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More about Blitz and anger . . .
Anger is a super stigmatized emotion. That's for a reason- it's powerful. When we see it from other people it's usually externalized- it's ugly, aggressive, shows up in abusive situations- it sometimes leads to violence. But when we talk about righteous anger, or the anger of marginalized people, we sometimes praise it. That's because anger can be empowering too.
I want to talk about how Blitz's anger, while it's also destructive at times, has empowered him.
Personal note: when I was a kid, I was yelled at frequently by my mother. The house I grew up in was a 60's rancher with a long hallway in the center, and she would chase me down the hallway yelling. As I grew older, I learned to yell back. Feeling anger and externalizing it didn't make the hurt go away, and it didn't solve our problems- it turned us into two people yelling at each other- but it did make me feel less helpless.
So let's look at Blitz as a kid. In addition to guilt tripping him, his father tells him that "there are scarier things," than stealing from a wealthy and (literally) powerful family, and he doesn't disagree. I think this screenshot captures their relationship pretty well.
We see moments of defiance from Blitz though, even as he's very much under Cash's control. Georgia Dow pointed this out in her video about how Blitz learned resilience in his childhood. Here, have some defiant expressions:
Notice Blitz's eyebrows here, mirroring his father. I suspect that as he grew older, Blitz learned to push back harder, to argue, maybe even to yell. He learned to channel his anger- at being used, diminished, devalued (very likely yelled at and probably physically hurt too) into expression, into fight (I don't picture him physically fighting Cash, but the guy has fight in him- of all kinds).
He learned to feel angry at the world and express that too- for treating imps as lower than other demons, for limiting his options in life, for filling the road to success with exploitation (as we see in the Mammon flashbacks with Fizz).
Speaking of that flashback, he's very ready, as a teenager, to express anger exactly when he needs to for the purpose of protecting a loved one.
Fast forward to the present.
Blitz's anger helps him stand up for the people he cares about- see Fizz in the present at Mammon's show but also Moxxie in Spring Broken.
It helps make him good at his job too. When we see him fight, he doesn't tend to seem all out enraged, but he's super determined and all in. He's at home in a conflict. When he's doing his best fighting, we see a mix of the "angry" facial expressions and pure confidence.
Anger also helps him manage a lot of difficult emotions. Disclaimer (and idea I'll get back to soon)- I said manage, not deal with.
When he interacts with Verosika and with Robo Fizz early in season 1, there's genuine underlying pain from how the relationships with Verosika and the real Fizz ended, but he channels that into anger. The anger makes him take action (Good action? Eh. But still action- he's not crying on his couch.) rather than get consumed by more painful emotions. He's able to keep going.
It also gets in his way, even as he uses it as a coping mechanism. Is his anger at Muffy and the Karen in the doctor's office understandable as he's dealing with his frustration about the inaccessibility of healthcare for Loona and his worries about losing Stolas? Yes. Is it helpful? No, probably not.
It isn't useful with Stolas either. Stolas is this person who's kind and beautiful and quirky and able to match his wit, and who Blitz has grown genuine feelings for, but who is also deeply entwined in the unfairness in Hell's society that Blitz has grown to resent throughout his life- AND Stolas unknowingly participates in some very familiar microaggressions himself.
Blitz channels a whole range of complicated emotions- love, fear, despair at the thought that he isn't loved back- all into anger because he HAS been wronged and his world IS unfair, and anger is COMFORTABLE because anger is ACTIVE, and with it he doesn't have to just let things happen to him!
So we end up back here.
#Okay pretty proud of this one#anger essays part 2?#blitzo buckzo#helluva boss#stolitz#blitz#blitzo#my helluva meta#I'm not going to put a value judgment on his anger at the end in this one- it's understandable#but yes also he IS unknowingly yelling at an abuse victim#It's complicated#let our boy be complicated and be right and also wrong at the same time
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So, in PIDW, there was obviously wife plots that could bring back the dead (mushroom body being one of them), and since we know Airplane is a hack that reuses concepts over and over, thereās probably multiple wife plots that could work, so like, whereās the PIDW fics where Liu Qingge somehow comes back to life, memories of Shen Jiu trying to save him intact, and goes to hunt the asshole down so he can repay his life debt, and along the way accidentally clears Shen Jiuās name of all his crimes and now everyone is convinced Shen Qingqiu is a saint.
#Iām imagining this being around the time of the trial arc where lbh has sqq in the water prison and has probably already started his torture#maybe sqq is physically crippled after this or maybe lqg goes on a quest to get him a mushroom body either way itāll be so much angst!!#sqq deserves to not be tortured okay?? because while child abuse isnāt okay neither is the cycle of abuse and also? Iām pretty sure other#peak lords treated their disciples worse youāre telling me lqg who apparently beat his disciples ritually every month or so was better??#ALSO? airplane is a confirmed hack and I donāt belive him when heās the one telling use sqq is evil (he wrote the og book after all)#mxtx hell#mxtx fandom#liushen#liujiu#liu qingge#svsss shen jiu#original shen qingqiu#shen qingqiu#shen jiu#svsss shen qingqiu#svsss fandom#svsss#mxtx svsss#svsss au#sqq svsss#svsss fanfiction#svsss fic#svsss liu qingge#scumbag system#scum villain self saving system#danmei#pidw#proud immortal demon way#airplane shooting towards the sky
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Pirate Lady Lizzie Shadowlady be upon ye! She's a Captain! She's a Queen! She... kidnapped the prince of Mezalea and now he wants to join her?!
As a part of the @mcytblraufest, here is my Pirate AU featuring Lizzie because I love her. In this ocassion we had a reverse Big Bang! The art inspired This Fic. Go check it out, it's incredible!
close-up because I'm super happy with her! she's so pretty
#ldshadowlady#lizzie ldshadowlady#jizzie#shadowbeans#the ocean queen#it's art-abella#this is one of my favorite pieces of fanart by me. im really proud of the process that led me to this result#i did my work on the anatomy okay?! i did my best and im very content#it was so hard to not post this instantly months ago#shes so pretty!!!#i love women
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the traveler, the star, and the fish
"why are there fish, nico?" you ask. well. lets jusr say. fish
sign that says id really appreciate reblogs of my art !!! /nf
#cat's rambles#cat's art#isat#isat siffrin#proud enough of it to put it in the sifrin tag . please dont regret this me#tw eyestrain#tw bright colors#i think those are the right tags yeah .#gonna ramble over here in the tags now#this was Originally a project for art class sigh#however i wanted to draw siffrin . n the theme was Fish today. so i added the fish#n then i made a poll and the consensus was to finish this!! so i did!!!#n im really glad i did :3 ive been trying out different styles of digital art recently and i gotta say i like this one. a lot#also the star shiningthing. im very very proud of that#pretty#i almost forgot sifs pin things sigh#is there meaning behind this you ask. well. maybe#okay yeah done talking in here. sign that says rb my art maybe#queue you
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when the chastity is graceful or smthn idk I didnt watch the show
Individuals under the cut ā
#okay turns out angela is really fun to draw lmao#im so proud of the ddmd one#i have literally no idea how to do lighting but i think it turned out pretty good#also graces hair is so fun to draw#just a fun character overall#i love her <33#hatchetfield#hatchetverse#grace chasity#grace chastity#nerdy prudes must die#dirty dudes must die#starkid#team starkid#starkid fanart#starkid productions
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My darling, Kaito, wearing a shirt with his little sister on it <3
(rambling in the tags ā)
#shshshhhh shush SHADDUP they're siblings in my mind š¤«#kaito shion#vocaloid#hatsune miku#fanart#my art#I'm telling you#Kaito is totally Miku's big brother and like#He's her biggest fan I'm literally correct#/j#Uhm anyways scratches head#why can't bro stick to one style of rendering wth#š§āāļø#My brother thought that he was wearing a binder#That's not what I intended but whatever#Whatever man#I'm proud of the hair like usually it's pretty difficult for me#uhm yeah#I don't like giving characters blue eyes for some reason#???#In my world Kaito has green eyes#yeah#āBlue SHUT UUPPPPPā okay okay I will man š#ibispaintx#vocaloid art#vocal synth#kaito vocaloid#headcanon
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I need advice.
Iām a white intern working in a mostly white southern(ish) high school. Students of Color number at under 2%, perhaps even lower. Itās a very white, rural community - I grew up in a fairly mixed, suburban northern community, and part of my family is Black.
Several of my white students say rude things to my Students of Color. Iāve told them to knock it off *as appropriately as I can* but Iām probably one of the few adults that actively discourage that behavior.
I donāt want to let this shit fly under the radar, but I also know that if an adult of authority *who will only be here for a couple more weeks* interferes, and then doesnāt stick around, it could make things worse. Additionally, I know these kids are probably very very very used to this āsystemā and that making a short-term change could be more harmful than helpful.
I asked one of my senior students after a very racist incident *where she was laughing along with the perpetrator but I told him to stop anyway* that I can move him, or her, so she could be more comfortable (admin either does nothing or slaps wrists, especially for seniors). She said it was fine and that he was always like that.
I must emphasize, I think they were bantering (they talk so much I think they consider each other friends?), but it was also wayyy fucking out of line, especially in a school setting. And the guy says so much out of line shit Iām surprised he isnāt rocking a full set of dentures to replace the teeth he ought to have lost by now.
Another student took me up on my offer to move people, but I ended up moving him, which sucks because he was the victim in this situation. Unfortunately, I have to keep his aggressors in their spots, as they are highly rowdy in all the ways and require a lot more supervision than he did. And the class is really full. These were also all freshmen, so I wouldnāt be surprised if that affected the victimās reaction.
So Iād really appreciate advice as to whether I should let it be, or continue as is, or step it up even more, from People of Color in largely white, especially rural, communities. Like any advice from current or previous educators, especially Educators of Color would be appreciated, but specifically southern/rural ones would be wonderful. Iām going to talk to my family members about it, but theyāve lived in more Northern settings their entire lives and they may have less ā¦ applicable (?) experience to the situation.
Again, Iām an intern, Iām going to only be there until winter break 2024, and I donāt want to fuck things up for these kids in the long run with my northern ally āsensibilitiesā. Thank you!
#education#help#advice#educators of color#students of color#academia#slightly more context: the senior was a Black girl. there are not a lot of Black students but thereās multiple of them from different#families (though I also tutor her little brother). so she may have community to fall back upon and that might feel like enough for her#the freshman boy is mixed Asian and as far as I can tell is the only Asian kid currently in this high school#since weāre in Appalachia of course a lot of people say shit like āmy great grandmother was Cherokeeā (apologies to the Cherokee community#but Iām quoting these people) but some of my students are much more tan and experience a bit of colorism. again I try to shut that down but#idk how far to take it. the one girl who is definitely Indigenous (Iām not going to specify further because itās a small community) doesnāt#seem to be treated negatively for it and seems quite proud so Iām glad for her#but she also passes as one of the tan students so idk if sheās just comfortable bringing it up around me and it doesnāt come up near#racist students or what.#more context I forgot to bring up: Iām pretty sure most if not all of the Black students are mixed or have mixed parents. so they may#have white family members that make this system of poor treatment seem okay? or white family members#who help compensate for the racist people in the community?#I really donāt fucking know and I really donāt want to make things worse for anyone#getting āaggressiveā protection from a student intern may NOT be helpful#idk#thank you for reading this far
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Reading loz/lu fics and it's just so interesting how wide the spectrum is of their personalities.
Sometimes it's got an in universe reason (different past (usually gender or species change), recent or ongoing traumatic events, a spectacularly bad first meeting), but sometimes (often) the characters are just... Weirdly angsty or peppy, there's no in between!
And I'm beginning to think less people have played more than one game than I thought XD.
Not that it's anyone's fault! One game is more than enough to be part of it all, and loz is exclusive to Nintendo consoles - and all the older stuff is frustratingly hard to get hold of. Heck, I'm still looking for wind waker, and that was really popular! And then you have to play it! They're not small games!!
But could people writing wild please ease off just a tiiiiiny bit so he can be a semi functional member of society pretty please XD? He's just as much a polite boy as any other member of the chain! He won't even run in shops! He can't attack npcs! He talks to every single person he's ever seen and remembers every single name. Yes, he's three quarters woodland creature with a hefty amount of trauma but he's also a fashionista who managed to avoid accidentally taking sides in a mayoral election and that's not easy!
#I have some actual gripes but that's just me being pedantic about something I know a lot about#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#loz link#loz botw#loz totk#the legend of zelda#totk link#lu wild#Okay but please stop making his teleportation a point of interest to the chain they ALL can warp it's not even slightly special#And the slate/pad doesn't hold any items I'm begging you that's just fanon it's never been canon or been implied to be#Travelling across hyrule (on horseback) is about a week and a half following the paths at a walk. Rito to lurelin. It's not weeks on foot t#Hyrule Castle!!#This isn't a problem but like. Let link be petty brats to civilians occasionally. It's enrichment. They all have beef with some rando.#They're all extremely polite and let people get away with more than they maybe should but like. Adults starting smth with a 16yo.#Also wild has serious beef with ganon why does everyone write him so chill. Like botw sure but totk?? Absolutely not.#'wah my home is in ruins it's all my fault' it's been like that for yonks no one's even mad and hello?? Miles on miles on untouched#Landscapes?? Millenia of ruins indistinguishable from the recent stuff?? Link literally died he could not have done any more#How anyone can play botw/totk and not be BLISTERINGLY proud of hyrule I don't know#Okay but why does everyone (particularly legend omg) always bitterly blame hylia like loz has a dozen odd deities and hylia is the ONE who#Got cursed right alongside link. It's just... Idk but it seems like such a culturally Christian thing. All the focus on one who then gets#Blamed for everything in life going wrong. Not even Christian but specifically American Catholic. I don't know.#Hylia is the one deity we can pretty safely assume is neither omnipotent or omniscient lmao#In every time she has a voice (botk/ss) she pretty clearly mucks up or gets tricked and has regrets#In ss when she was zelda she hated every second of leading link around and even then it all hinged on link being completely willing!!#And then she got kidnapped anyway!#In totk (spoilers) she loses contact with one of her statues and asks link to check it out. Another statue gets POSESSED by ol triangle hea#And again link has to figure out the problem. Like even in her divine form she is so far from all knowing and all doing.#It's a lot of conflating with the concept of fate maybe?
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[SSR] Rosienne Minuit - The Rose Festival
after many tears, the main star is here!! š or, Rosienne's card for my fan event (which is also, technically, his hometown event)
surprisingly, he's not in a dress this time, but i saw the coat on Pinterest and couldn't resist myself. the yellow is, of course, a reference to Belle because one he deserves to be the main character for once and second because i wanted to drive home that he's got some inspiration from her too
[ voicelines under the cut // mention of @cheerleaderman's Astrid ]
Summon Line: Ah, you should be careful around here. Wouldnāt want to get your fingers pricked by the roses, would you? When Summoned: You better not slack off, Prefect. We have to get everything ready on time. Donāt look at me like that. Iām the boss here, I can lay down. Groooovy!!: [locked] Home: How was it like growing up in a castle like this? Well, cold, mostly. Home Idle 1: Iāve been helping my dad run this place ever since I was a little kid. You can probably find lots of embarrassing photos of baby me in period clothes. Home Idle 2: Back in middle school, I never really invited any of my classmates to the festival. Itās kind of nice to do so now, you know? Home Idle 3: Somebody falling for you even despite your monstrous appearance, such a beautiful tale! That doesnāt happen in real life, of course, but itās fun to indulge from time to time. Home Idle - Login: Yes, yes, I know, itās weird seeing me in such bright colors. You donāt have to say it. Home Idle - Groovy: [locked] Home Tap 1: That dress looks spectacular on Astrid. Who knew he could look anything other than a sad medieval orphan? Home Tap 2: I invited Silver mostly because Iāve expected him to look real prince-like in here. And he does! His face is great at driving more guests in. Home Tap 3: My dadās been so excited to meet my friendsā¦ and Iāve been stressed somebody will embarrass me before him. Home Tap 4: Despite her name, it is said that the Beautiful Princess valued inner beauty more than the personās looks. Iām sure a certain someone could learn from her. Okay, okay, that was a joke! You donāt have to go repeating it to him! Home Tap 5: Riddleās took to teach people historical tableside manners. Usually, only our staff knows so much about this sort of stuff. Iām kind of impressed. Home Tap - Groovy: [locked]
Duo Magic
ROSIENNE: You better not fall behind, pretty boy. VIL: Oh, I'd rather worry if you can keep up.
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst oc#twisted wonderland oc#twst fan event#pomefiore oc#š art#š„ rosienne#ngl im quite proud of this one#tho if i have to draw ONE MORE ROSE#i'll explode i SWEAR#anyways!!#i rlly hope i'll be able to make the cards for jĆ³zia + the canon boys bc ive got their outfits designed already and#im quite proud of the designs too!!#im having so much fun with this is what im trying to say#tried not to push my own oc x canon's because this is an open event and all but i allowed myself to get a little indulgent with#the duo magic lines <3#okay secret tags lore tm but#ive actually been thinking about rosie calling vil pretty boy as an insult back when they still didnt like eachother#and then it turning into a term of endearment over time.........#ugh i feel SO normal guys i swear
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Pixel art humans practiiiise- character based on my avatar in a dressup game!
#pixel art#love nikki#love nikki dress up queen#lnduq#posts that will not do well but that is ok im still very proud of this one WWWW#i was really afraid i wouldnt b able to figure out how to do the jewerly but it turned out pretty okay#trying to get some more of these done so i can eventually do comms in this style#ive been really out of inspiration lately but i keep wanting to draw so it horts#so im just doing nikki outfits atm. its nice n easu
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gooooooooood MORNING !! happy wednesday friendz ! we made it to hump day yipeeee !! have the bestest day, iām cheering on all of youuu ! Ł©(ĖįĖ*)Ł
#incoming yap alert#oooooo iām so excited bc tonight im starting a new pathfinder campaign and my character is so cool >:3#a lil badass gunslinger who seeks revenge on the man that wronged her !!#my sniper queen <3#alsooo yesterday i got so much work done on the event !!!#lowkey v proud of myself bc i am NOT good with writing deadlines but i really want everything done for friday !!!#just gotta edit the blurbs and make the moodboards and match ups look pretty#v exciting stuff :ā)#okay i must go bc itās a very busy day so i will return later !!#i promise to answers my asks and catch up on my tags soon :( life has just been a lil crazy !!!#sending out sm love !!!#āĖā¹ į° xoxo aims#š£ļø the daily yap .#<- one day i will update this tag ā¦ one day ā¦
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you can let it go you can throw a party full of everyone you know you can start a family who will always show you love you don't have to be sorry, no
( @milleroptimism @wantdead @patchedstars @dgrayd @lilyspaintedred @littletavpole )
#( a mirrorball shining just for you // visage )#( dynamic // && the harringtons )#( dynamic // && the miller-winchesters )#myedits#(yes another one <3 canāt stop wonāt stop)#(but hehehe surprise besties rlly hope tumblrās broken self tags everyone-)#(hope you all enjoy - i am pretty proud of this one the only bit iām kinda dissatisfied w is the siblings clips)#(bc i feel like it couldāve been edited much more smoothly but i tried my best fitting multiple clips in a very short time span-)#(ANYWAYS YES HERE WE GO!!! OKAY TO RB IF YOUāVE BEEN TAGGED!!!)#(gonna go see if i can get some more sleep now <3)
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OKAY IāM DONEā¼ļø tomorrowā¼ļø
(Subtract about 3-4k [in-progress notes and afterword for my print versionāwhich will be sent to those who asked once i finish editing (might be a minute)!] but hereās proof)
sorry it took so long. I was really unhappy with a couple sections and decided to stop bitching about how unhappy I was with them on tumblr and take the time to rewrite them to a standard that I would actually be happy postingā¦ which I thought would take like a weekā¦ silly compacfltā¦ always triple the amount of time I estimate i might needā¦ so sorry Iāve been MIA. ive been working on this the whole time.
but now Iām actually really happy with these. And with their completion, it means this series is over. I think this is an ending I can actually be proud of, now. so for me it was worth it.
also i think i should reiterate, these arenāt supposed to be read all at once, i just thought it would be crazy to post these dozens of individual one-shots as their own chapters. thatās crazy. Lol. so you can treat them like chapters if you want. or donāt. Iām not your mom
these sections (ice/mav retiring, getting married, hangster wedding, retired life etc.) will be posted tomorrow. Thank you for waitingā¼ļø
#a couple of you asked if Iām okay. yes!! just angsting over these sections#this is the end of the series. I had to get it right. I had to.#really not a perfectionist but when stuff is busted it gotta get fixed.#also just a warning. i might delete this fic sometime soon.#not the whole series. just this fic.#im incredibly proud of part two but part one especially is not my best work#Iām fine with people reading it now but maybe not in perpetuity.#and slider was a pretty good way to end the series otherwise#these extras were just for me āŗļø#happy thanksgiving btw! very grateful for all of you. have a good holiday.
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You are my sunshine, warming the shadows where doubt hides. My angel, you lift me when the weight of the universe pulls me down. In your light, I find peace. In your arms, I find home. You are my star, guiding me through the darkest nights. When the world feels heavy, your light reminds me where I belong. In your glow, I am never lost, only ever found. You are my moon, steady in the sky when everything else fades. Even in the quietest hours, your presence pulls me closer. In your soft light, I find calm in the chaos.
Aesthetic moodboard for some of the nicknames Anakin calls me~ ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½
proship/doubles/neutral dni
#I am actually pretty proud of how this turned out ;////;#my work;#okay to rb#beyond us; only darkness#my starfire#I'm thinking of making one for my si and the nicknames they have for him š¤ maybe
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prettiest flower šø
#yena talks#joshua.svt#one of the candidates for the tracking tag post gif!#decided against using it bc when i put text over it the underside of shua's chin decided to pixelate into yellows#it was weird bro#i still don't know how that happened#anyway i still have the clear gif so here it is <33#bc i wanna post this and also bc it's PRETTY okay and im kinjda proud of it#joshua#svt#3012
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#inazuma eleven#inazuma eleven go#kidou yuuto#art#im not too proud of this one. had a pose ref for the shoulders and arm and it's very obvious#but its still pretty!#should of done colored lines instead but thats okay i can always go back someday.#used it to practice line weight and perspective and stuff. not the best at that but aaa#i try my best i really do!
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