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one way; cbg
part i | part ii | part iii
đď¸â pairing; afab!reader x beomgyu
đď¸â word count; 17.3k
đď¸â genre; enemies 2 lovers, smut, & angst
đď¸âsynopsis; things have gotten much more complicated in a relationship that spawned from simplicity
đď¸â warnings; thoughts of suicide and murder, brief descriptions of gore, PIV, balls in mouth, lots of kissing, not super smut heavy, manipulation, betrayal, descriptions of depression, assault (the usual), passionate sex, the l bomb
đâ aw man, this is very BITTERsweet. Idk how I feel about this. Ask me in a week and I'll either love or hate it. I didn't go into part one expecting to flesh out their relationship, so please forgive me if this long awaited finale doesn't reach your expectations. I am happy to finally say it's finished though!!
You didnât remind Beomgyu of anyone. Maybe before you started having sex, thatâs why he was so sure. He felt like he was experiencing deja vu from how similar you were to those groupies. Just awkward, quirky, and harmless. Youâre only here to do your job and just happened to become friends with this celebrity. The romantic feelings that developed, oh those are to be expected. Of course you fell in love! But if another handsome, famous fella came around and was willing⌠that love is suddenly conditional.
But then you were letting Beomgyu bite your lip and rip your clothes off, you were shoving your tongue down his throat and letting him fuck you in every conceivable position. While still remaining kind and loyal to Soobin.
You were even open about the things Beomgyu did to you. You didnât care how it made you look or if it would scare the others off. You didnât present it as this passionate sexy moment, but the clumsy and somewhat comical situation it was. You were comfortable with them. Letting them see the real you even if it wasnât exactly attractive. Maybe Beomgyu was wrong about you.
Then heâd catch these glimpses. Moments where he really saw Hyesoo in you. Everyone would be laughing and then suddenly youâd bring up a recent accomplishment of Soobinâs. It seemed weird to shift mid-conversation to boost him up. But when Beomgyu looked around, no one else saw anything wrong with it. He was hyper analyzing you and he was trying to stop. It was hard not to think about Hyesoo period, but with a new woman cozied up in their dorm it was even harder.
When youâd hit Soobinâs arm while laughing, buy only him snacks and drinks, laugh at his jokes harder than anyone else, fall asleep with your head on his shoulder. No matter how much he tried to stop himself, he couldnât stop thinking you were buttering him up. Locking him in.
Here he was, staying up until 5 am dwelling on every thought that enters his brain. He lays stagnant in your bed, staring at the ceiling but really at nothing at all. His head flops to the side and he catches a glimpse of your peaceful expression. His eyes track down to your arms curled around his bicep. He looks back up at the ceiling with a lengthy sigh.Â
He needs to leave.
It started with him staying a little longer to eat up the food in your fridge. You staying to chat with some of the guys. Him staying to help clean up the vase that fell and shattered during your ministrations. You staying to clean yourself off and mentioning that maybe he should bring by a few spare items of clothing in case he wants to shower at your place. Now both of you have clothes at the otherâs house and heâs spending the night.
He could dwell on everything he should or shouldnât be doing right now or he could stop fighting how the warmth of your presence is lulling him to sleep.
-đď¸â
Beomgyu wakes up in the absence of your warmth. If his memory serves him correctly, youâre off to practice by now. He canât help feeling pathetic as everyone rushes off to their duties while he lounges around. He only has one month left of his suspension before heâs back on the grind. He wants to just enjoy it, but the loneliness of it all after years of constantly being surrounded by hoards of people was undeniably crushing. The people he does see are usually rushing around before leaving him in an empty house.
He slumps out of your room and is hit with the scent of freshly made toast. He spots you in the kitchen, rushing around with a piece of toast dangling from your teeth. Upon seeing Beomgyu your eyes widen, brows raising as you prompt him.
âDâyou like butter on your toast? Actually, donât say anything, Iâm doing it.â Your speech is muffled until you take a bite and set the piece down. When Beomgyu finally reaches the kitchen he sees you sloppily slathering butter onto two extra pieces of toast. You place them on a small plate before pushing it toward him. You quickly steal another bite of your toast before scowling at him. âYou better not leave a mess for me to clean up.â
Once you finish chewing youâre still maintaining eye contact with Beomgyu. He stares intently, and you wonder if heâs still groggy from just waking up. Then his eyes break away to the state of your hair. He gives another second of thought before sweeping the unruly strands into place.
âYouâre going outside, where people will see you.â He tsks.
âSaid people should mind their business.â You punctuate by tearing off a chunk of your toast, maintaining eye contact pointedly. You throw the matching jacket to your sweatpants over your shoulder. âLock my door before you leave!â
As the door shuts, the sound echoing through the now empty apartment, Beomgyu feels hyper aware of how much empty space surrounds him where he stands. The loneliness looms over him, a reminder no matter where he goes. He may joke around, but Beomgyu tries not to whine about his problems. It feels especially inappropriate since you were in this same situation, bound to this apartment with a suddenly empty schedule. But for you, you werenât sure if you were getting fired or worse, getting stuck in the dungeon for years with no end in sight.Â
He thinks about that the entire time he stays within your walls. Where you stood, sat, and lied in limbo. From the couch, he glances over at the spot he found you lying in the day after you wrecked your house. A dark, malicious feeling crawls up his spine and he squirms. Staying in your house was already confusing for him, but with this feeling of what⌠guilt? He had nothing to feel guilty over. He was protecting his members.
Either way, it was overwhelming. He leaves your home, locking it on the way out. His dorm had his things. He can play video games all day until his eyes dry out. It was undeniably unfulfilling, despite it being what he craved since his trainee years. It felt as empty as his home.
He intentionally has his headphones only over one ear so he can hear when the door clicks open. Itâs too quiet to be more than one member. Whatever, heâll take what he can get. He leaves the game lobby, throwing his headphones off and rushing out of his room. When his eyes are met with blonde hair he stops in his tracks. Soobin silently regards him, not sparing him an ounce of emotion as he makes his way to the fridge. He grabs a soda, pops it open, and throws it back. Beomgyu waits patiently, he needs the interaction and Soobin has to give up this silent treatment at some point.
Soobin empties the can and tosses it, a silent conflict bleeding through his indifference to Beomgyuâs presence. Both men stand in silence, Beomgyu surveying each twitch in Soobinâs expression.
Soobin grits his teeth, hoping if he squeezes hard enough this aggravating feeling flaring up will pass. âYou know what really pisses me off?â He snaps once he fails.
The relief he expected doesnât come. Thereâs a pang of anxiety creeping up his spine in its place. âThat Iâm mean to your friend-â
âThat I have a feeling this is all about that situation you refuse to talk about.â Soobin immediately shoots down his quip, sparing none of his valuable time for Beomgyuâs antics. Soobin finds that new trials and tribulations rear their ugly head just when he thought heâd gotten used to them. Recently Beomgyu has been one huge trial. He hasnât been a good leader when dealing with this but Beomgyu is also his friend and roommate. Is he not allowed to just be upset by the actions of someone so close to him? Physically and emotionally?
When he looks over at Beomgyu itâs clear from the look on his face that heâs still not going to engage. Of course it wouldnât be that easy. Letting out a lengthy sigh, he decides itâs time to abandon his personal grievances for now.
âYou slept over at her house?â
Finally, it felt like someone was clamping their hands around his throat. âWhat, are you jealous or something?â He melts back into his usual self.
âIâm your leader.â Why does he even remind him anymore? Itâs becoming increasingly apparent that the title means nothing to him.
âYeah, you love reminding me of that fact when itâs convenient but it doesnât apply here.â Getting his fill of interaction, he leaves the kitchen in favor of the living room. âItâs none of your business.â
âIt became my business when you got in trouble. Youâre on suspension, Beomgyu.â Yet again reminding him of something he clearly doesnât care about. At least, he thinks he doesnât until Beomgyu stops. His back is turned toward Soobin but he can still tell that it got to him.
Beomgyu no longer feels isolated but he does feel trapped again. Like the exits are too far away for him to escape and heâs forced to face this. âI donât blame you for not speaking to the therapist they provide us with the risk of your confessions being reported, but if you tell me whatâs going on we can figure this out. Iâm also your friend, Beomgyu. You can talk to me.â He says softly, jumping at the chance of an opening.
This is the same guy he would laugh with until it physically hurt but he still couldnât stop. The one whoâd sneak him extra food as trainees. Heâs a lovable dork who has proved on so very many occasions that he cares about each and every one of his members. Beomgyu can see it, he can feel it whipping around in the air. Soobin is right and heâs being stubborn again. Itâs like the walls are closing in and pushing him closer to Soobinâs hurt but hopeful eyes. Beomgyu shuts his own.
âThereâs nothing to talk about.â
Before Beomgyu can see the full transition of his expression he whips around, making his way to his room.
âReally? Youâre still gonna pretend nothing is wrong?!â Soobinâs increase in volume is ignored as Beomgyu slams the door behind him.
-đď¸â
Tomorrow is Beomgyuâs last day in suspension. Yeonjun proposed they throw a party, just another excuse for Yeonjun to party. He invites anyone whose schedule is free which turns out to be a surprising amount of people. Friendly Yeonjun knows pretty much everyone in this generation and some from previous ones. This once empty building waiting to be bought was filled wall to wall with idols, models, and actors.Â
Everyone notable in Beomgyuâs life saw the suspension as a no-touch subject that dampened the mood, except for you of course, the delightful person you are. Here? People are coming up to him with a tone that can only be described as vengeful.
âHYBE seems like such tight asses. You guys should ditch that place and come sign with KQ.â Hongjoong delivers a solid pat to Beomgyuâs back as he guides him to the stacked liquor table. âLetâs forget about all of that tonight.â Hongjoong messily pours two shots, either from having too many already or from sheer excitement to let loose. He hands Beomgyu one before raising his into the air. âTo freedom!â
Itâs almost surreal. The music feels like it swells as reality starts to dawn on him. His containment is soon to be over and he is completely surrounded by people. Things were finally gonna start looking up again.
âTo freedom!âÂ
They both knock back their shots and submerge themselves back into the crowd of people with refreshed energy. His first instinct was to find you for some celebratory cum dumping, maybe fuck you into the wall of one of these fancy port-o-potties.
âHey.âÂ
The voice leads Beomgyuâs eyes to a pair of sultry eyes and plump lips curved into a flirty smile. She was a perfect ten with a rack sitting pretty, the round, soft spheres of her cleavage taunting his already horny brain. Jisun was always a nice piece of eye candy. âCatch up to me,â She gestures to the shot in her hand, âand then letâs play.â
-đď¸â
Beomgyu is strange. He clearly still holds some resentment toward you, or at least skepticism, but heâs still around a lot. And you are too, which feels like poking the tiger. If he suddenly decides he still hates you he can rat you out with proof this time. You did blackmail the man. But this is just easier. Being strict and clear about your relationship was exhausting. Sometimes you donât want to journey right back home after getting your back blown out.
All it would take was one joke from Beomgyu about you being clingy and you wouldâve snapped back to the strict rules. Then he spent the night over your house and you felt a little at ease.
That meant you could finally have a sleepover at their dorm, staying up all night with Soobin watching scary movies and then being too scared to sleep. It also didnât hurt having something warm to snuggle up to. The strangest part? Beomgyu seemed to be easing up. He stopped giving you that look as much, as if heâs trying to catch you scheming.
The party was much needed, and judging by the vibe of literally everyone else around you, all the partygoers would agree. Thereâs this overwhelming sense of relief and itâs intoxicating. Nobody can be as relieved as Beomgyu, wherever he is. You keep an eye out for him, in case he wants to monkey around in some pocket of the building.Â
âHey!!â Soobin grabs your shoulder to stop you as he maneuvers around you. âThere you are!â
âAnd here you are! I canât believe youâre here and not at home watching anime!â You lean a little closer for him to hear over the music.
âI know! I decided I could try and blow off some steam since I pretty much have the day off tomorrow.â
âPretty much?â You ask, curious if a monthly diet and exercise report was a company-wide event.
âWeâre having a meeting before Beomgyu is reinstated. They said itâd be a small one but Iâm still blowing off steam in advance.â
âYikes. Letâs get some drinks in your system.â You guide him to the alcohol like a nurse escorting a frail patient.
All four of you were downing shots like your life depended on it on opposite sides of the bar. Beomgyu was caught up far before you and Soobin drank your stress away, so away he went. Jisun was whisked to whatever private area they stumbled across first. The spacious storage closet behind the first door he opened seemed like stumbling across the gates of heaven. With a swift turn, he flashes Jisun a smirk and pulls her in.Â
âHave you seen Beomgyu yet?â You probe, trying to look casual and not let your genuine inquiry slip through. Youâre realizing the longer youâve gone without seeing him today that you may crave more than just a quickie. A flash of his signature smirk passes through your mind and your stomach fills with a joyous warmth. You find yourself smiling. You quickly drop the smile, peering at Soobin as he stares at the ceiling.
âNot yet. I decided not to look for him and just let him relax. This party is for him after all.â He speaks quietly and you can tell thereâs a lot more going unsaid. âFor all we know he might not be here.â You laugh, having to force it as this feeling you canâtâ or wonâtâ describe dawns on you. Soobin sighs, not able to shake the conflict in his head.
âI donât know whatâs going on with this man. I donât know how to get him to talk about it-â He stops, raising his hands as if the gesture will help him conjure his thoughts. He shuts his mouth, dropping his hands in favor of grabbing a shot and downing it. âHas he said anything to you? About anything bothering him?â
âTo me? Yeah, thatâs not really how our relationship works.â You shake your head, tossing your own shot back to try and dull the emotions begging to be unpacked. Is something bothering him? When is something not bothering him? Now that you think about it, you havenât seen goofy Beomgyu with your own eyes. Youâve just heard about his harmless mischief through the grapevine. âLoveable bratâ is how you overheard Chaewon describe him. You didnât really get either descriptor at first. More like âpunchable assholeâ. Without the constant screaming and threatening to ruin the otherâs career, you suppose youâre getting close to seeing that side of him. The night before he slept over you shared a kiss that was simple. So simple it was loaded. There was no lust behind it, just a tender gesture with no follow up. Just you waking up holding him. And him holding you.Â
âDid something happen?â You ask before chewing on your nail.
âAround when we first debuted. I havenât thought about it in years because he refuses to talk about it. I really donât think this is just about him wanting to protect us.â Soobin shoves his shot glass away, seemingly giving up on that method since it doesnât appear to be working.
âBoy, arenât you glad you got stuck with these guys?â You laugh and he lets one out as well, though unintentionally. He shakes his head, straightening his face. âNo, I am. I really am. Iâm lucky.â He knows youâre joking, but it doesnât settle well when he remembers how heâs been acting. Beomgyuâs supposed leader giving him the silent treatment like a child or a frustrated lover. He sighs, letting out another laugh. This time itâs dry, expressing contempt for himself.
âIâm not really in the mood for a party anymore.â
Beomgyu did not ruin your career but he did ruin the mood for both of you and he wasnât even there. You echoed his sentiments and he convinces you to come over. It wasnât very hard, seeing as you could both use the company. There are no other members home yet so you didnât have to share the blanket. You had it wrapped around the both of you like a cocoon as you tortured him with a scary movie.Â
âWe couldâve been watching The Bad Guys and-â Soobin wails loudly right beside your ear at the worldâs most poorly set up jumpscare making you jerk away from him. He clings to you but you pry him off immediately.
âAre you not ashamed? A baby could sit through this.â You deride, shoving him away again when he tries to lean into you. âYouâre so mean!â He erupts after trying to grab onto you a third time.
âNo, youâre just a pussy.â
Soobin stands from the couch and snatches the remote from the other side of you. He pauses the movie, ignoring your protesting. âSince when were you so comfortable with disrespecting me?â He scolds playfully, setting his hands on his hips. âLast I remember, I was still your senior.â
âWould you rather I kiss your ass like before?â You cock your head to the side with a raise of your eyebrow, speaking about your former crush for the first time to him outside of the initial awkward phase after the rooftop mishap. He finally collects himself, fighting through his shock. He sits back beside you, keeping his eyes on you as he wraps the blanket back around you.
âI like this version of you much better.â He admits quietly, eyes genuine as they gaze into yours. You breathe a small laugh.
âDonât tell me youâve got a crush now, Choi.â You reply at the same volume. The atmosphere felt a lot more volatile suddenly, it was as if you both were close to triggering something.
âYouâre getting ahead of yourself.â His eyes leave yours, giving you a little time to breathe. âI am turned on, though.â
Your pussy clenches hard, feeling a vortex of pleasure swirl in your stomach. You suck in a breath subconsciously as your eyes become glued to how his tongue skits over his bottom lip. He must be wetting them in an attempt to maintain their softness, unlike Beomgyu who bites at them until theyâre utterly ruined. Kind of like heâs doing now back at the party. He just needs some way to cope with the pulsing need overwhelming him when he needs to empty his balls. With two handfuls of Jisunâs tits, he gets a similar feeling. His teeth dig and tug at his poor bottom lip. Better it be his lip than her soft skin. He needs to remember this isnât you heâs playing with.
Fuck, if it were you heâd sink his nails in until you yelped. Feeling his cock jump at the sound and ache at the thought of you loving the pain as much as he loves inflicting it. That delicious look in your eye exposing how much you want to absolutely ruin him in a way no one has before.
But the look you give Soobin gives Soobin pause. He raises his eyebrows before leaning back, letting his head fall back onto the couch. âYou donât still have a crush on me, do you?â
His eyes are like hot fudge drizzling over a mound of ice cream, melting every inch it touches. Still, something nags at you. You need something inside you and you need it bad⌠but this should be affecting you much more. âI donât think you have to worry about that.â
His eyes dip lower, sucking his bottom lip into his mouth. Nag nag nag. Itâs just dick, you tell yourself. You just need some hard sex and this feeling will go away. You grab Soobin by his shirt and pull him on top of you. He happily engulfs you with his large body, caging you in as he devours your lips. Theyâre still slick with his own spit. They squish and slide against yours and your body ignites. You wrap your legs around him and push his bulge into your core. He groans and you grin against his mouth. So vocal.
Beomgyu would say the same about Jisun, except it wouldnât be praise. Itâs just noise with no rhyme or reason. Sheâs not reacting to the curl of his fingers inside her, her moans don't correspond with the clench of her walls, thereâs no sign sheâs being caught off guard by anything heâs doing. Just. Noise.
Everything about her just dissolves into meaningless blobs of nothing. His fingers sloshing inside a wet cavern, his hands squeezing doughy flesh, and his lips brushing against mindless flaps that omit noise constantly. It quickly becomes mind-numbing and he can feel himself going limp. If you were here instead, youâd gasp when he pushed his fingertips into your bundle of nerves. Not meaning to dig your fingers into his shoulders but not being able to help how your body naturally reacts. You donât want to whimper when he sucks on that sweet spot on your neck but you just canât help it.
He can feel himself get hard again, his fingers curling and pushing into Jisunâs heat fluidly with you vivid behind his clenched lids. Where are you? Heâs suddenly pulled out of the heated moment heâs sharing as the question pops into his mind. If he searched for you, could he be inside you right now instead? Jisunâs noises pull him from his thoughts. How pathetic would it be for him to scramble out of the closet, pussy juice still on his middle and ring finger as he looks for you with his eyes wide like a puppy? First he cuddles you and spends the night at your house and then you see him like that? His eyes snap open.
He grunts, pumping his fingers with more vigor. He has a warm hole for tonight. Thereâs always tomorrow. That frustrating feeling of the intoxicating warmth leaving his groin as you dissipate from his mind is back and he chases it again. The image of Jisunâs exaggerated expressions flicker away behind his fluttering lids before his mind projects your face twitching to keep your bliss hidden. Pleasure so strong that even the raging flames of hatred canât burn it away.Â
A penis entering a vagina was something you were taught was reserved for the pinnacle of love. When you were old enough you were promised tender touches and emotions so deep and complex they would bring you to tears. You and Beomgyu were swept up into the limelight long before you could get a chance to naturally build up such a relationship and experience such a transcendental feeling. Instead, the two of you bastardized the act with one night stands and relationships built on flimsy foundations only to come crashing down from neglect or simply not knowing who was under your sacred roof. How could you not? Thereâs no time, too much stress, and too much at stake.Â
So you fuck and fuck until the act becomes something so unrecognizable that you come out the other end. Letting someone tear at your flesh and tamper with your spirit as they touch you the way someone you love should. Yet here you are with someone who would treat you right, someone who you longed for for so long, someone who holds you like youâre porcelain with passion still flowing through every action. You should be falling head over heels again. Your crush should be flooding back with crashing waves wrecking everything in its wake until nothing is left but your undying need for Soobin. But no. He mouths your neck as he thrusts shallowing, checking in to make sure heâs not hurting you.Â
Everyone who taught you about how sex would feel were right about one thing. You were brought to tears.Â
âBeomgyu.â You blubber shamefully, gritting your teeth before hiccupping. You fail to suppress it. Everything becomes a blur as tears stream down your face. The self-pity numbs you beyond repair.
Your name leaving Beomgyuâs lips doesnât feel real. He only realizes what heâs done after Jisunâs warmth is gone. He opens his eyes and she has moved as far away from him as she possibly can in the confined space. Her angry words donât register as she fixes herself and storms out, brushing his shoulder on her way. Once he was old enough, Beomgyu was taught a little differently. His father would wait until his mother left the room to get filthy about it, wiggling his eyebrows. His friends would boast and fantasize lewdly in the back of the classroom about it. The pinnacle of sex was supposed to be casual with beautiful women. The only hate sex guys his age fantasized about were low-stakes scenarios you only see in porn. What the two of you had? No one with any ounce of self-preservation would touch this with a ten foot pole. Theyâd call you âpsychoâ, block your number, and avoid you like the plague.
Not daydream about you while experiencing a manâs definition of the pinnacle of sex.Â
-đď¸â
Soobin is a saint. He waited patiently for you to calm down, holding you and rubbing your back. He didnât complain about his lack of finishing once and didnât make you feel awkward. He just giggled at your swollen face after you finished. You sat quietly on the couch, staring at whatever movie had auto-played.
âYou guys are very similar, you know?â
The urge to start crying again chokes you and you swallow it down. âSoobin, that's a horrible thing to say.â You sigh.
He laughs loudly, trying to stifle his overflowing amusement after seeing your eyes get glassy again. âThatâs why you hate each other so much I think.â He says once the humor subsides.
âI hate him because he was horrible to me.â You correct, unable to suppress the annoyance flaring up at his ignorant assumption.
âHe was horrible to you, right?â He looks over at you, looking back at the tv once he sees your stone-like expression. âBut you still resent each other despite you guys not being at each otherâs throats for about a month now.â
âBecause Iâm wary. Heâs wary. We both are constantly remembering something horrible we did to one another.â You suck in a breath, ready to vent about all the ways heâs scarred your skin with proof, but which ones were the ones you encouraged? It didnât feel appropriate to lie or guess no matter how much you wanted to. Fuck, you wanted to scream about Beomgyu and how much you should hate him. You whimper, resting your face in your hands. âWhatâs wrong with me?â
Soobin doesnât answer, leaving you with your own thoughts. You find yourself appreciating the silence.
âDo you love him?â
Numb and hollow⌠yet throbbing and infected. The space between the skin of your forehead and the bone of your skull felt like it was swimming with complicated activity as your brain echoed the devastating question. Not because the answer was yes but because it had to be answered at all. You raise your head slowly from shaking hands before standing from the couch.
âIâm going to sleep.â
-đď¸â
Waking up that morning for both of you was somehow more loaded than waking up in each otherâs arms. You couldnât be with each other or away. It didnât matter. It wasnât simple anymore and the complication of it all was starting to get exhausting. You slip from beneath Soobinâs arm, careful not to wake him. Beomgyu trudges out of his bed, feet plodding heavily toward his door. Both doors close simultaneously with a dull, echoing thud, neither noticing the other as you both stand in silence. Itâs only when you start to move that Beomgyu notices you. His chest rises slightly with a small gasp. There you are.
âYou didnât tell me you were coming.â
For a second your eyes meet his and thereâs a flicker of something that excites him. You straighten up. âI was with Soobin.â
âBut you couldâve been with me.â Beomgyu can feel himself get worked up at just the thought of something that actually gets him going.Â
âBelieve it or not,â You draw nearer and Beomgyuâs eyes are locked onto your lips as they part. You lean in and the warmth of your proximity ceases his breathing âhe kept me company.âÂ
It felt like slow motion when you pulled away and winked at Beomgyu. A gesture that shouldâve been harmless and maybe even cute made Beomgyu feel like hot curdled liquid was crawling down his throat.
Once you pull back Beomgyuâs expression hardens. His eyes prick you like needles. âWhat?â
His tone and glare make you flinch. Your smirk flickers away. This is usually how it starts, but a part of you just wanted to cut out all the bullshit and get to the part where he makes you scream his name. But the look in his eye⌠somethingâs different. Somethingâs wrong.Â
âI-I had a little fun with Soobin. It didnât really go far though because IâŚâ You choke on your words, feeling your heart throb when he tore his eyes away. He couldnât read your mind but you couldnât stop yourself from believing he somehow sniffed out the pitiful truth.Â
Beomgyu laughs dryly and each moment without proper words made you feel like screaming. Beomgyu flexes his hands, avoiding your eyes while he cracks his knuckles. He balls them into tight fists before staring at you with a level of fury that makes your blood run cold. âI fucking knew it.â
The words struggle to leave his lips as if they had to pass through a filter of his growing disdain for you. Quiet, yet still piercing enough to get you stammering. âY-you canât be serious. Youâre not seriously talking about what I think you are right now are you?!â
And just like that the two of you are back to square one. Everything that happened in the last two months, hell, the last 48 hours feel like they mean nothing. Why would they? Itâs Beomgyuâs fault for letting things get the way they are. Beomgyu feels this nauseating sensation curdle in his stomach and itâs strong. So strong it forces a lie out of him.Â
âIâm just trying to protect my members. Godâ is that a crime or something? Why am I the bad guy? Youâre not gonna get away with using us like toys. Maybe youâll have better luck whoring around Enhypen.â He spits out the words, hating the way they taste. This is your guysâ dynamic, right? Now youâll start throwing things and screaming at him.Â
But nothing comes and Beomgyu realizes he hasnât been looking at you. At what point he looked away again, he wasnât sure, but he couldnât get himself to make eye contact again. The lack of response clouds his lungs, a stabbing pain screaming in his temples.
After the silence suffocates him to near death he finally manages to look at you. He has to muster all his strength, but he does. And youâre crying. His body feels hollow. No arousal or sadistic pleasure is derived from this. He canât even feign it.
Still, the silence wonât let up and as if to punish him, his body wonât let him look away. As if two hands are holding his head in place and as a sinister voice hisses in his ears.
LOOK AT WHAT YOUâVE DONE.
How much time passes, heâs not sure. Enough time for him to realize how much chaos and stress heâs caused to his leader, his members, his company, and to an innocent person with an innocent crush.
More tears well and skit from your cheekbones straight to the carpet beneath both your feet. Darkening the fabric. The words youâve been choking on finally release, though they sound frail and strangled. âBeomgyu. I donât know how else to get through to you. I care about Soobin. FuckâŚâ You donât attempt to wipe the tears away or cease them in any way. Your head falls as if your neck can no longer support it. âI was starting to care about you.âÂ
Hostile would be putting it lightly. The activity in your brain and heart is like a dozen hornetâs nests being shaken and preparing to erupt, one for each emotion reaching its peak. You grit your teeth so hard you think theyâll crumble under the pressure.
âYou wanna know something? The only person hurting someone by turning on them is you.â You hate the implications this leaves but your thoughts and emotions are on overdrive and you need to leave before it gets any uglier. âIâll respect your wishes. Friends arenât worth dealing with this, Iâd rather be alone. Just promise me you wonât involve my career in your bullshit this time.â
As you storm away, barely able to look that man in the eye you realize this. This is what you were wary of the entire time. It wasnât him ruining your career or biting you until he draws blood or turning your friends against you. It was this feeling you were experiencing. Pain so deep youâd almost call it heartbreak. However, it wasnât earned from time spent with someone who cherished you and made you feel like you were worth something. All this heartacheâŚ
You let him do unspeakable things to you. You let him hurt you in ways you wouldâve never let anyone else. You welcomed it.
In an alternate reality, youâd be kicked out of your company, stuck with a damning reputation, and banned from the only true friends you had. The man who wouldâve caused all that turmoil in your life, with the intent to cause that harm, is the same one who your heart is aching for.Â
-đď¸â
The curtains across the room have become blurry blobs of color after being stuck staring in that direction for what felt like too long. You had to start, if youâre late sending this video in then there will be another crack. You manage to squeeze your eyes shut and jump start your brain once again from its brief hiatus.
The inhale you suck in shudders beyond your control. The more time that passes with that song out in the open for anyone to hear, the less you can hide your anxiety. You hold your breath until it hurts before blowing out a rushed gust of wind. Youâre stagnant again, and before your brain can shut down for one more sweet break you force a smile and hit record.
âHello precious moonbeams!~ I hope youâre all doing well. Thank you for all the support on Strawberry Jam. I was so worried!â You pout. âItâs a bit of a weird song, right? Itâs very different from Laude so I was scared you guys wouldnât like it. But⌠wow. The support isâŚâ Sincerity bleeds through as you reflect on traversing your favorite store and then hearing your voice through the speakers.
âPierce me, Bruise me, keep going until you see strawberry jamâ
Your blood runs cold, and your eyes snap up as if youâre being caught saying something you didnât mean to be publicized. A couple of passersby whisper or stare or gasp. You run out of the store.
Before you can get too sincere you force the smile back in place. âItâs overwhelming. Seriously.â Your eyes get glassy and you chew on your lip. âThank you.â
All the cracks that have reared their ugly head so far have been mostly forgotten because of the overnight success of your first comeback. Your debut was deemed a flop in comparison to your colleagues, so this was absolutely necessary. It was mandatory. You finally feel like youâre making progress digging out of this deep hole.Â
There are signs your company still doesnât fully trust you.
The first big sign was the debut delays. You were sure they were going to cancel it and that they saw you as a risk. The cracks were treacherous. Then you debuted and the reception was lukewarm. You sat in limbo for days, reading negative comments until your head span. A piece chips off revealing an inky black abyss.Â
Then you heard your comeback song. Instead of classy and subdued like your debut, this song was hard to swallow. It was asymmetrical and loud. It was raunchy.
âWhat do you think?â
You sat in silence, jaw dropped open, a truck sized lump in your throat. You could hear the sound of cracking. But why? This song was a clear hit. You could hear another idol performing it well.Â
But itâs yours.
âReady to record?â
You nod, hoping that will become true with time.
The track plays and your fears ease a bit. You bob your head to the beat. Everything goes fine until the same lyrics that struggle to come out of your mouth approach. You power through. You need this.
âI should hate it but I donâtâ
This will be a hit, you can get through this.Â
You continue powering through but the dread builds and builds. You hate this line, you hate it so much. Your breath gets caught in your throat right before itâs time and you know youâre about to choke.
âCanât promise I wonât cry but IâŚâ You sigh and drop your head. You already knew it was coming when they ask you to do it again.
âCanât promise I wonât cry but I-I know that you like thatâŚâ
CRACK
The producer slides his headphones off with a chuckle. âI know. Itâs weird, right?â He winces as if heâs mirroring your assumed feelings on the matter. Heâs half right. Itâs obscene and you hate it. You hate it so much.
âIâm sorry, letâs go again.â
The track replaying is like a death march. Your throat bobs, doing little to refresh your throat that feels like itâs filled with cactus needles and glass.
âCanât promise I wonât cry but I know that you like that-â
The line processes in your mind and you connect it to the past despite avoiding doing so as if your life depends on it. You reflect on all the times heâs brought you to tears. How hot they felt rushing from your eyes after you frustratingly kissed him for the first time. How helpless and pathetic you felt crying as he restrained your wrists, only to spray you in his seed mockingly. And most frustratingly of all, you crying while revealing that you actually cared about him after he did exactly what you knew he would.
CRACK
The calls of your name are muffled as flashes of his face refuse to leave. You grit your teeth, feeling a frightening level of rage familiarly build up inside you. âI hate him.â
You rush out of the recording booth, mortified as tears stream down your face. Heâs done it again. He isnât even here and heâs done it again. If he could see you right now heâd probably smile. It would probably brighten his day. And you welcomed that monster into your bed.
Youâre all the way back home once you realize what youâve done. The producer is probably calling your manager who is calling the CEO about how much of a pain in the ass you are. You need to get yourself together quickly and get back there. You run to your bathroom and look in the mirror. You plant your shaky hands on the sink
âIâmâŚâ
Your voice wavers. Your resolve dissipates as you stare at the cracks that have transferred to your very visage. A shard dangles where your eye resides before falling away. Again, the black nothingness is left behind and youâve already forgotten what your face normally looks like.
Your phone starts to buzz and you slowly fade back to reality.
-đď¸â
âI have no clue who that is. Why canât we collab with a Korean artist?â Beomgyu mutters. Soobin grits his teeth and elbows him. He rolls his eyes despite the instant regret. It takes only a minute of fading into the background as the other guys engage in productive conversation for the guilt to fully bloom. On one couch there were four employees and one temperamental child.
No matter where he goes he feels this way. The guys donât bring girls to the dorm anymore. If they go out to see one, they nervously lie about it and rush out of the door.Â
Anytime they bring up a memory tainted with you, Beomgyu is greeted with shocked silence and finds four panicked eyes on him like theyâre afraid theyâve poked a tiger.
All those posters, cardboard cutouts, and billboards that are fucking everywhere are like land mines. To anyone else it would be comical to watch four grown, big ass men tiptoeing around a mall like one wrong step will blow their leg clean off.
And the song.
Beomgyu⌠he is really trying to get better. If he didnât attempt to, Soobin would probably choke him out. Heâs been very patient, but anyone in his shoes would be exasperated. When theyâre in public or in a meeting and Beomgyu is being a menace is one thing, Soobin lets him know then and there that heâs serious.
However, when theyâre alone, itâs strangely peaceful. He asks Beomgyu about his day and his mental and emotional state. He hasnât brought you up for a while now. Tomorrow will make 6 months.
Tomorrow comes, Beomgyuâs indifference is slipping. While everyone else walked on eggshells, Beomgyu coasted through the situation like nothing happened. But somehow, the fact that the boys are becoming more accustomed to not bringing you up is bothering him. He only sees you through screens or your likeness plastered on paper or cardboard.Â
The last time you physically entered his vision was during your goodbye stage of your debut promotions. It was a brief glimpse but it was enough to show you werenât doing well. It was an image burned into his memory. None of the photo shoots could replace it. Even longer before that was the last time the two of you made physical contact. The feeling of holding you in your bed is long gone. Everything about you feels like a ghost now.
âHere he is!â Beomgyu looks up from his phone he wasnât really looking at anyway to see Soobin walking over with some girl. Beomgyu slides down his mask to present the girl with a tight smile and bow.
âThis is Jiwon from Cherry Bullet.âÂ
âHello.â Jiwon bows with a bright smile and somehow the common gesture illustrates just how efficient of a person she is. He has no clue what a cherry bullet is but something tells him sheâs a stellar idol. But why was she talking to him? Beomgyu looks up at Soobinâs phony wide smile before getting distracted by the rest of his members frantically trying to stop whatâs happening. Yeonjun tugs Soobin to the side, jaw jutting forward as he grits something out Beomgyu canât quite decipher.
âIâve heard people refer to you as a video game protagonist.â Beomgyuâs attention is ripped away from his members as Jiwon speaks again with a little more hesitance this time. What, does she think heâs a ticking time bomb too?
âWhat?â
âYour visuals.â She clarifies, seeming a little more relaxed now. âNow that I see you in real life I can say I see it too. I didnât know before but I think thatâs my style.â She looks down, still appearing resolute despite the shy action.Â
âI donât usually do things like this, I value my job and image, but I was just so curious about you. I felt a bit weird asking Soobin to introduce me to you butâŚâ As if she realizes sheâs been having a one-sided conversation, she stops herself and looks at Beomgyu expectantly.
Every so often, Beomgyu catches wind of a rumor going around about himself. Whether itâs someone heâs cool with reporting back to him or rookies being way too loud and excitable. He supposes every idol experiences this, and most likely theyâre as indifferent as he is. Heâs a former thug, heâs gay, heâs fucking an executive, and the biggest one:
Heâs a womanizer.Â
That one sometimes goes hand in hand with the thug one, but itâs mostly referring to his current idol lifestyle. He doesnât know how it happened. He hasnât been in a relationship since Hyesoo. He couldnât be one if he tried. He lets his emotions get in the way. A part of him wishes it were true. Maybe he would stop craving nails raking into the flesh of his back or bite marks on his bottom lip and shoulders. Maybe he would stop waking up with soiled sheets because he has dreams about being ridden long after heâs already cum.Â
Of course now heâs thinking of you, despite chatting it up with Jiwooâ or no, JiâŚ
Youâre probably getting relief every other day with how famous you are now. If you even have the time. In that case, youâre probably locking you and some guy in dressing rooms, closets, anywhere you can get privacy for a quickie.Â
But no⌠youâre not like that. You only let Beomgyu see the deepest, darkest parts of you because you were pushed to do so. Beomgyuâs face goes slack, staring deep into space. You hated him so much that you didnât care about bearing the ugliest side of you to him. Gnashing your teeth with your shirt a tangled mess over your torso after you gave up on taking it off. Saying the most venomous things Beomgyuâs ever heard while milking him for all heâs got. Even after things cooled a bit, you would let him touch and taste you before you even showered. Opening the door to let him in with stains all over your shirt and leftover makeup from the day before.
âI thought about jumping off the roof at practice while I was on my break.â You had said to him after couch sex. You guys were watching Community and eating ice cream. You were just joking about one of the characters being dumb. Beomgyu had looked at you, completely bewildered.
âIsnât this what you wanted? What youâve been waiting for?â He asks incredulously.
You sigh dramatically.
âYeah, but Iâm so fucking hungry. My body aches and my hands shake so much I can barely hold a pen to write my own name. I made a mistake and my instructor cussed at me and called me useless.â You laughed sharply before letting your head droop over to face him. âDâyou know they delayed my fucking debut again? Before I thought about offing myself I imagined slitting my managerâs throat and bludgeoning the dance instructor to death and stripping down so I could smear both their blood all over me until it covered every inch of my skin. It was so brief but so so vivid.â You rushed out the words in a crazed fashion and you looked at him with wide eyes. You smile. âThen I imagined you coming in, we had sex and then I strangled you until your eyes bulged outââ You catch your breath and look back at the tv. You looked down at your hand and groaned. Your ice cream had melted over your trembling hand.
âFuck itââ You rush over to the trash can and chuck it before aggressively wiping off your hand with a tattered kitchen towel. You stomp over to the fridge and take out one of the multiple spoiled bags of salad mix and dump it in the trash to cover up the tossed ice cream. You throw a glance at him.
âMake sure you eat that all or cover your tracks if you throw it away.â You mutter, finding your voice wavering suddenly. You sniffle, slamming down on the couch. You refuse to look over at him as tears break free from your eyes. You feel him move closer to you on the couch and you grit your teeth. His hand curls around the column of your throat but he doesnât apply pressure.
âI imagined killing my manager once too.â
You peer over at him, heâs looking down, his thick lashes on display. âExcept I stabbed him over and over and over until he was an unrecognizable mound of mush. Youâre right, it flashed by so fast. I was so sickened by it I pretended it never crossed my mind. Yet here we areâŚâ He finally looks up with a smirk. He finally applies the pressure and you inhale a shuddering breath.
He moves his lips next to your ear, his breath fanning on it making you shiver. âDoes it hurt?â
Immediately understanding what he meant you nod feverishly.Â
âIâll distract you.â He answers quickly before swinging his leg over and resting his knee on your thigh. He sits all his weight on your thigh and he squeezes your throat. He repeats it again breathily as he stares down at you wistfully. Your strangled whimpers get him straining against his jeans.Â
âI-IâŚâ You find yourself speaking against your will. No⌠this isnât how this went. He squeezes again and you moan. You want to clench your thighs but his knee is pinning your leg down. You canât think, itâs perfect. Still, you find your mouth moving. No! There were no more words exchanged after this. You fucked again and he slept over.
âI-Iâm so lonely,â Your voice quivers before you begin sobbing uncontrollably. When you open your eyes and blink away your tears you see a twisted wide grin on his face. His eyes are wild. You tremble in fear, unable to speak anymore. No no no no no no noâŚ
âI fucking knew it.â
You gasp for air, it feels like heâs crushing your windpipe.
âJust a sad, lonely, nobody coming to mooch off of us. Pitiful. You want friends? Huh?â You feel blood rushing up to your face. âToo bad. You donât deserve love. No one fucking likes you and no one ever will. Iâll do you a favor.â
Almost as if heâs beating you to what you briefly daydreamt about, he applies his other hand and you want to scream. Your ears start ringing and you feel something warm trickle from your ears and all of a sudden thereâs a bright light and a piercing noiseâ
You jolt up from your bed, continuing to sob like you did in your nightmare. You stumble out, nearly tripping as you reach to turn the light on. After doing so you slide down against the wall. Sobbing until your chest hurt and you had no air left in your lungs.
-đď¸â
Thereâs no doubt this song has gotten you some perverse comments and unwanted attention, but it must also get you positive attention too. Heâs never seen you hang out with anyone else besides the guys but surely you have an entourage by now. Guys lining up to treat you right. Ones you wouldnât feel are deplorable enough to casually bring up your murder fantasies to.
âGyu?â
Jiwon has that confused tone in her voice. God, he tuned her out by accident again.Â
âAre you okay? It seems like youâve been zoning out a lot.â She sounds cautious again. Beomgyu can tell that sheâs trying to avoid what might set him off. Did Soobin tell her about you? How heâs just a screaming match waiting to happen?
âTo be fair, Iâve had a lot to think about recently.â Beomgyu gives her a look, he knows sheâs aware of what heâs referring to. Her awareness is becoming increasingly obvious.
She sits down beside him in the other folding chair backstage. Not dissimilar to when they first met. Even more similar, he notices his members frantically whispering to each other while looking at him.
âAre you still feeling bothered by that?â Jiwon places a hand on his but it doesnât pull his attention away. Suddenly Kai is casting a fearful look to his right. Beomgyu, already feeling something stirring in his stomach follows his eyeline.Â
A pair of black docs accented with black opaque hosiery that almost stop where your red skirt starts. The skirt looks tattered, purposefully so. Itâs asymmetrical and overlapped by a black, intricately designed corset top. Your hands that are running through your hair are donned in a red, loosely fitted pair of sheer gloves. Once your arms stop shielding your face and you lift your head, Beomgyu sees your mascara running. His stomach drops.
The stylist scolds you and quickly tries to fix the mess. You donât react at all, face stone cold. Maybe you just had a bad day, Beomgyu thinks.
Itâs cliche, but it never stops shocking you how blinding the stage lights are. They glint sharply, feeling like theyâve sliced your eyes. You shut them, only to quickly open them once you remember people can see you. You force a smile on your face, not caring if it looks like you have a gun to your head. This is all you have left.
The bright light nearly pricks tears back to your eyes but you hold them back just like you hold back the thoughts of the texts your parents sent you this morning. You donât want to perform today, the last thing you want to do is sing this song that is now ruining relationships. However, now this is truly all you have left. So you flip the switch as soon as the music starts and donât turn it off until itâs safe to cry again.
You almost melt away on your couch when a knock startles you. You race to the door, thinking it may be your manager. A part of you still expects her to scold you about something she found out. Itâs been months but you still fear Beomgyu saying something. A shaking hand pulls open the door.
Myungsoo smirks lazily. Kim Myungsoo. You have to pinch yourself still, despite it being a month now since he first spoke to you. Youâre used to people speaking to you first by now. Youâd rather they stick around, hang out with you, but that never happens. When he came up and asked you about your song, you were positive youâd probably never see him again. A man you used to have posters of slipping right through your fingers. But then he suddenly stayed put.
âWhatâre you up to?â He asks before widening his smile. Your heart flutters.
âI was going to take a nap.â You say quietly, very much distracted. Him brushing some of your hair behind your ear doesnât help.
He waits a beat as he presses his lips into a thin line. âNeed help?â
Your heart drums against your rib cage, it almost hurts how much you need it. Heâs been teasing you during this exciting yet excruciating month. Hinting that he wants to fuck you but never doing it. You nearly came when he put his hand on your thigh last week.
Now his hand is there again, and it takes every ounce of strength you have to not lift your hips and coax him to where it hurts. He insisted on leaving the television off so you canât even pretend not to have your full attention on him.Â
âCâmere.â He whispers, his voice so warm it melts you. You scoot over and lean your head on his shoulder. You guys stay like that and youâre contentâ you really are⌠but itâs becoming increasingly more difficult not to shove his hand down your pants. You donât know how long itâs been but your body is screaming at you. He shouldâve been inside you already, you guys should have been done with your first round actually. Your impatience gets the best of you and you look up at him. He raises his eyebrows questioningly.
âTake a nap. Isnât that what you said you were doing?â
You laugh dryly, too annoyed to take it back or be mortified at your outward display of your sexual frustration.Â
âIs something wrong?â He pouts his lips mockingly. You sit up from him but he pulls you back.Â
You let out a strained sigh. âI think I need to be alone to take a nap actually.â
âWhat, now youâre kicking me out? Did I do something wrong?â His cutesy act is nauseating right now. It pushes you to reveal how you actually feel.
âArenât you building us up to be just fuck buddies? Why are you beating around the bush?â Youâre desperate, but itâs more than just being horny. At the moment you have no outlet for the overwhelming amounts of anxiety and growing depression. Despite what you had with Beomgyu being⌠what it was, you remember a wave of serenity after it was all said and done. You bickered as you got your clothes back on but then he left and your body was noticeably less tense.Â
âI never said anything about that. You know, you claim you had nothing to do with the song but Iâm a little skepticalâŚâ He traces shapes over your bare shoulder and you shrug it off with a scoff before sitting up. The annoyance was building towards being affronted, but you could feel something tingling like a spark crackling inside your stomach. It was back, a feeling you havenât felt in quite a while.Â
âExcuse me?â
âI mean,â Myungsoo shifts toward you, âyouâve been practically begging to be fucked the minute we met. Youâre not as subtle as you think.â His faux sympathy melts away once he sees fire glinting in your eyes. He canât help but smile.
âShut your fucking mouth.â You spit before mounting his lap and devouring his lips. This is it, thereâs no mistaking it. But somethingâs missingâŚÂ
Myungsoo sits there, barely moving his lips against yours. Your hands roam his entire body while his are still by his sides. You pull away, afraid that you were mistaken, but heâs smiling up at you. He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand before coaxing you to finish.
âYou want it, donât you?â
And so you strip your shirt off, the fabric pulled away to reveal your eyes blown wide with lust. You capture his lips again and it tastes so sweet. You nearly tremble after finally breaking through that barrier that never seems to leave. You feel powerful for the first time in months as you slide your hands under his shirt. You puff out a frustrated gust of air before sliding off his lap and kneeling before him. You look up at him as you unzip his jeans. He smirks the entire time, lifting his hips to let you slide his jeans and underwear down. He exaggerates the movement of stretching his arms back and resting his hands behind his head. You falter, suddenly self conscious.Â
âWhatâs your deal?â
He answers quickly, somehow knowing exactly what you were referring to. âI dunno⌠maybe Iâm just not feeling it yet.â He sighs, reaching for his flaccid member and stroking it disappointedly. âLook at it, so pitiful.â
You swat his hand away, feeling challenged by his words. You start with his balls, licking in between them before circling your tongue around each one. You glance up at him and his cock twitches. His smirk flickers away briefly to revel pleasure while looking at the determination in your eyes.
Youâre just so happy to finally taste someone. The way a cock feels in your hands and on your tongue, so silky and soft. So sinfully beautiful when covered in thick globs of saliva. There is truly nothing like it. But again, there was something missing.
Anywhere you and Myungsoo were together turned into a new spot for you to fuck. Youâd give him the eyes which heâd ignore. Then youâd touch him. Kiss him. Whisper in his ear. None of it worked until you were pulling him somewhere secluded. Even when you were at his place or him at yours. It was like pulling teeth. But whatever, foreplay for you and Beomgyu was degrading and threatening each other. This was nothing.
It didnât stop at foreplay, though. Throughout the entire act heâd be so smug, never reacting to anything. Only small glimpses of pleasure could be caught, but if you blinked you could miss it. You find yourself fighting for his passion. However, it remained one-sided.
-đď¸â
Jiwonâs ministrations were soft, almost like they werenât there. She had a pretty pair of lips but they were like feathers against his.
âNoonaâŚâ He whispered, brushing his nose against hers.
âHm?â She barely pecks his lips. Beomgyu inhales deeply before grabbing the back of Jiwonâs head and deepening the kiss. She makes a muffled noise of surprise but her eyes slowly flutter shut. She melts into the kiss for a few lovely seconds before forcing herself to pull away. She clears her throat before grabbing both of Beomgyuâs hands.
âLetâs take it slow, okay?â Jiwon gives him a pleading look and he only groans inwardly. Itâs been a minute, and Jiwon is not a woman you come across too often. And they actually have a relationship he can brag about, someone he could see himself marrying. Sheâs pristine.
âWhy, you didnât like it?â He smirks and she scoffs.
âI did, but I just think itâs better for us if we donât rush things.â
Beomgyu tries really hard to hide the cynicism threatening to rear its ugly head. Jiwon was finally not walking on eggshells around him. He thinks long and hard about what heâs going to say and panics when he thinks heâs said the wrong thing.
âFine. But a deeper kiss wonât kill us.â Beomgyu brushes away his train of thought before smiling.Â
It wasnât long before Beomgyu and Jiwon made it official, only telling people they trusted and not risking visiting each other anywhere but their dorms. Even that takes several days of planning.Â
âHow does it work? Weâve never been.â Taehyun says, leaning forward in anticipation.
Jiwon takes a moment to swallow her sip of tea and to think.Â
âThis will be my second survival style show. I think that theyâre not dissimilar to being a trainee, honestly. The ferocity of everyone around you is still there. This new one is a little less intense, though. I guess the stakes arenât as high.â Once she finishes talking she takes another delicate sip of her tea. Beomgyu watches intently, admiring how elegant she is. Itâs so effortless for her. She continues her mature conversation with his members but Beomgyu is completely checked out. Thereâs a lingering sour feeling prodding at him as he watches her. It makes his smile flicker away.
âRight Beomgyu?â Soobin elbows him and Beomgyu is finally broken out of his daze.
All Beomgyuâs plugs slowly enter each outlet. âHuh?â
âYou were so social during our trainee days, it was hard for people to hate you.â Soobin says, making everyone chuckle.
âEven when they saw you as competition, no dice.â Yeonjun chimes in. It was fun to reminisce until it wasnât. He was smiling again and it seemed to immediately go away the longer he thought about it. Heâs been told this. That heâs unhateable. Heâs too silly, a loveable brat. But you managed.
âHe could never do wrong. We make a mistake and it would start a fight. Beomgyu would do the same thing and they would just brush it off.â Kai adds, and everyone laughs again except for Beomgyu whoâs stuck staring in space, his water bottle static in his hands.
âThatâs so true!â Someone gushes through the laughter.Â
âFunny how things change, huh?â
The room goes silent as Beomgyu takes a swig from his bottle.
Jiwon looks panicked before laughing nervously. âWhat do you mean? Iâve never laughed this much before meeting you, and the girls love when you come over. Not to mention having four members who love you. Thatâs rare, you know.â Â
Soobin claps before pointing at Jiwon. âThatâs exactly right!â
âWhat else could you need?â Jiwon rubs Beomgyuâs back, making him realize that sheâs not miles away from him like it feels she is. Sheâs right. So everything will eventually get better.
-đď¸â
 âLetâs go to a karaoke bar next!â Eunchae ugly laughs in excitement, already running ahead with Kazuha chasing behind her. Yunjin loops her arm with Sakura before following the younger members, engaged in a personal conversation. On instinct, Chaewon follows close by, yelling for the younger members to slow down.
The five of them have a warm dynamic thatâs so enticing. Their figures growing further, soaked in the various vibrant hues of neon signs. It was like a scene out of films you watch alone on your couch. Itâs right there.
Freezing as if something dawned on her, Chaewon swiftly turns around to face you.
âYou coming?â She shouts.
âUgh, she never comes. Letâs just go.â Yunjin whines dismissively. Chaewon looks conflicted as her gaze switches between you both. You stretch your mouth into a thin line.Â
âI have to get home. Iâll text you.âÂ
Chaewon wants to protest but when she looks back at her members, theyâre much farther away than she thought. Then when she looks back at you, youâre already gone.
From the corner of the bar, you send texts back and forth. Your head slips off your fist and nearly slams into the table before you stop it. Just an hour before, you were here with a group of people. The memory feels like particles of dust floating through the air that you try to clutch in your fist.
âAre you okay? I think youâve had enough for the night. Call a cab and go home.â The stern, motherly tone of the owner doesnât offend you at all. You donât get to answer before sheâs off sweeping the other end of the restaurant. You let your body completely slump over, resting your upper body on the table.
A tsk barely pricks at your foggy brain. âWhat a mess.â Myungsoo sighs.
âTake me home oppa.â You giggle with your cheek squished against the table. He raises his brow at you and you raise your arms. He groans before picking you up from the table and holding you bridal style. You rest your head against his chest, feeling tired against his warmth. Youâre just about to drift off to sleep when heâs placing you into the passengerâs seat. You whine in protest but heâs already shutting the door. The gentle car ride makes your lids heavier until they shut completely.
Myungsoo picking you up again has your eyes slowly lifting open. You watch his face as he carries you. His body heat is intoxicating. You canât stop your eyes from flickering down at his lips. You donât want to mount him like you usually do, you feel something deeper. Maybe there was a reason he took so long to let you have him at first.Â
He lets you down to unlock his door before taking you by the hand and leading you in. Youâre cuddling on his bed, still unable to take your eyes off him. Heâs caught you a couple times and all he does is smile. This time his eyes linger on yours before whispering for you to come closer. Youâre moving as soon as he says to, connecting your lips to his hungrily.Â
He smells and tastes so good. You trace your tongue over his bottom lip before pecking his mouth. He grins, letting out a warm, chesty chuckle.
âI love when you guys get like this.â
You laugh, a little confused. You peck him again. âYou guys?â
He caresses the back of your neck before pulling you in for a deeper kiss. Your breath picks up as you climb on top of him, smashing your mouths together. He pulls away and whispers breathily in your ear.
âYou have that twinkle in your eye. You need me. All you think of is me.âÂ
You shudder, grinding down on him. You trail kisses all over his neck as he continues.
âIf I were to leave, youâd be devastated.â
The thought makes you whimper, nipping at his neck. He hisses. âStop it.â You say in a tiny voice. You feel his bulge grow more prominent.
âYouâd do anything to please me, make me stay.â He moans through the sentence, bucking up into you. Your heart starts thumping, and the longer this goes on the more you realize itâs not because youâre turned on. You lift from him.
âI said stop.â Your face is hot. Itâs right, heâs completely correct. You want to have your hands and lips on him at all times and your heart is constantly clenched by the fear that he doesnât really care about you.
âWhat? Should I make you bleed instead?â He laughs.
Your chest constricts, your breath getting caught in your throat. Your lips tremble as you quirk your jaw trying to curb the anger bubbling up.Â
âWhat did you just say?â
âBabe.â He sits up on his forearms. âIâm just trying to rile you up a little bit. Iâm just having a little fun.â He looks you up and down, heâs getting harder underneath you.
Right⌠this is something youâre familiar with. Something that could lead to even a moment of serenity. But itâs never that way with him. His eyes judge you and urge you to satisfy him. He doesnât even have to say a word and youâre scrambling to make sure heâs pleased. Youâre giving your all as he lazily lies beneath you, enjoying the show. Exuding passion with nothing in return is exhausting, that exhaustion finally dawning on you.
âWell Iâm not.â You say before swinging your leg back over him. You slide out of his bed and start putting your clothes back on.
âWhere are you going? Come on, you donât actually want to leave.â He barely moves, just shifting a little to the side.
âI just need a little space for the night.â You hurriedly slip into your pants, wanting to leave instead of having this conversation.
âNo you donât. You need company like you need water.â His velvety smooth voice that once coaxed you into giving your all to him is gone. Whatâs left is harsh yet dismissive.
âYou donât know what I need, Myungsoo.â You shoot back, throwing your shirt on the bed.
âI know, everyone knows. Youâre so lonely you walk around everywhere like a lost puppy but run away whenever anyone tries to get to know you. Thereâs a reason you were texting me and not your friends you were just drinking with. Iâm all you have. So donât be stupid.âÂ
Just like that, the harsh lines in his face melt away and heâs back to smirking, patting the space beside him in the bed.
Is this what you deserve? They say you shouldnât look a gift horse in the mouth. And heâs right. Heâs so right, again. Maybe you should just sink into the warmth and turn your brain off. Turn on the switch to perform.
However, as you think, emotions build inside you. It feels like pressure behind your skull threatening to pop. Tears abruptly start gushing down your face as you grab your shirt and rush out of the door. You canât stop the ugly noises from leaving you as you rush home in the cold night air.Â
By the time youâre in your own bed, your face and head hurt from the intensity of your sobs. There are no tears left as you continue to sob. It didnât work. You were supposed to use him as an opportunity to take away some stress but somehow itâs worse. Thereâs nothing you can do. Youâll just have to live with this alone. Forever.
CRACK
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âI was so close but I didnât make it.â Jiwon sighs dejectedly.Â
âI donât know what they donât see in you! I think youâre a great performer.â Kai laments.
âYou did a great job.â Beomgyu rubs her hand and she instantly smiles.Â
âThanks. And at the end of the day I still have my group and you guys.â Everyone gushes at her response.Â
Beomgyuâs mind wanders to the place it has been going frequently these days. He wonders what youâre doing. What it would be like if you were still friends with the members. If he didnât make you cry. Would you be smiling as widely as Jiwon is even after failing?
âLook whoâs lost in thought again.â Soobin pats Beomgyuâs back but heâs stuck. Heâs nestled deep within thoughts of you.
âYou know you could talk to us about anything, right?â Jiwon moves her hand to caress his. No. He doesnât know this. In fact, he knows itâs not true.
âWhy do you think she was crying that day?â Beomgyu doesnât look up but the table goes quiet. The tension is lathered thick over the air. Jiwon laughs nervously.
âWait, Beomgyu werenât you just talking aboutââ Jiwon attempts to change the topic.
âYou would think sheâd be really happy right now.â He continues.Â
âLetâs not talk about thisââ Jiwon tries but Beomgyu turns toward her.
âDidnât you say I could talk to you guys about anything?â
âBut Beomgyu⌠talking about her is only going to make you more upset.â Jiwon lowers her voice, going back to how cautious she was when they first met.
âDo I look upset? You guys are the ones acting like thereâs a gun to your heads when sheâs brought up.â Beomgyu resumes eating while everyone else is still frozen.
âGyu. Itâs because you should let go of her. Itâll be better for you.â Her hand that was once soothing on his now felt like an owner trying to calm their dog after someone knocked on the door.Â
âYou donât know whatâs better for me.â Beomgyu grumbles.
Soobin stands abruptly. âBeomgyu, can we talk in the kitchen?â
âGladly.â Beomgyu immediately follows the taller male out the dining room and down the hall. Before Soobin could start scolding him he had things to get off his chest first.
âWhy did you introduce me to her in the first place?â
âShe asked to meet you. She was interested.â Soobin expresses annoyedly.
âIâm sure plenty of girls have done that, why did you decide to do so for her.â Beomgyu probes.
âBecause I knew her and trusted her.â
âTrusted her to be able to handle a project.â Beomgyu rushes out. And before Soobin can deny anything heâs rushing toward him with a finger pointed at his face. âI donât need to be fixed.â
Soobin sighs, uneasy about how this conversation may go.Â
âYouâre not broken, youâre hurt. Everyone gets hurt, Beomgyu. Thereâs nothing wrong with accepting help. Weâre just trying to help you move on-â
âI donât want to move on! You guys were so fucking anal about how I treated her and now you just pretend she doesnât exist?â Beomgyu shouts furiously.
Soobin decides itâs better to just rip off the bandaid. There's no changing the truth.Â
âSheâs gone. Itâs been half a year and sheâs made no attempt to reach out to any of us. Itâs clear that part of our lives is over. Beomgyu, you need to focus on yourself right now. We can get through this together.â Soobin tries to coax a reasonable reaction out of Beomgyu but it doesnât seem to be working. Heâs only getting more worked up.
âStop. Stop.â Beomgyu shoves his hands into his hair before gritting his teeth. âIâm so sick of everyone shoving me under a telescope. At least she never pried.â
âAre you insinuating that what you guys had was anything remotely healthy? Continuously hanging around someone who you despise that much isnât good for either of you. I saw the marks all over her body.â
Beomgyu sees red, heâs grabbing Soobinâs collar before he could think it through.
âYou shut your fucking mouth. You donât know what youâre talking about. You donât know her like I do.â Beomgyu shoves him away, his glare hot like lava as he walks out of the room. Heading toward his bedroom he doesnât see Jiwon on the other side of the doorway. She bites her fist as a tear trickles down her cheek.Â
âWhenâs Beomgyu coming over next?â Mao asks, switching to kneel on the couch toward a stone faced Jiwon. Jiwon takes in a quick breath, checking one last time if this is the right move.
âI donât think he is.â
Mao and the other girls in the room all make a noise in surprise and crowd around Jiwon on the couch. âWhat the hell happened?â Haeyoon asked incredulously.
Jiwon lets out a small derisive laugh to pair with a tiny smirk as she drops her head. âHeâs hung up over his ex.â
The girls all switch between comforting her and cursing him.Â
âWhoâs the ex?â Chaerin asks angrily.
Jiwon thinks on it again. Fuck it.
âDo you know that song Strawberry Jam?â
-đď¸â
Something is unresolved. That much is clear as you both lay in your own rooms, tear stains on each of your pillows. And as long as it stays unresolved, you both will be unable to be loved.Â
Youâve denied four invitations to hang out with Chaewon, and youâre surprised she still asks. This month is a free schedule for you to rest after your song promotions are over.
Beomgyu either plays video games until his eyes are dry or lies in bed scrolling through social media. His members pop in to give him food.
Your stomach twists painfully as you watch tv in bed. The colors dance around blurrily as your eyes start to water again.
A month didnât feel like a month, but you lost track of your days so it makes sense when your manager comes into your room.Â
âWhatâs that smell? Get up and take a shower. Weâre going to go over this monthâs schedule.â She shuts the door, trusting that youâll follow orders. Even she used to be kinder to you. Whatâs the use of attempting to start relationships when they donât work out. Even your own parents donât talk to you anymore. You laugh hoarsely. The laughing grows louder and louder until youâre cackling.
You cackle in the shower as well. Is this what happens after youâve cried so much tears donât come out anymore?
Beomgyu regretted chasing away Jiwon the minute he did it. She had a similar hurt expression to you when he yelled at her to get out of his room. Look at how each of his relationships ended. Why the hell would Hyesoo stay with a guy like him. Beomgyuâs lip quivers before heâs crying into his pillow again.
You both carry out whatâs scheduled for you numbly, so checked out neither of you can add anything valuable to any conversation.Â
âRemember how you signed up to be an MC? Well you got accepted! You can continue submitting songs for your next comeback but this should be your priority for now.â One of the women at the table inform you. Fuck, you did do that, didnât you.
It turns out itâs pretty easy. Just smile and read your lines. Itâs much easier to turn your MC switch on, it seems. You had even gotten comfortable with it. Your co-MC is friendly. Formal, but friendly. Everything was working out.
You lift up your cue card in the silence of your empty room.
âAnd hereâs TXT with their new comeback...â Your enthusiasm wanes when you think about standing in a room with him again.
CRACK
Itâll be fine, just flip the switch.
You can feel that heâs there, everyone can feel the tension. The you that was involved with him is switched off right now. Right now youâre conducting an interview.Â
Beomgyu slowly fades to the background as you watch the other members, remembering the good memories you had together. Soobin does most of the talking which makes your chest unwittingly constrict. After this youâll be all alone again.
The makeup artist finally gets done touching up your makeup and you get a moment to stew. Only a short moment as the other MC approaches.Â
âHey, are you okay?âÂ
The simple question forces your switch off. The two of you made eye contact at the end of the interview, and for some reason a whirlwind of emotions threatened to escape you. Youâre not okay.
âItâs just, I know you have a past with Beomgyu.â
âYeahââ You look up at him as your brain fog slowly dissipates. âWhat did you say?â
âI heard that you wrote Strawberry Jam about him and IâŚâ
Everything silently shatters, the pieces remaining all clattering to the floor.
âLook at the back of her neck.â You whip your head around to see two idols whispering before looking shocked and scurrying away. You send a shaky hand to the back of your neck to cover it. Doing so makes your sleeve drop and reveal scratches on your arm. You begin hyperventilating as you scan your surroundings. Multiple people, staff, idols, everybody is whispering and looking at you. You block out the other MC yelling after you as you run out of the room.
Was it Myungsoo? Was he retaliating because you left him? You never mentioned Beomgyu though. No⌠it could only be one person. Tears stream down your face as you hunt for their dressing room. You pass a mirror on the way and get stuck staring at your void of a face. Only a pair of reddened, crazed eyes stare back. You refocus on your hunt and finally find their door. You swing it open and rush toward Beomgyu in a frenzy.
As you enter, everything around Beomgyu is a blur. The staff looking shocked, Yeonjun and Soobin jumping up to restrain you. And you. Your makeup is completely ruined with a look of utter fury on your face as you cock your hand back before striking him across the face. Time goes back to normal as the staff gasp. Beomgyu places a hand over his stinging flesh. It prickles, burning through his numbness. The initial impact of the slap was like a crack of lightning striking him. He feels a blur of emotions threatening to pour out.
âWhy the fuck would you do that?! What the fuck is wrong with you?!â Yeonjun and Soobin had successfully restrained you but you thrash to get free. You curse and swipe at Beomgyu, yelling incoherently. Beomgyu slowly stands up and approaches you. Taehyun has to join and hold each arm when Beomgyu is in reaching distance.
âLet me go!â You shriek like a raging animal, trying to rip yourself free. You kick at him, your heels striking his shins and sending a piercing bout of pain up his legs.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?! Get away from her!â Soobin yells.
âLet her go.â Beomgyu yells over the commotion.
âWhat?! Why wouldââ Yeonjun starts but Soobin lets go.
âJust do it. Let him have her.â Soobin spits, scowling at the younger male whose eyes are still trained on you. Taehyun and Yeonjun let you go and you immediately slap him again.
âYou just couldnât help trying to ruin my career again? Do you really hate me that much after I gave you what you wanted?â You whisper shakily, your eyes wild as they take him in.
âBeomgyu⌠what did you do?â Kaiâs voice is weak behind him.
Beomgyu takes your arm and pulls you out of the room. You yell for him to let you go and strike his arm. Each hit is like a jolt of clarity for Beomgyu, the pain an afterthought. He pulls you into an empty room where you begin banging your fists against his chest. He stumbles backward, slamming you against the door and shutting it.Â
He restrains your arms, squeezing them to keep them steady as you thrash again. âWhy?! What else do you want?!â
âWhat did I do, he asked.â Beomgyu laughed. He throws his head against the door and laughs harder. You look on in utter disbelief.
âIs this funny to you?â
âWhatâs funny is that I didnât do anything and somehow shit has still hit the fan. My members are questioning me again, youâre fucking hitting me again.â The amusement Beomgyu was expressing earlier is completely gone as he starts his rant.
âYou told everyone that my song was about us!âÂ
âI didnât!â He shouts back.
âThen who did Beomgyu?!â
âIâm not the only person who knew about us.â Beomgyu yanks you closer by your arms. You finally manage to free your arms and you drive a finger into his chest.
âBut you are the only person who has proven to be malicious enough to do something like this.â
âHow do you know itâs not one of your friends? Youâre all big and famous now, maybe you shouldnât go around telling anyone your secrets.â
âI donât have any friends anymore, Beomgyu!â You shout, your voice cracking as a lone tear rolls down your cheek. âRemember? You drove me away from my only friends. I didnât go âwhoring around Enhypenâ. I have no one.â The last of the sentence shreds your throat. You run your hands over your face before pointing at him again. âIâm going through enough and you choose to fuck with me. This is all I have Beomgyu!â You pound both your fists against his chest and again youâre moving in slow motion. He can see it in your eyes. In how hard you clench your teeth. He can feel it each time you strike him.
âWhy would you do it?â You sob.
âSlap me.â
You gape at him, chest rising and falling violently as you make up for the amount of air you lost.Â
Beomgyu is the one getting riled up now. âDo it. Slap me. Fucking do itââ
You strike him hard enough that the corner of his mouth splits.Â
âDo it again.â
Your hand is impacting his cheek as soon as his sentence ends.Â
âAgain.â
Youâre both breathing frantically as you slap him again and another time before he can even ask. He grabs your forearm and yanks you closer. âDo it. I know what you want. Fucking ruin me.â
You grab his face and pull his mouth to smash against yours. He lifts you up and you immediately wrap your legs around him. The taste of his tongue, his blood, it lights you up. All your emotions come flooding out as you grip his shirt and tear it apart. Your noses bump harshly against each other as he repositions you against the wall.
You can barely act on your urges with how intense Beomgyuâs actions are. Every ounce of passion you exude is given back to you tenfold. Within moments of letting you down you are both bare for each other.
Beomgyuâs skin being exposed is perfect for your nails dying to sink into it. You reach your arms under his that cage against the wall and slowly rake your fingernails down his back. He winces, letting out small noises of pain. The anger and sadness inside you has hit its peak. Youâre so fucking angry, but the pained look on his face hurts.
You want to do something about your anger, but you still retract your hands and sink against the wall. Beomgyu looks at you confused before drawing closer. You shy away from him, whimpering as the bitter truth sets in.
Beomgyu didnât force you to stop talking to Soobin. Beomgyu didnât force you to ghost your friends. Beomgyu isnât the cause of your loneliness.Â
Itâs you.
He reaches out to touch you but you push him away. His saddened eyes make you ache which in turn makes you more angry. But you can no longer bring yourself to hit him. A surge of rage sends your own hand across your face. The sting is distracting, itâs something. You strike your other cheek harder and Beomgyu stops you before you can do it again.Â
âNo.â He takes your hand and pulls it near his face. Your eyes follow your hand as it closes in on him.Â
âHit me.â
Your eyes move slowly towards his lips as they form the words, then up to his dark, big eyes. Theyâre swarming with depth and emotion. You take in his entire face, reddened by your hand. Lips swollen from your mouth. Hair tousled in the chaos. You see him.
You thought tears would be a rare occurrence by now, but there goes another, skitting from your cheekbone to the floor. You smile bitterly.
âI canât.â
The gleam of your tears brings life to your otherwise tired eyes. He wants to question why, to wallow in self pity with his own delusional reasoning. But no, in your face is all the answers he needs. The same reason he hasnât hurt you once this entire time. You sigh, letting your head fall, your eyes darkening as they close.
âI donât know what else to do.â You express weakly.
Seeing you tremble silently makes his previous attempts to pin his resentment on you seem absurd. Beomgyu lets go of your hand.
âI donât either.â
Itâs like clarity washes over the both of you at the same time as you both take in your surroundings. Assess the situation. You shake your head.
âThen what are we doing here?â You brush past him in pursuit of your clothing, pick up each article scattered around the room.Â
âItâs just like we said. We donât know what else to do.â He says behind you.
You slow your collection as you let his words sink in. Youâve exhausted every other option. Therapy, rough sex, songwriting, diaries, crying. Then you feel his warmth behind you. Your eyes ease closed as you melt into him. Your mind goes blank and for the first time in a long time, itâs not out of force or sheer exhaustion. Both of you relax into one another. Youâd have to go out eventually, explain yourself and face scrutiny. Risk peopleâs opinions of you degrading. Thereâs nothing to worry about here. Youâve already seen the worst of each other. Thereâs nothing to guard in fear.
You turn around to face him. He looks different. Softer. Unintimidating. He could say the same for you. You climb on top of him, shivering as his member brushes against your mound. Your lips meld together like softening butter. They glide, becoming slick with the otherâs saliva.Â
He glides his nose up the side of your face as he slips inside you. Both of your mouths hang agape as he slots all the way in. Heâs buried deep inside you, no space left unfilled. The two of you substitute kissing for pressing your heads together, feeling every part of the other's skin. You trail your tongue across his jaw before kissing up to his ear. Every sense is filled with Beomgyu to the point where you canât think of anything else. His makeup, his cologne, his body wash, his deodorant, his lotion, his taste, his touch, him, him, him. Your heart swells as he showers you with as much attention as you give him and then some.
Your hips move in unison, grinding together. Once you kiss again thereâs no longer any space in between. Disconnecting sends slightly louder pants and moans into the air as you both start moving faster. Youâve never heard him moan like this. Itâs so unrestrained and vulnerable, exposing his eagerness just as much as his hands squeezing your ass does.Â
You find you feel full in more ways than one right now. He saw you at your ugliest and heâs still here right now holding you like he never plans to let go. As if reading your thoughts, he clutches you even closer. You feel a light, bubbly laugh float from your chest as your legs start to tingle. You gasp as you climax with a stutter of your hips. Your movements slow âtil theyâve almost ceased as you drowsily rest your forehead on his. The two of you rock back and forth in the only clean circle of the room amongst the chaos.
A moment of serenity is all the two of you are granted when you hear a knock at the door. Soobin comes in, looking disappointed as he regards you both.
âAre you done? Everyoneâs looking for you.â
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Beomgyu got an earful for disappearing that day. You couldâve gotten into an ungodly amount of trouble if the other MC didnât stick up for you. He felt responsible and was beyond apologetic. You forgave him, of course. He did nothing wrong. Also, you've come to terms with the fact that you know you have nothing to do with that song. It's someone else's demo you got paid to perform. It doesn't define you.
âHey, are you coming?â Chaewon asks. You go to answer but notice a couple of conflicted looks from her members. A quick thought that you âbetter not annoy themâ crosses your mind. You imagine tagging along and making things awkward and it makes you wince.
âNo, I-â
âCome on.â Yunjin says dismissively and pulls you by the arm to follow them to their next location.Â
You sit stiffly on the couch, clapping along to Eunchaeâs loud singing as everyone around you cheers.
She concludes with two bows and a loud âthank youâ into the microphone.Â
âGo ahead and pick whoâs next.â Yunjin yells gleefully. Youâre too distracted to realize Yunjinâs hand is hovering over you with her finger extended down.
âHmmâŚâ Eunchae pretends to think about it for a comically short amount of time before yelling out your name. Your confusion is cut short by a cheering Yunjin and Chaewon pushing you toward the screen. She hands you the mic which you take hesitantly. Once they're seated again they initiate a chant.
âSing! Sing! Sing! Sing!â
Your brain does the honors of going over all of the embarrassing ways this could play out. Regardless of that, youâre already singing. Itâs either that or running out the door, and the latter would take much more effort and explaining. Besides, whatâs the worst that could happen?
You finish to cheers and applause and you bow in response.
-đď¸â
Things in the dorm have gone back to being tense. Soobin isnât giving Beomgyu the silent treatment this time, but itâs clear heâs disappointed. Everyone is under the impression that they hooked up again only to go back to hating each other. Mostly because you havenât come over yet. Beomgyu was giving it some time, but now heâs ready.
âStop acting weird.â He sighs, rubbing his nose bridge. âI did have sex with her. No, the song isnât about me. We donât hate each other. You guys can stop tiptoeing around me now.â
The members visibly untense, but only to express confusion.
âWhere is she then?â Soobin speaks up, casting a stern look his way.
âWhy does her being here matter?â Beomgyu finally gets to ask.
âRemember when you called me naive for having faith in her?â Soobin grits his teeth. âAfter all that sheâs still-â
You cautiously click open the door, slowly revealing your apologetic expression. âI was going to wait but I didnâtâŚâ You stop when you see the hardened look on Soobinâs face upon seeing you. âH-hello everyone.â
Kai stands up and marches over to give you a crushing hug. The gesture makes your heart flutter.
âYou didnât even call.â He pouts.
âIâm sorry.â You squeeze out. Taehyun and Yeonjun come next. Taehyun gives you a side hug while Yeonjun pats your back.
âWelcome back.â Yeonjun says with a wide smile.
The moment is interrupted by Soobin walking out of the living room into his own and slamming the door. You immediately follow after him, an action that Beomgyu watches carefully. Of course he notices a sharp pain in his chest, but he sits with it. Studies it. You could be chasing after him to reveal your true feelings and this time he may accept. He doesnât want that. It even makes him a little bitter, but he canât stop you. He can say whatever ugly words come to his mind to try and scare you away, but this time they may not work. And youâre not doing anything wrong. Him cuddling with you and drifting off to sleep in your bed doesnât mean youâre dating. Moreover, youâre not Hyesoo. Heâs seen every part of you by now. Regardless of everything, heâll still be happy to have you in his life.
âYou have sex with me and then never show your face again? Do you know how that feels?â Soobin explains desperately with tears springing to his eyes. âI knew the sex was meaningless, that was the whole point, but for you to up and leave afterward like I was just some random guy really sucks.â
âI-I didnât want to leave, Soobin. I was too mortified to show my face again.â
âBecause thatâs what you guys being together does! You break down each other and then turn to breaking down those around you just trying to help. Itâs selfish for you to waltz back in here like everything is back to normal.â
âItâs not.â You state confidently. âEverything is very, very different now. I canât go into public spaces without being recognized, I have more people around me than ever before, and Beomgyu and I donât hate each other anymore. You said it yourself, weâre similar and we wreck everything around us. We do it to ourselves. Beomgyu realizes it now and I certainly do. I donât want things to go back to normal, because that version of me is gone.â The more you speak, the easier the words come. You smile hopefully at Soobin.
âIâm moving on with or without you, but Iâd really love it if you entered this new chapter with me.â
You grab both of Soobinâs hands as his head droops. Heâs silent for what feels like decades passing you by. Then he squeezes your hands.
Epilogue đď¸â
Chaewon: you should apologize.
You pass the phone to Beomgyu in the midst of his âadviceâ. He crosses one arm over his chest as he reads the very short text for an inappropriate amount of time.
âBut you didnât know, right?â
âThat doesnât mean Iâm not in the wrong.â You groan, snatching your phone back. He snatches it right back and starts texting.Â
âHey!â You go to take your phone back but he leans away further and further until his body is caging the phone against the couch. You climb over him and bite his shoulder but he just laughs as the text is sent. You frantically snatch your phone back and look in horror.
You: tomorrow at my house 6pm;â2[21
âWhat the fuck! Beomgyu!â You shriek.
âYou didnât know, therefore you didnât intentionally do anything wrong. But you did hurt Kazuhaâs feelings and the members are very mad at you.â He explains calmly, smacking on his food.Â
âThanks for reminding me of my unfortunate situation.â You deadpan.
âYou were worried they think you're a horrible person. Boomââ He motions at your phone with his sandwich. âYou can fix that. Youâre worried youâre actually a horrible person, but you had no intentions of hurting anyone.â
âYeah but you werenât there. The way I said it was so insensitive in context and the look on Zuhaâs face,â You whimper and hide your face in your hands.
âYou didnât hurt her on purpose.â The finality in Beomgyuâs voice makes you look up at him. His face is serious. âIâm certain of it. Now come here.â He pats his lap and youâre eagerly scooting over to lay your head on his lap. He sighs.
âYou idiot.â He brushes away the tear falling down your face. âWhy donât you listen to me?â
âHurting someone as sweet as her is pure evil.â You whisper.
âI donât have to know you to say that an evil person wouldnât be this remorseful. But knowing you, youâre not the type of person to go into an exchange ready to hurt an innocent person. Youâre the type of person who sits quietly thinking about what you could say that will make people laugh the loudest and smile the brightest. Iâm very sure thatâs what you were thinking that day as well.â He voices his thoughts as he strokes your hair, stroking your cheek with his thumb. He looks down to meet your gaze and you feel the singe of a fire starting in your heart. He smiles lazily and it's the cherry on top of the artwork that is his face.Â
You slowly lean up before capturing his lips. Itâs slow, tender, loaded. Kissing him after all the chaos feels like lying in a field of dandelions, the seeds breaking away and dancing in the wind. His skin feels like the warm hug of sunlight. His voice is like birds singing. You pull away and look at him in awe. He seems to be mirroring your feelings if his drunken expression is anything to go by. He shuts his mouth and brushes the back of his hand against your cheek.
âYouâre kissing me outside of us having sex?â Beomgyu sports exaggerated shock and presses his palm to your forehead. His antics force a giggle out of you. âAre you sick?!â
You swipe his hand away, unable to ignore the burning light in your chest as you look at him and he silently looks back. You lean in and kiss him one last time before risking it all once you realize what this feeling is.
âI think I love you.â You whisper, looking desperately at his face to catch anything unsavory. His smile drops, looking genuinely shocked this time. He grabs your face and pecks your lips over and over before moving to the other parts of your face until you're stuck in a fit of laughter. He pulls away with adoration in his eyes.
âI loved you first.â
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Pode sugerir fcs coreanas entre 1995-1999? Quero fazer uma muse coreana, mas não conheço tantas fcs assim.
Claro que posso sugerir, pompurin! A lista ficou gigante, entĂŁo vou deixar depois do cut, temos 150 mocinhas que sĂŁo conhecidas e "desconhecidas", mas sĂŁo todas lindas e merecem uma chance! Muitas contam com uma gama de fotos, enquanto outras nĂŁo, mas espero que encontre uma que agrade.
1995
Kim Jisoo, Blackpink
Kim Jiyeon (Kei), Lovelyz
Kim Mihyun (Mimi), Oh My Girl
Park Junghwa, EXID
Jung Dasol (Yiyeon), BVNDIT
Ki Huihyeon, DIA
Choi Heejae (Heeyu), MIXX
Lee Jooeun (Jueun), DIA
Han Haebin, Gugudan
Kim Jiyeon (Bona), Cosmic Girls
Ahn Jiyoung, Bolbbalgan4
Yoo Siah (Yooa), Oh My Girl
Im Nayeon, Twice
Kwon Eunbi, Solo e IZ*ONE
Lee Siyeon, Dreamcatcher
Oh Seunghee, CLC
Chu Sojung (Exy), Cosmic Girls
Kim Nayoung, Gugudan
Kim Minju (Seoyeon), Favorite
Kim Yechan, Pink Fantasy
Kim Sojung (Sowon), Gfriend
Im Nayoung, Pristin
1996
Park Haeyoon, Cherry Bullet
Lee Hyebin, MOMOLAND
Kim Jennie, Blackpink
Hyun Seunghee, Oh My Girl
Kim Chungha, solista (ex-I.O.I)
Nim Daewang, Pink Fantasy
Park Myungeun (Jin), Lovelyz
Oh Hayoung, Apink
Lee Dabin (Yeonwoo), ex-MOMOLAND
Choi Yujin, CLC e Kep1er
Jung Yerin, Gfriend
Jeon Somin, KARD
Kim Sejeong, Gugudan
Hwang Woolim, Playback
Park Sooyoung (Joy), Red Velvet
Park Soobin, Cosmic Girls
Jeon Jiwoo, KARD
Im Soeun (NC.A), UNI.T
Yoo Jeongyeon, Twice
Jang Seungyeon, CLC
Jang Sojin (Soyee), Gugudan
Lee Dawon, ARIAZ
Kim Seri (AleXa), solista
1997
Kim Yoohyeon, Dreamcatcher
Lee Saerom, Fromis_9
Jo Miyeon, (G)I-dle
Park Jisoo (Jihyo), Twice
Roseanne Park (RosĂŠ), Blackpink
Lee Yoojeong (Haru), Ho1iday
Choi Yuju, Cherry Bullet
Lee Luda, Cosmic Girls
Lee Yoobin (Dami), Dreamcatcher
Nam Dawon, Cosmic Girls
Kim Songsun, TRI.BE
Kim Hyebin, AREAL
Choi Moonhee, Bonus Baby
Ji Suyeon, Weki Meki
Ma Eunji, Playback
Oh Hyesoo (Lina), RedSquare
Ha Sooyoung (Yves), LOONA
Jung Eunbi (Eunha), VIVIZ/GFriend
Choi Yoonsun (New Sun), Sonamoo
Kim Chaewon (Woo-ah), CRAXY
Baek Yerin, 15&
Song Yeonjoo, P.O.P
Park Jimin (Jamie), 15&
Baek Yebin, DIA
Oh Sejin (Lina), ANS
Kim Minkyung (Roa), Hinapia (e ex-Pristin)
Kim Eunji (EJ), ALICE
Jo Haseul, LOONA
Ahn Solbin, LABOUM
Bae Yubin, Oh My Girl
Song Hayoung, Fromis_9
Choi Yuna (Yuju), GFriend
Kang Kyungwon (Yuha), Hinapia
Kim Chaewon, APRIL
Yoo Jiyeon (U-Si), BADKIZ
Ryu Sujeong, Lovelyz
Seo Yuri (Seoyul), Berry Good
Jung Chaeyeon, DIA (ex-I.O.I)
Im Hayoung (Lu), NATURE
Sung Jiyeon (Jane), MOMOLAND
Jang Gyuri, ex-Fromis_9
Son Hyunmi (Mia), MIXX
1998
Park Jinhee (Jinny), Secret Number
Jeon Eunji (Danny), Ho1iday
Lee Hyunjoo, UNI.T
Lee Yeji (J), ANS
Jeon Hyunjoo (Royeon), ANS
Kim Hyunjung (Daye), Berry Good
Seo Soojin, ex-(G)I-dle
Park Jiwon, Fromis_9
Lee Suji, UNI.T
Park Jiwon (E:U), EVERGLOW
Son Juyeon (Eunseo), Cosmic Girls
Kim Dahyun, Twice
Hwang Eunbi (SinB), VIVIZ/GFriend
Jeong Yein, Lovelyz
Jeong Eunwoo, Hinapia/ex-Pristin
Lim Hyosun, H.U.B.
Maeng Chaesol, Cignature
Jung Haerim (Elly), Weki Meki
Kim Nayun, MOMOLAND
Jang Yeeun, CLC
Kim Yewon (Umji), VIVIZ/GFriend
Jeon Soyeon, (G)I-dle
Kim Hyungseo (Bibi), solista
Kang Yebin (Rena), Hinapia e ex-Pristin
Yoon Songhee, BVNDIT
Roh Jisun, Fromis_9
1999
Lee Jinsook (Yeoreum), Cosmic Girls
Yoo Jeongahn (Daisy), ex-MOMOLAND
Lee Gahyeon, Dreamcatcher
Kim Jungeun (Kim Lip), ex-LOONA e ARTMS
Lee Yoona (Keina), H.U.B
Kim Yewon (Yehana), Pristin
Kim Bora, Cherry Bullet
Kim Yerim (Yeri), Red Velvet
Park Minji, Secret Number
Kim Jiwon (Jeewon), Cignature
Uhm Jungwoo, BVNDIT
Kim Seokyung, GWSN
Im Dayoung, Cosmic Girls
Bae Sungyeon, Pristin
Kwon Chaewon (Eunchae), DIA
Lee Simyeong, BVNDIT
Choi Yewon (Arin), Oh My Girl
Kang Hyewon, IZ*ONEÂ
Kim Sohye, solista
Choi Yoobin (Chaebin), NATURE
Yu Yeonjung, Cosmic Girls
Kim Sihyeon, EVERGLOW
Lee Joowon (Joo E), MOMOLAND
Na Goeun, Purple Kiss
Choi Yeori, ARIAZ
Moon Sua, Billie
Lee Ahin, MOMOLAND
Choi Yena, IZ*ONE e solista
Son Eunchae, bugAboo
Kim Jiwoo (Chuu), ex-LOONA e solista
Lee Chaelin, FANATICS
Choi Euijeong (Boni), Dreamnote
Lee Yukyung, ALICE
Lee Soodam, Secret Number
Choi Yoojung, Weki Meki
Kang Mina, Gugudan
Kim Doyeon, Weki Meki
#⥠¡ âď¸ : respondidas#( rinn a poderosa chefinha )#⥠¡ đź : fc help#fc help#korean fc#⥠¡ đ¸ by sakura
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Hyesoo baby, tell me something you been thinking of often recently?
Oh, that's a tough one. There's been a million things going through my head lately ă
I've actually been thinking about my mom a lot. There's not much I remember about her, unfortunately, but I can remember how she used to sing me to sleep when I was really young. I wish she could have been with us a little longer than she was.
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The Thieves (2012)
ëëë¤ The Thieves (2012) written by Choi Donghoon and Lee Ki-cheol directed by Choi Donghoon
#movie#korean movie#ëëë¤#the thieves#lee jungjae#kim yoon seok#kim hyesoo#jun ji hyun#kim soo hyun#simon yam#kim hae sook#oh dal su#angelica lee#derek tsang#shin hakyun
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#park se jin icons#sejin icons#park sejin icons#se jin icons#oh kyunghwa icons#kyung hwa icons#kyunghwa icons#oh kyung hwa icons#hyena icons#hyena kdrama#hyena#hyena kdrama icos#hyena drama#sbs hyena icons#sbs hyena#jun suk ho icons#jun sukho icons#sukho icons#suk ho icons#kim hyesoo icons#hye soo icons#kim hye soo icons#hyesoo icons
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CAN WE PLEASE GIVE THE CAST OF SWING KIDS A BIG FUCKING APPLAUSE?!
I was shaking in my seat. The whole fucking movie, my eyes were glued to the screen. The cast made me laugh, smile, feel shocked and eventually cry. Iâm absolutely speechless at the beauty of this movie. The power of dance is so strong that I bet you will start tap dancing while watching it. Huge props to the director for putting together such a masterpiece.
I personally think this has been Kyungsooâs best performance following Hyung, I am stunned at both his and the entire casts performance. Havenât seen such a great movie in so long.
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SEHUN - EXO '2018 SEASON'S GREETINGS'
(c) Photographer Kim Hyesoo
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LEE JIHOON (WOOZI) +Â âWill you nap with me?â
wc: 935 /// genre: a fluffy boyfriend au /// warnings: none
A/N: seemed only appropriate to make my Caratland fanfiction debut on Woozi day hehe. Happy Woozi day!Â
In your years of knowing him, youâve realized that Jihoon has an ability like no other. Heâs able to convey meanings different from the words he speaks: rarely do the words he vocalizes mean the same in his mouth and in the dictionary. For the longest time, you had no idea how he did it.Â
Itâs in the way his question âWhat did you have for lunch today?â sounds exactly like âI hope you had a good dayâ.
Itâs in the way his words âThe studio felt quiet todayâ translate to âI missed youâ.
Itâs in the way he curses his friends while fondly grinning, subsequently making his profanities sound like sung praises and odes to his members.Â
Itâs an ability that is just entirely Jihoon. No one can replicate it. Itâs just Jihoon.Â
Only after years of knowing him, of growing close to him, of translating his words with his friends, can you finally understand every word he says. It seems foolish now, the way you used to look at him with wide eyes and a thorn-like question itching in your throat when he spoke. Now, as you listen to him speak, all his words make sense and every meaning appears at full-flight.
When you enter his studio, he glances up from the large computer screen. His equally frustrated and bored expression morphs into a small smile as he turns in his chair to question, âHow was your day today?â Distract me from this project before I lose my mind.Â
You smile as you lean against his desk, glancing at the purple LED lights. Heâs sat in front of you, staring up at you like a curious child. You answer his question, âIt was fine. Actually, it was pretty great. I even got praised today.â
His eyes close as he leans his head against your thigh. âThatâs good.â Keep talking. I like your voice.
âRemember that dumb project I have to do by Tuesday? I finished most of it,â you speak cheerfully. It has always been hard to feel upset or tired when his warmth kept you pressed against the desk, even in a position as innocent as this. All your worries simply seem to melt away in his presence. You can only hope he feels the same as you gard your fingers through his hair. âNow I just need to format it, add in some word-vomit to make it sound all professional and not too direct, and then I could probably hand it in. Oh! And I got lunch with Hyesoo today!â
You can feel him smiling against your thigh. âWhere did you go for lunch?â Iâm glad you had time to take care of yourself.
âThereâs some Italian place behind the plaza. Iâve never really gone there before, but the food was great. The spaghetti aglio e olio was to die for.â
A chuckle and a lazy blink of his eyes to look up at you are followed by a mocking question, âYou go to an Italian restaurant for the first time and you order an aglio e olio? Even Joshua can make that.â Maybe you should go there again sometime, with me.Â
âIâll try something else the next time,â you promise him gingerly and he hums as a praise. You reach out to massage his shoulders, a gesture he greatly appreciates, judging by his grateful moans and hums. âHow was your day?â
âThe usual: had to separate Jeonghan and Joshua, argued with Mingyu, almost got in a fist-fight with Seungkwan. Just the usual.â
Your eyebrow rises without consent. âFist-fight with Seungkwan? Care to elaborate?â
âNo.â Iâll tell you about it over dinner later.Â
âAs you wish. Did you eat?â
His lifted his head to grimace and shake his head. âDidnât feel like it today.â I donât like eating alone.
âShould we go and eat together then? I could whip up something fast,â you suggested. âI bet I still have some ramen at home.â
âI have a better idea.â
âOh?â
His face nuzzled against your thigh once again, his fingers coming to wrap around your knee and keep you in place as he chose his words. Before long, he suggested in a whisper, âWill you nap with me?â I want to stay with you a little longer. I love you.
You could feel your face soften at his words, lips falling apart at the connotations. âAre you sure?â
âAlways.â Please say yes. Please stay.
Without a second of hesitation, he stands up and takes your hand, leading you to the couch before throwing himself back-first onto it and holding his arms open. You canât help but smile at the way his eyes shine as he waits for you to climb into his embrace.Â
Thereâs not much of a choice to make. You gladly wrap yourself around him, eliciting giggles from him when your movements tickle his sides and his neck. Your face quickly finds its home in the crook of his neck and a smile appears on your face as you breathe in his scent. It is rare for you to get such affection so you make sure to cherish it when you get it.
âSleep well,â he whispers before pressing a kiss to your temple. I love you. Iâll protect you while you sleep.
As you choose your next words you canât help but smile at the realization that you have mastered his craft. His embrace tightens as you mumble, âYou too. And then we can get some dinner when we wake up.â I love you just the same. Get some rest. Iâll be here when you wake up.
#seventeen#woozi scenarios#woozi x reader#seventeen scenarios#seventeen x reader#lee jihoon scenarios#seventeen fluff#lee jihoon x reader#seventeen fic#this was written once upon a midsummer's eve in the middle of romance deprivation#i've been wanting to start uploading svt fics for a while now but better late than never#also: what could possibly be a better day to start this journey?#a woozi biased blog uploading her first woozi fic on woozi's birthday#avy writes
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#giphy#kdrama#hyena#lee jieun#sidekick#jung geumja#kim hyesoo#because bts could have been here#oh kyunghwa
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ATEEZ Seonghwa- "My ex is staying over" prank. (Oneshot)
Genre: angst, fluff, YouTuber au.
Pairing: YouTuber!Seonghwa x reader
Warnings: none.
"As you can see from the title, I'm gonna be pranking Y/N today!" Seonghwa said after his intro. "I saw someone comment that I should try this prank on her since we don't live together yet." he chuckled, hiding the camera on his bookshelf. "So Y/N is on her way here to my apartment. I don't really know how she's gonna react to this prank andâ" the doorbell rang. "Oh! She's here already!" he said, quickly hiding the camera before running to the door.
Seonghwa let you inside, instantly pulling you into a hug before kissing your forehead. You smiled, taking your shoes off while you told him how bad the traffic was. You sat on his couch and he sat beside you, intertwining your hands. He spoke to you normally for a while so you wouldn't suspect anything.
"Oh right, babe, I forgot to tell you something," he started. "You remember Hyesoo, right?"
"Your ex-girlfriend from your hometown?"
"Yeah," he nodded, watching your reaction carefully. "She's coming to Seoul next week and needed a place to stay, so she's staying at my place."
Your eyebrows furrowed instantly. You didn't like the thought of your boyfriend's ex staying with him for an entire week. You knew they ended on good terms as well; long distance didn't work out when Seonghwa moved to Seoul.
"Why isn't she staying at a hotel?" you couldn't help but ask.
"Hotels here are very expensive," he said, trying not to laugh. "And besides, I already agreed. I hope you don't mind." You kept quiet, wondering what to do. "You don't look very thrilled, babe."
You crossed your arms on your chest. "Do you expect me to be thrilled when my boyfriend's ex is going to be staying with him for an entire week?" you asked. You yourself have never stayed at Seonghwa's place for more than three days.
"Are you jealous, babe?" he teased.
"No, I'm just wondering why you'd let your ex stay with you when you have a girlfriend," you stated. "Does she even know about us?"
Seonghwa was going to yes, but he decided against it. "Uh, no, she doesn't know."
"We've been dating for a little over a year and she still doesn't know?" you asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Um, no, I never told her."
"Well, then tell her," you said, rolling your eyes.
He gently took your hand in his, rubbing your skin with his thumb. "Y/N, it's probably not a good idea to tell her now since I've already agreed to let her stay here. I don't want her to feel uncomfortable."
You pulled your hand away from him. "And you don't care that I'm uncomfortable with your ex staying with you?" You seriously couldn't believe this man.
Seonghwa kept quiet, wondering what to say. "We're just friends now anyway, so don't worry."
"You know what? How about I ask my ex-boyfriend to stay over since he's also my friend?" you questioned. "You're gonna be busy with your ex next week, so I might as wellâ"
He kissed you, making you shut up. "It's a prank, babe," he said, a little annoyed at the thought of you even spending a second with your ex.
You narrowed your eyes at him, and he gave you an innocent look. "I swear I will mess up your apartment now," you threatened playfully.
He grinned. "I know you wouldn't, babe," he got up to get the camera before filming you. "You're always falling for my pranks, love."
You pouted. "Not my fault that you can act well," you mumbled and he sat beside you on his couch, pecking your cheek.
"That's all for today, guys! Y/N got pranked again!" he chuckled, and you place your head on his shoulder. After he finished filiming, he kissed you all over your face.
"You almost made me lose my shit, Hwa," you said sternly.
"I'm sorry, love," he whispered, kissing your forehead. "I'll make your favorite food for lunch, okay?" he said, knowing food will make you instantly happy. You couldn't stop the smile from forming on your face.
This man really had you wrapped around his finger.
#ateez#ateez imagines#ateez reactions#ateez oneshots#seonghwa#park seonghwa#ateez seonghwa#seonghwa x reader#ateez youtuber au#seonghwa fluff#seonghwa angst#seonghwa smut#seonghwa oneshot#san#mingi#wooyoung#Hongjoong#yunho#yeosang#jongho#kim Hongjoong#choi san#seongjoong#seonghwa imagines#ateez matz line#ateez hyung line#ateez san#seonghwa imagine#ateez oneshot#ateenagerz
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Hyesoo, I found your ring you lost at my place. Would you like me to come by after work?
Ohâ thank God.
Yes, please! I was so worried I'd never see it again. It was my mother's, so it means a lot to me. Thank you for finding it, oppa!
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Aries posted a selfie with Hyesoo and Lilah!
Caption:Â âAre you ready for our debut, friends? Weâre very excited to show you and hope you are looking forward to it! Please stay healthy and anticipate something magical very soon!
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StanElektra -insert dehydrated i need it spongebob meme here- Chanrihanna Lilah is gorgeous omg! was she hiding in spâs dungeon all along? Jenduh223x The girls are looking a lot happier at their new company thank god. and theyâre posting more frequently too. Mimionaxox they should have put youngmi or fiona in the group instead of seungah....i never really liked her tbh. oh well. ElektraGrlsRuleTheWrld @mimionaxox thatâs rude! seungah is pretty and talented and I think she fits in with the girls! Mimionaxox @ElektraGrlsRuleTheWrld its my opinion so get over it.
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HSHQTASK#028: SON HAERAâS STAFF.
haeraâs staff have either been with her for a long time or are new hires. the turnover rate for certain positions is incredibly high since sheâs difficult to work with. thereâs even a facebook support group for people who feel like theyâve been wronged or victimized by son haera. they can talk about her horrible personality and how badly she treats people, but they will never be able to say anything about the pay. she always provides a fat paycheque. it is why former staff who have quit on her want to come back since no one has paid them nearly as much as she does.Â
min eunkyung â chief of staff:Â Â haera's cousin on her dad's side, so not the rich side. she's the only one that can handle haera and the only person haera will sort of listen to. gets into a lot of disagreements with haera and although sheâd never admit it, sheâd crumble without eunkyung.
hwang seohyun â publicist:Â Â been working for haera for a year. they usually quit during this time period so we'll see if she lasts or not. didnât go to post secondary, haera hired her to give eunkyung a hard time. she has an eye rolling problem and talks back to eunkyung at times. doesnât find most things haera says or does to be a pr problem. reminds haera of herself and itâs why she likes her.
song rian â personal assistant:Â Â was originally an intern, likes the perks of being around rich people too much so sheâs done the whole fake it until you make it thing and itâs been quite successful for her. sheâs annoying and a suck up, but she gets the job done and sheâs surprisingly trustworthy ( for now ).
choi hyesoo â lawyer :Â Â does her job very well. originally worked for haeraâs parents. she was married to haeraâs security and thatâs how she was introduced to the family. after their divorce, haeraâs parents fired her since they have a deeper relationship with her ex-husband. haera used the opportunity to hire her as her own personal lawyer.Â
kim hyunseok â accountant :Â Â her shared accountant with younghoon. he's involved in some shady tax evasion and embezzlement shit, but he's managed to keep it hidden. too social and loud, doesnât have a filter. knows everything about everyone for some reason. love blackmailing people. haera doesnât ever deal with him directly ( thank god ).
chan seokwoo â security/bodyguard :Â Â has worked with haeraâs family for years. eventually haera onboarded him to her own personal team after moving with the program. although him and his ex-wife both work for her, they hardly ever see each other or meet since hyesoo is back in seoul.Â
shin bitna â stylist :Â Â attended the same university as haera. daughter of a well regarded judge. she didn't want to do academics, she wanted to go to school for fashion. haera liked her energy because she was always on the brink of a breakdown and had the worst temper. they would get into fights, but she knows haeraâs style best. whether she got support from her parents or not didnât matter since styling haera came with amazing pay and access to higher society. been in an on and off relationship with ryuwon, the hairstylist.
jang ryuwon â hair stylist :Â Â haera was beefing with korean model irene kim, and rather than exchanging words through interviews and social media, haera poached her hair stylist thatâs been working with her for years. haera offered ryuwon better pay and ryuwon took the opportunity since working for a duchess will look amazing on her resume and portfolio. bitna and ryuwon have been dating for two years. they have a toxic on and off relationship which carries over toward their work most of the time. haera finds it funny and entertaining.
oh sora â makeup artist :Â Â her previous makeup artist used the earthquake in argentina as an excuse to not work for haera anymore. the new makeup artist talks too much but sheâs much faster and efficient with time. jinny likes her. she recently asked haera if she would invest and/or support the makeup line sheâs releasing, heara said no. might get fired. weâll see.
mo mikyeong â housekeeper :Â Â she was originally hired to be jinnyâs nanny before haera gave birth. she helped haera a lot throughout her pregnancy, it felt wasteful to have her only solely care for her daughter. a month before jinnyâs birth, haera decides to keep her around as a housekeeper and her unofficial therapist. complains to her the most about anything and everything and she listens with a fond motherly smile. haera pays her a lot more money than the previous housekeepers because sheâs the only one she doesnât want ever quitting on her.
jeon seulgi â personal chef :Â Â after a night of partying, haera brought people over to her place. seulgi was one of them. she said she was a chef and haera asked her to make something. it was all a part of seulgiâs plan to climb the social ladder to get a solid good paying job. and it worked. haera could respect the hustle when it wasnât done in such a cringe way and if you actually have the talent. she was originally a sous chef, but now sheâs been promoted to haeraâs personal chef since joining the program.
noh jaehyun â driver :Â a recent hire. the makeup artist, sora and jinnyâs current nanny, eujin both have a big fat crush on him but he likes seulgi, the chef. haera is considering to fire him before it gets too messy but she wants to see the drama unfold.
bong dowoon â jinnyâs bodyguard :Â Â he's worked for younghoonâs family for years. minsoo is the only person younghoon trusts with jinny. he spends most of his time with jinny and she likes being around him. he actually participates in activities and organizes fun days for jinny unlike haera.Â
kim euijin â nanny :Â Â sheâs been working for haera for three months. the other nanny quit after jinny bit her. jinny has been sort of getting along with her. only time will tell, jinny tends to bite and throw things at people unprovoked at times.
cheon jihyun â intern :Â Â the intern mainly works for the personal assistant. more of a trial and probationary period to see if she lasts. usually theyâre let go, but the odd time theyâll be promoted.Â
min eunmi â jinnyâs piano teacher :Â Â eunkyungâs older sister who is a classical musician. canât teach jinny in person most of the time, only whenever she happens to be in tokyo for business. haera has tried hiring other piano teachers in tokyo, but jinny wants to be taught by her only. most lessons have been through facetime. who knows if theyâve been effective. eunmi doesnât mine either way.
song nayeon â jinnyâs art teacher :Â Â one of the previous interns and former art student. instead of becoming an assistant or nanny, she was promoted to be jinnyâs art teacher while also making art for haera and younghoon as she saves enough money to go to school in america for her masters. she has a crush on younghoon because heâs nice to her. haera doesnât pay any mind to it. she knows nayeon wonât try anything.Â
yoon haneul â jinnyâs ballet instructor :Â Â one of yihwaâs friends. jinny wanted to take up ballet and she had been living in tokyo for the past two years. it worked out. made jinny cry once and she was scared haera would yell at her. to her relief, haera didnât care.
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