Hello! I hope I won't sour your mood with this ask but I have been thinking a lot about your gay dogs this month especially.
I'll just try to keep the context short but in general I'm someone that has accepted being romantically undesireable. It was hard but in the end I have built my life just around me, my humble family and at this point in time I don't even think I have the time for a partner. And considering that it's the love month and a lot of people are preparing to celebrate it with their SOs I assumed that, actually, this is a thing that I sort of have in common with Machete.
From the miscellaneous lore on your profile I see Machete as someone that also has kind of rejected love. That also has built his life around his job, possibly hobbies, his family or mentors (depending if we're talking about canon or modern au). Who kind of forgot that relationships are a thing and that people bond with others in that way. Well, at least he did until meeting Vasco.
I just love thinking about their awkward beginnings. Machete being 100% sure that Vasco is just joking, maybe even sometimes teasing him (in a friendly banter type way) or just explaining to himself that all that kindness and interest is just him being a very considerate friend. And then we have Vasco that just tries to be subtle, as if he was trying to pass a fawn without it noticing and running away, but also with time gains confidence and tries more risque moves. Vasco being all smug and Machete being flustered when their hands or shoulders or tails brush in passing. And then when both are sure of their feelings we have Machete who has to choose between God and his love. Who, at first, unwillingly accepts that divine wrath will be worth their brief love.
I just love your boys. I swear they are all the love supply one might possibly need
Thank you for such a long and thoughtful message! I don't know why you thought you might accidentally sour my mood, I'm utterly delighted whenever I hear that someone has been pondering my little guys (rotating them in their head, as they say), and when they go through the trouble of sharing their findings and conclusions I'm so happy I could crawl up a wall.
I think you deciphered Machete's inner workings very well, especially those of the original canon version. The concept of love is of course prominent in Christianity, so even as a kid being raised in a religious environment that discouraged overt displays of affection and close personal bonds, Machete wasn't completely alienated from it. But it has always been a nebulous, unperceivable and unattainable thing for him. When he was old enough to lock down his career choice he readily accepted he'd never have romantic relationships, spouse or a family, and I think he must've been too young and socially inexperienced to think of it as a significant loss. Either he consciously blocked out the need for companionship by studying and working like his life depended on it, or he didn't really consider that being genuinely befriended, appreciated and loved as a person instead of a respectable and competent authority figure was even an option for him, at least not until Vasco came along.
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Lawrusso ficlet. Johnny hates it when Daniel gets mad.
Rating: Mature.
Oops.
He just walked into some of Daniel's bonsai trees, and now they're on the floor in a heap of broken pots and dirt. Maybe he and Miguel shouldn't have been playing frisbee inside the house, but whatever, it was an accident, shit happens.
He really hates it when Daniel gets mad at him though. Actual anger, not his familiar exasperation lined with affection. So when Daniel gets home and asks what the hell happened, Johnny says he doesn't know and silently hopes that Anthony will end up getting the blame.
The first time Johnny was there to witness Daniel getting angry at his kids (which didn't happen a lot) his stomach had went queasy and he'd tensed up, staring blindly at the table. It took a few more times of seeing that Daniel never turned malicious, never had 'destroy my kids with cruel words' in mind, for Johnny not to react like that anymore.
Doesn't mean he likes it when that anger is turned to him though. Luckily, Daniel seems to let the whole thing go pretty quickly, sighing deeply and getting to work instead of searching for the culprit. Johnny helps him clean up the mess and repot the bonsais, since he does feel a little bit guilty. But mainly he's just relieved to be getting away with it.
That night in bed, Daniel goes down on him. And it's so good. He's doing something with his tongue that makes Johnny's brain short-circuit. The pleasure is building steadily and his toes curl in anticipation of the amazing orgasm he's about to have. Right when he starts to groan, his pleasure cresting, Daniel pulls away completely.
"No, no," Johnny gasps out. He desperately reaches for himself but Daniel bats his hand away with a fast sweep of his own.
He's still coming, but the sensation quickly dwindles instead of culminating into the powerful release that he'd been working towards. Then it's over, and he's left with a deep frustration that nearly brings tears to his eyes.
"What the fuck."
Daniel's giving him a look that tells Johnny he's in deep trouble.
"That's for destroying my bonsais and lying about it."
So much for getting away with it.
But still, what the fuck.
"You can't just do that man!"
"Aw, do you feel betrayed Johnny? Like I let you down, maybe?"
Johnny realizes he's not going to win this round.
"I'm sorry, okay! I... I should've just manned up and told you the truth."
"Yes you should've," Daniel says. But his voice already sounds milder, warmer.
When he pulls Johnny close to him Johnny goes willingly, relieved that Daniel is done being mad. During their cuddling, Johnny quietly resolves that next time he'll try a lot harder to avoid the consequences of his actions.
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