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Do you think the anti Percabeth people hate Fierrochase (why the fuck did my autocorrect recognize that as a word) too?
Like decapitating your boyfriend before you're even dating is arguably worse than using him as bait in a MORE OR LESS SAFE CAMP ACTIVITY or JUDO FLIPPING HIM WHICH IS PROBABLY A NORMAL DISPLAY OF AFFECTION FOR CHB WHILE UNDER THE ASSUMPTION THAT HE'S STILL FUNCTIONALLY INDESTRUCTIBLE
#wolffox speaks#Is it obvious I dont like Anti percabeth people?#The want to tag this under anti percabeth just to cause chaos (also to get an answer but mostly chaos)#magnus chase and the gods of asgard#percy jackson and the olympians spoilers#pjo#mcga#percabeth#fierrochase#I know reddit hates Alex and Fierrochase but what about tumblr?#Magnus chase x Alex Fierro#Annabeth chase x Percy Jackson#I have a specific ao3 account in mind while thinking about this but i'm not saying the user#So i'm just#*Vaguely glaring in their direction*#How the fuck do you manage to call Annabeth controlling & abusive & then proceed to accidentally make Apollo controlling and overprotective
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I hate my little sister because with my limited time on earth, I enlighten her with cool science facts and Batman and she tells me what Hobama is.
#Lil mf#And she has a secret tumblr#And won't tell me what it is#But she knows mine#So I'm just#Stuck here#Personal#About me
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I just finished Season 1 of Dungeons and Daddies, and I made it all the way through the final episode without crying- that is, until they ended it with saying who they played in the style of the intro. Now I'm sobbing
#and i don't know a SINGLE OTHER PERSON who's listened to this podcast#so i'm just#augh#wait the end credit scene just started hang on#LARK DID WHAT NOW#WHAT IS HAPPENING#OH FUCK#WHAT#ANTHONY WHAT HAVE YOU DONE#I'M FLOORED HOLY SHIT#okay time to start season two IMMEDIATELY#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndads odyssey
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who exactly are the hei feizi in sand sea part IV?
i refuse to be the only one responsible for this being posted publicly so i’m co-blaming @tiesanjiaoshenanigans (✨)
disclaimer as always i’ve only read things in their entirety up through and including Sand Sea as far as the main installments of the story are concerned, so if anything in later canon pops up to debunk this you never saw anything 🏃♀️
that being said let's get into it
this isn’t really meta because it’s more me questioning my reading comprehension after getting through part IV of Sand Sea than anything else. i’ve seen the hei feizi or 黑飞子 (lit. “flying black thing”) mentioned from time to time, and every single time it’s been to refer to the specific phenomenon of people whose body is taken possession of by the black-haired sunbeam snakes (or cat snakes) that play a key role in the story of Sand Sea. the dmbj wiki, sparse as it is, also has an article dedicated to the hei feizi that explicitly states that those snake parasitized people are what hei feizi are
i realize this is going to be a very bold take considering all of that and you’re starting to see why i’m questioning my basic reading comprehension skills at this point, but fresh off of finishing Sand Sea, i’m left deeply confused because that isn’t at all the takeaway i got from part IV of what the hei feizi are. so, for the sake of Figuring Shit Out, and because we love sources, let’s take a look at all the times hei feizi are mentioned in Sand Sea Part IV, and let me try and suggest that hei feizi doesn’t refer to black-haired snake parasitized people at all
we start off with these very first mentions in chapter 201 (merebear’s edition) of Sand Sea and onward wherein che zong, one of the men wu xie hires to come with him to investigate what turns out to be a snake mine in the wilderness of ningxia, and who also happens to be one of the last people wu laogou taught dog training to, calls a hei feizi by name
(side note, i’m aware all the quotes say his name is che zhong, but the characters are 车总, the last one pronounced zong, so unless the chinese text has a repeated typo or there’s an alternate pronunciation of the character i’m not aware of, the translation is the one with the typo. since his name is consistent in the original i’ll be calling him che zong)
che zong reacts like this to a figure he and wu xie see in the dark as they make their way towards a neighboring village to seek medical help for their wounds sustained during their ill-fated trip in the mine and against the longzhi. xiaomange, the dog che zong trained according to wu laogou’s wishes in order to give him to wu xie, also reacts aggressively to the figure and barks at it even as it disappears into the trees. so far, nothing conclusive besides the fact that che zong is deeply terrified by whatever this hei feizi is, so much so that wu xie is a little concerned given he didn’t react nearly this strongly to a creature that was supposed to be almost unkillable
when pressed, che zong states that hei feizi “isn’t a thing, it’s a person”, which while it does cast potential doubt on it being a monster, doesn’t technically contradict the idea that he’s referring to snake-parasitized people specifically, especially given both how terrified he is and that arguably that’s exactly what they’re being chased by
wu xie then recalls the story wu laogou told him of the hei feizi under a different name, and how they were some sort of oppressive and elusive legend among tomb robbers who felt watched. you do get the impression wu xie seems to be talking about some kind of tomb creature, and all it really tells us is that hei feizi are elusive and kind of creepy, which bao sa (the man who’s dead and zombified by the black-haired snake) arguably is at this point
here he is being a creepy Very Dead zombie man
so far so good
however this is where in my opinion the “hei feizi are snake-parasitized people” interpretation starts getting derailed. we’ve skipped ahead here to when wu xie and che zong, who to be fair seem really sus to the local villagers (who unfortunately get to witness a horror movie in real time), get dragged to their village hall by force in the middle of the night, and are faced with a dead bao sa controlled by black-haired snakes who really want into wu xie’s body because apparently he’s snake catnip. when wu xie refers to bao sa as a hei feizi (note he uses 它 ta which really is "it", the third person pronoun for non-human things, in the original text), che zong corrects him and tells him that bao sa isn’t a hei feizi, or more specifically that he was but no longer is one technically. the exact sentence in chinese is as follows:
这不是黑飞子,不,这是黑飞子,不,现在已经不是黑飞子了
note that che zong never uses 它 ta or “it”, and what he says more exactly translate to:
this isn't a hei feizi, no, this is a hei feizi, no, now it’s already no longer a hei feizi
to put it simply, this sentence implies that bao sa was formerly a hei feizi, but in his present state is no longer one. in other words, that as a snake-parasitized dead thing, bao sa isn’t really a hei feizi proper, just a dead one
this is reinforced here when he says this a bit further, also implying that a live hei feizi is more dangerous than dead one taken over by snakes
we then get a second more in-depth explanation of what a hei feizi is meant to be, and che zong explains that because no one could actually catch sight of them properly in ancient or more distant times, the hei feizi were relegated to the category of elusive myth as humanoid monsters or ghosts. he also says that wu laogou, because he used dogs who had a superior sense of smell to rob tombs, was the first person in recent memory to seriously consider the idea that hei feizi were not in fact monsters, but rather were "human beings" or "very mysterious people"
che zong also seems to be saying that normally no one could detect a hei feizi was tracking them, or at the very least lay eyes on them, but on the rare occasion a hei feizi would mess up and reveal itself, whoever they were tracking would have to be eliminated because by having seen them, whoever they were tracking had already seen too much. and once again, wu laogou was the only person of his generation, and maybe even altogether, who because his dogs saved his life (likely helping him escape or outright killing the hei feizi) saw a hei feizi and survived
from there the evidence keeps pointing at the hei feizi being something not so much Other, but more something in some ways more sinister and dangerous. che zong says here that wu laogou, the only person in recent memory who’s seen a hei feizi, told him that “hei feizi are actually the same as us”, which doesn’t scream to me as meaning they’re supposed to be people taken over by snakes, but rather that he’s saying “hei feizi aren’t monsters, they’re people”. the fact they apparently have a “special smell” has implications that need a whole other post to get into but it definitely has Implications
we continue on and learn that wu laogou tentatively trained xiaomange to find hei feizi, an important trump card to have given that modern times and technology forced the hei feizi to change surveillance tactics, moving on from simply “monitoring people” in tombs to “entering tomb robbing circle”, that is to say essentially switching from lurking in the shadows to organized espionage and infiltration in broad daylight. which then culminates in a statement wu xie gives that’s so explicit it just makes me even more confused about how the “hei feizi are snake-parasitized people” conclusion happened:
"they must be part of the family opposing menyouping's family"
which besides being an explicit reference to the wang family, also ties this conclusion to bao sa, the man whose body the snakes took over, who even before he died and became the black-haired snakes’ puppet was strongly implied to be a wang who infiltrated wu xie’s team and tried to kill him
what i’m saying is that all this is slowly guiding the reader towards the realization that hei feizi are members of the wang family, not bodies taken over by snakes
adding to that this information here, it’s a conclusion that makes infinitely more sense given the context of Sand Sea Part IV in general, but more specifically how it re-situates what we learn of wu laogou’s apparent involvement in the wang family plot, since prior to this point, there’s no indication that wu laogou was ever involved with the wang family before the greatest joint tomb robbery in siguniang mountain. it neatly ties into the idea that becomes more and more apparent that wu laogou was actually involved with the wang family and had been on their shit list long before that event ever took place, before getting roped into jiuye's plan, and before wu sanxing and xie lianhuan's own inextricable involvement. this means that the wu family has had personal stakes in this conflict for far longer than wu xie had imagined, and both explains why wu laogou wanted his family out of the business so desperately, and why wu xie insists upon the fact that three generations of his family have been plagued by the wang family in Sand Sea Part II
hei feizi just being an alternate name for “It”/the wang family the older generations used also makes more sense considering these hei feizi never come up in Sand Sea elsewhere or in the story in general that i can tell, and if wu laogou knew that wu xie would have to inevitably confront the wang family given how entrenched the wu family is in this conflict, having a dog like xiaomange who could warn him of their presence and protect him is a trump card he would want his grandson to have
therefore if you understand that hei feizi actually refers to the wang family, then this last part here also makes more sense, as it infers that che zong is telling wu xie that he’s managed thus far to avoid pinging under the wang family’s radar, but that now they’ve clued into the fact he exists and is assisting wu xie, and in general seem to be trying to close in on wu xie
which taking all of this towards the end of Sand Sea Part IV into account, and considering how that part of Sand Sea ends, all culminates into turning this into the story of the very first time the wang family come out of the shadows and confront wu xie and his party directly instead of covertly watching his every move and guiding him in certain key directions from a distance
so the tldr; of this is that all of this in my opinion strongly points towards the hei feizi simply being another name for members of the wang family, or at least a certain subcategory of them, that the older generations used because they had no other name for what they perceived as a mysterious phenomena, but was actually just a group of people (who by the way are consistently presented throughout Sand Sea as having been trained in much the same ways and have much the same skills as the zhang family) who were extremely skilled at hiding in the shadows, and so i genuinely don’t understand why the apparent consensus that i can tell is that hei feizi is the name for people whose body gets taken over by black-haired snakes. that seems to be more an unfortunate by-product of bao sa dying and being easy prey for snakes who like to incubate their eggs in human flesh than anything
(if you wanted another argument, the wangs are also consistently described by li cu as being “black-clad”, and wu xie compares how xiaoge moves fast to a bat several times, and the wangs are also just as consistently paralleled with skills and abnormal competence that xiaoge and other zhangs have. if they’re skilled enough to end up looking like a “black flying” shadow to their targets then it’s not a weird name choice)
#dmbj#meta#dmbj meta#dmbj novels#hei feizi#sand sea#sha hai#considering even the wiki says the opposite of this i'm still half-convinced i just can't read#but it's also bugging me bc it seems obvious to me it's not that#and yet#i have hard time believing this wouldn't have come out before now?#so i'm just#putting this out there#the void can have it#at least this one's shorter than the other one thank fck
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#russ ballard#book of love#this is still my phone's lockscreen since earlier this spring#but just of russ standing there without the words#and i made it my lockscreen before i even listened to the album#because i just really liked the picture#and now it's my favorite album ever#so i'm just#not changing it#russ i will live in your life and your music and your world forever#and your love
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I have decided that actually I will not be trying to shill my work here I will simply vibe and post whenever I'm bothered
#samael ramble#I quit my studio anyway because of my shithead ex-boss#So I'm just#Trying to recover and rest for now#Overworking yourself while also being treated like shit constantly is not good for you#I'm severely burnt out but slowly getting things done#Home tattoo studio will be a thing at some point#But for now I super just need to sleep and doodle my sillies
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sometimes i am tempted to try and find science (specifically astrophysics) forums to talk on because I have such a genuinely love for it but just. Don't have the money to go to college for it and don't know if I'm willing to go into insane student debt for it. But then I get hit with the crippling fear that I won't be welcomed in those spaces because I don't actually know a lot since theres only so much I can learn through online articles and basic books from libraries.
I don't want to make a fool of myself and be any more discouraged from learning about things I love than I already am, but it can be so lonely being the only person I know that likes these kinds of things and I just want to talk about them. I want to have someone else info dump to me about them. I wanna have conversations.
#i don't know a lot but i WANT to learn#but i hate when people make me feel bad about wanting to learn#and i'm scared that's what is going to happen if i tried to join a forum of some kind#and i don't even know if such forums exist#but i wish they did#sorry guys just feeling a little sad and lonely over here don't mind me#my gf has 0 interest in this kind of stuff and i think my brother is actively afraid of space and i'm too shy to info dump to#most of my friends#so i'm just#sigh#vent#< adding that just in case#i'm just whinning a bunch its not that deep but idk maybe someone doesn't want to see it
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guess whoooooooooooo is the fucking idiot that checked the "yes i wore them" mark when i just tried on some shoes and now i can't return them
#i'm trying to look at the bright side because it can be an easy fix#as in they're tight because of the width of my foor and not the length#and there are some like home remedies for that but also there's a shoe repair shop near me#so i'm just#gonna take them there and hope they're ready before saturday#they're very cute and the best outcome would be them fitting#but i'm still mad at myself for it LMAO#not like i could've gotten a bigger size either they were the last one#and i was like oh sick that's my size! and it is but they're just a tad bit tight#anyways here's to hoping LMFAO#b.txt
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my grandma is in the hospital and is undergoing a minor operation tomorrow. if i seem a little off in ooc messages, that's why. she is good, she is doing better, was walking and eating this morning, and they think everything will go well tomorrow. just, kind of worried and panicky until then.
#hospital tw#sickness tw#i was with her this morning and she seemed good#my uncle seems confident the surgery will go well tomorrow#so i'm just#waiting#˗ˏˋ ― that gal on argelius ii. , 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛. ´ˎ˗
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think i'll continue to be a bit more low activity until this like. stint in insomnia is like ? over ? lessened ? but i am still slowly working on drafts and the like and things will be up eventually
#ooc.#i mean right now i def cannot string words together properly#so i'm just#creating a selunite cleric#because i want to do like a reverse exile thing. shadowheart romance. corruption.#they're gonna kill the nightsong#it'll b fun !#god i cannot wait until i can sleep skjdhfksjhdf
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i'm listening to the song nobody else by ailee and this part of the lyrics kill me :
i'm goin' out of my mind and keep asking myself if you're not with me what does everything mean to me ?
and i'm imagining my muses & their significant others, how someone become their whole world, so much that the thought of losing them would make them lose sense of reality, sense of everything, to the point of questioning the meaning of everything and i'm EMOTIONAL. I'M SO EMOTIONAL. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF ?
#.ooc#.musing#[ i don't know what to tag this as#but it applies to MANY of my muses#i'd list them but it'd be long LOLLLL#sO I'M JUST#STEEP IN FEELS ALL BY MYSELF ]
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smile and nod smile and nod smile and nod-
#trying not to go crazy go mad at work rn#one of my coworkers is busy HGGHHHHHH#GRINDING MY GEARS#but i don't wanna get like mad over it But I'm soooo irritated#but i don't want to let it show#so I'm just#:)#:))))#:))))))))))#shh ac
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#ya know#hank green was talking about how#post op and on chemo#he was really fatigued and or depressed#and it's just kind of a difficult to parse blurb#and that's so relatable#like i'm lonely with nothing to think about except how i'm lonely#(and frankly how few people have talked to me at all since undergoing surgery lol)#but im also tired with nothing to think about except how tired i am#and i can't hardly sleep because of the pain#so i'm just#like am i depressed or do i just need to go to sleep#too bad cause i can't fix one and i can't complete the other#the pain is unique too like#im always in pain but this#this is fun new pain#i can't ignore by doing other things#it sucksssssss#and i have a lot of great people to talk to to be clear#friends i've been talking to daily#still it's like#man im out here with nothing to do and truly no one here wants to hear me complain#and i feel so guilty seeking out friends to complain to#and im borrred all the time#idk i just needed to scream this into the void i've been trying to sleep for hours
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im sorry you're feeling bad :P if you had to become a creature that was a meld of two real life animals (like in the last airbender) what would you be?
SNOW LEOPARD and uhhhh some kind of bird... maybe a mourning dove? I like them because they're stupid (affectionate), but then again I've always liked gold finches a lot... well. Definitely some kind of bird and a snow leopard :)
#and thanks#my body is fighting like three different things right now aaaaaaa#plus I'm socially tired because I keep having to GO places#so I'm just#oog#answers from the floor#lassie my beloved
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Distract me with threads and memes?
#im not a hero i just try to be a good person (ooc posts)#//my dad called me this morning and told me that my grandpa died#so i'm just#in the mood to write angsty things#so hit me up#death tw
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The recent passive aggression. Your relationships with others aren't mine to judge. I'm sorry.
It's fine. I don't demand or expect understanding. I know it's always going to be questionable to some people. But it is what it is 👍
#it's still confusing to me too#I wish I could just properly explain that kind of stuff#think it'd be a lot easier if I could#but I can't#so I'm just#existing#thank you though#darian answers stuff#rp#oc
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