#Rocky Lynch Writings

[jscameron]

you’re a tour photographer, meaning that you take professional pictures of performers. you’re currently waiting outside of the venue in nashville, where you would be seeing THE DRIVER ERA. you were ready to meet rocky and ross, the excitement buzzing through your body. you take a picture of the venue that opens up in 3 hours for their concert.

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“hey! you must be y/n!”, a sweet voice shouts from behind you. your turn around and see that it’s no other than ross lynch, his brother, rocky, next to him!

“no way! you’re ross and rocky! how did you guys know my name?”, you ask way too excitedly.

“well, you’re going to be taking concert photos, right? we have a list of everyone that’s allowed to come in and help us set up or interview or anything else like that.”, ross says.

“oh. yeah! i’ll be taking your pictures. do you mind if i take some now, while we have some time?”, you ask eagerly.

“sure! we don’t have to warm up for another hour, so we can definitely do that! how about we go on top of the roof? i think the lighting would be great, but you’re the photographer, what you say goes.”, ross says with a wink.

“you have a wonderful idea. let me steal you boys away!”, you say.

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“stay just like that! the light is hitting you boys at just the right angle.”, you say, peeking through the camera and hitting the button to take ross’ and rocky’s picture. little did the boys know, you were taking individual headshots as well, with every pose you set them up for.

“oh! these are so good! and you boys are so sweet!”, you say.

“really? well, let’s see ‘em!”, ross says, snatching your camera from you.

“ross! no!! they’re not edited or anything! give it back!”, you say, worried he’s going to see the individual pictures.

“oh no, y/n, i don’t think so.”, he teases holding the camera above both of your heads now. “rocky, take this and run!”, he says to his brother.

“bet.”, rocky says, a devious smile on his face.

“no! wait!”, you say, but it was too late. the boys are playing a trick with you and rocky is long out of reach now.

“well, looks like rocky might take a picture of you and me now. smile and pose.”, ross says while grabbing you by your waist and pulling you close to him. he dips you down and tells you, “focus on me. you’re beautiful.” you blush, but oblige. you hear your camera flick with each picture rocky takes of you and ross.

“okay, ross and rocky. please give me my camera back, i think it’s almost time for you guys to get ready to warm up.”, you say, trying to get out of ross’ grip, but he won’t let go.

“rocky is heading that way now, but i want to stay here with you, y/n.”, ross says to you, still holding onto you.

“awe, ross”, you say, looking into his eyes.

the chemistry between you is crazy. you can tell you both want the same thing each other wants. your faces draw closer together and just when you think he’s about to kiss you, he stops.

“okay, kid. time for me to go warm up. come with.”, he says with a smirk on his lips, while leading you off of the roof.

“ugh! ross!”, you say, not letting go of his hand.

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“how’s everyone doing tonight?!”, rocky asks the crowd at their sold out show. you stand behind the barrier and start taking pictures of the fans and the brothers. the crowd is going wild as they start to play their song “a kiss”. you start taking pictures of the boys and you can’t help but notice how much ross is interacting with you, even though he’s on stage. and you can’t help but crack a smile and follow his lead.

ross grabs you up on the stage and sets you to the side, he stares at you for what feels like forever, then touches your hands that hold your camera. he wants his picture taken. you shoot one. then, he grabs the camera off of your neck and takes a selfie with you.

“you got your phone?”, he asks you, while still performing. you take your phone out of your pocket and he takes it from you and takes another selfie of the two of you together, then he takes some pictures of his brother and the crowd, interacting with everyone. before handing your phone back, he takes a picture of you, taking a picture of him with your camera. once you lower your camera, he takes another picture of you. “absolutely beautiful.”, he says. he gives you a kiss on your cheek before continuing to perform. you’re blushing and you can’t stop feeling the tingles of electricity resonating where he kissed you.

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after the boys’ performance, ross tells rocky he’s taking you out. “oh, you don’t have to do that, ross.”, you say, bashfully.

“sure i do! i want to. i want to get to know you more. you’re not getting rid of me easily.”, he says to you. he grabs you by your hand and leads you out of the tour bus and out into the town. you find a nearby diner that doesn’t look too busy this late at night and go in.

“how many is it tonight, sir?”, the hostess asks as you and ross come in.

“just us two, ma’am.”, ross says.

“perfect. right this way.”, she says, gesturing to follow her.

the hostess sits you both down across from each other. as soon as she leaves though, ross, comes over to your side and blocks you in the booth.

“so…y/n? how’d you like the show tonight?”, ross asks you, eagerly.

“i loved it! and i loved getting to know you guys tonight. i can’t wait to go with you boys on the rest of your tour!”, you say.

“perfect. i’m so glad you feel that way. i don’t know if i could let you go so easily.”, he says, gently placing his hand on top of yours.

“awe, ross.”, you say, leaning into him for a kiss.

“y/n?”, he asks after kissing you a couple more times in the booth.

“ross?”, you say back.

“will you be my girlfriend? i know we just only met, but i can’t help but feel this way about you.”, he asks you, shyly.

“ross, shut up.”, you say, laughing at him and kissing him again, sealing the deal that yes, you will be his girlfriend.

it was going to be a long tour, but you’re happy to have ross by your side. ❤️‍🔥

[filmcourage]

There Is No Such Thing As An Antagonist - Matthew Kalil

Watch the video interview on Youtube here.

[headmates-4-you]

Hi! We requested the Rocky alter a few days ago. We were wondering if when you answered, you would used this ask instead of the initial ask because the initial ask is pretty long and I don't want to make a post double the length it needs to be, thank you 🥺

thank you <3 we didn't know much about this source, but we tried!

name: Rocky Lynch

age/age range: 29

pronouns: he/him + xey/xem + it/it + zae/zaer

gender identity: Male

species: human + african wild dog

sexuality: Bisexual

ethnicity: Caucasian

role: Helps train new members to the system + emotional protector

appearance description: Brown haired but he dyes it blonde like all the time

mental/physical condition: stable (for now)

personality: talkative, lively, extroverted, optimistic

source: Rocky Lynch (The Driver Era)

source connectivity: 10/10

interests: guitar + writing + going out on walks

headmate origin: altpackgenic

transIDs: transguitarist, transextroverty, permahappy, transage (yto), transspecies (African wild dog), Transcaucasian

paras: incestrophilia, MAP [specifically attraction 16-19]

if we did anything wrong, please do let us know 💜

(headmate created by Junie <3)

[mayhempro]

Mayhem Pro Wrestling is a semi-au, kayfabe, discord based efed, that's been up and running since 2021! If you're looking for a unique, fun, and welcoming group where YOU get to book your own matches, write your own story, and make some friends - or enemies - along the way, Mayhem is your next destination! In MPW, you have your character's career in your hands, and you get to decide how their story unfolds.

We're marching right on towards our next marquee Pay Per View event, Darkness Falls 3, which will air live TOMORROW NIGHT! Stay tuned as we go down this rocky road, and consider getting in on the action and signing your name on the dotted line, today!

most wanted:

Young Bucks, The Acclaimed, Bianca Belair, Becky Lynch, Kairi Sane, Jamie Hayter, Britt Baker, Utami Hayashishita, Mayu Iwatani, Tam Nakano, Mercedes Mone, ASUKA/KANA, Nick Wayne, Jordan Oliver, Blake Christian, Mike Bailey, Sawyer Wreck, Kylie Rae, Katie Arquette, Regina Rosendahl, Billie Starkz, Jay White, Alec Price, Hangman Page, Kazuchika Okada, Tetsuya Naito, Shinsuke Nakamura, Athena, Christian Cage, Adam Copeland, Dalton Castle, Hikaru Shida, Kris Statlander, Mina Shirakawa, Ruby Soho, Saraya, Yuka Sakazaki, Liv Morgan, Dakota Kai, PAC, Rhea Ripley, & Konosuke Takeshita!

[agaypanic]

do you have any music recs??? any except country

only country song i like is before he cheats lol btw i also have playlists for some (key word some lol) characters that i write for, so if yall wanna see that lmk :)

My Music Recs

(for a broad rec, i'll list some of the artists i listen to and then if you want more specific recs, i'll put my favorite album and then favorite song from that album)

5 Seconds of Summer - CALM - Teeth (the live version is superior to the recorded imo, the best one i could find is the one they do on the james corden show)

Avril Lavigne - Let Go - Complicated

Bea Miller - Not An Apology - Dracula

Billie Eilish - Happier Than Ever - Billie Bossa Nova

Bloodwitch - I Am Not Okay With This - I'm Yours Tonight

Britney Spears - Circus - Circus

Conan Gray - Superache - Family Line

Demi Lovato - HOLY FVCK - 29

Hayley Kiyoko - Expectations - Wanna Be Missed

Jack Harlow - Come Home The Kids Miss You - Nail Tech

Lady Gaga - The Fame Monster - Paparazzi

Lana Del Rey - Born To Die - Radio

Lemonade Mouth - Lemonade Mouth - She's So Gone

Lewis Capaldi - Divinely Uninspired To A Hellish Extent - Before You Go

Lizzy McAlpine - five seconds flat - reckless driving

Melanie Martinez - PORTALS - BATTLE OF THE LARYNX (i saw her in concert a few months ago and it was the highlight of my week it was so good, and i was graduating later that week lmao)

Olivia Rodrigo - GUTS - vampire

R5 - Heart Made Up On You - Stay With Me (i saw them in concert when i was like 10 and i got a high five from ross lynch and i think either riker or rocky. AND i have a poster that's signed by all of them, i gotta find it)

Sabrina Carpenter - emails i can't send fwd: - opposite (sabrina carpenter is the loml UGH)

Shawn Mendes - Illuminate - Lights On

Tate McRae - all the things i never said - that way

Taylor Swift - Speak Now - Dear John

The Vamps - Cherry Blossom - Married In Vegas (i wanna see them in concert so bad, i wanna see bradley simpson irl with my own eyes)

[nerendus]

Under the break is the list of movies I currently have planned to watch. As somone who is wanting to watch a new movie every single day for the foreseeable future, it honestly...isn't that long of a list, but it was still fun to write up. I just want to ask that if you've watched one of these movies and thought they were bad, to not say anything to me until after I've watched it so I get my fully blind watch of it. There is a few...curious movies...that are obviously not going to be good, but I just absolutely had to add them.

Requiem for a Dream

Eyes Wide Shut

Crimes of the Future

Videodrome

Alien

(literally every single Andrei Tarkovsky movie)

The Sons of Katie Elder

El Dorado

The Fifth Element

The Many Saints of Newark (will watch show first)

James Bond series

Resident Evil (second watch)

The Passion of The Christ (second watch)

Sharknado series (yes, I know)

Moulin Rouge

Bill and Ted (second watch)

The Day The Earth Stood Still

The Texas Chainsaw Massacre

Jurassic Park (second watch)

Blade Runner (second watch)

Robocop

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

The Boondock Saints

Legally Blonde (second watch)

The Fog (second watch)

Llamageddon (again...I know...)

Hellraiser

Candyman

Stargate

Shaun of The Dead (second watch)

Scarface

The Shawshank Redemption

Ghost in The Shell

No Country for Old Men

Kill Bill series

The Wolf of Wall Street

Interstellar (second watch, never seen the beginning)

Watchmen

Lone Wolf and Cub series

The Terminator

Last Night in Soho

Throne of Blood

Fargo

Hereditary

David Lynch:: The Art Life

District 9

Wayne's World series

I Am Legend (second watch)

Grease

Good Will Hunting

The VVitch

Leatherface

Fantastic Planet

Blue Velvet

Pulp Fiction (second watch)

Sleepy Hollow

Signs

Twister (second watch)

Donnie Darko (second watch)

Tales from Earthsea

The Secret World of Arrietty

Akira

Late Spring (1949)

From Up on Poppy Hill

Rashomon

Picnic at Hanging Rock

Intermezzo

Casablanca

When Marnie Was There

The Wind Rises

The Tale of Princess Kaguya

Ponyo

Kiki's Delivery Service

I Married a Witch

David Bowie: The Last Five Years

Vampyr

Kill Boksoon

Glass Onion series

The Wonder (2022)

Hook (1991) (second watch)

Time Trap

The Yin Yang Master

Hold The Dark

Rocky (may watch series)

All Quiet on the Western Front

The Cloverfield Paradox

Reservoir Dogs

Spider-man (2002)

The Karate Kid series

Unknown Cosmic Time Machine

The Good Nurse (2022)

Annihilation

What Did Jack Do?

Banyuki

Amina (2021)

The Colony (2021)

Cities of Last Things

The Metamorphosis of Birds

Month Python movie series

[kelliealtogether]

@phdmama, you have the benefit of the mushroom notebook, along with the cat paperclip I use to mark pages, being right in front of me. 😌

I'm using this notebook for shorter fics, and the one I'm writing in it now is a Pynch fic inspired by the storm that swept across the US at Christmastime last year and grounded flights nationwide:

MANAGEMENT was a contact Ronan Lynch never minded seeing on his phone screen, except at that moment, the human behind the contact was supposed to be at cruising altitude, unreachable until wheels hit the ground at Logan Airport outside of Boston.

He’d last talked to Adam when Adam was getting ready to leave his hotel and head to the airport, and their goodbyes had included the sign off that they’d see each other when Adam’s plane landed. Only three hours had passed since then, hardly enough time for a plane leaving Los Angeles to reach the Rockies let alone New England, and before he even swiped to accept the call, Ronan’s stomach was leaden and headed through the floor.

“Parrish,” he said when he picked up, “please tell me you’re using in-flight WiFi to call me from thirty thousand feet so you can single handedly join the Mile High Club without me.” 

[WIP notebooks]

[kellyannecontent]

the public discovery of the watts case - notably the interviews with chris watts' coworkers from anadarko petroleum - is so breathtaking and tearjerking and sad and sweet. just the most salt of the earth fucking guys crying about what happened to those girls, the detectives also clearly sniffling and crying in the background on the audio when the guys get choked up. all of it encased in the backdrop of the rocky mountains as colorado moves from a blistering summer into fall. david lynch's sexist ass wishes he could write something like this.

[dzpenumbra]

8/5/23

I had one goal today. Chill and have a fun day. I didn't quite accomplish that goal.

I had to do the whole "4 hours of sleep, get up, eat food, play Factorio, then go back to sleep" thing again. I hate how normal this is getting. But hey, it works... So I was up at like... 8:30? Back to sleep for a few hours, then back up around mid-day.

I stupidly got on my phone and on social media. It's never worth it, I swear. I just got sucked into a local subreddit and it's always political shit and it's always arguing. And I found myself writing paragraphs to post and then deleting them without posting and starting over... then deleting that. And yeah, it just feels like such a waste of time and energy.

Like, it was all about some young graphic designer (no small coincidence) who quit a job at a local cider brewery because she felt they were misogynistic. Which honestly? I think we're really getting to a point in society where you legit need to watch your back for a lynch mob over even making jokes. It's like people don't understand the purpose of humor as a way to breach difficult topics in a more approachable way and keep them in the social dialogue rather than hiding them... that process isn't equivalent to advocacy, if anything it's publicly shining a light on problems... Of course there's overlap, duh, there's overlap with literally everything, but the exception is not the rule. My point being... making a joke about something is very fucking different than actually doing something... and they really really cannot be treated the same.

I was referring to GWAR as an example, because yesterday I watched their old 1990 VHS they made for fans. I went to see GWAR in 2005 in Boston, I remember that show vividly as it was the only time I saw GWAR, Lamb of God, Clutch and Strapping Young Lad live. GWAR was by far the most memorable. If you don't know them... you will never forget them. GWAR is an art collective out of Virginia that, in their early days, advertised themselves as a mix between KISS, Rocky Horror Picture Show, WWF and The Simpsons. Really, they're way the fuck farther than all of that.

Their explicit purpose has been, since day one, to hold out a blunt, no-holds-barred, outrageously over the top mirror to society. To show all the fucked up things that are in the media, in humanity, but in a way that is extremely dramatized and over-the-top and cartoonish. And they do this by creating a fictional mythos behind the band - staying in character the whole time - that the band themselves are alien gods who are here to destroy humanity and merely distracted by sex/drugs/rock and roll, and the artists/musicians are their human slaves. And the gods themselves are slaves, too, to another higher diety. Which, clearly slavery is a theme at its core... and... with them being from Virginia... it's far from a coincidence, it's super intentional. It is a palatable way to keep extremely difficult concepts within social dialogue, in a way that isn't clinical or scary. In a way that is poking fun at how fucked up it is, how inhuman those acts are. How horrible of a being you'd have to be to commit such crimes. That's the entire fucking point!

And... then along comes Tipper Gore... and all the others who suddenly think that some 20-something guy in ridiculous theatre makeup "decapitating" a puppet of a political figure, then squirting fake blood all over the audience... they think that's going to like... trigger a Manchurian Candidate or something. Like uttering the Devil's name will summon him! OoooOOOoOOO! Well, if that were the case, how the fuck haven't we summoned him by blasting actual death, crimes and dismemberment all over mainstream news nationwide for decades?

See... if you frame it as "informing the public", you can literally do anything you want. If you frame is as "fictional entertainment/parody", for some reason these morons think you're... advocating? They're seriously like the SNL / South Park of metal music, and they've stood strong for 40 fucking years doing this shit and - I shit you not - they just played NPR's Little Desk. XD It's fucking great, check it out.

So this was all stemming from this chick who was complaining about how the company decided to make a light beer that was marketed to redneck men. Let's not beat around the bush here, it's targeted to the guys who go deer hunting and chew tobacco. And she was specifically analyzing their ad campaign and pointing out (with gigantic leaps of extrapolation) how it advocated for the mistreatment of women. ... By like... making a stupid poor-taste joke about how women aren't good at golf?

My point here is like... if it's not your cup of tea... just fucking change the channel. Why the hell do people have such a hard time with that? Don't buy the damn beer, you weren't going to anyway. I, personally, don't like drag shows. That's just... me. It doesn't mean I have anything against the LGBTQ community, it doesn't mean I don't like crossdressing in general, it means I don't like things that advocate explicit sexuality in public forums (I really don't like strip clubs either) and advocate for extreme forms of superficiality. It just is in a lot of ways the antithesis of a lot of things that I do enjoy, and do derive pleasure and purpose from. But my personal preference has nothing the fuck to do with their right to perform. Ever. I just... don't go to drag shows. And you know, I might even go with a friend who is into it, to stand in the back and absorb the experience, then talk to them afterwards and see what they got out of it. As a cultural learning experience. But that's not a requirement whatsoever. I have every right to not find something palatable, as does everyone else, but our personal tastes do not directly translate to permission to attack someone else's right of expression.

There's a huge difference (and this actually happened to me) between going to see a standup comedian and hearing a joke about 9/11 that really doesn't sit well with you... and just... getting up and leaving? You know? Versus... heckling. And protesting. And blasting them on social media. And trying to get them cancelled and make sure they never come back to your town. It's a gigantic leap from just showing yourself out... to trying to ruin their show or end their career. And it makes me deeply concerned how normalized this has become. People used to get taken to court over shit like this.

So yeah, I really tried to sum up my point like... "I don't like their style of humor, I don't have any intentions of buying their product, I feel like light beer is somewhat a slight against the gods... but I will defend to the death their right to tell their jokes." But, as I always do... I came to the conclusion that... it's really not going to make a difference. They're just looking for people to agree with them, so they can feel validated in their decision to quit the company a year ago. So they can feel like they're... "getting back" at the people who they felt treated them unfairly. As though... that's a "good" thing. As though eye for an eye leaves things settled up and everyone walks away happy... XD

I clearly didn't post it. And I realized I had spent nearly 2 hours typing and editing and rewriting comments. Good lord. This is what social starvation looks like.

Again, my goal for the day was to relax and have fun...

I started working on the graphic design thing. And... I stopped myself. I realized I really need to decide whether I'm actually going to do this commission before I sink more work into it. I haven't gotten paid yet, in fact... we haven't even talked prices yet... So... I posted on an art forum about this commission. All of it, including the bit about him shooting the fox during a creative consultation with a vegetarian, and how I have 18 projects on the docket right now. I got a resounding 6+ comments all saying different forms of "I would say no", "red flags", "you can walk away", shit like that. It was helpful to hear it, especially... so unanimously... like... I didn't hear a single artist actually advocate for doing this commission outside of desperation for money. So... I made up my mind. I'm not going to work on it anymore and I'm going to tap out.

Then, I had a super embarrassing moment because my post was deleted by a moderator. Apparently they have a rule - "no posts about business/social media/publicity". In an art forum. ... Which... I mean, the only reason I posted there was because I've seen tons of posts there about exactly those types of things. I guess I saw those posts before the mods got to them. Oh well. I actually handled that "you fucked up" pretty well. I got a little upset, then tried to respond "my bad" and it didn't go through, then moved on. Much better than being mortified with shame. There are still some shame shadows floating around in the background, but I've mostly moved on.

So... I got my answer. And my conversation is gone. So... I got zero feedback about pricing. So... either I make a new post where I ask the ever important question... "Is asking a fine artist to go outside of his medium something that the artist charges extra, because it's a special thing they don't normally do... or charges less, because it's something they don't have experience in?" I didn't get a straight answer on that.

Then I started to write up an invoice. I'm glad I got that set up, with my chill-but-serious solid black name up top and my seriously chill trademark light pink background. It looks official as fuck, I'm proud of it. So... here's where I am with it. I don't really know if it's good or bad, but it's a number. I decided... $200. Part of me feels like it's too low. Part of me feels like it's too high. And I think that's really the best I'm going to get. I don't think I'm going to find a number where I don't feel that way. So, I billed it as Concept Sketches - $125, Concept Design Consultation (Phone) - $75. So it's an even $200 plus tax. I think that's fair. We talked for an hour and a half, he took a woodland creature's life during the span of that, which I was tempted to charge extra for... So I just put my wages at a random number, $50/hour, and then rounded the concept sketches to fit the rest of my $200 number. I have a degree in art, I have been working in art since 2008. He was consulting me for my creative expertise, not my ability to follow YouTube tutorials. And, so far, I've sunk a total of about 3-4 hours into sketches and Illustrator prototypes... so... the $125 is actually cutting him deal. But, considering I'm not going to give him the digital prototypes, I decided against charging him full price for that. Not sure if that's the right decision.

Again, fun reminder, my one goal for today was to chill and have fun. XD

I ran through about 10 different drafts of texts to send him. I wrote one, but I didn't send it. If anyone reads this and wants to give me their opinion, I'd really appreciate it, but I really don't have expectations. I'm 90% likely going to send it tomorrow, along with the invoice to his email.

"Hey, I wish I could help out with your logo but I don't think I'm the guy for the job. I would recommend seeking out someone local who specializes in fonts and lettering: a sign-maker, a tattooist or a graphic designer would be good leads. You can feel free to use my concept sketches as visual tools for that process if you like, and we can consider this a creative consultation. I'll email an invoice over your way before the night's out. You've got a great concept, I'm excited to see it come to fruition, wish I could help more."

I did everything I could to make sure I did NOT say "I'm sorry" at any point in the message, or explain why I can't do it. That's huge fucking progress for me. Literally any time I have to break news where I feel like that person might get upset or angry, I am fucking profusely apologizing. Even if I didn't do anything wrong. It's like a survival thing, because I'm afraid I'm that messenger in fucking 300 who gets kicked down the well... and I've still got a lot of projects I'd like to complete and beautiful sunsets I'd like to see.

My only hesitation now... and please tell me if I'm being paranoid here... My fucking address is on the invoice. And by address, I mean my exact apartment number. And this guy discharged a .45 caliber handgun with hollowpoint bullets while on the phone with me. And I may likely be upsetting him. So... you know what, let me take this as an opportunity to really do a grounding exercise with this, since I don't think I've done a comprehensive one.

In my head, I am afraid that my former friend... I was a groomsman at his first wedding... is going to be mad that I backed out of designing a logo for his welding company... because I don't do graphic design, I'm a fine artist and craftsman... and I'm afraid that this is going to lead to him showing up at my apartment with a loaded handgun and killing me. Yep. I mean, when I say it out loud, it kinda sounds a bit stupid. Silly. Outrageous. Unlikely. Kinda... like Anton Chigurh in No Country For Old Men. So, am I really afraid this guy is going to somehow get through 2 sets of keyfob electric locks and get me to open my electric-locked door... then commit a violent felony in the dead center of a highly populated apartment building... then just... walk out? Good lord, I think I watched too many movies over the years.

So... yeah, I'm a bit less worried about that now. Funny how like... just writing out your fears in vivid detail can really help make more sense of them. That's a skateboarding thing, too. Like... nosemanuals, that's a big one for me that I'm overcoming right now. I used to love manuals, it was my thing. It's basically like being on a balance board outside, and I used to use balance boards all the time as a kid. But nosemanuals (manuals are "wheelies aka riding on just one set of wheels", nosemanuals are on the front trucks rather than the back ones) have always been super scary. My big fear is always... I'm going to drag my nose and it's going to catch and I'm going to go flying out of control. See, with a manual, you can drag your tail and it doesn't really do anything. If you drag your nose on a nosemanual, your board can just immediately come to a complete stop, but your body just keeps going... which is one of the worst things that can happen to you as a skateboarder, it can completely throw off your ability to control yourself midair and that's where injuries are likely to happen. So it's technically a logical fear. But the reality of it is... you can feel it before it happens. You can feel when your balance goes that far forward, and you can just hop out of it, or if you're going really fast, just tuck and shoulder roll. It's really not that bad at all. And once I really started to process that, and see it in real life? Nosemanuals started to get much less scary. But you really need to spell out your fears on that, say very clearly what you are afraid of with that trick, in order to overcome that.

The general, vague, non-specific fears? Those are the ones that can ruin your life. Because they can worm their way into fucking anything.

So yeah, I think the address on the invoice is fine, I don't think I need to pay for a P.O. Box just because of this. I hope the text is fine, I think it's super generous. I'm actually a little worried I'm shortchanging myself a bit... but whatever. It's money I didn't have and once I get this off my shoulders I can get back to my normal life. In fact, that money can go directly towards a month's rent of an art studio at the collective nearby, and nearly pay for the whole month! That's a good way of looking at it.

So yeah, once I realized I was doing that instead of relaxing... I went to fire up Minecraft. I hadn't sunk into that in a long time. My idea was to potentially... smoke weed and then play Minecraft for a while. I chickened out. I didn't smoke. I've just been too fucking anxious lately, I really didn't want to risk like... hearing bumps from the ceiling and thinking the FBI was knocking at my door or something. That shit is not recreation, it's a living nightmare. It's such a damn shame, I really wish I had a vice for days like today.

I made dinner, ramen and leftover fried rice. I watched skate videos. I prepped tofu for tomorrow, with lessons learned from last time. And... then I played Minecraft. And it was alright, but not what I was craving. I want a creative survival game where I make a home in the wilderness. But... it just wasn't scratching the itch today. I was playing the Valhelsia: Vanilla Expanded modpack, and the second I got in I just went... "I miss Dynamic Trees". And I tried to add it... but it's not compatible. And that was a big sad moment. I love feeling like the world around me is alive in a game like that. And Dynamic Trees (and other mods like it) was really good at that. All the plant life was constantly subtly changing, but the terrain topology stayed the same. So... I'm not sure what to do about that.

I ended up quitting and playing Session for a while. And now here I am.

So... day 2 of having the sole goal of having a chill fun day... and then I end up doing stressful work and only relaxing for like an hour. And lots of rain and thunderstorms both days too. Lame.

Welp, here's hoping to succeed tomorrow, I guess. Next art project is going to be clothing art, my beige pants are going to get a deer head on them, and likely a fox on the other side if I have a good orange.

If there's one thing I got out of this whole reconnection with that former friend experience? It's a reconnection with my deep love and admiration of foxes. And I am deeply driven to add in fox imagery to all kinds of work right now.

I want to do pieces that are like... a scrapbook of my memories of this place. And a lot of it has been animals. So... I was thinking my helmet could be a collage of these. I want to do the blue jay that used to visit my feeder every dawn, and a fox for this unfortunate lost soul. So... tapping into spirit animals through capturing memories, and what those memories mean to me... and bringing those memories to life through my art. I think it's a very beautiful thing... and a way I haven't really thought of animal spirits before. I always sorta thought of them in like a... conceptual... abstract... almost god-like way. Like "I'm channeling the fox-spirit, the qualities of a fox." And that kinda feels sometimes like "I'm channeling the human-spirit, the qualities of a human." And this other approach, is much more... individual. There's much more of a visceral meaning to it. Kinda like drawing a portrait of a specific person you admire, as a tribute to those qualities they embody to you... this would be a drawing of a specific animal, and the qualities it embodied and the impact it had on me. So... the same totemic symbology, but with much more individual specificity.

Oh my god, I can't believe I almost finished this without mentioning. I saw a squirrel outside my window earlier today (I live like 20-25 feet up) and it was just running around on the branches of a tree just like... grabbing leaves and tugging on them, then carrying them in its mouth. And I had never seen this before, at first I thought it was looking for some kind of specific seed pod or fruit or something? But then I saw clearly that it was gathering leaves. And I just connected the dots and went... "wait... is it making a nest? Do squirrels do that?" And I looked it up and sure enough... this squirrel is making a big leaf nest directly across from my window! It's about 6 feet higher than my window, but it's right there. :) That means there are going to be babies! Maybe. It made me so excited. I have a new neighbor! She looks pretty young, and she doesn't seem to notice or mind me hanging out by the window and watching her work. I'm so glad I have nature right here out my window, if I didn't I really don't know if I'd last here.

Okay, I think that's about it. I put off yoga until now, so I'm gonna go do that and take a nice shower and call it an early night.

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CONGRATULATIONS, ALLY! your role of ROSS LYNCH has been accepted and we’re happy to welcome you to GONE HOLLYWOOD! now that your application has been accepted, here are a few things that you should do and we’re looking forward to seeing you on the dash!

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NAME/ALIAS: Ally

AGE: 29

TIME ZONE: CST

PRONOUNS: She/Her

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IC:

PREFERRED CELEBRITY: Ross Shor Lynch 

BACKUP CELEBRITY: Joseph Adam Jonas 

CELEBRITIES GENDER: male

CELEBRITIES PRONOUNS: He/Him

AGE & BIRTHDAY: 27 - December 29, 1995 

CAREER: musician & actor

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WANTED CONNECTIONS: Any of the Lynch siblings: Rocky, Ryland, Riker, Rydel. Jaz Sinclair, Kiernan Shipka, Chance Perdomo, Olivia Holt, Courtney Eaton, Alex Wolff, Maia Mitchell, Laura Marano, Raini Rodriguez, Calum Worthy 

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MISC: Ross is single, no kids. Since he’s my first, he’ll be a main blog (if accepted, of course!) I’m looking forward to writing with you guys!  :) 

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Oscar Micheaux - First Black Film maker

Oscar Micheaux, the country's first major Black filmmaker, was a true pioneer of his time. Throughout his filmmaking career, he wrote and directed a total of 43 movies, which included 27 silent films and 16 sound features. Though not all of them were successful, some were so controversial that they were banned from theatres. Operating in the first half of the 20th century, Micheaux was committed to depicting contemporary Black life and complex characters in his films, countering the negative on-screen portrayal of Blacks at the time. His travels took him from Southern Illinois to the West, South America, and Europe, and his work and art brought him to live in Sioux City's West 7th Street neighbourhood.

Born in 1884, Micheaux had tried his hand at several vocations before embarking on a film career. After moving to Chicago from a small Illinois town at 17 years old, he shined shoes and worked in the meatpacking and steel industries before landing a job as a porter for the American railway system. This stable job allowed him to travel, save money, and make connections with wealthy people who later helped finance his films.

In 1904, Micheaux moved to South Dakota and became a successful homesteader amid a predominantly blue-collar white population. The government's Homestead Act allowed citizens to acquire a free plot of land to farm, but discrimination kept many Blacks from pursuing a homestead. Micheaux began writing about his experiences on the frontier, submitting articles to the press as well as writing novels. After setting up his own film and book publishing company, Michaeux released The Homesteader in 1919, a silent black-and-white film that featured a Black man who enters a rocky marriage with a Black woman played by the pioneering African American actress Evelyn Preer. The film received critical acclaim for depicting realistic relationships between Black and white people, with one critic calling it a "historic breakthrough, a creditable, dignified achievement."

Micheaux followed up his successful production with his second film, Within Our Gates (1920), seeking to challenge the heavy-handed racist stereotypes shown in D.W. Griffith's film The Birth of a Nation. In his films, the first by a Black American to be shown in white movie theatres, Micheaux portrayed racial injustice suffered by Black Americans, delving into topics such as lynching, job discrimination, and mob violence. Given the restrictions of the time, Micheaux's prolific career was ground-breaking.

Micheaux died in 1951 at the age of 67 while on a business trip, but his legacy lived on. Not only did his work empower African Americans and help break stereotypes, but it also influenced other filmmakers. Spike Lee, John Singleton, and Melvin VanPeebles often credit Micheaux as one of their greatest influences and as a true film pioneer. Today, Micheaux is recognized as a man ahead of his time, whose films challenged negative portrayals of Black people and contributed to the progress of the film industry.

HR - ( naacp.org. (n.d.). Oscar Micheaux | NAACP. [online] Available at: https://naacp.org/find-resources/history-explained/civil-rights-leaders/oscar-micheaux#:~:text=Micheaux%20used%20his%20films%2C%20the.)

HR - (Oscar (2016). Sioux City Public Museum. [online] Sioux City Public Museum. Available at: https://www.siouxcitymuseum.org/history-website/micheaux-oscar#:~:text=Not%20only%20did%20Micheaux.)

HR - (Chester J. Fontenot. “Oscar Micheaux, Black Novelist and Film Maker” Vision and Refuge: Essays on the Literature of the Great Plains. University of Nebraska Press, 1982, pp. 109-25.)

HR - ( Musser, C., Gaines, J.M. and Bowser, P. (2016). Oscar Micheaux and His Circle: African-American Filmmaking and Race Cinema of the Silent Era. [online] Google Books. Indiana University Press. Available at: https://books.google.co.uk/books?hl=en&lr=&id=npbBCwAAQBAJ&oi=fnd&pg=PP1&dq=oscar+micheaux&ots=qFp32hiXsE&sig=ccRp1NwAGbEvhA0V1ovw7ib3o2w&redir_esc=y#v=onepage&q=oscar%20micheaux&f=false)

[country-corner]

So honestly, you do think that a civil break up can be negotiated with people like I heard on the Shortwave who is on the other side politically. People who don't care if you are Asian, Black, Hispanic, Middle Eastern, White, Gay or Straight but as long as you are to the right of them, they want you dead.

As I have asked before, and no one wanted to answer, how do you expect to Divorce or Split the country without dividing the Nation literally down the middle and having to mass moving people from one side of the Country to the other? There will be people from both ends of the political spectrum who will not want to move from land that has been in their family for generations. There will be people who will not want to move from family, even if they disagree politically. There will be people who for generations grew up in a certain geographical area (Appalachia, Bayou, Rocky Mountains, Great Plains, ect...) and don't want to move. What then; force them to move? Make them take a loyalty oath and not speak about their political beliefs? Boils down to people would be forced to move or fight ---- Civil War.

And if it's just let the Red States for one country and Blue States form the other, how would you work the few isolated State (that would happen) from the other similar ideological States? Tell them screw you and live as an island? Force them to change ideology to the surrounding States? Forced moving of those who don't agree with the surrounding States? Again Civil War.

What about the States where half leans more Liberal and half leans more Conservative (which describes more than 2/3 of the States). Split the State into 2 new States? Tell them screw, you you are now all Red or all Blue and keep your mouth shut on you political beliefs? What would you do? Negotiate with the guy on the Shortwave who wants anyone to the right of him dead?

What about the existing military personnel? Bases? Equipment? Who gets the nuclear weapons?

Would you leave the Constitution as is? Go back to what it was when originally written? Write a new one to remove what you don't like or add something you want? Can't even get enough people from Red States, let alone Blue States who will agree on a Convention of States to write a new constitution currently. A few States who have voted in the past for a Convention of States have rescinded their call. How do you expect to pull that one out of the bag?

There are people on both ends of the political spectrum itching for a fight and will use any excuse to start a shooting war on American soil.

As for your hyperbole:

"Basically if you vote democrat or oppose national divorce you hate black people and want to make them easier to lynch and put them back in the fields. Vote to keep the union together to lynch all the gays and the blacks."

I know Blacks, Asians, Hispanic, Straight and Gay Conservatives who don't want a National Divorce, so are you saying they want to hang Blacks and gays as well? Or are they just too stupid to know what's best for them (the hyperbole talking point of the Communist)?

Blanket statements like you just said feed upon the Communists, of the mid 20th century, propaganda that Everything is an absolute. It's one way or the other PERIOD. You (generic you) agree with me or you are the enemy.

I have been seeing this my entire life from the Communists and now to see it coming from Conservatives is what's the most scary. Absolutism does nothing except divide. Divides men against women, Divide the races. Divides young and old. Even causes divides within every demographic group you or anyone can come up with.

But, now the diversion from the original post is over. Let me ask you a straight question. If you don't have the answers to the above questions, and even if you do, a National Divorce will be negotiated by politicians, not the farmers, doctors, truck drivers, Soldiers, business men, you or me. Are there enough politicians, on both sides, that you trust who would do a fair division of the US? Do you trust that there will not be someone or groups from either side who would rather start a shooting war to totally kill off the other side and keep all of the US in their political ideology control? How many extremists from both sides of the issue have been trying to start a race war in the US since the 1950's and 60's alone? And if you don't think there isn't someone or a group that will want to start a war instead of divide the US, then you need to take a fresh look at history.

Hear some crazy stuff on the Shortwave radio.

Was listening to the shortwave earlier (I like scanning the World Bands from time to time) and heard a conversation (sounded like a take show of some form). Disclaimer: Not sure where the broadcast was originating from. The person being interviewed was saying that he loved that the White Supremacists, Nazis and Fascist are embracing the idea of a US break up (then laughing said Divorce) finally. But it's not going to work how they think.

(Highlight of a 30+ minute conversation) The freedom loving Democratic States already have the plans drawn up and will make sure to land-lock the Fascist States.... Refuse to let them take from any Democratic State any children into the Fascists States.... Any flight in or out will be shot down.... Cut off or destroy all energy, oil or gas production or supply line to the Fascists States.... Finally, if they try to leave their border they will be shot on sight, like every Nazi in the world needs to be.

Sounds to me like at least one side who wants a National Divorce has been making plans on how they want it to work out.

But that doesn't matter, it will lead to a Civil War, plain and simple. Causing hundreds of thousands if not million+ of deaths on both sides. Not just from the fighting, but from food and medication shortages. If the guy on the Shortwave was even half right in his claims then there will be people also dying of cold in the winter time.

Whether this guy was speaking the truth (as he knew it) or just blowing hot air out of his pipe dreams, if you are for a National Divorce do you honestly think you can negotiate a civil split of the States with people like this? Do you honestly think that a split can happen without a Civil War breaking out?

The scary thing is I have heard people on the right, who want a National Divorce, calling for Conservative States to do to the Communist States practically the same thing. So are they the good guys for calling for the same atrocities that the other side is calling for?

[ilovethewayyoulovemelikethat]

Always Together (Slight Sexual Content)

Type: One Shot | Imagine about Rocky Rating: Rated R for slight sexual content Word Count: 2,688 Enjoy! I stood in line as I waited to get my ticket. I just wanted to go down town to meet up with my boyfriend. It seemed like it took forever but I finally got my ticket and I was on the train. It was about a three hour ride and it seemed like the last 30 minutes lasted forever. I finally got off the train, pulling my jacket closer as the breeze started to pick up. I could see him pulling up in the parking lot, I ran towards his car. He got out holding his arms open for me as I embraced him. He squeezed me tight in his arms as I wrapped my arms around his neck. It had been way to long since I've been with him, I just loved being in his arms. He pulled away slightly tilting my chin up kissing my lips slightly. I smiled against his lips as I kept the kiss between us, keeping my grip on him. He finally pulled away from me, opening the car door for me. He took my bags and placed them into the trunk before returning to the driver seat. I closed my door pulling the seat belt around me, he started the car allowing the heat to warm us up. I grabbed his hand lacing our fingers together as he started to drive. He focused on the road driving back to his dorm. I undid my seat belt as he got out of the car grabbing my bag out of the trunk. He opened the door for me, reaching for my hand. I grabbed his hand as he helped me out of the car, we started walking the hallways. We stopped at his room, he opened his door allowing me to enter first. His roommate was away for the weekend so I had Rocky all to myself. "All to our selves" I smiled. "Yea, you are all mine" he smiled. "I'm sure you love that" I placed my arm around his neck. "Whenever I can have you to myself" he smirked as he leaned down peeking my lips slightly. I gripped his sides as I looked up at him. Standing on my tippy toes kissing his lips softly, his hand against my neck. He leaned his forehead against mine as he pulled away. I looked up at him, knowing it was just him and I was the best feeling. Every since we finished high school life has gotten crazy, and we didn’t have much time for us. Someone how we still made it work, I guess our love was strong enough. He moved his hands down my sides gripping my hips in his hands. I smiled as I looked at him, I couldnt believe that he was actually in front of me. It was the longest 6 months of my life, being away from him it was like a piece of my heart was missing. "I love you" he wiped his thumb over my lips. "I love you" I smiled at his touch. "Im sure you have had a long day, want to get some rest?" he asked. "Sure" I nodded. I took off my jacket laying it over my bag, slipping my shoes and pants off before getting into bed. He smiled as he watched me get ready for bed, slipping his pants off. He made his way over to the bed turning the light off, climbing into bed. I snuggled right up to him resting my head on his chest as he pulled the covers over us. He held me close to him through the night, it wasnt until morning when he let go. He slipped out of bed making his way down to the cafe. I was still asleep when he returned with breakfast, he sat down on the bed rubbing my leg slightly. "Wake up sleppy head" he spoke softly. "I dont wanna" I groaned as I turned over. "I got breakfast babe" he smiled as he watched me. "Fine" I sighed as I sat up in the bed. He handed me my breakfast and my coffee. We sat on his bed eating breakfast together, trying to make plans for today. We had no idea what we wanted to do today. As long as I was with him it didn't matter what we did. It was still summer time so we finally decided to go to the pool. There was one close to campus. After I ate my breakfast, I opened my bag going through my things. I finally pulled out my blue bikini and shorts, I went into the bathroom to change. He had finished eating his breakfast by the time I returned to the room. "I forgot how beautiful you are" his eyes wandered over my body. "Why thank you" I grinned. "I'll get ready and then we can go, " he smiled. "Alright babe" I leaned over to kiss him softly. I pulled my hair up in a bun as he got ready. He grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers as we left his room. I followed him to where the pool was, there wasn't many people here. School didn't start for at least another week, Rocky just chooses to stay here instead of coming home. I placed my bag down at a table as I pulled my shorts off. He pulled his top off, reaching for my hand. I grabbed his hand moving towards him, he rested his hands on my hips. I could tell what he was trying to do. I placed my hand on the back of his neck, gently gripping it as he moved us towards the water. He tried to throw me in but I pushed him in. He crashed into the water soon coming up for air. I stood there laughing as he started to swim towards me. He splashed me with water as he started to laugh. I sat down on the edge, allowing my feet to go into the water. He swam up to me, placing his hands on my legs pulling me in. "Hey" I said as I came up for air. "You had it coming" he wrapped his arms around me. "Maybe" I rested my hands on his shoulders. I stayed close to him as he pressed me against the wall. I wrapped my legs around him as he kept his arms on my sides. I peeked his lips lightly, making him smile. He placed his hand on my chin gently titling it as he leaned in allowing his lips to linger against mine. I smiled into the kiss as I moved slightly allowing our lips to meet. He gently tugged at my bottom lip, he know how that drove me crazy. I rested my forehead against his as I pulled away from the kiss. "Why do you do that?" I asked. "What?" he smirked know exactly what I was talking about. "Drive me crazy" I bite my lip as I looked at him. "Because I love watching you squirm" he smiled. "I know how to tease you too, remember that" I said. "I know, " he kissed my lips softly. "Good, I know your weakness" I smirked. "I know, " he kept his hand against my chin. "Can I ask you something?" I looked at him. "Sure" He nodded. "Why didn't you want to come home?" I asked. "Because this is the only week I have free" he responded. "Oh, " I nodded as I looked down. "Don't think I don't want to come home and spend time with you because I do" he tilted my chin up. "I just thought it would be better if you came down, I'm sorry" he spoke softly. "Ok babe" I looked at him. We stayed in the pool for a while, until we both got hungry. I pulled myself out of the pool, grabbing my towel. I dried off as much as I could, he did the same as he got out of the pool. I slipped my shorts on as he put his shirt on, sliding my shoes on before grabbing his hand. I thought we were going back to his dorm, but he had other plans. We started walking downtown, the sun was sitting so the view was breath taking. He kept his grip onto my hand as we finally got to the restaurant. It was a small local restaurant, nothing too fancy since we were still in our bathing suits. He grabbed us a table, allowing me to sit down first. He slide in right beside me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I looked over the menu and everything looked good. I was stumped, I didn't know what to get, but it was clear he knew what he wanted. "What's good here?" I finally asked. "Shrimp, pizza, pretty much anything you see, " he nodded. "Oh ok" I smiled as I looked at him. "What?" he questioned. "Nothing, just happy to be here" I turned my attention back to the menu. "I don't want you to go, " he pouted. "I have a few days" I placed my hand onto his leg. "I know, " he said. We finally ordered our food and drinks. We sat in the booth just talking about things, catching up really. Our food finally arrived to our table things got quiet for a little while. He got up after we ate and paid for our meal, I waited for him at the door. He walked past me opening the door for me, I walked out behind him. He grabbed my hand as we started to walk back to the dorm, this was beautifully but also very quiet. I could tell something was on his mind, but I also knew the same thing was on mine. We finally made it back to his dorm. I sat on his bed as he closed the door behind us, we both were quiet. We stayed in for the rest of the night just cuddling on his bed watching movies on his laptop. I leaned up slightly peeking his cheek softly. I ended up falling asleep against him, he did the same. In the morning I woke up before him and I just watched him sleep peacefully. "Wake up sleepy head" I rubbed his chest. "What?" he groaned as he rubbed his eyes. "Morning babe" I said. "Oh morning" he sat up in his bed. "Are you ok?" I questioned. "Yeah​ im ok babe" he leaned over kissing me softly. I kept the kiss between us as he moved me onto his lap. I placed my hand against his neck, his hands gripping my hips. I deepened the kiss slightly, his hands sliding up my sides. He pushed my shirt up removing it from my body, throwing it down on the ground. I tugged on his shirt as I placed my lips back against his. He took his shirt off also tossing it on the ground, placing his hand against my chin. He pushed his hips up turning me onto my back against the bed. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he moved between my legs. I ran my hand down his chest playing with his button on his pants. He leaned down kissing me softly as he started to push my shorts down. I lifted my hips slightly allowing him to remove my shorts, I started to undo his pants. He got up from the bed removing his pants, he got back over me leaning down kissing me softly. He used his knees to spread my legs out more as he rested between my legs. He slipped his hand between my legs, rubbing his thumb against my clit. I let out a moan as I ached my back, begging for his touch. He replaced his hand with his tip, rubbing it along my slit allowing it to get wet. We stayed tangled up in the bed for most of the day, just enjoying each others bodies. "Maybe we should go get something to eat" he tried to catch his breath. "Yeah​ we should" I smiled. We finally got dressed and went out into the real world. It was nearly dinner time when we finally left the dorm. We just got take out food and found place on the beach to sit and eat. The sun was sitting and once again it was beautiful, especially with the water reflection. He wrapped his arm around me as I rested my head against his shoulder. "This is beautiful" I said. "It is" he agreed. "Are we going to be ok?" I asked. "Of course we are babe" he rubbed my arm. "Its going to suck when I have to leave" I pouted. "I know babe but we will make it" he nodded slightly. "I love you Rocky" I played with his hand. "And I love you babe" he pressed a kiss into my forehead. We spent the rest of the week doing things together. Swimming in the ocean, plus going to the zoo and getting ice cream. I could say it was one of the best weeks I had and that was because I was with him. That Sunday came all too soon and I didn't really want to leave, I had gotten use to sleeping next to him. I packed my stuff back into my bag as he sat on the bed, he didn't want me to leave either. "Do you have to go?" he asked. "I dont have a place to stay or a job, it would take a while before I could move down here" I said. "I know that, I just hate being away from you" he said. "I know and I hate being away from you" I sat next to him. "Maybe we can do this once or twice a month?" he asked. "We will see" I nodded. I finished packing my things and he took me to the train station. I bought a ticket as he walked with me to my station. I hugged him close to me not wanting to let go. He kept his grip on me until the very last second. I finally pulled away from him and got onto the train, he waited until the door closed until he left the station. Things got crazy in our lives, but we always made it through, I hated being away from him. I also knew the holidays were coming up and he would be coming home to them. It had been a few weeks since I last saw him, we would always talk on the phone and Facetime. "What's wrong?" he asked over the phone. "Nothing, " I said. "I know you baby, what's going on?" he asked. "Rocky we need to talk, " I said. "Ok, what about?" he asked. "I'm pregnant" I took a deep breath in waiting for his response. "Don't be scared, I'll hop on a train and be there in a few ok?" he said. "It's ok, I'm ok baby. I just want to know what we are going to do" I said. "Do you want to keep it?" he asked. "I would love to but with our situation its complicated" I said. "We will figure it out, I love you, " he said. "I love you, " I said before hanging up the phone. To be honest, I was terrified and didn't know what to do. He had over 2 years of school left and now throwing a baby into the mix. I knew our lives would just get crazier, but I also knew everything would work out. As crazy as that seemed to say, I knew our love was strong enough to make it through this. He came home for the holidays plus anything to do with my pregnancy. After the holiday season he didn't go back to school that was so far away, he transferred closer to home. Of course I loved that because I could spend all the time I wanted with him. It's crazy how life sometimes works, but I knew we would always be together.

[clumsyclifford]

so i’ve lurked on ur blog for a while for the atl content but seeing that you’ve been appreciating ross lynch felt like my worlds colliding. also saw in the tags of ur last reply you’ve been listening to louder by r5 and lemme tell you. r5 was like the first band i was ever genuinely in love with. i was literally like 11 and bought louder the day after it was released. proceeded to have r5 consume like three years of my life. i saw them live Four Times as r5 (the last time being back in 2016 when i met them. gah i can’t believe it’s been that long). i was supposed to see the driver era last april before the world shut down. anyways seeing you appreciating ross and the rest of r5 just felt like very opposite interests of mine coming together. and i know so much useless info about that band. also sometime last night is def the superior r5 album, louder holds a place in my heart solely for the nostalgia but it definitely is not a like. amazing album for me at this point oops lmao. BUT the bonus track wishing i was 23 is my fav off of it!! and some of the last stuff they did as r5 (the new addictions ep & their Last Ever Single, hurts good) shows their growth and u could tell they had a lot more control over their music at that point. and what ross & rocky have been doing as the driver era is also really good!! anyways i appreciate ur blog and ur blog appreciating the first fandom i was ever part of. and i’m always excited to talk about how proud i am about how far ross & rocky have come with their music. apologies for dumping all of this here but. u talking about ross & r5 & the driver era made me v excited.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M VERY EXCITED THAT YOU’RE HERE TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ROSS LYNCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn okay you are IN IT i respect the hell out of that also this ask made me realize i stopped listening to louder literally in the middle of a song so i’ve now come back to it and one last dance is just finishing and wow this song is pretty????? anyway i got into driver era during quarantine times but i would LOVEEEEEEEE to see them live now i fucking love ross’s current vibes he’s like if a frat boy and a philosopher had a kid. i can’t really explain that but i stand by it

yeah well i’m only listening to louder because it’s their first album and when i want to get into a new artist i try to listen more or less in chronological order? but i’ve heard a few songs from sometime last night which i really enjoyed and i can also def see how this album (louder) is like.......it’s really fun but i wouldn’t say it’s super profound. like it’s pop music! and i really love it! and it has ross lynch singin on it!! that’s all i have to say about it !!!! that’s all you need sometimes :) i am looking forward to getting deeper into the discography and hearing the more recent stuff because even just from like the album art it seems like they did have more control or at least that they just grew and matured and that’s always sexy to see. i’ll keep you posted i don’t know when i’ll listen to sometime last night cos new music always a little difficult especially these days like this is the first new music ive listened to in maybe a week 

you KNOW WHAT. wishing i was 23 is not on spotify. what the fuck kinda CRIME???? why would they release a deluxe version of the album but not include the bonus tracks!! so maybe if i get around to listening to it on youtube or something ill let you know

however i am REALLY into the driver era (actually i have @cakelftv and @glitterblazercalum to thank for getting me into them but man am i glad they did) can i ask what your favorites are anon!! at the moment mine are preacher man, scared of heights, a kiss ?? i think? and welcome to the end of your life?? yeah

anyway i appreciate YOU coming here to validate my ross lynch infatuation i’m so glad that austin & ally has brought us together anon it really is all thanks to me just binge watching the whole show in about two and a half days also if you wanna drop more r5-related information i am always open to hearing about it i just watched both of rydel’s sibling tag videos that was some good good shit god i love the relationship the five of them have (i know ryland wasnt in r5 but like. you get me you know what i mean)

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[rock-y-myworld]

Start Again Ch. 7

“I’m fine, really,” I say looking at my parents who sit on the other side of the hospital room. “It’s just a small cut-“

“You will definitely need stitches.” The doctor on call says walking into the room and slides the curtain divider shut behind him.

I groan and look down at the side of my arm that I guess I hit off the side of the table in the hallway. I don’t remember what happened before my seizure, and after. I just woke up on the floor and my dad told Claire not to move me. “This isn’t your first seizure I see.”

“Nope,” I say with a sigh. I look down at my phone and see 4 texts from Rocky, but I never had the chance to text him back.

“After looking at your charts I’m going to send you to a neurologist in the area.” The doctor says causing me to furrow my eyebrows.

“Why? They’re just a few seizures.”

“Because this isn’t just seizures from the TBI, it is posttraumatic epilepsy.”  

Tears slowly started to fill my eyes and ended up like puddles on my lap. He writes down some names in the area and says he will send a referral to the best one in town.

I look down at the nurse stitching up the side of my arm, “Take it easy these next couple of days.” I nod my head wiping the tears away and let out a shaky sigh.

“They said with some tests and medicine changes you’ll be back to yourself in no time,” Dad says squeezing my knee. The nurse wraps my arm and says to come back in ten days to get the stiches out.

“I just want to be normal again,” I say grabbing my purse and walk out of the small room and into the busy ER. I walk into the waiting room and see a familiar face in one of the chairs. Rocky looks up and relief spread across his face.

“Are you okay?” Rocky asks standing up and instantly pulling me in close. I shake my head no letting the tears flow free now. His arms tighten around me and he presses a kiss against my head. I tighten my arms around him as I hear my mom say I should get to bed it’s late. I shake my head no and sob into Rocky’s chest.

“I’ll drive her home.” Rocky says brushing his fingers through my messy hair, “I’ll bring her right home. I’ll take care of her.”

“Okay, the door will be unlocked.” My dad says behind me.

Rocky’s P.O.V:

I take the long way to El’s house and look over at her as I stop at a red-light. She was sound asleep leaning against the door, her head resting against the window. I look at the clock as it reads 3:00 AM as I pull into her driveway. Her dad walks out of the front door, Flynn following him anxiously. I turn off my lights and car before getting out.

I make my way to the passenger side. I slowly open the door making sure she doesn’t fall out and lean over and unbuckle her. “Rocky.” She whispers as I put my arm around her legs, and one around her waist.

“Yeah, El,” I ask as I walk towards the open door and down the hall towards her bedroom.

“Will you stay for a bit?” She mumbles against my chest.

“Of course,” I say as I nudge her bedroom door open and hear Flynn’s paws against the wood floors of the hallway. I set El gently down on her bed and slide off her Birkenstocks and pull the covers over her.

I slip my sneakers and socks off before crawling onto her queen size bed. Her bed had too many pillows and many blankets. I was surprised she was cold here since she grew up in Maine, but I remember her telling me she was always cold. I chuckle at how cute that was as I pull the cover’s over myself.

Eleanor instantly curls into my side and rests her head on my chest. Flynn jumps onto the bed and curls up on the other side of her, resting his head on her hip.

“She’s okay Flynn.” I say rubbing his head, “She’s okay.”

Hey guys! Sorry, it’s been so long, had to help with the funeral that was last weekend so I off social media for a bit and not really writing. I am back and the semester is over. Next week I have knee surgery but have been falling back in love with Eleanor and Rocky. x