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regarding dr ratio's team join voiceline with aventurine
idk where it originated from but i've been seeing this notion that the ENG voiceline is horribly mistranslated and ratio is much more caring and friendly in the original CN. THIS IS LITERALLY NOT TRUE HE IS JUST AS BITCHY IN BOTH LANGUAGES
as a native chinese speaker i actually really love hsr's localisation and i would like to clarify the misconception + explain the cultural nuance/context behind this particular voiceline
i think this tweet might've been the original source for this misconception? op's translation of the CN line is very literal and completely lacking in cultural nuance. while the sentence 管好你自己 does literally translate to "take care of yourself", it lacks the automatic positive connotation that this sentence has in ENG. CN is a high context language -- aka the meaning of a sentence can be totally different based on context clues like tone, body language, etc.
ratio's tone in this line is not the tone of someone who is concerned for a friend. it's standoffish. when said in this kind of tone, the meaning of 管好你自己 is closer to "mind your own business", making the ENG "keep to yourself" a more accurate localisation.
in addition, the word 管 has connotations of controlling/managing something -- directly translating this to "take care of yourself" means it's missing a lot of important nuance.
granted, the second half of the line is a bit unnecessarily aggressive in ENG. the CN is more like "I have no need for your concern", and explicitly saying that he believes aven's concern to be "false" in ENG is definitely a lot ruder than the original line.
However. in my opinion it's not Too far off base. the way he emphasises the second half of that voiceline in CN carries an implication that he actually disdains aven's concern; we can extrapolate from context clues that he feels this way because aven's concern is just an act. tldr; eng line explicitly saying "false display" does make it ruder than CN but it didn't just come from nowhere -- the implication is already there in CN
this is not to say that ratio doesn't care about aven or see him as a friend. imo the reason ratio is so standoffish in this line is because any display of concern from aven here has the clear intention of teasing ratio. they both know ratio can take care of himself perfectly well. this is just how their dynamic works -- aven makes silly playful comments and ratio deflects them by acting cold.
in conclusion: ENG voiceline is not a mistranslation. hsr localisation is definitely not perfect but in this particular case i feel they've done a fairly good job of conveying the original meaning. thank you for coming to my ted talk
#SORRY FOR THE LONG ASS POST#Im just passionate about accurate localisation#if you read the whole thing thank you seriously#if anyone has other thoughts or questions please feel free to share under this post or in my inbox or wherever!#i did cross check all this with another native speaker but im open to hearing other ppl's interpretations too#dr ratio#aventurine#aventio#ratiorine#not necessarily ship but ill tag anyway#honkai star rail#hsr#long post
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DELTAFELL - JEVIL
Jevil has escaped from his non-metaphorical prison and now works as an assassin, hired by King. His talent at finding and killing people has earned him the title “Headhunter” among Darkners, as well as “It” and “That f*cking clown”. Unfortunately for King, Jevil takes a little too much time for his jobs, as he likes to torment and mess with his victims for a bit before killing them. He’d actively hunt you down throughout the chapter, acting as a more sinister antagonist while the Lancer stuff happens.
For his secret boss fight, you’d be told by Shawm that the secret to defeating him is in the castle basement, or Jevil’s former cell. After walking in there, Jevil would follow you in and close the door behind him, trapping you. He’d call you all fools, mock you while also thanking you for reminding him of his freedom, and congratulating you on finding yours. Then he’d fight you.
There’s two ways this fight would go. Secret bosses are some of the only Darkners you can fully kill in a regular playthrough, turning to a red mist upon doing so.
He has 2 themes, a regular battle one and a boss fight one. Regular battle would be called Ringing Rosies, and the boss theme would be called Time Crunch (reference to the Big Crunch, the concept of the collapse of the universe)
Option 1: Kill Jevil. Upon being beaten, he’ll say:
*Weeheehee! You lightners sure know how to put on a show!
*With strength like yours... what beautiful chaos could be set loose!
*But... alas... my essence cracks, and soon...
*Soon, I will fade to nothing.
*But be warned.
*Soon, you’ll face an even bigger threat than me!
*Oh, no. Not the King, but someone much worse.
*Farewell, lightners... let’s see what madness follows you next!
You got the Jester’s Bands.
Armor
A pair of scarlet cuffs lined with spikes on the inside. It’ll increase your attack and defense drastically, but it’ll hurt.
+4 DEF
+4 ATK
-50% Max HP
Kris: (Susie:) Shit, Kris! You’re bleeding! (Ralsei:) I’ll tend to their wounds…
Susie: That’s metal as hell…
Ralsei: … (Susie:) (Doesn’t it hurt???)
Option 2: Pacify. He’ll say:
Pacify
*Oh, my... I haven't felt this drained... in ages... and ages! *It seems you lightners may have a spark of strength after all. *Perhaps... you might even bring an end to the King's reign… *A new era... not peace, no... but something... different. *Weeheehee... won't that be fun?
You got the Devil’s Cloak.
Weapon (Ralsei)
A cloak brimming with a strange energy. It enhances magical abilities in exchange for the wearer’s physical strength.
-4 ATK
+6 MGC
Susie: Egh… It’s making me feel woozy…
Ralsei: I suppose I could wear it as a scarf.
#sorry for the long ass post#I’m just really excited to share this#i got a lot of ideas rattling around in my head#too bad i can’t program or anything :/#but uhhhhhh#im sure someone will enjoy this#deltarune#deltarune fanart#jevil#jevil deltarune#jevil fanart#deltarune au#deltafell
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Andor characters + TV Tropes
Bix Caleen
Brasso
Cassian Andor
Cinta Kaz
Dedra Meero
Syril Karn
Kino Loy
Luthen Rael
Maarva Andor
Mon Mothma
Karis Nemik
Saw Gerrera
Arvel Skeen
Vel Sartha
#literally don't care if anyone even looks at this#i've just been kind of obsessed with tropes lately#and also so fucking bored#so here we are#sorry for the long ass post#andor#bix caleen#brasso#cassian andor#cinta kaz#dedra meero#syril karn#kino loy#luthen rael#maarva andor#mon mothma#karis nemik#saw gerrera#arvel skeen#vel sartha#long post#andor shitpost of the day?#also for those with a discerning eye#yes this is actually the mandalorian font#but it's close enough and i didn't have the patience to download the andor one#my posts
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okay i have some things to say. and i know all of my followers are here for bg3 content but i have to talk about the most recent episode of 9-1-1 on abc
Spoilers obviously if you have not seen s7xep4 of 9-1-1
Okay. I will start this by saying, I have loved Buddie for years now. Super cute, I love you Eddie, I love you Buck, im smushing your faces together like barbies. But i truly cannot get behind everyone saying that since Buck has been confirmed to be bisexual that they are going to make Buddie canon.
Firstly, lets not treat this new relationship with Tommy as a stepping stone to Buddie. This is Buck's moment right now, and thats all it needs to be. We rarely get this kind of rep, a straight "ladies man" esque character, in his 30s, learning that hes queer and what that is going to mean for him. Let Buck have this without rushing to get to Buddie
Second, I personally just do not think that it would write well for Eddie to also come out. With Buck, we have been seeing since the beginning that this man has been queer. There has never been a doubt in my mind that Buck would come out as bisexual, they have made so many quips about it in the show. It feels right for his character. I don't believe the same can be said for Eddie. If he were to come out now after all of this, if they made Buddie canon, to me it would simply feel like fanservice. Like they are catering to there audience, it wouldn't feel at all genuine to me. And I don't think its the most interesting or well written plot they could go for here.
Do I believe that Buck has/had feelings for Eddie? Absolutely. I think Buck should have a moment of realization of "oh, all of these big confusing feelings I've been having for my bestfriend might be explained now". But I don't think Eddie will reciprocate. And that's okay. They have a very beautiful friendship, and I think the best thing the writers could do is show a healthy male friendship that is heartfelt and vulnerable between a straightman and a queer man and have that just be okay.
As sweet as Buddie is as a ship, I'd very much like to see this relationship with Tommy fleshed out first and foremost. Flesh him out as a character, we've seen very little of him and I'd like to know more. I think if they really want to make Buddie canon, it needs to take its time, and they need to do it right. Well written queer characters are sometimes hard to come by, and i would hate for that to happen here with rushing into things. Personally, Ive been loving this theory brought up to me by a friend that Eddie actually helped set up things between Tommy and Buck. But who knows we will simply have to wait for the next episode.
#sorry for the long ass post#i just have a lot of thoughts and feelings#this isnt even all of them#don't get me started on the whole family feud cast “confirming” gay eddie#911 spoilers#911 abc#911 season 7#911 show#evan buckley#eddie diaz#tommy kinard#tommybuck#buddie
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the parallels between Roman and conner are actually killing me. they both are the siblings most likely to shirk off or dismiss their trauma, both deny their need for love while vehemently displaying the opposite, and both seem to pursue their siblings more than the others. yet there is something so distinctly different about them. conner who dismisses his trauma because he always had a distant view of it. who always looked at his siblings as having it worse off. and roman who denies it bc Logan has taught him that he always deserved it. conner who says he doesn't need love bc he was never given it from either parent. and roman who denies love bc he can't maintain it, was never taught it. conner who is always there when he's needed the most bc no one showed up for him. roman bc he needs to be something other then a punching bag to someone, anyone. the child raised the closest to the father's rod and staff, and the child raised the furthest from it.
#roman roy#conner roy#roy siblings#succession#this may not make sense#but theres just something about the 2 of them#sorry for the long ass post
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oh my fucking god. STORY TIME
I got lost while driving today and ended up in front of a PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS’ building. I looked them up, it’s legit, I read the reviews and the first one is GOLD it’s like a mini episode.
I need 4 seasons and/or a podcast. I’m ready to make this my entire personality, just ummm here (this is probably illegal or smth):
“I used their services in the summer of 2015 and was assigned Nicholas. He is former British military and has an incredible attention to detail. I was contacted by him almost immediately and was in touch with him in real time throughout several periods of the investigation. His reporting was thorough and unbiased, with extensive detail on locations, times and pictures that proved to be a difference maker legally. Those are things I expected when I decided to pay for investigative services.
What surprised me, pleasantly, was Nicholas' empathy and compassion throughout the investigation. There were several moments that proved too difficult to hear or see. In each of those instances, Nicholas was both brutally honest (at my request) and offered a much needed ear for me to vent and process. It was like an old friend helping me through a very difficult few moments. He didn't have to listen, or be there for me. But he was. After his services were rendered and paid we kept in touch every few months. He asked about my personal situation and I updated him on the good that came from his work. We even shared some laughs about topics not related to the investigation. I have never seen his face or shaken his hand, but would take his call or answer a text at any hour of the day. And I forgot the mention, I live on the east coast, and did throughout the investigation. I was compelled to write this public review because of this kinship, over a year later.”
bro what the fuck? I have never seen his face or shaken his hand, but would take his call or answer a text at any hour of the day.
I am CRYING, how do I get a job shadow or internship here?
also how do you get a license in stalking?
I swear I’m normal now. (I’m a lier)
#How do I even tag this?#My mind is blown#this is the best accidental thing I’ve stumbled upon#And all because I’m a DUMBASS#lol#funny#PI#private investigator#how? Just how?#Sorry for the long ass post#Long post#I think Nicholous is a cryid of sorts#How the fuck do you spell?
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Ok so I have a in progress owl house AU with the bat family. Now they don't really easily paste into the existing roles so there has to be a bit of editing and small changes. Here is the current role swap list.
Luz: Duke Thomas
Amity: Tim Drake (THIS IS A PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP!!!!)
Gus: Cass?? Maybe?? May give her a more dramatic backstory that Gus and that she left the "Emperors Coven" a while ago???? And she'd be older making Steph the younger one of the 2.
Willow: Steph??? Bc of the relationship between Willow and Amity?? Not quite accurate to Tim and Steph but drama?? Maybe?? Post breakup??
King: IDK YET LMAO
Hooty: Alfred...? Posh hooty....
Hunter: Damian
Golden Guard: Jason Todd
Ok so that needs some explaining, I kinda had to split that character into two because Jason could "die" and then come back as the crimson guard, but Damian fulfills the role of having been related to the Emperor. It'll be weird but kinda work?? I think??
I'm also not sure if I'll make Damian a grimwalker. I may be able to make him one that Talia may have raised?? In replacement of her old child she had with Bruce before they split??
ALSO DUE TO THEIR NATURE THERE WILL BE NO HUNTER WILLOW CROSSOVER HERE EITHER SORRY
Raine: Talia?? This could be so cool actually (Talia fits better in this role but It would be fun to have superbat. Unlikely though)
Eda: Bruce Wayne
Lilith: Kate Kane
Ed: Dick Grayson
Em: Barbara Gordon
The Emperor: Ras Al Ghul (dont know his situation! Talia may be a half elf in this)
They aren't aren't related but I feel like they got the vibes. Also idk if Dickbabs will be a thing here. I think it may have been a childhood relationship but they're almost outta school and Dicks with Kory.
if anyone has suggestions for who King may be lmk or how some changes in this could work??
Robin is a palisman that transfers around, Dick Grayson had it first, it being a palisman of one of his parents before they passed. When Jason started to hang around him and Bruce at the bathouse it eventually transfered over to him, and then transferred to Tim afterwards.
Dick Grayson did get a new palisman eventually though!! And it's reminiscent of Nightwing.
Jason does die and gets brought over to the Emperor and becomes the Crimson Knight and is stationed with Damian a lot. So missions Damian goes on, he is there as back up (As per request of Talia). He's a lot like the Young Justice Redhood at this point and my design is also reminiscent of that.
Tim's got the mid parents, may lean into the way Amity's parents are. He also doesn't have older siblings there to help out until Duke shows up and convinces him to go stay at bathouse permanently or something. (Dick and Babs do have a friendship with him though at school and try to get him to go to Dicks house more often but he doesn't)
Haven't thought about Stephs situation enough so if anyone has any ideas!!
As for covens, (I haven't thought about them enough RIP, will be added to as I get my act together)
Dick: Illusionist (Bruce doesn't have as bad of a relationship with the school as Eda did, though it did get worse after Dick started going!!"
My thought process was Illusionist is a very performative coven and he is a performer at heart <3
Jason: Bard Coven
I wanted to draw him with a guitar. Sue me. (It was a tiktok lmao I can't remember if I had any real reasoning)
Kory: Construction Coven
Because I could see her wanting to make things and she's strong
Duke Thomas: light glyphs so many light glyphs
He's gonna go through the Luz route and found the Bad Bat Coven (tm)
Bruce: Head of Bad Bat Coven
If anyone has any ideas for what covens other people will be I'd like to know 🥺.
#sorry for the long ass post#i have some designs drawn out for them but its unfinishdd#and only 7 people.#IM LOOKJGN AT MY NOGES AND SEE RENEE??#SHIT WHI WAS SHE MEANT TK BE#fuck fuck fuck#maubd i was gonna have Kate do the Raine romance?? thingy??#shes still gomna get renee#little old owl house au#the bat house#bat family au#bat family#dick grayson#bruce Wayne#kate kane#jason todd#cassandra wayne#Duke Thomas#PLEASE DONT SHOOT ME#ik thid is kinda niche or whatever but. hey.#shout out to my pals on Pony.Town who told me i should post this.#real ones.
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"another thing my ex made me feel bad about" ANOTHER INSTANCE OF YOUR EX BEING AN ABUS!VE ASSHOLE WHO DOESN'T DESERVE TO LIVE I HATE THAT MAN 🤬
YESSSS HATE HIM!!! HES A MISERABLE JACK ASS!!
here i'll drop more lore (tw)
i grew up with no real friends and then moved schools in third grade. i met a girl, and she was angry and an outcast and had fewer manners than i did. we became friends
we were kids, but suffice to say our friendship was toxic. whatever, i loved her- like, actually loved her, so i confessed to her. long involved love triangle between twelve year olds, we dated. then we didn't. but we were super close and did everything together and knew everything abt each other, also she lived on my road so we spent every day together. also, she would hit me and force me to be "the man" and emotionally abuse me, but i digress
ANYWAY she was my best friend forever. she moved out of state when we were 16 (i was already with my ex) but wr talked every day. I thought she seemed better. didn't blow up at me anymore.
soooo me and my abusive ex get abused by my mom LOL, so we move out when I'm 19 and he's 26, and!! my best friend moved in with us all the way from out of state!!
yeah, they had an affair. it was long and painful and drawn out. she helped him r@pe me on multiple occasions, and she guilted me into drinking a lot of alcohol with her for days at a time. i don't remember a lot of it. we were poor and at one point during the winter, we couldn't pay for oil, so we were without heat. we slept in a fucking pile on the living room floor together and she threw a FIT when I suggested I sleep in the middle. they fucked next to me while I was asleep and he forced me to do the same to her
anyway, then covid hit. she moved back out of state with her parents, and me and the ex moved to his parents' house. They continued to have an affair over phone even after I thought we both cut her off
One day he left for work, and then when it was around the time he'd be home, I got a long ass text about how he wasn't in the state anymore LOL
That's like. The bare minimum details. Thanks for listenin'
#mypost#answers#sorry for the long ass post#idk if anyone will actually read this but it felt good to write LOL
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Danni I want you to talk about everything right NEOW.
But I know you need specific questions, so I will ask you to talk to me about your Edd bc I know the least about your version of him
oh yaya time to talk about his big spanish hispanic jewish family!!!!
he's the youngest of 6, oldest 2 aren't named or designed. I have not much of shit on them yet lmao!
Edd is the baby child of the family and was super super dotted on by his mama and he and Elain, the second youngest, are the closest, her kids r named after him! Edwin being obvious but emily's middle name is manuela which is the female version of edds middle name, manuel! He's a gay man he's the gay uncle. We love tio edd.
Next up is Sofia who's a transwoman who works at a tattoo shop in london. While Edd is learning spanish to speak properly w his family in spain sofia has cut contact w most of the family since transitioning for various reasons, but she still texts edd here and there. He's pretty much the only one that still has contact w her and it how the family still knows she's alive. she loves her pug furbaby Moonshine. May or may not have a crush on a local ginger lady who works at a diner near her work.
Rodrigo, aka Felipe, has the typical brotherly relationship w Edd. Loves to bully and tease him and is pretty cool w his whole gay thing, even if he says some fuck up shit every now and then. He's trying. Worries a lot abt Sofia due to them being so close as kids, doesn't know abt her transitioning tho and Edd's not sure if he should tell him or not. Mama calls him her little filly (as in the horse) and was definitely into mlp (thanks to edd getitng him into it)
Speaking of mama! Here's Reina, Edd's mother who never quite felt right in her relationship with his dad John. John is an orthodox jew and she was very iffy on getting a divorce just because she "felt weird" about it, but when Edd was about 7 she talked to John and, shockingly, he agreed to the divorce but wanted dearly to stay in the kids life, which of course she would let him. They still lived together up until Edd's teens before Reina moved out into her own house. They had moved to the UK while still married, shortly after having Elain, so Edd never really experienced living in Spain where the majority of his family resides. He also can't speak Spanish very well but he's been learning!
Elain had moved back to Spain after meeting a visiting spaniard and marrying him, resulting in her having two kids, but it really wasn't long before they divorced. Turns out he had a mistress she was unaware of who was also pregnant so she slammed that divorced hammer quite fucking fast and took custody of the kids. Edd swears he'd kill the guy if he ever sees him, Elain tell him not too because she want's to be the one who kills him lmao.
Reina isn't orthodox but due to growing up w John who is, Edd seems to... think... she is... so whenever she visits he's in a rush to clean up the house. This shit should have been kosher YESTERDAY! BURY THE BACON IN THE BACKYARD GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! She tells the rest of them she actually adores bacon and is always slightly disappointed whenever Edd hides it from her. Tom tries to tell Edd about this but he just... wont rlly listen... it's ok it's not like it's rlly hurting anyone.
#eddsworld#ew edd#commie art#stfu commie#daisydays-26#sorry for the long ass post#there not. like. correct way to read it ig.#im just spewing my thoughts as they come to me#lmao#edd is a very nonpracticing jew btw#this poor man cannot speak a lick of hebrew#his bar mitzvah was a disaster#wouldn't expect anything less from him tbh
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🫵YOU. Tell me about your furry ocs neow
Oh boi, bet. cracks knuckles
I had like two sets of ocs but since I know which ones sparked curiosity on you, I'll talk about the second set, perhaps I'll talk about the first one soon.
Anyways to give some context, when I was like 15/16 years old (beware of the cringe), I had like a project that I wanted to do after I gave up from the first one. The project was a comic called "Blood Moon".
I never got finish it and I don't have any pages because I wanted to have the story all figured out before starting.
The "story" was about an universe were anthropomorphic animals and humans exist together, the humans (as always) are pieces of shit and didn't liked the furries so there was wars, slavery, torture and shit.
At some point it all ended and they live in 'harmony', except that some people still tortured and slaved the furries illegally. Now we have to know about how there's furries both in the city and in the forest, in the city they all live with the humans, have jobs etc.
In the forest there's villages and they're all of single species, like, bears only, wolves only, lmao.
The main focus is a village of wolves, in which Ares and his wife Star are the leaders of said village.
And they had a baby called Luna, a small wolf cub. So cute :[.
Also there will be some design changes through the post since I don't have much drawings to illustrate them. I will point out everytime a different design appears.
Anyways, shit goes down when a group of humans invaded the village and commited genocide and stole cubs, including Luna. They took her to a hidden cabin in which they tortured and sell furries as slaves. (I'm starting to realize how edgy and fucked up this story is, what the fuck... anyways.)
Luna ends up being sold for a man and he "raises" her as some guard dog in which he uses to intimidate and kill people who owe money for him. She grows up and yada yada yada, until one day he tested her limits and she ripped his head off :].
Now, she's a huge ass 1,93 cm tall buff wolf with no one to control her ass (this is why you never mistreat your puppies, they might kick your ass sooner or later/hj).
At some point of the story she runs off to the forest and oh my god what an inconvenience, she found an wolf village! And what another great inconvenience, she also found her parents!!! :0
I forgot to mention but they didn't died in the genocide, they managed to escape and runned off to another area to live, so yeah, these bitches are alive.
And they now have four more kids that they didn't lose, I could explain how they found out that they're all really related since Luna is a lost child, how she reacts about her parents having other kids after she got kidnapped and other stuff about the lore. But honestly, this post is way too long and I dislike this story so I can't stand writing more shit about it LMFAO.
Tho I will say that I erased all of this bullshit and now they all live normally, no more drama. They're happy now and live in a farm.
Also have some memes:
#ask#willow talking shit#my art#oc art#wolf oc#this story fucking sucks lol#I still have some love for the characters tho#which is the only reason I've been drawing them these days#sorry for the long ass post#maybe you only wanted names and some facts about them instead of a big ass answer#sorry
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Text: Billows and Shadows, volume 1, book 2, chapter 7 of Les Miserables, Victor Hugo/ Through Me (The Flood), Eat Your Young EP, Hozier
Images: Cover of Hozier's Nina Cried Power EP/François Flameng - Javert déraillé
#nina has thoughts#hozier#les miserables#les mis letters#long post#tw drowning#I couldn't decide how much to cut so um I just included it all#maybe we'll go back and change this later but I'm leaving it like this for now#sorry for the long ass post
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can I literally get my insurance to cover a massage. all of my joints are the tightest they have ever been, which is really saying something. they legit help me SO much T_T I am so so tired of living in pain. I don't want psychiatric meds. I want cannabis, ketamine, massage therapy, trauma therapy, & the government to give me my fuckin cripplebux already!!!
sorry to be an anti-psych med person but I've had shit tier effects on Every Single Drug I Have Tried. Gabapentin, prescribed to me for anxiety, fucking deletes my cognition and I can't like........ Be a human anymore and hold conversations I remember. Somehow, it makes my dissociation worse, and I'm a switchy DID mess.
With weed the worst thing that happens is I get a little too high and think there are ghosts in my house, and then I light a little incense & do some warding and grounding techniques and remind myself it's just the weed and I feel better! I'm just nervous bc the last time I spoke to a professional abt my smoking and how it helps my anxiety and pain they were like "ummm it'll make it worse if you don't quit!" which...... is not true for me personally.
It's not even about being ~natural~ it's just LITERALLY I know something that works and helps me!!!!! p l e a s e just let me have affordable access to it, I'm tired and in so much agony<3 I wanna get high n get all of the knots in my muscles worked out because rn it feels less like I've got muscles and more like there's rocks in there. and I think the constant tension really contributes to the chronic pain.
#mad scrawl#sorry for the long ass post#I'm still taking the gabbies but I. eugh.#not a fan................#they're fun recreationally but all of the time for anxiety its like. okay so I'm sorta lobotomized awesome
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Leaving my ex who has BPD was one of the best things I’ve done for myself even though I stayed four years too long. By the time I hopped off the emotional roller coaster of a relationship I was depressed, anxious, and unrecognizable by family friends. PwBPD are master manipulators and will attempt to warp your perception of events, leaving you to question your own sanity and so much more. The emotional abuse is on another level too. Here’s one of many examples, Imagine someone cutting themselves with a knife in front of you only to say “the cuts weren’t even that deep” or “you know I wasn’t that serious.” Just pure gaslighters. You think they care they hurt you? Nah, your feelings will be dismissed every time or they tell you how they are feeling is more important than how you’re feeling. The whole relationship was walking on eggshells to not set her off because pwBPD VERY emotionally unstable. One minute they love you the next they are screaming at you. I think their fear of rejection and abandonment outweighs the love, if any, they have for you. I wasn’t a perfect boyfriend but goddamn did I take accountability for every mistake I made. It may sound fucked up but until a pwBPD seek years of treatment and therapy I don’t think they are capable of a healthy relationship. You’ll recognize a pattern with their new partners. I could go on and on about what I went through in our relationship but I’m not tryna type all that lol just know if a person youre thinking about dating tells you they have BPD, run far away from them. Protect your energy and mental health.
#personal#only talked to my therapist and moms about this#finally healed#sorry for the long ass post#BPD
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Hi same anon as before. Would you ever want to talk a little bit about fanfiction and yugioh or whatever? Maybe give me some advice on how to start writing again when you’re stuck hehe. I’ve been stuck for nearly a whole year
YES ABSOLUTELY I WOULD!! I looooove talking about writing and yugioh :] two of my favorite things!
Also, as for some advice, here's what I can try to offer you:
When I get stuck, I move on to something else. If it's writing, I usually like to scroll through my old docs and find something that inspires me! Like an old idea I forgot about or a scene I forgot I wrote... Something that sparks my interest in that moment! And what I do is just... write? Writing for yourself I think is the most important step in getting back into things. You have to try to remind yourself why you started doing it in the first place and the only way to do that is to WANT to write whatever it is you're writing! So, if you're stuck on a project that you've been wanting to finish, the best thing to do is set it aside and write literally whatever the hell you want. Something that is exciting and fun and makes your brain feel alive again :]
After you get yourself back into it, finding a friend or two to share your work with is helpful :) So, instead of writing for, say, an AO3 audience, you have a smaller audience of supportive friends to read it over and tell you what they think :D I've been sharing docs (stories I will probably never post) with a couple of people this past year and I take great delight in just... sharing :) It's good to forget all about publishing and posting and sharing with a wider audience when you're stuck. You don't need to add that extra pressure on to yourself! Just HAVE FUN!!!
I think all of the above is good advice for when you're stuck on a specific project, but if you're stuck on writing as a whole and just can't seem to get back into it then I suggest two things:
One: Don't worry about it!! Get out and do something fun for yourself. Don't hunt too hard for inspiration. Instead, let it come to you! Write down thoughts you have throughout the day in a notebook or your phone (I actually do this with drawing in my sketchbook hehe its helpful!) that you can look at later. It can, and should, be literally anything:
"Saw an orange cat"; "The sky is purple looking"; "My shoelace is fucked up"
Then maybe challenge yourself to make something out of them? Or don't! It's just for exercising the idea making in your brain little by little :]
Two: **Read works you love! Read books, fics, poems, short stories, plays... whatever it is that you like and love to consume :] These are things that are sure to inspire you subconsciously! Maybe you could even analyze these works and ask yourself why you like these things. What makes the story unique? What draws you to it? Then you could take those things and try to mold it into something of your own :]
For example, what inspired me to write Cornered was The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner. It had been, like, 3 years since I read that book for high school, but one day I thought about the way Faulkner utilized stream of consciousness and point of view and I just was like "hey... what if I tried doing something a little like that..." And that was literally it. I had no plot ideas. I just put that thought on the back-burner and when the story finally did come to me, I put the two ideas together. Because I thought it would be epic. And because I love creative writing and I love investigators and I love yugioh and I love to make Ryou suffer :]
**I feel like I should add not to OVER analyze works you love. It's easy to feel discouraged when you start comparing yourself to others. Don't do that, like, ever! Use things you love for inspiration, never for comparison. If you find yourself feeling discouraged because "oh, I could never write like that" STOP IMMEDIATELY and do something else! Because you CAN!!! No one will ever write the way you do :] You are unique with your own thoughts and ideas! If you find yourself saying things like this, try finding inspiration outside of writing. Just so you don't fall into that hole!
Ah.... I think that's all I have, haha. I'm by no means a professional. I just really like writing fanfiction LOL Most of this advice is coming from my experience as an animation major and dealing with burnout and stuff like that. Everyone is different, though, so finding what works for you is going to be a bit of a challenge, but hopefully these are some tips that can help you get started on facing your writing rut head on!
As always, thank you for supporting my work anon <3 I wish you tremendous luck on your writing journey! And I'm flattered you have come to me for advice, hehe :]
#PHEW#sorry for the long ass post#but... this is something i'm really passionate about hehe#I hope this is somewhat helpful#like i said everyone works differently#what works for me might not work for you... but its worth a shot!#ask#anon#thank you for asking I am happy to try and help :)
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Exactly zero seconds
Very!
He kind of just passes out, and happens to luck into a regular sleep schedule
Depends on who introduces you to him
Depends on the circumstances of your introduction
Almost akin to water
Photos from more than four years ago. No, he does not.
Taking things that aren't his
Not often, and no.
"I'll be right back."
He pretends to understand until an opportunity for clarification naturally comes up in conversation. If it doesn't, he will improvise off of what he knows. It even works sometimes!
There isn't a place he can't reach
Thinks he looks best in black, and is almost correct (very dark grey)!
Dogs
Speaks with an Eastern Canadian accent, heavy on abbreviations which use apostrophes. He often doesn't know what he's going to say until he hears himself say it.
Gunshot wounds
Nope!
Fucking up a job he "should be good at"
18
"Love's love, way I sees it. Everyone feels it differently fer different people."
Genuine excitement to start the day
Gets very intensely friendly
Probably tries to steal something
It's not really a topic that comes up a lot, but he's pretty much neutral on the subject.
Maybe don't bring it up in front of him
His feet!
Anyone staring at him for more than a few seconds
Any day of the week
Usually!
Don.
Don.
Not particularly, but he does consistently try to be entertaining with new people.
Not on your life
Very.
Very supportive, yes! He doesn't need to understand what the hell they're talking about, it's more about the energy of conversation.
Uh, maybe don't bring that up either
Anything that manages to stick in his head is Never Leaving. Exactly what does manage to stick, though... pretty much random.
That night on the roof
If they're friends, extremely easy.
Sees them as just a fact of how he is, and he's often right.
Hasn't interacted with a child in over 4 years
Depends on the job
"Who cares? Ace, prob'ly."
A) He is 1000% my favourite child
B) I needed a comic relief and a self-insert for my ADHD, specifically
C) He kind of just showed up when he was needed, really. Most of my characters tend to do that
D) He started off without any real description, then I added features over time. He was always tall and thin, though.
E) Yes, and yes I hope so!
F) "Aw shit that's cool I wanna write about him more."
G) His accent. Specifically, differentiating who's talking between him and another character from the same part of the world.
H) His ability to calm a situation down from nearly any point
I) Yes, please! He would die in the other ones.
J) Nah, he fits into canon just fine.
Uncommon Questions for OCs and their creators:
Send me a # (questions for OCs) or a letter (questions for creators) and I’ll answer
QUESTIONS FOR YOUR OCs
What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?
How easy is it for your character to laugh?
How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)
How easy is it to earn their trust?
How easy is it to earn their mistrust?
Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?
What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?
What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child
Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?
What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?
How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?
How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?
What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?
What animal do they fear most?
How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?
What makes their stomach turn?
Are they easily embarrassed?
What embarrasses them?
What is their favorite number?
If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?
Why do they get up in the morning?
How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)?
How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)?
Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?
What are their thoughts on marriage?
What is their preferred mode of transportation?
What causes them to feel dread?
Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?
Do they usually live up to their own ideals?
Who do they most regret meeting?
Who are they the most glad to have met?
Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke?
Could they be considered lazy?
How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?
How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive?
Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap?
Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)?
What memory do they revisit the most often?
How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people?
How sensitive are they to their own flaws?
How do they feel about children?
How badly do they want to reach their end goal?
If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so?
QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS
A) Why are you excited about this character? B) What inspired you to create them? C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story? D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look? E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you? F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)? G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most? H) What trait do you admire most? I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe? J) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?
#sorry for the long ass post#long post#this isnt about anyone ive mentioned on this blog before#but i may bring him up in the future
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another super insulting part of the watcher situation i haven't rly seen ppl addressing much
ryan deadass saying smth like "nobody else on youtube has made tv quality content"
like... i really feel like it's important to highlight that bc not only do they obviously have no respect for their audience, but that statement shows they have no respect for their peers in the industry, either.
not to mention it is a shining example of bleeding arrogance to such a high degree, you will straight up fucking lie bc you're truly convinced you're that special when you're anything but.
there's been NUMEROUS online creators who were recognized by entertainment industry workers BECAUSE they made tv quality content & even full stop blockbuster quality content.
bo burnham started on youtube & is now one of the most wellknown & loved standup comedians of our generation, with numerous netflix specials & even a movie he wrote & directed under his belt.
the try guys, fellow ex-buzzfeed employees, had their own tv specials on food network (based off their youtube shows, btw) & a documentary made about them as well
rosanna pansino has also been on numerous food network shows both as a host & a judge
quinta brunsun, another fellow ex-buzzfeed employee, went on to create her own whole ass sitcom that has been highly praised
matpat cameo'd in the fnaf movie because of his theories & multiple other fnaf creators had small cameos through the employee of the month board easter egg
markiplier made multiple high-quality shows on youtube & is now working on a highly anticipated movie (he was also planned to cameo in the fnaf movie but couldn't due to conflicting schedules with his own movie)
hot ones got their own tv gameshow due to their popularity & they are still one of the most wellknown, beloved & respected internet shows
many short films made on youtube went on to premiere at film festivals & even in theaters
the hit horror film "talk to me" was created by youtubers rackaracka
webseries of actual fucking tv shows have also existed for literal decades
the list goes on.
to seriously think that overproduced bullshit is all you need to make "tv quality content" is not only tone-deaf, but shows they do not even know what they're talking about. many tv shows & huge blockbuster movies are made with absolutely microscopic budgets & small teams, & they still get praised & awarded for the passion, dedication, & creativity that shined brightly under those restrictions.
the blair witch project is probably the most wellknown & highly praised example of this, but it is far from the Only example
it is a whole other slap in the face, again ESPECIALLY when puppet history is one of their most popular shows, to spit in the face of internet history. to see the success of their predecessors, even ppl they fucking worked with at buzzfeed, & deny them of all their success & efforts to get where they ended up.
no, y'all are not the first people to make "tv quality content" on the internet. FAR from it. because your crap isn't even genuine "tv quality".
but you are the first ones to ever disrespect not only your audience, but your own fucking industry & your peers on this level.
& you are the first & i sorely hope the only fuckwads dumb enough to pull a stunt this fucking stupid, out of touch & utterly tone deaf.
#mine#watcher#sorry this is hopefully my last post but this pretention grated me#& im floored nobody has mentioned it#like sincerely how fucking dare you? what the fuck is wrong with you?#how far up your ass is that building long stick???#not to mention youtube is 18 fucking years old.#it is literally statistically impossible for a website as huge as youtube is to exist that long#& never have any 'tv quality' content on it. be mother fucking serious.#many ytbers were recognized by entertainment industry marvels BECAUSE they made content that was already tv quality#fuck off.
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