#Revalus rambles

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Arthur omg please can we talk about him?

New mutuals where are you about this fine man

[raccoon-in-a-dumpster]

btw if my ideas are stupid u guys have to tell me

[ashiekitten]

i talk about something and wanting some sort of like advice or at least something to make me feel better then its like well think about or maybe its this and then you hit me with “you gotta do this yourself” what the hell

[talesofthedm]

List of ships I have and why (companions only):

Wyll x Karlach: wyll is a hopeless romantic and Karlach just wants soft relationship and I think she'd help him with the new horns and he'd help her reexperience all the intimacy and soft relationships she missed during her time in Avernus and also I want a dance scene with them here he tries to teach her without actually touching her. It would be some of Wylls most cherished memories, even after she dies and it takes him a while to move on and she's forever the one who got away because he couldn't bring himself to send her back to Avernus cuz it's the one wish she had and now I'm sad writing this

Lae'zel x Shadowheart (short term): they would not be a healthy (romantic) relationship in the long term. But I feel like they force all the pent up emotions about all the bullshit they're experiencing out of each other and by extent help each other process it. Ultimately they figure that out and just kinda part ways romantically, but the understanding makes them lifelong friends.

Lae'zel x Gale: he'd reach out to her in that awkward 'idk what to say or do because I don't deal with people but I know how you feel' kinda way after the creche. She just tolerates him as he rambles about special interests and maybe answers questions about the astral sea and the gith as she opens up more. They kinda bond over the realization that their respective gods are both assholes and that each other are worth more than they were originally led to believe.

Shadowheart x Halsin (later life): idk if they'd be long term, but I like the idea what after shadowheart is forced to revaluate her beliefs and faith and ultimately herself and place in the world that Halsin is just a kind shoulder and he helps her rediscover herself and what it is to have healthy relationships without expectations and also she gets to climb mount Halsin but that's a later thing.

Astarion x Halsin: Idk if it would be long term, but the two would def help each other through their respective traumas and at minimum always mean the world to each other even if they decide to pursue it as a friendship and not a romantic interest and Astarion would help Halsin realize self care and it's okay to be selfish sometimes and Halsin would help him understand that he can find fulfillment in helping others

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He’s a guilty pleasure I can’t admit too because I tell myself it’s a lie 😭

WHERE ARE THE OTHER PATHETIC SOLOMON KISSERS I REFUSE TO BELIVE IM ALONE IN THIS WORLD

[stevesbipanic]

Under the Tree

Finally my contribution for @thefreakandthehair spicy six winter challenge. This was a lot of fun, my prompt was “Um, I got you something.” / “You got me something?” Hope you enjoy!

The first Christmas after the defeat of Vecna was an important one. It was the first Christmas that they didn’t have to worry about seeing flickering lights or brandishing weapons. The kids could be kids, and the adults could be too.

Steve Harrington could count on one hand the number of good Christmas’ he could remember. He assumed that the Christmas’ before he was 5 were adequate enough, but, the year he turned 5 he remembers his mother baking gingerbread with him and his dad playing basketball with him out on the driveway Christmas morning. They never would again. When he was 19, he spent Christmas with the Buckley’s. It was a warm Christmas filled with love and laughter; one he’ll treasure forever. This year, age 20, Steve hopes to add another good Christmas to his collection.

Joyce insisted on hosting, and no one was going to tell her no. After all, the Hopper-Byers now lived in a beautiful house just on the edge of the woods, you could bike to Hopper’s old cabin which had now been turned into a sort of club house for the kids, Hellfire was regularly held there now that Eddie had graduated. Steve had spent all of November getting gifts for his family, not his parents, he hadn’t heard from them since they sold the house and moved to Washington after the earthquake. No, his real family, he spent weeks making sure everyone got the perfect gift. He had had to hide Robin’s gift at Dustin’s now that he shared an apartment with her and was quite the snoop, not that Steve minded, he liked how intertwined their lives were. He had thought of hiding it at Nancy’s new place, but she had become less tight-lipped about secrets since her and Robin had gotten together.

That was another new thing, Robin and Nancy, the two who fell together so perfectly after everything that happened. Steve was the least surprised, when they told him he’d claimed it made sense due to him having great taste in women, they knew he was joking. Steve knew because he could see how well the two of the complimented each other. Nancy was patient and happy to listen and let Robin work through a problem by rambling. Robin was supportive but tough when it came to both Nancy’s goals but also her health. They had both taken gap years to revaluate their goals and desires while also taking a well-deserved break. The future could wait another year for them to have time to heal hidden wounds.

Steve was glad there was no bad blood between them and Jonathan, they’d all repaired their relationships over the years, figuring out platonic and romantic loves and wants, Steve could call Jonathan his brother (he was suspicious that Joyce had filled out adoption papers somewhere) and let old demons lie. With Jonathan had come Argyle, someone Steve didn’t know how the party went so long without. Argyle was a steadying presence, reminding them that they’re not defined by what happened to them and telling deep truths, usually high but the fact still stood. Steve was glad the two of them had each other, he could see years of emotional weight be lifted off Jon’s shoulders whenever Argyle was around.

Even the kids had matured, and not just in the way that trauma matures someone. Steve could see them let go of childish desires like the first love romance between Mike and El that grew into more a relationship like Steve and Nancy, stronger as friends. Dustin still called Suzie every weekend but Steve knew they both had a good head on their shoulders, he liked to think any kid that came from them would probably solve all the world’s problems in a day. Lucas and Max had worked so much on their communication, understanding each other’s needs now more than ever.

Maybe it’s why Steve had spent so long making sure they all had the perfect gift. A small part of Steve that still held doubt, a grain of doubt so rooted inside of him from childhood that it may never leave. The part of him that worried about being forgotten and left behind, the part of him that drove him to always be useful. He’d gotten high with Eddie in the first week of December and poured his heart out to him about it, Eddie hadn’t said anything in reply, he hadn’t needed to, Steve could see in his eyes they shared the same fears.

Eddie’s gift had been the most important, for reasons Steve could only confront in the safety of his own apartment, huddled under blankets with Robin late at night. Reasons that simultaneously made him feel whole and completely exposed. In the end the gift had been a mixtape, a perfect blend of their music tastes woven together with Steve telling Eddie about how the songs make him feel, about life, about Eddie, ending with his final confession. Steve hopes he doesn’t hear it until he gets home.

The party is in full swing, it had snowed the night before leaving plenty of soft snow to play in, distracting the kids from asking about presents until after dinner. They had all gathered around the tree, slowly but surely passing out gifts. Hugs and thanks were shared amongst the group, Steve felt his heart fill with warmth with every piece of gratitude or handmade card sent his way. Eddie’s eyes had twinkled when he’d read the tape’s description as being “Eddie’s Mix”, a promise for later dancing across his features. Paper picked up and clothes changed, the kids had settled in front of the television with mattress’ pulled from every room. Joyce and Hopper had retired with promises of making breakfast in the morning. The remaining two couples had either joined the kids or disappeared for their own festive celebration, leaving only Eddie and Steve finishing the dishes in the kitchen.

“So, a mix tape, Stevie? Do I have to worry about an hour long “Last Christmas” brainwashing?”

Steve had laughed putting away the last plate, Eddie had come over to help wrap presents and Steve’s record had gotten caught on the same track, they both nearly lost their minds.

“I can’t promise no Wham! but I think Last Christmas has had enough of a turn this year, Eds.”

Eddie smiled and took the edge of Steve’s sweater in his hands, grabbing a blanket and leading Steve out onto the porch. The two boys sat in the cold, huddled together under the blanket, listening to the quiet of the woods. The quiet brought them so much peace, no calls for help, no creatures to go bump in the night, just them and their heartbeats.

“Um, I got you something.”

“You got me something?” 

Eddie chuckled, ��Of course I did, sweetheart, just didn’t want to put it with the rest of the gifts, didn’t think it would fit.”

Steve raised an eyebrow at this, “What is it?”

Eddie looked nervous now, slowly he pulled off one of his rings, it was one of the simpler ones. Steve always thought it stood out against the skulls and horror of the others. A small black stone set in silver, vines slicing through the metal. Eddie took Steve’s hand and slid the ring onto his finger.

“You always play with this one when you’re upset about something, figured it’d be better if you had it even when I wasn’t around.”

Steve felt seen, Eddie had comforted him through a lot after March, offering words and touch and even his ring to make Steve feel better.

“Eddie. Thank you.”

“Of course, Stevie.”

“But wait, how couldn’t this fit under the tree?”

“Well, there’s a second part to it, if you want it.”

Steve had missed many things in his life, but he didn’t miss the question in Eddie’s eyes.

“I’d really like the rest of my gift, Eddie.”

Eddie leant in slowly, still giving Steve the opportunity to move away, to say no, to leave Eddie behind. Steve didn’t though, he was never going to leave Eddie behind, would never forget him. Their lips touched, cold from the night air, and it felt like the final puzzle slotting into place. Eventually, they pulled away, just enough to catch their breath, foreheads still touching.

“Yeah, you would’ve looked weird with a bow on your head under the tree.”

“Maybe next year I’ll do it just for you.”

Steve smiled, he couldn’t wait for next year, and every year after that he got to spend with Eddie.

[phantomrose96]

Hello sorry to barge in with the word vomit/ramble, just wanted to let you know that god. Oh my god. You dont know how many things you’ve uncovered in me.

I started reading like, yesterday afternoon due to an animation for this fic, dreading over the word-count. I thought I could just read a little to catch a grasp of the fic, then put it to the side when my interest dies, and then 12 hours of reading happened and now I’m sitting awake at 1 AM wondering what the fuck happened to my emotions.

Cause?? I just?? Adored it so much?? The writing is such an experience to read, you just nail every single detail that just immerses me into the current scene or event. The amount of details picked and imbedded are just enough to fully paint a picture while also not overwhelming me with information. It was a Joy to read, and shone whenever a revaluation and/or breakdown happens to a character (no plural, we know all know which one). The tension parts always shakes me over with anxiety (like the teru v ritsu 2, one of my favorites), the tiny and wholesome moments are so well described too?? You know what’s happening and you know your heart it not coming out unscathed but nope, you sit there and take the pain as now the characters are allowed a sense of comfort and you realize how much they needed it after watching their lives turn into a slow motion titanic scene.

AND THE CHARACTERS, the characterization is immaculate I swear. Its so different from what I’m used to in the best ways plus more. I love how mob is just a confused kid trying his best and reigen is just Some Guy who managed to completely tear down (or breach-) the emotional walls of every Kageyama kid in sight and just?? Let them know he’s there for them?? Let them be kids?? His interactions with Ritsu is so tragic cause Reigen will just not let go of the fact that Ritsu is fucking thirteen and does not need this much stress condensed in him (god bless burger scene, also a favorite). And Ritsu. He is so insane it makes me want to blow up a house (positive connotation). The dude is just a walking car wreck that is slowly parking at the edge of a cliff. Just the way he snaps in the most unhinged and self destructive ways makes me want to set him down in a pile of blankets, because child you are not leaving until you book a therapist appointment. Teru makes him 10x worst its comical, they just hate each other, barfs at eachothers presence but also they’d entrust their lives to the other’s no problem, what are worst enemies with slight fond attachments are for (Ritsu realizing he was manipulating Teru all along, naturally? A well aimed strike that rattled my core, incredible). Ritsu’s journey throughout the fic has been a sight to witness, from him being a emotionally stunted mess to an emotionally stunted, but now slightly considerate, mess. Character development.

This story has been an absolute delight to finish, and my thoughts will still run wild for about a week. I cannot thank you enough for writing this and sharing this to the world of ao3.

(ABoT)

fbjhfbj eating this review eating this eating this

I'm!!!! Okay to approach this in pieces.

>breakdown happens to a character (no plural, we all know which one)

we all know which one....

I'm just saying this could still be about literally ANY character named Ritsu in this story.

Also yes!!! Another Ritsu vs Teru v2 enjoyer!! I was so goddamn excited getting to that part of the story. The role inversion between Ritsu and Teru. The weight of Ritsu making this a spirit possession battle against Teru of all people, and that being why Ritsu is able to hold his own against Teru who is so much stronger than him.

And absolutely ABoT is all about the small wholesome moments, cuz each and every one of those are wrestled in tatters out of the jaw of tragedy and misery which, to me, makes them extra special. The absolute fighting tooth and nail for happiness and betterment.

>reigen is just Some Guy who managed to completely tear down (or breach-) the emotional walls of every Kageyama kid in sight and just?? Let them know he’s there for them?? Let them be kids??

yep yep yep the double-meaning of "Breach" in the title. Breach trust. Breach the barrier. The role of lies and the role of trust in that very core element of Mob's barrier.

And I really adored writing all the Ritsu and Reigen interactions because they are. just. the worst for each other. But also Reigen is who Ritsu needs. And that hard fight to save Ritsu happens in the form of screaming matches that destroy a McDonalds and the massive decimation of innocent Build-A-Bears. The burger scene is. SO near and dear to my heart.

>And Ritsu. He is so insane it makes me want to blow up a house (positive connotation).

Ritsu "Aren't you tired of being nice? Don't you wanna just go apeshit?" Kageyama. I love writing him as a foil against the Reigen and Mob plotline. Because both Reigen and Mob have been hurt, and their reponses are much more focused on how to heal themselves. Ritsu's been hurt (and Teru, too) and their responses are to lash out and hurt everything back. ABoT runs the whole spectrum of catharthis for just "You've been badly wronged. Wouldn't you just like to [heal] [have someone who cares] [seek revenge and destroy the world which destroyed you]?"

>(Ritsu realizing he was manipulating Teru all along, naturally? A well aimed strike that rattled my core, incredible)

I deeply loved writing the Teru and Ritsu plotline just every step of the way. And the hardest part was writing all the build up knowing the role-reversal was coming without tipping my hand--the part where Ritsu would surpass Teru in awfulness, where it would become Teru desperately clinging to morals and trying his hardest to stop Ritsu. And this all starts with the pivot in ch31 as Ritsu realizes he IS in a position to take advantage of Teru... because Teru sees him as a friend.

fkjfdnkjfddf thank you for this review! I'm eating it I'm eating it. You're talking about so many of the things that make me feral for this story and why I wrote it in the first place. It's the trauma it's the healing it's the character development it's the character regression it's the beating your bestie to death on a soccer field it's the taking a traumatized kid to get ramen it's the mindless destruction of a Build-A-Bear Workshop it's the manipulation it's the trying to do better it's the idea that self-sacrifice doesn't actually save the people around you who need you it's the different ways tragedy affects people it's the lighting a corpse on fire then slashing your own throat it's the adopting a kitten named Socks it's the corruption it's the possession it's the cursed Jade Statue that just follows you everywhere for no reason

[lioriel]

The Barbie Movie isn't Anti-men

Yesterday I finally got to see the Barbie movie. Over the past month I’d heard so many contradictory opinions on the piece but figured I had a fairly good idea of what I was getting myself into.

I wasn't wrong.

Before we get started you should know a few things about me. I’m 36 years old. I’m a stay-at-home mom. A libertarian. As a libertarian I am sick of the political nonsense coming from every side. Right-wingers are jerks. Leftists are jerks. Heck, libertarians are jerks. People are just… ugh. And politics make monsters of us all.

Over the past month I've watched many reviews bashing the piece for being anti-men and promoting a matriarchy instead of a balanced approach. They claim the “Real World” in the movie was a patriarchy that made all men look stupid. … Yet in the same breath claim the women of Barbie Land were shallow as well. So… yes? Pretty much everyone is stupid in the movie? What’s your point?

Because the point I took from this is that sometimes we all just go with the flow. Maybe we ALL need to think about our own lives and question ourselves. Do we think we’re smarter than we really are? That we’re more morally correct than everyone else?

I ask this with love to all people across all political spectrums. I say that to remind myself that it’s important to revaluate my thoughts and actions. The Barbie movie ends with Barbie Land reclaiming their rights as a matriarchal society. They make changes to allow men some small piece of the pie. But that doesn’t mean the movie promotes this. Anyone who claims the movie was anti-men was not paying attention. Let’s review the basics of Ken’s plot as far as the Patriarchy goes:

(spoilers and continued rambling below)

At the beginning of the story Ken was marginalized. He felt like he only existed for Barbie. He was an accessory. Then he discovered the patriarchy. He felt seen. He felt heard. He felt important. Ken went on to push this agenda on Barbie Land. The world around him quickly caved to this pressure and put the Kens on a pedestal. When Barbie fought back her voice became marginalized and she finally felt what it was like to be in Ken’s previous position. She reached out to other Barbies and formed a plan to make the Kens fight amongst themselves – until they themselves snapped out of it and realized that it’s better to work together. But it’s too late by then and the Barbies have taken back over. The Barbies, however, have learned from their mistakes and hand over a sliver of their power to the Kens.

What do we learn from this? That men are stupid? That the Matriarchy is better than the Patriarchy? That men deserve to lose power? Or… Is Ken’s story not an allegory for women’s rights? Let’s go back and make some changes to my summary that flips it to be about women. *ahem* In the beginning, women were marginalized. They were expected to only exist for their husbands. Then they discovered feminism. They felt seen. They felt heard. They felt important. Women went on to push feminism on the world. The world caved to this pressure and put women on a pedestal. When Men fought back their voices became marginalized and they finally felt what it was like to be in the position women had been in. They reached out to each other and formed a plan to make the women fight amongst themselves – until the they snapped out of it and realized it’s better to work together. But it was too late by then and the men had taken back over. Then men, however, learned from their mistakes and gave women a sliver of their power.

Um. While not all of that paragraph is necessary 100% true it sounds awfully familiar. You know what? Both stories suck. Because both the patriarchy and the matriarchy suck. Because ultra-feminism sucks. Because men thinking they can treat women like objects sucks. Because women thinking they should be put on a pedestal sucks. Anyone thinking anyone is better than someone else just plain sucks. Barbie movie knows that. The writers know that. It was one of the main messages of the movie. The message that we can’t take things too far. That we need to be considerate of each other as human beings. That NO ONE should exist solely to elevate someone else. That we should live for ourselves- but also elevate others. No matter our gender.

The movie also clearly states that we should all be able to do anything. So, yes. Ken shouldn’t only have to “Beach” just as Barbie should be able to choose to be who she wants to be.  Women can be presidents, astronauts, teachers… or mothers. Mothers who do these amazing things. Mothers who choose only to be just that… mothers. And that there’s NOTHING WRONG with either choice. (The same goes for men, of course, but the movie’s focus is on women so naturally there’s more to say here on them.) It shows that Barbie as a feminist icon is flawed. That while Barbie promotes women being whoever they want to be… that it may have been a mistake to make the Barbie ideal an idol. It shows that we shouldn’t worship this fantasy that anyone can be anything to the point that we feel bad about ourselves for not being this perfect woman.

I walked away from the film thinking this was obvious, but so many others… didn’t. Why? Likely a combination of factors. Maybe these messages were too deep for them to grasp. Maybe the film should have made it more obvious? Maybe the world is so fractured by politics that we’re prone to jump to conclusions and assume the worst of everyone else?

Or maybe I was just reading too much between the lines and made it all up.

[moonlight-phobia]

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[qurolo]

Stupid and late revaluation- HOWEVER - QPRs EXIST?!! I am aro(?)ace: I want to move in with someone and own cats together, and help with finances and chores. I want my own little adventure squad in those adventure novels so we can conquer little quests and risk our lives for each other. I want challenge between single person and I like enemies to lovers except instead of lovers- IT’S A QPR!

Separating friendship and devoted friendship was so bizarre to me- Minus the touchy feely stuff, what’s the difference between ‘friendship’ and ‘relationship’? Then BOOM- ZUCCHINIS!

I am done rambling

[moonlight-phobia]

Days like this where I want to give Jamil a lil kiss

Jamil I can cook I really can 😩👏

[moonlight-phobia]

Yesss Jamil! He deserves a well cooked meal 😤

✨🌙📒

She/They 😁

WOO! Hi hi! Call me Rev! Pleasure to meet ya! A fellow Jamil appreciator ✨👏

OMG HELLO THERE REV NICE TO MEET U 🤝 JAMIL KISSERS UNITE!!!

it's a pleasure to meet u <33 give me three emojis for ur personal tag pookie as well as ur pronouns heheheehhe

[love-life-dead-or-alive]

I'm sorry for being late to the party again but I'm gonna rant about American Gods...again

American Gods TV ramblings

So I've finally been catching up and I'm in the third season now. And what in the Disney-Star-Wars-Movie-Plotholes™ is going on with the Jinn and Salim?

Literally the end of the 2nd season we had the Jinn not caring about any consequences to keep Salim safe. Even tho the consequences were just vaguely eluded to.

And now we are to believe, that he suddenly up and abandoned Salim, out of duty to Wednesday, with naught but a letter? Even though he always took him with on these quests before and also hates Wednesday?

Or even better we are to believe that the Jinn suddenly (off-screen of course) revaluated his priorities and doesn't care for Salim anymore? After the whole arc so far? And after the dramatic end scenes in the 2nd season?

It's giving Luke Skywalker brainwashing vibes

[jomnki]

im sure ive rbd something here before, but id like to say something since i do actually get interactions here at times- please leave/block if you're a zionist. please heavily revaluate your world views. i felt it was inappropriate posting funny text rambles and pictures in between serious discussions and horrible things happening to people (especially on a personal blog where people rarely visit anyways) , but i really need to reiterate that if you think any of what's going on is validated by anything- that mass genocide is tolerable. i need you to stay away.

[jackitk]

Figured I'd start sharing weekly blogs on here... So I got the blog above and below is a bonus blog I made just to ramble about my art...

[lightheaded-dullahan]

Ah fuck I’ve got a few words about some revaluations in Kriemhild’s profile…

So in the big bond 5 and I believe her line to Siegfried - she’s basically become bitter and hateful of Siegfried upon finding out from Hagen that the only reason Hagen killed him was for his own sake. And how her entire revenge was for someone who didn’t even love her (her own words).

Except…that’s such an awful interpretation??? Especially from Kriemhild.

Siegfried’s entire thing during the drama of his wife, his brother in law, and Brünnhilde is that HE believes he is to blame. That all the suffering his wife, and everyone else is going through, can be solved with his death. It often reads to me as Siegfried being heavily suicidal- and turns his death into instead of a perceived betrayal to instead an assisted suicide. Hagen even knows himself he’ll go down as an evil villain - but he does it because it is the one thing Siegfried has ever asked for.

Now, sure, we can blame Siegfried for what happens afterwards. But Kriemhild is the one who revealed his weak spot. Surely she has blame? But no, Hagen tricked her into revealing it.

Well we can’t blame Hagen , he already took the blame with his killing of Siegfried. But he’s not to blame.

It always goes back to Gunther. Kriemhild’s brother. HES always the one it goes back to.

The whole reason Brünnhilde thinks Siegfried is a vassel and thus gets into a fight with Kriemhild? Because Gunther refused to let Siegfried be with Kriemhild unless he helped him win the queen.

The whole reason Brünnhilde wants Siegfried dead? Gunther commanded Siegfried to strip her down for him when she easily hung him up because she wasn’t happy being married to him.

Kriemhild and Siegfried are both victims in the story. Siegfried’s death is the catalyst for revenge. But the way they handle her reaction feels

Wrong.

It feels like, in a sort of disgusting way, that it’s supposed to be to allow her to be free for the players to imagine themselves in. Maybe that’s not it, and I’m just overthinking - but considering so much else ? I can believe it.

And I hate it.

All it does is reinforce that Siegfried was the true villain. He was no hero. All he did was cause suffering.

It was *never* Siegfried alone who caused suffering. Siegfried is shown time and time again to give himself such little wants of his own that it doesn’t make sense.

Siegfried has done three things for himself.

1. He asked Hagen to kill him, to spare his wife and Brünnhilde from their suffering

2. He gave up his heart to Sieg so that he could live- not because he was asked to, but because he wanted to

And-

3. He came to court Kriemhild because he had fallen in love with her.

The only thing Siegfried and Kriemhild did to deserve their suffering was fall in love with one another.

And I hate how even that has been taken from them now.