#SHOCKING and sad at the same time...
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fuck i need to replay isat because i cant remember anything but um something something siffrin's increasingly concerning comments through the acts on losing his appetite -> getting violently hungry -> having tear induced nightmares about cannibalizing his friends
#food in isat makes me Think all the time. and the hungry. and then the gluttony. and the tugging on the stomach#THERES JUST SO MUCH WITH FOOD AND EATING IN ISAT THAT I NEED TO SLAP TOGETHER. IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS.#theres something About it to me. buit i am STUPUD.#<-hasnt connected shit#snacktime beinging them together and sharing a meal. but its the same over snd over. eating for your favorite food over snd over.#croissants. pineapple. banana. you dresmt you ate your friends whole. etc.#tbh the fact that loop and siffrin are so similarily 'greedy' but loop physically cant eat and siffrin has no choice but to is kind of fun.#maybe no choice isnt the right word but you know???? what i mean ?? you cant make bonnie sad.#in stars and time spoilers#isat spoilers#ofc when i first played i just immediately thought as the thg in your stomach as like when you feel a metaphorical drop in your stomach#st something shocking/upsetting/scary whatever. But. SEE THIS IS WHY I CANT WRITE ANYTHING I DONT KNOW WORDS.#i dont even have s good excuse. english is my only language. sacre bleu.
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Every time I see Odysseus described as any of the following:
"Simp" (God forbid men actually healthily love their family and wife a completely reasonable amount.)
"Wet Cat" (What does that even mean exactly?? But whatever it means the vibe does not match up at all.)
"Bottom" (This man honestly has more top energy than literally every other character in this musical including the gods.)
"Homeless man" (He did not spend 20 years trying to go to the home that he has and that wants him back just to be denied his belonging there.)
"Monster/Villain/Evil" (He calls himself that enough. Can we please stop with the Odysseus demonization I am literally begging as hard as Poseidon did in 600 Strike.)
I lose a piece of my sanity.
Obviously I'm not personally attacking anyone btw. I'm just venting. Joking around is one thing but why do I see so many people treat these as canon traits? Am I in some weird corner of this fandom that I shouldn't be in?
#epic the musical#epic musical#epic odysseus#the oddyssey#odysseus epic#jorge rivera herrans#if i had a nickel for every time a strong assertive leader man got uwu-fied i would be a very sad millionaire#it happens every time and i am seriously wondering why#is it wishful thinking??#if so y'all have very different wishes from my own#leave him alone please he has suffered enough#truly ANYONE topping odysseus is cursed asf to me#have you seen him??#did we listen to the same musical?#it genuinely shocked me to see how he was perceived when i first entered the fandom#i had listened to the musical in my own time before coming here#maybe considering this happens every time i shouldnt be surprised#but somehow i am every time
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ha! 💌 ! except that i’m doing uno reverse and sending one to you! (and especially since you’ve already written it once for me and i even printed it out!!!)
dear coco, so i know how you always want to bring even the tiniest smile to people’s faces! you are the sunshine that peeks from behind the clouds during the cloudy days ⛅️ but i’m smacking you affectionately because oftentimes in your selfship dynamics you mention that your dear beloveds soothe your heart after you give it away to everyone around on an open palm — and you should listen to that inner voice! ✨ treat yourself first, be a little selfish, make sure to feel comfortable before you comfort others ❤️🩹 let me tell you again — i am shaking you and telling you this because a happy and healthy coco guarantees even more happy people around her! 🥺 i love your prose, love your poetry that you sneak so elegantly in between sentences and paragraphs — it’s been a while since i’ve read anything from you and i understand that there are things that you must focus on first, but no matter the passing time, yours will always be one of the styles that inspired me the most in my writing journey on here! 🥹 your presence here has been influencing my life in the most positive way ever since becoming mooties with you! you always put so much thought into remembering everyone’s personalities, lives, preferences and stories! 🌸 but i wanted to make sure that you know how it also feels to be on the receiving side of love (though i know i’m not the only one adoring you so much and certainly there are so many others who would stand right beside you if you only needed a shoulder to lean on) 🩷
༼ノ ´༎ຶ ﹏ ༎ຶ༽ ノ *: ·゚💌 when manu wears the biggest ever size of meanie pants ever... /silly
(i will acknowledge & respond to your own 💌 to me in the tags, if that's okay!! 🥺 oh my goodness 🥺🥺)
3 days later and i think i have finally collected myself enough to respond to this WAH... I AM SO SORRY TO KEEP YOU WAITING MANU! 🥺 i am uno reversing your uno reverse >:3 hehe, i remember that i wrote you one of these last year, in april!!!! it's always been a difficult month for me, so it made me really happy + meant the whole world to be able to write something for you and have you receive it with all the love in your heart 🥺 so much so that you even printed it out (i cried tears of joy last year when you told me that AODKJFAJ i am so sorry 🙈). i hope you don't mind that i give last year's message a sibling LOL, with what i am about to say to you now!!!! (⁄ ⁄>⁄ω⁄<⁄ ⁄)
dearest manu mousie, manu the great, my manumimii!
where do i even begin with youuuu ;w; /pos!!!!! maybe i can start with how much i love (and also fear /lh, because you are truly so... omniscient lol!) how perceptive you are... the way you make people feel seen (exhibit a, the contents of this ask asdfghjkl) and look so deep into their hearts... i think you are incredibly excellent at analysing people and charaters /POS and i feel like this is very evident in your fics and character studies!!!!! it is due in large part to your introspection which is another thing i love about you :D and why i think i find a great deal of comfort in you 🥺 because i am always especially drawn to these kinds of people!! people who you don't need to wear a mask around because they will be able to see through you anyway... it's very soothing in a sense to know that you are like this 🥺💗 and it only inspires me to be more perceptive too!! i hope i can be as caring and kind as manu is some day, heheh (๑•̀ᴗ•́๑) 💗
which brings me to my next point—i love all the ways in which you are quietly kind and looking out for your friends—again, as evidenced by this ask, wah... BUT ALSO!!! in how you do other things for them! 🥺 little blurbs in their mailbox (i revisit that xiangli one you wrote me not so long ago) or even drawings!!! perhaps i don't ship with haitham anymore, but the doodle you gifted me last year has always been a widget on my phone :3 and it will continue to be!!! that was the very first time anyone had ever drawn me something just out of the goodness of their heart, let alone gifted me anything of the sort!!!! 🥺🥺 so it is something i hold really really close. it makes me smile SO BIG!! and kick my feet all excitedly to see you do that for your other friends here too HEHE—when i look at femi's pfp... vana's pinned... i am reminded of just how big and bursting with love that your heart is 🥺💗
i love how much you have grown on here over the past year. ⭐️ in terms of your writing—which has been such a pleasure to witness over time how you've grown into a style that is so distinctly manu!! 🥺🥺 because like! 🥺 i remember so distinctly a certain post you made last year about wanting to improve your writing and your vocabulary and finding your 'own writing voice' 🥺 look at you now!!! with your lush descriptions and rich prose and dynamic characterisation, IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!!! AND PROUD!!! and i hope you too, are proud of yourself friend 🥹💖 even aside from your writing, i'm so glad that you have grown more comfortable here in sharing more personal posts about yourself hehe AND OF COURSE YOUR SELFSHIPS!!!!!!!!!! :3 i am also very glad about how you have lots and lots of friends on here now!!! that all love and cherish and uplift and reassure you in the way you deserve to be 🥺
i'm just really happy you are here with us, babie. i hope you won't take it the wrong way when i say this, but i really do believe that you are so much stronger, kinder, and easy to love than you think yourself to be! 🥺🥺 i hope that you can continue to work on being less hard on yourself, and i hope that all your friends here can help with that in any way you'll let us!! i hope you will continue to share more of your heart with us here and let us cradle it and soothe it when you need it. i hope your studies will treat you as kindly as they can, and that you will succeed in them :3 i hope you know that all you need to do is try your best!! you have a beautiful brain and a tender, loving heart—so i am sure in due time that all the good karma will be returned to you 🥺💗 making you a steaming cup of pink chai with a dollop of condensed milk in it, and gently rubbing your hands in mine to warm them up 🥰 we love you so much manu, not just for all that you do for us, but for just simply existing as you are, and letting us bask in the warm light you radiate 💖💖💖
#bisous!#fave!#chérir!#i didn't proofread any of that and just typed and typed... i'm so sorry if i overstepped or didn't say anything of much worth AKJFHSKDJ but#i really just. wanted to do something for you 🥺 if that's okay! 🥺💗 no pressure at all to read or respond or anything okie dokie!!! as#usual between us!!!!!! 🤗 wahhh manu... THANK YOU FOR LOOKING OUT FOR ME ): a lot of the times i worry because i feel like. i don't express#my love and concern for you enough??? all i really do is leave tags and scream about how much i love your art and writing DFKJFDH i am so#sorry ;w; i hope it's okay that i spoke a bit more on your character in my response here!! though it does make me very shy WAH 🙈 i also#hope it is okay for me to admit that reading your message when i first received it made me cry like. so horribly /POS KDSFSDKJ IT'S NOT YOU#FAULT OF COURSE!!!! but it was just so. shocking to me /POS because i had never really thought about myself feeling the same way as i do#with my selfships?? if that makes sense aaaa (;▽;) but i think you have made some revelations about myself TO MY FACE that i really need#to ponder in detail AKDOFIDH so i must thank you for that 🥺 /aff /pos!! but i should reassure you hehe that i am super happy and healthy!!!#the fact you would worry about me in that sense makes me so sad NOT IN A BAD WAY BUT LIKE.... TAT. DO I COME OFF THAT WAY!!!#wah... i will work on that :'3 JUST AS I WILL WORK ON DOING MY BEST TO WRITE AGAIN FOR YOU OH MY GOSH MANU!!!! 🥺🥺 i need to get on#amphoreus immediately so i can write lots of mydei fics for you LOL WAH... it touches me so deeply to hear that my writing had been one of#*your* influences!! 🥺 because now that i dip my own toes back into writing—i find myself thinking of YOUR writing hehehehe :3#it's such a beautiful thing to be able to learn and grow from each other 🥺💗 this aspect friendship is such a beautiful thing!! to me :D#wah i will stop talking now because im truthfully very sleepy and i may not be coherent... but i just want you to know manu that i love you#so so dearly 🥺 i hope you know i love you in all your excited and cute and happy moments on here—and i love you with the same fervour when#you are perhaps feeling more soggy. i hope you know that i love you even when i'm not here!!!! you are in my every day—whether it be#through chai or my lab mice and i am constantly wishing you well and wondering whether you smiled today 💗✨ i will always love you!!!#no matter what—okay! :^)
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Ride 742: Sudden death match!!

Pag 1
1: Woah, Danchiku, oh-
And Sugimoto-san too!?
2: They passed us so quickly!! Such high pace!!
Huh!?
They're doing some sort of serious race!?
3: I get it
4: I can feel it
5: This guy....!!

Pag 2
1: He's not giving up at all!!

Pag 3
3: Earlier, at the line, I thought I had won this race
I thought he was far behind me and would cross the line with his head hanging down
4: And yet....

Pag 4
1: He caught up to me....!!
2: The preliminary of this race was already done on the “second day”!!
3: That time, the result
5: was a draw!!
6: So it would be better to have a more precise result, wouldn't it
We'll decide it with this lap!! The rules are simple: the starting point line is 4km from here, the one who crosses it first wins!!
7: And then the loser shouldn't “surpass” the winner anymore!! Sugimoto-san!!

Pag 5
1: Imaizumi-san too!!
2: …. yeah
It's better to make it clear with a proper race like this
3: So you have no regrets....!!
4: Let's go!!
5: Crush him, Danchiku!!

Pag 6
2: At the same time....!!
Ah.... “at the same time” again!?
3: Seriously!?
Are you being for real, Sadatoki!?

Pag 7
1: You're just seeing things as you wish they were,since he's your brother!!
Oon!! No that's not it, on!!
It's true, Kaburagi, I saw it too
2: They arrived at the same time, Sugimoto stretched at the last moment
3: Kawada!!
It's “san”!!
4: Are you an accomplice too!!
What are you talkin abut
5: A- amazing, Sugimoto-kun
6: Amazing!!

Pag 8
1: “Amazing”, huh, Onoda
2: Imaizumi-kun....
Pfui
3: You thought Sugimoto would win? ….This race
Huh
4: You didn't think he would, that's why when we heard the results you could say “amazing”
Ah!!
5: I'm- I'm sorry Sugimoto-kun!! I didn't believe in you, even though you worked so hard....!!
Who are you yelling at
6: Me too

Pag 9
2: During these past four days.... Sugimoto worked hard, but, after their race on the second day and after seeing how remarkably stronger Danchiku has gotten
3: When they decided to do another race, I thought Sugimoto would definitely lose
4: Then, when the time came
5: If you lose, you feel better if you gave it your all, so
6: “So you have no regrets”
7: I said that
But
8: He turned it around
Sugimoto really is amazing

Pag 10
1: Even with no one believing in him, with only his own strength, he snatched a “draw” against Danchiku!!

Pag 11
1: Keep going!! Let's keep going with the race, Danchiku!!
2: Even though he's having such an hard time, he's still following me!!
3: Since earlier I've increased the pace many times
4: Garuaaa
Even if I tear him off

Pag 12
1: Every time
2: While saying
3: “Kuaa kuaa”
“Kuaa kuaa”
5: Kuaaa-
6: Kuaaaaaaa
He catches up to me

Pag 13
2: You keep following me....
3: No....
4: You're the one who said “please follow me”, Danchiku

Pag 14
1: Garuaaa!!
2: Ahhhh
Don't make fun of me, there's no way!!
3: Aaaaaaaa
4: Hiigaruaaaa!!
There's no way I'll lose!!

Pag 15
1: To Sugimoto-san!!
4: I was careless – I was careless and that's why he caught up to me!! The second time too!!
I won't be careless this time!!

Pag 16
1: Ill take a plunge firmly, throw my handles, and cross the line
2: At full throttle!!
The last curve!!
3: He's not following me anymore!! He's....

Pag 17
1: He's here!!
Cough cough
2: Kuaaaa
We're entering the final sprint!!
3: Dammit, this guy is gonna stretch from here!!
4: Hiigaruaaaaa!!
Take a plunge!!
5: Take a plunge!!

Pag 18
1: Throw your handles!!

Pag 19
1: Wooooah!!
No... wait, even now....
2: It's a draw!!
Ya!!
On!!
Woah
3: Dammit, what happened, Danchiku what are you doin!!
You should be much stronger..... should....

Pag 20
1: Don't tell me.... that Sugimoto-san.... is strong too!?
2: You.... you mean it's a draw for the third time!!
How long will they keep going, at this pace it won't ever end!!
3: …. no
5: It's a shame, but there's no time left...
6: This lap is the last
#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 742#i know this chap isnt supposed to be funny but it's so funny to me asdsdfsdghdjfl#extremely good but very funny at the same time#im sorry but kaburagi being so shocked at the end like'dont tell me.... that sugimoto-san is strong too!?!?!?' like???#its ridiculous how they chose sugimoto bc they thought he was weak- like why would you chose a weak opponent and then act all high and migh#mighty???? it really says nothing good about you lmao#also onoda sdjmkdgsadhm he always believes in everyone but not sugimoto ;A; and the way imaizumi immediately pointed it out#'a-ha! so you didnt think sugimoto would win after all huh' 'yeah no dont worry me neither lol'#its sad and all but also so funny to me xD#sugimoto is the only one who 'won' without the power of friendship can you believe it#im so proud of him!!#but also at this point im very confused about whats gonna happen ????#imaizumi said okay lets stop this now we dont have all day lmao#but what now then
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Atla live action 😐
#thats my honest reaction 😐#to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid#like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat#or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already#good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive#to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil#i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better#but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because#it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak#and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but#come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and#makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality#i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was#IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys'#and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall#AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think#plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS#a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason#im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your#audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small#thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small#its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers#i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang#anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and#rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz#netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub#no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same#ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me#i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing#yapping
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day actually ruined omg . her profile came up on my hinge and i dont have the strength to take it off
#THIS IS THE SAME GIRL WHO TOLD ME SHE DIDNT HAVE TIME TO DATE LAST SEM??? ?#i just feel stupid like whatif she didnt care as much as i kept telling myself she did#but i think in actuality i dont blame her like im also on hinge it just feels so contradictory to what she told me when we broke up#but i guess theres really nothign i can do about it.#and i dont think im that sad about it i think its just this weird numbeness#not sad but just like slightly sadly shocked to see her#idk. whatever i guess.#sunny rambles
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One Room Angel slowly swept into my life and took me by surprise with such an interesting premise and great characters. So, even though it was from Japan, and I know how Japanese shows might end up, I chose to stay and find out what happened to the angel and how Kouki would change.
Did I expect the angel to disappear at some point? Yes.
Did I want the angel to disappear? No.
Did it make sense that the angel had to leave? Yes.
Did I end up smiling halfway through episode 6 only to realise this is the last episode and this is the time the angel would disappear? Yes...
What a beautiful and evocative show that touched upon the themes of communication, misunderstanding, death, loneliness and identity. Here I was expecting a cute little show with an amnesiac angel but I was given social commentary and responsibility packed into a short but effective narrative. It's not a show I would watch when I'm bored because it has the tendency to hit you with dark humour when you least expect it. But it's a show I'd recommend to anyone interested in delving deeper into Japanese filmmaking and narrative style.
I'm truly thankful and happy that I had the opportunity over the last 6 weeks to enjoy this show even though it constantly ripped my heart out. Hats off to these great actors and everyone who worked on this show.
#one room angel#uesugi shuhei#nishimura takuya#kouki x angel#japanese bl#jdrama#harada#a beautiful yet sad show#I'll club this with eternal yesterday that left me crying and in a weeping mess#yes this show shocked me#made me laugh and cry and enjoy the narrative at the same time#it's a show I'll always remember for it's unique premise and storytelling techniques
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Also I am honestly so pissed off about LH0's treatment of female characters. Woopdedo a woman is killed for the cliffhanger! Again! Hopefully the female heroes in the top 10 are treated better...
I really don't mind deaths in fiction, but the way it's done feels so ~sensational~ like it's just to shock the audience. I was already interested in e-soul you don't gotta make him kill a woman to hook me, damn. And the 'tragedy points' are so cheap—oooh they just reunited ooooh they might get together in the future OH NO she dies in front of him, how saddddddddddd
It's such lazy emotional manipulation—blah blah all fiction is emotional manipulation but this is insultingly low-effort. it's just paint-by-numbers at this point by constantly doing something 'shocking' at the end of the ep 🙄
#tbhx critical#tbhx spoilers#like okay i was prepared for Moon to die bc it's LH0#but this is such an obvious attempt to make audience sad/shocked that i have nothing but contempt for it#it's like the narrative is obnoxiously going 'ouuugh this is sooooo sad! sooooo tragic! sooo shocking!!'#and it's kinda pathetic that the story feels like it needs to resort to stunts like these#like. what does Moon's death here serve? and even if it serves a greater purpose the presentation/framing is still off-putting#i've been burned too many times to do the 'oh but maybe there's a GOOD reason for it' without proof#tbhx#(i feel the same about wreck btw. him choosing to fall embodies the whole 'beautiful tragedy' that the narrative exploits#to evoke imo unearned emotions from the audience. we don't actually know og nice or wreck to grieve them as people)
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Happy 5.3 second half!
Not pictured: Clorinde guaranteed from losing the 50/50 to C3 Qiqi on Neuvillette. Baizhu guaranteed from losing the Chronicled 50/50 to C4 Qiqi. Arlecchino being a Capturing Radiance trigger from enough consecutive losses. And a paid pack.
I didn't actually intend to pull Arlecchino, but after my 🐳ing bout I decided to pull on the weapon banner and got her signature. Since I can't say no to impeccable drip and didn't have anyone else who could use it, welcome home daddy.
#i also got c1 lan yan and got chevreuse to c6 which is very welcome#i'd have saved pulls had absolution decided to come home instead of crimson moon's semblance but well...#it's not that bad and since arle and clorinde use the same artifact 4pc i'll be able to potentially upgrade clorinde as i farm for arle#once arle is leveled#in a shocking twist 3 new 5*s in five days has a noticeable impact on mora stocks#all that to say i am immensely broke#but since next patch is a complete skip i'm not in a rush#despite my itchy minmaxxer instincts screaming that I WANT EVERYONE LEVELED NOW#no. we slow down. we take our time.#genshin#ray's records#*sad vocalizing* iiii puuuuulled twooooo qiqiiiiiiiiis...🎶#i am the epitome of f2p#forced 2 pay
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#the sky speaks#okay ive had more time to process#GOD its been a day#i woke up to my parents shaking me awake in tears. ginny died overnight. we think something with her heart#a clot or a heart attack??#looks like it was quick and painless at least. better than the previous pets of mine that have passed. they were all drawn out and miserabl#im just still in so much shock. she was fine yesterday!!!! then this morning she's as stiff as a board in the dining room#she made a little nest for herself out of our mail pile? i think she knew she was dying. poor thing#she was only 10. i really thought i had another few years with her#lucy seems sad too. she slept in the same spot for hours today. shes usually bouncing off the walls#i think i want to get a memorial tattoo of her sometime. ive seen heart shaped locket ones that are cute? I'll think on it#when i first woke up i thought i was having a nightmare. my dad said hed never seen my eyes go so wide#it still doesnt feel real#im so fucking tired i keep breaking down sobbing for like. 30 seconds at a time and then continue going about my day
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yeah so i dont get the "wasn't that some fucked up shit? anyway i'm Rod Sterling" mentality some people have towards different narrative reads. It's all sweet and cool to want to explore all the different variations of a fucked up scenario, but i'm gonna need the reasons for it. I need the "why"; why are we exploring this thing? Why is it important to explore this story? what am i getting out of it? and no it's not about morality.
I dont need a story to teach me "good" life lessons, though that'd be lovely. I dont need it to be an exceptional and exemplary narrative even, but i need my discoveries to be purposeful and meaningful. Sometimes the aim for an exploration of say, a very tragic story, is to simply experiences the different flavours and nuances and complexities of a deeply held personal emotion; sometimes it helps us find the mirroring and connection and relatedness that we need to feel seen and heard and understood. Sometimes it helps you parse out your own bullshit by taking it out of your head and putting it in front of you– i dont care what the reason is, but there's a reason. There's a purpose for every single endeavour you take on, even if you haven't discovered the reason yet. "i just want to experience a fucked up shit" lazy superficial thinking, dig deeper. I hate superficial and purposeless shit; and no i'm not gonna explore the 863796373th trending trauma porn piece of the day because "wouldn't that be fucked up?" nah. I dont care, it's got no use to me. I will absolutely respect the endeavour and make space for it if someone tells me something as simple as "it is relevant to me and my interests and experiences and my mental preoccupations, and helps me refine my humanity and my understanding of humanity in general", that is a lovely and true statement. But if someone keeps churning out worst possible fucked up sad scenarios one after another under the "wouldn't that be fucked up?" flag, i'm out, i dont give a fuck. take your sad shit somewhere else, i have absolutely zero space for purposeless horrible narratives that positively add nothing to my life and dont help me navigate it in any meaningful way.
#and no we dont say the same thing about happy stories because happy stories feel good. that can be a purpose in and of itself#if someone tells me that tragic stories make them feel good i can still make space for it; it's not as sturdy a means but it'll do just fin#i literally dont get the '' fucked up story for the sake of fucked up story'' crowd like ???????#you guys do understand that we live by the narratives we immerse ourselves into right?? you know that our worldviews and beliefs#and conscious/subconscious frameworks are all stories we tell ourselves right?? right?????#This rant delivered to you by me seeing that tumblr famous Tamsyn Muir quote 3 in the morning and like#lmaoooo no.#millenials leak their incessant nihilism into every fucking crevice of the arts and it's so tiring to watch.#no your constant deconstruction of meaning and purpose and value is not cute#no you're not subversive and revolutionary for creating the 85379637th Sad Shit Of The Day— you're literally protocol behavior#and you couldn't be more in alignment with the moral status quo of our time.#no aimless and listless shock value traumatic stories are not fun and 'adventurous';#they just speak to you circling right back into the comfortable confinements of your socially acceptable superficiality#and vapid consumerism.#goddd i'm tired. lack of purpose frees these fuckers from ever having to align with any substantial endeavour in their goddamn lives#and they think it's so funny; it's not.#I expect something out of the stories i explore. ''tragedy for the sake of tragedy'' is the laziest thing i have ever heard.#humans are designed to be happy; they're also designed to engage in meaningful and intentional growth.#own up to anything to gives you a chance to grow and expand and change or get the fuck out of my face#this blog is an absolutely unsafe space for socially sanctioned neutered nihilism#i will hunt you for sport; it doesn't matter anyway right??
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#I fucking hate doctors and the medical field so much#I was FINALLY starting to get on the right path#called a php place and think I know where I’m going#have a therapist I’ve been talking to here and there#I’ve been trying to get into a psych evaluation right?#called 5+ places the other day and they all had 5-8 month long waitlists#I need to get most of this shit done before June#so that ain’t gonna work#called the psych place my doctor referred me to#(would like to add that I did call this same place right after my doctor visit a few months ago and they never called me back)#so I had no hope they were even going to pick up#I was shocked when I heard someone picked up and even more shocked when they said they had an opening for fucking Wednesday#literally I felt like everything was finally aligning#I scheduled the appt for a zoom meeting at 10am#then I get a bunch of random emails saying my appointment was changed#now I have two different appointments- Wednesday and Thursday both at 9am and with a totally different doctor#so I was like???? ok guessing something happened but I didn’t think much of it - called to figure out what day it actually is#when I called to confirm they told me that I can’t be tested until I get an internal referral#I told them I did get a referral???#they looked at it and it was just a referral for depression not adhd or anything else#but then when they looked more into it they found in the notes she wanted me to get adhd testing#SO she just forgot to add it to my referral#I get people make mistakes#but this is like the 4th time something like this has happened lately#I’m just trying to be healthy#and it is fucking RIDICULOUS how incredibly hard it is to find the proper help#also the girl yesterday when I made the appointment said yes to all my questions but sounds like she doesn’t know what she’s talking about#was like ‘does this test for adhd and autism?’ ‘yeah for sure’ and then I find out they don’t even test for autism#so now I have to find a totally different person to either do both or just test for autism#either way I feel incredibly disheartened and overwhelmed and sad
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#follow up to the best book poll i made like a billion years ago#for me its light its really sad but also boring at the same time#always hate how characters ESPECIALLY jack and orc were killed for shock value and not much else#plus gaia is annoying#gone series#the gone series
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do you all realize how insane i felt deleting tumblr just as thorbruce was losing traction only to come back and see it had regressed back a to rare pair
i thought yall were gonna hold down the fort while i started highschool 😓
#this post is a joke btw#my old accounts (and partially this one prior to hiatus) were cranking out thrice content 2018-2021 and i come back 2024...#thruce*#it was so sad coming back here shocked and appalled#i missed you guys but there's still the loyal 50 ish thruce truthers and i love you#but it is silly that i've been obsessed with these little t4t fail boys for like 7 years#i'm 17 this is absurd#also absurd that i got tumblr initially the summer before my sixth grade year and i already new i was a lesbian like that's so silly that#that was in my bio#anyway i have like three(?) dead blogs floating around here with different variations of the same name#i used to delet the app for about three months at a time and try and be normal but it didn't work and then covid happened and so i was runin#my blog like a damn navy vessel for a year and a half#any ways i'm here now maybe i'll delete and try and be normal again one day but it's like i genuinely love it here so much#so many intellectual fucking FREAKS#it's great#okay that's all#shout out to my old blogs#334iwatchshit and similar names you will be missed#i was also being crazy about dinluke on those blogs like baddd
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Atem struggling with his feelings for Mira's Mokuba right now. He's trying to remind himself that Mokuba was just a kid --- is still a kid albeit a lot older now. He is definitely struggling and trying to make himself think something other than Mokuba abandoned him despite all of those times he and Yugi put their lives on the line for him and his unappreciative brother. He could never hate Mokuba but man oh man is he STRUGGLING. @diverse-hearts
#﹙ 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒅𝒖𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒔!! ﹚ ooc post#diversehearts#// ill be shocked if he doesn't treat him coldly#because he is still raging about being left alone with Kaiba#its sad because mokuba did what was best for his own mental health#but at the same time#atem is thinking 'he's YOUR brother'#he's ALWAYS been this way#anyway...i drafted it but it should be fun
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BOB BRYAR ?? DEAD ???????
#cannot believe this is the news i'm waking up to.#this is just crazy#very sad death in very sad circumstance#<- at the same time though. we all know what bob did and said in the past sooooo#i'm in shock though how did they only find his body after 22 days#that is a terrible thing
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