#Realizations

[dontworryihaveyourblorbos]

Was reading Branch’s page on wiki fandom and found this (which made me rly sad)

“Permanent physical deformity.” Oof. Ouch. My heart-

But THEN

I saw that Floyd’s ears droop downwards too!!

Out of all of the bros, theirs are the only ones to droop downwards, which is SUCH a detail to me because it could mean two things 1. Floyd also lost his colors for a time off camera= youngest-gray-bros solidarity or 2. They just designed Floyd that way to be the most similar to Branch- which is SO CUTE in and of itself. So yeah that’s it that’s the detail

[knight--error]

Who needs therapy when you can look back at the patterns repeating in every single thing you've ever written and realize truths so embarrassing and unutterable about yourself that you just have to pretend the patterns aren't actually there and don't mean anything anyway?

[ira-in-ink]

[🌹]: HELLO??

i JUST realized that sae wears a necklace thingy in one of the u-20 match scenes?

at first i thought he was wearing a shirt, but then i remembered that he just got out of the shower in that scene, he couldn't be wearing a shirt.

and then i realized that it was a necklace(?) maybe? it kinda looks like a piece of string to me.

he doesn't look like the type of guy to be wearing necklaces wth🙏😭

[echosaeh]

lestappen is so popular not because they’re the best drivers on the grid or because of their history in karting. it was never that. it’s because all their interactions are so female-gaze coded. it’s the body language, the eye contact, the way they literally will ignore interviewers when they’re next to each other. debriefing immediately after a race and the unconscious shoe touching. it’s the small things that’s exactly the reason people notice it. despite their history and current positions they’re so gentle with each other. as if they aren’t rivals at all.

[cosmicrealization]

[mestisang-cavitena]

Some songs can heal you, some songs healed a part of you, you didn't think was damaged.

[furiousgoldfish]

"It wasn't bad enough" to "it was so much worse than I even imagined" abused kid pipeline

[10underoot2]

Episode 5 - Deeper Look

Hyun woo's journey till Episode 5 is finding love again. He had forgotten so much of what made him fall in love, who Haein was. He'd forgotten what made the marriage bearable. Who created that chasm between them? Who refused to accept help as he cried himself to sleep.

Hynwoo's the obvious victim of a vicious marriage but I think the real victim is Haein. Hyunwoo forgot that he loved Hae in. For him the hardship fell on him alone and it made him forget the women he loved was going through equal amounts of pain by losing their child. Feeling only he was being wronged, not scratching Hae in's surface deeper he grew apart. The family, the tears, the burden all came because he didn't have Hae in smiling at him at the end of the day. Hae in didn't change, Hyun woo did.

Hae in whilst collosal at showing it loved him and their unborn child very deeply. She never considers divorce because she never stopped loving him. I'm sure over the years she gathered crumbs of his love and those were enough for her because she knew he cared. And that was enough for her to continue her love in the same way she always had. Hyunwoo realises he loved her when he pretends to care again. He begins to realize again 'oh she's so pretty, oh she makes my heart pound still'.... And it scares him. When he runs away from kissing her in his room in the village he's not scared of her he's scared of the depth his own feelings. He'd never stoped loving her he'd just forgotten how and how much he actually did.

Hae in thinks he's afraid of her, then thinks no, he just doesn't care so the next morning she tries her best to let him know through her words (not her strangest medium mind) that she doesn't care either. She's heard his disregard for her and she's starting to think maybe she's wrong about his love for her. Her doubt's are winning. But then there in the rain she sees him holding an umbrella over her - half drenched in rain himself - and she doesn't understand. He loves her, she knows he does so why won't he love her? It's so confusing. He's selfless in love and for Haein actions have always spoken louder so why didn't he come closer last night?

For Hyunwoo though, words have always spoken louder. He's the one who hears first and notices actions second. For Hyun woo the it moment is when he hears her real thoughts in an interview she gave months ago (before she knew she was dying, when he was seriously considering divorce knowing that nothing could save his marriage). She said she wanted to talk, eat, walk and chat with him *everyday day*. He rewatched it because he couldn't believe it. She's never said it to him. It's been a long time since he's seen/heard her that soft. But they live together so why haven't they been doing all this? And it still doesn't hit him why until he gets to Germany.

Hae in was angry with him, thinking he didn't care as much when she left. She had sensed doubt and she wasn't going to string him along for anything. So dejected when she's at the palace she's essentially there because she's missing him and the time they were really, truly in love. When she was confident he loved her.

And what better way for him to start than to show her he cares. He knew her enough to realize she would not have worn comfortable shoes and brings the shoes to her, all the way from Korea.

When she says they're luring in tourist by saying you'll have no worries and tears he's quick to tell her that's exactly what she did to him. He proceeds to tell her 'now that we are married I should be there for you, especially in times like this.' The way he says it it's like a plea.

Translation: Please let me be there for you.

But her response is the light bulb he's been missing all along.

'Did I ever ask you not to be by my side? I wanted you to be by my side. I never wanted to be alone, ever.'

Translation: You don't need my permission. You misinterpreted my silence. You were always supposed to be by my side.

It's so accusatory in the saddest way possible that it hurts.

Hyunwoo left her alone when she needed him. When they both needed each other. She never pushed him away she just couldn't talk about her emotions but his _action_ (to move out of the bedroom) made all the difference in her perception of them. He realizes in that moment this is beyond just her illness, this is about their loss 2 years ago. And it's painful for him to realize that the reason he's been unhappy has essentially been himself all along. He told himself he couldn't love her. He thought her cruel. And he separated the most intimate space they shared. The single tears falling from both of them is them reliving the collective pain of the loss of their unborn child. They realise what happened. How they messed up. Hyun woo's sorry is truly genuine and deep. You can feel the weight of it being too much for him. Was he maybe also thinking about the actions he's made since episode 1 as well?

Hae in's love shines the most brightly in her words next. She's essentially telling him I think I've realized you're my miraculous way to live. You're the place that has no sadness for me. You're my home. 'Let's go home' has never been more literal. And this is when Hyunwoo really realizes ah this is how she used to express it. I see it - her love. It's been right here all along and now I'm being subjected to it again. And he can't hold it back any longer. He hugs her, let's his tears of pain and shame fall.

Their emotions during the hug are so telling. For Hyunwoo it's so much of oh God what have I done. I love her how did I mess up so badly? And for Haeina it's just relief. She has him back. The Hyunwoo who promised to be by her side, who loved her: he's right there. He's in her arms embracing her.

And then as soon as he can goes in to close the deed he had hesitated in just a few nights before. His heart now allowed to love Hae in again. His mind now able to comprehend her love for him.

And essentially I think this is why the divorce sucker punched Haein so bad. If her disregard was betrayal for Hyunwoo, this paper was it for her.

[cheerlessxperfect]

I have lost things, I have lost people, but thank God I did not lose myself.

[azherwind-art]

I've been on this earth for way too many days to JUST realize that a harmonica is called that BECAUSE by the way it plays multiple sounds at the same time it IS like many voices harmonizing together

[dontworryihaveyourblorbos]

John Dory, Bruce, and Clay after being reunited with Branch: hey we know you’re like 24 years old but we’re gonna need you to wear this diaper while we rehearse, in front of your girlfriend. To save Floyd.

Branch: o-o

[devmystra]

It’s okay to take things personally.

When they forgot to invite you, it’s okay to be mad at them. When they didn’t include you to a picture while you were also there or when they always made you feel not included, it’s okay to stop talking to them. When they made an insensitive joke and it offended you, it’s okay to unfriend them. When they were still friends with the person who abused and bullied you, it’s okay to cut them off. It is okay to take things personally, especially if they did things to hurt you intentionally.

[ira-in-ink]

[🌹]: just realized that rin and shidou's best subjects are the same:

they're meant for each other fr😍

[raven-nerd4life]

it has occurred to me that y/n stands for "your name"

. . . .

It took me awhile to find that out

I might be stupid

[cosmicrealization]