#RAMBLE

[lazylittledragon]

behold my wares!!

if you’re at megacon london pls come and see me :3

[xxacidnekoxx]

did anyone else ever experience that thing where people at school would be friends with you "ironically" or "as a joke" people did this to me and they weren't subtle about it like they would come up to me with this voice that sounded like the type of voice you would talk to a 2 year old with and be like HAIII =^-^= HEYYY u wanna be FRIENNDZZZ and then they look over their shoulder at their friends and they're all giggling at me the most mean fucking sound I ever heard. and if you ever fell for it they would laugh even harder and then break the act and start calling u disgusting??? yeah... and sometiems they would keep the act up for a long time and it would be soul crushing realizing they were just mocking u the entire time .. and guys at my school would ask me out "ironically" too and that got really scary at times when they would start making mean sexual comments 💀

[akanemnon]

I've been slowly teaching myself how to make animatics. And of course I just HAD to start out with one for a 3 minute long audio... Why do I keep doing this to myself?

Probably some weird drive to see if I can do it. Just like making comics... It's definitely a learning experience.

Not the prettiest though, but everyone starts out small. Though it's fun to see the improvement throughout the animatic-

[nowhereman1966]

this is their whole thing right

Lady Shiva: “The only way you can stop me is to kill me in mortal combat.”

Cassandra: “NUH-UH!”

Lady Shiva: “Fuck you mean, ’nuh-uh’?!”

[five-rivers]

Please understand that whenever I do a lot of prompts, I eventually get more prompts coming in than I can write (this isn't a bad thing, it's just a thing! After all, it's faster to send in a prompt than it is to write a ficlet). I have strong ideas for the body horror prompts that I got last week, and at least a few hundred words written for most of them, for the ones I just got today and yesterday... maybe not so much. I rarely delete prompts, so there's a good chance they'll get filled eventually, but it probably won't be super soon. Sorry about this! I don't mean to blow you off. I do love reading prompts sent to me, and I invite everyone to do so, regardless of whether or not I'm actively asking for them! But, well, human limits are inconvenient, aren't they?

[in-cis-and-het-collector]

This doesn't even feel like a cishet AU anymore it's just the douchebag timeline

kinda? unsure about this one, so sorry in advance. putting it under spoiler because

ICAH as far as I can tell has always been based around "what if the complex and fleshed out characters of ISAT were replaced with stereotypes?" with everyone getting turned into cishet stereotypes version of themselves except for Bonnie, who was left off to the side because they're Bonnie.

Then the Bonnie versions were released, and shortly after it became "Bonnie ISAT is stuck in ICAH" with Loop having been killed off screen for being too gay. This turned the stereotypes into more of an invasion of the bodysnatchers thing, and painted their reductive goofy existence with the curse of existing as creatures.

Most peoples instinctive reaction to this was "oh dear god I'm going to puke bleargh" which. y'know. fair. But some people started making art n short blurbs in universe, and it became "crabbed-up evil wishcraft has destroyed the world, leaving Bonnie and Loop(?) to try and fix it".

Around this point Siffrins general need for a mask and self loathing started to get mixed into Cisfrins caricature, making it more toxic and bringing a new layer to the general "man would this be fucked up or what?" or it all. So now we have a family who wants to "fix" Bonnie if they find out, wishcraft enforced hetero normative values, and a few different versions out there.

At some point Isabeau became a gymbro, Odile turned into a "loving wife" who would post minion memes, Mirabelle is some flavor of christian priest and probably has been her whole life, and Siffrin is somewhere around frat bro and redneck (i think? unsure) so they all suck in their own special way with Bonnie who needs to try and fix this, Loop who needs to keep Bonnie safe, the ISAT crew watching in despair (with loop remembrance?) and the King is having an aneurysm about being right, which gives him and Bonnie their own special version of the "remember a country that no longer exists that you both want to save but cant" thing that Siffrin usually has.

We're now generally dealing with the question of "what if they are all eggs too afraid of rejection to hatch and they need to all admit their insecurities for ????? to happen" and few other things going on. I really like this bit because you can work in stuff like the ISAT party trying to help, or alternate familyquests, or the Cisabeau x Cisfrin angle, or both Mirabelle and Miracis learning to adapt their view of their religion to accept themselves. very fun, very neat.

They have kinda been douchebags for most of it, so I don't understand that bit and for that I'm sorry, but the fact they suck is part of the fun!

sorry about the ramble, have a good one!

[cute-sweet-corgo]

I see unsociable loner, I must have him grrr grr BARKAWAWAWW

[humansbgone]

Uploaded the animatic unlisted to YouTube so I could set up the subtitles (YouTube automatically aligns dialogue better before music has been added), and the URL is.....

[robertarthurhawkins]

weep woop!! msi reference!!

[fandomloreblog]

Love how we as a fandom have just collectively looked at Kale and gone “hhm. Yeah, no. He’s gay.”

[lazylittledragon]

important question: in the professor au thing, what do cyra and gale each teach?

i think he teaches something to do with literature (maybe classics?) and she teaches anatomy!

he’s the ‘genuinely wants you to do really well’ sort of teacher and she’s the ‘do not fuck with her because she’s probably killed someone’ teacher

[xxacidnekoxx]

it helps to talk about the bullying... when I was in grade school I was so stressed out that my hair was falling out and I looked old and I was very neglected so my teachers actually straight up bought me clothes and a toothbrush and gave me special attention which caused more bullying to happen I literally dissociated my whole way through it auugh HONESTLY these days like, I feel younger than I ever felt before and better physically than I ever felt before and I think I am capturing a lot of that in my artwork like how I feel "free" now is a huge thing

[neptinaut]

Another textpost entirely dedicated to talking about Chapter 7 because GOD

its so good, I wanna give all the writers 1 million dollars to make more

This time I will be talking about Pure Vanilla and Shadow Milk’s dynamic and how it’s parallels to religious trauma are uncanny. Because intentional or not, the signs are there so let’s dissect this dynamic shall we

[ SPOILERS: EPISODE 7 OF BEAST YEAST ] and [ TW: TOPICS OF RELIGIOUS TRAUMA ]

THE IMAGE AT THE VERY END HAS THE F SLUR IN IT (this is a slur I can reclaim and use often, I just think that picture is funny)

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HATE CHRISTIANS OR CHRISTIANITY, I AM EXPLAINING THIS THROUGH THE LENSE OF SOMEONE WHO HAS HAD SOME RELIGIOUS TRAUMA IN LIFE SO IM USING MY EXPERIENCES TO DECIPHER THE COMPLEXITIES OF THIS COOKIE GAME

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It’s a common misconception that Shadow Milk and Pure Vanilla are enemies. They hate eachother yes, but shadow milk’s hatred is akin to that of a god, hating you because what you’re predestined to become goes against his rules. Pure vanilla’s hatred is akin to that of a victim of abuse, or a hatred to a divine entity.

The difference being that Pure Vanilla’s hatred is mostly a byproduct of fear and paranoia,

and Shadow Milk’s hatred is that of pure rage.

While the entire episode/chapter drives home the theme that Shadow Milk has been watching over Pure Vanilla his entire life, this one interaction really solidifies the implications:

Shadow Milk has hated Pure Vanilla since the day he was born because of something he would obtain in the far, far future. He watched and waited patiently for the day he can finally break him and take back what the witches took from him.

This is the main reason I don’t consider them enemies and more-so relate their dynamic to religious trauma and abuse.

Pure Vanilla was made to have this soul jam and the power that comes with it, but even before he had it, Shadow Milk had this hatred for him, because of something he was predestined to be.

Much like how it’s said that. “God hates the gays”. With god being all knowing (another parallel to Shadow Milk I find interesting) would he not hate us since we were born because of the things we’re meant to be in the future? Knowing this adds a layer of paranoia to the judgement felt by having a god “always watching over you”

Another common theme is Pure Vanilla being a puppet and just puppet’s in general.

In christian faith, it is common to live for god, to devote your entire life to him, you were made to serve him

I’m not exactly sure how to word my thoughts about this specific point, which is where music comes in. The song Irreverent Girl by WeevilDoing (if you haven’t listened to this song I totally recommend it, it’s so good) captures the theme of this episode really well, but specifically these lyrics:

“When I was 8 they bathed me, their water made me pure. What did an 8 year old have to ask for forgiveness for?” |

“If my life is spent in worship, then is it really mine?” |

“A man that I have never met and maybe never will, they said that I must beg and weep for his forgiveness still.” |

Last point I wanna touch on is the paranoia Pure Vanilla has experienced since finding out about Shadow Milk,

There’s a lot more than this but this is the most profound example, I feel like this speaks for itself (I don’t know how to explain it at the moment)

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Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk, I hope this was able to provide you with something, be that entertainment or knowledge.

Though I do believe it’s important to know that at the end of the day its night, I’m not a mental health expert, I’m just a 19 year old a little too obsessed with the deep lore of this gambling cookie game and tumblr is one of my two outlets to yap about a twinkish old man and his religious trauma.

[kaiserouo]

Answer for the gemini skin its the first

If we can use protoframe in 1999 (gameplay wise) does it mean they give up their free will over their bodies to be controlled by the drifter? Or they are not controlled by the drifter and thus you cannot transference-teleport to them because you aren't connected to them by transference in the first place? Or is it that if you use warframes you can use transference and that would give warframes an advantage in terms of gameplay? Or does DE just say fuck it and still let the drifter teleport to them despite not being connected at all? Or is the drifter still connected to the protoframes but instead of controlling their bodies they are just being an absolute jerk and screams in their head 24/7 while they try to aim a rocket launcher at a tank?

Im guessing the latter.

[teaboot]

On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.

I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.

It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.

I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.

My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.

Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.

It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.

I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".

Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.

Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.

It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.