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Even though I loved the writing of LoL Jayvik I really appreciate that Arcane is going for a different approach so far, makes things feel less predictable! Instead of ideological differences driving the divide between them it is more so that they are just... out of sync so far?? I mean, during last season Viktor even before his diagnosis was eagerly meddling with the Hexcore with little regard to safety, then straight up went for the illicit and damaging drug to facilitate the transformation process, then when he ran out of that drug he proceeded to try using Hexcore without it (when he already TESTED that on plants and should have known it would backfire) which killed Sky... At which point he went oh shit, ok, I should stop meddling with this thing and just die peacefully maybe. It's not very clear how much of that he told Jayce aside from making him promise to destroy the Hexcore, but Jayce's surprised reaction in s2 when hearing about Sky makes me think it wasn't much at all...? So Jayce doesn't feel as much of an asshole for, once again, going against Viktor's explicit wishes. He pretty much never has the full picture before being forced to make a decision! Idk it makes him very sympathetic to me ngl, just feeling more and more guilt but continuing to fuck up due to lack of knowledge and experience, is that not relatable? And aside from being entirely unprepared for Viktor's death even after s1 I think it's like Jinx says in this Act too, it was something he could fix for once... Perhaps this is why he agrees to the use of Hextech weapons, too, feeling like it's the only thing he can do to 'help' the people he cares about and protect himself too (I guess killing just 1 defenseless child wasn't enough of a learning moment for him lmao). Despite again, this going very much against Viktor's wishes (and Mel's!! we didn't get her with Jayce after this but I imagine she's not very happy with him either... Viktor&Mel team up when). This time Jayce is the one just going for it and hoping for the best despite knowing very little of how it works. I also love how a lot of us in the fandom and also Singed in the series assumed Jayce would be appalled by Viktor's experiments but instead... he immediately goes even further :D And when Viktor wakes up and goes bye Jayce is like ?? but then by the end of the next episode he starts to realise that ohh alright so maybe yeah they should have stopped... Who'd have thunk. I'm not super up to date with League lore but is it really that difficult to find a sane mage for consultation purposes? ...Also I really doubt that hitting that thing (wild rune?) with his hextech-powered hammer was a good move lmao and yet even in this it seems similar to what Viktor is currently doing. Both continue to use the arcane to try and fix things, Jayce through violence and Viktor through transmutation, but it kind of seems like the same kind of mistake. (they are just pretty bad scientists and always have been and i love that for them lmao)
#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#jayvik#jayce arcane#viktor arcane#and i do love how it's jayce making the call to turn viktor into a magical being#sure it robs viktor of his autonomy but#that makes sense for a disabled character in a bitter way i think#and im sure viktor will take a lot of that agency back now that he's starting a cult#and jayce can swim in his ocean of guilt for this foreverrr#text#long post#arcane
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chat htey fuckin jumpscared me while im trying to do my assignment
#this isnt xmen related but it can be if i try#i think enjoying james mcavoy comes with the territory of being a cherik enjoyer vjaeLKe thems just the strokes i dont make the rules#snap chats#'snap i thought you were sleeping' i was lying but it wasnt in bed i fear fjaELKEJ#no my prof has our assignments due at 8AM so i do them the night before WHATEVER its just reading news articles#and they put this ad at the bottom and i was term searching and i got jumpscared when the page jumped right to it#i saw the movie opening night and it was. the goofiest thing. the movie partially but My Night Mostly#cause at the beginning of the week i told my ma i was going to see it and she- trying to be a mother for the first time- was like#'oh we should watch it together :)' but as the time approaches she's like 'i mean do we HAAVE to watch it horror's traumatizing....'#im so glad i didnt go with my mom i know she woulda soured the whole thing for me she hates me and everything i love#like miss ma'am go AWAY i just went with my brother and the theater was virtually empty so we kept crackin jokes jvlkeakj#I STILL GENUINELY ENJOYED THE MOVIE THOUGH i should watch the og sometime but this was a good watch .... a fun one even...#this movie solidified the fact i love it when james plays- as he says- 'devilish' characters it is ACTUALLY primo to my life#so funny cause my bro and i still crack jokes about and reference it i didnt think he'd care bout it after we left but vjlkjlkja#ok im goig to bed for real now im tired and i wanna get up early to do work BYE
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my sweet little baby man is no longer with us
#he had his bloodwork done yesterday and the vet said it was fine but he doesnt have much time left#and my bestie is a vet tech who wanted to see the lab results bc she always does and she looked at them#and asked me if she can shiw them to her boss today and i was like sure and immediately knew something was up#today keekki was being himself#then i went to run some errands and when i came back he was laying in front of the front door with his tiny baby head against it#and i was like ''oh ok one of his seizures?''#and theyre like. keekki will drool and not move and they usually last for like 20 minutes (several vets have no idea whats up with those#but it was probably either a kidney or a blood pressure thing)#anyways. it did not pass in 20 minutes so i Knew#i laid on the floor next to him#then my bff sent me a message asking me if i have the time to talk about keekki and its not good news#at this point i was about to call the vet anyways#and she was like ''ok i showed these to my boss (a vet) and she got super angry that ur vet even let you leave the clinic''#bc apparently keekkis bloodwork was so bad he should have been put down then and there but my vet was like a fresh half graduate#so i dont hold it against her. anyways i got an euthanasia appointment for this evening and spent the time before it laying on the couch#crying with keekki in my arms#i had to carry him bc he couldnt really walk without stumbling and falling down#when i had to get up to get his carrier and stuff ready he was taking a nap on the couch where i left him and i took this pic#anyways worst vet visit of my life i could hardly even do anything but nod half the time bc speaking results in me sobbing#anyways. this fucking sucks#i dont know how ill be able to sleep tonight#its been years since i last slept at home without having a little guy plop into my arms#i spent a long time with him in the vet room when he was gone#it feels surreal ive given him his last ever forehead kisses#as i left the room i told him bye the exact same way ive been saying bye to him for the last very many years ive had him#its always moikka keekki before i go to work or the store or literally anything#and that was my last moikka keekki#i hope he felt how loved he was#my dad is sending me older pics of me and keekki and he looks so happy in them. hes always right next to me#idk man im going to stop rambling now
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// tw blood //
yeah teachers satosugu is fun but how bout cult leaders satosugu
#tw blood#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#satosugu#gojo satoru#geto suguru#sorry but i HAD to draw gojo with blood all over his face#i have SO many thoughts about this AU#i know gojo is cat-coded as hell but consider: geto's loyal guard dog gojo#he will do all the dirty work without geto even asking him. he'd stain his hands red for geto without question.#theyre so disgustingly in love#this all started with me brainrotting in my friend's dms#and us wondering what wouldve happened if geto said yes when gojo asked him if he should kill everyone in the room when he retrieved riko#and things kinda spiraled from that point onwards#that sketch with geto holding him back happened because i was thinking about that “GET YO FUCKIN DOG BITCH” “it dont bite” “YES IT DO” vine#geto's the brains of the operation and gojo's the brawn#(if only because gojo's too lazy and thinks murder is the fastest way to solve all their problems)#ok im rambling too much bye#my art
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i guess im being offered the job lol
#i didnt even have to interview????? here i was worrying about oh god going for an interview#but i guess not???#manager called me just now and was like hey i spoke w the people they want to know if you can start on these dates#like. okay???????#theres a week of training for me to do and then the following week id start at thee job#like an idiot as i was saying bye on the phone i only remembered then that i should have asked if it was PAID training ugh.#im assuming so . but maybe not. idk#im gonna call him back on monday to give my answer#this is it.... i may finally be free of the annoying people....#but like anything i have my trepidations. bc who know if itll work out#well thats life. as the song goes#fortunately im still within the timeframe to change the amount for my commuter benefits pretax card thing#bc the monthly pass id need for the new job#costs like less than half of what i pay now for the bus to ny#crazyyyyy. anyway i gotta do that if i decide to take the job#its more money (a little. but still more. ok its like a dollar and 4 cents more. which not a lot but still)#i get more sleepytime (always good) and im saving on commuting#plus ill only have to pay nj (and federal) taxes. instead of also paying ny yay. thats good#sorry again weighing the pros and cons onstage here#UH. what else#well a shorter commute is good but it means less reading/music listening time#although ive only resumed reading recently lol#idk. well then i could read at home and not worry about my books getting messed up#these past couple weeks ive been :( that the like 70-something year old paperback ive been taking is getting a bit rougher#only a little. but yesterday it got a bit wet bc my bag got soaked in the rain#why am i taking a super old book to work well i dont know what to tell you we have some old books#ok getting off topic. everything seems good about the new job so fuck dude i guess ill go for it#finally free of the stupid people here.... on to new stupid people (undoubtedly)#well it's probably all good then but unfortunately i always worry what if it isnt. hm
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help me my mom is shipping me with some random chinese man whom i helped buying tickets
#it's crazy. knowing english and helping random foreigners is my passion#also so many things happening. i should write that fucking article when i get home lmfao#if my laptop wont fail me (i think she's fine now????? hopefully????)#but also like. I'll get to that tomorrow probably.#you know what i wanna do? if my laptop wont fail me i wanna play my fuckin game lmao#but idk if i should or if i will have time when i get home etc etc#also one more thing i look so freaking ugly in biometric photos im gonna sjjsnsndhdhfhhf#anyway if it works out i will have another photo next year so im trying not to let it get to me lmao#alsoooo just yesterday got accepted by a school in finland and today got a reply from one in germany#and they want me to take an exam in july lmao???? girl how tf will i get a visa etc with that timeline#anyway. ughhhhhh so many things happening etc#i wonder how my next months will be like. ok bys#bye*#🗒
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You ever think about the fact that you have a dark, ugly secret that you're gonna have to take to the grave because it'd ruin your life and the life of at least one other person who you really shouldn't be worrying about but you can't stop?
Yeah, me neither.
In other news I'm about to cut Gale's fucking arm off with a hacksaw in Extinct Animals so stay tuned, it's gonna be awful, just awful.
#The tragic fate of blonde men#Emotional punching bag of choice#Wish the secrets weren't there though#But what can you do?#There's peanut butter in the cupboard and Austin butler to torture#So surely things can't be that bad#I'm Gucci though#Just cannot sleep so I am doing a wee jokey vent#To get the thinkies out#I think it's kind of working#(cus I cannot vent about the secret to anyone I know because it would be like detonating a nuclear bomb in my childhood friendship group)#(ugly ugly business the lot of it)#But again#I'm chillin#Lol#I should make like a tree and shut the fuck up#Hillyspeaks#I like to refer to the inciting event as the time that God whumped me#Didn't feel great tbh#Please just ignore my ramblings I am sleepy but too wired to actually sleep#Bad combo#Ok I'm actually going now bye and sorry#Vagueposting#The secret is that I was Hannah Montana all along#I was gossip girl#I was A#I am Spartacus#Jesus I'm fucking delirious
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brings you to the lavender farm¹ that the bear² is from and takes you through the fields looking at all the different types of lavender before having some lunch at the farm cafe and getting you some lavender ice cream to try out (i'm sure you're interested by the sound of it and yes it is pretty good^^) and then takes you to the gift shop for you to look through at anything else you might like so i can get it for you:> and just has a lovely day together:3
1. https://lyndochlavenderfarm.com.au/
2. https://lyndochlavenderfarm.com.au/products/lavender-bear?_pos=1&_sid=90127ddf4&_ss=r
uhm, yeah <3
:O a fun outing!!!!! there are so many cool different types of lavender i never knew... and not all of them are purple! i only thought lavender came in. well. lavender so seeing different colors is really cool...i especially like the hidcote pink and munstead, very pretty! i am running through the fields and picking flowers if they would let me pick flowers if they don't i am admiring their beauty without taking anything ^^ you're right actually i would love to try lavender ice cream! and i also wanna try lavender honey and lavender jam, they sound very floral and sweet, very nice c: i should find some for myself soon in like a farmers market or something i wanna try it irl... hmmm....from the gift shop i would like the lavender body mists, incense, lip balm, & bath salts. ok maybe not the bath salts actually ^^' i don't trust myself not to eat them. vietnam flashbacks. and also the lavender sleep pillow for the same reason i'd like the plushie (seems cuddly and would help me sleep) and finally maybe some lavender seeds so i could grow my own lavender! thank you for taking me this day was so fun, at the end of the day i reveal i have taken some lavender flowers and weaved them into a flower crown for you and i put it on your head. i love you. i also took the plushie and she had so much fun, here are two pictures i drew of her enjoying the day out ^^
she is laying in the grass and also sitting next to lavender flowers because i couldn't decide which drawing i liked better. ignore the way her palms are open magnanimously like jesus christ or jerry seinfeld i wanted to show her beans. also ignore the way her nose is white in the grass drawing i forgot to color it in. just imagine she ate a powdered donut filled with lavender jelly, okay? thank you again, this was really fun! bye bye 💖💖💖
#the thought of this made me very happy ^^ what if life could be dream...#only thing is i can't actually get the bear plushie because they don't ship to the us. hell world.#anyway i have been trying to learn how to draw lately!#it's slow going because between family and friends and college and other hobbies (like chess and baking and gardening) and The Horrors#i don't have a lot of time to practice#so i'm not very good yet but that's okay because i'm having fun and i'm allowed to be bad at things#so far i can draw.#BUNNY! KITTY! SHEEPY!#THE FACE (AND NOTHING ELSE! JUST THE FACE!) OF A MELANCHOLY WOMAN WITH HEAVILY LIDDED EYES#AND WINGED EYELINER AND LIPSTICK AND BRAIDS!#TEDDY BEAR! CREEPY SMILE! BREASTS! and that's it ^^#i want to try my hand at fanart someday maybe...#for now i've set a goal that i need to get better at drawing bodies and hands and generally conveying motion.#like looking to the side and different poses. and HAND POSES ugh i'm so bad at hand poses.#i do most of my work on pencil and paper but i should get some kinda drawing app soon...#only thing is i don't have a tablet and i know in my heart i cannot draw with a mouse on a computer. i just Can't.#i mean i guess i DO have a laptop but it doesn't have a touch screen...#so digital is kinda off the table for now unless i'm drawing with my phone (like the teddy bear drawing)#i'm rambling. ok so thank you!! the mental image of this was very pleasing to me.#you're very nice. have a nice day!!! you deserve it. bye bye <3#fortunes told (asks)
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#flowers arts#hes so sweet Does he know? Does he know?#WELL i guess during riv hes before becoming an older guy so hes allowed to break his role sometimes on purpose and enjoy#these things But whatever. that ones not riv CHECKMATE.#i dont know if im going to draw the different eyes for that i like the idea of it being hidden better than AT LEAST that .#especially considering no part of him actually. knows at this point#Uhhhh. Beap boxing puppy#i dont think ive ever shared im useful and free This song is kind of at fault for that. What the hell. it makes him happy#and i like to think that suffer for fashion (song) can be interpreted as perception. i feel like fashion and perception are synonyms#ok. im going to say this one more time because i still cant remember if ive actually written it in a post.#BOB riv playlist. Thats all. i put a things in it#it will help me remember what arcs i have planned.. though most of the stuff ill do is improvised. as. entries are#OK NO more stuff. if im bored i should work on making stickfigure camp worse. BYE see you (maybe will take a bath)
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I haven't read it yet but here's my announcement my friend sent me screenshots of the new titans beast worlds where Peacemaker calls Nightwing pretty. I was right about how they're gonna write him being bi exclusively as him flirting with other men in a slightly boundary breaking way like how Deadpool was written for like 20 years. Dont fucking text.
#This was because I made all those posts about how Peacemaker should meet Nightwing.#Monkey Paws finger curled. im sorry guys. its doom patrol all over again.#Ok no like I do think Id be fine with it if it wasnt fucking NIGHTWING#Like any other character but DC is so obsessed with everyone treating Nightwing like this so#It just always makes me uncomfortable.#Also from the screenshots my friend sent does seem like this#is another mediocre but ok Peacemaker appearance. lke he seems fine#aside from he still doesnt rememner his arc from Suicide Squad 2021/Ram V swamp thing#So hes still Amandas henchman. but whatever.#you guys know I like him henching its just like#Still very noticeable hes only in this stuff because its a mandate at DC rifht now to#push Peacemaker. so its still a steep drop in#quality compared to his pre-TSS induced revival#where he was only being pushed by stans like#Kupperberg Giffen and Gunn#Ok anyway my point is i havent read the issue yet. dont hace hopes yhough. but its probably#not like horrible im just annoted with this shit. ok bye.#yeah sorry about the typos im in he bathroom at work BYEEE
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ok i took a nap sorry for miseryposting
#purrs#i don’t feel better per se but i do feel less angry so i think that’s good. but i did have a fucked up and disturbing dream so now im#focused on that a little bit but it’s whatever. i think i just feel stuck in my life and overwhelmed rn but i have to be gentle with myself#and okay with accepting outcomes that are compromises even if i really don’t want to. but idk. i have to think on it more. and i wish i felt#less lonely bc i KNOW i am not it’s just i have no emotional object permanence and i keep dismantling all my inoculations and then crying#out for more inoculations and i don’t know how to stop. and now im getting upset again typing this so I’m going to stop even though i havent#gotten to the end of my thought yet and like reblog some things or watch a video idk. i really need to find a counselor and speaking of#which i feel like someone told me lately (on here probably and ididnt reply im sorry) that my counseling place should give me referrals to o#other places and they didn’t and maybe it’s bc i told them i was taking a break from counseling but i am kind of like 😐😑. but i’ll figure it#out and find someone. i think there’s a thing i can do through work i just have to gather the spoons to actually do it and i spent all of th#them on the drivers manual today. also i read like half the drivers manual today! which is something to acknowledge. ok im done now bye
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thinking about masato this fine morning good god hes so
preach it brother 🙌
#snap chats#omg same 🥰#kinda. i was just thinking bout nick being all 'sir youre trending' SHUT UUUPPP ITS STILL FUNNY TO ME#eng dub bad ik but i do not care if its making me cackle at that LEAVE ME ALONE#we KNOW my philosophy....... if its for the bit its legit and telling the governor he's trending on twitter is very well For The Bit#no one look at me im going to be cackling to myself about it#oh but Double Fun i do have. a silly thing involving masato cooking#if i actually finish it itll be a miracle cause i sketched it last night and we know if i dont do things in one sitting#its likely i wont finish it but this one shouldnt require a lot of work LMAO so i should be able to get through it#anyway im rambling now i should have breakfast :) BYE#think of masato in my stead while i make mac and cheese. cause again its my food of the week#if im feeling spicy ill make some katsu too#ok bye wait i have one more ask
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ok i hate that I said all that
#now im like#but that is what you do at this age you go out extravaganza and you explore around with your friends#but like see i think it would be more fun if we were not so much focused on the 'taking aesthetic pics for insta'#like#my brain is not braining idk what im thinking#also i just really think that my parents will not allow like i dont even wanna try znd ask i know they will say no#they dont really say no to me but this time i know they are gonnaa#and thats why i dont wanna do a big thing i just wanna do a small thibg#maybe ill just tell them that my parents didnt allow to go so far away#but im not gonna ask i cannot do that lol#anyways. maybe i really should get on that 'tell them to come to my home' thing yk that can work#and my parents (i think) wouldny have a problem with that#ok bye.
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finally got around to watching tazza (2006) and it sparked an evilive related inquiry in my mind...
you know in ep3 how ohjae holds his mic in a lil funny upright style?
well peep this gamblingrelated gangster's eerily similar pose in tazza (2006)
so my question is: is ohjae's stance a reference to this? is it a coincidence? is it referencing something even older that i haven't gotten to yet? are these two going up against each other in a 1v1 rap battle?
#ilml#relatedly there was a character in this with the same nickname i had already given one of the OCs in my current wip...#which is actually pretty cool#i wish dongsoo actually gambled in evilive#well no i don't but i just want to see him lose everything in each and every possible way#he's better as a mastermind but god do i want to put him on the casino cruise ship for extended periods of time#unrelatedly. one of the guys that i work with (IRL AT MY IRL JOB) went on a cruise recently and he was telling me about it..#it was his first ever cruise and he had a blast and he's already planning to go again because he enjoyed it so much#what exactly did he enjoy? the casino on the ship... yup... yupppp......... thats right..... casino cruise ship reality..........#but seriously re: these micboys... no way its a coincidence... right?#and also also re: my current wip... wading through ~17k of unedited/incomplete slop of it right now#it WILL take me a LONG time to finish. but i have basically every beat planned out (LIE) so it won't be too HARD it'll just take forever...#i have MOST of it planned but with the way i write new things pop up as i go... so... yeah... who knows...#itll be so fucking long lol its gonna be a pain in the ass.#i wish so badly i could share with you my funny plans and awesome snippets but alas... you must wait...#and i must also wait...#its so hard writing alone T_T#everything i have written for the past 5 years i have had a sort of writing partner to help survive the painstaking passion of storytelling#but in the case of evilive i am ALL ALONE and i drive myself fucking CRAZY in my docs alllll alone oh goodness all alone...#its my fault tho i should chat more on here but MY FEAR OF BEING MISUNDERSTOOD.. it is strong.. overwhelming.. very difficult to overcome#ok that is all. do you think ohjae's pose is a tazza reference OR do you think i am WRONG?#bye bye i love you! see you later!
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actually considering last time my paper was 3 days late 6 hours is not bad i am proud of myself regardless though cuz that took a lot of concentration for my adhd autism ass
#you know how painful it is to go over a week trying to discipline myself every single day to work on that paper#literal hell#i missed aimlessly doing nothing and doing random things when i want them without any tasks for the day#and watching my comfort things#also getting high#haven’t gotten high properly in a bit#maybe i should right now#the new weed i bought sucks though so#and i’m very sleep deprived so idk if even the good weed will work#wait why am i having the most vivid deja vu rn#of this rain and this hashtag and the date and what i was calculating#goddamit i got distracted researching the climate type in são paulo and bangladesh and forgot why i was writing this#ok bye#🧃#oh yeah weed ? was that why#meh#update i remember it was bc i was calculating how much sleep i got cuz i was working on the paper for 19 hours#from 11am to 6am
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What if I.
when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rarely share ep stuff but i should do more#its free posts#i havent been drawing anything else so this is what weve got#but this is also hundreds of drawings.#ive done. 512 finished panels just checked my spreadsheet#2 more episodes for this arc!#i want the whole arc done before return#its good it's cute#but the next one#oh my god im never gonna shut up about it#it is actually for real extremely so the best thing ive ever written...#im like. im so excited about it.#it was so hard to write too because it is CLEEEEAAAAANLY solving sooo many things and pushing so much forward#and it had to impose so many extremely specific limitations to make those happen#and to impose limitations and clean things up in a way that doesnt feel like I'm doing That#is sooo hard. like. yall. HAHAHAHAH#things that feel like they simply fall into place when reading do NOT feel like that to write#i wrote no joke like 50 different outlines for this arc#i take so long because i care deeply about what im putting out#im really sad about how some other stuff turned out#some of the biggest story moments were completely undercut (imo) by being rushed by my schedule#they still hit because the setup i did I was able to work through properly#so a conclusion at 80% can still feel satisfying even if its a bit rushed...#but i dont want the end of the series to have that happen#anyways. yeah this stuff coming back is my best work. i can't wait for people to see it#I'm so fucked no one is gonna know it's back but whatever#hopefully i don't need to pause again and hopefully I'm not rushed through the ending#so much to do so much to do........#ok bye#reblog addition
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