#Sign Crushes Motorist

[alynwrench]

New AMV in the works? YUPPERS

[devouredmelancholy]

[falafelvstheworld]

wow man you’re so will toledo, alex g, bugs, rot, religious trauma, dog motif, canine poetry pilled

[veronicangel]

LOSER MONOLOGUE

daisuke - mouthwashing

cw: angst angst angst angst, depression, hint of starvation

he didn't know how he could be so stupid.

"(your name) i really like you and you're just so amazing to be around you're funny and you always laugh at my jokes and-"

why did he think you would feel the same way? how could he think that?

"daisuke..."

he tried to forget the feelings he had for you, but he can't stop his feelings.

"and i think you're so gorgeous too and you always make me feel good about myself and-"

why did he want you so bad? what is it about you he can't let go of? why does he want to talk to you, to laugh with you, to make out with you? why does he want anything from you?

"daisuke please listen to me..."

why did he think this would work out in his favor? nothing ever does. he isn't anything important, even his own parents think so.

"yes, yes , you're right, i'm listening"

nothing ever good comes out of him being around. just goes to show with the crash happening just as soon as he joined the crew. the least he could do is give his own rations to everyone else. he isn't that hungry anyways.

"you're really sweet and handsome daisuke but..."

he was so stupid. that smile he had on his face was useless. he should've known you wouldn't feel the same way. he's nothing compared to you.

"but i don't feel that way about you daisuke. you only think you like me because im the only person available"

why couldn't he show you he liked you for you and not because he has no one else? why could he never express himself? either way it wouldn't have mattered, he isn't enough for you.

"that's not true! i do like you so much (your name)!"

he felt the tears pricking at his eyes again. why is the only thing he can do is cry? why can't he get up and win you over? why can't he get over you?

"please don't argue with me about this daisuke. i don't want this to affect our time on the ship together. i do like you, as a good friend"

he cried into his own hands, how pathetic. he cried at the thought of you. anytime he looks at you, or hears your name, his stomach flips and gets butterflies. you didn't see him in that way though. why would you? everyone knows he's lazy and pathetic. everyone on the crew thinks so and everyone back home does too, so why wouldn't you think that too.

"oh i understand, im sorry for wasting your time. let's forget this ever happened am i right! haha!"

he remembers the moment so clearly. he remember the pitiful smile you gave him before walking back to whatever you were doing before he got to you. why did it have to be like this? he can't stop himself from fantasizing. he can't help himself from imagining how things would be back home. how you and him would move in together, get a cat, and live happily alongside each other, not on a space ship that was doomed from the start.

"you mean so much to me. i wish you'd look at me the way i look at you. i wish i could be with you. i just want to feel the warmth of your body next to mine. to see your smile. i want to play with your hair, see it shine under the sun as it hits you just right. i want to watch the sun sink behind the heavens with you. talk, laugh, make out. anything. i just want anything from you."

he wrote it all down on a random sheet of paper and the only pen he could find on the whole ship. the tears in his eyes dripped onto the paper, ruining his already messy writing. it didn't matter though. he figured you wouldn't want to read his loser monologue anyways.

sorry for the angst guys im depressed so my faves have to be depressed too but for reals who would reject my baby daisuke 🙁

[grhmwtts]

“I’m half as bad and twice the enemy”

— “The Enemy” by graham watts

[felixcosm]

A Mustardseed webweave for @picturemecountingcards

Molly McCully Brown // unknown // solitary-sister // unknown // unknown // Marlon James // Brian Clifford // make me into something (useful) // sign crushes motorist // Boyish - Japanese Breakfast // Francisco de Zurbarán // Safa Sharfudeen

[natichsa]

Are some of these too niche

[mottosilly]

I have 2 wolves inside of me one of them is gay, the other wants me to kms

[nofatclips]

another life by orchid mantis featuring sign crushes motorist

[blingblingboi16]

going thru sum rn

[xxx-ang3l-w1th-a-sh0tgun-xxx]

sooo here's a random list of bands/artists i like (and recommend)!!

(and like really awful tiny reviews/general thoughts for each one)

also here's a 🔗playlist i made which includes some of these :)

BIKINI KILL, LE TIGRE AND THE JULIE RUIN (of course) (i love you kathleen hanna😭🫶)

THE SMASHING PUMPKINS - i absolutely love their song "my love is winter"

BABES IN TOYLAND - her VOICEEE ugh I'm in love

NO DOUBT - only just started listening to them. i really like the songs "doormat" and "sunday morning"

GARBAGE - QUEER!!!! (i think that's all i need to say)

RADIOHEAD - crying (i love every radiohead song I've heard and they all make me cry)

MADNESS - big part of my childhood (cuz im british duhhh🇬🇧)

KATY B - that gurl is always on a mission and i love her for that <3

HOLE - don't ask me what my opinion is on courtney love because honestly? i don't even know

X-RAY SPEX - 70s punk band. existed before riot grrrl was a thing, very influential even now

LIMP BIZKIT - nu metal/rap metal - i especially like the albums "significant other" and "chocolate starfish & the hotdog flavoured water"

MITSKI - alternative/indie, SAD MUSIC

SIOUXSIE AND THE BANSHEES - goth/punk, very kewl, first goth(ic?) band i ever listened to

EMILE MOSSERI - his songs are on the "minari" soundtrack - very chill and atmospheric. also sad

DAZEY AND THE SCOUTS - please can they make more music PLEASE

KORN - i love u jonathan davis <3 (also i love ALL their albums and don't care if they had unpopular stuff, i love it regardless)

PINK FLOYD - they never fail to make me feel like I'm levitating. or dying. I'm not even sure

LONDON AFTER MIDNIGHT - so underrated and so incredibly good and UGH the vibes and the atmosphere I LOVE

ALEX G - so traumatisedqueertranskidcore

ADRIANNE LENKER - brb crying

KATE BUSH - brb frolicking in the woods

SIGN CRUSHES MOTORIST - *cries*

KING DIAMOND - SLEEPLESS NIIIIIIGHTS

AMY WINEHOUSE - ily <3

soo yeah! those are just some of the bands/artists i like/listen to currently! :D

[saumonaucitron]

I’ll be okay

[venusdaughter444]

keep yourself warm, please

[sockeyesoren]

Who let the dogs out

[jonasbridger]

Intro!

Hello I'm Jonas. This blog is mainly for documenting my life.

A little bit about me:

I like pokémon, eltingville club , Scott Pilgrim, weezer , Radiohead, sign crushes motorist, birthday, Alex g , TV girl , MSI, Strange Hill high, dbd, doom, postal, longboarding, primal, ark , Solo leveling , billy Joel , white snake, queen, Johnny Cash, Beatles, take care, god smack, kmfdm , beastie boys, beach boys, Linkin park , nirvana , sum 41 ,and drawing.

I have trouble making friends irl and online, I'm very socially awkward. This is my third account I have two others. You'll probably be able to find them.

[whitemustang999]