#Shad the Pussy destroyer

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as always, Judgevra/shadmau art

-- Rule #34, fish in a birdcage.

there is context, but I mostly just wanted to draw Avra as one of those semi-nude ladies in renaissance paintings.

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Shad the destroyer? Pfft. Nah.

Irene the ass destroyer? Absolutely

Hey guys are we 1000% sure Irene didn’t peg Shad because the evidence is saying otherwise

[psshhiidk]

whenever i see "shad the pussy destroyer" i die laughing

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i love them

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Aphmau and Shad sat in a forest together. Their eyes are shut, they’re holding hands, Shad is trying to listen to the sounds of the forest but he just can’t focus on it like she can. And she’s absorbed in the sounds of nature and life and all he can focus on is her breathing. Her heartbeat. The feeling of her skin on his.

She’s the closest he’s gotten to living in a long time, as she lay beside him with her chest pressed against his and for a moment it’s like his heart is beating instead of hers. But it’s not. The expanse and contraction of his rib cage as she breathes pushes his in similar potion and for a moment it’s like he’s breathing instead of her. But he’s not.

She’s blowing gently on his cheek. Something about an eyelash and luck, or wishes, or something. He doesn’t have the heart to tell her such things mean nothing, not when gods are those that decide things like luck. She would know that, had she been herself. But she wasn’t. Or, well, she was, but differently than before. Her eyes are gold and warm and they look into his with a certain kind of joy when her wish is ‘made’, not yellow, not like they used to be. Sometimes he feels himself smiling when she does, like he can’t help but be infected by her happiness.

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It’s a shame MCD S3 sucks so bad because Shadmau is such a good ship in context.

Like, at least how I interpreted it.

Because, okay, hear me out:

He fell inlove with an Irene who he thought was kind and just, only for her to reveal that… she weren’t fucking that, and for him to be blamed for it. He’s turned into the villain because he loved a woman for who she pretended to be, and when she wasn’t that, no one wanted to blame her for it.

And then he gets his shot for revenge, he finds her again, reincarnated, and now she’s weak enough for him to kill. But she’s exactly who she pretended to be. She is kind, and just, and genuinely just cares. And now he’s got to make a choice. To kill the woman who betrayed him. Or let her live and risk being wrong about her for a second time.

Like if MCD s3 just did what it had to do, then imagine the power this ship could have. It was everything. A reincarnated god and the lover she betrayed in her past life? Let them kiss.

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The only metaphors I can come up with for Aphmau’s love of humans are incredibly gore based an aaaa.

I will say, however,

Aphmau has all of Irene’s twisted interests and likes, but in a much more positive way. Irene loved humanity as one loves a fish in a tank. Aphmau loves humanity in a much more positive, albeit gory-metaphor-heavy way. Irene loved Shad as someone loves a scapegoat. Aphmau loves Shad because Aw cute little guy who hates everyone needs a hug.

Get me?

Same interests, different motivations.

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god i said i'd be doing more serious drawings but Shavra is forever in my heart and soul and i refuse to let go of it. I will be drawing more of them as well

maybe even mys version

who knows

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Credit to @promptsforthestrugglingauthor and @aro-laurance-zvahl (the first for the prompt and the second for bringing it to my attention)z

Small shadmau sketch

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Made some more LR pin boards… not sure how I feel about them, but whatever.

Tw, though, for disturbing imagery, light gore, raw meat

Aaron | Shad/Judgement | Laur

I chose these three in particular because I feel like my boards for them are very similar haha

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‘honesty without kindness is brutality’ & ‘kindness without honesty is manipulation’ are lowkey shad and irene coded

absolutely

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Soooooo got any angst ideas about the destroyer is your rewrite ? Like him having nightmares or just being trapped in the nether wondering what happen to Irene ? Or his hatred towards the divine warriors even though he actually rightfully mad ?

I greatly appreciate the erasure of Shad's name when talking to me, its a dumbass name

anyways

TW, mentions of violence, using a slightly gory/graphic description to describe physical sensation, typical Shad-convo stuff

What is he if not my angsty boy? My angsty wife, that's what.

Anyways, so my baby, right, he's not got himself a physical form in the nether/the Shadow Abyss (it's just 'the abyss' in LR for aesthetic reasons, the girlies that get it, get it), due to him being like violently murdered to the point his physical body was no longer suitable for life. However, regardless of this, he experiences near-constant phantom pains from every injury he ever sustained, healed or otherwise. Also, being only his own shadow is a very... vulnerable-feeling experience. It would be equivalent to walking around without your skin on, all of your nerves and muscles exposed. Pain. Which provides one very good motivation for someone to, idk, try and gain a physical form to try and stop the agony of your existence. which could lead him to redemption in a very 'i did what i had to in order to survive, just like everyone else' way, but.... idk, i dont know if i want to redeem him. I like how not-a-good-person he is.

Judgement (suprisingly a canon name for him, his actual name in my rewrite, because he's the OG edgelord) is plagued near-constantly with visions. Every Divine has visions of some sort, whether they're clairvoyant, or prophecies, or something. Judge's specifically are of... like... destruction. End of days, mass murders, wars, etc. it's his domain but it doesn't make it any easier to see them. It also means he dreams of his own death on a frequent basis. not fun for him.

Also, he's pretty sure he knows what happened to Irene, he was married to her for a very long time, he knew the kind of person she was. She banished him under the guise of ending all evil, and left to keep up that ruse instead of doing her duty to stay and protect people. He does think about it often, very very annoyed about it. It's another thing that leads him to do what he does. He's wondering just how many people have to die before she's willing to set aside her pride and face him. He never self-reflects on how many people have to die before he's willing to set aside his hatred.

He's spiteful towards the other divine, but he doesn't hate them, not like he hates Irene. I mean he does hate them... just kind of not as much as Irene. The others he expected to turn against him eventually, because his nature was always unfavourable, but she was meant to be his equal, they were both equally as destructive as each other (ironically).

A lot of his existence is more physically painful, he's able to cope with the visions and the bad memories, and the thoughts of 'what if' in his mind by channelling it all into anger, but things start slowly derailing upon him and Aphmau/Avra's first contact, and he doesn't understand why until he realises who she is. From there, he is the mayor of Angst town, population however-many-mcd-characters-exist.

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are we ever going to see shadow daddy sitting on his throne like the girl boss he is ?

anon you are my favourite person in the world for this ask i hope you have a wonderful day lmao

and absolutely. He's not gonna have a throne and NOT sit on it, what's the point in having one if he's not gonna sit on it all cunty like?

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Aphmau loves big arms because she just loves the feeling of being completely encased by another person, like pressure-wise. Autism things. And luckily for her, Shad, Aaron, Garroth and Katelyn have the biggest arms to Grace Ru’Aun.

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occasionally i remember the ship ever

he is happy, he just... frowns instead of smiling.

i also gave him a tail bc i felt like he was missing something, and... tail. it's like a little rat tail tho, i's just skin and scales and no fur or feathers to make it pretty.

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I’m in an incredible amount of pain aaaaaaa

Anyways

That means polls :)