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Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Turtles Forever Liveblog
Movie opens with the Purple Dragons doing a robbery of some sort. Hun, what are you up to?
I really, really love the little sequence that introduces the 2003 turtles. The animation is so slick and cool-looking.
Also, it's kind of interesting how the 2003 segments are animated in a (more detailed) version of the Back to the Sewer style, with Splinter, Casey, and April maintaining their BttS designs? But the turtles themselves look more like how they did during Fast Forward (it's because we're back to having white slits for the eyes, thank god.)
Seriously, if Back to the Sewer had looked more like this, it probably wouldn't be the only 2003 art style I do dislike to an extent.
We were only just properly introduced to the 1987 turtles and I'm already understanding why people abhor how they were characterized for this movie (I say this as someone who has literally only seen two episodes of the 1987 series. Specifically, the very first one and the Mona Lisa episode.)
Hun is gonna regret taking that mutagen BIG TIME.
03!Mikey likes the initialed belt buckles.
Underrated animation detail: the 1987 turtles are animated using a simple one-color shading approach while the 2003 turtles are animated with more detailed two color shading.
87!Raphael's reaction to meeting 03!Splinter is adorable.
I'm glad that 03!Mikey is enjoying the company of the 87 turtles, at least.
I know a major sore spot for this movie is the fact that the original 1987 actors couldn't reprise their roles due to circumstances out of anyone's control, but I am loving 87!Shredder's voice.
BEBOP AND ROCKSTEADY
03!Raphael getting mad at 87!Donatello for kill stealing is making me laugh more than it should
I hate to break it to you, Krang, but 03!Shredder and 03!Krang are one and the same.
87!Shredder being disappointed that 03!Shredder is an Utrom is hilarious knowing that the little red blob is actually an intergalactic terrorist who has literally killed billions of people over the last several centuries.
All it took to wake up Ch'rell was 87!Shredder referring to himself as, well, the Shredder. Nice to see being frozen in a block of ice didn't get rid of his ego.
Other things from Back to the Sewer I do like: The Hauler. It's a massive improvement design-wise over the moving van from Seasons 4/5 that served as the second Battle Shell.
Poor, poor, foolish 87!Shredder and Krang. If there's anything I've learned watching the 2003 series, it's that you can't keep Oroku Saki/The Shredder/Ch'rell down forever.
KARAI IS HERE, BABY
Honestly, I do like Karai's outfit from Back to the Sewer. If she had her original haircut and was depicted in a different art style (you know, one that doesn't make her look like stick), I'd actually say I'm quite fond of her overall design. (I have a similar attitude towards BttS!Casey, too.)
Karai is seriously not taking any shit from the 1987 antagonists
03!SPLINTER REFERRING TO BOTH DONATELLOS AS HIS SONS AAAAAAAAAAH
Hun, repeat after me: I do not want the 87 ooze. The 87 ooze is bad. Bad things will happen to me if I try to get more of the 87 ooze.
He didn't listen.
Other aspects of Back to the Sewer I appreciate that show up in Turtles Forever: The 03 Turtles directly addressing Splinter as "Father" rather than "Master."
Hun, I fucking told you that you did not want that mutagen!
Damn, Hun must feel humiliated bowing down to the Shredder and calling him "Master" again. (Not like he has a choice. Are the Purple Dragons even going to listen to him anymore?)
RAHZAR????
Damn, this is the third time that the 2003 Turtles have had their home destroyed ;A; They're so used to it at this point that they don't even react in anguish this time.
Oh boy, even Mikey is finally sick of the antics of the 87 turtles (though in his defense, they did kinda teleport out of their lair when Splinter was in trouble and all four 03 turtles are worried sick for their dad.)
They deliberately had 87!April getting kidnapped by the mutant banana after the turtles left to make her seem more helpless when compared to the 03 version, didn't they?
This scene with 87!Splinter giving 03!Leo and 03!Raph some bowls of rice, oh my GOD ;A;
Hun isn't wrong that as long as they have Splinter, the turtles will come running. These boys would do anything to protect/save their father.
How many people do you think died when 03!Shredder unleashed the Technodrome on New York City?
Turtles Forever is a lot more... destructive than I was expecting. (2003 dimension is straight up getting TRASHED.)
Okay, that bit where Leo pointed out that at least Raph isn't stuck riding on the blimp like Mikey is got me to laugh.
2003 turtles are slowly but surely warming up to the 87 turtles. This is development I like to see.
"If there is one constant in the multiverse, it is the predictability of you turtles! Threaten something you hold dear, and you will ignore your better instincts!" You didn't have to call them out like that, Ch'rell.
SAME AS IT NEVER WAS
God, the fact that The Next Mutation is the only major iteration not featured when Shredder does his entire rant on the multiverse and how the turtles pretty much always win XD
NOT THE TURTLES
Casey was straight up going to cry when he thought the turtles had all disappeared with the Technodrome.
2003 dimension literally being reduced to inks, blue pencils, and then flat out nothing is really cool from an animation standpoint but also highkey terrifying
Welp, this scene confirms that the Purple Dragons are, in fact, still listening to Hun despite the fact that he's been mutated. That's good for him, I guess.
The scene where April and Casey disappear, HELP
"Ain't exactly Mister Roger's Neighborhood, is it?" -- 03!Raphael, accurately describing Turtle Prime. (He loves it.)
Mirage!Leonardo's narration as he and his brothers fight the 03 and 87 turtles JDSKGJDFKJGKF (Doesn't help that it's ripped directly from issue 1)
Mirage!Raph calling the 03 and 87 turtles sellouts on account of the multicolored headbands... wheeze.
Karai really is having second thoughts about helping her father destroy the multiverse, huh?
Fucking Mirage!Shredder getting taken out by the 87 and 03 turtles hurling a bunch of garbage at him SJGKJDFGKFDKGJ
"If there's one constant in the multiverse, it's the Shredder's big fat ego!" Oof, 03!Leo.
Shredderzilla?
KRANGZILLA?
The only thing this final fight is missing is 87 and Mirage!Splinter.
Okay, seriously, what was with that bit where 87!Leo, Raph, and Mikey all broke down in tears and looked to 03!Raph for comfort?
WHEEZE, THE MIRAGE TURTLES ACTUALLY SCARED 03!SHREDDER
Ch'rell seriously does not care that he is literally going to destroy himself if he destroys the Mirage turtles, Jesus Christ.
And the Turtles Multiverse was saved... By Bebop and Rocksteady?
This bit where the 87 and 03 turtles use each other's catchphrases as they say goodbye is really sweet.
"Oh, I sure hope this thing sells." "Yeah, I was thinking the same thing." Sobs.
#star's turtle talk#I'll definitely be typing up a post with more coherent thoughts once I've had time to sleep on this movie#Like past liveblogs this is all just my gut reactions haha#Not reflective of my final opinions
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Get Their Ass.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jin ling#jin chan#Yeah that's right. This guy is a named character. All those nameless disciples in the yi city arc and *this* guy gets a name.#Jin ling finally gets his much needed outfit upgrade! Rest in peace double straps.#I adore how we get to keep learning about Jin Ling and peeling back the layers on him...It's also so sad to see him so alone and friendless#especially knowing he really was starting to build peer friendships in the yi city arc...#Jin ling really is one of my top 5 characters in MDZS and its absolutely in part because of how you can *see* how he ended up this way#and we watch him learn and grow! He's doing what most adults refuse to do: Consider that his opinions are skewed and need to change.#You are NOT immune to propaganda and I adore characters who reflect and struggle with that!#Just because someone with assumed authority says something that fits into what you want to be true does not make it true B*/#In this series about rumours and warped perspectives - Jin Ling is a great example of how hard you have to work for the truth#+1 points of friendship with jin ling: He will self correct himself if he says a slur now
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society if kirakira acknowledged noir's backstory as being kinda lame instead of trying to make you feel bad for him
#not maintagging this one i'm just in a hater mood tonight#because this bitch is the reason finale progress has been slow as hell#because i think noir sucks! we should make fun of him like god intended!#instead all the characters are like 'dw lumiere we'll bring back his smile'#and though i disagree with that i can't warp the characters to become my mouthpieces yknow?#so it's become this indecisive battle of 'i don't Agree With This but it's what lines up with canon characterization'#anyways this is your general disclaimer that what i end up doing with noir in finale doesn't necessarily reflect my own personal opinion#waffleverse: writing#like this is a dude who got mad because he was rejected by his crush#do u ever think about how noir is canonically a child killer... he attempted murder on one kid and basically succeeded with another#even if it wasn't the kid he was going for#at least i don't have to deal with *that* in wv thank god
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I donât even fully know why but âwhat do I do when I miss you so much?â / âJust wait, and pray desperatelyâ was a knife to my heart in the best way.
#crash landing on you#my grandma once said most of life was waiting and praying#and when he said it it just resonated so deeply#I think because. itâs not like a revelation or anything#but I think itâs just because she was suffering so much and had suffered so much#and so in that moment#he just takes care of her so completely and gives her hope. and not a false hope#a true one#and on deeper reflection the ending does work within the context of this (in my opinion) most powerful scene#/ apex of the show#itâs just the tone thatâs a little wrong. thatâs too aesthetic-y.#because the kind of steady way he keeps taking care of her from afar. and the slow build of her recovering but continuing to hope#couldnât lead them anywhere except a happy ending. even if the final pieces of it couldnât be unraveled (or put together)#by the showâs writing. so it just kind of has to fade to black so to speak#because the characters have been so steady and consistent a) in their personalities motivations and desires#and b) in their love for each other! that never falters or betrays a false note#and itâs the truest thing youâre left with. which is whyâagainâI actually think the problem might have been the tone#I would have gone for something more muted. I would have had them be talking and/or arguing a little more in their old way#to keep and sustain the idea that there is more work ahead for them that weâre just not going to see#but that is ultimately a kind of nitpick. and the take me to the lakes vibe of that final#scene is also not untrue.#also circling back for a second can I just SAY. that I love the balance of their vulnerabilities#there are such clear and distinct times where one of them is stronger and the other more vulnerable#and itâs sooooo perfect to watch and gives you many instant layers#anyway Iâm crying in this Chiliâs tonight (*my bed at 7:00 am)
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#personal#my art#kavaleyre#ive been here for over 10 years but i think this is my first official intro#one day ill know how to use this website#fan art#artist#ill die before i call twitter x#anyway it's nice to finally meet yall#by 'mature themes or visuals' i mean some artistic blood or death or censored nudity#usually it is in line with the media i am doing fan art of#i try to keep my blogs minor-friendly but i'd say this is a firmly PG13 space#i will probably edit all this later#also I don't really post any work things here but just in case#all opinions expressed are my own and do not reflect the views of my employer in any way
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Man, I realize demanding that someone execute their own brother is pretty fucked up, but He Xuan asking that of Shi Qingxuan still gave them more respect than Shi Qingxuan ever got from Shi Wudu [gave them the ability to make their own choice after finally being given the full story and enough context to actually have the capacity for informed consent, something that Shi Wudu spent centuries denying to Shi Qingxuan] and also, He Xuan did nothing wrong and should be allowed to do all the atrocities he wants, thank you for your time
#this bitch told me shi wudu loves his brother more than anything; i said 'bitch where'#she said 'under all his bluster and overbearing bullshit'; i said 'BITCH *WHERE*'#likeâŠâŠâŠall tea all shade: shi wudu is actually the person who jiang cheng antis think they are hating#selfish? check. never listens? check. disrespects everyone's agency? check. no self-reflection on atrocities? check. learns nothing? CHECK.#i wish all jiang cheng antis a very 'please read tgcf so you can at least meet a character who actually does all the things you're saying'#literally every decision he made was fundamentally fucking selfish & he just gaslit himself into believing#that he did itâall of itâout of love for shi qingxuan#like how do you look at shi qingxuanâfinally in the loop after centuries of being denied that chanceâtelling their gege#'no please let's pick the first option i would rather be a piteous wretch driven to madness by my own suffering than#live in a world where you died unnecessarily; we can make things right with he xuan AND both live; a miserable life is better than DEATH'#and shi wudu going 'lmao denied stop being a whiny little bitch and come chop my head off already you'll thank me for this later'#and walk away from that genuinely believing that this is a man who loves his brother. it's pretty clear to me that he does not.#love looks like a lot of different things and as far as i'm concerned this ain't one of them#also he xuan should be allowed to do all the atrocities he pleases thank u#kassie hush#mine: text#opinions for ts#wank for ts#idk? maybe? i'm being a hater so it probably counts
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Iâm not saying that a lot of Regulus fans are only interested in him because they picture him as a Timothee Chalamet insert and wouldnât give half a fuck about the character if that fancast didnât exist but⊠oh wait that is what Iâm saying.
yeah i mean. i definitely think there's something in that lol honestly. as ive said before i never really got the interest in regulus i just couldnt care less about the guy he genuinely has zero canon character but. simultaneously i can see how the little that we do know about him makes him an interesting character and i can see why people enjoy the idea of him as a blank slate that you can superimpose nearly any traits you want on to--treating regulus as essentially an oc gives you lots of room for creation. its for these exact reasons that he is of no interest to me personally, and i really don't like the common conceptualisation of him that has emerged from popular headcanon consensus (especially when it involves stripping his character of all agency and half the things that could arguably make him compelling in order to gloss over the fact that he was a death eater) but thats a matter of opinion i suppose. thats a me problem. its just not my cup of tea.
the timothee chalamet thing irritates me for the same reason the ridiculous instagram model/influencer/celebrity fancasts for most characters irritate me, because one of the ONLY things we know about regulus is that he is 'less handsome than sirius'. like ok why not work with that. especially with a character like him where there is virtually nothing to work with. like please explain to me why you refuse to accept that im genuinely curious. why is that the aspect of his character you are so firmly refuting lol.
all in all, if the character is only likeable or interesting or a convincing love interest if you have to pretend they were actually super conventionally attractive, maybe they're just not that likeable or interesting or well-suited to the character you're trying to pair them off with. its a personal thing again i am just not interested in reading/writing about a cast of characters who are all meticulously tailored to conform to beauty standards i do not respect. the minute u try to convince me all your characters are super hot n yassified it all feels less real to me sorry i care less about them. im bored of hot characters i think all fictional characters should be made to look like normal everyday people and i think everyone should be less afraid of so-called ugliness i triple dog dare u
#the 'you' here is just a general vague you btw it is not directed towards any one person and obviously not you anon we're in agreement#and reading it back i fear i may come off a little more aggressive than i intended so psa this is all my opinion like. do what you want#i am not the final word on this issue or any other. i am just a guy no 1 is obligated to listen to me if they dont want to. except about r#anyway remember talking to liv about the whole regulus thing and how. the personality that has been invented for him just seems like#people were bored of r/s they wanted something like r/s but new so they superimposed remus' personality onto him and then added a#few bits of sirius. and this is all me ranting about my opinion mindlessly now but i think#its reflected in those stupid terrible incorrect quote joke posts and how you see one of them where its remus and sirius and then see the#exact same post remade except remus has been changed to regulus and sirius has been changed to james. like yeah because regulus#is just a carbon copy of remus except if he was goth lol. we've done this one before its the same thing#and absolutely regulus can be done well and absolutely i am not a definitive judge of what is 'doing regulus well' just as no one else is#but i think if u want to do regulus well u have to make him less likeable. like he cant be ur soft loveable fav. girl he was a death eater#same as i think the whole barty / evan / regulus / pandora gang is just people refurbing the marauders. same thing different colour#anyway. i feel about regulus the same way i feel about dorcas or mary or marlene. they are not really characters#they dont have any definitive canon traits and i am not really interested in creating ocs. but other people might love that idea!#which is fine!#whew. love it when i get asks about things im scared to talk about of my own accord like i cant get in trouble if you guys asked me first x#anon#telegram#the brothers black#also girls he is a product of generation after generation of inbreeding. the black family should look like the windsors sirius was an#outlier.#oh also sorry i thought i was done but i want to clarify that i am no way saying you cannot be interested in morally grey characters or#find them compelling. instead what i am trying to say is that pretending a morally grey character actually isnt morally grey#in order to justify the fact that you are interested/fond of/compelled by them is boring and a disservice to your fav. hope that makes sens#within what we do know about regulus there are things that make him GOOD but not really anything that makes him likeable. and so much#of popular headcanon seems to be bestowing a ton of likeable traits upon him in order to redeem him despite there being no canon basis 4 it#like. we know regulus was a death eater 'it wasnt his decision he was forced into it!' we know regulus was less handsome than sirius 'no he#wasnt he was also super hot!' do you see what you're doing. you're losing me.
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It has now been 12 hours after I watched it and I have finally made up my mind that I am underwhelmed by the Ted Lasso finale. (spoilers and typos in the tags)
#ted lasso spoilers#it felt so sad for ted. leaving without having much to remember the team by. everyone portrayed as happy and together in london while ted#returns to the single house in suburbia. seemingly not reflecting on his past trauma enough.#i absolutely think him going back to kansas makes the most narrative sense but the finale lacked closure#i would have been fine with him being seen skyping or visiting everyone/anyone in london#like this it was just a bit too sad#also! trent's book should ABSOLUTELY have been named after him! him rejecting trent's title added to the sadness for me#i would have liked to see some narration from trent as closing words maybe#also: the cracks shown between michelle and dr jacob were unnecessary! not that i ever liked the guy but i disliked the final implied#message here#overall the finale just didn't tie things up enough and thrww in some new elements of confusion that were left open kn a way that was not#satisfying to me (dutch guy. the roy vs jamie about keeley moments.)#they could have gone for the full fairytale ending (with ted leaving for kansas) in my opinion!#this way i was just underwhelmed even thoigh the whole show was a constant 9/10 all the time and both a comfort wagch and something that#kept my attention for the full duration of each episode (a compliment)#i have more thoughts#ted lasso s3#ted lasso s3 spoilers#ted lasso
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This has been a rant building up for a while now and I just need to put it in here but it's that. I remember the joy and excitement I felt when I watched y/o/i ep 1 - 10 because I literally. Knew nothing about the show except for the fact it was gay?? dvsjgshd but it just was so GOOD but then I. Came across a couple of interpretations of ep 11-12 (which I hadn't watched by then so I had no idea what went down) which was just people being disappointed, people thinking the ending was changed for a season 2, people thinking it was out of nowhere (especially V/ictor's comeback?? I guess??) And that really. messed up my perception of the show?? Like upto then I was forming my own interpretations of the characters and after this I. Was lowkey scared to watch the last two episodes because I was afraid of it being badâą (if that even makes sense) and then one day even when I did watch them I didn't watch them properly?? Like I even missed a lot of scene and dialogue because I was too nervous about what I had read about it before.
And like. I don't even think those interpretations are entirely wrong for record. I understand that especially when there was a whole week between episodes and when the fandom was so huge and active people might have a very different viewing experience which directly plays into how they interpreted the character arcs! And those interpretation are extremely valid even though I disagree with them. The show definitely leaves a lot upto intrepretation of the viewers so there isn't any interpretation that is necessarily wrongâą (Idk how to phrase this sorry)
But it's just that I wasn't able to form MY own interpretation properly because I was influenced by others' ?? (In lack of a better way to word it) and I just. I've been mulling over this for a whole MONTH and going back and forth and back about the ending. And it just feels very draining when I go out to look for meta and people who had opinions similar to mine and find...like what ten people?? it kind of makes me feel like I am looking at things wrong, and that probably the finale WAS just bad or whatever (which seems to be a more common idea in what I've seen)
I do think there were pacing issues, and I do think the character arcs CAN be interpreted differently than what they are in the finale but I also am a bit sad that not many people tried to recontextualise the show in light of the finale (again, it isn't a MUST But I really wish people tried to if I am making sense?)
And it's sad because I know this can be fun if I just created my own bubble without all the meta and opinions I disagree with but it's hard when that is somehow always what I come across? And I KNOW I should stop reading a post when I see that it may suggest something towards the opinions that I disagree with (because that'll just waste my energy), but then what if I AM wrong? What if those posts are right and I am willingly closing my eye towards what the characters originally are or something?? Is what perplexes me out and really makes me sort of nervous and uneasy(?)
And now it is getting worse and I feel like I am slowly losing all the love I had for this show and it absolutely SUCKS because I just want to enjoy this silly little show and now this is all....just a mess
#N rambles#I feel like I am just repeating things at this point#I've been trying to hold back a lot from venting about this on the main because it just plainly seems like a very trivial thing to be this#upset about#But after weeks of ranting in tags I just feel I really HAVE to say this because it is actually really making me sad#Like. I thought maybe after exams I wouldn't be upset? And I was so excited to do a lot more things for the show#I was so excited and looking forward to this#Especially since I have TOO much of free time now so I also am prone to overthinking in such a situation#And I did and this just sucks and I am fed up with just overthinking and keeping all of this to myself and getting too upset#so. yeah. I still feel very bad but I also think it's probably due to a lot. Of other factors#and this one is not helping#And for one thing: I am actually really nervous about posting this because this seems to be such a dividing topic#And by no means am I saying people shouldn't have been upset - but...yeah#I just. Don't know. I really do wish I could find more people who are active and who liked the finale?? I really want to talk about#The character arcs and themes and ramble about them but there's no one to. talk about it to positively???#I also want to rewatch the show. It would actually just solve this problem but#I am low-key scared??? I don't think this would be a right time to do it because I am just really confused about this whole issue and it#Will definitely reflect in forming my own opinions and I don't want that#like at this point I just want to discuss about the finale with people who also didn't feel it was too off or ooc or something#And just tried to intrepret it in good faith#Again I don't really care about people disliking it obviously#It's just that*I* wish I could find more people who liked it#(sorry for the weird phrasing in this whole post I am trying to express what I feel but idk how to do it exactly)#Also I used the slashes because I don't want this to turn up on search sorry
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Apparently. The best shiny hunting method is to just fuck around and find out. And literally do anything else.
First one (of the YEAR on Jan 1st!) I was workn on my dex, second I was breeding for a perfect IV Sprigatito and for funsies I used a Japanese Sprigatito I got in a Wonder Trade (she had. Two (2) perfect IVs but literally who gives a shit that's a female fucking shiny starter???? HELLO??? In 66 eggs too!), and the other two I just. Found. EV training. All of them found within a couple days of each other, too (from the 1st to the 11th). My dex still isn't complete btw. Very close, but not quite.
I just think it's so fucking goofy LMFAO LIKE???? I spent hours trying to hunt for a shiny Sinistea for my team during my playthrough two separate occasions using sandwiches and the other was literally an outbreak and I also tried some other outbreak hunts and like. Zilch. I get impatient and frustrated and give up and then I decide to go back to my roots (if I love a game dearly/if it feels feasible I WILL try to fill out the dex and also training perfect Pokemon I never plan to use competitively I just like the process and having the Results) and boom. Get fucking shiny'd, idiot.
Bonus... two of them..... (also pictured: my stupid ass thinking I'm safe to breed this WT Eevee in a Love Ball bc I gave him a Destiny Knot failing to factor in that. Lilac and Lulu are literally in the same egg group both girls đ°)
#pokemon#another really funny coincidence is that?? p much all the pokemon i've trained thus far has been female?????#and all my fucking shinies are female too???? lmfao???? insane.#the ONLY exceptions have been cerberus my houndstone and genderless pokemon.#and like the only one i actively decided to go out of my way to be female was my starter. ONLY bc i wanted to name her after my cat.#not even bc of the final evo like actually i have strong opinions on people who complain about femme looking starters --#w the starter gender ratio and that opinion is. fuck you fuck uou fuck you you are WEAK and COWARDLY and downright foolish. explode.#as a genderweird guy i actually sometimes prefer femme pokemon to be male. small reflection of the self.#ultimately though any pokemon in any way can be genderweird if you want. like take spiderman over here (she/her)#idk if i'm gonna evolve her LMFAO but the idea behind it was the color pallet does sort of match.#and having a girl spidops who looks like some guy and is named spiderman is just. so fun to me. she's got it (the gender)#(NOT in a mocking way to be v clear this is from the perspective of some guy who doesn't conform to gender expectations at all)#nothing but love and affection for miss spiderman here (and all manner of gender fuckery)
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It's as if they're saying... "Why... why did you and Imbibitor Lunae commit such an unforgivable sin?"
I know that you have no interest in my answer.
...which is why I asked the question as you looked me straight in the eye. I've asked myself that same question infinite times... but was never able to find the answer...
Why... why is it that only the abominations can return time and time again...?
Why does someone like her have to be buried, burned to ash, and eventually forgotten...? Why!?
This play on questions that await no answer, yet are in their way a response to what was asked, is so good
#The way they manauver around silences and how they don't say straight away what they mean and meant and felt and thought#yet know and understand even in their not sharing the other's position#I love how it works with Jin.gliu's understanding of Blade seeking B.ailu but not taking her medicationâ#hoping for a different kind of treatmentâ just as she had#They stood in opposite sides of a boardâ with totally contrary opinions on the same matterâ yet ended on the other side of each other#So similar both in storiesâ influencesâ relations and personality in some ways. So similar in movements in the end#So similar in drive to live beyond their death at the end of it all. Unable to let go and move on#Holding on to grudges and hatred and their sword if only to keep the pain and the memory alive if it's all that rests#I love them so much#I talk too much#Traces#Fragments and scraps#Why did you do it? Why is it that only monstrosities come back? Why did you do it? Why does she stay dead while my flesh restores itself?#Why did you do it? But seeing Bail.u is the best medicine she could have hoped for. And he did itâ but is full of regrets#The absolute reproach and yet the mutual understanding is so good. It feels so natural and coherent. So human#I truly love them and their dynamic a lot#Alsoâ obsessed with the fact that Blade says she stabbed him through his heart in the final blowâ and how the image reflects it#'In the endâ you stabbed me through the heart and left me and the sword in that withered grave'#'æćâ äœ ćșćșç©żćżäžć»â ææććäžè”·çćšäșéŁçæŻćą'#I can't tell just how moved this whole quest makes me and how satisfactory it was to me haha#The Gongshu reference makes me want to scream every time#The weight of 'you left me and the sword' with how Blade and that sword are linked in life and death and change of being and name#Avfkabfkkd I couldn't love him more
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listen ok so i made some good jokes yesterday about Lestat having an onlyfans but i am back today with a new essay and this one is entitled
Why The Invention Of Social Media Is Going to Permanently Save Loustat's Fucking Marriage
come on this journey with me.
ok so on one hand we have Louis, who does not like to leave the house except when he absolutely fucking has to and even then he resents it. my man wants to be at home with a book 100% of the time and he's so fucking valid for that. When he leaves the house, bad things happen to him. He has learned this and honestly i can't fault his evidence. it sucks out there. it truly incredibly sucks out there.
the problem is that sometimes he is married to lestat, who starts clawing at the walls if people aren't paying attention to him for 12 consecutive seconds, and being Out Of The House is the best place for him to go foraging for People To Pay Attention To Him. my man once had a rock star career the way that some people get addicted to meth brewed in a trashcan in someone's garage. Louis, through no fault of his own, is simply not capable of filling this psychological need no matter how hard he tries, except he should not even HAVE to try like that, because no one can do it, because Lestat is fucked up and like wasn't hugged enough as a child or something
this imbalance in their relationship is the core source of all their marital problems since day 1: THIS man's idea of a good time is chilling on the sofa in silence and maybe staring contemplatively at the wall for a while, and THIS man starts self-destructing at a truly astonishing rate if no one is making eye contact with him. If you make Louis go outside and socialize with people, he's miserable and sulking and whining about "are we done can we go home". If you make Lestat sit in silence in a chair for five minutes he starts crying and claiming that No One Has Ever Loved Him, Ever, Ever, And No One Understands Him, And He Hates Everyone In This House and He Is Being Actively Neglected And Cruelly Mistreated Right Now And No One Even Bothers To Feel Sorry For Him, This Is BASICALLY Domestic Violence Against Him Personally, If Only Anyone Knew About The Quiet Hidden Tragedies Of An Unhappy Marriage, and then he breaks some furniture and a window and isn't seen again for six weeks and comes back like "you will not believe what just happened, i [checks notes] met Merlin and also a dragon who gave me three wishes, brb i'm going to write another book about it :))))"
all you fucking have to do to fix their problems is to hand Lestat a cellphone and say the words "do you know about social media? you can say whatever shit you want and there's always someone awake in some time zone to talk to you." Suddenly Lestat is now very interested in sitting quietly on the couch, Lounging Alluringly and posting thirst traps on instagram and finally getting emotional fulfillment from all the likes and comments of "omg???? omg this is the hottest man alive". he does not have to leave the house anymore to get his attention meth. His yawning abyss of neediness is being fulfilled by having parasocial relationships with millions of strangers online who all think he's sexy and don't have to experience how fucking awful he is up close. he can flirt pointlessly with 200 people at once which is FINALLY ENOUGH FLIRTATIONS FOR HIM TO SATISFACTORILY JUGGLE
Meanwhile Louis is 3 feet away, vaguely reflecting to himself that HE is feeling all emotionally fulfilled because they're spending this great Quality Time together in perfect silence while he reads his book and Lestat plays on his cellular telephone and only OCCASIONALLY giggles to himself or says "louis which of these photos do you think is sexier, the one with four buttons undone or the one with five buttons undone" Louis is feeling like his Opinion is being Valued, Louis feels like he is being Consulted on Matters that are Important To Lestat. He has opinions about the photographs. It is not that much trouble to be interrupted from staring philosophically at the wall to spend five seconds looking at a photograph and then saying "that one". Finally he is experiencing Cozy Domesticity. he is so horny about it. lestat is surprised and bewildered about the sudden sharp increase in the amount of sex he is now getting but before he can make any vaguely mean comments about it (bc he's confused and vaguely defensive and worried that it's going to stop out of nowhere and he doesn't know any other interpersonal skills for expressing a thought) his phone pings about how he's just broken 5 million followers on instagram and he totally forgets to even mention the sex thing, which means that he continues getting the sex instead of inciting an argument about the sex and going through his 800th divorce from Louis
all their friends are extremely confused when a whole month, and then six months, and then a year goes by without another Loud Divorce happening and no one crashing through their front door like "I HAVE TO SLEEP IN YOUR GUEST COFFIN FOR THE NEXT MONTH, HE IS INTOLERABLE". They are worried. they are concerned. what is going on over there. are they both dead. no, they can't both be dead, Lestat just posted another tiktok of him sucking on his own fingers, which he would not be doing if Louis were dead. there is an ecosystem collapse happening in the groupchat and it's because the main Drama Vectors have been neutralized
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Wild Child
summary: after being sent away to boarding school for being a wild child you're finally back and celebrating your return in the only way you see fit.
smut: pool party, ragers, drug use (alcohol, vapes n weed), size kink, Rafe is cocky, mentions of old flings, manhandling, hot tubs, they do it on her parents' bed, rough sex, step-mom slander, reader is such a flirt n a tease, curvy reader, dom! rafe, bratty! reader, skinny dipping, mentions of body shots, choking, spanking (like once).
The morning sun was ascending high into the sky when you finally managed to get yourself out of your king-sized bed, fit for someone of your status and your parents' financial standing.
Your socked feet took padded steps towards your window where you overlooked the hills of figure eight. This was the first time you'd looked out your bedroom window in years. With a deep inhale a soft smile etched its way across your lips. You were finally home, and you had the house all to yourself. Or so you thought.
Your ears pick up on muffled indistinct chatter that managed to travel from the kitchen, down the halls up the elaborate staircase and into your room. Quickly, you headed for the source of the voices and were disappointed to see your dad and his wife plaything, Maria, conversing over coffee at the kitchen island.
"I thought you said the Jet leaves at dawn? What are you guys still doing here?" You try not to sound too curious, arms crossing naturally with your inquiry. With a clearing of his throat, your dad speaks up, "You only just came back two nights ago. Maria and I just don't think it's the right time to leave you alone for the weekend."
You scoff, "Why? You still don't trust me after what happened last time? Get over it, I'm twenty-one now, you can trust me." As you walked over to the fridge for a glass of water, you heard a muted exchange of ideas behind you.
"You can't expect us to forget about all the damage you caused. We still haven't found anyone to repair my crystal vases." You take a long sip, trying to swallow your toxic thoughts with the water.
She thinks she can just waltz up and down the house with that huge ring on her finger and think that her opinion carries any value to you.
You took a deep breath and plastered on a fake smile, pitching your voice to become as sweet as honey.
"I can never apologize enough for what I did back then, but how will I ever earn your trust if you don't give me the chance." Your doe eyes land on your father, specifically his weakened composure.
You're about to break him, you can see it.
He exhales, all the air escaping through his nostrils.
Broken.
He glances down at his watch, "Fine, but if you throw another party so help me god Y/n you'll never see grass again." You play it cool, thanking him with a simple hug and completely disregarding Maria before you make your way back upstairs.
It's as though a weight had been lifted off your chest. You needed them out of the house, you'd been planning this party since you got back and made sure all the guests knew to keep it on the down low, just until they were gone.
The hours fly by, and you hardly keep track of time as you and some of your long-time friends set up the house for the party that you shouldn't be hosting, but you're Y/n Sinclair. Parties are your thing.
"Macy, you let the people in, kay? I'm gonna go get changed." The sun was beginning to set and the music was already blasting, vibrating over the marble floors of the house. Every lyric was punctuated with a shaking of the speakers that could be felt even outside.
The neighbours hated to see you coming.
You know your dad's jet was en route to Fiji and he wouldn't be able to reach you until he landed which wasn't for another six hours at minimum but by then the damage will be long done and far too late to stop.
You make your way up the stairs, the bass thumping through the house and vibrating beneath your feet. As you step into your room, your reflection catches your eye, excitement sparking in your gaze.
With a quick flick of your wrist, you reach for the strappy black and red two-piece, slipping it on, the cool fabric hugging every curve just right. Each strap crisscrosses elegantly, bold yet balanced, making you smile at how perfectly it all came together.
Next, you grab the sheer cover-up, wrapping it loosely around your waist so it drapes with a hint of movement, a playful edge that sways with you. You run your fingers through your curls, scrunching them gently to bring out their bounce, each coil framing your face in soft waves. Reaching for your lip gloss, you swipe it carefully over your lips, catching the light with a glossy shine.
One last look, and youâre ready, your heart beating in rhythm with the music below. The speakers are already blaring, the energy practically calling you back down. You step out with a final tousle of your curls, ready to join the night.
The energy crackles through the backyard as you make your way to the top of the outdoor staircase. The sun has slipped beneath the horizon, casting a dusky glow over the massive pool below, illuminated by floating lights that shimmer across the water.
The bar is buzzing with people grabbing drinks, and in the corner, the foam pit is already filling up, laughter and splashes mixing with the heavy beat of the music.
A neon sign hangs across from the bar, glowing boldly against the evening sky: The Queen of Kildare is Back. You grin, amused at the sight of it knowing it was 100% Macy's doing, and take a step down. Conversations hush, replaced by the roaring blast of excitement as heads turn your way. Hundreds of people, from familiar faces to those you only vaguely recognize from your past in Figure Eight, pause and look up, anticipation brimming in their eyes.
As you descend, your cover-up billows behind you, revealing the bold lines of your black and red two-piece. The crowdâs reaction is instant, erupting into cheers, whistles, and applause that echo across the yard.
"Y/n! Y/n! Y/n" They chant and you laugh. Every step closer to the party, you feel the atmosphere thicken, charged with that infectious blend of excitement and admiration. By the time you reach the bottom, someoneâs already handing you a drink, while friends rush over to pull you in for hugs and greetings, their voices nearly drowned out by the music and shouts.
"Y/n Sinclair, s'Been a while."
There's a voice all too familiar addressing you from behind, prompting you to pivot to come face to face with a much taller Rafe than your brain could recall.
"Rafe Cameron. Long time no see." He goes in for the hug, your arms reaching over his broadened shoulders while his longer ones wrap around your waist before pulling back. He not so subtly checked you out, his tongue darting out over his lips briefly as he took you in and you did the same.
The buzzed hair sharpens his features, you think. Making his eyes seem darker, more intense, as they focus on you. His open linen shirt falls loosely over his frame, giving glimpses of his toned chest and the subtle gleam of a thin chain resting against his skin.
The shirt flutters with the breeze, barely hanging on his shoulders, hinting at the strong lines of his arms and drawing your eyes down to his relaxed, dark swim trunks.
Heâs saying something, leaning slightly toward you, and his voice cuts smoothly through the bass of the party. Your eyes wander back up to his face, catching the faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth as if he knows heâs caught your attention.
"You look good, too good. How long's it been?" It's hard for you to think with the heat of his gaze on you, but you don't falter, never surrendering to this never-ending game between the two of you.
"About 3 years." He hums, the way he looks at you, casual yet purposeful, makes your pulse quicken, and suddenly, every sound around you fades, leaving only the warmth of his presence and the way he looks right at you, but you remind yourself to focus.
Rafe looks around the scene, eyes lingering over the wet t-shirt contest and then the game of chicken being held in the pool while others lounged on the various floaties or indulged in ungodly amounts of alcohol at the bar. As he does so, the pungent scent of weed drafts across your nostrils.
"Your old man know you're hostin' tonight?" You had to laugh, "Oh please, like he would ever let me have any kind of fun while he's in town. He and the skank are in Fiji."
The slight smirk that etches over his perfect lips taunts you. "So the house is yours?" He leans in, a little closer, closing the gap between you. "Until he comes back and banishes me again," You place a confident hand against his chest, pushing him away, "But for now, I'm here to party, and you should be too."
With that said you walk away from him, letting your hips sway with seduction radiating with each step. Rafe lets his thumb and fingers stroke over his jaw, feeling the weight of the pressure you'd just applied.
God, it was good to have you back.
The party raged on, slowly approaching its peak, body shots were going on at the bar, girls were doing lines in the bathrooms and the guys had insisted on a drunk game of volleyball in the pool.
Rafe took a break from the events of the party and watched from the sidelines on the couch, taking another hit of the vape that someone had passed to him, he's not sure he can remember who, and it wasn't relevant anyway.
The only person he had his sights set on is you. Watching you have the time of your life with your friends on the platform in the middle of the pool. Your little group, clearly intoxicated danced carefree while you'd begun to put your hands on the ground and throw your ass in circles.
Rafe choked, sitting up, some smoke coming through his nostrils at the interrupted airflow. He leaves his shirt behind on the couch with the abandoned vape, just as he heads for the pool topped hands him a beer which Rafe accepts before he gets in.
Maintaining a straight face as his body acclimatizes to the cool water he's almost immediately swarmed and roped into a round of whatever the current pool game was.
His icy gaze looks up to the center of the pool where you once were but are now nowhere to be found. "Looking for someone?" Your voice was mocking and he was grinning before he even turned around.
"I am actually." With little ripples in the water, he steps towards you maintaining a respectful distance that was driving you insane. "I was looking for someone to join me at the bar," He puts on a convincing facade but you roll your eyes, feigning innocence.
"Let me know if you find her," He slowly steps towards you and step back, "Don't play dumb with me, Y/n." Your plush lips form a gut-wrenching pout, "What do you mean?" Another step forward, another one back. The cycle repeats itself until he has you backed up against the edge of the pool.
Rafeâs hands find your waist, and before you can react, heâs lifting you effortlessly, placing you on the edge of the pool. You're reeling at the slutty display of his sheer strength.
Your legs dangle, brushing against his chest, and he steps closer, slotting himself right between them. His hands rest on either side of you, his arms framing you in as he looks up with that sly grin, every bit as teasing as you are.
âAlways out here playin' games, arenât you?â he murmurs, his voice low, a quiet rasp just for you. âGotta say, I respect itâalways sticking it to your old man, doing your own thing.â He leans in, his gaze drifting down to your lips before meeting your eyes again. âNot many people around here have the guts for that.â
You scoff lightly, though your heart skips as his gaze lingers on you, intense and challenging. âOh, please,â you tease, rolling your eyes. âSince when do you care about any of this?â
A quiet laugh slips from him as his fingers trace slow, deliberate circles along your thigh. âYou think I havenât been paying attention to you all these years?â he murmurs, leaning closer, his breath warm against your neck.
âYou mightâve been gone a while, but don't think I forgot all those nights we had our fun.â His words hang heavy between you as he pulls back slightly. Now his hand rests on your waist, his voice dropping lower.
He tilts his head, studying you with that familiar glint of mischief. âNow that you're back, I think we should relive some of our traditions, for old time's sake,â he says, leaning in until his lips brush against your jaw, light and teasing, close enough to make your pulse race. He pauses, his thumb skimming your cheek, his lips hovering just above yours, waiting. âBut donât act like you donât want this as much as I do.â
Before you can snap back, his mouth claims yours, the kiss charged with all the years of pent-up tension and that all-too-familiar heat. His hands slide up to cradle your face as you wrap your legs around him, pulling him even closer. The kiss deepens, and when he finally pulls back just enough to catch his breath, he watches you with a smug, knowing grin.
âThere it is,â he murmurs, his voice a low rumble against your lips, his thumb tracing your jaw as if memorizing every inch. âThat look you get right before we make a mess of things. I knew itâyou missed this just as much as I did.â
If only someone could recount how the two of found yourselves stumbling up the stairs towards your room, your soaked sheer cover-up left forgotten somewhere in the house after Rafe pulled it off of your frame.
"Shit-- Rafe," your teeth dug into the flesh of your bottom lip as you reached to open your bedroom door, horrified to see two other people had monopolized it. They hadn't even noticed the door was opened so you quickly closed it.
"What the fuck, I thought everyone knew my room was off limits." With a quick scan, you noticed items were hanging off almost all the guest rooms in the hall letting others know the room was occupied.
"Shit, there's nowhere else to go in here?" You think quickly on your feet before rushing off to get something before returning with a key in your grip.
Rafe pulls you close with a smirk as you clutch the key to your fatherâs room, the gleam in your eyes daring him to follow. âBreaking all the rules tonight, arenât we?â he murmurs, his voice low and thick with approval. His hand slips around your waist as you unlock the door, both of you glancing down the hall to be sure no oneâs watching.
You twist the handle and push open the door, and his hand slides down to squeeze your hip, pulling you against him. âI knew there was a reason I liked you,â he whispers against your ear, his lips grazing your skin, sending a thrill down your spine.
Once inside, you barely have a chance to lock the door before he has you pressed up against it. His lips are on yours, urgent and fierce, his hands roaming over your body with possessive ease. âDo you have any idea what you do to me?â he breathes between kisses, his fingers tracing the bare skin of your waist as he lifts your top, letting it fall to the floor. âThought Iâd forgotten?â you tease.
Rafe just about growls, dipping down to kiss along your collarbone, his hands sliding lower as he backs you towards the bed. His fingers hook under the waistband of your bottoms, tugging them down with a smirk that sends heat rushing through you.
Your heart races as you feel the cool, forbidden sheets beneath you, the thrill of defying every rule and having Rafe look at you like youâre the only thing heâs ever wanted. His hands slide up your thighs, lips trailing down your neck as he leans over you. âYou know,â he murmurs, voice heavy with desire as he takes in the sight of you sprawled out before him, âI always knew you were trouble. Guess thatâs why I canât stay away.â
With a smirk, he leans in, his lips brushing over yours as his hands explore, both of you savouring the thrill of being tangled up in each other once again.
"Look at these perfect fuckin' tits." He curses, big hands cupping your breasts, kneading them and rolling your nipples between his index and thumb. Your back arches slightly with a gasp, chest pressing up into him and he laughs.
"Still so sensitive here, angel? Some things never change." He reminisces and you roll your eyes, "Fuck off, Rafe." With the blink of an eye, his much larger frame was caging you in from above, his bulging biceps giving him an erotic juxtaposition in comparison to your head.
Balancing himself on one arm he slinks his palm around the expanse of your throat with a weighted pressure. "Been gone so long you forgot your manners? Mm? That's fine, I'll be sure to fuck some sense back into you."
Your eyes flutter shut at his filthy words as you feel his hand move and begin to work you between your legs. "Your pussy's fuckin' soaked--shit." He hisses, gaze hungry and his body acts on his thoughts faster than you can register.
A particularly loud moan slips from you as you feel his tongue skillfully lap over your folds, splitting you open as the warmth of his tongue protrudes into your core. "Yes, fuck! Please, don't stop Rafe." You moan, one hand reaching down to hold him by the hair and it hits you that he'd shaved it all off.
You let out a frustrated gruff, both hands fisting the sheets while you're forced to feel the vibrations of his sick laugh running through you at your dramatics. Even the tip of his nose had been covered in your slick, your juices running down his chin as he ate you out like a man starved.
He wouldn't be surprised if they could hear you from outside, but he knows everyone is far too high, too drunk or both to hear you. It wasn't long before your legs were beginning to shake and came with his name falling from your lips over and over like a prayer.
Taking deep breaths to recover from debatedly the best orgasm you've ever experienced, Rafe walked over to the far wall, out of sight, doing something you couldn't see before returning.
Without speaking he scoops you up into his arms, bridal style, another shameless display of his strength but it would be a lie to say it didn't drive you crazy. "What-what are you doing?" Your questions are ignored until he approaches the bubbling hot tub.
A wicked smirk curls across his lips as he eases you onto your feet in the warm water, his hands lingering on your waist, keeping you close. He gazes at you with that knowing glint, the steam rising around you both.
âFeels nice, doesnât it?â he murmurs, his eyes trailing down your figure, unapologetic. His fingers skim over your sides, sending a shiver through you thatâs from anything but the water.
âAre you really just gonna stand there?â you call, feeling the thrill of his attention but wanting to turn the tables, your voice laced with playful challenge.
âOh, donât worry,â he chuckles, unfastening his swim trunks and letting them fall to the side with a carefree grin. âI plan on joining you,â he says, slipping into the water and closing the distance between you two with smooth, unhurried steps. You take a hard swallow at his size, you don't remember him being this big.
He was going to destroy you.
You raise an eyebrow, matching his smirk. âPretty bold of you, Rafe,â you say, your voice teasing as he wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you flush against him. âJust like old times, hmm?â
âBetter than old times,â he murmurs, dipping his head so his lips graze your ear, his voice a low rumble. âBecause now, nothing is stopping us.â He punctuates his sentence by pressing his body up against your back, elevating you a bit so your torso leans over the edge of the tub, granting him easy access to you.
"Fuck, can't believe your ass got even more fucking perfect since last time." His hand raises and comes back down with a loud spank that pulls a sinful moan from your throat. "Rafe, stop teasing." You whine, arching your back and pressing back against him.
His composure already weekend, he decided to let you get away with it this time before he lined up the swollen head of his thick cock with your entrance, "Better grab onto something." That's the last thing you hear before you're being impaled on his dick, your upper half immediately falls forward, and he stills, giving you a second.
You're breathless, it feels like his cock was taking up all the room in your lungs. Some water had splashed over the ledge but that was the least of your worries. Your mind was hazy and focused on Rafe's grunts that escaped him with every snap of his hips.
"Wish you could see how hot you look right now. The Sinclair wild child knows how to take big dick like a champ." His words run straight through you like electricity, fanning the flames of the burning heat that was beginning to form in your belly.
"Shit--This pussy was fuckin' made for me, y'know that?" You moan at his possessive statement. You can only nod, your body had gone limp long ago as he drilled into you. "R-rafe! I'm-" As if you weren't close enough, his fingers begin to rub over your clit aggressively and you jolt with a shriek.
"Oh- fuck, don't stop! Fuck! I'm gonna cum! Please, Rafe." You beg, over and over, arms hanging onto the edge of the tub for dear life as more water splashes around you.
"Wait for me, hold it until I say you can come." You're chewing your lip raw, desperately trying to hold yourself back as he wrecks you from the inside out, his moans getting more frequent, a little more airy and breathless as he tumbled toward his edge of pleasure.
"Cum with me, Angel." Your body spasms as you finish together and he leans his weight against your back, his laboured breathing fanning your ear as you come down from your high.
"Not bad, princess." You couldn't respond and Rafe took note of this, carefully holding you up with one final smug remark, "Hope I didn't wear out the queen of Kildare."
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â CALM AFTER THE STORM
pairing:Â remus lupin x reader
summary:Â the 4 times you hate each other, and the one time you donât. alternatively, remus lupin is a pain in your arse and yours alone.
warnings:Â enemies to lovers, swearing, kissing, mention of blood and wounds, some bad writing as always which is unedited
authorâs note: just a little e2l fic for my own indulgence as its my fave trope and its criminal how i barely have any e2l fics⊠also havenât written anything in ages soooo enjoy!
when he just has to be controversial
The sun was beaming, colourful rays reflecting over your book through the stained-glass windows of the Gryffindor common room as you lounged on the sofa with your head in Lilyâs lap. You were barely paying attention to the chatter of your friends around you, choosing to focus on your copy of âThe Catcher in the Ryeâ and Marleneâs soft guitar playing. The lazy afternoon is a welcome break from the increasingly stressful N.E.W.T lessons that have had you all so exhausted, youâre not sure if Peter is asleep or dead from his curled-up position on the rug.
You donât even realise someone is saying your name until Marlene tickles the sole of your socked foot with her guitar pick, making you yelp and draw your legs in from where they were previously tucked in between Marlene and her guitar.
âWhat was that for?â you grumble, nudging her arm with your foot.
Marlene smirks, nodding over to James. âHe told me to get your attention. Didnât specify how.â
You roll your eyes and turn on your side to face the boy in question, his grin unfaltering as he multitasks polishing the handle of his broomstick and talking to you. âNot my fault youâre dead to the world when youâre reading,â he says, matter-of-fact, continuing when you raise your eyebrows in impatience. âI was just wondering how you could look so interested in that book. Remus said heâd do my homework for a month if I finished it the other day and I couldnât get past five arse-numbingly dull pages.â
You scoff, adjusting your position again to face Remus as well. âAnd why was Remus betting you to read my book, exactly?â
âIt was my copy,â Remus replies, scribbling away on his parchment, cross legged on his chair, to undoubtedly finish the Potions essay that Slughorn had set yesterday. Youâre transfixed on the way his hand is moving across the page for a second, unable to fathom how someone can have such messy handwriting. You arenât surprised in the slightest that the next words coming out of his mouth are ones you disagree with. âI wanted to see how long he lasted reading the slowest-paced book in the world.â
You abruptly sit up at this, shutting your book and forgetting plans of relaxation.
âHey, watch it!â Lily exclaims, lifting the bottle of black polish sheâs using to paint Siriusâ nails from its balanced position on her thigh to avoid you spilling it all over her white top. âIf youâre about to argue, please refrain from throwing things until after Iâve done the second coat of nail polish.â
You pointedly ignore this and narrow your eyes at Remus who, infuriatingly, still hasnât lifted his head from his essay. âIâm surprised you found it hard to read such a slow book. Thought thatâd be perfect for you.â
âLook what youâve started, Prongs,â Sirius sighs, examining his nails.
Seeing the corners of Remusâ lips pull up into a slight smile at your comment just spurs you on in defence of the book you were previously enjoying. âBesides, itâs about a real-life teenager with real-life struggles, not The Hobbit on his latest adventure.â
âWhoâs Hobbit?â James mumbles, scratching his head in confusion as Marlene just shrugs, equally oblivious.
âItâs overrated,â Remus insists, finally setting down his quill to look at you. The amused expression still hasnât left his face and you make a noise halfway between a scoff and a high-pitched squeal of indignance. âEven James agrees.â
âOh, and Jamesâ opinion on literature is the standard now?â You raise a brow, tutting when James starts to protest. âThe only book James has finished in the last six years was Quidditch Through the Ages.â
The way James slowly slides the aforementioned book under one of the sofa cushions doesnât go unnoticed by anyone. Sirius starts snickering, much to Lilyâs annoyance as she tries to control his hand. âShe got you there, in fairness, mate.â
Siriusâ chortling seems to stir Peter from his sleep and he opens one eye to peer at you. Seeming to catch sight of your irritated expression, he frowns. âAre these two arguing like an old married couple again?â
âMerlin help us if these two ever decide to get married,â Marlene utters under her breath, bent over her guitar and avoiding the weight of your glare.
âYeah, he wishes,â you grumble, shuffling around on the sofa to get back into a comfortable position with your book. Remusâ smile has only widened in response and he seems to enjoy your discomfort as you overcompensate for showing your annoyance by wriggling about.
âI dream about it every night,â Remus replies, dryly and Peter giggles below you before turning over to sleep again. Â
You overcompensate a little too much by moving around, because Lily huffs from beside you and starts scrambling around for a tissue. âWhat did I say about the second coat?â
âI didnât throw anything this time!â
2. when he wonât let you give someone a black eye
Defence Against the Dark Arts is your favourite N.E.W.T subject for a lot of reasons. You enjoy the lesson content, itâll be useful in future years, and itâs the one lesson you share with every single one of your friends.
Youâve gotten used to James and Sirius messing around while Professor Marigold recites fact after fact about spells and creatures and wizards of dark nature. Its like soothing background noise to you and your classmates who all concentrate in silence most of the time.
Which is why your quill stops on your page and leaves a growing ink blot when you hear snickering and whispers from the other side of the classroom rather than from in front of you where the marauders sit in a line.
The scoffs of disgust coming from Snape and Mulciber are loud enough to attract the attention of the rest of the students and even the teacher, who eventually sets down her piece of chalk in the middle of talking about Wolfsbane potion with an impatient sigh.
âIs there some sort of pressing issue that canât wait until after class to discuss, boys?â Professor Marigold asks with a tone of ire that would impress Professor McGonagall. âEven Black and Potter have decided to give it a rest today.â
Sheâs not wrong, you think, noting how theyâve been less disruptive than usual for this lesson, probably tired out from setting each otherâs robes on fire in Charms the hour before.
âThe pressing issue is werewolves,â Snape mutters quietly, as though he doesnât want to make a big issue but canât stop himself from speaking up. âWe should be learning more about how to kill them and less about the price of potion ingredients.â
Lily gasps from beside you and Sirius and James tense up at his words. Remus doesnât lift his head, but you absently notice how his grip tightens around his quill when Peter nervously turns to him. Peter isnât one for conflict and heâs always been nervous around this particular group of Slytherins, so youâre not surprised heâs anxious.
âWerewolves are still people, you canât just go around killing them!â you find your mouth moving on its own, before your brain can catch up. When Snape turns to direct his scowl at you, its matched by your own as well as Lilyâs disappointed frown. âThey didnât ask to be werewolves, they physically canât help it! How would you feel if people wanted to kill you for not being able to control being such an arse.â
âMiss Y/L/N,â Professor Marigold warns, setting her stern eyes on you. Youâre not one for disrupting lessons or getting into trouble, so when Remus turns around to look at you with a raised eyebrow, your cheeks start to warm and you stubbornly donât look his way again.
Snape ignores her to continue glaring at you. âI donât have the capacity to kill people in a feral rage now, do I?â His gaze flits from you to Lily and Marlene and then lingers on the boys. âOf course, youâre defending werewolves. Itâs no surprise considering who you choose to associate yourself with.â
âMr Snape.â
âYou have no need to fly into a feral rage to kill people,â you reply, voice steadily rising in volume. Sirius and James turn their heads back and forth like theyâre watching a tennis match and you know the only reason they havenât piped up to agree with you is because theyâre too entertained watching the way youâre about to jump out of your seat to pounce on Snape. âAll you need to do is show someone your face for them to die of frightââ
âENOUGH!â Professor Marigoldâs booming voice cuts through the laughter of everyone on the Gryffindor side of the classroom and when you turn to look at her, you see even Remusâ shoulders are shaking with silent laughter. Youâre not sure why this pleases you, but it doesnât last long enough for you to figure it out before Marigold waves her wand in the direction of the door and sends it flying open. âBoth of you will wait for me outside the classroom until the lesson has finished so I can discuss your appalling behaviour.â
You gape at her for a second, before relenting and grabbing your bag, not wanting to argue with her authority. Your friends have different ideas.
âThatâs not fair!â Marlene exclaims, standing up in protest. âShe didnât even do anything wrong.â
âYeah,â James agrees, also standing up. âSnapeâs the one who was being an annoying priââ
âSit down, everyone,â Marigold cuts him off, pursing her lips. âEveryone except Mr Snape and Miss Y/L/N. Do not even think about speaking Mr Black, or I wonât hesitate to suspend your and Mr Potterâs Quidditch privileges until further notice.â
Sirius shuts his mouth after a nudge from James and you shoot your friends a grateful smile before making your way out of the classroom, followed closely by Snape.
The door shuts behind him and you donât bother sparing him a glance before dumping your bag on the ground and leaning against a wall to focus your gaze on a suit of armour for the next five minutes. Youâre about half a minute in when you notice that one of the hands are slightly wonky and the classroom door suddenly opens.
Remus, of all people, enters the hallway to join the two of you and quickly shuts the door.
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask, furrowing your brows and getting up from against the wall.
âYeah, what are you doing here?â Snape sneers at him, and you give him a scathing look before turning to Remus for an answer.
Remus pointedly ignores him to stand next to you against the brick wall. âI just pointed out to Professor Marigold that you both have your wands and she may not have two students left out here by the end of the lesson.â
âI can defend myself,â you snort, folding your arms. You arenât sure if youâre annoyed that Remus is insinuating otherwise, or if youâre touched that he doesnât want you to be hexed into oblivion by Snape. âEspecially from him.â
âOh, I know,â Remus raises both hands in surrender as his tone becomes grave. âItâs not you Iâm worried about, trouble.â
âHa ha,â you deadpan, rolling your eyes at the nickname. He started it around a year ago when you got your first ever detention for helping Sirius and James Charm the Slytherin chairs to throw them off every time someone sat. Your friends had kept quiet about your involvement, but Peeves had spotted you, the nosy bastard. The nickname stemmed from the fact it was the first time you had ever gotten into trouble and it never failed to irritate you. âYou better be careful I donât hex you.â
âI wouldnât dream of annoying you,â he says, but the serious tone of voice is ruined by the way his lips are twitching in an attempt not to laugh at you. âAfter what happened when I said I didnât like that one Jane Austen book? Forget it.â
âHey, you insulted one of my favourite characters,â you point out, resting a hand on your hip. âWhat did Emma ever do to you? You had that hex coming.â
âI had pink hair for a week,â Remus narrows his eyes at you, but you can tell he isnât really angry. Although he refuses to admit it, you know for a fact he didnât hate the pink hair considering how good he looked with it. An annoying indiscretion on your part. Remus looks behind you for a split second before leaning in a little to whisper. âI wonât get in the way if you want to turn Snapeâs hair pink, though. Preferably a very bright shade of flaming, hot pink.â
At risk of your own cheeks flaming up from how close he is â really, whatâs the need? â you shake your head let your hair fall into your face. Almost having forgotten Snape is also there, you start when he scoffs (for what you think is the millionth time this afternoon) and you sigh before facing him begrudgingly. âWhat now?â
âCouldnât handle the content of todayâs lesson?â he asks, tiling his head. Youâre about to ask him what the hell heâs talking about before you realise, he isnât actually talking to you, but to the boy behind you.
âUhâŠâ you trail off, not sure how to respond. All three of you currently standing in the corridor know that Remus is smart enough to tackle any type of content, especially something as memorable and interesting as werewolves.
Remusâ amused demeanour has been wiped away and you canât determine his exact expression, but his voice is cold when he talks to you. âJust ignore him.â
âYou and your group of friends canât help themselves when it comes to defending strays and all sorts,â Snape continues, much to your confusion. âItâs not enough that youâre a group full of blood-traitors and mudbloodsâŠâ
Remus tenses up behind you and you find yourself frozen for a second.
The next thing you know, youâre lunging at the greasy-haired Slytherin with every intention of hurting his face with your fists, wand long forgotten. Your fingers barely brush his robes, however, when you feel yourself being hauled back by strong arms that wrap around your middle.
âLet go!â you snarl, enjoying the way Snape has backed away, eyes wide and worried. âDid you hear what he said? Remus, let me go.â
He doesnât relent, still holding onto you when he leans down to speak in your ear. âYouâve already gotten into trouble. Youâll get into a whole lot more when everyone walks out to see Snape with a black eye and you with bruised knuckles.â
âWorth it,â you grit out, still pulling away from his grip and throwing daggers with your eyes at Snape. After a few more seconds of pointless struggling, you relax very slightly just to turn in his arms so you can direct your next words to him more pointedly. âNot only is he a slimy, blood-supremacist twat, but he also wants to kill a poor bunch of werewolves. We should be throwing him into the bloody Black Lake!â
âI know, I-â Remus is cut off when the door opens and students start flooding into the corridor to provide a barrier between you and Snape, indicating the end of the lesson. Remus finally lets you go when he realises youâre in direct view of Professor Marigold who stands behind her desk, waiting for you. âI had no idea you were such an advocate for werewolves.â
Itâs the last thing you expected him to say and you immediately look up at him and frown. âAgain, theyâre people. They donât deserve to be victims of prejudice just as no one does.â He doesnât respond, staring at you with an unreadable expression and a hint of a smile. Your frown deepens in confusion. Was he⊠laughing at you? Especially after you had just gotten along. âIâm so glad you find me amusing,â you say, scowling and storming back into the classroom and away from Remus.
3. when he's too good for flower crowns.
âTell it again,â James insists, grin wide as ever plastered onto his face despite the withering look you send his way. âGetting a glimpse at even the possibility of Snivellus getting pummelled by Y/N would have made my entire year.â
âThe galleons Iâd give up to have been there,â Sirius releases a wistful sigh, closing his eyes as he lies down, facing the sun.
You hand him the daisy chain crown you just finished and he dutifully dons it. âIâll alert the Ministry of Magic to order in a time-turner for an issue of utmost urgency,â you say sarcastically as you start on the next daisy chain. Sirius merely winks at you.
âI think you shouldâve let her have at him, Remus,â Marlene states, unapologetic. You nod vehemently in agreement, a little too enthusiastically as you end up splitting a daisy down the middle.
Lily tuts, adjusting her own flower crown as it slips against her silky red hair. âIâm glad you didnât. Godric knows what Professor Marigold would have done,â she shudders at the thought, ever the diligent student.
âForget Marigold,â Peter chimes in. âImagine what Professor McGonagall would have done.â
You donât miss how he looks over his shoulder in case your head of house is taking a stroll along the grassy grounds.
âShe would have combusted when you called him an ugly arse,â Remus pipes in, unhelpfully might you add, from where he sits slightly away from the group under a tree, reading.
The comment sends Marlene, Sirius and Peter into a fit of laughter â James is too busy staring at the way the sun is making Lily look ethereal and sheâs too busy pretending not to notice while being secretly pleased. Doing a quick survey of your friends, you see everyone now has a flower crown except Remus. You make your way to the tree heâs resting against while the others chat, and sit yourself down with purpose.
Remus lowers his book very slightly to peer at you and your too-sweet smile. He raises a sceptical brow. âShould I be scared right now?â
You drop the fake smile and hold up your flower crown expectantly. âEveryone has one, but you.â
âHow observant,â he says, setting his book down to look at you in mock astonishment. âHave the Aurors at the Ministry caught wind of you yet?â
âDonât be a pain,â you groan, dropping it onto his open book. âI want everyone to wear one for the picture!â
Remus sighs, looking at the large camera over by your bag. You had saved up all summer to buy a magical camera to be able to take pictures of you and your friends in your final year at Hogwarts. The time you used your own muggle camera was a disaster of sparks and broken bits of plastic that took hours to mend. âI already agreed to your incessant picture-taking,â he reminds you, acting like itâs the most painful thing in the world. âThe flower crown is not happening.â
âFine, you miserable git,â you flick a handful of grass at him, sending him sputtering. âNow come and sit for the photo.â
You return to the group with Remus behind you and get everyone in position before hunting down someone to take the photo. Glancing around, you spot a close bunch of first-years and send Lily to use her Head Girl credentials (and warm and inviting personality, of course) to rope one of them into coming over.
âOkay, smile everyone,â you order, plopping down on the grass next to James. You elbow him in the ribs, not even having to look at him to know what heâs doing. âStop looking at Lily and look at the camera.â
With a couple of mutterings and some nudging, the nervous first-year Hufflepuff girl shakily takes the picture and hurriedly hands you the camera in the middle of the picture sliding out of it. James and Sirius go back to playing with a golden Snitch while Peter watches, while Remus returns to his book.
Lily looks at the picture and coos over how cute everyone looks at the same time as Marlene complaining about her hair. You impatiently take the picture back to slide it into your photo album and something catches your eye.
Sirius is making a peace sign behind Remusâ head. His head that wears a flower crown.
4. when he bleeds out on you.
Youâre not sure what time it is â either very late at night, or very early in the morning. You do know, however, that you want to finish your Herbology essay so you can enjoy tomorrow (or today) and cheer your friends on in the Gryffindor vs Ravenclaw Quidditch game. You only have the conclusion left and youâre confident itâll be done in the next ten minutes.
If you can find your damned quill, that is. You could have sworn you had it ten minutes ago, just before you snuck down to the kitchens to persuade the house-elves to give you the strongest cup of coffee they could make. You take a quick sip and grimace at the lukewarm temperature before setting it down and getting up to search. After turning every sofa cushion upside down, you go to crouch behind the sofa.
You hear the door to the common room being swung open and the hushed voices of the Marauders enter, but you donât take too much notice as you squint for your quill. It isnât unusual for the boys to be roaming around the castle at odd hours of the night, but a hiss of pain grabs your attention at the same time you spot the quill.
âCan you guys manage taking him up to the-â Sirius cuts himself off when your face pops up from behind the sofa. He freezes in his efforts to hold up Remus, who you notice is leaning on him and James and Merlinâs balls heâs covered in blood.
âWhat the fuck happened to him?â Your voice comes out weak as you walk over to the boys. Remus has deep, bleeding slashes over his chest and an assortment of little cuts on his face and hands. He seems barely able to keep his eyes open but when his gaze meets yours, he winces. He isnât the only one hurt and you realise Siriusâ arm is damp with blood and trembling, the same going for Jamesâ thigh. âWhat the fuck happened to all of you, oh my GodâŠ?â
âPeter, you were supposed to keep watch,â James hisses at the boy who looks like a deer in headlights. He looks a lot better than the others, with only a couple of small cuts scattered around his face and arms.
âShe was behind the sofa!â
Jamesâ leg buckles and you snap out of your state of shock to dart forward and keep him steady. âRight. Shit, okay,â you breathe out, holding off asking any questions to prevent anyone from bleeding out. âJames, Sirius, set Remus down on the sofa and take off his shirt. Peter, help these two up the stairs and go find a first-aid kit or something.â
âWeâve got a couple in the dorm,â Sirius says, summoning one of them down with a quick Accio and handing it to you. He hesitates for a second, probably unsure if he should stay and explain things, before deciding to turn in the direction of the stairs with James as Peter rushes to help them up. âLook after him, please. Weâll be right back, Moony.â
âTake your time, Iâve got him,â you utter, already fiddling with the first-aid box and trying to open it with shaky hands. Youâre no healer, but you know enough to panic when you see Remus has had his eyes closed for the last few seconds. âRemus, keep your eyes open!â
He groans, cracking one eye open to look at you. âIâm injured and bleeding out and you still manage to yell at me.â
âI wasnât yelling,â you frown, unscrewing the bottle of dittany and scrambling for the cotton pads. You try to avoid Remusâ gaze because you feel extremely silly about being more panicked than him when heâs the one with claw marks down his chest. âDonât move, or itâll hurt.â
While dabbing the liquid onto the deep gashes in an attempt to close them up, you ponder on the fact that he probably knows it hurts from experience. Youâre not completely clueless.
âWhat are you thinking?â Remus whispers in the stifling quiet of the common room, looking unsure.
You donât cease in your movements, changing cotton pad after cotton pad. It takes you a minute to muster up the courage to meet Remusâ gaze again and this time he looks more nervous than youâve ever seen him. âYouâre a werewolf, arenât you?â
Remus gives you an almost imperceptible nod, like he doesnât want to admit to it. You take a deep breath.
âWho else knows?â you ask calmly, as if youâre asking him about the weather.
âThe boys and Lily,â he admits, swallowing hard. âOh, and Snape.â
âSnape?â you exclaim, halting your dabbing to gawp at Remus. âIâm not saying you had to tell me or anything, but Snape?â
 Remus winces and you donât think it has anything to do with his injuries. âIn my defence he found out on his own and hates me for it,â he rushes out. âAnd itâs not that I didnât want to tell you⊠I-â
âItâs fine,â you cut him off, waving him off and wondering how good youâre hiding the fact youâre a little hurt. âYou didnât have to tell me.â
âNo, I wanted to. I did,â Remus insists, looking earnest. Thereâs something in his voice thatâs a little pained and desperate that has you meeting his eyes. âI just couldnât have dealt with it if you started looking at me differently. The boys and Lily sometimes do, yâknow? Like Iâm made of glass or something. Itâs refreshing whenever you scowl at me or call me an idiot or an arse or a stupid gi-â
âOkay,â you stop him, stifling a grin. âI get it!â
Remusâ eyes flash with relief for a second before you notice doubt start to creep in again. âYou donât need to hide it, by the way. I wonât hold it against you if⊠If youâre scared or disgusted, or-â
âWhat?â you cut him off again and scrunch your nose in confusion. âIâm not scared or disgusted. Why would you think that?â
âYouâve been a bit too calm,â he points out.
Rolling your eyes, you grab a bandage to start patching up the worst of the injuries before you move onto the minor cuts and bruises. âI didnât want you to think I was freaking out, or looking at you differently,â you quote his own words to him with a pointed look, making him smile again. âI donât, you know. Think of you any differently, I mean.â
His expression is unreadable as he just looks at you and you just look at him, bandage hovering over his chest before his fingers come up to brush the back of your hand. He lightly holds your hand, softly running his thumb over your knuckle as his voice drops to a whisper again. âThank you.â
You offer him a gentle smile, holding his gaze for a second longer before focusing on bandaging him up again. His hand drops to the side and you oddly find yourself missing his warmth. The large bandage adheres to his skin and you run your fingers along the sides to stick them down, feeling him shudder under your touch.
You quickly busy yourself with looking for more supplies in the kit to hide the way your own breathing has increased slightly. âHey, anyway, I almost walloped Snape right in the eye for you. If that wasnât any indication of my standing on werewolves, I donât know what is.â
âAh, my knight in shining armour,â Remus chuckles before breaking into a wheeze as the muscles of his injured abdomen contract. âFuck, donât make me laugh.â
âDonât laugh at me then!â
5. when youâre definitely not jealous⊠youâre not!
Three cups of coffee. Youâre on three cups of coffee. Itâs also the same number of hours youâve slept and by Godric can you feel it in every inch of your body as the muted chatter of the Great Hall buzzes around you. Your head is in your hands as you contemplate stealing some Polyjuice potion and bribing a first-year to take a dose with your hair in it so you can go to bed and they can pretend to watch the Quidditch match.
You knock back the last sip of coffee when you sense a presence sliding onto the bench in front of you. Groggily setting the cup down, you see that its Remus. It takes a second to remember why this is concerning.
âMorning, h- Wait, what the hell are you doing out of bed?â you hiss, leaning forward to avoid anyone listening in. You scan your eyes over his chest, two seconds away from ripping his shirt off to check his bandages. âHow are you even standing?â
âRelax, Florence Nightingale,â Remus says, rolling his eyes at your dramatics. He does his own quick sweep of the table and sees that most people are out in the Quidditch stands already, so he proceeds to pull the neckline of his shirt down slightly to reveal an already fading scar. No bleeding in sight. âI went to Madame Pomfrey with the boys this morning and she hurried up the process like she usually does. I feel achier than a 90-year-old woman with a metal hip, but the brunt of it is gone and Pads and Prongs are good as new.â
âOkay,â you say slowly, narrowing your eyes slightly. âIf youâre sure you can sit out in the standsâŠâ
âI can once Iâve consumed every cup of tea on the premises,â he says, reaching for the teapot. An annoyingly smug smirk starts to appear on his face while he pours. âWhat, are you worried about me, trouble?â
You scowl instantly. âNo, I just donât want you collapsing on me in the Quidditch stands while Iâm cheering the boys on.â
âRight.â He hides his grin behind his cup of tea.
âHey,â you mumble, nodding to Patricia Holloway who looks like sheâs making a beeline to your table. More specifically, towards Remus. âBright and cheery Hufflepuff incoming.â
âMerlin, itâs too early for this,â Remus whispers, taking another sip of tea before his face breaks out into a charming smile directed at the girl who slides into the empty seat next to him. âMorning, Patricia.â
âYou look good today, Remus,â Patricia rests her elbow on the table and tilts her head to look at him with simpering eyes. Itâs no secret Remus is good-looking and youâve heard a million girls talk about him before. Youâve never seen any of them approach him yourself, though. You canât say you enjoy it. âAre you⊠okay, Y/N?â
You didnât realise you were scowling until she addresses you and you rapidly smooth out your expression, clearing your throat. Remus looks amused, which makes it harder to keep the scowl off your face. âFine! Iâm fine, just a bit confused since Remus looks half asleep,â you attempt a laugh through gritted teeth and are spurred on when Remus is actively trying to fight a grin. âAnd his hair currently makes him look like heâs been dragged through the Forbidden Forest.â
He canât stop himself snorting at that, but Patricia just looks confused as though unsure how to react. She settles on a nervous little laugh, turning back to him. âI can fix that for you, here,â she says, scooting closer and starts to run her hands through Remusâ hair. You poke your cheek with your tongue, marvelling at how bold sheâs being and how Remus is just sat there, still looking amused as ever. âThere, what do you think?â
âA hairbrush couldnât have done a better job,â you deadpan, softening your expression slightly when Patricia begins to look a little disconcerted. âYou keep doing that, Iâm going to head off to the Quidditch field.â
You all but storm out of the Great Hall, exhaustion having left you completely. Itâs replaced by a newfound whirl of irritation that pools in your stomach and creeps up your throat, making you feel a little sick. It must be the coffee, you think, and youâre trying to remember if the beverage has ever made you experience this when all of a sudden thereâs a hand circling your wrist.
âStop, Y/N,â Remus says, a little breathless. You didnât realise heâd run out after you and you feel bad about his injuries before your gaze snags on his newly tousled hair. âGodric, you walk fast.â
âI didnât ask you to catch up to me,â you snap, purposely scowling this time. The cheeky bastard still looks amused and your irritation is growing faster than ever. âBesides, the match doesnât start for another fifteen minutes. Plenty of time for Patricia to give you a whole new hairdo. Maybe she can give you plaits orâ Why are you laughing.â
âYouâre jealous,â he exhales with a smile, sounding positively delighted. Any feelings of concern have disappeared and are being rapidly replaced with wanting to thwack him upside the head. âOh my God, you really are jealous.â
âJealous, my arse,â you scoff, turning your back to him with every intention of speed walking out of the castle. His long legs keep up with you easily and he rushes in front of you to stop you going anywhere. You glare at him. âLeave me alone, Lupin.â
âNot until you admit that youâre jealous.â Remus is positively giddy with glee and you feel a flush of heat crawling up your neck. You set your jaw stubbornly and heâs incredulous as he shakes his head. âMerlin, you really have to argue with me on everything donât you? I donât care about Patricia Holloway and Iâm glad youâre jealous. Means youâre less likely to break my nose when I kiss you.â
You barely get the chance to make an incoherent noise when Remus grabs you by the waist and presses his lips against yours, kissing you like he isnât prepared to let you go anytime soon. His mouth slides hot and wet against your own and you gasp into the kiss when he nips lightly at your lip, your hands coming up to slide into his hair, making it unruly all over again.
Remus is the first to break apart, too soon, and you physically restrain yourself from chasing after his lips. He pulls back slightly, breathing fast to look into your eyes, searching for the answer youâre unable to speak yet.
âYou⊠uh, I-IâmâŠâ you trail off, dazed and breathless and head swirling with every emotion under the sun.
Remus laughs, pulling you impossibly close and leaving a soft kiss on your jaw, which doesnât help your current speech issues. âIf I knew that was all it took to shut you up, Iâd have kissed you years ago.â
âWha-!â You slap his arm, snapping out of the haze. You hide your current uncertainty behind a glare. It hit you like a ton of bricks, but you realised about five seconds into the kiss that you wanted Remus Lupin in every way, shape and form. Youâre more than a little terrified, so what better defence mechanism than anger? âWhy did you actually kiss me, you prick?â
âYou are the densest, most clueless,â Remus begins, pausing to kiss you lightly a couple times when you start to scowl. âMost stubborn and most beautiful little witch Iâve ever known. And if you havenât figured out after almost seven years that I love you, then Iâm afraid we might have to admit you to St Mungoâs, because really-â
âStop,â you whisper, lifting a finger to press against his lips, effectively silencing him. âYou love me? You actually, seriously love me?â
He rolls his eyes and nods, like itâs obvious or something. You huff. âThen why have you been such an annoying pain in my bloody arse, Remus Lupin?!â
âBecause,â he says, the word coming out muffled and you hastily remove your finger. âIt was a good way to keep your attention. Plus, I like when youâre angry. Itâs cute.â
You scowl without thinking and his smile impossibly widens.
âSee?â
âShut up and kiss me again,â you say dryly, pulling him in by the collar to give him a short, searing kiss. âOh, and I guess I love you too.â
âSo, no broken noses in my future?â Remus asks hopefully, softly sliding his nose against yours.
âNo promises.â
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he drives me crazy, itâs so beyond me đŠč LN4
PAIRINGS: lando norris x fewtrell!reader
SUMMARY: youâve been hating on lando for a very long time now, since you were kids to be exact. only to realize that those hatred is only a mask for what you truly feel for him.
AUTHORâS NOTE: iâve been on a slump lately, have so many works unfinished but i donât really have the drive to finish them lol but my break from uni is near, so maybe iâll get the motivation to finish all of it. for the meantime, hope youâll enjoy this one! :)
REMINDER: this is purely fiction, the way how the character is portrayed in my story does not reflect the person that is portraying my character in real life. always separate fiction from reality, and do not repost or copy my work in any way.
WORD COUNT: 3.3k
WARNINGS: typos, cursing, and playboy lando
Growing up being Maxâs younger sister meant that you were always surrounded by his friends, and none of them irritated you more than Lando Norris. From the very beginning, something about Lando rubbed you off the wrong way. Though you had never understood why, there was somethingâan inexplicable annoyance that only grew stronger with time.
As kids, you tolerated him, well mainly because Max adored him and that they are racing karts together. You canât just tell Max to stay away from Lando for no apparent reason, that would make look like an absolute ass. But as you all grew up, Landoâs behavior began to infuriate you even more, and it just got worse when he got to F1. He began dating girls and moving on as quickly as the seasons changed, never seeming to care about the trail of broken hearts he left behind. It wasnât just his carefree attitude towards relationships or life in general; it was the way he would tease you every fucking chance he gets. If you tripped over a pebble or on air, heâd make a joke about it. Making fun of every little thing that he would notice about you. You just couldnât stand it, and you couldnât stand him and his whole existence.
But somewhere along the line, something strange started to happen. With all the teasing and eye rolls, you found yourself paying a little too much attention to him. Too much for your liking. It was almost as if you were noticing the first time how his aquamarine eyes sparkled everytime he laughed, or how his curly hair seemed to suit him perfectly. It made you madâso fucking mad that you wanted to scream. How could you, of all people, start to like Lando Norris? Your public enemy number one.
Then the realization hit you like a shit ton of bricks. You were developing a massive crush on the one person you were supposed to hate. Surprised by the sudden realization, and you being you, instead of acknowledging it, you decided to bury it deep down, covering it with even more layers of loathing. If he said something stupid, which he always does, youâd snap back at him twice as hard. If he smiled that cocky grin, youâd glare daggers at him. But inside, your heart would be pounding, and it drove you crazy. Itâs pretty much a fucking miracle that you have been able to stay sane.
One day, after a particularly annoying comment from Lando about your choice of outfit, you finally snapped. âYou know, Lando, if I wanted your opinion, Iâd ask for it. But I didnât, so why donât you just keep your mouth shut for once?â Then you rolled his eyes at him. Youâre going out today, you donât need this kind of negativity. âBesides, donât you have your own fucking house? Why are you even here?â
Lando grinned, clearly enjoying how riled up you were. âIâm just saying, those shoes look like something a hobo would wear.â
You groaned in frustration. âGod, youâre such an asshole, Norris! Do you ever stop to think before you speak?â
âWhereâs the fun in that?â He shot back, winking at you.
You felt your cheeks flush, and not from anger. You wanted to punch him, but at the same time, there was this insane urge to grab him by the collar and kiss him just to shut him up. But instead, you turned on your heel and stormed out of the room, muttering under your breath about how he was the most annoying person on the planet.
But then there were those moments when you saw the other side of Lando, the one that made your heart ache in a way you couldnât even fucking explain. Like the time when he won his first race in Miami. The whole crowd erupted in cheers, everyone was celebrating his win and you found yourself smiling as he won his first race, a huge smile on his face as he celebrated. Your first instinct was to run up to him and give him a hug and tell him how proud you were. But then, almost immediately, you wanted to wrap your hands around his neck for making you feel this way. He had a unique talent for pushing all your buttons, and yet, no one could make you feel the way he did.
After the race, you all went out to celebrate, and as usual, Lando couldnât resist teasing you. âCome on, admit it, you were impressed, werenât you?â
You rolled your eyes, but couldnât stop the small smile from tugging at the corners of your lips. âYou were okay, I guess,â you said nonchalantly.
âOkay? Just okay?â Lando feigned hurt, clutching his chest dramatically. âI expected more from my biggest hater.â
âWell, donât expect me to start fangirling over you now,â you shot back, though your heart wasnât really in it.
Lando just playfully winked at you, and excused himself, walking away and waving at someone else. You couldnât help but wonder what it would be like to admit it. To finally confess that maybe the reason why you hated Lando so much was because you love him in a way that no one else could. But you quickly dismissed that thought, shaking your head. There was no way youâd ever let him know how much he affected you. Not when he had the power to break your heart with a single word.
As the night went on, you couldnât help but steal glances at him. He was the center of attention, as always, and yet, for a moment, his eyes caught yours, and he smiled. Not a teasing grin that he would always send your way, but a genuine, warm smile. It made your stomach do flips, and you quickly looked away, mentally cursing yourself for being so weak.
In the middle of the night, you found yourself lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, replaying the dayâs events in your mind. You hated how he could get under your skin so easily, how he made you feel things you didnât want to feel. It was maddening, infuriating, it drives you nuts, and yetâŠyou couldnât stop thinking about him. How was it possible to love and hate someone so much at the same time? You didnât know. You donât have an answer for the lingering questions in your mind and it drove you crazy.
âWhy him?â You whispered to yourself that night, lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. âOut of all the fucking people in the world, why does it have to be him?â
You knew Lando could be a major asshole, but somehow, he was your asshole. No one else could make you feel this crazy mix of anger, frustration, and affection all at once, and despite all the annoyance, deep down, you knew you loved him. It made you mad, and yet, in some twisted way, it also made sense. No one else could make your heart race like Lando did, that can make you feel so alive, so frustrated, so utterly confusedâand most importantly, no else could break your heart like Lando Norris, and you were beginning to think that maybe, you didnât want anyone else to.
It has been three months since Landoâs first win, but the tension between the two of you hadnât eased. In fact, it felt like it was growing stronger, pulling you into a confusing spiral of emotions. It was one of those days that you were grateful enough that you were back in uni, and have to forget about him even for a short period of time.
Though it didnât last long, you canât stay and hide in uni forever. So here you were, officially back home for a break, and you decided to stay at Maxâs for the time being. Prior to arriving from uni, Max had already asked you if you wanted to come with them on their holiday trip, but you passed on it, making up some silly excuse and wanting to get the rest you need since you havenât had the proper rest back when you were in uni. You wanted to avoid being in the same place with him as much as possible, you definitely donât trust yourself to keep up the charade of hating him when your heart was screaming the exact opposite.
It was when theyâre already back from their trip, and as usual, Lando is at Maxâs place. You found yourself in exactly in the situation youâd been dreading. Max had invited Lando over to help him with something, and you figured you could just stay in your room, far away from the inevitable teasing from him. But when Max suddenly had to leave to deal with some urgent matter, you were stuck. It was just you and Lando, alone in the living room, with a show neither of you cared about playing in the background.
Lando being Lando, of course he wasted no time in getting into your nerves. âSo, how long are you planning to hide up there?â He asked, his tone annoyingly casual as he sprawled out on the couch.
âI was not hiding,â you retorted, focusing on your phone and pretending he wasnât there.
âSure, youâre not,â he said with a smirk. âYouâve been acting pretty weird lately. You didnât even come to the trip that we invited you on. Is everything alright?â
You nearly choked on your words. How could you even begin to explain what was wrongâthat you were utterly terrified of how much you liked him? That every time he teased you, your heart skipped a beat instead of fuming with anger? That you couldnât fucking stop thinking about what it would be like to kiss him.
âEverythingâs fine,â you lied, hoping he couldnât see the turmoil behind your eyes. God, you just wanted for this conversation to end or better yet, wishing for the ground to swallow you whole right then and there.
âUh-huh,â Lando said, clearly unconvinced. He leaned forward, narrowing his eyes. âYouâre a terrible liar, you know that?â
Your heart thudded painfully in your chest. âOh my god, why do you even care?â You shot back defensively. âYouâre just here to annoy me, right? So why donât you just go call someone and bother them instead?â
Landoâs smirk faded slightly, and he studied you with an intensity that made you uncomfortable. âYou think I just want to annoy you?â
âYes!â You exclaimed, frustrated by his persistent questioning. âThatâs what youâve always done ever since, isnât it?â
Lando shook his head, looking more serious than youâd ever seen him. âNo. Not really.â
The shift in his demeanor threw you off balance. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
He hesitated, running a hand through his beautiful curly hair that you want to touch so badly. âIt means that maybe I didnât just do it to annoy you. Maybe there was another reason.â
You blinked, your mind racing to keep up. âWhat reason?â
Lando sighed, leaning back on the couch and staring at the ceiling. âGod, this is harder than I thought,â he muttered to himself before finally looking at you. âLook, Iâve known you since forever. Yeah, I used to tease you because you were Maxâs younger sister and it was fun. But somewhere along the way, it wasnât just about teasing anymore. I think I did it becauseâŠI didnât know how else to get your attention.â
Your breath caught in your throat. âWhat are you saying, Lando?â
âIâm saying that maybe Iâve had a crush on you for a while now,â he admitted, his voice quieter than usual. âAnd Iâve been acting like an idiot because to be fairly honest, I didnât know how to deal with it.â
You stared at him in utter shock, your brain struggling to process what heâd just said. All this time, you thought your feelings were unrequited, that he was just being his usual annoying self, but now, everything was different. The anger, the frustration, the confusionâit all made sense now.
âIâŠI donât know what to say,â you whispered, still reeling from his confession. âHonestly.â
Lando smiled softly, a hint of nervousness in his expression. âYou donât have to say anything, I just want you to know. I get it if you donât feel the same way, or if youâre too mad at me for being a jerk all these years. But I wanted to be completely honest with you for once.â
The room was silent for a moment, the air thick with tension and unspoken words. You took a deep breath, trying to steady your racing heart. âLando, Iââ
But before you could finish, Lando suddenly stood up, crossing the room in a few quick strides. âYou know what? I canât fucking take it anymore.â And with that, he grabbed your face in his hands and kissed you, pulling you into a kiss that was both urgent and tender at the same time.
For a split second, you were too shocked to respond. But then, your body seemed to take over, and you found yourself kissing back, all the frustration and anger melting away in the warmth of his embrace. It felt like everything youâd been holding back, all the mixed emotions youâd been burying, finally broke free. When Lando finally pulled back, you were both breathless, staring at each other in stunned silence.
âWhy did you do that?â You asked, your voice shaky.
âBecause Iâve wanting to do it for a long fucking time,â Lando admitted, his thumb gently brushing your cheek. âAnd because I couldnât stand the thought of you hating me for real.â
You shook your head, a small smile tugging at your lips. âI donât hate you, Lando. IâŠI think I might be falling for you, and itâs terrifying to tell you honestly.â
Lando grinned, his usual cocky demeanor returning. âWell, thatâs a relief. Because Iâm pretty sure Iâm falling for you too.â
You couldnât help but laugh, the tension between you dissolving into something warmer, something that felt a lot like hope.
âYouâre still an asshole, though.â
âAnd youâre still a pain in the ass,â Lando shot back, his grin widening.
This time, there was no venom behind your words, no hidden frustration like it was used to. Instead, there was a new understanding between youâa mutual acknowledgment that maybe the thing youâd both been fighting against all these years was exactly what you needed. When Lando leaned in to kiss you again, you realized that no one else could make your heart race like he did, and no one else could make you as crazy or as happy.
However, Landoâs confession and that unexpected kiss did leave you feeling more confused as ever. As much as you wanted to believe in the moment, in the warmth of his touch and softness of his lips, a familiar fear gnawed at the back of your mind. After all, this is Lando Norris that youâre talking aboutâthe guy who seemed to switch girlfriends at lightning speed. Youâd seen him charm his way through countless girls, only to move on without any second thought. The idea of being just another name on his list made your chest tighten with fear and anxiety.
As you sat still, still close enough to feel the heat radiating from his body, Lando looked at you with a hopeful expression, waiting for you to say something. But instead of responding with the excitement that was bubbling up inside you, all you could think about were the stories, the rumors, and the heartbreaks youâd witnessed.
âLando,â you began, moving away slightly, creating a small but significant distance between you and him on the couch. âI donât know if this is a good idea.â
âWhy not?â His smile faltered, concern creeping into his eyes.
You bit your lip, trying to find the right words that wonât hurt him. âBecauseâŠâ you trailed off, âI know you, Lando. I know your way with girls. Yes, I canât deny the fact that youâre very charming and sweet when you want to be, but the way you get bored and move on quickly scares me. IâŠI donât think I can handle being just another girl you get tired of.â You breathed out.
Landoâs expression softened, and he reached out to take your hand, but you hesitated. He noticed this right away and dropped his hand to his side.
âI get why youâd think that. I havenât exactly been the most reliable guy when it comes to relationships, am I?â You nodded and he chuckled, âbut thisâŠthis is different.â
âIs it?â You asked, your voice barely above a whisper. âOr are you just saying that because Iâm here and itâs convenient?â
Lando shook his head, gaze so intense that you might melt and turn into a puddle any second. âItâs not like that, I promise. I know Iâve messed up before, but Iâve never felt this way about anyone. Youâre not just another girl, and Iâm not just saying that. Iâm really serious about you.â
You wanted to believe him, you really did. But the fear of getting your heart broken, of being left behind like so many others, made it hard to fully trust his words.
âBut what if you get bored? What if this is just a phase for you, and once youâve had your fun, you move on to someone else?â
He looked at you with an earnestness that you werenât used to seeing him. âI canât blame you for being scared. But the truth is, Iâm scared too. Iâm scared because Iâve never wanted someone so much, something to work out this badly. I donât want to mess this up. I know I have a reputation, but I donât want that to be who I am with you. I want to be betterâfor you.â
You stared at him, your heart warring with your head. Could he really mean what he was saying? Was it possible that he could change, that you could be the one he was serious about? But even as the doubts swirled around you, there was a part of you that desperately wanted to take the leap, to believe that maybe this could be different.
âI donât know if I can handle getting hurt,â you admitted, your voice trembling slightly. âI donât know if Iâm strong enough for that.â
Lando took a deep breath, his expression sincere. âI canât promise that Iâll be perfect, but I can promise that Iâll try my best not to hurt you.â He said, tucking a few strands of your hair behind your ear, âI care about you too much to let that happen. But if you donât want to take the risk, Iâll understand. Iâll back off if thatâs what you want.â
You could see the honesty in his eyes, the vulnerability he rarely showed. It made your heart ache, knowing that he was giving you the power to decide where this would go. It would be easy to walk away, to protect yourself from the possibility of pain. But then again, what if he was telling the truth, what if this was real.
âNo, I donât want you to back off,â you finally said, your voice steady despite the nerves twisting in your stomach. âBut I need time, Lando. I need to see that youâre serious before I can let myself fall for you completely.â
Lando nodded, relief washing over his face. âIâll give you all the time you need. Iâm not going anywhere.â
You smiled, feeling a bit of the tension ease, though the uncertainty still lingered. âGood. Because Iâm not sure I could handle it if you did.â
As the two of you sat side by side on the couch, the show was still playing in the background, the atmosphere between you had shifted. There was no rush, no need to force anything. It was just the two of you, slowly navigating the complicated mess of emotions that came with falling for someone who scared you as much as they made you feel alive, and maybe that this was the start of something real.
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uhmm i haven't been seeing a lot of discussion about till aside from his relationships with other competitors and i think it's something that must be addressed because i think among the competitors he's the anomaly.
unlike his peers, Till is nothing special. Ivan is beautiful and talented and so is Mizi, and they're both treated as valuable things by their alien owners because of it. You can see this in the way Ivan's constantly surrounded by attention and food and Mizi's pampered lifestyle pre-alien stage.
but then you get to Till and he's literally just strapped to a medical table. Mizi and Ivan's "foster family" treat them with some degree of humanity, even if it's in the way that humans now treat their beloved house cats. If that's the case, Till's treated as a mildly interesting lab rat.
His owners go lengths to further dehumanize him, and you can see that from the way he's so often muzzled when no one else is. They also quite literally brand him !!
This type of dehumanization in my opinion is also something that contributes to Till's aggressive behavior, because he is constantly in the circumstances that force him to do so.
Till is neither too attractive or too talented at singing, and I'm pretty sure he knows this --- that's why he relied so heavily on the element of gruesome surprise during his first round.
It's also worth mentioning that his unhealthy attachment to the idea of Mizi as some kind of saving grace also reflects on his own perception of himself, as some sinner in need of saving. Whenever he imagines Mizi in the Round 6 video, he is someone tainted in the colors of his captors (red) and sweaty, whereas Mizi is bright and glowing.
He didn't expect to live past round 6, I think that's made pretty clear. His expression isn't one of someone who expects to live (especially when Mizi is now either dead or gone). His expression is of someone defeated.
Another thing about Till is that he felt alone. Ivan loves him, we knows this, but Till doesn't. The few instances we see through Ivan's eyes, his kindness towards Till is either from somewhere Till can't see or when he's unconscious. The only time we see them interact where Till is aware of what's going on is when they're fighting as kids, and their one escape attempt.
As far as I know, Till has nothing to go off of in recent times. The only time that he's touched is by alien captors and scientists, both who see him as less than human. It's easy to be beat down and dehumanized when there is no one around you to humanize you.
No other competitor, from what we've seen, is treated as awfully as Till is treated. His idealization of Mizi stems from delusion, and there is no indication to him now that his ex-best friend Ivan still gives a shit about him.
That changes after the 6th Round though, and Till is so well set up to be a character who gets his entire worldview shattered, with Ivan's final show of affection and Mizi's disconnect from the one he has in his head (symbolized by her cut hair).
Till, a hotheaded human who is nothing special but lived on until the final round through the idealization of one competitor and the sacrifice of another ... the silliest of all time
#this is all rambling but erm.... till my beloved#till alien stage#alien stage till#alien stage round 6#ivantill#mizitill#alien stage#luolies#alien stage ivan#alien stage mizi
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