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#i thiiiink 8.#but i have one coming up in a few days and one next year#i'm also not counting ones that my parents dragged me to that i didn't really want to go to#they took me to a bunch of grateful dead or phish concerts that i don't particularly care about#and also took me to see weird al twice which was fine but like. not something i ever asked for or particularly wanted#ive seen a queen reenactment band‚ marina and the diamonds‚ car seat headrest‚ idkhow‚ MCR‚ death cab for cutie‚ hot mulligan x2#and i'm seeing PTV in a few days and MCR again next year#my friend bought the PTV tickets and i did a payment plan for MCR LOL i cannot afford these#but i promised my bf i would take him to see MCR if they toured again bc i went to the reunion tour with someone else#polls#submitted#queued#concert#concerts#music#shows#hall of fame
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Prompt:
Brucie Wayne gets into a mild accident in public (read-got hit by a car). And Batman would just walk it off (“it’s barely a bruise”), but Brucie obviously… can’t.
So he has to suffer the ordeal of having civilians call paramedics, getting fussed over, and having-
Having his dead son get into the back of the ambulance with him.
Oh- oh no. He must have hit his head worse than he thought. He thought he was past this…
#((Jason is the one who hit him with the car))#(((but it truly was an accident)))#((((and now his elaborate revenge plans got derailed because OMG I HIT MY DAD WITH A CAR))))#Brucie gets to blubber and cry about his son in a way Batman isn’t allowed to#meanwhile Jason: omg pls shut up PLS I’m BEGGING you just die already#Bruce: anything for you 🥹#Jason: …. hold on no I didn’t mean that B do NOT fall asleep on me right now#some more fake hallucinations#but nobody thinks it’s a hallucination except Bruce#also: Wayne Son Back From The Dead!? more on page two!#((Jason takes his revenge by trying to boot Tim from the family and realizing he’s not even part of it which—))#((is anybody taking care of that raccoon? well Jason is now))))#prompts#crack au#fanfiction#inspiration#jason todd#batfamily#dick grayson#bruce wayne#batfam#robin#tim drake#red hood#Batdad#Brucie wayne
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If you're in Australia and Jewish, please be aware that in Victoria, Melbourne a synagogue was firebombed with worshippers inside this morning.
Thankfully no one was killed however this is a horrific attack that could lead to copycats and or an escalation of hate crimes against Jewish Australians. I am in no way qualified to talk on how to handle such an event as a non-Jewish person. I cannot begin to think of the many Jewish Australians who are now fearful of their life in public, in their place of worship and in their home. I can only provide you some resources that may help ease you.
Here are some helplines that are catered to Jewish people and for anyone else impacted by the attack to call or use;
JewishHouse: 24/7 service offering support for those experiencing a crisis. ➡️ 1300 544 357
JewishCare: 9am to 5pm service offering counselling. ➡️ 1300 133 660
HeadSpace: provides online counselling and telephone support for young people aged 12 to 25. ➡️ 1800 650 890
Kids Helpline: 24/7 telephone and online counselling service for young people aged 5 to 25. ➡️ 1800 55 1800
Mental Health Line: 24 hour mental health telephone access service for adults and children. ➡️ 1800 011 511
Lifeline: 24 hour telephone counselling service. ➡️ 13 11 14
Please don't hesitate to reach out for support or to connect with the people in your community. I believe that as people we can always find comfort and strength in one another to get through tough times.
Edit: I'm turning reblogs off since some of you guys don't understand that I can want both Palestinian and Israeli/Jewish people to be free of harm and death. I do not believe that either group needs to perish in order for the other to flourish. The fact that some of you equate me wanting Jewish people in my country to be aware of what has happened and providing helplines to now being anti-palestinian or that because I want palestinians to be free that I am a antisemitic is very telling on the type of person that you are. I want a world where everyone can be happy, safe and healthy - as naive as that makes me sound, I'd rather be naive. That's it. That's all.
#this is really sad to say but please be careful of bags and boxes that have been left alone - dont touch it and call police if concerned#please also be aware of evacuation points and plans at your place of worship - this was a firebomb attack that was thrown in#try to educate yourself on fires and bomb injuries - purchase a first aid kit if possible and have it in your car#jew#jewish#jumblr#australia#australian#jewblr#jews#psa#helpline#support#aid
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Hi, Howdy! Hey! I really love your novel!! I got a little confused by the 4 day, may maybe you help me please? who is it? why we got the bad end staying the night in Ren’s apartment and he disappear of the home screen? I can’t understand “unset memory” game, sorry if I wrote smth wrong or smth sounds rude, I swear that I didn’t mean it if happened, I’m really a fan of the novel, I’ve been playing the game since day 1 or 2 I guess, probably day 1, english isn’t my first language, but I tried lol
⌞♥⌝ I hope you don't mind me answering these as bullet points!! ^^
"It" will be revealed later in the game! So I won't reveal too much right now.
You can only get the Dead End in Day 4 by staying at Ren's apartment — the rest of your choices before that don't matter. I'd also pay closer attention to the black smoke and Ren's reaction towards it!
Ren disappears from the home screen because he promised to help the player out (and stop them from getting the Dead End again). Try replaying the game again from the beginning for a surprise!
"Unsent Memories" was another visual novel (initially being written by @10chimes / @unsentmemory, though the project has since been dropped and handed back to me /pos) and is set in the same universe as 14 Days With You. Its storyline and characters are completely separate from 14DWY, so you don't have to worry about them while playing 14DWY.
#I don't think a lot of people know this but River was originally my OC lmao#Obviously BEFORE Jesse picked him up and turned him into an entirely different character /pos#We originally planned for Riv and Ren to have a Billy and Stu dynamic; except River would pretend to be a himbo—#— The same way Ren would pretend to be some Normal Empathetic Guy™️ kjgskg#River was also going to be a lovesick serial killer who incapacitated Bunny so that they'd stay with & depend on him forever#Also because Jesse and I wanted to have a ''same production factory; different yandere'' kind of vibe with Riv and Ren (and their dynamic)#Like... Ren puts Angel above himself and craves THEIR satisfaction whereas River cares about himself and prioritises HIS own satisfaction#Ren would hit his best friend (River) with a car if it meant keeping Angel happy & by his side forever#River would hit Bunny with a car if it meant keeping them by his side forever (thus making him happy)#But!! After everything that's happened in the yandere community; Jesse (understandably) wanted to get away from that kind of environment#So he's since dropped Unsent Memories and hasn't really got any plans to work on it again or return to da yan vn circle#I'm also continuing to write 14DWY the way it was originally planned (with 2017!River only getting a brief cameo to serve up some lore </3)#—But I'm lowkey holding out just in case Jesse ever considers returning hehe :3 I like their version of River and I wanna do him justice#Until then though?? I'll yearnfully clutch my locket and wait for my lover to return from war.... (she has a literal 9-5 job now) /hj /p#GKJSDG I scrolled up and??? NOT ME RANTING IN THE TAGS AGAIN?????????? WHY DO I UNINTENTIONALLY YAP SO MUCH#I will 🤫🤐 now#💌 — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#🖤 — shut up sai.#to be tagged later#weird0nerd
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Got up early (for me), ate a light and healthy breakfast, applied to some jobs, took a long mental health walk with the dogs, gave one of them a bath, and even did some phone calls and messaging regarding my medication and pharmacy problems and managed to sort it out without breaking down!!! And! Showered!! Kicking ASS at mental health today
#im studying myself like a bug. with no judgement or compulsive self hate when i see the results. and then doing something different based on#those results#and its working#ive noticed that im much more productive when i have someone else to help or listen to. its a little uh sad because im not easily able to#to take care of myself and do things for MYSELF. but if its for someone else then its like i gain momentum#going out to clean out MY car? well i dont care how gross it is im not worth the effort.#cleaning out my car for my brother who i drive to therapy every other week? fuck yes its going to be nice and clean because therapy is impo#rtant and i want to help you stick with it and so we make it not a chore but lighthearted sibling time#like do you get it#anyway slow progress is still progress#the number of good days are slowly catching up to the number of bad days#post beginning of the pandemic 2020 was so brutal on me. moving back in with my parents especially#but i have a plan now . a real one. and friends to help me as well !#oops rambling in the tags haha#long tags
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He could fix me
#haku save me haku save me haku#OH he is SO the traitor isn’t he? AKSJSKW I DONT CAR BABES DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO I CANT STAND HALF OF THIS PEIOLE#rip the ghouls if haku evil and traitor i fear we got no other choice but to stan down with the others#I only care about like. 2 other people and they can join the revolution if they wish#Rui Alan and maybe sho for Subaru are invited to my personal taking down everyone else in this shithole plan#haru Towa too babes#and Luca and kairo too ig although they forgot about us the second we got out of frostheim so on thin ice#haku#tokyo debunker
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Kit do you not rep Charles anymore 😭
Of course I do he’s prime I just need a break from his team and that fucking dog
#ask#binottos gone. his bones are gone. sainz on his way out. the evil has been DEFEATED#we did it. we found everything that was wrong wid Ferrari and put it in a box and sent it far far away where it cant hurt us anymore#finally a clean slate for elkann and a blank cheque for vasseur to rebuild il cavallino the way enzo wanted. pure italian excellence#and a semi italian boy to lead it all. vasseur FINALLY recognizes leclercs potential as n1 and turns him into the central piece of a new er#they get him hamilton. biggest media event in f1 history#a proven winner. an upgrade in every way. bigger than ferrari? that wont be a question he'll need to answer#binotto is bones. f1-75 is dust. next year sainz will be nothing but a bad memory and the rusting crux of all their PAST problems#this is vasseurs vision now. his holy plan. his sf-24. his personnel. wid elkanns blessings and his deep. deep pockets.#2 years later. the monster's gone. vasseur is here.#and what has vasseur done?#the garages remain the same. no big poaches from rivals. nothing to prepare for hamiltons arrival.#maranello follows a dev path that comes from the same wind tunnel as haas. haas' data correlates. their upgrades work. ferrari's dont.#last 2 upgrades failed because the very concept of the car was wrong. 2 months behind at least.#((took merc almost 2 and a half years to deal wid the damage of an incorrect baseline and correct course))#ferrari came into the triple header 2nd in the standings and left wid 50 points TOTAL. baby mclarens-first-wcc run behind by 7#out of those 50 points none was sharls#sharl has scored 1 point in 4 fucking races#vasseur's ferrari has turned a generational qualifier into a kid whose idea of making pole is running experiments in q3#because who cares anyway if the car is setup for races except it aint setup for that shit either#so quali has to work ((it doesnt)) sunday has to be flawless ((never is)) but to point fingers is a worse crime than this approach to gp's#last gp. silverstone. as representative as it gets. sharl fails to make q3#bouncing around in a setup that hadnt been previously tested on either fp but wud surely make it worth their sunday#sunday: sharl gets lapped#ik sharl better than this#but idk what im looking at rn#I ignored the influencer milestone special helmet because I expected a performance that wud make me forget it#I need him to be a racing driver#he says 'he cant find the words anymore' bro I rlly need him to find them#I'll always ALWAYS root for sharl but to keep it 💯 idk what I'm rooting for anymore
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st. peter clad in leather macdennis x 'gay bar' by rosie tucker
#the half second clip of the car hurdling towards the rest of the gang made me laugh so much sorreyyyyyyyy#also second verse i had no real plans just pick and choose#no real plans at all i just. was plagued. not even struck w specific visions just an overwhelming chant#iasip#macden#macdennis#video edit#god i hav forgotten how to tag . do i care enough. no#im feeling really shitty so !!!!!! good distraction for a couple of hours . take half hour at a time#i do think i prefer writing to music for properly expressing thoughts etc but …. silly little videos r fun
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#You got a fast car I want a ticket to anywhere Maybe we make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere Any place is better Starting from#zero got nothing to lose Maybe we'll make something Me myself I got nothing to prove You got a fast car I got a plan to get us outta here I#been working at the convenience store Managed to save just a little bit of money Won't have to drive too far Just 'cross the border and into#the city You and I can both get jobs And finally see what it means to be living See my old man's got a problem He live with the bottle#that's the way it is He says his body's too old for working His body's too young to look like his My mama went off and left him She wanted#more from life than he could give I said somebody's got to take care of him So I quit school and that's what I did You got a fast car Is it#fast enough so we can fly away? We gotta make a decision Leave tonight or live and die this way So I remember when we were driving#driving in your car Speed so fast it felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder#And I-I had a feeling that I belonged I-I had a feeling I could be someone be someone be someone You got a fast car We go cruising#entertain ourselves You still ain't got a job And I work in the market as a checkout girl I know things will get better You'll find work and#I'll get promoted We'll move out of the shelter Buy a bigger house and live in the suburbs So I remember when we were driving driving in#your car Speed so fast it felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I-I had#a feeling that I belonged I-I had a feeling I could be someone be someone be someone You got a fast car I got a job that pays all our bills#You stay out drinking late at the bar See more of your friends than you do of your kids I'd always hoped for better Thought maybe together#you and me'd find it I got no plans I ain't going nowhere Take your fast car and keep on driving So I remember when we were driving driving#in your car Speed so fast it felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And#I-I had a feeling that I belonged I-I had a feeling I could be someone be someone be someone You got a fast car Is it fast enough so you can#fly away?You gotta make a decisionLeave tonight or live and die this way#le song shouting
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sometimes it’s just… ‘oh had so much fun on vacation!’ ‘went to a cool concert!’ ‘had a fun day out with my friends!’ cool??? don’t remember what the fuck that’s like since i’m constantly the one forced to be in charge of everything ever.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[i have a car? of COURSE I must be the ride if anybody wants to do anything. that’s my fucking JOB. birthday? figure out my own plans. can’t#exactly make them because Mia’s sick. have a devastatingly depressing birthday in my house trying not to cry all day. vacation??? lmfao I#haven’t gone anywhere in three fucking years what’s that like??? I am absolutely bitter and exhausted and fucking angry. I have no family#left because they all died. and the last person I DO have is so sick the only enrichment I can receive is taking care of her. until#hopefully she gets better. but when is THAT guaranteed in my shithole fucking life??? I love spiraling with no way to remedy the issue#because I literally live with the fucking issue and she’s the last thing I have. basically: fuck life and fuck this. I don’t even know what#it’s like. I don’t even know how to fucking enjoy anything anymore because I CANT. THERE IS NO OPPORTUNITY TO. I DO NOT HAVE ONE. In fact I#have to do MODULES FOR WORK. THAT. THAT is the most FUCKING stimulation I can get. whatever. I fucking hate everything. I fucking hate#everything everything everything. and this is purposeless because it ain’t gonna stop! anytime soon! ever!]#medical /#negativity /#negative /
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Imagine
You're walking home, or to work or school, or wherever- and you get caught in the rain. It starts to downpour. Like, big fat droplets of Gaia tears; Thick 'my son-husband has secretly hidden children within me causing a terrible migraine so welp; here baby Cronus, take this flint sickle and castrate brother-daddy' kinda rain. I'll stop with the Greek Mythology now, I'm sure you get it. Heavy rain.
You're getting soaked despite whatever you're using to protect your skin from it all (A binder, a bag, your jacket, a hat,.. an umbrella perhaps), your nose is cold, and you can barely see 10 feet in front of you apart from any street lights around, when-
A car pulls up directly next to you. You have the horrible panicked moment of 'am i going to be kidnapped today', before you recognise the car and the side door is thrown open in front of you.
Your F/O gestures and/or calls for you to get in. They knew you would be out at this time (They're familiar with your basic schedule ^^), saw the downpour and thought immediately 'Oh shit wait, Y/N's out in this'- and came right over to get you out of it.
What's their car like? Is it sleek and well taken car of? Is it a regular old thing? Does it look like its gonna break down any time now?
Do they have a blanket for you to throw over your legs? Or do they throw you their coat??~~~
Do they enforce seat belts? Are they gonna refuse to go if you just pull the blanket over your shoulders and 'forget' (Or genuinely forget) to buckle up or will they lean over and buckle you themselves?
Are they taking you to your destination or are they taking you to their house because you need a hot shower and to get warm or you're gonna catch a cold? Are they kind about it or bossy? XD
Will they stop by a drive thru to get you something to eat and/or drink? Maybe something lovely and hot?? Or are you two the crazy people who eat ice cream when its cold 'cuz it wont melt'?
Possibly most importantly; Is their any chance that your F/O would kick you back out into the rain for any reason? XD
#THIS WAS ME TODAY#there was me. a ragamuffin. walking home with my side bag full of a million things for placement#plus another bag with tea and a wooden tea set also for placement#wearing only a thin jacket and a hat- a s t r a w hat#and the heavens open up--#god what i would've given for 👠cruella to tear down the street and snap at me to get in the bloody car- XD#i'd have fur tickling my nose from the coat thrown at me and she would take me straight to her house without a word XD ^^#this gives me the warm and fuzzies ^^#🐊jim would take me through a drive thru and get me food and we sit in the parking while the rain threatens to break the roof of the car-#(oh my gosh more warm and fuzzies XD)#and 🖕otis is kidnapping me but he doesnt care if i shower and get warm or not he just wanted me and doesnt care about any plans i had >>#none of them care about seat belts#(though if cruella or otis is driving Iiii certainly care about seatbelts#and those two would also kick me out if i pushed their buttons 😅😅 no sense of humour. dang- XD#F/O#F/O's#F/O Imagine#F/O Imagines#F/O x Reader
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google: how does one tell people I don't celebrate without pretending to be jewish or a johovas witness?
#people assume i'm jewish and ask me my hanukkah plans#like people have spent their whole lifes watch hundreds of movies hey look we cure the grumpy anti-spirit of Christmas man#and i wasn't raised relgious so it doesn't bug me to not cuz I only ever did the secular-ish version anyways#Every year all my friend forget and try to fix me and tell me I just need to make new memories are tell me I'm evil or something#we are adults you should be able to respect that I'm happier this way even if you don't understand#i just never vibed with christmas#it feels like everyone is a sleeper agent even jewish friends#i do new years#and like april fools day#and halloween#it shouldn't be that big a deal#but like it really triggers people#and they assume the worst about my parents which is so untrue#this year might go no contact with the first person who threatens me in response to my car rules#no Christmas music no weeb music no feet on the dash#i am not anti-christmas you can have your fun and I give gifts to friends#i just don't have a tree#or do antything special#and i don't want to go to your parent#i could fly to my parents#i'm not that broke#i'm just happier have a free wednesday to myself#yes i have christmas traumatic events but i felt this way before then#no body would care or notice if I didn't do easter#i know becuase i don't do easter unless it lines up with a vacation and I can see my parents#advice#holidays#christmas#the answer is lying isn't it i don't want to lie#i don't celibrate a religous holiday this time of year shouldn't be that hard
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Recently, I saw a post about how it's good to leave the house every once in a while and get fresh air, and it got me thinking. Because yup, fresh air is great, it can be shitty for mental health if you're cooped up a lot, if you don't change your scenery!
But: that last part made me think about my experience as a kid, and I'm sad about it. When I was a kid, I was in a suburban neighborhood. Technically, I could leave the house and go for walks and get fresh air anytime I wanted. But it was awful for me, and how my mind worked!
I couldn't possibly walk to anything, because the nearest amenity was a 7/11, and it was like an hour-long walk there and back. So the whole idea of walking felt meaningless, unsatisfying. And there were no sidewalks, so I stressed out abt having to use the same road that people drove their vehicles on (and in this day and age, nobody pays attention on the road, so yikes). There were no distinguishing 'landmarks' to help me keep track of where I was, not even any trees, just cookie cutter houses and lawns and very same-y roads, so I always got lost (yep lol, in my own neighborhood!). Maybe I was getting fresh air, but the process made me feel dumb and lonely and confused.
I was basically walking around, day in and day out, in some empty liminal space where all the houses looked the same, where I could walk for literal hours and never feel like I was going anywhere, like I was on a treadmill, and it kinda messed with me. We didn't even have a park nearby. It was literally just this. Day in and day out. Nothing ever changed. There were no events or anything, nothing to look forward to, past putting on some new music on headphones. I barely saw another person. When I did see someone, they were always in a car, trying to get out of the neighborhood to go somewhere that was actually interesting and not mind-numbingly empty!
It was super shitty. Yep, it got me out of the house which was good, but it could've been so much better if there had just been. A freakin park, or a place to gather and actually see other people (these are called 'third places' and suburbs, like, never have them!). Even if I didn't need to talk to anyone, and I just wanted to people-watch, I would've loved something like that. Alas, there was no chance for spontaneous interactions, or for fun, interesting things to happen, which I think is super super underrated, and a big part of 'getting out of the house' as a complete package.
Gonna link to a Vox article, bc I thought it was really insightful:
How our housing choices make adult friendships more difficult - Vox
#i remember talking to someone w low vision and they found it super shitty too bc they couldn't drive#so they had to rely on someone else to drive them everywhere outside of the suburb (ie anywhere interesting)#bc there weren't even any buses in service in the area which they might have been able to take themselves#i think the word they used was 'degrading'#third places#third place#neighborhoods#car dependence#urban planning#mental health#self care#vox#accessibility
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oh boy i love adulthood! I love getting excited that one of my lines of debt is going to be paid off next month which just means i can take the $90 i was putting into that monthly and start paying off another line too
#if everything goes to plan (it never does) i should be debt-free in 2 years#i have $90 left on my credit card and roughly $2k in dental debt OF COURSE.. cant just girlboss my way out of that one#like my medical debt i just told them i couldnt pay and theyre like ok no problem dont worry about it#but my dental debt is on a care credit car#card*#badger rants#finances /
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dunno if it really fits them but the thought won't leave my brain so here's a doodle
#guess what I've been watching recently lol#the bentley!! theo's truck!! the fact both of them are living in their cars JDVNDSVSJN#this is the first time I have ever drawn theo and my second attempt at liam#absolutely no idea how I feel about these guys but it's alright enough that I'll post it I suppose#anyways I just think that if thiam is ineffable spouses then sciles is ineffable bureaucracy#like should sciles be the main pair? maybe. but scott is NOT azira and you fuckin know it.#he'd go along with demon!stiles so fast it's not even funny#he already does with normal stiles! can you IMAGINE the mischief demon!stiles would cause? how could scott resist??#scott “are we seriously doing this” mccall vs stiles “you're the one who's always bitching that nothing's ever happening” stilinski#at least liam TRIES to act like he doesn't wanna do whatever theo is planning#I can imagine the 6000 year long slow-burn with thiam. sciles would last approximately 1 hour (if even)#this is just clicking in my brain so nicely I am sure I am utterly and completely wrong but I do not care lalalala#thiam#theo raeken#liam dunbar#teen wolf#teen wolf fanart#good omens#my art: oil paint pawsteps 🐾
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hey god if you've created someone for me can you introduce me to them sooner? i kinda need them now
#like i know i know im sad and hurt but in my heart even the worst breakup friendship or otherwise can kill my hope#like i know this is gods plan for me this is my arc but god it's getting worse and harder everyday#i thought nothing could be worse than yesterday but i hadn't lived today them#then*#i need to talk to someone so bad oh god sl yesterday i had the exam right#and like i don't even know what happened i thought i was going to fail even after giving my 2000% studying#for like 10 hours a day for 15 days for this one exam#and i was panicking and shivering so bad that my heart felt like it would fly out of my chest it was beating so hard#and so fast it didn't even beat like that when i climb too many stairs#and i tried to deep breathe but nothing worked it was so scary like yeah i get stressed sometimes#but this was another level so scary i was nauseous too#and then i clicked submit and i got 82!!!#when i was so sure i was gonna fail because i was only sure about 54 marks answers and the passing was 50#and i got really happy and relieved and then i realized. oh. i don't have anyone to tell#like yeah i told my dad and he was like oh cool ofcourse you did very good#because he doesn't GET it that im not smart anymore and 10th cbse is not an accurate measure of intelligence#he wasn't even happy or surprised he was like well nice obviously#and that's it. i didn't have anyone else to tell#granted i hadn't even told anyone i was giving the exam. i mean i say anyone as if im swimming in friends#only have one. two if u stretch. and i didn't say. cause like idk doesn't really seems like anyone cares#and aah stupid emotional me before the exam i was feeling sad and trying not to panic (??? why??) and CRY in the car because i was thinking#that how my mom always drops me to exam centres and we talk i play music and when im getting out she says all the best beta#and the beta. wow i typed this and immediately have tears in my eyes now. i don't even understand why but#idk i made it up to be a little tradition in my head and i really wanted to call my mom and say mom pls can u say all the best#to me now bc i think ill fuck it up and im really scared and maybe if u give your blessing it'd be okay. but then i thought how embarrassin#it wld be if i failed. bc we don't have any kind of rship my mom and me. and then when she heard i passed from dad she didn't even call me#or anything. thank god i didn't do all that drama but fucking hell. this is all just for me right nobody cares not my parents#and it's too difficult im crumbling under the pressuee but i have to grit my teeth and do it or ill never be able to get out of this house#and i know ill find people when i do get out. but in the meantime. please god ji just one person idc who girl boy friend or love ANYONE#ik it's weak & ik i shld be enough on my own. but pls i just CAN'T.they dont even have to put up with me they just have to care a bit
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