#NeverEnough

[tinybutterfly00]

Dzisiejszy bilans: 196 kcal

Kochana ... czy ty aby na pewno wiesz co oznacza PERFEKCJA? To chodź i posłuchaj. Nie oczekuj od nikogo pocieszenia, pochwały, ani żadnego innego słowa uznania - nie postarałaś się wystarczająco. Chciałaś być w centrum uwagi? Teraz każdy cię obserwuje. Ty NIE MOŻESZ zawieść. Jeśli ty upadniesz, to zawiedziesz samą siebie i wszyscy będą obserwować twoją gorzką porażkę. Ty nie możesz być taka jak inni. Ty musisz być LEPSZA od nich. Wynik dobry nie jest wystarczający. On musi być najlepszy. Zabrakło ci znowu tych kilku procent do perfekcyjnego wyniku? PORAŻKA ... stać cię na więcej. Zabrakło tych kilku kilogramów do twojej wymarzonej wagi? Zabrakło ci siły? OGARNIJ SIĘ!!! Nie starasz się wystarczająco! Ludzie mówią ci, że cię podziwiają. Ale ty nadal masz przeczucie, że mogłabyś robić więcej, a każda wolne minuta to strata czasu. Jesteś zmęczona?? Nikogo to nie obchodzi skarbie, nikt nie osiągnie sukcesu za ciebie. Masz ochotę się rozpłakać czasami? To nic nie pomoże. WYŁĄCZ wszystko co czujesz, bądź bezlitosna i rób to co do ciebie należy. Chcesz być lepsza? To wykorzystaj każdą minutę na zrobienie czegoś, co ma jakąś wartość. Tylko ci się zdaje, że potrzebujesz odpoczynku.

[nxnazenxksblog]

Never Enough.

Summary: In which Lo’ak is born as Sylwanin instead. Sylwanin goes through the process of being shunned by her family after Neteyam’s death.

Sylwanin never realized how much blood a body can hold until her hands were drenched in it.

It would have hurt less if it was her blood that she was covered in but it was Neteyam's. Her Neteyam, her big brother, her protector for as long as she could remember. And now he was dead. Because of her. Sylwanin was feeling overwhelmed with guilt and grief as she tried to make sense of what had happened.

A week had passed since they had sent Neteyam's dead body back to Eywa.

Sylwanin couldn't shake off the feeling of emptiness that seemed to engulf her heart. The reality of the situation never seemed to fully register in her mind as she struggled with thoughts of what could have been done differently. She couldn't help but feel like she had failed her brother in his time of need.

It was her fault. Her fault that Neteyam had died. Her fault that she was still alive when he wasn't. Her fault that her family was suffering. She couldn't get that night out of her mind. The gut-wrenching screams of her mother as she watched the life drain out of her firstborn's eyes.The complete look of defeat on her father's face. The horror in Tuk's eyes and the quiet sobs of Ki'ri. Her fucking fault.

She hadn't realized how much Neteyam meant to her until he was gone. She had always felt like the black sheep of the family but she never felt unwanted when she had her older brother by her side. Now, her life felt like a bottomless void. She couldn't escape the suffocating feeling of guilt and remorse that had taken residence in her mind.

Neytiri would look away from her when she saw her. Jake would do his best to avoid her existence and the moment he did look at her, she could see the contempt and sadness in her eyes. Ki'ri wouldn't speak to her. Tuk was the only one who tried to be there but her family didn't let the little girl spend more than fifteen minutes alone with her. Sylwanin felt like no matter how much she apologized, it would never be enough to make up for the loss of Neteyam.

Now that Sylwanin realized it, it was always Neteyam.

She was never the daddy's girl. Jake never called her sweetheart or baby girl like he called Ki'ri and Tuk. He didn't have the softness for her that he had for his other two daughters. Neytiri would always be busy with her duties as the future Tsahik, helping Ki'ri with her connection to Eywa and raising Tuk to ever focus on her. Ki'ri was her sister, her friend but even she preferred Spider over her. Sylwanin couldn't help but feel like she was the extra one in her family, that she didn't belong.

But Neteyam made her feel like she mattered. He would always make time for her, no matter how busy he was with his warrior training or out on patrols. He would listen to her, encourage her and defend her, and take the blame for her recklessness. Sylwanin's relationship with Neteyam went beyond just being siblings; he was her protector, confidant, and best friend.

"Are you a daddy's girl or a mommy's girl?"

Tarsem had once asked her that question during one of their late-night conversations, and Sylwanin had scoffed at it. She was only 11 at that time but the answer was very clear.

"I'm a Neteyam's girl"

And now Neteyam was dead. All because Sylwanin couldn't listen. Sylwanin didn't realize she was having a panic attack. She felt a lump forming in her throat, making it hard to breathe. She tried to calm herself down, but the guilt was overwhelming As Sylwanin grapples with the overwhelming guilt and remorse over her brother Neteyam's death, she finds herself struggling to cope with the loss and the strained relationships within her family.

Strong arms wrap around her and she is pulled into someone's chest. Neteyam is the first thought that comes to her mind but Neteyam is dead. "Calm" A gentle but hoarse voice whispers. Aonung. It was Aonung. "Calm" he whispered again, drawing circles on her back. After a few minutes, Sylwanin's breathing starts to slow down and her heart rate begins to ease. Aonung didn't rush her. He stayed silent, holding her tight. "It's alright. Take your time," he whispered, and Sylwanin felt a sense of comfort wash over her.

Sylwanin thought that despite their initial differences and arguments, Aonung in a sense is like Neteyam. Both the eldest children of the Olo'eyktan shared a responsibility to protect their younger siblings and the clan. The difference was that Tsireya was an angel and Sylwanin was the murderer of her older brother. "My mother says that death is not the end of life. It's simply a transition to another realm. We must honor our departed loved ones by remembering them, their teachings, and how they lived. In this way, they live on in our hearts and memories." Aonung smiled at her as she pulled away.

Sylwanin stayed quiet. They wouldn't understand. Not even if she talked about it a hundred times, they wouldn't understand. They wouldn't understand the ache in her heart. The hollow soul inside her. They would never understand.

[cripplingmind]

I’m currently watching my best friend and roommate being chased after two men who I used to see last year. They are showing her more effort than I was ever given. It’s not her fault, but I can’t help but wonder why I wasn’t worth it. Why i didn’t get that. 

Will I ever be enough?

[eddievillanueva]

“Everything I want to do always takes longer than I think” 3/17/23 - #timemanagement #adhd #overwhelmed #toomuch #neverenough #executivefunction #478 #breathe #breathing #breathingexercises #drawing #sketchbook #drawingoftheday #photooftheday #sketchoftheday #artistofinstagram #collage #coloredpencil #ink #inkdrawing #art #artwork #artschool #artistlife #radicalhonesty #watercolor #markers #alcoholmarkers #rainbow #8bit https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp5e_vxLehm/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[abdullah-aytekin]

🏀 🏆🏆 🏀 🏀 We have new fans in House of Blue. Dear Çınar and Defne you are most welcome. They are child of my dearest Glass Artwork Master @nesrinhandcraft Hope you will enjoy the game while we beating @bczalgiriskaunas 🏀 🏀 🏆🏆 🏀 🏀 🏆🏆 #BackToBack #BenimYerimBurası #HouseOfBlue #KupanınYeriBurası #BackToBack #Back2Back #F4Glory #GucunuGoster #NeverEnough #GameON @euroleague #EuroLeague #TurkishAirlinesEuroLeague @anadoluefessk @bczalgiriskaunas (at Sinan Erdem Dome) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoIKyrTL6O9k9WG_tyK5qlHvelHdIjJg4PyS5A0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[roysexton]

This face tho. 🥹 #neverenough #dogsofinstagram #dogs #dogstagram #dogslife #dogsofinsta (at Saline, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp1TOqANwNz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[daletraeng]

Check out the lyrics for the song “Never Enough” by O Rei do Show

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[a-piano]

Never Enough - Loren Allred 【鋼琴 Piano】The Greatest Showman 中英字幕

[alivictorious]

ALI VICTORIOUS - NEVER ENOUGH (PROD. SACGEE)

(IN STUDIO PERFORMANCE @ PAKCITY STUDIO)

[ianfulgar]

How long is a lifetime? #neverenough #nothingisordinary #finally

[childgolden]

Cristina Vee-“Never Enough” (The Greatest Showman cover)

[inlivingwritenow]

taking a study break in order for my mind to let go of all things that are occupying it other than my final material 🫠 and what a perfect escape..love this song, love grent and this cover 👌🏽

[beladonnadarkness]

Never enough...

Never enough time in the day. I am sitting here knowing I need to go to bed but I don't I simply sit and wait and stare at the screen. Typing away random things and then to make matters worse I know I need to be up in the morning and I know I will endlessly scroll TikTok when I do eventually decide to head to bed.

Bleugh.... years and years of scrolling and typing.