#SORRY for the tag spam im kind of desperate

[hydra-collector]

hey does anyone have an active community discord server here in 2024. and if not should i make it myself

[ja3yun]

Maybe I’m naive or maybe it’s the brain rot… but am I being completely delusional in thinking that tumblr is almost 99.999% a fan site that artists (especially kpop idols) do not engage with and probably don’t even have much regard for? Like this is a space for the chronically online. Most people don’t use any of their own personal information/faces/identifiers bc this is not a real place; it’s a black hole. That’s not to say that your work here is insignificant (it’s helped me a lot to escape from everyday anxiety and stress so thank you 🙏) but it's not like you or any other adult writer are writing these stories and then spamming them on Weverse or any other platform where the members are active.

I guess my point is that we the adults that engage in 18+ enhablr are minding our business and keeping the fantasies in fantasy land and then going to work in the real world. Like we do not know Enha for real. Some people apparently don't have jobs or lives, so they send hate to people online and act like they are personally offended on behalf of adult men they don't know and never will. It's giving desperate fan that thinks going to the airport to get an interaction is more sane than staying at home, kicking your feet, and giggling at imagining meeting and knowing the boys in real life (95% of the time as non-idols anyways which is another degree of separation).

I'm sorry for ranting. I'm just a huge believer that fanfic is a very safe and respectful way of engaging in fandom because we leave the real people out of it. We're not screaming inappropriate things and sexually harassing the boys to their faces, which happens way too often. We're engaging in community fan-to-fan which to me strengthens the fandom. There are things we talk about as Engenes that will never make it back to boys and thats okay. What makes fandom fun is not always the direct connection to the artist, it's the community we build because of them.

I hope you and the other amazing writers on this site know how important you are ❤️ thanks for taking your time to write and engage 💐

anon this is so!! you get it exactly. i think a lot of us post here because why tf would enha know this place exists? and its a safe place really bc if you want smut, you come here or go to ao3.

i think hate to writers is so petty bc it is the one form of media you can easily avoid? like to see smut you need to seek it out yknow? i never write in the general tags or post inappropriately, so for people to find my blog must mean they are looking for smthn 💀

hate comes w any platform, esp to creators of any kind so i kinda knew what i was signing up for. some of it kinda makes me go??? like im not making the boys out to be horrible or bullies like i try and write them as nice as i can so some of the hate saying i 'tarnish' their name is so false lmao

thank you anon, i'm sure every writer here appreciates the kind words and also, just the fact that you understand is enough for us

ilysm <33

[justagalwhowrites]

woooo okay i'm going to try and not make this annoyingly long

1. tumblr still personally hates me and refuses to tag me in yearling (possibly biphobic on their part)

2. i desperately need to sit down and read yearling because i keep catching random chapters and then i'll start reading them as if i have any idea what's happening, which brings me to #3

3. i just read chapter 16 (im not immune to justagalwhowrites' smut) and HOLY across every fandom i've ever been in, this was the first time i've ever read something in a fic where a character has scarring in the pubic area? and as someone who relates to that it made me cry a lil i'm not even gonna lie to you rn 😭 not only is having scarring there inherently traumatic (not even taking into account how you got it, be it skin condition/abuse/fgm/etc.) but it's also traumatic to have to tell/show other partners about it since people are mean as fuck these days!! it was v refreshing to see someone (joel) be assuring and even non-chalant to a degree! i've had people think i was gonna give them cooties or smth hdkdjdkdnkfd it truly was representation i didn't know i needed and i just wanted to thank you 🥹

ok i'll read yearling now fr

OMG Hi Bestie!

How have you been?? I hope you're doing well!!!!

Tumblr is MEAN! If you want, you can subscribe to my updates blog and subscribe to updates. I reblog a new chapter when it goes up but that's it, I won't spam you :)

I hope you love Yearling as you read it! There's still a lot more left to go and I can't wait for it!!

I'm so happy that you felt represented (and hopefully loved and beautiful) after chapter 16 and I'm so sorry if someone has been cruel to you because of that. They clearly aren't worthy of you in all your kind loveliness! You deserve someone who recognizes how wonderful you are, scars and all, and I'm glad you were able to see yourself in this fic <3

Thank you for being here and reaching out! Love you!!!

[saintshigaraki]

BRUH I ACCIDENTALLY UNFOLLOWED WHILE TRYING TO SEND THIS ASK IM GONNA SUE TUMBLR

anyways.

i read your tags on my sad rambling and i just wanted to come here and give you everything i have to offer which is a bruised heart and 3.45$ (i think that's enough to buy two coffee depending on where you live, maybe if we're lucky we can even get a donut to split) 💕💞💓💗💖💘

i really really love dabi so so much and i just keep thinking about how badly i want to remind him that he's a person too. even though he's this big bad villain who's committed so many crimes my heart always hurts at the thought of how young he was when he left home,,, and i think touya is still trying to look for home again,,, even if there's a physical house he's in it's still not home, a feeling of being able to finally rest. i want dabi to finally go home. i want to give him the warmth and safety that every person, every child, deserves.

i know it's silly and that his abuse doesn't justify his actions, but at the same time i find it so incredibly unfair. there's no empathy for him, no understanding that he's built up all these walls because there's a heart that's desperate to not be hurt again. he can detach himself from his humanity but i think he'll always crave the intimacy of wanting to be seen, wanting to be understood. and i think it's such a disservice to him if we forget the fact that before a villain, before a criminal, he was just a little boy with a dream.

i know some people think dabi is a playboy and wouldn't care about a potential s/o (not that i think there's anything wrong with writing him like that) but the soft part in me always thinks that while dabi would try to push you away, it's because he can't understand why someone would want him. because if he spent his entire teen/early twenties convincing himself that his hands are made for destruction, how could he possibly convince himself that those same hands can hold you? it scares him, a bit, that you would die for him - because every life he's taken has always been taken, never given.

(i am so sorry for spamming your inbox jsdhfkshjksd i didn't mean to ramble this much but i just wanted to add that i don't think i'll ever be anywhere near your level of understanding poetry and writing beautiful prose, but i read this and the third stanza made me think of dabi <3)

-nilani <3

(i accidently unfollow ppl all the time when i send them asks. tumblr really hates us rip)

i dont think my heart ever wont hurt for dabi. obviously, like you said, the abuse he experienced doesn't justify his crimes and im not and will never try to justify or excuse some of the things hes done (even though i joke that dabi has never done anything wrong and if he did no he didnt)

'i want dabi to finally go home' god. you just really hit the nail on the head with that. i think home & healing go hand in hand with his character. and in a way, i think healing for him can be a sort of home.

'he'll always crave the intimacy of wanting to be seen' yes absolutely i love this take more than i can put into words. dabi wants to be seen. dabi desperately wants to be heard. by the world but mostly by the person he loves. i feel like that’s a core part of his character.

tbh i don’t really get the whole…dabi canonically wouldn’t care for his s/o take that seems to go around. of course, any and all characterizations are completely fine, and we have no way of really knowing how he’d act in a romantic relationship, but i feel like things have gotten to the point where ppl are labeling any and all instances of dabi not being downright awful to his s/o as ooc which is kind of frustrating. it’s a disservice to his character to say as he can only act one way with all ppl otherwise it’s ooc.

personally, i think dabi fears vulnerability more than anything else. which is why he automatically pushes ppl away but once someone manages to wiggle their way past those defenses it’s game over. he’s not letting go until he absolutely has to. and even then…it’d take an army.

nilani!! i can not put into words how beautiful that dabi fic was. i’ve been thinking about it since you posted it. your take on dabi is one of if not my absolute favorite. please PLEASE never apologize for talking about him with me

[today-only-happens-once]

so i just read through your entire boy band au tag (sorry for the spam of likes haha) and i realized that we never really learned much about romans home life? how did it feel for him to leave home? (sorry if you already answered something like this, im really tired)

Tagging @cristalmystery since you also asked about Roman! 

Warnings for: unsupportive/mean parents, low self-esteem/self-image issues, very vague mentions of emotionally destructive tendencies. 

OKAY so, Roman. 

Basically, Roman grew up being incapable of doing right by his parents. Or at least, feeling that way. 

If he joined theater, his dad wanted him to play baseball. If he played baseball, he “wasn’t good enough” to get the position his dad wanted him to have, etc. 

If he took piano, his mom wanted him to volunteer because it looked better on college applications. If he volunteered with a summer music camp, it would have looked better if he’d volunteered at a soup kitchen, etc. 

If Roman ventured off the beaten path set upon by his parents, they withdrew support entirely. Didn’t attend performances (not because they were busy, but because they didn’t approve of Roman reciting Hamlet on stage, etc.), refused when Roman asked if he could take vocal lessons/guitar lessons, etc. 

Roman spends a lot of his childhood trying--with increasing desperation--to make his parents proud of him. To be enough for them.

He never is. 

He struggles academically, too, especially in high school. He tries--he tries so hard--but the support from his parents just isn’t there, and Roman relies on Logan’s help and support to get him passing in math and science (he does okay in English, averaging B’s and C’s). And that, well... doesn’t help anything either. It doesn’t help him get his parents’ approval and it doesn’t help his spiraling self-esteem. 

And it puts Roman in this weird space emotionally because he is happiest when he is singing and performing on a stage, but there’s a restless part of him that can’t stop craving his parent’s approval, no matter how many times he tells Logan it doesn’t matter because nothing he does will be good enough. 

So like, around his sophomore/junior year, Roman realizes that it’s messed up and a part of him is angry at his parents and a part of him is angry at himself because it would be easier if he could just stop caring what his parents think but he can’t. 

Then Roman sees the advertisement about how Remy was looking for fresh new talent when he’s sitting in the local coffeeshop with Logan one day and he’s like “f*ck it” 

He’s having one of those “if i can’t make them proud doing what they want, then I’ll just do what I want” kind of moment of rebellion, yknow? 

He drags Logan along when he goes, telling his parents he’s going to Logan’s to study for their chem exam. 

And so they audition. And he gets offered a spot and a part of Roman wants very badly to burst into tears because Remy--the Remy, famous-music-producer-who-has-heard-teens-all-over-the-country-sing Remy--gives him this small sign of you are enough. And more than that, Roman gets a taste of that feeling of acceptance and pride and wow maybe I can be worth something while I chase my wildest dream and Roman’s heart lurches with the thought. 

That evening, Roman fights with his parents. It’s his first time really pushing back against them. Because both of his parents are like “Roman, don’t be ridiculous. You can’t be successful as a musician. You’re going to fail out in LA just like you keep failing here, except we won’t be there to point you in the right direction”. 

Roman. claps. back.

He leaves for LA on very... tense, uncomfortable terms with his parents. Because they let him go, but Roman knows that’s mostly because they think it will teach Roman a lesson if he flops. His parents strongly suggested that the only reason they let him go to LA is because if he fails--and he will, they’re sure of it--maybe Roman will finally give up this ridiculous idea that he can be rock-star and actually get Serious about His Future. 

And well. We all know how that goes. 

Though Roman’s thirst for validation and making others proud of him leads to some... less-than-healthy behaviors through their rise to fame, and it takes a lot of emotional and mental work for Roman to overcome that. But he gets there, with some help. And eventually, he does stop caring about what his parents think. 

[hamliet]

1) i went through your banana fish tag to like a bunch of things so i could read them later and didn't realize till i finished that i've probably spammed you and im so so sorry 2) i kind of struggle to empathize and enjoy yut lung as a character, could you link me to/share the reasons you like him and analysis of his character in case i missed anything/you have anything to add? thanks in advance!

Hi! No worries about spamming me!! It’s fine not to enjoy a character even if the majority of people do! Don’t feel pressured to; taste is always different. 

That being said, well, Yut-Lung is indeed one of my favorite characters, not just in Banana Fish but probably of all time. Like honestly he’s probably my second favorite character ever, in any media. Some of that’s personal in how I greatly relate to him, and other aspects include just how I really love how he foils Ash, Sing, and Eiji. He’s used to a great extent in the narrative and has a tremendous impact on the themes. I’ve written... quite a few metas that touch on him. :P 

Two Victims (meta comparing Ash & Yut-Lung)

Sing and Yut-Lung’s relationship

Yut-Lung as Ash’s Jungian Shadow

Yut-Lung’s name meta

Yin, Yang, and Eiji (or an analysis of the scene where Yut-Lung asks Eiji to shoot him)

The Forgotten Children (how various characters including YL tie into this theme of Banana Fish’s)

And then there’s this by @ofamaranthlie, which articulates Yut-Lung’s mindset very well and also why I find him such a compelling character. 

For a personal addition, I once mentioned that his desperate desire to have hope, to have someone to love him, is absolutely gut-wrenching for me–especially as the actions Yut-Lung takes to get these and to lash out at others who have what he does not, actually pushes what he wants (people to love him) away. That’s a tragedy of his own making, but at the same time, he’s just a child, younger than Ash, a child who’s been sexually abused and seen the one person he loves who loved him raped and murdered in front of him. His whole story just breaks my heart. The beauty of the ending he got with Sing meant a lot to me. 

[mlm-chanyeol-archive]

you know what? its 2:30 am, im feeling soft and im gonna make a positivity post for all my mutuals. i lov u guys. newer ones at the top n oldest ones at the bottom

@flowerallys we haven’t been mutuals long, but im glad we met because of the dreamie gc! you’re always so happy and i love talking to you <3

@yunjisunq im so happy to have found another ace stan <3 really, thank u for doing my donghun request?? you really made my month and inspired me to make stuff of my own and you’re really sweet and i love when you talk in ur tags!! thats my fave part of following ppl and it makes my dash a little brighter :)

@7deer-ofthe-dawn7 i followed you because one of the nct blogs i follow rbd a mutuals appreciation post bcs i thought i needed more xiuhan on my dash and im rlly glad you followed back!! you’re really nice and even though we dont talk too much its fun when we do! (i hope you’ve enjoyed the fics ive sent you!)

@pcyling man i remember us meeting up on vent and i just decided to message you bcs we both are chanyeol stans and im so glad i did bcs ur rlly funny and nice and we can just thirst over pcy together and just do fun stuff. thank u for not thinking i was weird for messaging you!

@kunpifook we dont talk but i like seeing you on my dash! you reblog a lot of my stuff which makes me smile <3 :)

@hellyeahtd we don’t talk either but thank you for blessing my tag with more topp dogg like it so desperately needs <3

@nctytrack we don’t talk but i remember you asking for more nct mutuals and while when i first followed you i wasn’t a big stan but i am now and i hope im making your dash a little brighter :)

@astros-mom @wonhosassflower maria maria maria ilu <3 im sorry for being a bitch in the gc all the time but ur rlly nice (even tho u blocked me at one point) and ur sweet and i like talking to you. im jealous u got to meet hyungwon tho i can now get a scale of how lanky he rlly is

@live-love-growamoustache niniiiiii we dont talk a lot but i like seeing u in the gc and u post a lot of good stuff <3

@fiizzy-pop tokkiiiiiiii my baby <3 i lov u ur so sweet and nice and helped me out with nct when i was first getting into them and you’re just so sweet and ur our little bun and i hope we can be friends for a long time <3

@youarenotmybias aa i love seeing you on my dash and you post a lot of good stuff!!!! ithinkurinthegcbuticantrememberwhoyouareoops

@99minseok aaaaa i jus lov seeing ur posts on my dash and i lov seeing minseok so much even tho hes not high on my bias list, and just seeing your name makes me smile :)

@ji-hey HEY FUCKER you dont post a lot but we talk a whole bunch and even tho ur mean sometimes to me and al i still love u and i just want to let u know in my time of weakness i think you’re really pretty and im glad we have the relationship we do <3 ur a really good friend soph

@tom-failure aa we dont talk too much anymore but i love seeing topp dogg on my dash and your art is really good and i hope you keep on drawing <3

@flanelltees flan.... mi lov.... you are one of my most treasured mutuals <3 you really mean so much to me and i love seeing you on my dash and i love your deadpan sense of humor and i love helping you start stanning groups and the way you come to me if you need help with something and i love your art, it really is one of the cutest art styles i have ever seen. you’re so talented and im so happy you decided to follow me back because its been so nice talking to you and i love our little jokes and while there are times where we dont talk for a week its always nice to talk to you because you’re so nice :) i lov u flan <3

@brnrnr-prstr we dont talk but again its always nice to see you on my dash :)

@husberttee aleexxxxx my man im so glad i followed you because talking to u was a v good choice :) as a fellow male nakta stan it was rlly nice to talk to you and while its hard to talk bcs of such huge time differences its still fun when we can and even tho you always post abt nugu groups who i have no clue about i still love seeing you on my dash :3

@4jooheon !!!!!! my most sweetest mutual ever!!!! i adore reading your tags when u talk abt jooheon and as a fellow jooheon stan it makes my heart sing bcs same!!!!!! hes our honey bee!!!!!! ive said that so much but its tru!!!!! you really make my dash so much brighter and i love sending you cute asks abt jooheon on anon bcs i love seeing ur reactions!!!!!!! you’re just so soft and i rlly lov u :( thank u for following me back and i hope one day i can reach your level of softness (also i feel relly bad bcs i never learned ur name!!!! ;;;;;)

@annlka annika...... aka sangdo’s wife..... i lov u a lot. your tags brighten up my dash as well and just!!!! i love following ppl who talk in their tags and when you talk abt sangdo it makes me all smiley bcs u just lov him so much and now you’re starting to lov minho just as much and i just LOVE how u tag sangdo as sunshine and minho as moonlight thats just????? so precious i lov ur lov for them and you’re just really nice and understanding too??? and i remember u bringing up the fact that i thought it was a mistake when you first followed me but im glad u did bcs im lucky to have a friend like u annika <3 :)

@dean-winchesters-bootycall even tho ur never on here i fucking.... love you so much ur such a good friend and my best irl friend and im so glad i met you rielle <3

@sweet-jae Al.... Alfie.... The love of my life..... my moon sun and stars.... my entire universe.... words cannot describe how much i love you. When i first followed you i would have never expected us to turn out like this but im so glad we did because it has changed my life for the better. i followed you because you were such a good writer and to this day the choice to go off anon when sending you asks was the best decision i have ever made. you followed me back and we started talking and talking and talking and then we moved over to twitter and when we felt sad we would spam each other pics of our biases and then we moved over to kkt and im pretty sure since that day we haven’t spent a day where we didn’t talk to each other. even if its a simple “good morning’ and “i hope you have a good day today” we still keep talking and along that point i fell in love. now we’re nearing half a year and i just want to say thank you for being there for me. thank you for always talking and updating me on random things because you are the best thing thats ever happened to me. I love you Al <3

@jungjeonkimin we used to talk but we dont anymore but you’re still rlly nice and i love seeing you on my dash!

@ruppels-fox Hi! I know we haven’t talked in like... forever because im not as much into mp100 as i used to be, but you’re a really good friend!!! i loved talking to you and im glad we could bond over mp100 together :) i still love seeing you on my dash

@hybridow1 bro... even tho we never talk and never really have i LOVE seeing you on my dash. you like my kpop posts and you’re a constant presence in my notes and i really i appreciate you dude. im glad we’re mutuals :)

@mushy-mooster Jas.... my baby...... i lov u a whole bunch. ur such a good friend and even though we’ve had our falling outs we’re still friends and the past school year really brought us closer together :) it was always so much fun to help you out with astronomy and i was thankful to have at least one person in the class i knew (and liked cough damien cough) and even tho you post abt dc which i frankly dont like i still love your posts bcs it makes you happy and that makes me happy :) you’re one of my best friends and im glad to have you in my life <3

@bluepandabear329 even if you’re never on here like gabrielle you’re another one of my best friends <3 you helped me through sophmore year and im so glad we became friends mel <3

@rhysymmetra rhys,,,, my man,,,,, we’ve been mutuals for a really long time and i love seeing you on my dash <3 we dont talk but you feel like an old friend and im glad i never unfollowed :) you’re really sweet!

@sanguis-ripam even tho we like... never interact ive been following you since you were trying to boost your go-fund-me for your top surgery, and its been so awesome to see you evolve from that into the man you are today and im really proud. you’re kind of a role model for me and im glad we’re mutuals :) sorry for spamming your dash with kpop lmao

@transmanlukeskywalker god... bro ive been following you since our google plus days. i remember you made a really gay oc like... fuckboy mctrash something and i still have drawings of him... you’re another one of my treasured mutuals and i hope you’re doing okay :) if you ever need anything just talk to me bro! <3

@terezi-py-rope god i think i staarted following you because we had a homestuck roleplay going on??? still we’ve been mutuals for-fucking-ever and even though you still like it and i look back and sigh its good to see you on my dash. hope you’re doing okay :)

@ugh-heterophobia Hey Sky <3 even though we just broke up and you’re not as active i like seeing you and we go way back <3 im glad we’ve stayed together as long as we have <3

@adorkablooderpy like terezi-py-rope im pretty sure we followed because of hs but ive never had the heart to unfollow and like seeing you on my dash :) 

@howmanyletterscaniputinmyurl first, impressive username. it always makes me chuckle. and we interact sometimes, but its always nice seeing you :)

AAAAAAND thats it. all of my mutuals. i just wanted to let you know i appreciate you all even though some of us never talk and others i am really good friends with. okay im done being sappy now ignore me akhdf

[protectjugheadjonesiii]

The Fourth Musketeer (Part 3)

Part one here    Part two here

Requests: I love part 1 and 2 of The Fourth Musketeer!! Are you going to make a part 3?

Part 3 pls? For the four musketeers I'm really loving it.

WHERE IS FOURTH MUSKETEER PART 3 IM DYING TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT

Ahhhhhhhhh, The fourth Musketeer series is sooooo good 😍😍 I can't wait for part 3 😭💕

I need part 3 of 4m please

OMFG I NEED A PART 3 OF THE 4 MUSKETEERS !.!! Its SOO AMAZING

OMG I just read the second part of the Fourth Musketeer. It's amazing!!! I already want more! Love your work darling ❤❤

More fourth musketeer please god 💖🙏

Part 3 of the Four Musketeers PLEASE, it's so freaking good. It makes me feel all the feels and I'm in love with your writing

Pairing: Archie x Reader

Description: Unplanned reunions never end well.

Warnings: I cried while writing this

Word count: 1,536

A/N: just a reminder to all, if you want to be added to my taglist please ask in my ask box! anywho wowow buckle your seatbelts for the emotional roller coaster that is part 3!! enjoy!!

(Y/N) obliviously stood at the counter in Pop's, unaware of three sets of unwavering eyes staring at her.

"Should we... say something?" Betty suggested, but she didn't shift her gaze from (Y/N).

"I don't know," Veronica breathed.  "I probably shouldn't since she has no idea who I am."

"I'll do it," Jughead stated.  Before Veronica or Betty could acknowledge what he said, Jughead had stood up and began to walk towards (Y/N).  The two girls shared a tentative glance.  "Long time no see, (Y/N)," Jughead said from behind her.  She whirled around.

"Jughead," she acknowledged him, her lips forming an awkward smile.  "It's... nice to see you."

"God it's been so long," Jughead sighed, stepping closer to (Y/N).  She tried to inconspicuously edge away.

"Yeah," she nodded and pursed her lips.  Jughead was taken aback by her cold behavior.

"Does anyone else know you're here?" he questioned.  (Y/N) shook her head.

"Nope," she answered simply, "just you."

"And Betty," Jughead added, gesturing back to where Veronica and Betty were sitting.  When they noticed (Y/N) was looking at them, they smiled and waved. (Y/N)'s focus turned back to Jughead.

"Who's that with her?" she asked.

"Veronica," he explained, "she moved here at the beginning of the year."

"That's nice," another awkward smile formed on her lips.  Suddenly, a waiter brought out a bag of food.  (Y/N) grabbed the bag and quickly paid.  "Well, I've gotta get going. It's been nice seeing you again, Jughead."  She started to exit the diner, but Jughead quickly snatched her wrist.

"Wait!" he said, earning a questioning look from her.  "What about Archie?"

"What about Archie?" (Y/N) innocently repeated.  Jughead rolled his eyes.

"You know," he responded, "are you going to tell him you're back?"

"Why should I?" (Y/N) scoffed.

"Oh, I don't know, maybe because he's fucking smitten with you and has been heartbroken for the past two years.  And if I'm not mistaken, you were pretty smitten yourself before you moved." (Y/N) bit her lip as she shook her head.

"If he loved me, he would've called," she rolled her eyes.

"What happened to you?" Jughead asked, scanning her face.  (Y/N) snapped her wrist out of his grip.

"Nothing happened, Jughead."

"There's another thing," he noted.  "Since when have you called me Jughead?"

"My food is getting cold," she made up an excuse.

"Archie said you changed your number."  The sentence knocked the wind out of (Y/N), so she stood in silence as she stared at Jughead.

"I changed it," she finally admitted it. "But that was a few months after I left."

"Why?" he inquired.

"Because he didn't call me," she sighed.  "Even when I called him, he wouldn't answer."  Jughead furrowed his eyebrows.  (Y/N) shook her head as she left the diner.

She called over her shoulder, "Don't tell Archie I'm back."

“She expects you to not tell him?” Veronica questioned the next day at school.  Jughead shrugged.

“But I get it, you know?” Betty responded.  “She wants to be the one to tell him she’s back, not have someone do it on her behalf.”

“If she tells him,” Veronica reminded her.

“Listen, just… don’t tell him, okay?” Jughead told Veronica.  “I told (Y/N) I wouldn’t, and I don’t want to upset her.  She seemed kinda off yesterday.”

“So she’s not normally like that?” Veronica questioned with a hint of sarcasm.  Jughead rolled his eyes.

“Not when I knew her.”

“Okay, so (Y/N)’s gotta have some flaws, right?” Veronica asked Archie as she sat across from him in the lounge.  He narrowed his eyes.

“What?” he confusedly mumbled.  “Why are you asking about (Y/N)?”

“Well, Archiekins,” Veronica bit her lip, “you’ve seemed more down ever since Jughead’s party.  I figured it was something having to do with (Y/N).  I’m asking you about her flaws because right now, it seems like you’re kind of glorifying her in your memories, you know?  Since she hasn’t been around, you only want to remember the good parts of her.”

“I don’t know,” Archie waved off her suggestion.  “I really don’t want to talk about her.”

“But you have to,” Veronica immediately replied.  “Betty, Jughead, and Kevin told me about her and how you absolutely refused to mention her after she moved.”

“It’s a coping method,” he defended himself.  She shook her head.

“It’s unhealthy.”

“Veronica, stop!” Archie yelled, exasperatedly throwing his hands up in the air.  “You know why I can’t tell you any of (Y/N)’s flaws?  Because I love her.  And when you love someone, when you truly love someone, their flaws aren’t something you notice.  Their flaws are just another cute quirk that you adore, and I love everything there is about (Y/N).”  A smile creeped onto Veronica’s face, causing Archie to twist his face into a puzzled expression.  “What?”

“You love her,” she grinned, but Archie remained confused. “You love her, Archiekins.  Not loved, love.”  Archie rolled his eyes, but it didn’t hide his growing smile. Veronica stood up, brushing down her pencil skirt.  “My job here is done.  Keep an eye on your phone, Archiekins.  I’m gonna send you a very important message soon.”

An extremely confused Archie walked into Pop’s, and he continued to double check the text that Veronica sent him:

Go to Pop’s tonight.  Trust me.

She said nothing about meeting her there, nor did she mention anything about what he was supposed to do at the diner.  He scanned the area, searching for a familiar face.  His eyes landed on a face that was more familiar than he expected.

“(Y/N)?” he whispered, staring at the girl sitting all alone in a booth.  She, having not heard Archie’s murmur, continued to stare at her phone. “(Y/N)!”  Archie said it louder this time, and (Y/N)’s head snapped up. Her eyes doubled in size as she stared at her old childhood friend.  Slowly, she stood up and began to walk towards Archie.

“Archie?” she asked, stepping closer to him with an unreadable expression on her face.  He grinned and nodded.

“Oh god, (Y/N), I thought I’d never see you again.  I thought that-” A sharp slap across his face interrupted him.  Archie’s mouth opened slightly ajar as he stared at (Y/N), subdued into shock.

“Fuck you, Archie,” she spat.  Archie noticed tears glimmering in her eyes.  “No calls, no texts, no emails, nothing!  Absolutely nothing!”

“(Y/N), I-”

“And you act like you’re the victim,” she interrupted him, refusing to grant him the chance to defend himself.  “You told Jughead and Betty that I changed my number?  And you didn’t mention that I called you countless times, only for you to never answer.”

“(Y/N), I’m sorry,” he apologized, slowly grabbing her hands.  She didn’t tear them away from his grip, but Archie could feel her muscles tense.  “You know why I didn’t answer your calls?  Because it hurt.  It hurt because I thought I’d never see you again, and I thought that if I heard your voice, it would just make the pain worse.  I thought that maybe if I didn’t talk to you, if I pretended like you never existed, then maybe I could move on.”

“You think it didn’t hurt me?” (Y/N) questioned, her voice cracking as she held back her tears.  “You think it didn’t hurt every time I called my best friend but never got an answer?  You think it didn’t hurt when I was alone with my parents in a big city with no one to turn to?  You think it didn’t hurt when I couldn’t call for help when I needed it?”  Her voice gradually raised as she spoke.  Archie released (Y/N)’s hands, and instead, he opted to cup her face.  He leaned in and did something he had been dying to do for the past four years: he kissed her.  Archie tried to pour every ounce of love he had for (Y/N) into the kiss, he tried to tell her the things he was unable to say.  However, (Y/N) pulled away.  She took a step away from Archie as she frowned at him, her tears finally stumbling down her face.

“Why did you do that?” she cried softly.

“Because I love you,” Archie desperately answered.  He attempted to reach out towards her and hold her in his arms, but (Y/N) stepped further away.  “I love you, and I have always loved you.  I never got the chance to tell you.”

“You can’t do that to me,” she tried to wipe away her tears, but they were flowing too quickly.  “You can’t just barge in here and confess your love after you completely ignored me!”

“I’m sorry, (Y/N), it was stupid and selfish of me, but-”

“But nothing!” she stopped his apology.  (Y/N) brushed past Archie as she began to storm out of the diner, but before she could exit, Archie grabbed her wrist, forcing her to turn around.

“One thing, (Y/N). Can you please just answer one question for me?” he begged.  (Y/N) pursed her lips but nodded.  “Do you love me?”

“Archie, you can’t just-”

“Please, (Y/N),” his voice was meek and desperate.  She sighed, but slowly nodded.

“Of course,” she whispered. She gently wriggled her hand out of his grasp and exited the diner, leaving a heartbroken Archie behind.

Part four here     Part five here

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