#PastLove

[skylarmoon71]

Harry Wells (Flash) - Earth 2 - Chapter 2

They didn’t hear much from you after that.

Barry was well so you disappeared shortly after your little conversation with Harry. Nothing about this situation is comforting. You thought for a second being in the lab would help, but it just brought up all those unpleasant memories. 

To make matters worse you went on and threatened Harry. 

You rub your head, disappointed. It was a stupid move. But seeing his face just made you feel too much way too quickly. At least you knew that Team Flash was safe. He looked absolutely terrified, so there’s no way he would do anything to hurt them.

There’s a buzzing on your table and you divert your gaze, looking at the message that just came in.

“Please, just come back. We miss you. Barry misses you.” 

You know Iris is trying to help, but those aren’t the words you want to hear. 

Not from her. 

You ignore the text, even though everything in your body is dying to go back there and just be with them. It’s not like you don’t consider it. Every time you even try to entertain the thought, you just remember that look on Barry's face and it’s a reminder that you’re not wanted. Not that you blame him. Who would want a monster like you? 

Someone approaching your desk is exactly what you need to distract your mind. You platser the friendliest smile on your face. 

“Good morning, how can I help you?” 

Your eyes connect with who you assume is a citizen of your beautiful Oregon state. Yet the gaze that meets your own is anything but curious and welcoming. Harry is standing right there and you can feel your features harden. 

“We need to talk.” 

His tone assures you it’s not a request. Your coworker senses the tension and you can see her hesitance. You shake your head at her when she reaches for the phone to possibly call security. 

“I have to deal with an emergency, can you cover for me?” 

She nods.

“Are you sure you’re okay?” She whispers. 

“I’m fine. This guy is harmless.” 

It’s an offhand insult and you gain the reaction you want. His jaw clenches. 

Grabbing your things, you pack them into your bag. You’ll need to send a formal email to your boss. Once you have everything, you follow Harry outside. It’s quiet. He’s wearing what looks like a similar dark outfit as a few days ago when you gave a not so subtle threat. There’s a cap on his head to top off the look.

Harry is walking down the street as if he owns it. 

“Did you really think that attempt at a threat would scare me?”

“You looked pretty scared. “ 

He stops abruptly, looking left, then right. Then he glances at you. 

“You wouldn’t have laid a hand on me.”

That’s a pretty cocky statement, even for him. He continues walking, and you’re a little annoyed. You aren’t sure where exactly he’s going or why he just suddenly showed up. 

“That’s big talk, but you don’t know me.” 

“I know you don’t enjoy hurting people.” You scoff. 

“What are you a therapist now? Did something change in the last few days? Are you suddenly worried about me Dr. Wells 2.0?” 

“I can help you remove the negative speed force coursing through your veins. “ 

His statement catches you off guard. You stop walking altogether. He takes notice. 

“What..” 

He’s stopped as well, turning to you. 

There's a strange sincerity in those eyes that really shouldn’t be there. You’d literally threatened to run your hand through his chest.

“I can get rid of it completely. If that’s what you want, then I’ll do it.” 

For a moment you wonder if he’s pulling your leg. Maybe this is payback, but you can’t spot a lie. 

Not from his look. 

So you follow him back to Central City through a breach.

It’s a bit strange. A part of your mind is still in disarray. But when you get to the lab and Harry marches through that door, there’s a look of relief on the faces of Team Flash. Iris is grinning so wide as she runs towards you. Cisco right on her heels. Caitlin smiles, joining them. Cisco and Iris basically tackle you and Caitlin looks from the side, laughing. 

“Thank you for coming back.” Cisco sighs. They both pull back, and Barry is next to the computers. You don’t even keep your gaze on him long enough. That isn’t what you came for.

“Harry said that you can get the negative speed force out of me. Can you do it?” 

Your eyes plead for an answer. Cisco nods. 

“Yeah we can. After you left Harry came up with the plan. It was completely random but it made sense. He’s been on a war path since then.” You’re a bit surprised. If anything you would have thought Cisco was the one who presented it.

Harry has already gravitated to one of the computers and he pays no mind to Cisco words.

“It’s not going to be the most pleasant. We have to completely sever your connection. Although it’s scientifically safe, there will be discomfort and possibly side effects. If you’re willing to-” 

“I don’t care!!” 

You swallow, taking a step forward.

“Whatever it takes I’ll do it. J-Just please..” 

You never thought you’d be begging, especially from someone wearing that face, but you’re desperate. They can all see it. 

“Alright.” 

That’s all Harry says and they get to work. 

Of course you’d like to help, but you know they are more than capable. You’re also very anxious, and that could easily lead to mistakes. So for the time being, you’re seated on the stairs in the speedlab. Out of sight where you can get lost in your own thoughts. Your head is against the wall as you take in the build of the place. It’s so crazy how so much has changed. 

“Weird isn’t it.” 

The person that walks in isn’t who you expect. He looks up.

 Out of instinct you try to run, but Barry zips right beside you, taking your hand. 

“Please..don’t go..” 

His voice sounds strained, and you swallow as he takes a seat right next to you. It feels like there is so much that needs to be said. It’s honestly a miracle that he’s still holding your hand. It’s actively shaking in his hold, and Barry feels the guilt wash over him like a river. 

You’re terrified. 

He never thought such a reaction would be possible, not from you. Looking back, there was rarely ever a time that you weren’t together. The memories of your time together were all so happy and free. He came to you with all his Iris centered problems and Barry was the first person you told about your feelings for Dr. Wells. 

Well..Eobard Thawne. 

Now it’s almost like you’re strangers. 

“I didn’t stay away because of what you did.” 

There’s guilt very prominent in his eyes. 

“I blamed myself. You..you killed the man you loved for me. You did it because you knew I couldn't. Even after what he did to my family, I couldn’t. You did it so I wouldn’t have to. So I wouldn’t become a monster. “ 

He’s crying, head lowered. 

“I’m..so..sorry..” 

This entire time you thought he was disappointed in you. 

Ashamed. 

But it was the very opposite. He was torturing himself because he knew the pain you endured making that decision to save them all. He pulls you into his arms, and you can feel the tears begin to well up. 

“I’m sorry (Y/N)..” 

You can’t help but cry too. 

Neither of you had expected this outcome. 

The very emotional reunion feels complete now. No more running and hiding. If you had faced this earlier, maybe you could have forgiven yourself ages ago. 

The day is winding down and Harry comes looking for you. You’re still in the speed lab. He thought you’d left with everyone else. When you spot him, you stand. 

“There’s something strangely comforting about this place. I can’t put my finger on it.” 

“It represents a safe haven for speedsters in a sense. Barry practiced here, trained his daughter, trained Wally and Jesse. As much pain that we’ve dealt with here, it also holds fond memories. There can’t be much good without surviving the bad. “ 

He kind of has a point. 

“I’m sorry about what happened before.” 

Now feels like the best time to apologize.

“What, you mean threatening me and scaring me into submission? I barely remember it.” 

Harry’s sarcastic quip actually helps. 

“I understand. You’re not the only one who’s done things you aren’t proud of.”

The truth is when he saw you, it reminded him of all the mistakes he’d made in his life. 

“It’s not the same.” 

Harry turns his head. Your eyes are fixated at the wall in front of you. 

“Eobard accessed the speed force because of his hate for Barry. Years, maybe centuries and who knows how many timelines of unfiltered hate. When I got these abilities I was just like Barry, but after a while something changed. I manifested hate the same way he did. But not at the team, or for Barry. It was myself..I-I hated myself so much that I tapped into the negative speed force…” 

The pain expressed in your words is more than he can give comfort too. You were right. This was not something he could just compare and hope that you found solace. You had tortured yourself for years over a decision you made to save the people you love. 

“I just want it all to stop..” You sobbed, and Harry found himself moving closer. He pulled you into his arms. Your body stiffens and he understands. 

This face, his face was a constant reminder. Nothing would change that. 

But maybe, maybe he could help you get past it. Because as much resent as you held for yourself and your actions, you were possibly a better person than he could ever be. 

“I hope that one day you can look at me and not be reminded of something you lost.” 

He hadn’t said anything after that. He’d just pulled away and left. You were a bit too shaken to go after him or respond. 

The following morning everything is set up for your big day. The machine looks like a chamber and you feel a bit uncertain. But you trust Cisco. You trust your friends. 

“You don’t have to do this.” Barry is the one that says it. Turning back, they all seem to wear looks that display clear hesitance. 

“Even if you have the negative speed force it doesn’t..it doesn’t change anything..” 

Barry conveys. You appreciate the sentiment, but it really does change everything. You would never be able to get past this if you didn’t at least try. 

“Thanks again, for everything.” 

A tear streams down Barry’s cheek, because this feels like another goodbye. 

You open it, stepping inside. Harry nods at you, one that you return as he turns on the machine. The lights flicker on and you close your eyes, ready to embrace whatever is on the other side.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

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[anonymously-confessing]

It's been a decade. I have tried moving on, dating other people, trying to make myself happy. I'm just tired of this broken old heart that has been in pieces ever since "it" happened. The song says it all. I'm looking at March 12th, 2024 in total disbelief that it's been an entire decade.

[bluauro]

The sea inside

I took you with me.

all these years.

you still inside.

the only regret of my life.

the only ''if'' of my life

the first grief for something that never happened

would have I been the same with you in my life?

I knew our love was too heavy.

I knew I wasn't ready.

I had to learn to love me.

before hating you.

[spellbindingsisters]

Communicating with those who have passed and honoring the ancestors is something for any time of the year. But this time of the year they are so "extra", I love it!

[puresolacex]

“𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭?” 𝐌𝐨𝐦 𝐚𝐬𝐤𝐬. “𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭?” “𝐈𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐧’𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭.”

[shalinaryal]

Untitled story (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/story/372334771-untitled-story?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_myworks&wp_uname=Ishallyanar When the persona Shalin, a rather adventurous and intellectual girl finds herself in the abandoned castle of the yin forest where the locals had warned her about it's danger and it's incomplete history, Unknown of what will happen when she meet the ruler of the land with fear and attraction perhaps . ''I'm not scared besides I have to go to complete my thesis and I don't believe in such mediocre stories of old men tales.''

[skylarmoon71]

Savitar (Flash) : Fanfiction - Chapter 3

He was right in front of you, and somehow you feel so many emotions at once. 

Fear, confusion, relief?

Savitar approaches, and this time he isn’t wearing that silver armor that brings terror. You just see the distinctive scar.

“T-They said you were gone..”

He’s wearing that scowl that seems to be constantly planted on his face.

“It was a trick right. You said all those things because you knew how I would react. You knew I would retreat."

You swallow, because it’s clear from his posture that he’s pissed. His eyes mark you like a predator about to strike. You should make a run for your phone to alert the team. Move, scream, something. You’ve lost the ability to breathe.

“This was all his plan wasn’t it!”

His tone is sharp, and you swallow.

“I-It wasn’t.”

Your voice is so soft, but you can’t help it.

“None of them knew. I-I never told anyone.”

Somehow you feel like crying again. Not because of fear, but embarrassment. You feel pathetic, clinging onto someone you knew you could never have.

“You really expect me to believe that after I tried to kill everyone you still love me. "

A single tear runs down your cheek, and Savitar finds himself unsure now.

“I-I’m sorry..”

He doesn’t get why you’re apologizing.

“I should hate you, you’re the enemy but I..all I can think about is trying to save you. Because you’re not evil. You’re just in pain. Just like me..”

He doesn’t truly understand this. How can you look at him with so much care when he was just moments away from cutting down you and your entire team. He can’t truly recall the last time someone has looked at him this way.

Your hand lifts, and he can spot the hesitation. When it touches his skin, he tells himself he should run. Pull away. Get away, but he doesn’t want to. Because it feels good.

You feel good.

“Will you..let me save you?”

He swallows.

How is he supposed to answer that question?

“Do you really think that your team of super righteous friends are going to just let me stroll into their lives?” Savitar pulls back, and you can see the wall going up.

He’s not wrong. They aren’t just going to let him in with a smile and cookies There’s even a part of you that holds some contempt. He was hurting, that’s true. But Iris is somewhere you care deeply about. It’s hard to find a release for your fears when you aren’t always sure where to place them.

“Do you want to change? Do you want a chance to show that you can make up for what you’ve done? Because if not there’s nothing I can do for you. You threatened my family. Pain or not, that’s unacceptable. If you don’t want my help, then you should probably just leave.”

He’s stunned at the statement.

“What power do you have to tell me what to do, last time I checked you aren’t even a meta.”

His words feel like a taunt.

“You’re right. I’m not, but don’t think for a second that I’ll go down without a fight.”

He just tilts his head.

“I guess we’ll see.” 

[esp-4]

The one that i used to be head over heels for, that artist, that one old loved one of mine.

I saw your post, tagged with a song.

It felt like you were about to reach out to me when i loved you, but didn't.

Did you regret? not loving me? Any regret?

I really wanna know. I have a small hope that you would though.

I feel like i have moved on, though i check up on you here and there. I hope you're doing well, bud. my lemon boy.

Thank you for all the memories and happiness you have given me during that year ❤️.

[iguana-eyanna]

Got Me Smiling More

Pairing: Victor Tan x pastlover!reader

Summary: Tan hasn't felt alive since his divorce, and a light switches when he bumps into an old flame.

A/n: this is shorter than my past works but I wanted to give Tan a spotlight cause he deserves it. (I’m also a few episodes behind season 7 so don’t judge me lmao)

"Luca, I told you already that they ran out of the protein powder at Target." Tan said as he was hassling his phone, trying to scan the empty shelves by the produce aisle.

Tan just asked respectfully if Luca needed a thing or two while he was doing a grocery run. Tan didn't realize he'd be buying half of the store on Luca's account.

Tan turned around and saw someone facing backward, wearing a red shirt, assuming it'll be an employee.

"Yes, man, I'll ask if they have in the back. I'll call you back."

Tan hung up and prayed under his breath before he went up to the employee.

"Hey sorry, I was wondering if you have-"

The person spun on her heel and faced Tan with fury.

"Ugh for the millionth time! I don't work here!"

You looked up to the seventh person that's been bothering you since you set foot in the store and you see Tan.

Your old high school sweetheart.

"Tan?" You said in disbelief.

He was almost speechless seeing you stand in front of him.

"He-Hey! I'm- so sorry I didn't mean to assume you worked here." He said, apologetically.

"No, you're totally fine. It was my fault that I decided to wear this top today. But I really needed to stock on some k-cups so I came here real quick." You said

"You're still drinking caffeine? Last time we've been studying for our exams, you were surviving on energy drinks and your eye was twitching for a good week."

"Hey! Don't be judging me." You sassed back, making Tan give a hearty laugh.

God you missed that laugh.

You playfully roll your eyes, trying not to show red your cheeks were.

"Anyways, I see you have your hands tied, so I'll let you get back to your shopping. Just don't ask me where the toilet paper is." You joked.

"I'll try not to. But I love to catch up sometime if that's alright."

You were hesitant. Last time you heard about Tan, was that he eloped with someone. You hesitantly look down at his left hand and saw no ring.

He caught on to what you were doing. He always read you so easy, there was no way of ever lying to Tan.

"I'm uh... divorced. It's on the down low so I get it if-"

"No, no it's not like that Tan. I just, didn't want any zealous wife attacking me while I'm munching down a croissant."

He laughs, not realizing how he hasn't felt so at ease talking about his divorce in the past months.

You take one step closer to him and smile.

"But I'd love to catch up with you. Give me your phone."

Tan wastes not a second and gives it to you as you dialed your phone number.

"Here, call me when you think of me. I'll see you later."

You spun on your heel, about to get out of the produce aisle until your phone rang with an unknown number.

"Hello?" You ask

"Just wanted to see if you gave me a phony number." Tan's voice said.

You turn around and see Tan just a few feet away with you.

"You know I'd never do that to you." You said, still talking in the phone.

"I know... I just, wanted to look at you another time."

Your heart pounded faster, and now remembering how smooth this boy is.

"Fuck it, you just wanna grab coffee now?" You said, hanging up your phone and coming closer to you.

Tan throws down his disregarded groceries and goes up to you.

"I thought you never asked."

+

Luca is watching something on his phone until he saw the entrance door swung open. Tan walks in with his hair in a mess and the buttons on his shirt hastily buttoned.

"Tan, bud, where's the groceries? Did you find the protein powder?" Luca asks as Tan's hands were empty. He investigates the younger man and sees something out of the oridinary.

"Is that lipstick?"

Tan widens his eyes as he wipes it off and looks down to see your shade of lipgloss painted on his face as he chuckles to himself.

He looks up to Luca who coughed abruptly and straightens up.

"I'm uh- gonna lie down for a bit. I'll get the groceries tomorrow."

Tan bullets to his room and shuts the door, leaving Luca speechless.

"Damn, I should go to Target more often." Luca said before he shrugged it off, heading his attention back to his phone.

[defiledtomb]

if its not too spoilery…is pastlover!L jealous/hurt if MC is romantically interested in someone else? Does he understand?…feeling like doing it just for the angst-factor

It is not too spoilery, I think! Mainly because, well, those scenes aren't entirely written yet and comprise only of the notes in my outline 🧍

And the notes say...(I'm shaking them like an eight-ball) "Clenching teeth."

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[shakyscenee]

“JUST WALK THE BRIDGE!”

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OCEANS DON'T STAIN | merman!gojo x reader

Fantasy AU (on hold)

summary: the curiosity of merman, and prince of the Gojou kingdom had led him to the surface of earth falling in love with a human. But will he ever be free from the expectations of his kingdom to be with that human, to be with you?

EX LOVE OF MY LIFE | pastlover!gojo x reader

ONESHOT (on hold)

summary : you haven't seen your boyfriend afters years, years after he was close to graduating highschool and said he'll be on one last mission. And the first thing you get to see after the door of his current penthouse is a happy and contented father of a baby, a baby that wasn't yours.

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[soulmates-twinflames]

The way our fingers intertwine feels so natural and right; as if our hands hold memories of meeting in a thousand other lifetimes ~ John Mark Green #pastlife #pastlives #pastloves #lovequotes

[becoming-not-became]

LovePresent

Love is afools pursuit itmakes one vulnerable and it hurts that is love that is pastlove that is present does none of those love that is present is simply thereabsent of any memory of any love ever before