#So don't lose hope basically
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during the last solas regret memory, when you choose the sad option (he loved her and blamed her) and rook says: "when the other gods struck her down, he destroyed the elven empire to avenge her," they seem to be looking right at lucanis. (who is also the next person to speak and seems to be meeting their gaze during that). there are some times when the staging of a scene makes me feel slightly unfairly rewarded for being a lucanis romancer haha. (or rather unfairly rewarded for having the kind of unhinged brain I do while being a lucanis romancer, maybe.) guess who pretty consistently gets to sit at rook's right hand in most of the scenes where everyone is at the dinner table too :) just little lucanis privileges
#rye 'I'm the birthday boy and I want lucanis to sit next to me...🥺 🥺🥺' ingellvar at the head of the table#rye looking at lucanis (newly romance confirmed) like '...yeah you know what. I kind of see where solas was coming from at least#not cool what he actually did about it and everything but I can understand the impulse'#apparently he's also always solas' fun little fakeout 'oh and btw your friend is dead too and it's basically your fault. have fun!' gift#when you get trapped in the prison of regret. I keep winning/losing that's *awful*!!!#AND he's one of the voices you can hear when the companions find rook after that. I love it. when he is There#so this is very good for me personally#aaaaah the delicious dramatic irony of rye being like 'I for one think there may be hope for solas yet we shouldn't give up on him! :)'#(with lucanis being like 'you don't think he'll betray us??' and rye going 'well what's a *little* betrayal between friends huh'#unfortunately. the betrayal will not be little. and all hope will have fled actually by the end of all this)#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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Idk I'm still not invested in the SF storyline, like I said before in another post, RAD always feels so barren because the lack of another "normal" students, you have the student council and the exchange students. The only "normal" student we have Is technically Mephistopheles, and since all of them are friends, there's really not a lot of conflict you can have without it feeling pointless. We know that since we have 7 wishes, every brother Is going to win a wish... I don't want to see Diavolo lose 7 times lmao
The next week we are going to the Celestial Realm (suposely, I don't think God will let them enter lol) so this lesson feels pretty much filler for the next week lesson, that *might* be more interesing idk
#obey me#obey me nightbringer#as right know. RAD is the weakest element in Obey Me. honestly I prefer storylines that don't focus on it tbh#the only time I enjoyed a RAD storyline was S1 and S4. in S4 at least the new trio were a little bitchy so it was an interesing dynamic#with S4 I mean the chapters that involve the trio. the council trials was the most nothing arc in OBM at least I think#my biggest hope is that at least (1) brother loses to keep thing fair. but I don't think it's going to happen#like this lesson they punished some demon but he doesn't have a name and it's basically resolved in the same bracket#why I'm supposed to caree
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trying really hard not to jinx anything right now, but I might finally have a job lined up 😭 they sent me an offer, and I passed my background check. I just have to pass my drug test on Monday (which I definitely should) and I'll be good to go.
#i'm fucking SHAKING oh my god#it's been THREE YEARS of trying#i don't even know what to do with this. it feels too good to be true#and it's a pretty casual place. guy interviewing me seemed really nice and the employees were joking around with each other while i waited#dress code is basically just jeans/plain shirt of any kind and closed-toed shoes.#also i get hazmat training <3 so. that's fun.#might even get forklift certified. i'm having a great time.#woof.txt#god i'm so anxious it's making me dizzy but i'm also so excited about this#i've never had a job before 😭😭😭and i feel so underqualified for this one#but i'm so glad somebody's finally giving me a chance here it's been forever and i was starting to really lose hope
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Thinking about the Clive and Bill parallels again...
Both started with pretty average goals (gaining money / getting closure). Both became obsessed with said goals to the point of going through with their plans no matter the cost. Both became consumed by the desire to pursue a goal that isn't actually achievable (You can get more money but it will never feel like it's enough. You can lash out in anger but it won't make the anger go away). Both ended up killing innocents.
And yet.
Bill getting rid of his humanity in the hopes of getting money. Clive getting rid of his money in the hopes of getting his humanity back. Bill claiming he despises people like Clive when he has himself killed innocents for his own selfish plans. Clive claiming he hates politicians and scientists but still using science to build a mecha and politics to justify its use. Bill hiding everything, hiding from Claire that the machine isn't ready, hiding his crime from everyone. Clive exposing everything, exposing his secret base to Layton, exposing Bill and Dimitri's crime by his staging. Bill covering up the incident while Clive broadcasted his crime inside the fortress.
I don't know where I was going with this. Maybe that prime minister Bill looks like a honest citizen, just your regular Londoner really, while Clive is so obviously violent and destructive : and yet, Clive is the dove and Bill the hawk. Funny.
#In today's episode of 'Syl states the obvious' LOL#But yeah basically looks can be deceiving for them both I guess =)#This is once again a very simplified version. Hence why I don't go into too many details#Like Bill losing his humanity is the very moment he decided the risk was worth it. It's not even the explosion itself#Clive doesn't feel like a human because he's so alienated. He's ready to kill people. But he's hoping to get saved. Wrong actions ofc#It's actually so very important to me that Clive goes to jail but we aren't told a thing about Bill. Bill keeps everything a secret#Dimitri also has parallels with both. One day I'll write a good detailed analysis about these 3#clive dove#bill hawks#professor layton and the unwound future#professor layton and the lost future#unwound future spoilers#lost future spoilers#my analysis#This goes without saying but they're both assholes btw. Idc about the actual goals or characters they're both in the wrong and messed up
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If 'Resolutions' happened with Chakotay & Tuvok they would have made a beautiful home down there on that planet. It'd be Better Homes & Gardens material by the time they left. If it happened with Tuvok & Janeway it'd just be the captain running around barefoot chasing a monkey while Tuvok grew flowers and made comments about her not tracking dirt into the house after he just cleaned the floors.
#Chakotay & Tuvok basically get married down there but there's no discussion about this they just start acting like that#Meanwhile Janeway is just kind of slowly losing it while her surroundings get steadily cozier. How did you even make tea down here Tuvok???#Tuvok who spent all day gathering herbs and starting a fire etc etc: Easily.#By 'basically get married down there' I mean that Tuvok accepts their situation pretty much immediately contrary to Janeway and focuses#on long term comfort and survival with Chakotay#It's still sad - especially for Chakotay who thinks he'll never see Janeway again (incorrect: Harry came to her with a plan#and she said 'I like your attitude Mr. Kim!' so they're rushing to the vidiians) but they're surviving...maybe even living#mostly their deal is focused on learning to like one another interpersonally#Meanwhile Tuvok with Janeway is more just trying gently to get her to calm down (she feels extremely guilty that this happened -#that Tuvok's never gonna get to see his family again) and they talk in depth for maybe the first time about the very real possibility#that this is it for them - on Voyager they at least had hope...but maybe that hope was an illusion the entire time...maybe- Oh! Chakotay's#here!! We're saved!!!#Chakotay#Tuvok#Kathryn Janeway#st voyager#voy#out of the potential pairings who's having sex first?#Janeway is playing don't starve & Chakotay's playing harvest moon & Tuvok is playing like...oxygen not included
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i've lost my sense of taste, this shit sucks 😭
#still testing negative for covid but i'm not leaving the house bc i feel like shit and i don't want to spread this illness to anyone#i miss being able to taste my food </3#when i did have covid i didn't lose my sense of taste but i did lose it when i had tonsillitis#so basically i just hope i don't have tonsillitis again lmao
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WIP of a comic inspired by the mythic phrase "She used to be cool, she dressed up as an elf for our campaign"
#stranger things#jancy#current wip#From time to time I lose control of my life and start making heavy art#you didn't know me in my SNK era#at least this time I'm not sleep deprived#this one is purely Jancy <3#I'm hoping to finish it in around four days?#I don't work with a script so basically I'm fighting to not drop out of this project#At least I'm using those ink brushes I have had a year now hehe#jonathan byers#nancy wheeler#mike wheeler#will byers#illustration#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art
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Is Death Note considered post-modern media
#genuinely asking bc i just watched a YouTube thingy about modern and post modern and then wtv comes next#metamodern or sthg?#but anyhoo it was basically saying modern stories were like kinda classic straight forward traditional values good guy wins bad guy loses#then post modern was kinda like#but WAIT what if there are no heroes or villains cynical sort of questioning or reversing the usual values and tropes and morals#and then the essay went on to say the next thingy is like. post modern but also trying to add a second more hopeful twist#after all the nihilistic deconstruction#???#DN def seems like the second category but idk#i went to art school and feel like i still don't know shit about this kinda stuff btw like it always went in one ear and out the other#the youtube video i watched was called Why Do Movies Feel So Different Now?#by thomas flight btw#p
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so we use these little packs of disposable travel toothbrushes that we can keep next to our bed and don't have to rinse after using them or anything because between executive dysfunction, sensory issues, and fatigue, this is basically the only way we can keep up with brushing our teeth regularly.
anyway, I realised we'd almost ran out and went to buy more and they suddenly aren't available anywhere. we'd get a pack of 24 for relatively cheap and now all I can seem to find are packs of 1 or 2 "travel toothbrushes" that are basically just normal toothbrushes for the same price as a pack of the ones we normally get. the brand that made them has nothing about them on its website besides a pack of 2 toothbrushes listed under the same name that aren't the same product.
so anyway now I need to figure out an alternative for the sake of actually being able to manage our dental hygiene because the one thing that was letting us do that somewhat adequately isn't available anymore
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#we've found a couple of places selling them but they're places that don't ship to the UK#and it would be way too expensive to use a proxy service for them#also we do have a normal toothbrush but we pretty much never use it because having to get up and stand at the sink is hell#and sometimes isn't an option at all certain symptoms flare up too badly#and that whole ''keep a cup of water next to your bed to rinse it in'' thing doesn't work well with our contamination OCD#also on a related note I'm trying to buy energy drinks (the things we're reliant on for managing our ADHD at this point)#and the delivery options are like... we can get them on the 11th-13th for £4.99 or on the 8th for £22.99 which feels ridiculous#but we only have 8 left so I guess I'm going with the cheaper option and I'm just gonna have to not have caffiene for maybe a few days#and hope we don't completely lose track of everything given how bad our ADHD has been even with caffeine lately#the bad ADHD is the reason I didn't get round to ordering more of them earlier in the first place. ugh#I hate trying to work around so many different medical issues that all make it so fucking hard to do basic shit
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which livery are you most excited for?
ferrari since it's my one true love and always has been (also because last year's launch was the best ever launch i have ever seen from any team ever, so the expectations are set high). other than that i'm curious about williams, because i love the blue color and i'm a SUCKER for the duracell sponsorship part of ther livery (they better keep it)
#who am i not looking forward to tho. hmmm. rbr bacause it's always the same and leaks hours before#same with haas basically except they tweak the colors but minus points for it only being pics posted online#i have a beef with mcl because they always prolong it with extreme e and formula e and indycar and what not liveries#and. idk. don't get me wrong while i appreciate other series as well (snd god knows sometimes i enjoy some mroe than f1)#you usually watch to see the car only (maybe the suits for new season too if you're lucky) but that's it#also speaking of mcl i expect them to look pretty much the same indy and formula e look like and i will laugh.#sorry to mcl fans but i will so laugh. both lando and oscar will look like curd left on the sun for a few hours in the orange highlighter#not you sam bird. you are perfect even in the orange and you know it.#also looking forward to merc it they show us the real car and not just livery which i expect from some like rbr and williams#also kinda aston because the green is also nice and i hope they tweak it a bit for this yead#did i forget some team???#oh wait fuck my alpha nemesis which both lose the alpha part huh#ok. looking forward to yuki and the name change announcement from at.#looking forward to guanyu and val and whatever livery the team whose name idk will bring us#that's it :))#ask#e
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i've determined i will probs never play minecraft again bc the sheer amount of content, while amazing, also is overwhelming to the highest degree but gameplay videos are highly enjoyable. also since finding creativerse it just hits better and terraria is like my happy (moddable) medium.
#plus since they introduced columns npcs block rotation AND painting i have been OBSESSED#like don't get me wrong Minecraft is a lot of fun but there's just SO MUCH#Terraria can be a bit overwhelming at times too especially bc i like it modded but even then i feel like there's less to it#maybe just a bit more emphasis on mob farming#ngl the devs hope to bring mods to creativerse but idk how plausible that is but is2g if they make it a reality i'll lose my shit#it's basically all that i feel is missing#the style/textures are wonderful and the variety of blocks/decor you can craft is unreal#plus being able to tame 99% of mobs is just???? chef's kiss#don't get me started on how they have wiring instead of redstone which means you don't need an acre to set up machines and TELEPORTERS#also similarly to Terraria you can transfer resources from one world to another??? you just have to unlock and craft the chest#there's also the fact that once you get the right npcs almost everything is renewable without having to terraform#one of them even multiplies the drops you get from tamed creatures#i would like to see more customization for the base character model but dressing my character like a witchy green chicken has been hilarious#in short all of them are amazing but creativerse just appeals to me most#oh! going back to the modding thing if they did introduce it i think with the right people the game could become a 3d terraria#which is a DREAM to me#though Terraria was on a whole other level with the bosses/random events#like the mechanical bosses stressed me the fuck out and wof when i was beginning#i don't think i even ever made it to plantera on my last long run roflmao or any of them tbh#blood moon and goblin invasion was always fun and good for money#hadn't quite figured out the stairs situation though so npcs could traverse up AND down but it's fine#Falling Apart And Coming Together
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fr both taylor's quants as mirrors to themself. rian Seen as so meritous and deserving and talked to and tasked with and advised and considered but apparently rian's whole thing is going "huh. wha" and having wendy's level of self-reflection (none). winston who is begrudgingly allowed to sit in his corner and ignored b/c he's undeserving so he can't really be meritous and nobody would look in that mirror b/c it's gonna be So not their reflection. while he just won't stop cassandraing and having all these insights and perception and observations nobody even asked or told him to have and is peak taylor understander and just like taylor: isn't guided by a paper-thin ego but also will take criticism / blame / mistreatment Too Much for his own good
#winston billions#the tragedy of the Lose Lose imbalanced [rian is ostensibly a character but actually a plot device] [winston: ostensible plot device but#actually a character] like yknow we could even some of this out a little. but also once again billions' handling of Gender Things....#that's (mostly) all an issue on rian's side of the Quants Who Are Also You scales#(it's also ofc still relevant re: winston; or anyone; and especially wrt Autistic Character but that's gonna be beyond billions)#(even [society if nonbinary rian] aside like. thinking you simply have one of your rare Cis Women Characters here....come on)#give rian a little more of that '''''worse''''' treatment that would let her be more Funny Little Guy as lets winston be more characterful#even transcending the [they won't give him an arc or C plot that's actually about him or anything] limitations#meanwhile again like Lmfao rian was Meant to be important but that's Only meant taking part in Other People's Plots as [device]#being a plot device is a way to use characters it's not like Inherently Bad but like lmao. rian doesn't get to do anything herself For Real#AND all the plot devicery means she's never gotten to have consistent enough motivations or like. traits to be An Character.#winston's writing is so [here he is to do little a expositing. butt of the joke. minor plot device] that he has way more room to like#just be idiosyncratic & Not have that yanked around by ''prominence''....it happens to All billions characters but it's So bad w/rian#like i can go ''this feels like it's Too Far serving the plot or conflict at the expense of character'' other times w/other roles but like#that'll then also be isolated enough to just ignore. w/rian it's like spent that whole time doing multivariable calculus waiting on more#info more context to conclude anything abt what she's even Basically supposed to be like. even my more generous theories can't hold up#and based on precedent i don't have much hope that remaining [i guess this could be a quality of hers] will either (a) not be contradicted#or (b) get to actually mean anything in any of her arcs which ig now get to be about the [nothing] that is [pay disrespects]#winston isn't bound to get a real arc even last minute but he'll still have felt like more of a character#rian doomed by intending ''importance'' from the start & that they don't seem to have ever had the idea of any more solid foundation#and that billions going ''gender; huh?'' can be like. rian has to go away now; we needed her vagania for diluted cishet man sex scandal#well i for one am really reflecting on Women In The Workplace(tm) now & for what. rian funnier littler guy winston Ever getting a C plot...#a superior tmc timeline....and like as ever rian can be shitty that'd be fine. but if it Means Nothing b/c billions either goes [nuh uh]#and/or b/c either way it just does Nothing with it. that then Is Not character material for her; it more so is For Winston suffering it....#most likely to end with billions just agreeing rian Was so specially meritous & deserving & winston was too cringefail (autistic) to live#even if we get anything Alright / given consideration & care in his material....which will in turn be like eh. as ever; will take it lol#plus ofc fascinating like. can't draw a hard line b/w the Writing & the Performance but still wondering how much of winston's idiosyncrasy#and that sense of character is big time via will's acting. definitely got that foundation in that the Writing = quant kid 2; one-off joke#and the Performance of that material = furiously writing in multiple winston scenes & despite it all bringing him all the way into s7#but he's autistic & typecast so also our hands are tied. could've had more for Either/Both quants; which = more for taylor by extension. f
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#why does everything always go to shit all at the same time#i was talking to my dad and he just dropped the bomb that we might lose eva and it's just#i cannot do this i just#she's everything to me i haven't seen her in so long#and i know and get that this is just how life works#i mean she is nearing that age#so it makes sense#but it's just not fair#i hope i can go back again soon and see her because i just#i don't know i don't even know what to say#you don't pick favourites etc etc but she is my favourite#when i was in middle and having absolutely horrible breakdowns#she would come into my room and basically run into me and distract me and play with me#like she would just always catch on to it even when i wasn't crying or anything#and even without all that she's just so beloved to me#i really hope that somehow#things turn out okay#or if it really is her time then she goes peacefully but it's just not fair#delete later
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🇵🇸Pain, sadness and suffering every day we die. Yesterday I told you about our neighbors. Today I tell you about the loss of the most precious thing we have, the uncle, beloved, and honorable professor, Imad Muqdad, who was martyred today, along with a group of his grandchildren, in a Zionist bombing that led to the destruction of everything. This is our life. Every day we lose someone dear and precious to our hearts. Today our relative was martyred. Tomorrow it is us, and God knows best.🇵🇸🍉🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

🚨An urgent appeal to the kind-hearted people who stand by me and help me in our ordeal. We are being bombed every day and every hour there is a martyr.🚨
I am Najah Al-Hila, a mother of four children. My house has been completely destroyed, and my husband Khaled was injured in the war. I have a small child who has no milk, and we have no food. We are trapped and don't know how to face these difficult circumstances. Please, donate to us now. We are in desperate need of any possible help, as every passing moment increases our suffering.
My situation is extremely difficult, I can't describe the pain I endure every day. My house was destroyed, my husband Khaled was injured in the war, and my young children don't know what safety or peace means. I can't provide their most basic needs. The little one in my arms can’t find milk, and we have no food. I try to be strong in front of them, but my heart is breaking with pain and helplessness. I don't know how to get through this, or where to find help. Life has become very dark for me, and I am powerless to change anything. Every day that passes is a heavy burden, and I walk through it with no hope. I need a hand to help me, or even a word to reassure my heart.
My situation has become unbearable, and every moment that passes increases the suffering of me and my family. I am in urgent need of immediate financial assistance, as I cannot provide even the simplest necessities for my children in these difficult circumstances. I need at least $150 to secure milk for my little one and some food for all of us. Any donation, no matter how small, could make the difference between life and death for us. Please, don't leave us in this crisis, as I am living in conditions I cannot bear any longer.
I am now trapped in a place I cannot escape from, and the situation here is unbearable. My house has been completely destroyed, my husband Khaled was injured in the war, and I am struggling greatly to secure the basic needs of my children. The little one cannot find milk, and we have no food. I cannot reach any outside help due to the siege. I am completely helpless, and every passing moment increases my fear and anxiety. Time is running out, my life is in your hands. Please, save us from death. I desperately need an urgent donation to help me meet my children's needs and keep them alive in these difficult circumstances.


As you read this, there are those who are lying under the rubble, waiting for death. Those who lost their families, their homes, their dreams, and I am one of them. My family and I were displaced after our home was destroyed. All that is left for us is some clothes and memories that refuse to die under the bombing. Today, we have been struck by a tragedy. On the first day of Eid, children and their father went to play and buy some toys. They were bombed by a missile that led to the martyrdom of all of them.🥹🥹



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the benefit of someone treating you like shit is that it can push you to realize what you really want out of life. i think we're here to experience so many people and places and things and more than anything, joy. i don't think we exist here on this giant earth to curl up in one not-too-horrible corner with not-too-horrible people and live our lives exactly how we think they want us to so that we can stay 'secure'. at least i'm not
#<- readers added context: charmtale is insane and this post was inspired by a girl who most certainly does not even remember she exists atp#No but FR. ever since last summer (aka: meeting said girl and having a terrible two-month mildly homoerotic friendship* that ended awfully)#i care less and less about losing people by the day... i don't derive much happiness from feeling loved by other people anymore#if they do thats fine but whatever... i tried so hard to be what i thought she wanted me to be and it still wasn't enough she still left me#and now i'm like who fucken cares if people want me. i have way less of a sense of self at all i am just here to observe the world and see#interesting and fun things and have a good time and explore. and be stupid. i used to spend so much time basically begging for ppl to love#me so this is a huge shift. a shift that has been slowly occurring over the past months not just an intense emotional 'WELL I DONT NEED YOU#so i think its permanent. i hope at least. i'll update#*yes this can still happen to you in your 20s with other women in their 20s. Please drive safe. its a dangerous world .
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