#Only because I'm so out of touch with music I cannot think what the song even sounds like lol so I would fumble so hard

[iwrite-sinsandtragedies]

Day 1 — Soulmates ₊˚✧ ﾟ

Submission for @goldengroovy's @olnfweek2024

MC: Micha

Long ass ramble under the cut 😂

Okayokayokay SO-

I love soulmate au's. I cannot tell you how many fics I've read or how many prompts I've played with or media I've consumed or how many bullshit ideas I've come up with in my own head for them, I CANNOT.

It's just - hhhhhhhhhhhh- Soulmate au's and Time Travel au's are just the shit that gets me out of bed some days 😩💖my world weary soul drinks that shit like medicine, okay?

That all being said, it's probably a little ambiguous which au I picked to some, so let me explain: There are two au's I'm mashing up here really, both are from fics I've read back in the day. One being a Clack fic and the other a Thilbo one 🤷‍♂️kind of calling myself out here but w/e, they were good fics.

The Thilbo one is easier to explain - the concept is "Heartsong" which is, literally what it says on the tin. You find out who your soulmate is the first time you hear them sing (and no, that does not mean everyone is just a naturally good singer - they can be ass at music but, the point is, when you hear them their song is the perfect song for you and your heart knows that). There's a lot of little nuances to this one - things like you hearing your heartsong when you dream so you always know the moment you find them. Also people who have quiet dreams because their heartsong died, sometimes before ever even meeting them. etc etc. The heartsong also seems to expand, in some respect, to instruments (as Thorin plays his harp one night and Bilbo starts to hum without thinking about it because it sounds wonderful to him and that's how Thorin finds out).

Overall, it's a very soft and sweet concept to me and as someone who has a deep love of music, it's also one of my very favourites.

The Clack one is a little less easy to explain? I think. Maybe because it's nuances are so round about but I'll do my best. The concept for this one is "I Only See Colour When I'm With You" - anyone who knows how Clack fics usually go knows where this is probably headed 😂 and I am sorry to have hurt you but, overall, the idea is: You live in a noir-esqu world where everything is black and white. This only changes when you find your soulmate, of course, who brings the world into full saturation and lets you see colour for - possibly - the first time in your life (I say possibly because I genuinely can't remember if you start out colourblind or if it's an age cap thing).

Unfortunately, for as much as I adore this concept, it's been a long damn time since I read the fic and I don't even know if it still exists somewhere. So I can't actually recall if it was a 'you have to touch them' or 'you have to hear them' thing but the fic takes place with Zack on the cliff right before Midgar where he holds Cloud and looks at the sky - so I'm willing to bet it's a touch thing.

I also really loved this fic because it was the first one I'd read that brought in the concept of multiple soulmates to me - As Cloud later sits with Aerith and sees the colour he couldn't see with Zack, meanwhile Aerith only sees black and white, because she was only able to see colour with Zack (who was never able to see colour with her, because he needed Cloud for that).

Essentially, they all needed each other to see the world in colour. As a polyam person who didn't quite realise I was poly back then, it was a very comforting (and now dearly cherished) fic.

Anyways! Now that you have the background on the two concepts, you can kind of get what I'm going for with this piece.

Tamarack, Micha and Qiu are all soulmates in a fuzzy, desaturated world (I'm sorry, I'm not cruel enough to but them in complete greyscale LOL) and the way you find your soulmate is by hearing them sing and, when they do, your world is suddenly vivid and bright and beautiful. Suddenly, you can see things as they were meant to be seen and it's a permanent change (unlike the Clack fic) but things are always clearest and brightest when your soulmate speaks or sings 💖

I get a real kick out of the idea that Micha's known for fucking months that Tamarack is his soulmate (if not years) because he's always listening to her play but never says jack shit about it because he's emotionally constipated that way 😂Though genuinely, it's probably because he just doesn't think he's her soulmate and he's a bit against finding out he's right honestly.

Joke is on him, he's Qiu's and Tamaracks soulmate! And he couldn't have picked a better moment to grow a pair an take the risk 🥰

[thisaccountisagainstmywill]

BG3 Characters Safest Driver Headcanons

I've been thinking about that poll from months ago way too much, so I've pulled this from my drafts. In this essay, I will explain why Boo is the best driver. Astarion: Terrible. Absolutely terrible driver. He is doing his makeup with the visor down, looking at the mirror more than the road. Suspend your disbelief, he's driving in this universe. He can use mirrors. ♥ You have to grab the steering wheel, regularly. Without warning, the man twists around to find his purse in the back seat because he wants a different eyeliner than what he grabbed. You are on aux duty. He hates everything you've picked. 2/10, he lawyered his way into that license Gale: You would think he would be safe, but then you remember that Gale didn't pay attention in boring classes. And how hard could driving really be?? The man knows how to drive perfectly textbook. He also thinks he knows how to do it better than everyone else. He does not adapt well to poor drivers. The roads are full of poor drivers. He is yeling "Zipper!" at the merging traffic. You spend five minutes in the parking lot so he can find just the right song for the trip.

6/10, you will probably not die Halsin: The man drives slow, I'm sorry. He's fuel efficient as you can get with the windows down. He pulls over and stops traffic for ducks crossing the road, no matter what the current road conditions are. He stops to show you the new tree the neighbor got. He is a Yellowstone Park tourist. He wants to show you the world, one traffic-stopping mid-road parking job at a time. There is no music, we are listening to nature today. 4/10, you will be rear-ended with him and not the way most people want Jaheira: I stand by what I said last time: Jaheira reminds me of so many older women I know. She drives like she wants someone to start shit with her. She's so conditioned by having 5 kids fighting in the backseat at all times that every time she's behind the wheel she's having Vietnam-level flashbacks. Her blood is pumping in her ears. There is no road, there is only the red of her vision. She won't start the road rage incident directly, but by god, she will end it. (You tried to ask about music, but the look she gave you when asked killed the question.) 5/10, you make it to your destination intact. But at what cost? Your pants are a different color at the end of the trip than they were at the beginning. Karlach: Karlach is talking with her hands while she drives. She's fiddling with the radio constantly. You've blown four red lights. Three of them were the same red light because she took a wrong turn. She will not use GPS, she's got the vibe of where she's going. She was trying to show you something on her phone at the same time. It cannot wait. It was so good you have to see it right now. The tunes are so loud she hasn't heard the sirens behind her. 4/10, the tunes almost make up for it Lae'zel: You are helping her check her mirror distance before you get in the car. You are buckled in before the car even starts. You are not allowed to touch the light in the car if it is dark out. She was taught that it's illegal to have on at night and she takes that shit seriously. You are on blindspot-watching duty at all times. You're not allowed to have music on the in car, it is a distraction. 7/10, we are efficient, but we are miserable Minsc: Minsc cannot drive. Minsc was meant to drive today, but Minsc got into the wrong seat. We are all relieved. Jaheira trained him wrong on purpose and will kill you if you correct him. 0/10, don't even try. He will survive the accident, you will not. Minthara: Minthara, light of my life. She is gremlin cackling and riding bumpers the whole time. People are pulling off constantly to get away from her. You are white-knuckling in the passenger seat and are too afraid to let go of the bitch-bar. You pray her airbags are up to date because your life has not stopped flashing before your eyes since you got onto the road. We are exclusively listening to The Flight of the Valkyries. 7/10, it is shockingly efficient when no one else is on the road anymore

Shadowheart: I have been in many a 'Shadowhearts' car. The car is more of a problem than she is. She drives the type of car that makes people go, "You live like this?" She drives a manual. She was not trained to drive a manual. Almost every single dash light is on, the ones that aren't had their bulbs die out years ago. We don't know how old that trash is, but it lives here now. She has one of those cassette players that has to hook into your phone to come out the speakers. Good luck finding the right adaptor in the mess. 4/10, girl get your shit together Wyll: Wyll is the best driver, hands down...when he is alone. Like all things in his life, his greatest flaw is being too polite. He turns his whole fucking head to look at you when you talk because that is the polite thing to do. The road is secondary to how important your conversation and companionship are to him. And you can't not talk him! He's asking you genuine questions about your day because he's interested. You get to listen to whatever you want and he's totally down for it even if it's not normally his thing. He'll find something he likes about it. Alone: 100/10, he somehow makes everyone better drivers by just being on the road With you: 5/10, Wyll, please, look at the road. ;_;

Boo: My eyes are closed. It's better this way. We made it there in record time. I don't know how it happened. I don't need to know how it happened. ?/10, it's best if you don't think about it

[wonwooslibrary]

svt as boyfriends ♡ jihoon edition

member: woozi x reader

genre: fluff, bullet points

word count: 878

summary: jihoon’s boyfriend things

warnings: a very small mention of periods, and that's it

author’s note: hahah i actually forgot to write this time!!! but hey i'm on break from school now so I had time to whip this out and post if for all the woozidans who are about to knock my door down for forgetting abt our precious jihoonie's day anyway please enjoy !!! <3

Jihoon is the epitome of a quiet bf 

He just kinda exists and so do you and you both love it like that 

He’s also the (obvs) producer bf 

Quality Time

I think that Jihoon’s favorite thing to do with you would be to teach you how to write or produce music 

Or even accompany him at the gym because even if you don’t work out too, this man cannot, for any reason, miss leg day

He likes showing you what he is interested in, and of course, you love listening to him talk about his hobbies

I think he would also be the type to just…enjoy whatever you like, too

For example, you would have a show that you both specifically watch together, and maybe even read a book together and talk about the characters in them you liked or something 

Also !!! coffee dates !!! Y’all would totally have a specific date night on like Thursdays or something and you would always so to a coffee shop or a cafe or something and sit together and talk aaa he’s so sweet 

Cringy movie scenes like a large milkshake with two straws is the perfect way to summarize these dates too 

Words of Affirmation

Surprisingly, I don’t think Jihoon would be big on pet names or nicknames…he’d just stick with your name or a nickname you like being called 

He says it makes it easier to not call you something embarrassing in front of his friends, but we all know its because if he makes nicknames, you will too and he refuses to be called something cute in front of other people 

Always compliments you!!! And encourages you!!! 

“Y/N-nie, you’re working so hard, of course you’ll do great on that exam” 

Or even “Y/N-nie you’re such an amazing person and I am glad that you’re with me” 

Jihoon cannot physically or mentally take a compliment so if you compliment him back he’ll just be like “thanks…?” before destroying you in a compliment war 

Mans likes words so ofc like his quality time, he would write the most perfect songs ever for you and they would perfectly express his love for you in ways he would otherwise not be able to comprehend 

Physical Touch

We all know this man is a cuddle-bug on the inside, so of course that means that Jihoon has his needy time aka he must be the little spoon: no ifs, ands, or buts

I think Jihoon would appreciate a good back hug from you if you’re taller than him, and if you’re shorter, he loves when you rest your head on him :( 

I don’t think Jihoon is one for PDA, obviously (poor Hoshi) so there would be barely any proof to an outsider that y’all are actually dating to begin with 

Likes to keep hand-holding to a minimum, especially when in the studio, but he doesn’t mind when you sit with him and put your legs over his lap 

Or even play with his hair while he is working !! He likes soft things just only when you guys are alone together 

He’s just a shy baby fr 

Acts of Service 

When he comes home late, he makes sure that the apartment is tidy and clean before showering and going to bed because he knows it stresses you out seeing a messy place as soon as you wake up 

Cannot make food for the life of him please do not allow him in the kitchen unless he has a very specific task (he has zoned out while humming new melodies too often and burnt food is not a pleasant smell for your apartment) 

Always makes sure that you’re phone, watch and computer/tablet are plugged in at the end of the night, because you need them to be just as prepared for the next day as you

He would totally get sad if you do all the cleaning by yourself because he says that you work too hard making the messes, you don’t need to be cleaning them too 

You say the same thing to him when the boys make a mess in the living room when they are drinking and you offer to help clean up 

If you have periods, when you are getting close to it starting, he makes sure that your products are always stocked up so you don’t have to worry about getting anything 

Gift Giving 

Two words: Spotify playlists 

Jihoon would be over the moon with both making them for you and also receiving them from you 

I feel like Jihoon is also the type to just randomly show up with something and hold it out to you and just say “this make me think of you so I got it” 

Is super embarrassed when he does so but you love it so he’ll get over it when he sees how happy you are 

Is definitely not one for huge and expensive gifts like jewelry, cars and all of that stuff, but loves getting little trinkets and stuffed animals for you because let's be real: who doesn’t like a really cute and soft plushie? 

Doesn’t like receiving gifts because he feels bad when others spend time and money on him but >:( how dare he!!! He needs to be appreciated!!!

[atiny-for-life]

Golden Hour feels different and I think I know why...

This album feels a lot less cohesive than all others they've ever released. I'm by no means saying it's bad or you shouldn't enjoy it or support the comeback, but it's still something noteworthy.

They said they were really happy making this album, which is amazing and I'm glad they've been enjoying all the new opportunities they've been getting, but when I listen to most of these songs, I feel like we' we've been given a folder from the producer's computer with all the leftover/unfinished tracks, and I think I may know why that is.

First, I wanna say what I mean by the album being less cohesive: Ateez are big on concept albums. The songs tell a story, they're connected, both conceptiually and lyrically, even as we switch genres. Look to the Fever and World Series where you can track the themes even without knowing about their storyline.

Ateez are also famous for their cinematic songs - Inception, Answer, Guerrilla, Halazia - the instrumentals are layered, interwoven, it feels like you're on a journey as you listen to it. You start in one place and don't know where you're headed until you get there. They're full of unique instruments, random noises, hidden harmonies from Maddox and the vocal line. It's art.

And now move on to Blind, Work, Shaboom, and it's one beat in the back that switches up as we move along but there's nothing new to notice on repeat listens, nothing remarkable to pick out. Wooyoung summed it up as "easy listening" in their KStar Next Door interview. Lyrically, Work is also a lot more repetitive which is something Ateez historically stayed clear of because Mingi and Hongjoong especially are very invested in the writing process and want the songs to have meaning.

Proving my point, they mentioned during the Preview Live that Mingi and Hongjoong worked more on Empty Box and Siren, with Siren even being a contender for the title track and Empty Box being their collective favorite and, hey, look at that, those two are the only songs on the album which are a lot more complex on all fronts, a lot more similar to their usual approach to music.

Looking at the bigger picture, I absolutely don't think it was laziness which led to the slight drop in quality. I think KQ just has a pre-planned release schedule where everything is organized so they can squeeze in comeback promotions between tour schedules and, this time, they had to find a way to squeeze in Coachella, which is an opportunity you simply cannot turn down and they made a judgment call and decided to take preparation time away from the album.

Regardless of how Ateez felt about this, they worked their asses off, and while they're already in the US, they attend interviews, take extra classes, film the music video etc. and thus, weeks of album preparations are now spent on Coachella-related schedules. As a result, there ultimately just wasn't enough time to hole up in the studio as much as they normally would've which, as a performer, must be a whole lot more fun, but isn't so great when you're just a listener.

The Edenary team is still responsible for most of the songs, of course, but they're now also working for Xikers which is likely possible because Hongjoong now has years of experience under his belt and can compose full songs or add finishing touches himself whenever needed while also working on Xikers' music on occasion - we've seen him credited multiple times.

On top of that, they also used a live band at Coachella, meaning their songs had to be translated to acoustic which was most likely fully Edenary's doing and also took them away from preparing for this comeback.

These days, their albums aren't as pre-prepared anymore as they used to be a couple of years ago when we still got song teasers at the end of tracks several comebacks in advance. They've caught up by now, as we've been able to see in behind the scenes footage of Hongjoong in the studio and from his interview with Changkyun from Monsta X (I.M on the Beat) where he largely talked about working on The World - Ep Fin. which was clearly still fresh in his mind.

Normally, this wouldn't be a downside at all, but it does make scheduling conflicts like this something to be cautious about, especially looking back to how exhausted they (and most other K-pop artists) always are between December and February every single year when all the award shows come together.

Whether I'm right or not, I don't know and can't prove, but I think it makes a lotta sense and would explain some things. Either way, watching them perform Work is still fun and it's lovely to see them so happy and thriving, but I do think there'll be a noticable difference when the next album drops without any surprise schedules throwing things off course.

[too-much-otome]

Belphegor Playlist

Link

I hope you guys like this. Belphie was the second character I made a playlist for so I've had his ready for a long time before I refined it. I hope it's good!

Explanations (Excluding Character Songs):

Killer In The Mirror - Set It Off

I've always connected this song with Belphie! For years! It just sounds like his whole arc! From being locked in the attic and meeting MC to breaking out and killing MC. Feeling betrayed by his brothers and being backstbbed by Lucifer! I will never let this go! "There's nobody but me here" "now I know there's no one I can trust. I used to think there was"

Happy Pills - Weathers

Kinda gives off that slightly unhinged and crazed side of Belphie we all know and love while also keeping a slightly mellow mood for most of the song.

Oblivion - Grimes

Another song that gives off slightly crazed vibes but also kinda a revenge song which is a big thing for Belphie and how he feels towards Lucifer or how he felt towards humans before MC.

Young And Menace - Fall Out Boy

Okay, I wasn't sure about it at first but I think it fits well. It's also just a really good song, don't @ me. It talks about madness and going crazy a lot and it sounds like something that fits Belphie's personality, even if it's a bit hard hitting.

Pumped Up Kicks - Foster The People

I know this is more for.... something else but I still think it fits. You can think of the chorus and how it's about someone on the prowl. I cannot stop my serial killer Belphie agenda, I'm sorry, I love him I promise!

I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance

He's really not and neither are we but that's okay. (You know damn well he love emo music)

Wolf In Sheep's Clothing - Set It Off

He's definitely a wolf in sheep's Clothing. Also, I've always connected him with sheep. I know that's MCs thing but I can't help it! It's also a song filled with rage like our beloved Avatar of Sloth.

Jenny Was A Friend - The Killers

Literally a song about accidentally killing a lover. Also based off a crime from the 80's but anyways.

don't fall asleep yet - Powfu

I know Belphie would definitely prefer to fall asleep than stay awake but I can't help connecting him with this song and the soft, slow, smooth vibe is very much him.

Monster - Skillet

As much as we've talked about Belphie and his murderous intent, he very clearly has guilt from it. I'm a firm believer of the opinion that he even has immense trauma from it. I think for a long long time after the incident that he hated himself and what he did. Not only because of MC, but because it fractured his relationships with his brothers.

i'll die anyway - girl in red

a song about the past being good but losing touch with themself over the years and becoming emotionally numb but also still feeling lonely. I think this speaks to Belphie, especially since we saw a lot how much he changed after both losing Lilith and being locked in the attic.

Can't Go to Hell - Sin Shake Sin

I just think it fits well and while it's not exactly connected lyrically, I think the sound of it is very much Belphie's vibe and something he'd listen to.

REVIVED - Derivakat

Revenge and return. very much reminds me of the entire scene of Belphie breaking out of the attic. From revealing he played MC to taunting and mocking his brothers over their shock and horror after he kills MC. The lyrics all just remind me of Belphie. It even mentions being locked away.

8 Legged Dreams - Unlike Pluto

Talk of nightmares but the lyrics also read like the singer is trying to help someone sleep or ease them into it which is obviously one of Belphie's powers as the Avatar of Sloth.

Backstabber - Kesha

Self explanatory

Sweater Weather - The Neighbourhood

It's so him. Very soft and mellow. You also can't convince me Belphie isn't a sweater boy. He even wears one in both his casual clothes and his demon form. It's very much him.

[tay-tay-everlark13]

YOU BELONG WITH ME

I stand by the window and watch him talking to his girlfriend. She's upset. She probably didn't understand the joke he told her and took it personally.

Again.

‘Cause she doesn’t get your humor like I do.

Taylor Swift's song plays in my headphones. Definitely not the type of music she would like. Too girly. Which is weird, because of the two of us, she's the one who acts girlish while I'm the complete opposite.

So here I am - Katniss Everdeen in love with her best friend Peeta Mellark, who is dating the beautiful Julia Collins.

I sigh and rest my chin on the windowsill when I hear the sound of the new message.

Let's go out somewhere. Please.

15:36

I smile to myself and look out the window to see him with his phone in his hand.

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We are walking down the road to the park. Peeta is wearing his worn-out jeans, in which he looks so handsome. But I cannot stop thinking this is how it has to be.

Peeta and me. And no one else.

And I'm just more sure about this when I finally see his beautiful and shine smile, but then he gets massage and everything is gone.

"Are you alright?," I ask.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm good," he answers, but I don't believe him.

Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?

And for the next time I'm compering myself with her. She wars short skirts and high heels, while I'm wearing normal T-shirts and sneakers. She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers.

And what makes me more sad and my eyes are starting getting tearly. I'm dreaming of the day when he wakes up and find that what's he's looking for has been here the whole time and she has him now. Maybe forever.

And that makes me lie to Peeta and go back to home. Of course with him, because she would never let me go back to home alone when I'm not feeling well. Actually he never lets me go back home alone.

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I'm half asleep when I hear something knocking to my window. I open my eyes and see him. I'm shocked but I open the window and let him go inside.

"What the hell are you doing, Peeta?!," I yell at him but not so loud, so I won't wake up Prim or mom.

"I have to talk with you," he says.

I'm about yelling at him even more, but then I see his eyes filled with tears and my heart is broken.

"What happened, Peeta?," I ask and get him to hug me, and he wraps his arms around my waist tightly and clings to my shoulder, so I can easily run my fingers through his soft hair soothingly.

"I'm no longer with Julia," he answers and I want to cry and celebrate at the same time.

But then I'm angry.

"She broke up with you?," I scream loudly, not caring that it's late at night.

Peeta pulls away from me, surprised by my outburst, and strokes my arms soothingly to relax me. He's touch distracts me and leaves behind hot marks that burn me and make me focus only on his rough, strong hands.

"Actually, I did it."

This shocks me even more.

"I broke up with her, Katniss."

"Why?," I manage to choke out.

He doesn't answer right away, so I suggest he sit down and cool down while I make him some tea.

As I go downstairs, I thank heaven that my scream didn't wake anyone else but this old cat that I've had to cook for years

Good for you, I think.

I prepare two cups of warm drink for me and Peeta and go back upstairs to join him.

"Here," I give him the dish and he puts it on the windowsill next to my bed.

"Okay, you don't want to drink," I mutter to myself, "So you wanted to talk about something." I remind him his words.

He looks up at me and slowly gets out of bed, walking towards me. He took the cup from my hands and set it next to his, then took my hands in his.

"I broke up with Julia," he finally says, looking into my eyes and rubbing my knuckles.

"I know," I can't say more.

"But it's not everything," he says mysterious. Then he does something I don't expect.

He kisses me. First, he gently takes my face in his hands and lightly presses his lips to mine. However, when he feels me kissing him back, he starts kissing me harder and more greedily. He licks my lips, asking for entrance, which I mindlessly allow. His hand goes from my cheek to my waist, circling it possessively as he presses me against him, and I can't help but think that I like what he's doing to me and how he makes me feel.

Because I feel wonderful. A flock of butterflies fly out in my stomach and I feel like it's my first kiss. Because it's true - it's the first kiss that really matters to me and while I really feel something.

When he breaks away from me, we are both panting, our lips red and swollen from the long and intense kissing. We're both blushing and I don't know what to say.

So Peeta starts. He was always wonderful with words.

"I did it for you," he says low. And this voice makes me weak on my knees.

God, I'm so weak because of Peeta fucking Mellark, I think. Only for him.

And then I actually realize what he just said.

"What?," I ask stupidly.

"I said I broke up with Julia for you."

"No, no, I understand but...," I say and look at him. "Why?"

I don't and can't understand how he could do it for me. I mean, brake up with Julia. He adored her so much. He had a crush on her for ever. Well, he never said that he loved her, but I guess it's hard to fall in love in a few months.

"God, Katniss, don't you see that?," he asks and stares at me waiting for me to say anything.

But I don't understand what he wants me to say. I don't understand what he's saying.

"It's you, not her, that I want," he says, caressing my cheeks with his hand, which makes me even more confused. "Okay, listen to me, Katniss. I remember driving to your house in the middle of the night when I'm sad or happy or anything. I remember you making me laugh, when I know I'm about to cry. You're the one who care about that simple things like my favorite song, my dreams," he stops for a moment and look down on his shoes, but his hand is still on my cheek, and the other is on my wrist.

When his eyes come back to mine I see more fear in them. And I'm sure about that I have to know what he was about to say, so I do the only thing I've got stuck in my mind right now.

I kiss him. I grab his face and press his lips to mine, just like he did before. His hand tightens around my waist and his other hand goes from my cheek to my hair, which I left loose for sleeping. He tangles his hand in my curls and I let out a soft sigh in response.

When we pull away, we're flusher than before, and there's a huge smile on his face. It takes me a moment to realize that I, too, am smiling so hard that my cheekbones start to hurt.

"I did it just to know what you wanted to say," I'm trying to look like I don't care, but I'm blushing with a big smile on my face, so he just laughs.

"What I was trying to say was that I think I know where I belong," he pauses and look me straight in the eyes, "I think you know it's with you, baby."

And then we spend all night long kissing and touching ourselves on my bed.

[goingsparebutwithprecision]

Five Ships In Five Fandoms

Thanking @tallangrycockatiel for the tag!

Stiles Stilinski/Derek Hale, Teen Wolf

What can I say about them that hasn't been said a thousand times before by people more eloquent than I. A classic. The ultimate comfort ship.

Cyrano/Roxane/Christian, Cyrano De Bergerac

Cannot overstate the hold these three have on my heart! One of the most excruciating canon endings of all time. I can think about them endlessly. Just rotating them forever in my mind. The Cyrano/Christian kiss from the National Theatre 2022 production lives rent free in my brain. If I loved them less I might be able to talk about them more etc etc.

Lord Peter Wimsey/Harriet Vane, the Lord Peter Wimsey mysteries

One of the slowest burns of all time. Starts with absolute clownery, the tragedy in the absurd of asking a woman on trial for the murder of her previous lover to marry you, continues with the spikiest most resentful discoveries of drift compatibility, the get-together comprises an entire book's worth of meditations on gratitude (the hatefulness thereof), inequality of gender class and intellect, whether intellectual honesty is more important than romantic loyalty (and/or one's continued ability to feed oneself), musical metaphors for relationship dynamics (anybody may have the harmony if they leave us the counterpoint!!!!!), and of course the massive continuity of ducks.

Cliopher Mdang/Fitzroy Angursell, Nine Worlds

OK actually maybe i take it back, strongest contender for slowest burn of all time??? In that these fuckers have been dancing around each other for something close to 10 000 years (not a joke not an exaggeration time is fucky here). Although tbf. Tbqf&h. To be brutally Frank and Esme. I'm not sure I count those 10 000 years in that we (the readers) were not actually there to witness that. But still. Where do I even start with these two.

That feeling when you've been installed as a puppet-god-king against your will for over a hundred years unable to choose your food or drink, experience sunlight, or touch another person (because if you do they will literally and immediately immolate because of magic curses) and although this would be cruel to do to anyone it is particularly cruel to do to you, nameless child and infamous anarchist poet revolutionary whose work shook the empire to its very foundations, and then you are finally sent a competent secretary who proceeds to steal your empire out from under you, dismantle it completely, institute universal basic income, universal housing, universal education, fix the post office, provide you with ships that fly?!?!, audit all of your government offices until every single speck of corruption is gone, end a world war and prevent there from every being another one, and all the while is humming your most treasonous song cycle under his breath for fully ten thousand years. Oh and then he also journeys into myth and legend, through sky ocean to the house of the sun, essentially to barter fire from the gods, because he thinks he's not good enough for you.

Also such a wonderful nuanced portrayal of an ace/queerplatonic/this relationship-is-what-we-decide-it-is-but-the-most-important-thing-is-that-you're-it-for-me relationship. It's very queer. They're working it out as they go. It will break your heart and heal your heart. I cannot even.

Thara Celehar/Iana Pel-Thenhior, Cemeteries of Amalo

Another they are taking it so so slowly and I am all about it. There's a theme here somewhere I just know it. Sad wet cat detective man with life-destroying trauma talks to dead people, stray cats and this one guy who writes riot-causing opera and very gently invites him to dinner occasionally and helps him solve murder cases. We are two books in and they've only just a) held hands once and b) started using informal you to refer to each other. It's exquisite, I'm in hell.

No pressure tagging @ereborne @july-19th-club @morkaischosen @trans-cuchulainn and anyone else who's interested :)

[thatdammchickennugget]

Heyyy, I hope you have a wholesome day 💖 I'm sending this ask for the event you're organizing. Congratulations for your milestone!!!

Here is the description of myself:

I am a Romanian girl that grew up in both Canada and Romania. I am fluent in romanian, french and english.

I have hazel eyes (brown (in the middle) and green (at the exterior)), long brown hair that sometimes has natural reddish reflections in the sunlight and I am what I would consider a standard height, between 1.66m and 1.68m ( I don't know the measurements in foots 😅).

I love to read, to listen to music, paint, watch movies in fantasy settings, go to museums or exhibitions (mostly art exhibitions), astronomy, talk deep conversations about the universe(s) or life itself, learn about ancient civilizations (litteraly what I'm studying), know about different types/style of paintings and travel.

I am a daydreamer and creative person.

I never did the Harry Potter house quizz, but my friends and I see myself belonging in Gryffindor.

My style ( if I could buy everything I envision and want, but I can't unfortunately because of taxes, time that I have for myself and little pocket money I presently have ( being a student today in a middle class family)) would be a mixed depending on the occasion or the way I'm feeling I am a coquette, light royal core and old money girlie.

I do have gold jewelry and love it. I also have some kind of sport outdoor outfits because I also like being in the middle of the action, explore and do some little sportive things.

In the future , I would love to relearn the piano, learn to play the harp, write songs and movie scripts (even act in some of the ones I created), write fantasy-romance books, skydive, have a successful business, discover old infrastructures from antiquity and find ways to preserve/protect the fauna of the Amazonian forest, Romanian forests and others.

Wow, I just looked back and saw how long the description was... Hope it's okay :)

I cannot decide between two characters and tropes, you can choose if you want to do one of them or both of them. It's up to you 💖

Mattheo Riddle with the trope of: Rivals to secret friends to "I fancy you but it is forbidden" to lovers

Or

Ominis Gaunt with "I tolerate you because of my best friend but don't really like you"/forced proximity, I guess to gumpy-sunshine (maybe only in the beginning when Ominis still thinks he doesn't really like her) to "I don't know why I feel this way around you and I never realised we had so many things in common" to friends (but both of them have feelings for the other, yet they think it's only one sided(poor Sebastian, he'll be so frustrated 😭)) to lovers

If you decide to do one of these or both or even if you only read it, thank you so much!!! Sending you love and good vibes ❤️✨

The fact that I love both of these characters who have a reputation, a bad life at home and are touch starved, and love so many characters with these in common like Sirius Black or Regulus Black, makes me question myself.

-Selenophile 🌌🌙✨

Ps: Congratulations again!!!

Thank you lovie!! And don't worry, the more you guys put into you descriptions the more I have to work with 💕💕

Hogwarts Legacy Era; Romantic Match-Up: Ominis Gaunt

ominis and you were like oil and water when you first met. with your vibrant personality and love for adventure clashing with his reserved demeanor and aloofness, you found yourselves constantly at odds, exchanging snide remarks and wary glances whenever you were forced into each other's company.

despite your initial animosity towards each other, fate had other plans. your best friend, sebastian, seemed to be determined to bring you two together, constantly orchestrating situations that forced you into each other's orbit. whether it was group outings or study sessions, you couldn't seem to escape ominis's presence.

at first, you both tolerated each other begrudgingly, but you found his standoffish attitude irritating and his constant brooding a drain on your energy. but as time passed and you were forced to spend more time together, you began to see glimpses of a different side to ominis, a side that intrigued you despite your best efforts to resist it.

one night, when you were taking a break from studying in the undergroft, you found yourselves discussing ancient civilizations and lost civilizations, you realized that you shared a common passion for history and exploration. even with your differences, you discovered that you had more in common than you had ever imagined.

as your friendship with ominis deepened, much to sebastians delight and your own confusion, you found yourself drawn to him in ways you couldn't explain. his quiet strength and unwavering loyalty touched something deep within you, igniting a spark of attraction that you had never felt before.

yet, both of you were hesitant to acknowledge your feelings, convinced that they were one-sided and doomed to go unrequited. little did you know, ominis was grappling with his own emotions, struggling to come to terms with the fact that he had fallen for someone he had once dismissed as nothing more than an annoyance.

and as you stood on the precipice of something more, unsure of what the future held, you couldn't help but wonder if maybe, just maybe, there was a chance for you and ominis to find happiness together, despite the odds stacked against you.

Song: War Of Hearts by Ruelle

Golden Trio Era; Romantic Match-Up: Mattheo Riddle

mattheo and you were destined to clash from the moment you first crossed paths. with your opposing personalities and conflicting interests, you found yourselves locked in a silent battle for dominance, exchanging sharp remarks and challenging each other at every turn.

despite your rivalry, there was an undeniable curiosity that sparked between you, fueled by the mystery that surrounded mattheo and your own enigmatic charm. beneath the surface, you sensed a connection that defied logic and reason, drawing you together like magnets.

it was during one fateful encounter in the library that your dynamic began to shift. as you found yourselves reluctantly working together on a group project, you discovered unexpected common ground and shared interests, your animosity giving way to a tentative truce.

through late-night study sessions and stolen moments of camaraderie, mattheo and you began to forge a bond that transcended your rivalry. you found yourselves confiding in each other, sharing your hopes, dreams, and fears in whispered conversations that echoed through the empty halls.

yet, your newfound truce was not without its challenges. as you navigated the complexities of your forbidden connection, you were forced to keep your growing affection hidden from prying eyes, lest you face the consequences of defying the expectations placed upon you.

mattheo and you found solace in each other's presence, your clandestine meetings becoming the highlight of your days. you stole moments of stolen kisses and lingering touches, each one a testament to the depth of your love for one another.

and as you stood on the precipice of uncertainty, with the weight of your forbidden love pressing down upon you, mattheo and you knew that you would face whatever challenges lay ahead together, united by a love that defied all odds.

Song: Infinity by Jaymes Young

[reggies-eyeliner]

𝐌𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐈𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐏𝐒 (CLOSED)!

OPEN 7/14-7/30!!

-> matchups + moodboards + playlists + headcanons! please read all of the rules listed below and pop into my ask box! if you need an idea on what my past matchups look like please check out these links! :DD

THIS IS LIKE A BUFFET. PICK AND CHOOSE WHAT YOU WANT BABES MWAHAHAHA

FANDOMS (up to two*):

across the spider-verse*

most animated movies (httyd, bh6, rotg^^)

lockwood & co*

stranger things

avatar: the last airbender

the legend of korra

rottmnt**

voltron: legendary defenders

* i've only watched the series so far + i'm about to start the comics/books (and very excited to omg) !! just an fyi that my pairings will most likely revolve more around the characters featured in the series IM SORRY I SWEAR I'LL GET TO THE BOOKS/COMICS ASAP

**exclusively platonic matchups preferred/qpr!

* if you are requesting two fandoms, please tell me which one to prioritize more! the first one will be the full-length, but the second will be around a half of the content in the prioritized fandom.

TYPES OF MATCHUPS:

the classic: submit in matchup information + get paired with (a) romantic partner(s)! in return for the matchup information, you will receive: a 1x3 moodboard, one song + a hefty list of headcanons + a mix-and-match randomized trope explanation! (ex: a blurb about sharing a bed, first time meeting, fake dating confession scene ; ~100 words!)

the platonic machup: platonic matchups (my personal fave MWAHAHA)! you'll get paired with as many characters as you'd like<3!! in return for matchup information, you will receive: a 1x3 moodboard, one song + a hefty list of headcanons + incorrect quotes describing your dynamic between you and your found family/best bro<3

customized schedule: submit what your schedule looks like throughout any day of the week (up to two) + matchup information (platonic or romantic), you will receive: an hourly schedule on what life is like with said character i match you with + the aspects of your life with them! (ex: 8am, wake up by their side + they make you coffee blah blah blah), + a song for each moment of the day to describe your dynamic :D

MATCHUP INFORMATION:

name + preferred gender(s) to be paired with + preferred age group(s)

preferred fandom (up to two are okay, but please let me know which one you'd like me to focus on more!)

platonic and/or romantic + polycule preference etc + preferred age group!!

you can include your sexuality if you'd like to (only if you want me to touch on the aspect on how your matchup will support you because. yeah<3)

giving + receiving love languages

hobbies, talents, things that make you you (think: if this wasn't in my life, how different would i be?)

mbti/zodiac (optional)

personality, how you handle difficult situations

what consist of a good memory for you

favorite songs + music taste/colors/any kind of aesthetics!!

anything that brings you comfort/anything that doesn't give you comfort (can be about a relationship or just in life :-D)

OTHER RULES?

preferably off anon! i'd love to talk to you more after the matchup submission as well MWAHHAHA<333 if you're planning on being anon, an emoji anon would be p cool so we can chat more!

as i'm also a busy student, i will prioritize school-- if you submit a matchup, please be prepared to have up to anywhere from a 1-14 day wait! i'll send you a message that i got your ask hehe

i will also be mostly inactive writing-wise from 7/18-7/23 as i will be on a trip, so please keep that in mind!

you should totally use a pick up line in my ask box i enjoy pick up lines so much. or one of those "less than one minute" videos on youtube those are the best man

please know that i absolutely love writing and talking to people, but i also have my own limits to what i can/cannot do for people! if you send nsfw content, pedophilia, violence, gore, heavy vents, all that not-so-great-stuff or an ask comes off as rude or demanding, i have all rights to avoid doing it and dismiss it without any warning. ASJCHS JUST be a decent human being in short that's all i'm asking RAHHH

OTHER THAN THAT MAN write as much/little as you'd like!!

#send a request here! :D

[dylanlila]

HII hello my lovely!!!! how are you doing!!! i hope youre having the best month <333 okay so. writing to u bc....i have recently started listening to joan baez after seeing your posts (i am eternally grateful btw...) and now OH MY GOD i am. in love with her. like!!!!! GAHHH <333 i would absolutely love to know your favourite baez songs. ALSO all your thoughts on baez + dylan i am enraptured they are sooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! :'))))))))) like. you KNOW!!! literally cannot stop watching live performances interviews etc of them and feeling unwell after... :(((( anyways!!! lots of love to you and eternal kisses and a million yellow daises <3333 MWAHH xx

HELLO BELOVED!!!!! I read this ask while with my mom so basically we spent the last 2 hours putting this together:

every song and every poem is joan's song and joan's poem, i genuinely don't care who wrote these 👍 walt whitman? lorca? rimbaud? dylan? sounds fake to me. 🤷‍♀️ (<- girl talking about some of her favourite poets. well! they do not exist when joan is in the room🥰) okay so, we pictured this as some sort of poetry reading, that's also a concert, but it's also an opera number and you're in the theatre. (i witnessed a super cool outdoors concert thingy today so i'm a bit overwhelmed by that! hope some of the energy translated to the playlist hehe)

FRIEND! I AM SO TOUCHED! This blog was created for this very purpose, it is very much not about me I just occasionally use it as a diary, but I primarily wanted to share everything I loved with others and every time something like this happens I feel like I'm doing what I was always meant to do so thank you! For reaching out and being so kind! Joan forever ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

I GET THE BAEZDYLAN THING!!!!!! I try not to get too crazy about real people (Jo. Jo. Jo. you were born to be parasocial *shaking myself by the shoulders*) Putting my silly ways in a box under my bed now, I do attach myself to the art primarily so all my affection for the person behind it stems from that art and doesn't exist separately as its own thing because I don't exactly know these people, I just made 73838374937583 stories about them as a kid. BUT! THE THING IS! The essence of BaezDylan translates to their artistry and I could never tell you more than those live recordings tell you because it's literally this... okay okay so it's like do you know when you read a book and you feel like the author had some great life secret whispered to them and then some of it pours into you through the pages??? THAT is BaezDylan (I am writing them as one person on purpose)... I don't think they could explain what was going on there because it sort of outgrows anything a singular person could be, it just had to find a home in the music because it couldn't fit anywhere else. I've only started believing in these things wholeheartedly recently (even though, in a way, I have always known), but they have that thing where you know this one person, but their name isn't that important. It's like they're you in some primal way so you speak the same language, but they're also there to teach you a lesson and that immediately makes them a little unearthly in return. I would insert quotes and start analysing them, but I might start crying so I won't do that.

I LOVE YOU 🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

[superblysubpar]

Okay, beautiful. For WIP Wednesday. I'd like the word hands for BICFTF, [Redacted], and You Got That Somethin'. Please and thank you. P.s. - Can't wait for any of them. I'm already in loooooove. -Amanda xoxoxo

weeee Amanda! Thank you so much for asking for these, I can't wait to share the whole of each and I'm excited to hear what you think of them! 💛 Can you guys guess which "She's Seen All the Classics" [Redacted] is yet? 😏

ask me about my wips and help motivate me!

sneak peeks below the cut!

BICFTF - chapter three (hehehe I haven't even posted two but I'm too excited):

Your hands rest against the silk over your thighs, thumb catching on a loose thread of the skirt that you are indebted to now.

Because, if you instead search for where the gift from the universe begins, that brain space cannot be occupied by trying to catch the titles on the cassette tapes he’s quickly shoving into the glove compartment, or how there’s two coffees in his cupholders next to your elbow. Focusing perhaps on, how the snag happened in your skirt could even make it so you don’t think about how, somehow, the leather of the seats and the coffee in such a tight space only make his normal scent of something minty and woodsy better and-

“Before you ask, no it’s not poisoned, and no, this isn’t me trying to woo you or whatever.”

[Redacted]:

Your hands slide down the gray leather of the wheel then back up, fingers tapping along to the beat of the song you’d nudged lowered as your wheels came to a stop on the gravel.

You’d nudged lower, somewhat, that is.

The knock to the roof of your beetle doesn’t even startle you, only makes you sigh and call out the open window, “Was I speeding, officer?”

“Playing that music a little loud, don’t you think?” Gruff voice accompanied by a deep sigh of an exhale expelling annoyance and tobacco into the air with each step closer.

Red lips pursed in your rearview mirror as the lyric shouted out of your speakers: “The girl is crafty like ice is cold!” and you quipped, “Thought it was a little too quiet for what the boys require, if I’m being honest sir.”

You Got That Somethin':

Something hot travels down your spine when your hands catch her waist before she can take another step.

The small band of her skin between white cotton and denim exposed to your fingers and practically daring you to swipe your thumbs over her.

And you’ve never backed down from a dare before.

Something about the way your thumb feels against her skin, the way she leans into the touch has you brave enough to tilt your head, pout your lips she can’t stop staring at, and ask, “What if he comes back? I think you should stay close.”

[shiningwonderland]

Ren Jinguji (Repeat)

Translator: Mimi (Twitter: _mimisaurora)

November — After Carnival

We meet in the classroom after school to discuss the school festival performance now that it’s over.

We go over the stage set-up, how it looked to the audience, the performance itself, how effective the songs used were, and things of that nature.

The two of us identify areas to reflect on and improve for next time.

Ren: The last song was pretty good. It really helped get the crowd going.

Jinguji-san picks up the sheet music for the last song from among the scores scattered on the desk, and looks at it happily.

Haruka: Thank you.

Ren: I still feel the same way about all of this as I did this summer, but the background music you played during the performance didn’t fail to move me either. It seems your music truly has a way of touching people’s hearts.

Perhaps God has destined you to be a composer.

The moment Jinguji-san utters the word destined, his expression darkens just a little.

Haruka: I think calling it destiny is a bit of an overstatement…. My skill is not that extraordinary.

I just like writing songs, that’s all there is to it….

My face turns red and I quickly wave my hands out in front of me.

Ren: I’m not just spewing out pleasantries. I’m saying that you really ought to continue pursuing becoming a composer, Lady. 

There aren't many people who can write music that touches the depths of people's hearts. But you have that talent.

It would be a crime to possess a gift unique to yourself and not make the most of it. Don't you agree?

Jinguji-san speaks with an unusually earnest look on his face.

What’s going on? He’s being so intense.

…It’s kind of scary.

Ren: Whether I become an idol or not is… another story.

That being said, he looks down at the scores I’d written.

What is he talking about, another story?

Jinguji-san is someone who was born to be an idol.…

Select the phrase!

When you say that… (+20 Love +0 Music)

Haruka: Are you saying that I’ll… have to debut on my own?

It would be terribly depressing if that were the case.

Ren: Look up, being sad doesn’t suit you. I only wanted to emphasize that you can accomplish your dreams with or without me. That's all I was trying to say. 

With a warm smile, he looks over my scores with an incredibly fond gaze.

It makes me so happy to know he loves my music. But that is all the more reason I want to keep working with him.

Ren: It would be difficult for an ordinary composer to debut without the help of an idol. It's how the system here is designed to work.

But… with you…. There is no way the boss would have ignored your talent. I was right to pick you in that respect.

People can’t criticize you for failing to make your debut because of me. I'm not capable of winning over people's hearts like that.

Haruka: That’s not true! Your mere existence is a miracle!

There are very few people who can shine so brightly and exude such a strong presence! That's why I don’t believe for a second that you can’t also make your debut!

It is possible to still debut even if you do not win the graduation audition, as long as you score over a certain threshold.

A person's vocal ability is undoubtedly the most important factor, but it is not the only aspect that is evaluated at the audition.

The costume, dance skill, performance, stage presence, character, public speaking, and grades received in classes and on tests throughout the year are all taken into account as well.

Ultimately, the principal will then determine whether or not he wants to hire you to join the Shining Agency.

Jinguji-san's looks and stage presence are both exceptional, and his vocal ability is also outstanding.

I believe that Jinguji-san even has what it takes to debut right now.

I see no reason why he cannot make his debut.

If he doesn’t, it is absolutely because he didn’t want to.

If not that, then he might have seriously fallen in love and is prioritizing his romance over his debut….

Now that I think about it, Jinguji-san and a girl at the school festival….

Just the memory of it makes my heart ache.

Haruka: Jinguji-san… If I may ask… about the girl you kissed the other day….

As soon as the words leave my mouth, his brows furrow.

A-Ah… Why did I just say that?

I sound so….

Haruka: Um… so…. Is she… your girlfriend…?

This was something I never intended on asking, but… It had been weighing heavy on my mind since then and the question truly slipped out.

Though I had thought that Jinguji-san treating the girls so sweetly was just fanservice and nothing serious…

There could be a possibility that he might genuinely like someone….

And if he chooses to romance them over becoming an idol, then….

Ren: I knew you were watching….

He lets out a huge sigh.

Haruka: I’m sorry. I just happen to be there….

Ren: Well, It doesn’t really bother me that you saw. What? You really want to know?

Despite learning how he’d been caught kissing, he remains utterly unfazed and even readily admits to it, rolling off his tongue as if it were something he did everyday.

He then questions me in a slightly icy tone.

Select the phrase!

Yes. (+20 Love +0 Music)

Haruka: I’m your partner… you know.

Ren: You being my partner gives you no right to meddle in my love life.... Don’t you agree?

Haruka: …Right.

Of course, he has a point.

Haruka: …I myself kind of understand how it’s like to have feelings for someone. It’s because… I… how do I put it….

It’s because I like him too….

I am absolutely aware that I shouldn’t, but I do.

I can’t just stop myself from doing so. I know how it feels all too well. 

Ren: You… have feelings for someone?

For a split second, Jinguji-san's fingers brush against my cheek, but as soon as I look up at him, his hand falls away and he holds it tightly against his chest.

Haruka: Being unable to have any say in your love life doesn’t change the fact I will still be sad seeing you get expelled for violating the school rules.

I know he has no desire to really become an idol.

I understand he’s being rebellious because of the various problems he’s facing with his family.

But I still want us to debut together.

Ren: So you’ll be… sad. Are you saying you want to be partners for the long haul?

Haruka: Of course. I recognize completely that you don’t want to be an idol, but I….

I very much need to see you become an idol. And more than that, I want to see you debut with a song I wrote.

I stare straight at Jinguji-san, making clear what I thought.

As I do, he turns his gaze away from me.

Ren: She… isn’t my girlfriend. What happened was nothing more than a little courtesy. I was just doing what I was asked.

Was it perhaps too crude for a child like you?

He then flashes his typical smile.

Ren: Oh, and now that the school festival is over, you're free to do as you please from here on out.

He gets up and starts putting away his notebooks and music sheets.

Haruka: What I… please?

I hurry to stand on my feet.

Ren: I mean exactly that. But don’t you worry yourself, I’ll still be singing your song at the audition. I’ll even do you one better and also write the lyrics for you.

Hold onto it until the arrangement is complete. In the meantime, do whatever your heart desires. We’ll have plenty of time to practice come March.

With that, Jinguji-san turns his back to me and walks out of the classroom.

Haruka: Jinguji-san….

I wonder why….

I feel that we are now worlds apart.

I really believed I was slowly gaining his trust, but I suppose I was mistaken....

Jinguji-san completely stopped showing up to practice not soon after the end of the school festival.

I deluded myself into thinking that us being together for the past two months meant we would stay together for the rest of the year.

But that was arrogant of me. Us being partners doesn’t mean I can just monopolize his time like that. 

However…. 

We can still share our time, even if it's just for a short while.

Because we strived toward the same goal together.

Because we spent precious moments together.

I miss him infinitely more now than I did back in April and May, when he hardly bothered to give me the time of day.

Haruka: I… have a song to make.

I finished settling things with the faculty room before heading to the recording studios.

Most of the melody line is already in place, but the arrangement still has a lot of room for improvement.

I need to put my all into this debut with Jinguji-san.

I can create the main melody just by using the piano in the classroom or in my dorm room.

It's the PC in the computer room though, which is fully equipped with a variety of music-related software that was the key here.

The recording studio has the necessary equipment for composing and arranging music, and above all, it provides access to play various instruments if desired.

That’s why I much prefer writing songs here.

Haruka: Ah….

I happen to run into George-san in one of the rooms.

George: Huh? I thought I reserved this room for the whole day….

Haruka: Sensei had told me it was available….

George: Did they overbook it? It seems like my homeroom teacher just likes to do as he pleases.

George-san gives a resigned shrug of his shoulders. The gesture makes me think of Jinguji-san in a way.

It leaves me with the impression that they’re like father and son....

I thought about how George-san appears to be like a father to Jinguji-san, and it brings a small smile to my face.

I guess it wouldn't be surprising that certain quirks get picked up after spending so much time together.

Wait. But I remember George being his butler. Why would he need to book a recording studio?

Haruka: Reserved…? Homeroom teacher…?

George: What, did the Young Master not tell you? I’m an A Class student.

Haruka: You're… whaaaaat!!?

He’s an A Class… student???

Haruka: You have a tendency to appear out of nowhere, so I figured you kept yourself nearby but… I’d have never guessed it was because you were in the neighboring class….

Hijirikawa-sama’s butler, Jii, was also in S Class. So it’s not impossible, but… it’s something I never would have imagined….

I can’t believe that George-san is an aspiring composer. I wonder how he got in.

Did he write a song?

George: In disbelief? Just to be clear, I did not pull any strings to get myself admitted. Something like songwriting is only one of many essential skills for a butler.

Then, he begins to sing as he strums his acoustic guitar.

George: Hm, A-Ah. Lalala~♪

Haruka: ….

This is a folk song from the 70s!!! No way… Did George-san write it??

Flushed and quietly sprouting, reborn

This is a seed of the watermelon I ate the day before yesterday, an aftertaste of a dream 

Gently bury it and holler goodbye, for the next year will come and I won’t be here

May its sweet fruit satisfy the next guy’s belly, and sprout a new dream

Watermelon!!!

Of all things, he’s singing the Watermelon Song in November!

A challenger….

Amazing…. He’s no ordinary man.

George: October’s Watermelon is Creamy by Enjouji En is a classic, isn’t it?

Do you believe it now?

I repeatedly nod my head.

Select the phrase!

I could feel the creator’s heart in it (+0 Love +15 Music)

Haruka: I don't really understand it, but… It touched my heart.

George: Although my main role remains an assassin… I mean, a bodyguard….

W-What?

I swear I heard him just say something kind of daunting. 

B-But I'm sure it was just my imagination.

Either way, is Enjouji, the name he’d mentioned earlier, perhaps his real name?

Haruka: U… U-Um….

George: What is it?

Haruka: Is your name Enjouji-san? I originally took you for a foreigner….

George: Hm? Ah, yes, ‘George' is a nickname given to me by Ren as a child. ‘Enjouji' was likely difficult for him to say as a kid. 

I see, so George-san has been watching over Jinguji-san since he was little.

Haruka: Excuse me… Don't you think it's risky to leave someone as rich as Jinguji-san without a bodyguard at all times?

George: Ha! Of course not. Rather, there's a lot more mundane work to be done than that.

Particularly since Ren is such a problem child. You could give him whatever he wanted, whether it be toys or otherwise, and yet he’d get bored easily.

He’s seriously a handful.

Despite his spiteful remarks, his gaze was so tender.

Haruka: But you enrolled in this school to protect him.

George: It’s because of a contract….

George-san mumbles with a wistful look in his eyes.

Haruka: Contact?

George: Ren’s mother is my cousin. And she was like a sister to me.

The only reason I stayed with the Jinguji family was because Ren's mother asked me to.

Jinguji-san’s mother….

Jinguji-san shared a little bit about his mother with me when his brother came to see him.

He thought he might not be his father's biological child….

I wonder if it's true.

Maybe George-san knows something about this….

George: I am a professional bodyguard. I honor my contracts. I will watch over Ren until he can stand on his own two feet.

He may still be a minor, but as soon as he debuts and is able to make a living by himself, he will be a proper man. There won't be any need for me to protect him.

Haruka: George-san….

George: I believe I’ve stayed too long…. I may as well leave now that Ren's partner is here.

George-san slings his guitar over his shoulder and turns to leave.

I grab onto the edge of his clothes without thinking at that moment.

George: Yes?

Haruka: I… It’s just t-that… Jinguji-san… he mentioned he and his brother might not share the same father….

This is probably a line that really shouldn’t be crossed. I’m aware it's rude of me to ask this.

But I also knew it was now or never if I was going to anyway. I was just dying to know. I couldn't resist bringing it up.

George: Ah, that…. I see… I didn’t realize he still cared… How foolish.

He sneers, sliding the guitar off his back and propping it against the wall.

George: The only people who genuinely believed such rumors were Ren and his father. And his father is no longer with us.

Haruka: He’s… not…?

George: He passed away about two years ago…. 

Ren was freed from the wicked curse that was his father, but instead, he lost his way in life.

He dropped out of high school and spent his days spiraling out of control.

Seiichiro couldn't bear to see Ren that way, so he consulted with Saotome and threw him into this boarding school.

Here, age has no relevance, and if all goes well, he can learn how to take care of himself. Even so… I’m surprised it still bothers him….

He should just be allowed his freedom... This is why he will never be able to recognize the kindness of those around him.

The kindness of those around him…?

George: Only a fool would wish for something they can never have. Being green with envy won’t make things yours. 

We all live our lives, to some extent, sprouting the seeds of our own potential.

Ren doesn't realize how impressive his own seed is, or rather, he doesn't even bother to find out.

A man who cannot face himself can never grow up... He's an idiot. His arrogance knows no bounds.

He was born with a gift. I believe that when he fully embraces the significance of this gift, he will evolve and achieve growth for the very first time....

Haruka: I-I agree with you. Jinguji-san possesses tremendous talent, but I don't think he even notices it.

He was born to be an idol, and it would be a shame not to harness his sense of style, his presence, and his voice!

George: Heh. Of course the composer behind that song would be clearly aware of the skills he possesses.

Haruka: Ah… I-I’m honored you think so.

Did he just give me a compliment?

George: His parents showed him the slightest bit of indifference. And now, he is under the impression he’s unwanted by society at large.

Just one person. If only someone who truly loves and needs Ren would appear, then maybe he could be saved.

Well, that is just me speculating, no one in the Jinguji family can really do anything about it. He's far too obstinate when it comes to them.

…Someone that loves and needs him…. His words kept replaying in my head.

George: I believe I’ve said a little too much…. Forget everything I just said.

With that, George-san once again hoists his guitar over his shoulder and leaves the recording studio.

Jinguji-san.

His father used to doubt him his entire life.

His mother, who was supposed to protect him, was dead, and George-san was under contract, leaving when Jinguji-san became a man of his own...

What about his brother?

I met him at the school festival, and he was quite a bit older than Jinguji-san.

I wonder if he wasn't on his side. That reminds me, they didn't seem to get along very well....

It must be depressing being so isolated in his own home.

Haruka: Jinguji-san….

I burst out of the recording room and hurry to look for Jinguji-san.

I realize I've only been focusing my attention on the glamorous aspects that make Jinguji-san unique to himself.

I failed to consider how much darkness might be lurking in the shadows of that dazzling light.

I had heard some stories about his family, but I never considered it to be this serious.

I only assumed that he naturally had a lot going on in his life living in a world so different from mine.

I never really tried to understand him.

And so, my ignorance and failure to learn more about him might have resulted in my unintentionally hurting Jinguji-san.

Haruka: He’s not here….

Haruka: He’s not here either….

Haruka: He’s probably already gone. But, still… I can try looking for him a little longer.

Haruka: F-Found him.

Jinguji-san is outside the school building.

His arms are wrapped around some girls’ shoulders, and together they're all strolling toward the school gate.

I wonder if he's going on a date with them today.... My heart sank a little at the thought.

He has plenty of girls with him, whether I'm around or not.

But they're always different. 

Jinguji-san once muttered to himself how he would never go out with the same girl more than once.

He looks terribly lonely momentarily occupying his time with people this way.

I don't think that’s ok. I may not be able to remedy everything immediately, but I can be there for him as his partner.

There must be something I can do. Maybe I can even become someone Jinguji-san can find refuge in if I try my hardest….

With that thought in mind, I finally chose to do something about it.

Haruka: Ha…ha… ha… J-Jinguji-san….

Ren: Hm? What’s the matter, Lady? You’re out of breath.

The moment he turns around, I latch onto his arm.

Haruka: I-I’m… I….

Shoot. I came here on impulse…. I need to think of something….

Ren: Huh? What’s wrong? … Ah, that’s today, isn’t it? Sorry to disappoint, ladies. I’ve actually been called on by Ryuya-san. I completely spaced it.

What…? Ryuya-san?

But Hyuga-sensei never called for him….

In response to what Jinguji-san had said, the girls dragged themselves back to their rooms, accepting nothing could be done about Sensei's supposed summon.

Haruka: W-Wait… Why….

Ren: You have something you want to tell me, don’t you? Although, I really would appreciate it if you didn't make it a habit to show up when I'm with the girls.

Select the phrase!

…I’m sorry. (+20 Love +0 Music)

I ruined his date because I acted out of turn. …I won’t do it again….

Ren: It’s alright. It must be something very important. You look like you ran a marathon…. It’s already getting cold. You'll catch a cold, sweating so much.

Jinguji-san drapes his jacket over me.

Haruka: Ah, you really don’t have to….

Ren: Don't worry about it, let's just get inside.

Haruka: …Alright….

So many things about this makes my heart ache.

Ren: Anyways, you really weren’t acting like yourself back there. What could have happened…?

Haruka: Um… I ended up asking George-san… about… you and your father…. Jinguji-san, you've been lonely all this time.

So, that’s why… I may not be of much help but… I’m… I’m determined to stay by your side.

That’s all I wanted to say…. It was just something I couldn't help but wonder about.

There is nothing more I can do, but at the very least, I want to be the one person in the world who will always support him.

Ren: I thought something had happened….

Jinguji sighs in dismay.

I know I'm doing something stupid. I also doubt that just saying it out loud would get the message across. But I had to tell him.

Jinguji-san helped me out countless times. He's quite literally saved my life more than once, and even when he didn't do something so grand....

I can always turn around and find him there, calmly offering a helping hand.

He may act indifferent about things, but he always puts a lot of thought into what he does.

Jinguji-san has been such a great help to me. If I could return the favor, I would.

Most of all, I really like him, so if there was anything I could do to help him, I wouldn't hesitate to do it.

Haruka: I will continue to be by your side. I really needed to tell you that.

I hope you won't be lonely, at least when you're with me…. That you'll find someone there when you turn around….

I want to be that kind of person for you. I sincerely do.

I stare straight at Jinguji-san.

Ren: Lady….

Jinguji-san stares back dumbfounded at me for a moment, mumbling to himself.

Then, he clenches his fist tightly, bites his bottom and then reveals the coldest expression I have ever seen on his face.

Ren: That won’t be necessary. I have no desire to have you by my side…. Besides, we all have a thing or two that we don't want people to touch.

Haruka: Ah, I-I’m so sorry. I….

The ice in his tone is the coldest I have ever heard, and I’m so startled by it that my voice trembles.

I then notice that for a split second, a distressed look flashes across his face before quickly reverting back to a grim expression.

Ren: My heart is mine and mine alone. I will never allow anyone else to take it. Even if it was you… Your support is unneeded, Lady.

Then he turns his back on me and disappears without ever looking back.

One week passes since then.

I haven't exchanged a single word with Jinguji-san.

He has even kept the other girls away and has spent most of his time by himself.

I angered him greatly....

Of course I did.

It definitely had been something he wanted to be left alone.

I should have considered the situation a little more, but I let myself get carried away and hurt him in the process. I have no idea why I did what I did.

Every time he catches sight of my face, he puts on the worst scowl on his face.

Ren: Why am I acting like this.... Shit. Have I really not come to terms with it? Get it together, Ren Jinguji.

I’ll never be able to care for what really matters. I know that. Damn it!

In the past, you’d never fail to find a smile on Jinguji-san's face, but recently he's been looking scary, muttering to himself and clenching his fists tightly.

Ichinose-san and Syo-kun grew concerned seeing Jinguji-san like that and would try to talk to him.

But every time, he'd put a smile on his face. 

Ren: Oh, it’s nothing, truly. It’s just… Ah. Yes. I’ve been having a bit of a migraine lately. 

I’m sure it’ll pass soon. No need to worry. 

He pretended to be fine.

I tried to do something about it, but every time I approached him to talk, he'd avoid me.

It's become impossible for us to properly face each other anymore.

Then one day, I was summoned to the principal’s office.

Haruka: U-Um… Yes?

When I arrive, I find Ryuya-sensei and Jinguji-san’s brother already there, along with the principal.

Shining Saotome: Hahaha~ Why don’t you try studying abroad?

The principal proposes as soon as I walk into the room.

Haruka: Huh? Study abroad!?

Ryuya: Hold on now. You’re skipping a few chapters here. She has no idea what you’re talking about. Seriously… This old man makes no sense.

Shining Saotome: Oh? I think my ears have picked up on someone talking back… Did you say something, Ryuya-san?

Ryuya: Not really….

Shining Saotome: Good! But know that these ears are sharp! Watch yourself please!

Seiichiro: I'm afraid this conversation is going nowhere. May I now please be allowed to explain the opportunity to study abroad?

Ryuya: Go ahead, I’d appreciate it if you would.

Shining Saotome: The floor is all yours!

Seiichiro: Then, I will begin.

With that, he quickly straightens his glasses and turns to face me.

Seiichiro: I have been intrigued by your music ever since I heard it. While you technically still have a lot to learn, your artistic ability is remarkable.

Haruka: T-Thank you so much.

Jinguji-san's brother compliments me.

Seiichiro: Would you be interested in further cultivating that ability?

Haruka: I’m not that great….

Seiichiro: Your modesty is not needed. The only thing I need is your raw talent. You see, we are in the process of establishing a new music department in our company….

We are currently searching for people to become its initial members. What do you think? Will you join us?

Haruka: You want… me? I mean, I’m still just a student…. I don't even have the skills….

Seiichiro: Of course, there are still many areas where your skills are undeveloped, which is why we are offering you the opportunity to go to America through March to learn and apply the skills you gain from your training there.

Haruka: America….

Seiichiro: Normally, you would work with a partner toward your graduation audition here at the academy....

But you, for better or worse, are Ren's partner. That kid has never committed himself to any one thing since he was a little boy.

All he does is sloppy and perfunctory in execution. And in spite of that, he is strangely good at what he does. He has the talent, but he fails to make the most of it.

He is not interested for some reason in getting better. He'll go up to a certain point, and then just stop.

Having gotten all of that out of the way, he lets out a huge sigh.

Seiichiro: I pushed him to enroll here in the hopes that he would pursue the same career as our mother.

Haruka: Same career as your mother?

Seiichiro: oh, are you not aware? Our mother was an idol.

Are you familiar with Renge Enjouji?

Haruka: I am! She's a legendary idol who became a national sensation shortly after her debut, but retired after only two years of activity.

I remember that she'd gotten married at the height of her popularity, and stayed out of the limelight ever since.

Wow. Jinguji is the child of such an amazing woman....

Ah, I guess… that explains a few things.

His ability to look like a painting just from standing might have been inherited from his mother.

Seiichiro: However… It seems that Ren continues to lead a rather indulgent lifestyle here as well.

I doubt you will get anywhere by continuing your partnership with him. So, what do you think?

Would you like to work with us?

Select the phrase!

But Jinguji-san…. (+20 Love, +0 Music)

Haruka: I don’t know what Jinguji-san would say….

Seiichiro: There’s no need to worry about him.

While you would be working for us, you would be assigned to our company as a member of the Shining Agency.

That is why, upon acceptance of this offer, you will be considered an employee of the Shining Agency.

Upon acceptance of the offer… I’ll be able to debut? 

I’ll have debuted without a partner. This is going exactly as Jinguji-san said it would.

Seiichiro: We will also handle all the arrangements related to your study abroad, including your passport.

And… Ren is also a part of the family. If it's my decision, I'm sure he'll agree.

Do you have any other questions?

If I accept the offer right here and now, I will be able to debut without having to go through the graduation audition.

I enrolled in this academy with the aim of becoming a composer. And in front of me is a chance to make that debut.

There is no reason for me to refuse if I want to pursue my dream.

But...

Haruka: Do… I have to answer now?

I still want to be by Jinguji-san's side. I want to debut together with him.

It doesn't matter if he rejects or ignores me, I want to write a song for him.

Seiichiro: Of course not. This is something that will change your life. Please take your time to think about it.

But… Let’s see. Would you let me know what you decide by the end of the year?

Haruka: Yes, but… Why me? There are many people out there more talented than I am.

Seiichiro: Because your songs are amazing. And… as an older brother, I have to take responsibility for my younger brother’s mess. That is why.

Haruka: Huh?

Seiichiro: I thought that it was a shame to see someone with your level of talent being impeded on by something like this and not getting the recognition you deserve. 

Haruka: No… I’m not being impeded by anything….

I was going to open my mouth to say more, but he glances at his watch and quickly grabs his suitcase.

Seiichiro: …Oh? Look at the time…. Well, if you’ll excuse me. I look forward to receiving a positive response.

He flashes a smile resembling that of Jinguji-san before he leaves.

Ryuya: Well, seeing as you can't commit right away, go and give it a good thought.

Shining Saotome: Please go talk about it with your partner! Keeping it to yourself is a no-no!

Haruka: Of course.

Jinguji-san's brother.

He really didn't have much good to say about Jinguji-san. ... I wonder if they're fighting.

Besides, what should I do as his partner?

Haruka: I should ask his brother about it…. If I chase after him now, I might catch up with him in time.

I hurry down the stairs and head for the entrance.

Haruka: Oh, there he is! Ah, please wait!

Seiichiro: Hmm? What's the matter? You're panting.... 

Haruka: Y-You see... I have something I want to ask you.

Seiichiro: If it's about studying abroad, I can send you a detailed document later that you can take a look at….

Haruka: Um... It's not about that.... It's about Jinguji-san.

Seiichiro: About Ren?

His brow twitches.

Seiichiro: That guy.... Is he causing trouble even here? All right, I don't have much time, but I'm willing to listen if that's what you need.

Haruka: Thank you very much. I just... I want to apologize for hurting Jinguji-san.

Seiichiro: You... hurt Ren? It wasn't the other way around? It's always the women who get involved with them who are made to cry.

Haruka: Um, no…. George-san told me that Jinguji-san had a lonely childhood….

I couldn't exactly tell him how I heard Jinguji-san grew up without knowing the love of his parents.

Haruka: I thought I could be of some help, even if just a little… but he wants nothing to do with me….

Seiichiro: Ah, is that what this is about…? It’s a bad habit of his. Ren is too stubborn to believe in people’s goodwill.

He has an unusual reluctance to get close to people, which is why he doesn't have many friends.

He may have a few friends for the sake of appearances, but I don’t know of anyone that could be considered his best friend.

Haruka: I... see but….

Jinguji-san seems to get along well with Ichinose-san and Syo-kun, but I wonder if they're not friends.

Seiichiro: I appreciate that you care about Ren as his older brother, but.... It's likely to be in vain. 

It would be a waste of your time. Instead of devoting your time to this, you should focus on developing your own talent. 

I have no way of knowing what Ren thinks of you, but if he really finds you a nuisance, you'd be fighting a losing battle.

Haruka: It can’t be….

I like Jinguji-san, so even if it's fruitless, if I can be of any help, all the better.

But if I'm bothering him….

Seiichiro: Many others in the past have tried to help Ren and have given up because they were getting nowhere. 

This is not me implying that this applies to you, but if you don't have any intentions of allowing your talents to be wasted, I suggest you cut your losses as soon as possible. 

Ah, it's getting late. Excuse me, I must leave now.

With parting words, he rushes off.

He stayed and listened until he couldn't anymore.

I don't think he's a bad guy, nor do I think he's lying.

But I can't fault Jinguji-san either.

In the end, I feel like I understand Jinguji-san even less now.

They want me to study abroad... What should I do?

If my presence really bothers Jinguji-san, perhaps it would be best if I leave.

But if he feels he needs me, even if just a little, then I want to be there for him.

This is such an important decision.

I know I shouldn't leave it to anyone else, but right now, all I want to know is how Jinguji-san feels about it.

I can't choose which way I'm going without knowing.

It just goes to show just how much my heart is full of Jinguji-san.

Mini Game

Ryuya: It's been a while, but I've prepared a surprise test for you all today! Put away those textbooks. 

If you score too low, you will have to take a week of remedial lessons! Do your best to achieve a perfect score! 

The format will be the same as before, but I'm sure you've all studied plenty and have a better understanding of the subject matter. So, the questions will be more challenging than the previous one. Be prepared! 

Choose the option you believe is correct from the given choices! Alright, it's time. Let's begin!

Ren: Knowing something is better than not knowing anything at all. Besides, I like smart kids. Intelligence is attractive.

Haruka: T-Thank you….

Ahh, I’m glad I came to check what the test results were. It’s been a while since he’s smiled at me. It made me so happy to see.

I'll make sure to keep up with the curriculum from now on.

Chapter End

[sugar-omi]

(swiftie asker) "he was the sweet lemonade you wanted for a summer but cove was the water you needed" OH OKAY. OH OKAY. YOU LITERALLY COULD'VE JUST TAKEN MY STILL BEATING HEART AND THROWN IT INTO A FOOD PROCESSOR AND IT WOULD'VE HURT LESS THAN THAT. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK DUDE

the idea of baxter filling the "other woman" archetype is so bittersweet because he doesn't even show any hints that he's upset about it. he's just so very good at reassuring others that everything's fine, that the day is meant to be about them and that he's here to make their special day perfect. but who's going to be there for him? who's going to be more than just his summer love? who's going to realize they still love him in the fall?

reminds me of some of taylor's new music from ttpd ... fortnight (the first track) is such a baxter song because like . fleeting love? the one that got away? "thought of calling ya, but you won't pick up" referring to baxter ghosting mc for five years? "i took the miracle move-on drug; the effects were temporary" referring to baxter trying to make himself as temporary as possible so mc would forget about him easily - and it not working? "i love you, it's ruining my life"? "i touched you for only a fortnight"? "all of this to say, i hope you're okay - but you're the reason"? "and for a fortnight there, we were forever"???? i'm sorry but it's literally him.

ahhhh i don't mean to constantly send in walls of text but i've been a fan of yours for a long ass time and i'm so glad you like my silly little ideas!! i look up to you a lot as a writer so it makes me really happy that you're willing to entertain my thoughts haha

"who's going to realize they still love him in the fall" OH MY GOD.... just snatch my heart up n squeeze it omg...

that song is so him. i listened to it like 3 times and it's so HIM. also "i love you, it's ruining my life" is the best fucking way to describe how I FELT AFTER PLAYING BAXTER'S DLC. the pain, the way he delicately then cruelly rejects you when you ask for more.

that'd be exactly what he was trying to avoid. it's why he didn't go further with you in the cabin, and it's why he keeps up the appearance of someone put together and strong, mysterious and a whirlwind. so much so you can't put up with it for more than the summer.

gives you the glitter and flare of a summer fling, gives you fun and excitement but deprives you of the intimacy, dodges the sensitive questions...

but you're too kind. always reaching out for him, pulling him into your small world, and he's too much of a sucker. falls for your sweet smile, your insistence that he joins your friends or family for activities. falls for you insisting that you need him, that you like him...

jfc i cannot ramble again, if anything im the one yapping your ear off LMAO. please i can ramble about baxter for DAYS. i love him but this man is the perfect angst bank and i can drag on for ages...

and please don't worry about writing long messages, even if i take awhile to respond, i love reading em so much. i was actually looking forward to what you had to say about my last response lol <3

n plus you know much more about taylor swift than i do, and the songs n stuff better. i mean i do check the lyrics n associate em n associate songs n stuff but i love how enthusiastic you are, it's very refreshing to me 😊

and omg you're so kind... ngl i cried a bit LOL i've never had someone say they look up to me n i didn't expect that, that's very sweet and i'm glad i'm good enough to be inspiring, i'm very happy to hear that🥹🫶

n i'm more than happy to listen to everyones thoughts, i think everything yall have to say is worthwhile and it's like you pluck some things straight out of my brain too 😂 i wish i could spend all day answering yall's thoughts and stuff, i get excited seeing more asks even though i cannot respond quickly

so thank you for sharing your thoughts <3 i look forward to more, n don't be afraid to dm me!!! yall are too sweet, so feel free to ask me anything 🥰

[disneyanddisneyships]

@gyubby99 okay I'd like to apologize in advance.

"Oh my dear I cannot wait to see you perform again!" Alastor exclaimed as he and Aponi walked around the room, trying to get ready.

"Yeah? Id be prepared. It's a long song. Might bore you to death," Aponi teased.

"Oh my dear, on the contrary! Your voice is the highlight of my death!" He stated. "What did you say the song was from?" He asked.

"A musical. One of my favorites. It's about British history. Very interesting. I'll make you watch it one day," Aponi stated as she got her hoop earrings in and adjusted her high ponytail.

"Qh I see. As long as it makes you happy. Do I get a sneak peak at your clothes?" Alastor asked.

"Nope! Now come on I wouldn't wanna be late," Aponi stated before all but dragging the radio demon out of the apartment.

When the two got there, aponi had to immediately get onto the stage, all of her friends were already reciting their lines.

Alastor sat next to Aponi's froend, Carolyn.

"Good luck trying to compete with us! Honey!" One performer stated before all of them struck a pose.

"You're right.... You're right!" Aponi began. "Your lives sounded terrible! And your songs... really helped to convey that!" She insulted.

The crowd laughed.

"I mean Catherine! Almost moving to a nunnery and then not? That almost could've been really hard for you!" She exclaimed.

The woman playing Catherine scowled, trying not to laugh.

"And Anne! Getting your head chopped off! Surely that means you'll win the competi- oh wait. Divorced beheaded died divorced beheaded- oooh... nevermind!" She walked over to another performer.

Alastor smirked.

"And Jane. Dying of natural causes.... WHEN WILL JUSTICE BE SERVED?!" She yelled.

The crowd laughed.

"And surviving," she walked over to one of the performers only to walk away to the next one. "Seriously Anna. All jokes aside, getting rejected by your looks legit sounds really rough," she stated.

"I wouldn't tknow anything about that,"

The crowd laughed again, as did alastor.

"I mean look at me I'm really hot-" she trailed off. "So yeah I can't even begin to think of how I'll compete with you all! Oh wait! Like this!" She stated as the music started and the lights flickered to the beat.

All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby I think we can all agree I'm a ten amongst these threes

She sang before walking round the stage.

All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby And ever since I was a child, I'd make the boys go wild

The crowd laughed as she made a gesture with her gand signaling "crazy".

All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Take my first music teacher, Henry Mannox I was young it's true but even then I knew The only thing you wanna to do is...

She blew a kiss.

Broad, dark, sexy Mannox Taught me all about dynamics He was 23 And I was 13 going on 30 We'd spend hours strumming the lute Striking the chords and blowing the flute He plucked my strings all the way to G Went from major to minor, C to D

She danced to the beat as she sang, seemingly having fun with the song.

Tell me what you need What you want, you don't need to plead 'Cause I feel the chemistry Like I get you and you get me

Alastor smiled at his girlfriend as she sang. This would always be the highlight of his death.

And maybe this is it He just cares so much, it feels legit We have a connection I think this guy is different

Aponi acted with the lyrics. Actually seeming like a high school girl in love with the wrong man.

Mabe that's because that was her story.

'Cause all you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is touch me, love me, can't get enough, see All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is please me, squeeze me, birds and the bees me Run your fingers through my hair Tell me, I'm the fairest of the fair Playtime's over The only thing you wanna do is...

She blew a kiss again, smiling.

But then there was another guy Francis Dereham

She moved to the beat before holding the microphone up again.

Serious, stern and slow Gets what he wants, and he won't take no Passion in all that he touches The sexy secretary to the Dowager Duchess

Alastor couldn't help but be a bit jealous at the choice of words. He's never seen her be so open about sexual acts.

Helped him in his office, had a duty to fulfil He even let me use his favourite quill Spilled ink all over the parchment, my wrist was so tired Still I came back the next day as he required

Alastor choked on air as he understood the lyrics.

This was not a normal song that Aponi would sing... was it?

You say I'm what you need All you want, you don't need to plead 'Cause I feel the chemistry Like I get you and you get me

Aponi sang once again with that schoolgirl innocence. Alastor had no idea how she acted it out so well.

And I know this is it He just cares so much, this one's legit We have a real connection I'm sure this time is different

Then he remembered.

It's not acting. It's reminiscing.

'Cause all you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is touch me, love me, can't get enough see All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is please me, squeeze me, birds and the bees me You can't wait a second more to get My corset on the floor Playtime's over The only thing you wanna do is...

Another kis was blown before aponi cleared her throat and took a small sip of water.

Yeah, that didn't work out

She stated, a tint of humor and sadness in her voice as the crowd laughed.

So I decided to have a break from boys And you'll never guess who I met

The music went again.

Tall, large, Henry the Eighth Supreme head of the Church of England

Silence.

Then laughter.

And then she sang again.

Globally revered Although you wouldn't know it from the look of that beard Made me a lady in waiting Hurled me and my family up in the world Gave me duties in court and he swears it's true That without me, he doesn't know what he'd do

Aponi smiled a bit sadly.

You say I'm what you need All you want, we both agree This is the place for me I'm finally where I'm meant to be

Aponi acted content.

As if she really lived Katherine Howard's life.

Then he starts saying all this stuff He cares so much, he calls me love

Her voice cracked.

Alastor heard it.

She really wasn't acting was she??

He says we have this connection I guess it's not so different

She belted the last note, a small frown forming on her face before a smile took over.

'Cause all you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is touch me, love me, can't get enough, see All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is seize me, squeeze me, birds and the bees me There's no time for when or how 'cause you Just got to have me now Playtime's over The only thing you wanna do is...

She blew yet another kiss.

Then silence, aside from the music.

So we got married Woo

The crowd laughed. Alastor didn't. He had seen the promise rings.

Hell, he had helped sell them.

With Henry, it isn't easy His temper's short, and his mates are sleazy

Now this..... this was from the heart. those two lines right there.

Except for this one courtier He's a really nice guy, just so sincere The royal life isn't what I planned But Thomas is there to lend a helping hand So sweet, makes sure that I'm okay And we hang out loads when the King's away

Aponi gave a weak smile at the memories clearly flooding her mind.

All alastor wanted to do was remove her from the environment.

But he was also entertained. Was she acting? Or were her emotions real?

This guy finally Is what I want, the friend I need Just friends, no chemistry I get him and he gets me

Her facial expressions couldn't have simply been actingm alastor was sure of it.

Andbyet.. she kept on with the song.

And there's nothing more to it He just cares so much, he's devoted He says we have a connection

The sadness on her face spoke more words than she could ever sing.

Her emotions were real.

I thought this time was different

She sang quietly...

Why did I think he'd be different?

She sang louder....

But it's never, ever different

Her voice cracked. Alastor could practically see the tears in her eyes.

'Cause all you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Is touch me, when will enough be enough? See

All the dancers around her put hands on her, signifying the hands that would've been on her in real life.

She shook uncomfortably as she sang.

All you wanna do All you wanna do, baby Squeeze me, don't care if you don't please me

Her voice cracked again and alastor almost broke. he could feel her raw pain. He had felt it more than once in person.

The audience felt it as well.

There were no more laughs. No more claps. The audience was silent and maybe a bit uncomfortable at the raw pain being sung on stage.

Bite my lip and pull my hair As you tell me, I'm the fairest of the fair Playtime's over Playtime's over Playtime's over

As she belted the last not tears spilled from her eyes in a sea of sadness.

The only thing The only thing The only thing you wanna do is...

She blew another kiss but this time she gasped as if gasping for air.

The lights went out.

The audience hesitated before clapoing, confused on if that was real, or just amazing acting from their friend.

An hour or so later Aponi and Alastor walked back to the hotel together.

"Are you alright, my dear?" Alastor asked.

"Yes... just tired," a quiet aponi stated.

Silence.

When the two got back to the hotel Aponi went right up to her room.

Alastor stayed downstairs thinking about what to do.

[philosophiums]

hi sam!

do you like to cook/bake and if so, what are your favorite things to make?

is there an author whose writing style you particularly adore?

is there a piece of writing you love, whether for its dialogue or description or it just makes you feel 🌟 on the inside? could literally be like a few lines from a book/fic

is there somewhere you've always wanted to travel?

how would you describe your music taste?

3 favorite characters in no particular order?

if you could travel back in time as an invisible observer, where and when would you travel to?

hope you're feeling better ❣️

hi mariam!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

i love to bake! i don't have much time to do so anymore (nor do i have a workplace or Other People to give servings to), but when i do bake, i love to do cakes/muffins/cookies/brownies/etc - anything i can bake from scratch that is not and does not involve pastry KJSDBVJKSDBV. i have a couple go-tos (there's a chocolate zucchini cake recipe that i make whenever i need a rich chocolate pick-me-up), but i love to try new things as often as possible. within the last year, i found a vanilla cake recipe that called for whipping the eggs/sugar/butter, and made for a very interesting texture in the result. i put a lemon whipped cream topping on it, but i think it would hold its own against something thicker/more flavorful as well if i make it again

oh MAN time to plug @ravenvsfox right here <3 i ADORE the way meghan structures not only her stories but also specifically her prose. it's absolutely riddled with metaphor and just the type of emotion that is so tangible you feel like you might be able to touch it. she has such a way of digging into a character's ribcage and pulling out the essence of them, and then she just masterfully dangles it through her works like puppet strings, and by the end you realize you were the marionette on stage with the characters and it's just OUGH cannot compliment her enough truly. writing alongside her at the height of the aftg fandom was a formative experience for me as a writer <3

HMMM okay i thought about this one a lot because there are a lot of little pieces of writing that have stuck with me over the years, but i'm gonna say the short story "A Good Man Is Hard to Find" by Flannery O'Connor. i read it in college, and i remember being bored out of my mind right away and then just getting sucker punched at the end. immediately had to reread. twice. not to look for foreshadowing, but to figure out why the ending was just a punch to the face. it's genuinely still a story i go back and reread from time to time. i love the idea of a bunch of people stuck in a small space together and then, well. i shan't spoil the end for anyone who hasn't read it

oughhhh i would kill to go back to scotland. for forever, preferably, but i would love to even spend another summer there. i miss it so fucking bad. walkable cities my beloved. the weather was perfect.... just.... take me backkkkkk

my music taste is very like.... i mean i have genre preferences (i like rock in all forms more than anything else), but i'm a Song Enjoyer. if the song slaps, i really don't care if it's not a genre that i usually listen to. and though there are bands that i like, i'm not going to listen to a song of theirs if i don't like it just because it's theirs. i can't claim to listen to anything, but any genre is up for grabs. songs i like usually just grab me by throat and then i must listen constantly until i'm sick of it KJSDBVJKDBV

favorite characters!!!! andrew minyard number one (ik you said no particular order but he is and probably will always be my number one i just. relate to him. cannot describe how life-changing it was to see him get a happy ending. he's in my heart forever). xie lian from heaven official's blessing is top three for sureeee ! such a deeply complex tragic character OUGH god i love him. also i hate to say it but bakugo katsuki i think edges out fushiguro megumi for top three (gomen megu). i just love bitchy blonde characters (tsukishima haikyuu honorable mention also), and his arc is just so beautifully written. i love characters who seem simple on the surface but are just oceans of contradictions underneath. good stuff

oh HMMMM i have never actually. pondered going back in time. UH. honestly i think i would like to go back and see the library of alexandria. even if i couldn't read anything, just to see it, walk inside....

thank you so much!!!!! <3 <3 <3 i am feeling better now :D

[fibey234]

🎀 High sensitivity 🎀

I've never written about it, but now I think it's time to talk about it.

I researched a lot about it, and I still continue to learn about this phenomenon from the field and it helps me get to know myself more closely.

Until about a year ago, I just didn't stop beating myself up.. hurting myself, being angry with myself, why am I so sensitive?! Why am I different from everyone, why am I the only one among all the other members of the house who takes things to heart, why is everything with me of such high importance?! What is different about me from everyone else, and why do I react to seemingly light situations - in such an extreme and emotional way?!

Sounds and smells have significant power over my emotional system, and have a far-reaching influence.

I researched more and more, and in two words I understood: high sensitivity. that's it.

Actually, it has a more accurate name… but I want to say briefly that it is a gift.

What is this expressed in?

It is to see the world differently, in detail. I have a sharp eye for the smallest details, and a focus on the atmosphere that everything in the field makes me feel…

I have a very strong intuition, gut feelings that cannot be explained. Most of the time they are right.. even without my wanting to..

Every little thing can make me cry, I'm sensitive to sounds, tastes and smells at a high level. If it's about songs and music - it's another world… it might overwhelm me. And I can even see colors through songs and music. I can see landscapes, visual images and moving films with characters right through my imagination.

Every little thing almost overwhelms me. Especially compliments that don't come out of a desire to actually compliment… If it's something exciting that happens to me, I get overly excited. If there is something that causes a pinch, the tears burst out of me.

Even when I see people making dreams come true, it touches me. I take it hard… I ask myself when it will be my turn to fulfill mine…

The nature outside is spectacular in its beauty, and I see every flower and plant that stands in my way and smile to myself… Loves to smell flowers of almost any kind, touch, feel… Look at small insects in nature and study them… I even have research charts that I made myself and I am learning about all kinds of flowers and different types of insects in nature.

I'm hyperstimulated to be in an environment full of people, I'm too sensitive to it. It's better for me to be with myself alone and breathe nature than to be with people for a long time.. I realized that this is NOT a negative thing.

After certain events, or unforgettable trips and experiences, or after exhausting projects at work, studies, etc. - I have to take time to absorb and absorb what I went through.. Days, nights, months… I need to digest, write, document, do anything that will help me digest the experience I went through. Give it time to heal, and then go back to normal. (I can't do without it, otherwise I have an emotional outburst while I return to my routine with no break time between experiences. An experience is even a normal work day with friends for example…)

My inner world is very magical and sensitive, every little word from someone can drop me into the abyss, or lift me up.

It's hard for me to meet new people, because I always think about the moment when we break up and how hard it will be to say goodbye to this person… and if it happens that I still get attached to a certain person, I get really emotionally attached to him/her/they and discover how much magic this person has. (My biggest fear is that this relationship will end someday)

I'm also a type of overthinking. Tends to think about every smallest thing and grind it thousands of times and from all directions, sometimes it even prevents me from falling asleep at night and also enters my dream because it keeps me busy.

I have a wide and great empathy towards people. I contain them more than a normal person, and they are a significant part of me. I can identify with them completely as much as I can understand them.

My heart wants to contain so much good, but because it tries to contain so much love - it fills up quickly and therefore I must rest and ventilate often, be with myself and breathe the peace.

And in short - being sensitive - is a blessing. This is a wonderful and magical supreme gift!

Never be angry with yourself for being too sensitive.

No one in the universe can love you more than yourself. you guys are great.

And you are not to blame for the fact that people do not understand your inner world, you are the ones who have been blessed with a higher sensitivity than usual, the ability to give pure love to everyone and to accommodate.

Be proud of yourself for being sensitive and loyal.✨💖👑