#Olivia Herman

[2ndaryprotocol]

#NowWatching Tiny Cinema (2022) 🧟‍♂️💦🔫

“𝚂𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚍𝚘𝚗’𝚝 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚢𝚎𝚝, 𝚍𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞? 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚎𝚎, 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗’𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜, 𝚠𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚗𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚜.”

[eye-candy-film-enjoyer]

Wes Anderson Movies + textpost part 6/11 (or until I give up)

Rushmore Edition

[olivierdemangeon]

SHOCK WAVE: HONG KONG DESTRUCTION (2020) ★★★★✮

SHOCK WAVE: HONG KONG DESTRUCTION (2020) ★★★★✮

[bikinibottomdayz]

OCTOBER 10, 2024 RELEASE

All my videos can be found here, full release under the read more! If interested, please contact me at bikinibottomtrading@gmail.com!

I'm also using this release to say if you want to get email notifications for my releases, you can sign up for my mailing list here. Additionally, I have a Discord server you can join by dming me and asking me for the link!

This release includes: Cabaret (new cast), Sunset Boulevard, Nine, The Hills of California, N/A

CABARET September 16, 2024 | Broadway | 4K MP4 (11.64GB) | bikinibottomday’s master Cast: Adam Lambert (Emcee), Auli’i Cravalho (Sally Bowles), Bebe Neuwirth (Fraulein Schneider), Calvin Leon Smith (Clifford Bradshaw), Steven Skybell (Herr Schultz), Henry Gottfried (Ernst Ludwig), Michelle Aravena (Fritzie/Fraulein Kost), Gabi Campo (Frenchie), Ayla Ciccone-Burton (Helga), Colin Cunliffe (Hans), Marty Lauter (Victor), Loren Lester (Herman/Max), David Merino (Lulu), Julian Ramos (Bobby), MiMi Scardulla (Texas), Kayla Jenerson (s/w Rosie) Notes: Excellent 4K capture of the new cast (debuts for Adam, Auli’i, Calvin and Michelle)! Some wandering / readjustment and unfocusing throughout. A bit of occasional obstruction from people walking the aisles. Includes curtain call, audio is fed from external source. https://flic.kr/s/aHBqjBHS99 | ASKING $20 USD NOT FOR SHARING EXCEPT THROUGH ME UNTIL APRIL 2, 2025

N/A July 27, 2024 (E) | Off-Broadway | 4K MP4 (6.05GB) | bikinibottomday’s master Cast: Holland Taylor (N), Ana Villafañe (A) Notes: Excellent 4K capture of this new political play! Head visible on the bottom right but doesn’t block anything. Some wandering / readjustment and unfocusing throughout. Includes curtain call, audio is fed from external source. https://flic.kr/s/aHBqjBBC1r | ASKING $20 USD NOT FOR SHARING EXCEPT THROUGH ME UNTIL APRIL 2, 2025

NINE August 10, 2024 (E) | Kennedy Center | 4K MP4 (8.76GB) | bikinibottomday’s master Cast: Steven Pasquale (Guido Contini), Shereen Ahmed (Claudia), Carolee Carmello (Liliane La Fleur), Michelle Veintimilla (Carla), Mary Elizabeth Mastrantonio (Guido's Mother), Jen Sese (Stephanie Necrophorus), Lesli Margherita (Saraghina), Elizabeth Stanley (Luisa Contini), Georgina Pazcoguin (Annabella), Paloma Garcia-Lee (Maria), Haley Fish (Diana), Allison Blackwell (Mama Maddelena), Charlie Firlik (Young Guido), Sasha Hutchings (Asa Nisi Masa), Marina Pires (Sister Vincenza), Lucia Giannetta (Giorgia), Yani Marin (Camila), Morgan Marcell (Norma), Kamille Upshaw (Leonor), Dylis Croman (Dr. Ernst) Notes: Great 4K capture of this wonderful production! Act One is pretty messy, with a minute worth of blackout at the beginning then again a few minutes in due to late seating. Alongside that, a lot of it is wideshot and generally not as well filmed as usual. Gets better as the show goes on, and Act Two is much better. Minor obstruction on the far left blocks some action but is generally worked around. Some washout throughout. Increased moments of wandering and unfocusing. Includes curtain call, audio is fed from external source. https://flic.kr/s/aHBqjBD5eV | ASKING $18 USD NOT FOR SHARING EXCEPT THROUGH ME UNTIL APRIL 2, 2025

SUNSET BOULEVARD September 28, 2024 | Broadway (Previews) | 4K MP4 (10.24GB) | bikinibottomday’s master Cast: Nicole Scherzinger (Norma Desmond), Tom Francis (Joe Gillies), David Thaxton (Max Von Mayerling), Grace Hodgett-Young (Betty Schaefer), Ensemble: Olivia Lacie Andrews (Nancy), Brandon Mel Borowsky (John), Shavey Brown (DeMille/Stan/Finance Man), Hannah Yun Chamberlain (Young Norma/Patsy), Cydney Clark (Joanna/Guard), Raúl Contreras (Finance Man/Frank), Tyler Davis (Sheldrake), E.J. Hamilton (Lisa), Sydney Jones (Dorothy), Emma Lloyd (Mary/Heather), Pierre Marais (Sammy), Shayna McPherson (Camera Operator/Katherine), Jimin Moon (Morino/Hog Eye), Justice Moore (Jean), Drew Redington (Myron/Jones/Camera Operator), Diego Andrea Rodriguez (Artie) Notes: Excellent 4K capture of this anticipated revival’s first preview! Some head / railing obstruction at the front of the stage that occasionally blocks off characters sitting / laying down. 30 second blackout in the New Year Eve scene. There was a glitch with the camera that led to some zooming out without input, which sometimes affects the video (primarily in the first ten minutes). Increased moments of wandering / readjustment and unfocusing throughout. One scene is very dark, therefore very difficult to see and takes a little bit to focus on the main action. Includes curtain call, audio is fed from external source. https://flic.kr/s/aHBqjBKv1R | ASKING $20 USD NOT FOR SHARING EXCEPT THROUGH ME UNTIL APRIL 2, 2025

THE HILLS OF CALIFORNIA September 24, 2024 | Broadway (Previews) | 4K MP4 (11.28GB) | bikinibottomday’s master Cast: Laura Donnelly (Joan/Veronica), Leanne Best (Gloria), Helena Wilson (Jill), Ophelia Lovibond (Ruby), David Wilson Bares (Luther St John), Ta’rea Campbell (Biddy/Penny), Bryan Dick (Jack Larkin/Dennis), Richard Lumsden (Joe Fogg/Mr Potts), Richard Short (Bill/Mr Halliwell), Lara McDonnell (Young Joan), Nancy Allsop (Young Gloria), Nicola Turner (Young Jill), Sophie Ally (Young Ruby), Liam Bixby (Tony), Ellyn Heald (Mrs Smith), Max Roll (Mr Smith), Cameron Scoggins (Dr Rose) Notes: Excellent 4K capture of this stunning new transfer! Very mild obstruction on the bottom that blocks off little to nothing. Some moments of wandering / readjustment and unfocusing throughout. Includes curtain call, audio fed from external source. https://flic.kr/s/aHBqjBJRq8 | ASKING $20 USD NOT FOR SHARING EXCEPT THROUGH ME UNTIL APRIL 2, 2025

[bracketsoffear]

Vast Leitner Reading List

The full list of submissions for the Vast Leitner bracket. Bold titles are ones which were accepted to appear in the bracket. Synopses and propaganda can be found below the cut. Be warned, however, that these may contain spoilers!

Abedi, Isabel: Forbidden World Adams, Douglas: The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy Asimov, Isaac: Nightfall

Borges, Jorge Luis: El Aleph Bradbury, Ray: Kaleidoscope Bradbury, Ray: No Particular Night or Morning

Caine, Rachel: Weather Wardens Clarke, Arthur C.: Maelstrom II Clarke, Susanna: Piranesi Coates, Darcy: From Below Coleridge, Samuel Taylor: The Rime of the Ancient Mariner Curtis, Wardon Allan: The Monster of Lake LaMetrie

Foster, Alan Dean: He

Gardner, Martin: Thang Godwin, Tom: The Nothing Equation Gonzalez, J.F.: Clickers Gorky, Maxim: The Song of the Stormy Petrel Grant, Mira: Into the Drowning Deep

Hawking, Lucy and Stephen: George's Secret Key to the Universe Hardinge, Frances: Deeplight

Inglis, James: Night Watch

King, Stephen: The Jaunt

Lewis, C.S.: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader Liu, Cixin: The Dark Forest (Three Body Problem Book 2) Lovecraft, H.P.: Dagon

Macfarlane, Robert: Underland Marquitz, Tim and Nickolas Sharps, ed.: Kaiju Rising: Age of Monsters Melville, Herman: Moby Dick Mortimore, Jim: Beltempest

North, Claire: The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August

Oesterheld, Héctor Germán: El Eternauta

Poe, Edgar Allen: A Descent into the Maelström Pratchett, Terry and Steven Baxter: The Long Earth series Purser-Hallard, Philip: Of the City of the Saved...

Reed, Robert: An Exaltation of Larks Reisman, Michael: Simon Bloom: The Gravity Keeper

Sanderson, Brandon: Firefight Seuss, Dr.: Horton Hears a Who! Simmons, Dan: The Terror Swift, Jonathan: Gulliver's Travels

Tennyson, Alfred: The Kraken Tolstoy, Leo: War & Peace

Verne, Jules: 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea

Abedi, Isabel: Forbidden World

"Reginald has gained a dangerous power. He can shrink anything he likes. And he wants nothing less than the world's most famous buildings. The originals in miniaturized form, of course. Gradually he builds up a huge landscape in his cellar. But Reginald has overlooked something, or more precisely someone. Otis was locked in the Statue of Liberty and Olivia had fled from the police into the famous Berlin department store KaDeWe, when suddenly at night the buildings shrank. Now the children are the size of a fingernail... While they fight for their lives, chaos breaks out in the world outside: where have the monuments gone? And who has stolen them?" Vast stuff: Otis' fear of heights is a huge plot point and he was born on a plane. While Olivia wants to become a pilot. Many scenes of being in high places and terrified, and focus on being very small in a big world.

Spoilers: This book contains two Djinns one that can change the sizes of things one that can make them small and one that can make them big. But they are running out of magic fuel so staying small is the big fear of the characters.

Adams, Douglas: The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy

The series swings wildly between cosmic dread and comedy, from the insignificance of the Earth's destruction to the chaotic results of the Infinite Improbability Drive to the very notion of the Total Perspective Vortex, the story hammers home again and again the infinitesimal nature of our existence in the vastness of the universe.

***

"The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy": Seconds before the Earth is demolished for a galactic freeway, Arthur Dent is saved by Ford Prefect, a researcher for the revised Guide. Together they stick out their thumbs to the stars and begin a wild journey through time and space.

"The Restaurant at the End of the Universe": Facing annihilation at the hands of warmongers is a curious time to crave tea. It could only happen to the cosmically displaced Arthur Dent and his comrades as they hurtle across the galaxy in a desperate search for a place to eat.

"Life, the Universe and Everything": The unhappy inhabitants of planet Krikkit are sick of looking at the night sky- so they plan to destroy it. The universe, that is. Now only five individuals can avert Armageddon: mild-mannered Arthur Dent and his stalwart crew.

"So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish": Back on Earth, Arthur Dent is ready to believe that the past eight years were all just a figment of his stressed-out imagination. But a gift-wrapped fishbowl with a cryptic inscription conspires to thrust him back to reality. So to speak.

"Mostly Harmless": Just when Arthur Dent makes the terrible mistake of starting to enjoy life, all hell breaks loose. Can he save the Earth from total obliteration? Can he save the Guide from a hostile alien takeover? Can he save his daughter from herself?

The incomprehensible vastness of the universe is a theme repeated throughout the 'Trilogy". Notable examples include the guide initially describes Earth as 'harmless", after being stranded there for several years, Ford revises this to "mostly harmless". The Total Perspective Vortex, a machine that extrapolates a model of the entire universe, along with a microscopic dot labeled "you are here" this sense of perspective destroys the victim’s mind.

Asimov, Isaac: Nightfall

Lagash's six suns means an Endless Daytime, except for once every 2,049 years, when five suns set and the only sun left in the hemisphere is eclipsed by the moon. The scientists are trying to prepare civilization and themselves for the upcoming nightfall, but when it does occur, no-one is prepared for the thirty thousand stars that suddenly appear in the night sky. This leads to the far more devastating revelation how tiny and insignificant they are by comparison.

"Aton, somewhere, was crying, whimpering horribly like a terribly frightened child. 'Stars — all the Stars — we didn't know at all. We didn't know anything. We thought six stars in a universe is something the Stars didn't notice is Darkness forever and ever and ever and the walls are breaking in and we didn't know we couldn't know and anything —'"

Borges, Jorge Luis: El Aleph

In Borges' story, the Aleph is a point in space that contains all other points. Anyone who gazes into it can see everything in the universe from every angle simultaneously, without distortion, overlapping, or confusion.

Bradbury, Ray: Kaleidoscope

First published in the October 1949 edition of Thrilling Wonder Stories this describes a scene where a spaceship is hit by a meteor and torn apart – ejecting the crew into space. Each astronaut flies off on his own trajectory, hurtling to his doom. For a time they can all communicate through their helmet comms, but slowly, as the separation becomes millions of miles apart, they wind up as solitary figures, alone with his thoughts.

Bradbury, Ray: No Particular Night or Morning

This story takes place during a long interstellar journey. The destination and purpose of the journey are unclear. There are many men (it seems only men) on a large ship. Among them are friends Hitchcock and Clemens. Hitchcock begins to struggle with the idea that there is anything that exists outside of him, that none of it can be proven to exist. Clemens tries to argue with him until Hitchcock is finally treated by the ship’s psychiatrist with the captain’s knowledge, but to no avail. He finally dons a space-suit and leaves the ship. Over the radio he can be heard muttering about how even his own body does not exist.

At one point, Hitchcock is asked why he wanted to go on this journey in the first place. Was he interested in the stars? In seeing other places? In travel? He responds that “It wasn’t going places. It was being between”

Caine, Rachel: Weather Wardens

A speculative fiction series about the secretive bureaucracy that controls the weather. Consequences of this include severely pissing off Mother Earth, sentient storm fronts, and falling from great heights. Often.

Clarke, Arthur C.: Maelstrom II

This short story revolves around an astronaut named Cliff Leyland drifting in a low orbit around the moon after an accident with his capsule's launch. Much of his time is spent waiting to see if he can be rescued and reunited with his family, or is doomed to crash and die.

Clarke, Susanna: Piranesi

Piranesi lives in a place called the House, a world composed of infinite halls and vestibules lined with statues, no two of which are alike. The upper level of the House is filled with clouds, and the lower level with an ocean, which occasionally surges into the middle level following tidal patterns that Piranesi meticulously tracks. He believes he has always lived in the House, and that there are only fifteen people in the world, all but two of whom are long-dead skeletons. The status that decorate the halls and walls of the House are all gigantic and the halls themself are immense and bigger than what any human would be able to build on their own.

Coates, Darcy: From Below

"No light. No air. No escape. Hundreds of feet beneath the ocean's surface, a graveyard waits... Years ago, the SS Arcadia vanished without a trace during a routine voyage. Though a strange, garbled emergency message was broadcast, neither the ship nor any of its crew could be found. Sixty years later, its wreck has finally been discovered more than three hundred miles from its intended course...a silent graveyard deep beneath the ocean's surface, eagerly waiting for the first sign of life. Cove and her dive team have been granted permission to explore the Arcadia's rusting hull. Their purpose is straightforward: examine the wreck, film everything, and, if possible, uncover how and why the supposedly unsinkable ship vanished. But the Arcadia has not yet had its fill of death, and something dark and hungry watches from below. With limited oxygen and the ship slowly closing in around them, Cove and her team will have to fight their way free of the unspeakable horror now desperate to claim them. Because once they're trapped beneath the ocean's waves, there's no going back."

Coleridge, Samuel Taylor: The Rime of the Ancient Mariner

This epic poem of a sea voyage beautifully encapsulates the horrors of the ocean, from the terrific force of horrific storms and whirlpools to the unsettling infinity of life, both beautiful and strange, that inhabits the depths below. Most of all, however, it shows the horror of being stranded at sea as the ship is becalmed in the doldrums.

"Day after day, day after day, We stuck, nor breath nor motion; As idle as a painted ship Upon a painted ocean. Water, water, every where, And all the boards did shrink; Water, water, every where, Nor any drop to drink. The very deep did rot: Oh Christ! That ever this should be! Yea, slimy things did crawl with legs Upon the slimy sea."

The crew perish one by one, apart from the narrator. He, by killing the albatross, invoked the wrath of the sea. He alone must live on while the others are permitted to escape in death.

Curtis, Wardon Allan: The Monster of Lake LaMetrie

The story of Dr. James McLennegan and his sickly companion Edward Framingham who travel to a lake high up in the Wyoming mountains. When they reach the lake, McLennegan discovers it is home to an Elasmosaurus which attacks him, but he manages to kill it and removes the brain. Shortly afterwards Framingham seemingly commits suicide and McLennegan decides to place Framingham’s brain into the body of the Elasmosaur, as one does. While this works for a bit, the remainder of the story explores the horror of scale as Framingham's inability to adjust to his new size results in him snapping and devouring his now-insignificant former friend.

Foster, Alan Dean: He

A short story detailing an oceanographer's encounter with the last megalodon, a colossal shark that has lived for millions of years. He is feared by all other creatures and the sight of him installs a primal terror in humans.

Gardner, Martin: Thang

https://vintage.failed-dam.org/thang.htm The titular creature is large enough to grasp Earth between two fingers. It clears off all water and ice before chewing the planet, core and all, before it, in turn, is also eaten by a planet-eater eater.

Godwin, Tom: The Nothing Equation

A short story about how being stationed alone in an empty section of space drives a man mad. Like stories about lighthouses, but bigger. Short enough to link a complete ebook.

Gonzalez, J.F.: Clickers

"Phillipsport, Maine is a quaint and peaceful seaside village. But when hundreds of creatures pour out of the ocean and attack, its residents must take up arms to drive the beasts back. They are the Clickers, giant venomous blood-thirsty crabs from the depths of the sea. The only warning to their rampage of dismemberment and death is the terrible clicking of their claws. But these monsters aren't merely here to ravage and pillage. They are being driven onto land by fear. Something is hunting the Clickers. Something ancient and without mercy."

Basically, kaiju crabs invade the land -- because they're fleeing from something even bigger.

Gorky, Maxim: The Song of the Stormy Petrel

"A short poem, text can be found here. It describes the storm, vast and careless masses of water, roaring and ruthless skies, and a mighty storm petrel fearlessly taking on both elements. it even dares the tempest to get more intense, as all other oceanic forms of life (seagulls, grebes, a penguin) hide in horror before the face of the storm. stormy petrel in russian (буревестник), if translated literally, means 'the announcer of the storm'. there is a short old cartoon which depicts how this poem would function as a leitner, although the cartoon is very comedic and lighthearted. unfortunately, i wasn't able to find a version with english subtitles, but i think it would be clear just from the visuals"

Grant, Mira: Into the Drowning Deep

Seven years ago, the Atargatis set off on a voyage to the Mariana Trench to film a ���mockumentary” bringing to life ancient sea creatures of legend. It was lost at sea with all hands. Some have called it a hoax; others have called it a maritime tragedy. Now, a new crew has been assembled. But this time they’re not out to entertain. Some seek to validate their life’s work. Some seek the greatest hunt of all. Some seek the truth. But for the ambitious young scientist Victoria Stewart this is a voyage to uncover the fate of the sister she lost. Whatever the truth may be, it will only be found below the waves. But the secrets of the deep come with a price.

Hawking, Lucy and Stephen: George's Secret Key to the Universe

The space aspects of it, as well as the fact that a character gets trapped in a black hole at one point, gives off Vast vibes to me. Synopsis for more info: The main characters in the book are George Greenby, Susan Bellis, Eric Bellis, Annie Bellis, Dr. Reeper, and Cosmos, the world's most powerful computer. Cosmos can draw windows allowing people to look into outer space, as well as doors that act as portals allowing travel into outer space. It starts by describing atoms, stars, planets, and their moons. It then goes on to describe black holes, which remains the topic of focus in the last part of the book. At frequent intervals throughout the book, there are pictures and "fact files" of the different references to universal objects, including a picture of Mars with its moons.

Hardinge, Frances: Deeplight

"In the old days, the islands of the Myriad lived in fear of the gods, great sea monsters that rose up from the Undersea to devour ships and depopulate entire islands. Now, the gods are no more. They tore each other apart in an event known as the Cataclysm. Fragments of their bodies (known as godware) are dredged up and sold. Hark and his best friend Jelt are petty criminals. When they embark on a dangerous scavenging expedition, they stumble across a strange, pulsing piece of godware and things begin to go very, very wrong."

Gods, the ocean depths, and poverty all play into the themes of insignificance in this novel.

Inglis, James: Night Watch

Concerns an interstellar probe which is still functional when our Galaxy is dying. The story ends with the community of probes launched by various races and drawn together by the fact that very few stars are still shining, setting out on the long voyage to a distant and still-young galaxy as the last star of our galaxy burns out behind them.

King, Stephen: The Jaunt

“As a family prepares to be "Jaunted" to Mars in the 24th century, the father entertains his two children by recounting the curious tale of the discovery and history of this crude form of teleportation. He explains how the scientist who serendipitously discovered it quickly learned that it had a disturbing, inexplicable effect on the mice he "sent through"—eventually concluding that they could only survive the "Jaunt effect" while unconscious. That, the father explains, is why all people must undergo general anaesthesia before using the Jaunt.

The father spares his children the gruesome semi-apocryphal account of the first human to be Jaunted awake, a condemned murderer offered a full pardon for agreeing to the experiment. The man "came through" and immediately suffered a massive heart attack, living just long enough to utter a single cryptic phrase: It's eternity in there...

The father also doesn't mention that since that time, roughly thirty people have, voluntarily or otherwise, jaunted while conscious; they either died instantly or emerged insane. One woman was even shoved alive into eternal limbo by her murderous husband, stuck between two jaunt portals. The man was convicted of murder; though his attorneys attempted to argue that he was not guilty on the grounds that his wife was not technically dead, the implications of the same argument served to secure and hasten his execution.

After the father finishes his story, the family is subjected to the sleeping gas and Jaunted to Mars. When the father wakes, he finds that his inquisitive son held his breath in order to experience the Jaunt while conscious…Hair white with shock, corneas yellowed with age, clawing out his own eyes, the boy reveals the terrible nature of the Jaunt: "Longer than you think, Dad! It's longer than you think!"”

Lewis, C.S.: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

"The Dawn Treader is the first ship Narnia has seen in centuries. King Caspian has built it for his voyage to find the seven lords, good men whom his evil uncle Miraz banished when he usurped the throne. The journey takes Edmund, Lucy, and their cousin Eustace to the Eastern Islands, beyond the Silver Sea, toward Aslan's country at the End of the World."

I mean it's a story about trying to get to the end of the world. What's more Vast than that?

Liu, Cixin: The Dark Forest (Three Body Problem Book 2)

I considered other books in the series but this book more than the others deals with the impact of discovering there is other life out in the universe and the distance between worlds as humanity learns an alien fleet is approaching earth at near-light speed. This book is both vast in the scale of the universe but also on a time scale as it covers the 400 years between the fleet’s departure and arrival at earth.

Lovecraft, H.P.: Dagon

Link

The narrator tells of being on a cargo ship that was captured by a German sea-raider in the Pacific. He would eventually escape and drift until he found himself a “black mire”, which was full of rotting fish and more foul stenches. The things that he witnesses in the vast expanse drive him to madness, and eventually he kills himself rather than face the creatures he witnessed there.

Macfarlane, Robert: Underland

A series of essays on "deep time" - that is, viewing the world over timeframes of billions of years, rather than the shorter timeframes we live within & understand. It is essentially the vastness of time. This concept stretches eons into the past and future and is very daunting to read about. The essays all revolve around things underground and often focus on how they're so much larger than us, existing far before us and stretching far beyond.

Also there's a chapter where the author talks about a calving glacier he saw surge upwards hundreds of feet from the sea, unbelievably huge. He recounts how the ice at its base hadn't seen sunlight in eons, and had never even been seen by human eyes, it was so ancient - it then sank underwater again, to once more be hidden. And if that doesn't sound like the origin of a vast avatar idk what does

Marquitz, Tim and Nickolas Sharps, ed.: Kaiju Rising: Age of Monsters

From the forward: "Enter Kaiju Rising: Age of Monsters. This collection of Kaiju shorts continues the traditions begun by Kaiju pioneers, bringing tales of destruction, hope and morality in the form of giant, city destroying monsters. Even better, the project was funded by Kickstarter, which means you, Dear Reader, made this book possible. And that is a beautiful thing. It means Kaiju, in pop-fiction, are not only alive and well, they’re stomping their way back into the spotlight, where they belong. Featuring amazing artwork, stories from some of the best monster writers around and a publishing team that has impressed me from the beginning, Kaiju Rising: Age of Monsters is a welcome addition to the Kaiju genre and an anthology of epic proportions. My inner nine-year-old is shouting at me to shut-up and let you get to the Kaiju. So, without further delay, let’s all enjoy us some Kaiju Rising."

Notable for the fact the majority of the stories within are downer-ending horror short-stories versus more upbeat monster-fighting ones. Several also tackle concepts of an unstoppable, implacable force, themes of religious horror, and other Vast-aligned concepts.

Melville, Herman: Moby Dick

Okay so Ahab is Hunt, but the thing he's hunting is 1000% Vast. The book is very detailed in its descriptions of the enormity of whales and of the sea. Also, Moby Dick is basically outright stated as being God.

***

We all know what The Whale is about. Ahab has beef with Moby Dick, so he vows to hunt it. This is a particularly intelligent, huge whale that everyone advises to steer clear of, and possibly an allegory of God. The book itself is large, it's 135 chapters and a lot of pages and for some reason mandatory reading in some schools. It's a classic and rightfully so. Trying to read it in one sitting is like trying to hunt the proverbial whale, a foolish endeavor no mortal man should attempt. Infinity is best consumed one day at a time, and so is the book. Otherwise you'll drown in (mostly descriptions of) whales.

***

Man attempts to fight a giant whale that apparently is representative of the unfathomably great and terrible power of nature/fate/God, and thus almost everyone on his crew ends up drowning.

Mortimore, Jim: Beltempest

Synopsis: "The people of Bellania II see their sun, Bel, shrouded in night for a month following an impossible triple eclipse. When Bel is returned to them a younger, brighter, hotter star, it is the beginning of the end for the entire solar system...

100,000 years later, the Doctor and Sam arrive on Bellania IV, where the population is under threat as disaster looms — immense gravitational and dimensional disturbances are surging through this area of space.

While the time travellers attempt to help the survivors and ease the devastation, a religious suicide-cult leader is determined to spread a new religion through Bel's system — and his word may prove even more dangerous than the terrible forces brought into being by the catastrophic changes in the sun... "

Why it's Vast: The main conflict revolves around the massive natural disasters caused by changes to the Bel System's sun. Moons are ripped from their orbits, gravity waves create planetary earthquakes, and the void of space is rocked by solar flares. In response to these unstoppable disasters, a religion springs up in worship of the star -- as Simon Fairchild noted, religion was once a strong vector for the Vast, though it wasn't explored in much depth within the podcast.

North, Claire: The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August

"The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August" is about the titular protagonist Harry August. He is born, he lives, he dies... Except he does this a lot more than most regular people. Harry is a kalachakra (or ouroborus, the names are used interchangeably), a member of a select few people who, upon dying, simply return to when they were born with all the memories and knowledge of their past lives. This is all well and good until, while on the deathbed of his eleventh life, Harry is warned by a little Kalachakra girl that the world is ending, and he must stop it from doing so."

Vast realised in endless lives of the characters stretching before them till infinity. Vast realised in the perfect endless memory of the main character and some others. Vast realised in eternity.

Oesterheld, Héctor Germán: El Eternauta

Juan Salvo, the inimitable protagonist, along with his friend Professor Favalli and the tenacious metal-worker Franco, face what appears to be a nuclear accident, but quickly turns out to be something much bigger than they had imagined. Cold War tensions, aliens of all sizes, space―and time travel―this one has it all.

Poe, Edgar Allen: A Descent into the Maelström

Inspired by the Moskstraumen, it is couched as a story within a story, a tale told at the summit of a mountain climb in Lofoten, Norway. The story is told by an old man who reveals that he only appears old—"You suppose me a very old man," he says, "but I am not. It took less than a single day to change these hairs from a jetty black to white, to weaken my limbs, and to unstring my nerves." The narrator, convinced by the power of the whirlpools he sees in the ocean beyond, is then told of the "old" man's fishing trip with his two brothers a few years ago.

Driven by "the most terrible hurricane that ever came out of the heavens", their ship was caught in the vortex. One brother was pulled into the waves; the other was driven mad by the horror of the spectacle, and drowned as the ship was pulled under. At first the narrator only saw hideous terror in the spectacle. In a moment of revelation, he saw that the Maelström is a beautiful and awesome creation. Observing how objects around him were attracted and pulled into it, he deduced that "the larger the bodies, the more rapid their descent" and that spherical-shaped objects were pulled in the fastest. Unlike his brother, he abandoned ship and held on to a cylindrical barrel until he was saved several hours later when the whirlpool temporarily subsided, and he was rescued by some fishermen. The "old" man tells the story to the narrator without any hope that the narrator will believe it.

Pratchett, Terry and Steven Baxter: The Long Earth series

Blueprints for an easily to build device that allows people to "step" into a nigh infinite series of alternate earths get published online. The series deals with the exploration of these alternate earths, and the way their existence and accessibility changes human society over the next 50 or so years. The earths next to our own are similar to ours except that there are no humans, but further earths diverged from our own earlier in geological history; millions of earths away are worlds where the KT extinctions never happens, billions of earths away there are worlds where jellyfish live in the sky. It's emphasized throughout the books that all of these earth's are entire planets with billions of years of history that no one will ever fully understand because there's just too much space.

Purser-Hallard, Philip: Of the City of the Saved...

It's set in a city where every human or descendant of humanity who has ever lived has been reborn all at once, and the book makes sure you understand the scope of that. To pull out a few statistics, the city is the size of a spiral galaxy and has a population of a hundred undecillion - or 1 followed by 38 zeros. There's a watchtower at the city's centre which is the width of a continent and the height of one astronomical unit (the distance of Earth to the sun), and a city council ampithetre the size of a gas giant. When I think of a book emphasising physical vastness, I think Of the City of the Saved, because it doesn't just gloss over the size and call it incomprehensible, it makes sure you begin to grasp the scale of things. And that every character in the book is just one person on that scale.

Reed, Robert: An Exaltation of Larks

The book shows the heat death of the universe, where the stars have long since burned out, and stellar formation ceased, leaving behind a dark, cold, and empty universe. Time travelers from the end of time have steadily been working their way back to the Big Bang to prevent this gradual death from happening by turning the universe into an effectively Perpetual Motion Machine that expands, contracts, and expands again.

Reisman, Michael: Simon Bloom: The Gravity Keeper

A boy inadvertently discovers the book that controls the laws of physics and learns to play with gravity and velocity, which on multiple occasions results in him taking an uncontrolled fall into the sky.

Sanderson, Brandon: Firefight

This is the second book in The Reckoners Trilogy, which is about the eponymous group hunting Epics--people who were granted superpowers by the mysterious red star Calamity, but also turned evil and destroyed society as we know it.

In this one, the Reckoners go to Babylon Restored, a.k.a NYC. The city was flooded by the hydrokinetic Regalia, killing thousands and leaving the survivors to inhabit the rooftops of the sunken buildings. Regalia has immense control over water, able to manipulate it on both a mass scale and in a more precise way to attack with tentacles and create clones of herself. Most terrifyingly, she can see out of the surface of any exposed water--which means almost nowhere in Babilar is safe from her eyes.

The fact that the city is flooded is especially problematic for protagonist David, who can't swim and discovers he has a fear of drowning--especially after he is nearly executed in this way. To make matters worse, the Reckoners' base of operations is an underwater bunker with a window open to the water. This culminates in him facing his fear in attempt to save his love interest by shooting at the window to get out of the bunker. While Regalia saves him for her own ends, she also reveals something even more grand and incomprehensibly terrifying--Calamity itself is sapient and apparently malicious.

Seuss, Dr.: Horton Hears a Who!

Hey kids! Take a minute to think about what would happen if the whole planet existed on a single speck of dust, and how easily everything you know could be eradicated by complete cosmic accident!

Simmons, Dan: The Terror

Being trapped in the Arctic? Not just in the Arctic but in the middle of an ice sheet on the ocean? With the only land being a 3 day trek away? So all you can see before you is open plains of snow and ice and knowing underneath you is also the cold, uncaring, freezing ocean? That's not even taking into account the monster hunting you and your men is easily the size of 3-4 polar bears

Swift, Jonathan: Gulliver's Travels

Plays a lot with perspective -- Gulliver is a giant on one island, and an ant on another. There's also an island that flies and blots out the sun to conquer the lands below it.

Tennyson, Alfred: The Kraken

Link to the poem

Vivid imagery of deep-sea colossi and the enormous weight of the ocean and eternity.

Tolstoy, Leo: War & Peace

real world leitner - inspires dread and fear in the hearts of millions of russian high schoolers with its enormous page count, oppressively large cast of characters and incomprehensible fragments of french inserted directly into the narrative

Verne, Jules: 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea

Themes of insignificance and descriptions of colossal terrors abound.

[cartoonfanaticmonsterrobotalien]

My Final Surprise: Voice Cast for Solar Opposites Wrath of Ophelia Movie! (For @avaveevo, @themagicwolf6677, @king-of-squishmallows, @korvotron, @krn-art, @almar4121 and every one of my watchers)

Thomas Middleditch as Terry Solar-Opposites

Dan Stevens as Korvo Solar-Opposites/Super Shlorpian Korvo

Olivia Holt as Cheery Smithers

Kelly Marie Tran as Empress Ophelia

Sean Giambrone as Yumyulack Solar-Opposites

Mary Mack as Jesse Solar-Opposites/Janice

Sagan McMahan as Sonya Solar-Opposites/Pupa Solar-Opposites

Sarah Chalke as Phoebe MacCarthy/Jessica

Josie Totah as Monica Miller

Rob Schrab as Principal Cooke

Kari Wahlgren as Miss Frankie

Ken Marino as Kevin

Eric Bauza as Jamie/Soup Vendor/Balthzor

Demi Lovato as Darcy

Tim Robinson as Randall

David Herman as Armor Vendor

Sam Elliot as Teraformus

I hope you all loved it! Thank you so much for everything. I’m sorry you won’t be able to see Wrath of Ophelia finished but it has to be safe offline from now on…. Just in case we win or lose… but I don’t think we’re gonna loose! We’re gonna win! Solar Opposites is not going anywhere! It’s not the end! Tervo is not going anywhere too because of Season 5 and an upcoming Seaosn 6 hopefully! Like Terry said in the Valentine’s Day Special, “WE WILL NOT GO QUIETLY INTO TEH NIGHT! WE WILL NOT VANISH WITHOUT A FIGHT! WE’RE GONNA LOVE ON! WE’RE GONNA SAVE SOLAR OPPOSITES!

And don’t worry, Solar Opposites Season 5 is happening! And soon will Season 6 and a new holiday episode too this year! Never give up the fight! STOP KOSA! SIGN THE PETITIONS TO END BAD INTERNET BILLS NO MATTER WHAT THE COST! SOLAR OPPOSITES IS STILL NOT GOING ANYWHERE! NO MATTER WHAT!

Goodbye you guys… thank you for everything. ❤️

[palmviewfm]

hi! looking to join soon :) could i have a little list of most wanted faces??

hello  hello  !  we'd  love  to  have  you  join  us  around  here  !  there's  a  ton  of  opened  faceclaims  that  we'd  love  to  see,  so  i'll  put  it  under  a  read  more  for  you !

madison  bailey,  chase  stokes,  rudy  pankow,  carlacia  grant,  abigail  cowen,  danny  griffin,  sadie  soverall,  kat  mcnamara,  zoe  colletti,  zhao  lusi,  leo  woodall,  noah  lalonde,  chris  briney,  cierra  ramirez,  maia  mitchell,  herman  tommeraas,  simone  baldasseroni,  kathryn  bernardo,  kathryn  newton,  camila  mendes,  madelaine  petsch,  charles  melton,  lili  reinhart,  meg  donnelly,  tanner  buchanan,  mary  mouser,  peyton  list,  antonia  gentry,  katie  douglas,  chelsea  clark,  sara  waisglass,  felix  mellard,  froy  guiterrez,  josh  o'connor,  olivia  holt,  corey  fogelmanis,  savannah  lee  smith,  chandler  kinney,  jack  mulhern,  whitney  peak,  keiynan  lonsdale,  nick  robinson,  ross  lynch,  jane  de  leon,  samantha  logan,  daniel  ezra,  cody  christian,  danielle  rose  rusell,  kaylee  kaneshiro,  oliver  jackson-cohen,  kenny  boyd,  danielle  campbell,  evan  mock,  emilio  sakraya,  gabrielle  wilde,  humberly  gonzalez,  lucien  laviscount,  indiana  evans,  odeya  rush,  kaia  gerber,  jessie  mei  lei,  jordan  fisher,  courtney  eaton,  auli'i  cravalho,  lana  condor,  alisha  boe,  ashley  moore,  zendaya  coleman,  tom  holland,  gabriel  guevara,  maxence  danet-fauvel,  zion  moreno,  bailee  madison,  zaria  simone,  malia  pyles,  jordan  gonzalez,  damian  hardung,  liz  gillies,  avan  jogia,  algee  smith,  aria  shahghasemi,  chay  suede,  diego  boneta,  sarah  catherine  cook,  diego  tinoco,  berk  atan,  brandon  perea,  matthew  noszka,  lucy  hale,  hannah  kepple,  daisy  edgar  jones,  hero  tiennes  tiffin,  josephine  langford,  nikki  rodriguez,  imani  lewis,  olivia  rodrigo,  sofia  carson,  ella  purnell,  tom  blyth,  rachel  zegler,  hunter  schafer,  maia  reficco,  natalie  alyn  lind,  carson  boatman,  melis  sezen,  raven  bowens,  victoria  konefal,  olivia  rose  keegan,  elizabeth  lail,  camryn  grimes,  phoebe  dyvenor,  rege  jean-page,  renee  rapp,  laura  harrier,  bebe  wood,  angourie  rice,  mackenzie  foy,  anna  lambe,  harris  dickinson,  blu  hunt,  aj  saudin,  brianne  tju,  nicole  wallace,  carlson  young,  alycia  debnam  carey,  brenna  d'amico,  brec  bassinger,  bianca  santos,  skyler  samuels,  david  corenswet,  logan  lerman,  aubrey  joseph,  jabari  banks,  brittany  o'grady,  halle  bailey,  bailey  bass,  freya  allan,  josie  totah,  luca  hollestelle,  andre  lamoglia,  maitreyi  ramakrishnan,  minnie  mills,  milly  alcock,  annalisa  cochrane,  adeline  rudolph,  tati  gabrielle,  alva  bratt,  aisha  dee,  charlotte  jordan,  adria  arjona,  sophie  turner,  suki  waterhouse,  amanda  arcuri,  joe  keery,  eli  brown,  sasha  pieterse,  josh  hutcherson,  sam  claflin,  josha  stradowski,  logan  shroyer,  leo  howard,  anya  taylor  joy,  florence  pugh,  alexxis  lemire,  skyler  gisondo,   alia  bhatt,  amber  midthunder,  devery  jacobs,  anya  chalotra,  ayo  edibiri,  becky  gomez,  jaz  sinclair,  simone  ashley,  and  charithra  chandran.

[irishavengersassemble]

Game of Survival: Part 3

After tragedy strikes Rafael Barba’s little sister moves back to New York City for a fresh start. Will she be able to move on with the help of her loving big brother and perhaps find happiness with a certain lieutenant  in SVU.  

Hello Lovelies. Here’s the third part to my new series hope you enjoy.

Series takes place at the beginning of season 18 of Law and Order: SVU and has references to One Chicago. Reader is canonicallly bisexual and in her mid-thirties.

Pairings: Olivia Benson x Barba Reader   Sonny Carisi x Rafael Barba

Header belongs to me.

TW: Mentions of death, PTSD, trauma, anxiety and panic attacks. If this could at all be triggering don’t read.

“I appreciate it, Sonny… I really do, but I don’t want to impose.” You tried to explain to Sonny who you were currently on the phone with. Two weeks had passed since Rafael had come to your apartment to check in on you. You’d finally gotten your entire apartment finished it was cozy and warm and you hoped you’d be able to make it feel like home soon. You’d lived with someone for years so it was rather strange being by yourself not that you cared it was a good time to figure things out. So far living alone had been going well even though it was strange not having Kelly there when you woke up with his usual boyish smile and intense blue eyes as he handed you your morning cup of coffee. You and Leslie had lived together for a couple of years before Kelly had moved in and he’d stayed even after you’d gotten engaged. Leslie and Kelly were best friends and the three of you got along well, Kelly was respectful of your space and privacy just as you were with his. He’d planned on moving out in June so that you and Leslie would have plenty of time for things to settle before your upcoming July wedding. When Leslie had died though he’d ended up staying and for that you were grateful. You’d relied on each other so much during that time and you knew you’d have not made it without his love and support and you fear without yours Kelly would have been lost forever. He was an exceptional man and you hoped that he someday found the love he deserved. It had been hard leaving him alone in that shared apartment there were so many memories Leslie it seemed was still there in a way watching over you both. Kelly had been supportive when you’d told him your plans to move back to New York for which you were grateful he’d understood your desire for a fresh start and new beginnings. Still many of the close bonds you’d formed during your time in Chicago were still present in your life. 

They weren’t just your friends they were your family and you tried to keep tabs as much as you could and vice versa. The ones you seemed to hear from the most were Kelly, Brett, and Herman who had been like a father to you when you’d joined Firehouse 51. Work had been intense it seemed like you’d been getting case after case, but you’d been able to take Sonny and Rafael to dinner about a week prior. The three of you had tried a new sushi joint in downtown Manhattan that hadn’t been too bad. The food was pretty good and the prices were decent so you’d not complain not that it mattered to you money could be replaced people could not. You’d enjoyed your time with Sonny and Rafael even though lately you’d felt like a third wheel while being with them. Sonny treated you like one of his sisters from the first time you’d met and you’d grown relatively close, but you still didn’t know if you felt comfortable going to a Carisi family dinner which is what you were currently discussing with your brother’s boyfriend. “Ya wouldn’t be imposing Y/N. Yer family… Any family a Rafi’s is family a mine. We’d love ta have ya come ta dinner. My sisters are dying ta meet ya just think about it okay? Ya got a couple a days ta figure it out.” Sonny reasoned his voice laced with a hopefulness that you’d decide to come to family dinner with him and Rafael. You sighed pinching the bridge of your nose with your first and forefinger as you reply. “Okay, Son whatever you say. I’ll let you know by tomorrow alright? I’ve got some stuff to do, but I’ll let you know.” The words tumbled out of your mouth before you could stop them. “Sounds good. Y/N sounds good.” The Italian man purred before he hung up. You sighed as you pour yourself a cup of coffee taking a long hearty sip that you felt in your soul. It had been a rough few days at work and all you wanted to do was curl up in bed all day and sleep unfortunately that wasn’t an option. Errands needed to be run today. Your fridge was looking rather bare so you needed to go grocery shopping and get a few other things done alongside possibly heading to the gym for a boxing session. Its something you’d picked up when you were in your early twenties and you loved it. It was a fantastic way to blow off steam and you’d enjoyed going to a boxing club in Chicago and dragging Leslie along who’d spent the majority of the time staring at your ass then she had actually spent time doing a session. Not that you’d complained it always left for some of the best sex when you came home after the fact.

 You let out a huff shaking your head as you tried to ignore your thoughts. You’d not been with anyone not really since Leslie had passed. You didn’t feel right about it even though Kelly had said it would have been understandable if you did. He was one to talk he’d slept with what felt like half of the city of Chicago. You weren’t looking for anything and even if you did in the future a quick hookup wasn’t your usual style. You were monogamous at heart and you’d lost the love of your life the woman you’d planned on spending your life with. Instead of having Rafael walk you down the aisle and celebrating yours and Leslie’s special day, you’d had to plan a funeral and it was something that would forever haunt you. Going over funeral arrangements and then later picking tombstone options alongside Leslie’s sister and parents instead of being on your honeymoon it had been life-changing. Letting out a sigh you shook your head deciding to go to the gym first and then maybe get a bagel and another coffee before running your errands. “Keep the change.” You muttered as you felt a familiar hand link with yours. “Come on let’s get a table.” Leslie had smiled her beautiful blue eyes alight with excitement as she practically drug you over to a table in the corner. “I love New York these bagels are amazing.” The beautiful blonde had just about groaned in delight as she took a bite of her bagel that had an insane amount of cream cheese on top. “I don’t know how you can stomach that Baby. That’s way too much cream cheese.” You’d reason scrunching your nose as Leslie had just taken another huge bite after replying. “Don’t knock it till you try it. It's fantastic.” She muttered with a full mouth resulting in an amused sigh on your part. “What you call too much I call the best freaking thing alive. I swear they don’t make bagels like this in Chicago. We need to come visit your family more often.” She’d purred her tone light and matter of fact. As much as Leslie got along with your family and Rafael, your mother, and abuelita got along with her you had a sneaky suspicion that your girl only wanted to visit more for the bagels over proper bonding with her soon-to-be legal in-laws. You were getting married in five months-time and you couldn’t wait to be Mrs. Barba-Shay. After much debate, you and Leslie decided to hyphenate your names even though you’d planned to just go by Barba at work. It was much easier than trying to mess with having two Barba-Shay’s listed at the firehouse. Chief Boden had been completely supportive of that decision figuring it would be best given Leslie usually went with her last name at work and while on the job anyways. She was known as Shay at the firehouse and even though you were taking each other’s names you liked that she had that distinction for herself. Plus you were proud of your name and where you came from you’d been pleased to take the name Barba after Lucia had adopted you. You knew it hadn’t been easy for her a single mother with one child about a year away from graduating, but you were beyond grateful that she’d taken you in and become your mother. She’d always treated you as if you were her own and you loved her and respected her greatly. “So I was thinking we could just have bagels at the wedding instead of a wedding cake.” Leslie’s voice purred her eyes shining with amusement and warmth clearly teasing as she took another bite of her bagel. “Yes because nothing says happily, wedded wives. Like overheated soggy bagels thanks to the July heat and excess amounts of cheese cream.” You got out giving Leslie a deadpan expression looking exceptionally like Rafael in the moment. “Hey, at least we’d be able to cut through them better.” The beautiful blonde hummed leaning in and giving you a tender kiss her lips sweetly pressing against yours. She pull away her blue eyes meeting your e/c lovingly. Staring off into space you found yourself snapping back to reality trying to clear your mind of the memory that had invaded your thoughts. It was hard to believe that it had been two years since you’d step foot into this bakery, two years since you’d been here with your fiancé. The few times you’d been back in New York after your fiancé’s death you’d been unable to step foot in here. You weren’t even sure why or how you’d managed to do it today; she’d been on your mind so much, especially the last few weeks. You’d wanted to find a way to be close to her even if it was something as stupid as sitting at the same table  occupied that fateful day. You’d taken the same chair that Leslie had sat in and you found your hands gripping onto the cool metal arms just wanting to find any way to be close to her if that were even possible. It was still hard for you to believe this was your life. How does a person go from planning on spending their life with someone literally weeks away from their wedding with the love of their life to their fiancé dying in front of them. “N-no Leslie… stay with me… stay with me please no… Leslie… come on open your eyes stay with me. You hear me stay with me… You can’t die on me d-dammit. Les… Baby please… come on Leslie. Leslie… please…  Don’t you fucking leave me.” The words filled your mind as the memory of that fateful moment when your life changed forever came to mind.

Flashes of your trembling blood-covered hands entered your line of vision and you found yourself gripping the chair unable to stop yourself as it suddenly grew harder to breathe. It felt like something was crushing your chest making the air nearly impossible to enter your lungs. You had to get out of here you had to get out of here now. Anxiety and panic attacks had been something that you’d struggled with since childhood. It wasn’t surprising given the abuse you’d suffered as a child, but you’d thought you’d had a pretty good handle on things. That is until Leslie had died. You had night terrors; you’d wake up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat twisted in the sheets screaming for Leslie. Those first few nights had been absolute hell. You’d barely gotten any sleep and neither had Rafael he’d stayed with you holding you if needed and just letting you scream and cry it out.

It had been hard for him to see you like that traumatized, full of terror, and completely lost and broken. 

You’d eerily mirrored that scared little girl that come into his and his mother’s and abuelita’s lives, but this was much worse than anyone could ever have described. It was like your heart disappeared, it had been shattered and ripped away from you the minute Leslie died never to be repaired again. You knew you needed to calm down which was hard to do in a crowded bakery in downtown Manhattan. Standing to your feet your legs felt like jelly as you quickly got up from the chair you kept a tight hold on your things as you made your way through the people feeling too much like a crowded animal. It was ridiculous the fact that you were a cop someone who’d promised to save others and your city and here you were having a full-blown panic attack in the middle of a populated area. You needed to get out of here. Bursting through the door you took in a deep labored breath as the cool winter air fill your lungs and hit your face. It seemed to calm you significantly and you felt much better than you had before apart from the shakiness in your limbs, your pounding heart, and the intense dizziness that fill you. You stepped off to the side not wanting to get run over by other busy passersby New Yorkers who wanted to get to their next destination. Letting out another shaky breath you tried to settle yourself and your nerves. “Okay… it's fine everything is fine.” The words fell off your lips in a silent whisper as you tried calming down. The feeling of a warm hand on your shoulder startled you from your reverie. You jumped trying to figure out what was going on when you saw her. An older brunette woman with the most beautiful brown eyes you’d ever seen was standing in front of you her eyes soft and full of concern as she look at you. “Sorry I wasn’t trying to scare you. Are you alright? I saw you leave the bakery in a rush and I just wanted to make sure everything was okay.” She purr in a soft voice that melt like honey. It was warm with hints of huskiness and you suddenly found yourself hanging onto every word she’d said that is if you’d actually been paying attention. Wait what had she said to you, you’d been so focused on her tender eyes and voice that you’d forgotten what she’d said. “I’m sorry what?” You reply heart hammering in your chest as the woman took you in with an almost protective glance. It was something you’d not been anticipating in the least and you found yourself startled this woman was not only beautiful it was apparent to you she had a kind heart. As a cop, you’d always felt you were a decent judge of character and you were only picking up on good intentions. This woman had an edge to her as though she were used to being in high-stress situations. You had a sneaking suspicion she must be in some kind of public service given how she was holding herself. Being in her presence left you feeling comfortable and at ease, safe in a way that you’d not been expecting. It was overwhelming, to say the least and as much as you appreciate her stepping in to help you didn’t want to bother her. “I asked if you were alright. Your hands are shaking.” The woman acknowledged her soft brown gaze going down to your hands that were indeed shaking the aftermath of your intense panic attack you were still coming down from. “I-I I’m okay. I appreciate you checking in, but I’m good. I’ve… I’ve got to go.” You mumbled your words coming out choked and strange even to your ears. The woman was just trying to help of that you were certain, but she made you flustered in a way that left you shaken. “Are you sure there’s not someone I can call for you? My name's O-“ She started before you found yourself cutting her off. “I’m sure…there’s no need to trouble yourself. Like I said I’m fine.” You stuttered tightening your hold on your things as you practically sprint away from the woman leaving her standing there startled as you disappeared into the crowd of busy New Yorkers.

[dehalogenase]

Chet hanks found dead in chic-fil-a, would you want to see tom hanks cry?

i dont think i would

Peewee herman masturbation scandal

Fappening real pics free

Reddit

Mark wahlberg daily schedule

Shaq daughter name

Howard hughes OCD

Leo dicaprio shirt size?

What does heidi klum eat?

Was olivia rodrigo happy?

icarly freddy

icarly gibby and donut guy

Miranda cosgrove tax returns

Miranda cosgrove test results

Mayim bialik iq

How to increase iq

Chess dot com

Hasan stream

Exit bag instructions

[krejong]

Thank you for the tag @except4bunnies! This was a lot of fun :)

rules: list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard - they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you

Fair warning: a lot of these are books I read/were read to me as a child because those just hit different (and also I remember those better for some reason)

Wiet Waterlanders en de kleine Caroluscode - Mark Tijsmans (Mark Tijsmans writes amazing stuff, and my mum read me this book and it was so good I re-read it like half a dozen times; also recommend from him Het geheim van te veel torens, de ridders van de ronde (keuken)tafel and de Kronieken van Sooi Molenwieken)

La passe-miroir series - Christelle Dabos (yes I’m cheating. Again. This series taught me the true depths of disappointment. I just have no words for the let-down that were the last 50 pages of that fourth book. But the first two were just masterpieces.)

Het diner - Herman Koch (had to read this for school. Mostly remember that nobody else read it. Truly filled with characters that made me go WTF out loud)

The Lord of the Rings - J.R.R. Tolkien (my love for fantasy started with my dad trying to read me The Hobbit in French when I was distinctly too young for it. I read these on my own much later and I adore them)

The Lady’s Guide to Celestial Mechanics - Olivia Waite (my first time reading an explicitly wlw romance in book form! The descriptions were really beautiful)

De boekendief - Markus Zusak (this was a real eye-opener for tween me, who had always learned about the Second World War from the perspective of a country that won it)

Kruistocht in Spijkerbroek - Thea Beckman (TIME TRAVEL! Also re-read this one multiple times)

The Complete Call the Midwife Stories - Jennifer Worth (The love is always palpable in these stories. Some characters like sister Monica Joan stay with you for the rest of your life)

Koning van Katoren - Jan Terlouw (I was obsessed with this book as a kid)

Jaspers vlinders - Johan Vandevelde (One of the books that made me realize my sexuality. Also a lot softer than that Dirk Bracke book about lesbian girls, which really was not suitable for a twelve-year old).

No-pressure tagging: @weidli @charlotteflorentine and @punchandspade

[eye-candy-film-enjoyer]

Wes Anderson Movies + Tv tropes part 2/12

Rushmore (1998)

[atvrvxia]

fall out boy’s new album has me absolutely obsessed and i’ve got crazy muse for my band muses. LIKE THIS for a one liner lyric starter from the album. list of band muses are below the cut, and feel free to request a specific muse or i’ll randomize !!

ERIN EVANS / twenty three- twenty five / drummer and backup singer for 21 days of anarchy /  heterosexual / she/her / the benevolent /  fc: kristine froseth 

the purest ray of sunshine despite going through hell; also the designated mom friend in every friend group. 

HENRIK VAN DER BERG / twenty one- twenty three / frontman, lead vocalist, lead guitarist and secondary songwriter for 21 days of anarchy  /  bicurious / he/him/his / the muso /  fc: herman tommeraas

the youngest in his family and the only one to turn away from the path set out for him by his parents.

JAVIER ‘JAVI’ MORALES / twenty one- twenty three / bassist and vocalist for 21 days of anarchy /  bisexual / he/him/his / the supernaturalist /  fc: froy gutierrez

the bassist who is into conspiracy theories and believes in the supernatural. 

KATERINA ‘KAT’ EVANS / twenty one- twenty three / guitarist, vocalist and primary songwriter for 21 days of anarchy / bisexual / she/her / the vixen /  fc: kathryn newton

the seductive singer with both beauty and brains and constantly rubs it in your face.

ELIAN ‘ELI’ BARNES / twenty one- twenty three / guitarist, (occasional) keyboardist, vocalist and secondary songwriter for bullet beach / bisexual / he/him/his / the lothario / fc: rudy pankow

the indecisive fuck boy who used to have no purpose in life and now finds his purpose with his band. also radiates extreme dumbass energy.

LEVITICUS ‘LEVI’ BEAUFORT / twenty five- twenty seven / frontman, lead vocalist, lead guitarist and primary songwriter for bullet beach / bisexual / he/him/his / the prodigy / fc: freddy carter

the child prodigy who went from playing classical music to being the lead singer and guitarist in an up-and-coming punk rock band

CODY MITCHELL /  twenty two- twenty four /  lead singer and rhythm guitarist for scorching starlight  / bisexual / he/him/his / the songbird /  fc: danny griffin

the lead singer who is so sweet and very hard to dislike; has the tendency to be a bit of a people pleaser and sometimes allow other people to walk all over him.

CORINNA ‘CORI’ MITCHELL /  twenty two- twenty four / bassist for scorching starlight /  bisexual / she/her / the dynamo /  fc: olivia welch

the tomboy bassist who is incredibly ambitious and a little too competitive at times; very sociable and likes to party a lot too.

MÁXIMO ‘MAX’ DE LEON /  twenty one- twenty three / drummer for scorching starlight /  bisexual / he/him/his / the hellion / fc: benjamin wadsworth

the troublemaking drummer who is rebellious and parties hard, but is a true ride or die for those he considers friends; also tends to get into way more fights than he should

[sosoawayrpg]

podem sugerir fcs para wendy e michael darling?

wendy:

Kristine Froseth, Saoirse Ronan, Mackenzie Foy, Millie Bobby Brown, Natalia Dyer, Milly Alcock, Olivia Rodrigo, Hunter Schafer, Phia Saban, Sophie Turner, Emily Alyn Lind, Jodie Comer, Dove Cameron, Freya Allan

michael:

Tarjei Sandvik Moe, Henrik Holm, Herman Tømmeraas, Charlie Plummer, Toby Wallace, Alex Fitzalan, Finn Wolfhard, Noah Schnapp, Rudy Pankow, Tom Holland

[sophia-sol]

Books I read in 2022!

I spent a lot of this year messing with my brain chemicals, in order to find a medication that worked well for me, and what that means is that I spent a lot of this year varyingly exhausted, out of it, too anxious to function, and a bunch of states in between. So I kind of feel like my reading this year was all over the place too, as a result. But I still somehow managed to do a fair amount of reading! Did you know: I like books. I like books a lot.

Books read: 104

Rereads: 20

Books with male authors: 18

Books with female authors: 83

Books with nonbinary authors: 5

Books with authors of colour: 46

5-star books: 18

4-star books: 48

3-star books: 36

2-star books: 2

1-star books: 0

This year and going forward I plan to not think about these numbers in the context of percentage of books read. I have realised that that approach is unhelpful to me, and too often leads to me choosing to not read anything at all if I don't have something appealing on hand that will increase the percentages on the Morally Correct Stats. It's good to read diversely! But it's also good to just....actually read.

Here's the list of all the books I read this year! Please feel free to talk to me about them! I love talking about books!

January

February

*** A Snake Falls to Earth, by Darcie Little Badger

**** Heartstopper volume 3, by Alice Oseman

**** The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System volume 1, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

*** This Poison Heart, by Kalynn Bayron

**** The Flatshare, by Beth O'Leary

*** The Kingdoms, by Natasha Pulley

***** Vespertine, by Margaret Rogerson

*** Kiki Kallira Breaks a Kingdom, by Sangu Mandanna

March

**** Chaos on Catnet, by Naomi Kritzer

**** The Jasmine Throne, by Tasha Suri

**** A Marvellous Light, by Freya Marske

*** Heartstopper volume 4, by Alice Oseman

*** Tidesong, by Wendy Xu

**** Almost American Girl, by Robin Ha - nf

**** The Legend of Auntie Po, by Shing Yin Khor

April

*** A Spindle Splintered, by Alix E Harrow

** Project Hail Mary, by Andy Weir

*** The Complete Debarkle: Saga of a Culture War, by Camestros Felapton

- nf

**** Being Seen: One Deafblind Woman's Fight to End Ableism, by Elsa Sjunneson

- nf

***** The Terracotta Bride, by Zen Cho

*** Victories Greater than Death, by Charlie Jane Anders

***** Elder Race, by Adrian Tchaikovsky

**** The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System, volume 2, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

**** Where the Wild Ladies Are, by Aoko Matsuda, translated by Polly Barton

*** Race the Sands, by Sarah Beth Durst

May

*** Dracula, by Bram Stoker

**** Iron Widow, by Xiran Jay Zhao

***** Too Bright to See, by Kyle Lukoff

**** The Past is Red, by Catherynne M Valente

June

***** All the Horses of Iceland, by Sarah Tolmie

***** Favourite Folktales, translated by [redacted]

*** The Hellion's Waltz, by Olivia Waite

*** The Magnolia Sword, by Sherry Thomas

July

***** The Blue Castle, by Lucy Maud Montgomery

***** Siren Queen, by Nghi Vo

*** Swim Team, by Johnnie Christmas

***** Make, Sew and Mend, by Bernadette Banner

- nf

*** The Grief of Stones, by Katherine Addison

*** Swan Lake: Quest for the Kingdoms, by Rey Terciero

***** Spirits Abroad, by Zen Cho

**** Me and White Supremacy, by Layla F Saad - nf

*** Fevered Star, by Rebecca Roanhorse

**** A Mirror Mended, by Alix E Harrow

**** Outcast, by Rosemary Sutcliff

*** Song for a Dark Queen, by Rosemary Sutcliff

**** The Order of the Pure Moon Reflected in Water, by Zen Cho

***** The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System, Volume 3 - Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

*** The Last Mapmaker, by Christina Soontornvat

*** 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea, by Jules Verne

August

*** Fireheart Tiger, by Aliette de Bodard

*** Birds Through an Opera-Glass, by Florence A. Merriam

- nf

***** A Desolation Called Peace, by Arkady Martine

*** Soulstar, by CL Polk

**** The Odyssey, by Homer, translated by Emily Wilson

**** Glass Town: The Imaginary World of the Brontës, by Isabel Greenberg

*** Have His Carcase, by Dorothy Sayers

September

**** Moby-Dick; or, the Whale, by Herman Melville

*** Folktales of Japan, edited by Keigo Seki, translated by Robert J Adams

***** The Haunting of Tram Car 015, by P Djèlí Clark

***** The Black God's Drums, by P Djèlí Clark

**** The Bear and the Nightingale, by Katherine Arden

*** Skin of the Sea, by Natasha Bowen

**** When You Trap a Tiger, by Tae Keller

**** Squire, by Nadia Shammas and Sara Alfageeh

*** The Girl in the Tower, by Katherine Arden

***** Kaufman Field Guide to Advanced Birding, by Kenn Kaufman

- nf

*** The Winter of the Witch, by Katherine Arden

**** Gideon the Ninth, by Tamsyn Muir

** A Strange and Stubborn Endurance, by Foz Meadows

October

**** Empire of Sand, by Tasha Suri

**** Last Night at the Telegraph Club, by Malinda Lo

**** Realm of Ash, by Tasha Suri

***** Ducks, by Kate Beaton

**** Harrow the Ninth, by Tamsyn Muir

**** Nona the Ninth, by Tamsyn Muir

**** Radcliffe Hall, by Miyuki Jane Pinckard

*** The Golden Enclaves, by Naomi Novik

*** Sailor's Delight, by Rose Lerner

**** The Wife in the Attic, by Rose Lerner

*** Sisters of the Vast Black, by Lina Rather

*** Passing Strange, by Ellen Klages

**** A Taste of Honey, by Kai Ashante Wilson

November

*** The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System, Volume 4, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

**** Into the Riverlands, by Nghi Vo

***** Ocean's Echo, by Everina Maxwell

**** Dracula, by Bram Stoker, edited by Matt Kirkland (Dracula Daily)

*** The Black Tides of Heaven, by Neon Yang

**** Sorcerer of the Wildeeps, by Kai Ashante Wilson

*** Moira's Pen, by Megan Whalen Turner

**** Heaven Official's Blessing, Volume 1, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

**** Heaven Official's Blessing, Volume 2, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

**** Heaven Official's Blessing, Volume 3, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

**** Heaven Official's Blessing, Volume 4, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

December

**** Illuminations, by T Kingfisher

**** Heaven Official's Blessing, Volume 5-8, by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

**** The Ramsay Scallop, by Frances Temple

**** Piranesi, by Susanna Clarke

**** Sing for the Coming of the Longest Night, by Iona Datt Sharma and Katherine Fabian

**** Island of Ghosts, by Gillian Bradshaw

***** Code Name Verity, by Elizabeth Wein

*** Schemes of the Wayfarer, by Drew Sarkis

[lboogie1906]

Alaina Reed Hall (November 10, 1946 – December 17, 2009) was an actress and singer known for her roles as Olivia Robinson on Sesame Street, and as Rose Lee Holloway on 227.

In the mid-1960s, she attended Kent State University where she was active in many stage productions at KSU’s E. Turner Stump Theater. These included The Streets of New York, It’s a Bird, It’s a Plane, It’s Superman! and The Tragedy of Tragedies — The Life and Death of Tom Thumb The Great.

During this time, she was the lead singer of Tiny and the Velours, a vocal group that performed regularly at Kent’s popular student nightspot, The Fifth Quarter.

She began her professional career in Philadelphia and off-Broadway productions. She was among the original cast members in the 1974 off-Broadway production of Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band on the Road. Hall appeared in productions of Hair, Chicago, and Eubie!

In 1985, she starred in the Sesame Street movie Follow That Bird, reprising her role as Olivia. That same year, she co-starred in the sitcom 227. She traveled between New York City and Los Angeles. She left Sesame Street in 1988.

After 227 ended in 1990, she appeared in guest roles on various TV shows, including Herman’s Head and Blossom. She provided the voice for animated characters on Where on Earth Is Carmen Sandiego? In 1995, she co-starred in Cleghorne! The following year, she appeared in The Cherokee Kid. She had recurring roles on Ally McBeal, Any Day Now, and ER.

In addition to stage and television work, she appeared in roles in feature films including Death Becomes Her (1992), Cruel Intentions (1999), and the 2007 independent feature I’m Through with White Girls (The Inevitable Undoing of Jay Brooks).

She married Richard Cook, with whom she had two children. She married actor Kevin Peter Hall 1988-91). She married Tamim Amini 2008-09). #africanhistory365 #africanexcellence

[verticalmomentum1]

Want To Learn How To Get 50k With Just Your Signature?

On This Episode Of The Vertical Momentum Resiliency Podcast With Host Richard Kaufman Veteran-Keynote speaker-Comeback Coach I Sit Down With Herman Dolce…

Herman Dolce, CEO of Bella Sloan Enterprises, is a notable credit specialist and entrepreneur 🏦💼 dedicated to helping others achieve financial independence 💸.

➡️Watch https://www.youtube.com/live/UQ0ypvsbzWU?si=HGJaHb0h1vuh_Eok

➡️Listen https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/vertical-momentum-resiliency-podcast-2-0/id1587033757?i=1000674908925

My Hot 🥵 Take…

His business, named after his daughter, Bella 👧, focuses on educating clients about building and maintaining business credit, a vital resource for entrepreneurs 💪 looking to fund and expand their businesses 📈.

Dolce’s background as a first-generation Haitian-American 🇭🇹 has inspired his drive to provide accessible financial literacy tools, especially for underserved communities 🌎.

Bella Sloan Enterprises has reportedly helped over 5,000 clients improve their credit positioning and secured more than $50 million in funding annually 🏆💰.

Dolce’s approach emphasizes the importance of mindset 🧠, which he describes as key to his success.

He frequently highlights the Reticular Activation System (RAS) 🔍 as a psychological tool for business growth, believing it can help individuals stay focused on achieving financial goals 🎯.

His journey from corporate work 🏢 to entrepreneurship was sparked by a desire for financial freedom and autonomy, ultimately leading him to found a second venture, Olivia Monroe Enterprises 🚛, focused on trucking and logistics.

You can explore his teachings further through his YouTube channel ▶️ or his Bella Sloan Enterprises website 🌐.

Or Get In Touch With Him Here http://linkedin.com/in/herman-dolce

Thank You To Our Friends And Supporters:

Do You Have A Sweet Tooth? I Do Too That’s Why I Have EOD On Standby At All Times Omg Check Them Out https://eodfudge.com/ (https://eodfudge.com/) The Owner Aaron Hale I’d Truly Awesome!

E & A’S Friendly Service, Inc Is The Premier Shop To Get Quality Repairs Done On Your SECOND Biggest Expense…. Your Car Or Truck. Ernie Kolenc-Andrea Kolenc Have Been In Business Over 33 Years. Call Them Today They Are Right In Hackensack, New Jersey. 1-201-342-0295.

-Daniel Curry Of Indy’s It Department: If You Want To STAY In Business And Not Have Your Companies Systems HACKED Get In Touch With Daniel At www.indysitdepartment

To Join The Family? Become A Sponsor Yourself? Start YOUR OWN PODCAST?

CLICK BELOW NOW!

https://linktr.ee/VerticalMomentum

Thank Y’all

#podcast

#impact

#entrepreneur

#thecomebackcoach

#TodayIDecide

#resilience

#veteranssupportingveterans

#verticalmo

mentum