#Ryz

[oleandypng]

a whole comic sprung from silly dms with a friend. i love ttrpg

[solraticart]

Ryz evening dress

I really needed to draw Ryz in a dress. @DoodleDox

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[pixylmawthz]

Obsessed with the littlest guy

[sipenabicara]

B E D A

Kita telah sampai pada sebuah titik realita 

Tak akan pernah kembali dan tak lagi tersisa

Pilihan yang kita ambil juga tak lagi sama

Melangkah hingga bertemu di kata bahagia

Kita tak pernah saling diam di titik percaya

Di sebuah realita yang tak lagi membuat kecewa

Seakan sudah tak pernah berkata dan menerka

Tapi tetap menyimpan harapan pada sebuah doa

-R-

[aero-doodles]

Ryz from Above

@DoodleDox's evil bird, Ryz striking down from above.  She has her eyes set, and a grand smirk upon her face.  Can you survive her?

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[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

(Tagging as "ryz" to find later)

Hey there, I come seeking validation/advice for something that happened to me. My experience is so detached anything else I've read, so I don't feel like almost everything I've read has been applicable to my situation.

*TW: CEN at the hands of parents, transphobia, emotional manipulation, COCSA(?), sexual coercion, SA allegations, ED mentions, SH mentions. All in all, this will be a heavy read, so please feel free to pass by if it'll make you uncomfortable.*

Context: As of now, I am almost 14. I was friends with this girl when I was 12 and she was 12-13 (same grade). Note also that I'm FtM and have known since I was 9. I also come from an emotionally neglectful/psychologically manipulative household, and my gender was a main target of my parent's behavior towards me. I am not passing nor transitioned, but I do go by my preferred name (shortened to A) around some of my friends, including this girl at the time.

At the beginning of 7th grade (age 12), my mental health was terrible. This was one of the greatest peaks of my parents' neglect, and I had very few friends heading into middle school. From a few shared classes, I started talking to F (that's what I'll call her), and we became friends. She had a particular way of getting me to open up about my issues (with primarily gender dysphoria and my parents), and she was always very respectful in calling me A rather than my deadname and using he/him to refer to me. Over the course of a few months, she became one of my best friends, even though our relationship was mostly built upon us finding consolation in each other. Likewise, she was having a lot of issues at home with her father and an eating disorder, and we both self-harmed.

She did, however, have some odd behavioral patterns: if I'd talk to her about a problem I had, she'd find a way to figure out how that same/a similar problem applied to her, going so far as to say, "A and I have the same problems, just in different fonts." She'd also constantly try to make it a point to prove me wrong whenever I said something that was even a slight generalization. She would start to suck up to teachers whenever she noticed I was doing particularly well in a class, too. I overlooked all this entirely, though, because I was just happy to have a friend who was supportive and understanding of me. Plus, I figured all of these things were just manifestations of her self-esteem issues at most.

As the months passed and the end of the year was approaching, she confessed to me that she had a crush on me and asked if I wanted to be her boyfriend. I didn't have feelings for her, though, so I declined respectfully and said I'd prefer to stay friends. She took to this well, thankfully, and we joked about it together afterward.

However, leading up to that, the dynamic of our friendship started to shift. I was starting to take on a role that was more "less-to-her," she'd constantly call everything I'd do and everything I was insecure about "cute," and she always complained about how "touch-starved" she was and used it as her excuse to want more physical, platonic contact with me. She started telling me things such as, "You're like a little golden retriever," "All of your rants about ___ are so adorable," and the like, which I didn't mind at all--I loved the validation.

Eventually, the conversational topic of sex started coming up more and more. We're both hypersexual and not exactly vanilla when it comes to our preferences of activities, so we started opening up more and more about what we'd hypothetically enjoy in the bedroom. (Keep in mind we're both virgins and neither of us had been involved in sexual activities to our memory, so we knew about this stuff from the internet.) All of our conversations were over text, and we would say stuff like, "It would be so hot if someone did ___ to me," etc., without really directing anything at each other. Eventually though, she started pointing her fantasies more at me, saying that she knows how much I'd like a certain thing and whatnot. I recognize now that this is wildly uncalled for, but back then, I was too horny and desperate to object. She started writing literal POV smut for me out-of-the-blue in accordance with what I said I liked, saying how I'd love to be treated like a toy and tied up and used. And I was having all of it. She was dominant and I was clear-cut submissive, so we sort of entered this psuedo-gentle femdom relationship dynamic while still considering ourselves essentially friends-with-benefits. Over text.

One time at her house, we had another friend over, who I'll call S. S fell asleep in the corner of her room, and F told me to come lay down with her up on the bed, which I did. She started hugging me, INCREDIBLY tight, and praised me, calling me things like "good boy" and whatnot to get a rise out of me. I didn't exactly consent to any of this (because she didn't ask prior), but idk if it counts as SA because if she had asked, I would've consented. Plus, the stuff she did was based on what I said I was into. I was laying in her arms, before suddenly she wraps her legs around mine and squeezes. Hard. I was so worked up to the point I was shaking, but she just kept me there until S woke up. Then she let go, the three of us hung out, and then we went home.

We started making arrangements for me to go to her house again (all meet-ups for this type of stuff were at her house because of my home life) for us to cuddle in ways that we called "not quite platonic, not quite sexual," but they were VERY much just sexual. We had talked prior about some things like boundaries, like we weren't going to actually have sex or anything, but she'd be hugging me etc. like last time. It was essentially the same thing over again, but with a little bit more consent and asking prior. And I was somehow even more horny.

After that day, stuff slowed down and our relationship became more awkward, before we nearly completely stopped talking to one another over the rest of the summer and 8th grade. She was the main one to start drifting, and I kept profusely apologizing to her asking what I did wrong, to which she never gave a clear answer. I became addicted to the thought of her having sex with me, which I privately indulged in by myself, until S (who knew a lot of what was going on) told me I had a problem and needed to force these thoughts away, which I did. I went into withdrawal for several days, but then started to recover. I began making more friends and having a healthy social. life and I felt much happier, even despite my parents' continuing emotional neglect.

All was going well until I heard that F had accused me of sexual assault to several of her new friends. I was so mad at her, confronted her, and she claimed it was a miscommunication and she hadn't used the words "SA." I asked her friends again, who said she DEFINITELY used the words "SA," so I came to her again, and she gave a half-assed apology and said she was in a manic state when she made the accusations. I couldn't get anything more out of her, so I started to explain what happened exactly on those two days to her friends, and they came to believe I didn't SA her. In fact, they lended themselves more to the side that I had essentially been manipulated into interacting with her in that way. They also noted increasing amounts of manipulative behavior coming from F in their platonic friendship.

Now I'm stuck. Any thoughts on what to do from here, what to think about this all? Thank you in advance.

Hi anon,

I'm sorry to hear about what happened. It sounds like you've navigated complex emotions, boundaries, and power dynamics. Your experiences with F sound confusing and emotionally challenging. It's important to recognize that, at the time, you were facing a lot of internal and external struggles, and your decisions were influenced by these factors.

The situation at F's house raises concerns about consent and boundaries. While discussions about preferences occurred, consent is an ongoing process, and it's crucial to ensure that all parties involved are comfortable and explicitly agree to any actions. Even if you were interested, clear communication and consent are essential for healthy interactions. That being said, it's also important to remember that even if you would've agreed to it had she asked, you're also incapable of providing consent as a minor.

F's accusations add another layer of complexity. While being manic could serve as somewhat of an explanation as to why F accused you of SA, it's not an excuse for such a weighted accusation. It's unfortunate that these actions led to misunderstandings. I'm glad to hear that you sought to clarify the situation with her friends and that they were able to see the situation more accurately.

Please remember that your well-being is important. If you can access or afford it, a mental health professional such as a therapist can provide a safe space to explore your feelings, understand your boundaries, and heal from this experience.

I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[ryzselo]

Whom Tommy and Johnny love more? Rhys or Tim? And who is more awkward?

[Johnny]

"Are you from Maliwan??"

I just don’t know how else to explain how you can’t comprehend that even in the corporate world of diagrams and numbers, love is still something you can’t ration or measure.

We just love them. It’s all that simple."

[eucacici]

Doodled some of @ryzselo lovely Transformers x Borderlands AU!! I just love their designs sm

[browneyes-asiandragon]

Hello!

I hate begging for money on the internet, but I cannot afford my power bill this month.

I have PWYW Comms open!

$1-4 gets a pencil sketch

$5-9 gets flat colours

$10+ gets simple shading

I do human and furry art as well as cats you can inquire for more examples

Shoot me a DM I take paypal and venmo :-)

Amount raised $0/70.25

[vzajemnik]

juz mam takie stadium choroby ze sobie wmawiam ze sie lepiej czuje bo mam dosc. ale sie nie czuje lepiej. ale juz nie mam jedzenia w domu wiec musze isc po jedzenie dzis.

[lavend-ler]

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

damn again it's gotta be Timothy Lawrence, u know? going inside his head and writing how he would react to certain things in life and how he would embrace the world and heal is so important to me. it's always a delight to write him and his turbulent thoughts

I know I've written him far less but also I have to mention Soundwave! god, writing him is suuuuch a pleasure to go with, I swear. there's so much to his character from his own preconcieved notions abt himself and fighting with emotions that he wants to keep hidden. as well as his loyalty and his putting others and the cause before himself AH he's perfect I swear

other than that I do enjoy writing characters with very unique talking quirks! they're so fun to get right, it's almost as if the text is jumping at u hehe

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

my very next fic is a gift for my dear friend Ryz (Ryz, if ure reading this hi :3) so unfortunately I cannot spoil anything abt this for them!

my next next fic is most likely chapter 2 of Third Time's The Charm and I gotta tell u that tag I put there abt discussions of depression? this will be surely apparent in this one. exploring Norma as a character more and more had been a very interesting task. Once-ler takes a lil bit of a backseat in this fic but I want his optimistic personality to shine through here so despite Norma being the sun and Once-ler being the moon, this fic will be a reversal and it'll be very apparent in this chapter!

later on dang, the sky is the limit honestly. I love having fic plans but they always can change lol I sooo wanna write an Earthspark-verse fic for Soundwave & Starscream bc they're bffs. and I have a fic + art collab with my friend coming up! not saying anything else but it'll be SoundRod <3 and then I truly have too many ideas to count. I wanna write a new Windstream fic, a Deadceptor fic, Blurr/Smokescreen, Chromehide family (I was just thinking of them today aaaa), maybe MegOPlita and abt a thousand of SoundRod ideas. truly the sky is the limit :D

[solraticart]

Ryz sketch

I love me a bad bird gal with a sword. Ryz for @DoodleDox

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[pixylmawthz]

Brainfog

Ryz is by far a mascot/comfort OC. I try to avoid drawing him sad but he's such a little guy. Not much lore here, just love him.

[sipenabicara]

B E R L A Y A R

Pelabuhan rindu yang sempat menjadi tempat kepulanganku

Kini harus berani ku ikhlaskan melebur di telan waktu

Sampai pada pendirian atas rasa kesepian yang harus terbayar

Membawa keheningan jiwa entah sampai kapan akan berlayar

Gemuruh ombak membawa sejuta keheningan pada rindu

Berbau hangat yang selalu hanya tertuju padamu

Hingga akhirnya sambaran petir ikut mengejek kesendirian

Mengikis ego yang perlahan mulai hilang kesadaran

-R-

[ryzselo]

imagine you have a bottle of glue

do you guys make slime or put it in a tub to pick at? Just me? 🫠 XD

(I was gonna do a ask as my oc Scara but I forgot how to 😭🤣)

Few moments later, in Tommy’s room…

Drew them a bit younger, around 19 and 15. Johnny fulfilling his duty of the annoying older brother. 👍🏻