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bf!patrick zweig x shy!socialite!reader
two fics in two days?? who even is this??
this is gossiping, girly, sweet soft boyfriend patrick zweig fic 😭😭😭😭
ok so basically in this one you're a socialite girl, socially anxious and shy, and you always have to go to your parents' events and have endless small talk to impress their friends. and you hate it. but this time, you have your sweet boyfriend patrick there, with his "zweig charm", to handle it for you.
fluff, soft!patrick zweig (as always w me), and just basically yeah. i imagined it as college era patrick zweig, and classes/academics get mentioned once, but in general it's not set in a super specific time period.
partially inspired by a conversation i had with @grimsonandclover and a bot that she made, so creds to the loml annie for that!! and for inspiring me to write patrick “one of the girls” zweig because he is very much present in this fic. and also a million thanks to @newrochellechallenger2019 for discussing the idea with me earlier <333
and i wrote this with fem!reader in mind, and like you wearing a dress and heels is mentioned, and patrick is taller than you, but if you ignore that this could generally be read as gender neutral? but do be aware of that!
ok that's it! i hope u enjoy!!!!
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you'd always hated going to your parents' events. you were already shy and more on the introverted side, so having to spend the whole night in a crowded place full of your parents' coworkers and friends, and being expected to greet all of them and "make the rounds" felt like pure torture. the music was always bad, the guests were always obnoxious, and your social anxiety always went through the roof.
luckily for you, your boyfriend was the complete opposite. patrick zweig thrived in social settings, always having his loud, cocky persona on, and it seemed like he never ran out of things to say. so, when one of your parents' dreaded events was coming up, it was a no-brainer fro you to invite him as your plus-one.
he always seemed to understand you, and your nonverbal cues, in a way that not even you could fully understand. he could always tell when you were anxious.
so, there you were, in your bedroom, slipping on your red-bottomed heels in your silky black dress, patrick sitting on your bed waiting for you to get ready.
"i really, really don't want to go," you sigh, slipping on your shoes and sitting next to patrick on the bed. you lean your head on his shoulder as he puts his arm around you, rubbing circles on your back reassuringly.
"you look nice. and it'll be fine, i'm here with you this time," he says gently, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head. "if you get overwhelmed, i can take over. i'll do all the talking."
you smile softly at his reassurances, resting against him for a moment before your parents call you down, saying that its time to leave.
you get up, as patrick slips on his suit jacket, and intertwines his hand with yours as you walk down the stairs, and out of the house into the car that's taking you to the event. you sit in the third row with patrick, your parents in the row in front of you, as the driver begins to pull away to take you all to the gala.
the silence of the car is only interrupted by the sound of the heater blowing and your parent's quite, idle chatter. you leg bounces as you anxiously anticipate the event, going over names in your head and trying to craft the introduction and greeting you'll give everyone, like you're trying to memorize lines in a script. you look out the window, spacing out, when you feel patrick scooting from his seat on the opposite side of the row to the middle seat. he intertwines his hand with yours, lifting them to press a kiss to the back of your hand, whispering affirmations like "it's ok" and "i'm here" to you under his breath.
you look over at him with a nervous smile, him meeting you with a wide grin. "i like that i get to take you to one of these," he whispers, quiet enough that no one else in the car could hear it, as his thumb rubs circles in your hand. "we can be judgey together, you know? i know how much you like to gossip about the outfits. i'll make it actually fun to be there, you know," he murmurued, his grin turning smug as he watched your anxiety break a little as you let out a quiet laugh.
"yeah, yeah, sure," you whisper back, rolling your eyes withy a smile as you lean your head onto his shoulder. "i'm glad you're coming with me to this," you say sincerely, as he presses a kiss to the crown of your head in response.
"of course i'm here. that's my job as a boyfriend isn't it?" he laughs, letting you relax against him, sitting comfortably in the silence of the car ride as you near the venue. "you look beautiful tonight, you know."
he feels you smile as you hide your face in his shoulder. even though you guys have bee dating for a while, you still get shy at patrick's compliments, and he loves it.
you nuzzle into his shoulder, trying to find some peace in the quiet, as the car pstarts to park in front of the venue. the event is some sort of charity gala and auction, being held in the ballroom of some sort of museum. as you climb out of the car, patrick holding your hand as you climb out, you feel the cold winter air nipping at your skin. but patrick is quick, snaking his arm around your waist and pulling you in as you walk up to the door and go in.
the music is boring and loud, and the lights are dim and blue. the chatter is dull and business-oriented around you, and you see your parents walking up to a group of "friends" with fake smiles pressed on their faces as you take patrick's hand, letting him guide you near a corner of the room.
"i hate it here already" you whisper to him, as he looks down at you with a sweet grin. "i know you do, baby," he says, placing his arms around your waist again, resting it there as you stand near the wall and look into the room.
"god, that suit is ugly," patrick whispers to you, a cocky grin on his face as he motions toward a man is a vibrant purple velvet suit, brown shoes and a matching purple velvet tie. "who dressed him? who let him leave the house like that? they should be ashamed of themselves," patrick says, his voice getting a bit louder as he looks down at you, trying to read your face.
his smile grows wider when he sees you break into a soft smile, giggling under your breath. he himself didn't know too much about fashion, or care too much in general, but he knew the light gossip put you at ease, so he tried to learn from your preferences, memorizing the little fasion rules that you'd set. and, to be fair, even he could tell that the man's suit was fugly.
you whisper back, "and that lady... she looks like she's pushing 70, wearing a sequin mini-dress to a black-tie charity event. what is she doing?" you say, your grin widening, as patrick squeezes your hip gently, both of you trying hard to stifle your laughter.
patrick bends down to press a kiss to your head, a force of habit of his, rubbing your back as you two look around the room, pointing out and nitpicking random outfits, or hairstyles, or lame song choices from the dj.
“what's the point of even hiring a dj if he's this shitty?" you whisper up to patrick, your words engulfed in laughter as you try to get them out, "i could play better music for free, just give me an aux cord and a spotify playlist" you giggle, as patrick nods his head, laughing a little too loud for a formal event like this.
"shhhh... people might look" you say, playfully scolding patrick as he looks down at you fondly.
of course, the moment had to be interrupted by your parents waving you over to their little group of work friends, as you sigh, pressing a fake smile to your face and nodding as the group looks over at you. "fuck, not this again" you whisper through your teeth at patrick, trying your best to keep your smile from falling into a frustrated grimace. it wasn't that you disliked your parents, or their friends for that matter, but it always felt like the same routine every time. you getting singled out, asked about school, grilled about random future job prospects, as you slowly felt your insides cruble further into an anxiety-fueled despair as you repeat the same lines, over and over, to every other little group that your parents want to "show you off" to.
but patrick just grabs your hand, squeezing it gently, pressing an easygoing samile onto his face, and nodding at you reassuringly. you're not sure what he means by that, but you know he's going to try and take caare of you like he always does. patrick zweig, always the charmer.
you greet the group, introducing patrick as your boyfriend, seeing his smile turn a little smug as you claim him.
you squeeze his hand as the adults around you start to ask questions, and you answer, trying to turn it into some sort of conversation instead of just an itnerview. and patrick follows along perfectly, using his "zweig charm" (as he calls it) to cover for you, squeezing your hand every so often as he talks you up to your parents friends, raving about the newest classes you're taking, and the advanced concepts you explain to him. he makes sure to give you space to speak whenever you want, always jumping in whenever you get overwhelmed, always able to keep up his social, smug act flawless, even when you get shy.
you finally get to a point where you're able to break off the conversation, smiling and excusing yourself from the circle, letting out a breath as you step away from your performance.
"that wasn't so bad," you say to patrick, hands still intertwined as you pull him to the edge of the room again, taking a breather from the crowd of people conversating about business and whatever, turning around to face in again and just get some time to talk with him. "but i still want to go home," you complain, a joking smile on your face, as the two of you stand at the edge of the room.
you feel him pull you into his arms, your back pressed against his chest as he snakes his arm around your waist, both of you looking into the room. he towers over you like this, resting his chin on the top of your head as he holds you tightly.
"you're doing great, baby" he affirms, his voice soft and sweet. "the cocktail and dinner time will end soon anyways, so we can be done with small talking with everyone soon. when the auction starts we can just sit down and gossip again," he says in a low voice, giving you a gentle squeeze as he holds you.
and the night continued like that, patrick holding your hand through it all, jumping into conversations when you got overwhelmed, letting you cling to him around the room. and every time your parents called you over to talk to some other friends, the process felt a little easier, a little lighter, because you had patrick there.
"always the charmer," you whispered at him, teasing, as you walked away from yet another conversation about your future and politics and whatnot, with some of your parents friends you couldn't even remember the names of anymore.
and when you sat at the table, as the speeches and charity auction started, you and patrick sat, whispering to each other quietly andf stifling laughter.
and this night felt easier than any other event you'd had to go to before. because patrick was there for you, always. and as the night ended, and you walked out, you thought to yourself, "maybe these event's aren't always so torturous after all"
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#patrick zweig#challengers#art donaldson#patrick zweig x reader#josh o'connor#patrick zweig fluff#patrick zweig fic#challengers fic#challengers x reader#challengers 2024#um yeah that's all the tags i can think of ok bye
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I just finished dark heir and I am so unwell please someone be my friend and talk to me about it I'm going to die
THOUGHTS ABOUT IT BELOW NOW THAT I'VE SOMEWHAT COLLECTED MYSELF SPOILERS AHEAD U ARE READING SPOILERS. 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥
-Visander and Phillip were so funny and made the book so enjoyable while I was having a short lasted hatred for Will bc of the thoughts he was having 😭🙏 but it's ok I love him again
^ Genuinely the scene of Phillip proposing to Visander was some of the funniest shit ever
^ Also I hope nothing bad ever happens to Visander, Phillip, and Elizabeth
^ I also need whatever c.s pacat was on when she was like okay let me make this grandpa ass champion of the old world inhabit a pretty princesses body and be forced to marry this stubborn fashionista
-CYPRIAN DRINKING FROM THE CUP WAS NOT ON MY LIST WHAT THE FUCK I HATE THAT STUPID ASS CUP. Will feeling so utterly betrayed at it was not on my list either and it hurts
-The way people were treating James ESPECIALLY at the beginning of this book was so disgusting
-I don't know if this is unpopular bc a lot of people seem to like him but am I the only one that doesn't like Sarcean like putting a collar on someone and chaining them up like an object is not romantic 🩷 hope this helps 🩷 don't get me wrong I kind of hate the lady too but Sarcean is causing too much problems 😞💔
-Visander and Devon's reunion was so awkward rip also loved to see a bloody baddie in a ripped dress
-THE HAND IS SO HOT I CAN'T HOLD MY PEACE. Her and Ettore were such cool side characters
-I needed more of Violet and James interacting tbh but I don't think I'll ever see a civil interaction between my favorite group of 4 again ☹️
There's a lot of other thoughts I had but let me just talk about that ending. I genuinely thought from the fanarts that it was just gonna be like Will put the collar on James and I was gonna despise him for that and for doing it out of nowhere and everyone was gonna learn who he was and kick him to the curb and then take over the world hooray
Half of that happened and when the other half didn't happen it was so much more devastating.. WILL BELIEVING JAMES LOVED HIM FOR WHO HE WAS AND TRUSTED HIM THAT WHOLE TIME ONLY TO REALIZE THE COLLAR WAS PUT ON HIM AND IT WASN'T GENUINE AND JAMES PROBABLY WOULD HAVE BEEN JUST AS SHOCKED WHAT IN THE WHAT 😭💔 I'm going to be thinking about my poor Will and how awful and alone he's feeling rn until book 3 is released my heart is shattered
If u read this thank u I love u 🫶🫶
#dark rise#c.s pacat#dark heir#will kempen#james st clair#will and james#violet ballard#cyprian#visander#katherine kent#elizabeth kent#sarcean
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God ghoul I can’t even begin to imagine how intense it would be to be caught in the web of these four men 😭😭 Constantly in a cycle of being manipulated and passed around and broken down and built back up again. The want and the need to prove yourself to the power duo that is Price and Ghost, the ease and ‘acceptance’ of Gaz and Soap.
Everyone is putting in the work to make you perfect for Price, it’s just that Gaz and Soap’s is much more subtle and palatable…until it’s not that is. Unless you give them a reason not to be nice, and palatable. But really you brought this onto yourself didn’t you sweet thing? Resisting the big bad men out in the woods? When was the last time you made sure your car was running? When was the last time you paid rent on your apartment? Silly thing, at least make sure you have somewhere to go before you squander the beautiful gift in front of you. Geez, it’s almost like subconsciously you want to stay here? I mean, who forgets their car out in the field long enough for grass to start growing up between the tires? And who forgets to pay rent on their apartment? No no no being up at sunrise and down at sunset every day with no internet is not an excuse! You just don’t want those things bad enough. It’s ok, Price knows what you want, even when you don’t. He’ll help you. They all will.
@ghouljams the worms are worming. . . I was listening to Depeche Mode today and Personal Jesus reminded me of your cult leader Price AU and it just has a death grip in my brain. . . All I could think of the whole song was Price manspreading in a chair with Ghost, Soap, and Gaz posed around him in dramatic backlighting, doing his biding to keep his cult in check.
Price is obviously cult leader, we get it, we know it, he's so charismatic and clever and manipulative and influential we know we know we know.
Thinking of what the other boys roles would be in this whole thing though. . .
Gaz is definitely the person on the outside clocking discontented people and setting in hooks. Absolutely gorgeous man, charismatic as fuck, endearing and non-threatening (at first glance), such blinding loyalty that he is able to see and interact with the outside world and not be tempted to leave. This simultaneously makes him adjusted enough to 'normal' life that he gives off very little red flags when inviting people in. He's also the person who befriends the new follower and makes sure that they're only seeing what they're supposed to, and vetting if they'd be impressionable enough to add to the flock. Testing their resistance to peer pressure, vetting them and making sure they're impressionable enough.
Soap is the listening ear on the inside. His job is to ingratiate himself amongst the followers and report any findings to Price, both good and bad. So not only is he keeping an eye out for disloyalty, plans to leave, discontent, etc. but he's also looking out for personal things like lost personal possessions, low stakes concerns, anything that Price can use to give individuals 'personal' time with him that makes him seem attentive or even slightly omniscient to the more spiritual followers.
Ghost's job is really to be that of a smoke screen. He is very visibly Price's 'right hand man', outwardly intimidating and such a hard ass on rule following that he acts as a force pushing followers to the sphere of Gaz and Soap. Because they couldn't be that close to Price, right? No one but Ghost is. So surely they're safe talking about their doubts and confusion, as long as Ghost is out of earshot. I feel like he also makes Price more valuable by making him more unobtainable. Unless Price comes to you, you need to seek an audience with him through Ghost. And 99% of the time even if you do get to see Price, Ghost will be there. At least that's what people say anyway. Price definitely isn't telling everyone that he's 'made an exception just for them' and that 'this'll be a secret between the two of them'. Definitely not.
I have this notion that it would be one of those self sufficiency communes that has their own internal ecosystem, growing their own food, making their own clothes, etc etc. They would send the well behaved followers to set up a stall at the nearby towns farmers market to keep up appearances and make sure that nobody in the town really bothers them. Who gives a shit what the group of farmers in the middle of nowhere are doing when their produce costs next to nothing and tastes divine? Maybe they should go out there some time and see what it's like. . .maybe learn how to take care of a plant or two of their own? And you've always wanted to learn how to do pottery, the cute guy on the corner says they're hosting a class this weekend. . . . . . . . . .
#ghoul I think I was possessed when I wrote that#my brain cells keep hitting the corner of the tv screen saver
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KANG YEOSANG FIC RECS
Poly!Ateez Pt. 1 - Pt. 2 - Kim Hongjoong - Park Seonghwa - Jeong Yunho - Choi San - Song Mingi - Jung Wooyoung - Choi Jongho
PRETTY PRETTY YEOSANG!!!!! I think there is a reason that so many fics on this list are fluffy and its because Yeosang is the most precious person in existence!!!!!! n e ways everyone send me more Yeosang fic recs i NEED more!~
DISCLAIMER none of these works are mine and majority are MATURE 18+, please read all warnings before reading!!!
Key:
✨ - My Favs
🔥 - Smut (MINORS DNI)
⛈️ - Angst
💗 - Fluff
🍑 - Humor
SERIES
Oddeleny - @songmingisthighs ⛈️🍑 Ghost AU ✧ SMAU
the twists are twisting and the turns... oh they are turning 👏👏 this series is basically a mystery of how yeosang got trapped in the mc's phone and basically everytime there is a lore drop on either mc, yeo, or woo i go a little bit more crazy 🤪��
ONE SHOTS/DRABBLES/ETC
winter blossom - @atzfilm 🔥⛈️ Alien AU
Stretch you out - @pyramid-of-starrs 🔥 Gym AU
quiet - @nebulousbrainsoup 🔥💗
Relax - @moonhoures 🔥💗
masturbation - @kitten4sannie 🔥 College AU
gemini - @ncteez 🔥💗 Virgin!Yeosang
untitled - @bandgie 🔥
kang yeosang as your boyfriend - @mybelovedwoo 🔥💗
untitled - @kittyyeo 🔥
lessons in intimacy - @honeyhotteoks ✨🔥Camboy AU ✧ Barista AU
i revisit this fic once a month AT LEAST! this author's way of writing blows me away every single time 😮💨😮💨 the smut is toe curling and so intimate (hence the title) its just how kind and genuine both yeosang and the mc are written and how they communicate and the smut that constantly bring me back 🥹🥹
Only text me when you need me - @pyramid-of-starrs 🔥💗⛈️ FWB AU
pretty in pink - @byuntrash101 🔥
sensitive - @puddingyun ✨🔥
i just love how atiny tend to write yeosang so softly and intimately because he is just so precious and needs a "handle with care" sticker on him at all times and this fic epitomizes that feeling 🤤🤤 like how gently the mc treats him is just 🤌🤌
hungry yeoyeo - @ateezscupid 🔥
Longing - @sxcret-garden 🔥💗
vanilla and cream - @k-hotchoisan 🔥
untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥
operation: passenger princess - @sungbeam 💗⛈️ College AU
fortune teller - @seonghwaddict 💗
A Small Adjustment - @kitten4sannie 🔥Personal Trainer AU
yeosang & a situationship - @yunhoszn 🍑
[7:29 PM] - @edenesth 💗
boyfriend texts w/ yeosang - @beenbaanbuun 🍑
Stay - @sorryimananti-romantic 💗⛈️ Royalty AU ✧ Archer!Yeosang
untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥
untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥Dragon AU
Muse - @desirehorizon 🔥💗Royalty AU ✧ Prince!Yeosang
Wash It All Away - @ja3hwa 🔥💗⛈️ Idol AU
Evolve - @nebulousbrainsoup ✨🔥💗⛈️ Ateez Lore ✧ Biker!Yeosang
even though i can't say i fully understand ateez's lore, i love any fic that is based around it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what i do know of it is so compelling and interesting im shocked that i dont see or at least have not found yet more lore based fics 😭😭 BUT THIS ONE☝️☝️ is sooooo good!!!! i love how yeosang is still yeosang even in his situation, i love how the mc is like immediately intrigued by this faceless biker guy who can blame her 😩😩, i love how they get to know each other and THE SMUT 😮💨😮💨
untitled - @sxcret-garden 🔥
untitled - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥
#ateez#ateez fic recs#ateez x reader#ateez angst#ateez fluff#ateez smut#kang yeosang#yeosang x reader#yeosang smut#yeosang fluff#i had to put this together after they left my general vicinity bcs i was in a ~mood~#i hope everyone who saw them in concert had a great time#BUT ALSO IM JEALOUS OK!!!! 😭😭😭😭#merengue makes lists
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some doodles
#i meant to put the balor one in the previous post but i forgor 😭its in a diff file from the sketch dump i was coloring in so it just didnt#exist in my mind at all. i felt like smth was missing as i was posting it but i couldnt place what hlep#adeline and eiland have been driving me insane lately. expect more of them. probably.#dont minf the last two guys. some concepts for future farms 😋 (pls mind them im crazy abt all my farmers even if they technically dont -#exist yet. pls ask abt them or smth pls im nroaml i can be nroma l i prommy)#fields of mistria#fom balor#sona#im gonna start tagging that i think.#fom eiland#fom adeline#fom elsie#fom farmer#my art#guys can i just say that im so happy that balor is silver n not gold cus otherwise i would have to confront a part of me im not proud of#we shouldnt talk abt it but like yeah jjust know i like his silver and his whole deal#have such a softspot n bias for characters who dont settle anywhere. who never lay down their roots or whatever. who keep their past secret#like oughh hes hitting so many marks#i like hawthorne a lot. hes more developed in my head. and also i like his dead look and hair bows. i have so many ideas abt him man it hur#i promised myself i wouldnt make a new save file til i reached y2 w rory but apperantly errols bday is cursed bc the game has frozen twice#sorry if you read all of these tags. go to my askbox w fom stuff or smth. ask abt my farmers plsplspls pl s jk haha unless. maybe even#gimme drawing reqs for fom in general. ok tyvm ly sorry for yapping. its what i do best
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*GASPS FOR AIR* IM ALIVE, SORRY
#as per usual my job is sucking the LIFE out of me u_u im job searching tho o7#also gotta finish a commission...im putting extra effort into it becos i feel bad making this lovely person wait 😭#that being said im gonna rework my commissions soon becos what im offering doesnt match my current output#or what I feel like I *want* to draw...if that makes any sense#not gonna close them just yet becos im not sure if thatll effect the commission im currently working on#so if youre reading this DONT BUY A COMMISSION FROM ME JUST YET LMAO#ill make a post irt my new commissions ok? ok#anyways enjoy this cat#vocaloid#nekomura iroha#shoutout to Pat who was probably waiting for me to post this fhskdfhskdhfsd
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maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general
neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for
#twdg#violentine#clems “i dont know” paired with violets “lets figure it out together”. screaming crying throwing up#clem never knew what she was doing!! she was just trying her best!! and now shes tired as SHIT!!! she wants a break 😭!!!#vi helps take that weight off by supporting her as much as she does (which is A LOT!! and clem supports her in return. they grow together)#that bit in the woods where instead of getting grossed out by the guts vi crouches down to ajs level and keeps the situation calm#and she looks up to clem and gives her a little smile. and clem just relaxes and smiles back !! DO YOU UNDERSTAND !!!#clem being anxious about her reaction. violet putting her at ease. clem getting to Relax for 2 seconds. they help each other CHILL 😭#ALSO why their walk home talking about ericson and renaming it and imagining what they could add to it is just so good narratively#they turned that prison into their HOME!! a place worth fighting for!!!#tenn wanting to help rebuild. vi saying Everyone will :') its a home for ALL OF THEM 😭 its about the COMMUNITY !!!#this is also why i think the friends route still works but theres just even more Juice with the romance. even ignoring minnie#violets “you better not disappear on me”. friended clems “ok” to romanced clems “i promise”#in a season about building a home and a family that second one just hits harder you know? and like above with the learning to dance#i just feel like their romantic relationship specifically fits into the overall themes of the game the strongest and elevates it#me talking at the wall (tumblr drafts)#all of my friends who have played twdg are too normie so i gotta make posts like this instead. or i'll die#wont somebody analyze narrative with me#it speaks
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can’t stop thinking about them and the “I’d find you in every universe” trope 💔
#shoot from the hip#sfthposting#bubbamiah always gets me#Literally almost crying cause of how much it hurts that Luke’s character is dying in Sam’s characters arms all over again#(2nd image is from a patreon play)#I just love them so much 😭😭#May or may not have stolen the screenshots from the discord but they’re still just screenshots of the videos#I would credit the person who put them on the discord but the actual photos are screenshots of the sfth videos#So like technically the credit would go to sfth#I don’t know ok
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LINKIN PARK IN THE TUBES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@carbatteryjoemama 's treat!!!
#this is kinda making me wanna do a whole big post of all the linkin park pics i have...#should i do that#linkin park#mike! huggu! >w<#come here~#OK BUT WHO PUT THEM IN THERE 😭😭
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barton employing his ' dad voice ' whenever someone comes in because that seems to be, by far, the best way to calm someone down whenever they come into his clinic in AGONIZING pain + with an injury that needs dire attention is... idk. i have many feelings about it okok but whenever i say ' dad voice, ' i mean this very specific tone that barton used to use and sometimes still uses whenever his kids are just completely inconsolable that sounds like the gentlest thing ever while he's telling them that ' everything's going to be alright. i'm not going to let anything happen to you. ' 😭
and yes, this would apply to other rogues as well, especially if they have something that requires them to be put under anesthesia. because if you go under anesthesia whenever you're frightened... it's likely that you're going to wake up that way, too, which is something that he doesn't want. but yeah just thinking about this makes my heart kind of sad but happy at the same time bc barton actually is a GOOD doctor (with his bedside manner being surprisingly positive whenever it comes down to it and stuff ) ,, if only he were good all around
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#nooo but i'm not even sure how to explain it like i said but it just 😭 it gets me kind of emotional ok especially regarding the rogues-#bc like i'm sure they're expecting him to be downright BRUTAL to them because of who he is as a person but nah. man's doesn't believe in-#making people more upset by treating them badly in a clinical setting bc it just doesn't solve anything and is just bad-#practice in general you know? plusss at the end of the day like i've said a few times before barton is able to empathize with people-#cognitively and sometimes that's enough for him to actually be kind towards them. so yeahhh plus the fact that he still uses it on his kids#sometimes? the 'dad voice' i mean? BYEEE 😭😭 I AM WEEPING but i am most definitely putting this on my wishlist now bc i need ittt.#wishlist.
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xue yang is sooo funny to me. my brain wants so badly to put him into the "fucked up little guy" category. he is just a gremlin to me. but every now and then i remember his crimes were wayyy more horrific and twisted than any of my other fucked up little guys. and for 0.2 seconds i'll be like something is wrong with me for real. and then i go back to observing his atrocities as if he is some sort of feral cat who needs to kill for enrichment 🥰
#xue yang#mdzs#aphelion.txt#'he is a fucked up little guy tho' ok but i mean smth dumb and specific from my own brain#'fucked up little guy' to me is characters like scara and thistle who did some murders and some horrors but#Unless you're some sort of fucking cop you have to feel bad for them bc they suffered soo much and for no reason and they did not start out#trying to be evil and and and--#WITH MAX APOLOGISM TURNED ON U CAN SORT OF MAKE A CASE FOR PUTTING XUE YANG IN THIS CATEGORY BUT LIKE. NOT REALLY#actually tomura is another one in the fucked up little guy gray area i'd say#these 4 guys are on a slider from like#'obviously sympathetic' (thistle) - 'sympathetic but still needs a redemption arc' (scara) -#'just give him a chanccce😭the massacres were only kindof his fault😭' (tomura) - 'DERANGED APOLOGISM' (xy)#xy
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I’m late af but oh gawd Hidden Love (偷偷藏不住) is so cute I can’t stop smiling and just sweet and they love each other so so very much. Greenest flag Duan Jiaxu and the sweet yet so strong Sang Zhi 🥹
#hidden love#偷偷藏不住#the way there is COMMUNICATION!!#fighting for each other and their love#making their ways to each other and forever#Zhao Lusi can have chemistry with a rock#I love duan jiaxu sm#sang zhi and sang yan#she’s grown up with so much love and care that she radiates with it so brightly#she shows her love and concern so easily and is so brave because she knows her bro/fam has her back#she shows him care even when she pretends not to like him and expects nothing in return#he who has so little; who has so much burdens and no one; how can he not fall for her?#he who is used to caring for everyone and having no one care for him#used to putting himself second and living with the guilt of what his dad did#she gives him everything he craves for and more so easily#he gives her his everything in return#and him treating her like the most precious human being in the world#progressing in their relationship at her pace; CONSENT IS SO SEXY#taking care of her at every turn (and her him)#I love them sm ok 😭
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Whole squad is in the discord vc except the one transfem friend before dnd starts and one of them refers to her using they asking if anyone knows when she’s coming. and you go. She said she’d probably be here but someone should message her :) also I noticed that we’ve all been using they/them for her but I checked her pronoun roles in a different server we’re all in and the only ones she has are she/her :) so we should proba
And you get cut off by the person who said it and one of the other people going “OH well I use they/them for everyone” and “yeah I just kinda always default to they/them” and “yeah same I just always use them” talking over each other and
And the impulse to bring out your academic essay from sjw university hits. There is the sharp impulse to go 🤨 you guys using they/them for her when we know her pronouns is degendering her and ultimately feeding into the larger structure of transmisogyny and
you ignore it and say ok well I think :) we should try anyway 💕 to use her right pronouns
And there’s the quiet consensus of like yeah ok that’s fair that’s true. and she joins the vc three seconds later
#ven.txt#the one other nb person in the group did go like oh you’re right that’s fair when I said it#so shoutout them they’re a real one#but I really did not expect the jump to defensiveness from the two friends !!! one of whom was not even the one who said it then!!!#and like the whole group has done it to the point where I once started using they for her because I thought I must be wrong#but I checked her roles and no it was she her. weeeee#but the immediate defensiveness really gets me!!! I had to be like noooo it’s not just you doing it ok haha everyone has#and the one who hadn’t even said it that time was the other who jumped to defensiveness is my boyfriend 😭#so I do need to talk to him about that but I don’t know when that’s gonna happen#since he’s been really struggling and feeling like shit recently#and somehow I don’t think going hey honey can we talk about how some of your actions are influenced and reinforce#the societal structure of transmisogyny? while he’s already doing poorly will go well#and like. oooooo I wanted to be the Soldier Ally who Explains Their Transmisogyny so bad in that moment I wanted to be the white knight#and there is a world where I confronted them and did that#but in this one I went. I don’t want to start a fight before dnd#and I don’t want her to join vc to hear us arguing about her pronouns and about transmisogyny when she’s the only tma person#and so I did not start a fight.#anyway. hope my boyfriend does not see this lmao#but he usually only looks at the posts I send him#uh if he does see this. I know neither of you had malicious intentions or wanted to be hurtful or anything#and I’m not trying to say that you are anything I just think that like#growing up in a transmisogynist world makes you absorb some stuff and some habits without realizing it#and that you should maybe be a little more careful and aware of your actions and thoughts and like how they could be influenced by that#anyway. weirder to experience the situations when you can put a name and systematic influence to the things happening when b4 you couldn’t
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Rereading the Mysqueery Gang and like. Who let me post this. Worst writing I've ever done like heck I'm so sorry to all my readers i should have been better 😭 these kids deserve a better story
#cringing so bad like oof#good ideas! good concepts! terrible execution#this is why i havent continued it from where i left off#if im ever to pick this project back up#i would need to redraw and rewrite the whole thing#at the end of the day i was 18 😭 my brain was NOT developed enough#the dialogues....... they are so flat like kdjfkshdisbfjdhsibdjdbc#I have to trust my writing is better now 😭😭😭😭 because BOOOOOOOOO#anyways once more im so sorry to all the people who were readers im so very thankful for you all#one day!!! one day theyll live again#and ill put them through so much you will no recognize them#ive had the time to listen to tma since then ok#also i made them swear so much#its because thats how i speak 😔 ive got a nasty mouth sorry#the story is still the same in my mind tho like i still have the ending ready
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the other day i visited my mom and one of her friends was over and she introduced me and then went “he goes by reyes” and it was actually really sweet i wasnt expecting her to do that or even remember… its the first time shes really acknowledged me being trans or using a different name without me saying anything first
#she did say my deadname first but its ok 😭 i wasnt expecting her to introduce me like that at all#she knows the name reyes but ive told her idc if she or other family members use my deadbame#mostly bc thats what theyve always called me and i feel like itd be weirder and more awkward to get them to try and use a new one#like i dont care enough to want to put up with that or with having to remind them when they forget or whatever#not to mention that i dont want to come out to my stepdads family who i live with bc theyre way worse with that kind of thing#so. even though she knows it i was so surprised she both remembered it and remembered i might prefer to be introduced to strangers with it
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#ANOTHER ALBUM COVER POLL YEAH ‼️‼️#i had 2 put all the self titled as 1 option bc otherwise i wuldnt have enuf options 😭😭#i hope u get me !!!!#ANYWAYZ peronallyyyyy#i like all the coloured albumz . the classic standing in a line . its iconic . who doesnt like it#actually no i dont think theres a cover i explicitly dislike#green an hurley freak me out a lil but i dont actually dislike them#they r all special 2 me ok....#buttt#4 fave cover...its gotta b either ewbaite or pd#pd is js so beautiful bro#its js v aesthetically pleasing . like objectivly thats a gud cover#ewbaite bc of the emotions it makes me feel evry time i look @ it . that's gotta mean smth#the colourz...the creature...even the title tbf#evokes specific emotions from me#its js gud#so r all the otherz (like ok human!? my god) but ewbaite esp. 2 me#anywayz enuf abt me ‼️‼️ voting time#weezer#polls
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