#OKAY. WHAG IS HAPPENING

[cartoonrival]

he said i love you to wilson

[saintaviator]

vash and wolfwood.... i love seeing them in ur style

TY !!! HERE THEY ARE AGAIN !!!

[amphibifish]

WHAT AHPPENED IN MALOKI

so much jordan..... too much jordan.......

assuming that was a genuine question explanation of the ending under the cut because jesus christ that ending was actually so wtf i NEED to talk about it CAUSE WHAG WAS THATT but it's kind of long so

ok i guess ill start from post-amusement park ballpit etc because thats kind of where things pick up

freyja convinces them to back to asgard to go take back odins throne from everyone who's fighting over it. she stays on midgard by the emergency exit if anything goes wrong. odin and loki head up there and then go visit baldr who convinces odin to free him on account of "dad....... ☹️☹️☹️" which works and then baldr beelines for the throne and so loki and odin hop on sleipnir to beat him but when they hop off him they fall back down the emergency exit hole.

so earlier hoenir gives heimdallr his staff back cause oh odins back now no need to talk over the world or anything. now while loki and odin are having a dinner party heimdallr breaks in in an attempt to kill that fake odin his staff created to psychologically torture loki. he's all "loki im finally GETTING MY REVENGE !!!" and then he trips and falls and drops his staff and odin picks it up and gets the eye reviving for real this time then immediately throws heimdallr out a window.

now they're all like OK ITS TIME TO FR FINISH RAGNAROK and so they go into asgard except the portal sends them into. baldrs like. mind world ??? ok here is where they start to lose me a little bit. i mean they lost me in a lot of places but like, especially here.

baldrs mind world is a night festival and the goal is to not get caught by baldr or he will turn you to stone which has happened to basically everyone except hoenir baldr himself and heimdallr who is seething the entire time still begging to fight loki. oh and urd but urd uhhh. turns into a swan or something and uses her magic to make loki an adult again disappearing in the process ?

when loki finally happens upon them hoenir tries to betray baldr with a fake staff that summons valkyrie's but it doesnt work. heimdallr tries to fight him for it because ??? look he's just been slowly getting flanderized into "I HATE LOKI AND I SUCK" over the course of this last manga so 😐😐😐 whatever anyway

baldr is like "OK LOKI LETS DUEL" and then THEY PULL OUT GUNS AND BALDR SHOOTS LOKI DEAD. and translation the app gave me was a little funky but the gist of it was that loki emptied his gun or like dropped his weapon or whatever because he didn't want to kill baldr and then baldr starts uhh crying. and then they get whisked back to the real world ACTUAL asgard and loki is. ALIVE ???

i don't even know how that works the dialogue literally just says "i was hiding!" and he's a child again so i can only assume the swan magic protected him. anyway thenbaldr is like "OK LOKI LETS FIGHT FR" and then they show off a bit of rune magic or whatever

then odin is all "why did you do all that baldr" and the very tragic sad explanation is basically. he was in love with urd and didn't like that loki and urd were also probably in love (???) and also he wanted uh attention and respect or something like that and didn't want to wait for the throne so he put odin on the self possessed him and then caused the entire plot.

odin is like "awhh ☹️☹️☹️" and makes him king.

they finally free all the valkyries aka every girl that was brutally murdered over the course of this story which revives them and they're sent back to their normal lives.

then hel shows up and is like "hey guys what's up here's my portal to helheim. the norns have already gone in your turn !" SO THEN ODIN AND FREYJA FORCE EVERYONE TO COMMIT MASS SUICIDE TOGETHER (minus loki). YEAH. EVERY GOD FROM BEFORE THIS INSTALLMENT IS DEAD. actually technically heim freyr and hoenir didn't wanna die they got pushed in so really that was a murder on freyja's hands but she's also dead anyway so it doesn't matter.

and then loki goes back to living his life as a child detective and ermmm yeah ^_^ the end ! what the fuck ! was that !

[wrylu]

i nEed to get my life together

[javiersprincess]

p00pdev1l deactivated ?????? do you know if they’re ok????? my heart dropped when I saw

YO WHAT ????

[slapjacq]

Thoughts as I listen to s1 ep6-while you were hypersleeping 2:

Ep 6:

MF WHAT-

HOW WAIT WHAT WHATS GOING ON-

KAREN GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE???

KAREN? WIAR WHAG-

WHAG THIS FUCKING EARLY

WARREN WAIT DUDE WTF ARE YOU IN FOR

Someone needs to punch someone else this instant and, specifically, I think Warren should be able to sock this Clive dude in the face

HOLY SHIT HE DID

SO MANY QUESTIONS JESUS

HES FOING BACK TO SLEEP WHAT-

While you were hyper sleeping (whole mini series):

GORDON I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH

he’s me fr

oh Warren this poor fucker bro is not having a good time

Clive is such an asshole and I can’t help but love his antics

Also the Shining references both thematically and just from the dialogue is top tier shit to me

S2 ep1:

44 FUCKING YEARS

AND THEY WERE LESBIANS

WHAT DID THEY DO TO MY BOY GORDON I JUST GOT ATTACHED WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS-

I feel like I’m spiraling through space and time good fucking lord

ep 2:

Oh okay wait I think I’m getting it now

Oh Christ the dead frozen body??? Always when I’m eating never when I’m chilling

Oh god oh what the fuck are those sounds

I have zero trust in ms ma’am Bryony and she should be allowed to do everything I may not trust her but I trust the shit she does. She’s batshit, she’s insane, but by god would I follow her to the ends of the earth.

oh wait wow no she’s crazy crazy slay

Also poor Gordon just keeps going through it

And shoutout my pet hamster Warren this mf is just dying and then dying all over again isn’t he

Ep3:

Warren isn’t girlbossing his way through, he’s just fucking dissociated. Lemme tell you I cannot blame the man.

OH AND HES GONE MF LMAO

HES LOVES SNOW

MAZDA BONGO FRIENDEE LETS GO BOYS IT WAS AUBREY THE WHOLE TIME

Shoutout absurdism ig

“I think I scared the shit out of him” what is with insane women scaring the shit out of pathetic archivists in podcasts

Also the fact that all of the ladies in this show are absolutely insane is just so dear to me. And not just like feral insane, but like victor Frankenstein insane anyways shoutout Mary Shelley. Forces of nature to be dealt with but just the forces of nature are making these ladies need shoulder rubs from their girlfriends or hands on therapy (aka threatening some loser with a saw)

Ep 4:

Warren you nutjob bless you and your crazy ass

The fact that Gordon is somehow the more sane one out of two is so funny and an insane leap from what the dynamic was between these two a season ago.

YES GET THAT MF A TORTOISE

Aubrey is so fucking right though, like trauma jokes aside how truly well adjusted could one be after the mind fuck that is hyper sleep plus the absolute insanity of dreamlike memories just peppered in between it all.

Like I distinctly remember having a really long dream where I woke up like 16 different times. And everytime for some variation of time something happened between each time I woke up and like that fucked me up for a good week. That being said I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGINE what it must be like to have that happen to you in real life. That just sounds like such a fucking trip Jesus

CHANNEL MF 6

While you were sleeping 2:

My head is gonna explode from the exposition so far. Plus my ✨gummy✨ just started working.

Honestly from what I’ve heard from other people, those within STEM jobs are pretty incestuous with their work. Most specialty jobs are. There’s always gonna be recycling, mainly because theres never enough funding to make the world go round so I mean yeah

Bryony is THAT BITCH though

She knows it too. Good for her.

Yeah I think that’s enough for tonight.

[inspired-aspiring-artist]

I think people would love to read the story cooking up in your head!! I never really wrote either beside one cringey 'horror' story.

Things that can help (imo) is imagining things that happen in real life, whag would their reaction be?

Ex: How would they react if someone was sick?

And i would read it 1 goptillion times over!!

Would love to learn more about this/nf!!!

And my golly was that axolotl royalty?/sj (silly joke)

Alexander Jacob Thunderberkin Kippensquire sounds fancy!!!!

Thanks for the ask @bigsillyyy , let the yapping commence!

Okay so the general premise is that after the events of Ruin, Fazco recovered the pizzaplex animatronics from the ruined plex and built a new pizzaplex with updated animatronics using the programming (and memories) from the old animatronics to save some money. They also decided to separate Sun and Moon into two different animatronics, both would be daycare attendants, but after hours Sun would clean the daycare, and Moon would be security. Fazco wanted to increase the daycare size without having to hire a bunch of people to supervise, which is why they split the dca. To avoid new lawsuits, Fazco made sure to code more secure boundaries on how the animatronics are allowed to interact with staff and guests. As a result, Moon is more of a prankster than a threat to your health (you will be inconvenienced, not dead :3).

I haven’t decided whether to make my oc the main character or just have a y/n; but the plot is that you/oc were hired to be the daycare assistant as the daycare needs at least 1 human supervisor for safety (in actuality they wanted a human so that parents could complain to you directly and not the animatronics). You/oc are trying your best to do your job and befriend the animatronics; but it’s more complicated than you thought it would be.

Both Sun and Moon are dealing with having separate bodies and the fact that they were essentially brought back from the dead, they have an antagonistic relationship with each other and don’t particularly trust Fazco personnel, which makes befriending them tricky (but rewarding!)

Answering your axolotl question: He was royal to me, but I always named my Mudkip starter Alex or Alexander when I played Pokémon alpha ruby/omega saphire, and when I played pixelmon on Minecraft. The Jacob Thunderberkin is a parody reference to a character from Over the Garden Wall, who Greg names the frog after in the last ep (Jason Funderberker) and Kippensquire is a reference to Mudkip and from Pokémon and the fact that Axolotls are eternal youth (they stay in the adolescent stage their entire lives) and so he would never be a adult (knight) and would stay a squire.

[jjongslutz]

No stop because you neeed to make a part 2 for this

"박종성 JAY FEAT. JUNGWON 💋 HELP ME HELP YOU [ MDNI. ]"

LIIIEK I WAMNA KNOW WHAG HAPPENS NEXT , THE WAY JUNGWON WOULD BE EAGER TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER THAN JAY, AND JAY BEING THE COCKY GIY HE IS TEASES YOU AND WOULD TRY HIS HARDEST TO MAKE SURE THAT JUNGWON KNOWS WHOS MORE EXPERIENCED

And the ending is up to you

PLEASE DO SO IF YOU CANN🙏🙏🙏

OOH OKAY this is giving me ideas 🤭 i have a few wips that i want to focus on first, but this is def added to the list!!!

the more i think about it the more ideas i get cuz why am i suddenly thinking about making TWO more parts??? (one of just jungwon & reader and then an actual threesome?? 😝) we'll see though, i don't want to get too ahead of myself

[disfrutalakia]

I'm here today, to spread my "Forever is the most vain out of the brazilians but not in a bad way he just likes to look pretty" headcanon. As always under the read more cause I like talking >:D

Forever likes being pretty, he likes showing off and he knows he is good looking, he knows the reactions he gets sometimes when showing up shirtless with his long hair behind him and he enjoys it. He likes the positive attention.

So you bet that he takes care of his hair, washes it everyday, uses nice products and then brushs it for a long time, braiding it is almost therapy to him. It's the time where he can feel all the stress leaving his body before he sleeps. And he likes to wears cologne too, it's strong and leaves a trail behind, but it's not unpleasant, people just always know when Forever has been somewhere.

The first time Forever didn't feel like he wanted to take care of himself, felt the want to look pretty was during Cellbit's infiltration. The bags under his eyes were even darker than before, his braid was messy and made in a hurry every morning after a sleepless night.

Things got a bit better when the elections started, it was whag pushed him to really make him look more presentable, he started wearing light makeup, taking care of his skin and even putting more time in the gym, after he won, he started leaning how to put his hair up on a updo to look professional, to look smart. And his suit is expensive, tailored to him, a brooch holds the flag to his suit.

But then, things started to pile up, more and more demands were made of him and he slept less, constantly locked on his office sorting out documents trying to figure it out a way to be good, to be the president people wanted him to be. His hair was often just on a ponytail not on a beautiful updo or a braid anymore, be rarely wore eyeliner and if he did it was always a bit smudged because his hands were shaky when doing it. But he tried to not let people see it, tried to smile so nobody truly noticed.

And then the eggs dissappeared, his world broke and so did he. The happy pills happened and now, even if he is sober and mostly okay, he hates looking into the mirror he can't look at his own reflection without seeing that smile.

So often now, his hair is either loose or in a ponytail, not as shiny as it used to be and his smile has never reached his eyes again.

[beansnsoup]

Luigi is at a party (he and the reader arrive separately) and when he sees the reader arrived he blushes, he is also impressed by the reader's outfit

On the one hand he is also proud to show everyone who he is dating

(Maybe a skip time when at the party someone comes to flirt with the reader and Luigi arrives kiss the reader in front of that person)

Love jealous luigi 🤍

Lesley Gore reference 🤭

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It's My Party

Summary: You may come to the party separately, but that doesn't mean you aren't together.

Relationship: Romantic

Warnings: gn reader, jealousy, fluff

You walk into the party with a smile on your face, scanning around for your boyfriend.

He left before you did due to you taking too long to decide on an over complicated outfit. You told him to go ahead and leave, and you'd find him there.

Luigi wanted to stay and wait, but you insisted, what you didn't know was that he loved walking in with you.

He loved watching everyone's expressions change as he walked in with you. He loved being labeled as yours and liked you being labeled as his.

The one thing Luigi hated on the other hand was the way other people looked at you. Like they were able to take you from him, like he was a temporary part of your life.

You were blind to all of this. You kept doing as you always did, and that just made people ease up to you more.

As you walked in, still trying to locate your boyfriend, eyes were glued to you. Not every set of eyes, just the single ones, the ones that had nothing better to do.

You'd be lying if you said nobody had hit on or asked you out since you started dating Luigi, but you didn't think too much of it.

You finally found Luigi, and he was grouped with Peach and Mario at a small standing table.

"Hey," You let out in a breathy tone, Luigi smiled and gave a you atight side hug.

"Sorry it took me so long, I overthink everything."

Your comment caused them all to giggle, Luigi cut in, "You're fine. You'd look nice either way."

You all sat and chatted like that for a bit before you decided to head to the bathroom for a quick break just to check up to see if your outfit was still cooperating.

On your way there, you bumped into a man about an inch or two taller than you.

"Oh, I'm sorry-"

"Well, look what he have here, all by yourself?"

You cringed at the sentace, "No."

"That's too bad," He let out, gliding his hand along your arm.

You jerked back, "Dude, back off."

He threw his hands up in sacrificed defense.

You steadily walked past, hitting his shoulder on the way.

You looked at yourself in the mirror, thinking back at what just happened and becoming more angry and annoyed by the minute.

Once you came out of the bathroom, you saw the man face to face with Luigi.

Luigis teeth were gritted, and his face was serious. You'd honestly never seen him like this before.

You went up to them both, grabbing Luigis arm,

"Luigi, cmon, let's go." You said, giving the man a look from the side of your eye.

Luigi breathed out, smiling and giving you a look of reassurance. "Okay."

You both walked out, waving goodbye to your friends. "Luigi, what were you doing?"

He still isn't fully looking at you, "I saw whag he did, I saw the way you looked."

"I handled it fine."

"Y/N, I don't want people to think they can get away with it."

You looked at him, shocked.

You never thought about how this made him feel. You always thought you had it under control. You didn't even know that it was as huge as a problem as Luigi was making it seem.

"I didn't know,"

"It's fine," Luigi stated, brushing a hand across your face.

I'm on a roll

You smile at this, you knew he'd be the only right one for you.

[r0tt3n-gvtz]

HIIII!!! *throws Usaihara stuff at you*

im so sorry if i get any of this wrong its all from memory but

usaihara is a pregame danganronpa fan comic thingy of shuichi saihara :3 it sounds so weird when i explain it but i swear its rlly good its this thingy where Shuichi invited his friends to a party, but then none of his friends show up, meaning he had to change his day (the change part is important ‼️) so then he was pissed and so he killed them, starting w Maki, but then after Maki he realized he missed some calls from Kokichi so hes like oh darn and then Kokichi showed up at his door, running away as he saw Makis body, but then shuichi was like ermmm okay i'll jst go to Rantaro, so he killed Rantaro during the Hells Kitchen arc, then goes to see Kokichi in the forest, the same place they used to go when they were kids to see the bunnies, the bunnies are a RLLY big part of Usaihara :3 so then while Shuichi is on his way, Kokichi finds Kaedes body and panics, then Shuichi shows up and sorta hust blacks out for a moment and accidentally stabs his shoulder, but shuichi is like nah man its all good but then Kokichi makes Shuichi realize he fucked up and so shuichi is like "oh." and thats also when one of my fav quotes comes from "jeez… ive messed up again, havent i? its so hard to tell when ive fucked up…" and hes so real for that (usaihara is pretty high up on my kin list aside from the insane and murder part) but then shuichi is like okay i cant back out now and so he goes to kill Tsumugi next, letting Kokichi survive cuz im 99% sure the creator ships saioma so then he goes to Tsumugis house and breaks in, but then in there Tsumugi is like what the frick man you just broke so many laws i didnt even get an invite so then Shuichi realized "oh dear i forgot to give out the invites. this was all for nothing. oopsies.." but still hes like ermmm too late fuck you and tries killing again, then tsumugi escapes <33 some other things that r important in it is the bunnies and change during usaihara, the bunnies represent change, that shows during the flashback of Kokichi and Shuichi going out to the forest to see the bunnies but the bunnies werent there, making Shuichi panic and making Kokichi realize how little shuichi can handle change, but then Shuichi finds the bunnies so that whole part is kinda like, shuichi CANT STAND change at all and he would do anything to put things back to normal. as well as the quote "my job is done when the bunnies are back where they belong." meaning that Shuichi can only stop when everything is back to normal, even if it means killing his friends as well, its called Usaihara cuz usami means bunny so usami + saihara = usaihara, and saihara has the bunny ears on his hat as well to go with the bunnies and change usaihara is legit so me aside from the insanity and murder

again, im so sorry if i got any of this wrong

its all from memory and the fandom is like nonexistent so i cant just ask ppl if im right

but also im still trying to figure out whag happened in the end, the "i dont understand why rabbits run when i try to catch them, but i understand why they hide."

but my fav quote is "my job is done when the rabbits are back where they belong" or "jeez... ive messed up again? its so hard to tell when i've fucked up..." or "i want to hate you. i want to be mad. instead, i just feel sad."

but also i LOVE the part where kokichi is talking about the day the bunnies werent there that spring "there was a place in the woods we used to go to as kids. every spring, rabbits used to nest there. one spring, we had trouble finding the rabbits. it was such a little thing. such a simple thing, but it made me realize how little Saihara can handle change." and also the "you're crying. you're crying because you dont know what to do. you're crying because theres nothing you CAN do."

i have made a redraw of the "you're doing it again. putting your hand in front of your face." "of course you only notice when i fall back into my old habits! do you even realize what you've done?!" "what ive done..??? jeez... ive messed up again... jts so hard to tell when ive fucked up... what have i...? is that so? no, that doesnt even make sense ... i would never do that!!!" and ive also made a redraw of the part with tsumugi and saihara in the "SERIOUSLY, IF YOU DONT SHUT UP IM GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND." "i think you've already got that covered." both of them with my OCs and ive made my own AU with my OCs in place of danganronpa characters, the ones i have so far is Zack as Tsumugi, Moxxie as Kokichi, and Flame as Usaihara :3

[biconickyoshi]

I remember when people online pointed out in Zukos arc of him using a diverse style of bending to display his character growth such as internal heat regulation that some correlated back to air nomad techniques or when he was fighting Azula and used air-bender techniques again to evade her fire. And so on with the other elements such as with water bending that Iroh taught him when he learned to redirect lightning.

That got me wondering since Zuko joined the Team very early on in the fic that maybe he learned on a more personal and individual level with Team Avatar?

Unless the natural progression of him developing it is still going to happen in the fic then I’m all for it, however, it mainly served as a writing curve as to eventually lead him to joining the Team Avatar in the first place, defining his character growth along the way. Since we can see the progression he has taken in this fic, I’m not denying that there is still some character growth Zuko has to jump hurdles through in this story just on a different sort of arc, so maybe the case of learning the diverse bending techniques could be proved useful for something else in Zuko’s arc.

The idea of subverting that particular plot point in Zuko’s story does sound interesting. However, alternatively, with comparison to when Zuko was teaching Aang for a short while about fire-bending basics, I’d like to think at some point Aang would want to give Zuko an air bending lesson or two as a favor in return. They aren’t complete opposites but I do wonder how that will play out if it were written. Aang might as well give him at least the basics given him constantly imparting his good ol’ air nomad wisdom yo everyone in the group whether exasperated or not. Lmao.

Even then, it would be a cool Easter Egg if the slow progression in the original still takes place with Zuko learning the other element’s styles. Besides, it’s similar with he fact that Aang is literally learning the elements and they are the main figures of the fic.

Holy this was a long ask, haha i just woke up and started thinking about this and started writing not even properly thinking about whag I was saying. Hope this is okay and I’d love to hear your interpretation on the matter. Love your fic all the way!

Ooooo I had never even thought about that anon, but that is a very interesting and cool idea!! Especially when you think about how Iroh learned to redirect lightning from studying the other nations. Maybe there are some other things Zuko could learn from doing the same… like we saw in Legend of Korra that firebending can heal, or at least sense if someone’s spiritual energy/chi is out of whack. Maybe Zuko could learn to do that?

At the very least he can learn to incorporate the mentality of other bending styles into firebending. Especially airbending, since he really doesn’t want to hurt anyone with fire anymore. I think it would be a lovely way to explore/deepen Zuko and Aang’s relationship in the story at some point by having Aang just kinda give him an airbending lesson at some point (maybe once they get to the Fire Nation).

Thanks for the ask, and for reading my story! I’m so happy you like it! :)

[misanthrapologist]

hi guys this is vivinos and qmeng till wins round 7 luka dies a painful death hyuna is okay ans so is mizi uhhh don't ask whag happens next haven't thought that far

[unicornsaures]

urrrhhhhhvggggg i try not to make vent posts a whole ton but alas, ya girl is not doing so hot

tw// sh😁

guys do not do what i did and like. purposely trigger yourself with your own sh from a year ago because oh my god in. its. i feel so absolutely fake my scars were so much worse last year and now theyre just gone and i thought i was fully recovered its bren a year and. and im still crying over it and i thought i was done crying over it. I thought i was done crying over literal scars and i was. i mean i thought i was exaggerating when i said the closrr i get to the date ill br one year clean its getting worse and. nope! no, no that checks out!!

Its all my fault i got triggered in the first placr too. I knew what i had in my eyes only wnd i knew that checking it would only make me spiral and here i am just. crying over it. its sending me back to last year where its i just its only oj my hod i csnt be doing this again i really csnt be doingthis again ive bren doing so well and then. and i dont want to i really dont but im still tjinking about it and im still telling myself i want to but i dont i never did i always wanted to say ive been 1 year clean but i dont think ill rver even be able to make it to that point if i keeo self sabotaging like this. i mean t barely even counts ive basically just replaced cvtting with eevry other unhealthy coping mechanism under the sun but i should be better than this i shouldnt rven be thinking sbout it i shouldnt even be thinking that i can go back i shoulfny be in this situation at all and if it werent for me i wouldnt even be in this situation in the first placr ebcause i dont know how to keep myself away from tjings that i really need to stay away from

i really shouldnt be caught ip on this but its. i was. i was thinking aboht whag would happen if i would look back on photots earlier and and i knew i wouldnt be okay with it i knew i would snap the moment i did and wow its almost like forced recov only made me feel guilty for it and ohmygod kill me now i should be better than this i should be better than thjs ive had crisis called so many times ive been threatened by my parents for this so many times im worrying eveyrone around me and im only getting worse and everyone has to wastch me spiral but they cant do anything because im jsut too fucking oblivious to my own issues but im just too scared to readh out to anyone because how am i gonna say that i triggered myself without sounding like i planend this i didnt i swear i didnt plan to break down over this i promise i didnt mean for it i didnt want to cry over it i dont want to think abiut it anf i dont want to go back ive been doing sowell i swear im just worrying rveryone i dont want everyone to start checking in on mr in the morning just to make sure im still alive i font want people to messagr me in the middle of the night to make sure im not dead im so sorry ik so sorry

im just as tired as i was last year the only difference is thst im not actively trying to kill myself over it even if i really. wiuld like to thats besides the point the point is im just as weak of a girl as i was last year but last year i could at least hanfle pain now i just fucking snap whenever someone raises their voice or whenever i get. acut i break down and whenever i get hurt it only reminds me of the past 4 years that ive spent doing nothing but putting myself through mental hell and im realizing tbat ill never get begger i cant get better ive bren trying and i just csnt

i cant do it ive tried ive been trying why am i not getting anywhere why am i still stuck on the thought of sh i shouldnt be thinking about it i shouldnt miss it i shouldnt be upset that my scars are faded i shouldnt still have the ideas and images swirling aorund in my head because theyre always there and ill always have these scars and ill always br fucked ip and i wont ever be able to fix it ive had so many people worry and theyre worrying and worrying and i just dont care im such a horrible person i

i shiuldvr stopped for my parents they had to skin check me dsily for almodt a year straight and here i am just fucking itching to go grab something, literally anything just to go back and in so stupid im so stupid i did this to myself and im still being a pussy about it i shouldnt be thinming abiut it i shouldnt be crying over it whats wrong withme

[onlyjaeyun]

Hello! I really like your stories and your writing, but I have noticed a little pattern your stories all have in common, and I get that it might be an artistic thing you do because you love it for the stories. But in case it’s something you haven’t noticed and doesn’t wanna end up with a very distinct pattern I just wanted to let you know 😅 (this is meant well btw so there’s no hard feelings about anything)

Okay; all your characters have some sort of smut after insanely traumatic experiences.

And like i get the need to be close to someone in that moment and to get your mind off of it I guess, but it’s a general thing that happens throughout the stories and sometimes I do feel like it might take away from the trauma and or the beauty of the people finally coming together if that makes sense? 🤷‍♀️ I just wanted to make you aware, but please keep writing like you like to, I do really enjoy the storylines

First of all thank you so much for being so sweet and honest about this, I really appreciate it and hope you know that I took this to heart and have been thinking about it all day. I still don't quite know whag to respond besides that I don't think I was fully but partly aware of it because that's what I've always been doing even when i started writing years ago. i have no idea where this comes from so i have to figure that part out first and then try to work on smth else 😮‍💨 i guess i just find comfort in intimacy like that but i do agree with you when you say that it takes away from that moment. i actually have to re-plan the next smut chaps now because i based them all around those upcoming angsty parts and yet i also want yoj guys to associate their intimacy with something happy and not just tears 🫣 again thank you so much for this my love

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“you’ve always been jealous of me!”

“maybe that’s bc you were always splinters favorite!”

“raph. i love you bro.”

DO YOU SEE. DO YOU SEE. THE DUCKCIJF SHIFT IN TBEIR EXPRESSIONS MAN TBE FJCKFGMOFYHEFNEN GHE WAY. THATS HIS BROTHER MAN THATS HIS FUCKFJFG. OUGH. I HATE THIS STUPID SHOW WHAG THE ACTUAL FUCK. THE. THE. “JEALOUS?!” SO MUCH OF HIS EMOTIONS TRANSLATE TO ANGER OR JEALOUSY TOWARDS OTHERS AND IT DRIVES ME FUCKINF CRAZY. MAYBE IT WAS AT FIRST (aka beginning of s1) BUT IT ISNT NOW AND THATS FHE WHOLE POINT THAGS THE WHOLE DUCKIJF POINT. HE ISNT JUST JEALOUS AND AND ANGRY ALL THE TIME FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES BRO IS JUST 16 AND WATCHING HIS WHOLE PLANET GET DESTROYED. BRO IS 16 WATCHING HIS FATHER MURDERED IN FRONT OF HIM. BRO IS 16 AND WATCHING WHILE HIS OLDER BROTHER BASICALLY BECOMES AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT PERSON RIGHT BEFORE HIS FUCKING EYES, PICKING UP EVERY BURDEN EVER AND JUST SOLDIERING ON LIKE THIS IS SO FUCKIJF AWFUL.

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

ANYWAYS.

SO YEAH MAYBE HE DOES WISH HE WAS LEADER IF ONLY SO IT MEANT LEO DIDNT HAVE TO BE. IF ONLY SO LEO COULD BE LEO FOR A MINUTE BC YOU KNOW WHAG RAPH IS???? RAPH IS GUILTY. RAPH FEELS SO FUCKING GUILTY ALL THE DUCKIJF TIME AND I DOMT HAVE THE ABILITY TO GO INTO THAT RIGHT NOW SO YOURE JUST GONNA HAVE TO TRUST ME. TRUST ME ON TBIS I AM RIGHT ABOUT THIS. I CANT DUCKIJG STAND FBIS SHOW.

AND TBH I DONT BLAME RAPH. LIKE IF MYYYYY OLDER BROTHER GOT PROMOTED ONE DAY AND STARTED TRYING TO PULL RANK ON ME I WOULD BE A BITCH ABOUT IT TOO. THE FUCK. MAKE ME ASSHOLE. YEAH. BUT ALSO. AS THE ELDEST DAUGHTER. AND JUST YK. AS ME. I AM ME. ANOTHER THING IS THAT LEO IS JUST. IMPRESSIONABLE? A LITTLE BIT? ESP IN THE EARLY SEASONS. WHICH MAN I CAN RELATE TO. BITCH FIXATED ON A TV SHOW AND MADE IT HIS WHOLE PERSONALITY WHICH I LOVE FOR HIM BUT GOTDAMN. LEO LITERALLY GOES INTO BATTLE IN S1 QUOTING HIS SPACE HEROES SHOW AND MAKING STUPID ONE LINERS AND TRYING TO BE ALL HEROIC BUT IT JUST COMES OFF AS DORKY AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH. IT MAKES ME SAD. HE’S FOLLOWING EXAMPLES AND HE WANTS TO IMPRESS AND HE WANTS TO DO GOOD OK HE WANTS TO GET A GOOD GRADE IN CHILD WHICH IS NORMAL TO WANT AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIVE LIKE LEO IDEALIZES SPLINTER THAT IS HIS DAD MAN HE STRIVES FOR HIS APPROVAL. I DONT CARE WHAT MY DAD HAS TO SAY MOST OF THE TIME BUT FAVING HIS DISSAPOINEMENT???? FUCKINF AWFUL.

AND THEN THE DUCKING KRAANG HAPPEN AND SPLINTER TELLS HIM TO PREPARE FOR LOSSES. PREPARE TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES. AND HE REALIZES OH SHIT IS FR. UHM. OKAY. SO MAYBE THIS LEADING ISNT ALL I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. AND HE EXPRESSES THIS. MULTIPLE TIMES. THROUGHOUT THE FIRST AND SEVOND SEASON. AND THEN BE JUST STOPS. BRINING IT UP ALL TOGETHER. HE JUST STOPS. LIKE. DUDE. DUDE. HE WANTED TO BE LEADER SO BAD AT FIRST AND THEN THE HORRORS CAME FOR HIM. HE WAS NOT READY. NOW DONT GET ME WRONG, LEOS IN GENERAL ARE FUCKIJG CRAZY MAN THEY CAN DO WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT, LEO IS FULLY CAPABLE OF BEING THE LEADER HE JUST. HE WASNT FUCKING READY YET MAN. HE WAS 15. IM GONNA FUCKINF CRY.

NOT TO MENTION. IMMEDIATELY AFTER THAT. HE’S KINDA ELEVATED TO THIS PEDESTAL AND NOW HE’S DUCKINF STUCK THERE MAN. LEO KEEPS TRYING TO BE THEIR LEADER AND TO HIM, THAT MEANS HE HAS TO DO IT ALONE. HE’S THE LEADER. YES HE KNOWS THAT HIS BROTHERS WILL BE THERE FOR HIM HE KNOWS THAT HE ISNT ALONE BUT THAT DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS THEIR LEADER AND HE HAS TO BE ABLE TO STAND ON HIS OWN AND THAT MENTALITY BLEEDS INTO EVERYTHING ELSE AND RAPH (and the others tbh. fuckijg everyone) JUST WANT THEIR FUCKING DORKY CRINGEFAIL LOSER BIG BROTHER BACK. DO YOU UNDERSTAND.