#PLEASE THEY MAKE ME INSANE!!!!

[introspectivememories]

four months into getting to know each other, shouto finds him by touya-nii's shrine. his little brother gently sits down beside him and offers a small prayer.

"yumi-nee-san," natsuo wonders if his little brother will ever drop the second honorific, "said you were the closest to him," shouto says quietly.

after all these years and the use of past tense still makes his heart break. 'you are the closest to him' he wants to correct but that wouldn't make sense anymore. touya-nii hasn't been talked about in the present tense since before middle school. does shouto even remember a time before nii-san's dea-, disappearance?

"yeah, i was," he says, eyes never leaving the photo. it's the one nii-san took for sixth-grade picture day. kaa-san had got him all dressed up and he had hated it. somedays he thinks if he looks close enough, he'll see the displeased pout on nii-san face. "why?"

his little brother says nothing for a long time, back ramrod straight. natsuo has no idea what's going on in that head of his. shouto has so few tells that he's practically a blank slate. natsuo hates his father.

then slowly and so quietly, he has to strain his ears to catch it, shouto stammers out, "do-, do you think he would have liked me?"

natsuo's immediate reaction is to say 'yes'. yes, of course, touya-nii would've loved you. yes, of course, touya-nii would've crossed the heavens for you. yes, of course, he would've loved you shouto; you're his precious younger brother.

but he remembers the way nii-san used to spit out shouto's name when he was a kid. the way his brother's mouth wrapped around it, the face he made, like he had just eaten something disgusting. he remembers the way touya-nii had become almost crazed by the end, hellbent on proving himself the rightful heir to their shitty father's legacy. he remembers the way touya-nii had said, "i just need to prove that i'm better than him,"; the 'him' said with such bitterness and contempt.

he knows instantly that touya-nii would not have liked shouto. that this house and his father would have twisted any ounce of love, nii-san would've held towards shouto, into jealousy and hatred.

(this house may have ruined all of them but it only ever broke two of them.)

natsuo can't say any of that to shouto. his kind little brother who forgave him for not being there. his amazing little brother who falls in love with every cat he sees. his wonderful little brother who has a wickedly dry sense of humor. his soft baby brother who loves him and yumi-nee with a passion. his tender-hearted baby brother who still worries if his long-gone older brother would've liked him.

no, natsuo can't tell shouto that nii-san wouldn't have like him. shouto will internalize it like he does with everything else that hurts him. and there is already so much that hurts shouto, he will not add to that list. his baby brother smiles these days, nothing big like his green-haired friend, but quiet, lovely, ones all the same. shouto talks more these days. they have dinner together when natsuo is home. his baby brother laughs now. it's a miracle like nothing else in this world.

shouto is the best thing to come out of their house and natsuo will die before he ever hurts his little brother. so instead, he curls an arm around shouto's shoulders and pulls him into a loose side-hug.

"of course!" he lies cheerfully, ignoring the ache in his chest, "touya-nii would've loved you. you're his — and our —precious little brother after all. there is no universe in which he wouldn't have loved you."

the tips of his baby brother's ears go red and his pleased little answering smile makes the ache of lie go away. natsuo will tell a thousand more lies if it means shouto never stops smiling like that.

[clarisimart]

be careful what you wish for, Fordsy

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[pissed-whizard]

my blog is a gateway drug to cooler and better blogs (my mutuals)

[hinamie]

spiraling

[stoopidstapler]

SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

[hustlebonezzz]

A flash of confidence followed by the immediate fear of ruining something dear. On the other hand, the ready reciprocation and the disillusion of a deeper meaning.

Continued

[verflares]

i thought i felt your shape, but i was wrong. really all i felt was falsely strong, i held on tight and closed my eyes. it was dumb, i had no sense of your size. it was dumb to hold so tight.

also on inprnt :]

[sakuyuii]

adrien runs? well yes!

also…she’s still getting used to labels (too oblivious to notice his pun), and she may or may have not knew exactly where he would be …

i csnt help but need to say this is cornball sorry anyways i crave season 6

[swedenis-h]

They went together au! (X)

[brian-kinney-apologist]

loustat's outfits for their vow renewal ceremony in season 3

[crowskullls]

I couldn’t be a minecraft creator because if I was doing freaky gay roleplay with my friends and then got called siblings I would just end it all

[woahjo]

watching gojo's back in the mirror over your shoulder as he fucks you. watching the way his back muscles flex and curl and shift underneath his skin with every thrust of his hips. the way he rolls into you, skin to skin. n you can see where your thigh makes contact with his waist. the skin stretches and pulls and dips delightfully with the weight of their trembling.

and he's panting above you, sweat dripping from his forehead to your chest where he curls over himself to suck on your tit. gojo's hands hold your thighs up by his waist, fingers digging into the soft and supple flesh.

FUCK!! FUCCCCK WHAT IF I DIED.

[bringiton]

Nicola Coughlan and Luke Newton in BEHIND 'BRIDGERTON' — NEW BEGINNINGS: PENELOPE AND COLIN

[platoapproved]

armand + preparing to tell louis about his past

[birrdify]

what if 4 just went so coo coo crazy once that even mr puzzles would catch onto his weird ass behaviour<3

[landedinpayne]

edwin payne is strong for many reasons, but to me the thing that makes him the strongest is surviving(ish) an eternity-long codependent homoerotic situationship.

like if i confessed my love for you and you told me that i was the most important person in the world to you and the only one you'd go to hell for and that we had forever to figure the rest out and then directly after that you flirtatiously leaned down inches from my ear and joked about how convincing your smile is i think i would need to be put on a watchlist