#Please dont read this and get scared away from being ace
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I've been trading existential dread with my queerplatonic wife for a while now. Because she's dealing with the crazy world of dating as a pretty queer girl in Texas. And I'm somewhere in a pit about my AroAce identity and the fact that I can't live independently from my parents now. (yes I know that's a capatilist ploy but I'm a hyper independent oldest daughter that was supposed to have my life together by know before surprise disability wrecked all of my dreams. So give me a while to mourn please.)
And one of the things she's helped me put into words is about how fucking lonely and useless and pathetic I feel. Because, most people, especially women, my age start to deal with their physical and mental restrictions with the support of a partner. I mean early twenties is peak, "we're both fucked up and afraid but at least we have each other," years.
And being an AroAce person, I don't have that option as readily available. I don't have people who are willing to support me, and spend time with me, and help me figure myself out. Because I'm not trading sex and romantic connection.
I'm in desperate need of human connection. Of a place to live outside my childhood home. Of emotional support. Of someone to listen to me rant at 10 p.m. And hold my hand when I'm scared and encourage me to better myself. To push myself to grow under these near impossible conditions. And I don't have that.
I can't rely on my family. Not because their bad people but because they're similarly isolated and emotionally neglected people that are hanging on by a thread and have been for most of my life. But at least my parents have each other.
I'm starting to get scared that I'll never find that connection. Because I need so much, and I can't offer the basic currency that people my age trade in.
Most of the time I like to think of that as a good thing. I don't need to worry about who I do or don't fall for because it'll never happen. I don't have to worry about 'losing the spark' or falling out of love with someone. Because I won't ever love them in such a flimsy way. I can focus on my try compatibility with my future partners. Our emotional and physical needs. Our preferences. Our boundaries, and similar interests.
But that's optimistic future me who has a job and a car, whose been through therapy, and figured themselvs out, and isn't a burden in a relationship. That's not now me. Now me is not someone I would ever consider dating and asking anyone else to date me feels so unfair. Like I'm taking advantage of them. Like I don't have enough to offer in return. (again hyper independence.)
And part of me wants so badly to just going to give in and take the first offer. To just say the right things and put out and pretend like I can connect with someone in a way I so clearly cannot.
I know in the future I will have so much to offer if I can just make it there. But that feels impossible to do on my own. And quite frankly I just don't have anyone.
But it isn't fair to myself or to anyone else for me to knowingly lie to them to receive the support I need. And I couldn't mentally handle it even if I tried.
It's just so hard to build relationships with other people when you don't have that foundation of attraction that everyone seems to think is so intricate to human connection.
I want a relationship built on respect and meeting each others needs. And communication and support. I want to be adult and mature about this. But the truth of the matter is that I am young and alone and lost. And I need help. I don't have hardly anything to offer and need so much.
And I don't know how I'm ever going to get to the point that I can offer anyone anything if I don't get my needs met.
So I'm spinning my wheels in fucking predatory right now.
And I'm trying to be so proud of my identity this June. But sometimes it's hard.
As much time as I spend advocating to baby aces that it will get better and you absolutely don't need to ignore it or pretend. That people will understand. That you will find that connection you need. Sometimes it's so fucking hard to remember that for myself. I'm not over the struggle yet. And frankly, I'm scared all the time.
It's just the way that identity has intersected with all the other parts of my life in the most inconvenient way possible. I'm fucking poor, too autistic to drive, chronically fatigued with serious joint issues, and fucking alone. Everything sucks right now.
#June#pride month#lgbt community#aroace#asexual#aromantic#Triple A in the queer way#Agender#Its fucking hard sometimes#And i'm trying to remind myself that the struggle is worth it#The struggle is how you grow#But it doesnt feel like i'm growing#It feels like i'm falling apart#And i'm fuckng crying in the middle of pride month#Please dont read this and get scared away from being ace#It doesnt suck all the time#I'm just going through it right now
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doodled human designs for a few neutral aus! (pt.1)
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can you tell i lost motivation... thank you to chandr for doing the last 3's lineart for me. legit couldn't get freshs colours to fit with the rest. eugh. its the best you're going to get out of us for these guys.
Nightmares gang, star sanses, neu au pt.2, extras
COLOUR, CLASSIC, PAPYRUS, EPIC and ANY REQUESTS will be in the next neu au post 3_^ so please please request me to draw neutral peoples... gonna open general requests in a separate post.
some hcs under the cut!
warning for alot... i mean.. alot of text..
> Ccino (he/they)
indian... ccino... mbghbgb. MAINLY BECAUSE I WAS EATING GULAB JAMUNS AND I WAS LIKE "huh this reminds me of ccino."
trans masc! you should be more surprised if someone wasn't trans at this point
just for individuality, i feel like he'd have cat features. toe beans, tail, but no ears. personal preference.
hopeless romantic. wants to fall in love so bad, like so bad. but doesn't have anyone to fall in love with.
his AU is a neutral where the player killed all bosses. because of this, ink had offered them a pocket AU with just their cafè. ccino still visits their old au from time to time, but otherwise lives in the cafè.
one of the youngest AU's/sanses, only a few hundred years old
> error (he/they/xe)
spanish + colombian
as a divergence from classic, he maintains a similar body shape. also the fact he eats nothing but chocolate.
^ similarly, his eye is covered by a star glitch. xe never equates this to the fact they were geno, and just see it as some weird cool glitch.
rocks an alliance with both NM and dream, so wears both the stars pin and gangs patch. he always choses the side of who benefits him the most in that moment. neither of the groups are happy about it, but see error as too valuable to deny.
has arthritis and bad joints. his strings usually dig into his fingers, causing scaring and pain. (bsp related: he gets taught how to relieve these pains by nms gang because they all have chronic pains of some kind)
taking strings from his eyes is PAINFUL. its basically his unraveled code and magic combined, glitching and stuttering.
illiterate. he cannot read anything but code.
brother of ink. annoying brothers that HATE eachother. but love eachother at the same time.
> cross (they/he)
spanish. it fits him. and its relatively canon.
cross is indecisive. they've jumped between nightmares gang and the stars several times, easily being swayed. as of my AU right now, they're with the stars.
they're colourblind! their AU was monochrome, and thats how they see everything. everything is just a shade of purple. he's never told people about it, but most people catch onto ir.
autism. cross has horrible sensory issues, and gets overwhelmed easily. also bad at social queues.
THIS MAN IS THE DEFINITION OF DOG POETRY. they would go on pinterest daily and cry about it.
is a great artist. ink taught him the basics when they were stuck in the void, so they built on it. they're really self conscious about it, and keep their sketchbook locked away tightly. (in their bedside drawer)
> reaper (he/him)
egytpian. i feel like he'd embody their idea of dying.
bird claws. bird wings. everything bird.
seen as a parental figure to dream and nightmare because of his extensive knowledge of the universe and balance n all that.
(THE GAY FLAG WAS A MISTAKE) he's bi. and loves his wife. (life)
aroace spec! completely ace, and demiromantic.
sorry guys i dont have the best hcs for him 💔
> geno (he/they)
spanish + colombian
needs a portable oxygen tube to breath. he can live without it, but its really painful to not have it.
some parts of his body are decomposed, while others are held together through determination. practically constant agony.
same reasoning as error for body shape.
> fresh (they/it)
parasite. its ass doesn't have a race nor nationality.
not the hotest with a few sanses. dream and nightmare don't like someone demeanour not being affected in the slightest by the amount of pain and agony they're in. error hates how the code overlaps and glitches. and overall they're just a bit crazy.
wears either heelies or rollerskates. refuses to EVER walk anywhere, and always rolls.
i don't got much for him.
eugh. i am so sorry if the hcs are lazy, i am not good hcing with aus im not familiar with. if anyone wants to input please do! i'd love to learn about them. <3 anyways i am sleeping because i need to stop staying up till 4am..
#so sorry for the laziness#i am so sick rn#hate how this turned out but posting it anways#reblogs are appreciated <3#and likes#art#doodles#my art#meow#humanisation#ccino sans#fluffytale#error sans#errortale#cross sans#xtale#reaper sans#reapertale#geno sans#aftertale#fresh sans#refs#headcanons#nullrambles#nightedition#🌕
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Alternatives
Headcanon: Parent! Reader with Teen! Dazai, Chuuya and Akutagawa A/N: Ch 109 made me write this.
MASTERLIST
✧Dazai
⤷Humm I mean look at him? He screams attachment issues. I am pretty sure he hides the fact he wants affection, but lets be honest Parent's instant and He gets a hug.
⤷As a kid, he would be the type of person (kid?) who gets sugarrush just by taking one piece of candy. Lets be honest, the minute he eats one, its the time your whole house is covered in glitter and gold.
⤷He has difficulty opening up his thoughts, or rather, sharing his real views on anything, but I feel like he would have once in a while mental breakdowns and you can do nothing but hug your kid, and support him. (He is adoptive kay?)
⤷He LOVES whatever you make for him. He would be the type of person who would never skip a meal when it comes to you eating with him as a family.
⤷GIVE HIM HUGS PILLOW AND KISSES.
⤷A LOTS OF GOODNIGHT KISSES
⤷You read him a bedtime story. (You cant deny that)
⤷He once got kicked in his nuts as a kid, and honestly you cant blame the kid, your son's actions are questionable [PLEASE]
⤷You both will have Parent-son hangouts, considering how much you both tend to drift apart due to work.
⤷You once had a breakdown in front of him and he gives the warmest hugs.
⤷As he grows, (and you grow older) I feel like he would just randomly lift you from the floor and twirl you around.
⤷Also, he is the person who would prob come up to you in the middle of the night and say, "Mama/Dada I peed on the bed" (I cant stop laughing writing this)
(I wouldnt comment on his um depression cause cant we have a genuine fluff headcanon?)
✧Chuuya
⤷A pure good boy
⤷He doesnt like to disappoint you which is honestly cute and concerning
⤷I think he might as well get valadation issues.
⤷And anger issues. He is just built that way
⤷"YOU DONT UNDERSTAND MY PAIN" Phase
⤷Probably had a jewellery obsession phase in middle school. But you wouldn't blame him, everyone has concerning phases in middle school.
⤷You and him have movie nights.
⤷He gets annoyed when you give him a goodnight kiss on forehead, but secretly love it.
⤷As a kid, he would prob try to hide his crying whenever he got hurt, but you could see his eyes holding back tears. You just look at him and go over him, holding his hand while kissing it, saying the boo-boo while go away. (He thought you had magical kisses to heal wounds till 6th grade)
⤷He might as well have nightmares, but that doesnt stop him from waking you up at the middle of the night, (even though he will hesitate) and sleep with you.
⤷Kid! Chuuya would probably love playing dress ups and now he regrets it because everytime he finds an old albumn, he will see himself in a pink tutu.
⤷He was once being bullied in school because of his height, and he kicked the guy in his nuts. #neverbeensoproud You gave him icecream as a treat.
⤷You accidently caught him drinking wine when he was a teen in highschool. Now you have two options, either go bizzare or drink with him.
✧Akutagawa
⤷ 10/10 had an emo phase in middle school
⤷You once opened his music app and well you know...
⤷He doesnt like when you waste money on him, like why are you even buying him merch of his favorite band??
⤷He doesnt speak much with you, he is a quite kid of the school.
⤷He aces his test, like full?
⤷Yeah even he got validation issues, but severe.
⤷Okay but why can I imagine him as a kid, he would probably enter your room in the middle of the night [he gets scared or nightmare occurs] and just stare at your sleeping figure questioning whether to wake you up or not. Ofcourse, being a parent you became a light sleeper, so imagining your kid staring at you at the middle of night is something-
⤷He believes EVERYTHING you say. Monster in the closet? Monster under bed manifesting if he doesn't sleeps? YES EVERYTHING.
⤷My little baby just needs a lots of hugs.
⤷Okeh buts its honestly so sweet of him to try bake a cake for you when its your birthday.
⤷He can cook, he can clean he can cough
⤷He would randomly come to you and give/get a hug from you while you try to process why your 'don't touch me' kid was hugging you
⤷He might as well be stealing eyeliners from you or buying it secretly.
⤷Also you regret opening his search history. (Don't ask)
A/N: AHHHHH I know this is like short and stuff but I literally have angst ideas at the moment and seeing the fandom condition i am speechless. I mean you all just made #bungou stray dogs trending on tumblr. P.s Chapter 109 made me loss my ability to write.
#bungou sd#bsd dazai#bsd manga#bsd headcanons#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd x reader#bungo stray dogs spoilers#dazai#dazai x reader#dazai osamu#dazai hcs#dazai fluff#bungo stray dogs dazai#bungo stray dogs headcanons#port mafia#osamu dazai#dazaibsd#chuuyabsd#bsd chuuya#bungou stray dogs chuuya#bsd headcanons dazai#chuuya x reader#bsd headcanon#akutagawa imagines#akutagawa ryuunosuke#bsd akutagawa#bungo stray dogs akutagawa#akutagawa x reader
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AAAAHHHH oh this fic means so much to me you have no idea.
I have finally had time to catch up fully from the end of Skypiea, and now having scrolled through all the blog posts I've had to skip because of spoilers amd now my ass has so many thoughts. So I apologize in advance but this fic has made a permanant home in my brain
After reading Skypiea again I noticed that Aisa said that the voices around Ed sounded like trumpets and that made me think about if they sound like the trumpets from 'Overtaken' because that would fit with Luffys drums. But then you mentioned the book of revelation and trumpets in that so I googled it and now I'm scared, not sure if I should be scared on behalf of Ed or their opponenets though...
AND then you mentioned briefly that in Enis lobby Ed would be fighting someone we've met before and of god please dont make it be mr. blue hair guy from the casino in Alabasta, he made me nervous even back then you cant do this to me bb
AND I just adore how you wrote g8, it's such a fun arc in the anime and you captured Jonathan so well, I love his and Ed's interactios so much, their talk over chess what amazing!
And the Ed and Ace interactions were so good I am in love, i too would kick anybodys ass for Ed.
And I am so exited to learn more about mr. Tone D. ial
ALSO Ed slowly gaining haki!!!! AAAAHHHH it makes me incredibly exited.
Not to mention the dream sequences they make me so giddy I am a sucker for symbolism (SUNFLOWERS AND ED AND LUFFY AND THE SUN!!!) and such and it makes me so giddy, I am moments away from drawing the dream with Ms. Fathers day. I am going to be rereading and dissecting them multiple times because I am a sucker for lore and being able to figure things out!!!
Also I am so pumped to see how Enis Lobby turns out, please my poor Ed has already been throught so much pain in the last chapters please let them have a singular breath I am begging
Again I have an unhealthy obsession with this fic and I love it!!!
Kind regards I will now reread this fic for the 8th time <3
Wow this is a lot pop off.
The Book of Revelations thing was mostly a joke but hey- you never know.
Oh? He made you nervous? Whyever for?
I miss Jonathan. Loved that guy. I miss Ace too. Y’all remember what is supposed to happen to him during this arc? …yeah me either.
LORE LORE LORE! I’m such a sucker for sunflower symbolism always. And when I tell you it will get more layers I am telling you to strap in and prepare.
Oml I would cry if you made art of that. Real tears.
Ed? Breath?? Ever??? I think the fuck not.
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dont mind me im just compiling some evidence over here
#most of the time he accidentally gets it stuck in a tree or something and it usually breaks and he would get some sort of injury
hmmmm it seems like the kite hit a bird and it broke? and then nika offered to fix it?
I don't want to, please let me keep this. I'll fix it myself.
#throw that thing away already.#we're too old for it. Luffy.#It's just a piece of paper attached by a stick and a string. There's nothing special about it.
Oh and Luffy and Sanji were definitely hanging out with eachother before luffy became all quiet. Im reading the ALT text and it says (after aces dialogue)
"He was a bit cocnerned for Luffy. That time he came home later than usual after kiting with his firends, he'd become odd.
Sabo mentions on his blog that luffy used to go to the woods with all the time with his friends. And that his friends are missing now? I think it's highly plausible that Sanji is one of the missing kids. Oh and sabo also mentions that the vinsmokes across the street moved away, and it was a pretty good choice considering they had four kids. Reiju, Ichiji, Niji, Sanji, Yonji. Four kids! I bet they moved cause sanji disappeared
#my little brother used to go there a lot with his friends#I really do wonder where they went
In the grocery list panel, we can see a,, child missing poster? list? something that says child missing. Sabo also has a bunch of sticky notes on his table, though that may just be to signify how studious he is. I think though, it might show that he's been doing a lot of in depth research around these mysteries.
HEY in this post sabo mentions that he often goes out at night to buy stuff? and there is the grocery list in this comic and it IS night time,,,
ANYWAYS the grocery list itself,,, I can make out Watermelon, Honey, Eggs, Apples, Rice, Yoghurt, but nothing else. There's something in brackets next to yoghurt but I cant make it out. Ah and i think the bottom one says [something] noodles, and then theres a little scribble below that. URHGHHHH I WANNA KNOW I WANNA KNOWWW!!! hmmm is there meat on this shopping list? i mean ace and luffy are preeeetttty well known for loving meat so its kinda strange that we cant see any, or maybe there is and its just too blurry for me to see hahaha.
IM NOT READING TOO MUCH INTO THIS AM I???
(from @cursed-child-autumncookie 's translation)
"'It's hard to remember but you said your name was Nika.'
'You asked me for my name and I answered,'
'you said something to me and I trusted You.'
-"I can help you fix that."
Your eyes scared me. you looked at me like I was something else. where did you come from
where (repeatedly)
where did you come from'"
In this comic, sabo and ace are discussing about a rumor of an entity luring the missing children away, and it seems like luffy is being lured away with the promise of a fixed kite!
sabo seems like he's very superstitious considering the crucifix in his room and the candle lighting he always does at 6pm,,, whats uh, whats the deal with that?
anyways I hope sabo finishes his business outside soon,,,
What is the choice?
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Everyone meeting Karens be like-
Leona: Oh, I'm sorry, does me holding my boyfriends' hips/hands bother you so much?
Vil: Rook, honey, due hold my wine glass-
Floyd: *being held back by Riddle and Cater* I just want to talk!
Sebek: EXCUSE ME ASSHOLE-
One more ask box thing and I'll leave you be in the night, today was a lonely day of angst fanfics
I love that also I hope you recover from angst ;w; I dont read angst cuz yes but I hope you feel better :D
Epel: Leona, do you have a hairtie?
Idia: F in chat
Azul: When i'm done here they wont call Floyd the creepy one anymore, I'll promise you that
Cater: Uh, my boyfriends are wonderful but, go off ig
Ruggie: I'm just trying to eat my doughnut with my bfs in my lap how tf-
Esther: In my 150 years of life I've never heard someone have their head SO far up their own ass
Riddle: *not even looking at them, clearing their throat* OFF WITH YOUR H-
Jade: *creepy smile*
Kalim: How could you think theirs anything wrong with Jamil and Ace they're literally perfect- *goes on a rant abt how perfect they are until the Karen gets scared and leaves*
Ace: *pulls out his phone* Free Magicam points~
Jamil: *Already dragging his bfs away* Fuck that shit
Vil: Mrs please pull that stick out of your ass before I do it for you
Neige: *Kisses his bois and walks off with them all flustered behind him*
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hi! how have you been since the hell that ensued after halloween is?
also could you do a batboys college au? like their major and how the reader would meet them and all that jazz? 👉👈
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hi anon!! i’m not sure what ur talking about @ the halloween stuff hvsdhjs but! here are the batboys hc’s! i’m not very familiar with duke thomas’s character enough to write about him tbh, so he’s not included here :( but if you want me to add him let me know!! i hope you enjoy!!
dick grayson
out of all the batboys i really didn’t know how to choose a major for him
but
i think he’d do law tbh, specifically criminal law
his main motivation to become a police officer in bludhaven had been to be able to help people in any way he can
i forgot if it’s canon or not but he does realize how corrupt it is and he quits but that’s another thing we won’t get into that lmao
anyways yes let’s just stick with law
meeting you !
he shares one or two courses with you
one that’s really early in the morning
and one that’s later on in the afternoon
dick is like a magnetic okay
anywhere he goes people are just attracted to him
like literally he will breathe
but someone call the ambulance there’s a person that’s passed out bc of how beautiful he is
but this is an 8 am class 😃
so there’s no way ur awake enough to notice him
coincidentally he sits next to you one time
and this is the one time
you decide
yeah lemme just fkn sleep is uni even worth it
dick definitely notices right away but he doesn’t say anything
he thinks you look so cute passed out on your desk like this 🥺
when the professor signals the end of the class, he watches as people file out and then he just leans over and nudges you slightly
you nearly punch him bc he scared you ❤️
he just laughs and goes “class is over”
you just sigh like the guilt starts to hit you and your heart begins to sink
and he sees your disappointed face and just goes
“i took a lot notes. i can share them w you?”
lifesaver in every single way dick grayson 😻😻😻
you had another class that you had to run to and you were rushing
he was like “dw i’ll just give them to you whenever i see you next”
and you 🏃🏻♀️ outta there
imagine ur surprise when u enter class at 12 pm and he’s there in all his glory
after the lecture is over, he walks up to you as you’re packing and asks if you want to go to the coffee shop nearby
to take his notes of course
and you finally register just how handsome he is
so obviously you say yes wtf
and the rest is history 😼
he asks you out, properly, pretty early on tbh
so unfazed lmfao
now you take naps on his shoulder instead of the desk 💞💞💞
soooo into pda
kisses u when he first sees you
when you’re parting ways
when he feels like it
straight up cuddles w during lectures i’m not even joking
it’s disgusting how cute you two are
gets you coffee for all those 8 am classes u have w him hehe
study dates always turn into karaoke sessions somehow don’t even ask lmao
jason todd
english literature
this is a collective agreement right?
right
definitely english literature
i dont even think he wants to go to uni but he’s going to waste time plus this is bruce’s money 😏🤑
your major doesn’t necessarily have to be english literature as well
but you share one class
and my god
you two disagree on everything
like every little thing
at this point if he says something and you slightly agree internally you’ll still say some opposing shit
that’s kinda what draws you to him
at first you genuinely had nothing against him
but then this kind of rivalry developed for no specific reason
but it was fun
and he was hot
so seeing him get flustered or angry made him even hotter somehow
but then
but t h e n
you’re not sure if your professor like ships you or something
so you’re assigned a debate topic on one of the books you’d discussed in class/one of the books you’ve read outside, and within each group are the two sides for and against
not only were you in the same team as jason, but you were on the same side as him
so you had to work with him
the audacity of the professor omg
but jason needs this course
and
well you don’t but it’s too late to back out now
you two meet in the campus library after deciding on a book with the other two of your team
and
honestly???
you two work so well together
like insanely well
during the debate you destroyed the other team
spoiler alert
doing so well with jason kinda made you like hot and bothered
seeing him in his zone
sexy <3
what i mean to say is
you both end up making out in some storage room lmfao
or hate sex 😏
professor has a phd in matchmaking 🤔😻
i think you two don’t admit you like each other
bc you’re both stubborn as fuck
but eventually you’re literally on his lap on his couch and it just hits you
and you lean back and go
“wanna go out w me”
and he just shrugs and goes “sure” and pulls you in for more kissing hehe
he’s not v good at the boyfriend thing tbh
you have to chase him around and be like “sir!!! did u forget about me huh!!!”
he doesn’t mean to i promise
he gets all blushy and flustered once he realizes
only ever into pda if he’s insanely jealous
will straight up make out w u regardless of where u are or who ur with lmfao
he’s still getting used to the little intimacies and all
debates in class are so much more fun now cause he finds it so hot when u get all riled up hehe
that eng lit professor is so happy for you two omg
tim drake
okay i also couldn’t really decide for him
but maybe he’d study something like physics (or maybe computer engineering/computer science)
idk u have to have a death wish to wanna major in physics so tim’s major it is
i’m not sure how it works for every other uni but my uni requires 6 credits of sciences to graduate
so let’s say for the sake of this hc u take like just the first level of physics to get 3 credits
and
you’re struggling 😃👍🏼
so you like approach your professor with a few questions before the quiz
but tim is also there
and he kinda makes small talk while you two wait outside the office
and he asks why you’re here
you show him
and he’s like “oh i took this course w the same professor as well, i could help?”
it’s like an angel had descended from the heavens for you personally
you take his number and decide to meet up with him after a few hours
he’s of so much more help than your professor would’ve been, even if ur prof is a really nice and smart person
and he’s super like
patient with you?
also he pays for all the coffee and snacks you’re getting after you already get them
ur like bruh i didnt
dont pay pls
and he’s like no im loaded let me 😼
swooning <3
and guess what!!
you ace the quiz out of some miracle
first thing you do is text him and he congratulates you
and then
bc ur not blind and tim is so fucking cute
you’re like “can i take u out to thank u”
tim’s brain stops working but !
he does say yes eventually
he becomes your designated physics tutor + your amazing boyfriend
being with tim is so like
chill
it’s a very relaxed time
lots of study dates! and cafe dates! all hours of the day whether the sun is up or not
into pda but to a certain degree
like yes of course have a kiss pretty baby
but also it will only be a small peck
any time anyone passes by like common rooms you two will be there snuggling on the couch, one or both of you completely passed out
damian wayne
business major 100%
or a bsba econ major, which is basically the business side of economics
he has to take over his father’s company one day duh
also i genuinely think damian would excel in this field
he’s a very keeps to himself kinda guy in uni
like you only ever see him in your common classes and then he just
disappears
anyways there was this party that everyone was going to, and damian wasn’t planning to
but dick accidentally read some groupchat’s messages and was like are u going
damian went 🏃🏻♀️
but dick was like go and try to make friends !!!!
and dames cant say no to his big bro 🥺 so he goes
stays in a corner on the settings app the entire time
like half an hr in he just leaves and is walking home/back to his dorm when you come like rushing up to him
you’re zooming
and then you just latch onto his hand and lean up to press a kiss to his cheek, whispering in his ear “this person’s been following me for like 15 mins just please go along w this”
he kinda stiffens but when he does notice that there’s a person eyeing you he slips his arm around your waist and just carries on walking
he walks you to your home/dorm and is like
so awkward
but it’s okay ! ur a people’s person enough for the two of you
you thank him so much over and over
and then you’re like
“can i take you out on a real date?”
and then he becomes ur real boyfriend hehe
is still super stiff but it’s only bc he’s so hyper aware of how attractive you are
and i’m super positive he doesn’t have that much experience with dating so
you hold the reigns
but he’s a great boyfriend all in all tbh
super attentive, super protective, and so loving
isn’t into pda especially on college campus but he does like subtle pda
things like linking your pinkies or giving you his hoodie to just parade around campus hehe
end note; i’m sorry if these feel rushed or anything like. i used to be an avid writer for the batboys, but i just haven’t been feeling it lately. i still love to write from them bc i know these boys so well eeeeppp. anyways feel free to request some more!!
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Ace attorney characters when you pack a bento box (boxed lunch) for them:
(In japan that's a indirect expression of love and in this case a confession)
Phoenix gets it right away. He smiles and blushes. And as he kisses y/n for the first time realizes he might not need to chase rivals away. Out of all of them hes probably the softest receiving a bento box. He jumps straight to calling you his girlfriend. Phoenix thinks about it all day and when he opens it come lunchtime and finds a little love note above his rice he tears up.
(Also if you make two, one for him and one for trucy he will melt)
Miles DOESNT get it right away. He doesnt understand why, when he has so much money, y/n would feel the need to pack him a lunch. He doesnt understand why his confusion causes y/n such a blush for a good five minutes. By the time he remembers the cultural significance they already left. He texts them something between sweet and formal. At noon (though I think he does have a tendency to skip lunch to work) he opens it and finds a little love note. He feels a lot of things at once and just like him ends up very smug
Franziska is silent for a second. It's not that she understands the implications, it completely flies over her head. No shes quiet cause she believes she should be taking care of you and not vice versa. Then she tells y/n to set it on the table, and is very confused when they leave the room practically skipping. It isn't until shes having lunch and her brother and gumshoe walk into the room to give her paperwork does she understand. Her brother asks her were she got it (idk if she's a good cook or would bother learning Japanese cooking) and when she relays your confounding behavior miles has the nerve to laugh. Then gumshoe surprisingly explains it to her. She turns pink and carefully opens it. Sure enough theres a love note in a sealed bag to keep it clean. That evening she buys a locket.
You have to know Diego for a very long time before he let's you cook for him. And he will never again accept open drinks from anyone. So y/n ever the sweetie invites him over in the early morning and hopes it doesnt irritate him. ( it doesnt cause hes already normally there). When he shows up y/n invites him in and leads him to the kitchen and they cook together so he can see whats in everything. He doesnt admit it but it makes him feel like they're married. It's when she hands him not his lunch but a bottled coffee still sealed does he go from crushing to love. Though he didnt like the extra sugar and milk in Japanese bottled coffee, they validated his trauma and therefore is not getting rid of him now.
Dahlia is an odd case. She pretends to not understand. She laughs her laugh like silver bells and thanks them as sweet as she can but I dont think she actually eats it. She worries shes been found out. That your trying to poison her. I can see her being better safe than sorry. Still she opens it to take a picture to post on her social media and sees the love note. She reads it once then again. And smiles sly. Her plan was working
Iris on the other hand completely understands and let's you know she knows. She asks if their seriously ok with dating someone already under oaths and vows. If thier ok respecting such boundaries. When y/n nods she begins to cry. At lunch time when she opens it she begins to cry again for two reasons
1) it's made specifically with her eating restrictions in mind. Y/n did their research
And
2) the love note. Oh goodness the love note. Never before has such a small paper made a girl so happy.
Wocky feels guilty that you pulled the bento thing first. His parents are Japanese and run a cafe and he couldn't make you a bento. When he voices his concerns and they take it as him accepting the confession and kiss him he feels a little better. He normally eats what his parents make for lunch but today. Is different. When he finds the love note he cries. He feels safe with s/o for the first time. Alita never wrote love notes or cooked lunches.
Mia the sweet women she is, flushed but tries to stay somewhat level headed, somewhat her normal level of cool. She sets it on her desk and takes y/n into her arms. She doesn't ask if they mean it cause shes scared they dont. That...it would destroy her, so she doesnt give them a chance. She would return the favor the next day but imagine be honest. I dont think she can cook either. She keeps the love note with everything else that reminds her if y/n. In a jewelry box under a floorboard.
Klavier doesnt understand it.... Much like franziska, he has no clue. But In a way he does? He knows this is something y/n put time and effort and money into, all for him. So he accepts it, calling y/n beautiful in the process. He doesnt get the fact that it was a confession...at first. Then he Googles what it means and sure enough it was a confession. And hes relieved cause he had accepted it and complimented them. He had agreed to their confession.
(before anyone says it, yes, I know Kristoph isn’t actually German, but I don’t care. Capcom can rip my “the Gavins are German” headcanon from my cold, dead hands)
Aight, so, ya girl is back. I’m gonna keep the ask box closed for a bit until I clear out all the asks I have (and finish a request) so please be patient. Thank you!
Damon: Doesn’t get it right away, but thinks it’s sweet that you made him lunch. He may google it later assuming he knows how to use google or ask someone about it, which is how he finds out the meaning behind it. Rather than make you a bento box in return, he’ll get you a bouquet of roses and invite you to join him for dinner instead. Between the roses, though, you’ll find a cute little love note with a smiley face scribbled onto it.
Shelly: He’s been around the block a few times, so he likely knows what it means. He’ll thank you and give you a peck on the cheek, promising to make you lunch as well. Once he finishes eating, he’ll put the note somewhere safe so he can reread it whenever he wants.
Matt: Has a security guard try it before he does, for safety reasons. Once he sees how upset you are by that, he’ll apologize and ask you to explain the meaning behind it (he knows he fucked up lmao). After you explain it, he’ll apologize (while being so fucking smug internally) and thank you for the lunch. He can’t cook to save his life, so don’t expect him to return the favor, but he will leave you a little note where you can find it; something along the lines of “I love you, dude <3“.
Kristoph: Prides himself on knowing a little about everything, so for him not to know the meaning behind your gift is unlikely. He’ll happily accept it and give you a gentle kiss on the forehead, all while hiding how smug he feels. He’ll also give you bento box in return, but with German cooking instead of Japanese. Oh, and that little love note you put in there? Expect to find a three page-long love letter in your lunch.
Ray: Pretty knowledgeable about romantic traditions around the world, so the chances of him getting it are pretty high. He’ll thank you for it rather sheepishly, as this is one of the few times you’ll get to see him flustered. Once he reads the note, though, he’ll pull you into a big hug, tears brimming at the corners of his eyes. Afterwards, he’ll immediately set out to make you a bento box in return, or take you out to dinner if you prefer.
Sebastian: Bless his dense heart, he’s clueless. He’ll be very thankful though, and promise to make you something in return (despite his nonexistent cooking skills). He’ll likely eat it at work and brag about how you made it for him, which is when Miles steps in to explain the meaning behind it. That + the love note is enough to make him cry tears of joy, and he’ll tackle you in a hug the moment he gets the chance to.
Simon K: Doesn’t know how to feel at first because he’s never had someone make him lunch before. Once he sees the note inside, though, he realizes what it means and becomes even more emotionally confused than before. He’ll thank you, rather awkwardly, and promise to make something for you. He’s not much of a wordsmith but he’ll still add a note, expressing how grateful he is for the lunch.
Katherine: Will be on the verge of tears when you give her the bento box, and will flat-out start crying when she reads the love note. She’ll cling to you, thanking you profusely and promising to make you one as well. She keeps her word and makes you a wonderful bento box the very next day. Instead of a love note, however, you’ll receive a song she wrote about you (and she’ll even sing it to you while you eat).
Bobby: Another very dense yandere who is definitely going to get scolded by Blackquill for not understanding what your gift means. He’ll make up for it though, by going above and beyond to make you the best bento box you’ve ever eaten (it won’t be the prettiest and he’ll likely have burned something, but it’s the thought that counts, right?). He’ll also keep your love note on his bedside table so he can read it every night before bed and every morning when he wakes up.
Simon B: He’s a huge weeaboo Japanese cultural enthusiast, so he’ll get it right away. He’ll tease you about it and act cocky as usual, but in reality, he’s trying to hide the very obvious blush on his face. He’ll keep your note safely tucked away in his coat pocket for whenever he wants to reread it. He won’t return the favor right away, though. Instead, he’ll give it to you when you least expect it in order to fluster you.
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hi!! so i heard you were asexual and i’ve been struggling for a few months whether i’m ace or demisexual. personally i dont feel sexually attracted to anyone. people my age are just having sex on sex with people. i could never do that. just the thought of it disturbs me and makes me so uncomfortable to the point where i could cry. the only time i would ever do anything with anyone is when i find my soulmate. i wouldnt wanna do that with someone i dont have a connection with. its so confusing. my friends are always like “she’s so innocent” cause i never say dirty jokes like ever. i dont cause it makes me uncomfortable. even the topic of sex makes me uncomfortable. i’ve also never wanted to get pregnant. if i want a child i would adopt one. i always tell my mom that i dont want to have my own child and she’s like “you’re young, you’ll change your mind.” but i don’t think i will. now that i think about it, the thought of sex has always scared me. even when i found out what it was, i never wanted to do it. i would always think, “oh my god, i’m gonna have to do that? i don’t want to do that.” like sure i read smut. but i don’t read it and go “oh my god that’s so hot holy shit” like no. i just read it for fun i guess. i like the intimacy that the characters share i guess. like i’ve never felt sexually attracted to anyone. i find people attractive, yes. but i never look at people and think “omg i wanna have sex with them”. like even louis. i find him rlly attractive, but the thought of him doing anything sexual grosses me out. i saw a picture of a dick and was shaking for an hour. the thought of having sex with someone really stresses me out. but, like i said before, i would only have sex with someone i love and i know i will be with forever. so because of that, i dont know if i’m ace.
hiya babes! yes i'm ace so welcome! hehe
okay, so here's the thing. i'm not like... willing to say YES YOU DEFO ARE or NO YOU'RE DEFO NOT regarding sexual identities because that's just... too personal imo. i'm also putting the rest of this under a read more, because it's just. long.
with that said, everything you've described and explained here to me SCREAMS of asexuality. people who are ace—even those who feel absolutely zero sexual attraction like me and, from what you've said, you—aren't automatically celibate. i'm married and i have three kids that i grew myself haha our sex life isn't... the most active, because i'm just... there's a lot of days where i just CANNOT go there, but it's active enough for us. that doesn't negate the fact i am still ace.
that's kind of the beauty of people, right? the complexity and nuance of situations and how there can be exceptions to the rules, but that doesn't change the fact the rule still exists. you can say "i don't want to have sex ever in my entire life with another person omg please no gross i'm so uncomfortable i might cry" AND have the caveat of "should i ever meet my soulmate, my one single person who is the perfect compliment to me and my soul and every fiber of my being, i would have sex with them." BOTH of these things can be true. your soulmate is the exception to the never wanting to have sex, but it doesn't negate the fact you still do not feel sexual attraction and that the topic of sex makes you incredibly uncomfortable, possibly even repulsed.
because did you know that there are some asexuals who are sex repulsed? that's a thing. even the discussion of sex is enough to send some people into extreme discomfort at the very least.
tl:dr: to me, based only on the information you've given me in this ask, it sure seem like you would feel at home if you chose to use an asexual label. there's not some sort of membership card for asexuals that gets nullified if you meet someone you would have sex with sometime in the future. there's not some imaginary asexual gatekeeper that seeks you out if they learn that you have had sex and then takes away your right to identify as asexual.
what it comes down to is this: if you decide that you think the descriptions and definitions of asexuality fit you, then great. if you want to jump in and say "i'm ace!" then hey! congrats! welcome to the club! there's more of us than you'd expect lol and if you decide you just don't think that feels right, then that's chill too. all of this is completely separate of your decisions regarding actually having sex.
i broke down a lot of definitions and things for another anon recently (unless that was you too? haha), and you can find that here. maybe check it out and see if that helps clarify some things for you too.
basically, trust yourself. i believe that when you read something that describes who you KNOW yourself to be, it feels right. it's like something clicks into place in your brain and you realize you've found it. when you find that, accept it and protect it until it no longer feels right for you.
good luck, nonnie! i hope this has helped at least a little bit haha
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Nancy Drew 2x8 Thoughts While Watching
SPOILER ALERT!!!
DRUGS OMG BESS- she looks so good omg. So pretty rn. Always but rn especially. Loving the pastel pink. YO DONT BE A DICK DUDE. I don’t like him. I hate him. SHE GOT HIM ARRESTED.
Ace coming thru with the spam texts. “Are you married, to a man?” HE KNOWS. OH NO THE HUSBAND
UGH I HATE HIMMM- DO NOT TOUCH HER. HANDS OFF BITCHBOY.
Nancy and George bickering over security blanket- GEORGE PROTECTING NICK OMG FANERSON FOR LIFE I SAY.
Ryan, what are you doing with that magazine. How do you read from middle to back to front to middle, I’m so concerned. “IM GONNA KEEP HER SAFE” “did she say anything about me?” PLS HES KINDA ADORABLE FATHER.
“RYAN I SEE U STOP BEING SO WEIRD.” Sassy Nancy. GEORGE CALLED NICK BAEB BABE BABE BABE FANERSON BABE.
I HATE THIS MAN. bess’ hubby needs to go away. SHES SO AFRAID OF HIM. my heart is hurting. LEAVE HOE. bess ily pls stay safe until ur crazy ass husband leaves. Maybe divorce him too babes. Paused at exactly 54:04, her expression shattered me. SHE LOOKS SO SCARED. (It’s been two seconds) I GET IT WTF HES TERRIFYING.
FAKE MARRIAGE THANK GOD. ace and Bess rehearsing her speech omg “that was so good.” SUPPORTIVE PLATANCHOR.
Grant’s a murderer. I’m calling it now.
OH SHE KNOWS- oh she’s kinda nice. Oh I kinda like Diana... maybe not she’s a little family crazy. And kinda sinister idk
On the record... OK WOW SHE CANE THRU WITH THE REAL QUESTIONS. love her. STOP FLIRTING WITH THE REPORTER RYAN- “therapists out of business” oh he’s funny. NO HES BEING DEEP. WHY IS HE A HIPPIE- “for rich people who don’t like nature and don’t like walking” I LAUGHED
oh he’s dead. saw that coming. George and Nancy bonding :)))) george looks adorable I LOVE HER HAIR!
NANCY KILLED A MAN- NO IF GEORGE DIES ILL RIOT. the writers are just having fun throwing shit at George huh? STOP TRYING TO KILL HER DUDES
ACE IS SO JEALOUS. HES BEING REPLACED AS NICKS BFF, OH NICK KNOWS, plot twist nace is nick x ace “the woods speak to me” ok babe. yeah vibes though, forest picnic date!
Ghostly flypaper yeah vibes. DONT FLATLINE GEORGE OMG. “I was just envisioning possible scenarios” “I’m not mad I’m angry!” SHE DIED. SHES DEAD- I TOLD YOU GRANT IS A MURDERER- more reasonable thought brought to you by my mother, it may be bess’ hubby.
oh crap. He stole Frew (fan x drew).
NICK IS BEING REASSURING AND I LOVE HIM. WOW PLS CALMING NICK-
I love Ace’s jacket sm. I low key want it not gonna lie.
odette gonna save them??? OH SHE RLY JUST- ODETTE IS IN LOVE WITH BESS- “Bess has a husband” shrugs “okay” LEAH LEWIS IS KILLING IT WITH THIS ACCENT BRO I LOVE HER.
“Deer poop 11 oclock” I AM IN LOVE WITH RILEY SMITH AND HIS LAUGH. RYAN BRINGS PATRICE GROCERIES. STOP OMG. he kinda got sad talking about Lucy aw. He loved her so much.
“My ladies. Care for a beverage.” Smooth ace “Oh, there it is-“ BRAIN SHUT UP.
Odette kinda sending me though, kind of funny. Actually have sympathy for her I’m not going to lie. Oh nvm she’s a stone cold bitch. Kinda love her though- destiny or gene pool? Vibes lmao. Oh period odette.
BESS SNAPPED. SHES DISTRAUGHT. BESS I LOVE YOU.
“Oh, him again.” ODETTE PLEASE. RUN MY KNIGHTS IN SHINIBG ARMOUR- ACE OMG THAT WAS HOT. NICK OMFG. ACE WAS AN EAGLE SCOUT I LOVE. NICK PLS- oh he’s so concerned OMG STOP. WAIT what’s gonna happen now? IF THEY BREAK UP I AM RIOTING. “I got you” x6 NOT MY COMFORT WORDS, SIR.
OH NO. WHAT- DAMN IT HUSBAND. I HATE THAT GUY. NO STOP. NO BESS BEING A MARVIN WAS THE ONE THING SHE HAD- FUCK YOU STEVEN. AND YOU DIANA. SHE TURANID HER. IM GONNA CRY NO, BESS IS CRUSHED. BESS I WANNA HUG YOU, PLEASE
They’re so chill about being kidnapped no- SOMEONE HUG THIS GIRL. “Just like my mom all over again” NO. ace going to talk to her aw. Best friends.
“The musical reminder of the man we just killed” GEORGE STOP AHAHA.
Val- I DONT LIKE HER ANYMORE. I admire her drive, however.
oh no. She told him. “what?!” HE ONLY CARES THAT SHES NOT HURT!!! AS HE SHOULD. “Nancy is going to get it right now”
GRANT STOLE IT. FUCK YOU GRANT. I KNEW IT.
SISTER THOUGHTS:
“OF COURSE HES LIKE THIS HES A FRIGGING GINGER!” me: “HES LITERALLY BLONDE ALEXIS-“
“I didn’t know what that meant until like last year” about “late [person]”
Me: “Oh dear” sister: “oh dette“
(Ryan’s accent) “KJ APA? ARCHIEKINS?”
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Afraid
even if you’re afraid in falling in love again, i’ll wait till you’re ready.
pairing : kageyama x reader
a/n : so uhh,,,the next few weeks(let’s just be safe and say the next month) i have tests after tests, and some of them are graded TmT. So this mean i’ll have to take some time off writing because- as much as i say f school and that it sucks, i still have to at least ace it so i’m trouble free TmT. So,,yeah. But do send in some requests and i’ll (hopefully) make drafts of them when im free and soon publish it.
but for now, enjoy more milk boi content:) (i hope i dont f this up like my previous one hngg)
yall know the drill: apologies if it doesn’t match the characterrrr. okay enjoy:)
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you look absolutely stunning. your smooth, silky hair, your heartwarming smile, your toned body and perfect glossy eyes, every little detail about you just makes kageyama fall into a deeper hole. Ever since you moved in to karasuno, you had people drolling over you. Including the hot-tempered setter.
Honestly speaking, you could have gotten a boyfriend by now after the popular boy in the school hit you up. But to his surprise, you turned him down. Every boy who tried to ask you out or confess their feelings for you, you constantly turn them down. Not one of them did you accept. This brought kageyama to the thought that if he were to shoot his shot, it’s very clear he wouldn’t even have a chance.
But just seeing you everytime during practice, talking to yachi about your school work and other stuff, he just can’t thinking of you. He’d shoot glances at you from time to time, making sure he’s not being suspicious at the same time.
Hinata actually noticed this and took this as an advantage to tease the setter.
“hmmm? Is kageyama seeing someone ??” He cooed. Kageyama would have grabbed his hair and yank him to the wall but he stopped himself to not make a scene. after you left the gym, he was finally able to breathe normally. Your presence always tense him up, hoping he won’t embarrass himself infront of you.
Practice ended and everyone was changing when kageyama sighed heavily which caught everyone’s attention.
“aw, is someone upset that he can’t win a person’s heart?” tsukki said along with yamaguchi giggling afterwards. Kageyama glances his way before picking up his bag. Before he could even head out the changing room, Daichi stopped him by putting his hand on kageyama’s shoulder.
“you know, if it really bothers you, you should just go for it. Even if she were to turn you down, at least get that feeling off your chest.” Sugawara nods is agreement along with ennoshita. Kageyama couldn’y do anything but sigh, then nodding afterwards.
“alright, i’ll do it. today.”
“eh?! uhh- i mean take your time and find the right moment kagey-”
“thank you, daichi. I’ll be off now.” Kageyama bowed before leaving the captain standing still, facing the door that was shut closed.
“don’t worry, daichi, i’m sure he means well.” suga tried to comfort his captain who is dreaded with fear for his teammate.
“y/n !” you heared someone calling you from behind. You turned to see kageyama running towards you. You stopped your tracks as you slowly waited for him to get closer.
“kageyama ! finished practice ?” he nodded as he tried to catch his breathe. After a while, he stood up straight, clearing his throat before speaking.
“let me walk you home.” you could feel your heart throbbing. But you shook your head, declining the offer.
“no it’s okay, i’m fine. well, i’ll see you-”
“please, it’s late and very dangerous.” He pleaded. You sighed before allowing and you both then began walking back to your house. The walk was silent, with an awkward tension and a small gap between the both you. You both barely spoke to each other, just occasional ‘hello’ and ‘how’s your day?’, so to walk home with him is something you weren’t prepared for.
You both reached the playground near your house and you stopped for a second. Kageyama noticed and he stopped his tracks, walking back to check if you’re okay.
“y/n, is something wron-”
“i’m so sorry kageyama. but i don’t like you” your sudden of words really shattered him. He wasn’t ready yet. He wanted a few more moments before accepting the fact. But the truth has been told, and he soon have to accept it.
“it’s okay, im not forcing yo-” his words were cut when he noticed tears rolling down your cheeks. You tried your best to hold into the tears but after feeling his sudden touch, rubbing your shoulder, you couldn’t help it. You bawled your eyes out and kageyama was freaking out internally. He didn’t what to do. So he just guided you to a bench, sat you down, and waited patiently as you let loose of this tight feeling.
you’ve never really told anyone that you’ve always been afraid of falling in love ever since your previous relationships. To date someone and fall in love with them so deeply, only to realise they don’t feel the same way anymore after some time. Everyone you loved, left you. not one of your lovers ever stayed for long. This resulted you into losing hope, feeling unwanted or just used. So to constantly get love letters or being confessed under a sakura tree, it really upsets you that one day any one of these boys will leave you if they ever get tired of you. Which is something you never want to experience, ever again.
Kageyama sat down beside you and patiently waited as you eased up. You slowly catch your breath, sniffing and wiping the excess tears. After a while, you’ve slowly calmed down from the sudden outburst.
“i guess i shouldn’t really keep it to myself” you smiled to the ground and kageyama looked at you with concern.
“take your time, i’m always hear to listen” he reassured. God, you miss this feeling. The feeling of someone taking their time to just sit down with you and listen to your thoughts. You let out a heavy sigh, before looking at him with puffed up eyes.
“i’ve been into a few relationships. Unfortunately, all of them didn’t turn out well. I felt used, unwanted. Because of this, i’ve always thought that every boy who i’m going to date, will eventually leave me. That is why, i constantly turn them down, just for the sake that i won’t go through the same thing over and over again.” you admit. You were expecting kageyama to tell you to just ‘go for it’ or ‘don’t be scared. you won’t know if it will work out this time’, just like every boy said to you. But all he did was looked at you, staring deep into your eyes, as in he was guilty to make you speak up about something personal.
“i understand.” he cut the silence. He smiled slightly as he look at you. His smile, just something about his smile made your heart skipped a beat. Before it could go any further, you sprung up, grabbing your bag before turning back to kageyama, flashing the same smile which is now known to kageyama that it’s fake.
“well, it’s late. i have to go now. i’ll see you tomorrow !” you waved before walking away. Kageyama took a few moments to recollect his thoughts, before grabbing his bag and sprinting back to you again. no, he can’t let you lose hope. He wants to be the one to change your perspective of love. He wants to show you that he generally cared. and most certainly, he wants to let you know, that in any circumstances, he would never, ever, leave you.
You felt someone caught your wrist before pulling you closer towards them. You spun before looking directly at kageyama, who’s giving off an expression that you’ve never seen before.
“ I don’t care how long will it take for you to slowly open up again. Days, weeks, months, even years.But I want to let you know, that i’m always here. I’m never leaving you alone. Whatever it takes, i’ll trade anything, absolutely anything, to see you happy once more. So,,even if you’re still afraid of falling in love again, i’ll always be here. waiting.” The way kageyama spoke didn’t feel like a lie. It felt as if he really spoke from the bottom of his heart. he slowly loosen the grip around your wrist, bowing politely and walking back home.
you slowly watch him walk away, clenching your heart. Did he really meant that ? Was he really stating the truth? whatever it is, you felt that kageyama would actually keep his promise.
Maybe, he is right. You shouldn’t lose hope. Not all of the boys are the same, because someone made you think otherwise. Which was none other than Kageyama Tobio.
a/n : OKAY!! Due to personal reasons, i will now dig my grave ;-; but yeaah hope this is okay. Wrote this on the spot when i had a sudden thought about love. Technically i do feel like love is really,,,a jigsaw puzzle. In order to work things out, communication is key. But i’m afraid a few of the relatonships i have observed didn’t work out well because they lack in that aspect. but this is just my personal opinion (please don’t attack me). Anyways yesshh uhmm i’ll be taking a break for now, but i’ll still be active (reading other people’s haikyuu hc huhuhu) and stuff. Also once again, feel free to send in request or just random questions (i love doing Q&A lmao) and i’ll answer them :3 alright, see yalls in a few weeks time ;)
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LITTLE DO YOU KNOW PT. 8
"𝘋𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵...𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨? 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥?" ━ 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐚𝐧 𝐌𝐚𝐭𝐬𝐨𝐧, 𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫
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warnings: implied smut, otherwise some slight fluff and angst.
word count: 4,916 [i barely proofread this bc lack of sleep so plz dont h8 me]
authors note: phew ok i was a little scared that i wouldn’t get this out before sunday, but i literally forced myself to sit down and write (both as a way to destress and get this done) and voila, i finished! i hope you guys enjoy it, and as always, i love everyone for reblogging and liking! i love seeing your tags, and hearing what you guys think about the series! i hope you enjoy and without further ado, here’s part 8!
Your last few weeks with Tyler felt like you were living on cloud 9. As usual, you and Kennedy switched off on nights of who got the dorm room, so more often than not, you'd been at Tyler's. In those few weeks, while you were dedicated to studying and preparing for finals week, Tyler often pulled his charm and managed to get you away from studying for an hour or two, and as he put it, christen every surface in the house with you, though honestly, you wouldn't have been surprised if he had done that before. None of that mattered, his past didn't matter and neither did his former hookups because he was here with you. You went to bed with him almost every night either cuddling into his side, him cuddling you or the both of you cuddling with the dogs.
Literal Cloud 9.
But that easy lifestyle came to a pause as finals week loomed over you, Kennedy and your entire campus. Luckily for you, you only had three finals. One final on the first day, a final the morning before tonight's game and then one on Monday. Your first two finals you felt as if you aced them– their courses were an easy A and you never struggled or felt stressed whenever it came to studying or writing papers for them. Your last final, however, was the one you were the most worried about– and quite frankly, spent the most time studying.
Stupid Physiology and Anatomy.
You were determined to lock yourself away in the library after the game tonight to study for Monday, but as usual, Tyler invited you over, even offering to help you study. You accepted and like always, he picked you up from your dorm and took you home. Of course, not failing to stop at the grocery store so you guys could pick up some quick ingredients to make yourselves mini pizzas while you studied. A study break, Tyler called it. Though, while more tomato sauce ended up on the counter and ingredients were tossed around– and your pizzas turned out a little crispy...it was a fun distraction, one that you were grateful Tyler planned and one that he knew you desperately needed.
However, when dinner came and went, you plopped down onto the couch in his living room and broke out your study cards You set them out all around you and started to plan out where you'd start when Tyler came down and plopped beside you. You were suspicious at first because you could feel him staring at you from the corner of his eye, but you brushed it off. It wasn't until you felt him creep his hands around your waist and press a kiss against your neck, did you realize what he was trying to do.
"No, Tyler. I have to study!"
He pressed another kiss to your neck, higher this time before pulling away and pouting at you. "It's anatomy, I like to think that you know enough about that."
You laughed, turning at him and poking him in the chest with a card. "Not the point Seguin. How am I supposed to for sure know what a–" you took a glimpse at the card. "Epiglottis is, if I don't study?"
Tyler looked off and mumbled to himself before looking back at you. "That's the thingy that stops food and water from getting into your lungs, right?"
You flipped the card over, reading a definition that summed up what Tyler had said. "Lucky guess."
"No, not lucky guess," he pulled you closer to him. "If I know what any of this fancy stuff means, then you do too. Because I only know it from helping you study, which no offense...is a shit ton, ya nerd."
You sighed, staring down at the card and feeling his eyes burn holes into your head. "Tyler..."
"Pleaseeeeee?" He started to squeeze your sides before tickling your waist. You smacked at his hands, trying to get them away and failing. "Please, please, please?"
He lied you down onto the couch and you sighed, smacking his chest with your card. "Fine."
He leaned down and kissed you before pulling away and sitting up, taking off his shirt. He looked down at you and wiggled his eyebrows. "If you're so torn up about not studying...you could always study me?"
You smiled, reaching up and wrapping your arms around him and tugging him down closer to you, nudging your nose against his own. "Studying can wait."
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Your studying session took you from downstairs on his living room couch, to upstairs on the theatre couch. While Tyler had managed to strip you from your clothing downstairs, he carried you upstairs, fully clothed and even offering you a pair of boxers and a shirt because 'it was only fair for what I have planned next.'
What he had planned next, of course, was studying...but a studying game he made fun. He'd help you study your cards by using reading them to you and if you couldn't tell him the definition and point out where the card belonged, then you'd have to strip (see how unfair?) And for every 15 cards you got right, he'd strip. Of course, Tyler being Tyler started to pout when you were still dressed in his t-shirt and boxers and he was left with nothing but 1 card left and his boxers. When you got that last card correct and he had to full-on strip, he was even more upset. Though, he didn't let that fully show until after he congratulated you on being smart and reassuring you that you'd ace this final.
And of course, you rewarded him with some good ole fun since he helped you study for a while, but then after that, it was back to studying again. And that was the routine: Study, break, study– just like that. Now, the two of you were relaxing on the couch. He was sitting up and you were lying down, your head rested on his thigh, the both of you covered with your shared blanket as he rubbed your arm with one hand and played with your hair with the other one.
"You know, for someone who played 65 minutes of intense hockey...you sure do have a lot of pent up energy," you turned your head and looked up at him. "four times in three hours is...a little aggressive."
His childlike smile took over his face as his smugness crept in. "If you keep moving your head, it's going to be five times." He leaned down and kissed you before sitting back up. "Let me guess. Was Cole a one and done, kind of guy?"
You felt a little embarrassed to reveal your past sex life to Tyler, especially since you knew how much he disliked Cole, but that soon eased. "More like once a week and that stopped before summer."
Tyler burst into laughter and you felt yourself at ease when the vibration from his chest echoed throughout his body. You could listen to him laugh for hours on end and never get tired. "No wonder why you're able to keep up with me." He poked at your nose, "you've got pent up energy too."
You laughed and swatted his hand away, sticking your tongue out at him. "It's all fun and games until you break a hip, Seguin."
"Eh, I don't see that happening anytime soon," he smiles, nodding back down at his lap.
You roll your eyes and look up at him. "Better calm down boy, because we've still got some studying to do."
"If it leads us back to where we are right now, then I'm perfectly okay with that." He smiled and you reached an arm up and cradled the left side of his face. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to your nose and then your lips, resting his forehead against your own. "I think I could stay like this forever."
"Oh, I'm sure you'd love to have me in your lap forever, Seguin." You joked, looking at him.
Only then did you see the look in his eyes that you'd never really noticed before. It was a soft, tender look, one that you'd only seen in movies or described in the Nicholas Sparks books your brothers teased you about. "Well yeah, but no...I meant–"
A creak, following by a thud caught your attention and you were silently curing whatever it was that interrupted whatever Tyler was about to confess. "Did your front door just open?" You asked, pulling away from Tyler and looking towards the open theatre room door.
"Hey Seggy, it's just me! Are you here?" Oh shit, you knew that voice anywhere...it was Jamie.
"Oh fuck!" Tyler grunted, scrambling off of the couch and standing up quickly, resulting in you falling onto the floor with a thud. "Oh shit, I'm so sorry," He apologized, stepping over you and looking around for his shorts and putting them on.
You reached out for your fallen blanket and wrapped it around your body. "What is he doing here?!"
"I don't know, it's almost 1 A.M." He whispered back, rushing towards the door and turning back to you. "Just...stay here."
No sooner than he disappeared around the corner and down the stairs, did you take in your surroundings. You grabbed all of your study cards and your notebooks, quickly shoving them beneath the couch. Your heart was racing and it felt like you could pass out at any moment. This was the worst-case scenario– Jamie walking in on you and Tyler before you ever had the opportunity to tell him about your relationship. You'd spent weeks, thinking of this scenario and telling yourself that it wouldn't have a chance of coming true...and yet it was right downstairs. I mean, there's no other way you'd be able to explain exactly why you were naked in Tyler's house.
"Oh, dude did I...interrupt you?" You heard Jamie say as you paused your clean up and moved a little more towards the door to wait for the 'coast is clear' sign.
"What? No...why?" God, could Tyler be any more panicked? Just by the way he stuttered over his reply, was enough for Jamie not to believe it.
"Because there are women's clothes on your couch...unless this bra is yours?"
Your eyes widened as you mentally smacked yourself for ever letting Tyler undress you on his couch. He didn't strip out of his clothes down there, which was evident by the fact that you were the one stranded in a blanket and he was in the comfort of his running shorts.
"Oh uh...yeah, uh..."
"Jesus Tyler, get it together," you whispered, closing your eyes and resting your head against the door frame.
"Dude...are you back with Maisy again?"
"WHAT? No...why would you think that?"
Jamie paused and it killed you not to know why he did. "SMU? Is this her sweatshirt?"
You could feel yourself begin to sweat as the fear of Jamie recognizing anything down there as yours, set in. He even bought you that sweatshirt your freshman year move in! What if he recognized it as yours? Did Tyler had the capability to play it off as you leaving it here from the last time you watched the dogs? Honestly...probably not.
"Oh Uhm," Tyler cleared his throat, once, twice...and a third time. "No, it's not Maisy's."
"Let me guess," Jamie sighed, probably tossing your sweatshirt onto the back of the couch. "You found another hot girl from SMU then?"
"Well, yeah she's pretty hot," Tyler replied, and you could tell by the way that he ended his statement, that he was smiling and you couldn't help but wonder if you should be flattered that Tyler said you were hot or scared of your current situation.
"Dude, you've got to stay away from the college girls! No college girl is worth the drama, even if she's smoking hot. I mean, did you ever listen to Y/N and her Cole drama? Or the drama from this last year? You're wanting to put up with more of that?"
"But–"
"Anyway," your brother sighed. "Y/N asked me to come by sometime to pick up her Psychology or Anatomy book or whatever. I guess she left it here when she sat the dogs last week. She's been so busy with finals, so she forgot it and I forgot to come by before the game today. But I'm with Bish checking up on their house so since we're in the neighborhood, I thought I'd stop by."
Now you really wanted to smack yourself. In the mess and stress of finals and hanging out with Tyler and the pups, you completely forgot that you had asked Jamie to stop by and pick up your book. Though, in your defense...you weren't supposed to be here anyway.
"The Physiology and Anatomy one?" Tyler must have seen the confused look on Jamie's face, so he cleared his throat. "She's been complaining about that course whenever she tapes up my ankles– huge bore of a book. Do you know where she left it? I can grab–"
"No, no. You go back to your girl." Jamie patted Tyler on the shoulder, "she told me where she left it. I'll just grab it and go."
You could hear Jamie's footsteps come up the stairs and it was like you were frozen in place. You had told him it was in the theatre, which is where you did most of your studying at Tyler's. When your eyes scanned the room, you saw it lying on the left side of the couch, right on top of the small side table. You considered running across the room and shoving it under the couch until you focused in on how close their footsteps were.
"No, really...I can grab it for you. You wouldn't want to leave Bish in the car!" Tyler said, obviously trying to prevent Jamie from coming up the stairs.
"He's not a dog, Segs. Plus the A.C. is on...I think he's good. Now really, you go back to your girl, I'm a big boy. I can find a college textbook."
There were no good places to hide in the theatre room and you could feel the panic in your chest only continue to rise. There was not enough time to book it across the hall and into Tyler's room without risking being seen and identified by Jamie. You looked to your right and saw the little crook that Tyler's door made, rest up against his entertainment center. A designing flaw you'd pointed out to him many times– but not one Tyler cared too much about to fix. Right now, you felt like hugging that stupid flaw, because it was about to become your saving grace.
You quickly opened the door and ducked into the space, pulling the door right behind you and casting you in the crook. Just as you went to peek through the crack to see if they were near...they walked into the room. You held your breath as you saw Tyler relax a little bit, knowing that you had managed to hide just in time. You moved away from the crack in the door, pressing yourself against the wall as you heard the two of them move around.
"She said it was in here somewhere...."
"Are you sure she left it here? I haven't seen it."
"I mean," Jamie paused, digging into his sweatshirt pocket for his phone. "She texted me yesterday saying that she desperately needed it and forgot it in the theatre. But she's also really stressed...so it's possible."
"Great! Then maybe she just–"
"I just thought that I'd come and check, just in case. Acing these finals means a lot to her. Plus Jordie and I are planning a huge Hawaii trip for her and Kennedy after graduation. So I just don't want her to stress herself out too bad and ruin her chances at getting a good grade...just because of this book."
You felt a twinge of guilty hit your chest hard. Jordie and Jamie were currently planning an amazing trip for you and your best friend...and you were not only hiding the biggest secret from them but also currently hiding behind a door...naked and wrapped in a blanket.
"HA!" Jamie yelled, scaring you and almost causing you to jump and knee the entertainment center. "I found it! Physiology and Anatomy, perfect!"
"Huh, I guess she really did leave it." What a liar, since the two of you were just using that book for a guideline to your cards.
"Hey, do you know that your entertainment center is completely blocking your door?"
Oh no. Oh no, no, no.
Your heart was hammering against your chest as you closed your eyes and prayed that Jamie would stay as far away from your location as possible.
"I mean, either you need to get this door realigned or figure out a better place for your entertainment center, man. This door closes too fast?" You watched in horror as Jamie's fingers curled around the upper side of the door. He tugged it towards him, revealing you and your hiding space as his attention was all on Tyler. "It could really damage it."
You looked at Tyler as you gulped, sending him a helpless look. His eyes were wide and staring in your direction, as Jamie held all of his focus on Tyler. "Why do you look like you've seen a–" Jamie finally turned to you, "Y/N?"
You were speechless. The moment you opened your mouth to explain, your throat dried and it was as if you forgot how to speak. You could see Jamie was still trying to register in his brain why you were there. You watched helplessly as his eyes traveled down to your blanket before coming right back up. It was scary, watching his eyes gloss over and darken all at once– something that only happened whenever he was really angry...or on the ice.
"Bish and Jordie were right...weren't they?" He turned to Tyler and you already knew what was going to happen. "You're sleeping with my sister?"
Tyler opened his mouth to speak, stuttering to come up with an answer at first as he looked at you over Jamie's shoulder. "Listen, Chubbs it's not–"
In a flashing moment, Jamie swung at Tyler, landing a solid hit right on Tyler's eye. "Are you sleeping with my fucking sister, Tyler?"
You pushed past Jamie and rushed to Tyler's side, tugging your blanket tighter against your body before placing yourself in between the two grown men. "Jamie, stop!" You yelled, your voice cracking since your throat had been so dry.
You turned your attention to Tyler, who was just nodding you off as you brushed your thumb against the warm red spot beneath his left eye. "Jesus Christ," Jamie scoffed, shaking his head as he rested both hands on top of his head. "Jordie and Bish were right. You two are...you're..."
You've always heard the phrase of someone 'turning green' whenever they were going to be sick, but you never understood it until you looked at Jamie in this very moment. The look in his eyes and his expression on his face said it all– he looked as if he could throw up at any moment. He went to say something again, closing his mouth before turning away from you and Tyler and rushing out of the room.
"Jamie!" You called out, turning to Tyler who just nodded at you to go after him.
"Jamie, stop!" This time you screamed, feeling the desperation practically leaking from you as you held the blanket tight against your body and ran down the steps after your older brother. "Please, stop!"
Yet his steps hadn't faulted and he kept the same pace and his back to you. He didn't need to turn around for you to understand just how mad he was. You could feel the anger radiating off of him as he came to a stop at the front door. "Jamie, please..." You cried, not even realizing that tears had started to fall down your cheeks until you heard yourself speak.
He kept his back turned to you for what felt like hours but was only seconds. "When?" He asked, finally turning to you, his look of anger still plastered on his face. "When did this all start?"
"I-I mean I've had feelings for him for a while and we-we've been flirting and–"
"When did you start having sex with him? Halloween?" The loud and harsh tone of his voice, startled you back a few steps and for the first time, you were scared of your brother.
"N-no! Not until I broke up with Cole." He turned away from you again, this time grabbing the doorknob and you reached out for his arm, grasping onto his sweatshirt sleeve. "P-please, Jamie just...listen, please."
Jamie starts to turn the knob, ignoring you before he took a deep breath and sighed, turning back to face you with a look of hurt written all over his face. "I just...I don't get it! Don't you know his reputation, Y/N?" He asked, his left hand waving towards the stairs. "It's not a lie! He sleeps with girls all the time, it's who he is!"
You tugged the blanket tighter, letting your grip on his sweatshirt sleeve fall. "It's different with me J. I...I think I–"
Before you were even able to confess your feelings, Jamie brushed them off with an aggressive scoff. "Don't even say it, Y/N. Do you really think that you love him? That he loves you?" His voice was getting higher and if you could shrink into the floor, you would. "He's not even capable of loving someone, Y/N! And you–" he drops a hand at you, shaking his head. "You're just a kid."
"I'm almost 22-years-old, Jamie. I'm not that little girl with pigtails following you, Jenny and Jordie around like a puppy. I'm a big girl capable of making decisions and I know what I feel!"
Jamie just stared at you as you felt your confidence start to dwindle off, just as fast as it appeared. But then you saw it, a small moment in his eyes where his anger subsided and he seemed to be taking in your statement. Maybe this was it, maybe he wouldn't brush off your feelings for Tyler like it's a pre-school crush, and actually take you seriously. For that moment, he was the big brother that you went to for so many years when you skinned your knee and needed someone to hold your hand while your mom drowned the wound in hydrogen peroxide.
And no sooner than that moment opened up, it closed off again the moment his eyes wandered off of you and to the area behind you. His eyes glossed over and darkened once again, pushing your comforting big brother aside. "You asked me about Maisy? Well, there's a reason why he never let her post anything. Because she was nothing more than a hookup. A piece of ass that he could call when he was lonely and needed to get laid." His eyes wandered back down to your blanket and you pulled it tighter against you as he looked you back in the eye. "What makes you think that you're any different than her?"
He turned back towards the door, only for a moment before turning back and looking at you. "I'm down with you." His eyes looked over your shoulder. "Both of you."
He opened the door and walked out, slamming it hard behind him. "Jamie!" You cried out, staring at Tyler's front door, knowing that going after him was not an option. When you went to take a deep breath, sobs escaped from the back of your throat and your legs felt like buckling beneath your weight.
You turned around to see Tyler standing there and looking somber, dressed up in sweats and a t-shirt, which was a whole different outfit from when he answered the door. His eye was starting to swell and it only served as a reminder of everything that had just happened in minutes. He places your clothes in a neat pile and looked at you, taking in your tears. You walked towards him, wrapping your arms around him and feeling him return your embrace...only somehow, he felt distant.
You pulled out of his arms and sniffled, wiping your cheeks on to your arm as he pulled the blanket tight against you, again. "I think you should leave. I can go pack up your backpack and call you an uber."
It was as if he drove a stake through your chest with those two sentences. You nodded, only because if you were to speak, you'd let out more sobs you were holding. He handed you your clothes before disappearing up the stairs.
The moment he was out of view, you made your way to the downstairs bathroom and locked yourself inside of it, letting your sobs escape. You played the details in your mind: Jamie's face, the spite in his words. How distant and cold Tyler just seemed to you. Like he was brushing you off as just another random hook-up with his uber comment when normally you'd be staying the night or he offered to drive you back to campus.
As you got dressed and splashed water onto your face, you took in your reflection. You hadn't realized just how hard you had been crying until now. Your face was flushed and your eyes swollen and red. You splashed some more water onto your face before drying it off with a towel, leaning against the counter and letting your head drop.
Everything has changed.
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"Have a good night Ma'am and whatever it is that has you so upset...I'm sorry." Your uber driver, a friendly elder man said, giving you a soft smile and offering you a candy cane from his candy bowl.
You smiled, sniffling as you took one. "Thank you and I'm sorry for being such a mess."
"Oh don't apologize. I remember what it was like being your age. It's a difficult time, and I'm sorry if I'm just overstepping here...but young men at this age? Wouldn't be able to see the women of their dreams if she was standing right in front of his face. So don't let him get you down and you just go ahead and focus on school and being your best self? Okay?"
You nodded, closing the door and watching as he drove away. You adjusted your backpack on your shoulders and stuff the candy cane into your sweatshirt pocket, wiping your cheeks on your sleeves. You hadn't stopped crying the moment you got into your uber. Hell, it was a miracle you had managed to stop crying when Tyler came to get you from the bathroom.
He had knocked on the door, giving you only seconds to collect yourself and grab the blanket before opening the door to him saying: 'The uber is here'
And all you were able to say was 'Okay.'
The walk from the bathroom to his front door was awkward– you just followed behind him like a lost puppy, trading his blanket for your backpack. He had opened the front door and you walked outside, expecting him to follow after you– only when you turned around, he was rested in the doorway and nodding his head at the end of his driveway. You couldn't think of anything to say except for– "See you"
And all he did was nod and watch you walk down the driveway. When you got to your uber, you turned around to wave at him, only to have your heart sink into your stomach when you noticed that the door was closed. That's what started your endless tears in the uber. He didn't even bother to make sure that you were safe getting into the uber and didn't even bother to shoot you a text to ask you to text him when you got to your dorm.
Speaking of which, walking to your dorm right now at almost 2 A.M. felt like an extreme walk of shame, though since it was finals week...maybe you could pass it off as you coming back from a hardcore study session that just caused you to spiral into a mental breakdown. When you got to your room, you opened it and walked in to see Kennedy and Big Rig chilling on her bed, watching Netflix.
"Hey babe, how did studying go?" When she turned to look at you, she immediately took in your appearance, tossing off her blankets as you made your way to your bed.
You dropped your backpack onto the floor, keeping your face hidden from them and trying to best to keep your cool. But the moment Kennedy started to rub your back, your bottom lip started to quiver and you let out a sob. You heard Big Rig shift in Kennedy's bed as he paused their show and you kept your back to the both of them as you climbed up onto your bed.
"Am I kicking his ass?" Big Rig asked, causing you to let out another sob and you saw Kennedy wave him off as she rested her arms on your knees.
"What's wrong, Y/N?" She asked, tapping her finger against one of your knees and causing you to look at her.
You sniffled again and looked at both of them through teary eyes. "Jamie knows."
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More Tangled Thoughts: New Dream Kids Edition
ok so first things first: I am still working on a fic that incorporates the prompts I got a while ago on another post about the new dream kids, it’s just hard to write a scavenger hunt lmao
also, these are my headcanons about Rapunzel and Eugene’s kids: I will be using the names I came up with for them as well as just the ideas I have about them. If you don’t agree with any of it- great! If you agree with them- great! I love seeing everyone’s interpretations of these characters and what i have to say is not the end all be all (obviously)
ok gonna put a cut here bc idk how long this will get
ok so i think basically everyone agrees that the new dream kids are twins so like....they’re twins that hasn’t changed
The names i randomly chose for them are Emmeline and Callan, (i like being able to give characters nicknames-theirs are Emmie and Cal) but i was thinking and after seeing people headcannoning that Rapunzel wasn’t her original name (similar to Eugene’s being Horace) i was like...hmmm
so I decided Rapunzel’s name was initially Emilia, named after some relative Emmeline and then...boom full circle her daughter is named Emmeline
I have absolutely no explanation for Callan’s name i just thought it sounded like it would work for the tangled universe
ok now into personalities
I was thinking Callan would maybe be quieter, but maybe not in a ‘doesn’t speak’ sort of way??
like Emmeline doesn’t take any shit and she’s very vocal but Callan is just more reserved
but when they’re together all bets are off and they wreak HAVOC like the guards thought they had their hands full with Eugene when he was Flynn Rider but now there’s the kids of him and Princess Rapunzel (aka another person you really can’t tie down) and it’s like being sneaky is in their genes
also Eugene (and Kiera and Catalina) probably teaches them some sneaky tricks but like...on the down low. Rapunzel isn’t thrilled when she learns about this but like she also finds it hilarious and in reality doesn’t mind bc the twins are using it to sneak a cupcake or two, not steal a crown
Emmeline takes more after Eugene and Callan takes more after Rapunzel, but both LOVE painting on the walls of their rooms
Emmeline dreams of being a guard and doesn’t love the idea of being fully in charge of running a kingdom. Callan wants to be a great artist like his mother and isn’t necessarily scared of the possibility of being king one day
Later in their lives, this kind of turns into Callan actually becoming King of Corona while Emmeline marries a princess from another kingdom and is Queen there- she’s super happy about that bc she doesn’t want all of the pressure being The Head of a kingdom comes with, she’s like the second in command kind of thing and most likely becomes very involved with that kingdom’s guard
so yea they’re both not straight. probably bi but yea. Callan might be ace or aro or both idk
but i LOVE the idea of a prince coming from another kingdom and both of the twins have a crush on him. I think i made a post about this before but i should really write a fic of this
The twins absolutely LOVE Max and Max LOVES the twins. Obviously he’s at the very end of his life (bc he’s a horse) when the twins are old enough to interact with him and he probably dies before they’re 10
both twins are known to speak their minds but especially Emmeline
she learned very quickly that she needs to filter her thoughts during diplomatic events and put on a face (another reason she absolutely dreads the idea of being Corona’s Queen) but can still get away with snide remarks to Callan....sometimes
the Prince of Corona has been known to laugh so hard during events that water comes out of his nose. Eyewitnesses say the Princess sitting next to him always looks very pleased with herself when this happens
the twins love making each other laugh. they have a great sibling relationship but obviously do fight sometimes bc that’s just how siblings be
I know i’ve been describing Emmeline as like...kind of rigid but she is also soft and has ‘classic princess qualities’ i hate how that sounds but idk how else to put it
basically Emmeline can and will fuck you up or mess with you but she LOVES getting an excuse to dress up and attend balls and similar events (may or may not have to do with her big fat crush on the princess from Bayangor)
Callan enjoys his more comfy, non-princely-duties clothes but also loves dressing up for events
the twins ADORE their family. Uncle Lance tells amazing stories (almost as good as their father’s stories and that’s saying a l o t), their cousins Kiera and Catalina are the best babysitters (bc they let them sneak around and ride dessert carts through the halls), Uncle Varian is always doing the coolest things and makes the best hot chocolate in all of Corona, and their grandmother and grandfathers just absolutely spoil them bc they didn’t get to be a part of their own kid’s childhoods bc they love their grandkids sm
Callan, especially when he was a toddler, ALWAYS finds himself in someone’s arms. that kid LOVES being held and everyone knows this
even though he doesn’t compete in it, Callan always enjoys Contest of the Crowns bc he is his sister’s number 1 supporter, even if they’re mad at each other
Emmeline’s favorite holiday is the Goodwill Festival. She absolutely loves the gopher (she finds that animal absolutely adorable) and just all around enjoys the happiness and good feelings that radiate through the kingdom during it
They do know Cass, but not super well. They first meet her when they’re like maybe 3 or 4 and visits are fairly sporadic and few and far between, but they do love their Aunt Cass (i feel like she has Aunt Willow vibes- ie, travels a lot but makes time every now and then to visit)
Emmeline and Callan are probably the only kids in all of Corona who just call Monty ‘Monty’ and not ‘Uncle Monty’. Monty loves them, they love Monty, and both he and Rapunzel put aside their friendly rivalry when it comes to the kids, but for some reason the twins just never ended up adding the ‘uncle’ to his name (Rapunzel does not mind. Eugene thinks she’s almost smug about it)
the twins are obsessed with the stories Rapunzel and Eugene tell them. The story of how they met is one of their favorites. it’s been told to them for as long as they can remember, but they only learned the full story sometime when they were in between the ages of 10 and 13. That night they slept in their parents room.
Lance is the one who tells the twins about Eugene’s Flynn Rider days, but doesn’t mention the Flynn Rider in his stories is their father. The twins are confused by this bc Eugene reads them the actual Flynn Rider books (which they love) and when they ask Eugene about it (”Uncle Lance told us you would know!”) they don’t initially believe him when he comes clean to having been the thief. It takes Rapunzel and quite a few wanted posters (”that’s obviously not you- the nose isn’t right!” “THANK YOU!”) to convince them otherwise.
ok this is getting really long so i think i’ll stop there. honestly, im not expecting anyone to read this fully bc of how long it is and it’s just me rambling again, but if you did, thank you! i really appreciate it! I’ve gotten addicted to sharing my thoughts in this manner so like...this is most likely not the last time i do this lol. also i didn’t proofread this bc frankly i dont care
the amount of unfinished new dream kid fics in my wips.....astronomical.
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Was talking to little Liz about our favorite required reading for school, and i was kind of amazed that she said the outsiders, too. It completely confirmed for me she's gay and I told her as much (she laughed; Liz is like 16 so boys are still her primary) and then it was like: "why do I think the outsiders is a book for lgbt+ kids" because I've always related to it in the sense of 1. I grew up poor and had few friends because of it and 2. I grew up "rough" compared to most kids around me, I can't say I was in a real gang or anything because thats not what it was (at the time my state decreed juggalos as a gang which is still beyond hilarious) so I wondered when I made that link in my head, and how. And it kinda occurred to me: a secret so big that no one will either believe you or accept you once its out. A secret that could get you in trouble, one that you go to your most trusted friends for help with. A secret that makes you run away. And once ponyboy and Johnny go back to town... everything is ok. No one is sending them to jail or accusing them of being viscious murderers. Johnny lays in a hospital bed and is given adequate treatment. Ponyboy gets to stay with his brothers and friends. And no one really confronts either of them about what happened that night, why they ran away to windrixville for a week. Its almost completely let go. I dont remember coming out to my friends, it didn't matter enough for me to tell them. And now I'm sitting here wondering what my dream was about and thinking about the outsiders again and. Is this a sign? I think I've figured out im nb which just. Thanks for that one god, makes a lot more sense. So I got the no gender part. I also still think there's a possibility I like guys, but I dont know how... hetero-performative that is, and my standards for guys are way out of the ballpark for cishet guys. And im desperately in love with my best friend but in a chill way that'll never go anywhere because even if she discovered she was gay, im ace and I dont think anyone has the capacity or patience to love me if there's no reward for it, and not to mention I've had so many people fuck up friendships because of crushes so I would never ever want to do that to her. If she needs me, she needs me and im there 100%. I dont want anything from her except her time because I've gotten so good at Gears and I want to play games with her and just. Live together. Thats the only thing on my mind. I dont want to die, im not miserable right now... because I keep thinking ill be living with her, this is what I've always wanted. This was the original plan that I fucked up because I fuck things up when they're good for me. And I dont wanna mess this up. I'm scared that I will, or I already have. And since this is buried so deep in a read more that no one will read because its midnight and my dash dies around 1, I can say it: I will never be disappointed in her, or feel betrayed or whatever... unless she gets back with her ex. She is growing, she's so close to finding her way out of her coffin. I just want to see the person she's going to become. She's going to do amazing things, but this guy will drag her back into a pit of despair... and I can't stop it if it happens. People have to make their choices. I have never felt more like the fucking rose bride in my goddamn life. I hope she makes the right choices. Please. "Oh, noble hero, you have given me a small taste of true friendship, and I thank you for that" please don't make me take the swords again so I can watch it all fall to pieces. This is a really homosexual post.
#I dont know what to tag this one as but it has a lot of refs I like#The outsiders#Rgu#Rose bride#Im going to be pissed seeing this in my rose bride tag#But im feeling it
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SHOW US YOUR WROR RAW UNPROCESSED WHOLE GRAIN ORGANIC NOTES
this is going to be a long-ass post i am so sorry to Everyone! i take a lot of notes.
So, as You specifically know (as well as all of my lovely Soggers) I take a LOT of notes. Obsessively. I write fucking everything bc i have very little memory and very much paranoia. This results in literal Piles of notes. Raw planning, on paper, on my phone– doodles of scenes im brainstorming, bulletpoints, entire SCRIPTS– it’s all there but scattered (I’ve got scenes planned in the margins of my goddamn anthropology notes and deciphering it was a NIGHTMARE)
I won’t even upload all the photos of my writing notebook, because itd be like 50 pages of illegible nonesense. but heres a couple of planning phase pages. (may be hard to read, I dropped this notebook both into some tidepools, into a creek on campus, and accidentally leaked my waterbottle onto it in my backpack :/)
if you can’t tell already, yes they all look exactly like this. Some are even more illegible, because I wrote them with the notebook half under my actual class notes. Because i wrote most of them in class. During lectures. And pretending very badly that i was not doing exactly that. (pay attention in class please i got away with this bc i was filling up elective units)
I’m also flat out MISSING a large portion of my notes bc some of it? isnt even in the damn notebook. its on a sheet of binder paper, or on the empty back of an assignment. I’ve now lost most of those notes, but the ones i do still have are just as (even more, actually) indecipherable chicken scratch:
Wow, how clean and tidy and easy to follow! i am in hell.
and this doesnt mention the PAGES and PAGES of outlines that are on my laptop, and the pages of outlined scenes that are on the notes app of my phone. if i put them all, you would have entire chapter spoilers up to the very end of the story so i cant post a lot of them– and also theres just a goddamn lot of them. currently i have 16 pages of outlining. There are no spacing breaks. It is a solid 16 page block of text. Looking at it gives me a migraine.
some assorted notes which i have dredged up from the deleted parts of the main draft google doc go all the way back to when i started Wror in June and they are Barely more readable than my handwriting on sheer account of: articulation is not my strength. These include:
“Ch 8 plan: sabo gets trained specially, awakens his armament haki, beats ace in a bunch of spars and proves himself to be anything but vulnerable. The boys are like “we fucking recognize that technique ryu taught you before us!!” and goad ryu into finally starting them both on basic haki training, just to awaken it, since sabo already has. Also this is the chapter that ace finally confronts ryu for his devil fruit after ryu confirms that some devil fruit users can’t be hurt without haki and ace immediately catches onto that and tries to slam his pipe through ryus head. It doesn’t work, ryu catches the weapon with a haki covered hand, to avoid turning to flame with hit and ace just gets frustrated and accuses ryu of hiding his devil fruit, because he remembers what he saw in grey terminal and that now that he has seen haki he can distinguish it from what he saw and he’s sure no one could do what ryu did. He calls ryu a hypocrite for coddling them even after telling them to stop coddling sabo and ryu has to sit them down and explain that yes he does have powers and he has been hdiing it and explains his reasoning. However instead of understanding th eboys just get fired up and say they don’t wnt to be scared of fire, especially not when it means ryu isn’t taking them seriously in a spar. Ryu finally agrees to start them on desensitization training for fire trauma. Fire desensitization training happens on the beach, so that they have water nearby in case things get out of hand. At some point ace gives ryu a considering look and is just like “if you have a devil fruit that means you can’t swim either right?” and ryu is basically just like “lmao yeah” and then ace immediately attempts to drown him. Lots of murder attempts in ace’s department toget his older brother to be less of an idiot with little success lol(extra: ace tried to attack ryu earlier both to confirm that ryu has a devil fruit that would force him to use haki to hide it, and because he now knows that he CAN’T hurt ryu without haki and as thus can’t beat him and make him admit he’s awake without being good at haki.)” [chapter 8]
“Small sabo lost his hat and goggles in the incident and while he doesn’t remember having them future sabo notices he looks uncomfortable and keeps touching his hair and head. Ace yells at him for it thinking he bandaging are bothering him and that he can’t touch them but little sabo just comments that something about it feels wrong. Luffy blurts our that he had a hat, like luffy does, But he doesn’t now ace begrudgingly mentions that they can’t get a new one in town. Future sabo doesn’t even hesitate and just plops his own hat onto his younger selves head. It clearly too big for him, and almost falls over his eyes but he grins up at future sabo and is like “wow!! Thank you! I’ll take care of it till I have one of my own” and creates a paradox like Luffys own hat. The footsteps younger sabo has yet to fill. This HAS to happen AFTER the talk where they explain that future and past sabo are both the same person, to give little sabo that pressure.” [chapter 9]
“(Right after this older sabo takes them down to the ocean so that they can play a little and desensitize themselves and immediately fucks himself over when he goes weak in the water bc he somehow fucking forgot his own devil fruit again and now even younger sabo is on his case about not letting him near the fucking ocean that little goddamn HYPOCRITE—) )” [for chapter 9]
“Ch 9 plan: they finally leave dawn island. Starts with the boys getting a haircut after training and luffy mentions how long it’s been since they’ve last needed a haircut, giving sabo and ace time to point out that it’s been 2 months now since ryu joined them, and that sabo was completely healed by now. The boys are now aware of the basics of haki, and while luffy hasnt awakened either yet ace and sabo both have a little bit of weak armament haki. (sabo won’t awaken observational haki until he gets his memories back) ryu tries to sneak off into the city to steal a boat but his brothers refuse to leave him behind and keep sneaking out after him, not wanting him to go alone and saying that since he’s been training them they’re clearly stronger and he needs to let them do this. Ryu eventually just lets it go because why the fuck not it’s a dream and they make him feel better. They get the boat out on open ocean and finally fucking sail out, cheering loudly, ryu struggling to make them all calm down but also not really trying. He’s happy as shit, and they’re all so excited and happy and sabo dips a hand into the waves and then smiles so fucking wide and tackles ryu so violently they both nearly tip into the water and it’s just very very good. “ [also for ch 9]
** I flat out dont Have any outlining from before chapter 6, because i only started actually outling chapters after that. i tend to just sit down and Write up until i hit a plot point or writers block and then am forced to actually think it through and plan rather than letting it come naturally. thats also why the quality and editing is better in later chapters despite everything being written within the same time frame.
besides entire chapter outlines, there are the scene specific phone notes like:
“(ADDED) Right after they leave dawn, when sabo is sure they’ve gotten enough of a head start, he calls Garp. He doesn’t say who he is, but that all of the boys are safe and happy with him and has them all talk into the phone to assure him that they’re fine. Garp is honestly just pissed off he doesn’t know who’s calling and when he asks sabo just laughs and says a disobedient brat before hanging up. “
“(ADDED) TO EXPAND ON CH 3: sabo gets offered the chance to go with dragon, and he hesitates on the offer to go through with his previous life with the family he’s made in the revolutionary again. He almost agrees, because the bought of losing them in this lifetime is near excruciating but reminds himself swiftly that it’s no place for his brothers and not what they’d really want, and he wants selfishly to be with them as long as he Can until he “inevitably” wakes up. The boys are visibly relieved by this, especially ace. (Sabo gets asked who he is by dragon, who wants to know more about the stranger with his son, but dragon has always been quicker to make connections no one guessed and he just smiled knowingly at sabo and tells him he’s sure the other will have no trouble finding them if he’s in need. Sabo in turn warns him to keep Kuma close, and to look for a slave girl named koala.)”
I have…. many of these. I have Many of Everything.
finally, i have scene doodles. if i hit a bad writers block it usually helps me to sketch scenes or the character designs to regain my grip on what the hell is happening in the plot– Breach of Intention has character design sketches, pakcbond has MANY scene sketches, even some of my nsfw has some sketches. my wror skecthes arent Good of course, I am an art teacher for children and that means i am more often explaining the color wheel and brush techniques over drawing perfect human replicas– and i just dont really make a lot of fanart? ive never drawn sabo before but i sure have a bunch now. i wont include close ups because they genuinely suck but heres an example pic
So… yeah thats about everything. this is a VERY long post and yet i only included like maybe ¼ or 1/5 of all the notes i have dbskhjgfkjadns lmk if anyone wants more (or notes for my Other stories, which contain NO WHERE the same absurd amount of shit that wror does.)
#depths' ask#response#idk what to even tag this honestly?? this post is such a mess abhdsjfgdkjn#thanks mido love u dear 💕🎉 im gonna want some damn notes on second chances heads up#wror#wror stockpile#touchmycoat#i started this response at goddamn 3:52am and its now 4:40am#it took me. almost an HOUR#oh my god
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Summer Days AU (Midoriya/ Bakuguo x F!reader)
Warning: Slight swearing, this is Bakuguo after all.
Finally it was summer vacation for you. Having completed the last days of high school you were an offical college student and your parents left for the summer on a two month cruise, they said they’d get back in time to move you into college. “Just perfect! No parents, no nosiy neighbors and no summer job! Im free for the whole summer to do anything I want.” You grabbed your dogs leash and the keys to your car, today you wanted to hit the lake and kaayk the day away, maybe even have a pinic on the small island in the middle. Spending the day away it was rather late when you got home, making a small dinner you settled into bed to watch some anime before falling alseep.
You woke up the next morning sweating bullets, maybe you had forgotten to turn on the AC before going to bed. You tried getting out of bed but it seemed like something was holding you down, well two somethings. Proabably just the dogs but then again when did the dogs get that big.
“Stop moving around you damn nerd, its too early.” “Kacchan, when did you grow your hair out?” Now it was time for you to scream and thrash about trying to get away from them, whivch lead to all of you screaming. When the screaming died down you started to shout questions at each other. Nothing was making sense, a blonde unnaturally spiky blonde haired boy was on the floor about ready to explode, a green haired boy was perched on the edge of your bed looking at you with wonder. “SHUT UP YOU DAMN NERDS!” “Oh, Kacchan this isnt the dorms. And shes not in our class.”
“Who are you and how did you get in my room!” The blonde boy pinned you to the floor. “I ask the questions and you answer, got it?” Small sparks left his hands scary as it was something about it was vaugly famailiar. He kinda looked like that guy from the anime you watched as a kid. What was it called, hero something. “Who are you?” “ My name is (Y/N)” “Where are we?” “In the USA?” “What quirk do you have?” “Whats a quirk?” “What do you mean WHATS A QUIRK!” “We dont have quirks, or what it is that you can do. magic maybe, some kinda of scare tactic? Going to rob me?” This was wehne the green hairded boy spoke up, he had your phone and was going through it. “Kacchan this must be the work of that villans qurik when we were hit by it, theres no UA, no pro-heros, no quirks and its 2019.
“Hah?” He let go of you. and walked over to the other boy. “Guess so damn nerd, how long will we be here? I dont want to be stuck next to you forever.” You had no idea what was going on but it was becoming apparent that they didnt belong here but werent going to hurt you. After years of watchign ovies it looked like you would have to protect them to ensure you dont end up in some governemetn lab for alien conspiracy. “Um can I ask your names?” “Ohh my name is Midoryia, Izuku and hes Bakugou, Katsuki.” Wait now those names sounded way to familiar. Oh they were from the My Hero Academia amine and manga you and your parents read as a kid, it was your dads favorite anime so he imparted it onto you. “Oi, whats that blush for!” Crap, you may have had a crush on them when you were in school, but they werent real so it was okay but now they were stnading in front of you in the flesh. “Nothing you jerk! You can both stay here for the time being, I dont want the goevernment to find and experiment on you or whatever. I’ll be downstairs making breakfast, dont make a mess of my room.” SO they were real and a had quirks and were in your house, man was this summer going to be the best!
After making breakfast you gave the boys plates and got them aquainted with the house. “Extra! I’m bored.” “Well I was planning a few events for over the summer, I guess you could go with me and the dog.” Over the course of the summer, you spent everyday with those idiots enjoying the time together at the beach, festivals, theme parks and enjoying nature. It was the best summer of your life. As it went on you developed feelings for both boys as they did the same with you. There was only a few days left of your summer break when it happened. The quirk time keeping them in your world ended taking them back to their own time, leaving you alone, never able to say good-bye or confess your fellings.
Years went by and you never stopped thinking about them. You had your own job and moved out of your parents, tyring to make a life for yourself, but something was always missing. One day your parents called asking if you knew two young men who stopped by the hosue asking about you. After hanging up the call, you packed a small bag and treid to be out the door but when you opened the door you ran right into Bakuguo and behind him was Midoryia. They had both aged since you last saw each other, and boy did age do they well. “Will you come with us? We cant leave our world since were heros, but you could come and live with us.” “I dont know I’m trying to make a life here, I got my degree and this apartment...” “Please,” Midoryia begged on the verge of tears, “I dont want to be without you anymore, I’ve fallen in love with you.” “You damn nerd, I was going to tell her first!” “It doesn’t matter who told me first becuase I’ve also fallen in love, with both of you. I’ll go, could I just say good-bye first?” And with that sentament, you left your world behind for a new adventure with two pro-heros and world with superheros and villans.
#bakugou katsuki#midoriya izuku#bnha midoriya#bnha bakugou#bnha au#x reader#bakugou x reader#midoriya x reader#bnha#my hero academia
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