#Please tell me if I got the definition worng | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bonesimagines · 3 years ago

Text

The list of prompts

I use a list of prompts to let fate decide what I should write, for both my imagines and the Jessica/Aubrey drabbles I write on AO3. This is this list.

You want me to write one of those prompts? Let me know! :D

All the credits for these go to @deity-prompts and @creativepromptsforwriting!!! None of the prompts are my own!

"Wait right there, don’t move!"

"That’s a good look for you."

"Could you repeat that?"

"Hey, have you seen the…? Oh.”

"Everything’s going to be fine."

"This isn’t exactly what I had in mind."

"Are you flirting with me?"

"Must be a day ending in y."

"Stop trying to cheer me up!"

"You want me to do what?”

"It’s never too late."

"Please stay."

"If there’s one thing the world needs more of…"

"I’ve got one word for you: sing-along!"

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

"Can we pretend I didn’t just say that?

"That is one hell of a mess."

"There’s something I’ve been meaning to say…"

"Last time I ask you for a favor!"

"Come on."

"I need this."

”Don’t make it into a big deal.”

"You forgot to say the magic word."

"Where the fuck did that clown come from?"

"I’ll never unsee that."

"Can I tell you a secret?"

"This one’s on me."

"I’m lost."

"Give me a hand."

"I think you missed your calling."

“This didn’t work out as I had intended.”

“Urgh. Definitely not.”

“I will prove you worng. Just watch.”

“Let’s kiss and see where it takes us.”

“Idiots. They are all idiots.”

“If I have to tell you again, I won’t be this nice.”

“Well, this went horribly wrong…”

“How do you become accidently married?”

“I hate us sometimes.”

“Why are you wearing my skirt?”

“It’s impossible to get rid of me.”

“Sometimes, I don’t know why I put up with you.”

“This is stupid. And kind of fun.”

“Please tell me, this is not why you woke me up.”

“I may have lost it.”

“You and me - movie night.”

Let’s grab the food and get out of here.“

"High heels do look good on you.”

“Roadtrip!”

“I prefer not to be disturbed.”

“We should have been in bed 3 hours ago.”

“This is a stupid excuse.”

“Why won’t you let me braid your hair?”

“Are you awake or asleep?”

“I can’t smile at you, I’m mad.”

“Well, it’s never too late.”

“Oh, look! My will to live… it’s gone.”

“Just five more minutes.”

“Where did you get the flowers from?”

“Alright, let’s make a deal.”

“You’re so easily distracted.”

“Cooking is an art form.”

“Are you a witch?”

“Thanks for nothing, I guess.”

“This is so stupid.”

“You can’t handle my beauty.”

“Is that my shirt?”

“This doesn’t smell like roses.”

“Who do we have here?”

“I’m annoyed, to say it mildly.”

“Not sure what you mean.”

“Smells suspicious.”

“Tomorrow will be better.”

“I don’t know how I feel about this.”

“Lies. Just lies.”

“Could you spare some change?”

“Well, we can’t fix it now.”

“I’m not touching that!”

“You’re not getting sea sick, are you?”

“It’s not what you think it is.”

“Did you eavesdrop?

"I can’t believe we’re friends sometimes.”

“How was I supposed to know?”

“This fits perfectly.”

“Stay there. I’m on my way.”

“Let’s get some ice cream.”

“The world is not ready for us.”

“What kind of sick dream is this?”

“You’re a legend, man!”

“The feeling is mutual.”

“Does this make sense to you?”

“I’m just so tired.”

“Do I really want to know?”

“The government doesn’t want you to know about this.”

“I volunteer myself to go last.”

“Your handwriting is atrocious.”

“This whole thing is a mess.”

“We were never prepared for this.”

“Things are worse than I thought.”

“Not our brightest idea.”

“Did you see that?”

“How did you get it destroyed like that?”

“Bye, bye, you won’t be missed.”

“This is a nightmare.”

“I have secrets you don’t know about.”

“I like that it’s just about us. Not anybody else.” (secret relationship)

“Let’s bet on who will out us first as a couple.” (secret relationship)

“We’re going to tell them, when we’re both ready.” (secret relationship)

“I kind of like the secretiveness.” (secret relationship)

“It’s had not to smile at you all the time, when we’re out with our friends.” (secret relationship)

“Be safe”

“Make sure to come back to me, okay?”

“I got these because I know they’re your favourite”

“I saw this earlier and I thought of you”

“Give me a hug please”

“I’d really love it if you came”

“Please stay”

“Just- uh … try not to die. I’m really not bothered to replace you”

“You’re leaving already? Nooooo~”

“[insert very specific insult]”

“Well maybe I like having you alive, ever thought about that?”

“You’re the only one I really want to be there”

“You’re my everything”

“I’d rather be hurt and be with you than be okay without you”

“I think in every reality, I still find you”

“I want to make something for you”

“There are people who love you, you know”

“Dedicated to [character name]”

“I did this for you”

“I would give all of this up for you”

“Stop worrying about you? Stop worrying about you?! I can barely stop thinking of you!”

“I wish I could stay here forever. Just me and you”

“Thankgodyou’reokay-”

“I won’t admit that I missed you”

“I made it the way you like it”

“I can’t stand not talking to you”

“I didn’t ask you to do that” “You didn’t have to”

“Don’t move - I’ll get it for you”

“Tell me all about [thing/person their partner is interested in]”

“You won’t take care of yourself so I will”

“[talks dreamily about their future with their partner]”

“When am I going to see you next?”

“I was thinking of you”

“You’re worth it”

“I’d rather just hang out with you, if I’m honest”

“I really like your hands”

“You’re the only reason I’m coming back”

“I am not leaving you”

“I knew you weren’t dead. I refused to believe it- I knew it couldn’t be true”

“Shut up and kiss me”

“I’ll take care of you as long as you need me”

“You’re not alone anymore”

“It’s okay it’s okay is got you”

“You don’t have to pretend with me”

“Whenever I’m with you I am real”

“Just you and me; that’s all I want”

“You’ve finally rendered me speechless”

“You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen”

“If only you could see yourself as I see you”

“Of course I waited for you”

“You’re the only thing that matters”

“I’ll always come when you need me to”

Referring to someone as “my [insert name]”

“Please, tell me everything”

“I haven’t felt anything like this before”

“Nothing in your past will ever stop me caring about you and loving you for who you are”

“I wasn’t sure which flavour you wanted so I got all of them”

“You don’t need to pay me back, it’s my pleasure I promise”

*talks about their future* *later talks about the same future but with their partner as a part of it*

“We’ll get through this together, okay?”

“Keep it. It looks better on you”

“Ive been dying to do this with you”

“Don’t say another word- I’m on my way”

“What did the world do to deserve you?”

“You make me happy all the time”

“I’m gonna go take a nap, wanna join?”

“I’m ready to be serious now. I promise”

“I would kill for you- not another person or anything. I’d kill a spider or someone’s hopes and dreams”

“You do be kinda sexy”

“Hmm? Oh sorry- I kinda zoned out while looking at your face … what are we talking about?”

“I’ll be with you every step of the way”

“I can’t say no to that face”

“Don’t worry- it’ll be a lot prettier at our wedding”

“IM NOT LEAVING YOU BEHIND!”

“When I get out of here I’m taking you with me”

“When the world does eventually end, there’ll be a little house on top of the horizon. It’ll be small and in shambles and always smell of laundry but it’ll be perfect. That’s where we’ll live- in our little house on the edge of the world”

“Youre family now”

“I will always be your best friend”

“I don’t want this to be a one time thing!”

“You are more than your flaws”

“I’m staying here whether you want me to or not”

“This one’s mine!”

“I’m just waiting it out until later when I can crawl into bed and cuddle you”

“Did I buy this cologne/perfume because you use it and the smell reminds me of you? Yes yes I did”

“You don’t have to waste your day doing this with me” “Nothing is a waste as log as you’re there”

“Ugh your FACE I LOVE IT”

“You’re the [blank] of my dreams”

“We’ll get through this together, okay?”

“The last thing I want to do is hold you back”

“Ask anyone- since I met you, I’ve changed for the better”

“Anyone with eyes can see how beautiful/talented you are”

“You got this”

“Go kick ass you beautiful machine of death”

“I’m here whenever you need me, okay?”

“I’ve never taken anyone here before”

“I want to be in your life, if you’ll let me”

“Ugh our kids are gonna be awesome”

“I thought you left” “Nope, just making pancakes”

“I never want to let you go”

“I can’t believe you remembered that” “I remember everything about you”

“I’m so proud of you”

“Did you just call me sweetheart?”

“Take my affection before I choke you with it”

“Is it okay if I fall asleep here?”

“I can keep you company till you fall asleep”

“I can’t imagine my life without you”

“You complete me”

“I’m counting down the days until I see you”

“I love your apartment” “Our apartment”

“Sorry for borrowing your clothes” “Dont be. You look great in them”

“One more kiss?”

“I’m so glad I met you”

“Can I try some of your food?” “Of course. Open wide”

“Thanks for believing in me”

“Don’t worry, I’ll take care of you”

“You’re breathtaking”

“You can me are gonna conquer the world. Just you wait”

“I never would’ve guessed that you were into that”

“Is it too early to kiss you?”

“You’re a menace to society. I can’t wait to see you again”

“I hate you so much” “You so that, but you’re totally gonna take me on a second date” “You have a point”

“Sorry my mum just called- Hey mum! I’m just on a date with someone who claims to marry me- oh they’re getting on one knee, stand up you’re gonna make a scene”

“Wow your childhood was deprived. I’m gonna show you what you missed”

“Ever heard of the 36 Questions that lead to love?”

“It’s been a while since I’ve been on a date”

“First kiss- that’s a lot of pressure”

“What are your Valentine’s Day traditions?”

“I know it’s a cliche day for a proposal but …”

“When you said a romantic surprise, I’d didn’t think that I’d be meeting your parents!”

“How fitting that we met on Valentine’s Day”

“I’ve been meaning to confess something”

“We were never just friends”

“There’s no reservation under that name”

“You’re dumping me? On Valentine’s Day?”

“If you make me watch one more rom-com, I’m going to die”

“I’m trying to tell you that I love you!”

“I’ve been dying to take you here”

“I hate to tell you this, but I’m allergic to those flowers”

“God, you’re beautiful”

“I know tonight has been a disaster-” “I got to spend the whole day with you. I call that a success”

“Our friends have been waiting for this to happen”

“I’ve wanted to do that for a long time”

“Shut up and kiss me again”

“I’ll be honest, I would kiss you so hard right now if my breath didn’t stink”

“Ha, your dream guy kinda sounds like me”

“You look gorgeous- I mean, you always look gorgeous you just look especially gorgeous right now”

“Of course I love you. You’re my best friend / you’re like a [sibling] to me / you’re family”

“Whoever you marry will be lucky to have you”

“There’s no way A likes me. I mean- come on- look at them. I would never be good enough for them”

“They don’t deserve you- okay?! You deserve someone who treats you like royalty because you deserve nothing less”

“What? I don’t like A! Why would you say that? No really- did A say they like me?”

“We’re bros. We’re bros! Best bros. Just bros”

“I mean, I’d totally kiss you if you asked”

“You said we were just friends. ‘Just friends’ don’t do … whatever we just did”

“WHY DID YOU AGREE TO GO CAMPING IF YOU HATE THE OUTDOORS?!”

“Can you put sunscreen on my back?”

“Stargazing is overrated. I’m going back to sleep”

“I used to come here all the time as a kid. It’s smaller than I remember”

“Oh my god” “Please don’t be mad” “Oh my god” “It was a mistake I promise” “Oh mY GOD!” “I’m sorry-” “yOU ATE ALL THE GRANOLA BARS?!”

“How long have you been feeling like this?! You’re clearly sick!”

“How are you still standing?”

“Shut up and tell my what your favourite type of soup/tea is”

“Here. I always cuddle this when I’m sick and it makes me feel better”

“Bold of you to assume I own medicine”

“I’ll be right over with chicken soup, a blanket and a Disney+ subscription”

“I hate to ask this … but whenever I’m sick there’s a movie I watch … can we watch The Spongebob Movie?”

“Shut up you love me. Why else would you be here, taking care of me while I hurl into a toilet?”

“I’d kiss you if I didn’t just throw up”

“My temperature may be hot, but you’re hotter”

“Just … stay, please”

“Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere”

“Welp, I’m dying. Time to draft the will!”

“I need you to promise me you won’t cry”

“You’re in my head more often than I want”

“If you can’t see your friends in person, what are friends for?”

“I tried to terminate this war with you, but you won’t let it go”

“Can I be real with you? I can’t look past some of the things you do”

“Write me back soon, I love you”

“Your smile makes me smile. No that’s cringe … your laugh makes me laugh- that’s even worse”

“I miss my lover, man”

“Another chapter in the history of wrong guys”

“Men are kind, until they’re not”

“Wait for me” “I will”

“Say something, talk to me”

“What makes you think I’d lose my mind for you?”

“Please don’t get morbid” “Right” “It’s just that I haven’t died yet”

“I see how you look at my sister”

“You don’t know you the way I do”

“I swear to fucking God Chris, I’ll turn this fucking car around”

“Dude, she’s just not into you”

“And it’s my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die”

“Everything is easier when you’re home”

“Why does it hurt to love you? Why am I in pain?

“I came out here for one thing; and that itty bitty one thing was to forget about you”

“What happened last night? Are you really here?”

“I should tell you that I think of you each night”

“I don’t need you to sell me on reasons to want you”

“If I could begin to be half of what you think of me, I could do about anything”

“You make me happy all the time and you know I’m a total dick”

“I know I’ve played with hearts before, don’t have the heart to play with yours”

“I can’t get you out of my head, now”

“Hey good lookin’, you’re so out of sight”

“If you could see the way that you look to me, I bet that you’d be amazed at the sight”

“I wouldn’t leave you. I would hold you”

“Who’d believe that we two would end up as lovers?”

“You came out of nowhere and you cut through all the noise”

“It’s so easy to forget that we have barely even met but I want no one else”

“If life has an ending I’m glad to be spending this little time with you”

“I’ve decided I must ride you till I break you”

“You’re the one I choose”

“What if when he/she/they see(s) me, he’s/she’s/they’re only disappointed?”

“You look just the same as I always remembered”

“Just say something, and break the silence”

“He’s not here. I am here”

“I’ve been alone so long, I didn’t even know I was lonely”

“She’s just this girl that I met on the internet”

“We were born to make history”

“It’s not a conspiracy theory. It’s true!”

“You’re doing it wrong”

“I’ll never find one that fits"

“You did what to my house?”

“When I was praying, I didn’t think you were the one listening”

“It’s not an addiction. It’s a coping mechanism”

“I ran out of stamps”

“She always was a beautiful liar”

“He told me I had the only one”

“You can’t keep holding that over my head”

“After all this time, it’s finally finished”

“Technically, it’s not illegal”

“I can’t believe you let me talk about that for an hour”

“There’s something under the bed”

“Keep it down! I’m trying to sleep!”

“I didn’t really like that song you recommended”

“What in the early-2000’s-rom-com?”

“No no no you’re telling the story all wrong”

“I never learned how to drive”

“My shift is over, please let me go home”

“You cut your hair”

“None of these trophies are mine”

“Too tight! Too tight!”

“I saved you a seat”

“That really didn’t live up to the hype”

“I ANGERED ONE OF THE CLOWNS WE NEED TO RUN!”

“You’re afraid of heights? Why did you go on the Ferris wheel?!”

“If a genie offered you three wishes, what would you wish for?”

“So … you married?” “Tried the marriage thing, didn’t really work out”

“I’ve spent forever thinking about what I’d say to you when I saw you again. Now that you’re here in front of me, I can’t seem to find the words”

“It’s good to know that you’re still the same old A”

“We said we’d be friends forever, now look at us”

“Listen … I’m sorry about how we left things”

“You’re making a fool out of me” “You’re making a fool out of yourself”

“If I want to get through the night, I’m gonna need a lot more alcohol”

“You’re cute when you blush”

“You okay B? You’re acting strange” “Yup! Yep yep yep couldn’t be better. Just a little hot- is anyone else hot?”

“A, I will make you pay for his”

“I’ve never seen you squirm so much”

“When we meet your parents, I’m gonna get my revenge”

“I love embarrassing you”

“I’ve never been so humiliated in my life”

“Oh come on, I know you can do better than that”

“You promised me a challenge. Do you always disappoint like this?”

“Aw you’re ticklish”

“If you wanted to cuddle you could’ve just said so”

“I thought you were gonna teach me a lesson”

“Damn, you really enjoy pinning me down”

“I’ll get you next time, mark my words”

“Hold my hand” “I don’t want to hold your hand” “Suck it up you have to” “I hate you so much” “Shut up and hold it already” (fake dating)

“I told everyone we came in here to make out. That should buy us some time” (fake dating)

“DONT COME IN! WE’RE UH- HAVING SEX!” (fake dating)

“If I can’t call you honey, what pet names can I call you?” (fake dating)

“Look, that right there totally meant nothing. We’re just committed to this ‘fake dating’ thing so much that we made out behind this building. It happens!” (fake dating)

“Be real with me; how much of this was fake?” (fake dating)

“They left- you can let go of my hand now” (fake dating)

“Everyone’s gone, why are you still kissing me?” “Because I don’t think I can stop” (fake dating)

“You’re my new pillow”

“If we both want to fit, we’ll have to cuddle”

“This is my favourite place in the whole world”

“I want to stay up with you”

“Dance with me”

“Come on. Tell me a story”

“We need to talk”

“You let this happen to him”

“You’re not who I thought you were”

“Just hold me”

“What a waste of a perfectly good dress”

“You’re too much”

“I kept all the postcards”

“I never learned how to swim”

“I’ve been practising all year and I think I’m ready to show you”

“This used to belong to my mom”

“You’re going to have a fate worse than execution”

“Just imagine the old ghosts that fill these rooms”

“I never thought I’d come back here”

“I sent you so many letters, did you not get them?”

“I’m sick of being ashamed of who I am”

“This is your final warning”

“I don’t believe in luck”

“How is this not enough for you?”

“I want you to come with me”

“Tonight, let’s forget about the rest of the world”

“I can’t believe the train is late”

“Something bad is brewing down there”

“Let’s promise to never forget tonight”

“Your jokes aren’t funny anymore”

“I thought that was lost forever”

“Oof, who died?”

“You couldn’t have worn something more appropriate?”

“I didn’t know which one you wanted, so I got them all”

“I don’t need a new year to be a new me”

“You will never redeem yourself. Stop trying”

“Put that away, people are watching”

“My mother used to say that”

“I feel like I’m suddenly wide awake”

“You look really good in my clothes”

“This reminded me of you”

“Your hands are warm”

“I just want to relax in your arms”

“Let’s go home” “I’m already home”

“Make a wish!”

“I could just stare at you forever” “Creep”

“I’m so lucky to know you”

“You’re the most beautiful being on the earth”

“Hold me”

“You smell amazing”

“I wish you could see the way I see you”

“What are you doing?” “I was trying to make pancakes but it didn’t exactly work”

“This isn’t just a(n) [object], it’s a promise”

“Sing to me again”

“Come back to bed”

“You’re the only person I want to spend my life with”

“My parents love you”

“. . . sorry, I talked too much” “No no no not at all. Keep talking”

“Oh my god you never told me you could cook”

“Our kids are gonna be *mwah*!”

“Come on. I’ll show you how to dance”

“I can’t believe I never heard you sing before”

“I know you had a bad day, so I made you cookies”

“Let’s go and look at the stars”

“Is that . . . is that a dog?”

“I’m gonna need someone to kiss at midnight”

“I can’t stop thinking about you”

“Get on my shoulders, you’ll see better”

“Is be a great parent, I’m just saying”

*Fogs up mirror and writes a message*

“I never thought I could miss someone this much”

“Not to be drastic, but I would jump off of a cliff for you”

“You’re breathtaking”

“You’re my new pillow”

“It’s time that you tried my world famous Mac & Cheese”

“Remember back when we were kids?”

“Here’s another fun fact-”

“I don’t know what I’d do if something happened to you”

“I slept for . . . like . . . six hours”

“You come here often?” “This is literally my house”

“This is my favourite too!”

“Either burn the book or buy me a pizza”

“Karaoke with me or I’ll never talk to you again”

“You’ve never been to the beach?”

“Are we locked in?”

“Are we locked out?”

“I had a dream about you last night”

“Remember when we came here as kids?”

“Who’s kid is this?”

“This is why I hate IKEA”

“No offense, you look like a raccoon”

“My hair is stuck!”

“I think that’s mine”

“Can’t wait to meet the family”

“Once again, I’m getting the urge to start a small business”

“No more breadsticks for you. You’re addicted”

“Quit trying to change the subject! You need to tell her what you did”

“What do you mean you forgot your trousers?”

“Just sign it, please”

“You’ve never seen Mamma Mia?!”

“I’ve been dying to show you this”

“When things go wrong, you talk to someone; you don’t put a witch curse on someone!”

“Hide! We’re not supposed to be here”

“You stole this design!”

“Don’t you dare touch me”

“You let them do this to me!”

“You don’t deserve this pain”

“Why don’t you go crying to them then, huh? That’s what you did last time”

“I can’t kiss you knowing that they kissed you too”

“Leave”

“I told you to stay away from me”

“I can’t believe you forgot”

“All you care about is yourself”

“I thought I told you to never come back here”

“I can’t even look at you”

“This is what your selfishness did!”

“You are evil, cruel, foul and you break everything you touch”

“It’s okay if you don’t blame yourself because I sure do”

“Please don’t leave me here”

“Every time I try to fix something I just make it worse”

“You don’t deserve what I put you through”

“Nightmares again?”

“Every time I close my eyes, I see their face(s)”

“It’s all just . . . too much”

“Everyone I’ve loved has gotten hurt. I can’t let that happen to you”

“So all those times you said you loved me, they were just jokes?”

“Hey, you gotta stay awake, okay?”

“I just wanted to see your face one last time”

“You didn’t want to hurt me? Well guess what asshole, you hurt me”

"It's called safety pin for a reason."

"Fine. I'll do it."

"That's really wonderful."

"I could use a hug right now."

"You're so stubborn!"

"Kiss me and/or shut up."

"Where does it hurt?"

"Honey, I'm home!"

"I would kill for dinner right now."

"The future is a mystery."

"Can't believe your still alive."

"Did you hear that?"

"I won't be participating."

"You're welcome to try."

"This looks kind of weird."

"How did you get in here?"

"Oh, the naive youth."

"This is definitely what you think it is."

"Are you trying to make me angry?"

"It's truly a miracle."

"We're way too drunk for this."

"Following the rules is boring."

"Good morning and goodbye."

"That was... interesting."

"Well, it is what it is."

"Last chance!"

"Not my first choice."

"Oops, too late."

"So many ideas, so little time."

"It was nice meeting you."

"You have to choose now."

"No. Not going to happen."

"Better say our goodbyes now."

"I won't let this happen."

"Everything went according to plan."

"We will not go there."

"Hmm. Not what I expected at all."

"The wonderful world of high school drama."

"Believe me, it was a struggle."

"Hard cash is a girl's best friend."

"Fine, let's do it."

"You live to annoy me, don't you?"

"I don't anything you say."

"Let's forget any of this ever happened."

"Well, that's your bad."

"Come on, take my hand."

"Bake me a cake, and we'll talk."

"Funny that you say that..."

"Is that my present?"

"That's my final answer."

"Looks good on you."

"How would you know that?"

"There are worse ways to die."

"Come on, let's be real..."

"Oh, I love how dramatic this is."

"What did you say?"

"I don't like this at all."

"Would you please just kiss me?"

"Why would you even care?"

"A day at the zoo, is what you need."

"This feels wrong."

"I've been thinking about you."

"Are you sure about that?"

"Don't worry, I got this."

"You're so crazy."

"Why are you always so dramatic?"

"I swear, it's the truth."

"None of this is my fault."

"You do know that we're in public, right?"

"I like that about you."

"Would you just shut up please?"

"Safety first!"

"You do have a stupid face."

"It was just a joke."

"Promise me just one thing..."

#prompts #writing prompts #dialogue prompts

6 notes · View notes

gottalovelifeya · 3 years ago

Text

First off let me say, I love her and want to be with her some of this may seem mean but all I can do is my best to get the complete msg out there and out there clearly.

Honestly after as open and honest as I've bene, and after putting up with this sick game, after telling her every last thing about myself, and after telling her every feeling I have for her, there's nothing I can say now toake her believe me.

If she throws all that away, because I forgot something wene asked, than honestly Itell still hurt, but I can definitely get over her, and I'm not saying that in a mean way.

These past 3 weeks, I've just had to put up with alot and and bene on a emotional rollercoaster, and you know what, ill still do it and would do it again of there was even a chance with her.

I just have this problem were I need to know information about potential threats/hazards/BS and she's never bene in a world like, were you have to plan for every single outcome were lives could be the price of not doing that, she dosnt understand, but that's one of my flaws I carry from my past, because I've seen a fucked up world were you don't just see your home town, wene your mind is on the globe as a hole and just haveing to consume news and media and know what's going on everywhere becuse you have to be ready to go there in a moment's notice to go fight and die, I spilled blood on the other side of the world so that people here don't have to think the way I do and experience what I've bene threw, you have to transform your mind into a mithoducal and cold calculated risk assessing thing, you have to imbrace that there are people in the world who want, you, your loved ones, and your fellow countrymen dead, all because they just hate that you exist

A good quote that summarizes why I'm this way, and it really speaks volumes

- good men do bad things, so that you can lay your head down at night and never have to see the reality of how terrifying the world is.

you have to fortify your mind and start thinking in a completely different way to love that life, you have to be ready and willing to do so really Hanis shit to keep the people close to you safe weather it's your brothers in arms or your family, because the world is nobody's friend, and I'm a product of the military mind set, it was our job, to find people and distroy them. And how I find people now is a extremely waters down version of why kinds of resources I had than.

But here in good ol' america you don't destroy people, you don't hunt down people, you don't phisicaly hurt someone unless it's a last resort, and a peacful agreement cant be reached. This is all just step to take preventative action latter so a real problem can't happen.

So lets talk about a little backdrop to set the tone for what all that means, so there's this other guy that if me and her got together like I've bene blogging about, I see a possibility of him being a problem, and once I have her I can't loose her to some dumb shit like this game were playing, so if I ever found out, I would go to his house nock on his door, and tell him to quit his shit, and thated be the end of it, and not trying to be scary but I know his name, face, work history, and phone number, and address.

With information like that, you just show up at someone's home and say hey don't fuck with my life or the people in it, and the magority of people in this world would take that as a sign to back off and comply. And thated just be the end of it

These past 3 weeks, All I know is Ive put up with to much shit and bene put threw to much pain and dread, and just living this horrible reality were were she actually is with someone else but have to accept it, because I can't just call him and end it or do some off the wall shit that would ultimately hurt her or make her look bad

So all I'm saying is, if I forgot to say one little detail wene you asked a question the worlds not ending so do t let it. I really am sorry I forgot to say something, but honestly wene I told you I knew his name I didn't know this other stuff, and there's no way it was just 4 days ago that I told you that I told you his name weeks ago.

Cut me a little slack, your not the one getting screwed over. I've bene nothing but good to you and done all you will let me do to help you. So don't throw away all we've talked about and cryed over because if this. I'm on your side, and you know what I just haven't bene treated right in all this, and I put up with it because in the end this life with you would be worth that. but that's not fair to me

Because I'm sorry to say, I've seen the world and know how bad it is, now yes running a background check on a boyfriend might be a little extreme and overkill for the situation, but hey, that's the world I come from, and I just need to know what I'm up against.

So love if you read this, this isn't me being mean or hatefull, I'm just trying to tell my story so I can read it, and figure it out on my side of things, I honestly don't think I did anything worng, I didn't intend to withhold information. Shit just happens, so please don't think bad of me

But that statement towerds the top, if your willing to though this away, or abandon me for a slip up, and just me haveing control over my life, and wanting information, than honestly the illusion will be broken and I'll be fine, if I'm worth that little to you, and if this of all things kills it you realy were just a dream

Again this is for me, this is my story of the night, I still love you, and I still want you, but if you cut off what we got going because you think I'm scary or hideing shit your a lost cause, because I can't fix or change that, that's a you thing at that point.

Don't take offense because your still saying you have to think about it. That's just the outcome of my thot process if you really cant come to terms or just accept that flaw of mine, becuse I accept your flaws, for better or worse, becuse nobody's perfect and love is looking past the flaws and seeing the person, and that why I tell you your perfect because I can see who you are, and I can see your soul and I know your a good person dispite the past and our current challenges.

We've just bene shaped by 2 different worlds, I promise I'm not a bad guy, and I promise I'm not scary, but information is power, and in that game I hold every card and hold It close to my chest. Because if there's ever a real problem itell get handled, because I don't play games on or with people, except for this one scenario we find our selves in now, because I see a light at the end of the tunnel and its your prity little face.

Regardless I'll always be here for you if you call and need something, weather it's me or just help from me. Hell it can litterly be anything you want.

Let me just explain this before I wrap this up, how do I find what I find, how do I know what I know, so anytime someone links there email to something, anytime they make an account, anytime you do anything on the internet, or register a vehicle, claim a asset, or do anything that gets submitted into a data base, you leave a trail behind you. So will call them "crumbs", so whenever someone wants to find something out they can use those "crumbs" to patch everything together, it's all public information, its all out there, anybody can do it, it's just learning to do it is the complicated part and it's something you have to show, I could never explain it to you, now there are hundreds of ways to protect yourself, but once your out there you can never make any of it go away, you can only prevent future "crumbs" from showing up, so it's all out there and anybody, can use the "crumbs" to search who you are and anything about you, everything I found was done legally, and it's all online, its there for the world to see, but again your average person dosnt think like me, because it's almost like a puzzle and you have to take words, emails, and found accounts, and then bend and find trends to find more, I believe it's called analytics but I'm not 100% basically is observation and patterns, and once you learn to see patterns the way I do, all you need is a single crumb, and for me that was his name, and then it leads to everything else. Public records are a scary thing, and the shit people post on the internet is baffling that you'd let random people see your life. I'll teach you about computer security of you want. And how to not leave "crumbs"

So I hope this all gives you something to think about and maby explains my feeling on it, I don't know honestly, I'm just more interested to see if you can except me at this point because I've told you everything and bene 100% honest, and with everything I've put up with in this situation, if you can't accept me now, itell say alot about you as a person, and again itell suck, but if you can't, than I honestly won't want anything to do with you, it would really feel like betrayal honestly, I've full given myself to you, and if this is enough to completely thro you off your game and think I'm a monster or a bad person, than wear not ment to be. I deal with my problems my own way and I make plains and seek information to prevent future problems.

Also that trust problems stuff, it really is just me being upset about the phone blocking thing, I think that's a sick discussting thing to do to someone who loves you. And ied appreciate it if you just never did it again.

And the trust comment about his address, water under the bridge.

So, I really do love you with all my heart, and I really do care about you and appreciate you. And all I want is to build a happy life and family with you.

I am a good person and I will be good to you and our future family, but to anybody who trys to take you or my family, they won't be tolerated. And I just don't see how that's a bad or scary thing, that I'm playing 4D Chess so that issues can't become problems. Hell look at my retirement as an example, I'm 23 and will never have financial problems, I've accounted for the future and played my cards smartly. So I know everything know so that I can peacefully resolve a situation later. That's all it is.

So reach out wene your ready, and I'll respect whatever you have to say about it, wether you accept it or if you don't, for better or worse. Just don't think I'm scary, and don't think any off this is mean, don't think anything bad would ever happen to him. I'm not a thug and I'm not a murderer, I'm simply a guy who looks out for himself and his household.

So just take your time and think, and hell ied almost say wait until you dicide to leave him or not, then reach out, but it's all about how you want this to go, I just know how fragile this is so this will be my last post, and I'll just wait on word from you. So if you read this and don't think I explained it well, or it just dosnt sit right with you.

Than, I love you, always remember I love you, and know in your heart for all my imperfections and all my flaws I love you, and Ill always here for you if you need me

And last but not least this isnt me giving up hope, and I'm not turning my back on you, my feelings are hurt, and my pacints is thin, but none of this is me trying to take It out on you, or me trying to be spitefull to you.

hopefully the next time we talk, you will accept me for me, and yull be single.

I love you

0 notes

ongly · 7 years ago

Text

Please: Part 2.

Shawn and his friends are (pleasant) loud neighbors with a prefect timing.

I wanted to post it yesterday but anatomy kept me up all night and I had a lot of editing to do before posting it. I think it’s a bit longer but I wouldn’t have written it any other way. I hope you like it, honestly! I have many ideas on my mind for a few blurbs, so tell me what you think or if you want to see anything specific next time. I’m open to any ideas and I want to start posting more. Thank you so much for the feedback! It was lovely. Enjoy xxx

Part 1 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5

You stared, rather disappointed, at the end of your mug after taking the last sip of your third coffee. It had passed a little more than five minutes, but, for your surprise, it was all working out. You edited a few slides here and there, and you were done.

You let your head tilt to one side and then the other, cracking your neck bones, taking a long and deep breath after it. I did it. You felt lighter, like all of your worries about tomorrow’s presentation had simply flown away. You had managed to focus completely on what you had to do and you were proud of the final work. Although it had been hard to focus in the beginning, you felt more than prepared to do it. You looked down at your phone only to see it was way past 3am. Your thoughts flew back to your neighbor’s apartment, which was rather quiet now.

It was very nice of to keep it down, as you had asked, but you couldn’t help but feel a little worn-out. Not only because you were physically tired, but because you expected there would be some kind of reason that would make you go there again, some stupid little reason that would give you an opportunity to knock on that door again and see his lost puppy look, for the first time, over and over again. You had had only one interaction but you felt like you couldn’t get enough of it, whatever that was.

You turned off your laptop and went to put it back in your bedroom. You placed it in your bed, knowing you would use it to watch a movie to help you go to sleep, since you had had a lot of coffee, when you heard laughter coming from the other side of the wall. They were still up. They quickly stopped as if someone was telling them to shut up. A smile formed on your lips as you looked down.

You took your glasses off and untied your hair, letting it fall into messy waves. You were fighting your own thoughts, trying to get them in the back of your mind again. It would be ridiculous to go there. You wanted to though, but you had nothing to say. Your mind went blank when you needed it the most. You felt an impulse to go there but you were afraid you would embarrass yourself again if you’d just go tell them you were finished. You had mentioned doing it, to Shawn, but you wouldn’t expect him to take you seriously. You didn’t even mean it... at least you thought. You considered a few ways to go there, only to feel shyer about it. They were still up. That must mean something and before you know it, you’re walking towards your front door.

You clearly had nothing to lose. You knew they didn’t come to the apartment much and after a few months you would be out too, so you might as well just have fun with it now.

You closed your apartment door behind you and walked slowly to the other door, trying to keep your distance, not wanting to have another boy stumbling over you, out of nowhere. You were praying that the marks of your glasses on your nose had disappeared by that moment. You stood up straight in front of the door and knocked.

It didn’t take two seconds for it to open and reveal Shawn with a few heads popping out behind him, to see who it was. You felt the heat on your cheeks intensify as you smiled, placing each of your hands on your jean’s back pockets.

Shawn gave you a sly smile.

“Hey!” You heard Geoff in the back raising his chopsticks. You waved shyly and gave him a quiet ‘hi’. You moved your gaze back to Shawn.

“So.. neighbor,” He teased. “I thought you had gone to sleep already.” He said, leaning over the door, clearly mocking you.

“No, I was still working..” You started but he didn’t let you finish.

“I wonder what your definition of five minutes might be, because it’s clearly not the same normal people usually have.” He mocked you, rubbing his nose.

You looked down smiling, taking your hands off of your pockets and crossing your arms over your chest. He gave you a quiet ‘hoo’ as if he had just touched a nerve, mirroring your figure and crossing his arms too.

“Well I wonder what your definition of silence might be, because the only thing you did was to stop playing guitar.” He frowned. “There must be a really good comedian in there.” You said, refering to the loud laughter you heard, looking inside the house and then back at him.

His features changed immediately. He gave you a worried look, his eyes big and sparkly and his mouth slightly open.

“Were we too loud?!” He leaned in a little, thinking he had done something worng.

You let out a chuckle and leaned in a little.

“What?” You laughed quietly, noticing his smile grow in his face.

He thought your laugh sounded beautifully, although you were trying to make it quiet. You looked down a little and then back at him, still laughing. You took a step closer to him, placing one hand over his forearm, still laughing a bit. He had no idea how cute he was.

“Your eyes got so big.” You commented still giggling, quickly removing your hand from his forearm, breaking the physical contact as if a sparkle had made you step back by instinct. He let out a chuckle, amused at your beauty. How hadn’t he noticed it before?

You showed up at his door a little different, compared to your nerdy, cute look from moments ago. Although, to you, it felt like you looked the same, he thought your hair looked soft as it fell over your shoulders and your eyes were bigger without the glasses. Your lashes pat slowly as you looked at him, still lost in your own little joke.

“Aren’t you aware of what noise you make or if it’s too loud?” You asked, still smiling at how cute he looked with his sudden worry.

“Yeah, I mean…” He stuttered and leaned back again, shifting uncomfortably, cheeks slightly flustered, taking one hand to rub the back of his neck. “I hope we weren’t too loud, I’m sorry.” He apologized in advance. You nodded quickly.

“No, no!” You rose both of your hands in defense. “That’s not what I meant! I was absolutely joking.” You smiled and he let out a chuckle. He was about to answer when one of his friends called him.

He looked back and you took a step back, assuming this was all you would get.

“Oh yeah!” He commented back to his friends inside the apartment, and you frowned unaware of what they had possibly said. Then he looked at you. “I almost forgot!” He smiled.

He stepped to the side and gestured you to come in.

“Geoff got sushi for you too. We didn’t know if you were coming back so he got food for you anyways…”

You frowned and looked inside, hesitating.

“You didn’t have to… I just came here to..” He cut you off, gladly, because you still had no idea what the hell you were doing there.

It would sound ridiculous either way. There was no other explanation then the one that you were, in fact, there to see him. Even if you showed up at his door and explain you had finished your work so they could possibly continue theirs, you would go back to your apartment and do what? Sleep? Oh so you couldn’t work with the noise, but you could sleep..? You were glad this took an unexpected, good, but unexpected turn and smiled.

“Please.” He smiled sweetly. You started walking inside and felt one of his hands on the small of your back as he closed the door behind you and lead you inside the house, to the living area.

They were all sitting around the living room, eating. Some of them were even sitting on the floor, around the coffee table. There was a basketball game playing on TV so only a few turned around to greet you. Shawn took the opportunity as soon as he saw it, and tricked you.

“Guys this is…” He looked at you, waiting for an answer, which he had personally been waiting to get all night, hoping you would eventually show up.

“Y/N.” You said quietly. They smiled and greeted you, getting a little cozier with each other, to make space for you.

“This is Teddy” Shawn started to introduce them and pointed out at a guy with glasses, enjoying his sushi. He waved at you quickly, his mouth full. You waved back. “That’s Mike and Dave.” He pointed out at two guys in the front of the TV, sitting on the floor. They gave you a quick ‘hi’ still not taking their eyes away from the screen. “Andrew…” He pointed at the guy sitting on a big chair. He looked up from his phone and smiled at you, greeting you.

Shawn lead you closer to the couch.

“I’m Eddy” The guy on the couch smiled at you, gesturing you to sit down and you gave him a quiet ‘thank you’ as you did.

“And that’s Zubin and Scott.” Shawn pointed at the other two guys sitting on the couch on the opposite side. They smiled and Scott, you thought, pushed a few plates from the coffee table, closer to you and Shawn.

“And you know Geoff..” Shawn finished and you chuckled.

“I hope you like sushi, Y/N.” Geoff started, his mouth half full.

“You didn’t ask her?” Teddy asked. You smiled.

“I didn’t have time! They were closing and I ha..” They started stumbling in their own words, trying to speak at the same time.

“No, it’s fine!” You interrupted as you tried to get comfortable on the couch, followed by Shawn who sat down next to you. “I love it.” You admitted it. “Thank you, you really didn’t have to.” You politely smiled at Geoff, holding a plate Shawn was handing you. Geoff smiled and then looked back at the TV.

Shawn took a pair of chopsticks and leaned in, sitting on the edge of the couch to get closer to the coffee table, holding his own plate.

“What do you want to eat?” He asked, ready to serve you.

His curls were falling over his forehead as he lent in, clearly too tall for such a tiny coffee table. He extended his arm pointing at everything with his chopsticks, asking what you preferred, slightly struggling to hold them correctly.

“Do you want some sesame rolls?” He pointed out. You hated sesame rolls.

You felt flattered but at the same time you felt bad because you weren’t expecting any of this. If it weren’t for the guitar in first place you would probably be skining in your bed covers crying to ‘Love and Other Drugs’ or something. You thought it would be impolite to refuse any of his offers, but your eyes travelled back to the sashimi package, still untouched.

“Yes, thank you.” You accepted, repelled by the look of it.

Shawn struggled to hold the sesame roll. You extended your plate quickly so he wouldn’t just drop it, although you were, without any consent, wishing he would drop it in another plate or something, so you didn’t have to eat it. Jesus Christ Y/N!

“Do you need help?” You asked giggling, as Shawn’s trembling hand tried to hold firmly the chopsticks to serve you.

He finally put the roll on your plate and smiled shyly.

“Shawn you’re the family’s disgrace.” One of his friends, Zu-something, commented and you giggled a little as you noticed his cheeks turn redder.

He avoided your gaze shyly while picking another sesame roll for himself.

“Shut up.” He said quietly, picking other rolls and putting it in your plate and then in his.

“You’re so polite Shawnie!” Geoff mocked him and you tried to hold your laughter as you watched Shawn struggle with the chopsticks, nervously trying to get them in your plate all at once.

They all started to mock him and you could notice his discomfort while serving you under everyone’s gaze. You smiled and leaned closer to him.

“Is that sashimi?” You asked quietly, getting his attention as you pointed out. He looked at the table and nodded.

“Do you want some?” He asked, almost in a whisper while looking at you.

His eyes were a bit red, probably from tiredness. They were a shade of light brown. They were sparkly from all the light in the room. You noticed he had a lazy eye and you were onehundred percent sure that it was the most unusual and beautiful detail you had ever seen on him, ever.

Your eyes went back to the table and you knew no one had touched the sashimi yet and felt bad. You hesitated a little.

“I mean..” You whispered at him, trying to look everywhere but his eyes. “No one touched it yet. I can just eat some of those salmon rolls” You commented, pointing out.

He let out a quiet chuckle. No. You can’t love that noise too.

“Y/N you can eat whatever you want. Please, just tell me what you’d like to have.” He shrugged innocently, smiling at you and then leaning in over the table again to serve you.

“I really want sashimi.” You smiled shyly and he chuckled, turning his gaze to the table to serve you.

Although he was still struggling, it was easier to hold the sashimi, which he successfully placed in your plate.

You extended your plate, getting it closer to the table to make it easier for him and after a few more rolls you thanked him. He offered you his own chopsticks, politely telling you they were clean, not that it bothered you, and you sat back on the couch.

Eddy put down his already empty plate on the coffee table and shifted on the couch to give you more space to be comfortable. You smiled and then drove your attention back to Shawn.

Shawn served himself a few more rolls and then sat back on the couch, placing a tiny bowl with sauce on the corner of his plate. He comfortably leaned back on the couch, turning himself to you as you started to eat.

“Hm!” Shawn slightly moaned, turning to you, struggling to eat his sushi roll quickly, before speaking out. “Do you want soy sauce or something?” He asked, leaning in the table to get it for you. You nodded and he gave you his plate for you to hold it as he got on the edge of the couch to get a tiny bowl with soy sauce for you.

“How long have you been living next door, Y/N?” Andrew asked, putting his phone down.

You looked up at him. You smiled and shrugged.

“For about 2 months.” You answered.

Andrew seemed to be sweet but, somehow, intimidated you. Out of all of the boys in the room, he appeared to be the most serious.

“Really?” He looked surprised. “We had no idea there was someone living next door. It’s always very quiet whenever we come here.”

Shawn took his plate from your hands and placed the tiny bowl of sauce in the corner of your plate. You thanked him quietly as he sat back slowly, trying not to pour yours and his sauce all over the couch.

“But aren’t you from around here?” Andrew asked, you nodded, dipping one of your sushi rolls on the sauce.

“No.” Your voice came out in a slightly pitiful tone. “I wish!” You chuckled, looking back at Andrew. “I’m here just for my internship program and then I’ll go back home.” You explained.

Andrew nodded and let you put your sushi roll on your mouth as you started to eat. He was about to ask you something else when Geoff turned around and looked at you and Shawn.

You were sitting on the couch, legs crossed, holding your plate on your lap as you ate. Shawn was sitting on the couch, turned on his side so he would be facing you, one leg up on the couch, holding his plate close to his chin not to let the food fall on the couch.

“I hope you’re not giving her your disgusting sauce, Shawn” Geoff commented.

Shawn instantly laughed and a few of his friends reacted rather worried. What was with his sauce? You looked at Shawn, who swallowed what he had in his mouth and smiled.

“You have to try it.” He told you, rather excited about it.

“No!” Eddy warned you, next to you, dramatically holding his hands up.

“Do you have a death wish?” Teddy turned to you and you nodded smiling. Of course you didn’t, especially not now. “Then do it.” He jokingly said, earning a chuckle from Shawn.

“Come on, you’re going to love it.” Shawn said, taking his plate closer to you, for you to serve yourself at your will.

“Look around Y/N.” Scott started. “Why do you think there’s no wasabi left on the table?” He smiled and Shawn started to laugh.

“No way!” You started. He hadn’t done it. He couldn’t have done it.

You turned to Shawn and your eyes widened as you looked at his tiny bowl of sauce. You couldn’t believe he would do such thing.

“You poured it all in there?!” You pointed at his sauce with your chopsticks, your mouth slightly opened in surprise.

“No, it’s good I promise.” Shawn assured you.

Geoff and Andrew let out a loud laugh and Teddy was nodding at you, daring you to do it. You wanted to do it but you were afraid it would be too spicy. Your first impression towards them would go down the toilet if you ended up puking all over the living room. You loved sushi and all the concept of it, but you hated anything that would make your tongue burn and your eyes cry.

“Don’t trust him” Zubin started. “His face does not match his intentions right now! Save yourself.” He jokingly said, watching Shawn get offended as the others laughed.

“What if..” You started only to be cut off by Geoff.

“Don’t do it Y/N.” He smiled at you, nodding his head in refusal.

Fuck it. What could possibly go wrong with this sweet boy’s sauce.

“You’ll love it, try.” Shawn smiled.

You took your chopsticks and held a sushi roll up, taking it to Shawn’s tiny bowl of sauce.

“Just a little bit, you don’t have to dip the whole roll.” Shawn suggested, making the boys burst into laughter.

“Are those the words you want her to hear before she dies?” Scott joked.

“Save it, Mendes.” Geoff laughed.

Oh boy. You knew you were up to no good when you got the roll closer to your mouth and you could smell it. It was bad. It was really bad.

You took the smallest bite you could. Everyone had their eyes on you as you tasted it. As soon as you closed your mouth and let it rest on your tongue your nose wrinkled. You shivered. It burned like hell. Not only it had wasabi, but you were sure it had ginger too. It tasted awful and you wanted to spit it out. Shawn let out a small laugh at your adorable expression. You closed your eyes and tried to just swallow it all at once, turning your head to the other side, nodding your head, not believing you had just eaten that.

The boys let out a laugh and started mocking Shawn about how disgusting it was and how he would never get over the fact that it was not normal to put that much wasabi in soy sauce.

You swallowed it and looked around the table, trying to search for something to eat and ease the flavor, that you could still taste in your mouth. You felt Eddy’s hand on your shoulder and you slightly turned around to see him holding up a glass with a drink. You looked at it and then back at him frowning.

“It’s coke.” He assured you and let out a small chuckle.

“She’s questioning everything now!” Mike laughed along with the others as Shawn looked at you in amusement while you took a sip on the glass, placing it over the coffee table once you were done.

You turned to Shawn, still holding your chopsticks with the rest of your chewed sushi roll, looking at it in disgust, handing it to Shawn.

“You don’t like it?” He asked, smiling at you.

“Are you serious right now…? What are you?” You asked, still feeling it in your mouth. “I think I’m going to cry.” You wrinkled your nose again and he laughed, never taking his eyes of you.

This was your favorite kind of person. The one that smiles with his eyes and is not afraid to tell anyone how they feel about things or the one who is not afraid of showing it either. That sees fun in everything, that laughs charmingly and nothing matters more than to have joy around him. Your favorite kind of person is the one that likes to be happy.

You were still holding the remains of your sushi roll and Shawn leaned in. You took it to his mouth, nervously, as he got closer to you. You were shaking at this point.

“You don’t know how to hold them either!” Shawn teased as he pointed at your shaky hand, laughing.

“Come on.” You tried to hurry him as you slightly blushed, trying not to drop it.

He got closer and ate it. You put down your chopsticks and smiled, wrinkling your nose again at his pleased look while he ate that mess of a sushi roll.

Geoff observed you too, commenting something with Andrew. Shawn noticed it and then looked at you in amusement. You smiled and looked down shyly, only gazing back up when Andrew’s voice sounded.

“You don’t happen to be from all around to world, do you?”

should i keep going with this?

262 notes · View notes