#Overcoming inadequacy in God’s work

[mindfulldsliving]

Discovering Your Purpose in God’s Work: Insights from Joseph Smith — History 1:27–33

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Extremely small spoilers for the c3 ending warning

But I think a really fun bit of Sol's character that I kinda didn't notice until the final episode is that ever since Irondeep (or maybe even before?), Sol has just been learning how to sew and crochet. And I have extreme respect for Murph letting Sol use that knowledge in the final episode to redistribute the magic of his displacement cloak amongst the party. I just really love those kinds of small character details in fantasy - the hobby they pick up randomly that slowly becomes more and more of a skill as the story progresses.

YES ! sols background knitting/crochet hobby (theyre used kind of interchangeably) is one of my favourite little quirks of his to think about... and if you keep track of its offhanded mentions, it actually weaves (hehe) a really sweet mini-story about sols character !

(teeny tiny mini essay under the cut, because i. have. thoughts)

so! a minor um actually is that sols knitwork is actually brought up pretty much at the VERY start of his character intro;

"...I'm wearing a homemade sweater that is in the same pattern as the standard issue synth knight sweater, but that one didn't fit me, so ive crafted my own as a replica - the sleeves are a little long, i'm still working on it, i like to knit in my spare time to quell my thoughts a bit..." (ep 1)

so we establish 1) he likes to knit, 2) knitting is an almost meditative practice, a very physical-based method of dealing with his thoughts, 3) he wants to fit in with his cohort of synth knights, even though their 'standard' has excluded and rejected him 4) he takes on this rejection without any bitterness, and instead with an optimism that his own personal inadequacies can be overcome by trying his darn best, 5) he's a cute frog in an oversized sweater

it's a pretty small & overall NOT important line that doesn't mean anything, but you COULD interpret it as the introductory, basic threads of meditative practice, community, belonging and identity that return as pretty major elements in sol as a character!

other, pretty major encounters with the knitting/sewing motif:

ep 7: Callie "we're sort of entwined now, right? i mean, our fates are somewhat braided at this point" + sol "if you're saying that we're friends then yes!" (this isn't a sol knitting moment, but good GOD 'our fates are braided' + them later discovering they're peregrine + sol sewing peregrine patches - we LOVE unintentional foreshadowing)

ep 27: Before the king durretar fight, sol gives everyone a peice of black yarn to wrap around their arms, a symbol of the living will they made to each other. Later in the ep, he holds up the band just before he goes down

ep 39: Right before he leaves to return to irondeep, sol gives swag "a little bracelet of yarn, just so we can feel connected" (literally FUCKING RUINOUS when you think about this being THE LAST TIME THEY SEE EACH OTHER FACE TO FACE and all the other moments sol gives his loved ones threads/bracelets. god. actually ruinous)

ep 53 (short rest!): This requires maybe a bit of context... but essentially, its caldwell describing sol's conflict of wanting to save the people he loves VS the growing reality of his inability to do so as, "no matter how big and thick and fluffy a sweater he knits, it always unravels itself"

ep 57: sol plants a piece of thread on the two ice swags (red and purple) as a way to tell them apart

ep 61: sol takes the black band from the king durretar fight and weaves it into a design that he made of the peregrine symbol/callie's sigil so that they can all wear it as a team (and one for a squire too, of course!)

ep 72: sol shreds his displacer scarf & patches up everyone's track jackets with it, to share the protection magic (this does end up saving calder's life i think.... THAT'S THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP BABY.)

finally, also in ep 72: galactic swag returns the night sky to the faewild, and sol comments "now that's knitting..."

I think. All in all. It's like. sol is this guy who, perhaps more than anything else, longs for family, home & community. He found this in launchpad and mothership, and their promise that if he could just work hard enough to prove that he meets their standards, then he CAN fit in and be worthy, and belong, and be part of something big. And over the course of campaign 3, he finds this with duck team.

All these desires for connection are expressed through the small things he knits for the people he loves. It keeps coming up over and over again, sol trying to stitch pieces of himself into his friends. Have this yarn, and this thread, and this bracelet, so you can remember you have someone to fight for and someone fighting for you (i have THOUGHT about this being kind of like a Lady's favor to a knight.... i've THOUGHT about this...) In ep 39, he gives swag a mushroom with the stated purpose that it might let sol know if swag dies. In ep 41, he tells hardwon that "there haven't been many people that I've met that have stuck around and meant something to me". I think you could interpret.... sol's habit of giving little knit gifts to his friends as maybe kind of a manifestation of that worry. that people are going to leave him, and he's going to end up alone again. so the thread of the living will comes back over and over again... no matter where you are, dead or alive, we'll be connected somehow.

You can also interpret all of this in the context of his childhood! in the waterpark ! A place where he was cold, and in danger all the time, and alone, and nobody made any 'big and thick and fluffy' sweaters for him. That the way he responds to this is... by making sure the people that he loves never ever have to feel like that. Here's something to keep you warm, and to remind you that i Know you, I Think of you, and i Love you. Sol just wants to protect all his friends by knitting them up in a big comfy sweater (and by the finale, in a way, he does!)

anyway ! those are my um. my. very minor thoughts about sol & knitting. i think about it a normal amount i promise. it is really REALLY a very fun bit about his character and it is. wonderful to see it evolve over the campaign.

Also since I accidentally went whole hog and wrote a full essay. Um. more sol knitting mentions that I personally find very delightful, although less relevant to this specific analysis:

Ezry arc: "i haven't had a chance to knit in a while, that really mellows me out" < sol's explanation for nearly punching a salamander to death because he kind of reminded him of a completely different salamander guy who had the audacity to go to the movies with albin, once. Really cute because awww he knits to mellow out. and also. god sol is fucking Insane. frog who is for sure possessive a normal and healthy amount

Living Woods arc: the living woods arc has sooo many cute lil sol knitgifts. sol gives calder a reversible beanie that has the initials CK (for calder kilde) and KC (for kalder cilde)... he says he was making it for calders birthday! (i didn't check this particular moment for accuracy, but i DO rmb calder saying smthn to the effect of "this is the nicest thing anyone's ever got for me") ..... this also has the famous callie crochet bra + i THINK sol's knit boots for calder

Irondeep arc: sol makes the infamous knit hammer cover with pompoms for kenna. (he later also makes i think.. a cloth for kenna to clean her hammer? he's trying guys....)

Tsunare arc: callie asks sol to make a gunk bindle

Ice knife arc: EVERYBODY IS REALLY MEAN TO SOLS KNITTING. SOMEBODY DEFEND HIM HE DOESNT DESERVE THIS....

Faewild arc: after calder gives himself a crop top , "i will Happily be your tailor"

Conclusion? this frog loves his friends!!!!!

[gabebrodudeman]

Overcoming the enemy's lies:

Lie 10: "You're not good enough for God to use"

The enemy often tries to make us feel disqualified or unworthy, sowing seeds of doubt that we’re not “good enough” for God to use. This lie often takes root when we focus on our perceived shortcomings—our lack of skills, past mistakes, or feelings of inadequacy. These thoughts can lead us to question whether we have anything of value to offer, causing us to pull back from opportunities to serve or to doubt our calling. But Scripture offers a radically different perspective.

In Jeremiah 1:7-8, God called Jeremiah to be His prophet despite Jeremiah’s concerns about his age and ability. Jeremiah felt he was too young and inexperienced for such a monumental task, yet God reassured him, saying, “Do not say, ‘I am only a youth.’” God didn’t deny Jeremiah’s lack of experience but instead reminded him of His own sufficiency. God’s words reveal that our limitations don’t hinder His plans; in fact, He often chooses to work through them. God’s presence with Jeremiah, not Jeremiah’s abilities, was the true source of strength and success.

When you feel “not good enough,” remember that God doesn’t choose you based on your qualifications. He calls you because of His purpose and grace. Your role is simply to say “yes,” trusting that God will equip you. He knows your every limitation and uses them to show His power in ways you could never imagine. By stepping forward despite your weaknesses, you allow God’s strength to shine through, making you a vessel for His work in the world.

[haydenigmatic]

Stealing this ask from another if

How would the ros react if mc took a potion/got cursed to fall asleep forever, but it has cure, a true loves kiss. But when they kissed mc they didn't wake up meaning they aren't their true love?

Oh God, what have I gotten into, this is going to be hard 😔

DAMON:

If the kiss worked, Damon's initial concern would be overshadowed by pure happiness. He would gaze deeply into MC's eyes, appreciating every detail, and express his undying love for them. He would convey how he couldn't bear to live in a world without MC by his side.

On the other hand, if the kiss didn't work, Damon's reaction would be filled with despair. Tears would gather in his eyes as he realized MC wasn't waking up. Softly begging MC to awaken, he would promise to never give up until he saw the sparkle of life in their eyes once again.

HANNIEL:

He would first ensure MC's well-being, relieved that they are finally awake. Being overwhelmed by joy and affection, expressed through tender kisses all over MC's face. Hanniel's relief and happiness would be palpable as he holds MC close, grateful that their love was powerful enough to break the spell.

However, if the kiss didn't work, Hanniel would be filled with a profound sense of disappointment and self-doubt. Despite his best efforts, he would grapple with feelings of inadequacy and fear of losing MC forever. Yet, his unwavering loyalty and determination would drive him to continue searching for a solution, refusing to give up hope until he finds a way to awaken MC.

JASIRA:

While she might initially scoff at the notion of a true love's kiss, her fierce loyalty to MC would compel her to try. If the kiss worked, Jasira would likely be taken aback by the power of her feelings, but would ultimately embrace the moment with quiet resolve, knowing she had saved the love of her life. In case it doesn't work, she would refuse to accept defeat. Her stubbornness and unwavering commitment to MC's well-being would drive her to explore every possible avenue until she succeeded in breaking the curse.

ODETTE:

As the tale unfolds, Odette, ever the romantic, leans in for the kiss with a heart full of hope. When the magic of true love awakens the slumbering MC, her eyes sparkle with relief and joy. A soft, grateful smile graces her lips as she embraces the triumphant moment, the strength of their love prevailing over the enchantment. However, if her kiss failed, Odette would refuse to give up hope. She would continue to kiss them, driven by an unwavering belief in their love, and would tirelessly search for any means to break the curse, refusing to succumb to despair.

NESRIN:

Relief and tenderness are revealed as the realization sinks in that their love truly conquered all. She would maintain her composure, perhaps a subtle smile gracing her lips, but her eyes would betray the depth of her affection and relief at their awakening.

If the kiss didn't work, a mask of stoicism would remain firmly in place, concealing the turmoil raging within. Behind closed doors, she would grapple with a maelstrom of emotions - fear, desperation, and the crushing weight of uncertainty. Yet, outwardly, she would maintain her dignified facade, determined to find a solution and bring her beloved back to life, even if it means facing her deepest fears.

VERENA:

If the kiss worked, she would respond with a fervent passion, her love for MC burning even brighter. She would embrace them fiercely, overcome with relief and adoration, determined to cherish every moment with them. However, if the kiss didn't awaken MC, she would be consumed by desperation. Her fears of being unlovable would resurface, doubt and despair targeting her. She would struggle to contain the tumultuous emotions raging within her, haunted by the possibility of losing the one person who she thought saw past her facade and loved her for who she truly was.

SORIN:

As Sorin leans in for the kiss, a mix of anticipation and vulnerability colours her expression. When MC stirs, eyes fluttering open, Sorin's heart soars. She can't hide the overwhelming joy that floods her features. A subtle, genuine smile tugs at her lips, and in that moment, the veil of her stoicism lifts, revealing the depth of her love and relief.

If it doesn't, in the crushing silence that follows the unsuccessful attempt, Sorin's eyes betray a hint of vulnerability. She swiftly masks her disappointment, adopting an air of detached acceptance. Her words may convey nonchalance, but the carefully guarded eyes betray a fear that she might not be enough. Deep within, she grapples with the echoes of doubts and insecurities, wondering if the whispers of unworthiness hold a grain of truth.

AURELIA/N:

Her/His heart would swell with relief and joy, their reserved demeanour melting away as they embrace the moment with profound gratitude and tenderness. Overwhelmed with relief and joy. Their eyes would brim with tears of happiness as they hold MC close, whispering words of love and gratitude for their return.

If it doesn't work, s/he would be consumed by guilt and anguish, questioning their worthiness as MC's true love. Despite their grief, Aurelia/n would remain steadfast by MC's side, vowing to never give up hope and to continue searching for a way to break the curse and awaken their beloved.

DORIA/N:

Holding their breath in fear of failure, the moment MC stirs, they would feel a wave of joy wash over them. With trembling hands and a heart overflowing with love, they would pull MC into a tight embrace, never wanting to let them go, cherishing the miracle of their awakening.

However, if the kiss didn't work, Doria/Dorian's reaction would be just as intense and volatile. Deeply wounded and feeling betrayed, they would struggle to contain their fury. The belief that MC was playing with their emotions or didn't truly love them would ignite a storm of anger and hurt, shattering the fragile facade of trust they had built.

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In Touch Bible Study Notes "Overcoming Inadequacy" 08/12/2024

"At one time or another, we've all dealt with feelings of inadequacy. Maybe it's because we lost our temper with our spouse, missed an important work deadline, or were too afraid to say yes to an opportunity at church. How did you feel afterwards? Maybe you were frustrated with yourself or felt as if you didn't measure up. In today's passage, Paul asks a question that points to this common insecurity. "Who is adequate for these things?" (v. 16)

Here's the good news: We are inadequate--but God isn't. And when we trust Him as our Lord and Savior, we become His children and He gives us His righteousness (John 1:12; 2 Corinthians 5:21) He empowers us and has promised to lead us "in triumph in Christ" (2:14). But unless we believe Him and step out in faith, we'll never experience the life He has planned for us.

Feeling inadequate isn't a sin, but using inadequacy as an excuse is. When God calls us to do something that feels beyond our abilities, we have two choices: We can focus on Christ and proceed in triumph or focus on ourselves and withdraw in defeat. It's really a matter of faith. God will always empower us to do what He asks us to accomplish. This doesn't mean we'll do everything perfectly, but each step of obedience is a victory that He will bless. (Psalm 128:1-2)."

My thoughts on this study are as follows:

It's okay to feel like we aren't enough. We are only human, and as such, we have emotions. But not allowing ourself to be the best we can be because we use that as the above study shows, "as an excuse," that is wrong. God has given us the power to do everything He set in our heart. We are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus. We are inadequate, but we serve THE God of the Universe. He created everything, and us too. He gave us His Son, His only Son, Jesus, so that we may be able to be saved from our sin. Hell is a very real place, and unless we accept Jesus as our personal Lord and Savior, and believe that He lived, died, and rose from the Grave so that He goes on living even today, for our Salvation, then we are just another one among the lost. We also have a given responsibility, and that is to share the Gospel with as many as we can, so they can experience the joy we do, and so they can know Jesus as well. God thought we were enough. He made us and decided to keep us. He loves us so much more than we can ever understand. So we should never think we aren't enough. We are.

Verses read:

Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of His knowledge by us in every place. For we are unto God a sweet savour of Christ, in them that are saved, and in them that perish: to the one we are the savour of death unto death; and to the other the savour of life unto life. And who is sufficient for these things? For we are not as many, which corrupt the word of God: but as of sincerity, but as of God, in the sight of God speak we in Christ.

2 Corinthians 2:14-17 KJV

But as many as received Him, to them gave He power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on His name: which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God. And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us. (and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father.) full of grace and truth.

John 1:12-14 KJV

Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ's stead, by ye reconciled to God. For He hath made Him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in Him.

2nd Corinthians 5:20-21 KJV

Blessed is every one that feareth the LORD; That walketh in His ways. For thou shalt eat the labour of thine hands: Happy shalt thou be, and it shall be well with thee.

Psalm 128:1-2 KJV

[camsoblivionjournal]

You’re dating again. 

I’m not jealous. I do not want you. You infuriate me. I almost hate you. You were never going to be an open wound, bleeding and bleeding, I didn’t like you enough for that. But you were never going to be a lumpy ugly scar, you were my first and therefore my everything. I don’t know what we were, to be honest. People who wanted to be wanted? And to be honest, being with you was the least honest I had ever been with myself. 

I think I wanted you to want me. And I think, above all else, I wanted to be wanted. 

No one tells you how to feel. I mean, they do, yeah, in the form of ‘move-ons’ or ‘you’re better offs’ and well-reasoned arguments. Arguments that still don’t tell me how to feel, because they’ve been formed under an incorrect assumption about us. Because truth be told, I do not think I ever really wanted you. 

You wanted me. I needed me to want you. And I needed to be who you believed I was. 

And I think I want you to be happy. After we broke up, I was excited for you to be happy in a relationship again. I wanted you to find what you wanted. Or at least, to find something real. I realize now, writing this, how terminally I crave approval. My fatal flaw. Enough to contort myself for months into foreign shapes and colors. Clearly we did not fit like we constantly believed we did.

So, herein lies the stink of my wound: I’m not supposed to feel any type of way about you dating again. Because, as I’ve so gracefully declared, I did not want you then and I do not want you now. We did not work. 

But I think I almost hate this because you finding someone else reminds me of my utter inadequacy. I hope she actually wants you, like I pretended I did. I hope she actually… 

I hope she says yes, doesn’t shudder in anxiety, and ignores hints. 

That’s not the main reason why I feel like my heart is rotting in my chest. I feel like a stepping stone, a means to an end. I feel like the side character, an obstacle to overcome, in your great love story, while always having been the main character to myself. Worse, still, is imagining y’all doing the exact same things we did. The same conversations, with the same little phrases you like, similar inside jokes, same playlist, same love notes. But who knows? Maybe your new love has a different flavor now. I hope it does. 

God, I hope y’all do not talk about me. But I know you will. Mention me, that is. Mention what I didn’t do, what I didn’t say. Mention the car ride home from the concert, in which I had a panic attack and almost vomited (your greatest fear is vomit). Mention the birthday sleepover, in which I had a panic attack in your basement bonus room bathroom and had to get picked up early because it was my first one and I thought I was dying. Probably whisper to her, between warm sheets, that I never took that leap that night, instead paralyzed in fear on my side of the bed. I never reached for you. I don’t think I could. Maybe I wanted to? But I could not. 

What kind of friends were we? I remember finding you funny. I remember wanting to be funny enough for you. I remember how I changed how I texted for you. I remember listening to your favorite music, watching your favorite shows. It was like you were made to be the object from which I sought approval. I needed you to like me. 

I remember sobbing on a November morning because you had confessed and I could not date you because the thought alone brought tremors and cold sweats. And it was almost never because of who you were and almost always because of who I am. Maybe a month later, you asked again and I said yes. And I remember, after we ended, hating the way you dressed. The way you hid yourself, the way I was certainly too loud for you. The way you could never crack a smile, use charisma, and especially not when I needed it. Respond with ‘what do you want me to say?’ and believe the solution to my problems was to remove myself from them completely. To quit, try and get out of it. The way you viewed your humor as elite, superior. I hated how I viewed you in the same way. 

You were always a club I wasn’t in. 

I did not fit in well with your friends. You convinced me you hated them, and that’s why. You weren’t like them, you had been roped in when you were younger, they were childhood friends. You told me you wish you had friends like mine. It was only after I realized you were probably exactly where you wanted to be. Because here you were, at your big age, choosing to continue associating with these people. It was always a choice. And what of my friends? Well, you had articulated your opinions on ‘weirdos’ and ‘freaks’ (what I am), and for some reason, I chose to pretend they were the exception to the rule. That I was. 

Please don’t talk about me to her. I know you’re up right now, doing that exact thing. I will be a footnote in y’all’s epic love story and I need to be okay with that. I was just wondering if I could get away with not being known as the ex who couldn’t even kiss you. 

God. How do you tell people you don’t think you feel romantic attraction? That you believe yourself to be incapable of participating in what is commonly known as life’s greatest feature?  And, worse even, how do I tell you? I want to explain to you why I was how I was. Because I am how I am. But I cannot, God forbid, I cannot end up in a screenshot. Please don’t reduce me to that. Please. 

I can’t tell you. I’ll have to wait a little while or the rest of my life to prove to the world and then to myself, that who I am is who I am. Deep down I hope I am wrong.

[dallasareaopinion]

If you do not believe in God you probably won’t like this, if you believe in God there is a chance you are going to hate this

I have been reading the Screwtape Letters by C. S. Lewis during Lent. Well I started at the first of Lent and then due to “worldly” events I hadn’t read it for a couple of weeks. I somewhere made a joke about reading it during Lent and I forget the rest. Anyway it was not my intent to read this book specifically during Lent yet it worked out that way.

I haven’t finished it yet, but I was reflecting or self internalizing it, that it is a great book to read if you ever truly want to do a self examination of conscious. And if you are not Catholic basically when we go to Confession or the Sacrament of Reconciliation which the actual confession is only part of the action of Reconciliation that includes the examination of conscious and the repentance, but that is a topic for better educated Catholics than me to discuss.

And we have so much literature and even apps now that help us prepare for the self examination for confession why would you need to read a whole book to prepare for confession. Actually we probably need to read multitudes of books yet again another topic for the more well educated.

The point I was considering was there is so much in the book that we all run across that looking at it from the eyes of the enemy so to speak can open our eyes up even more. And this is a take away from the book as it is, but to use it to prepare for Confession may be a bit much for some, but give it a read and think about it.

We ignore so much of our own lives we forget what is the true perspective. And Screwtape’s arguments about how to drive us away from God can show us what we truly need to do. Or what we should truly be paying attention to daily. And he argues so well about the subtle ways to entice us away from God.

So how does this prepare us for confession? Good question and preparing for confession is something I have been trying to figure out how to do for years. Or even having a “good confession” Exactly what is a good confession.  I use to confess my litany of sins since my last confession yet I felt I wasn’t accomplishing the true goal.

So I changed my approach and did such a good job in changing my approach I really feel like I am not confessing well. I confess better, but is it well. And I truly believe my confessions are better with this new approach which I have been trying for a couple of years now. Yet it makes reading the Screwtape letters stand out so much more. I am going to finish the book and find out what to do next but in the meantime I am still pondering all this internalized madness.

And another thought that has come to mind is that women and men confess differently and not because of the women are from Venus and men are from Mars mentality or by human nature a bit of that, but because of their relationship with God via understanding their relationship to God in the Trinity.

Women truly understand the Church is the bride of the Bridegroom Jesus and can live it, while men struggle with that analogy since the word bride is used and they may feel it is a relationship they do not understand. Of course I am generalizing and people will find examples that shoot generalizing down, but overall I have observed this phenomenon. So this leaves Women confessing to a lover, explaining her frailties her inadequacies and how she can do better and a longing for her lover to forgive her.

Men being “men of action” relate more to the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit brings action. So their confessions reflect action, need to overcome the sin, fight it and conquer it.

And both approaches are valid.

Both these examples are just observations in hearing people talk about confession. No one really tells me what they confessed, but over time and knowing many people you hear this type of thinking on how they approach confession.

And going back to the book, C. S. Lewis’ victim of Wormwood and Screwtape being a man Mr. Lewis approaches his reasoning in the man sense. Screwtape addresses the man’s actions or thought processes to turn him, the one relationship matter is his relationship with his Mother and it is very minimal in the book so the relationship of Jesus to a man is not explored versus more of the relationship of one with the man. They talk about their victim’s behaviors and actions and what can be done to change the behavior to lead him away.

I think it is a good book for examination of conscious for a confession even if read just once because you can begin to incorporate how you look at your life through these lenses and even for a woman, yet more men may find it helpful than women.

No matter your Christian denomination it is a good book to read to help you stay on track, yet for people who practice the Sacrament of Reconciliation and are struggling with what is a good confession this may not be the ultimate guide yet it can give some structure to what are you trying to say or as they say get off your chest (conscious).

Cheers.

[theyayadiamond]

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Understanding the Role of a Christian OCD Therapist

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) can significantly affect the lives of those who struggle with it. For many individuals, finding a therapist who not only understands the intricacies of OCD but also shares their faith can be vital to their healing journey. A Christian OCD therapist combines expertise in mental health with a foundation in christian ocd therapist, creating a holistic approach to treatment that resonates deeply with clients who seek both psychological support and spiritual guidance.

What is OCD?

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is characterized by persistent, unwanted thoughts (obsessions) and repetitive behaviors (compulsions) that individuals feel driven to perform. These obsessions and compulsions can interfere with daily life, causing distress and impacting relationships, work, and overall well-being. Common obsessions might include fears of contamination, fears of harming oneself or others, or worries about order and symmetry. Compulsions often manifest as excessive cleaning, checking, or counting behaviors meant to alleviate the anxiety caused by these obsessions.

The Intersection of Faith and Mental Health

For many Christians, faith is a fundamental aspect of their identity. It shapes their worldview and influences their understanding of health and wellness. When dealing with a condition like OCD, it can be especially challenging to navigate feelings of shame, guilt, or inadequacy. Many individuals may struggle with the belief that their faith should be enough to overcome their mental health challenges. This is where a Christian OCD therapist can play a crucial role.

The Christian Perspective on Mental Health

Christianity teaches that humans are made in the image of God and that caring for one’s mental health is essential. A Christian OCD therapist acknowledges that while faith is a powerful tool for healing, it should be complemented by professional support. They aim to create a safe space for clients to express their struggles without judgment, recognizing that mental health issues are not a sign of weak faith but rather a part of the human experience.

Integrative Therapy Approaches

A Christian OCD therapist often utilizes evidence-based therapies, such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP), alongside Christian principles.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT): This therapy helps clients identify and challenge distorted thought patterns. For someone with OCD, this might mean recognizing irrational fears and learning to respond to them in healthier ways.

Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP): This form of CBT is particularly effective for OCD. It involves gradual exposure to feared thoughts or situations while preventing the compulsive behaviors that typically follow. This technique helps desensitize individuals to their fears, reducing anxiety over time.

Incorporating Scripture and Prayer: A Christian therapist may also integrate scripture and prayer into the therapeutic process. This could involve discussing relevant biblical passages that offer comfort and encouragement or incorporating prayer into sessions to foster a deeper connection to faith.

Faith as a Source of Strength: The therapist may encourage clients to view their faith as a resource in managing their OCD. This could mean focusing on the concepts of grace, forgiveness, and understanding that seeking help is part of God’s provision for healing.

Benefits of a Christian OCD Therapist

1. Faith-Aligned Support

Having a therapist who shares the same faith can help clients feel understood and supported on a spiritual level. A Christian OCD therapist can validate their experiences while helping them explore the intersection of their faith and mental health.

2. Reduced Stigma

Many individuals may feel stigmatized by their mental health struggles, particularly within certain religious communities. A Christian therapist can help clients navigate these feelings, reinforcing the idea that seeking help is a courageous step rather than a sign of spiritual failure.

3. Holistic Healing

Christian OCD therapists focus on the whole person, addressing emotional, spiritual, and psychological needs. This holistic approach can foster a more profound sense of healing and well-being.

4. Encouragement of Community Support

Therapists may encourage clients to seek support from their faith communities. This can provide additional layers of accountability, encouragement, and fellowship, which are crucial in the recovery process.

Challenges in Therapy

While there are many benefits to working with a Christian OCD therapist, challenges may arise. Some clients may struggle to reconcile their OCD symptoms with their faith, leading to guilt or shame. A skilled therapist will navigate these complexities, helping clients understand that mental illness is not a reflection of their faith or worthiness.

Additionally, clients may encounter differing beliefs within their faith communities about mental health treatment. A therapist can assist in addressing these concerns and fostering a supportive environment for healing.

Finding the Right Christian OCD Therapist

When searching for a Christian OCD therapist, consider the following:

Qualifications and Experience: Look for therapists who specialize in OCD and have relevant credentials. Understanding their therapeutic approaches is also essential.

Faith Compatibility: It’s crucial to find a therapist whose theological views align with yours. This can create a more comfortable and productive therapeutic relationship.

Therapeutic Style: Consider the therapist's style and approach. Do they integrate faith into their practice? Are they open to discussing spiritual matters?

Recommendations and Reviews: Seek recommendations from trusted sources or look for reviews from previous clients to gauge the therapist's effectiveness and approach.

Conclusion

Incorporating faith into the treatment of OCD can be a transformative experience for many individuals. A Christian OCD therapist provides not only professional guidance but also spiritual support, fostering a sense of hope and healing. By addressing the complexities of OCD through a faith-aligned lens, these therapists help clients reclaim their lives and embrace their faith in the process. Whether through therapy, prayer, or community support, the journey to healing is possible, and a Christian OCD therapist can be an invaluable partner along the way.

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Overcoming Impostor Syndrome Through Christlike Confidence and Humility

1. Embrace Humility Without Self-Doubt

Philippians 2 reveals a beautiful portrait of Christ’s humility—not a false humility that minimizes His identity, but one that aligns perfectly with His mission. Christ, though equal with God, did not cling to His divine privileges for personal gain. Instead, He willingly took on the form of a servant to fulfill His purpose. His humility didn’t stem from insecurity; He was fully confident in who He was. In the same way, humility for us does not mean thinking less of ourselves but recognizing our worth and gifts come from God. You are not an impostor when you acknowledge your abilities as divinely bestowed rather than coincidental.

2. Root Your Identity in Christ

Paul calls us to "have the mind of Christ" (Philippians 2:5). Impostor syndrome often thrives when our identity is anchored in our performance or in the approval of others. Instead, we must root ourselves in Christ, who defines our value and purpose. In Philippians 2:13, Paul reminds us that it is God who "works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure." Our worth comes not from perfection but from God’s work in us. Even when self-doubt strikes, we can trust that He equips us for every task He has called us to, allowing us to move forward in faith, not fear.

3. Combat Perfectionism with Grace

Impostor syndrome thrives on perfectionism, convincing us that any mistake proves our inadequacy. But Christ's example shows that our identity is not based on human standards of flawlessness. His humility was displayed in complete dependence on God’s will. Perfection is not required; instead, God's grace makes up for our shortcomings. 2 Corinthians 12:9 reminds us, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Let go of the impossible task of flawless execution, and rest in God’s grace, knowing He accomplishes His purposes through imperfect vessels.

4. Reframe Negative Thoughts with Scripture

Philippians 2:14 encourages us to live without “complaining and disputing,” which often includes the inner battles of self-doubt. When impostor thoughts of inadequacy arise, confront them with the truth of Scripture. Remind yourself of empowering verses like Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” and Romans 8:37, “We are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” By replacing negative, self-critical thoughts with these affirmations of God’s power at work within you, you can shift your perspective from inadequacy to Christ-centered confidence.

5. Seek Support in Christian Community

Paul urged the Philippians to support one another in love and unity, highlighting the importance of community in combating isolation. Impostor syndrome often leads us to withdraw, but surrounding ourselves with encouragement is crucial. Trusted Christian mentors and friends can help us recognize our worth and remind us of our God-given calling. Just as Christ surrounded Himself with His disciples, we too need the support of those who will point us back to God’s truth when doubts arise.

6. Pursue God's Approval Over People’s Opinions

Philippians 2:16 emphasizes the importance of holding fast to the word of life and living for God’s approval, not for others'. Impostor syndrome often makes us overly concerned about how others perceive us, but true freedom comes when we focus on pleasing God. God sees your heart, your efforts, and your obedience. Shift your perspective from seeking affirmation from people to fulfilling the purpose God has for you. In His eyes, you are not an impostor—you are His beloved, equipped for every good work He sets before you.

Ultimately, overcoming impostor syndrome is about more than just boosting your self-confidence; it's about anchoring your confidence in Christ. By trusting in His grace and strength, we can find peace and assurance, whether in success or in moments of weakness. We are called to walk humbly as Christ did, but that humility is never about doubting who we are in Him—it’s about knowing that He is the source of all we are and all we can do.

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Daily Devotion

When Our Faith Wavers

"We access all the riches of God with the simple decision to trust Him—in everything."

September 1, 2024

James 1:1-8

"Faith is the heart of our Christian life. It’s how we are saved, receive forgiveness for our sins, enjoy a personal relationship with God, and have assurance of eternal life in His presence. By faith, we experience the peace of God and the power of the Holy Spirit. Yet at times our life and prayers are plagued by doubts.

Our faith wavers when we. . .

Apply human thinking to our circumstances. Sometimes God may require us to do something with which human reasoning disagrees (Isaiah 55:9).

Allow our feelings to overcome our faith. Perhaps feelings of unworthiness, fear, or inadequacy cause us to doubt we can do what the Lord asks.

Fail to see God at work in our circumstances. Doubts creep in when we have asked Him to take action but nothing appears to be happening.

Have guilt over sin, past or present. We cannot operate with strong faith when we are mindful of ongoing sin or dwelling on guilt over past wrongdoing.

Faith is defined as “the certainty of things hoped for, a proof of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1). Do confidence and conviction describe the condition of your faith?"

Bible in One Year: Ezekiel 17-19

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The Appointed But Reluctant Leader | 1 Samuel 10:6

Are you embracing your calling with spiritual confidence or reluctantly?

Welcome to the Daily Devo. I am Vince Miller.

This week, we are in 1 Samuel 10. I've titled this chapter "The Appointed But Reluctant Leader."

The key verse of this chapter is verse 6, which reads:

Then the Spirit of the Lord will rush upon you, and you will prophesy with them and be turned into another man. — 1 Samuel 10:6

This entire chapter is interesting to read. It starts with Samuel's very detailed prophecy about Saul's journey home. Then Saul heads home, and the Spirit falls upon him as he goes. When he gets home, Saul conceals his impending appointment as king of Israel. Samuel then gathers the nation to select the next king, and after a lot of lots cast, the lot falls to Saul. But Saul cannot be found when called upon because he is hiding in some pile of baggage or equipment and is reluctantly dragged out before the people. What we discover is Saul is an anointed and appointed but reluctant leader.

Yet smack dab in the middle of this experience, we read that the Spirit of the Lord would rush upon Saul and change him into another man. Strange right?

So, let's make some notes about the Spirit and his work through time.

In the Old Testament, the falling of the Spirit upon individuals was rare but critical. It marked God's empowerment for specific moments and tasks. Saul's experience in this text was momentary, divinely confirming him as the first king. But while rare in the Old Testament, this event foreshadows a greater reality for believers in the New Testament age. After Jesus's ascension came the descent of the Spirit at Pentecost, and from this moment forward, every believer receives the sustaining power and presence of the Spirit for living the spiritual life.

I meet believers all the time who feel insecure about their spiritual gifts and calling. Like Saul, we are called but concerned and, therefore, feel some initial intimidation. But we must remember and believe that the Spirit not only rushes upon us momentarily but resides within us permanently. He is apportioned to us to empower us for God's work.

Today, if you feel intimidated about the work God has called you to do, stop defaulting to trusting in your feelings about the feat before you. Trust in the sustaining power of the Spirit so you don't react like Saul. As you will see in this chapter, it would be stupid for the tallest man in all the land to hide in the baggage when he was anointed and appointed the king of Israel. In the same way, it would be stupid for you to trust in your feelings over the incredible power of God's Spirit that lives within you. The Spirit that lives in you is the same person and power that raised Jesus from the dead. So stop cowering and hiding today. Come out from behind the baggage. With a Spirit-filled confidence, step into the tasks God has for you because the Spirit of the Risen Savior resides within you.

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Ask This:

How can you actively recognize and embrace the presence of the Holy Spirit in your daily life, especially when faced with challenges or opportunities for leadership?

Reflecting on Saul's initial reluctance, what steps can you take to overcome insecurity or inadequacy when God calls you to lead or serve?

Do This:

Trust the Spirit, not your feelings.

Pray This:

Father, empower me with Your Spirit today so that I may embrace Your calling confidently and courage, stepping boldly into the tasks You have appointed for me. Help me to trust in Your presence within me, guiding me through every challenge and opportunity. Amen.

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NO SHAME!

NO SHAME

Joshua 5:8-9

 

Shame is a painful emotion that stems from an awareness of inadequacy or guilt. It’s an unfortunate circumstance that brings dishonour and causes one to feel ashamed. Shame can be felt due to our actions, the actions of those associated with us, or for things done to us. It creates a barrier in our lives, preventing us from acting boldly and keeping us living in the defeat of past failures.

The reproach of Egypt was their uncircumcision, which made them similar to the uncircumcised Egyptians. The Jews viewed the uncircumcised as impure. However, after their circumcision, the shame or reproach of uncircumcision was rolled away.

Do you lead a shame-based life? What has caused you shame? Whatever is causing shame can be handed to the Lord, who can help us live daily without shame and avoid shameful feelings in the future. The scriptures, like Psalm 25:2-3, are encouraging. They say, “I trust in you, my God! Do not let me be disgraced, or let my enemies rejoice in my defeat. No one who trusts in you will ever be disgraced, but disgrace comes to those who try to deceive others.” Simply put, staying and trusting in God removes shame!

Are you rooted or grounded in shame? Isaiah 54:4 says that the Lord has promised to remove the shame and dishonour from us so that we don’t remember it anymore. Further down in Isaiah 61:7, He promises to pour on us a twofold blessing to overcome every spirit of shame we experience. The promise is that we will possess double what we’ve lost, and we will have everlasting joy.

We may have lived a life that causes shame, but through the word of God, we have “no shame.” The enemy will then no longer have anything with which to shame us. We may suffer physically, be embarrassed, and dishonoured by our conduct, be derided because of who we are or where we’re from, or we may suffer contempt for whatever reason. But when we take a stand on the Word of God, become rooted and grounded in God’s love, we become complete in Him.

Many Christians feel that they are pathetic and bring reproach upon themselves by accepting the world’s view of who they are. But God seeks to motivate us through divine grace—not through sin’s disgrace, according to John 3:17. God’s grace is not extended to us because we are pathetic, but because of His gracious love. Men may remind us, show, and recount our actions to shame us, but Jesus covers our shame.

Some use religion to make others feel pathetic while the enemy wants to enslave us with humiliation and reproach. We are no longer slaves to sin according to Romans 6:6 and cannot continue to serve sin without denying our new identity in Christ.

So, as we think about the kind of self-image shame and guilt project on us, we must understand that God looks at us through the righteousness of Christ. 2 Corinthians 4:2 says when we come to Christ, we renounce and disclaim the hidden things of dishonesty and shame, things like wickedness, but allow the light of God to shine through us by the manifestation of the truth of God as an open acknowledgement that we know that the truth of the word conceals nothing. We are made “shame-proof” only by the Spirit of God.

The Lord not only promises to roll away reproach but to afflict our persecutors with punishment in Zephaniah 3:19 and fight whatever oppresses us by turning the shame back on our oppressors and accusers. God is rolling away shame and reproach from us by His mercy.

No more shame, you’ve been made shame-proof in Christ. So, allow the reproach to be rolled off.

PRAYER: Lord, thank you for not allowing shame on me. I am no longer ashamed of your gospel, for it is your power at work in me through Christ Jesus. Amen.

Shalom

WOMEN OF LIGHT INT’L PRAYER MIN.

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You: Be Filled

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You: Be Filled

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And do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but be filled with the Spirit (Ephesians 5:18, ESV).

On your own, you cannot be like Jesus. You can’t will yourself to change your sinful patterns or to choose right. So how do you live a powerful life in Christ? How do you live out the exchanged life—Christ in you?

The Holy Spirit.

You can talk till you’re blue in the face, you can serve till you drop, you can try your absolute best. But until you let Jesus reign in you through His Spirit, you are going to be exhausted.

Ephesians 5:18 commands, “And do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but be filled with the Spirit.” The Greek word for filledmeans controlled, intoxicated, permeated, thoroughly influenced, overcome by a power greater than your own.

We know what it is to be filled with pain, with joy, or with sorrow. Being filled with excruciating pain, for example, eclipses everything else in our consciousness. We feel only the pain and fixate exclusively on it. The filling of the Holy Spirit is a similar experience—the Christian is overcome and under the influence of a a power greater than himself.

It’s likened to being under the influence of alcohol (Luke 1:15; Acts 2:4, 13–17), in that when people are drunk, they don’t act like themselves. They have little control of their minds, emotions, words, or actions. In the same way, we are to yield control of ourselves to the Holy Spirit. But unlike alcohol, we can’t get too much of the Spirit. We can never be too filled.

This one little verse contains four essential truths about the filling of the Spirit:

The filling is commanded.Notice God’s tone. He is not giving us a mild, optional suggestion. If you have some extra time, you might want to consider being filled with the Spirit. It’s a command: “Be filled.”And because God commands it, we know it’s possible. Nowhere in the Bible are we commanded to be indwelt, baptized, or sealed with the Spirit because those are God’s work in us at conversion—but we are commanded to be filled.

The filling is passive. Think back to English class. We are not the subject of the sentence, the one doing the action. We do not perform the filling, but are the object being acted upon. God is implied as the source. When we ask Him, He will fill us; we cannot do it ourselves.

The filling is for everyone. In the original Greek, the understood youis plural, as if to say, “All of you followers of Jesus, be filled with the Spirit.” This filling is a widespread, universal offer for every believer, not one exclusive to the “spiritual elite.” It is for all of God’s children—it’s for you.

The filling is not permanent. Rather than “be filled,” some translations use the wording “be being filled”—it’s an ongoing process. We are to be continuously filled, day by day. Never in the New Testament do we see a believer baptized by the Holy Spirit more than once. But we do see multiple fillings—check out Acts 2:4, 4:8, 9:17, 13:9. There is only one baptism at conversion, but there are many fillings of the Spirit.

Because Ephesians 5:18 is a clear command, we don’t have to wonder how to apply this teaching. Simply “be filled”! Yes, imperfect you with your overwhelming day and feelings of inadequacy and exhaustion. Get right with the Lord and be filled—“Confess [your] sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9).

Pray this: “Lord, please fill me with Your Spirit today.” Believe you have received His filling, and remember He is with you wherever you go. Then get ready to experience God’s transforming power as He lives through you.

Journal

When have you experienced the empowered life of the Holy Spirit controlling and living through you?

We must clear the way for the filing of the Holy Spirit. What do you need to confess and repent of? What acts of restitution do you need to do to make things right with others?

Pray

God, I know You want to fill me but will not until I remove the barriers. Please bring to my mind my unconfessed sins and help me repent of them. Will You fill me with Your Holy Spirit? Live Your life through me today. Make me the person You want me to be for the fame and glory of Your great name. I believe You will fill me with Your Spirit, and pray this now in Jesus’ precious name, amen.

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I Am God's Masterpiece: Embracing the Beauty Within Shaina Tranquilino March 25, 2024

We are often bombarded with messages of inadequacy and self-doubt, it's crucial to remind ourselves of our inherent worth and beauty. As individuals, we are unique and intricate creations, each with our own set of strengths, quirks, and talents. "I am God's Masterpiece" serves as a powerful affirmation that echoes the idea that we are divinely crafted with purpose and intention. In this blog post, we'll explore the depth and significance of this statement, encouraging readers to embrace their true selves and recognize the beauty within.

Understanding the Concept:

The phrase "I am God's Masterpiece" is rooted in the belief that there is a higher power, a divine creator, who crafted each individual with care and purpose. This concept can be found in various religious and spiritual teachings that emphasize the idea of being fearfully and wonderfully made. Regardless of one's religious beliefs, the core message remains universal: each person is a unique masterpiece, a work of art crafted by a higher intelligence.

Embracing Individuality:

One of the key aspects of recognizing oneself as God's masterpiece is acknowledging and celebrating individuality. Just as no two pieces of art are identical, no two individuals are exactly the same. Our differences, whether physical, emotional, or intellectual, contribute to the rich tapestry of humanity. Embracing these distinctions allows us to appreciate the diversity that makes each person a one-of-a-kind masterpiece.

Overcoming Insecurities:

In a world that often places unrealistic standards on beauty, success, and happiness, many individuals grapple with insecurities. The affirmation "I am God's Masterpiece" serves as a powerful antidote to these feelings of inadequacy. By recognizing our inherent value, we can challenge societal norms and redefine our self-worth based on our uniqueness rather than conforming to external expectations.

Finding Purpose:

Understanding that we are God's masterpiece also implies that there is a purpose behind our existence. Whether through personal growth, relationships, or contributions to the world, each individual has a role to play in the grand design of life. By tapping into our passions and talents, we can align ourselves with our purpose and experience a sense of fulfillment and meaning.

Practical Steps for Self-Reflection:

To internalize the affirmation "I am God's Masterpiece," it's essential to engage in regular self-reflection. This may involve practices such as journaling, meditation, or seeking guidance from spiritual mentors. By taking the time to understand our strengths, weaknesses, and aspirations, we can develop a deeper connection with our true selves.

"I am God's Masterpiece" is a profound statement that transcends religious and spiritual boundaries, emphasizing the inherent value and beauty within each individual. By embracing our uniqueness, overcoming insecurities, and aligning with our purpose, we can live authentically and contribute positively to the world around us. Let this affirmation be a guiding light, reminding us all that we are, indeed, fearfully and wonderfully made.

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The moments that you find yourself completely and utterly burned out. I’ve already internally cried. Wiped my own tears. Hugged my own self. decided to not let myself hyperventilate. I’m stronger than that.

Today. Has. Been. Hard. I keep reminding myself that I’m a good good mom. I have what it takes. I’m beautiful. Even though my stomach isn’t what it used to be. With my cesarean scar and all. Right now, I’m staring at the wall. And, I’m crying 😭. Better days will come. Moments of inadequacy at times. H. I t hard. I’m trying to not emotionally shut down. Lord knows I don’t want to burden anyone or be a burden to anyone. I want to bless others and uplift others. Last thing I want to do is to be seen as someone who le e ch Es off of others and than they can’t even stand the sight of being around me.

I just want to hear I’m doing a good job. I have so much inner Healing that needs to

Happen still I know that.

I’m working on forgiving. I’m learning how to let go of the past.

I’m asking Jesus to help remember my childhood and youth days. Only God knows how much my brain and mind has truly closed those areas off to protect my heart.

I’m

Done being bitter.

Many of you have reminded me of that. Many times over. yup.

It seems many people can’t let me just breath without reminding me that I’m still

Angry and hurting.

I forgive you.

I’m just broken.

It’s hard for me to accept compliments.

I almost always wait for that other shoe to d r o p. Ma ny times: I wait for there to be strings attached.

I want to learn how to be more gracious and kind.

I’ve had to survive emotionally for so long. That most never truly get to know my heart because I’ve kept so many at arms reach.

I’ve had ptsd cptsd.

Mother issues.

Many have told me. Stop talking about your mother. Bla bla bla.

You don’t understand how letting the truth out. It’s healing for my heart.

Here is what you all need to understand.

Okay. Listen up. This is my page. My opinion. My story. My life.

You are not my mother.

Many of you are my friends.

But. You need to respect my heart. We’re all adults here.

You have given me your opinion. And that’s exactly what it is. It’s your opinion which you’re entitled to have. And I have mine.

Let’s all do one another a favor and respect one another as adult. As colleagues. and as friends.

Thanks so much.

Better days will come. My story isn’t for the faint of heart.

Buckle up sweetheart. I’m one ba 🏖️. I’ve overcome more than most can ever even imagine. I’m strong. But. Good God. I’m exhausted.

Genuine love and kindness means far more to

Me than all

The treasures in the world.

Love you all💕🤗☺️

Jessica Wolf