food preservation industry has made tremendous strides while I was sleeping ... bah, America.
- inside the vault it didn't work properly, but I noticed that the radio of this minicomputer has intercepted some frequencies; as soon as I find a shelter I'll try to tune in. It's surely an indication of post-apocalyptic civilization, I don't know yet whether to rejoice or not.
-oh, this minicomputer also has a built-in thermometer, according to it I've a bit of fever and I'm almost dehydrated.
- I would give my left arm for a hot bath...
- … and the right one for some not 300-year-old cigarettes.
- I can't get those dogs out of my head... among all that happened to me, those dogs...
- it becomes increasingly difficult to avoid thinking of "that question"...
- 10/19 part 2: while I was having breakfast with the leftover of that Cram (ugh) I saw a person pass by, a woman, along the way nearby: she was alone, if we don't count the naked cow loaded with stuff (it had two heads?? Perhaps my dehydration is more severe than I expected), and she was armed, if we can consider weapon a gun made out of twigs and scrap metal (???), the dog was not alarmed, I was about to go and talk to her, but I'm a coward and I missed my chance...
- I waited to see her disappear behind a distant corner, then I waited another twenty minutes to not hear gunshots, at that point I followed her steps, we are pretty close to Cambridge, and more houses can mean more people, people who could be hostile, that's why I took the safe off.
- I wonder if it's not the case to go to the police station... I'm not stupid enough to hope to find Edward there, but maybe there’s some stock that could turn useful, weapons, ammunition, ESPECIALLY ammunition, better yet body armour, anti-aggression equipment... yes, it's DEFINITELY the case to go to the police station.
- Edward… when the war broke out he should have been 95... who knows if no fuck no, I can't think of this now, I don't want to do the same calculation for those assholes, they are dead, they are dead they are dead they are all dead I’m sorry Edward
- 10/19 part 3: I have two hours of light, I'm wasting time on this fire escape, it wasn't easy to get the dog up, he didn't want to hear of it, but I thought it was safer to try to get in from the roof, I didn't even see the main entrance... if there were people inside... if those people were armed and hostile... if that woman, that of the two-headed cow, went around armed there must be a reason... if those people were trying to kill me, how much further could I claim self-defense? Would I be able to defend myself? Would I be able to ... kill them before they kill me? This is going to be the most difficult experiment that I must ever conduct.
-OK that’s new: there are signs of recent activity, someone tried to set up a shelter in here, there’s ammo but no weapon, makeshift mattresses, FOOD, but I didn't touch anything; whoever did this could come back and I need to be ready, perhaps to fight, perhaps for a peaceful dialogue... I hope for the latter.
-10/21 I'm absolutely the most idiotic and lucky person in the world: after my last entry two days ago, due to the dog's body heat and to my belly full of 200 year old treats, I fell asleep AGAIN... I'm such a dumb shit…! The first unregistered voice that I heard in eight days woke me up, under threat and pointing to me what I later realized was a weapon, who highly invited me to identify myself and to declare my intentions. I've never been so close to wet my pants, but luckily that man was open to dialogue, maybe I'll write something about him and his group later, they are four, they know what they’re doing, and they don't want to hurt me... apparently.
- and now the bad news: when I was woken up the dog was gone. Danse, I mean Paladin Danse of the Brotherhood of Steel (?), said there was no dog with me when he found me, I looked for him a bit nearby the others warned me not to go too far because Cambridge is Ghoul infested (???)... that dog can take care of himself, he'll be fine... please let him be fine...
-Haylen wait, Scribe Haylen (oh my fucking god), is teaching me how to use the latest technology, hardware and stuff, she was nothing short of enthusiastic about my minicomputer, and advised me not to keep it inside my duffle bag, but always on my wrist (shit, it's as comfortable as a wooden underwear). She also told me to wear the jumpsuit I found in the vault, the one that was too big for me, because the fabric is made of a radiation-resistant material, has the ability to regulate body heat according as necessary and, lo and behold, it's not too big, the suit fits your size, you wear it, you wiggle in it a little bit, and it fits perfectly. I'm wearing it under my clothes, it's definitely TOO tight for my liking.
- speaking of radiations, Haylen says that the medicines I found are safe, in small doses even that pre-war food, although fresh food would be better (fresh food here???).
- I like Haylen, we share very much and I can talk to her pretty quietly, she asks a lot of questions, but can't say I wouldn't have done the same myself. Paladin Danse is doing his best to make me feel comfortable, he doesn’t always succeed, however I appreciate the effort, and his "power armor" is the coolest thing I've ever seen! Sometimes I find Knight Keane looking away from me, he hasn’t spoke to me in two days, almost makes me think he hates me, he would not be the first. Knight Rhys is dickhe
- Paladin Danse called a meeting in ten minutes, this time my presence is requested, and now that I'm writing it, I'm afraid it's because they've finally decided what to do with me...
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jj-lives · 6 years ago
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Answer 21, tag 21 people you would like to know better
I was tagged by @sachiel21 so thanks!
1. Nickname(s): JJ or Jay
2. Zodiac Sign: Cancer
3. Height: 5′8
4. Hogwarts House: Slytherin
5. Last thing you googled: conversion from Fahrenheit to Celsius... can’t we just all get on the Celsuid bandwagon please!!!
6. Favourite Musician(s): wooow. Mariana’s Trench, Kelly Clarkson, Miranda Lambert, Simple Plan, Green Day, Fallout Boy, Terri Clark.
7. Song stuck in my head: You can dance if you want to - please send help it’s been there for weeks... the person to blame you know who you are!
8. Following now: 157
9. Followers: ummm 317 now.   :) 
10. Do i get asks:  Ocassionally from the previous ship i was in... but I would love more asks from the rwby, writers, or Bumbleby fandoms.  I love interacting with all the people! “strangers are just friends you haven’t met yet.”
11. Amount of sleep: um.. average or last night.  like 3 hours last hight (coffe is my life) but average 5-6
12. Lucky Number: 15
13. What I’m wearing: well since I’m typing this up at work (shhhhh don’t tell my boss) I am wearing white blouse, black pants and a black cardigan, office wear is sooooo boring.
14. Dream job:  Veterinarian, or writer, or both.  But the first dream didn’t pan out so who knows about the second.  I have to start writing my original ideas I suppose if I’m going to do that lol.
15. Dream Trip: I don’t know, i lived in Canada for most my life and woudl travel throughout western canada and the States visiting friends I’ve met over the years online... Now I’m living in the UK, plan to travel a lot more now that it is so accessible for me to travel to europe.  Planning a trip to Slovakia in a couple months to visit a really great friend... that’ll be fun.. But dream trip... Greece.  I am in love with Greek Mythology. but I would prefer not to do that solo
16. Favourite food: at this point anything homecooked.  I can’t be bothered to cook for just myself so I do simple dishes.  Anyone wanna cook for me feel free to hit me up!
17. Instruments: I have played trumpet, clarinet, and keyboard for very short spans of time and very poorly.
18. Languages: English and very little French
19. Favourite song(s); ‘Maybe’, ‘Sober’ , ‘yeah’, ‘beautiful disaster’ all by Kelly Clarkson. ‘house that built me’ by miranda lambert. ‘Fallout’ , ‘Who do you love’, ‘You knew me when’ all by Mariana’s trench. ‘Valerie’ Amy Winehouse. ‘Smooth Criminal’ (glee version technically). and probably a bazillion more.
20. Random Fact: When I was 15 I took a school trip to Europe and Drank legally for the first time when I turned 16 in Rome.
21. Aesthetic: T-shirts, usually dark colours. jeans or capris pants... runners and a bunnyhug (hoodie for those non saskatchewanians).
- I literally do not know who to tag in this! ahhh. Guess I’ll just go through my recent notes and see who I’d like to learn more about seeing their beautiful names all the time when I post something.  @natblida-kryptonian @redkaedeleaf @im-a-gay-capybara (cuz you left such sweet notes on my last little short this weekend.) @fallofbeacon and @lilreadergurl Sorry if any of you have already answered these, no time to double check atm.  @ me in your answers please or where you’ve previously answered!
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cleverbroadwayurl · 6 years ago
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You Matter to Me (Jeremy Heere x Reader Pt 5)
Song: You Matter to Me from Waitress 
Need to Catch Up? PART 1 PART 2 PART 3 PART 4 
Want More? PART 6 PART 7 PART 8 PART 9 PART 10 PART 11 PART 12 PART 13 PART 14 PART 15 PART 16  PART 17 PART 18  PART 19
Word Count: 3858
A/N: Alright I promised some content; I’ve got content! I really didn’t want to split this up, but this night is a fic all on its own, so I decided that it should be split. Part 6 might be a little longer than this, but I’m hoping to get this one event out in 2 parts. If not, 2.5.
Taglist: @retrogarden
Trigger Warnings: abuse, shaky Jeremy, panic, mentions of bruises, mentions of slap marks, implied choking, Jeremy being a good friend and wholesome bean
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 In reality, Jeremy thought he got out of asking you out because he said he would do it in person. He was sure that he’d never see you again. Yeah, you two had the same circle of friends, but, again, it was rare to see you alone. And he couldn’t ask you out if you were standing right next to your boyfriend. And why were Rich and Jake so set on him asking you out? He knows for a fact that they’re both against the idea of cheating, so why in the world would they push him to ask you out? Maybe they meant as a friend thing. Yeah, they meant you two should be friends first and then if something happens, he could make his move, right?
Jeremy unpaused from Bioshock, his mind refocusing on the Big Daddies in the room. He had to get through this level. Michael had been bothering him about it for weeks, and now that Michael was away with his family for some reunion, it was the perfect time to do it. After about an hour of little to no progress, Jeremy decided to grab something to drink. He glanced at the clock to make sure that he wasn’t staying up too late like he did with Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess that one time. The clock read 1:06, yeah, he was fine. He walked into his kitchen and grabbed a glass, his eyes getting used to the minimal light in the room. He jumped when he heard a knock at the door.
Oh fuck. Jeremy had seen people play Duck Season and Welcome to the Game enough times to know that it was a serial killer, no doubt about that. He ran into his garage and grabbed a bat from when his dad thought that maybe Jeremy would want to play sports. He never did, but thank god Mr. Heere bought it. He raised it before opening the door, his hands shaking. Jeremy prepped to swing, painfully regretting not paying attention during the baseball portion of PE in middle school. How the hell was he supposed to swing this baseball bat hard if he had never learned to swing it properly in the first place?
But opening the door was priority. He didn’t care if it was some kidnapper or some weirdo in a dog suit, he had to open the door at some point. His hand turned the door knob quickly and he wound up. The door flung open and what Jeremy saw was more than surprising.
“(Y/N)?”
“Hey Jeremy. I—uh—I’m really sorry about this but could I maybe—uhm,” you took a break to look behind you frantically, “come in? For like an hour? That’s all I need, really. It would be a really big help to me and—”
Jeremy opened the door wider, his bat swinging downward. He set the metal weapon beside the door frame as you stepped inside of his house. His mind was running wild, oh fuck he was going to have to ask you out because he promised Rich that he would—
“Thank you oh my god Jeremy, thank you so much dude I can’t even tell you how grateful I am, seriously you’re a lifesaver, thank you so much.”
“It’s no problem”, Jeremy responded, quickly remembering that his dad was definitely asleep. “Let’s go down into my basement so my dad won’t interrupt us.”
“Yeah, okay,” you spoke softly and nodded. Jeremy lead the way down into the basement, he flinched at the difference in lighting, the Bioshock pause screen displaying the same thing it did when he first started to try and get past this level just a few hours ago. Jeremy turned around and saw you somewhat flinch at the brightness of the light in his basement, so he moved swiftly to dim the lights.
“Thank you,” you repeated, keeping your eyes staring towards the floor.
“It’s okay, seriously,” Jeremy smiled slightly. He had no idea what the heck you were doing in his house at 1 AM, but even now you were trying your best to be polite. You looked up at him finally. Jeremy could see the tear tracks that ran down your face, red blotches were apparent even in the newly dimmed light from the floor lamp in the corner. His heart shattered at your crying state and at his own actions. How did he not notice before? How did he not take note of the wavering in your voice or even the tears that could be seen in your smile? Was he really so caught up in thinking that you were some serial killer that he didn’t take into account how you were doing or why you had shown up at his house at such a strange hour?
He quickly grabbed the box of tissues that rested on the TV stand from when Christine and Michael came over to watch Les Miserables. He thanked himself over and over for leaving it there just in case they had a similar situation again. Jeremy offered you a tissue, his hand gripping the box so tightly that his knuckles were turning white. To say he was tense was an understatement. He wanted to help, god he did, but he had no idea how to help. He didn’t even know what was wrong. Had someone attacked you while you were walking home? He knew you had his address from that group project that seemed like an era ago. Jeremy pulled himself out of his thoughts and looked at you, seeing if you needed another tissue.
As he watched you carefully, he noticed the shape of one of the blotches on your face. It was oblong, a shape he’d recognized before. It was larger than the rest and it seemed to have formed a welt on your skin. He stepped closer, to make sure he was seeing what he thought he was. He took another step, mind racing. As he did, you flinched and covered your face. When Jeremy saw your eyes again, they were filled with fear.
“Fuck, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you,” Jeremy rushed out, his hand quickly pulling down the sleeves of his grey sweatshirt. “Let me grab an ice pack for you, okay?”
You nodded softly and Jeremy bolted up the stairs. He ran for the freezer, hoping that he had put an ice pack in there. He fumbled with his phone in his pocket, trying to call literally anyone to help him deal with this situation. He hit “recent” and then quickly tapped someone’s name as he grabbed an ice pack. Someone had slapped you for fuck’s sake! He needed help. God, who could have done this? Where had you been? Hopefully not at home, god Jeremy hoped not at home. An image popped into his head. Snapchat. Your boyfriend had posted on Snapchat. You two had been together for the night. He didn’t normally check your boyfriend’s Snapchat but Jeremy recalled getting it from the bonfire a month ago.
You’d been at his house.
You’d been playing video games together.
You’d been slapped.
The pieces came together in Jeremy’s mind, but he didn’t have time to be mad now, he just needed to help you. His mind snapped out of its state as he heard a voice yell from his phone. Shit he forgot he was calling someone for a second.
Michael’s voicemail rang out, and Jeremy cursed him for going away for days when Jeremy absolutely needed him here. He quickly fumbled with his phone again, careful not to call Michael a second time. He didn’t care who it was, he just needed to get someone on the phone. A different voice yelled into his ear.
“Heere! What’s up dude? Need some help getting laid?” Rich? Really?! He’d called Rich?! But it was something, it was someone. He needed to talk to someone, and if Rich was willing to answer his call, so be it.
“Rich, listen to me. (Y/N) just came to my house and asked if they could stay for an hour, I said yes because they’re sweet and amazing, and I looked at their face in my basement and it’s clear they’ve been crying and I looked closer and one of the blotches on their skin looked like it wasn’t a blotch but like a welt and god I stepped closer and they stepped back and dude Rich someone hit them someone definitely hit them and I think they were at their boyfriend’s house and I can only assume that he—god, fuck, what do I do?”
“Hey, Jeremy, slow down. That’s number one, okay? They’re probably really freaked out as it is. Did you leave them alone?”
“Yes, because I’m grabbing an ice pack.”
“Did you tell them you were doing that?”
“Of course and now I’m standing in my kitchen—”
“Good, you’re doing great, alright? Now, grab them some water and get back to them as soon as you can. If someone knocks on your door, do not answer it or leave them alone. It could be their boyfriend coming around to give them an even worse beating. Don’t let them do anything stupid, including drinking alcohol or smoking pot. Is Michael there?”
“No, he’s visiting family.”
“Alright perfect. More people might freak them out. Put a movie on or something to distract them. And no matter what they say, don’t let them drive anywhere until they’re completely stable. Speak softly, try not to yell or scream. That will only make it worse. If they want to talk about it, let them. If not, don’t push it. They’re going to apologize and thank you a lot, but always accept the apology and say things like ‘it’s no problem’ or ‘I’m happy to have you here’ because the chances are that they’ve been enduring emotional manipulation and verbal abuse for months before this.”
“Anything else?”
“Ask often if they’re okay, and if you have to touch them, tell them what you’re doing.”
“Thank you so much, Rich.”
“No problem. I thought that this might be happening, and I’m glad they’re safe with you. That makes me really happy, dude. You didn’t have to let them in, and yet you did. Text me if you need any more help.”
“Thank you, Rich. I will.”
With that, Jeremy grabbed the ice pack and cup of water. He walked into his basement, taking slow steps to make sure that he wouldn’t startle you. His mind raced with the rules that Rich gave him. They all seemed easy enough to follow: keep you alone with him, don’t make any loud noises, shouting was a no, and essentially ask for consent before doing absolutely anything around you. While all of these things seemed like common sense, Jeremy couldn’t help but ask himself how many times had these rules been broken around you?
The minute Jeremy saw you, his heart sped up. He had never seen you so open, so genuine, so bare. Your lip was between your teeth and tears were still swimming in your eyes. You were texting on your phone, fingers moving fast, but not as fast as he’d seen in the past. Your phone vibrated, and you jumped a little as more tears streamed down your face. Jeremy was reminded of what Rich said before and hoped that you weren’t texting your boyfriend again. That was the very last thing that you needed in this moment.
“Hey,” Jeremy started, making sure his voice was soft, “I brought you an ice pack and some water.” All you could muster in return was a nod as he took slow steps towards you, your back against the old loveseat that used to sit in his living room. You sat on the floor, only near the beanbags rather than on them. It was almost as if you would offend the furniture if you sat on it.
As he got closer to you, he sank further and further down to your level. He set the water beside you, careful not to tower over your small figure. You were already scared and intimidated enough as it was. Your head whipped around and you began to watch his every move. He got slower and started to sit down next to you, your eyes never leaving him. Jeremy switched the hand that the ice pack was in, and he finally met your gaze. “Do you mind if I ice your face to…uhh…help prevent swelling?”
“Yeah, go ahead,” you whimpered out.
Jeremy’s heart shattered for the second time that night. You had always seemed so brave and so composed. Seeing the opposite; a breakdown, was almost too much for him. But he had to continue. He had gotten your consent, he just needed to tell you what he was going to do. “Alright, I’m gonna brush your hair out of the way, and then put the pack on your face. That’s all. I promise.”
You nodded and whispered, “I believe you.” Jeremy took a breath and began to move slowly. At first, you started to move away from his hand and flinching slightly. His fingers started at your forehead and began to move your hair to the side as best as he could. As his hands worked, he noticed you getting calmer around his presence. You relaxed even more as the ice pack was placed on your face. Jeremy exhaled, finally relaxing himself as relief washed over him. Thank goodness you’d made it to his house before things got any worse.
Instead of watching him, your eyes remained looking straight forward. He understood parts of why you wouldn’t look at him, but couldn’t wrap his head around what you were feeling. He replayed Rich’s words once more. The chances are that they’ve been enduring emotional manipulation and verbal abuse for months before this. As much as Jeremy wanted to say and do the right things, he had no idea what those things are. He had no clue how to help you. Hell, he didn’t even know what to do when you showed up at his house. He had to call someone. How lame is that?
Jeremy came back from his thoughts and moved the ice pack slightly to cover a little bit more of the welt that covered one side of your face. His mind began to wander a little bit and as it did, he realized that there could be more cuts and bruises that he couldn’t see. Shit, he should probably tend to them before they get infected or something. He eyed your hoodie for a second before deciding that he should ask before he tried to nurse any wounds. It was your privacy and the last thing he wanted to do was invade it, but something told him to ask and take a look. He didn’t want to be kicking himself later for not being a good friend and helping out as best as he could.
He took another breath before stuttering out “A-Are there any more…Are there any more…uhh…like…injuries?”
Tears appeared in your eyes again and one fell down your face. You remained stoic, the tear falling ever so slowly down your face. You inhaled before squeezing your eyes shut and allowed more tears to escape. Nothing was said between the two of you as you rolled up your sleeves and flattened your hood. Jeremy sat for a second. He had totally missed the fact that your hood was more like a scarf than anything else, almost as if you were trying to cover hickeys. He was extremely worried for what he would find.
You put any long hair you had up as Jeremy once again snapped out of his thoughts. He scanned your arms and noticed a red mark that was steadily turning blue around your elbow. There was an extremely similar one on your wrist as well, both bruising marks resembling a hand that grabbed you with no mercy. Jeremy decided to scan the rest of your body; that had to be the worst, right?
His eyes stopped scanning at your neck. There were clear bruises around it, fingertips that had clearly grabbed the side of it. There was really only one explanation for those marks: your boyfriend had choked you, and he assumed that it wasn’t the kinky kind. How stupid he’d been just minutes ago, assuming that those marks on your arms were the worst you’d been through.
Jeremy could feel anger bubbling up inside of him. He could feel himself starting to grip the ice pack. How dare your boyfriend mistreat you like this? How dare he instill fear into you? Jeremy swore in that moment to make sure that your boyfriend went through the same pain you did, and then some. It wouldn’t be hard, he could easily recruit Rich and Jake, hell maybe even Michael. He could ruin his reputation via Jenna, Chloe, and Brooke, no questions asked.
While Jeremy was plotting your boyfriend’s demise, you recognized his anger. You started to pull away and pull your sleeves down. Jeremy’s eyes immediately met yours. He didn’t mean to scare you, no no no, he wanted to keep you safe. He wanted to hold you in only the warmest embraces, and make you smile incredibly wide all the time. That was also when he noticed that he had removed the ice pack from your face. He had probably done it with sharp movements and of course without telling you first. Dear god, he had broken almost all of Rich’s rules in 30 seconds. Jeremy could feel the fear radiating off of your body.
“I promise, I’m not going to hurt you, okay? It’s just me. I’m sorry I got so angry. I’m just going to move the ice pack to your neck where it’s starting to bruise, okay?”
“Okay.”
“Alright,” he replied before shakily before following through with the actions he’d promised he’d make. His touch was slow and gentle, even though his hands were rather rough. He looked at you with concerned eyes as he practically shook with nervousness and contained anger. And though he was definitely doing to evoke some pain on your boyfriend, the last thing he wanted to do was scare you again. It was quiet, but the silence was a comfort, not awkward. It was two people enjoying one another’s presence. The dim light of the floor lamp in to corner actually was calming after a while. It almost resembled candle light, the room being lit with only the most gentle and warm toned light. It was almost as if nothing harsh could happen in that moment.
“Thank you.”
“W-Wha?”
You spoke without hesitation, eyes still staring at the wall. “I said ‘thank you’. I really appreciate you being here for me.”
“It’s no problem,” Jeremy decided to be more conscious of Rich’s instructions, but still say the words he wanted to. “I’m happy—”
“No, Jeremy,” you looked at him now with wide eyes. “Thank you. Seriously, I have no idea how to repay you.”
“You don’t owe me anything. I’m just looking after a friend,” he gave a soft smile and tried to lighten the mood a little bit.
You two shared a warm moment for just the slightest of seconds before your phone started vibrating. Jeremy watched as you went from somewhat calmed to a state of panic again. It was in that moment that he realized that panic at times like the senior cruise were a luxury. You didn’t often build up to that, it just happened. And Jeremy knew that was exhausting. 0 to 60 in terms of panicking was similar to being on a really intense roller coaster. One that shoots you instead of giving you the suspenseful build up. He couldn’t imagine what it was like to only function like that. No wonder you looked so tired all the time.
The cold fear remained in your eyes as you checked the caller ID. “Shit, that’s my mom. She’s wondering where I am.”
Jeremy’s mind started racing, trying to come up with some excuse as to why you’d be at his house at this hour. You could tell your mom what happened, but something told him that he was one of few that knew what was actually going on between you and your boyfriend. The best thing that Jeremy could come up with was working on a project. But he knew that that wouldn’t work as a lie; school had been over for weeks. It didn’t take long for another idea to make an appearance. “Tell her you had to drop something off. Like, I don’t know something from the bonfire that you borrowed.”
While you were answering the phone, Jeremy went over the excuse again in his head. With this excuse, you didn’t need to drive right away, which is exactly what he wanted. There was no way you could drive while panicking. Hell, he knows from personal experience that breathing is hard when you’re panicking. Driving would be like jumping off of a cliff and expecting to fly. Or the SQUIP working with Mountain Dew Red instead of plain Mountain Dew. You couldn’t do it. You driving wouldn’t be safe, and Jeremy had kind of made a promise to himself to keep you safe. He listened into your side of the conversation, hoping the excuse worked.
“Hi mom…uh huh…I just had to run to Jeremy’s house…no mom…Jeremy Heere…I worked on a group project with him in government…yeah he was at the bonfire…at Rich’s house…I had to return something to him…Well, he lent me his sweater because I was cold…No, he didn’t have one…I had to wash it first…That’s the polite thing to do, mom…Yes I will be home soon…uh huh…okay…bye mom…see you soon.”
Your hands shook as you hung up, but you managed to keep your breathing normal. Jeremy had to act fast, faster than he did at the senior cruise, that’s for sure. But then again, he did have to ask for consent and tell you exactly what he was going to do. Plus, he couldn’t have any sharp movements. This was definitely going to be harder than that level in Bioshock that he was trying to beat before you came over. Without thinking, Jeremy blurted out: “Hey, can I take your hands? You seem overwhelmed, I just want to help.”
Relief washed over Jeremy as you nodded your head. He quickly joined his hands with yours and began to say things that he knew helped other people. Jeremy had the most experience with Michael, so he resorted to the things that help Michael calm down. He said sweet things like “I’m here for you,” and “I’m not going anywhere,” he added in a few “You’re safe,” and “It’s okay,” for you and the situation. Within minutes, you had calmed down and had moved into his chest, hot tears staining his t-shirt. He didn’t mind, though. The shirt could be washed. He calmly rubbed your back, his hand moving with only the lightest touch. Even though you were calmed, Jeremy continued to say calming things to you, keeping his voice as light as his touch. He even began to list the things he liked about you, from the way you flip the hair out of your face to the way you loop your L’s when you write.
You two stayed like that for a few minutes. When the hot tears stopped and the world was still, Jeremy could feel you pulling away a little. He loosened his grip, allowing you the freedom that you wanted. You moved only slightly away, your faces inches apart from one another’s. “Hey Jer?” you asked, voice slightly stronger than before.
“Yeah?” he responded. Your eyes shifted downwards from his eyes to his lips before meeting his eyes again.
“Can I kiss you?”
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