#SUCH A FUN QUESTION THANK U LEX

[officialgleamstar]

MNMOMS??? 👀👀👀👀👀

hmmmm I’d like to know more about the relationship between the moms and their kids maybe? if you havent answered that already?

oh or anything about the relationship between any of the moms

really just anything about mnmoms, im obsessed GSHSHSHGSHEH

HIII LEX!! oogh. relationships between the moms and their kids... i think ive mostly only talked about morgan and nick/nicholas, on tumblr at least, so i can definitely get more into that :D

morgan and nick... well-trod ground. morgan is severely paranoid and over-protective of nick, while nick is severely clingy but also has to pick a fight with everything she say, etc etc. i havent spoken as much about morgan's relationship with nicholas i dont think beyond establishing that she loves him and that hes a total mama's boy gbhjfdhjbj so i can talk about that!! though shes more well-managed by the time he is present, morgan is still very protective of nicholas, helped by the fact that he is the most high-strung kid on the planet. hes very jumpy whenever jodie isnt around, seeing him as his main source of safety, and hes also like... pretty aware of morgan's conflicted feelings on him? nicholas is exactly what morgan always wanted nick to be, well-behaved and careful, and it just makes her so much more aware of everything she lost. nicholas knows he is loved, and morgan does love nicholas, but hes also very aware of... well, his mom is different to him now, too. he can understand that he is just as foreign to her, hes a smart kid. they love each other very much, and honestly, morgan's relationship with nicholas is a lot healthier than it was with nick, but theyre both overly aware of the elephant in the room.

carol and grant probably have the most consistently positive mother/son relationship throughout the entirety of mnmoms, besides mercedes and lark at least! however, this... isnt for good reasons LMAO. pre-forgotten realms, carol generally wasnt home much, preferring to work herself to death at her office job. so grant literally prefers her to darryl just because she was never the one around to get mad at, she was never trying to talk to him, he didnt have to worry about helping her with chores because she didnt do housework, etc. they love each other very much, but once they get to the forgotten realms, carol becomes very aware that she cannot remember the last time she had a proper conversation with her son. just, no comprehension of whats going on in his life at the moment. its BAD, yall, but the two never really question their love for each other, which cant be said for all the kids. ive talked about this before, but they do have a plot of bonding over their sexuality journeys, carol works really harden to soften her sharp edges for her son and to be more present in his life, and they come out of the forgotten realms in a much better place than they went in! (though, take this with a grain of salt, because its definitely the same way that darryl and grant came out better in canon. this does not mean that they werent both traumatized LOL)

samantha and terry junior... start off the worst, for sure :') i have talked about their relationship before but it was part of a longer ramble about sammy, so i will reiterate it here! samantha has a bad habit of going therapy mode on terry junior and he is very aware of it. she is of the opinion that she should not put her emotions on her son at all, because she is his mother and thats not his responsibility (which actually stems a lot from samantha's relationship with her own mom but i think im gonna get into that more for isadora's ask--). however, terry takes her facade of calm as her being utterly in denial about terry senior dying at all, and he cant understand why she wont even show that shes upset. this already puts their relationship in a tenuous space over a few years, and when samantha starts dating and then marries ron, terry's trust in her is. utterly obliterated. at the end of their time in the forgotten realms, like with ron, they arguably have the best relationship though! samantha learns how to show her emotions without having terry junior feel obligated to help her and does her best to be more vulnerable with him in general, and terry junior learns how to accept that his mom is allowed to have a life beyond his biological dad. they make me so fjhbghjbghj <3333

and okay. right. finally. haunted expression. mercedes and the twins.

firstly, mercedes and lark. consistently a good relationship! they have the typical oak-garcia issue of lark running all over her, not really treating her as an authority figure, but its obvious that he absolutely adores her and that she adores him in turn. this is helped by the fact that mercedes is definitely the "fun" parent - glenn parallels, lol - so she has even less control over the twins than henry did, mostly because she never thinks to exert any. still, even though lark and sparrow are absolute agents of chaos, they love their mom and lark never stops loving their mom. by the end of their journey, he's a little more distant from mercedes out of guilt, mostly. lark is still the one to stab henry in this au without any of the deep rooted rogue card anger to validate it for himself, and he has a very hard time looking either of his parents in the eye afterwards. however, he also considers them both his main source of comfort, and tends to trail them quietly around the house when hes upset.

mercedes and sparrow. haunted expression intensifies. "Is there anything as undoing as a daughter?" sorry for quoting arcane but LITERALLY MERCEDES QUOTE OF ALL TIME. it starts... the same as mercedes and lark: no sense of authority, but very positive emotions! sparrow is not out as transfem at the beginning of their journey, its still something she is working out throughout their time in the forgotten realms (she very much has a moment of like... "i'm in a new place where nobody knows me, so i'm going to pretend to be a girl and see how many people are fooled! that's a very normal thing for boys to do!" and lark plays along lol), and a lot of their time pre-rogue card is dedicated to that! mercedes and sparrow bond a lot as sparrow warms up to the idea of coming out as trans, and mercedes. well. mercedes already knew before going into the realms and has been reading a million different pamphlets and consulting advice columns and talking to morgan on how to perfectly handle this situation LOL. so their relationship is kind of perfect, actually, and they are doing really really well until the deck of many things comes into play :')

post deck of many things, sparrow is... very openly Not A Fan Of Mercedes. she is still the upbeat positive lovewolf twin in this (though i think she more wants to generally be a witch than a lovewolf, since her mama's a bard and not a druid!), so it is even more obvious when sparrow suddenly is not giving mercedes the time of day. sparrow is utterly convinced that she is destined for greater things in a very negative way, and blames her discovery of this on mercedes getting them stuck in the forgotten realms. she also, similar to lark in canon, blames the moms as a whole for the fact that walter was hurt and sees them widely as useless. mercedes, for her part, does everything she can to redeem herself to sparrow, and is endlessly frustrated by the fact that nothing she does works. post-forgotten realms, they argue pretty relentlessly, sparrow locks herself in her room and screams herself hoarse, mercedes storms out into the back garden and cries until she gets a migraine, and henry takes lark out for ice cream-- despite this, sparrow does still seek out a lot of comfort from mercedes, and she has a habit of casually finding herself, at night, in wolf form and curled up at the foot of her parents' bed. strange and so weird how she ends up specifically sprawled out across her mom's feet at least once a week, if not fully laying between her parents. crazy. what a coincidence. shes a fully independent child with no need for comfort for sure though

[sochilll]

14, 21, 22!

14. A song you think is underrated

Oooooh a tough one because I simply don't know what people listen to lol. But I will go with Bug by Annie Blackman she is so good and I've never met anyone who listens to her! And Bug is so so good

21. The song you think will be in next years top songs again

I feel like Red Wine Supernova will simply stay on the top 100 for quite a while. But also Father by The Front Bottoms is a pretty reliable option.

22. Shortest song

Brave as a Noun by AJJ is the shortest at 1:14.

But I simply must give an honorable mention to Pseudophed by Penelope Scott which is 1:16.

[loveydoveylex]

IM SO LATE BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEX!!! I hope ur day is going epically and warmly and all the other positive adjectives! I love seeing ur posts on my dash, ur tintin posts always feel so sweet and genuine there's never a doubt in my mind he loves u too. also I think my cookies are picking him up from your post because I keep getting recommended some version of a tintin movie. please come retrieve your man i don't know how he got in my house. happy birthday again!!!

- @addedsugars

YOU ARE SO NOT LATE, IT'S ONLY 12 IN THE AFTERNOON DON'T WORRY!!! between you and me, I'm still only half awake, I've been up since 6 😂 BUT - this is such a sweet message, thank you so much!!! 😭💕 he truly means the Universe to me I'm so happy my love for him is visible through the way I talk about him. ❤️

ALSO LMAO the movie you're getting recommended in question may be the 2011 one directed by steven spielberg and if it is I HIGHLY recommend it, it is SUCH a fun time!!! my favourite movie of all time. still waiting on my sequel... it's been 13 years...

[alister312]

1, 2, 22, 23!!

THANK U FOR THE ASK ELLA!! sorry it took me a hot sec to answer 😅 in reference to this ask list

1. First ship you remember

I’ve said it before but Bunny is the very first SP ship I remember shipping and what got me into the fandom in the first place! Second after that I think was Style… they’ve always been ships that go hand in hand anyway so it makes sense. Anyway Bunny was my OTP back in the day, definitely the ship I read and wrote the most fic for (before discovering Gregstophe).

2. Your newest ship

I feel like everyday there’s new rarepairs I’m crafting in my head like “Would that even work?” BUT my most recent one I think I’ve stuck on is Gary/Heidi (Gardi?). It started from me doing the South Park ship meme for my 400 followers, when I drew them next to each other and thought “Aw they’re kinda cute!” Since then, I’ve been thinking more about them (especially with my next gen concept) and I think I really like them together? I picture them being super normal, much more so than any other SP couple, but very sweet and supportive. I’ll admit that part of why I like that comes from the fact that I don’t have any major Gary or Heidi ships I like (except Stary, but I’m shipping Style like 90% of the time so not really). It’s a little “pair the spares” in that sense, but I’ve never seen anything wrong with that concept.

22. Ship that you immediately fell in love with after one scene despite not considering it before

Not a scene BUT I really started to like Kengory (Kenny/Gregory) as a ship after rereading Lex Talionis recently. They’re not a pair in that fic but they have SUCH a good dynamic in it, I couldn’t not fall in love. Like, it’s a pairing you’d never consider because they don’t interact in the slightest in the movie (nor is there any implication that they ever did) but if you really start to think about it, it makes a ton of sense. Both care very deeply about protecting those around them and standing up for what’s right. They’re also both a bit of a martyr, Kenny as Mysterion especially. There’s also the potential for them to have a sort of prince and the pauper thing going on (I know the prince doesn’t date the pauper in the OG story but oh well).

23. Poly ship that you ship despite not shipping some of the characters in it outside of poly ship

This isn’t quite what the question asked but I’ve got a number of weird poly ships involving Kevin Stoley?? For example, last year I was kinda into the idea of him plus Tokendy, then him plus Clybe, and now I’ve kinda got him in a larger polycule for my next gen (Kenbe are married but Kenny is also dating Butters and Bebe is also dating Kevin). I’ve never been huge into any individual Kevin ships, mostly because the only big ones out there are Revin (and I headcanon Red as a lesbian) and Stolovan (which I do like but not nearly as much as other Clyde ships). Kevin is just my beloved little nerd loser and I love tacking him onto ships that make no sense <3

Mumu and I have also done fun thought experiments where we take characters, stick them in a randomizer, and make random polycules from that. It’s all very silly usually, but sometimes there’s some really interesting ideas and circumstances we can think of that would lead to such a ship!

[lehouxnap7]

Im going to answer all of these questions, idc that nobody asked, im really bored and sad, so im just gonna go ahead and answer these questions. Thank u. (Took screenshots because i couldn't reblog from the original)

Batman fandom!

2. Are there any popular fandom otp you only brotp? Twiddler, is neat, but I only see them as B R O S

3. Have you ever unfollowed someone over a fandom opinion? I did unfollow some for kind of similar reasons but never for having different opinions.

4. Do you have a notp in your fandom? Are they a popular otp? I guess Batjokes fits this? Because is quite hated by the Batman fandom but is also quite popular 🤔

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you? No... But batcat and Bruharvey shippers are kind of hard to deal with when they find out Im into batjokes, so later, im not in the mood to be cheering these up sometimes. I still like them a lot. 💜 (this is all from twitter experience uwu

6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated? Maybe punchjokes, because at first I was so anti about it but the Joker fandom showed me it can be fun if pulled right. We can simply make our fun headcanons

7. Is there anything you used to like but can't stand now?.......The batfamily...

8. Have you received anon hate? What about? Yes, because they thought i was Jarley shipper.

9. Most disliked characters? Why? Just the Batman who laughs, why?? Because he's the edgelords of edgelords and is not even funny, and I hate his chains with robins, is so weird

10. Most disliked arc? Why? Probably Punchline because she had so much potential than to be "Joker's #2" (creator's words)

11. Is there an unpopular character you like but the fandom doesn't? Why? Can i say Joker? Because he's mostly popular by people who are not really into the fandom, 🤔 hm

12. Is there an unpopular arc that you like but the fandom doesn't? Why? There's this really unpopular comic called Salvation Run, but I don't think the fandom doesn't like it, they just don't know about it, and is one of my favorite stories.

13. Unpopular opinion about xxx character? Idk if its unpopular, but I didn't like what they did to Harley in New52, she having the acid bath was,, unnecessary.

14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom? :))))) I said this many times, but when rogues stans exclude Joker as if he's not a rogue is kind of strange to me.

15. Unpopular opinion about the comics/show? I never watched brave and the bold, so I can't judge the writing, but the artstyle,, makes me not want to watch it

16. If you could change anything in the show, what would you change? From btas I would change Harley's origin, rather than being there to prove Joker is not gay, i would make her be there to be Joker's friend, funny pal, clown to clown communication. No drama!

17. Instead of xyz happening, i would have made abc happen.. I would have changed the white knight story to Harvey instead of Joker.

18. Does not shipping something 'popular' mean you're in denial and/or biased? No way, i don’t mind any popular ship, i sometimes multiship, is not that deep to me

19. What is the one thing you hate most about your fandom. The hypocrisy.. But that's normal in every fandom. 😗 And also, the amount of homophobic people that read dc comics. Uwu

20. What is the purest ship in the fandom? I can't think of any 💀 but im sure some heroxhero one

21. What are your thoughts on crack ships? That they are cool, im personally not fond of it. (Except for that one ship that is so cracky but i still love it, Baneface, 💜)

22. Popular character you hate? TBWL, again.

23. Unpopular character you love? TwoFace is quite unpopular right? Right? 👀

24. Would you recommend xxx to a friend? I do recommend dc comics to my friends but they really don't give a fuck about it lmao

25. How would you end xxx, would you change the ending of xxx? Instead of that stupid ending of three Jokers, i would have made batjokes more canon than it is 💖

26. Most shippable character? Batman lol

27. Least shippable character? Joker, just leave him with Bats, sometimes with Lex.

That was it,,

[tamiettitami]

Okay so I know you just did Alexis/Twyla headcanons, but I’d like to submit the following for them:

-fighting and then making up

-first sleepover (not sexual)

-first “I love you”

-moving in together

-dancing to music in their own apartment

I could go on, but I’m excited to read what you think!

fighting then making up

alexis makes right with twyla by lots and lots—and i mean LOTS—of cuddles while twyla prefers to mend with nights spent sleeping in separate rooms and postmating ben and jerry's for the two of them to share from a distance

first (non-sexual) sleepover

while they've definitely had sleepovers before this on a platonic level, i thought i'd be fun to put a canon divergent twist on this. in this universe, twyla doesn't find a date at the bar and goes home with alexis and moira to the motel instead.

walking into the motel room, twyla notes the lack of david. "you can like, sleep in his bed if you want, or whatever, he's with button."

twyla bows her head, shyly looking down at the dress alexis gave her to borrow for the night. "i uh—wouldn't mind sleeping with you. i know david is... particular."

alexis grins at twyla, extending an arm for her to grab. "i'd be happy, twy." she boops her nose and guides them over towards her bed for a night of unexpected, yet long awaited cuddling

first "i love you"

alexis was the first to say i love you

it was unplanned during a long-distance facetime call on her birthday when twyla shows her a bouquet of flowers she purchased in honour of her special day

"oh, my god, twy, that's like, so sweet, you totally didn't have to do that. i love yo—them, i love them..." her voice trails off, regretting her slip up while still thankful to finally have the weight of the words off her chest, free from the pressure

twyla doesn't question alexis's sentiment or her seeming sorrow. instead, she instantly obliges by returning it. "i love you, too, lex, it's my pleasure."

the next time twyla and alexis see each other in-person, she presents her with a replacement bouquet along with a discount bear from the valentine's section of elmdale's supermarket with a velvet heart attached saying "i love you beary much" (yes, i stole this from myself)

moving in together

moving in together is twyla's idea despite the fact that they only talk about converging their lives in new york city

"what if i... stay?" twyla asks one fall evening over there box of insomnia cookies (please try these if you haven't) "i mean, i'm here every weekend. i can go back to schitt's creek and have my closet u-hauled."

"but, the café?" alexis says, but it comes out as more of a question than a statement as she intended

twyla laughs, stepping into alexis's space. "george is perfectly capable of taking the place under his wing, he's been working there longer than i have."

alexis wraps her arms around twyla's waist. she leans into her ear, whispering: "well, i'd be happy to have you."

dancing to music in their own apartment

twyla is SUPER into p!nk and always plays her older songs like "so what" and "trouble" during their impromptu living room dance sessions while alexis prefers slower, looser songs like some 2016 tori kelly (this whole section is me projecting, look away)

↳ drop a schitt's creek character/pairing in my inbox along with a scenario then i'll tell you my headcanon(s) !

[hajimine]

dear hottie lex,

i'm back :D why do i start every ask with im back LMAO anyways,, are you feeling better?? i sure hope so !! i also hope you've been drinking enough water 😌✋🏼 lemme grab some water rq 😻 please i finally have my peace noe that i can do what i want two weeks long 😫✋🏼 although me and 3 of my classmates/friends have to record a PODCAST for a project at the end of the holidays,, a PODCAST . i cant believe this SJDJDJ 😀 probably gonna be embarrassing but its better than writing 8 pages or sum at least we could choose what to do 😌 im still waiting for the new aot ep to drop on the site where im watching it im in pain 🚶🏻‍♀️ it do be like that :,) question is it just me or do you feel also bad when you sleep for too long? yesterday i woke up at 1pm and got up at 2pm and i felt like i wasted so much time of the day 😭 wouldnt be surprised if it was just me ngl 🚶🏻‍♀️ anyway bestie tell me about your day, what have you been up to? how are you? i'm listening 😼😌 that being said, i'll continue watching anime, i hope you've had a great day bubs!! kith for u hottie <3 and hugs <33 mwah

with much love,

your sexy 🐉 anon 😼

to my beloved 🐉 anon,

i am feeling a lot better thank u baby 😁 ouh yea actually i’ve been going back to using my 1L bottle again so i’ve been drinking lots of water lately 😼👍🏼 omg have fun on your holiday!! hopefully u can have a lil more time to chill & watch naruto and all the other animes you’re watching rn :0 HAVSJAJ WAIT,, that sounds like fun tho lowkey (maybe bc i love talking n i ramble a lot bye) but good luck! what are u supposed to talk abt on the podcast tho?? is it a free topic sorta thing or does it have to be school related? hhhh i still havent watched it yet even tho it’s tuesday 🧎🏻‍♀️idk when i’ll have the time to watch it smh but from what i’ve heard from other people, i think im gonna be in a lot of pain 😻🙏🏼 ooooh actually yeah,, i get that sm bc u feel like u should be doing sth productive but here u are, sleeping in🚶but u deserve the extra hours tho!! im sure u didn’t have as much time to sleep when u had school :,) and youre on your school break anyway so it’s chill 😼🤏🏼 my day was pretty good!! i took a 3h nap and wasted so much time tho jshdjshs but other than that it was pretty good,, i might stay up a bit later to watch some more lectures bc of the nap, we’ll see 🏃🏻‍♀️ oh and,, i wore my seijoh practice tshirt today and i felt like i slept in iwa’s shirt so that was great ☝️😻 this reply is kinda late im sorry 😞 but i hope u had fun watching the anime!! im still trying to slowly read the jjk manga but i literally fell asleep reading it last night bc i was so tired 🤼‍♂️ anywho,, how are you!! did u do anything fun today? dont hesitate to treat yourself bc youre done w school for now 🙇🏻‍♀️ that calls for a celebration imo <3 sending u lots of hugs and kithes as well angel, have fun on your break and stay safe!! ily mwah 🥸 <33

yours forever,

lex 😈

[imagine-lcorp]

Next to You (One Shot)

Request

1)Hey, I really love ur imagines❤ Can u do one for me plz? R is Lena's girlfriend. Maybe something like: Reign attacks Lena, and reader saves her but still got injured. Some fluff after that))

2)Hi! Can you write where somebody attacks Lena and reader without superpowers protects her and get injured. After that Lena is taking care of her girlfriend

A/N: Hello my beautiful beans, I’m here once again finally bringing you the LAST REQUEST on my long and overdue list of requestssss, I’m so happy i’ve been able to finish this and so glad because request will be open again, and i hope that you send some and trust me with your ideas although I might need over a year to finish them, but either way this has been fun and yes I’ll keep doing it. So thanks to the anons that sent their requests, i tried to fusion this two in my own take of that scene on season 3, you know which one, so i hope you enjoy it and please let me know what you think! As always, I love y’all!!

Lena Luthor x Fem!R//Word Count: 1,471

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"Wow, and I thought I had a good view from CatCo." You said as you approached Lena, wrapping your arms around her and taking in the sights from her window.

You had wished to stay a bit longer in bed with her, joining that peace for a moment longer. But the day was just about to start and you tried to seize every second you had with her before doing the things that had to be done and solved if you wanted to keep the city as it was. It certainly made you feel strange, how the world could end at any moment and yet you would have let it happen if it meant spending another moment with Lena in your arms.

"I like waking up next to you." Lena turned around and looked at you, moving her arms to wrap herself around your neck, and if Lena could have read your thoughts she would have agreed.

"Waking up by your side every morning is like my wildest dream."

"So you dream about me, uh." A little smirk appeared on the corner of her lips.

"Every night." You would have been lying if you had said otherwise and Lena smiled fully at your answer. "Serious talk, tho. Haven't you thought about getting your own place?"

"When I first moved to National City I didn't know if I was gonna stay. Lex was in prison, the company was in shambles. I didn't know if I was gonna put down roots, settle down... In case the city rejected me." She moved her arms hesitantly around your neck and started to fidget with the collar of your shirt.  

Lena looked down for a moment and you took her hands in yours, placing them on your chest. You could sense her nervousness. It wasn't the first time you had seen her like this while trying to talk to her about the subject. Even after all these years living in National City, and even with all the friends she had made since, she felt out of place.

"Well, it's been two years, and you have done so much for the city. I think it's safe to say you could sign your own lease."

"Even with Supergirl thinking the worst of me?"

"She'll have to get over it someday. She can't stay mad at you." You assured her.

"You think so?"

"She really can not. After all you told me last night, there's no way she won't change her mind. What you did, it was to help a friend. I'm sure she can understand that."

"What about the Kryptonite? Do you think she will come around that too?"

"That too. I mean, there's a reason why you needed it and it's not like you were using it to deliberately hurt her. Give it time." You finished softly.

Lena had unfolded all the truth of her complicated life last night to you, not wanting to hold more secrets. After what had happened, discovering that Sam was a Worldkiller, sending Ruby away, and being discovered by Supergirl, it was all building up inside of her. She had hesitated a moment before letting you know all those things but you didn't stop to question her reasons until she was done telling you.

She had feared your reaction but you didn't run away or accused her of any of the possible crimes any other would have claimed against you. Instead you listened, tried your best to understand the situation, never doubting Lena's intentions, and she loved you because of it.

"How do you always know what to say?" She couldn't stop looking at you with adoration.

"Maybe that's my superpower."

"I'm really glad I can tell you my secrets now."

"You always can." You saw her smile.

You had wished to stay a bit longer like this, looking into her beautiful eyes and letting everything else around you fade, but the day had just started and you were far from solving the end of the world. Proof of it was the sudden blast of broken glass that followed a moment later. You barely had time to react and protect Lena from the shards of glass flying into your direction.

"Where's the child?" Reign screamed after bursting into the room.

"Lena! Get do-!" You pushed Lena out of Reign's reach but got caught in the middle.

"You wouldn't happen to know where she is, would you?" Reign held you by the neck in a swift movement. Her hand closing around it until your lungs were out of air. However, she had no intention to keep playing with you. You weren't the person she was looking for and had no problem getting you out of her way.

"Where is Ruby Arias?" She screamed again, tossing you across the room. You hit the opposite wall and collapsed like a rag doll,  except you doubted a rag doll would have felt her bones break.    

Lena came rushing in a second, kryptonite sprayer in hand, ready to face Reign. "You will never find her."  

Surprised by Lena's attack Reign inhaled the kryptonite and had no other choice but to fly away before it caused her more damage.

It wasn't everyday you got to see a supervillian run away like a sprayed kitten so you let out a chuckle that unfortunately made your ribs hurt like hell.

"(Y/N)!" Lena dropped the spray and ran towards you. "You are gonna be okay, darling, help is coming."

You nodded slowly at her, trying not to move and concentrating on her words. The pain was becoming more and more evident with each passing minute. You hand't fully realized how bad your injuries were until Reign was gone but you still thanked the skies above you were still alive.  

A DEO team reached the apartment soon after and you were taken to the their medical bay as fast as it was possible to be attended. Lena had to stay behind, explaining J'onn and Supergirl what had happened, but you assured her you were going to be fine.

You ended up with a couple of broken ribs, a slight concussion, and Lena staying at your own apartment most nights. She had wanted to make sure you were following the doctor's orders and offered herself to help you at home. She would come after work to help you prepare dinner or help you out with some chores that you couldn't do by yourself, or that she would deem to hurtful in your current condition.

A few mornings were spent around the kitchen, a couple of late evenings trying to decide which movie to watch, and a few others with her reminding you to take your medicine as you both worked beside each other, still trying to find a solution to the Reign problem.

Somehow you knew it was an excuse for her to keep an eye on you and a form of apology for what Lena considered had been her fault but you were glad to have her around. It had been your wildest dream, after all, and Lena also seemed to have surprised herself. Domestic life wasn't something she thought could suit her but as she spent time with you she got used to your presence and the little routine you had managed to create.

"You're doing much better, it seems like you won't need me around anymore." She said one afternoon after you finished your lunch.

"Actually, Lena, I was hoping, uh, you may like to...stay with me?" You said a bit hesitant.

Lena looked at you across the table, not completely sure about what you were asking. "Are you suggesting I move in with you?"

"I know this isn't a five star hotel and it's far from being a mansion like the one where you grew up but," you took a deep breath before continuing, feeling a knot of nervousness in your stomach, "it would make me really happy if you decided to stay around more than often. Maybe for breakfast, and lunch, and dinner. You could take the right side of my closet and of my bed, or the left side, which ever you prefer. We could binge watch every episode of Friends until we fall asleep on the couch and, best of all, I could wake up by your side every morning."

Lena was staring at you and you knew by her surprised expression she hadn't expected something like this. You rambled without pause, worrying that if you stopped you wouldn't get it out or mess it all up. Then you took a deep breath and felt your cheeks burn up.

"You don't have to decide right now, just think about it." You finished.

A moment passed before she answered with the biggest smile you had seen in her."(Y/N). I really like waking up next to you too."

[aceselfships]

nightmares.

wrow why am i on a sudden kick for this man anyway.

comfort fluff!! im sure u can guess what’s happening from the title. plotless, but set after the events of the first movie. enjoy it guys!!

ship: life found a way, i guess.

The clock read some early hour of the morning, and the rain pattered softly on the screen on the other side of the window. A cool breeze crept through the cracked window, bringing in the scent of freshwater and city nights with it, mixing in with the scent of books and coffee.

Ian wasn’t asleep.

He couldn’t bring himself to. There were too many things his mind could go to in sleep, too many horrible, dark, nightmarish things that he’d already gone through and didn’t want to relive again, even if they were just nightmares. He had gone through enough horrible things in his life, but he’d managed to get through them and cope, but what he had gone through on the island… he doubted that he would ever get around or through that. How do you even cope with nearly getting killed and eaten by dinosaurs anyway? There was no modern therapy for that, there was only the people with shared experiences who still needed to work through it themselves.

Alan, Ellie, Hammond, Lex, Tim…. Michelle.

The brunette was surprisingly asleep in his bed, as he turned to look at her. Her back was to him, hair a mess and curled in on herself, as she often did when he wasn’t sleeping next to her. The chaotician sighed, running a hand through his dark curls before taking another sip of his coffee. He was surprised Michelle could sleep through all of this, but if there was one thing he knew about her, she had never been able to pull an all nighter. Even directly after the incident at the park, she was barely getting through the flight back to Austin before she collapsed and fell in and out of sleep for an odd number of hours at his apartment. He, on the other hand, being a studlier of chaos, a teacher of it, and having a bad habit of hyperfixating and overworking himself, was used to caffeine filled nights stretching on for weeks. The bags under his eyes were proof enough of that. How long had it been since they were this big, anyway?

Malcolm stared out the window, at the city lights beyond it. His mind thought back to the excitement Michelle had shared when he told her about Gennaro’s offer to take him to Hammond’s park, how she grabbed his hands and grinned and laughed about a place called Jurassic Park, how she begged him to go along, saying it could be like a fun couple’s outing for them. He’d laughed at her adorable, endearing enthusiasm, asking Gennaro if it was alright, who in turn asked Hammond, and the answer had been yes.

She’d given him the biggest, tightest hug after that. She only hugged him like that when she was extremely happy, like how she had hugged him after he’d asked her out the first time, after they’d shared their first kiss, after he had asked her to move in with him. He wouldn’t mind one of those hugs again, but he would never tell her about it- they were much better when they weren’t asked for.

Ian feels the blankets shift behind him, and he turns, curious. Michelle had curled even further in on herself, and it took him a second to realize she was whimpering. He sets the coffee on the nightstand hastily, climbing gingerly onto the bed. His girlfriend was whimpering and shaking, crying quietly. Her mumbles were unintelligible, but judging by how she was acting, trembling and twitching and tense, he knew what it was.

More nightmares.

His hand tenderly reaches out, but he doesn’t touch her- he didn’t know how she would react. “Mich?” His voice is low and quiet as he gets closer to her, enough to not touch her, but close enough to be in proximity if she needed him. “Honey? Peaches? H-hey, hey now, c’mon… wake up. Wake up. Whatever you’re seeing, whatever you’re feeling, i-it’s not real. ‘S just a nightmare, sweetheart.”

Her mouth opens in a silent scream, before a sob breaks out of her throat.

“Please,” he says, more desperate than before, “please wake up, Peaches.”

It worked. She snaps awake with a scream, bolting up from the bed and nearly knocking into him. Ian jumps back to get out of her way as she rockets up, scream silencing into heavy, laboured breathing. Her brown hair was tousled into even more of a mess, her eyes wide and fearful. Sweat dripped down her forehead, he noticed as she slowly turned to look at him after a few moments of silence.

“... Ian?” Her normally sure voice was quiet and shaky, like a piece of paper in the wind. “W-where… where are we?”

“Home, honey. We’re home in Austin.”

“A-are you sure? P-please, can, can you, can you, uh, uh please, check outside…”

He nods, getting up to look out the window for her sake. They were high in the apartment building, the city lights glowing outside the window, reflecting off of the drops of rain on the window. He opened the cracked one a little further, not caring if water got into the room and on the floor- it was hardwood anyway, and Michelle needed something real to feel.

“No dinosaurs out here.” Ian assures her, looking at the street below. Nothing but a lit street with a car or two passing by. Just the quietness of a rainy city…. Well, as quiet as a city can get.

“Are y-you sure?” She stutters from the bed, and he chuckles.

“What, are you just now starting to doubt me, sweetheart?”

His comment makes her smile at him, but only a little, on her tear streaked cheeks and through her shaky breaths. The chaotician slowly sits back on the bed, meeting her eyes, a wordless question. Michelle nods, and he gently takes her hand in his, running his thumb over her knuckles- an anti-anxiety practice he used with her.

“We’re safe, darling. Nothing is gonna, uh, gonna get us up here.”

Its after a few minutes that he sees her calm herself down, closing her eyes and taking in a few deep breaths. Michelle was managing it better now, and he was proud of her for that, kissing her knuckles and smiling. After a few more deep breaths, she opened her eyes and cleared her throat, reaching to talk again.

“Ian?”

“Mm?”

“... Can we cuddle?”

He sighs, rolling his eyes, faking exasperation. “D’ ya really need to ask, Peaches?” That earns him a giggle as they hunker down under the blankets, resting her head on his chest. His coffee long forgotten, Ian knew he could last through the night if it meant watching over her.

“Thanks, Patches.” Comes her tired mumble, reaching up to kiss his neck.

“You’re welcome.” He beams, threading his fingers through her long hair. She sighs in content, smiling against his chest, but he wasn’t done yet.

Michelle could already feel sleep starting to grasp at her again, before Ian’s low voice filled her ears:

“... Take me home tonight, I don’t wanna let you go ‘til you see the light…”

[scarlettlawyer]

Part 11 of my reaction/commentary to the Phantoms & Mirages Saga, the fanfic series by @renegadewangs

(Chasing Phantoms): Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

(Haunted Specters): Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

(Vanquishing Mirages): Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9

Vanquishing Mirages / Lifting Spirits: Part 10

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 1

At the very least, he could rest easy knowing that his first motorcycle lesson hadn’t been a complete disaster. The future looked promising.

ANY future looks promising when it has Motorcycle Simon in it

“Here, I brought you a sandwich.” “Is it chicken?”

Blackquill: [known bird lover, intense lover of birds pouring over bird documentaries in his spare time and cherishing Taka with all his heart]

The boy who would become the phantom, the moment he is presented with a sandwich: iS IT CHICKEN?

“But… People die when they are killed.”

ASDJHSDBKJS

A+ DIALOGUE THANK YOU I LOVE IT. GOOOSH I’M. SOMEBODY needs to compile a list of things this same person has said in this series. The above line. The courtroom jokes, the irony line… the “I’m aroace” line… The other things he said to intentionally turn Bobby against him post-phantomquill kissbait, throw in a bunch of other Lex lines too. The RANGE. THE SHEER RANGE. You could just do a list like that, show it to someone and be like “Yeeeaahh so ALL of these are essentially said by the same character in different stages of his life.”

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 2

Finally, there was a knock on the door and Lang led the way into the room. He looked irritable. He’d been giving off that air since before the surgery. Lex had a suspicion on what might be causing such irritation, but kept it to himself. Lang wouldn’t take his advice on matters like that anyway.

“Matters like that” I’M FGLKFGLKNGF

OKAY ALSO

I SOMEHOW MISREMEMBERED THIS AS BEING SOMETHING HE THINKS BACK BEFORE THE SURGERY BUT EITHER WAY IT’S JUST. GOLD.

The phantom – or the former phantom – Lex just sitting there doing his best to refrain from giving out romantic advice.

Someone younger than he’d expected. This man couldn’t be older than thirty- probably hadn’t even reached that age yet. […] this guy looked rather meek. He was lean; the sort of physique that made it seem like a strong gust of wind could blow him off his feet. His black hair was smoothed back with copious amounts of gel and his face bore overly kind features. A few sheets of paper and a notebook were clutched firmly under his right arm. Coupled with his neat black suit, dark blue tie and thick-rimmed glasses, he looked more like a door-to-door salesman than a therapist.

GEEEEE MEOWZY, GEEEE, SUCH DESCRIPTION, I WONDER IF HE’S AN IMPORTANT CHARACTER OR ANYTHING sdjnksdfknl.

Okay but back when I read this 1st time I was like. Well I seriously didn’t know WHY the hell this guy needed such a strong narrative focus on what he looked like. Like. “He’s the therapist. That’s all we need to know. He’s not important! Why do we care what he looks like! Why does it matter!” askjbsdkjnedskj just felt SO excessive just annoying that the narrative felt like it Cared so much about a random therapist character DFKDFKJ GOD I WAS A FOOL

AND ALSO UHHH

Like yes this fic post-bait was still promising and as superb as ever and had thrilled me with things like the music-listening thing BUT. I need you to understand that I was still very hurt over Fake Phantomquill and therefore, REALLY not in the mood for getting to know Sudden New Characters. The intense goodwill I’d built up for this series over three fics had been largely derailed at this point. I just… didn’t really care all that much about giving new characters a chance thanks to that new apathy. That, and the fact that this series genuinely felt like it was reaching the end at this point, with all of the Major Players already introduced. So how could any important character POSSIBLY show up now? Coupled with how Done I was after the phantomquill bait. SO YKNOW. Idiot that I am, I kind of breezed over the above paragraph a little impatiently without really taking anything in, like I read it but didn’t really ABSORB it or incorporate the physical description into how I pictured the character. I was just like “yeah ok he’s the therapist moving on? What’s next?” (BENNY I’M SO SORRY I WAS VERY MEAN). So yeah, my foolish logic: “series is almost over, all the important characters are introduced, therefore no character introduced at this point could possibly be important, therefore I don’t need to care about or pay attention to anyone new.”

…Like okay, I knew the story wanted me to see this new character as someone important and therefore pay attention to them, but I couldn’t understand why and therefore intentionally failed to pay much close attention almost out of spite.

But like. God. If I had actually bothered to take in anything about that physical description I would have actually NOTICED how handsome he is right from the start. Joke’s on me!

“[…] a person who’s supposed to have no emotions is incredibly interesting.”

[…]

Such an odd point of view was another thing that took Lex by surprise. All his life, people had called him a monster. A freak. A heartless robot or a demon. A Phantom. No one had ever considered his emotional state to be interesting. No one had ever considered it an honor to be sitting across from him. Who in their right mind would?

WHY WOULD YOU CALL ME OUT LIKE THIS

HELLO. SDKJNSFKJNSDKJ. ALSO THANK YOU SOMEONE ACTUALLY AGREES HOW INTERESTING THE LACK OF EMOTIONS THING IS.

But this is so funny it’s like the fic is takign aim at the fangirls. Me, a phantom fan: Hah… Yes… Who in their right mind would consider it an honour to be sitting across from him.. sdkjsdkjdsf

(Okay, that angle didn’t occur to me on 1st readthrough but now I’m just jokingly like “I feel so attacked” HAHAAH)

Most of the focus had been on Lex’s physical health and the way he was being treated, both on a medical level and on a personal level. Emotions could affect the body and Lex had to admit that recovery from his surgery was still going at a slow pace. 

OH MY GOOOOOD FUUUUUDGE TH. BENNY IS SIZING HIM UP HE’S ASKING THOSE KINDS OF QUESTIONS FOR A REASON. GOD DAAAMN IT BENNY… Knowing the way he is being treated medically, things like that, can make it just that little bit easier! To! Make an attempt on his life! I’M

TFW u do ur job as a therapist but also as an assassin simultaneously.

No one else stopped by his room for hours on end. Not until it was time for the guard shift to rotate and Bobby Fulbright came strolling inside. Over the past week, it’d become painfully obvious that the Phantom’s attempt to crush the man’s cheerful attitude towards him had failed. That Bobby was still as overbearing as ever, acting as if that little incident involving Simon Blackquill hadn’t happened.

Idiot spy underestimated the power and strength of just HOW MUCH Bobby cares about him.

“Hahaha, that’s just like him.” Bobby nudged the wrapper towards the bin with his foot. “And just so you know, he’s single.”

BOBBY NO. THAT IS HIS THERAPIST. THAT IS YOUR THERAPIST,

Lex made sure to shoot Bobby the most emotionless expression he could still bring his face to ease into. It was funny how the surgery had messed with even that much. “It isn’t too late for me to end your life, you know.”

SDJKSDFNKJSDFKLNSDLNKSDLKN this & him saying this is so funny SEND HELP

The mark of Shelly de Killer.

OH. OKAAAY. I’D FORGOTTEN THAT THE FIRST ASSASSINATION ATTEMPT TAKES PLACE ON THE SAME DAY. BENNY WASTES NO TIME AT ALL… And it makes sense I mean. He got the info he needed to go ahead, so why wait? Oh my god..

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 3

…It’s terrible how much I kind of enjoyed Lex’s sudden downturn; what essentially was the prelude to and then became a vomit scene just because This man used to be the Unshakeable Phantom! LOOK AT HIM NOW. >:D

Plus he starts off soooo arrogant and overconfident at the beginning of the chapter as well before Lang is just like. “Lol. Looks like you didn’t actually kill Shelly and he’s after you.” Making the rapid nosedive that follows even more… It feels kinda weird to say “amusing”, but… IDK MAN THERE’S JUST INHERENT NARRATIVE APPEAL IN THIS LEVEL OF WEAKNESS AND VULNERABILITY AND WHAT HAVE YOU ON DISPLAY after a bout of confidence no less, from this character with this history specifically. Any other character and I’d be appropriately squicked out/feeling bad. I CAN BE VERY MEAN TO MY FAVE.

Also, “prayers to the porcelain god” is actually SUCH a good euphemism. Somehow… If I ever get the chance… I want to see if I can work it into saying it in real-life at least once. I don’t see any such opportunity arising anytime soon, however. :P

“Just send him in, it’s not like the day can get any worse,” Lex grumbled, clambering back onto his bed.

>:D

Benny shows up and it’s just pure dramatic irony. Re-reading is suuuuch a bonus.

What if they were endangering Benny by having him here?

OH MY G

“You’re a Snapple guy?”

I’M, I LOST IT AT THIS

Maybe he just wanted to be the one raising the questions- to be in control of the conversation. …Yeah, that was probably it. That was how the human psyche worked.

I’M?

“Of course. I don’t know how other people manage with their android phones. Snapple’s always got the upper hand,” Benny remarked, not even bothering to take his eyes off the screen.

Lex: Right. Have fun with your planned obsolescence, sucker.

IF A REAL LIFE MAN ACTUALLY SAID THIS TO MY FACE.. I GOTTA TELL YA… The sheer level of aggravating this is. XD. I DON’T KNOW IF I’D BE ABLE TO HOLD MYSELF BACK FROM SAYING SOMETHING.

Me internally if an IRL man said this to me: Oh so you’re insufferable and I probably won’t like you very much at all.

SDKJSDNKJSDNKJ

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 4

Bro. Bro I was suspicious of that coffee, man. And then when Lex drains it all, I was like “MMMM somehow… that feels like a mistake he’s going to regret.”

“Could there be any kind of poison in it that interpol could fail to detect?”

But, I didn’t suspect Benny of wrongdoing. I was suspicious of the coffee, but not Benny. I figured that if the coffee had been tampered with, Benny was completely unaware of it. But then, I forgot about it and put it out of mind after that when nothing too dramatic happened immediately after he takes the coffee.

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 5

“It’s fine.” Lex was embarrassed to hear that he’d taken on a rather squeaky tone.

Embarrassed… Embarrassed… Embarrassed…!

Yeeeees. It’s like I’ve waited 3 full fics and then some to see this man FINALLY be embarrassed. Feels good.

…Well this chapter certainly gets intense after that. :[

Now this second vomit scene is actually quite appropriately upsetting to read. OOF.

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 6

Bro just imagining that slowed-down music really IS super eerie, damn.

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 7

“Bobby Fulbright. I was under the impression that you were no longer allowed to be here.”

Gooood he STILL goes for the full titles all the time when “orienting” to the conversation, like he didn’t need to use any name at all here. I’m telling you, 1. This is his character trait, Lex and Phantom alike, and 2. It’s so Franziskan sdkjsdnkjsd.

Bobby sighed. It was like everyone around him realized his care for the Phantom was unwarranted. He himself realized it too, but that didn’t change anything. “I know. I’m just an idiot like that.” “Acknowledgment is the first step to recovery. Now take the next step and get out.” With that, Lex made to slide the headphones back over his ears.

UM rUDE xDDD

While the concept of him being aromantic had been cast into doubt ever since the surgery, he didn’t mean to dig much further into it. Unless he was somehow miraculously saved from execution, his sexuality didn’t matter. He would die just as he’d always lived; alone. The concept didn’t quite stop him from appreciating Benny’s handsome features, though. Or the way Benny kept smiling as if he wasn’t looking at a murderer.

Ohooooh my. Here we are! Precisely what connects back strongly to a lot of the stuff I discussed in my previous post but I couldn’t quite fit it in.

So like. I could very much see what was going on here. Mhm. Yes I did. We are getting implied Lex/Benny. And, confession time, but I MIGHT have stumbled across a post that heavily implied Lex/Benny back before I had ANY inkling of who Benny was… Back before Lex was Lex. So it meant absolutely nothing to me at the time, it simply DEEPLY confused me in the sense of “You’d think I’ve read far enough into the series and yet WHY can’t I make heads or tails of this post?” But, I quickly put it out of mind and temporarily forgot about it and was able to continue reading the text “blind”, but when Benny actually showed up… and Lex is Lex now… And Bobby’s all “He’s SINGLE 😉” I narrowed my eyes all like. Oh. Oh… There’s a certain way this could go. But I still thought “Hey. Maybe nothing will happen and neither of them will develop feelings, maybe it’s just like, a fun side-idea the author personally likes but didn’t put directly into the story- ohhhh and here it is hints on Lex’s side building up in the story. WELL THEN.”

It just felt like…

The author: [shipteases phantomquill, phantom/Athena (YES I KNOW THAT WAS A JOKE AND I AM INCLUDING IT ONLY AS A JOKE THAT WILL LENGTHEN THIS LIST), spyshipping, and even Freudian Phantombright (I AM ALSO INCLUDING THIS LAST ONE ONLY AS A JOKE)]

The author, after doing all of this: [whips out/ushers in their OC at the last minute to pair up with him]

Me:

DFJKSDLKSDKL

The above is a retooled version of a message I sent to my friend at the time – I hope the summary comes across as more of a comically condensed expression of frustration-at-the-time and not mean-spirited (mean-spirited is not what I want to be, I just exaggerate for comical effect is all, and I didn’t expect I’d be telling my feelings to the author directly ahhah..) But as already established? I was quite bitter over the now-you-see-it-now-you-don’t phantomquill, and so I was not particularly impressed at the time as a result… xDDD

I also just love how he, of all characters, seems to be the “launcher of a thousand ships” here… LOL

But of course, Benny is not technically an OC, is he? :P You can argue he’s merely an interpretation of a canon character from Dual Destinies – the courtroom sniper. Dskjdsjknsd

At the time it might have felt “ushered in”, but in reality, Benny has that connection to a “canon” character – the courtroom sniper – the further connection to ace attorney canon through being Shelly’s son, AAAND has already been very much intertwined in this series through “off-screen” references. He really is quite heavily grounded in the fic’s lore. And in Ace Attorney lore. Very, very clever and well-done. …Of course, I didn’t know any of this until the Reveal, so I remained unimpressed until then. Now post-reveal is a different story, and I came to intensely appreciate not only Benny as a character but also just how awesome the dynamic between Benny and Lex really is.

Shipping aside, you have the aroace business… I have actually previously come across a post on your blog where you stated you kinda felt bad for not keeping Lex aroace. I feel like this can easily get pretty thorny, and I want to kind of, as I stated in a previous post, analyse the text as an independent entity here – how I would judge/react to the text without any knowledge of or contact with the author or the context it was crafted in. Indeed, at the time of reading Lifting Spirits I didn’t have a clue what you may personally be or whether you were personally aro/ace or not and couldn’t make any assumptions either way.

There’s, I guess, two main ways to look at this… the phantom was effectively aroace and there was never any evidence suggesting otherwise. But with blocked emotions removed, it turns out the man is not aroace. You can treat “the phantom” and “Lex” as two separate entities in this regard.

But the phantom didn’t completely lack emotions. If Lex is not aroace… It stands to reason that EVEN IF there never was any evidence to suggest the phantom was anything but aroace, there was still the potential for small, limited amounts of evidence that he wasn’t to occur, even if such a thing did not happen to occur when he was the phantom. Which would make the phantom technically not aroace(?) but he simply never realised that. Hmm.

If there were a blanket consistency – if the phantom had experienced an extremely limited and probably outright warped sense of attraction or something like that – or if Lex was also aroace – then there wouldn’t be any “issue”. But as it is, it’s very easy to derive Unfortunate Implications from how it is set up, wherein the Emotionless Killer is aroace, but then he gets to experience proper emotions and becomes a “real person” who basically gets redeemed as that new person and all of a sudden… Only after becoming a “real” and “proper” human being he experiences attraction. It’s all too easy to feel like perhaps the message is that attraction is an integral part of the human experience – EVERYONE’S human experience.

And the flip that happens between the phantom and Lex in this realm further drove home what I perceived to be the massive distinction being made between the two and helped fuel much of my feelings surrounding what I discussed in the previous post. About how perhaps “the phantom” was being thrown under the bus to set up Lex as the good and better alternative. By treating them as two separate people, the connection is not TOO far away to feel as if the aroace aspect is attached to the phantom as part of what gets “thrown under the bus”, inherently attached to a villain seeing as it does not get carried over, inherently attached to emotionlessness – something necessary to be “cast aside” in order to fully complete a transition into a redeemable and “complete” human being.

I do know that none of this was your intent, and I sensed at the time of reading that it was not the author’s active intent as well, but not having enough background context at the time, I couldn’t entirely dismiss the possibility that perhaps it was a possible unintended predisposition bleeding through – nothing malicious in the least, mind you. But perhaps a subconscious assumption that every human being feels attraction and… idk. I wanted to believe the best of the work and the author but it was just, at the very least, an unintended implication that I could not entirely ignore. Being ace myself, it kinda stung, although I did keep that to a minimum until I could actually have more context.

I’m glad for being able to have access to additional context so that I can enjoy the work as it is to the best extent – if, for example, I did not have access to any information or additional context whatsoever about the author and the background under which the work was crafted in, I wouldn’t have been able to entirely shake the discomfort and it’s something small that would have continued to bug me long after I’d finished reading, if only for the fact that I would never have been able to know for sure if the writer was actually dismissing something like asexuality or not.

And Conflicted Thoughts/Feelings once again because, if we step back for a moment and look at this particular narrative thread as it exists in Lifting Spirits and its conclusion as a whole, I AM happy for Lex, it’s great that he gets to have a love interest, it’s a great ship, and the concept of the former phantom becoming attracted to someone and getting a crush is so so great…

What it ultimately comes down to, is that even if you can read Unfortunate Implications into the text regarding the aroace business, any such implications were not your intent. I much prefer reading a text in the most charitable way possible to enjoy it to the fullest possible extent, so that’s what I’ve ultimately done, given additional background info.

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 8

The complete role reversal of this chapter is so good… For months and months prior to ever beginning to read this series, I’d actually been working on a fanfic of my own, albeit for a different fandom. It also centres around inverted character dynamics and such as the central running theme to the extent that it’s even alluded to in the title… But this… The role reversal or transformation that Lifting Spirits centres around is so… It does it so damn well. Kind of makes me want to hold myself and my own fanfiction to a higher standard.

I had perhaps been a little bit suspicious of Benny prior to this chapter, but not much… And the end of the previous chapter had me VERY much like “OK… SOMETHING’S WRONG HERE… SOMETHING’S WRONG! WHAT IS THIS GUY’S DEAL?!” BUT omg this reveal

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 9

He’s the fourth heir to the lineage of De Killer, which means spilling blood is in his blood. It’s a shame, really, that he can’t stand the sight of it.

This chapter description is just so poetic. It’s like, the chapter description is not really separate from the fic itself – it’s just as artistically intertwined with the text. Absolutely GORGEOUS chapter description.

Oughhhhh Benny’s backstory and just. His whole character and the internal conflicts that he has and EVERYTHING is just so damn compelling WOW!

The glimpses into Benny’s past and home life are such a fascinating look into how vastly different his frame of references are… How very unique his perspective and positioning in the world is.

The Phantom… Benjamin had heard of this man, of course. An international spy. One who was so wanted that his father had been hired by at least five clients.

F-FIVE CLIENTS?! AT LEAST? LEGEND.

Okay this is quite interesting to think about too because I always figured that Shelly would only ever take on one client and have one target at a time, so that he could devote his full attention to the task at hand and uphold his end of the contract – his client has faith in him to do a job and to do a job well, so I figured a single-handed focus would be part of that. Under normal circumstances, this would present no issue. Why would it? Shelly’s very good at his job and tracking down an assigned individual target wouldn’t be too difficult. My impression is that a job would generally take maybe 2-3 weeks from the time of meeting with the client and the deed getting done, unless it’s exceptionally easy and the person in question gets taken out within the week.

But obviously the phantom presents a clear problem to that operational method. Shelly’s left with a target he has little to no leads on, no physical description, no name beyond the title, who could be anywhere and anyone. Job like that’s gonna take a little bit longer than three weeks. But Shelly is nothing if not a professional, and he’s more than happy to honour his client’s wishes if they want this guy dead, and he’s certainly not gonna give up or back down from the request…! I wonder if Shelly was in the habit of taking on multiple clients at the time or if he was forced to break from his standard method of operation, cause if he has no leads he has to wait until one turns up/keep searching indefinitely. And it kinda puts a huge damper on business to not accept any new clients for years on end. Maaaaan not being able to take the phantom out quickly & efficiently must’ve bugged the HELL out of him too. He’s made a commitment to his client, his (first) client is trusting him to take this guy out, and YEARS pass and STILL it hasn’t been done. Wonder what kind of dynamic that would have caused between Shelly and the first client.

I have no real doubt that Shelly actually had enough money to put business on hold for a few years if that’s what it meant to track down the phantom, if he wanted to. But it’s just not practical if he genuinely has 0 leads to go on for months on end, it makes more sense to be doing stuff in the meantime. PLUS, part of it would also be to ensure that the de Killer name does not fall into disuse and remains prominent in the minds of the public. To disappear for years only for calling cards to start showing up again… It just wouldn’t look particularly good for The Brand I suppose? The general public wouldn’t know the reason for the silence.

There’s not only that, but he accepts requests from multiple clients for the same target, hugely increasing his payout for a single job. I would have thought it’s possible that were someone to make a request that’s already been made, Shelly might be like “Ah, actually, you can’t select this particular individual”. And if years have passed with no success it begins to raise questions about the “ethics” of accepting further requests for the same person if part of the payment is being made in advance, which I’m sure it is. But then again – I’m sure there was no doubt in Shelly’s mind that he’d actually get him in the end. The length of time that passed didn’t matter. The job would be done, and he was never going to give up. He had multiple clients depending on him, after all.

I guess every time he got another Phantom request he’d sigh and internally be like “ADD THIS CLIENT TO THE LIST I SUPPOSE…”

Client: I want you to take out the phantom

Shelly, internally: Get in line

Dsjsdjh

Really though I’m very sure that the phantom’s difficulty to track down would have irked Shelly to no end. Not that he would necessarily let such sentiments show externally.

And while I’m speaking about this, I guess I will also address Benny being his son here as well. My reaction REALLY was “HIS FATHER??? HIS FATHER????”

I’ve never played DGS and I know there’s de Killer stuff going on in those game(s) and I don’t know if any light is shed in that series on how the lineage works – hm! It’s interesting to think about. One of the theories I’ve seen proposed is that the new de Killer establishes themselves as such by successfully taking out the previous de Killer – no familial relation. That has logistical issues of its own however but it was kind of the default idea that I’d gone with as I hadn’t really seen any others discussed.

Shelly’s unique job and his intense dedication to said job makes it very VERY hard for me to picture him not only establishing a relationship with someone but also fathering a child with someone… It’s quite hard for me to picture how it would work. How it would look in practice. And of course, in the Benny flashbacks, there is no mention of a mother. So I was a little bit like ????? on that front. And then you get the reveal practically at the VERY end of the fic that Benny is adopted, which makes plenty of sense. It is hard for me to picture Shelly as a father but I CAN see him adopting, caring for and raising an adopted child. A child that is to continue the proud de Killer heritage.

THE FACT THAT SOMEONE GOT MISTAKENLY SHOT BECAUSE THEY WERE ASSUMED TO BE THE PHANTOM BUT WEREN’T… OOF. Hope Shelly didn’t prematurely celebrate on that one. He might’ve already enlisted three clients wanting the phantom gone by that point and thought that he could FINALLY collect the rest of whatever money they owed him from them – that he could FINALLY reassure them that the guy was finally flippin’ DEAD. Perhaps only for the phantom to show up AGAIN some time later. (Shelly doing refunds? Dsjksdkj). Ok but on a serious note – I know he would’ve probably known it was not the phantom either immediately after/soon after the guy was shot. There’s things like No Mask and whatnot and probably the aftermath would have made it obvious it was the wrong person without the phantom needing to show up on Shelly’s radar once again. But OOF.

In March, a man had come to see Ben ‘Benny’ Volent, seeking counseling. A man who bore the name of Bobby Fulbright.

WHEN THIS REALISATION HIT ME… OH MY GOD? OH MY GOD? BOBBY FULBRIGHT HAD BEEN UNLOADING THE TRAUMA OF WHAT HE SAW… ONTO THE SON OF THE VICTIM! I CANNOT. THAT IS… NOT GOOD. Being so close to the murder victim can compromise the therapist’s ability to assist the patient at hand, so… conflict of interest! Benny had to sit there and listen to recounts that would have deepened his OWN pain. Bro I am SO sorry. WHAT a punch this was.

Agent Lang had mentioned a move to the federal prison right in front of Benny.

NO JOKE but back when that scene originally occurred I was just like “UMM should they REALLY be discussing this while the therapist is there?” Because I had found Benny to be a LITTLE bit potentially suspicious and. Hmm!

OKAY THE FUNNIEST PART – OR RATHER – THE MOST WACK PART OF THIS ENTIRE SITUATION IS JUST HOW MANY LEVELS OF “CROSSES THE LINE TWICE” IT IS.

Like. The realisations started pouring in for me, one after the other. First it was like “um, Benny counselling Bobby considering the circumstances is a conflict of interest that can potentially compromise his ability to remain objective and properly assist Bobby’s recovery”. THEN, hilariously enough, I was like “UM, IT IS HIGHLY UNPROFESSIONAL FOR BENNY TO ACT AS LEX’S THERAPIST – EXTREME CONFLICT OF INTEREST SEEING AS THE PHANTOM KILLED BENNY’S FATHER AND YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED PERSONAL BIASES TO GET IN THE WAY WITH HOW YOU SEE THE PATIENT”. This was coupled with how… awkward I found it earlier on for Bobby to even suggest, however jokingly, to Lex that Benny was single – how iffy it was for Lex to have developed feelings for Benny (cause if you got feelings for ur therapist that’s bad news for the therapy and Lex even seems to know this) or the possibility that perhaps it was on some level reciprocated, which would be highly unprofessional and further detrimental to the therapist-patient relationship.

BUT THEN I REALISED THIS WAS ALL MOOT AND COMPLETELY BLOWN OUT OF THE WATER ALL BY:

BENNY WAS TRYING TO KILL LEX THE WHOLE TIME ANYWAY.

So LITERALLY WHO CARES about conflict of interest or “professional conduct” here, I’M PRETTY SURE IT IS NOT IN THE LINE OF A THERAPIST’S WORK TO BE ACTIVELY TRYING TO KILL YOUR PATIENT.

And all I could do was laugh. This is the kind of crosses-the-line-twice funny, there’s just SUCH a cluster of professional breaches going on that it is OFF THE CHARTS and loops back around to being hilarious. You can’t even criticise ANYTHING specific about Benny’s conduct, there’s no point, because it is so BLATANTLY and obviously out of line, professionally and legally speaking, in its ENTIRETY. And then you realise his credentials were faked to begin with too, even though he’s genuinely studied the profession and is good at what he does. He’s walking around with faked qualifications ANYWAY.

Lex and Benny’s patient-therapist dynamic was stuffed to HIGH hell, inherently, far before it ever began. It was already compromised beyond belief. THE GUY’S QUALIFICATIONS AREN’T EVEN 100% LEGIT… >failed step one. It is SO wild and subsequently funny as a result. Benny got built up as such a good therapist too, and don’t get me wrong, he does seem to actually be good at what he does as I said. But then you go ahead and reveal all of this about him and it’s sooo… omg

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 10

Simon was about to turn away when he thought he saw it. Just for a fraction of a second. Were Alexander’s lips about to quirk into a victorious smirk? …No, that was ridiculous.

OOOHH MY GOOOOOD I HAD TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT THIS I SWEAR TO GOD………… I swear to god. Acting skills WAY too strong. He’s still got it. This man is way too powerful/skilled for his own good I swear to god.

Yes, he successfully got Benny to leave and he got out of the ordeal of being held at gunpoint unscathed. But he still had been terrified when going through that. Regardless of how things turned out it makes sense for Lex to be in shock and still be working out some of that fear. Because he HAD been genuinely terrified. And I wouldn’t be surprised if he is genuinely a little in shock during this scene but oh my god.. Because it makes sense for him to still be jittery and then I just. LEX. KINDA HATE THAT I MAYBE GOT A LITTLE WORRIED BECAUSE STILL BEING SHAKEN MAKES SENSE BUT ALSO CONFUSED AT THE EXTENT. On first and second readthrough.

Can’t really say too much else about this chapter right now it’s just sooo intense and riveting gosh.

For a split second, it seemed like Fulbright was so overcome with emotion he might try to pull Alexander into a hug as well. Luckily, Lang cleared his throat in such a loud manner that it was obvious he did so on purpose.

LANG HOW COULD YOU. “LUCKILY” MY FOOT.

Lifting Spirits, Chapter 11

His license was most likely a fake. Would any report compiled by him be worth a damn? And to think, Bobby Fulbright had spoken so highly of him.

WAIT I WAS ONLY JUST SAYING THIS EARLIER SDKSDKNS

Hey. I obviously knew this Mirage scene was coming this time around and yet it managed to somehow sneak up on me anyway. When I got up to it and read through it I just outright started crying. I did not cry on the first readthrough, I was completely dry-eyed. I GOT SUPER ATTACHED TO AND MORE EMOTIONAL OVER MIRAGE ON MY SECOND READTHROUGH OF THIS SERIES FOR A REASON.

Oh, something else that struck me on first readthrough about this scene was… The phantom always EASILY felt to me the far more “bad” person compared to Mirage. When compared to the phantom, Mirage always felt… well, it was easy for me to forget that she’s also done terrible things, that she’s also a criminal. She naturally just seemed like the waay better person – with SOME amount of a moral compass. So it was odd to suddenly have her being in the same room as Lex, no longer being contrasted against the phantom, but contrasted against Lex instead… Lex seems to actually have a much more proper moral compass compared to her now. He’s actually filled with remorse and regrets.

Mirage… still chose to kill people. She’s still herself, and that self is someone who didn’t have a bone sliver preventing her from understanding how much of a powerful impact death can have. It was odd… Lex knows internally how bad killing people is now. Mirage most likely still doesn’t really know… not only that, but… he would know that she doesn’t? I don’t know how to explain what I’m getting at here, but yeah.

Also:

“Why did you ask to see me?” he found himself asking. “…Why do you care?” She giggled, the sound of it rather strained. “Because we’re friends, you idiot.” “We’re not…-”

Me:

“You’d better pray the Phantom’s retrial leads to the death penalty. I’m being released next year, but I wouldn’t mind being tossed right back in here if it means I got to strangle Metis’s killer with these two hands.”

…N-NEXT YEAR?! BUT THAT’S… SO SOON… SOONER THAN I… THOUGHT… I FIGURED SHE HAD LIKE… MAYBE ANOTHER TWO YEARS LEFT… I DIDN’T REMEMBER HER SAYING IT’S NEXT YEAR.

[Thinks about this line and then Tracking Ghosts]

Oh my god… Can it PLEASE at least be the second half of the year I’m dying here… Like I KNEW she had to be released from prison eventually and. Yeah. I JUST THOUGHT WE HAD MORE TIME.

You know what’s funny? This line 100% didn’t faze me on first readthrough. Ahahaha. Why should it have? “You’d better pray the Phantom’s retrial leads to the death penalty” was, after all, my own train of thought at the time… HDHDFH. I was just kinda [nods] “at least someone around here’s got the right idea.” …AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

You completely missed me on the first go, but second time’s a charm. Ya got me. Ya got me with this line this time around. I am worried. :’)

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thank u @cutestbooty u rlly r the cutest uwu

nicknames: benny/lex

zodiac sign: gemini babey!

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hogwarts house: ravenclaw apparently ive never actually watched or read harry potter but i took the house quiz anyways agdjabsjaja

last google: solicitors in london (i was looking for work experience grrrr)

favourite musicians: original broadway cast

song stuck in my head: LOCO MANIAC SICK BITCH PSYCHOPATH

following: idk like 1,000 or smth i have a lot of fandoms im in agdjabsjaj

do you get asks: not really but i wouldnt HATE it if i DID especially since i love talking abt myself ahdjabaka

amount of sleep: depends on the day and the coffee intake of that said day

lucky number: 9!

what ur wearing rn: pjs lol

dream job: zoologist or musical theatre agdjsja

dream trip: japan 4sure but honestly i love paris ive been tons but it never gets old

instrument: i play guitar and ukulele kinda amateur tho and i took druming lessons for a month that amounted to nothing so theres that

languages: italian, english and spanish n im trying sooooo hard to learn french grrr

favourite songs: my all time favs are wonderwall by oasis, hey there delilah by plain white ts, dancing with myself by billy idol, viva la vida by coldplay, and rockstar by hannah montana and glamazon by rupaul ahdjabska

random fact: i have an irrational fear of open spaces ????

aesthetic: (kinda literally the same at @cutestbooty 's but) parisian architecture, fruit, women i love women sm megauwu, the sea, the colour green, victorian garments and vampire anime girls ahdjabakaj

I TAG ANYONE WHO WANTS 2 !!!! i know how much fun these can be and even if no one reads them its fun to get to focus on urself for a bit, so i dont wanna constrict this to anyone bc everyone should have a lil fun! <3

[pepperonijem]

i. kilig || marahuyo

i. kilig → series masterlist

Kilig (n.) Filipino: refers to the feeling of excitement due to various romantic situations, including the feelings of butterflies in one’s stomach, heart fluttering, and uncontrollable smiling

Pairing: Peter Parker x Filipino!Reader

Warnings: I write a few words and phrases in Filipino, but there’s a glossary at the bottom with the translations!

Word Count: 2.6k

Summary: Peter Parker gives you butterflies and makes your heart melt, kilig, if you will; prompt “Those things you said yesterday… did you mean them?”

A/N: I wrote this for @dinnafashsoldat’s (rip I can’t tag you :( ) wonderful POC writing challenge. This was so amazing to do and it made me feel really empowered as a Filipino to put out a fic that truly celebrated my culture. Thank you so much for giving this opportunity! 

The halls of Midtown were quickly clearing out as everyone went home for the weekend, and you wished you were included in the exodus. You let out a sigh as you slowly walked to your locker, overhearing bits and pieces of conversations as you crossed through. Lex was volunteering at the local animal shelter on Sunday, Jeremy was visiting his relatives upstate, and you were pretty sure you heard someone mention something about a carnival coming to town. Unlike them, however, your weekend was going to be filled with nothing but cooking, cleaning, and of course, your nosy and tsismosa aunts who loved to ask about your love life. But before you could even be home for their weekend-long interrogation, you were stuck here at school for an “emergency” aca-deca meeting.

You reached your locker and pulled out your deca notes, which at this point in the semester was just full of random doodles. You shut the door, but paused and opened your notebook to take a quick look at the scribbles that congested each of the recent pages. The doodles were pretty embarrassing, you thought, as they were mostly his name with a bunch of hearts around it, and the words “crush kita” beside it. There was the occasional round small flower, but the majority of them centered around him. Your notes were basically an unsent love letter to the boy who sat across from you every meeting, the one, the only –

“Peter Parker!” you exclaimed as you quickly shut your notebook, hoping that he didn’t catch a glimpse of the many times and the many fonts you wrote his name. His name came out as a squeak out of your mouth, and you mentally kicked yourself for being so awkward. You coughed to clear your throat, and attempted to lean against your locker to try and look natural, but came off looking all the more awkward. Peter let out a small chuckle and your heartbeat accelerated in reaction to the melodious sound of his voice. “W-what can I do ya for?” you managed to stutter out. He gave you an endearing smile, and you lost your balance, nearly slipping to the floor, before Peter’s impossibly fast reflexes caught you. He had both of his arms around you, and for a second you let yourself savor the feeling. He had a concerned look on his face and you realized that your mouth was agape and your eyes were wide. You snapped out of it and pulled yourself together, trying to shed the layer of sweat that built on your palms against the fabric of your jeans. “I’m fine, everything’s fine,” you tried to save. Peter didn’t buy it, but he nodded in response.

“I just wanted to let you know that Mr. H is about to start,” he explained. You nodded in response and let him know that you’d be there in just a second. Peter headed towards the classroom down the hall and you smiled at him when he turned back around before he entered the room. You groaned quietly and rested your head against the locker. You mentally chided yourself for the interaction before finally regaining your composure and walking into the classroom as well.

The desks were arranged in a cluster in some semblance to a dinner table, and since you were the last to arrive, you took the seat that was left in between your cousin Ned and Mr. Harrington himself. Ned waved to you and you smiled at him. The meeting went by quickly since it wasn’t really over anything important, and you were slightly annoyed at the fact that you had to stay after school to hear that it was Flash who called the meeting to talk about his uncle’s new car to replace the one Spider-Man trashed last year after homecoming. After the meeting you decided to linger for a little bit, since Peter and Ned were still there. Peter moved from his seat across the table to the one on the other side of Ned. Ned pulled out his phone to check his messages and leaned over to show you.

“My mom’s already at your place,” he mentioned. “She just texted and asked if we can stop by the store to buy some stuff on the way home.” You pulled out your own phone to make a note of it and noticed three texts your mom had left you.

From: Mom

Anak, u need to buy bell pepper for the pancit.

From: Mom

Where r u now?

From: Mom

*Picture Message* see? The pancit doesn’t look good without the bell peppers

You laughed quietly and showed Ned the messages, causing him to laugh as well. Peter leaned over Ned’s shoulder to look at the messages and you held the phone closer to him so he could see the picture of the noodles your mom sent you. Peter’s eyebrows shot up in curiosity and he let out a hum in delight.

“What’s that?” he asked Ned. “It looks really good,” he added and as if on cue, you heard his stomach growl. He quickly placed his hand over his stomach to try to quiet it, and Ned let out a laugh.

“This is pancit,” you began explaining. “It’s a really popular Filipino food. Ned’s and my relatives are coming over to celebrate…” you trailed off and furrowed your eyebrows. “Actually, I have no idea why they’re coming, but I know we’re having a party,” you said. “My mom’s been cooking all morning, and Lord knows, the minute I step foot into the house, I’m headed straight for the kitchen too.”

Ned nodded as you explained the day to Peter. “Yeah, we have to go pick up some bell peppers before we go, and judging from the picture, they’re expecting a lot of people.” He added. “Why don’t you come, Pete?”

Your eyes widened and you felt yourself choke on air at Ned’s invitation. Part of you wanted him to reject it, wanting him to save himself from the incessant and relentless questions all your titas would have for him, and by association, you as well. But the other part of you wanted him to come, so you could introduce him to the colorful and delicious world of Filipino culture and of course, spend time with him. Peter had a thoughtful look on his face and you watched him intensely as he considered the offer, your heart and brain tearing you in two desires, until he finally nodded his head.

“Sure,” he shrugged. “If your parents are okay with that?” he looked towards you for permission. Your mind was screaming for you to tell him that your parents are suspicious of any male friends you have, that you would be too busy to entertain him, but against your judgement, your mouth opened.

“The more the merrier,” you smiled and the three of you packed up and made your way out of the building.

You, Ned, and Peter drove to the Asian market that was near your house and you and Ned showed Peter the various smells and thrills inside. The two of you showed him the snacks you would eat as children, your dad’s favorite brand of cheese flavored ice cream (the one that had real chunks of cheese, you explained), and even took him to the seafood section to show him how you and Ned used to make the crawfish fight each other with the tongs. Peter looked like he was having the time of his life, and the childlike amusement that was etched onto his face made your heart skip a beat. All of a sudden, you felt more relaxed around him, now that you had shared a piece of your identity and your heritage with him, you felt excited to bring him home. The three of you were having so much fun that you almost forgot to buy the bell peppers your mom asked for.

As soon as you pulled into the driveway, the familiar scent of garlic and soy sauce flooded the car and you heard your stomach growl in response to the smell of adobo. The three of you walked to the door and even from outside you could hear the sounds of a teleserye playing in the background. Peter stood behind you and Ned, in hopes that if your mom yelled at the two of you for coming home late, Peter would act as a buffer. However once you opened the door, you were faced with one of your titas whom you haven’t seen in years, and she smiled at you sweetly. You squealed as she pulled you into a hug and she kissed both of your cheeks. “Ay nako, you’re both so big now,” she exclaimed before turning to Ned and greeting him similarly. She pinched his cheeks and Ned gave an uncomfortable smile in return. Peter let out a laugh at that and your tita looked over your shoulder, her eyes widening as they saw him. You and Ned shared a look of panic, not knowing what was going to happen next. She pushed past both of you and stood in front of Peter, whose jovial face was now replaced with one of worry as she looked him up and down. “And sino ito?” she asked with a smile. Before you opened your mouth to respond, Peter cut you off.

“Uh, I’m Peter,” he introduced himself and extend his hand for her to shake. You looked at him with disbelief, not knowing if he actually understood her question or if he just blurted out his name. Your tita laughed at his extended hand and instead pulled him into a hug, the same way she greeted you and your cousin. Peter grunted at the tight hug, but smiled nonetheless.

“Peter,” she repeated. “We don’t shake hands here. Here, you’re our kapamilya, part of our family,” she explained with her hands still on his shoulders. “I’m Tita Baby,” she introduced, before ushering all three of you in the house. You and Ned began to slip off your shoes, and Peter followed suit, mimicking everything you and Ned did without question. He continued to follow the two of you around, introducing himself to your aunts and uncles and even your cousins, who got him to agree to a Super Smash Bros. tournament later that night. Peter blended so well with the people in your life, and your heart warmed at the thought of having him over at future parties. You even introduced him to your parents, and your dad made a quip about Peter being your boyfriend once he walked away to follow Tita Baby as she introduced him to more people. You showed Peter the different foods your mom had made, everything from biko to the lechon that was sitting in the center of the buffet, but the pancit was his favorite. And when your dad turned on the tv to the karaoke machine, the adults cheered loudly, and Peter looked at Ned with a panicked look as Ned dragged him to the living room. You followed behind them, waiting for a turn as you sang loudly with your Tita’s rendition of Fame. This was your favorite part of the night, as it was a time to be ridiculous and extra and to just have fun.

As you sang and danced, you didn’t notice the way Peter was looking at you. He felt a smile creep up that he had no desire to suppress. There was something about the way you looked when you thought no one was watching that had him absolutely smitten. This wasn’t the first time he was able to see you in this state of pure bliss, but he was grateful for every time. Of course, he thought it was just as cute, the way you got all flustered around him, but he loved these moments just a little bit more. He thought about today, and he was so glad the plan he and Ned had devised actually worked and how flawlessly it went too. Ned had told him about this party a few weeks ago, when Peter explained that he wanted to finally tell you about the way you make him feel, and Ned came up with this plan to get you two to spend time together and for Peter to know you better. He was still on cloud 9, but when you finally turned to him after your fantastic version of Open Arms, he snapped back to reality and he felt his palms sweat. You smiled and leaned over to let him know you were going to get more food, and he decided to go with you and stood up, following a few steps behind you. He turned towards Ned, and gave him a thumbs up, thankful for his guy in the chair.

You and Peter turned into the kitchen, now empty as all the adults were busy singing. “Singing sure works up an appetite,” you joked as you reached for a new plate. Peter chuckled along before clearing his throat. You looked up to see the worried look he had on his face. “You alright, Pete?” you asked and stepped closer to him. “I know the sinigang isn’t for everyone and I’m sorry I made you taste it –” you began to ramble before Peter cut you off.

“No!” he exclaimed. “It’s not that, it’s…” he trailed off and drew in a breath. “Okay, this is gonna be really bad, but I’m gonna do it anyway. Kailangan kong sabihin sa’yo, na talagang mahal na mahal kita.” You dropped the paper plate in response at the way your native tongue rolled out of Peter’s mouth and you saw him begin to panic. “Oh my god, did I say it all wrong? I’m sorry, it’s just Ned has been teaching me some Filipino and showing me some Filipino movies, which make me cry by the way, and I thought it would be cute and –” You were about to respond when Ned entered the room, and talk about awful timing, told Peter that his family was going home, so Peter needed to come too. Peter looked at you sadly, with his words still hanging between the two of you like a red string. Your brain was still in shock, and you didn’t even recall walking to your bed or falling asleep, until you woke up the next day.

The rest of the weekend went by uneventfully, and you avoided looking at your phone at all, believing that if Peter did text you, it would be to take back what he said. You couldn’t let that happen. So, you thought, if you didn’t check your phone, you could still pretend that you lived in a universe where Peter Parker liked you back. And that worked for the rest of Sunday, but as soon as Monday morning rolled in, and you pulled up in Midtown’s overcrowded parking lot, you saw him waiting at your usual spot. He waited for you to get out of the car, and his mouth opened to say something, but closed once again. You took his silence as your cue and you softly asked, “The things you said the other night… did you mean them?”

“Every word,” he replied just as quietly. Your heart did a million flips and before he could add anything, you leaned forward to land a soft kiss against his lips. As you pulled away and saw his eyelids flutter back open and you nervously pulled your lip between your teeth. “Wow…” he trailed off, still surprised at the contact.

“Mahal din kita.”

G L O S S A R Y:

Tsismosa: gossip, one who gossips

“Crush kita”: I have a crush on you

Anak: child

Adobo: a pork dish

Teleserye: Filipino soap operas

Tita: aunt

“Ay nako”: oh my

“Sino ito?”: Who’s this?

Biko: A dessert made with sticky rice and coconut milk

Lechon: a huge roasted pig

Sinigang: a tamarind-base soup with pork and vegetables

“Kailangan kong sabihin sa’yo, na talagang mahal na mahal kita”: I need to tell you that I really, really, truly, love you.

“Mahal din kita”: I love you too

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name : E

zodiac sign : Taurus

height : hhhhhhh about 5′2/5′3

languages spoken : English, Urdu, technically Arabic coz I can read and write it (I just don’t understand it)

nationality : Take a wild guess

fave fruit : Mangos and mandarins in summer and winter respectively

fave scent : the scent of warm clothes after they’re worn or the scent of Arabian Jasmines, hard to pick

fave color : Sapphire blue

fave animal : Cats. I honestly adore them with all my heart, you cannot understand how much I love cats until you see my moon over their photos and interrupt myself when I see one

coffee, tea or hot chocolate : Green tea with Moroccan Mint is good but hot chocolate is where its at for me

fave fictional character : probably Lance Mcclain from Voltron, I guess

dream trip : Japan sounds cool but I’d like to go to the valleys of Gilgit-Baltistan too. Though, tbh, travelling isn’t something I’m super engrossed in and I’m fine not doing it.

song u have on repeat : both Baazi by Sahir Ali Bagga and Aima Baig and the Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen

when was ur blog created : it was either around the end of 2016 or the start of 2017, can’t be sure

what was the last movie u saw : Mission Impossible Fallout in the cinema

fave candy : I dunno, I don’t usually it. I prefer milk chocolate

fave holiday : Eid

So, 20+ people I’m tagging: @jollykittenbanana, @lex-is-tired, @forsakenangel88, @plumeriafairy14, @amazingleyawesome, @bogpal, @coalmuffin, @scarlett-nighten, @gayanime, @tendous-satoris, @meiyanaalexia, @chyeahlex16, @azarathianscribbles, @jewishmatt, @starrys0ul, @spider-plants, @cito-arescit-lacrima, @bri-loves-sunflowers, @orollyitsjeremyheere, @piediekai, @bibipidgeypie, @abbibitha, @bleased. I started off with my old mutuals and then went on to whoever’s around right now and whoops, I’m already over 20. So um, haven’t talked to anyone in quite a while so hello old mutuals, hi to mutuals I haven’t talked to and um, just remember that you don’t have to this if you want to. Sorry to anyone’s who’s been left out, consider yourself tagged if you want to. And, yeah...have fun.

[comickergirl]

Hey! First would like to say I love your art!!! You're style is lovely & your comics are both wonderful & adorable :) Im going to be heading to a comic store this week & was wondering if you know any comics/graphic novels with dc female hero team ups?

Aw, thank you! Very glad you like it. :D

I do! (Though, a disclaimer: I’m not a huge fan of team books or event comics, which is where a lot of comic team-ups take place. So this list might be a touch...incomplete/short.)

Right then, THE LIST:

- Superwoman #13-16 - Lana Lang teams up with Kara, and once their team up is done, Lana works with Maxima, Traci Thirteen, and Natasha Irons, and I think Lois Lane is in there too. Lots of female characters!

- Mystic U #1- This came out just last week. It’s basically ‘Zatanna in college.’ (But, you know, with crazy magic hijinks.) This one isn’t so much a traditional superhero team up, but it does have dc female heroes (?) interacting with one another. (That question mark is there because I’m not sure if Enchantress would consider herself a...hero in the traditional sense.)

- Gotham City Garage - I just recommended this title recently but the very premise of the book is: Female Heroes Team Up to Fight Fascist Lex Luthor. So. On the list it goes!

 - Justice League #22 - This one is less recent, but it’s Shea Fontana writing the Justice League, and features Jessica Cruz nerding out over Wonder Woman, so, you know. It’s a good time.

- Birds of Prey - The Rebirth run. Issue 16 features a double page spread of just about...every female character currently associated with Gotham. And also Wonder Woman. So, a solid title, when it comes to female team-ups. (I’m behind on the more recent issues and the writing is sorta hit or miss for me personally but. When it’s good, it’s good.)

- Birds of Prey - ...Yeah any run, really. Except maybe not the New 52.

- Black Canary and Zatanna: Bloodspell - Another title I’ve recommended before, and I’ll recommend it again, because it’s an entire self-contained graphic novel about Zatanna and Dinah, working together. It’s very fun. (This is less recent-ish, by the way, but as a TPB it shouldn’t be too hard to find.)

That’s all I can think of in terms of recent-ish DC comics with female hero team-ups. And again, as I mentioned, I don’t love team books and events, so those are big blind spots on my part--I can’t speak to the quality of titles like Justice League of America or Teen Titans so they COULD have really awesome team ups between DC ladies but they’re just not titles that I follow. 

Still, hope this list helps! :D 

(And I have another list that specifically mentions some Supergirl and Batgirl comics, so maybe check those out as well!) 

[witchtav]

tagged by @acidicgumdrops !

Rules: Answer the questions and tag ur mutuals/followers who u want to learn more about!

1. Name: alex 2. Nickname(s): mako, star, lex, peaches, etc. i love when ppl give me nicknames so i don’t really try to ever stop it  3. Zodiac Sign: virgo 4. Height: 
5′3 5. Ethnicity: i did a project in highschool ethnic studies class where we had to trace our ancestry nd shit but i forget most of it i’m just white 6. Favorite fruit: strawberries, cherries, cantaloupe 7. Favorite season: fall and early spring where it feels like fall but with more flowers 8. Favorite book: i don’t really have one atm! i’m working on trying to read symptoms of being human bc the main character is genderfluid but i haven’t finished it so. i really should read more i need good book recs :((( 9. Favorite flowers: sunflowers! ofc thanks to bap i’m really loving roses now 10. Favorite color: again, i don’t really think i have one! i do like that olive green you see on a lot of jackets though 11. Favorite animal: birds!! any kind of bird i love them all<3 12. Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: coffee is kind of my life force so,, i really do enjoy tea as well and hot chocolate is great i just rarely drink it ever. coffee, tea, and water are prob the top 3 things i drink though 13. Average hours of sleep: uhh,, usually between 3-6 if i had to guess, every so often 7-8 15. Favorite fictional character: 
hard hitting question mmm,,, steve rogers? maybe?? if u can’t tell i’m bad with favorites  16. Number of blankets I sleep with: 1-2. a sheet and then a heavier blanket if i’m cold. 3+ in the winter though my room is an ice box 17. Ideal trip: anywhere fun and lively with a few friends i’m not picky,, i don’t really get to take trips so i’d be excited to go just about anywhere! 
18. Blog created: sometime in 2012 i think, or at least that’s when i seemed to start actually using it because i don’t think i even used my tumblr for a while 19. Number of followers: 565 i’ll tag @zelosexual @tigerbaby @babycassiopeian @siriuslyjongup and @ any of my mutuals/followers who want to do this feel free to tag me in it to read 💕💕

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 2 “#NewQueenInTown” - Lily

hey hoes so ill do my first impressions or w/e chrissa- kween! i was hoping she'd stay awhile but u know when someone wants to be elimed then u gotta! dana- idk ha!hevjkbev i dont remember a dana in any of these so! idk how she plays so yikes but i wouldnt be surprised if shes close w the other newer people lexo- im love her! im hoping we can do #that for callie tru matt- i played a game with him once and he voted me out so :/ but i think we can work well together tbh mitchell- hes malaysia and thats all i know, im not sure how he played in malaysia and lowkey the only times i ever interacted with him he kinda annoyed me gtg monty- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh i love monty, i know he will be one of my closest allies for sure! i cant wait to slay w him linus- hes from winnipeg and he seems sneaky to me and hes a newer school player so he could be close w the others ryan tiddie palmer - i love my dadt sdhvbdfv but also im a little wary of him bc i have a feeling he would love to vote me out but as of rn i need him so, we'll see zak- i voted him out in palau and thats all i got kjehfvbjr i didnt even kno they played a game before anyway hes also part of the potential new school alliance

also heres the vote tea, basically mine and lexis names were being thrown around and i was like??? we aint even do anything so then we started throwing zaks and linus name around. anyway me and mont were freaking out bc we needed 2 more people to get majority and vote zak and save me and lex, so we recruit chrissa and we make an alliance chat w ha. we call and talk about who we can pull in and such. so come the next mornin i start talkin to matt who said he was down for voting zak. honestly i trust matt he seems more trustworthy than other people plus i dont think he knows a lot of the tribe members tru so if i keep him close then my alliance should be good tru. anyway i talk to lexi to figure stuff out, and i talk to zakriah and basically tell him that im willing to vote lexi next round or w/e, mind u this is after chrissa anounces that she wants to be voted out, and well hopefully by telling him this i can gain his trust a little and get some tea from ha. also zak knows that me mont and lexi were targetting him??? honestly idk who couldve told him unless it was chrissa??? no one else shouldve known tru, anyway so i get the tea from that mitchell is the one who told him that he heard my name being thrown around and kjefbv like i dont wanna confrontational or anything but i went to mitchell and asked him about it and he was "like honestly it was like a grapevine thing tbh like nobody was like "...how bout karen" it was more of "i've heard Karen"" LIKE??????????????????????????????? REALLY BITCH THAT DONT ANSWER MY QUESTION. grapevine my ass, like thats what zak told me too, like !!!!!!!!! just tell me bc if u dont then im gonna assume that ur ass is the one started the whole "i heard" thing nnnnn anyway!!!! im just relieved that chrissa is asking to be voted out bc this couldve been way more stressful aaaaaahhhhh  honslee i was scared this was all a ploy to throw votes but i genuinely believe ha and i love chrissa too much to ever disrespect her wishes so :/ bye bye chrissa we hardly knew ye!

Not much has happened so far. We won the first challenge, which is awesome, and kinda gives me this fire to keep winning just so that we can keep beating the vets. It's kind of fun to be the underdogs (considering we all have much less experience than the vets) and to win. As long as we don't get a flash challenge, I'm not too worried about how well we do. Or at least, how well I do. I just don't want to be the person with the lowest score. Anyways, on day 2 or something Lily messages me and says we should be in an alliance, since we knew each other from a chat. So I said sure, and she gives me an idol clue she found! Holy shit! Lucky for her, I don't have any other alliances, otherwise I could so easily just play her. I don't have any plans to though - she seems very trusting and kind and I respect that. I just have to be careful it doesn't get me in trouble as long as we're aligned. So I go to search for the idol, with the clue she gave me in mind, and somehow end up finding the exact same clue she did. Hopefully we don't make the same mistake again next round.

https://youtu.be/hCcal7QtHWY

OMG okay so first off... Daisy comes to me saying she likes Jacob. Okay. Perfect. He's my ride or die anyways, so now we have a mutual ally we can lean on, and she says she wants to be in an alliance. Cool. Even better. Let's officialize this shit.

So Daisy makes the chat, and she says "alright Johnny and Jacob, let's add Willow and Luca" and I'm internally freaking out with Jacob on the side here, and Jacob and I are losing it in PMs and we're like "I think that wouldn't be the BEST idea, just because adding people late can make them think that they're going to be 4th and 5th" So Daisy is going to stick with us three being a f3.

Little does Daisy know that Willow wanted a four person alliance with me and Jacob already, and it didn't include Daisy, so it'll be easy for Willow to think she's on the in, and same for Daisy, which can be GREAT for later.

All I know is I'm going to have to do a little educating to Daisy on how to play this game, and making an alliance with three people and then adding two people LATE is no beuno sweetheart... Thank God Jacob and I prevented that one. At least we know we're in a core for now, and we can start picking off the weaker rookies............... or maybe we go after someone who looks like they can be smarter, and an independent player. Maybe Aro for example? Let's see what happens after immunity (giggle)

So after Chrissa announced she wanted to be voted out, Karen and I were able to talk to each other for the first time this game. I pushed that I didn't want to target her if it wasnt out of hate, and targeting each other based on lack of communication could be easily fixed - after all, what's better than an unlikely duo? I'm in two right now if I'm not being played: as far as I know Linus wants to work with me to get out Karen, and Mitchell also thinks that's what I want. However, I want me an ally in Karen, and Lexi or Mo's gotta go next.

Something terrible happened to me irl yesterday and Im in a bad headspace right now. I really dont feel like talking to anyone besides Luca and Johnny(whos actually pretty cool) so I cant wait to get to the swap. I tried connecting with Kaya a bit but she doesn't seem to like me very much. I have a terrible migraine and everything kinda sucks right now but I'll fight through it. I can't wait for the time when I eventually look back on this confessional and cringe at the angst lmao

I low-key hope I get taken out of this challenge early so I don’t have to sit around all night doing it, but the only way that’d be able to happen is everyone just went after me to start the challenge, and no one knows I’m good at live challenges except Chrissa, and she’s bye bye

Aw Dana assigned me to shoot my fuckbuddy aromal in the first round of the IC :( like the opposite of the hunger games up in here :(

This paintball challenge is so fucking FUN! Like, it's so cool to keep on my toes and constantly be dodging/shooting paintballs. It's like my own sort of little endurance challenge. I just have to be sure I don't miss any dodges... That's why I changed the conversation notification settings to notify me every time my name is said. :P But it's fun, anyway. And if I lose, I can blame my team and use the machete I got. >:3c

So... let's play catch up!

Chrissa got voted out unanimously like she ASKED TO. It sucked bc I liked Chrissa but she was a lil strategically problematic so... whatevs. BUT then Karen starts being like "oh would you have voted for me? where'd my name come from?" and being kind of aggressive about it so... that turned me off. Honestly yeah I would've voted your ass out, you ignored me and continue to do so lol, but after that? I'm set. I think my allegiance with Dana is solidified by my complaining to her about Karen, and honestly? I see her as my #2 in this game.

Matt, the other option for my #2, also tells me he's ready to make a move  against the Karen/Monty/Lexi coalition when we next go to Tribal Council. We're slaying this challenge so that won't be tonight, but when it does, Karen's ass is grass if I've got anything to say about it!!

Karen and Lexi still make minimal effort to talk with me. Pretty much nobody has been 1-on-1 talking with me throughout this whole 3-hour-long-so-far challenge which is also kind of ridiculous but??? What are you gonna do. I'm still sick so hopefully when I recover I'll start schmoozing like I usually do and stop oozing like I don't wanna do.

also fuk u mangrove swamp

RETWEET IF YOU ARE ON TEAM LA NEEDS TO GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP.

This challenge is murdering me. 4.5 hrs left SO.

So, I quit during the paintball challenge. I was the last person left on my tribe and I just couldn't see myself pulling off a win, not against five people - I did manage to get one out on my own but it seemed very doubtful I could have gotten them all. I'm not sure how I feel about throwing it like that, I probably could have faked it and just posted a shoot at the 6 mark which might have been better for my game, cause I'm not sure how that will effect how the vets see me from this point on, or if my tribe finds out and gets mad at me for it, but Y'ALL SHOULD BE HAPPY I DIDN'T MAKE US SUFFER THROUGH ANOTHER FOUR HOURS OF THAT @ VETS. I hate giving up/losing but at the same time, this is only the second challenge of the game. If this has been an individual immunity challenge, damn right I would have stuck it out but it's still early on and I think this vote will be pretty straight forward. IF I manage to get voted out I'll feel so stupid for throwing it but as of right now I trust my alliance and feel safe. (famous last words)

So now Star wants to talk to me...... Tooo little too late bud. You've been talking to the least amount of people this whole game, you didn't even help with the immunity challenge, and now you're coming to me all worried about the vote? Sorry you're in this situation, but you made your own bed, and now you have to lay in it. 

On a different note, I was talking to Jacob, and we were thinking that two of us should throw our votes onto someone else, just in case of an idol play, but honestly, I don't wanna be that paranoid freak always worrying about an idol, but I also don't wanna a repeat of the last tumblr survivor I played in, where I got idol'd out of the game, so I'm trying to be careful. I might talk to Daisy about it, but I don't want to come off as paranoid, so it'll be an interesting talk if I choose to have it...

(Slightly later)

OMG LILY JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS THE IDOL I'M SCREAMING!! Now I don't have to worry about a fucking idol play. Not only that, but she tells me that I'm the only person in the game that knows about the idol, which is huge for me because it means that she trusts me the most, and this can be a relationship outside of Jacob, Daisy, Willow and Luca, so this is really good. I am going to focus on forming a broship with Aro too, just to have that connection, but I think that I'm starting to become very trusted in the tribe, which is good. 

I know my struggle is going to be when we switch tribes, and just hoping that the luck of the draw doesn't put me onto a tribe with bad numbers, but even if I do, I think I'll be able to charm my way out of it. The fact that I want to vote out most of these people, and they still continue to prove to me that they trust me the most is CRAZY, but Lily is definitely going to be a tool I'm going to utilize in the game for a long long time, and I hope she and her idol make it deep enough in the game to benefit me.

Sorry... rambling. My struggle now is whether or not to tell Jacob. I don't want to lose his trust later in the game by him finding out about this idol, and him knowing that I knew about it. I think I'm going to tell him about it later tonight, and I hope that he'll be thrilled, but he isn't even going to be back for day change... At least now I know that I don't have to worry about the idol, especially because I doubt there are more than one idols out there, from my specific tribe, so definitively, it's bye bye Star time :(

Jesus.... Karen and I survived that round.. In what world is that actually realistic? But we did and thankfully with little issues like messy thrown votes or Chrissa playing an idol on herself after misting us all. I was really nervous that it was all an actual trap because I have seen it happen before and boy is it terrifying but bless her heart for being true to us all.

The challenge was one that I have won before so I was not too nervous about the whole workings of the challenge but I was nervous about how long the challenge would go. I was so tired yesterday for some reason and I do not know if I could have lasted until 2 am with very little break. I would have tried my best of course so I could make sure Karen and I were safe but there is only so much a single person can do which L.A. ended up proving. The Veterans won the challenge THANK GOD and so we do not have to worry about one of us being voted out bless. Right now I would def consider Karen my final 2 because we do share the common homie of Callie and I do my best to trust Callie's judgement most of the time (the other times... I just can not defer from what god wants). My only issue is that Karen has a lot of friends on this tribe that I fear she might pick over me such as Monty and that makes me a bit scared of her but right now we sort of need each other in terms that we are both the most threatening ones on our tribe at the moment so if she gets rid of me, she does not have many people to hide behind and I have been known to be a very good meat shield for those that take advantage of it so here is to praying she is actually my final 2.

Okay I love my tribe now. Seriously though I was only disliking them because I was too mentally checked out to socialize. They're all really sweet people and omg it was all i could do to stop them from pronouncing Zaks name wrong lmao during the challenge. Even though I outta be pissed that more than half of us got eliminated for breaking simple rules, I loved that they were cheery about it.

For the vote ahead, it should be a smooth 9-1 against Star. He hasn't been too active thus far and everybody seems to be on board.

https://youtu.be/RpyYL7gVQEE

LAST ROUND VOTING: A SUMMARY We get back to camp after being beaten in the immunity challenge and things devolve into chaos. Mitchell starts whispering "Lexi" and then shouting "WHO SAID THAT! I HEARD YOU! lexi.... WHO WAS THAT!!!!" Lexi and RTP climbed into the shelter and started singing songs together, waiting for other people to join. Matt sat himself on a rock and just kinda sat there...waiting.... Zak was running around, talking to each and every person saying he heard something different to everyone, calling every guy Miss and every girl Qween. Karen was sitting trying to have sensible discussions, and Mitchell and Zak saw this and started freaking out. Mitchell kept his calm and kept whispering lexi... but Zak thought he said Karen and started freaking out. Meanwhile, I'm running around screaming at people that Zak is dead weight and Linus is a rat, but nobody is really listening to me. Meanwhile, Linus disappeared into the woods to maybe go try on some wigs or some shit, and Dana is off talking to anything that moves, with various degrees of success. In the middle of camp is Chrissa, just sitting. Me, Karen, Zak, and Mitchell are all screaming about who should go, and she silently raises her hand and says four words. "I. I will go." Everyone stopped and just kinda looked at her, and then started screaming. Not words, just incoherent noises, and that never stopped until Chrissa's torch was snuffed by Isaac

real confessional for this round: So, this has been a pretty chill round. As a tribe, our number one priority was winning immunity. I staying longer than a few people, until I had to go swim. I still need to talk to Dana, Lexi, and RTP this round to keep those connections alive, but other than that, my social game is less shitty than in the past! So, overall, this is not looking terrible for me!

IS DAISY FUCKING KIDDING ME?!? Daisy, girl, we spoke about this. Adding people to alliance chats can only cause problems. Making a brand new chat is the way that it has to be. I can't be closely tied with someone who is actually that oblivious to how this game goes. It's like telling someone that there's a three person alliance, and we just want them to be fourth on the ladder. THAT'S NOT HOW THIS WORKS. Luckily for me, it's someone as ditzy as Lily is, and it's someone who doesn't really talk to a lot of people, and she's someone who has an idol, and now Daisy and I were both told by Lily, which is why Daisy added her.

One thing that Lily and Daisy aren't aware of is that Jacob knows about the idol too, and that's because I told him, so with Jacob in the loop, and me being the one who told me, is PRIME. I need to be the barrier of communication between all of them, and right now I think I'm doing a steady job. One thing I need to work on is my relationship with Allie and LA, because they're two SMART girls, who I haven't been spending much time talking to, so I might work on that later today, even though I've spoken briefly about the vote to both of them, I need MORE!

Well after the mess with Chrissa we were lucky enough to win, and I think the challenge was a good bonding experience for the tribe. Now I'm kind of in the middle right now I like my alliance a lot but I think I could work with Karen and Lex in the future so I'm nervous about alienating them and I'm like back and forth back and forth like a metronome or some dumb swingy shit. So lemme just cross my fingers we don't have to go to tribal, and that somebody I know will get this damn idol ay dios bio

We lost the immunity challenge earlier. I'm super disappointed but I doubt I'm in any trouble at tribal council. I kinda messed up by posting early, lost my head and this probably was a factor in our tribe losing. On their tribe, only three people messed up.

But challenge aside, I feel I'm pretty safe for the time being here. I like Jacob, Willow, LA, Johnny and Allie and I think I'm getting along with Aromal too. Really the only people who I haven't really been talking with are Star (who's getting evicted today), Daisy and Lily.

I should probably talk more with the other two. All that said, this game is phenomenal. You can never know if you're really safe.

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! I FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA But like... wow. I find the idol clue on my very first search, and then on my second search, I find the idol itself. When will your fave... #newqueenintown

We won! Updates game wise so I'm just utr1 instead of inv. 

1. Zak is still a self righteous prick, but he's also smart enough to just flat out target me rn, so idk. 

2. Matt is easy to talk game with, he's seeming a bit paranoid though. 

3. Dana and Ryan, still love em both. 

4. Mitchell is everyone's best friend, hillarious dude. That also sadly means he is the biggest threat in the game. Of course, right now I want to work with threats, but eventually he will be scary. 

5. Karen is still my target. 

6. Gotta try and make Lexi and Monty not flip at a swap. 

7. Linus is the best, he's probably the front runner to win right now.

Okay so I keep forgetting about confessionals oops. But I'm going to my first tribal council ever tonight and I'm a little nervous. I feel like this vote tonight should be pretty simple because everyone in the tribe wants to vote out Star, but I'm worried that he might have an idol or something since 9/10 people in our tribe looked for the idol yesterday. Also I'm still a little bit irritated at myself from the challenge yesterday because it said 7:05 on my computer when I pressed send but it was still 7:04 on the skype clock or whatever Idk