#RAMBLE

[xxacidnekoxx]

I'm so used to seeing men hating posts on this site that I keep forgetting how much it drains me mentally. I understand it honestly but for real I need follow people who love men. I'm a trans man and I see posts all the time that are like "here are all the ways the world would be improved if men were gone 💖" and I'm gonna take better care of myself and unfollow people/ follow different blogs lol I want to follow more trans men especially

[lazylittledragon]

do you think taking all my fake skin practice tattoos and cutting them out and sewing them into a giant human-shaped pelt and hanging it on the wall of the studio is a good idea or a Great idea

[lemonshrimp666]

Ughhhh this feels like such a heartbreaking inner monologue. Those who don’t know how to express love in traditional ways don’t always understand that many need different cues. It may feel like they don’t outwardly care but when expressed it’s their whole blood to love you because you love them—they’re trying their best. I love diversity, I love the different ways people show love. Look between the lines. Love your friends, neighbors, partner, family. They may all show it very differently but feel it all the same. Don’t get too into your own way or head. Be open to how others express their care bc the mind holds more than what’s shown ♥️♥️♥️♥️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

September 1, 1937 The Letters of Vita Sackville-West to Virginia Woolf (1924-1941)

[gregoryhousedefender]

House was the only one in the show to not get a happy ending, and that will eat me up inside until the day I die

• Thirteen's traveling the world with her girlfriend

• Cameron has a husband and a kid

• Foreman is running the hospital

• Chase now is in charge of the diagnostics department

• Taub has seemingly sort of made up with his wife and is caring for his daughters

• Wilson only has 5 months left to live; but he's spending it with his best friend and gets to fulfill anything he's ever wanted to do.

The entire show revolves around everyone around House, wanting him to change and get better. Eventually, it comes to House wanting that, too. And he does change, and he does get better to an extent. But he can never truly be happy, and I think his ending really showed that. He got the best ending he could possibly get: being him.

It just accentuates that even when everything was on the line, he couldn't live up to those expectations, and he couldn't really change. But he changed enough, and he was the happiest he could be.

[ramblesbiab]

Gosh, it took exactly two comments on my "Caitlyn kissing Vi was to manipulate her" post for me to realize I was probably wrong lol. At least I'm absolutely hoping I am, because I greatly prefer the idea that Caitlyn is essentially suppressing her emotions the best she can to get through the horrible actions on the path to vengeance and peace, and what we see during the kiss is her becoming too overwhelmed with emotion to not let it out. In that view of her character, she kisses Vi because she does genuinely wish to comfort her, and she promises not to change because she isn't trying to.

The Caitlyn who gassed the tunnels and would risk shooting a kid isn't real, or at least, she shouldn't be. Part of me is inclined to believe that a straw broke at Jinx getting away again. Caitlyn has dealt with having the shot once already. For Vi, the woman she just confessed to who she wishes so badly to be honest with about her true feelings about everything she's done, to stop her yet again? That's too much. She fully loses herself for long enough to hit Vi, but even that blind rage couldn't survive seeing the usually tough as nails Vi crying on the ground. That's why we see her expression change right before she turns around and leaves.

Caitlyn feels bad. Of fucking course she does - she betrayed Vi. She betrayed herself. Unfortunately, feeling bad doesn't end a war, so there's only one solution: shut down even more. Ambessa truly couldn't have had better timing to give Caitlyn all the power in the palm of her hand. The Caitlyn who Vi loves is still in there, but right now? Right now, there's only the drive for vengeance.

[xxacidnekoxx]

I love being a transgender man so much!

I have dysphoria in my body I always felt like I was supposed to have a penis but I came out differently... But I'm a regular guy and people can't take that away from me. If I could get bottom surgery I would..I took testosterone for years and I have an Adam's apple now and I love it!

I love being a femboy. I love being gay and wearing dresses as a man. I love wearing panties and a packer at the same time ... It makes me feel like a boy. I love my voice (it hasn't dropped all the way)

[tonyjalapeno]

just wanted to put this here for future reference since I originally put it in the tags but my ramble went on for way too long

this is why, although c!dreams abuse of c!tommy is a main plot point for his character, I feel uncomfortable depicting it in my art. since the dsmp was an improv roleplay scenario the ccs bleed into their characters constantly, but c!dreams power dynamic over c!tommy has always felt a little too reflective of the ccs dynamic to me especially now that its been almost 5 years and tommy has been more open about how dream treated him. this is not to say that he was ABUSIVE in the same way his character is but there was definitely a power dynamic between them where there shouldn't have been!

this is not to say that anybody who makes art of cdream/ctommy implying some form of abuse of power is wrong to do so. I get that its an important aspect of c!tommy's character and I don't think its hurting anybody to depict it in artwork! just my own personal thoughts on it all, and why you won't see c!dream in any of my art despite making a lot of dsmp fan art lol

AH.

@spacecharlotte-man here @zgmoony

[lazylittledragon]

they let me try out a tattoo machine today so i obviously did a Creature

[wizardgirlxyz]

I literally can’t get Eclipse Lake out of my head

hunter my dude you deserve better than the shit Belos treats you like!! Go get a new “caring” figure pls!!

Hunter digging his grave is seriously depressing. You know it’s bad it is when a character starts laughing like he was

Hi is there a shop that sells self-worth Hunter needs to go there. Also fuck Belos fuck fuck fuck him I hate Belos

[teaboot]

On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.

I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.

It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.

I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.

My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.

Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.

It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.

I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".

Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.

Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.

It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.

[five-rivers]

Group of friends who are close because they all have the same superpower except no they don't.

[doomdoomofdoom]

Kamala Harris does want "transgender surgery on illegal aliens that are in prison", btw.

So since Trumpists are getting mad enough about the jokes to actually cite their sources, I thought I'd put the source out into my left extremist commie faggot echo chamber, too.

The claim originates from an ACLU questionnaire she filled out for her 2020 presidential candidacy, specifically this section:

She wasn't given a new questionnaire for 2024, and has stated that while her policy on some things may have changed, her values had not. (This most likely means she moved more to the center to appease larger demographics and cut corners to reach compromises. The basic politician stuff.)

It boils down to this: If you're in prison, whether for "illegal" immigration or other crimes, you rely on the state to provide you with necessary amenities, like food and health care. Her argument isn't "hell yeah everyone in prison should get sex changes for free". It's "gender affirming surgery is a necessary medical procedure. If you are in the states care while this becomes necessary, the state should provide it." If you're outraged by your tax money being used on this, consider the massive amount of people being incarcerated in for-profit prisons, on your dime. Then ask yourself if maybe a prison reform might be in order.

Worth noting: In 2015, while Attorney General, Kamala Harris actually argued against providing gender-affirming surgery to an incarcerated trans woman, claiming that HRT and psychotherapy were sufficiently covering her medical needs. She has since obviously changed her stance and assumed responsibility. (I would like to take this moment to remind my fellow left extremist commie faggots that "willingness to learn and rethink your views" is infinitely more valuable than "perfect from the start and unwilling to listen to anyone")

Also found in the source: This image of Kamala Harris participating in the 2019 San Francisco Pride Parade, wearing what I believe to be a sequin rainbow embroidered denim jacket.

I encourage you to read the provided CNN article and the answers to the ACLU questionnaire, as they give great insight into her values.

TLDR: Based.

[ballshurgler]

speaking of, I recently watched the OVA that this gif is from

you wouldn't know it from this image but Suna No Bara is a cripplingly mediocre anime about an exclusively female counterterrorist squad.

it's from 1993 and it embodies the "no political motives" terrorists archetype so thoroughly that the entire event that the story revolves around(someone trying to kill a bunch of politicians by using bombs to cause an avalanche) not only has no stated political motive, but we never see or hear from whoever was responsible. as far as the viewer is concerned, it was a terrorist act committed by literally nobody with no discernible goal.

much earlier in the OVA they run into a couple of the guys who were involved in setting up the plot, but they're just generic goons who get exploded and never get questioned or otherwise express any kind of motive, and either way there's no hans gruber-esque ringleader. not a single antagonist who talks to our characters about fucking anything. the whole thing resolves by getting the politicians out with inflatable parachutes that they can't even be bothered to animate putting on. they kind of just leave before the avalanche hits, the girls get out with a hang glider, and it ends. good work everyone we stopped terrorism.

pre-9/11 depictions of terrorism in media are so funny to me. like, the action-movie 'terrorist' lineage of counter-strike is such a rich vein of hilarious imagery. these guys are generally completely disconnected from any political motives or even sources of funding and are seemingly just what happens when you get posessed by a balaclava

[disaster-whore]

[grabs you by the shoulders and shakes you] YOU CAN CALL FAT PEOPLE HOT. I PROMISE. YOU CAN CALL THEM HANDSOME AND PRETTY AND BEAUTIFUL AND SAY YOU WANT TO FUCK THEM. YOU DONT HAVE TO KEEP SAYING "wow you look like you give suuchh good hugs" AND "omg i wanna hug you >_<" AND "squishes ur tummy!" YOU CAN HAVE FREAKY SEX WITH FAT PEOPLE.

[ramblesbiab]

Gosh, the pain of realizing on rewatches just how much the kiss was an act of manipulation. Vi was losing her edge in Caitlyn's eyes, what with her clear disapproval of threatening a victim of Jinx and sending him to prison (A place Vi knows intimately to be hell). Something had to be done, so Caitlyn took advantage of her vulnerability. She didn't even have to actually promise at that point with Vi being so wrapped up in finally getting what she's wanted so badly. Because it's not just Caitlyn - it's a person she can trust, a person who won't leave her, who will stay the same.

Even if she did promise, it wouldn't have mattered. Caitlyn was already changed by that point. Vi didn't want to see it, and why would she when Caitlyn was her one final hope? A hope so big she set aside all her morals to follow what Caitlyn needed from her, to protect her and fight for her goals. The Caitlyn she loves and needs isn't the one who would gas out innocents.

The most painful part for me is the idea that Caitlyn surely had to know that Vi wanted this in order to use it against her. She played the kiss like a card from her hand, just another step in a larger game to keep order and reach her goal of vengeance. Again, that's not something the Caitlyn who Vi loves would ever do.

As much as it hurts though, I really fucking enjoy this from a writing perspective lol. Like oh my god, the audacity to play with Vi's vulnerability, to caress her jawline and cling to her as you lie right into her mouth, I genuinely cannot wait to see how far Caitlyn goes before she realizes how bad she's gotten, if she even gets the chance to realize at all. I won't lie, I'm somehow still holding out hope for Caitvi endgame, but this is doing an amazing job of keeping me engaged no matter what the outcome is.