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Just a curiosity! Why do you reply to the asks mostly via tags?
Nothing wrong with it of course I just found it curious!
if i post a response that's more than two lines long i'll feel like an eighteen wheeler in a bike lane does that make sense
#snap chats#tbh im surprised its taken like six years for someone to ask this VJALKJVA but hi. i'll actually explain now#like unless it's an ask outright prompting me to type a lot- like asking for analysis or something of the sort#then i just feel better doing most of my talking in the tags since. i talk a lot LOL i dont wanna post a wall of text every time#thats just- how you say. A Lot VLEKKJ i want people to be able to scroll quickly if they aint interested#and yk with my rambling it is True And Honest Rambling cause i dont even be on topic for like half the tags sometimes#so if i can Generally answer something in the main text then im happier doing that: short and sweet and to the point#but yk. then if you do wanna read my extra thoughts theyre always down here and not five miles long by default#its also just a sense of. im always 'shy' about my personal thoughts LOL#like obvi i have em and ill post em down here but i dont wanna 'talk too much' yk what im saying#there's always the Read More button but that still feels too much like putting all my thoughts on the main post if that makes sense#in any case. i hear my cat meowing so i legally have to bother her now#my eldest sister's going. SOMEWHERE so we're cat sitting for the weekend- just in time for me to visit For The Weekend LOL#but yeah thanks for the question !!!!!! that is why i chat down here as opposed to the main body#the main body's always like A Header or Intro i like to think for my text posts but anyway. adios :]
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None of my usual treasured besties are annoy-able rn so im stuck Painfully Awake at 1:00am with nothing to do because my brain refuses to Work
Like
I try n form thoughts but its like in cartoons where they open their wallet n a lil moth flies out
Thas why i need Interaction i need someone to ignite Something in me so I can get thoughts going and put this energy SOMEWHERE
But
The hour is late
N my usual people i Annoy sleep
So i am Die
#got a bee in my bonnet about getting a 3d printed figure of one of my OCs#which is not cheap obvi#esp. bc the actual modeling fee bc 3d models aint cheap#so i was fiddling in blender earlier but got kinda Stuck n Annoyed so I gave up on it#n now im just Restless bc i wanna make art but have 0 real ideas#i wanna write but nothing is coming to me#i wanna draw but nothing sounds fun#im running in circles getting nowhere fast n feeling bad about not using this Energy Anywhere like. At All#i have stuff i need to do but my brain straight up Will Not Let Me bc weird anxiety n executive dysfunction so im jusy#guess I'll rot then#end me#becca babbles
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things heating up in the sticker fandom etc but honestly if you show off your sticker collection and its all vintage japanese stuff like angel blue or mezzo piano or sanrio etc etc and i dont see a SINGLE cheap poundland/dollar store sticker sheet youre a FAKER POSERRRRR. you think youre too good for the 2 for 1 sticker stands they have in c&m??? too good for some pony and princess stickers??? CHICKENSHIT!!
#✂️#obvi it aint that deep im being hyperbolic but honestly people need to start looking at whats under their noses#before ordering from japan and burning all those fuels in cargo#many stickers people are ordering are very 'basic“ too like smilies or flowers or confetti etc#THAT DOESNT HAVE TO BE HASHTAG AUTHENTIC BRANDED JAPANESE ......... THATS VERY COMMON 😭😭😭#u guys need to learn how to make do with ehat you got in your local area. dont americans have lisa frank? IM SO JEALOUS OF LISA FRANK OUGH#ill always think of you canadian dollar tree i went to once....... signs dreamily#journalposting
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I judt found this draft/idea thing in my drafts from over two years ago (written before Little Sister Hugs) and i genuinely cracked up so much rereading it bc it would be really funny.
would anyone be interested in this?
Jay and hailey are busy with a case involving drug trafficking with military dudes or smth
you and will go out for dinner bc you get like n A+ in science or some shit and Will is all proud older brother
you get a call from Jay that the case is ramping up so he wont be home tonight and then ur like lit ill stay at wills i just gotta grab some stuff
you and will walk in and the house is like a mess and your like uh wtf
and will is like ok let me call jay or the cops or whatever
before he can he gets like smacked from behind like all those stupid movies
ur like o shit what the actual fuck
these big old dudes are in all black and holding like riffles bc intimidating and ur like :o
and ur standing in the kitchen so you do that really funny grab for the closest weapon and its like a pan that was waiting to dry or something entirely useless
theyre like yeah ok sure put it down u dimwit
u like stand over will being like feck off my brothers a cop
theyre like ha lol yeah we know we tryna find him where he at
ur like ha what i dont know? wouldn't have a clue
and theyre like ok then u come with us and ur like uh no sir
omg what if they chloroformed them that would be the funniest trope ever
jay is like workin the case being all undercover n shit and then he gets a call and its wills phone and hes like oh what did y/n do
will is like silent
jay is like yo whats up u alg
OR WHAT IF ITS LIKE WHAT THEY DID TO SAY WHERE THEY JUST SEND LIKE A SUPER FUCKING ANGSTY SHIT QUALITY VIDEO OF THEM LIKE BEATING WILL WHICH IS SUPER FUCKING NOT FUNNY BUT IS FUNNY TO IMAGINE THE UNO REVERSE FOR JAY
Jay immediately looses his mind and tries calling u like wheres will tf
obvi u dont answer and hes like this aint right
the team go to jays house and its all like torn apart but nothign like bad?
they call in the lab and the labs were like oh hey there's blood but they cleaned it? or smth
jay is spiralling and then they get anoter video of u? idk something else angsty
theyre like release our dude and give us back all the idk like guns and shit and voight is like ok well no way they let us do that
jay almost going cowboy cop
everyones like well this is great
you are like locked up by zipties bc criminals are stupid and you manage to like breakfree like a real mvp
u like find a gun or smth bc thats fun and free will
your all like well theres enough warehouses n creepy buildings in chicago for u to be anywhere so tf where we at
wills all leave me bc thats a funny trope and ur like shut the fuck up u dumbass
some military dude comes round the corner with his gun and sees u tryna walk with dead weight will and hes like? what are-
you shoot him bc badass bitch
he like fall down is all bloody and ur like o shit i just killed a man
will is like ya we gotta go ok like this shit serious fam
you walk around a corner and they all be sitting around in the big room and u and will are like oh hi guys
they all like point guns and ur like ah man we dead
but then!! intellegence is all out ur guns on the ground now! police things!
one of them like aims his gun but someone shoots his gUN bc i think thats the badassest thing ever and then he like has a bleeding hand and grabs u and knife to the throat thing bc trope central over here
no one has a clean shot so they all like omg dude let her go
do u get like seriously hurt? lowkey imagine like them dying and jay and will being like a mess ok thats way too dark but i like?
you either
die
get seriously maimed like idk loose a limb or smth idk
or ur unharmed and are like omg how am i not even bruised tf is this
depends on the level of angst idk
if anyone wants to ready this lmk i might actually write it
#jay halstead x reader#jay halstead#will halstead#chicago pd x reader#chicago med#one chicago imagine
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JJK but Dazai's the new teacher Hcs (ADA)
I'm a sucker for crossovers so- also dazai shenanigans trigger warning y'all bsd fans yk
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how did this even happen bro
oookayyyyyy lets say yaga and fukuzawa were besties <3
GOSSIP BESTIES
and once fukuzawa was complaining about his subordinates bc cmon give the 45 year old baby a break
and yaga was like
"I will grant you peace my child"
"you're younger than me"
"idgaf"
"anyway can I steal one of your subordinates for a bit :)"
"SJKDFHADKSJ YES PLEASE"
and thats how ma man dazai got roped into this
so fukuzawa was like
*deeeeeeep breathhhhhhhh*
"dazai I'm disowning you."
/J /J LMFAOOOOO
he was just like dazai get your ass to jujutsu tech you're gonna be a new teacher there
"but I don't have a teaching license"
"you've committed over 500 crimes what can illegal teaching do"
"true"
so whoopee dazai's now in jujutsu tech
hes still in his detective clothes though
but if ya want him in jjt uniform then sure
the way shoko visibly deflates when she realizes she's getting a gojo 2.0
megumi joins her
nobara doesn't care she just hopes he's a good teacher and not utter shit
I feel like maki and Inumaki would join her on this
Yuta would be the ball of sunshine he is like 😇
panda's being panda
AND NOW YUJI'S EXCITED AF BC ANOTHER GOJO-SENSEI? LETS FREAKING GO
okay dazai makes it there
no gifts sadly he was rich in the mafia but not anymore he's broke
and kunikida aint here for a wallet stealing mission
he soon found a kunikida 2.0 though (na-na-na-na-na-na-min)
so obvi everyone wants to know what his cursed technique is
...yeah thats the problem he don't have one but this is dazai so he goes
"oh I can just obliterate a curse by touching it lmao"
and then yuji's like "HOLY QUACK THATS SO OP"
and I'm gonna make dazai a leeeetle op here
so gojo's like "ah? let's have a spar?"
and dazais like 😳🫢🤭
so yes these two start sparring
so how this shit works is that if cursed energy touches dazai it just boom no more cursed energy and you die
and infinity's made of it right
right
so my bro just activates his infinity and doesn't move and dazai just kalmly walks up to him
and just throws his hair a lil back-
yeah my guy show off that big ass forehead
and he steals gojo's boop that makes you unconscious (how could you dazai)
and gojo was like 'WAIT WTF'
and stumbles back kinda concerned
okay change of plans
let's try something a lil dangerous
he pulls out a very minuscule
when I mean very I mean microscopic level of blue
just for shits and giggles
no not really he wants to see how this goes
and dazai's unaffected
like full unaffected
and gojo's even more confused, concerned, and slightly alarm
okay let's take it up a notch
dazai's smiling like the person he is
(Im not saying cause tw but yk)
"woah were you tryna off me? sorry but I'm looking for a beautiful woman to join me in my journey to the afterlife-"
gojo's even more concerned
"..dude you okay?"
"why not"
"what"
kay so we're taking this up a notch back to that
and dazai lets out a visible sized blue and megumi's just questioning how stupid his teacher is like gojo why do you want to kill the new teacher?? no way can he survive th-
it goes poof
gone
obliterated
nonexistant
megumi's like ...huh
everyone's concerned for life
and dazais just like "heh"
:D
okay you have the advantage here what about in physical combat-
boom all attacks dodged
all
gojo's impressed needless to say
now after this comes the actual torture
yuji's fawning over dazai and ofc dazai's tryna like
gaslight gatekeep girlboss 😜‼️
"hey did you know that if you move your arms like this all the time your bones will eventually melt-"
"wha- actually?"
"yes"
"he's messing with you"
shoko says that last part
and yk whats coming
shoko = beautiful lady
beautiful lady = wybwtjmiads
"ah belladonna will you be willing to join me in a double suicide-"
"uh no thank you"
*CRIES*
gojo's at the side though
bombastic side eye
creemeenal offensive
side.
eye.
sigh thats all for now imma make more hcs later
drop ideas please I'm begging you
I'M BEGGIN BEGGIN YOUUUU SO PUT YOUR LOVIN HAND OUT BABYYYYYY-
#bsd#jjk#bungou stray dogs#jujutsu kaisen#dazai osamu#kunikida doppo#fukuzawa yukichi#yaga masamichi#gojo satoru#shoko ieiri#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#yuji itadori#dazai's the new teacher the world is gonna burn#everyones concerned rn#bro got rejected#shoko's an icon
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Hey boo! My birthday is this Saturday, May 6th, and I was wondering if you could possibly write some birthday smexy time with Ricky Starks for me...?
🥹🥹🥹
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE HOPE IT'S GOING WELL
Birthday Girl (Ricky Starks X Fem!Reader):
Word Count: 750
Summary: How Ricky Starks would treat you on your special day
Supreme Speaks: i love ricky starks with his nice handsome ass self. I don't typically write smut or suggestive things but here you go, I hope I did some justice to your imagination. My inbox and requests are open to everyone! P.S.: you are loved and greatly appreciated.
Warnings: Fluff and NSFW (+song recommendation), this author doesn't write smut so please go gentle (that's what she said)
Taglist: @wwenhlimagines @sheinthatfandom @triscillal @hooks-martin @hookerforhook
I, again, don’t write smut so please take it easy on me
Somewhat SFW:
Will definitely wake you up to some sort of surprise
Breakfast in bed, him cooking breakfast in the kitchen
He definitely has an apron that says “Kiss the Cook/Daddy”
Ricky has bouquets (not just one) of roses for you
Has to flex on Instagram so he posts pictures of your evolution or ya’lls relationship
Def will caption it “Happy Birthday to my beautiful girlfriend aka Stroke Mommy! I love you! Love, Stroke Daddy. P.S: There’s a lot in store for tonight ;)”
Now…I have this canon that Ricky will spoil you endlessly so….
After you eat, he will give you more presents and jewelry galore
ANDDDD THE MAN WILL GIVE YOU A FAT BRICK TO SPEND
I mean we talking 2K-5K of bands
“Baby-“
“You will use that entire stack today, and if you don’t there will be consequences”
“Consequences or rewards? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)”
“-_-Get out of my sight”
He’ll tell you to go out with the girls, get your nails and hair done, shop at the Chanel and buy two of everything
Ricky is also a man of fashion so he picked out your outfits already
You’re dressed to the 9 for the entire day
And when the evening comes, after you did all your shopping
He’ll make you model everything (everything) you bought
Making those bedroom eyes at you with lust taking over his eyes
After about an hour of trying everything on and giving feedback, Ricky made you put on the final outfit that he had planned for you
He then proceeded to take you out to dinner with your friends and family
You walked into that restaurant with another gigantic bouquet of roses in one arm and your man on the other with a bright ass smile
The dinner went very smoothly and nothing short of a great time
But the night wasn’t over yet, not when Ricky Starks is your boyfriend
NSFW (TURN BACK NOW):
As stated above, the man spoils you already
BUT IN BED
OH JESUS DOES HE SPOIL YOU
AND IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY??? BIATCH YOURE LUCKY
Tonight you aint do no work; so just sit back miss pillow princess
Obvi, Ricky’s a giver
Loves to receive, but he really receives pleasure when he makes you happy
I am also confident that while eating you *out* he’s spelling happy birthday with his tongue
Also loves to hear you scream, never be silent with this man (it boosts his ego)
“Tsk Tsk. Lemme hear you. That’s it baby.”
I cannot see him staying silent in bed, the man will moan and borderline whimper in your ear
Will also say the dirtiest shit in your ear
“Such a good birthday girl. Such a good girl”
Very handsy, touchy-feely, ya’lls hands are never leaving each other
Loves to leave grip marks, bite marks, scratches, and handprints on your body
Im talking about the shoulders, back, hips (that definitely still ache from him pounding you), ass, etc.
Will make you realize why they call him Stroke Daddy (trademarked)
Hard thrusts that would knock the headboard loose
You would try to give some type of repayment but he would cut you off and just continue to thrust harder
If you’re asking me to sum it up, just listen to Nasty (Extended) by Russ
“Good god, look at you. You’re doing such a good job, taking me like this.”
Man isn’t gonna stop until you are literally begging him to stop or until you squirted (I have a great hypothesis about this)
“That’s my birthday girl. Can you give me another one?”
AFTERCARE IS A MUST
Constantly gives you kisses on your face
Runs you a bath with the works (bubbles, candles lit, etc.)
Does not allow you to do any work and carries you to the tub
Brings you your favorite beverage while you’re sitting in the tub and then he gets in it too
You guys take your time in the tub just telling each other how much ya’ll love each other and what a great it has been (really romantic)
Ricky gives you a kiss before telling you: “For my birthday, you’re gonna have to step it up to top me.”
“Oh I’m gonna top you alright.”
“Y/N!”
#aew#all elite wrestling#aew imagine#all elite wrestling imagines#ricky starks#ricky starks fic#ricky starks imagine#ricky starks x reader#wrestling fic#ricky starks smut
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is there any sort of master post or main post for your PNF Deity AU? Because I’m a sucker for some good old fashioned AU, and I really want to check it out, but it’s kind of hard to find any sort of introduction/explanation to it
Mostly because we do this very often lol, i keep planing to make one but itll be part of when i redo my pinned and rn the world is throwing literally all it has at me like holy shit lol
Basically, it's an au with the concept of "hey itd be funny if most of the main cast + some rly obscure side characters were actually gods huh?" and it spiraled rapidly from there lol
this is the main fic, if you want to read through it! we also have an ask blog, @askthedanvillepantheon, and a discord if you want to join(obvi kinda nothing happens lol but like, ya know, just in case).
i am gonna point out that like, pay attention to the tws for the fic pls. we arent joking about those, we swear its all in character and makes sense, but it gets rly intense and dark lol. in addition, a fair bit of it relies on obscure characters, with the main antagonist. literally being a bg character. so while these characters get introduced as they do in canon, if ur looking for an adventure that doesnt go in depth on the emotional state of the sentient escape tower from escape from phineas tower, this aint the fic for u, sry
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the ishin hijikata megacomp because im mentally ill
timestamps below:
Chapter 1: "Escaping Home"
0:00 - 1:33 | A Killer with Two Lives
Chapter 3, "Mibu Wolves"
1:34 - 2:57 | Men of Tennen Rishin
2:58 - 5:44 | Captain of the Third
Chapter 4, "Joint Struggle"
5:45 - 6:34 | The Wolves' Den
6:35 - 12:49 | Just Deserts
Chapter 6, "The Ikedaya Incident"
12:50 - 13:53 | Overtures
13:54 - 14:37 | Slippery Kogoro
14:38 - 20:27 | The Purge at Ikedaya
Chapter 10, "True Identities"
20:28 - 21:53 | First Division, March
21:54 - 25:40 | Death of the Miburoshigumi
Chapter 12, "Kyo Ablaze"
25:41 - 32:13 | The Treacherous Goryo Eji
Chapter 13, "The Assassination of Sakamoto Ryoma"
32:14 - 34:25 | Last of the Shinsengumi
34:26 - 39:14 | For the Sake of Kyo
39:15 - 41:30 | Stories to Tell
41:31 - 44:01 | The Omiya Incident
44:02 - 45:17 | Sakamoto Ryoma Assassinated
Finale, "Dawn Breaks"
45:18 - 46:58 | Returning Home
46:59 - 49:20 | The Man in Kochi Castle
49:20 - 54:46 | Hope for Our Future Brethren
#ishin spoilers#spoilers#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku ishin#yakuza series#like a dragon ishin#toshizo hijikata#yoshitaka mine#snap chats#hehe...#do we know that im obsessed with this cap of hiji yet. cause this is peak attractive moments from him i aint gonna even lie i love his glare#i did stay up longer than usual putting this all together it's called metal innit#going off of rendered cutscenes alone hijikata's actually in his game only about five minutes longer than mine is in Y3#obvi he's in it longer if we're including in-game cutscenes as well tho but still lol#the runtime for all the rendered cutscenes is about 11 hours so significantly in less of the game percentage wise than mine is in Y3#while mine's in that game about a third of the time hijikata's only in his game 1/11th#anyway enjoy if you watch. call me insane if you don't </3
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Okok im getting all mad bc i havent finished it still, i think my dumbass even wants to do shading. But its getting RIDICULOUS I WANNA POST THIS.
it aint FINISHED, im working but this is our Fizz and partner system's Val, they love each other and i love them andwe all love each other and we kiss and touch each other and our bodies intertwine and its beautiful and good and sexy and cool. I love Val. We love Val.
Anyway. Finished one eventually coming. Trust the process but if i dont post this now im kms(/j. Obvi but whatever)
#system babbles#finally. valfizz.fizzval. fizzal.#hazbin hotel#helluva boss#fictive#fizzarolli#fizzarelli#Valentino#partner system#alter art#sketchbook#actually plural#osdd
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running yo mouth about my last post is just sad for you. i explained loa based on my experiences on it for 2+ years. the loa community taught things like “affirming” and “repeating for the subconscious mind” and saturating and states and “dont waver” like so much bs that made shit sooo confusing and stressful for me and others.
the reason i made that post is bc ppl keep asking me “do i have to repeat being aware?” and obvi that “repeat” part stems from loa. the post was made to help ppl understand that those two things are not connected at all. they are just two unreal concepts that are not worth arguing about.
i never talked shit about anyone specificlly in that post but there are ppl talking shit about me specifically when i aint forcing no one to understand non dualism. u read the post bc u wanted to. dont get threatened bc i made a post going against what u agree with💀💀 ya so mad n threatened for what? one post?🤡
there has been a lot of ppl who after my nondualism series, told me how they havent gotten anywhere w loa after learning it for 1-2 years and im like damn so im not the only one💀…if ya pissed w that post then idk what to tell u… like being so mad after one post is crazyyy. shows how weak ya are.. anyways kiss my ass hoes😘
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i think itz obvi but incase it aint b33n said yet, fandom spacez r da same az in da early 2010z, except now they can b capitalized on, & also all da normal kidz r in on fandom spacez now so itz liek "ok but ur so-called 'Scrunkly Goober'z a serial killer? do u see nothing wrong w/ that??"
#yes dis iz a boomer take 100%#& YES i am vaguin 1 specific person i talked 2 liek yearz ago#i am PETTY#text pot#i mean post#text post
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OUGH OK HI
this is kind of mostly for @chases-main-blog because you're probably the only one besides toff who'll read this but everyone's welcome xx its abt my ocs and just newsies in general btw babes so if you aint interested dont read it
ok so i got back from an airshow in my city (yes yes i know government propaganda galore, planes are cool ok) because my dad was in the air force for twenty-odd years and is a huge nerd, which he has passed on to me and my brother slightly
my point being!!
the entire tme i was thinking of. uh. basically a top gun au. of newsies. OK BUT HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUTTTT
(im gonna use some terms that if you didnt basically grow up on an air base like i did you might not understand but bear w me ok)so you need to trust your squadron with your life, right? what do the boroughs do? exactly. and they have callsigns in the AF (not sure abt any other branches, lmk if you have that info but i dont think they get callsigns hah boring losers >:P) WHAT DO THE NEWSIES HAVE??? STUPID NICKNAMES THAT DONT REALLY MAKE SENSE!!! DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN!!!!
so consider
theres no war because i say so and theye all just goofing off on base as all the different squadrons (OHGOHGOHOOHO BROOKLYN WOULD SO BE HELICOPTERS OMGGGG) and they just have a jolly old time until they get this super important super top secret mission where they all have to work together and it would be so cool
ok wait now i gotta
manhattan-F-16s, little guys that go NYOOOOM n shoot stuff
brooklyn-HH-60G pave hawks, theyre big helicopters, search n rescue (hey manhattan the calvary's comin WHO) and pararescue but they also have turrets i think and obvi everyone on board is armed so theyre like super cool
queens-A-10s cus they get to blow stuff up but theyre really slow so pick your poison, i think they'd do A-10s in the field and hang back to train on the T-38s but i know queensies would love A-10s cus they have a rotating gun on the front that shoots super fast and is just an all around cool plane ALTERATIVELY they would also be F-16s because go nyoom shoot stuff
bronx-T-38s, trainers for the big jets and only used sparingly (sorry bronx xx) i think they'd be ground control as well
harlem-C-5 galaxy, MASSIVE jet used for transportation of troops and cargo n planes n stuff and when i say massive i mean m a s s i v e like they drive wholeass tanks and jets n stuff in there, and the nose swings up aswell as the back hatch so you can just. drive straight through this giant plane, its so cool
long island-F-35 theyre pretty fast and can go pretty high so all around a good jet, not much else to say
can you tell i basically lived on base until i was like eight?
ive had a scene for if i actually wrote this stuck in my head all day abt eel n shoe and i just ughhhh ok now i have to write it but i'm gonna put a read more so if you dont want to read it you dont have to xx
a crackle and a ding came over the intercom, soft breathing following. "heya harv, it's just me n' you right now." eel rasped. harvey swallowed, bile threatening to rise in his throat.
"no no no, please-" another burst of static in his ear. "hey this is monkey to shoe, are you ok? i know-ah shit!-sorry, there's a lot goin' on, but no one was talking to ya before-?" monkey trailed off, waiting for shoe's answer. he blinked back the tears he knew were going to come, tilting his throttle up to get him higher. "i-uh, it's- it's fine, i-"
"harvey, i ain't got a lot of time, i ne-i need you to listen." eel's voice wavered, but it was still strong in harvey's ear. he nodded. "m' listenin'."
"monkey to shoe again, are-" "gimme a second, blake?" shoe snapped, maneuvering around the sky as projectiles screamed past him, missing him by mere meters. using the first name in the field was a big no-no, but it made monkey shut up, though shoe could hear him over the comms talking to the other pilots, asking if they had heard shoe as well.
his comms were messed up, he realized; he was supposed to be on a private channel with eel, and it had glitched and made it so only he could hear eel, but the entire squadron-and everyone on the ground, he thought-could hear him.
he drew in a shaky breath. "i'm here, zeke. talk to me."
eel chuckled dryly. "don't go all top gun on me, you'se the one makin it out of here."
harvey's heart seemed to stop, the air around him seeming to compress in and choke him.
"what?"
eel sighed and sniffed, the shuffling from his end telling shoe he was moving his helmet around, wiping tears. "harvey, my engine's blown and we're on enemy territory. i'm miles away from everyone else on orders from boss, it was s'posed to be a sneak attack but they got to you faster than cowboy thought-" "no, do not say what-" harvey interrupted. "harvey liam sellers, will you listen to me for once in your stupidly beautiful life?"
shoe sobbed quietly, watching his radar on his display, praying to any god who might still have love for him that it would pick up anything but the others in the squadron and the MIGs.
"we both knew deep down when we got orders i wasn't coming back from this one." eel sounded surprisingly calm for a guy who was talking about the possibility of his own death. "no, please, you can't do this to me right now, what about-" shoe sniffed, knowing he was arguing with a mind made up.
"ground control to phantom four, are you alright?" it was comforting to hear another familiar voice, the message poker carried not so much. "peachy, ground. i- everything's just kosher." harvey knew he sounded extremely far from fine, and hoped his friends on the ground wouldn't comment.
"your comms seem to be malfunctioning, i'll get saz on that asap, but are you sure-" poker seemed hesitant, like he didn't want to push buttons but was genuinely worried.
"fine, poker." shoe flipped the manual switch to cut comms with ground, before flipping it back on a moment later.
"still there?" he murmured, knowing full well there was at least twenty people besides eel who could hear him if they listened.
"never left, sweetheart." harvey almost started crying at the sound of eel's voice, and the knowledge of what he was going to say next.
"you gotta listen here, harv. you n' i both know i ain't gettin out of here alive-no, do not argue, i know you want to i know, sweetheart-you have to get home to charlie and fia, you gotta-" he swallowed, the sound audible through the headset. "you gotta tell them what happened to me, and tell them-"
the scream of a missile and the unmistakeable sound of an implosion blocked out eel's voice.
harvey's heart stopped.
"eel? eel, are you there? this is phan- phantom four to ra- raven two, are you-" the panic in his head and the pounding in his ears made it nearly impossible to see. he tried to breathe like eel taught him, but his throat seemed intent on making him stutter and practically asphyxiate.
"hoarder to shoe, what is going on? are you alright, do you need backup?" his friend sounded alarmed. for good reason, thought shoe through his panic.
"ground, i ne-i need co-ords on- on raven two, i-i've lost comms with-"
"ah, merde! harv, i'm here!" the sound of eel's voice was garbled, but it was there.
"eel? ezekiel cattaneo, where t-the hell are you? give me your coord-coordinates, i'll be right there." the relief that flooded shoe's body was instantaneous, but short lived.
"no time! they got my other engine, i've put them post on standby and i'm usin' the propellors, but they blasted those too. i think there's three MIGs, but it's hard to tell."
the sounds of the entire rest of the squadron and ground control trying to get shoe's attention faded as he absorbed the information his lover gave him.
"i know i'm goin out, so i'll say this before i die.
"harvey 'shoe' liam sellers, you are the most incredible and amazing soul i have ever had the pleasure of meeting. my life has been so much better since i had you in it, and i know charlie and fia can say the same. i need you to tell the kids i love them, and i need you to remember to take deep breaths when you get overwhelmed, okay? can you do that for me, tesoro?"
"ez, i-i-"
"i love you, you know that? you're the first man i've ever truly believed that i've loved, and the first to have loved me back." eel was clearly out of breath and choked up, but shoe could hear him as clearly as if he was standing next to him, despite the delay on the comms and the static overlaying eel's speech.
"zeke, ple- please, y-you gotta tell me whe- where you are, i can get th- there in t- time i promise, please-" harvey was sobbing. he knew he couldn't reach his lover in time before his engines failed completely, and the risk of hitting the canopy on ejection was so high there was such a slim chance of survival it was almost laughable, if shoe had felt like laughing.
"i love you, ok?" screaming missiles and static filled shoe's ears again.
he sat in shock.
"eel? c'mon, y- you c- can't do thi- this to me, baby, i-i can't..." silence and more static.
"g- ground, y-you got a- a locat- a location o -on raven two?" he muttered, his brain feeling like mush.
"negative, lieutenant."
#oops! :)#sorry not sorry#i've got the military au brainrot rn#it was all that propaganda at the airshow X(/j#i've had something like this in my head for a few days i just finally fleshed it out a little xx#lemme know if this is actually a thing i should write and you would read !!#newsies oc#ezekiel 'eel' 'zeke'#harvey 'shoe' sellers#newsies#livesies#92sies#zee's scribbles!
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standing outside your window knocking on the glass hard as fuck hand bleeding
3, 5, 12, 18, 19, 21, 33, 35 for my buddy nell bishop obvi
hello bitch (oc ask meme)
3. weapon of choice? any particular reason they chose their weapon? And here it becomes obvious that ive thought way more about nells personal life than their job as a superhero LMFAO i really like the weapon ideas shayan came up with… the ladybug shield and the little throwing stars (circles) i also think of her with some kind of derivative of the bb gun… something cute and nonlethal. most of her weaponry was developed with/by ted which explains a lot. similarly to ted she generally fights hand to hand but she probably has a few gadgets in her belt. maybe a ladybug taser
5. how do they typically dress? does their wardrobe lean more towards practicality or aesthetics? nell wears the same outfit to work every day (slacks, button down, sweatervest, tie, fingerless gloves, converse) because they found a comfortable outfit ten years ago. they tend to wear the same kind of thing casually as well… the gloves are a sensory thing so they tend to wear them pretty much whenever they arent asleep or showering lol but overall their entire wardrobe is extremely samey because i mean. He knows what he likes if it aint broke why fix it
12. how long have they been around? do you know their birthday? is their birthday the day you made them or another day? what do they think of celebrating birthdays? ……… I DONT REMEMBER? i think i came up with the first inklings pretty soon after colleen doran posted the original unused ladybug and blue beetle illustration which wassssssssss february 2023…? NOT EVEN A YEAR AGO? but i didnt start really developing them in earnest for a while after that I GENUINELY DONT KNOW i feel like theyve been around forever. if i made their birthday the day i "made" them it would have been too close to my birthday which felt weirdly indulgent so i made their canon birthday january 2nd :-) she doesnt tend to tell other people when her birthday is but isnt like Secretive about it, she just isnt a fan of huge displays
18. their opinion on lying, stealing, and killing? lying is fine if its for a reason or if its funny. in general her morals are in the service of preventing harm so stealing in the abstract is kind of neutral. not a fan of killing! you might ask then why she lives with casey, an attempted murderer. well you see 1. she didnt actually manage to do it 2. it was kind of funny
19. are they quick to anger? what sets them off? its very easy to annoy them step 1 be casey step 2 profit LMAO like with most of their emotions nell doesnt really externalise anger very obviously until it reaches a crisis point… many things that anger them! a big one is having her abilities/independence questioned… deliberately obnoxious behaviour… mouth sounds
21. their favorite place to be? he really does like his workplace… he likes being at home. being by himself in a dark quiet place is top tier
33. if applicable, how would your other characters describe them? i mean specifically the people around them. erm well not all of them are my characters but the people in her life casey: (under her breath) boring judgemental bitch (out loud) SAVE ME LADYBUG ted: she's a real bright spark :D booster: difficult to read michelle: really cool… but kind of frustrating at times! her dad: incredibly driven… just like his mother alex (middle brother): they work really hard even when people dont notice seb (youngest brother): SO COOL
35. do they ever return home? not very often. their family moved out of their childhood home after nell left so it's strange to go back to somewhere they didnt grow up
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25 August 2023
Okay, I'm finally starting to draft my Notion, and one page I'm adding will contain my saving goals. Each month, I plan to put aside anything I have left over toward some items I want to save up for! I'm already committed to saving 5% (may go up to 10%, we'll see) and investing 1.5% monthly (may increase to 3%... maybe), and then I'll save for specific goals (some serious, most fun) after my expenses. For me, almost any single item over $50 is an investment, and any frivolous item over $100 requires serious, long-term consideration before purchase (tbh anything unplanned over $25 feels exorbitantly expensive). I currently have six goals to complete in varying amounts of time:
bass guitar + kit -- I don't have a specific model in mind, but I think I want to learn bass as a treat for myself after passing quals!
american duchess shoes -- I just adore their oxford heels so much, but I think giving myself the time to actively save for them will help me decide whether I actually want them or just like the aesthetic on others
new laptop -- honestly I just want a laptop that's significantly more portable without sacrificing too much power/space (I don't know the slightest thing about computer specs though so I'm going to need a bit of research), and I want to save up enough to get a new one before my current one craps out on me (it's still going strong though!!)
england trip -- I would like to go visit a friend after my first year in grad school, but I'll likely have to dip into savings for this because that's a lot of money to save in a short period
starter emergency fund -- I know that I'm lucky to have familial support, but I want to have a base savings in my account I think to help with anything life has to throw at me. I won't be able to rely on my parents forever. I know you don't go to grad school to save money, and I know I want to live with a bit of comfort and glamour, but I still think this is an important goal to start actively working toward. Since I didn't spend much in college (and got a well-paying internship during lockdown which went directly into savings), I'm not that far off from my goal amount. Until I reach that amount, this one is my priority tbh (and I'll obvi keep adding after reaching this amount).
According to my Notion widget thing, I'd have to have $687 left over each month to reach all of my goals on time using my time and cost estimates (major note: literally $500 of that is going toward the possible england trip bc the turnaround is so quick lol,,,, ~$200 a month toward realistic saving goals aint actually all that bad).
I actually am looking forward to saving for things??? Which is weird and feels very adult. Like yeah having expendable income is nice but I love the idea of having a bit of patience pay off.
I was a little daunted by the idea of starting a Notion for my PhD because there are quite a few expectations I have for it, and I was afraid of not "getting it right" the first time (I recognized that it's unnecessary to create entirely new pages for each semester when I could just add them to a single dashboard to minimize the remaking I have to do each semester (grocery list, recipe book, etc), but this makes me feel like I would be stuck with whatever I crafted the first time even though that's obviously not true). That's a fault of mine that I have to work hard to overcome if I ever want to get anything done. But I watched a video about starting a Notion in ten minutes and the speaker plainly said to just start simple. Then build off of the simplicity in small chunks when you have the time. So that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to keep a lot of the same functions I've used previously that have worked (Academic Timeline, Spaced Rep calendar, grocery list and recipe book), add a savings tracker from a template which I know I want and will use, and worry about all the other little bits at a later date many later dates. Maybe I'll add a half-hour (or single-task) "Notion Tune-Up" to my Admin Friday routine. Play around and fix it up bit by bit brick by boring brick (da-da da da-da da da-da).
I'm going to be relatively close to one of the cities/venues where Welcome to Night Vale is performing on its tour this fall, and I am so so so so tempted to just buy a ticket and go alone. The only thing holding me back is not knowing exactly what my first semester will look like calendar-wise. Like I'd probably (maybe..) skip it if there was an exam the next day, you know? But that opportunity seems almost too good to skip considering the cost (esp since I'm going to have to miss out on The Crane Wives this fall even though they're coming near my hometown for their first tour post-pandemic and that kills me on the inside a little). I'd love to support my favorite scripted podcast if I could. I also just don't know the area at all or how safe it would be to go alone. I mean,,,,, I could just adopt a bit of the delulu and hope for the best. There are only a few more days for me to buy the ticket relatively guilt free and I'm pretty close to just doing it.
Today I'm thankful that my sibling had a good move in day.
I... ugh I really need to get started on my hair. My sister used a hack this last time on her hair where she braided halfway, banded, then came back to it after the roots were all done. I might implement that. There's no way I'll be able to finish all of my hair plus everything else I need to do if I braid every strand straight through. I want to be packed by Sunday night so I can use Monday morning as a last-minute-check period.
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ur cool to chat with!
I was thinking its such a recent issue among general internet spaces, I mean on one hand theres people fully deluded thatll maybe overdefend but on another hand theres people waiting for an idols downfall at the same exact time. I do think for instance yoongis dui was obvi a legit crime but ppl now using it to degrade all the things he has done for bts / kpop in general and asking him to leave the group despite being their main producer, then theres ppl that really do seem to only focus on either major flaws of idols like ones who overperform or underperform, what weight an idol is or isnt (changbin lately seems the main culprit as well as jeongyeon of twice) its like they cant win these days. I do blame beauty standards as well cause so much is abt the look of an idol than what they bring and it makes them seem like robots really.
visuals is a useless position for anyone in a kpop group cause it says ehh they aint got a particular talent or part in their group lets just say theyre the face of it then? like its so old fashioned / stuck up. I dont know if its only kpop but in general pop groups are treated like dolls or an object. I do think idols dont mind people doing readings on them cause its like an outlet away from those that are hard core stans but i dont think it has to always be abt whats on the outside of a person or who their fs could be.
I also think an aspect is that either its less about actually enjoying what idols do and release and more about who can be the next target of a witch hunt. its just got so childish over recent years and I try to separate the groups I love from the broken af system theyre in but to no avail its like another week another excessive piece of non issue drama is generated.
I always think balance is the key to a lot of things in life, and that includes being a fan of someone. people need to realise that idols can make mistakes, but thats all it is, a mistake. they don't need to tear his whole career down because he made one mistake. I also kind of hate how the kpop industry puts way too much pressure on visuals, and how it can sometimes seem to be more important than the work that they do. I do think they have a lot to learn from western culture in that regard with the entertainment industry.
I honestly try and distance myself away from as much kpop drama as possible. In 2020 I became a fan of nct as I really liked yuta, and I had a yuta twitter account with about 4k followers. almost every day there was always something new in the way of drama and it would usually be within the nct fandom, which I found was the most weird thing about it. everyone had a solo stan account (before I was a multi carat account, and I still love svt) so it was weird to see people having an account for only one person in the group. some fans of the other members would turn on other members of the group and say '___ doesn't deserve to be in nct' and I was like ???? they're in the same group and you're just hating on that member because they're not your favourite? it was just wild to me. I got so overwhelmed with how much drama there was and got such bad anxiety I had to close my account. I now just have a personal and follow a few kpop accounts that post mainly photos etc. I feel like a lot of people need to maybe do the same, bc my mental health really suffered that year
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whats also funny for me is with these younger groups i genuinely dont care what they get up too its more so that theres nothing else i like about music these days. the music i like aint been around for decades and if it is mentioned its usually mainly on tiktok and i hate tiktok so much.
if i could id take a time machine and go to any pre internet era just bc i think it was more lively and music back then was more in person not something you had to travel to see bc there was stuff occuring all over places now its usually in select places at select times and so u have to either physicslly take urself to the groups rather than the otherway around.
literally i wouldve suited even the 50s, there just more natural characters back then imho not that there arent now its mainly that a lot of idol groups esp the mainstream ones seem to have certain attributes they need to debut in the group itself whereas music back then was for anyone of any age of any musical talent could do it they didnt always have to be young. kpop overall seems quite restrictive it seems that even 20 years old is now too old for someone to debut which is quite shameful really. theyre still very imagery or conceptual based i think. i also dont like how on a lot of shows theyre very very scripted, skz are hilarious to watch bc they often break their characters or say something completely out of pocket
it just seems the younger they make these groups the more these groups are very moulded into something that isnt how they might want to be or act
it also makes me wonder if rn i had to show them something musically that it would never suit what they were looking for either, they seem to like soft cutesy girly things or members with particular features which is the opposite of ateez and skz. thats what draw me to some of these groups cause it wasnt typical yknow? but idk its still not quite the same vibe i get from listening to older music either cause thats more what im used too and theres just nothing else interesting me they couldnt even pay me to go see taylor swift either cause even she isnt my style. sorry for my ramble. it does make me laugh when they use foundation that is obvi not the right foundation shade so like their neck is darker than their overall face colour or they add those blue eye contacts bc thats my eye colour. i tend to prefer if they arent always perfect skin and perfectly dressed like if they just casual or natural in their non stage looks then i tend to find it more attractive. like the way san dresses in his vlives for example thats very simple but its attractive at the same time.
I’m already confused. What do you mean “You don’t have to travel to see them.” Do you think people just had Elvis come to THEM with no prior planning? I’m confused here. And if that was the case no kpop groups would be known in the west because they wouldn’t be performing in the west. They’d just have pop ups all over Korea that may or may not do well because there’s no planning and they’re just “coming to you.” No hate or anything, but that doesn’t really make much sense.
I agree that the KPOP industry is rather controlled, but there are some genuine and funny groups out there. And you seem to forget that it’s their job. Like any job you need to have rules and guidelines to follow to keep yourself from negatively impacting your company, coworkers, etc. like if Jay Park was in a group saying the stuff he said the company AND the group would suffer. They’re also probably not comfortable being 100% how they are behind closed doors in public for every stranger and their mother to see.
I do agree that they should debut older idols, which they do do occasionally, but I also understand why they don’t. They have more time to grow and mold the idols before they move on with their life. Before they marry and start families. The groups can grow together and become closer and not risk breaking up. The idols can become endearing to the public and the public can feel like they’re growing WITH the idols, which makes them stick around. The idols can become used to the industry as you learn better when you’re younger.
But I do agree there’s also a lot of issues with that.
I agree that, again, they should definitely not try and make them paler but that’s also the beauty standard? I’m not saying it’s okay, but it’s like how here in the west a lot of artists try and get tans and other things because that’s the standard over here.
I definitely know a lot of groups that aren’t really all…Bubblegum vibes. But at the same time, again, over there that’s what’s more popular and more socially acceptable. And it is K pop. Korean pop. So things are going to be different. But I do prefer groups that aren’t so bubblegum like you do.
And again, you’re forgetting they’re working. Most people don’t wear casual clothes and look…Imperfect to work. Especially when you’re under close scrutiny and any and everything you do could go viral and affect your career. And most idols DO dress down in lives, albeit they still try to look decent because, again, they ARE working. It’s their job. Their livelihood.
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