#OOFT THIS IS TOO REAL

[thebibliosphere]

I apologize if you’ve been asked this question before and I missed it in the craziness that is Tumblr, but can I ask what type of foundation you use? I don’t have MCAS, just rosacea-slash-really sensitive skin, which I used to have a fairly good handle on. Unfortunately, going through menopause dialed everything up to eleven somehow. So now I’m having to reevaluate every single skin care product that I’ve ever used.

Ooft, solidarity, the struggle is real.

So, the foundations I use are the pressed mineral powder from Gabrielle Cosmetics/Zuzu Luxe* (same parent company), which can be applied either dry or wet. I've also got their oil-free liquid foundation, which I think gives a bit better coverage during the winter.

I will say they are not overly good at covering up rosacea or red skin (I have the "MCAS flush" on the sides of my face and high on my cheeks and sometimes on my nose that I can't hide, so I make it look like aggressive blusher, lol. Assigned e-girl by my immune shit)

I'm actually about to patch-test a red-correction liquid foundation from Daniel Sandler*, which I've heard from a few other MCAS people has been helpful at covering up the MCAS flush and not caused too many reactions for those of us who have extra sensitive skin. I use their liquid watercolor blush without issue as well, so here's hoping. I can post an update if anyone is interested when I've done testing it.

I was also recently recommended a Korean skincare brand called Dr. Jart+* by someone else with rosacea, which looks interesting, but unfortunately, they've all got some level of sunscreen in them, and the last time I had serious anaphylaxis was from an absorbent sunscreen so I'm not supposed to use them. RIP to my skin, I guess.

Anyway, that's what I use. Good luck in your skincare journey.

*not sponsored or affiliated, just sharing what I use/have been recommended by other folks with super sensitive skin.

[alipeeps]

Episode 40 (aka Hold me, I am not ready for this!! 😭)

Gods I think I love Xue Li almost as much as Xiao Heng.

And that dude loves her a LOT.

LOOK at how he looks at her. LOOK!!

"Kill Xiao Heng and we'll live happily ever after"... dude, you have completely lost touch of reality. How can you believe for even a fraction of a second that she'd do that, that she'd choose you over him? She just told you a moment ago that she'd rather die with him that be with you.

YES XUE LI!!! Put the next one through his eye please!

Actually no, don't kill him. Let him live and suffer and regret.

"Killing you would dirty my hands." You tell him girl. He's nothing. He's not worth the blood on your hands.

I reckon 75% chance he's gonna throw himself off the battlements anyway. Coward.

Ahahahaaaa he's standing on the edge! Am I right? Am I?

CALLED IT!! 😂😂

Last thing he saw was her walking away. Love that for him.

Ooooh she's gonna cut her own throat on the sword....

Shiiit where's that tumblr image of apollo's dodgeball? I'm getting too good at this.

There goes your last leverage, shithead.

Aaaaand there goes your ability to breathe anything other than blood.

Yeah baby, get your revenge.

Ey up, the wind machine's back.

Hahahaa fucking hell grandpa Xiao making Xiao Heng serve him drinks on the excuse that he was injured saving Xue Li?! I'm pretty sure Xiao Heng was actually *more* injured - he took at least 3 sword slashes in the battle with Lord Cheng!

Okay but now I am really intruiged/worried cos the rebellion is over and there's like 30-odd minutes (and the much giffed scene of Xiao Heng in his armour with the pendant in his teeth) left to go so... wtf is gonna happen now?

Oooh Xiao Heng's going north to protect the border...

Bros 4eva!

Daddy Xue's back? For reals?

"She's got a husband now, how can she go back with us?" 😂

Awww and she's got daddy's approval for this one too! 😁

What do you think she means, Su Guogong, you dumbass? You gotta make that place fit for a wife! 😁

Hahaha Xiao Heng has bluescreened again!

It's kinda disturbing how rare it is in a cdrama for the main couple to get together, both survive and get to happily marry. HOWEVER... there's still 20 minutes and that scene to go!! 😭😭

Also am i the only one that keeps getting very nervous about the combination of wind machine, billowing drapes, and naked flame candles... 😬

Is she gonna admit to pappa Jiang that she's not Jiang Li? I'm pretty sure he already knows...

Yeeeeeah that's a nice lie Xue Li but it's a lie nonetheless. She did suffer and she was in pain. But okay...

I want this to be between you and me - and all the servants that just overheard our conversation.

Shit I thought for a second there he'd stroked out and died on the spot! 😂

This feels like she's saying goodbye to the Jiang family for good. She's married into the Xiao family now and the Jiang family are leaving the capital... and she's not really related to them, she's got no real reason to see them again...

Shijie is just too goddamn good and precious.

Ooft one thing that bugs me about the subs in this is that they don't properly translate titles/honorifics, they translate everything to the person's name. So the significance of her calling him ge is entirely lost to anyone who doesn't understand at least a little bit of Chinese.

(Also they do this with single syllable names which is even more egregious. They translate didi as Zhao, they don't even have the fucking courtesy to make it A-Zhao)

Awww I am sad that the haircombing scene was just her imagination... and I'm also worried that it's some kind of portent... 😭

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THEY KILLED LU JI!!!! 😭😭😭😭

I don't deserve this. After 40 episodes i do not deserve this how could you do this to me

Okay but Wen Ji I feel you fam I really do but Xiao Heng needs help!!

YOU BASTARDS!!

WHYYYYYYYYY??!! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME?!! Why could they not just have a happy ending? What plot purpose does this even serve at this point?

Oh thank fuck I genuinely thought it was gonna end with it implying he was about to die on the battlefield.

I am dead. RIP me.

This was a fucking RIDE and I LOVED IT.

(Apart from them killing Lu Ji and Wen Ji for no reason 😭😭😭)

[wyrdle]

Big Sho Minazuki fan here, I think it's a shame that Ikutsuki wasn't fleshed out any further. Like he's exposed as a bad guy and then immediately just... falls off.

YEAH. it's such a shame, when he's like the perfect foil character to MC lmao. One gains strength from bonds, the other has none/is incapable of it and thus sees no meaning in living. I'd have loved for his social link to be one which stays permanently at 1, regardless of what you do with him, as an illustration of this. And instead of SLs talking at you about things, he becomes your confidant and you reveal more about yourself and your friends lol. Throughout this there's the risk of revealing Pharos sealed within you, thus links to Aigis' shutdown etc, as well as an undercurrent of "This man is not normal" beyond his puns lol. I'd have loved to see the puns taken further as a masking tactic, one that whilst he personally enjoys, is still cover up lol. Maybe nearing November, as his excitement to finally die grows, you learn more about him as a person finally. idk lol I'm doing Atlus' job in making the earlier parts of the game fun and intriguing to carry you through the months.

ANYWAY. his relationship to Sho is so fascinating to me, because it's wild that Sho is even left alive tbh. For a guy who views death as deliverance/freedom from suffering+ his saviour complex with SEES, you'd think he'd pull life support off Sho and recollect the plume of dusk from his dead body. So there's plenty reason to kill Sho if he were just any experiment, and start over, even wipe a potential loose end to his research with Kirijo group. But he doesn't, and even leaves Sho with an inheritance I assume is hefty enough to last him his lifetime. So yeah, I feel like there was some twisted care and affection for Sho as a son, coming from the guy who, if set up properly next to P3 MC, whose nihlism is born from lack of bonds combined with who knows what he went through.

@ponderousorb has likened him to a real life saint called Thérèse of Lisieux, who was chronically ill and eventually developed "chosen one" or other strange beliefs as a coping mechanism whilst living. Basically whatever the pun guy went through in his life twisted him into viewing everything so bleakly and his "selfish" desire to be a Prince a coping mechanism. Dude's depressed and suicidal at his core, and of course combined with being embroiled into a death cult... well. Can't be a good parent lol.

Of course, all of the above is just my input/perspective/spin on his character. The games seem happy to leave him as a madman without elaboration about his brand of nihlism. I think if they did, Sho's story wouldn't have changed, but at the moments where Shadow Shuji popped up, stuff would've been more layered beyond whump for Sho. (Potentially flashbacks of interactions between them that leave Sho so pitifully confused and torn... ooft ouch).

It's a fun time to ponder how Shuji and Sho might've been like, if neither had been part of Kirijo Group. I like thinking Shuji might've at least tried to be there for Sho, if he wasn't off feeling like a miserable waste of space. Still not a good parent and neglectful, but I prefer thinking Shuji didn't find pleasure in causing him pain lol. Maybe it started off as clinical then eventual caring, but unfortunately he's deluded himself so hard he might've even thought he was doing Sho good by making him jacked lol. Whatever momentary guilt that'd surface, would be shrouded by his delusions. Idk, he offered SEES a "place by his side" for judgement day since they played such a large part, I can imagine he wished for Sho to reap the "benefits" too.

TLDR man's fucked in the head truly, but narrative (and most persona fans lol, not their fault tbh) never expands on it to investigate the tragedy of nihlism this way. It's such a big plunder on their end tbh, would've made him more interesting as a an antagonist, and certainly bolstered the game's core themes. Like. Why DOES this guy and old Kirijo group want death so badly lmao. The other guys are dead, Shuji is the only remaining mouthpiece for it... and we get absolutely nothing. If we knew his story, we could piece together the sort of underlying motivations of Kirijo group lol.

But anyway. Yeah. Lots of fun stuff, left unexplored! Apologies for the ramble I'm speed running my thesis on Shuji Ikutsuki 🤣

[tears-and-smiles-ao3]

A Kiss Like No Other

Lokius, rated T, kissing

Loki shivers as Mobius steps closer to him. His friend is a little nervous if the shaking in his hands is anything to go by.

The rain pounds on the street they’re standing in, on some long-forgotten timeline, and they’re both soaked through to the skin.

Hair is sticking to their faces and it should make Loki feel awkward, but all he can focus on is him.

Mobius.

He’s finally standing in front of him and Loki's heart aches to pull him closer, wrap him in his arms once more.

It’s been so long since that hug in the Void.

He’s finally standing in front of him and Loki's heart aches to pull him closer, wrap him in his arms once more.

That one perfect moment before they'd lost each other.

Norns, that had devastated Loki.

It had taken everything in him to find Mobius again. He’d searched countless timelines, worked endless hours using stupid TVA tech just to get here.

To this moment.

With him here, in front of him at last.

His Mobius.

Not some variant who looks like him, but isn't.

Loki needs the real person, the man who smiles at him like he’s hung the moon and stars.

Just like the way Mobius is looking at him now.

It's all so surreal.

Loki steps forward, a shy grin on his face at just being near Mobius again.

His head spins. This here is the real magic.

Like the Norns themselves are blessing them as the downpour continues around them.

Mobius' eyes flicker away suddenly, an unsure look passing across his face.

He is just too cute, Loki decides.

Too cute for Loki to resist any longer.

He steps forward again, drawing Mobius' eyes back to him, and smiles.

"I've missed you," Loki breathes, grabbing Mobius tight, his arms wrapping around his waist. The scratchy TVA-issue jacket is sodden, yet it feels so good beneath Loki’s hands.

He rests his head against Mobius' shoulder, and takes a deep breath. He never wants this to end.

He can feel Mobius' hands holding him tight around his middle and it's just like he remembers.

It's also better.

Mobius feels so warm against him despite how wet they both are, and his weight is a steadying presence.

Loki wants this to last forever, this one moment.

Yet, he leans back, yearning to see into Mobius' eyes.

They sparkle, like sapphires.

Mobius' smile is like the warm sun.

He's waiting, almost breathless.

Just staring into Loki's eyes.

Loki tilts his head, moves forward till they're breathing each other's air.

The mood around them swirls, like a vortex, and Loki feels himself drawn ever closer.

Their lips are almost touching.

There's nothing to stop him.

Yet, he hesitates.

He’s not sure what he’s waiting for.

"Kiss me," Mobius gasps, his eyes searching Loki’s.

Something snaps.

All of Loki's reservations disappear.

He surges forward.

Their lips meet.

Pressing tight together.

His lips feel soft against Loki’s.

He tastes like sweetness itself.

Snaking his hands up Mobius’ back, he curves them around his neck.

His fingers slide into hair and grip tight.

Mobius makes a noise, a soft moan. 

Loki likes it so much he does it again.

A groan from his own mouth joins Mobius'.

Then their lips are moving against one another.

Mobius' hands pull tight around Loki's waist.

It's exhilarating.

It's like nothing Loki has ever felt.

They're wound together, like they belong as one.

Loki pushes into Mobius.

Then the steady weight of Mobius gives.

They fall, Loki forward and Mobius backward, and slam against a wall.

"Ooft," Mobius grunts.

Loki pushes himself back, looks over Mobius for injuries, but his friend is laughing.

Those same eyes are gleaming with happiness.

His hand reaches out and grabs Loki's wet shirt, pulling him back in for another kiss.

Loki lets himself melt once more into Mobius.

Their lips lock together.

Mobius’ hands rub up his back and Loki shivers. 

This kiss, it’s just the first of many, he realises.

From the grip of Mobius’ hands around him, he won’t let him go now.

Loki couldn’t be happier for it.

[splend-42]

The Famous Proust Questionnaire

Tagged by @ilovepostitnotes

What is your idea of perfect happiness? Curled up somewhere comfy, reading a book/watching something, with people I love and peace & quiet.

What is your most marked characteristic? Probably my goofy humour.

What do you consider your greatest achievement? Survival. I'm still here despite constant self-sabotage and various hardships.

What is your greatest fear? Spiders. Drowning. Rejection. Being unloved. Take your pick.

What historical figure do you most identify with? I can't think of any, tbf.

Which living person do you most admire? I guess Jacinda Arden, PM of New Zealand. She appears to be an incredibly rare type of person: a high-level politician with a soul and a conscience.

Who are your heroes in real life? I try not to have heroes, they can so easily disappoint you by being, you know, actual people with flaws and stuff.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? My mental illness. It's exhausting having to fight your own psyche every day just to get things done, and to fight for every scrap of dopamine and self-worth.

What is the trait you most deplore in others? Selfishness. Nastiness. Bigotry.

What is your favorite journey? I really enjoyed a trip to Bruges I took once.

What do you consider the most overrated virtue? Chastity. Safe, sane and consensual: knock yourselves out.

Which word or phrases do you most overuse? “I'm tired.” When I'm tired, you'll hear about it.

What is your greatest regret? Oh god this is tough, I regret a lot of things. I'm going to go with regretting that I didn't commit to writing sooner, especially scripts. Of course, there was undiagnosed ADHD & the rest of it to contend with...

What is your current state of mind? Better than I have been in the last couple of months, but still not great.

If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be? Ooft. Another complicated one. Too complicated, in fact. I'll settle for the easiest bit: I would have my Mum back and cured of the COPD that took her.

What is your most treasured possession? Maybe my Castle Greyskull. Spousal unit and metamour bought it for me (and Snake Mountain!) when I was having a bad time, because I'd had to sell mine off with all the rest of my toys as a kid.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? Crying myself to sleep, wishing I had the courage to kill myself but knowing I could never and that, to my broken brain, it meant the suffering would never end. Whee.

Where would you like to live? Somewhere on the Mediterranian coast. All the Med countries have the best food, and also siestas. Maybe, er, maybe not Israel though.

What is your favorite occupation? If I can actually consistently get paid for it, then the one I have: being a writer. Getting paid is proving to be tricky, though.

What is the quality you most like in a man? Compassion.

What is the quality you most like in a woman? Compassion.

What are your favorite names? I've always been fond of Yasmine.

What is your motto? My gaming motto is "you got there once, you can get there again" for when I beat a tricky bit and then die shortly afterwards. I guess it applies in life too - when failure or a setback follows a success, it doesn't erase the success, and you can do it again.

I tag @silversunsky @endreal @grimsauce @suppuration @fullcuntact @zombiearmadillo @zombearzilla @sisterquill @thusthusthus and anyone else who'd like to share, but no pressure as always <3

[kingsmakers]

Ahh!! Thank you so much for answering my earlier ask, it made my day! If it is alright, I have some more.

How's Homelander going to react when he finds out he has a sister?? Like yikes!!! I'm excited for that bomb.

Crimson Countess is Vespers mother, does she have contact with her? Did she just give her to Vought? Mommy issues!!!

Oh shit, I just remembered that soldier boy and liberty/storm front knew eachother! Will she try and get close to Vesper since she knew her dad?

Now I'm really interested in how the dynamics between her and Butcher will be. I didn't really think about how she's in a position that he can use way to his advantage. She seems like she's trying to move past being used and I'm wondering how far she'll let Butcher push her.

How does her power work? Is it like Scarlett Witch?

Thank for letting me take up your time. I've been enjoying your HotD story and am excited to read about more of your characters!

Of course! I love getting the chance to chat about my ocs, and you’re definitely me ample opportunity.

We saw how Homelander reacted to finding out he had a father. Although he and Soldier Boy didn’t even get on, he was thrilled at the idea of having family, and I think it would be similar with Vesper. He has never much liked her, but now he realises she’s his baby half-sister and he would want to explore that bond even if Vesper is like...uhh you actually didn’t like me at all?

OOFT Crimson Countess and Vesper’s dynamic is ROUGH. So we all know that Countess admitted she hated Soldier Boy in the end, and although I’m changing the timing of his “death” to a bit later to account for Vesper, Countess was not thrilled to find out she was expecting his baby. Vought paid her a lot of money to keep Vesper, because they were intrigued at the concept of a legacy Supe child. For this reason, Countess has always resented Vesper, who bears a striking visual resemblance to her father. Vesper desperately wanted to be loved by her mother, but Countess was incredibly cold and distant with her daughter.

In terms of Stormfront, I think she’s curious about Vesper, but not too interested in what she can do etc. It’s more like “hey I knew your dad”, which is just as well because Vesper can’t stand the woman.

With her and Butcher, it’s a mutual understanding. She gets to meet her father, and he gets Soldier Boy. But you’re right, Vesper has been used too much in her life and she is not one to let the Boys walk all over her. Obviously there’s a volatility to her, but there’s a real darkness that comes out in Vesper during Season 3, and she’s probably at her lowest in a long time at that point.

Vesper’s power is altering and erasing memories, as well as planting completely false ones. She can technically sort of “store” these memories and give them back if she wants to. Homelander and many of the others don’t consider it hugely useful since it’s not a flashy physical power, but as Vesper is in The Seven by Season 3, they’re absolutely going to see what kind of devastation a damaged young woman who can fuck with people’s memories can cause.

Anyway, thank you again for the ask! You’re welcome to send me asks anytime.

[thefvrious]

@ghostsxagain sent -> joel & damon

☀️          »        what    was    your    character’s    first    impression    of    their    partner   ? "who is this beautiful creature and what do i have to do to know him?" 🍯          »        what    trait    does    your    character    admire    the    most    about    their    partner    ? damon's absolute strength. joel thinks damon's probably the strongest person he's ever met, and he doesn't know how he did it all those years on his own, but god damn does he admire him. ⚡          »        who    spends    more    time    on    the    phone   ? joel, unfortunately, it's a work thing. ✏️          »        who    takes    longer    to    text    back   ? damon bc he's a big old meany face >:[ 💡          »        what’s    the    first    movie    /    tv    show    your    pairing    saw    ? they went out on a date and saw a horror movie, joel was just happy to have some time with damon in a real capacity. 🐣          »        who    has    the    best    style    ? ooft. good question. dare i say joel? 🔑          »        who    is    the    better    driver    ? haha probably damon. joel doesn't do a lot of driving for himself. he hasn't had to in years. ⭐          »        what    are    three    things    that    your    pairing    have    in    common    ? crime, big families, taste in media they enjoy to consume [music, books, film, etc].

🌩          »        how    does    your    character    calm    their    partner    when    they    are    angry    ? joel's tried all manner of things to calm down damon when he's angry. if the anger is directed at joel, there's nothing he can do. but, he's found, sometimes he can get damon to calm down with physical touch -- rubbing his shoulders, holding him close, remaining silent and not adding to the stress. 🌼          »        who    was    the    first    to    say    i    love    you   ? joel on absolute accident, love drunk in his sleep. 🧀          »        who    is    the    better    cook   ? they both know how to cook, for sure, but i feel like damon's better at it, and boy oh boy does joel like being treated to a dinner made by his lover <3 🌻          »        who    is    the    better    listener   ? joel is. sorry 'bout it, damon, but you got some issues, my guy. ✨          »        what    is    your    pairing’s    favourite    thing    to    do    together  ? joel just likes to be in the same room as damon. his favorite is when they have a few drinks and relax on the couch watching whatever damon puts on because let's face it joel's not paying attention to anything but dai anyway. ⚠️          »        who    has    the    crazier    family    ? joel doesn't think his family is crazy, which is hilarious, but damon's definitely is bonkers. at least his parents, and his siblings are sure to have their issues, too. the hills are... well, special.

🌙          »        what    are    your    character’s    love    languages    ––    gifts    ,    affection    ,    words    ? literally all of them. try and stop him, damon, it hasn't gone so well for you so far. 🌤          »        how    long    has    your    pairing    been    together    ? chasing each other for a decent amount of time, only together for a little while. 💛          »        who    says    i    love    you    more    often    ? joel. probably to a fault. he thinks damon needs to hear it more, and it just falls out of his mouth, oops. 😭          »        who    is    most    likely    to    forget    an    anniversary    ? damon, but i feel like he only pretends to forget it. 🍌          »        what    is    your    pairing’s    favourite    place    ? unsurprisingly, joel loves to be seen with his boo. so, anywhere they can go in public and be seen but still be alone. the top section of some of the bars he runs are always a good bet.

[carterchxn]

Carter had to admit, he kinda liked the Irish guy. He was entertaining, and certainly had a genuinely adorable and endearing way about him. And he wasn't like anyone Carter had really befriended before — not that he had a lot of friends. Real ones, that is. "Now I just need to learn to speak Irish. Reckon you can teach me a thing or two, Cal?" Carter reached over to squeeze the man's shoulder, an undeniable grin lighting up his features. Ah, another one in the pocket. It was too easy to befriend people in this town. Some were a little more challenging, but most were welcoming and open. "Brothers. I've never had a brother before," he clutched his chest dramatically then, he could almost feel the fake tears ensuing. "Do you know how much this means to me? —Whiskey? Ooft," he scrunched his nose, glancing over at the wall of liquor. "We're getting serious now, bro. Alright, lets do it," he clapped his hands and rubbed them together. Evil mastermind. "You know I can't say no. I don't remember the last time I was this drunk.. must have been back in New York. You?"

Callum laughed at how quick the man complimented himself. He was confident. Cocky, maybe, but confident for sure. "Destiny, now you're speaking my lingo!" Callum clinked his glass against Carter's and then down the contents. He really shouldn't drink anymore, but it had been a while since he had allowed himself to get this drunk. The last time he was drunk at all was when he kissed Gen. "Exactly, lad...like you and me --" Callum slapped Carter's chest and then his own. "Brothers." He grabbed the menu and squinted as the words blurred on the page. "Hard liquor...what about a few whiskeys? My treat?"

[gayspock]

i cnt sleep again bc im baby so im gonna  try out dreamboy

[froggywritesstuff]

Picnic | Mirabel Madrigal

Pairing: Mirabel Madrigal x g/n! reader

Warnings: none that I can think of, just cute Mirabel and Camilo being a slightly annoying cousin

18+ people DNI

‘Knock, knock,’ your knuckles banged against the hard front door.

The door creaked open, revealing the shape shifting Madrigal child.

A huge grin appeared in his face when he saw you, as well as a mischievous glint in his eyes.

”Oh, hey Y/N!” He called, way too loud to greet someone who was standing right in front of you.

Before you could question it, an angered scream sounded from upstairs in the Casita.

”Camilo!” you heard the familiar shout from Mirabel.

”MiRaBeL!” Camilo called in a mocking voice.

You let out an awkward chuckle as you gripped the woven picnic basket handle tighter behind your back.

Before Camilo could make another comment, he disappeared from sight, getting pulled away from the door.

You started at the empty doorway in shock as many yells and ‘oofts’ came from inside the Casita.

”Y/N!” Mirabel greeted cheerfully, her voice drowned out by her heavy breathing.

”Uh, hey!” you responded, trying to ignore what probably just happened.

She ran a hand through her hair, before walking through the door to come closer to you.

”Sorry about them,” she huffed, gesturing to inside the Casita where Camilo was on the floor, dying of laughter.

“You should’ve seen your face!” He wheezed, before the sound of the door shutting cut him off.

You laughed a little, before turning back to Mirabel, “Well, you ready to go?” 

She nodded excitedly, “You got the thing?”

You grinned, pulling out the picnic basket behind your back, “You know, you don’t have to just call it ‘the thing’?”

”Please! If Dolores hears that I’m going on a date with you that involves a… you know what, she’d go crazy! And she’s definitely tell everyone, and I mean, everyone.”

You just let another laugh, before taking Mirabel’s hand, “Come on, you dork, we can’t spend the whole day worrying about your cousin.”

With a pleased sigh, you and Mirabel began your walk.

Obviously, you two took the long way, going all the way around the town instead of through it.

It could’ve been because you wanted to take the more scenic route, or that you just wanted to spend more time with each other.

Let’s be real, of course it was the second option.

You two told stories, made jokes and flirted the whole walk there.

A pang of disappointment hit you when you arrived, realizing it was the end of one of the best walks you had ever been on, but that quickly dissolved when you started setting up the long awaited picnic.

You set down the basket and flung open the lid.

Mirabel smiled, before grabbing the red and white picnic blanket, and setting it down on the grass.

Before you even realized it, Mirabel grabbed your hands, and held you in her chest, before lying down on the blanket.

”Mirabel!” You groaned, it was muffled as your voice was cut of by Mirabel’s dress in your face, but you knew she heard you.

”What?” she asked, dragging on the word, “So I’m not allowed to hug my partner on our picnic that we’ve been waiting to go on for weeks?”

She loosened her arms long enough for you to break free from her grip, “Not if they can’t breathe!” you gasped, your breaths heavy for dramatic effect.

”Whatever,” she mumbled, lying back down on the picnic blanket.

You smirked at your girlfriend, before lying down next to her.

”Hey,” you whispered.

Mirabel shuffled to turn around to face you, “Hey.”

You placed an arm on her shoulder, before pulling her into a hug, “I love you,” you whispered, placing a kiss on her forehead.

She looked up to face your eyes as she smiled, “I love you too, amor.”

The two of you lay like that for hours, watching the clouds in the sky, trying to find shapes in them, and just enjoying each other’s presence.

You began playing with her hair as she moved to sit in your lap, when you whispered, “It’s getting dark, you know?”

”Yeah,” she replied, getting lost in your voice.

When she wouldn’t move, you tried a different approach, “Someone’s gonna get in trouble.” You sang, and got a loud sigh in response.

”Your foot’s tingling and you need me to get off, right?”

“No!” you gasped dramatically.

”Yeah, yeah, sure…” she said, sitting up to face you, “I probably should be getting home soon. Dolores is a tattle tale, you know?”

You couldn’t help but laugh at her and how adorable she was, “I can guess.”

With another sigh, she stood up from the blanket, and held out of her hand, “Come on, mi vida, I know I’m not the only one with a curfew.”

“I’m mi vida now?” You asked, ignoring the swarm of butterflies in your stomach as you stood up beside her.

”You’ve always been mi vida.”

——-

The walk back home was the same as usual, the two of you just talking about life and, other stuff (very specific).

More disappointment bubbles in your stomach when you reached the door to Casita.

Mirabel faced you with a smile, “This was fun.”

”Yeah-“ you went to respond, when Mirabel caught you off guard with another hug.

”I love you, Y/N,” she whispered, her head snuggling in the crook of your neck.

You didn’t hesitate to hug her back, “I love you too, Mira,”

Eyes filled with sorrow, she walked toward the front door, “I’ll see you later, mi vida,”

You smiled at her, “Yeah… mi vida.”

The door quietly shut behind her, leaving you to walk back home alone.

With a dreamy sigh, Mirabel fell back against the door, her thoughts corrupted with memories of you.

”Mi vida, huh?”

Mirabel jumped around to see all her cousins and siblings standing in front of her, the same teasing smirk on all of their faces.

”Oh no.”

[thebibliosphere]

"You don't have ADHD you're just sensitive"...what? I've mercifully been spared that one and I can't work out what that's even meant to mean. Sensitive to what? Sensitive to stimuli/lack thereof/emotional dysregulation due to my ADHD? Sensitive to bullshit "ADHD don't real" takes? (Admittedly, aye, I am). Sensitive to magical waves coming through the aether that are kicking my prefrontal cortex in the dick?

There’s this new-ish thing going around at the moment that where people are identifying as HSP, or “highly sensitive person”, and most of the things they are describing are neurodivergent issues. But they don’t want the stigma of being associated with Autism or ADHD, so they label themselves as “HSP” so they can say “oh no, there’s nothing wrong with me, I’m normal. I’m just a highly sensitive person”. I reblogged a couple of posts about it I think it was last week? and how a lot of the “girl-boss” professionals are being targeted with it by life coaches.

And you know what, neurodivergency is a spectrum, so chances are they can’t relate to some of the things we talk about. But the way they’re choosing to define it whilst also distancing themselves from ADHD and Autism—and also now telling people “oh don’t be silly, you’re too X to be one of those people. You’re just Highly Sensitive” is ooft, yikes. Big old ableist red flags right there.

Obviously not everyone who identifies this way is like that, but there’s a lot of red flags in their community that keep popping up. And it seems to becoming more prevalent on places like YouTube which of course means the info people are getting is often skewed.

[nixnbob]

I was tagged by the lovely @lilgreyarea & @mavswife 💕

Get to know me:

Favourite time of the year: Halloween and Christmas, if I'm being ultra-specific. But I do love a bit of summer sun. The weather here is real grey for most of the year and the rain tends to come at you sideways... 🤣

Comfort food: I'm a bit of a mac and cheese hound. That is my soul food.

Do you collect anything?: You want the joke answer? Minor injuries at Krav Maga training 🤣 I'm in a streak as the cause at the moment, instead of my usual role as the recipient... The real answer would be tarot cards, videogames (and consoles) and Funko pops.

Favorite drink: Dr Pepper for soda, mint tea to relax and a Jack and Coke or a dram on a night out.

Favorite song / artist: Ooooh. Tough one as I have so many songs and artists I love, it's really hard to pick. Favourite artist though is probably Jeff Buckley. Grace is such a haunting album 💕 My favourite song at the moment is I Ain't Worried 😉

Favourite Some fics I'm really enjoying right now: Ooft... I'll break the rules here - shhhh! I love you all too much to pick and there's SO much wonderful content out there. So, please don't take offence if I've not named you here (I will always usually try to reblog/note/comment/kudo etc)! Here's a small selection from what I've read in this fandom and beyond: I LOVE Quietus by @scribe-of-elysium (it's been a long term love 💕), My Love Forever by @robertcallsignbobfloyd (😭😭😭), @glodessa 's Church Girl works and Astro by @allyxstebo 😉

No pressure tags: @minilpark @incorrecttopgunquotes @robertcallsignbobfloyd @barnescastle @floydsin @callsignbob @jandjsalmon @ready-steady-freddie @d4r32bstup1d @allyxstebo

[its-deputy-caleb]

Ok uhhh, how about Sean as a ghost? Haunting the gang post-Rhodes, but in a chill way

OOFT anon this was a hard one. I had no idea if i got what you wanted right and this is a whole mess. I kinda got weirdly angsty but tried to keep the "sean is a chill ghost vibe" so here goes nothing.

also a huge thank u to the 700 followers <333 even tho most of u are not from the rdr fandom oop.

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Fuck did things go bad in Rhodes and while you weren’t necessarily there yourself, you wished you had been. Maybe then you could have saved him.

You’re sitting out by the dock at Shady Belle, hoping the bottle of whiskey in your hand will drown out the negative thoughts again. Throwing little pebbles and sticks into the water is a nice distraction for a while but that voice in your head always comes back. The voice that tells you to relive the moments when Arthur rode into camp with his hat held in his hands as he told you the news about your beloved Sean.

Everyone knew how close you two were, how much you cared for each other. You were just a bunch of outlaws causing mischief all in the name of love. Of course, both you and Sean understood the risks that came with this sort of life, knew what could happen as an outlaw but you never imagined you’d see it so soon.

You never thought that some random sunny morning would be the last time you ever saw him. No, you always thought it’d be a train robbery or some other reckless job. You remember the day clearly, sat on guard duty watching as Sean, Bill and Micah all mounted up to head into town. He gave you a wink and a cheeky smile, yelling he’d be back for dinner with pockets full of cash and that had been it. The last time you ever saw Sean alive.

“Whatcha doing over here crying for darlin’?”

You’re startled out of your thoughts by a voice behind you, one that sounded so much like Sean. Jumping up and spinning around, the whiskey bottle in your hand smashes to the floor at the sight before you.

There standing in front of you is Sean. Well not quite, it’s still Sean only he’s covered in a greyish cloud of what you could only guess to be smoke. He seemed to hover slightly above ground and had an almost translucent appearance, it was all quite odd if you weren’t in such shock.

“SEAN?! What the actual fuck! You’re dead, I saw them bury you for chrissakes!”

“You thought I’d only take a couple of boozed up rednecks to get rid of me? Get’outta here love, gonna take a helluva lot more than that!”

Sean’s arms are open like he wants a hug and you’re mind is still trying to process what exactly its seeing that you just simply let it happen.

It seems Sean is still getting used to his apparent new appearance too as he falls straight through you. When you turn around, just as shocked Sean’s mouth is open in surprise. It seems he wasn’t expecting to nearly fall flat on his face.

-

Sean sat with you for the next few ours, telling you that he had no real idea of waking up a ghost or exactly how he got there. In fact, there was so few details that apart of you was sure he was only a figment of your imagination. But God it felt nice just to hear him again, to see him in front of you— even if you’d get called crazy for it. You wanted so badly just to lean your head on his shoulder like you had done many nights before but clearly his current state did not allow that.

Eventually Sean wanted to pester away at the rest of the gang, so in a spring of energy he bolted for the main campfire where many on the gang were sitting.

It seemed everyone was just as shocked as you to see Sean waving his hands about like an excited child— like nothing had happened.

“Looks like ya can’t get rid of old Dead Eye Macguire that easy eh? Oh lighten up a little guys, ya look like ya’ve seen a ghost! Wheres the whiskey fellas.”

Trust Sean to make a grand entrance, floating high above the fire so he could address everyone huddled around it. The flame turned the greyish smoke a bright amber and it matched the colour of what his hair used to be, for a moment he looked almost normal.

Everyone was completely shocked just as you had been. Javier had stopped playing the guitar while Dutch’s cigar burnt out slowly, completely forgotten in his hand. The silence was only broken when Pearson dropped the boiling stew all over the mudded ground.

“Williamson why so sour all the time? Lighten up will ya! Now that the life of the parties back. And Arthur! Wheres me hug aye?”

Sean spent the rest of the night going around to each member to see what they’d been up to, mostly it was just to annoy them but on this particular night I don’t think any of them minded.

At some point, your dear friend Charles came up to stand beside you with a gentle hand on your shoulder.

“Charles… I’m not hallucinating am I? Thats really him?”

The shock of what had happened was slowly easing away and now all that was left was how tired and emotionally drained you were. First you were grieving and now you’re not? You didn’t know what to think.

“I’m afraid so, the annoying little fella is back… but everyone is happy to see him back.”

Charles always had a way of cheering you up. Knowing exactly the right time to throw in light hearted jokes and comforting reassurances, he was the one you could go to when dealing with Sean’s death was a little too much to bear sometimes.

A smile comes to your face as you watch Sean laughing with the other members, trying to drink a bottle of whiskey but failing as it went straight through him. Memories from when Sean returned from blackwater came flooding back and all the other times you’d spent with him and the gang. You couldn’t help but feel at home once more.

-

At some point you call it a night, wanting to get a least three hours of sleep before the sun would eventually come up. You’re lying under your blanket, trying to sleep when Sean comes flying through the wall of the tent to hover over you. It’s clear he can’t hug you like he used to but he sits beside you the whole night and for the first time in a while, you’re not afraid to go to sleep.

He’s humming some old Irish folk song gently under his breath and you’re slowly relaxing, letting sleep take you.

The last thing that you hear before you drift off to sleep is the soft whisper of his voice.

“Ain’t gotta worry about me leavin’ any time soon…”

[kingkatsuki]

Okay so i managed to read RP1 and let me say MADAM

reader was so relatable i too wouldve freaked out before accepting any video call and i too have had an ex who thought i looked “silly” in video calls and would screenshot me in really unflattering moments because “haha u look ugly it’s so funny” it made me hate video calls for a long long time

yeah he’s an ex for a reason

but also Kiri a real one for doing research and coming up to Bakubro with receipts that reader is REAL. i’ll give him a big ol’ succ for that.

but ooft the flow, the emotional building for their relationship? everYTHING you got me hot and bothered over their sexting like goddamn

and when he apologised and they made up?? it was so freaking sweet i loved that Bakugo was torturing himself he deserved it for jumping to conclusions 😤

but seriously thank you for all the hard work you put into all of these you’re so amazing i love you so much

- Cinnamon🥀

Ahhh I’m sorry your ex made you feel that way!! I feel like for video chat you need to get the perfect lighting, angles etc otherwise you just look a hot mess😭

But like I feel like Baku or Kiri would find you so beautiful even if the camera is angled up and you got a million chins😩 like they’d still look at you as though you’re single-handedly holding up the sky.

Kiri just wants Bakugou to be happy and that’s a true best friend🥺we all need a Kiri in our lives!

I’m so so glad you enjoyed it, thank you so much for reading🥺💕

[lamed-moon]

I do usually feel more at home during retrograde motion... but this is a lot to swim through.

Later this fall, dear impetuously backwards Mars, will conjunct my natal Sun + Mercury Rx (again). Then oppose my natal Jupiter Rx (again). 

And then.... back again!AGAIN!!! babyyyyYYYyyy

to go over and see them all directly once more. Ooft and

Oy. 

I think I’m beginning to see feel how retrogradation within the mutable signs does fully rock my boat due to the overemphasis of the double-bodied signs represented in my chart. 

- Venus went retrograde in Gemini back in 2020 and that’s when I glued myself into this (red-flag-filled) relationship I moved across the country for 

[a sappy and eager-to-Nest Venus Rx in the 4H, rose-colored glasses 4sure]

- I am currently in the midst of physically leaving and potentially returning to the same exact apartment I was in prior to this place. Gotta DIP, it is Not Good here and I need to leave much sooner than I initially thought!

[Mars Rx in the 4H if I ever did see it !!!!].

- Entered a hypomanic episode during much of Virgo season and that is definitely when the emotional processing happened (love you Mars + Moon). There seems to be a pattern of having a Very Horny Virgo Season for me in general however this time it was even more heavy-handed during Mercury’s retrograde back into Virgo in September, that’s for sure. Most of that was pretty fun at least lol.

- Right before Mercury stationed retrograde in Libra, transit Venus was conjunct my Mars at the same time that Mars in Gemini, still transiting his first decan, opposed my Jupiter Rx. It was so difficult for me to slow my body down, to eat, to sleep. One of the many scars I recklessly induced upon myself include a physical cut to my eyebrow from bending down too quickly and smashing my face on a table corner. One of the spiritual scars was a very Yuck sexual experience that tainted the slutting around I was so excited to be jumping back into post breakup.

- Once direct in Libra and directly opposite transit Jupiter Rx, almost back in Pisces (love you Saturn + ASC), that’s when I kicked a cabinet so hard my slipper got caught in the cracked panel. The stimulus being that my ex ate my food without asking, but the real reason I got angry was Everything Boiling Over that’d been under review since the *civil breakup*. I no longer felt civil in that moment. Hoping I’ll be done fixing the cupboard by the time I move out.. I don’t usually break things. 

- Most recently, during this likely long catalogue of mutable moments during Mars’ transit, my boot got caught on the pedal while trying to brake resulting in a (minor) car accident the day after Mars stationed Rx last week. I no longer have a front bumper. 

Everything is breaking physically right now. 

Maybe there is a little lesson in looking back to that Venus Rx in Gemini two and half years ago... Maybe I was breaking some emotional promises to myself while I ignored those flags and nestled in anyways. I’m gonna simmer with that for a bit...

I cannot wait until March. 

[secretsappyabode]

TIFF YOU'RE SO LOVELY AND KIND I APPRECIATE YOUR SWEET WORDS ON MY TEXIARTY ART THANK YOU QUEEN ✨🧡👑

I wanted to come ask you, what's your favorite HC for both Stan and Ford?? What's your reasoning, if any, for this HC? How do you like to incorporate it into the main canon 👀???

Nikki @tex-treasures

ITS MY PLEASURE NIKKI IT WAS SO GOOD

Ooooh headcanons!! I’ve seen a bunch go around the fandom, but I never had many on my own. Save for maybe a couple of sexuality hcs, although they align with what majority of fandom believes anyway

my sexuality hcs is that ford is pan ace and stan is bi!! however I DO have a place in my heart for the aroace hc for ford. cuz honestly……I’ve been thinking that I cld be aroace too, at least aroflux or something, so the thought of ford and I sharing those same feelings together is real nice :> but honestly, attraction is just one giant shrug for me, and I imagine ford is the same cuz WHO FUCKIN KNOWS BABEY DNNXNSNZNNS

As for other hcs…..

ford knows piano!!! he used to go to lessons when he was younger, but gradually stopped once he got into high school. if he were to try again now he’d be a bit rusty, but he’ll be alright with some sheet music

while stan had a lot of positivity in life when he was young, I bet he still carried some of that gruff realism. That became his only outlook when he got kicked out.

ford is autistic. stan has adhd. this adds to the reason why they were so inseparable, but also it caused a few issues in the past. The sound of a pen clicking is disruptive, but for some reason chewing all the pens in the house isn’t irritating and gross at all?? get real sixer

these two are the only ones that have seen the other cry openly. they’d rather be dead than be caught crying in front of any other person

i know there’s plenty of evidence in the show that suggests stan has depression, but honestly I reckon ford does as well. maybe not as heavy as stan, but the guy did go through some rough years especially after stan was kicked out. you telling me that this man who was bullied so much as a kid, developed trust issues cuz of it, was subconsciously and literally taught to bottle his emotions to the point of no healthy communication, and spent 30 years blaming himself for the possible mental spiral of one of his closest friends, did NOT develop severe depression and self loathing on top of his paranoia?? i don’t think so bud!!!

Simply put, the stan twins are mentally ill cuz of the emotional (and physical let’s face it) trauma they endured in their respective lives, and I kinda point most of the blame at their dad cuz honestly??? they deserved a better father ooft

On a happier note, stan has a secret weakness for rabbits. listen, listen, they’re just so small, and fluffy. whoever decided this was the perfect shape for an animal deserves a raise

ford dances when he’s alone. when a good jam comes on he can’t resist. if anyone were to catch this elusive sight, they’d find it to be the most adorable thing. hell be damned if that were to ever happen though