#Role Of The Gut

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

All he knows is flirt with men and lie.

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[gorgynei]

vaxleth + vex and keyleth's conversation about vax in c1e56

[stardustedknuckles]

Listening to the Matron talk about the previous god of death cements for me the idea that Vax was always meant to have more time before she made good on their deal. She didn't mean for him to know the same eternal separation and grief she had taken upon herself - that she had chosen with eyes wide open. He was supposed to have time and happiness with Keyleth. Maybe even time beyond a natural lifespan, though that's probably pushing it a little. To the max of said lifespan at the very least. She didn't want for him - or for keyleth - what she had been through, but her hand was forced, and the only way to give him back in any capacity was to take away what should have been. His fate was to become her champion, yes, but there was time to live first. That fate was changed as a gift. It was all she could allow as the keeper of her domain and arguably, her mortality is what led her to give it at all.

Yes. She hears the sounds of grief and loss unending, unceasing. Death is less than nothing to her and the sum of who she is. She is synonymous to death in many ways, though she refers to herself as its steward and rightfully so.

But I think what sets her apart is that she never grows numb to it. That mask is to hide the fact that all of it still affects her. It's to hide all of it - her loneliness, yes, but also that she feels every death. She hears every cry, every curse, every regret. She stands before every soul individually and does what she must, and she wears the mask so that she can do so without giving anything of her mortal feelings away. The dead do not need to know that she cares, that she understands. Death is not about her. It is about who is standing in front of her waiting to be ushered into the beyond. She is the great reuniter, forever separated from the one she loves.

So yes. I believe that Vax was always meant to have more time, right up until time was the only thing left to barter. His fate was to die after a long and happy life, to go peacefully and take up the mantle at her side when he was done on Exandria.

But that had to change to save the fate of the world, and nobody in this realm or any other knows better the loss and the grief that came about from cutting that time short. Vax wasn't meant to understand it either. She wanted better for him and, by extension, keyleth.

[revvethasmythh]

*shaking you by the shoulders* don’t you understand that Relvin Temult's life is a tragedy?? The he knew Liliana was going to go somewhere else one day but he thought he'd be enough for her to want him with her and then he wasn't and she slipped away piece by piece until she was gone?? that he didn't want Imogen to be haunted by the same things as her mother but was utterly powerless to stop it and thought the best he could do was shield her from the little information he DID know before whatever got ahold of Liliana sunk its claws into her too?? that he watched imogen slip away, piece by piece and then all at once, just like her mother, and now there's no need for extra kitchen chairs because there's no one to have dinner with anymore so why bother??? have you read Our Wives Under The Sea????? You understand

[stagefoureddiediaz]

The Helena diaz of it all has me fascinated. I’ve said for a long while that Eddie’s real issues are his mommy issues and this episode just cemented for me that we’re gonna explore that and deal with it.

Because it’s Helena who forced Eddie to grow up to fast - because her husband wasn’t around much - so she pushed Eddie into de facto parent and husband role ls - selfishly filling her needs and ignoring the damage it was doing to her son (it is a form of abuse in my book).

Eddie then had the audacity to fall in love with and marry Shannon and get her pregnant. It’s why Helena was always so off with Shannon - she was punishing her. She is also punishing Eddie for all of this and his refusal to return to El Paso only cemented further her bitterness and resentment.

Now she does have Ramon back she doesn’t need Eddie any longer to fill that role so she is still punishing him and part of that is tied into her glee over now getting to parent Christopher - something she has always been intent on doing the doppelgänger just gave her the opportunity- as well as allowing her to further punish her son and his love of Shannon.

Her barbed comments about building a pool were all about showing what she can provide Christopher - how she is parenting him better than Eddie - it’s part of her mind games - making Eddie feel like more of a failure as a parent to his son.

The reality of course is that the reverse is true - Helena’s parenting is all superficial, flash and showy - it isn’t the hard day to day parenting when things get tough and you have to be the bad guy. While Eddie has made mistakes, there is nothing superficial, flash, or showy about his parenting. It’s why bucks comments about Eddie being a great dad are so important.

Eddie feel like a failure right now and that he is entirely to blame for everything. But in reality, while he does bear a bit of the responsibility, the truth of the matter is that he needs to learn and deal with the fact that all of it actually stems from Helena and her abuse of her young son - Shannon never stood a chance just like Eddie never has.

[utilitycaster]

truly the constant of this campaign has been "literally no one likes Ludinus Da'leth at all"

[puppppppppy]

you are umasou

[venator-signum]

shoutout to haylie and topher, the two half-firbolg kids who are quite possibly the only exandrian demigods to ever exist

[maryhanaae4]

me when roblox medic

[beedreamscape]

"What character has been your favourite to play?"

Somebody hit me with a giant wrench thanks!!!! Sorry for all the times I complained you don't talk about him enough, I fear it's a case of "If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more." Also, @quiddie!

[just-a-little-unionoid]

so like, hypothetically, if I were to try again to write a very self-indulgent stobotnik fanfic that I started ~4 years ago, in which after Robotnik's disappearance Stone "accidentally" adopt a child genius, and so when Ivo comes back he instantly hate her guts and shenanigans ensue, would anyone be interested or do I just keep thinking about it in my own head?

I'm fine either way but I've been wondering

[meangreennunseen]

The more I read about Primarchs, the more sorrow I feel for them. So many of them early on came to terms they are not ordinary humans and in truth tools for something greater, and yet they didn't know for what for the longest time.

Just the whole thing of being made into human and yet not fully human, being forced to accept your fate, while living among ordinary humans. Realising that's the life you are not meant to have and the feelings you can experience and yet cannot fully comprehend.

The fact that Primarchs were created to be perfect and live their lives among humans of various cultures and yet they truly only exist to serve the one purpose just hurts me to immense levels...

[nicorobinphd]

stg, being an enjoyer of jane twdg is like being forced into an expert-level course on the way misogyny manifests in video game spaces.

god forbid a woman be complex or difficult or provably mischaracterized (see tags) at the end of her arc to service the culmination of a man’s storyline.

[revvethasmythh]

can I just say, I'm still deeply haunted by the fact that the vanguard at the malleus key laid out around their perimeter symbols of worship that were trophies from the fallen. they were put there as "a warning, and a sign of pride." can i just bring that up again because that was so, so haunting

[figuerocks]

I love imogen and need her to be okay, and I understand that actual play is a unique medium

but you can’t deny that the image of predathos possessing imogen isn’t the most satisfying climax to the story they’ve been telling

[ohitslen]

College (uni??) AU catering to my own interests as it should always be hehe :)