#SOME OF MY BEST RP WRITING IMO

[fbfh]

me when I listen to I bet on losing dogs while therapying, hurt/comforting, un-angstifying billy bots on janitor

[arcadeian]

name & pronouns. cole, but i also go by keen. he/him.

most active muse(s). uhhh... none at the moment? though i have the highest muse for chris, bonnie & probably my ocs atm. also james ( @undenial ) is constantly occupying my brain.

rp pet peeves. oh, too many to count. but one of my biggest is when you're trying to plot and are constantly met with a brick wall whilst being the only one to offer ideas. "they wouldn't do that. that wouldn't work." okay? how about you contribute to the conversation instead of making me do all the heavy lifting, only to get shot down at every turn. also, communication and lack thereof.

experience / how many years. god, like... 20, almost? i started way back in early middle school on gaia fucking online, of all places. as far as tumblr goes, i've been writing here since 2011, starting with the bioshock & resident evil fandoms.

fluff, angst or smut? technically all, but i prefer angst / drama / horror stuff. i enjoy smut as much as the next guy, but i have to be in the mood to write it. fluff is... eh. kind of a snoozefest, imo. i get a few posts into a thread with ~domestic bliss~ and wind up bored out of my mind.

long / short replies. medium, i'd say? for casual threads, i like 1 - 2 paragraphs or so. if it's something super involved and dramatic or w/e, i like longer ones. but i refuse to participate in this trend of padding your replies with two paras worth of metaphors and imagery that don't contribute to the plot.

best way to interact. i really prefer plotting, especially since i tend to write characters who fall under very niche categories / fandoms. if it's someone who can easily fit into other circumstances, by all means, i love a good inbox prompt. but i am not a person who handles it well when there's no plan, or some semblance of one. i need some idea of where we're going.

best time to write. i wish i knew! i've been struggling real hard lately. maybe i'm spoiled by writing on discord, maybe i'm just having a hard time with motivation. maybe it's both.

tagged by. @threadpull mwah xoxo tagging. @omniterror , @alphateamsfinest , @ubcs , @maimedaffair & whoever else wants to do it.

[shadowmaat]

source material

There's a post going around from beemovieerotica about how telling people to read/play/watch the source material they're writing about shouldn't be considered rude, just a statement of fact.

An argument then takes place (obviously) with one particular user claiming it's "gatekeeping" and "ableist" to expect that of people.

As someone who has written in two fandoms without engaging in the source material, I find the whole think kind of wild.

OP and their defenders default to thinking that the reasons folks won't play/watch the source is because they find it "icky" or some other flavor of unpalatable and just want to pick out the "good" bits to play with.

On that score, IMO, they're right. If you're dropping yourself into the middle of something you find generally unpleasant just to ship a couple of characters and ignore every bit of context around them, yeah, that's... not a good approach. I can see how there'd be a lot of toxic and misguided mentalities that would be involved in that sort of thing.

For me, though, it wasn't a case of "I don't like the icky bits and think I'm better than them," it was a case of me believing I was incapable of playing Portal or Portal 2 because of the level of hand/eye coordination and occasional lightning reflexes needed to play the game. I watched playthroughs, I read about the games, I absorbed stuff from fandom, and then I wrote my own fics. I also dropped an OC into a twitter RP and ran with it.

I did eventually play both games (even beat the 2nd one), but I don't know that it fundamentally changed my writing since I already knew the story. Watching the musical when it came out definitely shifted my focus, but I think that was after I'd already been writing fics.

With the Star Wars prequels/Clone Wars, there was already so much content available that actually watching the show didn't feel necessary. I'm sure that's given me a skewed view and I'd understand folks being annoyed with me for leaning more towards fanon than canon, but it's what worked best for me.

I've certainly had opportunities to watch it, and I've seen a handful of episodes, but in general I can't seem to stay focused while it's on. I'll admit that actually watching it probably would give me different insights into how I write, but I don't think it'd change much in terms of my place in fandom. I'm already not particularly popular. Watching the source material might even make my writing less popular since fandom has some pretty rigid ideas of what it wants TCW to be. LOL!

Anyway, as is often the case, the issue at hand is about nuance. There's nuance to the reasons people write stories/make art about something without knowing the source material. Some are understandable, some are stupid, and it's a judgement that works better individually applied rather than wholesale.

Calling it "gatekeeping" to expect folks to know the source is bullshit. Even if you can't play a game you can still watch someone else play it. Or read summaries. Or dive into the wikis. Or even just read fics from other people. I wouldn't recommend the latter as a sole source of knowledge, but combined with the rest it gives you a "feel" for things.

Calling it "ableist" is not only bullshit, but it's a Red Flag Word that lets you know the person misusing the term isn't arguing in good faith. There are plenty of things out there that ARE ableist, but this ain't it, kids. Especially in the context of beemovieerotica's grievance about people shoving themselves into a media they find so uncomfy that they refuse to learn anything about it. That isn't a strike against neurodivergence or whatever, it's a strike against the arrogance of trying to gentrify a fandom to turn it into something you find acceptable, rather than appreciating it for what it already is.

As for the inevitable whataboutism arguments that are sure to crop up: don't put words in someone else's mouth. OP wasn't talking about physical limitations or neurodivergence. While those are important issues to discuss, they're off topic in this instance. Just as I made a separate post to discuss my corner of the "didn't watch the source material" drama, others can make their own soapbox.

There's enough animosity in the world already without trying to create more where it isn't needed.

[spxcemuses]

Sir Ruber - Quest for Camelot

Disclaimer: Writing with this character WILL contain themes of: violence, murder, attempted regicide, [TBA].

I have parts I like/dislike about the movie itself (and Ruber too even though he's one of the best parts imo), so my interpretation will slightly stray from "canon". The film takes place in a medieval time period (albeit fantasy), so RPs with him may reflect bits of history from the time. [tba].

Name: Sir Ruber (Ruber, Lord Ruber, Master, Foul Barbarian, False King) Occupation: Ex-knight of the Round Table, Dark knight, Lord of his band of barbarians Personality: Ruber doesn’t need a charismatic façade to show that he’s purely villainous; he is already one in nature. It wasn’t always this way, though. Ruber once was allegiant to King Arthur, even sharing a place with the knights at the Round Table. He changed his mindset when he was denied on having his share of the land along with the notion of being king. Rejected, he tried to directly attack the King and the knights, failing and swearing vengeance on Camelot and to take Excalibur as his own. He is a manipulative, loathsome, brutal and iniquitous man who is on the brink of insanity. He is an exceptionally tough man, a competent and strong fighter with high brilliance. His mere presence sticks out like a sore thumb and is one that should be feared of. Location: Camelot, England Status: Single  Age: early 40’s Species: Human Gender: Male (he/him) Height: Approximately 6'0-6'5 (unknown yet) Family: Unknown

VERSES/AUs: 

V1 🛡; part of the table: This verse takes place before the events of the movie, where Ruber is a honored knight of the Round Table before he betrayed King Arthur. He is a bit more honorable and less insane than his in-movie counterpart, but not by much.

V2 👑; corrupted ruler: Ruber has successfully achieved of taking over Camelot and killing off King Arthur, becoming the new king. He brings chaos and darkness back to the land, ruling with a corrupt, iron fist. He has Excalibur welded to his arm due to a magic potion, and is both a worshiped and feared tyrant.

V3 🐎; stable boy: A pre-movie verse where Ruber is a younger lad; can range in age from 8-18 years old. Works part-time as a stable boy, but is also training to become a knight. He is a bit standoffish and blunt. Is also known as that "weird kid" and gets bullied by his peers (but also bullies them too) [tba].

V4 🐲; draconic fire: By unfortunate circumstances, Ruber got cursed by some witches and transformed into a large red dragon. He is ferocious and hoards precious items, seeking Excalibur as his next high-value item rather than to rule with it.

Verses TBA.

Gif Credit: X

[deathsdue]

Celebrating TOA and the people who contribute to make our group what it is.

Repost, don't reblog. Only fill in what you feel comfortable sharing! Happy anniversary, TOA! Here's to many more years spent together. template credit: thanks neffi!!

Name: Lailah

Pronouns: She/Her, They/Them

Birthday (no year): 9/12

Where are you from? What is your time zone? West Coast, USA

How long is your roleplay experience? Almost 20 years

How were you introduced to roleplaying as a whole? My first RP experience was in high school where we had a binder we passed around in the hallway between class lol I went on to forums, docs, email, mmos, and at some point tumblr and discord.

How were you introduced to TOA? I'd been missing the Tumblr RP experience and decided to search for an FE group and bam

Do you have any pets? I do! My black kitty, my baby boy who drools and meows a lot, Binx

What is your favorite time of year and why? Autumn when it's cooler but not too freezing and the leaves are pretty

What is your IRL occupation? QA tester for a video game company

Some interests and things you like/enjoy? Besides writing, playing games, reading, occasionally drawing, music, comics, collecting figures and such

What non-Fire Emblem games do you play? Tales of, Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Final Fantasy, Resident Evil, Zelda, Fallout, Elder Scrolls, Persona, Harvest Moon, farm sims in general, Metal Gear Solid, the list honestly just goes on and on and on

Favorite Pokemon type & Pokemon? ahahaha ok the list doesn't actually go that far. I didn't get that into pokemon. I do think they're cute but I just didn't get into the franchise. That said, I have plushies of chimchar, vulpix, and eevee so that probably says something

Tell us some funfacts and trivia about yourself! - When I worked at a dental office, I almost set the place on fire. The dentist was really nice about it tho and eventually he even wanted me to stay and get trained as a dental assistant - I have a low spicy tolerance but I'm really good with cajun spices (likely from growing up in Texas) - I'm in the credits of games that you've heard about (I won't say what) - I have a horrible sense of smell

How did you get into Fire Emblem? My friend was actually really into PoR but I didn't get into it until Awakening came out.

What Fire Emblem games have you played? (Note: I have not beaten all of these) Genealogy, Sacred Stones, Awakening, Fates, Three Houses, Engage, TMS, Heroes

First & Favorite Fire Emblem games? Awakening & Sacred Stones

List your 5 favorite Fire Emblem characters across the series! Frederick, Eirika, Ephraim, Gerome, Seteth

Who was the first character ever to make you go “ooh I like this one in particular” and why? Can be any context and reason! Frederick lol I'm such a Frederick simp. I love how caring and protective he is, that he knits, isn't afraid of showing affection, just generally wholesome imo

Any Fire Emblem crushes? 😳 Frederick 😳

If you’ve played (or are familiar with) the following games, who was your first S support? Who would you S support nowadays? - Awakening: Frederick (are you noticing a trend) and still Frederick - Fates: Yukimura, but probably Shura if I did it again - Three Houses: Hanneman haha I'd try a different one if I went back but Hanneman is my favorite - Engage: Mauvier, and still him

Favorite Fire Emblem class? rogues!

If you were a Fire Emblem character, what would be your class and stats? Would you be playable? Some kind of archer probably

If you were a Three Houses character, what would be your affiliation? Golden Deer all the way!

If you were an Officers Academy student, what would be your boons, banes and potential budding talent?

If you were an Engage character, which nation would you originate from? Firene probably

How do you pronounce TOA? To-ah

Current TOA muses? Gerome & Mikoto!

Past TOA muses? none right now

Who was your first TOA muse? Best boy Gerome

Do you believe you have a type of character you gravitate towards writing? It seems like…tsundere types tend to get me, or the ones that have lived a long time and have complicated pasts. but I have others that don't fit those trends too

Do you have characters or types of characters you don’t think you can handle writing, but wish you could? tbh my indie has a wide range of character types and I try to not write characters that are too similar. However, I guess I tend to not write types that are Too extroverted

What kind of scenes, situations etc do you believe you enjoy writing the most? I enjoy all types but I suppose very emotional scenes are fun for me, whether it's angst or positive emotions

Do you have any scenario in mind for your muse(s) that gets you thinking “man I hope I get to write this one day”? for Mikoto, I just want to write her with her children and also, tbh, finding a new love haha I'm in no rush for it but it'd fun if it happened. I'd also love to see her on the battlefield protecting others

Favorite TOA-related memories? Happyland was a blast to write with everyone and I adore the connections it brought so much. I can't wait to throw Mikoto into an event, she deserves it

Present or past tense? I think my habit is past but I try to match others so I go for present. if you see my flipping tenses I'm so sorry haha

Normal size text, small text, no preference? I default to small text but I'll match my writing partner, or use regular in case I'm concerned about readability for others

Got any potential muse delusions to share? 😉  ahahaha uhmmmmm if I can, Eirika, but if not then probably Peony or maybe even Rhys or Mozu. I write so many FE characters that I will never run out of ones to pick lol I've also written all of these characters at some point so I love to see how others write them too

[taiyou-torikomu]

NAME: Kitsu❍Guru

PRONOUNS: He/Him, They/Them

MOST ACTIVE MUSES: Getou Suguru & Jujutsu High Students @jujutsu-fantasy

EXPERIENCE: Let's see, my first tumblr blog was a world of warcraft oc in 2015. But I've been roleplaying for two decades or more. I was there when go-gaia was born! As it happens, I met Sensei @mukagenborn online in the fandom I was in at the time, around '09? 2010? We starting writing together back then and now we're Best Friends. So be careful who you talk to online!  I started playing Megumi with Sensei in the Summer of 2021 after we watched season 1 together. I only played off and on when Gojo or Yuji came up in our rp. Much later, I was watching JJK0 with Sensei, because I wanted to know Okkotsu's character better, and realized: I need to be writing Getou immediately. I've been writing Getou since... September 28th, 2024. lol. But truly, these have been the most enjoyable 6 months and 2 weeks I've ever had with a muse, so expect to see a lot more of him!

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT: My favorite genre to write is Adventure-Romance! And I like to rotate all three of those themes in circles throughout, like delicious rotisserie.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: I'm partial to longer, but I can work with brevity if we're short on time or collective braincells.

PET PEEVES: I have two. Let fiction remain fictional and make sure that in offline life, a person acts with the same - or higher - integrity and social activism that they extol when it comes to another person enjoying their creative hobby. My creative space is not a platform for someone else's virtue signaling. I'm writing for fun, for self-expression, to explore my muses, and to entertain my writing partners. And two: “Comparison is the death of joy.” Embrace unique. Celebrate perspective. Resist total homogeneity. There is always an open invitation for discussion and clarification, but a person's writing is like their thumbprint - it was meant to be recognizable but relatively distinct to the individual. I won't imitate you, so don't imitate me.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE: It would be a pleasure and an honor, imo. I also obsess over meaning, the human condition, my best friend and my found family. In my birthchart, it warns that I can be too defiant and inflexible in my views, but because I like to take up and stand for righteous causes, that I should try not to become a cult leader or an eco-terrorist. Lmao. So in that, Getou offers something like... 'If I had leaned into the extremism degree of my values, would I have done the same things? What would those drastic measures feel like?' Thinking like that gives me so much to write because I can see how someone so soft would develop so much edge.      Possibly? There are some similarities, as I like my main muse to have a degree of compatibility with my thought process, values, and relationships. I like to take a look at life through a different but relatable perspective, to see things I might have missed about them - or myself, because sometimes I can miss forest for trees and all that. A fresh take can help add a little dynamism to creativity, but if the muse is a good fit, it can also help me express facets of my nature that are a little shaky because in our daily lives, sometimes we are severely limited in what we can demonstrate, and when, and for whom. It's within my nature to prioritize other people right along with my own importance. I think uplifting another person can be restorative, if it stems from the heart and not the ego. If I see someone suffering, and I can take the weight of a 'curse' off of someone, I will. If I can use that curse later, in defense of something precious or invaluable, I will. It took me a long time to learn how to survive my own empathy, and what to do with the burdens that I collected from others out of a sense of responsibility and compassion.     Getou has been a fascinating muse to me, in that the trait I was trying to refine in myself, was built into his character as his operative ability. If nothing else, it's been helpful to me when I start to feel overwhelmed by what needs to be done in regards to another person's situation, to pause and consider whether I want to take on their curse or not. Putting it in a voluntary sense helps realign my purpose for being involved in the moment. Are any of these similarities between mun and muse? That's so subjective, who can really say. But I do enjoy the hell out of his character and the insights I associate with him. I also like that Getou has a soulmate who just happens to be compatible with Sensei. We're at work together, on the phone with each other, writing to one another, playing online with each other, living together and reading or watching JJK together - we spend most of the day IC, and so sometimes it feels like we're just getting to live out a softer chapter of a long, enduring love story.

TIME TO WRITE: During the workweek, all bets are off, I am too dead even for Kenjaku to pilot. On my days off, though, I write best at about 2am-10am CST. If I get started on my drafts as soon as I wake up, I'll have the most success. If I get distracted by a single leaf outside and the weather is nice?? I'm gone. I'll be outside playing all day, gomen.

TAGGED BY: @musecurse TAGGING: @norowaretamuses and anyone else who notices this 7000 foot long essay unroll up to their feet.

[deathsconsort]

respond to the following prompts out of character, then tag others you'd like to get to know a little bit better.

roleplayer name: bri

roleplayer pronouns: she / her 

muse name: the cuntress herself, nesta archeron 

preferred communication: tumblr dm’s and discord, but i reply faster over tumblr tbh

experience: rp wise somewhere around 2009-2010. when it comes to writing in general i was very young like 6 or 7 writing short stories and rewriting fairytales to make them the way i wanted to lmao 

preferred roleplay type: multi para length, i like to yap 

pet peeves & dealbreakers: i have quite a bit tbh, which i think a lot of us do when we’ve been around for so long. but my biggest one is copying, whether it’s copying me or my friends and then thinking no one will notice. whether it’s the writing, ideas ( such as hcs and verses ), hell even when it comes to fcs and setting up how a blog looks. i think if you lack originality then maybe this hobby isn’t for you. there’s also this, imo, weird stigma that drawing attention to instances like this is considered drama when it’s not. yeah, it’s rp but people stealing your ideas isn’t right and i wish people would stop watering it down to petty rp drama. i’m going to add this second thing about the ac/otar fandom specifically. if you’re someone who hates on any of the sisters, say mean/negative things about them, and/or complain about the people who like a sister that isn’t your favorite then i don’t want to see you on my dash. it says a lot about you as a person when you say things like that. i’ve blocked people before for it and i will continue to do so. when someone follows me i will scroll through their blog to make sure they don’t act like that before following them because of how many times it has happened. i can’t tell you the amount of times i’ve had people follow me first and then make nasty posts about nesta. i don’t even know what they’re trying to get at when they do weird things like that. but for a fandom that is predominantly women, the misogyny is appalling. i don’t want to deal with people who will shit on the sisters, but will love and treat the men of that series as if they’ve never done anything wrong. 

plots or memes: memes!! i always find it easier to plot once we already have s/t going and i have a feel for how someone portrays their characters. it makes the ideas pop in my head easier than they would starting with no writing at all. and tbh i also do enjoy winging things. 

best time to write: late at night, it’s when i have the most energy and creativity. there’s also nothing around to distract me. 

are you like your muse: extremely. it’s why i get v passionate and protective over her??? the trauma, grief, depression, ptsd, the sister dynamic, her personality, and how she was raised are eerily similar. it’s why i connect with her so deeply and is a character that has helped me through some really rough times. i have two sisters as well and we all have our own problems/struggles with each other and it’s why the dynamic between the sisters is really important to me. i also think that’s why i sometimes see things differently than a good chunk of the fandom does.

tagged by: @stareternyl and @firehcart

tagging: @yourgraves @sparelove @valkyrd @siphonedshadow and anyone else who wants to!!

[darkenforcer]

「 GET TO KNOW YOUR RP PARTNER! 」 ( repost, please don’t reblog )

「BASICS」

▐ NAME: luke ▐ PRONOUNS: he/him, they/them every once in a blue moon ▐ SEXUALITY: bi 👍 ▐ TAKEN OR SINGLE: single ▐ FIVE FACTS:

sonic and tales are my two longest-running hyperfixations. no idea what that says about me aside from proving i'm a giant dweeb.

i lived in europe while i was in university (~4 years)! back in the US since last summer tho and chilling (i.e., working & also not getting my driver's license)

i can and will beat anyone who challenges me to a race in mario kart. this is a threat.

my high school didn't have an official drama club so i never got the true theater exp, but i reaaally like acting and starred in leading roles before! i miss it a lot </3

i've been self-dyeing my hair different colors since i was 14! the best color combo i've ever done (imo) was a vibrant red that faded into yellow back when i had super long hair. it lasted only 2 washes lmao.

「EXPERIENCE」

▐ HOW LONG (YEARS/MONTHS): at least 12 years on-and-off! ▐ PLATFORMS USED: email, deviantart, skype, and tumblr obviously ▐ BEST EXPERIENCE: IDK!!!! i've had so many fun moments here (especially since app'ing yuri) that it'd be impossible to choose just one. can i be corny and say getting to befriend other muns or will i get mauled

「MUSE PREFERENCES」

▐ MALE/FEMALE/OTHER: i tend to lean toward canon male muses that i hit with the transmasc or nonbinary beam, but if i look at my entire history it's been an even split ▐ FAVORITE FACECLAIM: don't have one!! use ur imagination if you've never seen a selfie of mine ▐ FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT: that's tough... it depends on my mood but i'll always go for anything that'll. ahem. hit me in the feels, as they say. for smut tho idk i've only ever written it in fanfic form so ▐ PLOTS OR MEMES: both!! i think memes are good for squeezing in smaller interactions you can't fit into long ass threads, but i also rly like planning and working toward a certain point with other muns, too! ▐ LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: i'm totally fine with either but i am Not immune to accidentally making replies longer than needed lol ▐ BEST TIME TO WRITE: i draft a lot of my replies at work then finish them up in the evening / morning... whenever i have time and motivation tbh ▐ ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSES: IDK.. i feel like i'd be hyping myself up too much if i said i was "like yuri" considering he's won the character popularity poll every time he's been allowed on there. i do relate to certain aspects of his character, though, 100%! it's hard for me to rp characters i can't tap into to some extent.

[cuckoo-among-beasts]

Ok, I'm finally writing this, the Ezra and Huaisang connection, aka how I came to feel some kind of connection to this gremlin. I can't tell when that exact moment happened and by that time I had finished the donghua and started on both the novel and web series. In general, I tend to get attached to characters similar to myself, but me and Huaisang doesn't share that much, the biggest difference being him fine with seen as useless and frivolous, while I'm the exact opposite, terrified of being seen as useless, lazy and good-for-nothing. He's also considerably more social than I am. I also tend to rp more "hero-like" characters and although Huaisang isn't a villain, imo, he's definitely not a hero either (the first mdzs character I thought of rping was actually LXC). So what made me steer out from my comfort zone?

Well, we aren't completely different, Huaisang and I, but I'm not going to go into details about that. I'm just going to write about main things that made me love this lazy, cunning, lovable gremlin. This might end up being a bit rambling and it will be very personal. Might end up being long too. I will probably not re-read it, so if it ends up sounding weird or grammatical errors and whatnot, sorry about that. And yes, most of it will be about me since I need to explain shit for anyone to get it.

I was born during a blizzard, it was -40C at the time, this was all a rather unlucky sign since children born during storms are said to bring chaos. Therefore, my parents... ok, I'm kidding. Well, not really, I was born during those conditions and tradition says that will bring chaos, but it has nothing to do with what I'm about to write, I was just thinking about how to start and this popped up. Sorry, sorry.

Let's try again. For as long as I can remember, I've always had a love for art and beauty. I used drawings to communicate before i could properly speak (which I have no memories of). I always loved to draw, but also appreciated others' art, including crafts, sculptures and so on. As a very young child, I could randomly start crying because I found things so beautiful, which also included music and the sounds of words. During early childhood tests, my parents were always told I seemed gifted, if not particularly sociable and communicative. I was a sensitive child, who cried easily and frustrated easily. A child that was either constantly moving or could sit for hours staring, who froze in the middle of things and just daydreamed (I'm still guilty of this) or who could just flop down and take a nap whenever. My three main interest as a child was: drawing, reading (in which ancient China ended up being a favourite subject xD ) and walking around in the forest where I lived watching nature and animals, especially birds (we had several different bird houses, since both my parents are nature lovers as well). This all sounds pretty nice, doesn't it? And it was, at first.

I was repeatedly told off for being too sensitive (funny enough, I was also told off for not emoting enough, all this is still a mystery to me), for not being attentive and sociable enough, for being lazy, for being too chatty (but also too quiet, once again this weird thing where I'm still not sure where the limit goes). Hearing this and other things enough times and you start to realise you're wrong and I started to do my best to change. This was also when I realised that people prefer too little over too much, so even if I couldn't grasp what was emotional enough or chatty enough, if I kept myself stoic and quiet (even when I wanted to and could speak), that was more acceptable than me "overreacting" and "never shutting up". I was still an outsider though, something I would always be and still am. No matter how much I've tried to fit in. At least I still had my interests. For now.

As I grew older and things like job and career starting to creep into my life (around the age of 12, since that's when they start asking you about high school and by then you need to know if you want to study a theoretical or practical program and also what kind of that you want, you can't mix and match subject in the way you do in the US, for example) and I had no answers to what I wanted to do. All I know I liked, and wanted to do, was read, write and draw. I was repeatedly told that's not a career and I should stop with those fancies and not waste my intelligence on "aesthetics" (by this time, I had been in three class plays with fairly prominent roles in all three and I started in the church choir at the age of 8). Hearing this over and over, as well as being severely bullied (by both students and teachers), I basically stopped drawing and at 16, I quit the church choir too, saying I needed to focus on my studies, in reality, I had begun to develop pretty bad anxiety (this all culminated in my early twenties when I basically shut myself in in my flat, it's gotten better since, but I still struggle to talk to strangers or show anything I've created out of fear of rejection and ridicule as well as me being extremely sensitive to criticism. And yes, I do miss the acting and the singing sometimes, especially the singing, I've always loved that too). And yes, I did not choose the "art program" in high school, I went to the "social science program - focus: environment, humans and society" (a mix of science and social science). To keep things short, I eventually got my current diagnoses and began drawing again, which helped. I still don't do it as much as I should. I also still don't allow myself the rest my brain seems to need. I do allow myself to cry when needed when I'm alone now. To make it even shorter, I started to try and find my "true self" again. This included being honest about my transmasculine gender identity. And then it came again. The negativity. How I couldn't be things because "real men" aren't this and that way again. Scared of being unaccepted, I once again hardened myself. Now it also included stop wearing nail polish and getting a more traditional masculine appearance and just generally removing anything "feminine" with how I looked or acted: no emotions, no crying, no softness. Hell no. I just wanted people to believe me when I said I'm not a woman. Since that was it. I wasn't, isn't, a woman, but I'm also not a man and not until I moved her to the UK did I find out that you can be neither and still also be masculine (I'm not going to go into details about my gender identity here, feel free to ask if you want to, but to quickly specify it, I'm a transmasc agender).

Anyway, this is where Huaisang enters. Here is this fictional guy where many of my bad traits and many does dislike him for them, but he doesn't give a shit about that. He is unapologetically himself, and as much as Mingjue complains about him, I think we all know he indulged his didi, making him feel loved for who he is for most of the time. And not only is Huaisang unapologetically himself, he prides himself for his artistic interests, his sensitivity, his uselessness and laziness. My mind made a 360 at that and then... once I realised, I cried. I'm admitting that. Why did this fictional character get to be what I weren't allowed to be? He's even a (cis) male! Outrageous! Yes, I admit that too, I got angry and jealous at a fictional character. It went over quickly. Instead I started to love him and also realise that if someone could come up with a character with these traits that were loved and had friends and so on, then maybe, just maybe, I'm not completely wrong and broken?

Huaisang has partly helped me to try and start taking steps to find who I am now. I'm working on growing out my hair, I've bought nail polish again (only used black so far, but I have a lovely pale mother-of-pearl pink next to me I want to use) and I want to wear beautiful clothes again (still needs to be comfy though), even if I haven't dared checking out the women's section yet (since the men's one are boring and we all know it), but at least the will is there now. I'm trying to get back to drawing and painting more again, but that's also effort since it requires me to take things out and put it away each time. I've returned to some bird watching though.

Huaisang might not be the best fictional role-model you can have, but I think I needed him, still does, he makes his gremlin comments to me sometimes (obviously, I know this is me talking to me). He definitely drives me insane at times (I'm too much of an "Orderly Lan" to him), but it's worth it. The true charmer he is, he managed to even charm me into stepping out of my boundaries, both as myself and for the type of muses I usually portray.

Now, where can I find a real life Mingjue for myself? xD

[vrnvuld]

HSHQTASK059: FAREWELL !

when did you join ? what made you join ? what do you remember from the plotlines that were current at the time ? where were you in life when you joined and where are you now ?

i'm not entirely sure but i think late 2015. i was a sophmore in high school, i think i was in my high school's computer room killing time and looking for a new group. i don't remember which tag i was in. it could have been #royal rp but atst i don't think it was. i was sold immediately because i thought it would be awesome to play a finnish royal. i messaged the player who had the finnish princess because she had a wc up for a brother. i was so impatient and i didn't wait for her reply but applied for viveka. then she got back to me and i picked up a second character on my third day or something. i was super excited. that was almost 10 years ago. in those ten years i've graduated high school, worked here and there, acquired my master's degree, and now i'm working for the government. it's been an adventure !

which characters have you written over the years ?

viveka, viljo / vaughn, vanamo, viggo, minenhle, arnauld

what is your favourite plotline that you've been part of ?

i think i have three: farnauld break up summer, i think it was different from my usual stuff for arnauld and i enjoyed getting to write him at his most manipulative, and then at his most vulnerable. it was interesting and i was very active ! but i think i will have a massive soft spot for viani. it's so embarrassing that i'm just naming ships but idc, i'm an honest bitch. writing viggo as a young adult into an adult adult was really satisfying and i don't think it would have happened without armani / j. and then i have viveka and imogen. i think imogen was the reason why i stuck around at chambordrp. i really think i might have ghosted without the dynamic. it was the first angsty exes plot i EVER wrote and i was very happy with it. if i now read the stuff, i'm probably shed tears of blood because the writing was so bad. but the ship is also the reason why i ever started listening to halsey lmao kgbdkjgb

what about other people's plotlines ?

i really enjoyed reading annexei. there was a lovely amount of angst. i alsoooooo loved the beginning of layslan. it was full of drama and it was fun to follow ( okay i was a bit involved but i wasn't involved a lot ). there's been so many amazing plots and if someone now gave me a list of all the shit we've written together, i wouldn't be able to keep this section short. i will miss the energy :(

who is your favourite character from the ones you've played ? why ? what made you love them ? what made them so fun to write ?

viveka and arnauld. i think viveka will have a special place in my heart because she is closest to a self insert from all of the characters i've ever written and what happened in her story i sort of learned from ? idk how else to explain it but i feel closest to her and she became a very strong figure in my life despite being fictional. i enjoyed writing her, especially the times when she showed her ugly side. in her i wrote some of my best stuff in the sense that the emotions felt real. arnauld was kind of a caricature so he wasn't that nuanced imo. but i had soooo much fun with him as you could probably see. when i picked him up after a year long break, i was sure i'd lose muse because writing characters in their 40s was not easy in a group with young characters. somehow the group made it work and the political plots also became more important and i could do so much !!! it was fun to write someone truly horrible. someone whose behaviour was disgusting. i am so glad that i was given the opportunities and allowed to write a villain into the group <3

if you could relive a plotline, which would it be ?

this is too difficult !!!! for nostalgia i might choose this one event during chambord that was a trip to paris. it wasn't very eventful but i think... IT WAS SUCH A LONG TIME AGO. i want a piece of that youth.

a plotline that i enjoyed from start to finish would probably be the roman vs romanovs thing. it was complex and it moved surprisingly smoothly. it got dragged out but not as much as it could have gotten. i also loved the short skit when sylvia found the ultrasound pics. it was a funny week. and all of the nye events have been amazing. every first week of the past 8 years have been some of the funniest of my life. i also have a soft spot for the beginning of varbie. it was so natural and i don't think i've written anything like that afterwards. it was us saying yes to each and every idea. i loved their happy moments and their problems. there were times when they felt like real people with real feelings instead of just characters that were used to write a story.

is there a plotline that you'd edit now if you could ?

i wouldn't edit anything but like isa said, i'd finish farnauld quicker. i would have loved getting to write a bit of fluffy farnauld. because it's something we never really got a chance to write because even when farnauld was doing well the shadow of tekla and the croys was present. fanni had a lot of issues, arnauld was busy hiding tobias... i'd also give vanamo and valias more attention. i know we could have accomplished more but my muse was flaky.

what's a plotline you wish you would have been able to finish before closing or just write more of ?

farnauld. i'm embarrassed since i've given it most of my time here at hshq but i still would have liked to write a bit more.

what is your favourite ooc memory ?

oooooooh it would have to be some of the crazy muns. like at the time the moments weren't funny or nice but the stories are now. and i think it also brought me and j and others closer to each other akfbdsjgbs evy mentioned honesty hours and i agree with that too ! and i have to give a special mention to naomi. idk which particular thing but she has the best energy <3

where can others find you if they want to get in touch ?

i'll be here and on discord so don't be afraid to shoot me a message if you wanna write ! but i do think this might be the time for me to retire from tumblr / rp scene.

what else would you like to say ?

i've known some of you longer than some of my best friends. you know a side of me that no one irl does. i don't think i will be able to express how grateful i am for these years and the HOURS we have spent writing together. not everyone gets to experience this and it's been an honor. i've had so much fun and i honestly don't see myself forgetting this place. i wonder what will be the thing in the future that makes me think of something that happened at hshq. this is a very bittersweet moment for me and this honestly feels worse than graduation. hshq was more than a rp group to me and i love you guys <3

[idolbound]

meredith is one of the best villains in bioware imo and boy does she come to life under your care. i love seeing what you've created with her over the past ten years: your portrayal of her sexuality, the potential for her redemption/atonement, your ship with amelia. it's all A+. you've been on my dash in some capacity since uh. idk! sometime after me3, so over 10 years. we're both 30+ now ksjdf. and i've appreciated so much of the time and thought you've put into not just your writing, but your studies. (also excited to see more of your dwarf rook xoxo)

@theharellan is putting me right back in my feelings 🙏🥺

Tas!! Hello! This is so sweet, thank you. I truly cannot believe it will be 10 years this coming May with Meredith (and a big fat 12 years in January for my tumblr rp participation as a whole), and I'm so happy to know y'all have not only cared but seen how my writing has changed and grown with me.

(and I am excited to see how she develops too!)

Thank you again !!!

[duckduckhjonk]

Ok off I go infodumping, yes, once again Mayhem related, they're forever in my brain and I cannot get them out

Note! This is long... And a mix of silly and not so silly... Take warning at that :3

I've colour coded them so you know which is which dw!!

Ok so to start off I wanna give a bit of my interpretation of the order they all joined the band in(silly headcanon)

The obvious is Teeth and Floyd were first, but I think maybe like one night while they were in a crummy motel or staying at a rented place for a bit is when Animal was dropped off with Floyd. Next I think Janice joined, like I've said on my rp blog, she was a waitress and watched them play a small show and immediately felt like she had to join. So she quit her job and did so. Then Zoot, again going off the rp blog, he was found on the side of a diner trying to get a bit of money. Lastly, of course, Lips joined. I like to think still he was introduced via the Muppet show. At first he was just supposed to be one of the guys in the orchestra, but the band liked him(I plan on writing a fic about him officially joining) and asked him to join.

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My next topic would probably be moreso what I plan to do with Floyd's parents in my writing of season 2.(Serious headcanon)

I was originally going to be a bit more extreme with this, but given some of my other plans, I'd rather save that for a possible season 3 if I get there. I still wanna introduce his family though. A lot of it is projecting my issues onto him, of course my family issues aren't nearly as bad as the ones I gave him, but y'know, there's some projection within this.(Note; the projection is the favouritism my parents show, nothing else really)

Floyd's parents are overly militaristic. Made him enlist, was the reason he stayed for so long, y'know. But he never cared for it. He knew his destiny was music all along, that's why after he was fed up with it, he got himself discharged. Afterwards he cut mostly all contact except for with his sister. I imagine his sister is a tech kid and was the only one to show interest in military, hence her being much more The Favourite Child. The only reason he ever did still contact her was she never bullied and belittled him as bad as their parents did. He was fully pushed to cut contact with his sister the night he got Animal. He knew if he told her, his parents would get involved and possibly take Animal from him, and he wanted nothing to do with that.

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3rd topic time! I wanna discuss Zoot's weird powers. I know it could just be Regular Muppet Bullshit but shut up I wanna talk about it in depth.(Silly Headcanon)

So I mostly have boiled it down to around 3 options. Godhood, Alien, or learned magic as a kid. The 3rd option is prob the least likely imo, I already have full backstory planned for Zoot, it wouldn't fit much. Although the other 2 seem a whole lot cooler. Alien would be interesting because that'd be two camera using blue muppets played by the same guy who just so happen to be aliens of some sort. I also like the thought of godhood. Imagine a god who had their memory completely wiped and got sent to earth. He knows nothing and just learns how to play sax and joins a band after much struggle to get accustomed to living in the mortal world.(By struggle I absolutely will discuss that in the backstory)(Prob not today but you'll get it in mayhem season 2) It would probably be the best option to explain some of this stuff, like I imagine him accidentally gifting his shoe with life and just going along with it. Would the other gods ever come to get him? Maybe but they think he's doing fine down there.

~

That's it for now, I've said a lot and got a lot off my mind about these losers, I love them btw.

[magnifiico]

literally copy/pasting this from one of my other blogs where i made this post YEARS ago, but it still applies, so i want to communicate it again (ꈍ ‸ ꈍ✿)

i’m not asking anyone to do anything or requesting this be done for me specifically, but i do want to just sort of encourage this among folks in the rpc willing to engage:

please just… when someone writes you a starter, replies to an ask you sent, replies even just to a thread you have going on, let them know you like it and appreciate it.

now, tumblr makes that easy for us. we can literally just “like” the post and let the person know we’ve a) seen it and b) approve in some way/shape/form. but for anyone who doesn’t get anxious doing so, actually approaching the person or leaving a lil comment on it really is such a sweet thing to do, imo.

in my experience, i’m always more engaged and eager to write with someone who shows they appreciate my writing and characterization. and you really don’t have to jump through hoops to show it. you don’t have to be someone’s best friend or therapist or any of that; even just being in a strictly “writing partners” relationship leaves room to tell your partner:

hey, that starter you wrote for me was perfect and i love it; tysm for writing it. i can’t believe your character just said that!! i’m screaming omg can’t wait to reply. your ask response killed me; i adore the way you write your character. and so on.

the point i’m trying to make is that i think everyone here deserves to be told they’re doing a great job. everyone here deserves to feel accomplished and wonderful for the time and effort they put into their muse. but i also think 99% of the people here don’t actually get to hear that as often as they should.

so if you have it in you, let your rp partners know you appreciate them, their character, their writing, their headcanons, any of it. because you do. otherwise you wouldn’t be writing with them—just go that one extra step of point-blank expressing it. <3

[rpcburnbook]

TLDR: The rpc identifies or fantasizes about life through their character's perspective far too prevalently for me to believe in the widespread separation of art and artist in this hobby. Also, a lot of people who write dark shit do it specifically to upset or goad people irl even when they know specific boundaries exist. // i respect that you have boundaries and know what makes you comfortable, but I am curious how you know what other rpers motivations are? there's a lot of assumption here. // I should have stated this more carefully. i also saw there was another reply too so I'll do my best to address both. fwiw, I've been in the pbp rp scene for 20 years and I absolutely don't know other people's motivations. I can only go on the basis of patterns. I have written about lots of darker stuff in my time- sa, dv, child abuse, etc, always on board where those things fit the setting. I don't actually think most dark theme writers set off to upset people, that was badly stated. However I think the behavior - in general - reveals most rpers don't have the maturity to be handling some of these topics in a communal setting, so I usually approach with caution and a fair amount of suspicion at this point. Sasha is a *really* extreme example of deliberately instigating, obviously, and I've never personally run across someone that far off the deep end. I'll instead speak to what I usually see which is more tame and probably less conscious but still in poor taste imo. I've been approached several times about what I'm writing making people uncomfortable, and only in 2 cases has the person been so overwrought or aggressive that there was no good solution. Sometimes the solution was moving plotting for certain characters to dm or a specific channel, other times it was putting things in a doc, and in some cases it was just talking to people about why I was writing those things. On the flipside I have talked to a few people in my time about keeping certain topics siloed in similar ways and seen many conversations where someone else did and they've rarely gone well. About half the time, I have seen whoever is being asked to pull back instead: get really passive/aggressive towards the asker, start soliciting similar plots from characters directly adjacent to that persons characters, start talking about the topics more, start tagging those people when they post like 'lol @ person don't read I know you'll hate it', or leaving the site altogether. I've also seen writers cut their partners off for realizing a topic was too much to write explicitly and backing out of graphic depictions of some of this. To me this says someone is too personally entangled with a character or theme to be writing them in a community, and more often than not I don't have a problem with anyone until that's been demonstrated. Again, I get squicked by these things because it shows me someone can't separate their personal feelings and self image from criticism or distaste for those topics. [pt 1]

[pt 2] I think if you're going to write these topics, you need to be prepared to handle the occasional pushback or discomfort gracefully and respectfully. Since I have seen that so rarely, I can't help but believe that most people aren't doing a good job of separating themselves from the topic or the character, much less considering other people when they're writing things which can genuinely be disturbing. If you can't do that, I don't think you should write those things outside 1x1s, and even then only with people you can hear criticism from without spinning out. In a public context, to another replier's point, there are certainly people who are looking for reasons to be upset or are at least coming into those conversations with a lot of sensitivity, which speaks to part of my original ask in that I don't think many admin teams are equipped to moderate well when one or both of those things are true. And in other contexts, rping those kind of topics is a left field kind of decision based on the setting/overall tone and shouldn't be done. All of that means I just regard most writers who focus on dark themes with caution. Like I originally said, most of the time I just ignore stuff I don't like, it's just hard for anyone (myself included) to do that if an individual has decided people are being too sensitive and the right medicine is to push harder or carry resentment instead of respecting other people.

Again, I don't think that's everyone. But my experiences on both sides of those conversations make me think a small fraction of people are genuinely equipped to handle these topics in public responsibly.

[despairforme]

congratulations on the 9 years with the spoon! any tips on sticking to writing the same character for so long without the fandom ruining them? genuinely curious!

[ ;O;//// Thank you so much anon! I'm super happy about having written him for 9 years. Thinking about all the time I've dedicated to my hobby, all the hours I've given him... Makes me happy. I'm living my best life!

I'd be happy to share some tips about sticking to a character. At least I can share what has worked for me. I can 5/5 recommend having such a long journey with a character. It's a commitment you won't regret! I'm not really sure what you mean by "the fandom ruining them", but I'll give my take anyway xD -

Picking a character that inspires you. I think this is the most important thing. I started writing Nnoitra initially because I enjoyed drawing him. He gave me a ton of inspiration for drawing, and I figured it might be the same for writing, and I was right. I'm always, ALWAYS inspired to write Nnoitra, because he is the source of my inspiration.

Writing them how YOU want, not how others want. Staying secure and confident in your portrayal is underrated. I've stayed away from discussing my portrayal (it's in my rules that I prefer not to discuss how I write him). Don't let people tell you how you should portray your muse. If they don't like the way you write them, they can give writing them a go themselves. If you disagree with popular fanon ect, then go your own way. Your muse is yours.

About mirrors / duplicates. How people deal with mirrors/duplicates of the same muse really depends on the person, I think. In my early days of writing Nnoitra, I used to block/blacklist all other Nnoitra writers, because I didn't want to see their take on Nnoitra. I was "possessive" of him, if that makes sense. Now, I'm happy to see different versions of him, and I enjoy writing with my duplicates. Seeing other people love him is wholesome to me! I wish I'd interacted with my duplicates a lot sooner, and chatted with them. Talking to duplicates and befriending them has made me more confident and comfortable, so I would personally recommend that approach.

Building friendships, navigating the community. Interacting with lots of different people, both new and old people in the fandom is important in order to get enough interactions and connections. It's pretty difficult to write a muse for many years if you don't build any rp-connections. Also, having long-term friendships with your partners is amazing. There are people on here I've known for 10 years now! It's wild! Staying AWAY from drama is also incredibly important. You don't want any negativity to be attached to your blog. You don't want to feel anxious when logging on. Don't engage with any drama. Don't comment on it, don't give your opinion, don't discuss it with anyone. You never know when someone might take something out-of-context, or how "big" even small drama can grow. If drama is going on in the fandom, I'd recommend just blacklisting it, or going offline until it dies down. If you're keeping your blog for a long time, remember that people can go back and find things you've written ages ago. Maybe that one friend you stuck up for 2 years ago really does turn out to be a scam-artist or a predator. Don't underestimate how petty people can be. They can go back and find your posts about supporting this person and bam, you're added to a do-not-interact list. Even if all you did was support your friend at the time. If you get anon hate in your inbox, block and delete the ask. You don't need that negativity on your long-term blog. IDK I like to think of my blog as a garden that I'm cultivating?? I generally keep only positive, nice things on it. Things that I can go back and look at with approval and happiness.

Branching out of the fandom. This is probably (imo) the most important thing. I don't think I would've been able to write for 9 years if I hadn't branched out of the fandom. Not because the fandom is bad. Not because it doesn't inspire me, but because the amount of plots really is limited. Having to work within the boundaries of the fandom, and with a limited amount of characters isn't sustainable for 9 years. I love canon interactions, but I can't base my whole writing on that. It's too repetitive, which brings me to my next tip -

Give yourself the plots you crave. Getting "bored" of a muse can happen if you find yourself more interested in something else. Watched a new fantasy-anime? Maybe you're really into this one pirate show. Maybe you're interested in a specific time in history. MAKE THAT AU!! I cannot recommend AUs enough!! If you want to write a pirate muse, instead of making a new muse, just make an AU for your current muse. I have over 30 AUs for Nnoitra at this point, most of them inspired from either shows I've watched or specific interests I have ( like my formula 1!au, since I'm a huge f1 fan ). Don't be afraid to reach out to people who might be interested in writing the AUs with you. Don't be afraid to write drabbles for the AUs.

A continuous story. Another tip I can give for keeping things interesting, is to have a "story" for your muse that you continue through the years. Like my Nnoitra's main verse. Everything that happens to him in that verse progresses the story. The muses he interacts with become characters in his story. I get to see him develop and have ups and downs. It's like watching your favorite show with your favorite character, and there is always a new season. 5/5.

Hope this helps! This is just some things I could think of on the top of my head. And, this is just from my personal experience! ]

[baekhvuns]

HIIII BAEKSSSSS I missed you 😔 how are you? Wsp? How's everything?

Man, I've been pretty peaceful I'd say..kinda idk. Maybe the calm before the storm but that's besides the point. I miss your work so so so much 🥹🥹🥹 like rlly, not wanting to pressurise you just GIRL RLLY MADE 2022 SUCH A GOOD EXPERIENCE.

Anyways I've been watching a ton of stuff ofc, found a new pakistani drama 😈😈 well it's kind of the same plot as u wld guess, but I like this one it's like if not a lot then a bit diff frm the same ass dynamic. It's like a first daughter x youngest son the fun part is it was supposed to be, first daughter x first son but he was a jerk and a red flag. So yes...it'd be fun, it's a silly dynamic imo ik for sure there are going to be a ton banters.

ALSO dude these asmr Rps be getting Outta hand 😭 Nah cz i cried. I CRIED. THE ANGST OHHHHH. Some asmr artists are just so fucking good like alanakamakwk i felt like I was in a movie.

Lemme tell u a bit abt it, so the concept was basically, an old bsf comes back into the listener's life not in a bad way or anything just cz the bsf lived farrrrr away.

"do you wanna see the new tattoo i got?"

LIKE OKAY and then we did trace them too and a while later the convo goes deep "i got this tattoo bcz u told me seven years ago, what you don't rmr?" And then he sort of reminisces over the old times

"and that day..I went home, and texted you how much I liked you. And wanted to hang out with you a bunch.."

"that didn't happen I never texted you."

BRO OMG OMG ONWKWJWKW IM TELLING YOU THE FREAKIN TENSION BW ME AND MY HEADPHONES.

And then the best part was the listeners bf calls who also used to be friends with the bsf, and goes "i love you."

In hopes of hearing it frm us too. "Dear...?" Silence.

NO CUZ IMAGINE STANDING IN FRONT OF SOMEONE U ACTUALLY LOVE AND U GOTTA SAY ILY TO YOUR BF WHAT??? OMG.

And then when he comes out to go run errands he talks to the bsf AKA THE ASMR ARTIST I TELL U HIS VOICE *melts*

"we'll see you right?"

"... farewell"

That's the visual representation of me I'm not even kidding. And....he just leaves. LIKE THAT?? WHAT ABOUT US AHHHH *dies*

Nah but yes, I've been obsessed now. At least it makes me feel something 😮‍💨

Ok also no way my old Bollywood obsession is dying anytime soon *listens to bol na halke halke*

Anyways bye bye baeks MAKE SURE TO TELL ME ABT YOURSELF HOW U DOING AND STUFF OK?? OK MWAH ILY 🤭

YOU SENT THIS LAST WEEK AND I JUST KIND OF LOGGED INFBWNDBSK SO SORRY

i hope you’re doing well!! i’m currently sick bc of a heatwave i caught at a wedding 🥰🥰

i’m glad you’re feeling peaceful! AND DHSKDHKW DONT MENTION IT FNDMSKC ITS BEEN 2 YEARS 😭😭😭 maybe my writing bug just dimmed LMFAOOOO haven’t been on here or read anything, ive been in my drafts just giggling and reading but never like posting or writing fbdndb but ive kind of, maybe wanting to write something for fall time which i’m not sure ill post but it’s got me smiling a bit!

WHAT IS THE SHOW TELL ME 🔫

omg i can never get behind asmr, i have this thing called misophonia, i just despise the way the arm sounds make my ears feel fmandksb i just feel triggered BUT U CRIED BC OF IT WHY 😭😭

u gotta send me the link of it bc the voice actor u say… 👁

does our bollywood obsession rly die 😭😭 the new tauba tauba got me going a bit crazy,,, heard the jannat bgm but sad version and iM OBSESSED WITH IT, it lowkey inspired me to think and write <3 got me giggling and imaging stuff <3 in my pillow fbwndbsj