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Continued Liveblogging ep 18, 19, and 20
Dang Imaizumi!!!!!!! That's so fucking cool and smooth of you Jesus!!!
Working towards Naruko's dream together for a Sohoku 1-2 finish!!!
Wooooo!!!! Go Onoda Goooooooooo!!!!!!!
What a way to bounce back from losing control like that!
I really do love the song for this OP! It's fantastic!
Lmao I hope Midousuji beefs it in that puddle. Also why can't one of the bystanders have been useful and cleared the drain?
Seems common sense.
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All you need is a stick and like 5 minutes and everyone there had both before the boys got anywhere near there. Idk.
WOOOOOOOOOOOO
Midousuji Down!!!!!!!
I hope he learns from this. That he takes better care of himself. That he grows as a person. That he wrangles Blue Predator and gets him to stop.
WOOOOO ONODA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Imaizumi!!!!!!! What an awesome thing to say! đ
2 kilometers stretched into 6 episodes.
Hmmmmm.
Flashback episodes?
I wonder what Manami's flashback (I can only assume it'll be his) will be like?
Will we get more info on miss class president?
SADATOKI CONFIRMED BISEXUAL
TERUFUMI ASSUMED BISEXUAL
HUGE NEWS
Now Sadatoki has 2 second years to trail after! đ GOOD FOR HIM!!!!!! Happy for him!!!
Good on you Koga! Helping Terufumi through his Big Gay Feelings! đ
Here comes Manami! đ
Ah so Hakone IS Going to win. It seemed like the narrative would go this way because they need to lose this one to come back from defeat and reach for victory in their 3rd year.
I wasn't sure if they'd do it though.
ONODA NOW IS NOT THE TIME YOU'RE WASTING EVERYONE'S EFFORTS
Dude with how long he's hesitating manami would have already crossed the finish line. đ
The Hyperbolic Race Chamber is at full effect.
UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH
Love that TeshiAoyagi and KabuDanchi are going on their own dates! đđđđđđ
Well that was certainly a cute aquarium date for all involved.
Makishima YOU invited TOUDOU to a night race!!!! Please be real for 2 seconds.
If you'd give him attention he'd quiet down! đ
I'm so sorry Toudou. đ Ur man is allergic to feelings. đ
At least this one is fairly easy to fast forward through without feeling guilty
#best bike boys the anime#Posting out of order which bugs me but I forgot to tag it apparently#So when I mass reblogged I missed it
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so how come i always liked acesan even after i realized they barely interacted when i read the manga, and now iâm watching alabasta and ace is just?? there???
honestly obsessed with the ace filler + simple ace presence and if heâs gonna have a yaoi moment with sanji in the process you know what so be it.
#my posts#acesan#one piece#lookingback af 90% of the acesan art i like it makses a lot more sense to me why theyre alabasta fitted up#also did not know ace actually lit his cigarette like#i thought all of you shared a gay mass delusion im sorry for doubting you#also i guess im just insane because ive literally reblogged that awful 4kids dub video of the acesan kitchen scene#but i think i thought they made some standalone episode with that or smth. ididnt realize at the time how some anime only stuff is woven#within the arcs right#anyway i have no one to talk to about this so im posting now#it is justâŠ#so funny#especislly when i imagine how it mightve been if i watched the anime first and then saw everything#missing in the manga lol#its definitely been an interesting experience reading the manga and immediately starting the anime after#especially with odd censorship (like zeffs#leg) and moments like these
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hello :3 thanks for rebloging stuff from my dead af RAE blog :) i left the fandom a long time ago bc of all the drama nice too see ppl who still like it
Awe, Ur welcome!! ^^
#sometimes i get bored and i just go to old posts#then go to old blogs and mass reblog stuff lol#ask box#yea... sometimes i miss not knowing there really was a fandom#i just enjoyed spp stuff when i was a little kid#but the rae tumblr community seems to be very nice so i just chill here!
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Sex Education
Synopsis: In all your years of education you learned that there are many methods to study: flashcards, study groups, the pomodoro method etc. But you find that practice is better than theory. And what better way to study Biology than practice with your study buddy?
Pairing: loser!virgin!med student!Mingyu x afab!med student!reader
Genre: smut, slight crack, one shot, med school! au
Rating: mature
Word count: 2.6k
Warnings: pet names (puppy), penetrative sex, unprotected sex (don't do this!), creampie, size kink, choking, loss of virginity, sub!Gyu, big dick!Gyu, loser!Gyu, riding, masturbation, lemme know if I missed anything!
Note: Thank you so much for helping me with the synopsis my twin @tomodachiii! As promised, here's sub!Gyu.
Thank you so much to @onlymingyus for beta reading!
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Mingyu.
That's the only thing on your mind right nowânothing else, just Mingyu. You should probably be paying attention to the lesson, but how could you, with the hot nerd sitting right within your line of sight? Okay, maybe you chose this seat specifically so you could look at him without getting caught, but still! Heâs a distraction youâre more than happy to have.
You rest your chin in your hand, sighing as your eyes trace over his figure. Heâs built like a Greek godâstrong, tall, with perfectly styled black hair, and his large square glasses barely hide his handsome, tan face. Oh, what youâd give just to see him without those glasses on.
Youâve known Mingyu since middle school. You never really interacted, but you definitely noticed him around. Back in school, he was known as the nerdy kid with glasses and a scrawny, lanky frame to match. Shy and awkward, he was an easy target for bullies. But over the years, his muscle mass increased, and his frame filled out. It seems heâs been putting in serious hours at the gym, and itâs definitely paid off.
Although heâs the most handsome guy in med school, heâs still incredibly shy and reserved, keeping his circle small and close-knit. Despite numerous people, especially girls, trying to get closer to him, he just pushes them away. Thatâs why, despite your massive crush, you havenât made a move. Youâre too scared heâll shut you out and avoid you for good.
You can't help but bite your bottom lip and squeeze your thighs together as you rake your eyes over his bulging biceps, his shirt barely able to contain the muscle. Just one chokehold; one chokehold is all you're asking for, really. You sigh once again, knowing that you'll never be able to have him.
Your train of unholy thoughts is abruptly interrupted by the sound of your professor calling your name. Startled, you sit up and look towards him.
"Miss Y/N, are you even paying attention?" Prof. Choi huffs, crossing his arms.
"Of course I am, professor," you reply, flashing the sweetest smile you can manage.
"Then, for the third time, please answer the question on the board," he says, gesturing to the problem.
"UhâŠ" you trail off, completely lost.
Prof. Choi sighs and tells you to see him after class, to which you reluctantly agree. You sink into your chair, dreading whatâs to come. Shaking your head, you let out a sigh and shifted your gaze back to Mingyu, watching in awe as he effortlessly answered the very question you stumbled over. Tall, muscular, hot, and smartâhe really is the perfect guy.
You grumble as Prof. Choi calls your name, sabotaging your plan to slip out of class. Sighing, you drag yourself over to his desk, only to be surprised when Mingyu joins you. You glance between Mingyu and Prof. Choi, waiting for an explanation.
"Y/N, Iâll get straight to the pointâyouâre failing this class," Prof. Choi says. "At this rate, Iâm not sure you'll be able to move on to the next year."
Well, itâs not your fault that a hot distraction named Kim Mingyu exists.
"Thatâs why Iâve assigned Mingyu here as your tutor to help you pass," he says, nodding toward Mingyu.
Your eyes widen, and you struggle to suppress a smile. Mingyu tutoring you? Spending time alone with him? This feels like a dream come true. You silently thank both Prof. Choi and the heavens for this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
Mingyu gives you a shy smile. "I hope we can get along well," he says, extending his hand.
You gratefully take it, noticing the blush coloring his cheeks.
"Please take good care of me, Mingyu," you say, beaming, already looking forward to your tutoring sessions.
You smooth out your skirt one last time before opening the door for Mingyu. You made sure to wear your sluttiest outfit today. After insisting that your brain works better when you study in your room, Mingyu shyly agreed to hold the tutoring sessions there.
You smile and step aside to let him in, watching as he sheepishly steps into your house. Making sure your ass is sticking out, you made him follow you upstairs to your room.
You sat down on your bed, subtly raising your skirt, and gestured for Mingyu to take a seat next to you. He awkwardly took his seat and started pulling out his notes.
He keeps his eyes on his notes as he starts explaining todayâs lessonâsomething about the Krebs cycle, though youâre not really listening. Youâre too busy admiring his handsome face. You twirl a strand of hair and blink sweetly as you ask (hopefully relevant) questions, but he barely glances at you while answering.
After what feels like hours of studying (itâs been 30 minutes), you whine and beg him for a break, and he blushes as he agrees.
"Would you like some snacks? Or maybe water or juice?" you ask, perking up.
"Just a glass of water is fine," he mumbles, still focused on his notes.
You nod and grab a glass of water for him and a snack for yourself. Returning, you hand him the water with a smile, which he accepts with a quiet âthank you,â while you peel your banana for your snack.
You lick the tip of the banana before biting down on it, smirking when you see Mingyu gulping at your actions. Noticing you looking at him, he blushes and quickly averts his gaze.
"Want a bite?" You offer him with a sultry smirk.
"N-No, thank you," he mumbles, his ears turning red.
You giggle as you finish your banana and scoot a little closer, prompting him to continue the lesson. But heâs a stuttering mess, tripping over his words and repeatedly asking for more water to soothe his suddenly dry throat.
After stuttering his way through, Mingyu finally managed to finish the lesson. Sore from having hunched over, you stretch, not so subtly pressing your chest against his arm. Mingyu flushes, quickly gathering his notes and mumbling something about being late for a gaming session with Wonwoo.
You see him out, throwing in a wink and waving goodbye. You watch as he stumbles a bit while getting onto his Vespa and driving off. Chuckling to yourself, you can't help but smile at how cute he is.
The rest of the tutoring sessions go the same way: you not-so-subtly flirt with Mingyu, while he either purposely ignores it or remains completely oblivious. You even try to out-slut your outfits with every tutoring session, but nothing seems to work.
One night, after yet another session, you lie in bed, frustrated that Mingyu isnât picking up on your very obvious hints. Who knew the loser nerd would actually turn out to be a huge loser? You sigh, but him being a huge loser is what you find most endearing about him.
You bite your lip, remembering what he wore todayâa black polo that stretched perfectly over his muscles, jeans that hugged his thighs just right, and of course, those thick black frames.
You can't help but sneak your hand down your torso as you remember how his arm felt pressed against your boobs. They felt so strong and firm, you bet that he could easily carry you and fuck you mid-air.
You shiver as your hand sneaks under your panties. You circle your pussy, collecting your arousal before pushing a finger into your hole, sighing at the slight stretch. You moan at the thought of Mingyu's fingers being way bigger than yours. His fingers would stretch you out so well before he finally fucks you with his huge cock.
You insert another finger and start thrusting your fingers, moaning out Mingyu's name. You imagine him hovering over you as he relentlessly thrusts into you, groaning your name right beside your ear. He'd growl as your fingers rake his back, leaving angry red marks. You'd wrap your legs around his hips and push him in deeper, making him breed you.
Your other hand circles your clit as you feel yourself getting to the edge. You imagine him thrusting from behind as his large bicep chokes you, putting just enough pressure to heighten the pleasure. He'd whimper and moan in your ear, letting you know how good you feel wrapped around him. He'd fill you up with his cum, again and again, and again, until the sheets underneath you are soaked with your mixed fluids.
Your breath hitches as you cum, whispering his name like a prayer, hoping that if you say it enough times, heâll appear before you and make your dreams come true.
But he doesn't, and you're left lying in bed, sticky, sweaty, and alone.
You yawn for the umpteenth time as Mingyu drones on about anatomy; you're sure your brain has shut down by now. You sigh as you lean back onto the bed, too tired even to sit up.
"Mingyu, can we please take a break? I don't think my brain can take any more of this," you groan, resting your arm over your eyes.
"U-Uh, yeah, sure," Mingyu mumbles, fiddling with his notes. "We could always switch to a different topic if you want a change of paceâŠ"
"What's the next topic?"
"The reproductive system."
Your eyebrows shoot up, and a smirk paints your face as an idea pops into your head. You sit up and grin at Mingyu.
"Sure, let's learn about the reproductive system."
Happy that you're finally interested in a topic, Mingyu gathers his notes and starts to explain. After about 15 minutes of explanation, you put your hand over his and gently push away his notes.
"Mingyu, I donât understand the topic at all," you say with a pout, shifting to sit directly in front of him. His face turns bright red, clearly flustered. "I think it would help if we put the theory into practice so I can learn better," you purr.
Mingyu stumbles over his words, stuttering, his brain clearly short-circuiting. You giggle at his flustered state and shift to sit on his lap, your legs on either side of him.
"Will you let me use you to put the theory into practice, Mingyu?" you ask, tilting your head with a pout as you gently cup his face.
"I-Iâm not sure h-howâŠ" Mingyu stammers, swallowing hard.
"Oh, you poor thing," you coo. "It's okay, I'll guide you, puppy. Will you let me?"
He licks his lips and lets out a shaky breath before giving a small nod.
"Don't worry, puppy, I'll make sure to take good care of you," you hum as you gently remove his glasses.
He blinks and looks up at you, lips parted and cheeks flushed. You take a moment to admire his handsome face without the glasses. Cupping his face, your eyes trace over his featuresâhis strong jawline, his parted lips, and the small mole on the tip of his nose. Unable to resist, you lean in and place a gentle kiss there, making him shiver.
"Can I kiss you, puppy?" You whisper.
"P-Please," he whimpers, and you can't help but smile over how pathetic he sounds.
You lean in and press your lips against his, and he kisses back desperately, hungry for your lips. You chuckle into the kiss, his inexperience showing with every hesitant movement. When you pull back, he leans forward, chasing your lips and letting out a soft whine when you donât return the kiss.
"Puppy, if you don't behave, I will punish you," you scowl, furrowing your eyebrows.
"'m sorry," he mumbles with a pout.
You plant a soft kiss on the tip of his nose, then slowly run your hands down his torso, gently squeezing each muscle through his white polo. He moans and shivers under your touch, his eyes squeezing shut.
"Puppy works hard in the gym, hm?" You giggle, squeezing his chest slightly harder, eliciting a gasp from him.
You giggle, then start slowly dragging your hands to his arms, squeezing his biceps.
"God, your arms are so big and strong," you moan, squeezing him hard. "I want you to choke me, puppy. Can you do that for me? Choke me with your biceps?"
Letting out a shaky breath, he nods. You shift, pressing your back against his chest. He gently puts you into a chokehold and squeezes his arm slightly. Your eyes roll back, and a moan slips from your lips when you feel his biceps push against your throat.
You can't help but feel small in Mingyu's hold; he's just so big and beefy. You grind your hips against him, and you feel his grip faltering. He whimpers and pushes his erection against your butt.
"P-Please, I can't. I-It hurts," he whimpers against your ear.
You sneak down your hand and palm him through his jeans, making him groan and buck your hips against your palm.
"Need me to take care of your problem puppy?" You giggle, palming him roughly.
"Please," he strains out, choking back a moan.
He releases you from the chokehold, and you quickly clamber over to grab the bottle of lube you've stashed on the side table. You look over to see that he's already pushed his jeans and boxers down and freed his aching cock.
"Impatient are we now, puppy?" You chuckle, making his cheeks heat up.
Locking eyes with him, you give him a sultry look as you slowly peel off your panties but keep your skirt on. He gulps hard, shifting in place, anticipating your next move.
Biting your lip, you slowly crawl back over to him. You pour lube all over his cock and give him a few pumps, he whines your name and bucks his hips, making you giggle.
"Gonna make you feel so good, puppy," you whisper as you shift to hover over him.
You grab onto his shoulders and slowly sink onto his big cock, the stretch making you moan out loud. Mingyu whines and groans under you, his hands fly to your hips, fingers digging into you.
"F-Fuck," he groans, squeezing his eyes shut as your warmth slowly envelopes him.
Your mouth goes agape, and your eyes roll back when you feel his tip kiss your cervix.
"M-Move, please move. I-I can't," he begs, muscles straining under you.
You slowly lift yourself and slam back down onto him, making the both of you moan out loud. Slowly picking up your pace, you start riding him. He becomes a blubbering mess under you, moaning your name and whining at how good it feels.
"Look at the mess we're making, puppy," you pant out, lifting your skirt and showing him the sticky mess forming at the base of his cock.
He looks down at where both of you are connected and moans. He starts picking you up and slamming you down at an animalistic pace, his hips meeting you halfway. You squeal at the feeling of him rutting into you.
Unable to hold back any longer, he cums hard, filling you up to the brim with his seeds. Desperate to reach your high, you continue to ride him despite his chokes and whimpers. You capture his lips into a messy kiss to distract him from the overstimulation.
"C-Circle my clit," you mumble in between the kiss, and he complies, his hand immediately sneaking down and rubbing your clit in circles.
You yell his name as you cum around him, squeezing every drop of cum out of him. Mingyu moans, and a few tears slip from his eyes at the feeling of you squeezing him with a vice-like grip.
You both take a moment to catch your breath, your head resting on Mingyuâs shoulder as he leans back against the headboard. Licking your lips, you cup his face and look into his dazed eyes.
"You did so well, puppy," you coo, watching him blush and give you a fucked-out smile.
"But I don't think I've fully understood the topic yet. Maybe we should go over it again, just to be sure," you say before smashing your lips on his again.
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mutual 1 : (picture of a band member) i wont him ,#i think i have covid
mutual in law: i think im a system
mutual 2 :(reblogging fanart of a fandom you have do idea even existed)
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mutual 4: i think i need to kill . that would fix me
mutual 5:(picture of minecraft character) I MISS HIMMMM
mutual 6: do ouy think they explored each others bodies (picture of characters from a fandom you know nothing about) #liveblog
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mutual 1: (mass rb of every picture of a band member to ever exist on the internet)
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mutual 4: I NEED OUT OF THIS DAMN HOUSEEEE!!!!!
mutual 10: do you think when he was pregnant he had really bad morning sickness yes or no
mutual 6: i need to light them on fire I HATE THEM (screenshot of characters mid-frame) #liveblog
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I remember everything | j.jh
âburnt-out writer!jaehyun x host f!reader
genre: smut, angst, fluff, summer fling, found home, strangers to lovers to strangers again, missed connection, 80's au
synopsis: jaehyun didnât think meeting you in that quaint lonesome countryside town would come in between him and writing something hopeful and lively in contrast to all of his gloomy work. in fact it was a blessing to have someone help him navigate the foreign country. yet life always has something up its sleeve no matter how soul crushing.
warning(s): ADULTS ONLY, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT! mentions/implementations of poor mental health, abusive higher ups, mentions of bad parenting, unprotected sex.
wc: 28.5k+ || soundtrack || ao3
© 2024 YOJEONGIN all rights reserved â DO NOT translate, take, nor repost any of my works on other platforms. reblogs are HIGHLY appreciated!
disclaimer: this is purely fictional; in no way am I condoning this behavior, trying to offend anyone, nor is it meant to place such image on the idol, these are ONLY characters. read at your own discretion.
an: summer is gone and I tried posting this for the past 2 months so here is an ode to the place that inspired it all.
The contents of the box had been sitting unwrapped for what felt like an eternity after recalling last weekâs events. The miscellaneous items your family sent were a recurring sight but it was rare that Ollie sent you anything besides his letters.Â
What disturbed you most is his choice of item. Those bold scripted yellow letters mock you. You werenât upset with him, you could never be upset with him. You know itâs not his doing, that he was put up to it. What upsets you is the resurfacing thoughts you had hid away in the vault of your memory years ago when you remained naive and to your disgrace revived with one detail.
Courage was the last thing in you. It surged through, more so forcibly, perhaps even masochistically. That seems correct because the second you open to the first page, images you believed you would never see, fly out, reminding you of a life that you can only describe as a daydream.
Every single image had something written in the back of it. You attempt to refrain from reading each note. With no avail, the loops of his handwriting draw you in as much as his piercing gaze and the smile you still dream about â those dimples you canât forget no matter how much you now look at them on someone else.
Thereâs a folded letter slotted before the dedication page. It smells like him and you canât help being transported to the summer you met him. The pleasantly strong cologne you could smell even in the masses of stench when cleaning the pen. Or through the window you two sneaked kisses at night.Â
You donât want to cry, you truly try not to, yet the waterworks flow when you finally focus on the dedication page of this damned book.Â
âTo the life I needed all along⊠I remember everything.â
Jaehyun remembers with fondness the tranquility of what he considers home. The warmth that filled his chest with every waking moment he spent in that beautiful quaint village. And now looking and thinking back at it, that fondness muddles with the pain in his heart. Thatâs not what he wants nor needs, thatâs not what he came here for.
Jaehyun could get behind it, it was nice. He immediately got used to the cool breeze which felt more like a chilly autumn rather than the grueling summer. He could definitely get used to the smell of wood burning from stoves and chimneys that indicated locals began their day. Similar enough to the rough housing from goats and sheepâs bleats to roosters for them to shut up, that the sun was enough of a wake up call.Â
Fairly loud, not nearly as much as the city. It was one thing to admire the beauty outside of his temporary residence. Bougainvillea vines, flamboyant and bright, purloining his attention to let him know they were the star of the show, overshadowing any other house around.
Jaehyun needed something and all he knew was that he had to escape the constraints of his overpopulated and 24/7 bustling city that has cursed him to hell multiple times for not giving it a heartfelt ovation. How could he when heâs been shown nothing but hatred from it since he stepped foot in that hell hole?
Things should be different here, he knows that â heâs been shown.Â
His taxi driver spoke idly about his day. Describing the breakfast his wife had made before he left. His daughter had visited to drop off their grandson while she went to work at the local market but in the process the kid had fallen down the steep steps claiming all he wanted as comfort was to spend time with his âTitoâ. So there he was making rocket sounds and hammering the glove compartment with the pale sun-eaten toy car that caused his fall. In the process, turning back to Jaehyun asking if he liked dishes he had never heard of before that the kid didnât like himself.
Jaehyun remembers it well.Â
How can such a beautiful place bring him agony?Â
He wanted to stray away from those pessimistic feelings that had shackled him for years, tainting every single one of his pieces. When his publisher and manager told him it would be best to go somewhere heâd know nothing about his world, to have time to think about a new story, he was the first one to say goodbye, muttering under his breath that he wished heâd never see them again. Jaehyun was elated to know he was given a golden ticket out.Â
The past few launches and expectations had been hectic. Drowning him with stress and though many would think being a successful writer at such a young age was all fun and games, they'd think otherwise when your team is hollering in your ear daily to come up with new content and critics claiming youâve yet again failed to provide anything meaningful besides pretentiousness.Â
Jaehyun is tired of that dark monotonous and consuming cycle theyâre forcing him to be in. So heâs hopeful and excited to see what this beautiful rural village can bring him. Hopeful that itâll break those shackles of misery that cling to him until his ankles bruise and bleed. Hopeful to find meaning to this life that heâs been searching for.Â
Struck with awe throughout his entire trajectory down the cobble and dirt-filled path from midtown to the house, the animal noises he had managed to drown became louder upon pushing open the metal door, growing wary. When he finally crossed the threshold he was met with the image of someone tussling with a ram, enough to get tackled and Jaehyun can only explain that feeling as freight.
That was the first time he met you.
From far away and with his feet grounded in fear, the fear you didnât have regardless of all those rammings. That mustâve hurt, Jaehyun thinks so. How could it not? The beast came in charging three times, each making the impact seem worse. Twisted horns able to bruise the skin of your thighs.
Every step closer increases his shock. Muffled groans and curses from you mixed with laughter from your grandfather that stood and watched. Neither of you blame him, being the victim of that damn thing at 80 had caused irreparable damage to his hip. Thereâs nothing he could have done. At best he mangles the rope beside the stake, swinging it in hopes of getting it off you.Â
Jaehyun felt inutile. He had no experience with animals nor with any labor besides what his father would drag him into. Itâs not his fault he became a writing prodigy. His brute strength was useless if he was too scared to jump into the pen to help you.Â
It was more shocking when a scrawny boy in a simple white tee, dusty jeans, heavy work boots just as muddy had pushed through him. Yelling something he couldnât understand but later found it meant âGet the fuck out the way!â He didnât mean to be malicious but he was scared himself. Jumping over the penâs fence and pulling the damned ram off of you, he slaps its rear as a form of discipline. It amazes Jaehyun how effortless he made it look.
Finally free and things having calmed down, Jaehyun saw the elderly man seize his laughter. Genuine tears slip from his eyes. He was scared, truly scared it could have been your end. Having experienced it himself, he couldnât help both sympathize and feel guilty. You and the kid reassured him it was fine. It wasnât a first but your grandpa wouldnât hear it, sighing as he continued to sob.Â
Jaehyun later found that he was insanely sensible. Laughing things off to calm himself to eventually break down.
In attempts to ease his pain, you had sent the young boy to fetch your grandpa a coke and some bread.Â
Nowadays, Jaehyun consumes those items whenever he grows scaredÂ
Making your way with a limp that your grandfather mimicked due to his own attack and age, Jaehyun finally approaches you both, voice slightly quivering.
âAre you alright?!â Jaehyun quips, your head turns to him un-amusedly. Cautious but relaxed for whoeverâs sake. âYeah⊠itâs not the first time.â You try to smile at the stranger who is obviously not from the village inside the premise of your grandparentâs home. It only dawned upon you who he was when you noticed the pristine suitcases in his hands. Holding the handles like a lost victorian count in search of a new start in the bustling dirty city â despite the contrast.
âYouâre the new tenant, right?â You ask, limp finally gone after something cracked. Jaehyun winces, amused with the nonchalant tone in your voice; he nods fervently. âYeah, um, I can pay for a few months up front if you donât mind.â Neither of you had noticed that both had stopped walking, your grandpa already in the house, leaving you to speak with the young and attractive man before you.
âMonths?â
Jaehyun nods. âIf you donât mind or have another tenant.â He feels sheepish; confident in your eyes. âDonât worry, itâs been open for months.âÂ
Itâs amazing to him how youâre acting like you didnât almost need a ride to the nearest hospital. Seeing the limp gone and crouching down to pick up a bucket full of dry corn kernels like nothing. He could have believed everything he saw didnât really happen.Â
Itâs recurring if he thinks back to it, how everything felt so fleeting and surreal. He despises and feels it mocking him daily.
Following you around like a lost puppy while you sprinkled the ground with those kernels, he took note of the expression on your face. Youâre still in pain, itâs written all over the movements you make. He rules youâre ignoring it to not seem ill before him or specifically to reassure your grandfather.Â
Jaehyun has a strong image in your eyes. It would crumble with just about anything and you felt comfortable figuring that out. Just like it has done now, with chickens rushing and flooding the area to gobble down their meal. Jaehyun was startled and scared theyâd peck him in the process.Â
You try not to laugh despite the giggles leaving in spurts. Nearing the kitchen door, you stop in your tracks to look at him. âDon't worry about the pay, it won't be necessary.â It troubles him and this time he wonât hold his thoughts. Well, he wasnât going to but as soon as his lips parted, the sprint door opened, showing a much shorter and pudgier older woman. He reckons thatâs your grandmother so he smiles and greets her accordingly.Â
She accepts it, returning the favor before going back to business in handing you the bowl full of pepper seeds and stems to feed the chickens. That left him and your grandmother alone, inviting him to the kitchen.
He studied the kitchen upon crossing the threshold, admiring the huge chimney in the right corner, soot covered it along the boiling metal bucket of water. There was a chair in front of it, one of those school chairs that cling onto your hair until itâs off your scalp.Â
A metal cabinet in between the entrance door and the hallway. Itâs dusty, showcasing fine china that was never used. He found the cracks above the very tall ceilings the most enchanting, all leading to portraits above the hallwayâs threshold. Trajectory and lineage demonstrated through the years. Most recently: one of you with your diploma.Â
Beautiful. Utterly beautiful, he thought.
âCome, Iâll show you around.âÂ
The tour was simple, the hallway that connected the main room and kitchen was a room in itself. Privacy wasnât really an option within these walls but it didnât matter, he wasnât the one sleeping in the main house.
All he had to know about this house was that it was an old canteen that your grandmotherâs father bought for her as a wedding gift. The hallway had a bed your grandfather slept on, a couch he sat to watch the TV propped on top of a dresser in the main room âwhere heâd join him oftenâ and a door that led to the guestâs area.
Despite the open concept, she didnât show him the room where you and her slept in. He caught a glimpse of a door to the only restroom in there ârestroom with a window he would spend his nights at oftenâ, a vanity you both filled with expired products, and two beds on opposite sides. He figures the one with a pristine Garfield plush was yours.Â
Jaehyun felt the clarity of finding home within these few minutes. It was summer and the house was freezing without a clunky AC unit, he was in heaven if you asked him. It felt cozy and he liked that it wasnât stuffy like his apartment back home, it felt like love. Cold, unspoken care and love.
The tour ended by the time both reached the guest area. The door was open after you swept but things never lasted clean here, the entrance full of dust again. Your grandmother looked tired and apologetic that she couldnât continue, reassuring him his room was fine, warranting her to yell your name and rushing to her side.
She asks you to show him, motioning for him to follow you with your head. It felt like a full circle when you both hopped down the step from the house to the courtyard. He looked at the threshold he entered through, the door was closed now, decorated with flowers made out of dust, crafted by Ollie when he had free time. Your grandfather sat on a chair near the pen with the young man, eating his bread and smoking a cigarette that he pretends to hide.Â
Following you, Jaehyun took notice of the mountain of rocks and flowers near his room. A monument to a holy being he had only seen a few times. It was beautiful, vibrant flowers in comparison to the rocks. Some cactus and critters roam on small trinkets and a river flows up and down each rock.
Jaehyun finds himself behind a wall of jacarandas which cover the entrance to his room. The door unlocks with a screech, Jaehyun, hopeful it was just as inviting as the home only to be shortly disappointed when it felt warm inside and the walls maintained a darker hue. It was newly made, it lacks love.
Sensing his hesitance, your voice aims to distract him. âItâs not much, the bed is new if you must know. My uncle should bring in the TV but in the meantime you have free reign to the boombox or the kitchenâs.â Apologetic smile decorating your face. âYou can open the window if it gets hot, Ollie is fixing up the fan. Feel free to go into the house, we donât mind.â You hope that will help his decision, youâd hate to see him leave.
He wants to thank you with the words stuck in his throat, something you noticed well enough that intensified the feeling that clogged your own. âUm, yeah⊠New bed, the lamp and main light work, window opens, and you have your own personal bathroom. Unfortunately, the boiler is still very old fashioned so you will have to warm it or boil some water in the chimney to shower.â You hope that repeating yourself will convince him, restraining yourself from begging.
It has its flaws but he has decided not to care. âIâll take it. Itâs still $130 for the month, right?â He smiles boyishly, putting down his suitcases. It gives you a sense of tenderness and relief. You want to sigh and smile, giggle with appreciation. âDonât worry about that, the room is yours.â You hand him the key, thatâs the best you can manage.
His lip slightly juts out and eyebrows furrow with your words. âWhat do you mean by that? Please, I insist.â He turns to you, taking a step closer, forcing you to bite the inside of your lower lip. âI can double it if you prefer.â He pleads, head tilting to the side with wide eyes. Itâs not intentional, heâs unaware of the effects he has on people. Heâs scared youâre tricking him to not keep the room, to give it to someone else. Almost like you arenât finding his presence enjoyable. If only he knew how much you would love for him to stay.Â
âItâs not that, trust me.â You walk towards the door, avoidingly. âItâs nice to not be alone. To have someone else around.â Your eyes donât meet his, he understands. Letting it go, he thanks you in a whisper. âBy any chance can I use your phone?â He asks in attempts to change the atmosphere.Â
Apologies fill your eyes like previous conversations. âItâs off until Monday.â Itâs Wednesday.Â
âThereâs a little store a block or two from here, not far at all. You can leave from either side, itâs flamboyantly yellow so you wonât miss it.â His excursion to find this place alone will say otherwise. âThe name is painted on with neon green, âGabyâsâ itâs called.â You laugh, looking at the expression on his face. He thanks you and follows behind the exit of the room, parting ways.Â
Despite the rundown homes and slight deterioration here and there, Jaehyun liked the tranquility and uncertainty in pertinence to the weather. One second he is granted with the warmth of vitamin D, the other he is threatened with the smell of wet dogs. This town had it all, yet none of it interfered with the breeze that calmed him as his hair waltzed around, singing in his ear that he was in the right hands, finally at ease.Â
You were right about not missing the store. He can laugh now â he did when taking the final corner, being met with what he felt was covered in buckets of highlighter ink. It was almost comical how opposite the owner was from her lively store and home.
âGood morning.â He mutters, âWhat are your rates for long distance calls?â She looks at him, pulling out a booklet from the phone company, arms working like itâs a chore.Â
âHow far?â âOverseas.â
She looks at him through lashes, sighing, flipping another page.Â
â$3.56 per minute.â
Jaehyunâs eyes bulge out, nodding frighteningly. The process goes accordingly: she hands him the phone, writes down his name and the location before looking at him to dial on that old dinky home phone. The wires are sticky from tape residue with some edges popping out. It was her motherâs from 1957 but she loves it more than her third born.
He rotates the wheel, hanging up one or three times until he finally gets it. When the other line finally picks up, she starts a timer. âItâll be quick.â He mentions. âTake your time.â She smiles.
âHello? Hellooo~.â The voice on the other line calls out, ready to hang up, a pair of blondes far more important than this are waiting for him. âHyunjoo?â Jaehyun asks, hand clasping the bottom of the phone. âYeah? Who is this?â His words sound slurred, not enough to call him drunk.
âItâs Jaehyun.â
An eruption of laughter and greetings is heard in the background, smiling at how welcoming it felt, although strange. âJaehyunie! How are you finding it there? Fun?⊠You know when Jude showed me the pictures I thought you were crazy for choosing that⊠place! Do you think you can hold out long?!â He laughs diminishingly, Jaehyunâs smile falters, his heart aching as it usually does when it comes to Hyunjoo.Â
He clears his throat, standing straight. âItâs great, I really like it so far and Iâve only seen the house.â He musters a laugh. âListen, long-distance calls are expensive so I think we should only communicate through letters, okay? I just wanted to call to let you know I was fine.â Heâs ready to end the conversation here. It didnât start how he wanted it and a reminder of his actuality is not what he wants.
âNo⊠no, now wait a minute!â It wasnât Hyunjoo on the line anymore but Jude, his manager who was far more sober than his publisher. Some tussling and grunting here and there on the other line, Jaehyun sighs looking at how quickly he was pushing three minutes already.Â
Eventually Jude got through, scolding the drunkard. âNow what do you mean you wonât call? Donât be dumb, I need to hear from you!â He bites onto his cigarette, scolding Jaehyun like a small kid, like the child he pretends is his. âItâs too much, Jude. Plus, the house doesnât have a phone right now so you canât reach me.â His foot bounces, scoffing like a petulant child proclaiming independence from their family.Â
Jude went on a tirade about how it wasnât good for Jaehyun to go cold on them but the younger one wasnât hearing it. The entire premise of this trip was to forget about them all so why wonât they let him? âOkay too much time, too much money, bye!â Jaehyun cuts the conversation short, giggling as the yelling got louder. Seizing when the timer hits six minutes and thirty-seven seconds.Â
â$24.92.â A wide smile decorates the ownerâs rotund face, sticking her hand out. Nothing left but to sigh and hand her the money.Â
Jaehyun takes this opportunity to explore the village, mesmerized by the intricacies of carved ornate decorations onto walls and doors. In awe with the obvious distinctions between newly built homes and colonial ones he found far more attractive. Architecture was not his only interest, not when the mocking tango of scent swirls drag him to the plaza. Taunting him with delectable treats and meals at every corner and hall.
If he wanted to fall further in love, then the market currently taking place should do. Colorful carps and music from corner to corner, swaying him through the fabric made halls. Jingles of welcomings and hollering flood the ears of every passerby. Whether he wanted fresh produce, flavored shaved ice, fruit cocktails, clothes, or even toys, Jaehyun could find it all. It reminded him of the swap meet he encountered with his friends once when living in Connecticut years ago. This was surely far more inviting and lively.Â
Through his trail around the halls, Jaehyun came to a halt upon seeing you standing before your grandfather on the bench your grandmotherâs family had donated. Worry filled your face but the older manâs laughter was far more deafening and comforting. An internal warmth forces your head to turn, spotting him immediately for your eyes to meet.
âNeed help?â Jaehyun offers embarrassedly, you deny. Your grandfather is receptive despite your light scolding. âItâs fine, really.â You try but both men insist. âDo you know how to repair cars?â Your grandfather asks, Jaehyun shakes his head apologetically, all which prompts your grandpa to huff and shake his own head.
âThe car broke down.â Heâs met with another of your apologetic smiles, as if heâs the one being wronged and not you and your grandfather. âIâm just going to finish off the shopping, mind giving him an eye?â You ask Jaehyun, the first favor to be exact and he couldn't be more elated to not feel useless.
Itâs shut down by the older of the three, complaining and almost throwing a tantrum over how he didnât need a babysitter. It wasnât completely wrong, the entire village knew him so watchful eyes were all around, itâs not like you couldnât trust him to be on his own. âNo, no. Matter of fact, help her with the bags. Go on, look at how heavy they are.â He scolds Jaehyun, throwing away any unfamiliarity out the window. Thatâs one thing about him, heâs too trusting.Â
Like a child in between parents having an argument, Jaehyun didnât know who to listen to. Fortunately you give up and sigh, motioning with your head for him to follow you. He took a handful of bags from your hand, some left in the care of your grandfather that was well situated on the bench.
He gave you both his blessing, shooing you off to embark in an awkwardly silent walk with nothing but the blaring music vendors played to fill that emptiness. He had so much he wanted to ask, to say, to know what you could teach him about the village or if you knew how he could travel to neighboring ones. He was giddish and thatâs all that took for you to turn to him with a smile.
âQuite a bad host, arenât I? I didnât even introduce myself.â You giggle, stopping at a stand. âItâs okay, I didnât either, Iâm sorry. Iâm Jaehyun.âÂ
âY/n,â You give him a quick glance, taking a bag from a vendor. âWhat are you doing here, anyways? No one comes here for pleasure.â Jaehyun could tell more words hung on the tip of your tongue, ones you swallow down. He didnât know how to answer. If someone else asked him, heâd mention how he wanted some inspiration, to see what he could bring into fruition but with you his sincere words threatened to spill.Â
How could he mutter: âI think I hate my life and those in it, so my manager and publisher shipped me off somewhere Iâd be far from that world. I think they just wanted to get rid of me but itâs what I wanted all alongâŠâ
âOh?â
Shit. Just like that.Â
âI-I⊠I didnât mean to say that.â He scolds himself. This had never happened before, what the hell was that?! Your laughter doesnât help and heâs scared youâre laughing at his problems. He doesnât want to believe someone like you could be this cruel.
âItâs okay.âÂ
Thatâs not reassuring. âItâs okay. I hated where I was a year ago too, so I was also shipped here.â Thatâs comfortingâ somewhat.Â
Your shoulders shimmy as you pay for the produce, walking towards another stand. âGranted, my aunt got sick. She was my grandparents' caretaker but it was getting worse and I took the role.â From the depths of your pocket, you pull out some pumpkin seeds, handing him a few for him to crack, not counting with the coating of salt to scald his tongue.Â
âShe comes back here and there to check in and help but eventually she has to go back for constant checkups. I hadnât found a job right out of college so this was my next best option and I like it â far more so, I think.â A sincere smile adorns your face; this was comforting.
Things went far more smoothly after that introduction. He told you about his books and what he wanted to do here. He told you about how miserable he felt and how abusive the city seemed to be towards him. You told him that you missed your city but the reality of facing adulthood in the area was weighing down on you. He figured this was your reality escape and although grim on your end, he felt ecstatic for himself. He felt like he finally found exactly what he needed.
The conversation went well with a few laughs here and there until reaching full circle with cups of shaved ice in a bag to take home and yours in hand. Bliss was momentarily gone when you reached the bench and didnât spot your grandfather. Regardless, it didnât take long for a seller to let you know his nephew gave him a ride.Â
These instances made Jaehyun appreciate your gentleness for your grandparents. Although aware of how you try to hide your emotions from him, the guard falls when it comes to them. Itâs admirable.
Noise didnât break the bubble of silence you remained in until entering the kitchen where your grandfather was sitting at a table already, your grandmother making his coffee while Ollie tired and sweaty relaxed by the door, munching on a candybar he bought when getting the fright remedy. A token of appreciation from your grandfather for the cigarette.
âWe didnât see you, I almost had a heart attack.â You mock reprimand, a smile setting on your face seeing the older man safe and sound. No matter how hard you try to act angry, seeing him eat the rest of his bread while waiting for lunch calms you down. âIâm the old one here, save the ailments for another sixty years.â he cackles, Jaehyun beginning to find comfort in your grandfatherâs ability to find humor in anything.
âI think our guest might want out already.â He teases, sneaking a piece from Ollieâs candy. The boy doesnât protest, doing the same with the shaved ice you brought. Jaehyun felt his ears warm up, nervously denying it with no avail as your grandpa kept insisting with that same laugh. Dying when your grandma scolds him to leave Jaehyun alone.
Jaehyun giggles quietly, shaking his head. âPlease believe me. I think itâs beautiful so far.â Your grandma hums, the one to speak is Ollie. âThereâs nothing here. Whatâs beautiful about it?â He shrugs with a scowl. âHe hasnât seen the other towns, give it time, Ol.â You intervene, forcing him to taste test the rice. Â
âWell, what if you and Ollie, whenever he can, showâŠâ
âJaehyun.â You help your grandmother, playfully glaring at the young boy for feedback on the dish. The elderly give each other a quick glance while Ollie makes a mocking thumbs down when he knows the smile on his face says otherwise.
She nods, scooping a spoonful of lard into the pan. âWhy donât you and Ollie show Jaehyun around after your duties. I doubt he wants to stay all hours here.â Jaehyun doesnât know how to feel. Heâs embarrassed, heâs also bashful and feels imposing. âItâs okay, I can manage. I donât want to overstep.â He nervously chuckles, ears brightening.
âOkay.â You shut him up. He turns to you, silence deafening yet comforting, even when you finally lift your head to look at him, nodding. âItâs okay, just let us know what you want to see.â Youâre much calmer than he is, it causes his body to tense despite being thankful with how inviting you are. How inviting you all are, he thinks he can see himself here for longer.
âThank you.â He meets your eyes with a smile, thankful and glad. Itâs reciprocated, knocking down the nonchalant act.
The first outings donât go past the premises of the village. With planting being the main priority, neither you or Ollie have time to take him anywhere. The younger spent his days working the tractor, taking your grandfather up and down as his mentor despite his own father being there.Â
Jaehyun tried to help once but was booted by both men and their laughter. He wonât fault them, he almost ruined a row of freshly planted beans and if he was to learn anything throughout this trip, heâd learn that any grain and imperfection was important enough to ruin the entire harvest. Instead he was left to pavement clearing, making sure no rocks or debris got in the way of vehicles.
The following week he had been left to his vices at home. You had apologetically told him they found assistance and he should enjoy his trip at home. Although there was nothing left to do, not for him at least. Your grandmother wouldnât let him lift a finger in the kitchen and she didnât like his cleaning style, leaving it to you if she was busy.Â
Ollie had fixed the fan by now. The new motor made the room freeze, mimicking the room temperature of the home. Cold enough that Jaehyun preferred to leave the window open despite the crawlers that woke him at night. Now he contemplates whether he should turn the fan on or sleep with cotton filled eardrums.Â
Jaehyun lays in bed, bored and antsy for something to do. The sound of your arguing with animals overpower the boombox next to his head, melodies he didnât understand.
The fountain pen on his hand never felt far heavier, a sign that he had nothing new to produce. No, the only thing his hand mustered to write was the noises you made. Whatever pertains to you.
âTutt-tutt.â âCluth-cluth⊠No, Constance! Donât peck me!â âBehhh, behhh! Here, what a cry baby.â
Jaehyun found joy through you and your acts of love.
âMeow, meow, meow! I can do that too! I already fed you, Fina! Gluttony is a sin, you know.â
Days went on like this, itâs repetitious but he doesnât complain. Past times heâd think what heâs doing now was all he wanted but a mind never rests and his body is antsy for new experiences. He no longer wants to lie and feel the breeze rush through the window to coddle him, forcing the sheer white curtains to dance around for his attention.
Jaehyun tucks away his journal, buttoning up his shirt and slipping on the work boots he bought with only four days here. Full of glee and excitement he bought them to help your grandfather. He reckoned if he was going to get down and dirty then he should be dressed accordingly.Â
With pep to his step, Jaehyun makes a beeline towards the pen. What used to be barking of unfamiliarity turned to a simple bark for attention, received with wagging tails. He made sure to pat their heads until reaching the fence, looking at you conversing with Camila, the donkey.Â
âAha and what else did he do?... No! You shouldâve kicked him straight in the leg, Cami. He canât talk to you like that!.â You nod and hum at her playfully, received with brays and nods. Jaehyun doesnât know what youâre talking about but heâs glad that youâre having fun.
New hay had been brought in the morning, far more greener and fresh which left the old hay to be moved around for maintenance. In the process of such, strays found themselves near the dogs, enough to crunch under his step. Like a deer caught in headlights, Jaehyun stops, ears reddening by the whip of your head and Camilaâs blaring bray.
âHiâŠâ He mutters timidly, cause of your smile. âHi.â You reciprocate with the softest welcoming. He takes the initiative to approach you, standing a few feet behind. Neither say anything, amused with Camilaâs treacherous ways in leaving you to gain his attention. Head bumping onto his hand to mimic the pats he left on the dogs.
Pleased she throws a kick, sending old hay flying towards the lambs and goats that reproach her action. You share a giggle, forcing you two to give each other a quick glance. âI think she likes you.â You mention, âI like her too.â He replies, petting her ears, as red as his. âWell donât feed her ego, now. Itâs already through the roof.â You teasingly scoff, another airy laugh leaves him.Â
âDonât be harsh, I think she needs it. I mean, I donât know what you two were talking about just now but it seems like she needed her confidence there.â He smiles at you, taking her face into both hands. Your groan makes him wink at Camila, thankful that heâs found something to converse with you. âHer and Ollieââ Camila brays, removing Jaehyunâs touch from her. âThey have such an intense hate-love relationship that his name throws her off, so Iâm giving her advice on how to deal with it. Right, Mila?â Understandingly, she nods, seeking your attention again.
âGranted itâs all made up, sheâs a little jealous but with you here I think Ollie should take the role.â She brays again, aiming to bite your hand. You get away just in time, sticking your tongue out at her. Jaehyun receives the image with laughter, his chest filled with joy.
He shakes his head, petting hers to calm her down. âNo, I donât want to be responsible for their failure.â You nod, picking up a metal rake. âMind if I help you? Itâs getting boring thereâŠâ Heâs ashamed to admit it. You sympathize with him, after all when you used to visit you often fell in his shoes.
âAlright, a heads up, this will be messy work.â He nods obediently, eyes shimmering with their natural gloss and the sunâs reflection.Â
Darn him and his cuteness!Â
Blinking the thought away you hand him a broom and the rake. âHere, hold these while I tie up this maniac.â Your eyes squint meeting those of the ram that tackled you when he arrived. His own mimicking yours, it was on and he knew it.Â
With rope in your hand, test swings approaching the penâs door, the beast starts to test the waters. ThreeâŠtwoâŠone! What ensues is a battle between both, Jaehyun trying his best to help. He envisioned that this rivalry is what Ollie and Camila had, heâd witness it a few days prior. The only exception that you and Whitey hated each other to the core. He never knew why.Â
After a few falls and tugs here and there, you two managed to get him in the isolation pen. Scoffing and laughing as he settles on newly clean hay. While he relaxes, you both huff and hold onto the fence, wiping away any remnants of sweat. âReady to work?â You question, Jaehyun felt like this was enough. Unfortunately itâs only the beginning.
With free and safe reign to go inside the pen, you lay out the map of where to go and be careful. The wall to the neighbors cooped the chickens. It was the time they laid eggs so cleaning it would be held off until a few days later. On the opposite side to the street, roosters had their own coups.Â
âAll you have to do is separate the poop from the hay, thatâs what the rake is for.â Jaehyun figured you felt apologetic for the task as the look you gave him when presenting the room manifested itself onto your face. If you only knew that heâd never say no to you.
He mutters an âalrightâ with his brilliant smile, reassuringly. âWhile you do that,â you watch him struggle, âIâll clean this one.â Your voice slowed, concentrated on how to maneuver. You referred to the pen around a large cactus. He didnât give it much thought when you went in, he also felt it wouldnât be that hard, the livestock discard balls for goodness sake.
He had the confidence that died along the way he swept and raked. For small balls they were pungent and he wasnât handling it well, the uncovered smell of piss added to it. You try not to laugh when he gagged or turned around so you wouldnât see him cover his face but it was becoming hard.
Endearing is the word youâre thinking of, even when he perceives it as mockery that his face falls into a pout when he hears your laughter. âPlease donât laugh at me.â He practically begs, head lifting for a waft of fresh air before pushing old disgusting hay into a trash bag.
âIâm sorry,â A laugh escapes. âItâs good Iâm the one here, I wouldnât doubt Ollie tormenting you if it was him here.â Jaehyun agrees, the difference being that he wouldnât care for Ollie's ridicule, heâd play along and try his best to improve. He cares for your opinion which is far different.Â
âHe did enough during harvest.â âI heard.â
Silence befalls as you continue, the sun seems to have hidden behind clouds for the time being.Â
âIâm sorry youâre not having a good time.â You broke the peace, his ears perking at the condolence lacing your voice. âI know you wanted an escape and Iâm sorry I havenât been of much help.â He couldnât believe his ears. Why are you blaming yourself for something that should only matter to him? He has free will and range to get up and take the next taxi or bus to neighboring towns. You shouldnât blame yourself for his decisions.
Escapism might not have come to him in the way intended but everyday has become a new experience for him. âDonât⊠I promise that even picking up droppings is something new for me.â He rebuttals your claim, mirroring the same apologetic look you give him. âY/n⊠Iâve been coddled all my life, this entire experience has been a new step for me and I feel like Bambi, positively.â He smiles, widely enough that itâs the first time you notice his deep dimples.
You sigh, unsure if itâs from relief, pash, or in between.Â
âYeah, okay⊠I was in your shoes too when I began to stay as a caretaker. Iâve done all of this when I would visit but it was not as intense as it is now. I donât mind, Iâm here to help. I have to.â It sounds melancholic and heâs not sure how to interpret it.
Avoiding it you look around to see heâs done a good job. Youâre actually very well impressed, the words that were meant to leave your mouth surely were appreciative but theyâre shoved back down your throat when you attempt to stand up. Itâs almost like his presence dumbifies you. Like you forget the world around you, manifesting itself in your careless and clueless actions like resting your open hand on a cactus while trying to stand up just to bring him comforting words.Â
Instead heâs met with your yelp as you prick your hand, head, and shoulder in the process of standing and tumbling down. Whiteyâs karma has served you, he bleats mockingly when you keep on hurting yourself within the premise of his home.Â
Instinctively Jaehyun rushes to you, concerned and scared of what this could illicit. He isnât safe of Whiteyâs wrath, not when he helped you and has decreed the young brunette is of your interest. Rushing to your aid, Jaehyun doesnât count on one of the sheep to leave her droppings on the path heâs taking. Fresh and new, it wasnât difficult for Jaehyun to find himself slipping straight into the cactus that has served your own aches.
They say laughter is the best medicine. Both you and Jaehyun attempt it when your eyes meet but the throbbing is far more intense that you synchronize in wailing. Loud and tuneless, enough to drag out your grandmother from the kitchen and force laughter out of Ollie and your grandfather who were arriving from their daily duties.
Camila doesnât stay too behind in her own laughter. You fear all the livestock was against you two or perhaps rooting for you in the most vicious way. Itâs rotten to know this is the start of your shared misery and ache.
The accident had forced your grandparents to make it up to you both the following day. Early in the morning your grandfather drove you all to a neighboring town. Ollie groggily dragged himself out of his home despite his fatherâs complaints that he was being a burden. You reassured him he was always welcomed, your grandfather scolded his dad. Yelling at him to stop trying to force ideas in the boyâs head.Â
Jaehyun had taken in the scenery on his taxi drive although heâs convinced something is different this time. Aside from your grandfather teasing everyone when driving along the edge of the mountains, Ollie clinging to you ready to cry as if he didnât surpass all of you in height.
It takes roughly an hour and a half to arrive at the destination and almost another to find parking they eventually found was free and available behind a cathedral. Everyone laughs at each other for missing it when minutes prior your grandfather was ready to turn the car around, hangry and annoyed at how this damn town was overcrowded with no parking spots.
For once he felt like an actual tourist, visiting the restaurant you all loved and gorging himself with the most delicious meal heâs ever tasted in his life â besides his motherâs cooking, of course! For reassurance, she will witness how happy he looked while eating through the picture you managed to snap of him.
After the meal, your grandparents attempted to walk for digestion but age made them give up as soon as you all reached the townâs plaza. It wasnât a rare occurrence, you saw no problem with it, theyâre together. All they asked was to bring them those donuts they loved dearly and a soda to share. Ollie took it in his hands to beat you to it. Now there you and Jaehyun stood looking at the elderly couple sat before you.
At the time it didnât feel like a scheme but looking back at it, Jaehyun is sure you figured it out as well.Â
Despite the accident, you both went back to the timidness that sheltered you both. Stolen glances and polite smiles when caught, stopping here and there to take pictures of the architecture and culture. He wouldnât tell you, but a good portion were candids of you. You look so pretty that he could not avoid capturing the only remnants of you he could keep.Â
Both try small talk, history pointers whenever reaching old buildings â most consisted of luring him away from hustlers. Youâd laugh after every successful attempt and reward yourself with street snacks that heâd find too salty or too sweet, still delicious enough to risk getting scolded by his physician if it meant enjoying the wonders of life.
The day might have ended with shy conversations and laughs but both could testify that comfort is what surrounded you most. On his end he felt safe and secure, comfortable enough to laugh at anything you said because in whatever way he looked at it, your presence forced glee onto him. Warmth and comfort is what you would best describe it as and thatâs what you have learnt care feels like.
Your grandmother began going easy on you after the accident and outing. You felt like a teenager visiting your grandparents again with how little she left for you to do and how she forced you to go out more often. Encouraging you to enjoy your summer as well while showing Jaehyun around.
Jaehyun is sure this was her way to make both of you appreciate the limited shared time. Heâs thankful enough for it but bitter towards himself for losing some weeks at the start.
You began showing him around other towns. On times you went grocery shopping and heâd beat you to paying for it (his form of appreciation), heâd throw in a peach or two. His favorite, you figured.Â
At the neighboring market, heâd buy fridge magnets, five for the price of a large one. All which represented his favorite snacks heâs consumed during these days. You still remember teasing him for buying a mini replica magnet of a beer bottle. Later at home while rocking on a chair he showed you a layout of how heâd arrange them on his fridge. In the meantime, you helped him decorate the door to his room, enjoying the air the fan blew at both.
When it rained, Ollie forced both to dance under the cold drops. Enjoy life as you should, he justified. At night, heâd dragged you both to the night market. Showing Jaehyun his favorite drinks and laugh when you scold him for drinking like an old man with kidney issues. He would joke about you and Jaehyun being his parents and would even grab your hands to skip in between both when it was so easy for him to drag you down. Damn him and his tall genes.
Heâd drag the joke far enough to reach home where your grandparents never missed the opportunity to throw in a âTake your brat with you.â whenever Ollie was available and you were to show Jaehyun around. Neither of you minded, Ollie was silent enough to let you two bask in each otherâs presence and playful enough for you two to feel at ease and content.Â
In another universe, this would reign true and not a fragment of a life youâre all creating that was never to bloom.
After three months the festivities had reached your village and vendors from all around the country settled by the plaza. Intrigued at first and fascinated by what they sold, poor Jaehyun fell victim to one of the home goods sellers. Spending a large amount buying your grandmother some pots, pans, a set of dishes, and stools as a token of appreciation. He went overboard but was happy to help, blinded by the cheap prices. Jaehyun shouldâve known something was off, he knows you would have talked him out of it but you had been arguing with another vendor that they took advantage of the painfully obvious foreigner in the meantime.
When arriving home and seeing he had been robbed, you got ready to argue and force them to give him his money back. He protested despite being defeated and sad he was swindled. He convinced you but not your grandparents and Ollie. The three had taken matters into their own hands while you two fetched salt blocks to replace in the pen. By the time you got back, Ollieâs hair was far more ruffled than usual and his face red while your grandfather laughed, taking a sip of his beer, clanking it with your grandmotherâs. On the kitchen bar, Jaehyunâs money was laid out. Every single cent and interest returned to him, money he used to invite all to dinner and dessert with a gift of their choice.
Ollie wore his tonight. Gleefully trotting through the threshold of the gate, careful to not scuff the boots Jaehyun gladly bought while singing to gain attention. Jaehyun laid on bed, scribbling his thoughts on his days, one-liners here and there and far more of the noises youâve made. In addition the lyrics to the song Ollie sang before your grandmother told him to stop before he ate a fly.
Fireworks had been going off all day and neighborâs music loudened with their gates open. This wasnât new but it seemed to be far more intense today out of all days. âWhy arenât you ready? Youâre not going to the fair?â Ollie questions, out of breath and frantic to see your grandparents sitting on their chairs enjoying todayâs weather with a cup of soda in one hand and pastries in the other.Â
Talks about a fair had not gone in deaf ears throughout the past three weeks but Jaehyun paid it no mind when he saw that no one else seemed concerned â besides Ollie. It seemed to be a big thing when he noticed more carps, games, and rides fully covering the plaza.
âDonât think we will be going, Ol. Their knees hurt.â Your voice manifests itself, forcing Jaehyun to sit up and put away his journal. You had been doing some chores outside his room. Hanging laundry and watering the plants, the product of everything heâs written and attempted to draw today.
He follows outside, Ollie greets him, a mischievous smile on his lips forming an idea. âWhy not? Iâll drive if you want! Do it for Jaehyun, heâs never going to experience this again.â
Ollieâs childish intuition strikes again, this time in the form of a gash against both of your chests.Â
You both knew it was true but reality is what Jaehyun wanted to escape and you had made sure to enable him. It just so happens that you have fallen victim to it as well.
No matter, he said he wanted to stay months so it should still be far along in the future. You think so⊠you implore.
Perceptive is a word to describe your grandparents. Despite their ache they figure it is not as big as the one brewing in the depths of your conscious and heart. As best as they can, they agree with the younglin and head inside to get ready.
Ollie is ecstatic, heâs always been a fan of these things but now that he was of age, he could enjoy it more with a drink or two. Not to mention things like these are grounds for finding partners and like any town boy who hasnât found one, heâs looking forward to it. Thatâs what he tells you and Jaehyun at least but he knows heâll spend his night looking after your grandparents, far more giddy about you two together.
He had been smart enough to put cinder blocks early in the morning in a parking spot front and center from the fair, forcing Jaehyun out of the car to move and put them behind the car once he parked so no one would block them. Perfect was his plan that once everyone got out of the car, his friends that occupied a bench scattered like roaches to give their seat to your grandparents. Both elders find it comical seeing right through Ollie.Â
Arriving just in time for the parade, all queen candidates drove around in their elaborately decorated transportation. Colors flying around similar to their presentation favors, many which ended up hitting both Jaehyun and Ollie in the head. The older of the two made sure to take pictures of it while Ollie complained, claiming he was glad he didnât vote for whoever hit him. The new reigning queen didnât appear until the end. It was far more of a social economic competition. Whoever paid more won therefore it wasnât surprising when a queen from years prior won again.
âYou shouldâve signed up, you wouldâve won, Y/n.â Ollie elbows you, received with an eye roll. âRight, Jaehyun?â That devious brat, always finding a way to make you miserable. You try not to turn to Jaehyun, yet his gaze is so intense that it forces you to do so slowly. His face, decorated with that usually wide smile that emphasized his dimples, eyes squinting in glee when yours finally meet his. Candidness and benevolence lacing his voice.
âYes, you would have won, Y/n.âÂ
That was enough footing for Ollie to shoo both of you away, promising to take care of your grandparents while you had fun. Your attempts at protest are futile, your grandparents helping Ollie in his mission. Buying the three something to eat in the process before parting ways, promising itâll be fast.
Itâs not fast, itâs a brisk walk that both you and Jaehyun enjoy. Struggling to not lose each other within the masses going opposite or in the same direction. He jokes about feeling like a meerkat in a sea of gazelles, you laugh but heâs sure you donât find it funny. At least heâs glad you humor him.
You entertain him through food. Buying tornado potatoes, plain and simple. He mentions having eaten these when he lived in Connecticut. You ask him about the state and what itâs like, youâre not too thrilled nor believe him when he says itâs boring. As an attempt to remove the connection, you drizzle hot sauce on one half of the potatoes. Scared but willing to try it, Jaehyun lets you feed him the first broken off bit. Itâs enjoyable at first, soon his face blends with the lights behind him. Red and bright as he begins to cough. Now he will only think of this when it comes to the snack.
You both laugh at it, as an apology you buy him a drink. A piña colada for him and a michelada for you, it should work enough to ease both of your bashfulness. He couldnât eat anything from the drizzled side, leaving those for you whilst he munched on the dry. Giving you sips here and there from his drink to cool down the fire in your mouth. He teases you for choosing a spicy drink when youâre eating far more spice, receiving him with an eye roll and âYou donât know what life is about.â
Finishing that, he dragged you to a game. Youâd like to think he found it far more odd because of the mini stripper animatronics in the center of all the glass bottles but he reassures you the life-size gremlin doll pissing on people was more alluring â and disturbing. It didnât stop him from attempting to win a decrepit pale Winnie the Pooh bear.
He had spent a good amount of time trying for it, towards the end he required your help. You had been nagging him throughout the entire game to not spend more money on the game, that it was most likely rigged but when it was your turn and managed to burst all bottles, then it became a skill issue.Â
Jaehyun mopped about it, you figured the bear would bring him comfort. He held it for seconds to soon return it with a bright smile. You try rejecting it, he had been fighting hard for it so it was confusing why he didnât want it. You thought it had to do with the principle of the winner takes it all; it wasnât the case.Â
He confessed he had wanted to get it for you and only felt bummed that he wasnât able to but that you should keep it irregardless as a token of his appreciation and care for you, to give your Garfield some company. The moment wouldâve been sweet if the booth attendant didnât make that stupid doll spritz itâs faux piss your way, forcing you to flee while cursing him out with laughs in between.
That was the beginning of your journey through halls and carps, stepping out here and there to get on childrenâs rides that warrant glares from parents. Jaehyun joked about dragging Ollie so he could ride the caterpillar rollercoaster with him and have you take pictures of a father with his kid. Jaehyun is now playing along with the fantasy Ollie has created. You donât know whether to laugh or let the ache in your heart manifest.
You end at the ferris wheel only a few feet away. In the process of calming each otherâs laughter, the noises of people and music filled the silence. Comforting as the day you met, walking through the market and buying produce for that dayâs meal. It makes Jaehyun think about how far you two have gone. How one little incident with a cactus has led to having the time of your lives nearing the highest point of the ride.
Youâve felt the warmth and softness of his touch. Felt his care and appreciation through every little act yet you yearn and crave for more from him. Your body and soul know there is more both can offer, although frightened that youâve misinterpreted his lingering gazes and gestures.
âWhen I was younger my mom had decided that we would spend every summer with my grandparents and aunt. I hadnât been here since I was five for her grandpaâs funeral so it meant nothing the first few weeks. The first year, even.â
Jaehyun turns, intrigued. âThen when my mom would make the long distance calls and send letters, my grandpa would joke around how I didnât want to visit them at all â that I hated it here, similar to how he does with you. I didnât hate it, I think I just wasnât familiar with the lifestyle in comparison to back home where I donât have to worry about if thereâs hot running water.â
His hand inches closer to you. âIn attempts to prove him wrong, I spent my time here helping him with the animals, going grocery shopping with him and my cousins and it drew me closer to this. After the second summer, we spent Christmas here too and the weather killed me but they seemed so happy that I joined.âÂ
Your laugh comforts him. He thinks about the times heâs attempted to help and failed your grandparents, it only dawns upon him that things take time and he shouldnât dwell on them too much.
âThen in my last summer of college, I had taken an internship that promised a job right out of collegeâ obviously it was a lie, Iâm here.â You laugh bitterly. âI missed time with my family and my grandma ended up in the hospital. I felt so guilty the remainder of the year, even during winter break. I felt like it was my fault, that my absence was the small piece of the puzzle that could ruin it all.â
Jaehyun felt and heard the remorse in your voice, he felt the need to find a way to ease it with no avail, feeling as inutile as when the ram tackled you. Itâs imprinted in his brain that no matter what, it will weigh on his shoulders that heâs not able to help no matter how much he tries.
âAnd I think the universe is funny and cruel enough that when the internship dropped me and said all vacancies were occupied, my aunt was the one to fall ill next. Forcing her back home with her own family. It was its way to make it up to me, as horrible as it sounds.â
You share a sigh, he takes your hand in his, reassuringly. You don't want comfort words, he knows that, he knows this is enough for you. âI think what I first felt when visiting is what you feel now with the exception that you actually have so much to do out thereâŠâ Jaehyunâs actions halt, lifting his head to look at your sorrow filled eyes.
He shakes his head, trying to convince himself and you. He clings to the delusion everyone helped create in hopes to be good hosts. He still has time, Jaehyun has time, he wants to believe it so please donât shatter his joy so quickly, please!
âItâs okay, Jaehyun. You have to publish your book, weâll always be here for you as theyâve been for me.â Heâs not too sure how true that is. Life is never consistent nor forgiving, heâs learnt that in harsh ways. Peopleâs care is conditional and based on time and familiarity, heâs been at the end of that stick.
Your hand takes purchase on his cheek, consoling him for what you have just said. You didnât intend to cause this but you have to prepare yourself for what youâve known all along. âI donât think I want to go back and risk anything.â He mutters, eyes softening the longer he looks at you, the ride feels endless.
âYou must⊠All there is for you here is inspiration.â Theyâre meant to comfort him but it feels more like youâre trying to convince yourself that youâll be fine when he leaves. Jaehyunâs lips part ready to speak, words muted by the fireworks going off. Midnight has hit, itâs a brand new day and itâs received with pyrokinetic colors that aim to diffuse the pain he feels.
They illuminate your face, a smile forming in awe of how pretty they look. Not as pretty as you, Jaehyun is sure of that the longer he stares with the same smile on his face you adore. âIâve found the life I needed all along.â His touch on your cheek brings you back to him, dumbfounded with what he meant. Inquiries answered upon feeling his lips softly land on yours.
Hands softly cradle your face, eyelashes tickling your cheek as you get a taste of him. Itâs so soft and tender that you want to be here for the rest of the night, drowning the noises around you. If youâve felt heaven before, it doesnât compare to being with him like you are now.Â
The crowded path didnât feel claustrophobic, like it was just you two in the sea of booths, fluorescent lights and fireworks. The music drowned, his grasp on you doing its best to keep you with him for whatever time is left for you two.
He hadnât noticed at what point you both had gone back until Ollie stepped in between you two. âSo? Did you like it?â The giddy young boy questions, a bottle of beer in his hand, compliments from his cousin â your grandparents with their own as well, watching. Jaehyun nods, glancing at you. âMore than anything.â He smiles widely, hypnotizing dimples present.Â
Ollie giggles, a chant as he jumps near your grandparents telling them something that neither of you manage to hear, distracted by the shocking ice-cold bottle shoved into your hands. Your grandfather had been talking to your grandmother, both laughing about judgments thrown at people around them. Mean, yes, but itâs not often that they bond about things anymore.
The elderâs leg had been bouncing as they talked, cackling in the process of drowning whatever was left in the bottle. Jaehyun took notice of this, turning to the group playing up on stage a few feet away. People around were dancing, some seemed to enjoy themselves, others not too much â the only thing that mattered was the ambient and showing face.Â
Jaehyun approaches your grandpa, asking if he was having a good time. The older of the two nodded, responding by showing the new bottle Ollie handed him. You scold both of them to not drink too much but they shush you. âItâs a party, Y/n. Liven up.â Ollie laughs, alcohol having gotten into his stream, demonstrated on how clumsily he clinks his bottle with yours and everyone else's. âCome on, letâs dance instead.â Pulling you in for a quick little shuffle. Heâs not a great dancer, he knows it. He also knows his joy brings joy to your grandparents and youâll do anything for them to maintain it.
You entertain Ollie, dancing despite him having already stepped on you multiple times. Apologizing with whines and puppy eyes that make you laugh. You push him off after a while, helping your grandfather up so he could dance with you. Heâs overjoyed, finally having the opportunity to do what he loves so much, a pity your grandmother is the opposite. Sheâs content enough with just watching.
Jaehyun smiles, laughing in glee at how the ambient fuels his emotions. His own body swaying ever so slightly, brain trying to formulate how to dance to music heâs never heard. He thinks he gets it, it doesnât seem too hard but he could be proven wrong and become Ollieâs mirror.
Your grandmother, ever so insightful, watches with a glint of content with how well he has adapted to the culture. Although, far more interested in the way his eyes donât leave you. His ears are red, brighter than the light illuminating the stage and the municipal office. Jaehyun may try to hide how he feels, you may try, but sheâs older and wiser. Sheâll always know when love is around.
âGo ask her for a dance.â She elbows him to catch his attention, Jaehyun had been holding your grandfatherâs seat. The mention alone caused his ears to brighten, crimson migrating to his face. He tries not to smile, it so happens to be that his muscles are treacherous and they emphasize the lines of his smile, deepening those dimples you love.Â
Jaehyun shakes his head. Convince her that itâs okay, that he would rather watch, something she wonât allow. âDonât coward away. Whenâs the next time youâll get the chance?â Jaehyun ignores the heavy meaning of her words, he prefers to ignore the reality that slowly creeps in. Regardless, he nods, taking in the other point of view. He thanks her with a smile, standing up to walk towards you. Sacks of nervousness weighing him down, making his hands sweat.
âMind if I take her from you?â Jaehyun clears his throat, head tilting, pleading. The older man cackles, pure and utter joy that Jaehyun has made a move. Frantically he nods, agreeing by pushing you towards the brunette who seems just as ecstatic as your grandfather. Given persimmon, Jaehyun takes your hand in his. Awkwardly figuring out how else he should position himself.
You watch amusedly, hiding your smile by pressing your lips together as if your cheeks and eyes were not a dead giveaway. âWhat makes you think I wanted to dance with you?â You tease, correcting where his hands and feet should go. The smile you try hard to hide slowly creeps in. Jaehyun doesnât mind exposing his own, giggling when you begin to lead. âWhatâs this then?â He plays along, moving his feet and knees according to what he had examined. Raising your shoulders in a shrug, you donât hold back your smile, a giggle following. âA lesson.âÂ
The dance doesnât go smoothly, you have to teach him between laughs, both yours and his with your familyâs in the background but he manages. Even if you all think his dancing is horrible, as bad as Ollieâs, the younger one takes the opportunity to capture you two dancing with Jaehyunâs camera. If thereâs something to remember, it is this night and the love that has finally come into fruition.
The flash blinds you, stopping you two from dancing and even though Ollie whines for you two to continue, you both claim your feet ache. Itâs not a lie on your end but the coyness from your family seeing you with a potential partner is a bigger deal.
Itâs past two in the morning, obvious in the way your grandparents hide their yawns from your view, hoping to not ruin your night further. âWant to go home?â You walk towards them, a hand on your hip and genuine concern on your face. They admit they are tired but donât want to go home no matter how much you insist. Ollie offers to drive them home while you and Jaehyun stay back longer but youâve been away from them this entire night that you cannot fathom the idea any longer.
Ollie and your grandparents can try to convince you with the same story about Jaehyunâs limited time but that wasnât going to work now. No, you stick to your guns and manage to get them in the car. Ollie had drank far more than all of you so he wasnât apt to drive, instead Jaehyun volunteered, something that had excited your grandfather the most.
After removing the cinder blocks and putting them back in the trunk, Ollie walks towards your window, bidding everyone goodnight. You nag him, worried that he was drinking too much. He receives you with an âOkay, mom!â, the same phrase heâs been throwing around ever since Jaehyun had reached a monthâs stay. It managed to get a laugh out of your grandparents, even from you and Jaehyun but it didnât change that you still lightly swat his hand. âIâm serious, Ollie. Donât drink anymore, stay back a bit but not too late, Okay?âÂ
The worry in your eyes makes him relent, nodding before kissing your cheek goodnight and shaking Jaehyunâs hand. The interaction forced a smile on his face, every single aspect of your tenderness making him melt more.
As the moon is his witness, Jaehyun has fallen in love with this village and you. Gracious the stars are that once you manage to get your grandparents in bed and meet Jaehyun in the kitchen, the two of you quietly make your way outside with nothing but moonlight to illuminate you.
âWant some coffee?â You ask, fingers familiarizing themselves with the texture of those yellow walls. âDo you not want to sleep?â He laughs, taking those same fingers to familiarize with the tenderness of his lips. The action makes your breath hitch.Â
âPerhapsâŠâ
His eyes meet yours, inching closer to capture your lips in another tender kiss. His hands find purchase on your waist, your arms wrap around his shoulders. Itâs sweet and soft, his tongue managing to slip in your mouth to waltz with your own. The soft muscle forces a delighted sigh, one that he swallows graciously.
When neither can hold it for much longer, you separate, smiling like two fools. âSo no coffee, then?â You laugh, one he reciprocates with a nod. âToo bitter, not as sweet as you.â The flirtatious remark is received with a laugh.
âYouâre so cheesy.â You claim. âItâs worth it if it makes you laugh â itâs what I like to hear everyday.â
Jaehyunâs expression is serious, the adoration in his eyes letting you know how he feels. He may not pin a word to it but you can see his yearning and longing. You try to be in the same cloud he is in, to ignore the dooming reality but you canât. You appreciate his affection and you reciprocate it but you also donât want to become delusional.
âJaehyunâŠâ Your head drops, avoiding his look. He thinks heâs done something wrong and it aches horribly. âYeah?â He squeaks meekly, head moving in hopes to see your eyes, to understand how the atmosphere became so somber. âHow serious are you about this? You know how things are anââÂ
âDonât⊠Please donât bring that up.â He begs, eyes shutting, no longer in need to understand what you meant. âYou canât act like you donât have a life outside of here. You may stay all you want but eventually you will go back â thereâs more to life than this for you.â Your head lifts, vulnerability not as heavy as his.
He tries to drown out your words, this night has gone too well for things to fall off already. He doesnât want it to be bittersweet. Sure he can stay all he wants until itâs time to publish his book but he will come back so why are you being so cruel to him?
âNothing compares to this, Y/n.â He holds your hands, hoping his warmth lets you know how much youâre hurting him but also how much he loves you. You shake your head, a small smile of unbelievability. âYouâve been here for three months, thatâs still fine and dandy. Itâs not like truly living here.âÂ
His eyebrows furrow, refusing to listen. âBut you still love it here. I donât know what youâre trying to get at.â His voice quivers, frightened that this is your way of ripping his heart out.
You sigh, squeezing his hands. âI do, I love it but I also think that Iâve been looking at this place through the same glasses youâre looking through. What Iâm getting at is that, in the long run youâll get bored, everyone I know has and theyâve left⊠Who knows, maybe even Ollie will leave and itâll leave me here because no matter how hard I try to make a life out there, it doesnât love me back.â
Jaehyun was perplexed, eyes scanning your face. He knows youâre projecting, that you donât want to get attached despite already having done so, he hopes you could see inside him to understand that he doesnât ever want to leave. He doesnât want to leave you.
His hands cradle your face, kissing your eyelids, cheeks, nose, and lips for reassurance. âI can always come back. After publishing whatever I have in hand, I will always come back. You are the life that I needed all along, Y/n.â His whisper is heavy and sincere, the glimmer in both your eyes, evidence to what both feel.
Words donât describe what you two feel, no matter how heavy they hang on your tongues. No, itâs best that you share it in another tender kiss that the stars and moon witness. Both end the conversation, convinced that the love you two port is stronger than the universeâs will.
Quick glances and kisses are stolen for the following weeks, everyone knows what both feel but itâs more exciting if you pretend as if this love is forbidden despite the encouragement and approval of your family. Ollie teases you two about the brewing romance, pretending to act like he didnât say anything regarding it when you correct him that nothing is happening. Itâs like a game for all of you, one that you all indulge in for the sake of excitement.
You had all agreed upon visiting a thermal spring this morning, the drive was somewhat long and it was best to arrive before other people did. Ollie was the most excited about it, he had begged his family to let him go for days until they agreed. It just so happens to be that the universe doesnât often like to see him happy; you donât appreciate that.
Ollie had arrived with a glum look on his face, saddened eyes when he sat in his usual seat next to the chimney. Jaehyun approached him with a cup of hot chocolate and a pat to his head. Your grandma didnât take long to question the reason behind his state but he only sighed.
âThey moved the pension collection to today. The offices will be closed until next month for remodeling so you two have to go in before the line gets long.â His lip juts out, looking at everyone with puppy eyes.Â
You ruffle his hair, rubbing his back comfortingly. âWe can go tomorrow, Ollie. Donât worryâŠâ You mimic his pout, his head rests on your hip, pressure tickling your hip bone. âNo⊠Dad is taking me with him out of town for a few weeks to help with the ranch that hired him.â He doesnât dare look at anyone. Itâs not the first time he was taken to different places in the country but when they came back his dad usually kept Ollie locked in for a while until he became unbearable to keep in. Itâs as if he relishes in your joint misery.
Jaehyun throws you a look, looking for ways to solve this crisis. He knows you donât like the news, he hates them too. Heâs grown so fond of Ollie that knowing heâs the first to go is causing a small turmoil in his chest. Sure, he may be back and Jaehyun will still be here but one never knows how things may turn out.Â
âWhat if you and Jaehyun go? I have to take my grandparents for their pension so you two enjoy.â Ollie wishes things were that easy but his childish intuition fears that time is coming short and if you donât spend more time with Jaehyun, heâll feel guilty for whatever ending comes.
Ollie shakes his head, standing up. âNo, itâs fine. You and him go. Iâm going to take my dad anyway so I can take them too.â He attempts to smile even if he canât. It dawns upon you that missing the trip isnât his concern but not seeing any of you for God knows how long is whatâs killing him.Â
You try to deny, shake your head in protest. Jaehyun does so as well, itâs not that he doesnât want time alone with you but knowing this is his last day with Ollie for a while is killing him. Your grandparents hadnât said anything up until this point. They werenât fond of swimming, they never did.
âOllie is right, you two go.â Your grandmother spoke, standing to grab her purse. âI canât leave you two, what if you need help?â You attempt and they protest, your grandfather jumping in by throwing in Jaehyunâs limited time. It seems theyâre all far more in tune with reality than you two.
You donât know how or when but they managed to convince you and Jaehyun to go. Both attempted to protest and cancel the trip all together but here you were, in your grandfatherâs old and chipped red ford. The seats torn apart, a blanket hiding away its imperfections. The red leather of the dashboard hot under Jaehyunâs touch, its form of showing that you two being left alone was real.
That now you didnât have to talk through a window in the bathroom to spend some alone time. You didnât have to climb on the sink and hit your head on the roof just to see his face through the mangled chicken wire and be received by concrete flakes on your lips and eyelashes whenever you attempt to kiss through it. No, here you were able to hold hands and kiss without fear of being caught (even if it didnât matter â everyone knew).
The roads were messy and bumpy, dirt flew all around which forced you to keep the windows rolled-up despite the sunâs rays being hotter than the actual weather. Worse off is that once he came out of the truck, a gust of cold breeze rained upon him. Showing him everything he had missed while struggling with heat and keeping dust out of your airways.Â
It was a reward but also mockery, to him at least because you remained unphased, rejoicing on how lonely it was. âReckon everyone is getting their pension, too?â You ask, hands on your hips, ripping some overgrown grass by your feet to make sure no venomous critters are around.
Jaehyun shrugs, letting his focus remain on his surroundings. It was amazing for him to see how deserted and destroyed this place was. Overgrown yellowing grass that stray cattle eat, ruins of houses from colonial towns signaling the fleeing of whoever had inhabited them before; your grandfather had later explained that the location was a town destroyed in the process of gaining independence.
What was prettier to him was the body of water he was here for. Multiple trees around, so green and alive in comparison to the remaining vegetation. The water is so clear and warm that he could see the steam rise the closer he got.
âLike it?â You question, to his side with towels on your shoulders. Jaehyunâs head whips, a smile on his face upon reaching for your hand, âItâs beautiful.â His fingers interlace with yours, camera in hand positioning it an arms length away when he takes the initiative to lean down and kiss you, capturing it all on film.
You shove him playfully, rushing to a dry rock where you can leave your possessions. He chases after you, removing his shirt and unbuttoning his pants. Your instinct to look away is something he does not miss and it causes a blush to creep up on his face.
He takes in the temperature of the water with his feet. Jumping back when he realizes itâs hotter than what heâs experiencing right now. âItâs not that bad.â You call out, pulling down on the bottoms of your dress swimsuit. Your smile softly falters when he doesnât respond, rather his attention is set on how pretty you look.
The trees sway, leaving empty slots for the sunrays to seep through, illuminating you. Seemingly purposely done, to put you on a pedestal for him to look at with nothing else but admiration. That blush he had earlier rose again, one heâll pretend is due to the waterâs temperature.
âWhat are you looking at?â You tease, smile back on. Jaehyun approaches you with a shrug, shirt unbuttoned halfway. His fingers thread over the fabric of the straps, such a pretty lace decorated with satin red ribbon forming a bow at the front. âYou.â He smiles, warm fingers touching your arms in hopes to feel closer than he already is in all senses. You donât respond but heâs aware that the look you give him is fond.
Your hands mimic his, finding their way to his shirt and helping him undo the last few buttons, pushing off the linen to free his flesh and let it be kissed by the breeze â something you can only wish for. Once off you toss it to the pile of clothes and towels, cocking your head for him to follow you into the water. Itâs glistening and steaming, soothing once his feet acclimate.
Silent sounds escape both, little by little submerging yourselves â your hands not letting go in any instance. âMy mom and aunt loved to come here. Theyâre hypochondriacs â at least my mom isâ always claiming a trip here was healing, holistic. Forcing my grandparents to put their feet in at least so the warmth would take away any aches.â Jaehyun could see how your free hand rubbed at your knees, mimicking their action.Â
âPretty sure they take from my grandma but my grandpa was more of a people pleaser so heâd tell them he felt much better just so they wouldnât feel bad. I donât really see how this can take away all your aches. I get that it can help temporarily but not permanently.â Your shrug and words may tell him so but Jaehyun can tell that your vigorous rubbing at your own joints was a form of subconsciously believing them.
âMaybe⊠It seems like a mutual interaction of comfort and understanding. Your mom and aunt try their best for their parents to feel better about their bodies wearing down and in turn they receive praise and appreciation from them.âÂ
Your hand stops its action, looking up at him with a hum. âI guess so.â You mutter, letting go of him to float on your back. âThe writer in you just had to make it so philosophical.â he can hear the smile on your lips, your feet playfully kicking some water onto him to which he laughs, responding by splashing you too. Calling a truce when he was winning this battle.
As a way to comfort, he pulls you in for a hug. Your back to his chest, head resting on his shoulder and holding onto a railing to not float away far deeper. If it was for Jaehyun, heâd love to stay like this until it was time to go. For once in this entire trip you two have been truly left alone. No more sneaking kisses and late night talks through the bathroom window. It was just you and him an hour away from civilization with only the cattle as witness to the love you two didnât speak about but embraced.Â
There is nothing more Jaehyun wants than to have more time with you. He wonders if things would have been different if he had fallen for you much earlier or if you had. Heâs not fully sure how much you love him, he knows youâre stuck on him leaving sometime in the future which is what hinders this from going forward but he truly wishes you could see that he has no intent on leaving soon or for too long.Â
What if he had helped you clean the pen earlier? That would have meant spending more time with you and more outings with your family, surely. On the other hand, what if he had been useful enough during planting? Itâs evident he would have never gotten close to you beside cordiality in the mornings and afternoons for meals and trips to the market.Â
Jaehyun cannot think of a world where this trip would result in you two not becoming closer. He canât fathom not getting to know and falling in love with you.
Sensing his pensiveness, you turn your head, looking up at him with a questioning look that he could only interpret as trying to read his mind. Heâs noticed that quirk, the way your head tilts and your lips quiver in a way to mutter a âhmâ without voicing it. He makes sure to receive it with a smile, leaning in to peck your lips that surely help you abandon your actions.
âItâs a bummer Ollie didnât come.â He attempts to distract. âWould have been nice seeing him have some fun before leaving.â Thereâs more to what he had said. Jaehyun wanted to add âbefore I leaveâ into his sentence, itâs hanging on his tongue despite how much his brain and heart attempt to keep him wrapped around his delusion of perpetual happiness.
âI think so too.â your body twists within his arms, facing him. âI was thinking of making his favorite meal for dinner once we get back. His dad always returns him skinnier and paler than how he leaves, I need him to keep his cheeks plump, donât you think?â Your exclamation forces a chuckle out of him, nodding in response.Â
âHelp me find a gift for him too, then?â âDonât spoil him too much, heâll be an even bigger pain than he already is.â âOh come on, donât be so mean to the kid. Let me, pleaseâŠâ Jesus, if anyone was to hear you two theyâd think youâre talking about a child and not a nineteen year old. But thatâs what Ollie is to you both. A child you saw as yours or your brother that Jaehyun would spoil while you scold him no matter how much you loved him. Youâd reckon Ollieâs presence kept you sane even if he often teased you but his nature was enough to bring entertainment for you and joy for your grandparents. If Jaehyun looks back at it, Ollie reminds him of the young boy he met in that taxi on the way to that village.Â
Reluctantly (faking so) you agree, rolling your eyes before pushing him off to swim away from him. He doesnât stay too behind, chasing you for what feels like forever. Overworking your body for hours in such a hot body of water had rendered exhausting for both to the point that you basically had to drag each other out of the water just to lay on the cool metal ramp, gasping for air acclimation to avoid fainting. Jaehyun was far more concerned with you when he didnât hear you speaking nor felt you moving, calming when you stick your tongue out at him for his nosiness although all you wanted was to see him smile.
âYou complain about Ollie but it seems like the real brat here is you!â He exclaims, gaining momentum to swing his legs onto both sides of you. âCry about it.â You mutter, a smile on your face; his hair hangs off, fuzzy around his eyes and dripping onto your cheeks. âOr⊠maybe I should do something to correct it.â His hair tickles your face, sticking to your cheeks the more his lips linger on them, testing the waters.
He relents when your arms wrap around his shoulders, leaving him flush over your body with nothing left but your lips to connect. Theyâre cold and pillowy, soft against your own just like his hands when they find purchase on your waist, holding you near as if the spring water below you will drag you out of his grasp, the last thing he needs.Â
Jaehyun is gentle in the way he holds and kisses you. His hands knead your skin, warming against it the more they roam around to hold you closer. Your fingers thread through his hair, sending shivers down his spine that causes him to sigh into the kiss, enough for your tongue to slip through and deepen the kiss. The intensity rose, his hands felt much hotter against your skin the lower they went, scalding when one of them grips your upper thigh âavoiding the bruising from whiteyâs assaultâ helping it raise to rest on his hip.
Tongues mingle amongst each other, the taste of the mango juice he drank earlier still coating it to which you enjoy against your own. The thin film of saliva on both of your lips helps them slot smoothly in a far more pleasant kiss. Jaehyunâs fingers knew how to tease you, tips tickling your inner thigh that forced small groans which begged him for more.Â
More, more, more â Jaehyun would have given you everything if it wasnât for the faint sound of music blaring and tires pushing dirt through Cattle began mooing, warning you of company joining, spoiling whatever comfort you two had.
You scramble to grab the towels, Jaehyun helps you, drying you off with his own and taking the remaining items under his arm to help you towards the truck, staying guard while you change into dry clothes coming in when you knock against the window. He doesnât bother changing, claiming the air will dry him well enough upon.Â
You cross paths with the incoming truck, nodding your heads in acknowledgment before embarking on another long ride. Small talk made here and there, he speaks about how much this road reminds him of Western America: dry vegetation and barely any trees insight but with lively mountains that shield anyone from the sun. You tell him that it seems interesting how he describes that part while detesting Connecticut but he laughs and shrugs.Â
Itâs not long until you stop at a gas station, the truck nearly empty and he still had to change into some dry clothes. He met you inside, walking through the aisles in search of a snack for whatever was left of the ride.Â
Jaehyun doesnât share your sentiment. He finds himself distracted by a corner of toys, a bright red truck similar to the one youâre transporting through catching his eye. It glimmers under the sun rays that make way through the window panels. Jaehyun thinks it would be a good gift for Ollie, a menial one for now.
Paying for the items and heading outside with you hand in hand, Jaehyun recalls seeing a photobooth by the bathrooms. He pulls you along with no response to your questions, motioning with his head for you to push through the red velvet curtain. The first image is neutral enough, smiling while looking directly at the mirror, the flash comes in and you two hold each other. By the last two flashes it resulted in engraving the image of you two kissing.
You laugh at him for sneaking in a kiss and having it on film, he shrugs you off knowing that it was an image heâd like to see at all times and heâs hopeful you do too. You still needed to wait for at least four minutes for the film strips to develop, leading Jaehyun to slot in more coins claiming he wanted Ollie to have something to remind the young boy of the two.Â
Jaehyun truly wanted to say that he hoped Ollie wouldnât forget that the two loved him. He hoped a flimsy piece of paper was enough of comfort to Ollie as they will be to him.
Pulling out a pocketbook rushedly, Jaehyun manages to scribble his support and appreciation for the young boy. Thatâs an image of himself alone, handing it to you to scribble something quick before the flash goes off again. The last two flashes are paraded with you two making faces you often made towards him â sticking your tongue out or scrunching your nose, the latter his favorite one.
âGood luck in your journey, youâve done so well these past months!â âOllie! Remember to eat all your meals and no buddy-budding with any louse. Youâre a good boy!â âFighting our lovely, Ollie!â Compliments of Jaehyun. âWe love you, Ollie. More than you think.â Now that comes from the bottom of both of your hearts.
Jaehyun bought a jacket for Ollie once back in the village while grocery shopping at the market for the voyage dinner. For the first time since he arrived you had trusted him to navigate the village on his own. The everyday route was engraved onto his brain, finding you shortly with the jacket in a wrapped box. You wanted to see it but he told you youâd have to wait until Ollie opens it, he didnât want to re-wrap this himself.
Your grandparents and Ollie didnât arrive until a few hours later when everything was set up already. Jaehyun arranged the table outside with a fine china that belonged to you, not the one in the cabinet. He had attempted to help you in the kitchen but backed off when he saw your eye twitch the second he mixed a pot on the stove. There he learnt that getting in your way while cooking wasnât a good idea so he instead went to feed the pen animals and loiter around to write the letter heâd give the young boy with his gifts.
Ollie could have sworn this was a delayed birthday party. Jaehyun had arrived a week after Ollie turned nineteen, missing any form of celebration. Now he was complete, this had to be a form of celebration and not a voyage dinner, it just had to. Otherwise why would he be crying at the dinner table?Â
Ollie would like to think his tears represented the impending doom you were all to face one way or another with his absence. Both figuratively and and literally; comically and realistically.Â
The hands on his back and shoulders try their best to comfort him, whispers of how this was yet another trip meant to minimize the meaning of this but Ollie knew something was wrong, something none of you did just yet. He smiled widely, tears streaming down his face, laughing in order to control himself but your gentle wiping and hugs made him fall deeper into that feeling. His childish intuition as you all call it.
Jaehyun on the other hand decides to pull out his gifts in hopes it would help but it only made Ollie cry harder. The younger spews his thank youâs, hugging Jaehyun for comfort to which the older one takes, his own heart filling with such an aching pulsation. He ignores it, it doesnât matter what heâs feeling, he wants Ollie to take a good look and remember him in a bright light.
Ollie wore the jacket all night and took it on his trip â along the letterâ, never letting anyone touch it. He left the truck with you and your grandparents, he knew itâd be far more safe with you than with his brothers.Â
The dinner didnât spoil after his crying fit. Your grandmother had playfully scolded him to get a grip while your grandfather helped him with a shot of liquor. It progressed onto serving them all dinner, Jaehyun helping you throughout all steps while your grandpa complained about the long lines for their pension and all the old people as if he wasnât one of them. Your grandmother only backed him up a few times, rebutting his claims in others just for the sake of arguing which caused laughs to leave everyone.Â
It wasnât anything new, Jaehyun had grown accustomed to their conversations. They may argue right now but other times the tone of their voices sounded harsh when all they were doing was conversing, as peaceful as they knew how. He wonders if this will ever be you two although heâs not sure he could raise his voice at you or vice versa.
Night had fallen faster than any of you would have wanted. Usually Ollie would leave whenever he pleased and no one would bat an eye but in the past hour his father had called nearly ten times and it was bothering your grandparents. You and Jaehyun too but not as much as the elders since they were the ones inside. Your grandmother had been yelling from her bed to tell Ollie his dick of a father was on the line again, in fact by the fifth call no one answered, they just knew.Â
So when the tenth call had rung, Ollie who had been helping you put away the left overs answered angrily telling his father to fuck off and that heâd be on the way soon, received with some scolding from him that he didnât finish spewing from how fast Ollie hung up. It didnât mean your scolding wasnât on the way with how piercing your glare was.
Like a kicked sad puppy, Ollie goes to you in hopes his affection would soften the blow. âThatâs not how Iâve raised you, Oliver! Your dad may be a deadbeat but you still shouldnât talk to him like that â at least in our presence!â Your fingers nip his earlobe, a yelp leaving his bitten lips and a grunt to follow.Â
âYou know my grandparents donât like when you talk back so donât do it again when theyâre around, okay?â You say, a hand on your hip like a mother scolding her child. Thatâs essentially how you saw him and how he saw you.Â
âSo I can talk back in front of you?â A cheeky smile received with a soft pinch to his ear. âNo!â Your smile betrayed your words. He giggles at the reaction he got out of you, twisting out of your grasp to take you into a hug.Â
âI really wish you would just enjoy the present and the time you have with Jaehyun without dwelling on how long or how little he has left here. Enjoy the love heâs giving you and return yours, he needs it too, Y/n. For what is left...âÂ
He sighs, holding you in a firmer grasp. Words donât quite describe what you want to answer with but you knew he was right despite your initial hostility.Â
You kiss his cheek, nodding as a response. He mimics your actions before waving and heading over to your grandparents to bid his goodbyes before leaving through the middle room.Â
Jaehyun doesnât know why he disappeared after dessert. Perhaps he didnât want to face Ollie when he left and had to say goodbye, he wasnât good with those. So here he was, on the roof next to the water tank, filling it up as an excuse to why he was so detached from everyone else. It didnât matter though, Ollie had found him immediately that when Jaehyun heard the clanking of boots he gifted the boy against the rusted ladder, he felt dread.
He pretended to be people watching, seeing how a guy on the right side cleaned his car (it is meant to rain tomorrow or overnight). In the front, a woman bathes her dogs within the vicinity of her patio, the dog shaking and getting the water all over her. On the dirt filled path, children rode their bicycles, going around any ditches and potholes that would make them fall.
Ollie joins him, standing besides, focusing far more on how the sun was setting. He allows Jaehyun to speak first but frowns when he doesnât; the faint sound of the phone ringing again makes him shut his eyes.
âThank you for the gifts, youâve done far more for me than my own dad.â He bitterly chuckles. Jaehyun turns to him, a small grin on his face that falls when the younger one speaks again.
âYouâre avoiding me.â âNo.âÂ
His voice wavers, eyes trying to show Ollie he wasnât. Ollie chuckles again, shaking his head.Â
âI get it, donât worry. I donât want to say bye either.â âI donât want to say bye.â
Ollie nods, looking at the sights Jaehyun had looked upon. The car was clean despite the sprinkling, a child had missed a bump and fell, and the dog was laying back on dirt.
âJaehyun, it does mean a lot to me what youâve done these months. You kind of suck with labor and all but youâve been of great help.â He laughs, hoping his teasing jab will ease the tension. Jaehyun rolls his eyes, hitting the back of his head softly with a silent laugh. âIâm serious though, youâve been of great help to Y/n, itâs not easy dealing with the house work and being a caretaker. I think youâve helped liven her up more. Iâm glad youâre able to think about your present with her. I hope it doesnât change, you make her happy and we like seeing her this way.â Ollie sighs looking at his watch, the sun has set.Â
âI hope youâre still here by the time I come back homeââ He laughs, cutting himself off. âItâs not even my home.âÂ
âIâve never felt more at home than here, I understand.â
Ollie smiles at his claims, he nods with a final sigh. Before going down he gives Jaehyun a final hug and a tight squeeze. The older man mimics his actions to demonstrate his own affection.
Midway down the ladder, Ollie stops and Jaehyun tilts his head. âBy the way, this came after you left earlier today.â He pulls out a wrinkled envelope from his back pocket. Immediately recognizing the ivory color and red wax seal, all Jaehyun knows is that he wonât read it any time soon.
âBye, Jaehyun.â âBye, Ollie.â
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Things didnât go back to normal after Ollieâs departure, no matter how hard everyone pretended that this hadnât created a rupture into the atmosphere â a breach to the eco. It goes to say that Ollie helped things feel easy and fun, he was the joy you all needed and now he was gone. Things felt mundane again and to Jaehyun this wasnât a foreign feeling but one he did not want to have here.
A week and a half without him already feels like an eternity. You and Jaehyun wonder if this is what parents feel when their children finally part ways.Â
On the brightside, his conversation with you helped you ease into what you felt for Jaehyun. Yes, you still sneaked kisses and affectionate touches here and there out of respect for your grandparents but it was so obvious what you two had that the elders didnât tease you anymore for the glances and blush.
Mail day has arrived and Jaehyun once again has received a letter, one he thinks about throwing onto the pile of drafts heâs written and discarded. The letter Ollie handed him before he left tucked in between those.Â
He thanks the mailman, putting down the rake he used to pick up fallen leaves. Your grandfather had taught him to put them in a pile to later be burned. He contemplates throwing the letter in, watching the red wax seal spread as it melts. He can't, though, the bold red letters screaming âURGENT!â make themselves present to him.Â
Jaehyun sighs, shaking his head wondering what it was now as he opens the envelope. Simple greetings, some scolding and questioning, and a plane ticket. What? That was enough for Jaehyun to ignore his nonchalant attitude and let panic take over him. He took the effort to read over the letter closely without missing a detail.Â
Why the hell would he have a plane ticket?!
âDear Jaehyun,
No, scratch that. What the hell is wrong with you? We havenât heard back from you since that call and youâre not answering the one letter we sent you. We figure and understand youâre having a great time but it does not mean youâre meant to forget your responsibilities back home. Remember how youâre supposed to send drafts? Right, you havenât done that and given the changes made while youâve been gone itâs best you get to it!
We miss you so donât regard this letter as totally reproachful. Please be sure to be here and donât miss your plane. Weâll make sure to send a fax before you make it to the airport. Till then, enjoy your time and give us a call as soon as you can.
Sincerely, Jude.â
Well this has severed his plans and mood. Was it not enough to have one departure?
30 AUG 87, 17:30 time of departure, one way only. Red bold letters mirroring the ones that caught his attention to read the components of the letter. If he had known it was for this, he wouldâve thrown it in the pile of leaves and act clueless if he was to ever receive an emergency call.
His aggravation was noticeable to you the second he stepped inside the vicinity of the patio. His face sunken, something it wasnât before leaving to clean outside. Not to mention it seemed like he was biting the inside of his cheeks, holding in his breath as a form of repression. You watch carefully, pretending to not have noticed him while cutting sugar canes near his room. Â
He sees you and he wants to ask something or at least find a way to begin this conversation. He should tell you, no? He should, he knows it but heâs scared and also a coward who waits for you to throw the first stone.
âSomething happened?â Jaehyun stops by the step before the kitchen, facing you with a slight shake of head. âUm⊠does the phone run overseas calls?â Itâs your turn to shake your head, firmly unlike him. âAlright, Iâll be back in a bit.â
He bolts out towards Gabbyâs with the ticket inside his pocket, crumbled and wrinkled like the letter Ollie handed him. The older woman seemed to have understood the reason for his visit. The second she saw the familiar face, she pulled that phone she loved so much to the counter along with the catalog and timer, dialing the code before handing it to him. Jaehyun was thankful she didnât drag it out, he needed answers immediately.
One ring, two rings, âHello?â Good, rapid enough.
Jaehyun grips the phone, a tight hold that makes his subconscious scared that heâll pop this heirloom. âI donât want to go back!â Well, thatâs a way to start a conversation.Â
Hyunjoo laughs, calling Jude over to let him know their golden boy finally contacted them after four months. Jude wasnât as kind as Hyunjoo, he took the fatherly role seriously and began berating the younger of the three on why he had gone rogue.Â
âWhat if something had happened to you? Do you not care for what we feel, Jaehyun. If it wasnât for this idiot I wouldâve sent you letters and even gone to pick you up, so donât ever pull this on us again! On me, again!â One can only imagine how red he was, up to his receding hairline.Â
Jaehyun wouldâve laughed in the past but now the life heâs built here is soon to crumble and he doesnât like it. âIt doesnât mean you guys can just force me back! Iâve built something here, I have something going on! I love it here and I donât want to leave!â He whines, obvious hurt in his wavering voice.
âYeah, well, whatever you have going on should be finished soon. You know, you only went there for inspiration and to blow some steam off, Yuno. Nothing else, my boy.â If Hyunjoo was there he would pat his cheek reassuringly, unaware of how much Jaehyun hated his little acts of condescension and belittling.Â
Jaehyun didnât want to finish what he had here, he wanted to stay forever. He wanted to stay with you, your grandparents, and Ollie. He wanted to be here by the time Ollie came back to greet him with a big hug, a meal, and a trip to the hot spring he wasnât able to enjoy before leaving. He wanted to build a life with you. Court you properly, date you, travel with you. Even marry you, he doesnât care how early this is or how late, he wants you and everyone heâs learnt to love these months in his life. Of course his career had to get in between him and his happiness like always.
Jude sighs, massaging the bridge of his nose. âListen, Jaehyun⊠Thereâs nothing we can do, have you read the letter we sent you a few weeks back? That explains it all. Believe me when I say that if it was for me, you could stay there for as long as you want and go back whenever the book is publishedââ
âThatâs the plan.â He interrupts, teeth gritting. Jude and Hyunjoo give each other a look, one that would make Jaehyun feel far more defensive if he could see it. âJaehyun⊠things have changed within the publishing house. Go read the letter and weâll see you Monday, yeah?â
Jude waited for an answer that Jaehyun never gave him. He hung up quite forcibly, receiving a glare from the store owner who muttered the amount. He didnât stay for his change nor cared for her screams telling him to take it. Jaehyun was in an irritable mood that no one could take away from him today.
Things were definitely not fine. Thatâs as much as you and your grandpa could decree when Jaehyun crossed the patio straight into his room, closing the door behind him without uttering a word. The elder and you removed kernels in front of his window, under the tree for shade. You could hear him mumble incoherently, his eyebrows furrowing the further he read.Â
âWhat bug bit him?â Your grandpa whispers, cocking his head to the open window. You shrug, throwing away the cob into a bucket, fuel for the chimney. âGo ask then.â So persistent and straight to business. âWhat? No! Iâll wait until he tells me, paâŠâ But you did want to ask him what was wrong, more than anything. Itâs just that your cowardice wonât allow you. The older man rolls his eyes, clicking his tongue in disappointment while feeding the chickens with fallen kernels.Â
Time and him can only tell what heâs feeling.
âDear Jaehyun,
For starters, we miss you dearly. At least I do but find it in your heart to believe Hyunjoo does so as well. Weâve respected your wishes on not contacting you, even through letters but itâs been over three months and you have yet to let us know how you are doing. Do you not care for mine and your familyâs well being? I care for yours, Iâve been restless all these months wondering how you are doing. Itâs far too irresponsible to not even contact your own family, Jaehyun.
Is the book in the works? How are the drafts? You know we needed drafts mailed throughout your stay, young man. How is the host treating you? I figure well enough if you havenât contacted us yet. If not then Iâll see myself forced to call the national guard if I donât hear from you soon!
Regardless, some updates on how things are going on our end. Weâve been able to fake some notices here and there to the publishing house about yours and the drafts whereabouts. If you must know, if you havenât figured it out already â which is possible, being in such an isolated village⊠â Mark is in the process of publishing his next book. His last ones have been a great success and been able to knock some of yours from bestsellers therefore things are becoming harsh around here.
The publishing house wants you back immediately and wants your book ready. Hyunjoo has managed to give you more time before itâs edited and the final print is chosen but the new investors are pushing the house and they are desperate for a contender against Markâs book. So please, cut your time short and donât miss your plane! Iâll make sure to send the ticket soon when Iâm able to obtain it.
Best regards, Jude.â
Jaehyun doesnât know what to think. He now understands multiple jobs are on the line but so is his happiness. Even so if he goes and turns in whatever he has â which isnât enough for even a first draft â what guarantees all of them that it will be published by the time Markâs is? They canât just publish some nonsensical thoughts heâs scribbled down for the sake of beating another child protege author.Â
Markâs work is far different from Jaehyunâs, heâs youthful in the way he writes, his metaphors are far more enthusiastic and fun. Heâs great within young audiences and those seeking to remove themselves from melancholia. Heâs everything Jaehyun isnât and in both their brains, they know they canât compete for something neither are reaching for.
Matter of fact, thatâs not his concern right now. His concern is on how to break the news to you and your family. Heâs supposed to leave by the end of this week, what are you going to do in such a short notice? What is he going to do in such short notice? Things were finally starting to align, why must bad things always happen to himâ youâ both.
One thing is for sure, he has to tell you immediately. But first heâs going to go back to Gabbyâs and buy whichever pack of beers and some chips, maybe even some bread in case you feel your blood pressure rise (heâll eat it, most likely). Arriving there and getting the items, heâs grateful the older woman honored the change he had left, even gifted him a chocolate as she sensed that something was off. Jaehyun thanks her and contemplates on saying goodbye but itâs too soon. Instead he nods and waves on his way back. Â
He doesnât have the courage to go past the threshold, opting to sit on the uncomfortable and textured concrete bench by the door of yourâs and your grandmotherâs bedroom. He hears the loud melodrama of her soap operas and the sewing machine she doesnât leave alone. Another dress for you, he figures sheâs making.
Thereâs the faint sound of music coming from your grandfatherâs car, the one he and Ollie worked on often and that Jaehyun began helping with due to his absence. It pains Jaehyun to know that the elder will once again lose the aid he claims to not want but appreciates wholeheartedly.Â
His sigh elicits company, or perhaps the pop from the beer bottle had attracted it so here you were, standing by the metal threshold that separated you and him from inside to outside. Your head tilts, looking at him as if trying to read the grievances on his face.Â
âMisery likes company.âÂ
Your voice makes his head snap, eyes glistening while drowning in the sweetness of your company. He smiles shortly, patting the empty spot to his right, the sun is setting fastly.Â
He takes your hand into his, kissing the palm and fingers before pulling you in for an embrace. All of this was scaring you the more and more he remained quiet and it only seems like your brain was already processing the inevitable.
âGot a letter from my managerâŠâ âSo?â
âMy ârivalâ is putting out a book soon according to them and they want me to send in a draft already for the final print.â His fingers curl at the quotation marks, rolling his eyes at how stupid it all felt. âAh⊠well, do you have anything to send then?â He shakes his head, apologies on your face. âWe can stay this entire week so you can work on it, how does that sound? Pa doesnât have to check on the crops any time soon and there isnât really anywhere else we could go, not anywhere near.âÂ
Thereâs so much pep in your voice that it hurts to think about how short the remaining days will feel. He has to tell you and he has to tell you now.
âI leave this Sunday, Y/n.â âOh.â
Jaehyun didnât mean to say it like this but how else was he meant to? He didnât want to drag it out longer nor agitate you but he also didnât want to hurt you and thatâs all he can read on your face. Hurt.
Misery does love company.
Your body slumps against the adobe wall, harsh against your backbones. The hand he holds falls limp against his touch and all Jaehyun can do as comfort is kissing it before placing the open bottle in your hand, opening another for himself.Â
He hadnât had the time to burn the pile of leaves and the sun was far more foreign by now. That shade of blue coloring his face, an obvious demonstration of his feelings from the past hour. Yet itâs you who takes the initiative to take out the box of matches from the apron you wear, forgetting that you were cooking dinner just to check up on him.
The flame catches fast, rising as you whisper your grievances into it, taking a sip of your drink. Jaehyun doesnât say anything, he tries to take a hold of your hand but he hesitates, fearful that you wonât want it. Instead he throws both letters onto the fire, helping its consumption and anger. At least now you both have let something go.
The morning after, both elders made sure to not ask any favors out of him and let him to his own vices. They understood heâs meant to get his work done so they didnât want to add stress onto him. But this continued onto the third and fourth day of the week and Jaehyun was aching more and more as his time fell short. He felt just as inutile as his first week, if not more than that week. He also felt his heart ache only having meals to spend with you all but even then he began feeling like the foreigner he was.
Conversations with him were as cordial as before but not as cheery. They asked about his book and what he had ready. They asked if his suitcase was prepared and if he was happy to go back home. Your grandpa did his best to joke around but would soon drop it when he felt his voice tremble. Heâs always worn his heart in his sleeve and another one he saw as a son will now leave him again.
Your grandmother on the other hand was the most level headed. She made sure Jaehyun was kept on track with his work and even helped clean his room when he begged her not to tire herself. Sheâs faced much loss and pain, a stranger leaving wasnât going to knock her down. If anything, she feels for how you will act once heâs gone.
By dinner time you and your grandfather had bolted out of the kitchen, feeding the animals any leftovers and giving them their own meal. That left him and your grandmother in the kitchen. She was in the process of taking some water from the bucket in the chimney, he did it instead. Pouring it into another container where your grandmother would then add cold water for balance.
She thanked him and told him he should go back to work but Jaehyun didnât want to leave. He didnât want to be alone, heâs been so for the past three days and itâs corroding his soul. He wants to take away the happy memories, he wants his final days to be fun. Heâs begging for you all to not do this to him. He needs contact and affection, he needs it.
âSo⊠you have everything ready?â She tries to converse, passing the soapy sponge over the dirty plates. He nods, rinsing it. âNot excited, Iâm guessing.â Jaehyunâs pout is enough of an answer. âLook at it on the brightside. Youâll be able to get it over with and the doors here are always open for you.â
He should know she means it, the problem is that he doesnât know when heâll be back. How long will it take for the book to be published? How long will promotions last? What if heâs forced to work on something else straight after? Jesus Christ, heâs not even back yet and heâs already stressing about his reality.
âYeah?â âYes.â
Jaehyun smiles at her.Â
âWill you take care of Y/n for me?â He asks again, putting away the dishes heâs rinsed. She laughs nodding, âSheâs taking care of us, I think sheâll manage well.â Jaehyun laughs as well, feeling foolish. âI donât think you should worry too much about her, Jaehyun. Sheâs strong and can handle this. As long as you two keep in contact, I believe it will be fine.â She pats his back, leaving a wet hand print that warms his muscles.Â
He contemplates on taking the advice. Your grandmother has said everything he already knows about you but perhaps heâs projecting his own feelings. Heâll need another source for advice and thereâs no one better than your grandfather.
Jaehyun excuses himself, rinsing and drying the few dishes left before walking out to help your grandfather on the car. The older man sat pensive while looking around the vehicle, loud music coming out of it to drown any thoughts.Â
Hopping on the co-pilot seat, Jaehyun smiles at him, dusting away some stray picked up dust. âItâs looking better now.â He compliments, your grandpa nods, humming with a following hearty laugh. âYouâre much better at this than me.â The older one shakes his head, continuing his laughter. âThese things take time, you just need to practice more. When you come back Iâll help you with it.â Your grandpa is far more hopeful than the rest of you, that reassures him enough.
âYouâll let me in again?âÂ
âYes. You make my kids happy and youâve been of great help even when you didnât have to.â His laughter subsided, turning into a smile he was struggling to maintain. âItâs a shame youâre leaving so soon.â He hiccups, waterworks on the way. âWeâll miss you, kid. Especially Y/nâŠâ The mention of your name was enough for him to begin his silent sobs, tears beginning to spill.Â
If there is one thing he can count on is your grandfather expressing what you and your grandmother arenât able to. Jaehyun sniffles himself, comforting with some rubs to the olderâs shoulder before hugging him. Now he knows how appreciated and loved he is and for that he is thankful.
Your grandpa attempts to stop crying, laughing in between to seem like everything was fine. That was always his way of trying to control himself. âYouâll come back, right?â Jaehyun nods, smiling at him while wiping away a stray tear. âAs soon as possible. I want a life here.â Your grandfather smiles at him, looking straight to where his headlights shine.
âIâm not from here either. I was born and raised in a city an hour or two from hereâ youâve been there, thatâs where the airport is.â Jaehyun recalls his first day, the bustling and loud city with historical architecture. It was beautiful, surely, but it doesnât compare to this village and its own beauty.
âIâve worked my entire life since I can remember, seven to be specific. By eighteen I found myself here, I was young and my only experience came from the mines and cleaning cars but agriculture is a booming business here so somehow I found my way to a ranch that was hiring to work on machinery. I didnât know how to work a car let alone a tractor but I was hungry and needed money to send back home. My dad died when I was only three and my mom was left alone with five kids. I had to help her. I lied my way through with the owner and I was young so he took me in.âÂ
Everyone starts somewhere and soon falls in love with the place.
âI stayed at a shack they had built by plots, their own home wasnât too far so I often went by to ask for a glass of water. Thatâs when I met Y/nâs grandmother. Sheâs always been this cold and serious. I would chug the water down and then beg her for more. She would roll her eyes and complain but would always come back with it filled to the brim, ice cold.â He laughs, tears finally gone.Â
âFrom then on I kept trying to talk with her even if she pretended to hate it. Iâd ask her sisters and sometimes her brothers but it was tricky, I didnât want them to beat my ass up for thinking about their sister! So, I would have enough with whatever conversations we would have when she brought the workers drinks and food or at dances. One time her own father told me to ask her to dance and since then I never left her alone. With his blessing, then none of her family would interfere and sooner than later I asked her to marry me so here we are, sixty years later and twelve kids.â
âIs this you giving me your blessing to be with Y/n?â Jaehyun half jokes but thereâs so much sincerity in his voice that he canât deny being hopeful. The older man nods and laughs, clasping his back. âAs if you needed it⊠I often went back to my own family but still came back because I love this place and everything it has offered me. Similar to you⊠I hope your love for Y/n is as strong as mine was years ago. I would hate to see a different fate for you two.â Â
Jaehyun didnât know how to respond to that, he truly wished to be back as soon as possible and he would fight tooth and nail to make it possible. Yes, itâs different from him and your grandfather due to the distance but he will make it work because he loves you, he loves you so much that he canât seem to express it properly.Â
âThank youâŠâ âItâs just advice.â
The older man leaves him to his vices and thoughts. With another laugh and a nod bidding him goodnight, he turns the car off, leaving Jaehyun in the dark.
Jaehyun thinks about both conversations all night. He feels a sense of relief knowing heâs had a heart to heart with two of the most important people in your life. Itâs good to know they approve of him and the love he has for you. He hopes youâre as understanding and hopeful as your grandparents.
Saturday came as a surprise to him. The roosters werenât the ones to wake him up, it was your grandpa who excitedly told him to gather all his things. Jaehyun tried to question what was going on but the elder gave him no time. His hearty laugh was enough of an answer, taking the few suitcases he saw in the corner while pushing Jaehyun into the restroom to get ready. Heâs not sure whatâs going on but he wonât protest, itâs the first time this week that he feels included.
Within half an hour everyone was ready, Jaehyun noticed you too were surprised by the sudden change of plans. You werenât your usual put-together self and kept yawning resulting in you sleeping throughout the entire car ride. He took this moment to take pictures of the road. Previously he had compared it to his time in West America, he now doesnât think itâs too comparable. The vegetation is bright and green, most of it coming from incoming crops and lively trees.
Within an hour your grandfather stopped at a town, it was time for breakfast. Both raved about the food despite how spicy it was while you and your grandmother made fun of them. Jaehyun took this chance to take more pictures, candid ones of you and your family with the prettiest decoration in the background. Every memory counts.
Afterwards, you all take a moment to explore the quaint town for a bit, simply so Jaehyun can get some souvenirs. It reminded him of two past towns heâs visited during his time here. One where he had to fight for a seat to be able to eat. Meal which ended up being one of the most disgusting things heâs ever had. He wonât ever tell the rest of you that but you share his sentiment. The second one being where your grandpa struggled to find parking and almost left. He likes that one better.
Itâs not to say this town isnât beautiful, it is. Itâs historical, colorful, and calm. Very calm and quiet, something that reminds him of the best village which is where he resided for the past few months. How he loves it there and heâll hold it to his heart.
Getting his pictures and souvenirs, it was set to take another two hours on the road, only stopping when having to use the restroom which unfortunately due to age is something your grandparents needed often. In those moments Jaehyun would reminisce on the day you two took those photos and bought Ollieâs truck, the one he saw daily perched next to the fine china in the cabinet with a passport picture of him.Â
âWell here we are, the city I was born in.â Your grandfatherâs voice made sure to take away the last bits of drowsiness from you. Your last visit was at fifteen and from the looks of it, nothing had changed. Itâs amazing for Jaehyun to tell how different life was between the countryside and the city. The moment you all came to see the skyscrapers and bridges, it felt like a totally different part of the world. It was louder, much more polluted and littered, but for sure not horrendous. Your grandfather made sure to tell him the story of this city like he had done for every village and town visited.Â
For the majority of the day you all spent it looking around. At the entrance, your grandparents pushed you to ride on the cableway that dropped you off directly downtown. You tried to make them get in it with you both but they excused themselves with being too old and preferring to meet you there with the car. You all knew it was so you and Jaehyun could spend a couple of minutes alone.
âItâs pretty.â âNot as pretty as home.âÂ
Jaehyun smiles at you, taking your hand into his. You return the gesture, squeezing his warm hand in yours.Â
âIs your city pretty? Iâve heard it is.âÂ
âIâm not talking about where Iâll go back, Y/n. Iâm talking about back home. With you, your grandparents, and Ollie.â He wraps an arm around your shoulder to pull you closer. Within you and the colorful buildings beneath, Jaehyun is sure to say the view during his time has always been beautiful.
âDo you truly want a life with me?â You shift, close yet with a distance. It was a simple answer, thereâs no reason to lie. His smile, dimples, eyes, and even his reddened ears told you he did. Words are preferable though. âYes.â leaves his rosy lips, kissing you to imprint the confirmation.
Only time will tell how true to his word he is.
You met your grandparents shortly, both bickering about where to reside when night befalls. The topic fell to deaf ears, prefering to explore more about the city. Murals that he wouldnât forget, traffic as bad as where he resides with the exception that entertainment began the second redlights turn on. Street food that smells delicious and calls his name within every second.Â
Itâs similar yet so distinct from what he has learned to love. Itâs clear to him that no matter how familiar you are to one thing, there will always be more to learn about it.Â
It was near dinner time and within an hour or two from sundown. That forced your grandparents to argue again about the same thing from earlier. This time you two got to learn that your grandfather wanted to rest in his childhood home with his family while your grandmother wanted to avoid that at all costs. Sheâll tolerate a visit but wonât give them the benefit of being their host, thatâs her role. Not to mention she wonât forget all their wrongdoings towards her and her husband no matter how much the latter attempts to have a happy family.
Words thrown here and there, you all decree to eat out. Both you and your grandmother brought up the time his sister cooked unhygienically that he ended up having a stomach bug for the following three days. He laughs at this and leads you all to your favorite spot, somewhere Jaehyun yearns to taste again for years to come.
You all do end up visiting his family before the sun falls, a quick in and out situation. Jaehyun didnât pay too much attention to the conversations, he was more entranced with the portraits on the walls and the cracks of chipped paint that told the story of this home.
âWhy do you keep looking at the cracks?â
Your voice forces Jaehyun to turn to you, extending his hand to feel your warmth. âDo you think theyâre due to poor care or the house growing old with its inhabitants? Your grandpa said he doesnât recall the ones from this wall.â Your head tilts, looking at them as if you two were in a museum. Perhaps you should take him there tomorrow before his departure.Â
âWill you write that in your book?â He laughs, taking you into an embrace. âOkay smarty pants how do you word it normally, then?â You return the gesture. âI wouldnât even think about it for starters, thereâs so many back home. Why would I care about this one?âÂ
âIâve seen how much care you all give the home, thereâs barely any cracks. The question is answered for that house.â
âThen⊠I guess you can find an answer for this one. Weâve been here for an hour or so and thereâs plenty more people living here who havenât greeted them at least.âÂ
You both turn to your grandparents. Grandma sitting silently and aggravated in the corner with a cup of water that she hasnât touched. Your grandfather enjoys his talk with his sisters despite their spouses talking over and for them. His nephews and nieces, nowhere seen but heard through these same cracks Jaehyun wonders so much about.Â
Yes, he has his answer. A house without love crumbles faster.
The sun had fallen sooner than expected and with that your grandmother finally found an excuse to leave. The other elders offered to let you all stay with no avail when even your grandfather told them it wasnât necessary. He knew of a nearby hotel, clean, and hospitable that you could all stay at and his wishes were final.Â
Immediately as the doors were closed behind your backs, the ruckus of the other four families living there could be heard. Itâs clear as day where their intentions laid and why not a single picture of you or your family was on their walls.
When questioning why he denied their offer knowing other times heâd agree immediately, he only muttered a simple: âThey didnât even greet you or Jaehyun. What kind of hosts will they be?â Jaehyun felt a part of the family.
Room distribution went as follows. Your grandfather and Jaehyun would share a room, each with their own bed. Same thing applied to you and your grandmother, a concept you knew too well. This was the first and final night in which you two wouldnât share a kiss through the bathroom window. You miss it like youâll miss him.
The following morning isnât as kind to either of you. The previous day none of you were able to process the severity that it was his final day with all of you. Enamored with what the city offered and the warmth of feeling loved by everyone within the circle, no one felt the harsh reality that is now overcoming you all. Thereâs ten hours left of his stay. Â
Silence is the first thing that you all notice, no matter how hard you all try to erase it. Being aware that time is ticking weighs down on your shoulders. Walking through these streets feels slightly surreal. Like a Dali painting, walking through a sea of melting clocks. A torment is what heâd call it.
He manages to get a few more souvenirs, heâs not sure for who or if heâs trying his best to collect every single piece as a memory, heâll lean towards the latter. Besides, he snags some final gifts for you, your family, and even Ollie, itâs the least he can do besides memories. Heâll be taking those and who knows when heâll be able to show them to you all.
Within the fifth hour your grandparents rendered themselves tired and tried forcing you two to go on your own. Jaehyun didnât want that, as much as he loves time with you, he also loves spending time with them. The two have taught him many things, brought many laughs and anecdotes he cherishes dearly.
To be maintained happy, he invites you all to a final dinner. Itâs much earlier than usual but he would miss his flight if youâd have to wait till usual hours. Your grandparents attempt to protest, claiming theyâre bad hosts if they let him pay but theyâre fighting a losing battle and Jaehyun will make sure he can grant them everything before he goes back to reality.
Itâs by far enjoyable and it helps him reminisce on all previous meals within those cold adobe walls he loved since day one. Itâs dim in the restaurant, recalling the time it rained so hard the streets became rivers and light went out for the remainder of the day. You all ate under candle light while your grandparents told scary stories of the village.
Dinner was the only condition for you to leave your grandparents to rest. With all the heaviness in his heart, Jaehyun fulfilled their wishes. And while you thought it was best to leave them at the hotel, the two continued their stubborn streak and ended up sitting at a park to people-watch. Naturally, they needed live entertainment.
Three and a half hours left, so little time and so much left to do.Â
You essentially were a tourist just as him, both experiencing new attractions that you only saw in passing the one time you came by. It led to both jumping from museum to museum. National and independent, art and history, for food and tools. It didnât matter but it filled the empty space and the forced silence helped neither of you spill what flooded your minds.
âI liked the tools museum better.â You retort, almost skipping down the steps to avoid the sun rays. It was much hotter than it ever had been back in town. âReally? I thought the history museum was really nice.â He covers his eyes, rushing to your side. âNothing Pa hasnât told you.â He nods, shrugging with a little shimmy to his shoulders.
He looks at his watch and sighs, there isnât much time left. âWhere to next?â His words form a pit in your stomach, forcing yourself to look at the numbers on it. You ignore it, dawning on you that youâve never spoken in-depth about his job. Whatâs your thought process when coming up with your books?âÂ
He hums, âFor my first books, they were all inspired by cases I heard back home. Where I was born. Theyâre bleak but thereâs still a sense of hope. On top of it I read a lot of Dostoyevsky and Tolstoy growing up so I felt like a cynic comparing both their work, trying my best to create a middle ground that would represent me.â He cocks his head, itâs a bitter taste to him these days.Â
âThose two lead to my last two. Iâm not fond of them, I wonât lie. Theyâre rushed and robotic, itâs noticeable in the tone but the publishing house wanted something fast and since they sold well, they didnât care about how I felt, thatâs why Iâm here now. They wanted this book to be rushed and as miserable as those but I canât handle writing anything of the sorts anymore. I wouldâve ended up like Plath, Hemingway or Dazai if I wrote about how miserable life is once again.â
Jaehyun couldnât understand if the look on your face was pity or empathy, he didnât want to see it. âDonât worry about this one. Iâve found meaning and great inspiration. Iâll dedicate it to you.â
You laugh against his lips, pulling away to kiss his cheek. âHow will I know when itâll come out?â He shrugs, kissing your hand. âI donât either but Iâll make sure to deliver the copy straight to you.â
âWhat makes you think Iâll still be here by the time itâs published?âÂ
Jaehyun was under the impression that youâd be here too. Your grandmother had reassured him they would always have their doors and arms open for him but he never thought that meant without you.
âIâll find my way to you even if I have to go to the end of the world so I can read the token of my adoration for you.â
âOf my loveâ is what he wants to say, hanging on his tongue yet too scared to dive out. You seem to read his mind, kissing him instead to swallow what neither of you can say just yet.
 There was still some time left but nothing else worth seeing. Perhaps it was best to gather all your belongings from the hotel, you had the keys to the car and it shouldnât take you too long. By this point it would be best to waste time at the airport, as dreaded as it is.
Upon arrival time made itself present. The father clock in the lobby allows its ticking to echo through the tiles that you love. The ones in each room werenât any better. Screaming far louder than the rest that when Jaehyun finished packing his and your grandfatherâs bag to make way towards your room, all he could hear was the ringing in his ears. Dreadful and painful as the feeling in his heart.
He watched you look through the night stands, making sure your grandmotherâs medication wasnât left behind. He had done the same for your grandfather, his medicine case tucked inside his bag. Thereâs a forlorn look in his eyes, you donât miss it when turning to smile at him, comfortingly. You want to ask about it but fear it will consume you as well if you dwell on it.
âReady?â
Jaehyun shakes his head, joining you on the bed and taking you in a tight embrace. In every sense he wasnât ready to part ways. You try to laugh it off, kissing his cheek and tightening your grip. Your hands caressing his back to bring some type of comfort but it does the opposite.
Jaehyun can now understand why your grandfather breaks down so easily. The weight of oneâs emotions are soon to leave when you allow yourself to be free. That may also explain why heâs always so joyful, heâs free of all his grievances but for Jaehyun it will follow him for eternity if things are not fixed as soon as possible.
âThis isnât the last time, Jaehyun⊠Please donât cry.â You cradle his face, wiping away his tears that shine like diamonds under the sun rays peeking in through the window. He hiccups, sniffling to control his sobs. âIt doesnât change how difficult it is to say goodbye.â He pouts, lips so rosy and puffed. You kiss them tenderly for comfort and warmth, itâs the least you could do. Words arenât your forte and you donât want him to see how gutted you truly are despite trying to hold a front all this time.
Jaehyun returns the actions of affection, holding you for dear life while kissing you like no tomorrow. Muffled words leave him, incoherent to you yet you swallow them. Like the blood of Christ, you donât let a blood drop if it means your salvation.
âI-Iâ He attempts to sound what he wants to say, you donât allow him. Shaking your head fervently, slipping your tongue in the cavity of his mouth to mute him further. You know what he wants to say but if he does, it will make things far more difficult than they already are.
Jaehyun submits to your cowardice and lets the ticking of the clocks guide him. His hands hold your body near him, pulling you onto his lap to feel you closer. He wants more and so do you, God knows when youâll meet again.Â
Fingers threading through his hair, sliding down to his neck, kneading the warm skin you love so much. The actions lead to silent mewls to leave his lips for you to take. Youâre so appreciative of the gift that you deepen the kiss, letting his hands roam under your blouse to feel you closer and closer. Itâs your turn to gift him a sweet sound that he wishes he could trap into a music box for him to wind and listen to it on repeat daily.
Jaehyun decrees that your blouse is in the way. Too thick and cold, nothing like your skin as he feels now. His large hands take a firm grip of the textile, pulling it off. Youâre exposed and he can read what your heart has hidden all this time. Jaehyun prefers to kiss it away, his pillowy lips delicately falling against your chest. Kissing it tenderly to create more of those pretty sounds that hypnotize him.Â
You hold him while he does, kissing the crown of his head. Granting him what he wants while your hips softly rock against his, friction forcing him to become rougher. A soft gasp leaves your lips when he softly nips the goosebump filled skin, nimble fingers undoing your brazier. One hand covering one while his teeth take your nipple in between them.
âJaehyunâŠâ Itâs all he wanted to hear. His tongue is warm against your tit, kissing it like his life depends on it. Perhaps it does, neither of you are sure but prefer to act like so. You on the other hand work on unbuttoning his shirt, the cool linen doing no justice to the warmth of his skin that you crave. Little by little you both feel closer to each other.Â
He gently lays you down, between the warmth of your bodies and the sunrays witnessing your farewell ritual, the cold had nothing against you. You watch him, admiring every crevice of his body while pushing off your bottoms, leaving you bare for him to gawk at while unbuttoning his pants.Â
Your giddy smile teasing him to hurry, giggles reinforcing the sentiment. Taking his shaft in between his warm hands, Jaehyun begins to pump slowly. You attempt to replace his hands with your own which he denies. Your touch will send him overboard without even beginning.
Instead he crawls on the bed and over you, kissing you like he always does. With sweet adoration and love, one you take thankfully. You make sure to cradle his face, his upper body in contact with yours as his fingers thread closer in between your legs. The digits waltz around your inner thighs, reminiscing on the path you and him often took to the plaza and market for your daily shopping trips.
He smiles into the kiss, the memories of all heâs experienced with you consuming him. The position alone brings him to that day at the hot spring where you two began this but never got to go further. The wait was over and he had you here. Caged between his arms, flesh against flesh, warmth radiating and your pretty sounds that he couldnât get enough of.Â
Slowly his fingers intrude the cavern between your legs, a gasp leaving your lips that helped him deepen the kiss. His tongue enters your mouth, finding yours immediately to participate in a waltz where the two could share the words that neither of you were strong enough to share. His fingers curl and pump languidly within you. The action is so foreign and long forgotten that you feel like putty beneath him.Â
His name falls from your lips like a prayer, warm breath danced across his skin. Lips perfectly wrapping around the flesh of his red earlobe. Heâs so sweet and easy to digest, you wish to swallow him so he never leaves you but you know that canât be so you will make do with what these few minutes can bring to you.
Itâs not far off that he takes his fingers out of you, sticking his tongue out to savor you. Just as sweet as you find him. He moans in delight, rubbing off the dripping essence on his throbbing cock that had earlier been rubbing up against your leg. Jaehyun looks directly at you while pumping himself once again. You no longer look playful but rather hungry and desperate. You needed him like one would need air. Like an addict needs their fix and you fear yours will be taken away from you once youâre both done. The ticking clocks are making it boldly aware.
His eyebrows turn up, eyes softening as if asking if youâre ready. You nod as a response, replacing his hand and continuing his strokes, dragging him downwards slowly in the process. He knew if you touched him he would be thrown overboard, heâs near it but heâll try to last just for you. And for the sake to excuse being together for longer.
Jaehyun fixed his position above you, nudging your legs minimally to fit between them. He went in slowly, bit by bit. Avoiding any discomfort that he could bring you. You pay him with pleasured moans and kisses to shut yourself up, he graciously takes them.Â
âIââ he wants to say it, he wants to tell you how much he loves you. This feels like the perfect time. You shot him down again with that sweet smile of yours, shimming your hips to which he responds by beginning his thrusts. Theyâre gentle and steady, enough to make you feel something that youâre only able to describe through silent mewls. He holds you tightly, pulling one of your legs above his hip. Jaehyun tries everything to feel you closer, he wants to go deeper and deeper to no avail, his thrusts can only go so far and it makes him yearn for the possibility that he could have more of you but so little time and resources to figure it out.
Jaehyun canât believe this is it. Heâs thankful this is the memory of you heâll take with him, heâll cherish it with every fiber in him, treasuring it like one would the eucharist. All he could think about was how wonderful you felt and how perfect your body molds to his. If this isnât a sign that youâre meant for each other then he doesnât know what is.Â
He worships you in these moments and will continue to do so when heâs gone. He now understands the feeling devotees feel when finding their God and as sacrilegious as it is, Jaehyunâs mind wonât change. He loves you, he loves you, he loves youâŠ
And most of all you feel his love within you. It manifests itself through tears streaming down your cheek, moans muddled with sobs that he canât decipher to stop and comfort you or continue his thrusts. You answer for him, begging him to keep going, that youâre so close but he knows thereâs more to those words besides lust.
He prods, kissing you, being the one to beg this time to let him know what was wrong but you smile and kiss him along. Leaving a trail of kisses along his jugular and shoulders, hands grasping to his flesh for dear life.
âMy sweet girl.. Please tell me whatâs wrong? Y/n, I loââ âI love you, I love you, I love you! I love you, Jaehyun.â
Jaehyunâs thrusts speed with every repeated word, elated to hear you say what he has wanted to all this time. To hear you spew the words he finally had the courage to let out. For you to hear and engrave in your heart and brain the way he has done so with your own.
He smiles, kissing you with a final thrust. Pulling out to place the proof of his love on your cramping stomach, the pain leaving when you, yourself release. Without a care for the mess, he lays on you, craving your warmth and touch.
âI love you too. More than youâll ever know or understand.â The whisper pollutes the room, kissing you to cement the sentiment. You sigh, kissing the crown of his head, cradling his body against yours. If it was up to you, you would not mind dying like this. With the cityâs racket as background noise, your heart palpitating against his ear, and his breathing the anecdote to tranquilize you.
Time wasnât forgiving, his departure time was coming sooner than ever. Reluctantly, both pull away for a quick shower. It felt surreal how slow time felt when enthralled within the love you both had for each other but when reality hit, it rushed you all through the motion. Picking up your grandparents from the park, driving in silence to the airport while dealing with some traffic and the static of the radio. All of this just to arrive at the airport with minutes to spare and for the universe to not understand the pain you all felt.
Itâs surreal how cruel and love can be.
âI guess this is it, huh?â Jaehyun is the first to break the silence, holding back his sobs, the redness of his nose and ears give him away. Your grandfather laughs, nodding as he takes him into a hug in which both men break down in a fit of cries. Your grandmother gives you a look, she wants to say something snarky but her tough exterior proves futile when even she feels a weep stuck in her throat.Â
âYouâll contact us, right?â Your grandfather wipes his nose, sniffling while smiling warmly at the younger. Jaehyun nods, taking out his pocket book, scribbling his address for you all to send him letters. He doesnât need yours, he has it saved by memory.
Your grandmother is second in hugging him, slipping in a bill for him to buy something back home. Both know itâs useless where heâll go but heâll cherish it as a memory from her just like the box of cigarettes your grandfather had gotten him. He doesnât smoke but a token of love is a token of love.Â
The elder woman pats his cheek, smiling at him tenderly. She hopes this isnât the last time sheâll see him but she more so than anything hopes he doesnât disappoint you after this departure.Â
âTake care.âÂ
It leaves you at last. No more to say, no more actions to show. You just hope he comes back to you as promised.Â
âIâll miss you.â Your fingers fiddle with the paper in hand, his pretty handwriting hypnotizing you to believe this moment isnât real.
âI love you.â Thatâs enough to call your attention. His palm cradles your face and he steals a quick tender kiss. Embarrassment of having done so in front of your grandparents floods you, you only hope they understand which they do.
âI love you tooâŠâ
You had all drowned the calling from the greeter at the door earlier on but things had to be done and reluctantly you both let go. Watching him enter that path had taken a piece of you and when he was out of view, your entire body felt like it would crumble.
You tried your darndest to not cry. To not show your grandparents how much his departure was hurting you. Futile is what they would call it, your sobs were becoming louder as your grandfather drove back home, hoping to get there before night caught up to you all.Â
Nothing good ever comes out of crying. Youâve known this for a while, for you and your grandmother crying only continues to further make you miserable. Not like the relief it brings your grandfather and Jaehyun, thatâs something you think youâre both cursed on.
It wasnât too far on the road that you kept missing him. Regretting not carrying the film strip with pictures of you both to look at him at every moment now. Your only token of his existence came from the piece of paper between your fingers. Flapping around with the harsh air coming in from your grandfatherâs rapid driving.
You believe it smells like him, Jaehyunâs soft musk that you love with all your being. Itâs even warm from his grasp, and his pretty handwriting taunts you, letting you know it was permanent on it unlike with you. The paper will remember Jaehyunâs actions against it, it has proof, not like you who will rot at the fact that his actions can be erased easily. Whatâs worse is that the paper continues to torture you, freeing itself from your fingers and flying out of the car at a rate that even if your grandfather stops you wonât catch up to it nor find it.
âNo!â
Your words are useless and frightening to be heard from the elders who question what happened. You tell them between sobs, losing all composure. Hunching over yourself to cry against your knees. This was it, you knew it was too good to be true. Your only hope relies on the letter Jaehyun will send you.
Letters that will never arrive.
Questions. Thereâs plenty of those that have plagued Jaehyunâs mind since he left. He remembers leaving on great terms but as the months progressed his letters were left unanswered. If he had taken in the home phone number or Gabbyâs heâd call for them years ago. Instead he found himself at the front door of the place he once called home with a panic rushing through his blood stream but hopeful nostalgia in his heart.Â
There was a doorbell outside of the patio door, it had been painted orange. Very fluorescent, it reminded him of Gabbyâs store. He had passed by it on his way here, buying a few beers like the day he learnt he had to go back. She didnât remember him and he made no effort to remind her. Some things are better left in the past.
He didnât hear many animals inside and it worried him, scared of how much change had been done. It took a couple of minutes for the door to be answered. Received by the presence of a kid he didnât know but seemed to be around three years old.
âWho?â He looks at Jaehyun quizzically, tilting his head like Ollie used to do. âUm⊠is Mr. and Mrsââ âDonât open doors, how many times do I have to tell you that!âÂ
Well thereâs a voice he recognized. Jaehyun stood up straight, looking up from the kid to the owner of the voice. When both took in the image of the other, Ollie was the first to take Jaehyun into an embrace. So much giddiness and joy in his squeal that he felt like that nineteen year old again. Even his grasp is childish and brute, shaking Jaehyun around. Jaehyun laughs, squeezing Ollie in return.
âI didnât think youâd ever come back! When did you get here?â The patio looked the same. Fewer sheep and goats in the pen, Camila was gone and replaced with a pig. The dogs were strangers to him and the cats seemed to have forgotten him just like the chickens.
Ollie led him to the kitchen, at least that remained the same and he felt comforted by that fact. The two took a seat not far from each other, firewood crackling in the chimney to bring them warmth. Jaehyun handed him a beer bottle, cheering for his return and Ollieâs growth.Â
âWhy didnât you think Iâd return? I promised you all I would.â Jaehyun smiles, wiping away the alcohol residue from his lips. Ollie shrugs, doing the same. âYou never kept in contact so after a few months of not getting your letters we lost hope. I was really mad at you for the longest time⊠I thought you had just abandoned us⊠Y/n.â
Jaehyun is aware of the spite in his tone but he canât help but feel vindicated for something that isnât true. His eyebrows furrow, leaning over the table for Ollie to feel his confusion. The younger one tilts his head like the boy from earlier.
âOllie, I kept sending letters nearly every week for the past five years. I thought you all were the ones to leave me in the cold. What do you mean I didnât keep in contact?â The roles seemed to have reversed. Ollie mimicked Jaehyunâs stance, elbows on the table while downing the remains of his drink.
âWe never got a single letter. Pa was so disappointed he cried often about it. Ma didnât but it was obvious in the way she took care of her plants. Your departure was enough but you really hurt them after that, they saw you as a son, you know.â Ollie shakes his head, swatting a fly away to avoid looking at Jaehyun.
âAnd Y/n⊠you really ruined her, Jaehyun. She would spend days in your room hoping to find an address or a phone number. At least to reproach your actions but instead she would cry herself to sleep in there. Her parents had to take her back home after a year, so she found a job and Ma and Pa were taken in by their daughter. She was doing better by then but still had to stay in the city just in case. They left me to take care of the house but itâs not the same.âÂ
Ollieâs voice is no longer harsh, itâs hurt. Jaehyun canât help but blame himself with how things unfolded but he was sure he wrote those letters. He kept copies of them to recall everything he once said to you and them and if he had known you never received them, he wouldâve bought them.
âI-IâŠâ He sighs, âI promise I sent the letters! I made sure to drop them off at the publishing houseâs mailing room. I canât believe thisâŠâ His hand comes to his forehead but Ollie shrugs, picking at some peanuts he had laying around. âBeats me then. Why didnât you visit in that case? We waited long enough.âÂ
Reality is that there will always be evil lurking around and seeing how this place brought you joy and peace, the publishing house did everything in their power to yank it away from him. Jaehyun isnât a bubbling author full of life and hope. No, Jaehyun is a bleak cynical writer who dwells on the hatred he has for the house and manifests it through broody characters that find no meaning in life. If they had to bring that back, they would. He can have his one train wreck of a joyful book but newcomers have to go back to what they were.Â
Jaehyunâs head hangs low, all excuses feeling useless. âManger and publisher didnât let me. We spent two years editing the final draft and by the following, publishing was in the works but the investors tried everything to change it that we had to fight for another year or so. I wasnât even allowed to visit my parents, they had to come to me. Isnât that insane?â
Ollie nods, sympathy and pity muddling on his face. Cruelty at its finest.
âWe only traveled for promotions at the end of last year once it was published and some months after this one but I âescapedâ if you will and here I am.â His smile twists to the side, dawning upon him that misery will accompany him everywhere he goes.
âIâm sorry.âÂ
âFor what? Itâs not your fault.â Jaehyun hands him another bottle. Ollie nods, âI know, but things couldâve been different if you didnât work in hell.â
The two laugh, clinking their bottles again. All was lost but one thing and that was the hope of Ollie helping him connect with you and explain it all. He didnât want you to have such a bad image of him when all heâs ever done is show you how much he loves you.
âWhat have you done with your life then?â âI got married and had a kid. The brat from out there.âÂ
The kid had been playing with the hens outside the sprint door. Cats surrounded him and reminded Jaehyun of Ollie when he used to play with the animals while pretending to be doing labor work.Â
âLooks just like you.â The younger hums. âHeâs just like me too.â The two laugh heartily, reminiscing on your grandfatherâs laugh.Â
He hesitates for a moment but ultimately asks. âHowâs Y/n doing?â Thereâs longing in his voice but the look in Ollieâs eyes tells him something isnât right. The fact that heâs holding back a cough, a grave clue. The younger one wants to stall but knows that eventually heâll find out if he keeps looking.Â
âY/n is soon to get engagedâŠâ Like a bucket of cold water, Jaehyun feels his arteries clog and his body run cold, turning stone hard. âSheâs been seeing a guy from work for the past two years, they relocated him to somewhere in Maranello, and now theyâre living there. He sent a letter asking me to be there for when he proposes⊠I got the letter yesterday actually.âÂ
Ollie handed him the letter still inside the envelope. âHeâs a nice guy but lacks some sense. He treats her well and provides for her but Iâm not sure if itâll thrive.âÂ
The now father stands up with a bucket of corn kernels, calling his child to feed the chickens while theyâre all huddled together. He gives Jaehyun one last look with a mischievous smile plastered on his face.
âYouâre welcome to stay, in your old room or here.â Jaehyun thanks him. âLandline has long overseas calls now, do with that as you will.â A toothy reassuring grin, Ollie walks out of the home leaving Jaehyun to his vices.
He gives the boys one last look, gaze dropping to the letter and reading over it around four times. It lacks emotion, itâs formal and only demonstrates excitement when describing your work on the garden. The only thing that reminds you of this place now that youâre miles away. Behind it is a letter written by you.
âVery well, Iâll send you a care package later, Ollie. I wanted to remind you that we have a new phone so Iâve written it down. Donât forget to write it down in the contact book or youâll have to find a way to call me this time!
I love you, Gremlin, take care!
Sincerely, Y/n.â
If the angels werenât clear as day, then he was stupid if he didnât take the opportunity.Â
Jumping out of his seat to the bar, Jaehyun stumbles to grab the phone, nothing like Gabbyâs old dinky phone. He dials the foreign numbers, fingers tracing over your written name to feel the connection you did with the paper that lasted you a measly few hours.
âHello?â
That sweet voice transported him five years to the past. Trembling within the walls of his brain and heart, waking up whatever joy he once felt before leaving this wonderful place. Even when your voice seemed aggravated from the silence on his end while garnering courage, he felt alive again.
âHello?!â
He sighs, clutching to the phone for dear life, facing the outside allowing the sun rays to fall on him like the day he rested over your exposed body to feel your heart and soul envelop him in the love you once âand he hopes you still haveâ had for him.
âY/nââ â...âÂ
The hesitance hurts, old feelings swarming in like a desired plague. You wonât ever forget that voice.
âJaehyunâŠâ âI remember everything.â
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Okay the number of new followers reaches critical mass, which makes me anxious to show around, what's this place, what I'm doing here. Hi and welcome to the gay gremlin zone o/
My main thing is Fragments, a wolgraha/wolemet comic that takes its sweet time. Launched in 2022, it has enough script to last for a good decade. It updates every other friday. It's written first and drawn second, meaning that I pay great attention to pacing, themes, characters etc. It's not a 1:1 msq retelling, the canon divergence grows over time. My fresh approach and the dialogue quality start to slowly gain critical acclaim if you ask around.
Also I'm an edgelord, therefore the soft and silly scenes sit next to dark and angsty ones.
I'm mainly writing this because my recent Alisaie art brought in a veritable crowd, she's a major character in Fragments too! She starts out wrestling with a crush that only causes problems to everyone, eventually gets over Vivi, grows into a proper friend and finds a woman she likes. That can't happen overnight, and it's a mere subplot, so I suggest enjoying it as a part of the course instead of expecting it to be the main dish.
Fragments is a work for a mature reader capable of thinking for themselves. The thing I cherish the most in ShB is moral ambiguity, and I'm further expanding upon it by showing every mc's pov and refraining from making judgements.
If that sounds fun to you, take a seat and watch this local elf hurt everyone including himself.
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forbidden love
pairing(s): nico hischier x fem!hughes sister
summary: what happens when they both want a love that's forbidden?Â
warnings: fluff, sooo much flufffff. nicos a cute little baby in this. shy, nervous and cute reader. use of pet names and y/n. cussing, implied smut 18+ intense makeout, nothing too heavy.
wc: 3.6kÂ
an: hiiiiii loves!!! NICO FIC NICO FIC NICO FIC!!!! about damn time!! loveeee nico. hes so ?? to many words. i really enjoyed writing this. this is my first hughes sister story i've written, and i loveeee, hopefully you guys do too! i had trouble deciding if i should make this a cliffhanger or not... i kinda did but i think i want a part 2 if you guys want that!!! share your opinions, i love hearing them!! anyways i hope you enjoy, this might be my favorite piece yet. i hope you guys enjoy! like and reblog if you do, much love as always<3
happy reading <3
Nico knew he couldn't have you, but he wanted you anyway. Being Luke and Jack's older sister, made you off limits to anybody on the team, older or not. Nico had not always felt this way about you until recently.Â
Ever since Jack got drafted to the devils, and then luke, he started to see you at more fundraising events held by the devils, team outings whenever you were in town visiting. Stealing little glances at you when you were in the same room, being pulled in by your smile and how you moved your hands as you talked to anyone and everyone.Â
If that didn't already pull him into you even more, what did was, how you acted with the rest of the team treating all of the boys like they're our own family. Always greeting nico with a shy smile and hi, making conversation about anything, hockey related or not.Â
Nico was enhanced by you, but he couldn't have you, which brings you guys to this moment.Â
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âJack if you don't answer your phone, god help meâ I yell shout out, as I call Jack for the 10th time in the span of 15 minutes. Already calling Lukeâs phone around 30 times, still no answer. My hands are shaking as I type out random masses of texts to both of them.
So maybe taking an impromptu trip to see my brothers wasn't the best idea. living in vancouver had its perks, being close to Quinn was one of them but i missed my two younger brothers, or maybe i should say assholes since neither of them can answer their phones.Â
I'm standing outside their apartment soaked from head to toe, not thinking about the rain, nor was I thinking about the fact that they had moved, leaving me with no key to their place.
 So I'm stuck, knowing there's nothing I can do. I pull my suitcase over to the wall, slowly and dramatically slide down the wall, letting out a deep sigh as I do. My phone is almost dead, I'm hungry, jetlagged, annoyed, cold, wet and so many other words right now.Â
Dropping my head into my arms that rest on my knees, deciding that this will be my final resting place, for tonight. I hear the elevator door ding open on the floor, not bothering to look up knowing it's neither jack or luke walking down the hall.
ây/nâ I hear my voice with a thick accent say, knowing the voice I slowly lift my head up, locking eyes with the one and only Nico Hischier âHi..â I mutter back embarrassed at the fact that look like a lost wet dog right now in front of him.
âAre you okay, did something happen?â he asks back as he begins to walk closer to me. âI uhhâŠwanted to surprise Jack and Luke but it seems like they aren't here.â i sign out, âto make it worse i don't have a key to their apartment, they're not answering my calls or texts. My phones almost dead and i'm covered in wet rain and i'm cold.'' I huff out the last part, my eyes beginning to fill with tears. I close my eyes quickly not wanting to look like a fool even more and cry in front of nico.
âOh y/nâ, expecting him to just stand there, instead he makes his way to me taking a seat on the ground next to me. "What are you doing nico?â I say, opening my eyes again, turning my head to lock my eyes with his. I get a good look at him for the first time since this, and fuck is he beatiful.Â
His deep voice snapping me out of my trance as he speaks, âsitting with you, what else does it look like.â he says followed with a soft chuckle. âNico, you don't have to do that, I'm okay, you can go home, I'm sure you're tired.â instantly feeling bad he's wasting his night away with me out here.Â
âJack and Luke would kill me if I left you out here by yourselfâ, âif I don't kill them myselfâ I say back my eyes now dropping back my feet. That earns a laugh from Nico, he has such a nice laugh, I think to myself. y/n, snap out of it and get it together.Â
Sitting up straighter, pulling my head to lean against the wall, mirroring nicos position. âAre you sure? You don't have too, i'm not even sure when they'll be back.'' I say looking at Nico, who's looking back at me. âWell I do have another idea,â he says, licking his lips before speaking again. âI live right down the hall, if you'd like you can stay with me until they come back.âÂ
âNico i can't do that, i feel badâ, âdon't feel bad, i'm offering. I'm leaving you out here by yourself.â he repeated to me again. My heart picks up at his words. Taking a deep breath, I weigh my options in my head, knowing that this is probably the best option, but also my worst.Â
How am i going to survive with very, sweet, hot, sexy, nice, handsome, pretty, swiss caption of the new jersey devils, nico hischier? I'm probably not, but at least I'll die happy and not here.Â
âOkay, I'll come. Thank you so much nico.â I finally answered him, âdont worry about it, come on let's get you changed and warmed up i can't imagine how cold and tired you areâ he says with a soft loving look on his face. Getting up before me, holding out his hand for me to grab, pulling me up from the floor. His hand feels so soft and warm in mine, I don't want to let go.Â
Pulling my hand out of Nicoâs, I go to grab my suitcase, to follow him down the hall, before I can fully grab it Nico has it in his hands. âNico..i can grab my own suitcaseâ âi know you can, but i want to do it, so i amâ he says as he looks back at me smiling.Â
Ignoring how his smile made my whole body tingle, I sigh out and shake my head as a small smile breaks through on my lips, as I follow Nico down the hall.Â
Stopping at his place, only a few doors down from my brothers, popping in the key and turning the lock, quickly opening the door. He motions for me to go in first, I give him a small smile as I enter the apartment.Â
Taking in the place around me, pictures of his family and teammates over the walls, little nicnacs that fill the space, it feels like home. âDoes my place give you your approval?â he says from behind me, âyes it does, jack and luke need to take a few home decor lessons from you.â that earns me another laugh from nico.Â
âLet me show you the guest bedroomâ he says, leading me through the apartment, down a hall, opening a door which I assume is in the guest room. âHere's the guest room, hopefully it's okay and comfortable for you, I wasn't expecting anyone over anytime soon and i-â âNico'' I say, cutting off his ramble. âIt's perfect, thank youâ I say walking in front of him, pulling him into a hug.Â
God, he smells so good. The way his warm body is wrapped around me like a warm blanket, I don't want to pull away, but I do after a few moments.Â
âYou're welcome y/nâ he says looking at me again, i can feel my heart beginning to heat up. Clearing his throat before looking away, âthe bathroom is at the end of the hall, my room is at the beginning of the hall.â he says, while pointing in the direction. Nodding in understanding even though he can't see me.Â
âFeel free to shower and get changed, i'm going to head to the kitchen to start making dinnerâ he says now turning back to face me, ânicooo⊠you don't have to cook anything. You're already doing so much for me by letting me stay here, reallyâÂ
âNow what kind of host would I be, if I let a pretty girl like you starve under my watch.â Nico replies with a teasing smile on his face. âA bad one i guessâ I smile breaking through my face. âYou called me prettyâ I said again, my eyes never leaving his. âI did, because you are.â he says before walking out of the room, leaving me stunned.
âDo you have any special requests for dinner?â I hear him shout from the kitchen, popping my head out of the room, âno! Surprise me!â I replied.Â
This is dangerous, I can not think or find him attractive. Heâs my brother's captain, teammate and also one of their closest friends. I have to keep it together.Â
I gather my things to take a shower, making my way to the bathroom, shutting the door and turning the shower on. I then work on peeling off my semi- wet clothes off my body, the relief filling my veins once they're finally off, finally making my way into the shower. The hot water relaxes my body instantly. Throughout the whole shower all of my thoughts are about Nico, and I'm going to act once I get out of here, making me nervous and feeling things. Things i shouldn't feel.Â
Turning off the shower, getting out and drying myself quickly. I began getting redressed again, clearing the mirror to take a look at myself, the old devils shirt i've had for god knows how long, that's probably three sizes too big, and shorts that you cant even see. Not bothering to pack pants, because I thought I would be staying with my brothers, not Nico.
 Inserucies start to plague my mind but I push them down. brushing my hair, fixing my shirt, deciding that it's good enough. Grabbing my things before making my back to the guest bedroom. dropping off my things in the room before taking a deep breath making my way towards the kitchen.Â
Walking into the kitchen, nicos back is turned to me. A sight that I'm not complaining about seeing. The way his mussels are ripping through his shirt, is enough to make my mouth water. What I'm doing. Get it together.Â
Walking further into the kitchen, I get a better look at what he's cooking, pasta boiling the water and it looks like he's making a type of sauce. Smiling softly to myself, at how sweet he is.Â
âDo you need any help?â I say breaking the silence. Nico turned around quickly, a smile dancing on his face. âNo, I'm okay, thank you though. How was your shower?â he asks before turning back to the stove again.Â
âIt was good, thank youâ I say, still standing awkwardly in the kitchen, not sure where to go or what to do. âI can feel your nerves from over here y/n.â nicos voice breaks through the kitchen as he speaks, âI'm sorry, I'm nervous.â I nervously laughed out loud. âWhy?â Nico says as he circles his way around the counter leaning against it, in front of me.Â
âYou make me nervous, I don't know how to act around you.'' I said truthfully to him, while looking in his eyes. âYou make me nervous too, don't worryâ he says as he looks me up and down, his gaze feels like summer sun on my skin, leaving trails of heat throughout my body.Â
âDinner will be ready in 15 minutes, feel free to take a seat, or keep standing there checking me out. Either work for meâ nico says to me, winking as he walks around the kitchen again. I'm frozen in place. What just happened? Is Nico flirting with me? The wink? Holy shit.
My mind and body are on fire, as I walk over to the island to sit down. Tension fills the air, I sit there for a few minutes trying to wrack my brain of something to say.
Nico beats me to it before I have the chance to open my mouth. âYou look differentâ he says, back still turned towards me. âWhat do you mean by different? Is that a good or bad thing?â. âNot bad,â he replies now, turning to look at me, âjust older, I'm not sure how to explain it, but you look good.âÂ
âThank you?â i say my cheeks are warming with blush. âYouâre welcomeâ he hums back. âYou look really good tooâ I say, Nico chuckles at me âshit, sorry. You look good like everything you know? Mussels, everything. I'm rambling, shit. this is embarrassing." I say, dropping my head into my hands with a groan.Â
âI found it cute, don't worry pretty girl.'' Turning around to get plates out of the cabinet. Pretty girl. Gosh he's making it harder to not go pounce on him right this second.Â
âDinners done, are you ready to eat?â he says a few moments later, nodding my head at nico as he looks my way. Grabbing two plates filling them with the pasta he made , which looked so good. My stomach growling, reminding me how hungry I am.Â
Placing my plate in front of me, along with a glass of wine that I didn't even see him pour. âI think you might need this after todayâ he says justering to the wine, as he takes a seat next to me. âHow'd you know?â I slowly laughed to him, âthis food looks so good, nico. Thank you so muchâÂ
âYou don't have to thank me, y/n but, you're very welcome.â he says to me. âNow eat, I heard your stomach growl in the kitchen.â he says in a teasing tone. My eyes widened, quickly grabbing my fork, and digging in. the flavors, melting on my tongue. I internally moan at the taste.âfuck this is so goodâ i say with a mouth half full. Forgetting Nico is right next to me, I'm quick to cover my mouth with my hand.Â
âI'm glad you enjoy it.â Nico says, smiling at me before taking another bite. Nico and I make small talk as we eat, talking about anything from hockey and my brothers to my job in Vancouver, and everything in between. Finding myself laughing and blushing more than I would have liked. Nicos charm pulled me in, and I couldn't find a care in me to stop falling for it.Â
âThank you again for dinner nicoâ I say as he clears the plates. âOf course, not everyday I get to cook for thee, y/n hughesâ âshut upâ I laugh back at him.Â
âAt least let me do those dishes, since you made dinner,â I say , making my way to the sink where Nico is standing. âNo way, go sit back down,â Nico says, looking down at me. âI'm not taking no for an answer nico.â I say placing my hands on my hips, âfine, but I'll dry them.â he says, narrowing his eyes at me.
 âI know why Jack and Luke say you're bossyâ. âHey now. I'm not that bossy, shut itâ turning my body away from him as I speak. Turning on the sink, grabbing the sponge and soap, and began washing the plates in the sink.
Nico just chuckles in response. We began a system of wash, dry, wash dry. The silence is comfortable as we work in peace. It almost feels domestic? Something that I could get used to. y/n stop thinking about that. It will never happen.
ây/nâ nico says snapping me out of my day dream, âhmm?â âYou've been washing the same plate for the last 2 minutes. I'm pretty sure that it's clean ""oh!" I say looking down at the practically shiny plate in my hands, âhere you go I'm sorryâ handing him the plate, our hands grazing, making my heart rate speed up.Â
I have to get out of the kitchen, I say to myself. Turning off the water and drying my hands on the towel, stepping away from the sink, locking my eyes on my sock covered feet.Â
âAre you okay?â Nico asks me, raising my head to look at him. âYes I'm okay, just tired,â I say softly. âI think I might head to bed, see if Jack or Luke responded to me or not.âÂ
âOf course, feel free.â Nico says, while putting the dishes away. âOkay..thank you again for dinner, again. Goodnight.â I say as I make my way out of the kitchen, Nico following behind me. âGood night y/n.â he says to me with a small smile on his face, i smile in return and make my way to the guest room for the night.Â
Closing the door behind me, I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding in. making my way over to the phone to see that neither jack or luke have responded to me, a frown falling on my face. I call them each again, even sending Quinn a text asking if he's heard of them.Â
Locking my phone, setting it back on the bedside table, I pull back the blankets settling into the bed. Slowly sinking into the comfort of the bed, I can feel the effects of today hitting my body. My eyes slowly closing, the one thing crossing my mind is nico.Â
Just as I'm able to fully close my eyes, I hear a knock on the door. Getting out of bed, opening the door to see a now shirtless nico in sweatpants standing in front me. Hair messy, like he's been running his hand constantly through it.Â
âEverything okay, did you need something?â I ask him, trying to keep my eyes on his face only. âEverything is fine, yesâ he replies to me quickly. âAre you sure?â I ask again, feeling like he hasn't told me the whole story yet.
âCan I do something?â He asks me if I can feel his eyes looking at my lips, âyes?â I say swallowing quickly. Nico takes a step more, until he's directly in front of me, his face a few inches from mine.Â
âI shouldn't want to kiss you y/n '' he begins, my breath hitching as he places both of his hands on my hips, his thumbs tracing small circles on them. âI shouldn't have these thoughts about you. Youre jack and lukes older sister, fuck i should be thinking about you like this.â he says now locking his eyes with mine.
âI can't help myself though, everything about you is perfect. I want you all to myself.â one of his hands begins tracing up my side, making its way to the side of my neck holding it place, lifting my head to meet his face better.Â
âI want you so bad. I can't have you though. You're like a forbidden fruit that i want to taste and kiss and love so bad but i can't have you, and it's killing me.â he finishes dropping his head lower to mine, our faces now only a few centimeters apart.Â
âWho says you can't have me?â I say softly, not trusting my voice, trailing my hands around his neck. âWhat if I want you too?â I whisper out before connecting our lips together.Â
Nico is quick to respond, pulling my body flush against his, our lips dancing together. His hand trailing down to my ass, grabbing a handful of it before pulling away, smiling at me, âI've wanted to do that all dayâ he smirked at me, before connecting our lips together again. His tongue enters my mouth as we fight for dominance, deciding to let Nico win.Â
I began to walk backwards towards the bed, hoping Nico would follow. Before I know it he's picking me up, throwing me over his shoulder, walking down the hallway and tossing me on the bed in his bedroom.Â
I look at the room around me, taking in every detail, before locking eyes with nico who's now looking at me from above. The way his chain dangles in my face, and his brown eyes look in the dimly lit room, and how his chest rises and falls is a sight I want to see forever and forever.
âTake a picture, it'll last longer.â he smirks to me, âyou're just so prettyâ i say as i run my hands through his hair. âIsn't that something i'm supposed to say?â he asks as he begins to place soft kisses down my exposed neck.Â
âMaybe you could show me instead?â I say, pushing my lips to his again. His hands quickly fell underneath my shirt, tracing up my bare sides. I remove my hands from nicos hair, pushing myself up from the bed. Pulling off my shirt, throwing it somewhere behind us, clipping my bra, tossing it in the same direction as my shirt. Now leaving myself completely bare in front of nico besides my shorts.Â
Our chests are raising and falling together, our eyes locked. ây/n..â nico says to me breathlessly. âFuck youâre so beautifulâ his hands running along my bare sides and underneath my breasts. âAre you sure about this?â he asks me, our faces close together again, âi've never been so sure about anything in my life, Nico please touch me.â desperation in my voice dripping like honey.Â
A growl like noise rips through nico, as he reconnects our lips together again. His hands are everywhere, heat spreading all throughout my body. I feel him everywhere. I want him everywhere.Â
If he's a forbidden fruit, then why does it feel so good?Â
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It's You - Choi San | 3 AM
Pairing: San x Reader Genre: smut, crack, fluff, angst, roommates to lovers, BFFâs Lil Bro!AU Series Rating: M (18+) Drabble Warnings: sneaking around, sloppy making out, lots of cuddling and kissing, honestly this is super soft, drunk San is a whole different type of menace, a little angst on OC's part, pet names deployed as weapons (baby) Word Count: 2.1k Disclaimers: SFW, obviously I donât own ATZ - they just inspire me
Summary: He was only supposed to be a temporary roommate. Your best friendâs little brother, crashing on your couch for a few weeks. Thatâs it. How did this happen?
A/N: This started with talking about drunk San with @minttangerines and @kiestrokes, and then @moni-logues made me miss this couple, so boom! New vignette! I should warn you that I wrote this over the course of 2 days, entirely between the hours of midnight and 5 am because I've been staying up wayyyy too late to watch the Coachella livestreams (can we talk about Chellateez?! because holy shit!), so it's probably a mess and it's unbeta'd, so⊠blame any typos or incoherency on my fucked up sleep schedule! đ„±
Lyrics are from "Moondance" by Van Morrison, inspired by that one toktoq of San singing that song, which absolutely killed me.
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Itâs three in the morning, and youâre wide awake, at your desk, working frantically on an article whose deadline is mere hours away. For not the first time tonight, you curse your natural inclination towards procrastination and scrub your hand down your face, wishing youâd chosen a different career.Â
Thereâs some noise outside your door and you realize San must be home. Heâd been down at the Blue Bird with Hongjoong, drinking and hanging out with Wooyoung as he bartended. From the way Sanâs shuffling around, it sounds like Woo had been his typical kind self and given San more generous pours than he should have. A loud âoofâ resonates, and you hear the armchair scrape the floor a bit, as if he were setting it back in its place. You wince, hoping he didnât wake his sister, who has an early shift and needs to be up at dawn.
âNoona. Nooooooona.â Tap tap tappity tap. âAre you up? I can see - I can see your light.âÂ
San raps on your door, calling out to you in a voice thatâs hushed but maybe not quite as quiet as he thinks it is. From his spot on your bed, Nero lifts his head off his paws at the sound, then blinks at you with his bright green eyes.Â
âI know. Heâs loud as fuck, isnât he?â With a cluck of your tongue, you quickly hop up and open the door. San mustâve been leaning against it, because suddenly youâve got a mountain on top of you, a loose-limbed one at that, eagerly but clumsily wrapping its arms around you. âSan!âÂ
âHiiiii,â San coos into your shoulder, where heâs buried his face. You shudder slightly as his breath tickles your skin exposed by the tank top you wear, and stagger away from the door enough to close it quietly as you can, not an easy task to do given the giant mass of man hanging his dead weight on you.Â
âYou know, your sister is sleeping just on the other side of this wall,â you remind him, but he doesnât respond, too busy lathering the column of your neck with tiny kisses. âSan. Come on, sit down.âÂ
With some stumbling from San and a not insignificant effort on your part, the two of you make it over to your bed. Your attempt at coaxing San into a sitting position fails miserably as he promptly splays on his back, pulling you on top of him. Nero hops off the bed in a huff.Â
You go down like a sack of flour, not a gram of gracefulness in your fall, but San appears not to notice when your chin bounces off his sternum or your knee rams his thigh. He sighs contentedly, wrapping his arms around your back, tucking you against him.
âMmmm. So nice,â he murmurs, resting his cheek against the top of your head.Â
Itâs three in the morning, and you need to finish this damn article. Except that right now, your body is telling you that what you really need is to stay exactly where you are. Because the minute the warmth of Sanâs embrace surrounded you, your stress melted away. The steady rise and fall of his chest calms you, makes your own breathing slow. You close your eyes, nestling closer to him, sliding your own arms around his waist. You could so easily fall asleep like this.Â
But he canât sleep here.Â
âSan. San, are you awake?âÂ
âIâm awake,â he replies, but with closed eyes, which doesnât really give you a lot of confidence in his response. âI am,â he insists when you shake him, rolling his head away, but he still doesnât look at you.
âDonât fall asleep,â you warn him sternly. âI mean it!âÂ
San smiles, the one that tells you that he knows youâre going to give in to him, which is the smile you tend to see him flash the most often, because youâre weak for him and always giving in. But this isnât one of those times when you can indulge him. No matter how much you want to.Â
âWish youâd come to the bar tonight. Wanted you there.âÂ
You knew that. Heâd told you as much when heâd texted earlier. Unfortunately, you had to turn him down for the sake of remaining gainfully employed. Heâd tried to convince you otherwise at first but finally said he understood. And then sent you a series of sad selfies, each one more pathetic than the last, lips puffing to an extreme. Because he understands the power that pout holds over you.
Itâs embarrassing how bad youâre down for this man.
Sanâs fingers dance idly down your spine, and you sigh, eyes slipping shut again as you speak. âBelieve me, I wouldâve rather been there with you.âÂ
He hums, fingertips quickening their light minuet. He mumbles something into your hair, low and unintelligible from the way his lips are smushed against your head, so it takes you a few seconds to realize heâs not talking, heâs singing.Â
â... marvelous night for a moondance, with the stars up above in your eyesâŠâÂ
âSan,â you begin, but before you can warn him not to get any louder, he does so anyway, raising his beautiful voice a little, starting to get into it.Â
âA fantabulous night to make romance, 'neath the cover of October skiesâŠâ
âShhh!â Your shushing is cut short by your giggling, as you clap a hand over Sanâs mouth. âOh my god, now is not the time for this!âÂ
This is one of Sanâs more notable habits - when a song gets stuck in his head, youâll hear him singing it for days, just walking around the apartment humming the melody or, if he has an audience, belting out the lines. He knows how much you love his sweet tenor. Another fact about you heâs filed away to devastate you with at the most opportune times.
Like when you need to kick him out of your bed.Â
He continues singing despite your hand pressing on his lips, slurring the words directly into your palm. His eyebrows are working overtime, top half of his face playfully conveying whatever lyrics are being smothered against your skin. Heâs so ridiculous, so over-the-top, even at three in the morning when anyone else would be exhausted, like you felt before he walked into your room, since his energy is infectious and perked you up better than the multiple cups of coffee you downed in your desperate attempt to stay awake. Thatâs San for you - heâs always giving you something when you need it - his time, his help, his energy.Â
So you decide to give him something back, and replace your hand with your mouth, drawing him into a tender kiss, imbuing it with all those things you feel but never say. His muffled singing becomes a hum becomes a moan, at first surprised, then pleased. One of his hands drops to your thigh and with a bit of urgent tugging, he maneuvers you on top of him, chest pressed to chest.
His kissing is only the slightest bit sloppier when heâs been drinking, wetter from his tongue caressing yours with somewhat less skill than usual, but itâs never bothered you. You like seeing this side of him, looser with his inhibitions, with whatever holds him in place - or holds him back. One day youâll ask him to show you more, when youâre both sober.Â
And when things are different. Less⊠ambiguous between the two of you.Â
If you reach that point.Â
âNoona.â San whispers, thankfully pulling you from the heavier thoughts threatening to sink you right out of the moment. You open your eyes to look at him as he pecks your cheeks. âI like kissing you.âÂ
You grin, letting your forehead knock against his. âYeah, I kinda noticed.âÂ
âArenât you going to say it back?â The look he gives you would melt the hardest of hearts. This is why youâre not afraid to be needy with San. Thereâs no reason to be, not when heâs just the same.Â
âI like kissing you too,â you declare, kissing the tip of his nose, laughing at the way his eyes cross as he follows your lips. âBut nowâs not the time for that, either.âÂ
âThen what time is it?â
Laughing, you gently guide him into a sitting position, keeping your arms looped over his shoulders. His lust is morphing into sleepiness, eyelids drooping as he gazes at you, and your heart goes so soft at the sight of him.Â
âItâs time for you to go to bed.âÂ
âOkay,â he chirps, immediately flopping onto his back again.Â
âOhhhh no, not here. You gotta go. I still have to finish my work, and youâŠâ The words stick in your throat. You canât be here. You donât want to say them. You want him to be here. Tonight, and tomorrow, and on and on.Â
But thatâs a conversation for another time. Not three in the morning.
âYou have to go,â you groan, sliding off the bed and grabbing his arms, less gentle and more insistent this time. âCome on, get up!âÂ
San lets out a whine of protest. âBut baby, why canât I stay here?âÂ
Oh, he would drop a âbabyâ now, slipping it in so casually, so naturally, like thereâs nothing unusual about him calling you that. As if itâs not something new he only started doing the other day, happening maybe a handful of times since.Â
Since the two of you have been doing this undefined thing, thereâs really only been one unspoken rule. You sleep in your bed, and he sleeps on the couch. Even on the nights when Haneulâs working the late shift, or sheâs over at Jonghoâs. You never know if sheâll come home early, so you donât risk it. Itâs just easier this way.
Doesnât mean you like it, though.Â
âBecause. If Haneul catches you coming out of here - â
The sound of a door opening makes you freeze right down to your tongue, leaving your sentence unfinished. Your head swivels towards your own door. A pair of feet pad down the hall, getting closer, then fading away, until you hear another door being closed. The bathroom.Â
âNoona.âÂ
You turn to find a sober-looking San staring at you. He reaches out, hands settling on your hips, holding on to you as you stand between his legs. Clinging again.Â
âSheâs in early today, right?âÂ
The two of you probably know Haneulâs schedule better than she does. You nod.
âThen Iâll just stay in here. Sheâll think I never came home.âÂ
He makes it sound so simple. So reasonable. Heâll stay here until she leaves. Why didnât you think of that? Is it because you donât like thinking of San with someone else, even if said person is an imaginary person who exists solely to provide an excuse that will allow you to get what you want? And if you get what you want now, itâs only going to hurt more when you canât have it anymore?
Yeah, thatâs probably it.Â
âI donât knowâŠâ you bite your lip.
âCome on,â he wheedles, drawing you into his lap again, cupping your face with both hands. âLet me stay with you. Donât you want me?âÂ
And there it goes, the last remaining bit of your resistance.Â
âOkay.â
San seems a little shocked, face lighting up in delight, and you wonder if itâs at how quickly you agreed, or that you agreed at all. Maybe both.
âBut we have to be quiet. So, you knowâŠâ You trail off, gesturing wordlessly.Â
âNo moondancing?â He emphasizes the word heavily, lifting a brow, and you roll your eyes but grin as well.
âRight, none of that.â
âJust cuddles?âÂ
As if he needs to ask. You nod. âBut Iâm not coming to bed until I finish my work.â You reclaim your seat at your desk, folding your arms over the back of it, trying to give the appearance of someone with a solid backbone, since yours is apparently made of pudding.Â
âThatâs okay,â San says, already tugging his shirt off, then his pants, until heâs only in his boxer briefs. He peels back your comforter, sliding into the soft sheets, and again the action is so natural, so normal, like he does this every night, that something in your chest constricts. âIâll just wait for you.âÂ
Your first thought is that you should inform him that heâs going to be waiting a while, but then again, maybe he wonât.Â
Youâre feeling suddenly inspired.Â
(Itâs three in the morning, and youâre falling in love.)
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Can u maybe do Sonic exe x reader please? đ„ș
[Creepypastas] Sonic EXE x Reader Warnings: Gore, Cursing
A/N: Never in my life have I thought that someone would request sonic exe... BUT HEY WHATEVER YOU LIKE LETS GO the gender is not specified
Summary: Just headcannons of Sonic EXE the creepypasta which I never have thought I would do with an x reader character thats abit creepy
- There was many differences between you two in body and personalities mostly with him being a mass murderer plus the fact he's an anthropomorphic video game hedgehog and you're well a a human - He's a cursed item and a short one too - Short king who cares for his partner and would kill for her or kill her when he gets bored lucky enough he hasn't gotten bored of you he enjoys playing and toying with you - Sonic EXE can say some disturbing ass shit that will frighten or startle you or will say the most gruesome things about his recent victims out of nowhere but if he feels like heâs gone too far he will apologize to you but donât expect him to do that for anyone else - When he first did that was when you were making him some chili dogs and he stared at the chili - "You know that reminds me of when I gutted this weird ass girl who were trying to get to me but i gutted her because she would always fail the levels ugh I should taken out her eyes too would of been fun to-" and here cues your horrified face staring at him - When he's running he enjoys you boosting his ego - Heâs never encountered a human that had the nerve to challenge him actually he has but they all were too cocky but you? being aware of your flaws and using it to your advantage made him entertained - This hedgehog cannot die so every time you get so angered in a whole another level he watches as you lash out and for some reason he enjoys every time where you lash out on him - he loves suggesting for you to snap his neck or kill him a horrifying way that he loves to describe as you always say you'd never kill him - He comes back bloodied and would have you wipe away the blood dripping down his red irises and voidless eyes - you both had made a schedule for when he can come to the real world so you both can hangout and pamper each other or when he does his little sprees to kill victims - When he's in his little game hes always watching, making sure your okay you're happy, if thereâs any sign youâre unhappy with a person they make you uncomfy they are dealt with personally - His god complex is high so is his ego you boost it for him a lot - Enjoys bringing back little items from his world to you though he enjoyed the face you made when he gave you a fluffy tail keychain that was quite big the yellow fur and white was beautiful - But when you noticed the dripping at the end where the keychain clip was pierced you pause staring at the tails cute fox videogame character missing one of his tails.. - He enjoyed pampering you he calls himself god he calls you his spouse - kisses are kind of hard to do due to his sharp teeth but hey it works for you both - Love language 100% would be gift giving and words of affirmation or 50/50 he's hard to understand - He does pull strings behind the scenes to keep you safe and make sure you are treated like the royalty you are - Even if he gets his hands dirty I mean he already has them bloodied with the past so whats wrong with another person who messed with you to be his next victim
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you made a mark on me (a golden tattoo)
welp, here it is! cody has been my favourite wrestler since 2007/2008, and i NEVER thought i'd write a fic about him, but here we are! after mondays segment, i couldn't get this out of my mind and i hope you all enjoy reading it as much as i enjoyed writing it!! please reblog & comment, they are really helpful & motivating to fic writers!
taglist; @nightmare-viper @harmshake @wrestlezaynia @alyyaanna @xtripleiiix @afterdarkprincess @courtninacole @crxssjae @wrestlingprincess80 đ«¶đ» (if u wanna be taken off the list or added, lemme know!!)
warnings; teasing in public, f receiving, m receiving, slight praise kink, p in v penetration, slight exhibitionism, jealous!cody (if i've missed anything please let me know!)
word count; 2.7k
summary; once again, teasing Cody works wonders.
Even from the other side of the room, you could feel those blue eyes on you, staring so hard you were sure you'd find a burn mark on your cheek when you looked in a mirror. You leaned your elbow on the bar, twirling a piece of hair around your finger as you half listened to Damian; giggling and playfully slapping his arm or chest at the right times. You could barely pay attention to Damian. All you could think about was Cody and how he was reacting to the very obvious flirting happening. You could picture his face clearly in your mind; the way his usually soft gaze would be hardened watching the scene play out, the way he'd be clenching his jaw or biting the inside of his cheek; waiting for the moment he could drag you away without causing suspicion.
The moment came sooner than anticipated when Dom dragged Damian away to rejoin the rest of The Judgement Day in the booth they'd occupied all night. You looked around the room, searching for Cody, but when you couldn't find him, you opted to join Sami and Jey, who were waving at you wildly. Before you could, someone came up behind you, and their hand gripped your bicep tightly.
"I know what you're doing," Cody said, his voice low in your ear.
You craned your neck so you could smile up at Cody. "What? I was just having a very lovely conversation with Damian." You said innocently.
Cody spun you around and glared down at you, his eyes looking brighter under the dim lights. "It won't work." He told you, and you tilted your head, pouting slightly.
"I don't know what you're talking about." You replied, batting your eyelashes, making Cody roll his neck. "You wanna dance?" You quickly asked before he could say anything else.
He glanced at the mass of people dancing and pulled a face. "We really shouldn't..."
"Come on, I was dancing with Jey earlier. It doesn't -"
"You were dancing with Jey?" He asked, his nostrils flaring as he narrowed his eyes. "Fine, let's dance." He conceded, unable to hide his jealousy as he pulled you to the dancefloor as you giggled.
You took advantage of the number of people on the dancefloor and pressed your body up against Cody while snaking your arms around his neck. His hands rested on your waist, and he raised his eyebrow, to which you shrugged, a smile dancing on your lips. "Sorry." You mouthed, and he shook his head, unable to hide the smile. "You're terrible." He replied, making you grin.
"Oh, you know you love it." You said, massaging the back of his neck with your fingertips, just like you did when you were curled up in bed together. Being this close to him was driving you wild, and if you couldn't touch him the way you truly wanted to, you'd revel in driving him just as wild.
You pushed your pussy into Cody's bulge as you danced, and his grip on your hips tightened. "Don't tease me," He warned, his voice almost a growl. "I'm not sure I'll be able to control myself."
You lifted yourself onto your toes and whispered in Codys' ear, your breasts pushing against his chest. "Who's asking you to control yourself? You could just let go."
Your breath on his neck and your scent in his nostrils was intoxicating. It sent a shiver down his spine, and he closed his eyes as he inhaled through his nose; a futile attempt to control the effect you were having on him. His hands made the journey from your hips to your ass and you glanced around the room, thankful that nobody was paying any attention to the two of you. Considering neither of you was ready for people to know about the two of you, you were playing a very dangerous game. Teasing each other and flirting around other people, stealing kisses and secret moments in crowded rooms, sneaking into each other's hotel rooms or onto Cody's bus; it was all so thrilling, and it was a miracle nobody had caught onto the two of you.
"Baby, you gotta stop." He groaned, squeezing your ass. "You're killing me."
Your eyebrow arched upwards, followed by a smirk. "You want me to stop?" You questioned, slipping your hand in between your bodies, sliding your hand down his shirt until you stopped at his belt buckle. "Just say the word, and I'll do whatever you want."
Cody dropped his head onto your shoulder, a low, almost animalistic sound emitting from his throat. He rutted against you, nipping at your neck as he did, the action making your pussy throb as you caught a moan in your throat. Before you could move your hand lower, Cody promptly grabbed your wrist.
"How about we continue this somewhere more private?" Cody said into your ear. He'd posed it as a question, but it wasn't intended as oneâ which was apparent when he didn't wait for your answer and practically dragged you out of the main party room and through the hotel lobby.
With his hand on the small of your back, he pushed you through the doors, the cold night air pinching your naked arms. Cody guided you around the corner, and before you knew it, you were up against the wall, his lips attaching to yours, forcing his tongue into your mouth. You reciprocated the kiss, tongues wrapping around each other; both moaning in harmony as he fondled your breasts over your dress. You unbuckled the belt and popped the button open, and when he bit down on your lip, you grinned. You tried to slip your hand into his boxers, ready to feel his cock in your hand, but Cody pulled away, breathless.
"Not here." He said, lacing his fingers around yours. You walked hand in hand across the parking lot, towards where trees lined the edge of the lot. The closer you got, the more you noticed the large outline of Codys' bus, hidden in the shadows of the trees, tucked away from the moonlight.Â
"You brought your bus here?" You laughed. "You couldn't use the car?"
Cody unlocked the door and ushered you up the steps. "It's a good thing I didn't, isn't it? I knew you'd try something." He teased, slapping your ass lightly. You turned to face him.
"I knew it'd work." You said, reciprocating the soft smile he sent your way as the lock clicked. He took a few steps towards you, his eyes boring into your soul. They were mesmerising, like two oceans you were certain to drown in, and you wouldn't mind a single bit if you did.
"Of course, it worked," Cody said softly. "It'll always work."
You couldn't wait any longer. You pulled Cody towards you by his tie, your lips smashing together forcefully, his fingers tangled in your hair as he tugged slightly, deepening the kiss. He was like a drug you were addicted to, one that you'd never want to give up.
Cody spun you around and slowly unzipped your dress, peppering your naked back with kisses. The black, velvet number fell to the floor, and you turned to face him, standing in just your heels and black panties. He took a step back and carefully studied you like he was looking at his favourite work of art. He grinned and licked his lips as he arched his eyebrow.
"Get on the bed." He ordered. You stepped backwards until your legs hit the edge of the small bed, and you lowered yourself down, the mattress dipping under your weight. Cody pulled at his tie until it loosened and unbuttoned his shirt, smirking at you as he did.
He stood in front of you, his trousers still open from the make-out session outside, and you maintained eye contact as you pushed them and his boxers down his thighs, freeing his cock from its restraints. Cody's tongue poked out of between his teeth as he smirked, his eyes dark as he flicked his thumb across your bottom lip before he lined his cock up against your mouth.
You stuck your tongue out just enough for it to brush the tip, the simple action making Cody buck his hips. You opened your mouth wider, taking as much of Cody's cock as you could. His hand bundled your hair into a ponytail and as you closed your mouth around him, a groan left his lips as he pulled on your hair, throwing his head back. You dragged your tongue up the underside of his cock, the sensation making it twitch in your mouth. You flicked the tip before curling your tongue around it,and you grasped the base of him, taking a moment to look up at him while you pleasured him.
Cody's eyes were glazed over, profanities spilling from him while he guided your head and fucked your mouth. You loved the noises he made, loved the look on his face whenever you were together. He was usually so calm and collected, so to be the one who made him lose control, to fall apart because of you, it made you feel incredibly powerful and confident; something you didn't have much experience with until you met Cody.
He found himself in a rhythmâ one that you wanted to disrupt and so you rolled his balls in your hands, massaging them gently as you took the rest of his cock, choking slightly as the tip hit the back of your throat. The noise Cody made was sinful, and you weren't sure you could be any more turned on until you looked up at him through teary eyes. The sweat was beading around his hairline, his teeth almost biting through his lip as he grunted and thrust into your face.
You wrapped your tongue around his cock and he forcefully pushed your head into him before he couldn't take anymore. He tugged you off by your hair, a Pop! echoing out around the bus. You watched him lean towards you and you crawled up the bed slightly, until Cody was leering over you, his eyes full of lust. He wiped your wet cheeks with his thumbs and kissed you; so much passion in the soft and tender embrace. The longer the kiss went on, the more fierce it became, and your back hit the soft sheets, bringing Cody down with you. His mouth followed a path, planting little butterfly kisses down your jawline, your neck, down to your cleavage â where he latched onto your breast, sucking and biting as your hands ran down his shoulders, fingertips scratching his back. His mouth then continued its journey down your sternum to your stomach while his hand caressed your breast and rolled your nipple with his fingers.Â
Cody hooked his thumbs under your underwear line and ripped them clean from your body. He threw them over his shoulder and held your hips down with one arm, his other hand snaking back up to your throat. He flattened his tongue against your slit and slowly dragged it up your cunt, beginning his feast.
Your hands grabbed the back of his head, and you attempted to buck your hips, but his arm wouldn't let you. "Ohhhh, Cody," you whimpered through little gasps, "feels so fucking good!"
You felt him smile against your thigh as he kissed along the insides before burying his face back into you. "You're such a good girl." He said. "You're my good girl." He said, before flicking your clit with the tip of his tongue. Your hips bucked again, and his grip on your throat tightened as did the grip on your hips. Cody was great at everything he did, he had that Midas touch, but he was incredible at making you feel amazing.
You squeaked as he pushed his tongue into your entrance, releasing your throat so he could caress your clit with his thumb as he fucked you with his tongue. You writhed underneath him as much as he'd allow, pushing his head deeper into your cunt, gripping your thighs against his head, unintelligible sounds leaving your throat as your toes curled.
"Co-Cody, please! I'm gonna cum!" You gasped. He chuckled, picking up the pace and your moans got louder. You were certain that everyone in the hotel would be able to hear you, and that the bus would no longer be hidden from everyoneâ but you didn't care one bit.
You came undone in seconds, and Cody released your hips from his grasp so you could ride his face, his name spilling out of your mouth. His kept working as you rode the wave of your orgasm and when he came up for air, you giggled breathlessly.
Cody climbed up your body like a lion hunting its prey. He needed to be inside you, to feel your walls clench tight around him as he fucked you hard. He rubbed his cock against your slit, sliding it between your lips, without penetrating. You wrapped your legs around him, attempting to pull him closer to you, trying to force him to give you what you craved. He laughed, his tongue poking out the corner of his mouth and rubbed your entrance with the tip of his cock.
"Cody, please -" You whined, your heels digging into his ass cheeks.
"Use your words, baby."
"Cody- I want your-" His tip teased your cunt again and you groaned, your eyes rolling to the back of your head. "Cody, please fu-fuck m- ohhh ffuck!"
He slammed into you, guttural groans passing through his lips at the euphoric sensation. He would never tire of any of thisâ of being inside you, making you scream his name and lose control at the slightest touch. He loved feeling your body underneath him or on top of him. Even the smallest of gestures; the slightest touch of your pinky fingers secretly interlocking around people and his favouriteâ when you placed your palm on his cheek before a match, a little good luck ritual you'd implemented long ago. He would never get enough of the sparks that coursed through his veins when you touched.
His pace quickened when your walls clenched around him. Your moans echoed around the room, in harmony once again, and as another orgasm reached its peak, your arms reached around Cody's neck and pulled toward you, pressing your lips together. The kiss was messy and toothy, and he interlaced your fingers together, sending his free hand between your bodies, his finger circling your clit. You quickly became unglued and your head thrashed against the bed, screaming Cody's name, just the way he liked; as Cody reached his own orgasm, his mouth found your neck, biting down hard before he lapped at the skin with his tongue.
He dropped his body onto you, and you wrapped your arms around his back, enjoying the weight of him on top of you. He nuzzled his head into your neck, pulling the sheets over the both of you, and you closed your eyes, feeling content. With his chest on yours, your heartbeats combined, like your two hearts were one. There were so many reasons for you to go public with your relationship, to let people in on your secret. You wanted to scream from the rooftops about how lucky you were to be the one Cody Rhodes wanted to be with. But you also wanted to stay in your bubble, in your own world where it was just the two of you, nobody else mattered, or even existed.
Cody lifted his head off your chest and leaned onto his elbow, tilting his head as he grinned at you. "You okay?" He asked and you turned to face him, reaching your hand up and placing your palm on his cheek, smiling at the beautiful man with the hearts in his eyes that were for you, and only you.
"I'm starving." You whispered, grinning at him. He rolled onto his back, reaching for a phone that was on the bedside cabinet. He settled back onto the bed, and you found your usual space on his chest. "What do you fancy?"
"Apart from you?" You asked, tracing circles around his chest. Cody laughed loudly, and you grinned wider. "Chinese."
"Whatever you want, you shall receive." Cody replied, making you blush. "Yeah?" You asked, and he nodded, planting his lips on your forehead softly.
"Of course. Always."
#cody rhodes#cody rhodes fic#cody rhodes fanfiction#wwe fanfiction#wwe#wwe fanfic#cody rhodes x reader#cody rhodes x you#cody rhodes smut#my writing*
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There's a lot of reasonably frustrated but ultimately misdirected psa-style posting about how viewers NEED to start reblogging things rather than just liking them because that is the primary mode of post circulation on this site. The modern manifestation of this sentiment seems to miss the fact that, if you've been here for ~15 years, were here prior to, during, and after the exodus to the bird app, you already know that likes have always been more common than reblogs, that many people simply don't want to put your art on their blog, and that guilting end-users into using a microblogging site A Specific Way absolutely does not work. If it did, the trend would have shifted a decade ago. Because this conversation really is that old. Regardless, the modern discourse of how difficult it is to be Seen specifically on Tumblr isn't productive because I think it ultimately misses the reason being an artist online feels so Bad, now.
The social media era has funneled Looking At Stuff on the Internet into an economy of engagement that encourages end-users to treat everything we/they see as quick, cheap, and disposable. This is just another fun and flirty way that capitalism devalues art. It's nothing new. Trying to force masses of users to behave in a way that is healthier for the circulation of art isn't going to do anything to solve the discontent we all feel when we hurl something into the void and it is ultimately ignored. I swear up and down: A higher notes number won't feel better, either. Popularity is just as demoralizing as radio silence, but it manifests differently. Instead of 4 likes and maybe 1 reblog from Old Faithful Mutual, you get a horde of people who treat you like a content machine. You keep hoping for an impossibly Bigger Number. The notifs on the first Big Number Post haven't even settled, and people are already asking when the follow-up is coming. You get anons, but most of them are trying to passively convince you to give them More Content.
It's really, really hard to make people care about art. If there was a silver bullet for making the average person appreciate the enormity of human effort behind every beautiful thing they encounter, we would have found it centuries ago.
The best thing creatives can do for their lives online is to be friendly, or at least kind, with other creators. "Big" artists don't form in-groups because they're snobs. They find each other because they casually showed each other support, and their mutual appreciation for that Thing that wound them up in the same tag becomes a foundation for connection, and in many cases, the ever-illusive Bigger Audience as they introduce themselves to each others' circles. We get more eyes on our work by building community with each other.
Where does that leave people who are just here to look at things, not post them? I think the answer is almost identical: COMMENT!! Please, comment! The first step to engaging with art on a more meaningful level is to point out something you particularly enjoy about a given work. It can go in the replies, it can go in the tags, doesn't matter!! If you notice some symbolism or make some connection, there is all likelihood that OP put it there because they desperately wanted somebody to notice it. Let them know why you like it!
Reaching for the nebulous, impossible goal of better post circulation isn't going to make being a creator online in 2023 suck less. Meaningfully connecting with each other can, will, and does. You can make someone's day just by passingly letting them know that their effort is worth more than a number.
#budgetalks#I got to thinking about this because of fanfic actually#the proportion of comments to kudos ESPECIALLY on popular fics bums me out#especially when you open the comments and half of them are people asking for more
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Professor Parker Part 2
Summary: where Professor Parker makes a deal with trouble, in order to get them to stay in class.
Word Count: 2.4k+
Warnings: 18+ Only! Smut, professor x student relationship (college age of course!), oral f!receiving, praise kink, angst
A/N- I am sorry this took so long to actually do, but yeah, after that recent talk show look (you know the one Iâm talking about, if not I reblogged it a few posts back) I just knew I needed to go back to this. Anyway, enjoy.
Ps @sincericida itâs been a while since part one so would you mind reblogging to help find the original masses, who knows whoâs usernames are still the same or working.
You werenât going to continue taking his course. You had every intention of going straight to the Dean asking to change. Sure you had been eagerly awaiting this course ever since youâd first read about, it well over a year ago, when you were thinking about where you wanted to study after you graduated. The way Professor Parker focused on Multiversal Theory, using Physics of Matter to provide proof for his theories, it was a truly riveting subject. But now, after all this. There was no way you could stay in his class, listening to him talk for 12-15 hours a week, knowing heâd buried his head between your legs, made you cum again and again⊠no you couldnât do it. That would just be self induced torture, no? Because there was also no way heâd fuck you until you saw stars again, would he? No, there was no way. Then how come you were now sat on top of his desk, your legs spread, panties dropped to the floor between you as he once again ate your pussy like he was a man starved?
He had stopped you as you went to leave, trying to blend in and leave amongst the crowd. âHold it Miss Y/L/N.â Fuck! You thought you were gonna get away with it.
There was silence as you waited, arms folded- guarded- as the last couple of students left with small smiles and waved their goodbyes to the Professor. Professor, uhhh the reminder of the name heâd given you last night now felt very different.
âDonât go.â He said as he moved back towards his desk and began shifting things around. âI know that look. Donât change course.â You couldnât meet his eyes. You kept quiet with your eyes to the ground as you watched him come back around the front of the desk, his ankles crossing over in front of him as he leant back on the desk. âLast nights on me, Iâm sorry,â he admitted and it finally forced you to meet his eyes as he continued to speak. âBut it shouldnât mean you have to change course.â
You didnât know what he expected you to say. You didnât know how else to respond either, a now slightly less uncomfortable silence falling between you. He sighed as he ran his hand through his hair, shaking his head. âWell you certainly chose the right name to introduce yourself with⊠trouble.â
âYouâre one to talk⊠Professor.â You said, finally finding your voice and the corner of his mouth quirked into a small smile.
âOkay, you have me there. But in all fairness, Iâm not expecting to find new students in clubs.â He mused, both a chastising, yet naughty glimmer of admiration in his eye.
âYou can blame my room mate for that one. You can also blame her for pushing me on you.â You chuffed as the memory from the night before came back to you.
He frowned as if remembering too. âQuite literally if I remember correctly.â He joked and it made your tummy flip.
You fell quiet again, your eyes quickly shooting back to looking at his feet instead of his face, as the feeling of your crush overwhelmed you and your previous dilemma returned.
As if he could see the conflict in your mind for himself, he stepped closer, forcing your attention back on him as he said, âWhat have I got to do to convince you to stay in this class?â He asked honestly, but he was too close to you. His smell was intoxicating. His gaze penetrating. His eyes were so soft and earnest, you just wanted to melt into them. His curls were too neat in the light of day and you just wanted to run your hands through them until they were fluffy and soft and messy again, just like they had been when you had left him in bed and snuck out this morning.
Your breathing caught in your chest as he reached out his hand to you, his warm fingers coming into contact with the smallest patch of bare skin on your arm where your cardigan had slipped down. It sent a shiver down your spine and you knew he had felt it.
He pulled his hand away again hesitantly and you reached to pull your cardigan back up onto your shoulder to cover yourself up again protectively. âI canât.â You said gently, the two words breaking you and you knew you had to walk away before it was too late- before anything else could happen and make this hurt anymore.
You had taken two steps towards the door when you felt his hand reach for your wrist to pull you back. When you met his eyes you were met with conflict, it was plain on his face now as he looked you up and down fully in the light of day. His gaze finally fell to the floor and he released your wrist to rub at his face as he sighed. âUhhhh you werenât kidding when you said you were gonna cause me a whole load of trouble,â he muttered to himself and all you could do was frown, your fingers picking at the pages the notebook in your fingers, as you tried to work out what thoughts were going through his head.
He sighed again as he looked to the ceiling as if trying to talk himself out of whatever idea had placed itself into his head. âFuck,â he groaned quietly and the next thing you knew he was marching towards the door.
You watched him closely, your heart in your mouth as he pulled down the blind and there was a faint click as he locked the door. You only just about had time to realise what he was doing before he marched back over to you, his hands reaching out to hold either side of your face as he brought his lips to yours.
The touch instantly made you ache between your legs, your knees wobbling slightly as you took a sudden deep breath in through your nose as if his kiss alone allowed you to breathe freely again. There was a loud slap as the book in your hands hit the linoleum floor, but neither of you flinched as your reached your fingers up into his hair, messing up his curls and pulling him closer.
As his arm moved down to snake around your lower back, pulling you in closer to him, you could feel every contour of his body. Could feel the pressure building behind his pants zipper.
You opened your mouth up to him more and felt him waste no time, as he licked inside your mouth, pulling a desperate and wanton moan from between your lips. He grunted slightly in response, his forehead pushing into yours desperately as he forced himself to break off the passionate kiss for just a moment. âAre you sure this is what you want?â He asked. âYou know you wonât be able to say anything to anyone.â He said, his eyes searching yours for any hesitation. âBut Iâm not letting you transfer out of this class, okay?â He said strongly.
You felt dizzy. Your eyes struggled to focus on him. From his kiss to his questions- far too many to answer in a short amount of time- you just wanted to feel his lips on yours again. Wanted to feel his fingers everywhere. Last night had been the best night of your life so far and he was dangling that feeling in front of you like a poisoned apple on a string- and you so wanted to bite.
âCome on, Trouble, I need you to answer me,â he said, somewhat desperately and it made you wonder, maybe he wanted this just as much as you did. At first you thought this might just be a ruse to get you to stay, but maybe it was more than that.
âYes,â you sighed breathlessly.
âYes, what?â
âYes, I understand. Iâll stay. I wonât tell anyone, just please-â you hesitated a second as you heard the rest of the sentence you wanted to say play out in your head and worked up the courage to say it- but you figured youâd come this far and already given yourself a nickname to live up to so why not say it- âpromise me youâll do that thing with your tongue again.â You sighed out breathlessly and a devilish gleam twinkled in his eye as he let out a small chuckle and shook his head gently against yours.
âTrouble,â he sighed. âWhich thing?â He asked, playing along with you, but you were sure he already knew, so kept quiet as his gaze on you grew hungrier. He gave you a wolfish grin as he shook his head again. âWhen? Now?â He asked and you nibbled at your lip in anticipation.
He sighed again and rolled his eyes, his fingers reaching for yours as he began to pull you slowly around the back of his desk, backing you up until the backs of your thighs were pressing into the wood.
âItâs a good thing you wore a skirt for your first day of my class then, isnât it?â He teased, his fingers tracing up your bare skin, slowly inching underneath the skirt and sending a shiver up your spine. He didnât stop their journey until he reached your underwear, his fingers hooking into the elastic at your hips and slowly dragging them back down your legs at an agonising pace, until they reached your knees and he let them drop to the floor, ready for you to step out of them.
As you did so, he slowly encouraged you to sit back on top of his desk, his hands reaching back to lift up your skirt and reveal yourself to him, his eyes not leaving yours, as he slowly lowered himself onto his knees on the floor before you. Your eyes fluttered closed and you sighed as his lips turned to graze the inside of your knee, the barely there touch of his mouth on your skin enough to send an overwhelming rush of arousal to your core. As he gradually kissed his way up your inner thigh, your fingers gripping the papers on his desk to ground. You couldnât believe you were actually doing this. You were about to enter into a secret affair with your professor like this was an episode of Riverdale or Pretty Little Liars.
But as his tongue finally moved up to swipe through your sex, you really didnât care. If it meant you got to experience the bliss this man was able to drag from you on a regular basis, you didnât care about anything. As he continued lick at your folds, his tongue sucking your clit into his mouth every few swipes, building you up at an agonising pace, you fought with all your might to keep your moans quiet, biting down on your lower lip with a strangled sigh as your sensitivity bloomed and the pressure between your legs grew tighter.
You allowed yourself one low shaky sigh as his tongue pushed deep inside you, teasing you agonisingly and you gripped the edges of his desk as you grew desperately close to your release. âGood girl,â he praised, as he took his mouth back away from you for just a second, before sliding two of his fingers gently inside you and sucking your clit back between his lips.
âOh, shit.â You hissed, as his words and tone sent another flutter of arousal and sensitivity between your lips and you finally realised how much trouble you were really in. But it was too late, youâd already taken a bite from the tainted apple, the poison was already coursing through your blood and it felt far too good to run away.
His fingers gripped tighter to your thighs as they began to shake, your climax so desperate to come flooding out, but the tension of needing to be quiet made it unbearable. Your fingers clawed at his shoulders as you tried to keep yourself grounded and in control, the coil deep in your pelvis ready to expload and you felt his fingers slip out of you, his hands moving to hold you down firmly onto the desk as he took one last swipe at the sensitive apex between your legs. Your eyes squeezed shut, your legs clamping tightly around his face as it all came crashing down, the tiniest desperate squeak escaping from between your lips before you swallowed the need to cry out back down, instead panting your way through your climax until you could feel your body beginning to cool and calm again.
Slowly you relaxed your thighs and you heard a faint breathy chuckle of satisfaction fall from his lips as he rubbed soothingly at your bare legs again, before moving back, his hand casually moving to wipe away the mess on his face.
As he finally stood back up, his tongue lapping up the last of your juices from his lips, you saw him bunch up your panties, that heâd picked up off the floor, and wrap them tightly in his fingers before sliding them into his pocket.
âHey, I need those back.â You said to him indignantly, a slight panic in your chest at the thought of having to walk back out of the classroom with nothing on under your skirt.
âNew rule.â He said, standing up straight as he looked over your flushed form, still sitting on top of his desk as he leaned in closer. âYour panties end up on my classroom floor, I get to keep hold of them.â You were sure his words had just sent another wave of arousal back down between your legs, but you fought to ignore it, the thought of walking out of here panty-less, still more pressing, especially if this was going to be a regular thing- youâd be out of underwear before the semester was out and there was no way your student budget was gonna stretch to new underwear every other week.
You were about to protest the fact as you pushed yourself off the desk, your hand reaching out to snatch your underwear back from his pocket, but he swerved out the way before you could so much as even make the slightest bit of contact. âUh, uh, uh,â he said, holding his finger up to me, that devilish smirk back in the corner of his mouth. âYou can have them back, as long as you get good grades on your essays.â
You couldnât help but roll your eyes as you let out a breathy little scoff. âSo do we have a deal, trouble?â He asked patiently.
You rolled your eyes again as you conceded, âYeah,â you sighed, âwe have a deal.â
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In the face of recent news about our beloved Destiny, I think itâs more important than ever for us as a community to come together and support each other in numerous ways.
Itâs been a very hard week for all of us, especially those who lost their jobs and outlet for their passion in mass lay offs. Losing a position that allowed you to craft magnificent stories alongside some of the most ambitious people in the gaming industry, especially in worrying economic circumstances, must be excruciating to deal with and I wish the best for all those laid off from Bungie.
For us fans, it hurts more than anything to see the game you care so much for get put in headlines for how little that care is shared amongst the people responsible for making decisions on it. Iâve been into Destiny since it first dropped, making it the love of my life for nearly two-thirds of my whole existence , and to hear about how itâs just another product to be sold when itâs everything and more to me is just despairing. I wanted to become a writer and concept artist to create a game for others that made them feel as cared for as I did when I played Destiny and now Iâm sitting here seeing all the people who helped foster that feeling be treated as another expenditure.
Itâs awful, a lot of us are feeling really uninspired and betrayed at the moment, not sure we even want to see what will happen to this masterpiece of a game in the hands of the current executives. We are also dearly missing the developers, artists, writers, and more who made Destiny more than a fps looter shooter.
But it is times like these where we are torn and confused that we must uplift one another and not let the bitter taste of Bungieâs actions make us speak with hostility. This is not about decisions on whether to support Bungie or the actual game, but about refocusing on what truly makes Destiny enjoyable to so many.
Its world is immersive with care put into every story and that clearly shows in just how eager fans are to create masterpieces for it. It was never playing the game or the notoriety that kept me coming back for more, but the joy of creation I could share with others.
It stings to see a disinterest in nursing the potential of the Destiny universe from the executives with motivations other than monetary gain, but when the executives wonât care, we can. There are still employees at Bungie who adore their work and we can continue to support them by speaking up against horrible industry practices and show that we wonât abandon their efforts to make Destiny what it is.
Make ocs, write fanfictions, follow the former employees wherever they go, draw til your heart is overflowing, join Discords, roleplay, share headcanons, create aus with friends, do whatever keeps Destiny alive and flourishing for you!
Destiny will never die to me, even when itâs long forgotten and the servers shut down, because Destiny made me who I am and I intend to repay that gift an infinite amount of times over. The characters and universe will be alive and well to me until I die, regardless of the fate of the game and Bungie.
So go out and prove that Destinyâs themes of the power of community and hope are more than just morals behind a screen, that they are life changing messages that we will carry on despite hopeless news!!
Reblog charming artists, message people about ships you enjoy, leave questions and tags that contribute to conservations, write essays about what Destiny means to you!!
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Aloha Chapter Two ~ Bucky Barnes x f!Reader (no use of Y/N)
read Aloha part one here!!
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Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader (no use of Y/N)
Summary: After a great day of playing football with Bucky and his friends, he plans an excursion for you. However, Bucky might not be as perfect as he seems.
A/N: thank you to everyone who liked, commented on, or reblogged chapter one! I was so so so thrilled with how well the first part did and I'm glad you all enjoyed it!
Warnings: facefucking, exhibitionism (dressing room shenanigans), brief fingering, discussion of unhealthy relationships, mention of cheating, bit of a praise kink, orgasm denial, come eating, dom!Bucky and his filthy mouth, drinking, insecure reader, self-deprecating thoughts, please lmk if I missed anything
Word Count: 8.6k
You feel the heat from the sunâs rays shining on you through the windows before you even open your eyes. You also feel a solid mass under your chest and it isnât until you open your eyes that you remember the previous night. Bucky is underneath you - still sleeping if his soft snores are anything to go by. You feel your lips turn up into a smile as memories of last night play through your mind.Â
His arm is draped over your body, securing you to him. You try to gently pull his arm off you so you can get up, but his bicep flexes as he subconsciously pulls you in closer. As much as youâd like to stay here cuddled up with Bucky all morning, you have to pee. You nuzzle into his chest and begin to pepper kisses across his toned pecs.Â
Bucky rustles above you and you hear a soft hum as he wakes.
âMornin, doll,â he keeps you close to his chest with one arm and raises his other to run through his hair.
You turn to look up at him and he leans down to press his lips to your forehead.
âHowâd you sleep?â his morning voice is deep and gravelly.Â
âReally good. You?â you hold back a giggle at his tousled hair.
âAmazing, hon.â
âGlad to hear it, Buck. Hate to ruin the moment, but you have to let me up so I can pee.â
âSays who?â he uses both arms to hug you tighter into his chest.
You gently slap his bulging arms and squeal, âBucky! Let me up!â
Bucky scrunches his face up as if in thought. âFine, but itâll cost you. One kiss.â
âEw, I have morning breath.â
âDonât care, doll,â he guides your face to his and leans in to take his payment.Â
After a couple of seconds, he releases you from his grasp. It isnât until youâre about to pull the covers off of you that you realize youâre naked. Sure, he saw everything last night, but itâs different in the light of day when you donât have any alcohol in your system.Â
âUm,â your cheeks heat as you sit on the edge of the bed, covers pulled tight around your body, âcould you, uh, look away for a minute?â
âDoll, youâre beautiful and you donât have anything to be ashamed of. But if itâll make you more comfortable then of course I will.â
He rolls over onto his stomach and presses his face into his pillow. You lean over and plant a kiss on his shoulder blade before jumping up and running to the bathroom. You go pee and brush your teeth before grabbing one of soft bathrobes with the resorts logo on the breast and tying it around your waist. When you open the bathroom door, Bucky is standing, pulling on his boxers.Â
âWould you wanna go get breakfast with me?â he asks, adjusting the elastic of his underwear.
âThat sounds great.âÂ
Bucky smiles and gathers his clothes from the floor, blush forming across his face as he does so. With an armful of clothes, he turns to look at you.
âI just want you to know, I donât usually do that. Sleep with girls I just met- I mean. I mean, yeah Iâve done it before,â he begins to ramble, âbut like, not often. I just felt like there was something between us and you were just so gorgeous last night, youâre still gorgeous. Shit, Iâm so-â
You cut him off with a hand on his bare shoulder before he gets any farther.
âBucky, itâs okay. I understand what you mean. I donât normally do stuff like this either.â
âWell, Iâm gonna go to my room to put on some different clothes. Iâll come back in a couple of minutes and we can go downstairs?â he starts to pull on his dress pants from last night. He pulls the wrinkled button up over his shoulders, not bothering with the buttons.Â
He holds his shoes and belt in one hand as he makes for the door. He opens the door and steps out. You follow him, standing in the doorway. Before you have a chance to say goodbye, you hear a familiar voice coming from over Buckyâs shoulder.
âNice clothes, Buck!â Sam is walking down the hallway toward the two of you, Steve beside him. âWe didnât hear you come back to your room last night,â Sam continues his teasing.
Bucky lets out an exasperated sigh before turning to face his friends. Youâre mortified that theyâve caught you. But at the same time, you want to laugh at the murderous look on Buckyâs face.
âNot another word, Sam,â he goes to hold up his hand, as if in warning, before remembering that his belt is dangling from his fingers, and quickly lowers it, trying too late to hide further evidence.
Sam doubles over laughing, meanwhile Steve stands still as a statue, eyes trained on the ground. He looks almost as embarrassed as you do.
âWe were just headed downstairs,â the blond explains.
âSorry, Barnes,â Sam says your name and nods at you, âIâll leave you to continue your walk of shame,â he lets out another roaring laugh, slapping Bucky on the shoulder before continuing down the hallway, Steve in tow.
The blond looks up to give you a sheepish smile, âIâm sorry,â he mouths an apology to you.
Once his friends are gone, Bucky turns to you. âI swear to god, Iâll kill him if you want me to,â he says with a straight face.
You laugh at him, âItâs fine, Bucky. Heâs just being funny.â
Bucky gives you a thankful smile and leans down and pecks your lips before making his way to his room.
âIâll be back in a couple minutes!â he calls to you.
When Bucky knocks on your room door exactly two minutes later, youâre running a brush through your hair. You had thrown on a pair of shorts and a tank top.
âJust a second!â you call out.
You grab your things and slip a pair of flip flops on before opening the door. Bucky apologizes again for Samâs bevahior and you tell him not to worry - you enjoy the lighthearted fun. You grab plates and get in line for the buffet.
Bucky piles his plate with so much food that youâre worried itâs about to start falling off. He reaches for the tongs to add bacon to his stack of food.
âThere is no way you can fit any more food on that plate,â you look at him in disbelief.
How is he planning on eating that much?
Bucky grins at you before taking the bacon from the tongs and sticking it directly into his mouth, giving you a smirk.
âThat better, sweetheart?â he mumbles around a mouthful of food.
You roll your eyes at him and walk to the first empty table you see. Bucky follows behind a minute later with his plate and two cups of orange juice, youâre mildly impressed at his ability to carry it all without spilling anything - like you surely wouldâve. But then again, his hand dwarfs the cups of juice, so you suppose that helps. He sits down across from you and sets one of the plastic cups in front of you.
âThank you,â you tell him after swallowing your bite of food.
ââCourse, doll,â he answers around a mouthful of toast.
You figure itâs just your luck when Brock and Marissa walk into the dining room. Did they eat breakfast at the same time as you every day? You let out a sigh, hoping they donât see you. You really donât feel like explaining who Bucky is, Hi, Brock! This is the guy I just met who called me âhis girlâ when I slept with him last night, isnât he great?
Bucky turns to follow your eyeline, landing on the couple.
âIs thatâŠâ he trails off.
âYep. Brock and Marissa.â
He looks down and nods, dejected look on his face, âI can leave, if you want,â he offers. âI mean if you donât want them to see you with me.â How is it that you just met this man, yet it appears he can read your mind?
You would never do that to Bucky, though. He didnât deserve that. So what if Brock found out? You donât have anything to be ashamed of. Youâre a grown woman. Youâre single and you decided to have some fun with a man whoâs interested in you. Itâs not like youâre the only person whoâs ever had a one night stand - if thatâs what youâd call this, anyway.
âOf course not, Bucky. I donât care if they see us. Besides, you havenât even started your cereal or your eggs.â This earns a grin from Bucky.
âHey, you keep that up and youâre not getting any of my waffles,â he points his finger at you.
Brock and Marissa sit down. You try not to watch them - you really do. But theyâre sat right in your line of sight and it makes it hard. Brock eats with one hand and scrolls through his phone with the other. Marissa does the same.Â
Bucky notices you watching them and turns to look. Marissa says something to which Brock just gives a noncommittal nod and continues scrolling. Itâs no wonder he doesnât see you with his face buried in his phone.
âWas he like that when you were with him?â
âYeah. Especially toward the end. It was like he won me over at first by doing all this stuff for me and taking me out on dates. But then after a while he stopped doing all of that. I was lucky to have a conversation with him that lasted more than a couple of minutes.â
Bucky gives you a sad look. âIâm sorry doll. Glad you donât have to put up with that anymore.â He mutters the next part under his breath so quietly you almost miss it, âAsshole didnât deserve you.â
âWhat about you?âÂ
He looks confused and you realize your question had been rather vague.
âHave you ever had any serious relationships?â you clarify.
âYeah,â he nods, âLast serious one ended just before I got out of the army. I was on a nine month deployment. The distance was hard. I called her as often as I could, had flowers sent to her. Weâd been together for years. Turns out she was cheating on me while I was overseas. Said she was lonely because I wasnât home. Needed something more, I guess,â he shrugs, âThought she was the one. Had the ring picked out and everything.â
âOh my gosh,â your face drops. How could someone do such a thing? He was away serving his country and she had cheated on him? He had even sent her flowers while he was gone - Brock had never once gotten you flowers. âI am so sorry, Bucky. Thatâs terrible.â You can tell his mood has declined from talking about it and youâre not sure how to console him.Â
âDonât worry about it, doll,â he gives you a forced smile. âBesides, itâs best that I found out when I did. I got all my money back for the ring,â he jokes, but his chuckle doesnât meet his eyes.
You simply nod in agreement. You and Bucky finish eating in silence, reflecting on the heavy topics the two of you had discussed. Bucky downs the last of his orange juice and, as if nothing had happened, the grin is back on his face.Â
âWanna go to the beach? If youâre not sick of me yet, that is.â
âDonât think I could ever get sick of you,â you chuckle before realizing what you had just let slip.
Youâre not sure what exactly your feelings are for Bucky, but itâs clear that there was an instant connection between the two of you. And last night made it obvious that itâs not just a platonic connection. Regardless, you donât think you should reveal your cards to Bucky just yet.
He doesnât need to know that he hasnât left your mind since you first laid eyes on him across the bar. He doesnât need to know that heâs made you happier in two days than anyone has in years. He doesnât need to know that youâre not sure you could go another day for the rest of your life without seeing his blinding smile. But itâs too early to be having these thoughts. So you quickly stand and clear the table before Bucky has a chance to respond. You head to the elevator without another word. Bucky follows you, confused smile on his face.Â
Bucky leaves you in front of your room so that you can get changed and, for the second time today, he promises to be back in a couple of minutes. You change into your bikini and put your tanktop and shorts back on over it. Itâs been about five minutes and Bucky still hasnât come back to your room. You decide to take the time to pull out your phone and text Tess, your best friend back home, filling her in on everything that has happened with Bucky and his friends so far.Â
After youâve finished updating Tess, Bucky still hasnât come back. You wonder for a moment if he had changed his mind. Maybe he didnât want to hang out with you anymore and this was just his way of getting rid of you. You only let those thoughts cloud your mind briefly before you snap out of it and realize that that was unlikely. He hadnât shown any indications of wanting to get rid of you - the beach had been his idea. You decide to go to Buckyâs room.
You pad down the hall in your flip flops and stop in front of Buckyâs door. You hesitate for a second before raising your hand and rapping your knuckles against the wood. You hear muffled curses coming from the other side of the door before it opens a second later.Â
âShit, doll, Iâm so sorry,â Bucky answers the door. Heâs still wearing his clothes from breakfast. He returns back into his room, leaving the door open for you to follow. âI canât find my trunks anywhere.â
You step in and close the door behind you. His room is kind of a mess. There are piles of clothes scattered everywhere and you see why as he crouches down in front of his suitcase and begins throwing clothes out of it, desperately searching for his bathing suit.Â
âWhoa, Buck, calm down,â you hold back a laugh at his overly-frustrated state. âItâs just a pair of swim trunks. Did you only bring one pair?âÂ
A visible heat creeps up Buckyâs cheeks, âWell I didnât think I was gonna be in the water that much,â he explains.Â
âThereâs a store down in the lobby, Iâm sure they have some if you want to buy another pair.â
Bucky sighs and stands up, giving up on his search. âIâm sorry doll. You can go to the beach now if you want and I can meet you there after I find a new pair.â
âItâs not like I need to spend the entire day at the beach Bucky, we still have plenty of time. Besides, I want to look around for souvenirs.â
âOkay, doll,â he gives you a grateful smile.Â
The two of you make your way to the main floor, Bucky still obsessing over his trunks, I just donât know where they could have gone.
Upon stepping into the resortâs store, youâre met with all sorts of fun souvenirs and brightly colored clothing. Bucky makes his way over to the swim wear section and you wander around, looking for gifts for your parents and Tess. You settle on a mini totem garden sculpture for your parents and a pretty bracelet for your best friend.Â
âHey, doll!â Bucky peeks his head out from behind a dressing room door.
You hadnât even noticed heâd gone into a dressing room. You make your way over to the stall heâs occupying and raise an eyebrow. âFind a pair of trunks?â
âWanna come in and see them?â he grins and opens the door for you, but keeps his body hidden behind it.Â
âYou need my help choosing a pair?â you sigh and step into the dressing room after setting down your gifts.
Bucky closes the door behind you and heâs shirtless, wearing only the pair of swim trunks heâs trying on. You drop your eyes to them and burst out laughing. The trunks say stop staring at my with a picture of a rooster underneath the words, directly over where his junk is. Bucky joins you in laughing.Â
âYou just had to take your shirt off too, didnât you?â you tease. Not that youâre complaining about the sight in front of you.
âWell we need to get the full effect so we can tell whether or not we like them,â he justifies, grin never leaving his lips.
âYouâre not seriously getting those, are you?â
âNah. You could follow the advice on them, though.â
âPlease, Barnes. Says you,â you remember the way heâd stared at your bikini-clad body yesterday. âBesides, are you telling me you donât like it?â
You turn to leave the dressing room and are stopped by a hand on your arm. Bucky grabs you and pulls you into a kiss. You deepen the kiss and he begins rutting into you, feeling his bulge rub against you. You know thereâs people outside the dressing room. Anyone could overhear you if you or Bucky get too loud. But you donât care about any of that as you sink to your knees on the dressing room floor. In fact, maybe it spurs you on a little.Â
Bucky stares down at you with wide eyes, jaw dropped. âFuck, doll. What are you doing?â
You dip your fingers into the waistband of his boxers beneath the swim trunks, testing the waters. âWant to repay you for last night.â
âDoll, you donât have to do that. Are you sure?â
You ever so slightly start to pull down the trunks along with his underwear and look up to him for permission before continuing. He gives you a nod, a look of awe spread across his face. You drag them all the way down and let them pool around his ankles before he steps out of them, leaving him fully nude in front of you.Â
Youâd seen him before, but not up this close. His tip is pink and leaking a drop of precum. Heâs barely hard and youâre already wondering how youâll be able to fit him all down your throat.Â
âStop staring at my cock, doll,â he says quietly as he stares down at you, smirk on his face.
He reaches a hand around to tangle in your hair and gently pulls you closer, dragging his length across your face. The feeling of his heady weight resting on your cheek sends a flood of arousal to your core.
You lick up his hardness until you reach the tip. You place a kiss on his slit, tongue darting out to lap up his precum.Â
âI donât like teasing, sweetheart,â Bucky gives you a warning look.
You take the head into your mouth and begin to lower yourself onto his cock. Buckyâs hand rests in your hair, letting you set your own pace. You begin bobbing up and down on his shaft, taking about half of him into your mouth with each descent. After a couple minutes of letting you control things, Bucky pulls your head off of him and leans down so heâs face to face with you.Â
âIf it gets to be too much, tap on my thigh two times. I want you to repeat it back to me if you understand.â
âTap on your thigh twice to stop,â you meet his eyes. They look almost completely black, his pupils blown wide with lust.
He pulls you in for another kiss before rising to his full height.Â
âReady, doll?â
Youâre not sure why the thought pops into your head, but you decide to try something out. âYes, Sergeant.â
Buckyâs face turns to something resembling a scowl as his grip tightens on your hair and he drags you back onto his cock. He pushes you all the way down until you feel him hit the back of your throat. And then he forces himself in even farther. Your face is pressed against his lower abdomen, nose nestled into the dark patch of hair just above his cock. You breath in through your nose, which overflows your senses with his musk.
Bucky releases his hands from your hair, allowing you to take a breath. You gasp for air before reattaching your mouth to his cock, already missing the taste of him. He lets out a quiet groan and holds your head in place as he begins to thrust in and out of your mouth. He buries himself in the back of your throat and you gag around him.Â
âFuck, doll. Love feeling your throat close around me.â
He holds himself there for a few more seconds before giving you a reprieve.Â
âDoing so good for me, hon.â He praises, just loud enough so that you can hear him, quiet enough that anyone outside the dressing room wouldnât be able to.Â
He continues using your throat to chase his high. He lets a quiet groan slip every so often, making your pussy clench around nothing each time. He picks up the pace, holding your head still and brutally jamming his length down your throat over and over. You lift a hand to his hairy thigh to brace yourself.Â
âFeel so good. My pretty girl.â
You reach a hand into your panties to give your throbbing clit some attention. Bucky notices immediately and grabs your wrist, ripping your hand out of your shorts.Â
âBad girl. Did I say you could do that? Put both your hands behind your back now or you wonât be coming at all today.â He lodges himself into the back of your throat and holds there, cutting off your air flow until you follow his orders.Â
You do as he instructed and clasp your hands behind your back.
He pulls out of your throat and looks down at you, expression softening. âYou can still tap out if you need to, doll.â
Youâre not sure what makes you respond the way you do, but youâre quick to regret it. âPlease, you think this is rough?â sarcasm drips from your wrecked voice.
Your response brings the scowl back to Buckyâs face and the hold he takes on your hair makes your scalp sting in the best way.Â
âFuckinâ brat.â He uses your hair to drag you up and down his length, not stopping to give you a break.
Heâs focused solely on chasing his own high, enjoying the way you gag around him. When tears begin to run down your face, he swipes them away with his thumb.
âYou asked for it, pretty girl,â he gives you a mock look of sympathy, not letting up. âFuck, Iâm getting close. Youâre such a dirty little slut letting me fuck your face like this. What if someone overheard us right now?â
Your moan is muffled around his cock, the vibrations making him grit his teeth in pleasure.
âYou like that, doll? Want everyone to know what a little slut you are for me? Want them to see you on your knees for me?â
You do your best to nod with his rock-hard length in your mouth. He gives a few more deep thrusts and you feel his tip hit the back of your throat repeatedly before he uses your hair to yank you off of him.
âCan I come down your throat, doll? Pump your stomach full of me?â
âPlease, Buck,â you manage in a hoarse voice.
Bucky groans and forces himself as far down your throat as he can possibly get and holds there, both of his hands keeping your head in place. You unclasp your hands behind your back and bring one up to massage his balls, sending him over the edge. Bucky squeezes his eyes shut and does his best to stay quiet as he shoots rope after rope of his seed down your throat. You feel his warm come trickle down your throat and begin to choke on it. He keeps you in place until his orgasm subsides.
He finally lets you go and you pull off of his length, sputtering and gasping for breath. Bucky kneels down in front of you and holds you to him, calming you. He runs a hand up and down your back and smooths your hair. Once youâve caught your breath, you lean in for a kiss, which he gladly returns, groaning into your mouth when he gets the briefest taste of himself on your lips.
âYou did so fucking good for me, doll,â he whispers into your ear. âMade me feel so good.â He reaches a hand down and slips it into your panties, instantly being met with your wetness. âFuck, doll. You really liked that, huh?â
âYes, Bucky. Made me so wet,â you buck your hips up into his touch, hoping heâll make you come. âPlease, Bucky,â you beg, âI was good for you, donât I deserve a reward?â
âIâll decide that for myself, doll. Iâll make you come if and when I want to,â he runs a finger through your slick and rubs a few circles over your clit.Â
You were already on the brink of orgasming the entire time Bucky was in your mouth, and youâre sure that all you need is a couple more strokes of his calloused fingers to push you over the edge. Youâre not surprised that Bucky seems to know this too when he pulls his hand out of your shorts.
âBe a good girl for the rest of the day and Iâll make it worth your while. Give you anything you want tonight, sweetheart.â
âFine,â you pout, although the way he used you to get himself off and left you desperate for release turns you on like nothing ever has before.Â
He stands and helps you to your feet. He gets dressed while you use the mirror to fix your disheveled look. When the two of you look normal again, he opens the dressing room door.Â
Youâre glad to find that the store is almost empty and it appears that no one had heard anything. You pick up the gifts you had selected for your family and Tess and Bucky returns with a new pair of trunks. Theyâre a solid salmon-pink color.
âWhatcha got there?â he asks, nodding to the trinkets in your hand.
âSome gifts for my family back home. See you found a bathing suit.â
âWell, you didnât like the last one, soâŠâ he chuckles at you and the two of you make your way to the checkout.
Just before you reach the counter, Bucky calls your name. Heâs stopped in front of a display of Hawaiian shirts.
âWe should each get one!â the excited look on his face is too cute to deny, so you simply nod and agree.Â
You pick one out and Bucky (coincidentally?) selects a matching menâs one. You set your stuff down on the counter and move to pull your wallet out of your bag before Bucky stops you and sets his own stuff down on top of yours. Youâre about to argue that heâs not paying for all of your stuff, but he raises his eyebrows and shoots you a warning look.
Donât you dare try and pull that again, he words from when you had bought dinner last night replay in your mind. You look down at your feet and blush. If it didnât turn you on so much, youâd be embarrassed at how submissive this man makes you.
He grabs a bottle of water from the mini fridge next to the cashier and sets it on the counter. Bucky pays for everything and hands you the bottle of water while the cashier bags everything up. Youâre thankful for the instantaneous soothing the cold water provides as it hits your raw throat. You turn to Bucky and smile, as if to thank him. He sets a hand on your waist and gives you an affectionate smile.Â
Bucky takes the bags from the cashier and leads the two of you out of the gift shop.
âI have to go up and change into my trunks. I can set your stuff in your room for you while Iâm up there, if you want,â he offers.
You dig your extra key card out of your bag and hand it to Bucky. He disappears behind the elevator doors. Just as youâre about to take a seat, you see Sam and Steve. They catch your eye and make their way over to you.Â
Once you see them up close, you notice that Samâs swim trunks are identical to the ones Bucky had been wearing yesterday.
âAre those Buckyâs swim trunks?âÂ
âI may have forgotten to pack my own. And Steve wouldnât let me take his. Bucky wasnât in his room last night, as Iâm sure you know,â he finds his joke hilarious and lets out a laugh, âso I went into his room and took them,â he shrugs as if itâs no big deal. As if, by a chain reaction, it hadnât led to you on your knees for Bucky in a public place just ten minutes ago.Â
âEw, Sam,â your face scrunches up in disgust, âThatâs gross.â
âDonât worry! Iâm wearing underwear with them!âÂ
Steve chooses now to speak up, âAs much as Iâm sure sheâd love to hear about your underwear, Sam,â he tells his friend sarcastically, âwhere is Bucky?â he turns to you.
âHe went upstairs to change into the new trunks he just bought,â you eye Sam, âbecause he couldnât find his.â
As if on cue, Bucky appears, wearing his new trunks and the Hawaiian t-shirt he just bought. You notice heâs also holding your new shirt.
âYou asshole,â he furrows his brows at Sam, âAre those my trunks? Thatâs gross, man. I had those on yesterday.âÂ
âDonât worry,â you interject, âheâs got underwear on.â
Bucky gives you a confused look, probably wondering how you know that, and you, Steve, and Sam laugh.Â
Bucky returns his attention to Sam, âGive me back the key card to my room,â he holds out a hand expectantly.
âTold you, you never shouldâve given it to him,â Steve says.
âHey!â Sam turns on the blonde, âYou helped me take all his towels!â He reaches into his - Buckyâs - pockets and hands over a key card.
âPunks,â Bucky mutters, grabbing his room key back.
âDo you guys wanna come to the beach with us?â you offer.
âWe actually just left the beach,â Steve answers, âThanks, though.â
âGood,â Bucky takes your hand and leads you away from his friends, âSee you later!â Steve and Sam laugh as Bucky leads you away.Â
âWere they bothering you?â he looks over at you.
âNo, Bucky, you donât have to worry so much. Sam made another comment about you not going back to your room last night, but it doesnât bother me. I like them. I think theyâre just trying to embarrass you in front of me.â
âYou can say that again,â Bucky mutters. âOh, hey,â he holds up the shirt youâd forgotten he was holding, âI just thought maybe, um,â you find it adorable that the man who was just fucking your face in a public place now seems so shy, âmaybe you could wear your shirt too and we could match.â
âAw,â you smile up at him and take the shirt, âsure, Buck.â You throw the shirt on over your white tank top.Â
You grab two beach towels and stuff them in your bag before stepping out of the resort. You and Bucky make your way to the beach, fingers interlaced. When you pick out a good enough spot, you and Bucky lay out your beach towels and strip down to your swim suits. You make your way to the waterâs edge.Â
âYou cominâ or what?â you throw over your shoulder with a smirk.Â
âYeah, sweetheart,â he gives you a mischievous grin, âJust enjoying the view.â His eyes flit down to your ass and you scoff.
You do your best to refrain from smiling as you give him a mock-offended look. He makes his way over to you and you splash him with ocean water when he gets close enough. He laughs for a minute but then his expression turns more serious.
âRemember what I said about being good today, doll?â he steps closer to you and leans down to whisper in your ear, water dripping from his hair. âIf you wanna come, that is,â he pulls away, smirk upon his lips.
You blush and turn away. The refreshing salt water surrounds you and makes you feel as light as a feather. Itâs as if each wave is chipping away at the weight on your shoulders.
You look at Bucky, whoâs busy watching a ship in the distance. His blue eyes are the same color as the ocean. Heâs got a slight smile on his face and you think that he looks as content as youâve been feeling ever since you got here. The water comes up to his swim trunks, but leaves you an unblocked view of his abs and pecs. Water droplets run down his sculpted body and youâre suddenly ultra-aware of the fact that your core is in desperate need of attention.Â
âHeads up!â you hear a familiar voice call out from behind you.
You turn and before you know whatâs happening, Bucky is diving in front of you, landing in the water with a splash. He emerges holding a football.Â
âSam, watch out! You almost hit her!â he scolds his friend, whoâs standing in the sand with Steve.
âI was aiming for you, if that makes it better,â he grimaces and apologizes to you.
âHard to believe you were the best marksman in our troop,â Bucky scoffs and shakes his head.
âGet the ball!â Steve yells before rushing into the water, Sam following behind him.
Steve makes a beeline to Bucky, who starts running in the opposite direction. Bucky loses his footing in the waist-deep water and Steve catches up to him. The large blond dives at Bucky, arms outstretched, and tackles him into the water. Sam isnât far behind and jumps on top of both of them. You hear curses and gasps for breath as they just about drown each other. You watch, laughing to yourself at the three idiots.Â
Steve emerges from the pile, holding the football victoriously over his head. Bucky and Sam steady themselves, catching their breath. Your giggling is cut short when Steve tosses the ball to you. You catch it out of habit and freeze when you see the look on the guysâ faces.Â
âOh, shit,â you mutter.
âBetter run, darlinâ,â Bucky gives you a boyish grin.Â
You turn and do your best to run, smile on your face growing as you surprisingly manage to keep some distance between you and the men chasing you - Bucky leading the pack. A smile spreads across your face, flashbacks of playing football with your cousins on Thanksgiving playing through your mind. One year, one of your cousins had broken his arm - he had landed on it wrong after being tackled. After that, your parents made you stick to playing two-hand tap.Â
âSlow pokes,â you tease the boys.Â
âOh, doll,â you look over your shoulder to see Bucky gaining on you, âyou know I was letting you get away, right?â
You let out a shriek as you suddenly feel Buckyâs hands on your hips. Your grip tightens on the ball as his long fingers easily span your waist.
âSorry, babe, part of the game,â he gives you a look of false sympathy before wrapping his arms around your hips and gently tackling you into the water.
You can tell heâs trying hard to control himself, making sure he doesnât accidentally hurt you. Bucky lets go of you quickly, letting you stand from the water just as fast as you went under.Â
âThatâs okay, Barnes,â you give him a cocky grin, âI still got the ball,â you wave it in your hand.
He gives you a smile and holds your chin up with his hand. He leans down and connects his lips to yours. You donât even have a chance to worry about whether or not anyone is witnessing his display of PDA because heâs suddenly ripped away from you.Â
Bucky lets out a loud oomph as Samâs shoulder collides with his torso, effectively knocking the wind out of him. Bucky is surprised by the attack, but manages to overpower Sam rather quickly as you and Steve watch in amusement. Bucky gets Sam in a headlock and you canât help but stare at the way his bicep bulges as he flexes it. You feel a pulse in your core when you think about Buckyâs arm wrapped around your own neck like that.Â
âSay Iâm the best,â Bucky taunts.
âDick,â Sam struggles in Buckyâs grasp, but his efforts are futile.Â
âCome on, punk,â Bucky chuckles.Â
âFine,â Sam admits defeat. âYouâre the best.â
Bucky drops his arm and Sam stands, muttering curses.
Bucky makes his way over to you and plucks the ball from your fingers.
âThought you guys werenât gonna come,â he tosses the ball back and forth between his hands.
âWe got bored,â Steve shrugs. âWhy? Did we interrupt something?â he teases.
âHaha,â you laugh sarcastically and roll your eyes.
The next couple of hours are spent playing football - you get revenge on Bucky with your own tackle - and talking with your new friends. At one point when Sam is arguing with Steve and Bucky about whether youâre currently in the pacific or the atlantic ocean - Steve and Bucky are right - you decide to take a break from the water and lay on the beach to tan.
You straighten out your towel and lay back on your elbows. You find that you canât take your eyes off of Bucky. You smile to yourself as you watch his brows furrow in utter disbelief and frustration at his friend - you idiot, do you know anything about geography?.
Youâve only known Bucky for three days and youâre scared of how strong your feelings are for him. Maybe itâs the fact that he makes you feel safe, maybe itâs the way he listens so intently anytime you talk, maybe itâs the way he and his friends have gladly taken you in when you were desperate for companionship, and maybe itâs just the amazing sex, but something has you falling nearly head over heels for this man you hardly know. And that scares you. You havenât felt anything like this since Brock - and even that had been different. You really hope Bucky feels the same at least a little bit.
âHey, sweetheart,â Buckyâs honeyed comes from above you.
âHey, Buck,â you look up at him, lifting your hand to block the sun.
He gives you an affectionate smile and chuckles at your squinted expression.
âSo I was thinking,â he starts, âyou said you wanted to go snorkeling. I thought maybe we could go together? I called this place nearby earlier and theyâve got room for us both today.â
Your eyes widen in excitement, âOh my gosh, Bucky!â you revel in the grin your squeal draws from him. âThat sounds perfect!â
âOkay, cool,â Bucky offers you a hand to help you up. âYou wanna go grab a little something to eat before we head out?â
You nod and take his hand. The two of you get dressed and pack up your stuff. You say goodbye to Steve and Sam and leave them on the beach as you make your way back to the resort with Bucky, his arm slung over your shoulder. You and Bucky grab a small snack from the store in the resort, not wanting to fill up before snorkeling. Bucky arranges for a taxi and when it arrives, he opens the door for you and climbs in next to you.Â
Once you reach the snorkeling place, a little hut on the beach, Bucky leads you inside. He makes his way to the counter and gives the worker his name. You feel a twinge of guilt when he reaches for his wallet to pay for the both of you. You tug on his arm and look up to him hesitantly.Â
âDonât worry about it,â he places a kiss on your forehead before turning back to the receptionist.Â
The woman at the counter gives you and Bucky an overview of what will happen - you will go out back to the dock and get your gear while you wait for the rest of the people in your group to show up before boarding the boat.Â
Bucky thanks the lady and guides you outside with a hand on your lower back. Youâre greeted by a couple of guys who look like they could be younger than you. They get you and Bucky situated with a snorkel, mask, and fins. You and Bucky put your clothes in your bag, leaving you clad in swimwear, before putting the bag in a locker for safe keeping.Â
Eventually, the rest of your group shows up - a married couple and their two children - and the workers hand out their gear. Once everyone is ready, they board everyone onto the boat and wave goodbye, returning to the deck as the captain makes his way over to greet you.
âGood afternoon, everyone!â the man smiles brightly. âMy name is Koa and I will be your guide today.â He goes over the rules and procedures for the trip.
After his run down, he unties the boat from the dock and makes his way to the captainâs chair. You and Bucky take a seat on one of the padded benches on the side of the boat and he places a hand on your thigh. You take in the gorgeous scenery as the boatâs motor hums and takes you into the clear, blue water. After about five minutes, the boat stops and Koa drops the anchor.Â
Youâre not far away from shore, the water is calm and shallow. Koa reminds everyone of the rules and makes sure they know how to properly use their gear. He tells you about the marine life youâll see and points out what you should keep an eye out for.
âYou guys are all set to explore,â he tells the group, âIâll be here watching you guys if you need me. And remember, donât stray too far from the boat.â
With that, everyone stands from their seats. The kids excitedly clamber down the ladder into the water, their mom rushing behind them yelling for them to slow down. The dad follows behind, shaking his head and smiling. Bucky goes in front of you and makes his way into the water. Once in, he reaches a hand out to hold your waist, steadying you as you climb down.Â
For the most part, you and Bucky stay on one side of the boat and the family stays on the other. You see a lot of colorful fish and excitedly jab Buckyâs side to get his attention when you see a pufferfish. You swim around the area, staying close to Bucky most of the time. You make sure to keep near the boat and you ask Koa questions about the fish every so often. Once everyone has finished looking around the area and observing the wildlife, Koa calls everyone to climb back on so you can head toward the next snorkeling area.Â
Once back on the boat, the kids excitedly chatter nonstop, jumping up and down as they talk about all the things they saw. You notice Buckyâs small smirk as he watches the children. He looks over to you and his face visibly heats when he notices heâd been caught. You use your thumb to wipe away a drop of water running down the side of his face. Bucky gently takes your hand and presses a kiss to it before holding it between his own in his lap. Thankfully, he turns to look into the water, so he doesnât see the smile you subconsciously let spread across your lips at the feeling of your hand in his own.Â
Koa anchors the boat near a coral reef when the boat stops for the second time. He explains that Hawaiian coral reefs house thousands of different kinds of creatures and algae.
âThe water is deeper here,â he warns, âand we must be careful not to disturb the coral. We cannot get too close to the reefs, so I ask that you view them from a distance of several feet.âÂ
After his speech, everyone makes their way into the water again. The brief chill the water provides is a welcomed reprieve from the blazing sun, though you couldnât have asked for more perfect weather. Bucky makes his way toward the reef and you follow him. You and Bucky swim around and observe the reef in awe, watching the way the plants flow with the water and seeing all the invertebrates crawl around in the sand.Â
When you come back to the surface, you make conversation with the little kids as you wait for Bucky to finish exploring.
When Bucky emerges from the water, he shouts over to you and the rest of the group, âHey guys, thereâs a sea turtle over here!â
The kids scramble to swim over to where Buckyâs pointing, you and their parents following behind. Bucky warns the kids not to get too close so that they donât scare the turtle away. Koa tells the group that Hawaiian sea turtles can weigh as much as 500 pounds. After everyone has seen the turtle, thankfully it didnât get scared off, you all clamber back onto the boat.
âThe snorkeling part of the tour is over, but Iâll continue the boat tour before we make our way back to shore,â Koa informs everyone.
You and Bucky get settled in on the bench, sitting opposite the rest of the group. He puts his arm around your shoulders and holds you into him. Koa tells you different fun facts about the island and the wild life. He takes you past different coves and beaches, laughing at his own terrible dad jokes frequently.
âThis is stunning,â you almost whisper as you pass ginormous mountains and lush trees.Â
âYeah, doll,â Bucky replies, âIt is.â
You turn to find him already looking at you. He places a finger under your chin and presses a kiss to your lips. You smile at him before returning your attention to the majestic blue of the ocean and realize that itâs the same color as Buckyâs eyes.Â
All too soon, Koa is docking the boat and wishing everyone an amazing rest of their vacation. Once you and Bucky are off the boat, you grab your bag and dry off before getting dressed. Bucky calls for a taxi and soon enough youâre back at the hotel. Bucky walks you to your room.
âI think Iâm gonna take a shower real quick,â you tell Bucky. âWould you- um, would you wanna join me?â youâre feeling bold, possibly because youâre still feeling the effects of what happened in the dressing room and youâre desperate for some release.Â
Bucky must be able to tell how horny you are because he gives you a knowing grin, âDoll, I would love to, but I promised Sam and Steve that I would meet them at the bar after we got done,â he gives you a sad smile, âDonât get me wrong, I love spending time with you, but I want to make sure Iâm still hanging out with them, you know?â
âOh my gosh, Bucky, yeah. Iâm sorry, youâre totally right.â
âHey, darling,â Bucky makes eye contact with you, âDonât apologize. If it was up to me Iâd spend the rest of my vacation with just you. But hey, how about you come find us at the bar after your shower?â
âDeal. Only if youâll let me buy you a drink, though,â you challenge.
âDoll, you know thatâs not happening.â Bucky leans down until his mouth is level with your ear, âAnd donât think about touching that pretty little pussy of yours if you want me to reward you tonight.â
Your mouth drops at the sudden warning. Bucky gives you a cocky grin in response to your reddened face.Â
âCome down when youâre done, and leave your wallet,â with that, he turns and walks away, leaving you flustered and horny.Â
You try not to think about the way that Bucky had eaten you out like a starving man last night and how he had used you to chase his own release earlier while you take a cold shower. You put on some shorts and your new Hawaiian shirt before making your way downstairs.
When you step outside, you glance around the bar area, searching for Bucky and his friends. You see Steve and Sam talking to each other at one end of the bar, but Bucky isnât with them. After another scan, you find him. Heâs leaning up against the bar with his back to you, but heâs not by his friends. Heâs next to a gorgeous woman in a bikini. You falter for a second when you see Bucky turn to her, talking with a smile on his face. Theyâre clearly in the middle of a conversation. You stop in your tracks when Bucky buys a beer and hands it to the woman. He laughs at something she said and you turn away.Â
What the fuck?
Itâs not like you two were exlcusive or anything, hell youâd only known each other for two days. You probably donât have any right to feel jealous, but regardless, you feel a pang in your gut. His dick had just been in your mouth hours ago and now heâs buying drinks for someone who could be a supermodel?
You hold back your tears as you make your way back inside, heading for the indoor bar.
How could you be so stupid. Of course the connection wasnât real. He was just using you to get his dick wet, and you had let him.Â
You take a seat at the bar and order a double shot of whiskey, good thing you did end up bringing your wallet. You mentally scold yourself for believing there was ever a connection between you and Bucky as you down your drink. You order a second one and think about what youâll do if he tries to talk to you again. If he tries to fuck you again. You wonât let him back in your pants, thatâs for sure. You wonder if heâs looking at that woman like sheâs the most important thing in the world, the way he had looked at you.
You donât understand how guys manage to put on such a convincing gentleman act just to get laid. He had you fooled with his I donât usually do this speech this morning. Part of you wants to believe that he hadnât bought you stuff and opened doors for you just to get you to sleep with him, but you know better deep down. Why would anyone be interested in you like that? Brock had made it clear that you werenât anything worth holding on to. You sometimes wish you arenât as trusting as you are, itâs not the first time youâve been hurt because of it.
You down the second drink and resign yourself to spending the next three days alone before heading home. Youâve got plenty of experience with being alone, though.
part three!
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The Thief (One-Shot)
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Summary: Youâve always been quite the troublemaker. And pickpocketing was your favourite pastime. However you hadnât noticed the bearded man watching you, until it was too late. Whatever will he do with you?
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Paring: Walter Marshall x Fem. Reader
Warnings: MDNI, 18+, reader is a thief, being caught, cursing, degrading words, abuse of authority, but reader is enthusiastic about it, enthusiastic consent given, rough sex, p in v
Word count: 2.9K
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A/N: That scenario has been stuck in my head for some time, so I thought Iâd put it into writing. As always any mistakes are my own. Reblogs and comments are much appreciated! Thank you and enjoy!â€ïžâš
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Your fingers felt like they would fall off any second now. It was freezing and still, you had purposefully neglected to wear gloves. Why?
Simple, you were lighter fingered when your hands werenât encased in any sort of fabric. Though right now you wondered if it had been a mistake, since the feeling in your hands had been gone for about an hour.
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You had underestimated the cold front the weather guy had talked about, especially because it was only October.
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Standing to side of the crowd, you watched possible targets go about their day, buying things on the farmers market. Completely unaware of your eagle eyes, keeping track of, where they put their wallets.
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You knew, it was a bit risky pickpocketing right here, because the police had doubled their efforts, since an awful lot of civilians had reported their stolen money or missing wallets in the past few month. So to placid them, they had promised to update the security in the area.
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Though you hadnât seen said âupdated securityâ, you were aware of the possibility of undercover cops. But that did next to nothing to dissuade you from your weekly shopping spree. Normally you didnât keep watch that long, but you had hoped maybe the cop would show themselves. Hence the delay.
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Though they didnât reveal themselves.
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And you didnât want to wait much longer to relive someone, of the awful burden of carrying so much money around, because your fingers would truly fall off soon. Thatâs why your eyes were set on your final target.
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A middle aged woman, whose attire looked so expensive and out of place, you were convinced she had some money to spare.
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Before reconsidering and risk being exposed to the cold any longer, you made your move. Diving into the crowd, carefully trailing the woman with the red handbag, in which you knew her matching red wallet was uncaringly stuffed into, after her last purchase.
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It was nearly too easy, as she stopped again, leaning forward to inspect the goods more closely, making her bag move backwards and an even simpler target for you. She didnât even notice, how close youâd gotten, let alone when your hand had slipped into her bag, swiftly removing her wallet. As quickly as you could you opened it and removed the money, stuffing it into your coatâs pocket, before putting her wallet back into the handbag.
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To prevent making anyone suspicious, you too leaned over the goods for a few seconds, as if you were inspecting them as well. Next you politely smiled at the vendor and then moved away, slithering through the mass of people. Escaping. Or so you thought.
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You hadnât even reached the spot from where you had kept watch, when someone rather rudely crashed into you from behind, grabbing your arm. Exasperated at their behaviour you tried to twist around, though it was in vain, with the iron clad grip they had on you, so you just struggled, cursing under your breath, âWhat the fuckâŠlet me go! This instant!â
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Whoever was behind you, only tightened their grip further, chuckling lowly, âOh I donât think so, hon.â
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Still struggling in the hold, you slightly panicked because the man really didnât let go at all, hissing you threatened him, âLet go you arsehole, or Iâll scream! Then you have to explain yourself to the fucking police!!â
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He didnât have any difficulty keeping his hold on you, despite you trying to wrestle yourself free. Suddenly he was even closer, sturdy body pressed against yours, as his warm breath tickled your ear, âAww is that an invitation? Because as a matter of fact, I am the police.â
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You ceased your fighting instantly. Shit. Now you really panicked. What would he do? He most certainly had caught you redhandedly. Your body couldnât decide if it was overheating or ice cold, switching between the two sensations as if your panicked state wasnât enough to deal with already.
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âMmmh, not so feisty anymore, are we now, you little thief?â
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Crap his deep voice and mocking manner, made heated waves roll through your body, apparently it had settled on confused arousal, you cursed quietly.
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âWhat was that? Cursing at a police officer is just as a serious offense as stealing, you know.â
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You didnât know what to do, you just went slack in his hold, submitting to the muscled man behind you.
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âThatâs what I thought,â he taunted you further.
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At last he set into motion, taking you with him, gliding through the crowd and further to a police car parked in an alley. Only once heâd pushed you into the backseat, slamming the door shut, reality hit you again.
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You had been caught. Now sitting in a police car, probably soon on the way to the nearest precinct. You didnât even know what would happen next. Could they throw you in prison for this? Would there be a hearing? Damn it, you never had to think about the consequences beforeâŠ
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The front door opened and he entered, distracting you for a second, as your eyes roved over his form. Great, not only did he have an alluring voice, he also had to be extremely attractive. His clear blue eyes met yours, grinning in triumph, âYou have any idea, how much trouble youâve caused us?â
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You didnât know what made you so bold, as you cheekily replied, âIâm terribly sorry officer, but I just canât help myself. Always been a trouble maker.â
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He buckled his seat belt, turning to the front again, shaking his head, mumbling, âBet you are.â
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As you finally arrived at the precinct, it was dark outside. Apparently he hadnât driven to the nearest one. He opened the back door of the car once more. Immediately steel grip on you, pinning your arms uncomfortably behind your back, as he manoeuvred you to the door leading into the police station.
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It was eerily quiet inside. You didnât see anyone, as you turned your head left and right.
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Then another officer came into view.
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âAh hey there, Marshall! Finally, was just about to leave.â
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âBennet, you know you canât leave, if no oneâs here, right?â, Marshall answered, clearly annoyed by that Bennet guy.
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âYeah, yeah I know. Sooo, whose that?â, Bennet nodded to you.
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âNone of your business. Just go home.â
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Bennet quickly shuffled out of the way, as Marshall and you passed him. You two went around a corner, away from the desks through a never ending corridor. Glaringly white light beaming down on you, making your eyes burn after the prolonged darkness in the car.
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The station was bigger than you thought itâd be, as you turned another corner. Though here he finally stopped, in front of a small cell. You heard the jiggling of the keys, then he unlocked the door, letting go of you and pushing you inside as he entered as well.
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You turned around, suppressing a shiver when he crossed his arms, towering over you.
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âCome here.â
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You ignored his command, shaking your head.
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He sighed, approaching you,â Hon, this is standard procedure. Iâve got to pet you down, make sure youâve got nothing dangerous on you.â
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You froze, when your back hit the wall. You werenât afraid. Actually quite the opposite, you were exited at the prospect of this gorgeous man petting you down. Letting his big hands glide up and down your body.
But you were determined to not let, him, know that. And you were convinced if he came any closer heâd know.
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But you were trapped. He came to a stop in front of you. Concerned heâd furrowed his dark brows, âMay I?â
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Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
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Youâd let him do anything, if he looked at you like that. Not trusting your voice you nodded.
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He squatted down, warm hands settling on your calves, slowly moving up. Your eyes widened when you saw the burning desire you felt, mirrored in his ocean ones.
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Not able to conceal your excitement, you automatically widened you stance, as his hands moved beyond your knees. Thumbs stroking over your inner thighs teasingly, making you pant loudly.
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His amusement was crystal clear with the way he smirked up at you, âAlready getting exited, you little thief?â
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You whimpered pathetically as his right hand was now dangerously close to your pulsing centre. Closing your eyes in anticipation, your breath hitched in surprise, when heâd suddenly stood up. Bearded face in front of yours, making your eyes fly open again.
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He cupped your chin, tilting your head back a little, whispering, âAre you sure, you want this?â
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âYes,â you breathed back.
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âI need you to be absolutely sure you want this just as much as I want this.â Blue eyes serious and flitting between yours.
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You were touched by his gentleness, and quite relieved he made sure, you were on board with this. To wipe any doubts from his mind, you pressed your lips against his. Starting to kiss him fiercely.
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He was a bit taken aback by your initiative, but only for a second, before he moved against your soft lips. His pink tongue begging for entrance, which you immediately granted. Deepening the kiss. When you pulled away, both of you panted, taking in the much needed oxygen.
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Heâd leaned his forehand against yours, growling softly when your swift fingers started to unbuckle his belt. Not able to hold back, you let them slide into his boxers, gasping when you felt how big he was. You couldnât even close your hand around his shaft, though you began pumping him anyway, making his hips buck forward.
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âFu-uck, youâre really good with your hands arenât you, hon?â
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âWhat can I say, if I see something I like, I need to have it, Mr. Marshall.â
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All the while your hand had moved back and forth on his hard rod, freeing him, as youâd pushed his pants and boxers down to his meaty thighs. It made him grunt loudly. His hands curling around your hips, then advancing toward the fly of your jeans, pulling your sipper down.
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âLetâs see how wet you are for me, honey.â
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And sure enough two long fingers dipped into your panties, feeling around your dripping walls, until he found your wet centre and plunged into your pussy.
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Moaning wantonly you nearly let go of his cock, when his perfect fingers curled and pressed into your sweet spot.
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âArgh, yeah right there.â
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âThought so, youâre clenching around me like crazy. Canât wait to feel your tight, little snatch around my cock.â
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You tried to reciprocate, moving your hand up and down, but it was impossible with the way his fingers sped up, carefully scissoring you open.
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But he didnât seem to care, enjoying how loud he could make you moan for him. As he pulled his fingers out, you mewled, unhappy at the sudden emptiness.
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He cooed,â Aww darling donât worry youâll feel full again in a second.â
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With that he pulled down your jeans and panties, only than noticing that he couldnât remove them completely, because of your boots. Huffing annoyed, he didnât even wait to pull off the boots. Instead he hauled you onto the small bed in the corner, lifting your legs and pushing your ankles down beside your head.
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The new position had exposed you so entirely that you whimpered in embarrassment. He didnât care though, burning gaze fixed on our soaking wet pussy, unconsciously liking over his lips, at the mouth-watering sight of you spread out, below him.
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He quickly reached for his painfully throbbing cock, wanting nothing more than to bury it in your tight cavern. He rubbed the head between your sopping folds, collecting your juices to make the entrance smoother.
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âYou ready?â
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Your nod was all he needed, as he began pushing against your hole. Slowly spreading you around his fat cockhead, before pushing further and further inside. Your breathing was shallow, as the monstrosity entered you.
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He had the audacity to laugh, âWell hon, you said you needed to have the things you liked. And Iâm simply giving them to you, arenât I?â
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Just then he finally bottomed out, making you whimper and him moan lowly.
His large firm hands rested on your calves, making sure they and you would stay in the position heâd put you in. Panting he smiled down at you, âSo pretty for me. Have to start moving, your cunt is to fucking tight.â
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Blazing blue eyes focused on your slit engulfing his cock, as he agonizingly slow moved back. He grunted when he pushed his hips forward, forcing his entire length back inside. Stretching your cunt, filling your body thoroughly once more.
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âQuicker. Please M-Mr. Marshall, need moreâŠâ
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He groaned, âSuch a needy thing. But I expected nothing less off a little thief.â
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You wanted to curse at him, but all that left you was another mewl, as he continued his slow, slow pace.
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âMaybe if you beg again, honey. But this time, address me as Walter. After all Iâm not your boss.â
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Fully sheathed inside you, it was extremely hard to string together any sentence, but you tired your best, as you needed him to pick up his pace.
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âPl-please Walter⊠quicker, harder. Fuck me as hard as you canâŠplease.â
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âWhat a dangerous thing to say, honey. But your wish is my command,â he winked at you.
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Walter finally pulled back, delivering a hard and heavy thrust, making you cry out, at the shocking wave of pleasure wracking your body.
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Your fingers dug into the mattress, holding on for dear life, as he began hammering away. Rutting into you so violently, he smacked against your clit with ever thrust. Pulling a blinding, toe-curling orgasm from you.
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Heâd stopped moving for a bit, grinding his hips into yours, prolonging your orgasm. Walter made a low guttural sound, before picking up his pace once more.
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Yelping as he ploughed away at your weeping pussy, he kept your legs pressed against your chest.
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âNot nearly done with you yet, honey,â he panted.
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One moan after the other was pulled from your lungs as your poor cunt didnât have any time to recover and was just thrown into immediate pleasure again, as his massive cock made its way in and out of your body.
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âHnnmâŠpl-please. Wa-alter,â you squeaked.
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Walter growled and picked up the pace even more. He pulled out completely, before driving home with every single thrust.
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âCl-close. Iâm so close, honey.â
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He kept slamming into your body, as you egged him on, âYeah⊠please fill me up, Walter!!â
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Thatâs what tipped him over the edge, taking you with him as your second orgasm was pulled from your exhausted body, feeling his seed entering you. Cock pulsing inside you, as a last deep moan left his lips.
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Then he stilled, locking eyes with you, âFuck⊠that was amazing, hon.â
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Blinking up at him, you smiled, sighing when he slipped out, warm dripples of his and your residue running down. Walter let go of your legs. Wanting to protest as he pulled your panties and jeans back up, even though you were still dripping his cum.
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He hushed you, âAh, ah, ah. A little punishment is due donât you think? Keeping my seed inside till youâre home is the least you could do, when I let you off with a warning, isnât it, you little thief?â
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You nodded, smirking at his decision, while he buckled his belt.
Then he added,â Though you obviously have to give me the money.â
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Damn it, you had hoped heâd forgotten about that. But his outstretched hand said otherwise, so you pulled the money from your coat pocked and handed it over disgruntledly.
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âThatâs a good girl. Thank you,â he teased as he put it into his back pocket.
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He turned around, opening the cell and letting you out, leading you back through the corridor you had come from with his hand touching your lower back.
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When you arrived at the front room of the precinct it was completely deserted. He surprised you with the searing kiss he bestowed upon your lips.
When Walter pulled back, his blue eyes seemed to sparkle, âI really enjoyed that. All of it. Maybe next time, youâll be here, itâs not because you committed a crime, yeah?â
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âCanât make any promises, but Iâm sure our paths will cross again.â
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Then you slipped out the door, vanishing into the night, but not without releasing a gleeful laugh as your fist closed around the money in victory.
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Unbeknownst to Walter, you had stolen it right back during the kiss.
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The minute you were gone he had noticed the missing money, roaring, âFuck! You little minx! Get back here!!â Running out the door himself.
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Walter could have sworn he heard you giggle in the distance, as he set out to chase after you.
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