#SHE AND I ARE VERY COFUSION

[gobsnacc]

"Noticed you have some war medals," said Grollor, looking at Svetza's earrings. "What unit did you serve with?"

“What?” Is all she says. She blinks and cocks her head to one side, the object of his attention making little jingling sounds.

[transmascutena]

something i find a little bit funny but mostly just really tragic is that utena is fully convinced she's in a found family show for so much of it. and in the most fucked up way imaginable she's kind of right? we all know what being akio's family means.

i do think she sees akio as an older brother figure for a lot of the show, much more so than she ever has genuine romantic feelings for him. this is clearest to me in the black rose arc, where all he is to her is her best friend's older brother who gives her advice and respects her more than any other adult ever does. it makes sense that she'd want to see herself as a part of their family too. there's nothing to imply that her feelings are at all romantic in nature. it's only when he starts getting closer to her and intiating physical contact that she starts blushing around him and might be developing a crush -- although personally, i read it more as confused uncomfortable embarrassment most of the time, combined with the expectation that romance is what she should want, and so that must be what she's feeling, right? (this gets kind of naively reenforced by wakaba telling her how cool and handsome akio is and how lucky utena is to be close to him.)

and i don't think it's a coincidence that akio starts calling utena "part of the family" after he's planted this idea of romance in her. reenforcing her previous feelings towards him only after he has started to make them change into something different. he is deliberately trying to cofuse her idea of a familial/sibling relationship with that of a romantic/sexual one, because to him there really isn't a difference, and so that when she inevitably learns about him and anthy, utena will see her not as a fellow victim to find solidarity in, but as competition for his affection. and it works, at least at first.

all this is why i vehemently disagree when people call utena stupid for not noticing that something is wrong about anthy and akio's relationship while she's living with them. not only is it deliberately being hidden from her by both of them for a long time, she also literally has no idea what a sibling relationship is supposed to look like. she has no healthy example to compare anything to. even if she did notice something off about how anthy and akio interact, why would she assume she knows better than them how to be a family? she doesn't have one, after all. and when akio tells her that she is his family, he very much does not treat her like it, but she doesn't really have much choice in believing that it's normal, because isn't that how he treats anthy as well?

[bemmeverde]

and here's the full image of the cover, i designed and embroidered it myself <3 the song is about political awakening/ disillusion and growing up, realising things are not as simple as you thought they were

the name, translated literally, is "you (sew the world)"

hello my band and i just released our first song :)

[fabuloustrash05]

It's me again~Donnies bō staff

I conpletelly forgot they could be unrelated XD

I had my fic on my mind where they are related but still adopted so I got cofused

Although Karai may be a miracle baby since I think (could be completelly wrong, this is my interpretation) mutants and humans may have a hard time having kids together. So it would make sense she looks mostly like her mom.

It could be why they aodpted the turtles

I'm also curious about the mutant and human pairs since Mikey x Renet seemed to be really well recieved in universe so I' guessing it's just old ppl being bothered. But that may be bc they are both very beloved by the public. That makes me think about Donnie and a certain cigar girl bc they don't have the luxury of being universally loved.

Anyway thanks for answering and love the fic <3

That's alright! Personally I'm a firm believer that the Turtles in the 2012 series are biologically related to Splinter because of their mutation, and by an extent are also biologically related to Karai, but in the 1920s AU, they are adopted.

And yes, while I did state human x mutant relationships in this AU are often looked down on by the public, Mikey and Renet's relationship is seen more in a positive light and they get a "pass" because they're both famous and of the upper class. When you're at the very top, you don't really care what others think. The people who are judgmental though are just assholes who hate seeing other people happy.

For Donnie and even Raph however, they'll soon be facing challenges/judgement regarding the women they chose to be with. It is mentioned in chapter 15 that Splinter prefers if his sons courted upper class rich girls, no one of the middle or lower class like a certain red head and lizard woman.

[mizusjawline]

Had a flashback that I need to vent (warning: this is a lil bit personal)

About a year ago (before the clinic), my mum went through my clothing closet, found my sex toys where I had hidden them and then made some very snide remarks about it next time she spoke to me. And I wonder now, WHY THE FUCK? Why the fuck did she think that was ok? And why the fuck did I think it was ok to be treated like that? It was so cruel and perverse and invasive! Why did I take it lying down? I wish I could go back in time and just shout at her. And just ask her "MOTHER WHAT THE FUCK?"

This memory awakens so much anger and cofusion and shame in me

[leafostuff]

What If: Bahiyyih and Hikaru were a couple

Author's Note: WHAT IF IS BACK BABY, the whole reason is that this tik tok is just too cute and also since its currently pride month, i got curious as to how Hikaru And Bahiyyih were a couple, so yeah, hope you enjoy.

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It Started when Hikaru had trouble sleeping one night so decided to go to Her Roomate in the dorm

At first Bahiyyih was cofused but she then gave in and let her sleep with her

and thats how it went for a couple of night, which will result in very awkward mornings since the Unnies will find them sleeping together cutely

A couple of Weeks later Hikaru asks if she could take Hiyyih to the side to a talk

which she confessed that for a while she had feeling for her

and after a time of thinking Bahiyyih accepted the confession

but they had to keep it a secret

Every night after everyone sleep they go to each other's bed and cuddle and even sneaking in some kisses on the cheek or forehead

one night Bahiyyih missed a kiss on the forehead which went to Hikaru's lips, however they liked it and ever since they would also mix kisses on their lips

only ones who knows about the relationship is Chaehyun since she saw them one night kissing

However she fully supports them and promise to keep it a secret

Bahiyyih is the Boyfriend in the relationship

Very Wholesome

Holding hands when no one is looking and the camera is not pointed on them

Nose Nuzzles Nose Nuzzles Nose Nuzzles

Both of them are addicted to poking Each other's cheeks

Hikaru's Favorite resting place became Bahiyyih's Chest

And Overall, very soft very wholesome relationship

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And Yeah that's it, its really short and i just had to gush about them being so cute together, have a rest of a good day and remember to stay Leafy

[solspectre]

grab

actions speak louder than words // not accepting

grab, sender grabs receiver's wrist to stop them from leaving.

sometimes, shepard wonders if she could have done it any differently. any better.

anderson had said he was proud of her. in his last moments, he spent what few words he could say praising her and yet she didn't think she deserved it, her record carrying the ghosts of far too many to count. and when these thoughts drifted to the forefront of her mind, an ache courses through her body, wounds long since healed hurting once more, as if they knew and wanted her body to be the reminder.

and what good was she to anyone like that?

vaguely can the commander hear garrus calling her name, but he sounds far away, as if at the end of a long tunnel. her gaze remains fixed out the window, but what she sees is not the tranquil night sky, but the darkness of space lit aflame with the symphony of war raging endlessly. fingers twitch, hand instinctively raising to cradle almost protectively against her abdomen. something warm seeps through her fingers– and she knows. her body feels too heavy to keep up and slowly, every sound around her seems to grow quiet. and as her eyes close, there's a moment of peace. a light at the end of that tunnel–

' Sh..... – e....pa ....– Shepard ! '

but the light was not hers to grasp. emerald eyes snap open, alert with an intensity that burned hotter than the sun as a sharp inhale breaks that tense quiet. her body moves immediately, turning on her heels, acting without any thought. she needed to leave. she needed to go back out there, to keep fighting, to fix whatever the hell was going wrong now and make sure that nothing would fuck up this hard earned victory. but before the commander can even get close to the door, something closes around her wrist and her body stalls, freezing in place as her head snaps around towards the source, ready to put up a fight but–

" ....Garrus?"

no. that's not right. he shouldn't be here. he was back on the normandy, wasn't he? she ordered him to evacuate with the others. cofusion colors her expression but as her focus eases up, she realizes that this..........wasn't the top of the citadel.

shepard glances down and everything is normal. no shattered and torn fragments of armor barely clinging to her skin. no cuts and gashes decorating her flesh, blood running so fast she hardly knew which wound it was coming from. her lungs weren't begging for rest and the quiet wasn't punctured by the blasts of cannons. she doesn't realize she's even holding her breath until she has to breathe, air exhaling harshly and finds that it doesn't hurt. with her free hand, she quickly tugs up her shirt just enough to press her palm flat against her stomach, expecting to find torn skin and blood. instead, she only feels the bumps and ridges of healed scars, the only marks left by harbinger's blast.

her hand drops, shirt following suit as she realizes she's not back home but in the city, that, for all intents and purposes, she was okay. (and yet, her blood continues to run cold.) and all the while, garrus remains ever vigilant, his grip on her wrist tightening, as if afraid to let go.

damn it. why couldn't this have happened when i was alone?

" Sorry. " her throat feels dry as that one word cracks in a whisper. shame doesn't find her, nor embarrassment, but regret does. worry– not for herself, but for the turian. she doesn't need to look at him to know what expression he's wearing right now. and so, like always, half-hearted humor is all she can give. " Guess I was thinking too much. Won't happen again– promise."

at least, not around him. though shepard trusts garrus with her very life, she doesn't want him to carry these remnants. who knew coming back from the dead a second time would be so troublesome?

[ersatz-eye]

“But Karlach wasn't available at the moment, so he had to make do with the vampire.” Why did this make me laugh 😂

“The fact he'd get to call you his fiancé for an evening sends an unexpected heat up to his face.”🥰🥰🥰🥰

“"Now now, you wouldn't break the heart of your poor old mother by rejecting her invitation when you haven't seen her in years, would you?" The soft beans against Gale's mouth hold the threat of sharp claws underneath.” Before I am a person I am a Tara stan

“Scurrying to sit in the chair next to you before Halsin could, Gale ignored the cofused look the druid gave him before sitting down at another chair.” Fjjffjfjfj poor Halsin 😭😂

“A Selunite introduction party, as her parents explained. She never had the afterparty of her ceremony after the woods passage trial, and her mother really wanted her to see her adorned in the moon maiden silvery dress and white flowers.” Oh just right out the gate with the sad

“While her father never pressured her, knowing he still has plenty of time with her, her mother wasn't offered the same courtsy by life. So he encouraged Shadowheart to bring someone dear to her maybe, just to reassure her mother that she has a loved one, you know how humans tend to get about finding your soulmate and all of that.” SCREAMING! IM! GAHHHH!!! 😭😭😭

“"Please, indulge me this once. And we can pretend it never happened afterwards...if that's what you wish." The words pained her to say, but the relief that followed at your acceptance made all the pain worth it.” Shart 🥺

“Really, what was she thinking? Agreeing to the double date her friends offered her. She was too excited at having finally met more people from her past, ones that didn't stab her in the back, and one thing led to another.” she's so baby

“It's not that she ment to lie to her friends...it was just hard to tell them that even after all these years, she still doesn't have someone to call her own. It felt embarrassing to admit how alone she was, how touch starved and repressed she felt.” oh I'm sad again 🥺

“But no, instead, it was as if she grew a second head right then and there. Everyone was so excited to meet her so-called partner.” 😔✊

“Karlach's body pinned you to the ground with ease, even unintentionally her muscles could easily cage you on. Her skin hot against yours, she lifted her head and your faces were mere inches apart.” djfjfkkfkfkfk

“”Say soldier, have you ever played pretend before? You know that game that kids play." Very smooth Karlach, she thought to herself. "Uh...do you think the two of us can maybe play it tomorrow? Haha...ha."” very smooth indeed of course I want to play pretend with her.

“"Of course Karlach, anything you want." Accepting the awkward fistbump she offered you, in return you gave her a hug that lingered for more time than it should.

"Cool cool, great. I'll pick you up tomorrow?" Her tail was swishing excitedly behind her, a confident smile on her face as bright as the sun.” I've decided that they were already dating and Karlach was just unaware xjfjfjfj

“He will show them, he thought, he will show his spoiled bratty siblings that he isn't as uptight and "scares away all suitors" as they claimed!” ayy Rolan! 😌

“Lia was bragging again about the cute bard she managed to ask out, her third date this week. Rolan swears she is mentioning within earshot if him intentionally, hell even Cal gets the occasional longing stares at any tavren they go to.” Cal and Lia on top as always.

“Rolan isn't less than them and he will prove it. He just well...hasn't put himself out there yet, so what if he has zero experience with dating and romance? He is a fast learner, he is very confident in his ability to become an excellent lover in to time.” I'm obsessed with this one actually 🤣

“"You, come here." He yells the order across the tavren, catching himself afterwards and clearing his thraot to lessen the embarrassment of the situation. Still his eyes begged you to approch him.” who needs Gale and Astarion when you get the two in one with a cute lil tail

“And you did, walking to his table and sitting down. After all your companions were still sleeping upstairs so what's the harm in indulging one drunk grumpy tiefling when you were supposed to be on a supply run.” in it for the plot

“"From now on, I'm your boyfriend."

You choke on your drink, it takes him a moment to register the way he phrased his question.

Clearing his throat again, he refuses to meet your eyes as a blush colours his cheek. "No not like this, don't get the wrong idea." I love him dkfkckocockfk

“"I'm not unlovable." He whipsers, "I'm not going to beg for a chance, I just need your cooperation for a day or two, just to shut them up."” 🥺🥺🥺🥺

(also I read the first half and second half on two separate days so if I'm obnoxiously repetitive that's why)

Taking you as their fake date to an event

[Fluff, suggustive, romance, humour, fake dating, nb!reader]

[Wyll, Gale, Shadowheart, Karlach, Rolan]

Wyll

In the aftermath of clearing the misunderstanding with his father, Wyll found himself back at the centre of attention in Baldur's Gate's circle of nobles. Everyone wanted to meet the famed blade of frontiers, for the last time they saw him was years ago before he fully matured into the man he is today.

Letter after letter were delivered to your camp. Carrier pigeons barely escaped Tara's claws as they dropped the mail on Wyll's tent and left with most of their feathers intact.

Being the son of the grand duke of Baldur's Gate turned all the heads of any sane noble with a marriage allegeable offspring. Invitation for tea parties, hunting competitions, and even balls for the sole purpose of meeting other people. Wyll's hand was slowly going numb from having to write back formal polite declining letters.

If only there was a way to stop them from the source. He'd sigh and vent to his closest of companions. But Karlach wasn't available at the moment, so he had to make do with the vampire.

"Why not just tell them you've already tied the knot with someone or whatever you humans call it?"

For once, Wyll actually considered listening to the fanged devil on his shoulder.

He approached that topic as delicately as he could when it came to convincing you, inviting you to dinner at a restaurant, waiting until after you're both filled and the lighthearted conversation slowed to bring it up.

"My friend, if I may, there is something I could use a helping hand with."

To his relief, you don't seem uncomfortable to his proposal. If anything, you nonchalantly agreed to be his fake date to the upcoming celebration.

He thanks you with a polite smile, yet for some, his heart beat faster when he pictures you holding onto his arm amongst the crowd. Your formal attire matching his suit. The fact he'd get to call you his fiancé for an evening sends an unexpected heat up to his face.

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Gale

Tara wakes him up with delight in her eyes one morning, her sing song tone of his last name is more chipper than usual.

"Mr.Dekarios, yoohoo~" she licks his face to get his sleepy eyes to focus on her, "Ms.Dekarios sends her regards, along with a mandatory summon invitation for you this weekend." Tara brings her paw up to her face, cleaning the fur and making herself even more presentable.

Before Gale gets a word in, he is interrupted by a paw smacking against his lips.

"Now now, you wouldn't break the heart of your poor old mother by rejecting her invitation when you haven't seen her in years, would you?" The soft beans against Gale's mouth hold the threat of sharp claws underneath.

Defeated and outsmarted first thing in the morning, the wizard reluctantly nods with a sight.

Deep down, he know this day would eventually come. He couldn't hide the orb and the looming threat over his life from his own mother forever, no matter how he naively hoped to find a cure before having to face her. Coming back to announce you've foolishly consumed untamed magic of chaos isn't the most popular mother's day gift.

But maybe, just maybe he doesn't have to let her know yet. If he could find a distraction.

And lucky for him, the perfect distraction was currently standing outside his open tent, rubbing Tara's belly as she purrs and leans into their arms more.

He devised a plan, a great list of excuses and reasons to sell you the idea of why you should go along with his plan of deception, even prepared a bribe if push came to shove.

Well, two bribes, actually. The first one was the massive breakfast prepared and catered specifically for your taste.

Scurrying to sit in the chair next to you before Halsin could, Gale ignored the cofused look the druid gave him before sitting down at another chair.

Either he was too easy to read, or you've picked up on his pattern of gifts and act of service whenever he has a request. Because he only had to hint at the upcoming home visit before you Blatantly stated that you're willing to go as his date.

"Well...this was certainly much easier than I expected. In fact I've deviced a much more elaborate argument and explanation for when you'd initially refuse."

"Why would I ever refuse Gale?"

You gently caressed the side of his face, wiping a small crumb of bread away from his lips before taking your hand back.

"I...well, uhm. You." With a flustered look, Gale wasn't sure how to respond. Did he remember to comb his morning hair? Oh god, wait, is he still in his pyjamas? Does he even look half presentable right now?

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Shadowheart

A Selunite introduction party, as her parents explained. She never had the afterparty of her ceremony after the woods passage trial, and her mother really wanted her to see her adorned in the moon maiden silvery dress and white flowers.

How could she say no? Shadowheart only wished for both of their happiness, to make up for lost time as much as she could.

While her father never pressured her, knowing he still has plenty of time with her, her mother wasn't offered the same courtsy by life. So he encouraged Shadowheart to bring someone dear to her maybe, just to reassure her mother that she has a loved one, you know how humans tend to get about finding your soulmate and all of that.

But she felt lost. Was there really someone she could call a soulmate?

Your words echo in her mind, how you gently persuaded her into lowering her weapon. The night orchid you've given her is still kept safely in her journal, tucked away between the soft pages to preserve the petals forever.

What if you don't share her feelings? What if she is just another lost soul that has grown attached to you after you saved them. Afterall, you did end up risking blowing your cover when saving that drow women at moonrise tower.

Minthara's respect for you was nothing to scoff at. What's a cleric's faith when compared to a paladin's devotion?

Yet she still took a chance, a leap of faith for you.

One night before the two of you retreated to your own beds, she stopped you for a short conversation. Reluctance in her voice as she lowered her face and looked up at you, eyes glistening under the moonlight.

She explained her situation, her party for her coming of age ceremony that was long postponed, how she wished for you to accompany her as her date.

"Please, indulge me this once. And we can pretend it never happened afterwards...if that's what you wish." The words pained her to say, but the relief that followed at your acceptance made all the pain worth it.

She isn't sure where your heart lays, but for a day, it will be hers. Her faith will guide her, the faith that maybe one day, you too will return her feelings.

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Karlach

She was nervously walking back and forth outside your tent just after dinner, unsure of how to approach you or even mention the topic.

Her tail aggiated and is switching between curling around her leg and lashing at the ground below. Karlach didn't bury her emotions as the engine in her chest glowed more and more, matching the redness of the sunset in the horizon.

Really, what was she thinking? Agreeing to the double date her friends offered her. She was too excited at having finally met more people from her past, ones that didn't stab her in the back, and one thing led to another.

It's not that she ment to lie to her friends...it was just hard to tell them that even after all these years, she still doesn't have someone to call her own. It felt embarrassing to admit how alone she was, how touch starved and repressed she felt.

Not to mention how every single one of her friends had already found someone. Most of them were married and the other half on their way to get married.

She didn't think they'd make a big deal out of it when she off-handedly mentioned that she was seeing someone, a simple white lie with no harm done. She thought they'd just be happy for her and move on.

But no, instead, it was as if she grew a second head right then and there. Everyone was so excited to meet her so-called partner.

And so she found herself like this, strolling around your tent like a loser, attempting to muster up the dignity to ask you to pretend to be her partner for tomorrow.

Only when bumped into something and lost her balance did she realise who stood in front of her.

Karlach's body pinned you to the ground with ease, even unintentionally her muscles could easily cage you on. Her skin hot against yours, she lifted her head and your faces were mere inches apart.

You didn't miss the way her eyes glances at your lips, the way her cheeks darkned when you licked them. The heacy of swallow afterwards before her lips twitched into a polite smile.

With a quick apology, she helped you up.

"Say soldier, have you ever played pretend before? You know that game that kids play." Very smooth Karlach, she thought to herself. "Uh...do you think the two of us can maybe play it tomorrow? Haha...ha."

You asked what she meant.

"I kinda of...well, I told my friends that I was already seeing someone so. Could you be that person? I'll pay you back tenfolds, I promise."

"Of course Karlach, anything you want." Accepting the awkward fistbump she offered you, in return you gave her a hug that lingered for more time than it should.

"Cool cool, great. I'll pick you up tomorrow?" Her tail was swishing excitedly behind her, a confident smile on her face as bright as the sun.

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Rolan

He will show them, he thought, he will show his spoiled bratty siblings that he isn't as uptight and "scares away all suitors" as they claimed!

I mean, have you seen him? He is a very talented and capable wizard, how is it his fault that other people are far too dim and slow to realise how much of a catch he is, how his talent more than makes up for his sometimes bitter personality.

Lia was bragging again about the cute bard she managed to ask out, her third date this week. Rolan swears she is mentioning within earshot if him intentionally, hell even Cal gets the occasional longing stares at any tavren they go to.

Rolan isn't less than them and he will prove it. He just well...hasn't put himself out there yet, so what if he has zero experience with dating and romance? He is a fast learner, he is very confident in his ability to become an excellent lover in to time.

A day goes by, then two and three. Suddenly it's been a full week and he haven't had a speck of luck when it came to romancing someone. It's almost as if any person he approaches immediately loses interest the second he opens his mouth.

He is getting desperate, he can't let Lia know about this. She will never ever let him live it down.

So when you find him in the elfsong tavren, sitting alone on a table nursing on his drink with his tail curled around his leg. You stare at him long enough to catch his interest.

He recognises you immediately, you could see the cogs turning in his alcohol clouded mind.

"You, come here." He yells the order across the tavren, catching himself afterwards and clearing his thraot to lessen the embarrassment of the situation. Still his eyes begged you to approch him.

And you did, walking to his table and sitting down. After all your companions were still sleeping upstairs so what's the harm in indulging one drunk grumpy tiefling when you were supposed to be on a supply run.

Rolan orders you a drink too, his treats, he says without meeting your eyes.

And just as you take a sip, he lays it on you bluntly.

"From now on, I'm your boyfriend."

You choke on your drink, it takes him a moment to register the way he phrased his question.

Clearing his throat again, he refuses to meet your eyes as a blush colours his cheek. "No not like this, don't get the wrong idea."

Now you're sitting there, confused as the waiter brings you a towel to wipe down the drink you spilled on yourself. You thank them and take it, giving Rolan enough time to attempt to compose himself.

"I know i haven't made the best of impressions on you." He finally speaks up, "but I need you." His voice is more honest, a hint of vulnerability, "your help I mean. Lia and Cal, I want to prove them wrong."

His glossy eyes meet yours, the alcohol loosened his tongue.

"I'm not unlovable." He whipsers, "I'm not going to beg for a chance, I just need your cooperation for a day or two, just to shut them up."

Your hand goes above the table, wrapping around his own fist softly. "I understand, it's okay." You give it a light squeeze, "you don't have to explain yourself."

Somehow, your few words helped relieve his heart from its burden more than this whole night of drinking ever could.

[waffliesinyoface]

Micaiah and Yunaka for ask game?

Micaiah:

she is okay but Radiant Dawn is a game with multiple protagonists (Ike, Micaiah, Elincia) and lots of really good supporting characters and she doesn't really get to do much, especially in the end when she's birdbrained. She's good in the beginning if only because "what if we made a rapier into a TOME" is hilariously OP.

As an emblem ring, she exists solely to grind exp with Great Sacrifice.

Yunaka:

yunaka is awful and i love her. Giving her the corrin ring for on-demand cover AND boosting her crit rate thanks to her ability is such a hilarious exploit. Also she's funny. Silly clowngirl assassin who is trying hard to not be an assassin and failing at it because she's stupidly lethal. I am very cofused by her going "zappy" but also i wouldn't change it for anything. It's yunaka's world and we're all just living in it.

[detectivesus]

My Birthday was yesterday and i moved cities a few months ago and I celebrated witg Family and my childhood best friend and my new I guess best friend in the nrw City. And my Childhood bestfriend got me Soccer Shorts and i started playing like a few weeks ago after a few years but my new friend gave me a pic Collage and pottery Date. And now i started to compare How thoughtful each present was and I felt so bad because I got like so much Soccer Shorts and i was like so cofused about the present but the she said I’m always talking about hers and such so it isn’t even a bad idea 😭 in general having an Identity Crisis since weeks because of having new friends in the new city who feel like I can talk to about things I never talked to in my old city

relatable bestie!! first of all, wishing you a very happy belated birthday 🥳 hope you enjoyed the celebrations and felt the love <3 but this is such a thing, it feels like moving is a clean slate in a way!! doesn’t mean you need to feel guilty about it, you can still have love and appreciate for your older friendship too. don’t worry too much; it just means you have more people who love you (: hope it’s not bothering you too much, please do reach out any time because it’s something i went through too!!

[solivagant-nubivagant]

How Wrong Little Girls Are

[Place- Bedroom, Time- morning.]

The little girl was crying about something that upset her. She had always been too...expressive. Could never really control it. It had always cofused her. In one part, she never felt anything, ever. Even when she was crying. In other, She felt too many things at once. That was scary. That made her cry more. Always. 

“well, you can stand in that corner and cry until those tears run out.” Those were the words her mother had told her. 

And that’s what she did. She cried. She didn’t want to, but she did. She couldn’t stop it, she never could. Even if she wanted to. 

[Hours Passed, Time- Evening] 

Her sobs came in hiccups now. Her throat hurt and her eyes felt tired. Her legs pained her and begged her to sit. She just wanted to curl into her mother’s lap and sleep. But she couldn’t do that, not until her tears won’t stop. She tried, to stop them the best she could. But they came anyway. It was strange, no one had come to see if she was ok. No one had bothered to even take a peak. She was now hungry and thirsty, but she did not dare move until she stopped crying. Then, slowly, she willed herself to stop. She commanded her mind and eyes to stop. 

And they did. 

She went to her mother, proud she had done what her mother had asked. Proud, but also ashamed of herself. 

Her mother then sat her down and said, “My dear, always remember. You have a heart that is too kind, the world would not appreciate it. They would make you shed tears of blood and make you weep till you choke on your own tears. So, learn to control it, like you did today. And by the end, you would still have tears left.” 

The girl had understood then, but she could not help but think how good it felt to feel everything so very deeply. It made her feel like she was that feeling. She could always understand things better because she could feel them. She remembered when her mother had taught her about the brain and nerve impulses, she could feel every one of her body nerves in action. She remembered how when she sang, she could feel the melody in her bones. Everything around her, she felt too sharply. She couldn’t help but feel that someone, someday would not use or be scared of her emotions, but accept them and love them as much as she did. But, obeying her mother, whom she trusted more than herself, she never again expressed herself in front of anyone except her mother, whom she was sure, would never abandon her. That night, she did sleep in her mother’s arms, while her mother held her safely away from hurt. 

How Wrong Little Girls Are 

I don’t blame you my love, not even a little bit. (No but I actually don’t) I understand what you mean. 

[heyitsbia]

Lizzie and the Mystery girl ( Part 2 )

"How is it complicated..you eather like parties are you don't!" There she went again, pushing people! She just couldn't help but argue, to debate! It was the very reason that Florence was her only friend..no one else could stand her. Though she didn't seem annoyed by her commnet, she seemed bewildred. Though she didn't say anything. For the first time, she looked in her in the eyes, and she could't help but gaze right back into her. They were suprisingly green. And not the loose green that seemed to be in most eyes, but green that made you question the reality of what you're looking at because nothing that perfect could be of existence. Also, Lizzie had never seen a blond green eyes. She was rare. She liked rare.

"What?" she asked, feeling a little insecure about her stare. She squinted her eyed, and Lizzie felt her mood drop a little because seh coudn't see as mush of her eyes anymore.

"It's just that, no one has ever talked to me like you are."

"Well, no one has ever talked to me. Period," she said and as soon as she did regret it. But flet relief when a smile appeared on her face and she heard the now familiar chuckle of her.

"I don't see why?"

"Let's just say normally i'm not exactly Mrs.Popular."

"You sure look like you could be. I mean this in every good way, you're kinda hot!"

Lizzie laughed. "No, i'm not!"

"Okay you're not hot." the girl said. "You're beautiful."

She opend her mouth to retaliate but was suddenly stopped by the feeling of something warm touching her hand.

"And don't try to fight me on it." the girl continued.

This was crazy! She didn't even know this girl and she was holding her hand!

"You know normally, I wouldn't ever get this cloce to a girl i did know, yet alone a girl i didn't."

she smirked. "It seems like you are doung a lot of things you don't normally do."

"That's because normally i'm a straight line." she looked at her in cofusion.

"A straight line?"

"Yeah, you know..i do what i'm supposed to..i dont't break any rules."

"Why not?"

"Because it's what i supposed to do. It's just who i am. And right now i am being the furthest thing from who i am!"

"So what!? Maybe that's a good thing. Like you said, normally people wouldn't talk to you. Well, i;m loving the conversation i;m having with you right now. Maybe it's because i;m talking about the rule breaking you, not the normal you."

Lizzie stayed silent still thinking about what she had said.

"Look here's my mission for you." the girl started, "Break more rules. Live a little."

Lizzie looked her in the eyes again. "I will if you will."

"That's a deal i will make." the girl said with a smile.

they stayed like that for what seemed like the longest time.

"You know you have a really pretty eyes." she said as her blood rushed to her cheeks. When she didn't say anything back she started to worry the she was being a creep.

"Sorry?!" I didn't mean that! Gosh, I'm a creep!" She exclaimed.

"No," she laughed," It's not that! Not at all! you're just so..different." she manage to get out. "I've never met anyone like you."

she was so close that she could feel her breath prickle her skin.

"I'm going to kiss you." her hand made their way to the sides of her face.

"But i don't even know you! And i don't kiss a girl that i don't know!"

Our lips were inches apart.

"I thought you are breaking our normal rules?" And with that, her lips were on her before she could argue. It was everythinh she could imagine and more. Her lips were icy but felt fresh on her wich were warm from the rush of blood. Her hands made their way down to her neck, as she started to rise from the swing, trying to get closer to her. For some reason, her touxh felt familiar, yer they had just met? All too soon it was over.

She was the one to break the kiss, but she kept her grasp on her attention. She looked her deeo in the eyes and thought to herself on how she definitely picked the right time to go for a walk.

Lizzie smiled up at her, half of her stick on the fact that she just kiss a stranger, and the other half stuck on the fact that she liked it!

when she finally cought her breath and broke the silence. "What now?" she asked.

the girl smirked. "Now, you leave this party with this memory. And next time you feel like you're a 'Straight line', you can think bavk to this moment when you feel curved and broke a rule."

- end -

[nikethestatue]

Hello! This is embarrassing but may I ask about the Lock in ToG? It's kind of confusing for me. I haven't read CC. Did Aelin only closed the portal to another world but in Acotar world and CC world, theirs were not sealed. Because they can still jump onto each other world right? So if there's a crossover, ToG world will not be there.. right? If by chance, the portal would be open again.. then can Aelin's raw power go back?

AND SPOILER FOR TOG

But, is there a chance Aelin will be "that" powerful again when she settle (is this the right term) haha.

I'm sorry for asking, I'm kinda cofused with all these locks and portals and whatso. I wanted to understand them better. Thank you!

Hello

i wish I was of more help, but you are right--there are rifts, locks, portals. We know that Aelin flew through everything --all the worlds, and we know that Bryce ended up in Prythian.

We know the Rifts were opened and closed back in the day, and we know that the Asteri can travel through all the worlds, consuming them as they see fit.

My understanding was that Aelin only closed the locks that pertained to her world, to Erilea. We have all these beings--the valg, the death gods, the asteri, the daglan--who are all jumping from one dimension to another--are they all the same? are they all different species? and they all found entrances from their world to other world--so we know that these rips exist. I mean, even Amren entered Prythian through a rip.

So i think there are ways to 'revive' Aelin. Within Prythian, i think we can assume there are at least a few of these entrances--possibly through the Library (into Hel?), certainly the Prison. Is the stone on top of Ramiel some kind of conduit? Because some very powerful beings wanted it at some point, and we know that at the very least, once someone touches it, they get transported out of the BD--it definitely has the power to move beings from place to place. And what's under Ramiel?

I can't see all the series continuing without Aelin at least being somehow involved, considering that we now have a major crossover.

[anitalianfrie]

Endgame!Steve and why he doesn’t make sense

I saw Endgame two weeks ago (yeah, I know, a bit late but at least I did it) and from the start I felt like something was of about Steve. The fun fact is that if you hadn’t saw all the Cap’s film in like a week as I did and it’s been like three years since you saw one, all his choices are perfectly believable. And that’s what I hate about it.

One of the first scenes we see Steve in is when they go where Thanos is after the snap. While they are in the spacecraft, Steve looks sadly at his compass whit Peggy’s photo in. It makes a sort of parallel with CA:TWS, where Steve does the same exact thing at the museum. But in CA:TWS Steve hadn’t a life. He was still in the past in his mind. He hadn’t any friend, he overworked himself and it’s pretty clear his mental healt wasn’t exacly okay. The first step for starting his new life is his chat with Peggy, where se basically says “live your life now that you can big idiot”.

In Endgame his two bestfriends (Bucky and Sam) died like two days before and he was staring at Peggy’s photo, who died TWO YEARS BEFORE and he knew he couldn’t have her back since 2011 (seven years before). He even moved on with Sharon (even thought I don’t like their relationship, it is there so show that Steve is MOVING ON, so please, don’t ignore it). 

Beside that, your telling me that Steven Grant Rogers, the man who became an actual soldier because he wanted to save Bucky, who decided to burn down HYDRA after his death and who fucked up his entire relationship whit half of the Avengers and with Tony for him, didn’t even cry a tear? Yeah, very belivable.

And Sam? The man fucked his entire life for him, from helping him destroing HYDRA, to following him for two years all around the word to find Bucky, to helping him in the Civil War even thought he hates Bucky just because he is important fo STEVe, and you are telling me that Steve was staring at his fucking compass with PEGGY inside? PEGGY? At least Tony was watching a picture with him and Peter!

Five years after the snap, Steve is in a support group for people who lost someone in the snap. Who is he talking about? Bucky? Sam? The life he was sarting to have in the modern time? Obviously not, we are in a superheroes film and men are not allowed to have emotion unless they are for a love interest, so he is talking about Peggy. She hadn’t died in the Snap you big idiot! She was old and you KNEW soon or less her time would have come! Sharon doesn’t even exists anymore, RIP Sharon you could have been a good character if someone had bothered developing you.

Then there’s the time travel moment. Steve meets 2012!Steve and during the fight his brain finally decided to work. He’s fighting with himself, so wich way to win is better than cofusing the past version of himself with something he doesn’t know? So he uses his ace in the hole, that is, surprise suprise, Bucky. WoW, YoU wErE ReAlLy SaD AnD wOrRiEd ThE LaSt TiMe I ChEcKeD! You know, when he died in front of your eyes with you being unable to do something EXACLY LIKE THE FIRST TIME!

But don’t worry, because Endgame!Steve will soon return after found out that Peggy has a picture of skinny!Steve on her desk! But not one with her husband or her kids. If I were them I would have been extremely offended, like, I’m her kid/husband and she has the photo of that skinny bitch who died like thirty years ago and not mine.

Anyway at the end, after the funeral, the bitch (aka endgame!Steve) goes in the past to return all the gems and return as an old man. And Sam is there like “bitch, WTF?” because, you know, he hadn’t told anyone about his plan. Bucky knows, because he has the power (apparently because Steve told him, but I would like to, yanno, see it and not hear it in a line of TFATWS two years later) and... nothing else. That’s the end.

We don’t have a closure, whe don’t have anything more than a hug and a stupid line from CA:TFA, that was meant as a “see you later” and not as a “goodbye”. That doesn’t seem like a closure to me. Sam doesn’t even have that, he had a friend and now he has fucking shield and an old man who is probably going to die tomorrow.

All Steve’s development as a character was about moving on and learning that being a bit selfish wasn’t a bad thing, but for the sake of the first love that never dies (again, RIP Sharon) the writers threw away half of his development, giving us and ending that didn’t bring any closure, because Steve and Peggy had theirs in CA:TWS. 

In coclusion, they destroyed Steve’s development and characterization in the whole film to not make it feel like his ending was OOC, making Endgame!Steve in general OOC,

I really had to take this weight off my chest. Thanks for coming to my ted talk <3

[hunting-songs]

The little smile did not went unnoticed, not by Senritsus eyes nor by her keen hearing. But there was also something else, something like an echo, a sweet song that was not sung for her but for someone else. For a moment the woman honestly curious wondered who Megumi would sing that relaed and content song for. Then the moment ended and Senritsu just shaked her head honestly amused over her own thoughts. Curiosity kills the cat. Curiosity sure is killing this cat, she thought for herself ruefully smiling and her left arm felt suddenly very heavy, very wounded, very hurting. "Then its settled- next time you go shopping, I will glady accompany you to help you carry your bags. And you can show me all the horrible tourist-traps I need to visit for as long as I stay in Japan. That sounds like a very good plan." Senritsu winked up to the younger friendly: "Thank you for your help." She blinked like a cofused bird-, one time two times, three times. "Ah, thats right.", the Musician chuckled a giggle that was as sweet as a song: " Familynames before first names, it is- in that case its Döne Melody. I was told I can go just by Senritsu in Japan. It is nice to meet you Megumi." [ @rake-rake ]

"Really. I used to be taller and when you shrink without losing mass, your muscles and bones get really dense and that leads to one beeing such a small but strong little person as I am.", Senritsu chuckled, wagging her hairless eyebrows and then winking playfully up to the younger as if she was joking even if she was not in the slightest. The faint smile was still there when the woman had tilted her head to the side, listening attentive to the change of Megumis heartbeat- speeding up hastily and nervouse-when she complimented him and a worried line appeared between her big eyes,a worried line that turned as deep as a scar. She wondered worried why the boy reacted to a compliment so flustered as if he had barely ever gotten a compliment before. "You are kind young person, thank you very much.", Senritsu said gently: "And there is no shame in buying too much, though believe me, you sure are never able to defeat one little lady I had accompanied on a shoppingtour as her bodyguard a few times. Would be a worthy challenge to try beat her record, I am sure. We can face that challenge as soon as you need to go shopping the next time, if you want." "Mhmmmm...If you do want to help me though- ",the Musician lifted a hand and tapped her fingers against her chin in a slow, thoughtful melody: "You might had noticed- My japanese is not the best and I have very big problems reading Kanji. If we go shopping, You occaisonally would need to translate for me." "...and maybe indulge me and showing me around the city so I can satisfy the horrible, horrible, horrible urge to be for once a very normal tourist. I know,I know, what a horrible cliche I am feeding. I am truely ashamed of myself ." The woman placed a small hand on her chest, sighing in overly dramatic shame and guilt that was too theatralic to be real. She lasted exactly five second before she looked up again, chuckling in all good humor over her own little act.

[tafeja]

It's so annoying when people complain that nonbinary characters get she/her pronouns in russian/polish/spanish/what ever translation. If you complain about translation it's because you probably speak the language, right? Then you should understand that not every language is English, and there are no gender neutral pronouns for people in that language. Like, how do you expect they/them to be translated?

Take for example Russian. There is a gender neutral pronoun "оно" /ono/. However to refer like this to people would be exremely rude, dehumanazing and cofusing for the audience. This pronoun usually refers to inanimate objects. The only example of it refering to an animate object that I can think of is "monster" (чудовище). Unless it is a horror and the character is an entity beyond human comprehension you probably wouldn't want to refer to it with "оно".

Ok, so what about a calque from English? Just refer to a character in third person plural, right? If it works for English language it means it works in every other language equally well, right? No. Stop being so online and go talk with your friends and family in your native language for a change. Or at least go to your local sites. Even if we gloss over the fact that if you'll refer to a character in plural viewers will think either that there are several characters or that this character has some sort of multi-personality disorder. "They" (third person plural) doesn't have a grammatical gender, the same way "I" doesn't either. However adjectives, participles, verbs in past tense all have grammatical gender in singular form. And most nouns have it in both plural and singular. So how would this character talk about themselves? For example the character wants to say something like this:" I (no gender) was (what gender?) young (what gender?)" So the character would also need to talk in plural, refering to themselves as "we". Which, again, would make audience think there are more people than there really are. Or, they might think that the character is royal or at least very arrogant. Because there are circumstances when a single person can talk about themselves "we", and it is when they are royal. It is called "royal we". And if it is not the characterization you are going for it probably would be inappropriate. And remember that nouns have gender even in plural, so you probably would have to use male as a default in this instance (many words for proffesions do not have a feminine gender anyway, and when you talk about men and women you would use masculine words).

So now you'll probably want some sort of neopronouns? If English-speakers can make them up as much as they want then other language can too? No. It is dumb. No one will understand you. And have you forgotten that other words, that are not pronouns, have grammatical gender too? You will need to creat whole new declinations and conjugations for it to work.

And at this point you are left only with "he" and "she". Are you suggesting that you using male as a default is somehow more progressive?